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[captaincrumbz]

METALBEARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[momentomori24]

I really hope people haven't forgotten that Grace is actually pretty smart and helpful during class trials. Like this woman spent half the time brain dead from getting zapped (a third time) and then woke up to drive the trial forward along with Wolfgang and Damon. She was the one who guided us to the answer of how Cara was killed through the bucket mechanism, and was even the reason we realised there was a mechanism used for the murder at all. She's very much capable of coming up with logical deductions on the spot and actually be correct, as well as remain relatively calm and composed while doing so.

When she immediately latches on to the first person with even a crumb of a chance to be the killer, when she disrupts the investigation by unintentionally hiding potential clues, when she immediately resorts to hostility over being suspected herself and allows that grudge to cloud her judgement later-- that's not her at her A-Game, nor is that her just being stupid. That's her reasoning being shaken by grief. Her erratic behaviour during Chapter 1's trial contradicts her behaviour during Chapter 0's trial, and that's because this time the victim isn't a lifeless doll based on a person she's never met and has no connection to; the victim this time is the man she's grown the closest to, the first person in our group she met and someone she allowed herself to be vulnerable with in a way she wouldn't be with anyone else. The one to give her hope in her moment of paralysis induced by her near death experience and the only one to actually reach out to her in a way she'd actually reach back. The person she thought was vulnerable, unable to leave his bed, and who she had to find dead after walking out the door and leaving him behind despite it all. She's not stupid or incapable of making rational deductions, nor is she bad at making sound arguments or reasonable accusations-- she's literally just guilt-ridden and grieving.

[mousegirlheart]

oh my god shower chair is not emough. that shower kicked my ass anyway. everything hurts and i can't raise my arms easily

[sw33t-oubliette]

god im getting my hair cut this weekend im SCARED !!!!!IM VERY SCARED

[hangonhanginthere]

mega rant incoming

i feel like im behind all my friends in terms of maturity. ive always been told i was mature and like put together but am i really? i feel like because of this ive been led by other peoples voices and guidance without really creating a path for myself. i dont know where im going with life. all my friends have goals and ambitions that are just so bright it could blidn you. they have reasons to backup their plans and real passion for the things they do. i dont have any passion. all i have is love thats just kind of warm and fuzzy. it doesnt serve much purpose but its there. but also i dont think i distribute my love emough. i keep it to myself because i think i need it kore. but the keeping of love to myself is making less space for my passion. i dont think ive ever been passionate in my life. i think i need to experience more out of life instead of staying cooped up in my room but now it all feels too late because i have to study for school and plan out my future. all the years leading up to this were supposed to be utikised and maximized to its full potential but ive wasted all of it scrolling on my phone and interacting with people online that i will never meet or have some real personal connection with that i couldve had with people in real life. i dont know where im going with this rant either. its all over the place.

i cant stick to one topic because my mind goes into overdrive and bounces off topics all over and it just spills out onto this page. i am incapable to writing a personal essay because i cannot do inflection or have any sort of vulnerability. i feel scared. what if i dont have a future. all my teachers and friends and family theyre all counting on me because im the brightest star of the school. what if reaching too high just makes me fall down more height? is it really worth the effort if i fail? am i learning more about myself, yes, but what im really feeling is how much therapy would benefit me. here i am typing words into a tumblr blog. who even uses tumblr anymore? only fandoms probably. so no one will see this but i guess ill remain on the records of the internet forever. anonymously.

so anyways i really should have used my time better and i regret everything i did because i didnt put enough effort into them that they would leave an impact on me or someone else. i dont feel, i think. and thats the problem.

[fabcreature]

today i went on an old fashioned steam train, so of course i had to dress up fancy (despite the train itself being far from fancy)

and yes, i do have a pocket watch in my pocket!

[pyjamac]

wish ppl wanted to commission me to make puppets

[xmbulance]

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[kyle1]

Am I supposed to be all~

I love Tay,

She loves me,

We've got a growing fam'ly,

With ne'er enough hugs,

~Bad apples spoil a bunch!

So of course I'll be distracted when I spike the punch.....

:P

if it’s all in my head, tell me now

[chisatowo]

Mannnnn Mocha's design is soooo good actually like damn I rly popped off with them huh

[minimenace]

mmm i'm watching naruto and bnha and i just got up to neji vs kidomaru and bakago vs uraraka respectively and jeez i'm just really invested now

[knifehandsgf]

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FUCK

[guccifloralsuits]

I’m from the UK but been keeping v close tabs on this election and I know you didn’t ask but this is my opinion on what might happen...... I truly believe Trump has almost 0% chance of winning the election fairly and he knows that. I think Biden will win by a pretty sizeable amount. The GOP are going to try hard to find any loopholes that could void as many votes as possible in key states to narrow the lead, possibly even going as far to implant fake dumped votes for Trump to scream fraud. Trump will demand recounts while other states are still counting their original votes and it will be such a mess and the system will be overworked he will use that as an excuse to go to the Supreme Court who will then hand him the presidency. What will result would be the worst protests, strikes and riots the United States has ever seen in modern history. I think other countries and the UN will then get involved. That’s like worse case scenario though. If I’m being totallyyyy honest, I think what will happen is Biden will win by emough of a landslide where there’s nothing the GOP or Trump can do. So instead trump will wreck complete havoc every day until he leaves office, inciting violence and all that, making sure that Biden has absolute hell to clean up, disrupting all of his first term plans. There will still be riots and unrest, but it will be nothing compared to the alternative

Ya I think A) we have confirmed election interference & B) enough people are still showing up for Biden it’s hopeful he’ll win anyways

ALSO: counting ballots goes to each individual state’s Supreme Court, so the Governor & State Courts party alignments matter a lot here. It’s not gunna go to the federal Supreme Court bc vote/delegate declaring is a state matter (which is some relief) - Republican run states will rig it, but blue states are less likely to. Some swing states, like North Carolina, will probably get results night-of, because they’ve been counting ballots before Nov.3rd. Others aren’t allowed to start counting till Election Day, so they’d be the likely later results. Still, we’ll start to see trends emerge on election night. No matter what: prepare for a shitshow

If there’s no majority reached by Jan 2021, by the constitution Nancy Pelosi becomes interim President. If there’s no majority, period then the vote goes up to the delegates

If Trump loses, he’s not going down without a fight, but if he (clearly) loses I think the military would forcibly remove him from office when the time comes. If Trump wins: I call civil war. And I don’t mean that as an exaggeration. This shit will get violent

[the-stray-pup]

Also, needing someone to suck you off you say?

Lemme just get a pillow to put my knees on- I'm small emough to fit under most desks anyways ;)

- 🐺

Uh yes, please. Like rn. Will be gripping your head the entire time just rutting into your face

I’ll get you the pillows though. It’s the least I can do for a cutie like yourself 😘

[stillwooozy]

tw rape ig but no one reads this diary blog

But does anyone else.... FORGET they were raped? Like not repressed trauma/memories (i... really dont believe that to say the least.....) but just..... i push it so far away that something ovious needs to push the knowledge forward

ive been in some shitty sitautions jfc. the only reason i can type this rn is cuz im numb cuz if drugs

Anyways i was raped twice and almost raped once. well once i dont remmeber cuz i was drugged but ik i was raped. and like ... it sucks man. It really does. i acknowledge those experiences probably fucked me up more than i give them credit. A part of me does blme myself tho, which ofc isnt “right” but i cant help it. I put myself into dangerous situations knowing the full possibilties. I liked the thrill. It added excitement and made me feel imporant when i felt if everyone hated me

Like no one knows. I feel like no one understands. My choices led to my experiences, and its just humiliating. Idk why im thinking of this now

No i know. Its cuz im hypersexual and asexual at the same time. And i have no more close friends. Im lonely. And i cant keep relationships.

I feel like my experience/life is normal. And the sad part is i think it is.

I hold 0 spite towards # me-too to clarify. I dont even want ppl to address men rape cuz gay men are villianized like taht. Countless times gay men, gay fucking boys, are “canceled” for bullshit they never did cuz straight ppl are so afraid of gay guys. But its not being gay that is the problem. Its just so many men. Its a society taht treats mentally ill like trash& has a toddlers understanding of consent. Cuz to truly value consent... u have to go against a lot of the status quo

Im just angry at my younger self. Why did i purposefully put myself in danger? I know why. Its just gonna hurt for a while. Been years now .

No.. it doesnt hurt it just negatively impacts me.

And i cant fcking speak about

Or tecnically i can but come on. I am surrounded by emough shame and humilitation around me. Im mentally fucked and king of bad decisions. Even therapists get weirded out. Even good ones. Not weirded out, just.... unable to address it.

I can understand genocide more than rape. Like actual rape. Like i was held at knife point. Wish i was making up some fun story. Who tf gets pleasure from that?????? Just sign up on fetlife and find a partner and roleplay. U dont need to ruin a 16 yr old boy and take away his dignity. I hate it. There are si many other power games to play???

I like.. just push the mmeory away. I walk by the gay bar where i happened in the bathroom for the first time and i barely flinch. I pretend it was a dream ya know, like hahah so pathetic of me. Having my drink spiked was better. it was just so horrible waking up the next day in a strange apartment and the man was like... nonchallent. He didnt say ANYTGHING and it delt like i was in a horror movie cuz he coukd if killed me, he could of done snuthing, i hate jo idea what haooened ro my body and i just left. Snd somethimes i think i see him but ik its not i just can barely remmeber his face and who the FUCK does that ????? But mayeb i flirted too kuch: but why did he do that? I orobably wouldnof rucked him if he just asked. Idk. The last time i was like 17 Or 18? Idk actually i dont think younger but not odler thna 19, but i actually fought back and then just fcking ran. He had a knife tho and now i had one too and thats the moral why i alwYs have a swiss army knife in my backoack.

Its jdut fucked io, right? I mean ppl have it worse. I couldnt imagine getting abused or raped by like.... ur uncle as a CHILD. Idk.

Im sad rn. How can i be sad on so many happy pills? For some reason i feel extra disgusting cuz its been so long since anyone could use me. I dont like being used and at this point i am DONE with sex i just like attention. And letting someone fuck me is great attenrion. And man, fuck fetish jate, i love ppl w:l/ fetishes becasue its way more rhan shoving their musty dick in me. I dont have a foot fetish in the slightest - but u wany to massga emy feet and suck my toes? Go to town boy

I miss my ex. We didnt talk about this much hut thats my oroblem. She had no sinilar experience but she is very emoathetic and i trust her. Like she didnt make me feel weak or pathetic when i disclosed it ya know. I just said “i have had some unconseual sex experiences and they rly never come into play but i’ll lyk if they do” and shes was just like “omg lets talk about it when ur ready, no pressure, idk why u didnt tell me earlier but im so sorry” and it made me nut just feeling ~validated~ like that.

Well im gling to sleep. Enjoy ky tangenr. I cant type jfc thays a bad sign but hey!!!! If i dont remember writinh this, it will still exist, and i can read it weeks later and go “damn. I rly was numb yhay night if i was able to so chillly talk about some of the worst events if my life”

[acetarisborn]

I know I don't have emough followers to care but anyways, have this!

All I ask of you - The Phantom of the Opera

Oh No - Marina and the Diamonds

Hall of Fame - The Script

Devil town - Cavetown

I need to know - Jekyll & Hyde

Carnaval del barrio - In the Heights

Karma - AJR

Planetary (GO!) - My Chemical Romance

The Greatest Show - Panic! At The Disco

Confident - Demi Lovato

10 song chain game

I was tagged by @backtothebog in this, thank you for tagging me because I hardly get interactions with people on here besides likes/reboots/personal messages, but I love to! So this is lovely. Also music is apart of my souuuul.

Rules: usually you can find out a lot about someone by their taste in music. Put your music in shuffle and list the first ten songs that come up, then tag ten people.

Panda - Desiigner

Joanne - Lady Gaga

Stoop So Low - Alextbh

Wake lions - Pop evil

Old time rock and roll - bob Seger and the silver bullet band

Hard feelings/loveless - Lorde

Chains - nick Jonas

Bad guy - Billie Eilish

New rules - dua lipa

Guiltless - dodie

Im tagging @tamatomatoa @not-passionate-enough-for-this @tater-haught @appabison @a-r0se-by-any0ther-name @haughtkhakis