#anyways time to try and distract myself😔

[emily-mooon]

Me rn:

[purinfelix]

more joao felix pleasee 😔😔💞💞 ur girl is desperate

study buddy ｡˚✐~ joao felix

pairing: joao felix x reader summary: in which joao has to balance being both your boyfriend and study buddy warnings: none! w/c: 883

a/n: a little ironic that i'm procrastinating my final assignments by writing this but its motivaiton for myself okay!!! anyways hope you like this thank u sm for ur request <333

“Joao,”

“Hm?”

“Stop staring at me and focus, you have an exam to study for.”

You watched your boyfriend straighten up at your words, but not without a sly smirk spreading across his face at having been caught in the act of admiring you. Admittedly, it wasn’t something you weren’t used to by now - but it just wasn’t the time. Maybe if you were less stressed about the mountain of work and studying you had to do you might’ve even entertained him, but even so, your university library was no place for such things.

“I can’t help it, you’re distracting me,” he mumbled, turning back to the several open textbooks he had laid out in front of him - likely in an attempt to look like he was doing work. This elicited a small, shy chuckle from you, even though you were trying your best to maintain your firm demeanour.

“Well, you’re lucky anyways,” you hummed, “you’ll ace your exams no matter what. I, on the other hand, am practically screwed for this final.”

Now it was his turn to laugh, “You can’t be serious baby.” You turned to give him a look that made it clear you were as serious as you could get.

“You’ll be fine, you worry too much,” he sighed, scooting his chair a little closer.

“Easy for you to say,” you grumbled, gripping the pen in your hand even tighter as you worked on your notes.

It had become sort of a routine for the two of you ever since the semester started, these study dates. Whoever’s class finished first would rush off to secure a seat, your favourite being a pair of desks tucked away in some far corner of the massive library, in between tall shelves of books that hadn’t been touched in decades. Sure, you would muck around a little bit before hand - Joao always insisted on being your personal escort once your class finished, and somehow the two of you always ended up in a cafe on your way for a little ‘sweet treat’.

But it was convenient for the two of you, you got to see each other and spend time in each other’s company in a way that slotted neatly into both of your busy student schedules - plus, you could never figure out why but you seemed to work much better in your boyfriend’s company than you did alone. Even if you found yourself having to put up with his protests against studying multiple times throughout the session.

However what had been a fun little meet up in the earlier weeks of the semester had now become tense, with the onset of finals and end-of-semester assignments. Your boyfriend never seemed to have as much a sense of urgency as you did about these things, and still didn’t understand why you got so worked up about academics. In a weird way, you appreciated it though, for moments like this.

You felt the warmth of his touch on the back of your hand - gentle, soothing.

“Baby,” he murmured, just loud enough for you to hear him through the haze of stress that had seemed to follow you around for the last week. You paused, turning to look up at him and his soft gaze.

“What,” you said, trying not to sound too mad at him interrupting what could’ve been a very thorough revision session - never mind it being your third for the day.

“You’ll be fine for this exam, trust me,” his tone was different from before, the air of humour completely lost and replaced by a sense of earnestness.

“No, but-” you began to protest before he interrupted you.

”You work hard, harder than me and probably harder than most of the people in your class, I know that. You’ll be okay,” you felt your heart soften, accompanied by a pang of annoyance at the fact he always seemed to know what to say to you when you got worked up. You let out a soft sigh to let him know you appreciated his words.

“Now, I think you’ve done enough for today. Why don’t we pack up, grab some dinner, and head home so you can get a good night’s sleep.” A part of you wanted to protest so badly, to shove him away and ask him who the hell he thought he was for talking to you like you were some sort of child. But the rest of you was too tired to do anything but nod, and the better part understood that he wasn’t doing this out of anything but pure love and care for you - as your boyfriend.

You watched as he moved quickly to pack away your things, being gentle with your notes and laptop, before slinging both his and your bag over your shoulder. He reached out a hand to you, which you took, standing up slowly to prevent your legs from cramping up as you were only just realising how long you’d been sitting still for. You looked up as he smiled lovingly, sweeping your hair back to plant a soft kiss on your forehead and drag you out of the library.

[einsatzzz]

I passed my exam let's fucking goooooo!!!! This is one hell of a huge thorn off my chest, like this whole exam thing has been deadass constantly plaguing and stressing me out for a whole year, I'm so glad it's REALLY over now.

I knew I'm gonna receive the results around this time and even if I told myself to not give a fuck abt the results (self-worth≠exam results) my brain says otherwise (and mental illness also doesn't work that way unfortunately😔). So had to shut down and lock down my brain for a while when I can 😭😭 I even slept for like 14-16hrs each night shfvshvfsv don't wanna do anything stupid (I did try to reduce my sleep hours to normal amounts the other day, but got an anxiety attack instead from being awake when im not distracting myself)

Anyway, I think I can sleep a bit more peacefully now. I'll slowly go answer the asks and reply to dms/notifs tomorrow, I'm just so relieved right now that this is my current state -> 🫠🫠🫠🫠

Note: I also defeated my first boss (and a few minor bosses) in eld/en ri/ng yipeeee (<-forgor to continue playing for a while but needed a distraction, now i've made good progress there)

[neverthatsirius-jo]

jo is very silly and uses her tumblr blog as a journal part fourty seven

ok so basically today all was going well, we sat together in this class and the professor could not be bothered to give the class so he just sat there and she spent the entire time telling me stories about her life.

we then went to a café to meet up with two of the other girls in our group and she k—WAIT I REMEMBEREDDDD as we walked she looped our arms together 😔💗

at the café she kept telling me the story and silly ass me kind of got teary-eyed cause i got bummed out all of a sudden cause what she was telling me reminded me of some issues im having with a long distance friend anyway (me airing out all my business ok). i felt like she noticed but at the time she didn’t say anything. i ended up telling her some words of encouragement and that she could talk to me whenever she needed and her face is literally this emoji: 🥹 so she hugs me 😦✨🥳💗🤍

WAITTT I JUST FOUND OUT SOMETHING ELSJWJWJSAHS ok im sorry this is chaotic. i just went to instagram cause i was taking a break from writing this and she posted a story where the prompt was like a few random photos of your week SHE PUT A PHOTO OF OUR NAMES WRITTEN ON THE TABLE THE THING I TALKED ABOUT THE OTHER DAY well anyways

we go to a park nearby all four of us and that’s when things start going downhill cause by that point im trying real hard to hold the tears in, i cant talk so im just listening to them, tbh i don’t know what happened cause i had been having a good day. and i felt worse cause i couldn’t join in on the conversation and felt i was being boring. one of them asks me if im okay and i let out a very squeaky YEAH but i manage not to cry. we are walking to go to class again when she <3 stops me and asks me: okay, why are you crying?

AND I BREAK (guys this can’t keep happening, it’s been two times before this one but i cant hold it in if you ask me if im ok !!) and im like: dude im so embarrassed im sorry. and they of course are the sweetest girls in the world and they are trying to comfort me and she says: was it something i said?

and im like: what noo

so then she brings up the café and tells me my eyes had gotten all glossy and im like oh well yeah. but i explain it wasn’t what she said but rather that it reminded me of something

but im sobbing so they ask me if i want to skip class and distract myself for a bit and they all skip with me 🤧 and we go to another café we always go 🤧 and they tell me i can talk to them but if i don’t want to that’s fine 🤧

oh and at one point in the park she rested her head on my shoulder while she was looking for something on her phone and i swear i forgot how to breathe, i became a statue. tried to act nonchalant (failed probably)

anyways she buys a chocolate milk and when we sit down she puts it in front of me, and i look at her and im like ??? and she’s like: for you ☺️

i accept it but i tell her im gonna repay it (guess who’s buying her one of the breads that she likes tomorrow :p). they keep chatting and im kinda lost in my own thoughts trying to chime in every once in a while. i was waiting for the milk to get a bit colder before putting the chocolate but she sees me and asks me: do you want me to prepare it? GUYSSSS 😭

i tell her no and after a while she asks me again if i want to talk. I START CRYING AGAIN NOO HAHS but i open up (miracle) and they are so kind and they try to give me advice and offer comfort :((

by the end i felt much better and she gave me a hug and rubbed my back and i was like noo dont that 😖

we group-hugged and went to the last class of the day and on the bus back home i listened to maybe by gabriela bee which was probably a bad choice in such circumstances :))

[udon-udon]

so gramps ain't doing too well, and he's finally admitted to the hospital, but since he's really old and has dementia, they can't really do much for him and can only try to keep him as comfortable as they can get him to be, so we really don't know how many days he has left and that's really stressful cause it could literally happen any day;;;; obvs the whole family's on edge and anxious and ofc sad which brings the mood down extensively. it's gonna be hard for everyone when the time comes and even if i do "mentally prepare" myself, it's still gonna be really rough not only cause of my own loss, but feeling the loss of the whole family u know. it isn't the first time it's happened cause grams passed first about 5 years ago, but it's still rough when it happens again 😔 and then the whole funeral procedure will take a while as well and that's when it's gonna get real hard too...

anyway its just been really rough esp the past few days, and i'm always on edge and it's hard to not think about it, but even if i try to distract myself from it, i feel guilty for not thinking about it....

[lelitachay]

Hello there!

I'm sorry I haven't able to continue reading your masterpiece. (Live's been busy, and with little time I have, I can only focus in one fandom 😔). Anyway I know you're an amazing writter.

So for the ask game:

2 and 15

Hope you have a great day 🥰

Hi, Tare-chan! Such a long time. I'm so glad to see you in my notification box. Please, don't apologise about that, I can't expect people to stay in one fandom for so many years lol. I'm the one who's taking forever to finish the story. And I know exactly how you feel, my only fandom atm is Frozen and I can't follow all the stories I'd like to. I have several in line tbh. Who knows, maybe one day when Søsken is finished you can stop by and see what happens at the end. I can drop a message when that happens if you want :P

Now, about the questions, let's see... 2. Do you read/reread your own fics? Oh, yes. Actually when you read the first chapters of Søsken you can see in the A/N that I constatly say the story is a personal challenge and that I am writing it for myself. I was not lying about that. I'm still challenging myself and writing it for myself. I was just immensely lucky for people like you to like the story and start reading it alongside me. Lately, I've been re-reading the latest chapters and I've had more trouble re-reading the first ten chapters. Whenever I go back to the very beginning I see all the little mistakes and things I'd like to correct and I get distracted. One day I'll correct those mistakes. For now, I just read and try to enjoy whatever thoughts I put into words. Re-reading also helps me see if I have already tackled major plot points or not. So, it's both entertaining and helpful.

15. How do you come up with titles for your fics/chapters? I've got to admit that titles are hard. Harder than I thought they would be. Usually, when the title for a chapter comes first and links the different scenes is better. When that happens I have a thread to follow. Most of the time, sadly, I can't find the right title and I end up listening to songs that inspired the scenes or part of the story to see if one of the words in the lyrics help me name the chapter. 90% of the time I write the chapter first and then I try to see what I can do about the name. Thank you for stopping by and leaving an ask! Thank you for your kind words as well! So glad to see you're doing okay, just vibing in a different fandom :D

[pinkchrissysposts]

Hey!! Same anon that asked if we could write our affs instead of saying/thinking them. IDK if you've already answered my first ask or not lol. So, I just wanted to share two almost void success stories with you, to motivate myself and potentially others ahah. So let's go with the first one. At that moment, I had known about the void state for like only a few days, and I was really sceptic. But I was also like okay let me give it a try. So, I laid in a starfish position and started saying affs, but, at some point my mind started wandering to stupid thoughts and I started feeling like I was levitating and after like a few minutes I noticed it and I freaked out and I fell myself fall back on the ground, but what is xeird is that when I felt myself fall back on the ground there was also a louuud noise at the same time and it hurted really bad... 😭😣😔

Anyway here is the second one. This one was like four months ago I think??? Well I found out that distracting myself was an easy way to get extremely close to the void! So I put on music in my headphones, put them on my head and I laid in a starfish position, didn't move, started imagining scenarios to the song, and soon enough my mind was wandeting around lol. So after what felt like between 30seconds and 2minutes, I felt my whole body levitating and spinning, which made me panic after like a good minute of those symptoms, and I just got up. And when I tell you taht I was so dizzy that I couldn't walk straight because of how much I was spinning while attempting ugh!!!! Anyway, I hope this will be able to help someone ahah!

That's a good progress all you have to do is ignore the symptoms that's IT BUT CONGRTS BIG OR SMALL WE MUST CELEBRATE😔👍💯

[campbyler]

ok. a genuine question. how do u guys write 20-30k *chapters* bc i will outline fics minutely or i will just let myself start writing based off a vibe & either way i will get 600 words out of maybe. two hours of work. on a good day with no distractions/interruptions, & i very much do not have an uninterrupted two hours to write very often, so you can imagine how slowly things get written T_T so i’m interested if there’s any aspect of any of your writing processes that really enables u guys to write so much or if it’s not really something you think about? anyways i really like ur guys’s work, & thank you for deciding to write for byler bc i know me and a lot of people enjoy it a lot. thanks!!

hello !! this is a super valid question and i’ll try my best to answer it for you 😗✌️

andi infamously writes a lot faster than thea and i do (she finished draft 1 of chapter 3 in like. two days. which was so scary. i’m in awe of her fr) but she has also spent a lot of time editing ch3 so it’s definitely not like these chapters are publish-ready in a short amount of time by any means! it took thea a couple of months total to fully write + edit ch1 and it took me about 3.5 weeks to write ch2 and another two weeks to edit it which is part of the reason we’ve spaced out our posting schedule like we have — we put a lot of effort and care into these updates and we want to give ourselves as much time as possible to get ahead before all 3 of us inevitably get so super busy with work and/or school in the fall!! so while we do write a lot, please don’t think we are so insanely speedy about it because unless we are having Really Good Writing Days, that’s definitely not the case. sometimes we do have days where we are really in the zone and write more than usual, but at least for me, this is so so so rare. whatever i write in this time gets heavily edited because so much of it was nonsensical brain vomit LOL

as far as writing process goes, i think one of the things that motivates us a lot is that we genuinely do just talk about this au constantlyyyyy like we’re always coming up with silly little hcs or drawing for it or adding to the Lore ™️so we’re always getting inspired to write! all three of us are definitely people who use writing as a way to relax or even reward ourselves after a long day; we would probably die if we had to go too long unable to :/ messages like “i can’t wait to get home and write after work today” or “i’m going to write a little bit of ___ before bed because i deserve it” are very commonly found in our gc because we really just look forward to it so much! as for our scary word counts, i feel like there is a lot of worldbuilding in this universe specifically, and pacing is really important to us — we want to make sure introductions and set-up to a scene and character interactions are meaningful and flow naturally, and building tension (which is a hallmark of this fic hehe) does take some time, which can definitely add up word count-wise.

for the most part, none of us usually have a solid few hours to sit and write either (unless it’s on our days off or after work if we’re not too tired) and we get a lot of writing done in chunks! we hold each other accountable for short check-ins (“ask me for a snip in 30 minutes”) which is super helpful when you’re stuck, because it kind of forces you to get Something down without worrying if it’s super polished and edited and perfect. if you’re writing on your own, something i’ve started doing lately is setting a 15 minute timer and just seeing how much i can get done in that time, and then setting another and doing it again (up until however much time you have to write that day). i’ve found that the artificial deadline helps break the monotony of sitting in front of your computer for Hours on end with nothing to show for it bc TRUST we’ve all been there and it sucks so bad 😔✊

this got super long so i apologize but i hope at least a little bit of it was helpful! it definitely helps that we are constantly feeding into each other (i.e: having brainrot) and offering inspiration and advice, which does wonders for creative flow tbh. we’re definitely not cranking these chapters out as quickly as people might seem to think — thea started chapter four, which won’t be posted for about a month, maybe a week or two ago. i just started chapter 5 — about 6 weeks away — yesterday lol so we do take our time! don’t be scared by the giant chapters, we just had a lot of content we wanted to include in each one and are in too deep to take anything out 🥳🥳 thank you for the question! good luck with your writing we believe in you 🫡

[starjxsung]

starrrrr 💕💕💕 I missed youuu

school is literally starting up again I'm so over it already 😭 senior year guys let's goo

HEY I TURNED 20??? LIKE IT FEELS WEIRD TO SAY IM TWENTY YEARS OLD NOW. buttt it also just feels the same lmao

but I have bigger things to worry about, like trying to get SKZ tickets when they release the US dates. i just hope I get good seats 😭 honestly I hope I get any seat bc this would be my first time seeing them live IM SO EXCITED... it feels crazy to think that I've been a stay for over two years now... i remember just getting into them as they closed off oddinary era, and my first comeback with them was maxident. it literally feels like a couple months ago, and I feel like time is flying by so fast now, literally every year just goes by quicker and quicker 😭

yk maybe that's a good thing bc my surgery is scheduled (as of now) for October 31st, which I don't remember if I told you the date or not but yeah. I'm glad I could get on the books pretty quick, but it also feels a little too quick, yk?? i just feel like there's so much to think about especially bc I've never had anything remotely like this before... the only time I've had anything down was stitches on my lip when I was like five 😭 (I banged into a clock, don't ask...) but it's kind of overwhelming even for me. but at the same time I still feel a bit iffy about it, I just want to get it done and see if it works.

but yeah anyways I LOVE YOU AND I MISS YOU AND I WANT TO KISS YOU STAR BB!!!! feel free to write an essay for me to read about your life and literally everything you're doing bc I need to distract myself from starting senior year 😔😔

miley says hello and that she loves you 💕💕

MY LOOOOOVEEEEEEE OH MY GOD. IM SO SORRY THIS IS SO LATE. HOW’VE YOU BEEN????

Also HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY???? 20 YEARS OLD!!!!!!! FUCKKKKK THAT’S SUCH A FUN AGE I HOPE YOU ENJOY IT SO MUCH RAHHHH did you do anything to celebrate???? Dinner? Cake?????? HAPPY FRICKIN BIRTHDAYYYYY LIVE IT UP SO HARD 20 IS GOING TO BE AMAZING TO YOU 🎉🫶🎊

Also FELTTTTTT on the skz tickets part oh my god 😭 even just seeing the start of the tour and seeing all the clips has me PANICKING…… like if I don’t get to see Bang Chan solo stage with that shirt off…… hell nah. I can’t believe how fast time is going by too???? Like wym we’re already past ate promotions and the Korean shows are finished????? That doesn’t sound real 😭 TIME ISNT REAL YALL

Also I am SO GLAD you were able to get your surgery on the books!!! I know it seems really scary but at least once you’re finished with all the prepping and everything, it’ll just be like one big long nap and then you’ll be finished 🥹 sending you so much love and good vibes and manifesting the surgery goes smoothly and that you’ll feel so much better after it. I’ll be thinking of you all Halloween!!! I’m so proud of you I promise everything is going to be okay and you’re so strong and capable of getting through it! ❤️

I love you so so so much I hope the start to senior year has been nothing short of amazing!!!! My life has been the boring same usual shit but I’m insanely busy with work (I really should be sleeping rn bc I have a 7am meeting tomorrow lollll) but !!!! I’m excited for fall and everything’s fine! I just need to take the world’s longest nap tbh

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH BABY ANGEL a million hugs and kisses for you as always ALSO THANK U FOR MY DAILY DOSE OF MILEY I LOVE HER SO MUCH…. I offer you a momo in exchange (she loves you too !!!!)

[angelkiss230]

𝓼𝓱𝓲𝓯𝓽𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓳𝓸𝓾𝓻𝓷𝓪𝓵

—-･ ｡ﾟ☆:*.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. -—

Sorry everyone, recently i’ve been somewhat MIA. I haven’t really had the time to shift nor the energy so I haven’t forced it.

I’ve been attempted a few times since i’ve last been on here but I haven’t had much success because i’ve been so busy. I FINALLY have some time to myself.

Whenever I attempt to shift (actual attempt not a half ass one), I will get the symptoms of shifting like floating, spinning, etc. I always end up falling asleep one way or another 😔 it’s a little frustrating. I feel like my symptoms have slowly decreased along with my attempts recently.

I’ve been trying different methods and tbh I haven’t had a ton of luck yet. but tbf Ive also only tried a select amount of methods. I’ve tried the void method (I end up falling asleep), raven method (I get distracted easily), etc.

My biggest thing has been affirmations. Ive been affirming while I can’t shift such as “Shifting comes easy to me, I’ve shifted already this is a parallel reality, etc”.

any tips and advice is greatly appreciated 🙏

anyway that’s all I have for now 🤞

[btscontentenjoyer]

This was so sweet that it almost made me forget about the fact that we'll be getting our hearts broken soon 🥺🥺🥺

"Not a trace of a tremble visible, he laughs when he looks at you, adjusting the beanie as he pulls it over your earlobe. He argues, “But it’s Valentine’s Day.” These little gestures make me melt every time, especially in the flashback scenes. He's so cute and caring and gentle with her from the start and my heart can't take it.

"His duality is a scary concept; how is he the same man who whispered filth to you just an hour ago? Eliciting moan after moan with you beneath him, affecting every inch of your bare body as he covered it with his." He is literally the perfect man, knows exactly when to be gentle and sweet and when... not to be.

“Hey, hey,” he immediately defends, steps slowing down. “I didn’t fuck her.” I really hope we won't have to see a similar but more angsty conversation in the next part, whether about Jungkook or OC. But I'm trying to prepare myself for every scenario at this point.

“I just hope you use protection with the other girls, because you never do with me.” Lmaoooo.

“Hi,” he greets the vendor, humming as he studies the menu. Then, he tells you, “Choose anything. They have veggie options too if that’s what you prefer. And uh…” He pulls out his wallet, “Everything on me, okay?” sksjsisosj he's so fucking cute.

"Or you’d ask him to run back to his dorm with you." Yeah, I bet she would prefer going to his place instead of going home :/ As I felt in the New Year's drabble, from the start he's kind of been a distraction for her from her parents and everything else.

"You could swear Thursdays are his college-free days." What is this cutie planning?

"That’s why you chose them for your sneaky link. No rush, no timer. And Jungkook likes to take his time with you anyway." 😳😳😳

“You forget to eat when you study.” Tell me he's not the sweetest person in the world so I can tell you that you're wrong. I!!! love!!!! him!!!!

"And then, his body drifts to yours slowly, close enough for only you to hear, “Because you were such a good girl today.” 🙄🙄🙄 Jeon, as hot as that is, you can't hide your true feelings behind dirty comments forever.

“How would you know? Maybe I do, and I just never told you.” The speed with which he defends himself is… absurdly telling. It makes you smile. “Maybe I’m not so smart, and wanted to be dumb tod—” Lmaooo, he's so adorably bad at this.

"His soft, warm fingers raise the beanie and free your eyes, and then move to lift your head by your chin. If you’re not mistaken, he’s treating you with utter caution, and the suddenness of it stirs something vulnerable in you." 🥺🥺🥺 He has always treated her like this how was she supposed to not fall in love with him 😭😭😭

"His way of saying he can be sincere if he wants to." The way he's always, even from the beginning, reassuring her that she's the only one 😭😭😭 And to think that we were so worried when he went on vacation and stuff 😔😔😔

“I was just joking. I’m not here and getting lunch with you, because you took my dick so well or whatever.” You shake your head at his confession, feather-lightly slapping his thigh. “I’m okay with just talking to you, too. You know?” Lmaoooo, I think we all knew that, but OC deserves to hear it many many times.

"During freshman year, you’re sure." 🤨🤨🤨🤨 And who gave you that gift 🤨🤨🤨🤨

"Except for the long, endless conversation on the night of the frat party, and you doubt either of you remembers enough of it today." I bet that built such a strong connection between them even without them knowing 🥺🥺🥺

"Vines spin around the rose, and when you look up at him, he understands, explaining, “They’re like… fairy lights? There’s a switch at the bottom, and once you turn it, a beautiful golden light surrounds the rose.” That's so beautiful aaaah.

"His voice is sweet and tiny, like of a child presenting a self-made drawing to their teacher. When you look at him, the beam reflects in his eyes, big and pleased with your reaction, a happy doe." Sooooo adorable. Seriously, Rid, my heart can't handle all this sweet softness.

“Oh.” He looks surprised. Pouts, rubbing the back of his neck. “The frat party last summer?” When nothing clicks, he continues, “You couldn’t stop talking about Beauty and the Beast.” He rememberssss 🥺🥺🥺

"The empty room, the red cups, the roof." I wanna see them connect for the first time 😔😔😔

"The fact that he’s not giving the two of you a deadline, that you’re not a temporary acquaintance to him, makes you actually feel like his friend." It's always so so wonderful to see the way their relationship has grown, even if the way things are right now aren't so ideal. But I hope we'll be able to look back at the sad moments and appreciate the growth that came from them too.

“Don’t worry at all,” you tell him, lifting the Disney dream, “roses are like, my second favourite flowers.” Cuteee.

"Because that little proud smile of his, eyes staring down, tells you more than he intends to." He’s so precious, deserves all the love in the world 🥺🥺🥺

It seems that I not only have to protect my heart from all the heartbreak you'll inflict on it, but also from the way you can easily make it melt, Rid. I literally love this couple so much, they make my heart so full and I'll try to keep in mind that they can be this happy again after the sadness.

colour me in: undying roses | jjk

Summary: Jungkook’s been acting strange all noon – and it might or might not have to do with Valentine’s Day.

➳ pairing: Jungkook x reader ➳ rating: 18+ ➳ genre: fwb/f2l, fake dating; suggestive, fluff ➳ warnings: banter once again, surprises, mention of sex and his d*ck lmao, they hooked up like an hour ago, teasing, lowkey sexual tension, they just keep annoying each other, frat party mention, it’s insinuated that jk sleeps with other girls ha ha, jk takes good care of his girl, the ending <3 ➳ word count: 3.3k ➳ a/n: another flashback drabble!! this time… right on vday! it’s just a smol something before the next full-length chapter drops, but i hope you guys like it. ugh, i missed them a lot. do let me know what you think !! <33 ➳ listen to: i can’t fall in love without you by zara larsson | full playlist 🤍

SERIES MASTERPOST | TAGLIST MASTERLIST | WIPs

“You really don’t need to do this.”

Keep reading

[kingreywrites]

.

[kelliealtogether]

1. Idk what it is, but the oneshots you make that just give us a TASTE? Those stay with me. The mortician fic and the art dealer fic - i think about the wider verse's those fics belong to a lot, actually!

5. This is halfway to a confession: i have had Boxes on the Lawn open in my tabs for 5 months and I keep getting distracted. Its open bc its yours and therefore I know its going to be good/worth it. But at the same time it haunts and taunts me, jeering 'Why haven't you read me yet?' BECAUSE I HAVE 4 BOOKS BORROWED FROM THE LIBRARY AND I ALSO HAVE TO MAKE MYSELF WRITE FIREFOX.

Anyway - you're a wonderful writer and I promise to haunt your inbox the same way this fic tab haunts my firefox when I finally get around to it ♡

9. S - ... sor

[I am aggressively taken out by your security detail]

🥺 I have so much fun with one-shots and I'm so happy you enjoy them. I try to throw in enough "worldbuilding" and background, and it makes me all warm and fuzzy that you think of broader universe of them. 😊

And I hope you like Boxes when you do read it! No pressure at all. It'll always be there. 😌 Library books have due dates and are probably much better written. I'd consider those more important.

Sore... I'm workin' on it. 😔

Thank you so much! This was such a lovely message to receive. 🥰

[Fanfic asks - for the askers.]

[jellybracelet]

femcels unite 💪 (/j) literally tho why does everyone pretend it's easy for women to get laid 😔

(Insane victim complex below the cut)

Yeah... I don't actually buy into the incel thing because I think nearly anyone can get laid if they want to and have the energy to do so. Unfortunately all my problems come from my mental and emotional problems and at the moment it just feels kind of... hopeless...

I know it's possible for me to be in a relationship if I tried and didn't have these issues because when I was younger it legitimately was very easy for me. But who I once was is a completely different girl/woman. I'm not in the right emotional state to do any of it and I have trouble meeting people and liking them because of my own self loathing 24/7. Everyone pisses me off, I'm jealous of them all, and I'm just so lonely all the time but I cannot open myself to anyone, friends or potential romantic partners. I also rarely leave my bedroom anyway, and I'm scared of everyone and can't make eye contact.

I have this problem where I feel like an alien just watching the other humans interact with each other in such foreign ways. I strayed so far from myself that I feel like I'll never get her back.

I'm filled with guilt and shame that I want a spouse and to start my own family. I feel like I don't deserve any of that because I'm a bad person. It's so hard for me to work on any things like this in a therapy setting or otherwise because I've always been so afraid of talking about sexuality since I was young. The therapist I saw most recently was doing the regular body positivity, think positive thoughts!, make a list of things you like about yourself bullshit, and I just quit because I couldn't take it or the thought that I had to like myself for no reason based in reality.

Everyone teased me growing up about how I can't accept physical touch. It frightens me so much but it's the thing I need the most and I feel like I'm wasting away, starving without it. I also have a lot of things related to my OCD that make me terrified to spend the night with someone else because they are extremely consuming and affect others and impossible to hide. I don't even have any exceptional trauma related to sexuality/relationships, really just the normal things.

I have one friend and I'm awful and mean to her and it's like I can't stop because I want her to leave me alone because I hold her back in life. I don't deserve to be her friend and I don't know why she still hangs out with me except for the fact that she is my roommate and doesn't have very many friends on her own.

So basically I'm hopeless about making any friends or falling in love or even going on a date one of these days, and I'm at the point where I decided to give up on the concept and just try to live my life as is the best I can. Take the pills that allow me to bullshit my way through the workday, workout consistently, post here, take the pills to make me sleep, see my parents once in a while, distract myself the best I can, rinse and repeat. Pet my cat.

Anyway, that's more about me if anyone wanted to know (doubtful).

[rosenallies]

I would like to request something smutty for the princess au. Maybe Jackie and Jan's first time together or that they're alone in the gardens or library or something romantic but sexy. Please, I've had a couple of drinks with dinner and now I'm horny and I can't do anything about it 😭

I’m writing this to distract myself from crying Bc I got a speeding ticket on the way back from Vegas and the stupid porker yelled at me for crying which made me cry harder and now I feel Stupid Ahahah x 😔

——

Jackie hummed underneath Jan who straddled her lap, Jackie’s hands holding her hips, fingers brushing over the soft fabric of Jan’s purple dress. All day, Jan had been sweet, pliant underneath Jackie’s touch, her blush only growing deeper everytime Jackie laid a soft touch on her.

Around them, birds chirped and flowers grew in an array of colors, beautiful scenery but Jackie found the girl sat on top of her to be much more beautiful.

“My pretty little princess,” Jackie cooed, tucking a strand of hair behind her ear, “I feel like you’re fishing for something.”

Jan’s blush deepened and Jackie could feel the way she wriggled in her lap a bit. “Not fishing for anything, just want you.”

Jackie nodded slowly. “You want me to what, sweetheart?”

She knew just what she wanted, but she wanted to hear her say it, see her pretty lips form even prettier words. What she didn’t expect was for it to come out the way that it did.

“Fuck me, Jackie. I want you to fuck me.”

Her eyes fluttered shut as Jackie let her hands migrate down her back. “How straightforward. Aren’t princesses supposed to be prim and proper?”

Jan squeaked as Jackie squeezed her ass, her eyes darker when she opened her eyes.

“Need you, Jackie, been wanting this for a while.”

Jackie tapped her bottom signaling for her to get up so she could lay her on her back, the blanket they brought out to sit on soft against her skin.

“What do you like, my angel? I want to make you feel good anyway you like.”

Jan bit her lip, Jackie assuming she was mulling over the options in her head.

“I don’t know. It’s my first time,” she admitted shyly.

“With a woman?”

Jan groaned, throwing her arm over her eyes to shield herself from Jackie’s gaze. “No, ever. My first time ever.”

“Oh, baby, it’s okay. Let me show you a good first time, okay?”

The blonde nodded, shivering as Jackie spread her legs, kneeling in between them. Her hands traced patterns up and down the soft skin of her thighs, Jan’s breath quivering whenever her hands lingered closer got the apex of her thighs.

“I want to taste you, is that okay?”

Jan nodded. “Please.”

Jackie chuckled at her eagerness, hooking her thumbs around Jan’s soft lace panties, pulling them down her legs. She placed one of Jan’s legs over her shoulder, kissing up the length of it until Jan was digging her heel into Jackie’s shoulder blade, nearly begging Jackie to get on with it.

“Slow down, sweetheart, we have all the time in the world,” she chastised in a soft voice.

Jan relaxed, sighing breathily everytime she sucked a bruise on the softness of her inner thighs. Though she drew in a sharp breath when Jackie reached the spot she wanted her at.

“My, my, how pretty for me. You must’ve been thinking about this for some time now.”

Before Jan could reply, Jackie was spreading her open with her forefinger and thumb, pink and glistening wetness all Jackie could see.

“Beautiful,” she whispered, leaning in and licking up her slit, smiling to herself as Jan moaned prettily, not caring they were in the middle of a garden they weren’t the ones tending to.

“Feels so good, Jacks.”

Jackie liked how sensitive her virgin pussy was, every little flick of her tongue making her back arch off the ground.

“Do you want to try my fingers too, baby?”

Jan nodded enthusiastically. “Yes, please!”

Chuckling, Jackie leaned back over her. “Such good manners. Good girl.”

One by one, Jackie slipped a finger into Jan, then a second, the second one making her grip the blanket beneath them.

Gently and tenderly, Jackie scissored her open, all while keeping her tongue busy, flicking it over Jan’s sensitive little clit.

“Jackie! I’m not gonna last!” She cried out, thighs trembling after Jackie had sucked her clit around soft, plump lips.

“It’s all about you, princess, just relax and cum when you need to, okay?”

Jan nodded slightly, eyes still screwed shut.

Jackie continued her ministrations, fingering her deeply and letting her tongue explore Jan’s wet folds.

Finally, after Jackie’s fingers hit her spot, dead on, Jan was seeing stars, the feeling crashing over her like an asteroid hitting earth. Her toes curled and she gripped the blanket beneath them, her hips bucking as she rode out the wave against Jackie’s face.

“Angel,” Jackie cooed, coming up from between her legs, wiping her chin off with her hand before pulling Jan back up into her lap. “Are you okay?”

Jan’s head slumped against her shoulder, nuzzling into her like she was drunk on the feeling of Jackie.

“I’m good, really good.”

Jackie kissed her slightly sweaty forehead. “I’m glad, baby. You did so good for me.”

Jan felt herself warm up again at the praise, heart going a mile a minute at all the attention Jackie had bestowed upon her.

“I love you, Jackie.”

Jackie smiled, ruffling Jan’s ponytail a bit. “Well isn’t tonight just a night of firsts? I love you too, pumpkin.”

[destinyc1020]

can u elaborate a lil bit on wat u think "going on a break" mayb have meant to both T and Z? im assuming that T thought they were done for good n Z thought that theyre was room to try again

(Lol I hope you have a comfy chair! 😅)

Yea, I def think Z was keeping the door open, otherwise, she wouldn't have even bothered to give Tom that belated gift (neck chain). She's not poor lol, so throwing it away could have been an option if she was really through with him, especially had he been a bad bf. But he wasn't. They def still loved and cared about each other.... at least, that was what I gathered from their actions during the press tour.

They were also apparently still communicating with each other as well... (even for silly things), which was revealed in that press interview about Z sending Tom that calculator meme, and Tom not getting it, and him joking about being "ghosted by an actress named Zendaya" because Z didn't respond back coz she knew she would see him soon in the interview circuit lol. 😅Meanwhile, Jacob revealed that he didn't even get such a text at all lol . 👀

With Tom, I think the door was always still open as well, but like most men, he dealt with his pain through using distractions. I've noticed that a lot of times, Men and women deal with their pain a little differently. While women will a lot of times rally around with their family and friends and cry and talk, and vent, on the flip side, many times some men will quickly rebound, have a bunch of flings (or ONS), and engage in a bunch of other destructive behaviors (ie. drinking too much, being risky, etc) in order to mask or distract themselves from their pain.

It's almost ironic that the MORE in love a guy was with a woman, the more likely he will actually engage in those behaviors after a breakup. It's strange, but it's true. I think some women take it personally 

and view it to mean: “Oh, so he must not have really loved me anyway!" 😔.... But in realty, the OPPOSITE is actually true. Guys don't always deal with their emotions all that well tbh lol.

That's why, when some fans kept on saying: "Well, Tom moved on first with Olivia!!", I kept saying to myself: He's not really "moving on", he's rebounding. There's a huge difference.

And women rebound as well! They'll get with a bad boy, or just someone who doesn't remind them of their ex at all, because they're trying to quickly feel good again and “move on” also. But these rebound relationships don't usually work out in the long run, because the REASON why they got into the relationship in the first place was to get over someone ELSE. The person usually hasn’t done any personal reflection...no self/inner work, and the original purpose for getting into the relationship was skewed from the get-go, so usually these rlshps are either kind of superficial, or don't last as long as their previous long-term rlshp with their ex that they're trying so desperately to get over. 🤷🏾‍♀️  They’re just trying to feel good again, nothing more...nothing less. 

So bottom line, my guess is that deep down, Tom & Z both probably sort of had the door still "open" for each other to a possible reconciliation in the future, but Tom, feeling hurt (and being the more impulsive of the two of them), may have let his guard down that day at the festival, and was caught with Olivia. And of course, I'm sure him being seen in those pics with Z's neck chain gift didn't quite go over too well with Z at all. 👀

But by that point, I think Z felt like it was best that they just go their separate ways completely, since (in her eyes) it seemed as though Tom was ready to date other ppl. 🤷🏾‍♀️  I personally think she was hurt that he seemed to move on so FAST.... Especially right after the press tour.

Idk... in my mind this would kind of explain why Tom was returning the Tomdaya jacket after the Tolivia incident, and also why Z's behavior towards him seemed to change almost over night, and why Tom seemed so regretful for the pics, and it would prob also explain how his heartbreak was “kind of his fault....”.  (We still don’t know for sure WHO or WHAT “heartbreak” he was referring to, so this is all just speculation)

I've always wondered if TZ were fighting a lot and knew that a breakup was on the table, but weren't expecting the breakup in May to be the FINAL STRAW... but Olivia made it a firm breakup.

I think there's a huge difference btwn two ppl both realizing that even though they may love each other, their relationship is getting a little toxic/contentious, and so they both make a mature decision and agree that they need to take a BREAK from each other and not be in a relationship with each other right now (kind of like separation).....vs... "WE ARE OVER for GOOD!!" 😡(like, divorce)

Idk... this is just how I've always read the situation when the events first came out in July 2019....

But, who knows what REALLY happened ykwim? 🤷🏾‍♀️

Either way, they've both forgiven each other, and are on good terms now, so that’s all that really matters! 😊