#anyways (grisps him)

[jinxedjay]

the birth of a new god.

[splynter]

This is @bl00dblight’s bastard called Chargrin. I’m beating him up as we speak and rattling him in a jar

[skybristle]

rrrRRAAAH RAH RAH RAAAGHHH

MY OURPLE AND MY BLUE. OK

AAAA AAA YELLS WHAT WHAT WHAT ??? IF YOU DRAW MY FUCKERS YOU NEED TO SHOW MEEEE WHAT THE FUUCKKKk

[autistickaitovocaloid]

I'm still stuck in phone hell so here's a snow leopardboy Kaito that I'm going to fix up when I've got my tablet again.

[solarroseart]

Thank you all...... for seeing my vision

someone....... please........... see my vision

[soratsuart]

grisps yyou

CHrome lore

Twst and kingdim

LooLookLooks

It did sent :)

Warning for long ass rant, there is So Much I got to say about Chrome <3

Also here are some YEARS OLD REFERENCES JEEZ I NEED TO DRAW THEM AGAIN, these are from before I even used my current art program 😭

Anyway, long rant under cut, you've been warned! (Also, Salt, I know you don't know much about KH, so feel free to ask me any clarifications you might need)

Chrome comes specifically from Union X because it's my favourite game story wise (gameplay it's KH3 if anyone cares) and they were originally supposed to take the role of the Player with only a few adaptations for their story. Many things have changed since then, although whether they become a character outside the player or if they still take up their role but with many changes and rewriting to fit their story it's something I still have to sort out.

Anyway, on to their story. Chrome comes from Not The Best background, which is reflected in their personality. They are initially a very gloomy and depressed kid, very insecure and shy. They were rather lonely and an easy target for darkness, which is something they struggled with for the better part of their first arc. Things start to change for them when they become Gula's apprentice (super self indulgent, I know, don't @ me)

There is A LOT that happens from here as it follows the events of the game, but it would be too long to explain. I guess most important stuff to mention is Chrome befriends or at least meets all the relevant characters for after the war BEFORE the war happens, so they're friends with them all, but specially Ephemer (influence from them originally following the main story as the player character), in fact, he's the one who gifts them their scarf! They also have many insecurities and expectations on them which they carry through the entire story and play a big role by the end of it all.

Long story short, they end up like the Player character only in their case they did actually get possessed by the Darkness. However, due to reasons, they manage to end up in the present time. How??? Well... Remember that one time we thought we get reincarnated as Xehanort??? Yeahhh, that's too good of a concept to not use, so I kinda took it and adapted it. Basically, their heart time travels to the future when Xehanort is born and they pull a Ventus, hiding inside his heart for a long time while their body falls into the darkness as a Nobody and they remain in the Realm of Darkness wandering alone without being attacked since they don't have a heart until KH 1, when they manage to cross back to the Realm of Light and end in Traverse Town, although without any memories except their name (they also had an encounter with Aqua at some point, but not very important rn)

From here they're helped a bit and through interactions with others they start to form a new heart. Their biggest connection initially is with Riku since they feel a strange familiarity with him (gee, I wonder why), which is great for Maleficent since she wins another pawn (they don't trust her). Of course, they come around and along with Riku they help Sora close the Door to Darkness, and later on end up in Riku and Mickey's team for CoM and KH2.

There are a lot of events happening here but they're too long to explain. The main take away is that, as Chrome's new heart forms and they regain their emotions and personality, they become motivated by the wish of recovering their memories and finding out who they are and where they came from. Throughout the saga they discover more and more about themself, their relation to Xehanort, their missing original heart and the people from the very few memories they manage to recover (specially after Castle Oblivion). By the end of KH3 and Xehanort's defeat they recover their original heart and theoretically their memories too, although that last part is happening at a very slow pace that is making them impatient and anxious, but they're doing better at least.

Now, as for their crossover with Twisted Wonderland? I like to imagine it happens either in the one year Kairi is asleep revisiting her memories or directly after MoM ending and Riku leaving for Quadratum. I imagine Chrome somehow finds this strange world (maybe fictional much like Winnie The Pooh book?) that is Twisted Wonderland, a world where the villains they knew succeeded, and are alarmed by it, so they're sent to investigate by Master Yen Sid and find a big focus of darkness within NRC, which is why they decide to enroll there (originally taking the role of Yuu again, but sometimes I like to mix them with Yor being there too).

Now, Chrome is not the same sad kid they once were. They're now a Keyblade Master, much more confident and cheerful than before. They're kind and soft spoken and the kind of person who screams "should have gone to RSA" with their every action, but alas. They are trying to investigate this new world as they deal with NRC students, the history that is so different from what they know and the darkness lurking in the shadows, and througj it all help thesw characters who are in the middle of everything while trying to get their memories back. I include Heartless and more KH lore for this specific crossover tho, so it's always fun to see some charas like Crowley and Lilia recognize what a Keyblade is from legends (also, I'm so tempted to say Crowley's stuff is a Keyblade since it looks like one anyway, but I have no clue what to do with that idea so it remains an idea)

Anyway, that is a very, VERY, summarised summary of Chrome's story and their appearance in Twisted Wonderland

[shirogane-oushirou]

ROOO HAIIII :3

i've been wanting to draw you something for a while hehe <3 YALL WERE SO FUN TO DRAW you put so much detail in your hair it was fun to do <333

YOU ARE SUCH A SHINING LIGHT IN THIS COMMUNITY you're always SO nice to everyone and leave the sweetest tags whjakrh ;w; and your ARTTT AND LORE PLEASEEEE I LOVE SEEING/READING ALL OF IT IT MAKES ME SO HAPPY!!!! anyway ren and ro forever and ever <333

(second ask: I FORGOT TO LINK THE BASE IN THE MAIN ASK WHOOPS)

MELI THIS IS SO STINKING CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SHAKES HIM GRISPS HIM!!!!!!! i keep looking at it all of the time on my phone and when i go through my drafts and it makes me smile and go :'D so so wide waaaAAAAAH. AUGHHHHHH.

his little :3 mouth is so adorable and so him, and you added my sweater!!! and his eyelashes (and my eyebags ksdjnjkn) and his arm hair ehehehe you packed so many details into such little chibis ;w;

and PLEASEEEE that's so sweet omg??? seeing those comments whenever i saw this in my drafts really hit hard... i really hope i can start this year off right and get back to leaving long tags, bc i love love love talking about ppls art and writing so much!!! i adore seeing how much care and thought people put into their work and how much they clearly adore their f/os and growth over time and and and... you and others always leave such lovely tags on my posts AND other peoples', and i always get emotional reading the tags on everyone's art bc like. That's Community Babey!! and i'm just happy to be a part of it!!!!! ;w;

truly again thank you meli!!!!!! this is shoooooo kyoooooot auuuuuuu i can't get over them!!!! when i feel better oh you better be ready it's so joever when i do some art revenge who said that :3c

[tobibius]

WAIT

GRISPS YOU

BEFORE THE FIRST LIGHT IS YOUR DOING ?!!,!,!,!,! MY GOD ILL EXPLODE I LOVE THAT FIC SO MCUH YOU DOBT EVEN KNOW FUCK I THINK ABOUT IT CONSTANTLY ITS SO GOOD I LOVE THEM ALL SO NCUGFSGSGSHB sorry anyway um anyway

AUGH GRISPED yeah it's my doing teehee...

this is genuinely wild too, because your art's how i got into arthur lester and his three boyfriends in the first place actually. and made me go "hmmm. how on earth did they end up together when there's so many THINGS and SECRETS holding them back? i want to write that Very Complicated Situation"

and then the um. ensuing noel enthusiasm happened. so i had to write about him, and then i was like what if i combine these ideas?

THE RAMBLER sorry. but THANK YOU!! i'm struggling on ch 4 i'll be honest BUT the massive amount of support and praise is the most motivating thing in the WORLD. thank you for the shout-out before, i nearly died LMAO

i have a mini little holy ghosts prequel thing planned too (like a oneshot type mini) which i might write while i'm struggling, we'll see. we'll see.

[baddog-nobiting]

never apologize for yapping *grisps you tightly* these are soo good OTL

dipper asking to be king made me laugh so hard i can see it so clearly XD maybe mabel lets him be king on his birthday. which is also her birthday so she still gets to be queen anyways ;)

Stan and Mabel fangirling together is adorable 🥰 stan would be all shy and hesitant but indulges her not expecting to like it as much as he does. it's also something fun they can do together when the kids are in California and the grunks are at sea.

im thinking about a scene where mabel and stan are binging bridgerton or something and mabel is cock warming stan while curled on his lap, maybe her panties are pulled to the side or she is just going command under her nightshirt

i would be so interested to hear what you think ford and mabel get up to!? stan and dipper are sooo not jealous about how well they are matching each others freak lmao brooding off in another room

lmao now im thinking of that scene from "forgetting sarah marshall" where the 2 couples are having sex in adjacent rooms and start having a sex off

stan and dip get jealous and naturally turn it into a competition.

the mabel on my shoulder wants attention so have some mabel centric pinecestot4

stan and mabel always have silly and sweet sex. stan is so gentle with her and shes the one that pushes for more more more. she usually ends up on top cause shes like an Energizer bunny that can jst keep bouncing. they always finish with big hug and a high five

Mabel and Dipper are sibling soulmates. they have a bond nothing can break and fuck all the time but they still date other people. however dipper is her forever love and is always there to comfort her through a breakup. they do a looot of exploring together. just figuring out how their bodies work together. theyve always been doing it. didnt even know it was wrong until their parents had to tell them not to do certain things with each other. and even after they kept doing it just in secret. they are my fav for omo so send me an ask if ur curious 👉👈

mabel and ford is something that i would LOVE to see more of. i think she and ford are so similar in unexpected ways and i think ford would be DELIGHTED to bond with his niece, letting himself be soft and vulnerable after 30 years of survival mode. she is his princess and he will do anything for her. they play princess tea party all the time. Ford makes such a dashing prince. mabel sometimes gets intimidated by how handsome ford is. yes hes nerdy and reminds her of her dip dop but at the end of the day hes still a real life grizzled action hero. and that make her heart POUND -and pussy wet-

also this is so self indulgent but sometimes mabel does this thing where she declares herself queen of the castle and her knights have to do whatever she says and stan dipper and ford follow her around like ouppies all day never even letting her feet touch the floor.

this has been a mabel approved post!

[tomsrebeleyebrow]

🌸for Haz dating a short reader and both of them very involved in PDA and not caring if the boys around the house during naughty time

Okay. So. I’m legit 5’1 (around 1m56~57- so clearly someone you qualify as being “petite”. And now THIS request? That. Is. Soooooo ME OH MY— *breath in* taller guys are a turn on 🤤🥵 (not like it’s too difficult to be taller than me anyway) oh and poke to @tom-holland-is-spiderman because petite gang 😂

Cla’s 1.4k summer week party

Being short can be a big disadvantage regarding lots of things and situations

But oh boy does Harrison loves your height

Perfect proportions and beautiful curves where he loves them

And you being tiny just makes it easier for him to lift you for no reason like it was nothing (I mean it IS nothing for him because of that biceps he got— *cough*)

Lifting you to kiss you or to walk somewhere else… or just to have his hands on your ass

You guys have no problem with PDA, it was a natural matter ever since day one

And it keeps going even now with holding hands, cuddling anywhere, stolen kisses (including hot make out sessions) and, well, basically having your hands on each other

And this all the damn time, for the non so pleasure of the other boys Harrison shares his flat with

But you both didn’t care, like zero shit given there

When a simple kiss starts to become an intense make out smooth, you bet Tom, Harry and Tuwaine would just “EWW STOP IT AND GET A ROOM YOU FREAKS” their way away from you two

Oh and it’s just the same when you’re getting horny, be it when chilling in the garden with everyone or simply watching a movie at night

Your hands would just be attracted to the other’s body, sensual smirks and obscenely dirty whispered comments shared until you or Harrison can’t go like this any longer

He would just take you back to his bedroom, not even locking the door behind because he knows that his fellas know to not disturb, and make you scream so loud while pounding hard into you for a long time

Taking you against a wall is also in his top 3 favorite positions because of your petite frame

And you don’t care about being too vocal because you know it excites your boy even more

Harrison’s big hands never leave your body

He just loves roaming them along your curves (and more) and appreciate how you’ve got the perfect body to fit into his grisp

… and I need to fuckin’ calm down holy moly I need to confess all of my sins 😳😂🔥

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[nottswitch]

Sandy Waltz

This is the second imagine for my New Year Celebration event, which also happens to be my first fic in 2018! It was requested by a lovely @padfootagain for Caspian with the following prompts:

11. “Can I steal you for a dance?

46. "I accidentally fell in love with you. And I don’t think there’s a way I can undo it.”

51. “Do we kiss or do we not?”

They’re gonna be written in italics.

It was also asked for this imagine to be cute, so I tried my best at this :)

I hope you’ll enjoy!

Nothing was better than the Grand Royal Ball, held annually in Cair Paravel. Weeks before it the castle’s staff started preparing the Big Hall for the great event. Everyone have been talking about it for days, discussing who will wear what, who are they going with and what not. You weren’t an exception. As a member of one of the most respected Narnian families, you received quite a lot of invitations from men, just as wealthy as you. But you politely declined one after another, saying you already have someone. The truth was, you were waiting for a certain person to make a move, although you highly suspected that he wouldn’t do it, that another lady will be by his side that evening. He was only a friend of yours after all, why should he invite you?

And there was also another difficulty — he was The King of Narnia, Caspian X, your childhood friend, best friend you could even say. And you had feelings for him, which he was very unlikely to return.

When did this happen, you couldn’t tell. Once, during on of your evening walks through the woods, you looked at him and all of a sudden felt butterflies taking over your stomach. You heard your friends talking excitedly about falling in love but never experienced these feelings yourself. And now you were struggling because this thing called love turned out to be very strong. Every time you met Caspian, you acted much more shy than you did before. Every time he smiled at you, you blushed like crazy which never happened to you before. Every time he touched your hand or gave you a friendly hug, you felt shivers running down your spine.

Not that it really bothered you, but another ‘benefit’ of love did. It was constant jealousy. If you saw Caspian with another woman, you clenched your jaw and looked as if you were feeling extremely unwell. If he smiled at her, it was even worse. Then you weren’t sure if tonight you won’t find yourself bombarding innocent sea water with small stones, bursting out all your despair.

Love didn’t feel pleasant for you all in all. And upcoming Grand Royal Ball surely wasn’t making it easier.

Caspian hasn’t invited you when the Ball was officially announced. Caspian hasn’t invited you a week after. Then two weeks after. You did talk about the Ball though, quite often, maybe too often for your liking. Caspian always asked you who are you going with and was always surprised by another “no one”.

“But so many men would sell their souls to accompany you!” he exclaimed every time.

And you thought that you don’t need those souls, you only craved for one.

Days went by and Caspian didn’t hear you asking him the same question as he did. Honestly speaking, you simply didn’t want to hear the answer. You were completely sure that there is a woman. No doubt. And this information from Caspian’s mouth would totally break your heart.

The very day before the Ball you and Caspian went on your traditional evening walk and the question about the Ball partner rose again.

“It couldn’t be so!” Caspian exclaimed in surprise. “The Ball is tomorrow and you’re still alone for it!”

You just shrugged in response and a sad smile appeared on your lips.

“No, it’s not how things should go! I know how determined you are, Y/N, and all your words about the right person, I know them too. But can you forget about it, for Aslan’s sake, at least for the Ball? Or you’ll end up going there alone!”

'How stupid are you!’ you wanted to shout at him but didn’t as it would be reasonably weird, shouting at the King while several people around were still there.

“Maybe I won’t go at all,” you mumbled at yourself but Caspian seemed to hear you anyway.

“What? Are you for real?” He was truly shocked.

You just looked away and didn’t reply.

What would you say anyway? That you loved him with all your heart and it scared you so much that you were ready not to attend the Ball just not to see him with someone else? No, not the right words for now.

Later this evening you got invited again, by Lord Grispe. You were so desperate by that moment that you accepted his invitation right away. You saw his satisfied look and immidiately regretted your decision, but it was too late.

So, you were going to the Ball with Lord Grispe, who was most probably the most boring person in the whole world. You understood it as soon as he met you by the doors of the Big Hall, offered you his hand and since then you didn’t hear a single thing from him. He was grinning like a winner to everyone who gave the two of you jealous looks, he introduced you to his friends — you definitely didn’t need to be introduced as everyone knew you, but Lord Grispe wouldn’t miss a chance to put you on display.

He was totally pleased by the way everyone looked at you. But he wouldn’t remain so for long if he saw just one person. Just one person, whose eyes were filled not only with simple jealousy but also pure anger.

This person was indeed The King himself.

Caspian was totally unsure about why didn’t he invite you in the first place. Now that he was standing in the corner, drinking the best Narnian ale to be possibly made, he didn’t find any good reasons for that and was becoming more and more disappointed with himself. He was scolding himself with such words that no one would expect to hear from The King Caspian X.

How could he came with Lady Mulsei, who he didn’t even know a lot about? Yes, she was close to the Royal Court, but not to Caspian.

What was worse, he knew the answers. Deep down he knew them all. But he was too afraid of them to admit it, even in his own mind.

Caspian had feelings for you and they were certainly the ones people called 'being in love’.

He watched you from his place and almost physically suffered, identifying a fake smile on your face and your eyes full of frustration. Caspian’s partner wasn’t present anywhere near him so a thought crossed his mind. Something pushed him forward and he rushed in your direction.

“Can I steal you for a dance?”

You shivered when you heard such a familiar voice. Your eyes met Caspian’s and he slightly winked, offering you his hand. As Lord Grispe wasn’t the one to argue with His Highness, you soon were dragged from the Big Hall.

“Where are we going? I though that a round of waltz was supposed to be now in the Hall.”

“We’re going somewhere better than the Hall.”

Another wink followed that sentence and you felt like you would pass out if Caspian does this one more time.

You breathed in fresh humid air as you two reached the seaside. It didn’t take you long, you were admiring a beautiful sunset in just five minutes after leaving the castle. When you looked at Caspian, you noticed that he had a gentle smile on his face and couldn’t help but smile yourself. After all, you would be pleased with any place as long as he’s by your side.

"Mind having a dance here?" Caspian asked, turning to you.

You merely shook your head and soon you could've been found slowly dancing on the shore, without any music, your long dress getting covered in wet sand very soon. But at this point you didn't really care. All that mattered were Caspian's eyes locked in yours.

"Don't we look stupid?" you whispered, your voice going husky all of a sudden.

"We probably do, but do you care?" Caspian answered, leading you into another round of waltz.

"Not really."

"That's what I'm saying," he nodded with a smirk on his lips.

For some while you kept silently moving along the seaside, but then Caspian interrupted the silence that settled between the two of you. It wasn't uncomfortable at all, but he felt that right now was just a perfect moment to confess something.

"Y/N, do you know how much of a fool I am?" he began. You looked up at him, frowning.

"Why?"

"I didn't invite you to the Ball, can you imagine?"

"I certainly can," you replied, frowning even harder. Your heartbeat went stronger and you prayed Caspian won't feel it.

"And I'm probably the stupidest man in Narnia. You look gorgeous today, Y/N, and I regret not having you by my side tonight."

It was unhealthy for your heart to be beating so fast, you suspected. You didn't notice that you stopped dancing a few minutes ago. Your knees went weak and you tried you best to stay still.

"And actually, I regret not having you by my side for the whole life. Previous life, I mean. Well, I had you by my side but not in a way I wanted to. You know..." Caspian completely confused himself and fell silent, blushing hard.

"W-what?" you mumbled, not believing your ears.

No, you weren't making his confession easy at all.

"I accidentally fell in love with you. And I don't think there's a way I can undo it," Caspian whispered, nervously biting his lower lip afterwards. "See what I mean now?"

You absolutely weren't ready to hear those words. What was more surprising, Caspian spoke your mind. If you ever considered admitting your feelings straight to his face, it would be the exact words you would say.

Caspian was terrified by the silence that followed his words. He suddenly wanted to take his words back. What if you didn't like him? Then it meant that he ruined your friendship forever.

But instead of answering you looked at his lips which he was still biting. You needed all your courage to say what you wanted to.

"Do we kiss or do we not?"

You gasped at your own words when you heard them actually blurting out of your mouth. But Caspian merely heaved a relieved sigh and smiled, his cheeks still red a bit.

"Well, if you want to," he replied and leaned closer to you. You didn't have time to respond as he put a gentle kiss on your lips, closing his eyes.

Another round of sandy waltz followed. A couple dancing on the beach to no music did look slightly weird. But this couple had no care about it whatsoever.

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[aquivxres]

✧ ᴋᴀᴛʜᴇʀɪɴᴇ & ᴄʜᴀʀʟɪᴇ — @paradisals​

“look I know you have the maturity level of a six year old, but is there anyway we could bump that up to the very least someone in their late teens.” katherine snapped quickly at the male that sat beside her in the restaurants booth. katherine was always a little brash, to say the least, however tonight she was especially on edge at that made her a little quicker to snap. her best friend and probably the love of her life had just announced not only was he back in town but he had a fianceé that he definitely didn’t have when he left for his business trip. it was like the news of him telling her rang in her ears, as if someone was screaming it through a megaphone. ....and my fianceé este malachi let the words fall from his lips with such a causality she almost spat out her overpriced martini. it was like those words had suddenly made her realize everything she could of had was slipping out of her grisp, not that it was hers to begin with. malachi and her had always walked a very thin line of close friends to something a little bit more, yet now when he revealed he was going to marry someone else it became so apparent she preferred that latter. which leads us to how she ended up her, with him, and the him was charlie. the two of them shared an acquaintance that sometimes bordered on friendship yet always seemed to have an annoyance aspect to it. so when it came to trying to think of someone to make malachi jealous she thought of him, and honestly it wasn’t as if she had many more prospects. so here they were, fake dating, and waiting for her friend and his fianceé to arrive. “also could you pretend that you like me more, we aren’t fully anyone, here put your arm around me.” she said grabbing his arm and draping it over her shoulder.

[peyoon]

April 19, 2017.

♡ ㅋㅋㅋ Hi, it’s Yoony here ♡

I’ve finally decided to write a diary to express my feelings and to freely talk about my day without any limitations. I’m really bad at keeping up with such kind of work but I sure hope I won’t regret doing this one. 

The weather has been really pretty lately, it rains a lot here in Jeonju. It’s an ironic thing to say but I sometimes miss my old house, it was really hot at times but at nights it was just really quiet and cold. Good thing about Jeonju is, I can go ahead and walk alone at nights without having any worries. For someone like me, who has to deal with severe insomnia ever since I was younger, it’s such a blessing that I can come out at night, mainly because I just can’t get a hold of myself at midnight and listening to music doesn’t work nowadays, so getting myself tired works just fine.

Right now it’s really early, 3:44am, I’ve come to a point where I wonder what am I doing with my life...  ㅎㅎㅎ. For the past two days I’ve been trying to fix my mind into composing a song which melody dances around my brain but I just can’t portray it at all  ㅜㅜ I get frustrated at times like this, so I try my best to go outside and walk around the area before I hit someone on the streets  ㅋㅋ.

This is a picture I took early at midnight, I really like it when the streets are full of vehicles like this, and their wheels just roll all over the floor. It’s a nice sound to listen to when you want to be calm at night. Some drivers like to listen to music while traveling around, so I can get a grisp of that as well. Today I heard a song in specific that I haven’t heard in a while but I can’t seem to remember the name...  (•¯ ∀ ¯•) not like I’d be able to ask him anyways.

Ah! Yesterday in the afternoon I also started my 2 month of chemotheraphy. Time sure flies away fast... I still get a little nervous whenever I see the doctor get closer with those large needles, but I’m trying to endure the pain at all costs, after all I’ll be under this treatment for over a year if it goes well so it’s better to get used to it rather than think about it too much. Thankfully I haven’t felt the side effects but I can’t be victorious yet, they usually come along hours after the treatment is done. In the meantime, I’ll eat delicious foods before I regret it. 

I wanted to tag along the video practice I had for the song... Tumblr won’t let me load it as expected...  ㅠㅠ I swear it’s coming out prettily! I even sang for it...

Right, I finally got to talk with my brother. Some small talk that I actually would have preferred not to have even though I’ve been looking forward to it since a while already, but that’s how life is. He said that my mother never said at any point that I have them all blocked on my social medias. I don’t know who to believe anymore... On one side I have the family I lived with for my whole lifetime but then there are my aunts whom I’m living with currently and will probably be doing so for a long time ahead. My head... I guess I can just wait for my dad to come back home so we can talk about it calmly.

On other news! I’m going back to school soon. Most people my age would get overly excited about it since they get to know a lot of people and walk around the campus, but I’m going to attend school online. My dad asked me about it for many weeks... My reasons behind this decision... It’s hard to explain that both your condition and your social anxiety won’t let you do anything the same way you’d do before... ;;

At the same time, I sat down for some hours yesterday at night while just staring at my father. Even though we didn’t see each other for plenty of years, and barely know each other, we’ve got to get a long quite nicely over this month. We talk comfortably with each other even though sometimes he gets easily distracted so I have to repeat myself over and over again... But it’s okay, I don’t mind doing so, since he’s someone I can rely on. I thought about how respetable he is as well, such a role model for me these days. He could of have refused to have me home but he took me inside with the doors wide open and all kinds of care and love. I’m very thankful about it. 

On the other hand, I still can’t understand one of my aunts in particular. I get along nicely with everyone on this house, even with the kids, but with an exception on this aunt and Hani. Hani is a little bit younger than me, still not legal, but she’s allowed to do whatever she wants even though the only thing she does is go to school, iddle around and be on her phone the whole time. When told to come inside after seeing her boyfriend, she won’t. She really does nothing but no one complains about it... It’s frustrating. When I help with the chores at home, I’m still treated like I’m useless. Suddenly, it feels like I got out of home to come to the same place. 

I took a short break while I was typing this just so I could get some fresh air outside. Instead, I got to enjoy a beautiful dawn from today. I’m sure Kate would like this kind of photography, even though I’m really bad at it ㅋㅋㅋ there are many things I have to take care of today, but I’ll try my best to keep up with this diary from now on.

Until then, happy vibes!  ♡