#anyway… back to being depressed! | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

lynsburner · 3 months ago

Text

Popping in to say now why the fuck are you publishing what is very much a fic without even the serial numbers filed off like blatant likeness the bRAVERY the DELUSION babe

#this is coming from someone who writes this shit #keep it on ao3 #or wattpad or whatever the fuck that’s called #this is Harry styles fan behavior… or like toxic Star Wars like babe #esp with that cover like thATS HIM?!?????? the bravery….#like if u write a story keep it in places they shouldn’t be finding it babesssssssss #also all those tropes made me laugh my ass off #also the name they used is just Hozier and Niall horan combined change my mind!!!!!#if you don’t know what I’m referring to just dm lmaooooooooooo #anyway… back to being depressed!#only cried 3 times today and once in public! hooooooraaaayyyy #lyn needs to stop talking

46 notes · View notes

mkzmerryfriend · 10 months ago

Text

*cracks knuckles* we know Tyler isn’t the original Clancy right? Y’all caught that? Clancy’s bishop was Keons, Tyler’s is Nico, and now “Clancy” is Tyler. Because “scaled and icy” is an anagram for “Clancy is dead” and that album was the one where dema was using Tyler’s popularity for their own purposes. Clancy failed to stop the cycle on his own, and despite already being used as a figurehead for dema, Tyler decided to take up the role of “Clancy” in the wake of what seemed like a total collapse of the Banditos. Their leader had been taken out, and now they had no one to organize them.

But Tyler taking on the name Clancy isn’t him taking on the role of leader or even organizer. He is showing us (the Banditos) that we all can be our own inspiration, we don’t need a figure to follow, we don’t need a leader to lead us. We can do this, fight dema, ourselves.

Y’all got that, right?

#twenty one pilots #twenty øne piløts #tøp #Clancy #tøp clancy #I just don’t ever see anyone talking about the lore connections and I need to know that I’m not the only person making these connections #bc I remember the countless interviews where Tyler reiterated that he is not Clancy and the letters are not written by him #and in the letters clancy explains how each person gets a bishop assigned to them and his was keons #and in Nico and the niners tyler sings he’ll always try to stop me that Nicolas Bourbaki #therefore the bishop we see in the videos interacting with tyler is Nico and not keons #let alone the fact that Clancy describes keons as kind and gentle and Nico seems very forceful in comparison #and don’t forget this is all a metaphor or allegory for depression and mental illness #Clancy’s bishops being kind and caring while Tyler’s is scary and forceful is representing the different ways mental illness can menifest #maybe it feels like it’s trying to help you but it’s actually just keeping control over you #or maybe it scared the shit out of you but you don’t know how to fight back #because both kind of have a point #anyway #pls let me know if this was new information or if I’m preaching to the choir

334 notes · View notes

moeblob · 2 months ago

Text

Yeah! I haven't read any fics focusing on them but I have seen that they exist! And also there's like a five sentence interaction in a fic I read ages ago that lives rent free in my brain. I think about it all the time when I draw Sixty.

#detroit become human #captain allen #rk800 60 #yeah yeah the fic is definitely not about them but that little exchange is on repeat #thats the menace to society i need #someone who pulls a technically shes older than me therefore its within my rights to fight back #about an eight year old he has met one (1) time who threw a water balloon at him #granted in the fic there are adjectives used that would be less than sunny but the dialogue i used here is directly from it #so its only fair to link the fic lmao #hello once again saying i was reading fics for this game way before i actually played it so my formed thoughts #are v different than had i played it first ... and honestly im happy with the outcome !#i think i was able to enjoy the game more by realizing the ship i was reading about truly just didnt exist in game at all #and also holy moly the dbh fic writers are really good at writing anxiety and depression im in awe of how they word things #anyway here you go anon thank you for making sure i knew ! as i am constantly not a knower i like being told things i might not know #what if i started drawing for fics ive read what then would people who wrote them appreciate fanart five years later

82 notes · View notes

lunarharp · 6 months ago

Text

played dragon age 2...just simple scribbles

#dragon age tag #i doubt that will see much use again..but who knows. vvv rambling below #weird game..the characters dialogue stuff and ending were good tho :')#i've played some of the first game but it kept crashing. i knew already despite knowing nothing that this guy was going to be my type #it doesnt feel right making video game art any more bc games like this end up feeling really personal - an experience that happened to me #if i design the main character a bit and fall in love then..that happened to me..i can't make Fan Art of that..only ive been through that..#like i cant make fanart of my dear companions in bg3 despite it having been a huge part of my heart in the last year #almost 1000 hours of playtime in something i can barely talk about bc it means too much.... lol #tons of ideas and conversations and extra thoughts and scenes and emotions about all the incredible times i've been through in bg3 #and the maelstrom just rotates around intensely in my own heart forever...but that's ok too...that is so precious to me #but fortunately i already knew people that have played this game and talked/drew abt it recently so it was saved from that for me #sharing scribbly fanart on my Blog is a way to capture the feeling just after experiencing something so it has good points #witch hat atelier escapes that by not being a GAME. games are so immersive. but my wha art & feelings are incredibly immersive too #which makes it difficult sometimes now. i live a complicated and emotional life <3 i am not suited to fandom <3 #my character ended up looking so much like oru without me realising that's what i was doing. Kind bearded fireball throwing gay mage. Hmm.#falling for a sad white hair memory trauma fellow that keeps you at a tragic distance. Hmmmmmm.#i see also how very much bg3 is inspired by stuff like dragon age now lol so i'm glad i experienced it. I WANT MY KIRKWALL LIFE BACK...#so dated though as well and unpleasant at times (the city and the dismal atmosphere was depressing.) i hate violence/horror..#bg3 is SOOOO very dismal but it feels like I am killing people and going through horrors because i have to survive i have to be free #Well anyway. ahh it's so refreshing to fall in love. my gay journey continues...

106 notes · View notes

bleep-bloop-boo · 10 months ago

Text

guys what if i hc will's birthday in the winter?

You know the hc of him having seasonal depression? What if i hc him hating celebrating his bday bcuz he never sees the point of celebrating by the time it rolls around and he never has enough spoons to deal with a party? what then??

#am i projecting onto Will again?#maybe...#but whos gonna stop me! :DD #this is on top of it being lonely to celebrate without his siblings ofcc #anyways i should go back to sleep :((#good nightt #will solace #will solace angst #will solace has seasonal depression #percy jackson #percy jackson and the olympians #heroes of olympus #trials of apollo #william andrew solace

95 notes · View notes

stillgotscars · 4 months ago

Text

.

#to the anon who keeps harassing me #i’m currently going through the worst chronic pain flare up i have ever experienced #and my depression has crept right back in as a result #i do not have the energy to engage with someone who’s being unreasonably combative beyond this post #so keep sending messages all you want #that’s your prerogative #but i’d highly suggest finding something much better to do with your time #anyway that’s all #and to anyone else who’s reading this: i hope you’re all okay and taking care of yourselves 🩷#personal

27 notes · View notes

deadandphilgames · 9 months ago

Text

happy phanniversary to all whose first dnp video was basically im gay

#my life changed 5 years ago #it’s so odd to look back at it now #i found Dana story comforting because he was 28 when he came out to his family #and i was like woah�� i can wait to tell them?#ive since come out and moved out #i was also soooooo lonely. worst depression of my life just being 19 and not over the horrors of high school lesbian situationships #it took me like 8 months after watching dnp to actually interact with tumblr #before I was a lurker #and everyone was so lovely <3 #anyways. thanks dan for being gay

45 notes · View notes

kaisollisto · 2 months ago

Text

“Soooo,” Ava can’t stop herself from dangling dangerously over the stool, “anything that I shouldn’t be around?” She doesn’t quite want to mention the time she blew out the power in the area when she had tried her first greenhouse strawberry. The sucker was juicy and the perfect blend of tartness. It’s not Ava’s fault everything about it made her combust. She can still fondly recall the texture of its skin, firm yet pliable to her teeth. The juice staining her lips and teeth in such a hungry way she forgot she was starving.

Beatrice pauses, as if accessing the question with her entire body, her cells running around to come to one conclusion together. It was funny to watch unfold, the monotony of cleaning the hardware screeching to a stop for Ava’s question. All cells in motion halting for her.

Beatrice stands up stiffly, Ava shouldn’t notice, but she can see the way she favors her right side. She cringes at the memory, ripping through flesh, tearing and scraping her way out of Beatrice’s abdomen. She doesn’t want to linger on the feeling, the Halo pulsing in her veins, the adrenaline racing through her.

Beatrice walks around her in a methodical fashion, Ava almost expects her to reach out and touch her but it never happens. Ava’s nervous, there’s such a vulnerable thing about being seen. Maybe Beatrice will see Ava, the aloof lighthearted girl, or maybe she will see Ava. (Or worse, she’ll see something that Ava can’t). It’s unnerving, Beatrice eyes her in such a consuming way Ava almost feels like they’re about to go for a round 2.

Her heart races at the prospect and Ava can feel her bones start to lock up when Beatrice nods, “Me.”

Ava does fall out of her stool.