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mercymaker · 3 months ago

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bro, i need a vacation like

from my own mind

#life #don't you just get tired of it all lmao #the constant but this! but that! just the endless arguments i'm having with myself #and then the next day comes and i'm like “well that was dumb as fuck”#and yet just like that the cycle continues and i know it's dumb and not gonna last forever #but it does as sweet fuckall about the actual feeling #hate that i have to sit around and wait for things to change #damn it would be so nice to NOT be mentally ill #anyway time to try and distract myself #tbd probably #i'm just in a whiney baby mode

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momomallowart · 21 days ago

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Happy International Women's Day! I love women and I love Tomura so I drew him as a beautiful woman ʕ⁠ ⁠ꈍ⁠ᴥ⁠ꈍ⁠ʔっ💗

Close up 🫶💗

#I got distracted from my 4 other wips to draw this oops #I've been wanting to do a fem tomu for a while and i saw a really stunning red dress on Pinterest and the neuron fired #every time I draw lately I tell myself 'this will only be a sketch chill out' and every time I end up coloring/shading it #fabric is just really fun to shade 😔#and if i shade the fabric i gotta do the rest!#anyways Tomura is pretty no matter the gender and I'll definitely be drawing fem!tomu again #I've been trying to add more texture to the skin when I draw Tomura bc I saw some loser say hes pretty without all his dry skin so I'm #doubling down out of spite and love for my sweet eczema queen #I want to do more but I'm not sure how to get it across artistically but i am experimenting #anyways enjoy the food #my art #shigaraki tomura #tenko shimura #mha shigaraki #bnha shigaraki #shiggy #mha #bnha #my hero academia #bnha fanart #boku no hero academia #mha fanart #shigaraki fanart #genderbend #league of villains #lov #plf #paranormal liberation front #artists on tumblr

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demonslayedher · 10 months ago

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It's... it's ok, I didn't have my hopes up for fluffly filler content for every single Hashira or anything, or seeing any of Mitsuri's family or pets or flashbacks or additional antics or anything, I'm fine, I love the manga canon content done straight justice and brought to life, I'm not dealing with a sense of loss, I'm fine, everything is fine

#kny silliness #the distinct LACK of filler just makes me feel like I missed a step on the stairs that's all #but hey THAT HAD TO BE TAKEUCHI #and the big takeaway from the expansion on Iguro's training is that Tanjiro can't afford to be distracted by comrades in peril #... : )#this is fine #i had so thoroughly convinced myself that we wouldn't get this far this fast that I'm just feeling surprised how much plot we covered today #also I totally thought I've have a chance to try to go to waterfall meditation again before that episode aired lolz oh well #it's a very weather-dependent thing anyway #whose to say I shall ever have better timing with it

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spacemothes · 3 months ago

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hnnnngggg i have.. to finish secret santa drawings

i have to stay focused.. but

hnrbfhjiewjk

I want to write isafrin mermaid au

or write a fic where sif is obsessed with photography

or mayhaps

write a sif as spiderman fic

hnnnnnnnggggggg

torture

this is

hell

#we must stay focused #i must not get distracted by new fanfic ideas #i can't do this to myself #i have to stay focused #this is a commitment i promised myself i would finish #i can't back out 4 days before the big day #i must stay strong #anyways #I've now remembered why i hate drawing comics with a burning passion #might scrap that idea and just go for some loose drawings #isat #in stars and time #isat siffrin #quinn rambles #isat isabeau #ideas folder #< aka me trying (and probably failing) to remember all my fic ideas #i need to write all of them down or else i WILL forget #writing

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pyjamacryptid · 5 months ago

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I'm currently rewatching the dark tower for reasons (fic reasons), and when Gwen said "Morgana's enchanted it to protect me," it rang an alarm bell, this time 'round.

"[...]to protect me."

hm. huh. you don't say. interesting. As in, the knights are the enemy not the rescuers? hm. curious.

Maybe I'm reading too much into it (i mean, hey, that's the fun of it), but that choice of language stood out to me.

#I've got more thoughts on this but i don't really have the time for it rn #(i.e. I'm trying very very hard to focus on this fic im writing and im being so cool about it and not struggling at all lol)#so have this half-baked observation merlin fandom #but feel free to add if u guys got any thoughts 👀#anyway i've never been the biggest fan of the evil gwen arc #do I absolutely love angel coulby's acting throughout it? YES. that was incredible and she deserves all the awards #was the dolma an instant shot of serotonin and i clap like a happy seal when she waltzes onscreen? yes #was the arthur/gwen moment in the cauldron of arianrhod absolutely gorgeous and beautiful? yes #but do i think - narratively - that it took up far too much time in the final season that was better suited elsewhere? yes #i could write essays on where the attention should've been directed...#anyway yes fic writing i've distracted myself enough #bbc merlin #merlin #sir elyan #guinevere pendragon #bbc gwen #bbc elyan #the dark tower #merlin meta #meta #ren rambles #scheduled

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xxplastic-cubexx · 5 months ago

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what is your favorite thing about charles and your favorite thing about erik? separately, as in what you like most about their characters :]

a devious question this one is, my friend!!! it's hard enough for me to explain my thoughts cohesively, but having to pick ONE thing i particularly love is difficult. with characters like charles and erik, theres been so much done with their characters over the decades and so they have so many components to them that make them so interesting and fun to observe. BUT I TRY FOR YOU TODAY. under the cut i kinda ramble and the size of this text box makin me anxious

i think if i were to be simple and broad, what i enjoy most about charles is his determination to help others, even if he isn't really thanked and/or if people don't even like him. ofc, this isn't to say he hasn't done wrong- to be honest, the fact he does wrong/questionable things at times is another aspect of him i really enjoy, maybe because- broadly speaking- he's meant to be altruistic (intent vs outcome and all that). i don't know if that's super exciting to most people, but it is for me

as for erik, my reason for liking him is easier to explain tbh. To Be Simple And Broad, his progression from villain to antihero over the decades has been fun to observe (as much as i have so far anyhow) and analyze. i think to be a bit more specific, him using his rage and pain as justifications for his villainous actions is definitely what compels me the most: hurt people hurt and the sort, an idea i've always found interesting (something something vicious cycles and the like). yet now, he recognizes this wasn't really. A Just Thing To Do and is beginning to change that, which i enjoy

#snap chats #may you forgive me anon i always feel awkward explaining things AVELKJEAKLJ #i feel esp awkward cause i haven't read toooo much of the comics yet- like ive read. an ok amount so far krakoa wise #can you guys tell im fighting god himself to Not write a fuckin. NOVEL #im so sorry i have an over-explaining problem my mom was mean to me growing up but anyways #i definitely want to read more and more outside krakoa. the more i read the more im fascinated by these two and their history #but to continue my prattling. as if the three paragraphs above arent enough This Is Not A Thesis RELAX #i think a. 'poignant' moment i think adds to what i like about charles too is that soliloquy where he recognizes people dont like him #yet he could always be worse- like if he's bad now to others imagine if he really just said Fuck It All #it's simple but so am i whaddyagonnadoboutit. i mean that point itself could be discussed but i'm trying to keep this brief bear with me #i so bad want to know what issue that's from tho all i know is that it's from krakoa but i neeeed the whole context #i think like. an additional bullet point to charles i also like is his loneliness #and i say this cause- I Say From My Amateur-Psychology Armchair- it's a component of why he's so earnest to help #but im keeping this point in the tags until i can confidently verify that with myself after some more reading #Unfortunately a favorite pass time of mine is psychoanalyzing characters like why else you think i major in psychology smh #im going to force myself to cap the post here because i ended up typing like 20 more tags just rambling #and as i said id like to keep this simple and clean !!!!! i have sat here for like four hours answering this ngl #ignore the fact half that time was spent getting distracted by solitaire and riffling cards ok I Am Very Easily Distracted #but fr when it comes to charles and erik- charles esp imo #i feel like i need to write a whole paper just so i can mention the nuances of the characters and like. EVERYTHING #because again six decades is A Lot of time for writing decisions to be made and for their characters to change over time #im a glazer but i wanna be a nuanced glazer yk. is that glazing at that point-- w/e anyway #its a lot. so today you will have to tolerate a very Blah answer from me which i must apologize for #down the line once ive read a comfortable amount more varying from multiple eras maybe ill revisit this question more in depth #as of right now tho .... chat i wanna get legion of x so bad i skimmed it and hhhhhhhhim gonna throw UP #i need to shake charles like a ragdoll BUT ANYWAY. bye bye for now lovelies !!!!!!!#please forgive me if i didnt answer your question efficiently ..#here i am saying i wanted to keep the tag count brief and yet !!! jesus christ. shut up My God I REACHED THE TAG LIMIT

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selfinflictedgunshotwound · 9 months ago

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sorry for only saying this type of shit lately but i kinda wanna drive a car straight into a brick wall at the highest speed possible

#trying to keep it together so bad because i already know the problems and solutions and whatnot but i cannot do anything #i desperately just need to do something. accomplish any task. actually several would be nice. but i cannot stand just letting life go by #while i watch other people have the things i want. or even metaphorically living my dream like. that should be me why am i settling for thi #i hate even talking about this because i feel so stupid when i know it's not even a real tangible problem and that i actually DO have real #problems to tackle and the ability to do so but i'm choosing to be upset over the stupidest things i could possibly be sad about #and i can't even be sad about it in a normal way i'm cycling through like several different reactions to smth that isn't even real #or if it is real i literally do not have tanglible evidence for it one way or another like i'm driving myself insane for no reason #i can't even get catharsis because all i'm doing is digging a deeper hole for something i never should've gone back into in the first place #because i KNOW how i am i KNOW how i react to things and i still chose to do it lmao.#and i continue to choose to go through this shit instead of actively trying to change my life because... i'm lazy? and stupid? idk #negative self-talk isn't gonna get me to do anything either so let's just say i'm feeling particularly unmotivated like usual #i hated being a teenager but i really do miss when all my problems just amounted to 'someone was mean to me on tumblr today :(' or i failed #a test in chemistry or something. like i yearn for that simplicity becasue at this point all i'm doing is ruining my own life LMAO #i'm too scared to live i'm too scared to die so i just sit here and fantasize that life could be amazing if i wait #and i'll magically get everything i've ever wanted if i just wait long enough. and i know it isn't true and i still wait for it to happen.#because honestly like. i think deep down i am just convinced i will fail at anything i do when that shouldn't be what scares me.#what scares me should be never even allowing myself to fail because i never tried to do anything at all with myself or my life #like. wake the fuck up. get off your ass and put in the effort. learn some skills. gain independence and stability and discipline and do it #just live please i'm begging you just live so i can be happy don't i deserve to be happy... why am i not letting myself be happy #i'm literally keeping myself trapped in this negative feedback loop ON PURPOSE because teehee shiny toy #and it doesn't matter if the love is real it doesn't matter how i feel like i'm just using it as a distraction i can't say it's motivation #because it's barely motivated me at all. i have to start being realistic. 25 & just realizing you actually have to participate in your life #anyways. i've cried i've agonized i've pictured killing myself in 30 different ways. i think the only way i'm gonna feel better is #to just actually try this time without giving up. wish me luck

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aheathen-conceivably · 2 months ago

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oh if you're still taking sims then venessa jeong in 1920s or catarina lynx in 1960s

Hey Nonny, dear! These are SO good. I’ll add them to the list but I won’t lie to you, no promises I’ll get them done. I’ve been dealing with some chronic back pain that makes it painful to sit for really any period of time (RIP to using my PC) but also just makes my brain real ~foggy~

I’m definitely on the up and up so I’ve got them on the to-do list, but if I do manage to finally sit and play, I may work on some story posts instead. My apologies to you and anyone else who sent me one, I got a little over ambitious by posting that.

#posts game to distract myself from the pain #is too in pain to do it at all #feels guilty and avoids it further #why is the brain like this 🥲#anyway again I’m so sorry #I shall try! but so little time and so many ambitions #I have been wanting to resume story posts so badly but haven’t been able to sit up for like a week #RIP I hate being in my 30s #okay love yalllll #thank you Nonny ♥️#and one last time #…#I am sorry #gif warning #rambling heathen warning

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reineyday · 11 months ago

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here, have an excerpt of this mishanks fic that i just got back into writing (i wrote a lot of it back in feb). it's a bonded dreams au, but they don't realize for a long time that it's really them haha. :)) they are 11 and 15 in this snippet, and shanks is a lil hawkeyes fanboy. 🦅🗡

#rei rambles #rei writes #mishanks #akataka #so much of this fic is just meandering cuz i wrote a lot of it when i was occupying myself on planes or in airports #so like. if i had to draw the tension of this fic as a graph it'd basically be a straight line lmao. no tension only vibes.#but it's so much longer than im used to my fics being.#anyways i suppose i could use a distraction from worrying about my hand as well.#my doc apt is next week so im trying to save drawing for my most mandatory deadlines.#i already took last week off hoping it was just a one-time strain thing but my hand complained so loud after my draeing sesh yesterday 😭😭#so on break it is! hopefully whatever it is is manageable and i can still draw everything i want to when i want to 🥲🥲🥲

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byanyan · 3 months ago

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around but quiet. dread dread dread dread dread dread

#i love new years. a slap in the face of how i've come almost nowhere over the last year 🙃#sorry to keep being miserable on the dash adjgksh #just. feel like i'm back where i was in april. or teetering on that edge.#and that's the worst place i've ever been mentally.#anyway. hoping some distraction & mindfulness will lessen the horrible chill that runs thru my body any time i think too much.#if it does i'll try to actually do stuff. if not... idk.#i'm gonna. try to not post as much about ooc agony. just always feel this awful need to explain myself & apologize for being #so horrendously slow at everything adjgksh #love you guys. hope your day is treating you all well 💜#━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don’t @ me.#negative cw #personal cw #mental health cw

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angellayercake · 4 months ago

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