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Hiii I needed to hop back on to say s4 was dogshit
#it’s pretty much been said by like. everyone LMAO#the plot was weirdly inconsistent#too many plot holes and unanswered questions#s1 and s4 feel like COMPLETELY different shows#Blackman is still adding nonsensical plot points for the sake of plot convenience#do not even get me started on five and Lila LOL but that’s been covered very well#I love how everyone hates it#nothing made sense#five and Lila genuinely made me feel a little nauseous lol#my stomach lurches every time I remember the writers did. that#I kept pausing the episodes during their scenes to collect myself LMAO#it was so hard to watch#anyways how are yall doing 🫶🏾#the umbrella academy#tua spoilers#tua s4 spoilers#tua
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BUMP, SET, SPIKE!
genre : flufff | pairing : miles42 x volleyball player!black fem reader
authors note : i cringed writing the title goodbye 😭 hate it when people say that it makes my toes curl and not in a good way.. anyways got a fic based off these hcs coming tmrw 🙏🏾🙏🏾
miles morales who is at ALL of your games, always sitting in the student section or just anywhere you can see him when you look in the stand
miles morales who memorizes all of your cheers. he doesn’t do them during the games obviously but he thinks its cool how yall are so in sync when you do them
miles morales who comes to the gym with you and shags your balls
miles morales who is absolutely terrified of you when you get a kill, especially when he can hear your hand slapping the ball
miles morales who takes pictures of you playing all the time, #prophotographer
miles morales who complains about the shitty calls the refs made after the game when the two of you are cuddling up
miles morales who can be seen walking back and forth from the concession stand to the game because those chick fil a sandwiches be hittin the spot
miles morales who argues with his girlfriend about wearing basketball shoes for volleyball saying that “ball shoes were made for ball”
miles morales who stops talking when you remind him that basketball and volleyball are played on the same court and have the same dynamic movements
miles morales who loves watching his girlfriend practice and play the sport she loves 🫶🏾
@ nokkihy , all rights reserved
#miles morales#across the spiderverse#spiderman#miles morales x reader#miles morales x y/n#miles g morales#miles gonzalo morales#miles morales fluff#prowler miles#1610 miles x reader#miles morales fanfiction#earth 42 miles morales x reader#miles morales prowler#black reader
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Astro Observations/Opinions (Tropical Edition🫶🏾🫶🏾)
Hello Guys! Since I have done a vedic edition observations, I now want to do a tropical astrology one. I apologize if I confused anyone with my vedic one, i’m not too well versed in it buttt I AM WELL VERSED IN tropical astrology though hehe😈
These are my opinions/observations so LOVE IT OR HATE IT😋😗
Anyways let’s get started
1. Scorpio moons at their worst are FUCKING CRAZY. like extremely obsessive, extremely closed and narcissistic and just overall painful to be around. y’all can lowkey suck the life out of everyone lol likeeeeeee no joke. I have met many scorpio moons that are hella abusive but I know that’s not the majority. Other wise y’all are great to be around but baby as a Leo moon I CANT KEEP dealing with moon square moon synastry 🥺
2. Sag moons are sooo fickle and flighty like it’s not even funny. THEY WILL TELL A PERSON OFFFF but sometimes they be fake as hell. Very adventurous and THRILL SEEKING and they honestly put themselves into situations that are harmful just for the thrill of it. Very wise but sometimes their wisdom goes RIGHT out the window when it comes down to it.
3. Aries suns and venus placements can be veryyyy selfish imo. Like they are super independent but bc they are they really care less to think about others when achieving certain things. But are very understanding when you come to them and are very willing to listen. It’s kinda like they want what they want and they will do anything to achieve it despite the cost, and like GIRLIE POP GO OFF but at the same time u gotta be considerate of others. But EXTREMELY LOYALLL to their loved ones absolutely!! I love y’all and love y’all FIESTY energy.
4. I’m sorry but debilitated and fall mars (libra and cancer mars) have wayyy worse anger issues than ur normal scorpio/aries mars. Like they hold shit in and they are very passive so they won’t tell u did something wrong but they will be snarky and passive aggressive as hell to let you know and like BABESSA U CAN TELL ME NO NEED TO BE PASSIVE AGGRESSIVE ASFFF. Maybe it’s bc i’m a libra rising and mars in the 1st and 10th are just hella aggressive for no reason sometimes. My ex would randomly yell at people for the wrong reasons (he was a libra mars) and tbh i kinda don’t care for it like. (btw i’m a pisces mars so HEHEHE i can be passive aggressive as well so i def need to learn how to have boundaries but as people can’t handle scorpio or aries anger, i can NEVER deal with a libra or cancer bc imo they blow shit out of proportion all the fucking time) understandable as to why but idk that’s just my experience
5. Saturn in the 3rd house when they are upset with you they can be so demeaning at times. like when you don’t know something they are the types to be so unconsciously demeaning and kind of rude at times. ( like for instance if you were to ask them a question about a topic that they know they willl look at u and respond to u like ur dumb asf like 🥺🥺🥺🥺) they are very smart tho and they sometimes feel like they aren’t but like U ARE BABY DONT LISTEN TO THE OTHERS THAT hate on ur intelligence like y’all are very smart but can also be passive aggressive at times 💀
6. Scorpio Venus or having Pluto in the 7th house YALL ARE SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO CLINGY!! I love it tho for others that love it but y’all are veryyyyyyyyyy possessive (like if someone looks at y’all’s partner y’all prob imagining ripping their throat out like LMAO i understand tho). very loyal to their partner and can sometimes unhealthy dedicate all of themselves to them and nglll me don’t care for that but i understand bc y’all become so consumed with them bc of how intense y’all love and I LOVE IT but baby also have a life of ur ownnn lol (most of y’all do but sometimes y’all don’t) but y’all lowkey hypocritical tho sometimes imo
7. Sage and pisces literally are the ONLY ONES (other than scorpio maybe) imo that can do high dosages of drugs and wake up and be okay like ????? IM SO JEALOUSS bc i have virgo in my 12th and when i get high i get really paranoid and anxioussss so but with y’all having either in the 12th or even calm signs like taurus and fire placements imo y’all are built different like LMAO i loveee that for y’all tho
8. Capricorn moons aren’t cold at all lol they are very much crybabies like cancer moons, if a cap moon isn’t being emotional towards u then maybe they don’t feel safe enough yet or maybe they don’t consider you close enough to them (no shade). They are like scorpio moons tho imo when they at their lowest they can be hard to be around but YALL ARE SO MATURE AND i hate that for y’all like be reckless i know saturn may get u karma but sometimes y’all LIMIT yourselves so fucking much like baby you deserve the world. Look at the world in a scarcity mindset (unless it’s money or if they have fire placements ehh they not so scare thinkers)
9. Virgo placements are extremely shamy imo. Like they are very critical at times and they will SHAME u if ur doing something that isn’t “common sense” in their eyes. like baby i know u didn’t have the space to make mistakes without critical advice but at the same time do u really have to be shamey towards everyone else? but tbh they are the true leo’s in disguise and ABSOLUTELY give them their flowers bc acts of service means so much to them and the most mainstream people have virgo placements (attention to detail is so critical which is why they thrive and succeed) but y’all kinda use that as a scapegoat to be very shamey and critical towards others. I have a love and hate relationship with y’all lol 12th synastry 😭😩
10. IN REGARDS TO 12th house synastry, it’s so ass. Like THE PERSON U SHARE IT WITH WILL COME IN UR DREAMS AND BE ON UR MIND FOR NO FUCKING reason and for someone who takes a little while to move on from things (fixed dominant LOL but i’ve gotten a lot better) BABY I DONT NEED YALL TO BE IN MY DREAMS. lowkey i feel like 12th house synastry people lowkey get under ur skin for no reason and if that’s so imo it’s either because they are acting or responding in ways you do as well and is afraid to admit bc y’all mirror each other or it can genuinely be resurfacing things that remind u of things and trigger u (i feel like that’s the 8th house synastry ofc bc 12th house is hidden fears and repression so i’m kinda assuming it would be the same with the 12th lol hmu if you have other opinions😋😋😋🫶🏾)
last one hehehe
11. Libra placements please stop being people pleasers BABY ONCE U CREATE BOUNDARIES FUCKKKKK how others feel bitch bc when u don’t tbh y’all get super resentful and tbh who wouldn’t. libra placements really are only nice to keep the peace and to be likable but either or libra y’all will have haters regardless so instead of fearing it y’all should embrace it more. Remember the saying that if u don’t have haters u ain’t living in ur truth (ITS A 50/50 STATEMENT TBH it’s true but not being used in the sense of being problematic) but y’all can’t please everyone so instead of giving yourselves the headache, let go of the notion that if your liked everything will be okay when it’s not. and wanting to be liked and keep the peace isn’t a serving attitude it’s kinda selfish bc we’re really doing it for ourselves more than others (IM SHADING MYSELF HERE but i know y’all can agree but that doesn’t make us bad people we’re just flawed asf). BUT BABY GROW A BACKBONE ONCE YALL DO OMFAGSGSGSGSGSGS y’all are so fucking unstoppable and serve cunt energy hehehe
That’s it for tropical! Hope y’all like it!
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College bf!Changbin smut headcannons
Content warning: sex(ofc), oral sex(f receiving), overestimulation, biting/marking, unprotected sex(don't do that), making out, typos probably
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Posted: 11/28/2023
☆°•College bf changbin, who's had a stressful day of classes, so he goes over to his girlfriend's dorm, needing to get some stress off his back.
☆°•College bf changbin, who is greeted by you, his pretty girlfriend, wearing one of his sweaters, a smile playing on your face as she lets him in to continue watching a movie with you.
☆°•College bf changbin, who's not focused on the movie but focused on your naked legs, the top of your thighs getting covered by the navy blue sweater.
☆°•College bf changbin, who can't help but spread your legs and slide Inbetween them, right in the middle. Neither of you are focused on the movie anymore, now focused on each other's lips as yall make out.
☆°•College bf changbin, who pulls your underwear off, begging you to just lay back and let him take what he needs so he can "relieve some stress."
☆°•College bf changbin who hasn't sat up even after your second orgasm, saying he needed to Clean up the mess you made, lapping at your pussy trying to stain the taste of you on his tongue.
☆°•College bf changbin, who looks up at you when he hears you giggle as you point out the fogging of his glasses, your hand grabbing his curly hair as he let's out moan at the feeling, grinding his cock against the couch "f-fuck, wait,"
☆°•College bf changbin, who can't hold out any longer pulling his cock out of his sweats, lining it up with you sore cunt, head falling into the crook of your neck as he finally gets some relief as ge pushes into you.
☆°•College bf changbin who makes you go dumb on his cock while he slides a hand under your(his) sweater playing with your tits as he leaves purple and red markings on your neck.
☆°•College bf changbin, who cums on the spot when he hears you tell him to stay inside when he asks where to cum. "Shit!- You can't just say stuff like that doll.."
☆°•College bf changbin, who lays on your chest afterward as you rewind the movie that you both missed. Kissing any skin of yours, he can reach. Telling you how much he appreciates you, helping him relieve some stress.♡
A/N: Hey... How yall doing😋 I haven't posted in so long- anyways, take this changbin smut headcannon that made!🫶🏾
#skz#skz fanfic#changbin#changbin smut#changbin x reader#stray kids x reader#changbin x you#seo changbin smut#seo changbin#seo changbin x reader#stray kids#skz smut#skz changbin#binnie
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NEWS FLASH! — teaser
in the months he’s been running through seoul stopping crime as the masked superhero sonic, beomgyu’s managed to keep his identity hidden. that is, until, you ask him to secure an interview with the speedster for the school newspaper. what is meant to be a once off deal results in beomgyu having to spend more time around you, both in the suit and out, as a new threat emerges threatening your safety and the city’s.
PAIRING. superhero choi beomgyu x fem reader
GENRE. superhero au ; college au ; secret identity ; fluff ; slight angst ; reluctant friends to lovers
WARNINGS. swearing ; kidnapping ; injuries ; nsfw jokes reader hates sunghoon so be warned ; action scenes ; mention of panic attacks but no one has one
WORD COUNT. est <20k
FEATURING. yeonjun (txt), sunghoon (enhypen), yeji + yuna (itzy), sumin (stayc)
A/N. what's up my people! i told you i would have another beomgyu fic for yall didn’t i? this is wayyy overdue (was supposed to be for a collab event but um. anyways! the fic is more than half finished rn so let's all cross our fingers that i'll be donw before may. speaking of!! ty ty mayjay @tyunni for the header 🫶🏾 check this out too idk lol. okay, okay im done byeeee
TAGLIST. @pr0dbeomgyu @xiaoting999 @yyx2 @soobin-choi @4junmain @tsupuffs @yjwfav @mykalon @junityy @iyeonjuni @fairybinie @fallingforhoon @hanlvkes @soobisms (send an ask to be added)
In case it wasn’t clear, Universe, when Beomgyu said morning he meant eleven o’clock. Earliest. Not ass-crack o’clock and getting woken up by incessant knocking on his door.
He gets up and feels a crick in his neck from falling asleep on the couch. Expecting to see Yuna ready to collect his form that he has not yet filled out, Beomgyu straightens out his shirt, trying to make it look like he didn’t just roll off his couch. He has a total case of bed hair, but that’s hot, right? If he doesn’t draw attention to it, he can pretend it’s on purpose. Girls like messy hair.
With that in mind, Beomgyu opens the door with all the confidence in the world, his winning smile ready on his face, only to fall the moment he sees who is standing outside his room.
“I have a proposition for you.”
You wave a dismissive hand in his face and he swats at it petulantly like it’s a fly. “Please, save the pleasantries. Let me in, yeah?”
“What the fuck, Y/N?”
You, decidedly, were not Yuna. Where Yuna was all soft and shy smiles, here you are, deadpan expression and scowl all over your face.
“What part of that was pleasant to you?” Beomgyu bites out but steps away from the door anyway.
“You fill out that form yet?” you ask, looking around his room. If you were any other person, he might feel a little self conscious about how messy it is, but, as it stands, he’s just annoyed. What are you even doing here?
“No,” he responds curtly, eyeing said form precariously. He doesn’t understand why you even care, honestly. It’s like your sole purpose in life is to annoy him. “What do you want?”
If you can hear the clear irritation in his voice, you ignore it. “Imagine my surprise when my sweet, innocent little freshman—who I graciously took under my wing, mind you—texts me at ten PM asking about extra yearbook club forms because a ‘super cute guy just dropped by’...only to find out that it’s you.”
Beomgyu’s brain flits between a smug Yuna thinks I’m cute and— “You’re Yuna’s Junior Head?” The last bit was meant for his head but judging from the look you’re giving him, he said it out loud.
You just stare at him blankly, clearly unimpressed. “You should count yourself lucky that I didn’t just throw all the extras away once I found it was for you—” Beomgyu scowls— “but I guess I was feeling charitable. I came over to drop it off last night but you weren’t here.”
Shit. Yuna being in his room while he wasn’t here was manageable. She seemed too nice, too kind, too had basic human decency and wouldn’t go through his shit. You, however? Beomgyu wouldn’t put it past you to leave a dead rat or something under his pillow. He doesn’t say any of this though, in case you didn’t plant a dead rodent somewhere so as to not give you any ideas. He just shrugs noncommittally. “Went out.”
You hum. “Figured. Which is why I was so surprised to see this.” You pull out your phone and turn the screen to him, the gallery app opened up and there on the screen is—
“What the fuck, is that a dick pic?”
“What?” You turn the phone to stare at it, mouth hanging open slightly.
“Oh my god, did you take an unsolicited dick picture of me? What the fuck, Y/N? That’s, like, so uncool, what the fuck?”
“Oh, relax, it’s not yours. You should be so lucky.” Beomgyu has half a mind to strangle you right then and there. You swipe at the screen a few times before huffing out a breath and showing him the screen again. “This is what I was talking about, my god.”
And it’s him. Sonic. In his famous and easily identifiable blue and white suit, the grey embroidered lightning bolt running down his entire spine, body halfway out of his bedroom window, about to start his patrol. Holy shit.
Beomgyu can feel his eyes bulging out of his head. No, no, no, this can’t be happening. He’s been so careful! Sure, sneaking out of his window almost every night wasn’t the smartest idea but he had limited options! And he always made sure that there was no one around on the streets and he was literally as fast as light. He never had to worry about anyone seeing him because he moved faster than the brain could compute. This was never supposed to happen!
You hum, either oblivious to his internal panic or simply not caring, it’s not clear. “Interesting, right?”
“Uh…” Beomgyu says smartly.
Pocketing your phone, you clasp your hands together in front of you. “Now, this is where my proposition comes in.”
He groans dramatically, already preparing himself for the worst. “What do you want?”
“Get me an interview with him. With Sonic.”
“What?” Okay. He did not prepare for that.
“You heard me,” you say, shrugging, as if what you said was a completely normal request. “Otherwise this photo gets posted and the whole school finds out that you are Sonic’s secret bootycall.”
“I’m his what?”
This is insane—You are insane. Beomgyu would have laughed out loud at the absurdity of the situation if you weren’t standing here in front of him, arms crossed across your chest, clearly serious.
He baulks. “No, I am not getting you an interview with Sonic, are you insane?” It isn’t even a serious question because Beomgyu knows the answer to that. You are a citizen of Crazy Town, Population of One.
“Well, why not?”
“Aside from the fact that there is literally nothing I would rather do less, I don’t like you.”
You scoff, rolling your eyes. “I’m not crazy about you either, believe me. But you clearly know him.”
“That’s inconsequential and can’t be proven.”
“I have literal photographic evidence of him leaving your room.”
“Gah!” Beomgyu feels like he’s nine years old again, arguing about one thing or the other with you in class to the annoyance of your teachers. You always had a knack for getting on his nerves and it doesn’t help that the two of you were put in the same class every year for school. Even when his family moved from Daegu to Seoul and he thought that finally he was free from you, you had transferred to the same school as him.
He genuinely thinks that the two of you aren’t able to have a normal conversation without arguing. (It was actually suggested by one of your high school teachers that it might be best if you just join the debate team together. Bad idea. Him and you on the same team? Yeah, right.)
Going to college has been a sort of safe haven from being around you all the time, even if you did, once again, follow him to the same exact school. He’s just glad that the two of you are doing completely different courses and that the campus is big enough so it is almost virtually impossible to run into you. That is, of course, when you are not tracking him down to his room. “What do you even want an interview with him for?”
You look like you want to fight him. He can see your jaw clenching and your eye is twitching a little, a telltale sign that you are reaching your patience with him, and he is prepared to get into it with you when you uncharacteristically let out a frustrated groan and proceed to throw yourself onto his couch.
“Ugh!” you whine, pressing the heel of your hands to your forehead. “The newspaper committee has this stupid, dumb as fuck, running competition for all the junior editors to decide who will be Editor in Chief next year and stupid, dumb as fuck, Park Sunghoon’s stuff keeps getting chosen over mine because ‘No one wants to read about how there is no hope to stop global warming, Y/N. People want to believe they can make a difference. Why don’t you write about plastic straws instead, like Sunghoon?’ and—Ugh!
“Up until now my plan was to just, like, kill Sunghoon so the spot would go to me by default, but now I can interview an actual superhero and no matter how many stupid fucking turtles Sunghoon writes about saving, there is no way he can get a front page over that. So. Get me that interview.”
Beomgyu blinks dumbly, physically recoiling. “Uh. Okay…”
“Okay?” Your eyebrows furrow.
“Not okay okay, just…okay. Like, woah, okay, that’s. A lot.” Beomgyu thinks that this might be the most you’ve ever said to him in one go that did not include you cursing him out or complaining about how annoying he was. It was weird and a little disconcerting. He didn’t like it.
“I know.”
“It’s the most you’ve ever spoken to me in one go.”
Your face twists up at that. “Gross. Don’t make it weird.”
“You’re the one asking for my help, remember.”
“No, no, this is blackmail,” you correct, wagging a finger in his face and he slaps it away.
“You can’t even prove it’s my room.” He knows it’s futile, that he really has no choice but to give in, but just like the sun can’t help shining, he can’t help fighting with you.
“Oh, please, the people at this school are stupid and will believe anything. Plus, now that I’ve seen what the inside of your room looks like, I can just work a little photoshop magic and add things that are recognisable, have your friends comment on how the room looks a little familiar, and boom. My work is done.”
Beomgyu studies your face carefully, looking for any cracks that prove your bluffing, but he knows you and if there was one thing about you, you never bluffed. Everything you said, you meant. Fuck, he can’t let that photo get out. You might believe that he’s not Sonic and that he just knows him, but others might not and it would only be a matter of time before someone makes the connection between him and his superhero persona.
You raise a single eyebrow. Beomgyu sighs loudly, defeated. This, he tries to rationalise, is the lesser of two evils. “God, fine. I’ll get you that interview.”
“Great!” You jump to your feet with a flourish, very clearly satisfied with yourself and Beomgyu’s scowl deepens. You hold a hand out for him to shake and he pointedly ignores it, not that you care. “I’ll text you where he should meet me. Pleasure doing business with you. Also, get that form handed in. And stop seducing my freshman!”
He watches as you leave his dorm and feels like he’s just ran three laps around Seoul (and yes, he’s done that before). Throwing himself onto his couch, he covers his face with a cushion and lets out the most frustrated scream of his life, then abruptly stands up. Walks over to his door. And locks it.
#txt x reader#beomgyu x reader#choi beomgyu x reader#beomgyu imagines#beomgyu reactions#beomgyu scenarios#txt imagines#txt fluff#txt angst#🖇️ — ijhyo works.
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hiiii! seen a couple of people do this, plus i realized i don't appreciate my mutuals as much as i should. and since the year is ending (literally today), i thought i'd appreciate y'all for a lil bit.
→ if the tagging irritated you, i apologize 🙏🏾. if i missed you, lmk, i was 100% half asleep while making this! (this is actually so embarrassing ngl. but i luv yall 🫶🏾)
(🎧 : avian) → @sensivs
starting off with my pookie with a beautiful (horny) brain. im dead fucking serious i have zero idea how we became mutuals (🧍🏾♂️). i just remembering talking to you one day, and the we were having full conversations in dms lmaoo. an emoji ring, helios, an unborn baby (??), and multiple fic ideas...now we're at the end of the year. i really appreciate you and all of your chaotic energy, it made me laugh! and all of your prompts are immaculate (🤌🏽). i await the days you post more fics or drabbles so i can support you the way you have me! :) luv u pooks, i def wanna ramble u more about hcs!
→ (i sound like im about to die omg)
(🎧 : snail/seraph) → @flimsyichigo
again, zero fucking idea when we became mutuals (i don't remember shit). we don't talk too often but i be seein you likeing my horrendously down bad and chaotic thoughts...i appreciate you bro (🙏🏾). i love your fluffy blue lock sruff, and your overall vibes are (yes, through the screen) amazing! thank you for dealing with my bullshit.
→ (as i type this, i realize just how many mutuals i have jeez, (half of which i barely talk to but still))
(🎧 : ame) → @pastelclovds
ameeeee, number 1 ive always loved your writing (iterally giggling and kicking my feet as i press the like button). your themes r so fucking gorgeous omg. we don't talk as often, but i love when we do interact. i hope we can more (im just easily embarrassed).
→ (i sound like a teenager leaving a love letter in a locker. omggggg)
(🎧 : ace ) → @acefantasyy
another person who puts up with my horrendously down bad bullshit takes. i applaude you for dealing with my ass lmaoo. but, on another note, i smile when i see you in my notes (no, i didn't originally mean that 2 b a joke). i really appreciate the reply you made when i went on a little break, thank you! i hope you continue to deal me, and i hope we interact more!
→ (i really gotta start talkin 2 yall more)
(🎧 : riri) → @pynkkgeto
we're friends irl. i don't have 2 say shit 4 u (luv uuu 🫶🏾)
(🎧 : rome) → @satocidal
yet another person who delt with my nonsense lol. you're quite busy, so you won't see this for a second. but thank you for being awesome and making me laugh with your naobito jokes. thank for the reply you left when i was the one going on break. hope all goes well for you!
(🎧 : idk ur name TvT) → @infrunamie
i feel so bad omg. but i wanted to appreciate your writing for a sec. whether its a drabble, headcanons, a fic, or just 100 words, your brain is miraculous when you write cuz it always leads to me wanted more. seriously, i love it. i was actually shocked you followed me, literally looked up to your writing ong (🙏🏾). i love it when you show up in my notes even if it's just a like. thank you for your reply when i went on break, trust, all of them got me through those shitty ass exams! ty!
→ (im sure this isn't what my therapist meant by being outgoing but im gunna do ts anyway)
(🎧 : spirit) → @spiritfrvr
literally the best vibes on earth i swear. your blog is like a fluffy hug omg. and (imo), you kinda bring that over to other blogs. i'd really like to talk to you more and ramble about random shit! :)
(🎧 : arlan) → @asuyaka
your drabbles r so cuuutee! i love them so much omg. especially the taking care of suguru one! i was surprised you liked my writing sm, and i love yours the same! i really appreciate the little reply under the break post and the christmas tree! seeing notifs of u makes me smile!
(🎧 : qi) → @yaekiss
i don't think we've been mutuals for too long, but omg we reeally should speak more!! i loved your message on the christmas tree! i love the vibe and look of your blog omg. i hope we can interact more!
(🎧 : juno) → @arlertdarling
hi junooo! ty for the message on my christmas tree, and i agree! we really should interact more! you seem like a realllly cool person, plus im on my fucking knees for your writing, dead serious. hope we can talk more, i hope you have a great 2024!
→ (srsly, y tf do i sound like im moving far away or smth TvT)
(🎧 : najma) → @honeybleed
ilysm ong. number one, we cousins (😔✊🏾; im joking pls help), number two, your theme was downright gorgeous (still is), number three, your writing it delicious. i haven't had too much time lately, buuut, i love how you post content that isn't completely smut (as a smut blog that fails at angst lol). its nice to get a break and see fluffy or angsty stuff in the tags instead of the same repeated material. you know you what you like and you stand firm in what you say (i need 2 b more like u fr), and your overall vibes are amazing! i love seeing your anime takes omg. i hope we can interact more in 2024!
→ (that kinda rhymed...and unrelated, but im listening to the mean girls soundtrack or 4 hours of sleep writing this)
(🎧 : yoru) → @dilfverz
number one, thank you for the messege on my christmas tree. number two, your so cool (😭). i love your themes and your writing, how you interact with ppl and anons is funny lol. literally look up to your writing ngl. i super appreciate your for explaining genshin impact to me, cuz im definitely not playing that damn game lol. your reblogs and likes in my notes make me wanna cry ngl. thank you for being so cool! (🙏🏾)
→ (am i over using emojis? i am so tired omg)
(🎧 : sy) → @wrizzesley
we just became mutuals like a week ago lmaoo. but i love your writing so much. and your themes?!?! (:O). i know damn well that shit is time consuming and exhausting, i applaud you, i could never lol. but anyway, i hope we can interact more in this new year. i think your really cool!
(🎧 : astro? idk im so sorry) → @astroknottt
i love your writing holy fuck. but other than that, i love it when you reblog my stuff! esp with those little comments, they've given me a bunch of motivation. and seeing you write such toe curling shit, that gives me motivation too! hope we can interact some more in the new year!
→ (pls ignore my silent pleas for help in these notes, but my vision is wonky. i promise im going to sleep in a second)
(🎧 : ) → @naee0
your probably locked out of tumblr again lol. but if you see this, thank you for your chaotic energy! and even if it was one sentence, what you sent on thr break post, i really appreciate it! even if you or me aren't on tumblr much, i hope we can interact a bit more! you're pretty cool! and i loved those drabbles. i hope your doing great!
PRODUCER MESSEGE: "i think that was all. again, if i missed you, please lmk. i might have been blind (my eyes prolly look like that squidward meme). but i appreciate all of you! thank you, and pls dont hate me 🙏🏾"
#🎧 → 𝐀𝐋𝐁𝐔𝐌: FEATURED#mutual appreciation#this is last minute on the last day of December#but i cant wait for the new year!#i love my mooties sm!#ive discovered things about myself while writing this#omg y the hell am i so nervous?!?!#fuck social anxiety#i just appreciate yall
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Signs From the Universe That You’re Healing: Pick A Card 🥗💭🌻🌸
Note: This is an original pick a card post from Tarotladytalks LLC. Please do not steal. Thank you.
Hey yall!!
It’s been a long time since I did this. Yet, I felt pulled to do this but I couldn’t decide in video or blog form since I just posted a PAC on my channel (feel free to check it out). But anyway, here we are! Let’s hear from the Universe how you’re healing, growing, and doing well. I hope you are too! 🫧🫶🏾
GIF #1
GIF #2
GIF #3
GIF #1:
-Learning to allow love in without expecting the worst. With so much air in this combination (Lovers: Gemini, The Star: Aquarius, King of Swords) the Universe is saying you’re healing because your mindset has changed, take notice of that. It has matured (King of Swords and The World) in a healthy manner. You are healthily expressing how you want to be loved and not begging. When I say love, it is not just romantic. It is how you want to be loved by all types of relationships in your life. You are not going to settle nor argue for this neither, if you have noticed. Your mindset is one of what you seek is available, and settling is almost as if you are disrespecting yourself. Wow, Pile 1, I am very proud of you. This energy is calm, yet firm. You may have even noticed that you are easily finding things you enjoy more and doing them independently. You are unafraid of the consequences of severing relationships or things that do not belong to your system of ideas and philosophies. You may have noticed that you simply feel peaceful with where you are. You are content with the decisions you make and why you make them. I’m even getting with The Lovers and The Star card that you aren’t mad at the people who have crossed you, you just saw that they weren’t a compatible fit, and with King of Swords and The World card, you simply just let them go. You may even have a new set of belief systems you follow now. What you believed in yesterday is not what you believe in today. And you’re firm on that. Amazing Pile 1. I’m very proud of you.
GIF #2:
-You carry your burdens better these days. You don’t see your challenges as your Achilles’ heel. You seem them as more of just a block in the road that you can remove. You don’t let little things stress you out as much anymore. You are confident in the fact that you can only control so much, and life will work the rest of it out. I’m proud of you for realizing that. You realized that stress was depleting you, and as a result with the Queen of Wands you are much more happy and more energized. Maybe even people have told you lately you seem more calm and unbothered with Temperance and the 4 of swords. You realize that you’re not alone in having problems, which gave you the courage to understand how to handle what life throws at you. Not saying that with this Queen of Wands you have to face your issues alone from this point forward. No, with the Temperance, seek support where you need to. I am saying that I am proud of this new level of independence, because it seems to me you came to a point where you were tired of letting little issues and upsets control your outcome. You stopped giving it so much energy, and the Universe is saying the peace you’re feeling is a sign you’re healing. Good job, Pile 2.
GIF #3:
-Seeing things for what they are. You may have been the type to be extremely optimistic and give everyone a chance and see the good in everyone. Yet, for some of you there may have been an incident (9 of Swords) that may have really hurt you and changed all that. Yet, the bright side is that with this Page of Cups and 4 of Pentacles, you are more careful about who you give love and help to. Here’s the thing Pile 3, there are some people in this world that do not want help or generosity. They are looking for their next victim to prey on. As harsh as it sounds, you are starting to understand that reality and it’s healing for you because you know how to protect yourself. You are also gaining wisdom (2 of wands) on what it means to be a “good person” in this world. Some of you may feel guilty for putting your foot down, but the Universe is telling you you’re doing the right thing by doing so. There is nothing wrong with protecting yourself and your own self interest. It reminds me of that Bible quote of “Turn the other cheek” and “Forgive thy enemies” which is true, but not to the extent you allow others to prey on your kindness and altruism. I’m glad you are starting to understand this Pile 3. You don’t have to stick with this energy from this point on. 2 of wands here talks about balance and when you NEED to act this way with others. And newsflash, 9 times of out 10 when you do put your foot down, people leave you the hell alone. If they make you feel bad, curse you, or even go out their way to slander you (which I hope they aren’t but it happens), just know you are protected with this 4 of Pentacles. 4 of Pentacles is ruled by Capricorn. And Saturn does not let nasty people off the hook at all! So I can’t say not to worry about those people, because you’re human and energy like that is stressful. But what I can say is don’t let up on your boundaries and know that you deserve to be treated with respect just as much as you respect others. It’s not your fault that those people don’t know how to accept good people when they come. That’s their karma, not yours. Keep progressing, Pile 3.
Thanks for tuning in.
Claude 🦋❤️
#pick a pile#pick a picture#pick a card#pick a photo#tarotladytalks#oceanbaby888#astrology#tarot#tarot readings#ask claude#black woman tarot
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hii! i love ur account! i just wanted to stop by and say idkw but omg i feel like there is alot of black girls who like the sturniolo triplets and im so happy! 🫶🏾 (i myself am also a black girl who luvs the sturniolo triplets!) i dont mean to sound racist or whatever cus im not trying to fo sho but i feel like there's not that many people that i meet (online or irl) who like the same things that i do that r black idkw! but so far in the sturniolo fandom i've found sm and its AMAZING
(mainly saying this because people call me 'basic' and 'whitewashed' for my interests and idk i just feel kinda more understood seeing that)
LIKE YALL GET ME FR
anyways thats all i wanted to say :)
girl i love you so much, oh my god, i never felt so seen 🥹
i’ve always struggled growing up in a black family and loving what they consider “white people shit” and it’s like i’m sorry my likes and interests are diverse??? i can never put my phone on aux in the car without someone saying something 😭 i deadass feel you so much, and i was so happy when i realized how many of us there are in this fandom, and i feel like i meet more every day 😭
ughhh i felt every word of this ily ❤️🔥
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Chapter 48
Anthony ramos point of view:so we got the papers filed for the adoption so we asked max and max and now we are having a party so every one can we them and they can meet every one so we texted the all the group chats
Mi nombre es Alexander Hamilton🤗😋💕💪🏾
Jazzy poo bear😭🙄🔛🔝‼️🗞️🧍🏼♀️🫶🏾🤭🎶🗣️🪄✅😑👍🏾🩷😂👦🏿🖕🏾😘❕🔥😔👦🏾💞👹❗️🔊🎩👦🏽:not this gc bein dry💀
Pippy poo😀🥹☺️😃😅😊😄😂😇😁🤣🙂😆🥲🙃:i miss the days where Anthony nd y/n would update us on everything nd anything
Mommy nèa(not dirty🙄)😉😗😝🤓😌😙😜😎😍😚🤪🥸🥰😋🤨🤩😘😛🧐🥳:for real!
Loser Leslie 🤫😐🙄😲🫠🫤😯🥱🤥😑😦😴😵💫😶🫨😧🤤🤐🫥😬😮😪🥴:their life was mad interesting and for what though
Weird David 😮💨🤢🤕👹😵🤮🤑👺😵💫🤧🤠🤡🤐😷😈💩🥴🤒👿👻🤖:frrrr as a matter of fact i miss Hamilton low key
ThEy DiDnT sAy I CoUlDnT sIng 🤝🏾🤛🏾✌🏾🤌🏾👍🏾🤜🏾🫰🏾���🏾👎🏾🫷🏾🤟🏾🫳🏾👊🏾🫸🏾🤘🏾🫴🏾✊🏾🤞🏾👌🏾👈🏻:nah frrrrr that era for us was 🔛🔝
Oakyyyyy the unfuckable tree👉🏾🤚🏾🫲🏾✍🏾👆🏾🖐🏾🫱🏾🙏🏾🖖🏾👇🏾💪🏾🫵🏾☝🏾👋🏾🦾🦶🏾✋🏾🤙🏾🖕🏾🦵🏾:our off broad way era was actually just a vibe
Christopfuckme👶🏾🧑🏾👩🏾🦰👱🏾♂️👧🏻👨🏾🧑🏾🦰👩🏾🦳🧒🏾👩🏾🦱👨🏾🦰🧑🏾🦳👦🏿🧑🏾🦱👱🏾♀️👨🏾🦳👩🏾👨🏾🦱:nah on b way was better because their relationship was better because remember what the heck i got to do (a/n:i know its "gotta" pero i needed more words) im going to add thanye
Christopfuckme👶🏾🧑🏾👩🏾🦰👱🏾♂️👧🏻👨🏾🧑🏾🦰👩🏾🦳🧒🏾👩🏾🦱👨🏾🦰🧑🏾🦳👦🏿🧑🏾🦱👱🏾♀️👨🏾🦳👩🏾👨🏾🦱 added CoOkIe MoNsTeR😏😕😫😤😒🙁😩😠😞☹️🥺😡😔😣😢🤬😟😖😭🤯:
My mannn💀🎃😼🫶🏾☠️😺😽🤲🏾👽😸🙀👐🏾👾😹😿🙌🏾🤖😻😾👏🏾:not yall talking about us nd how much yall miss us
Yall want to meet our new adopted children 🤗🤗
Jazzy poo bear😭🙄🔛🔝‼️🗞️🧍🏼♀️🫶🏾🤭🎶🗣️🪄✅😑👍🏾🩷😂👦🏿🖕🏾😘❕🔥😔👦🏾💞👹❗️🔊🎩👦🏽:shi not dry anymore 💀 anyway more children 🤗🤗
Pippy poo😀🥹☺️😃😅😊😄😂😇😁🤣🙂😆🥲🙃:this the life updates i was talm about nd yes
Mommy nèa(not dirty🙄)😉😗😝🤓😌😙😜😎😍😚🤪🥸🥰😋🤨🤩😘😛🧐🥳:nah because they use to do life updates about what they was eating sandwich 💀 and yes i will be seeing my grandbabies
Loser Leslie 🤫😐🙄😲🫠🫤😯🥱🤥😑😦😴😵💫😶🫨😧🤤🤐🫥😬😮😪🥴:not nea nea learning how to text nd yes ill be coming
Weird David 😮💨🤢🤕👹😵🤮🤑👺😵💫🤧🤠🤡🤐😷😈💩🥴🤒👿👻🤖:yes i will be coming
ThEy DiDnT sAy I CoUlDnT sIng 🤝🏾🤛🏾✌🏾🤌🏾👍🏾🤜🏾🫰🏾🤏🏾👎🏾🫷🏾🤟🏾🫳🏾👊🏾🫸🏾🤘🏾🫴🏾✊🏾🤞🏾👌🏾👈🏻:count me in
Oakyyyyy the unfuckable tree👉🏾🤚🏾🫲🏾✍🏾👆🏾🖐🏾🫱🏾🙏🏾🖖🏾👇🏾💪🏾🫵🏾☝🏾👋🏾🦾🦶🏾✋🏾🤙🏾🖕🏾🦵🏾:duh you duhduh
Christopfuckme👶🏾🧑🏾👩🏾🦰👱🏾♂️👧🏻👨🏾🧑🏾🦰👩🏾🦳🧒🏾👩🏾🦱👨🏾🦰🧑🏾🦳👦🏿🧑🏾🦱👱🏾♀️👨🏾��👩🏾👨🏾🦱:as your 2/3d dad of course
CoOkIe MoNsTeR😏😕😫😤😒🙁😩😠😞☹️🥺😡😔😣😢🤬😟😖😭🤯:hell yeah
LiNaMiNrOlL🥶😨😓🫣🫡😶🌫️😰🤗🤭🤫😱😥🤔🫢🫠:yes my knew grandbabies.????????
My mannn💀🎃😼🫶🏾☠️😺😽🤲🏾👽😸🙀👐🏾👾😹😿🙌🏾🤖😻😾👏🏾:we want to make sure that it fits your schedule so check your calendar ask everyone you know about anything because we want you there
#anthony ramos#musical theater#musical theatre#theater#theatre#21 chump street#broadway#hamilton musical#lin manuel miranda
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HIII AGAIN ✨✨ I'm the eyelashes anon (sounds like a really cool name omg imma go by that now), anyways I just saw that question they asked about how much did it take for me to see the lashes results? Ok so I remember I affirmed it once and just casually forgot about it, an hour later just before I went to school I checked the mirror and saw my lashes were seriously so long and pretty 🚶 , and in addition to your question if it was instant, I don't really know for this one, I'm saying it's instant because I kinda forgot about it after Saying it once, and the reason I'm saying it's instant bc I affirmed that many would compliment me in school and they actually did, so yes, after doing the psych-k and manifesting something, it varies from the time YOU choose it to appear, SO ALL I'M SAYING IS THAT I HOPE EVERYONE WILL GET WHATEVER THEY NEED, LOVE YALL
(P.s// your blog is literally my comfort blog omfg like thank God someone else with my humor 💗)
aH fantastic!!! im glad ya were able to get back to us so soon! i was a bit curious myself 🤭 im really glad that it worked out for ya!!! :D 💕🫶🏾🫰
comfort blog? omg don't make me blush 👉👈 hell ye i love me a good laugh :] I'm glad that we share a similar sense of humor !!! nyohoho the comedy affirmations are workin' spectacularly
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Siren I need advice pls..
So there’s this guy that I find attractive right? And as a black girl yk we have to be careful cause they may only want to experiment right. But we never got the chance to even know each other only time I saw him in person was at a basketball game 4 years ago and he pointed at me and laughed as if something was funny I get I may not be the most attractive and I’m overweight fine even ugly but why point and laugh at me with your friends? It was a point and laugh like “date her” and his friend said nahh yk that kind of thing like what is so funny about my looks…but anyways then I heard about him again that same year that apparently he’s racist and he told one of my ex friends to off themselves right. With no proof also on a live I think I heard him say the n word and he supports Jason Aldean small town thingy!
Now why am I saying all this you may ask? Because when I shift I want my desired bf to look like him but at the same time I know I deserve better even if I do revision to forget about him and he’s not in my desired reality with my desired bf only looking like him deep down I think I know I deserve better sure I can just do it and live my life but idk I’ve been trying to forget about him cause to me I sound like I’m just bored or have low self esteem or unhealthy attachments it’s just that he’s a moc half the other is half white and I know I won’t be able to probably find a guy that looks like him again unless I manifest it
Advice please? :(
first off I don’t ever want you or anyone else on my blog to put themselves down like that🫵🏾or I will find yall and be waiting with a leather belt respectfully🙂 anyways love you deserve way better and I want you to know your worth, you don’t deserve no one who doesn’t care to see how amazing you are 🫶🏾two, you know what you want so why not go for it ? make your ideal partner in your image there’s nothing wrong with it (that’s what I did😂) you deserve the absolute best after all.
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HELP!!!!
sooooo, yall I have a crush 😍. He literally looks like a dark-skinned version of Miles 🤭, yes he knows I exist, we're friends, we talk all the time in school bc ion got his snap or nun. BUUUUT this is my 3rd week of school this semester and idk how to tell if he likes me or not. He play-fights with everyone, he hugs everyone, and he pretty much talks to everyone. But, idk yall I feel like we could work 🤷🏾♀️ he seems like the type of guy who likes compliments from his crush as a sign of affection and he literally has Miles' WHOLE personality. Like today in the hallway, I'm just minding my business. Filling up my water bottle and he comes upstairs from gym and I was squinting to see if it was him and just as I'm about to smile and wave he SCREAMSSS "HI ____" with a dopey smile on his face and I literally was living my best y/n life. Like, yessss let everyone know that you're I'm love with me 🤭🫶🏾 but idk if he actually likes me or not yall. So.....advice? Ima try to get a hug tmrw but other than that give me advice bc he's a new kid so, I'm not scared of flirting and losing a close friend because he seems mature enough to stay friends with me after we break up if we do so 🤷🏾♀️ anyway GIMME ADVICE, GIRLIES (send the advice thru asks pls bc my comments r being really weird for some reason)
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For the WIP game:
You've got me intrigued with the "maria and ellie" fic. Do you have a snippet? Is it canon compliant or an AU?
Also, I don't see the Christmas fic?!?!?! Maybe because you don't consider it a WIP yet because I know you've been sick.
I hope you're feeling better 💜
hello ameera 🥰🥰🥰 tysm, i am feeling better 🫶🏾
im glad you’re intrigued with this one! i was actually just working on this! i do have a draft, although very unedited because i’m terrible and don’t autocapitalize when i’m drafting, so be warned. it is a show/canon-compliant fic (haven’t decided if it’s a one-off or maybe the start to a whole mariaellie thing) in which ellie and maria have a meaningful one-on-one sometime shortly after ellie and joel get back, right after the end of tlou 1. i just really wanted a fic centered around the beginnings of the relationship between these two, especially addressing their conversation about joel from 1x06, because ive rewatching tlou2 gameplay and got struck by how close they seemed pre-joel’s death. i think plot-wise, it could also be an interesting start to a story about ellie finding her place in jackson under a mentorship program maria is piloting to help newcomers get acclimated to jackson. in this au, i’d imagine maria would want to mentor ellie, but ellie would need some serious convincing. here’s some snippets, i hope the it’s not too rough!
joel sending ellie to talk to maria:
“youre just too pussy to go over there and talk to her yourself,” ellie grumps, huffing down onto the couch to start pulling on her converse.
“that may be true,” joel says dryly. he doesnt look up from his stupid fucking carpentry book as he continues, “but i’m sending you anyway. have fun.”
“yeah, yeah, asshole. fuck you.”
“and try to watch your language.”
“oh, my bad! screw you! how’s that?”
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maria talking to ellie:
“tommy told me yall had a hard time out there,” maria tries, attempting and failing at subtlety. it was always easier to her, both naturally and due to her career, to be more direct—but direct with ellie doesn’t always go well, in her experience. so she tries something different. “and that maybe you didn’t have the best time in school before, so. i get it.”
“yeah, well,” ellie snarks, and maria knows already that subtly isn’t the way to go with her, either. “tommy’s an asshole, and he has a big fucking mouth. you guys should find better shit to do than gossip about me and joel.”
jesus, this kid, maria thinks. the tone of her voice, honestly, is hilarious. despite herself maria barks out a laugh. “i have a feeling, ellie, that maybe you and i have the wrong impression of each other.”
“you mean you have the wrong impression of joel.”
“maybe,” maria says, which she can tell is more than ellie was expecting. “i admit, i have a lot of unresolved… feelings, i can say, about joel. i’m working on them. i’d prefer if we could focus this conversation on you and me.”
ellie seems uncomfortable at the prospect, shifting in her chair and fiddling with her long sleeves in her lap. “there isn’t really a you and me to think about.”
“there can be, if you’d like,”
“not if there’s shit between you and joel,”
“how i feel about joel has no bearings on how i’m going to treat you, ellie, and he knows that.”
“but it should. it has to. he’s my—“ ellie stops herself suddenly, cheeks going red and jaw locking in familiar tween-aged embarrassment. “he’s mine.”
“he is. and tommy’s mine.” maria decides to respond in the same way, putting things into ellie’s terms instead of her own, as juvenile as those terms sound to her ears. she’s realizing now, frankly, that this girl is quite the master at leading conversations, whether she realizes it or not. maria can’t help but wonder if it’s something she got from joel. “but they’re also each other’s, whether we like it or not. can we both agree on that?”
“i guess.”
“then it seems to stand to reason that we’ll be quite present in one another’s lives, right? whether we like it or not?”
ellie doesn’t seem to respond too well to the rhetorical questions, immediately bristling at maria’s leading on. “don’t fucking patronize me.”
“i’m not trying to, ellie. i’m trying to propose a proposition to you.”
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thats’s what i’m giving for now! and i do have the xmas fic on my wip list, i just don’t have much drafted to post, at this point. it’s been hard to do anything this week on account of being sick, but i’m feeling better and writing more this week! hopefully i’ll have something soon, but i’m going to knock out the few wips i have on ao3 first.
@bumblepony ur ask is coming next bae i totally forgot i had one more thing to add to my catching fire au before i move to mockingjay!
#asked and answered#maria and ellie#my writing#ty ameera!!!!!!#hope u like! this one will def be for u!#it is very Not Alone verse coded#this is not the fun snippet of this fic ig but the fun part makes zero sense without explanation#but theres a part about cussing that i think youll rlly like ameera#ellie: fuck sorry i keep cussing in front of u my fucking bad#maria: i am from new york bitch????? cuss away#like youre from boston ellie ive been expecting worse tbh
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void ranting under cut xox 🫶🏾
im in my feels rn it’s been like FIFTEEN YEARS on this platform, and writing/creating/fancasting etc has been my safe space and beloooved by me for about seventeen years at this point.... and im just high and emo and reflecting so this is NO BEARING if ur following me for musings or gifs or any of my creations 💜💜
anyway
you know whats wild?? after i was mobbed by the Toxic rpc fandom and some RP partners about a decade ago — i’m taking breakdown crying hyperventilating level of carnage i went thru — , i took a break and when i came back i took on a whole new persona (and also only rped in controlled environments) but this person who was a white aussie, or an ASSUMED white aussie by everyone around. i think thats bc a lot of people have hella misconceptions about australia and aussies and out multiculturalism but i digress) idk why, aside from some weird online racism trauma ig, and fear. like so much anxiety and fear. and i used to often play two different aliases, or id eventually cave and make a second, just so i could be my authentic self even if my face or name wasnt shared. but i could also be my pretend self who felt safer online at that time. and like??? its so INSANE to think about late-teen me who did that. bc it was still me, and i was just living in this Hyper Reactionary state where i was so sure that i would be targeted again so i kept switching myself around as both protection from those people (i STILL remember their aliases to this day) ----- but like.. in the last few years those two personas meshed ig?? so even tho ill always be Aware and on the lookout for those people, i dont find myself as an adult reaching to hide online anymore. i’ll NEVER make the mistake of sharing my actual name online again but i dont feel the protective need to split myself into two pieces or hide my race out of fear of someone recognising me as the ‘mexican aussie’ anymore — and thats not me being an ass, we’re straight a rare breed on this platform, like supER rare. how many aussies have yall rped with fr? and how many of those were of mexican heritage?? EXACTLY. point is, its definitely obvious and im cool w that now
the catch is tho, by trying to protect myself back then i lied to a lot of people to make myself “seem” more acceptable, which is so fucked up bc A) ive ALWAYS been acceptable as i am & B) !!!! i made myself into a liar and i hate that and i struggle w that a lot, like to this day. i am sure that these people who developed bonds with the ‘white’ me will feel hurt by my actions and that makes me feel awful bc i never meant to do that. & C) i’m too scared to go back and pick up old muses or work i spent time in etc, rp things that ive loved so deeply bc some where played by the ‘white’ me, and the others would have been played by my more autheNtic me. (EVEN THO. THEY’RE THE SAME PERSON.) and if someone i cared about who doesnt know this happened upon it, then refer to point B.
my point is that i made a mess for myself by being driven into a place where i didnt feel safe being me. i’m not in that mindspace anymore but the mess i made still haunts me sometimes 😓
#internalised racism tw#pointless feelings rant??#skye talkin shit*#high cw#drug use mention tw#[ might delete when i wake up ]#[ i had therapy this week this is why im in the Well of Feelings ]#mental illness tw#panic attack tw#anxiety attack tw
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