#anyway stan txt and stan taylor

[ohmyjinsus]

i wish you would

choi yeonjun x gender neutral! reader

exes to ??? || 2.3k

I’ve started this new thing where I put all of taylor swift’s songs on shuffle and write a fic based off the first one that comes on (let's see how long this lasts lmao) - this is the first one uwu

summary: after impulsively breaking up with yeonjun, you realize that was the stupidest decision you’ve ever made and spend the rest of your week wishing you could have him back (idk just go listen to the song)

“I can’t do this anymore.” Your voice is so quiet, you aren’t even sure Yeonjun can hear it through the phone.

“Is this because of last night?” He asks. “I’m sorry y/n, I know you’re busy with school. I didn’t think you’d want to come.”

“No.” You don’t mind that he went to a party without you. He’s right, you would have said no anyway. “I heard you were getting a little too friendly with some people.”

“Are you jealous?” He sounds shocked. “We’ve been together for 2 years, you know I would never cheat on you.”

“I know,” you reassure him. “I’m just worried.”

“Worried about what?” His voice is softer now.

You wish you were having this conversation in person so you could see his facial expressions, but you’re so upset. You had to talk to him as soon as your friend called you. You’d already been insecure about your relationship these past few weeks. When you heard that your boyfriend was flirting with her, your anxiety got even worse.

“I know you love me,” you say slowly, sitting down on your bed. “But we haven’t seen each other in a week, Yeonjun. Maybe you don’t miss me as much as I miss you.”

“I can’t believe you would even think that. I don’t want anyone but you.”

“I’m sorry,” you tell him. “I just miss you.”

“I know baby,” he sounds just as upset as you. “I’m sorry too.”

“What do we do?” You grab the plushie on your bed. He won it for you at some carnival you went to ages ago. You’ve been sleeping with it ever since.

“What do you want to do?” Yeonjun asks. “In my head, I know you’re right. I can’t see you as often as I used to, but I don’t want to leave you.”

The thought of more nights like these makes you want to cry. Just a few months ago, you were spending all your time at his house. Staying up until 2am talking about everything was your normal. Then all of a sudden work and school and countless other things popped up and now everything’s fallen apart. Yeonjun’s been a constant in your life for the past two years, even longer, but the two of you can’t keep up with it anymore.

Not being a part of his day breaks your heart. Hearing about what he’s up to from other people hurts even more. You don’t know if you can handle that. You’ve already drifted apart. Staying together might just make things worse.

“I think we should break up.”

“y/n no,” he whispers. “Please don’t.”

“I can’t-”

“Can I see you? Right now?”

“I don’t think that’s a good idea.” Yeonjun only lives a few streets over. It would take him less than 5 minutes to get to your house.

“Why not?” He asks.

“I’ll cry.” Your voice gets even smaller. You hug your plushie tighter, trying to ignore the fact that it smells like him.

“y/n, I just want to give you a hug.”

“No,” you tell him, surprised at how firm you sound. “No,” you say again, softer. “I can’t handle that right now, I might change my mind.”

“I want you to change your mind.”

“Yeonjun, come on,” you sigh. This would be so much easier if he agreed with you. “I don’t want to drag this on any longer than necessary.” He stays quiet for a few seconds.

“Okay,” he says, finally. “If you want to split up, that’s okay.”

“Are you sure?” You ask. Part of you hopes he’ll fight with you and tell you he’s not leaving. Another part of you is relieved.

“No,” he admits. “Are you?”

“No.” That’s when the tears start to fall. You have no idea if you’re doing the right thing. The two of you have had conversations like this before, but none of them have been this serious. You’ve always been able to quickly resolve your issues, but you don’t think that’s possible this time. “But it’s for the best.”

“Sure, y/n.”

“Thanks.” You don’t know what to say. Yeonjun’s your first boyfriend, and this is your first breakup. You hope he can’t hear you crying through the phone.

“I’ll come pick up my things later,” he sounds like he might cry too. “I’ll text you.”

You nod, then realize he can’t see you.

“Okay.”

“I guess there’s nothing else to say then.”

“No, not from me.”

“Me too.”

“Bye Yeonjun.” You don’t even try to hide your sniffles at this point.

“Bye y/n,” he replies. “Love you.”

“Love you too.”

You hang up before he can say anything else.

===

You’re sitting on the floor with Yeonjun’s sweater wrapped around you. It’s been a week since you spoke to him. He hasn’t picked his things up yet, which you’re grateful for. That’s when the breakup will be real. You wish it wasn’t. If you could go back in time, you never would have hung up the phone that night.

You’ve been up at 2am countless times, thinking about Yeonjun, being with Yeonjun, but here you are, missing him instead. Every time you see headlights through your window, you pray it’s him. When your phone lights up, you hope you’ll pick up and hear his voice.

You would call him yourself, but you have a strong feeling he hates you. Ending your relationship was a stupid decision. You shouldn’t have done it in the heat of the moment. The two of you have been through so much together, surely you could make it through this rough patch. That’s what you tell yourself.

You can’t help but wonder if he’s thinking the same thing.

===

Yeonjun hasn’t been himself since you broke up. After that phone call, he locks himself in his room for days, refusing to speak to anyone. He ignores all his friends’ messages, unable to bring himself to talk to anyone. The only person he wants to speak to is you.

There are so many things he wishes he had done differently. He should’ve been more affectionate. He should’ve told you he loved you more often. He should’ve tried harder and been better. And he definitely shouldn’t have flirted with everyone. He knows it upset you but it’s just in his nature. He didn’t mean to push your buttons like that. No wonder it’s what broke you.

He contemplates showing up at your door every day, every hour even. But he’s scared you won’t answer, or that you’ll slam the door in his face. Maybe you’d yell and cuss him out for bothering you. He doesn’t know if it’s smarter to try and win you back or to just move on and forget you.

Yeonjun can’t sleep tonight, too consumed with all the memories of you. Earlier, he found a birthday card you wrote him early on in your relationship. You signed it with “love, y/n.” Although he’d never admit it, it made him cry then. It makes him cry even more now.

All he knows is that he needs fresh air. He runs downstairs, grabs his car keys and leaves. He doesn’t know where he’s going, he just needs to get out.

Now it’s 2am and he’s driving past your house.

He’s spent countless days there, in your room, falling in love with you over and over again. Since you split up, he’s been driving by your house every day. He doesn’t have the courage to walk up to your door. He can’t even find it in himself to call you.

He puts his foot down, speeding up to get past your house quicker. He’s going 70 in a 40 but he doesn’t care. This is the last time he’ll do this, he tells himself.

But as Yeonjun pulls onto his own driveway, he hesitates. Maybe it was the card, he’s not sure. He can’t get your smile out of his head.

Something makes him put the car into reverse.

===

You know it’s late, but you need fresh air. Whenever you felt this way before, Yeonjun would take you for a walk around the block. He said it would help clear your head. He was right.

All the reminders of him are still in your room. You don’t have the energy to put everything away. It scares you to imagine life without him. But sitting alone with those memories feels just as terrible.

Stuffing your phone in your pocket, you sneak down the stairs and outside, hoping no one will hear you.

It’s weird being out here without him. You miss holding his hand and making him laugh. If you’re being honest, you miss everything about him. He’s everywhere you look, constantly in your mind.

While you think, a car comes speeding by, making you jump. Your immediate thought is to call Yeonjun. Whenever you were out by yourself, he would always come pick you up right away. You wish he would do that now. You felt so safe with him. Now, you just feel alone.

Checking your phone, you see it’s 2:15. You pull your sweater tighter around you. Yeonjun will probably come get it soon. It’s one of his favourites.

As you turn around and start walking back to your house, your phone rings. You glance at it, expecting it to be a random number.

When you see Yeonjun’s name, you almost drop your phone. Once you answer, you don’t even know what to say.

“y/n.” You almost start crying. It’s only been a week, but it feels like a lifetime since you’ve heard his voice. “Why are you out so late?”

“What do you mean?” You stop walking, wondering how he knows you’re out.

“I can see you by the stop sign.” Your head whips around, scanning the area, looking for him. “I’m on your left.”

You spot him, a few metres away, standing right by his car. When he notices you looking, he starts walking in your direction. You can’t move. Part of you thinks this might just be a dream.

Once he’s in front of you, it takes all your strength not to throw yourself into his arms. You end the call, putting your phone back in your pocket.

“You didn’t answer my question,” he says.

“Hm?” You can’t form a coherent though, you’re just so shocked to see him again.

“Why are you out right now?”

“Why are you out?” He laughs at how you avoid the question.

“I couldn’t stop thinking about you.”

You have to kiss him. Right now. The second your lips are on his, his arms wrap around you, pulling you closer. You missed this. You missed him.

“I couldn’t stop thinking about you either,” you whisper when you pull away. Yeonjun’s still holding you tight.

“It’s been a terrible week,” you admit.

“I know, right?” He kisses you again. “I’m sorry, y/n.”

“Why are you sorry? I should be apologizing.” He shakes his head.

“I’m such a terrible boyfriend, I should have-”

“You came back.” You cut him off right away. “I pushed you away, but you came back.”

“I did.”

“Thank you,” you say quietly.

“I missed you too much.” You nod, agreeing with him.

Another car speeds past as the two of you stand there, in each other’s arms. That’s when you remember how late it is.

“What do we do now?”

“Let me take you home.” He unwraps himself from you, taking your hand instead. Once your fingers are interlaced, you give him a squeeze. He smiles.

“y/n, promise me something,” Yeonjun says as you walk over to his car.

“Sure.”

“Never leave me again.” You roll your eyes as he opens the passenger side door for you, but you still give him a kiss.

“Don’t worry,” you tell him. “I won’t.”

He holds your hand the entire way back to your house. Normally you would scold him, telling him how unsafe that is, even if it is a short trip. You don’t mind it today.

When he drops you off on your porch, you beg him to come inside. He laughs and tells you no.

“I’ll see you tomorrow y/n.”

“For sure?” He holds out his pinky so you do the same. Once he pinky swears, you smile.

“I’ll see you tomorrow, and the day after that, and the day after that, and the day after that-”

“Don’t make me break up with you again.” His eyes go wide. “What?”

“So we’re back together then?”

“Um,” you hesitate. “Yes?”

“Good.” He kisses your cheek. “That’s what I wanted.” You smile up at him, glad to have him back. You really meant it when you said you wouldn’t leave him again.

“Me too.”

[hyperionangel]

you know that law about men getting into arguments on the internet who are openly addicted to hentai. i feel like there should be a matching law for people who post hot takes about how nobody should enjoy problematic media ever again and they're openly taylor swift stans

[sylvieons]

Today I found a *drumroll* Loki dress

[eradne]

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[song-tam]

it’s always tam song appreciation hours for me, he’s rly great. Could you spare any headcanons? would it be alright if I shared some of mine?

anon. my dear anon. i am so sorry this took so long to get to and if you end up seeing this please send me your headcanons

anyway you asked so here you go:

he has a silver charm bracelet and he wears it all the time

(the mf probably pretends that it was made from some of the metal from the registry pendant that he “melted down”)

tam absolutely rocks skirts (the entire keeper crew does obviously but him especially)

his favorite skirt is knee length and it’s plaid and it’s top tier

oh and?? he really loves ties? makes him feel super powerful

(also. sneaking a bit of kam in here. yknow that one look that ppl have with a loose tie and rolled up sleeves and disheveled hair? tam shows up like that one day and keefe is absolutely GONE)

he stans taylor swift and txt shh let me project onto him

SECRETLY A HOPELESS ROMANTIC I WILL DIE ON THIS HILL

is asexual or on the acespec no i will not be accepting criticism

this is something he and linh have in common probably but his favorite trope is found family

yknow since he never really had a proper family he always wished for friends he was that close to

he likes animals but also he’s kinda terrified of them? like he’s scared they’ll bite him or smth

he’s pretty close w linh’s cat princess purryfins though

he can sing fairly well depending on the song, but the wrong song means he’s absolutely tone deaf

anyway um. that’s all i have rn but send me an ask if you’d like more

[kim-lexie]

august rewind: 2021

music.

switch on comeback from astro. astro never disappoints and always brings the comebacks we’ve been needing. i love the vibe they have as always, it’s fresh and funky. i 10 out of 10 recommend giving the album a listen. my fave track of the moment would have to be ‘footprint’, since they released the member made video, it’s been on repeat. i love the progression fo the track and the vocals. nevertheless, every song is stellar. i also ordered these albums and i absolutely love the physical albums and the photoshoots. 

‘rose’ by d.o. my precious nugget is back. yes d.o. had a mini album, yes this is true. i cannot believe it has taken SM this freaking long to deliver this incredible man’s solo album, but i am excited that it is here. 

‘paint me naked’ by ten. Y’ALL TEN IS WILD. this man is something else. the lyrics, the beat, the choreo. i just love this man. it’s a bop, playing it all day every day. ‘baby be my weekend’ 10 out of 10 recommend. 

‘i’ll be your high beams in the rain’ 

‘from luck to fate, i’ll bet on our love every day’

‘down’ by a.c.e. i love me a good storyline in a song, cue my love for taylor swift. it’s great, and music video was super cute and light hearted. 

‘i’m not the type to catch feelings, something bout you got me stuck and i’m sinking.’

‘maniac’ by nctU. y’all this unexpected track from our boys, DOYOUNG and HAECHAN. a divine duo we stan. their vocals, the fresh track. it was great. we love them. would have loved to see our boys make an appearance in the music video, but i loved the parallels of the girl and it was so good.

‘paint the town’ by loona. okay so i am super late to the party but my golly goodness, this was sooooo good. the progression of the track, and their vocals slay my existence. ‘we don’t stop until the sun goes up’ ‘we about to paint the town’ catch me vibing hard core while driving down the highway.

‘thrill ride’ by the boyz. these kids are too cute. it’s a fresh end of summer bop. that whisper in the bridge did not need to attack the way it did. but anyways du dududu du du dududu…

‘queendom’ by red velvet. our queens are back, and it’s a vibe. we stan. their vocals continue to amaze me. 

‘lo$er=lo♡er’ by txt. who knew my nuggets could bring such a hard core comeback. i love the dynamic nature that is txt, they always surprise us and come at us with different concepts. i am living for it. 

‘low low’ by wayV. as if i wasn’t already personally attacked by ten’s english comeback, here we have YANGYANG and TEN attacking me only mere weeks afterwards. the lyrics cute and funny. but i love it, they seriously were vibing and loving life in this mv, and i fully support that. it’s a bop and don’t lie to yourself that it is not. 

‘b.t.w.’ (feat jay park) by jay b. EVERYONE STOP WHAT YOU’RE DOING AND LISTEN TO THIS. jay b’s vocals are something else, and this song is no lie incredible. i love it. and it is on repeat. jay b and yugyeom joining AOMG entertainment was the best thing to happen to r&b. i absolutely love them living their best lives and their projects have been top tier. 

‘thunderous’ by stray kids. y’all the long awaited comeback did not disappoint. i love these precious nuggets, and their efforts and hard working saturates everything that they do. i love this vibe, highly reminiscent of ‘god’s menu’ which was always and still is on repeat. love to add this bop to the rotation. 

dramas & movies *spoilers ahead*

imitation. this was a great drama. i loved that we got to see a little insight into the life of idols and training. so we follow ma-ha who is a member of the girl group ‘teaparty’ along with two other girls ri-a and hyun-ji. they have struggled to make it in the industry. we also see the parallel of the popular boy group ‘shax’ which has member kwon-ryeok, who knew ma-ha in his pre training days. i loved seeing how their history and distance came back together. we follow as ‘teaparty’ begins to make a name for themselves, and see the rise and fall of friendships as well as budding romance. there is also a dark undertone, because they did not shy away from addressing the dark side of not being accepted by the industry. i absolutely loved the relationships that formed between the friendship groups. and i loved the ending scene where all the groups came together to sing the song that eun-jo and annie had started writing together. cue all the tears. rate it a 10 out of 10.

a rational life. this was a nice drama. once again the older woman with the younger intern at the office kind of romance. we follow shen ruo-xin who is a 30-something year old professional who has made a name for herself despite resistance at work. she comes in contact with a younger assistant, qi xiao, at the job who falls head over heels in love with her. its precious to see how he did not back down through it all, and how they gather their courage to pursue their relationship together. i would rate it a 6 out of 10.

falling into your smile. another cute chinese drama, focused on e-sports. we meet an all-male ZGDX gaming team, who soon finds themselves in need of a new star player. cue our girl tong yao an amateur gamer making a name for herself due to her exceptional skills. her ex-boyfriend introduced her to the world and she ends up facing off against his team in the finals later in the show. she makes her way and creates a bond with the ZGDX team, and even a romance blossoms, of course we love it. we rate it a 7 out of 10.

weightlifting fairy kim bok-jo. a rewatch for me that is still a 10 out of 10. honestly, forgot about the storyline between the doctor and bok-jo, which was weird and i am glad i forgot about it. but the end of the drama between bok-joo and our joon-hyung was precious. 

racket boys. this was a 10 out of 10 kind of drama. i loved every aspect of this one. we follow hyeon-jong was takes on the role of a badminton coach at haenam middle school. hae-kang his son, who was once the best badminton player in korea, had found a love for baseball after leaving the sport. he reluctantly joins the team to ensure they have enough players to compete and try to avoid disbandment of the badminton team. we have yoon-dam, his family’s pride and joy and star player; woo-chan who initially feels he does not have any family support (we come to find that his father had been attending all of his competitions and it lights a new fire for woo-chan to do his best); and yong-tae the maknae and precious light of the group. cue hyeon-jong’s wife yeong-ja the head coach of the girls badminton team and best coach out there. on her team se-yoon an incredible player who ends up on the international stage and eventually on the korean national team, and han-sol her best friend and fellow teammate. it is recipe for new friendships and supporting of one another in their dreams to join the national youth team and compete together. i loved it, and we even saw haenam’s town people and how they all supported one another in the daily life tasks, as well as our badminton players. it was great to see the whole town rally around them. this one will probably have its own review because there were so many aspects i loved. 

sweet home. this one got it’s own post because it was so unexpected that i throughly enjoyed it. so if you wish to see my thoughts on it here is the link to that review.

you are my spring. this was a nice drama. honestly the beginning had me but then lost me towards the end and i finished it a 1.5Xspeed to get it done kind of deal. we follow da-jeong who works as a concierge, and moves to a new building where a murder occurred. our man young-do is a psychiatrist whose office practice is downstairs. there are twins, and a case of mistaken identity, mystery, child trafficking from a cult, and a case of oooohhhhh we may have met as children kind of story and experienced a similar trauma kind of deal. i wish we had more from the side storylines, and less from the twin guys. like i loved ga-yeong, young-do’s ex-wife and her current boyfriend patrick or ha-neul (young-do’s friend and vet) and jin-ho (ga-yeong’s friend and trainer). i rate it a 6 out of 10.

fruits basket season 3. i loved it and it was a great conclusion to the series. i felt like there was a marked missed for the start of season 3. like i don’t know why the writers wanted me to feel sorry for akito, and wanted me to empathize with her but ya know it was not going to happen. sorry honey. she was wack. but anyways, i love how kya and tohru ended up together because i shipped them sooooo freaking hard. and love that the curse was finally broken for all of them! it was great. i loved it. 9 out of 10.

[jensungf]

nooo pls dont post less!!!!!! i need your cute lil posts about everything 😔🥺 yes cancer sun moon leo!! thats me uwu n i watch football a LOT LOT i love it so much, but its the kind that americans call soccer btw hahaha culture difference ✨ n no its not my bday!! its taeyongs bday!!! but we didnt go for lunch bc of that (or maybe we did 🤔) but my friend n i are quite close so we went for lunch bc of that!!! n also!! no need to be productive? whos that anyway, idk her :p red anon p1 💃

sooo for things i got!! some new converse shoes (black ones), an nct album 🙈 (pulled the bday boy uwuwuwu), handcream, somestickers n some cards bc im almost out of birthday cards to send/give! n yes i stan some other groups!! my faves are day6, red velvet n got7, but theres many more that i like! especially girlgroups hihi, basically day6 got7 and nct21 are the only boys i stan and i like to write but i dont publish it much bc im an insecure potato n theres an about me carrd if you dig p2/3 💃

omg this is becoming such a spam HAHAHAHAHAH ive been on tumblr for years upon years, although this account is on the newer side!! also i remembered i LOVE ITZY SO MUCH theyre definitely also in my faves! i think i also said in my deleted ask that i had been working on a header for a story ill most likely wont write skskskks how do you find motivation/inspiration uwu do you have any plans for today!! -red skirt anon 💃

ima put my response underneath hehe to avoid spamming ppls dash <3

ur so cute bub ily my posts are deadass shit posts but ok <333 excuse me if im being a bit dry hksdhjs im half awake like always hehe and i will be on the lookout for that 😳😳 and hakjd i figured hehe but omfg do u play football? and thats so cute nonetheless!!! i hope u n ur friend had fun hehe taeyong’s spirit appreciates ur hangout dedicated to him <3 and unfortunately i have chores to do and errands to run :cc and OMGGG YAY THOSE R ALL GOOD SPENDS OMG but thats so much money bub?? ru rich 😳😳😳 chenle vibes my dear

hahaha jk ofc but i havent had black converse since my emo phase when i was 11 omg i bet they look so cute on u! i prefer black chuck taylors/hightops hehe wbu bub? also which album did u buy!!! ur blessed by the bday boy himself how adorable 🥺 ooo do u get any specific brand or scent of hand cream? i rly like the tonymoly rose scented ones haha but i ran out :c and i LOVE STICKERS my little sister has a lot and i always steal from her!! she usually uses them in her bujo haha do u use them for fun or on ur art/bujo? and thats so cute omfg stocking up on bday cards is something kinda traditional no one does anymore but thats so cute <333 i admire ur tast ein doing things

omg i dont stan any of those groups besides got7 and unfortunately i havent stanned any gg since sistar disbanded but who r ur biases bub?? ive listened to some day6 but if u have any recs lmkkkk and rv r queens <3 and ive heard about itzy!! i dont know too much about them but theyre all stunning and iconic queens (ive seen ryujin and lia hahaha) 

omg bub ur not an insecure potato,, i would lov to read ur writings and i bet theyre amazing! everyone has room for improvement but dont be shy hehe im sure ur writings would pique everyones interest! and time to go digging thru all my moots again round 2 hhhh 

and its ok hehehe thats pretty cool! ive been on tumblr since like,, 2015 or sum but like i fell out for two yrs and remade in march this yr haha so i feel u and OMG HEADERS i had the most trouble making headers cus i usually find a random pic of them i think is nice and slap on some txt using canva and call it a day!! id love to see ur header!! what do u use to make it?? (++ pls write a story for it i would love to read it 🥺🥺) and honestly idk sometimes inspo randomly hits and my motivation fluctuates!! like rn my wip is flopping cus i dont have any motivation to sit down and write but some of my other stories are spur of the moment writings hahah like better together or jsmr bc i was watching jenos jsmr fails or i fell off my bike and i decided to get inspired while sitting on the couch ahkdhfks so i think its diff for everyone!

and no hehe i dont besides doing stuff online for my fam and /hopefully/ making progress on my wip :c wbu bub???

[chenoehi]

My thoughts on Grammys, BTS, and the Academy's supposed 'diversity'.

Can't do 'Keep Reading' on mobile guys so if you don't care about it keep on scrolling.

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The only BTS music I thought might have a slim chance for a nomination was "Boy With Luv (ft. Halsey)" as a pop duo collaboration. That was it. Anything more than that was just wishful thinking.

The Academy (both Grammy and Oscar's) talk about diversity when controversy comes up, they give some Black artists and actors awards, they look like try-hards, and then the next year they repeat history. Each year more men continue to be nominated than women, even in years that women dominated the industry. Each year artists who push boundaries continue to be overlooked or less favored than more traditional artists. Each year recognition continues to be bulk awarded to the most basic artists with the most basic styles with the most basic music, often times the same (mostly white) artists each year. No one get me started on always having to award artists like Taylor Swift or Ed Sheeran or Adele each year they make music, despite whether or not what they put out is actually good, original, or better than what they did the year before. I'm not singling them out, but I think they illustrate my point. I will make one exception for Adele because she is a phenomenal singer, although I did not personally believe 25 deserved to sweep; I've been told by fans that Ed Sheeran is a good performer, so I'll give him that but I'll keep my thoughts of his music and the rest of my opinions to myself. But I get tired of artists like these getting nominated every time or almost every time they put music out and then getting awards every time they're nominated, hence sweeping. It gets tiring when the music that frequently-awarded artists put out sucks and they keep raking noms because of who they are.

There is absolutely nothing BTS or any other Asian et al. artists can do to beat that system. None of the criticism in the world has changed it thus far and I don't know that anything ever will. It's a hard institution to tear down. They will use "diverse" artists for ratings by inviting them and having them hand out awards and, in BTS's case, making such a big deal as to even display their Grammy outfits in the museum, and then they will refuse to nominate them.

It's a back handed compliment to non-Western artists. The Academy is saying they're good enough to help win over a predominantly younger and more diverse generation of viewers but they're not good enough to be awarded for their achievements.

What's worse is, the only expectation I had was for the Academy to invite them as performers despite whatever minuscule nomination they might have garnered, because it's been clearly hinted they would attend another Grammys and the Academy would frankly be fools to not have them perform after the shitstorm going on the pop industry rn. If you know anything about the Taylor Swift situation (you may not be able to tell which one because there are always so many) who knows if she will be performing this Grammys, and her medley of her songs was supposedly going to be a highlight; something's always stirring things up so who knows if certain artists don't end up going at all or bow out of performing. Ariana Grande bailed on the 2019 Grammys because the Grammy producer wouldn't let her perform songs she wanted to, and these kinds of disputes happen and artists who are nominated become no-shows. So, the opportunity to invite a group with a huge following, who have already proved to increase ratings, seems like a sure move right?

But BTS can't exactly perform at the Grammys if they're not nominated for a Grammy; I don't see them doing a tribute any time soon either. And if the Academy even dares to invite them at this point for a performance it will be an insult and a transparent ratings grab. BTS may still go to avoid appearing as if their pride has been wounded or just because they want to go regardless. They know better than their fans how it feels to lose, to be discarded, to be overlooked. This is happening to them first and foremost, not us. And if they decide that they will deal with this the same way they dealt with all their other struggles, to push on, perform for their fans, and use the opportunity of exposure for what it's worth, then support them and their decision. I, for one, won't be watching it live regardless of whether they are there. If all the Academy wants is ratings from BTS fans when they are fine with treating them like garbage, they won't get ratings from me.

I fully believe that the Academy is not only discriminatory to non-Western, non-white artists but that failing to nominate BTS for any award at all is out of fear. Fear that their traditional, safe artists will be offended and boycott the awards if they lose out on a nomination, fear that their fanbases will retaliate, but more importantly, fear that BTS or any other gigantic force of a non-Western artist may be a shoe-in for whatever award they are nominated for and potentially sweep if allowed to compete with all other artists. This comes after BTS won Best Group at the Billboard Music Awards this year. Their first time being nominated for a major U.S. award category. It wasn't even a Best New Artist schtick. It was a main category and they were up against established, popular, Western groups like Imagine Dragons and Maroon 5. It comes on the heels of Super M earning number 1 debut album and beginning a successful tour they are on right now. It comes after Blackpink performed at Coachella and toured the country. It comes after NCT 127 and ATEEZ toured the country. Even TXT, a months old group, had successful showcases in major U.S. cities.

The Academy is too racist and xenophobic to acknowledge Asian artists--they always have been and they always will be. The most diversity we'll see is the nomination of Black artists, but still only 2 were nominated for SotY whereas 4 were nominated for RotY. I don't know the exact numbers, but any time I've ever kept up with the awards I don't see very many other diversity groups being represented in nominations either, such as artists with disabilities or LGBT artists who have different gender expressions and identities or sexual orientations that impact their music, performance, and artistry. Halsey's intimate performance at the BBMAs with that female dancer was huge because that's just not something that's really done. Still. And any time it does happen it's a Britney and Madonna moment all over again, it's a fetish to everyone. Progress has been made but it's very minuscule in comparison to the 'diversity' touting approach they've taken.

I'll just leave the words of this morning's Rolling Stone article here:

So, the Academy selectively extends its diversity goodwill just as they always have. No shade to the artist, but just using this example of Lil Nas X versus BTS, you have a young Black, gay artist who started his career in late 2018. He's nominated for some of top Grammys with a minimal discography--an 18-minute EP. This is groundbreaking, it's great. BTS, a 6-year-old established group of young Korean artists who break nearly every record there is and dominated Western charts this spring, and they continue to chart Billboard and Western streaming platforms. They earn no nominations.

The two artists ironically happen to have a collaboration in the form of Old Seoul Road.

Congrats to Lizzo and Lil Nas X (that's not shade at Billie btw) but this tweet from the New York Times is so unbelievably misguided because the Academy's conception of diversity is like seasoning with mostly salt, a little pepper and no cayenne (hate to use that analogy but am I wrong?):

I do appreciate that some artists who don't get nominated a lot got nominations, but looking at the list of top awards I just can't imagine how some of those got through. And I listen to a lot of different music and some BTS stans may have know idea who the fuck Bon Iver is and I'm not saying they don't deserve nominations period, but when you look at the list it's just mind boggling how a song like BWL that was listened to and appreciated like a summer anthem would be could not be included in that mess. (Vampire Weekend for Album of the Year, what, who the fuck, is that, they've been around since 2006, that's when I listened to nothing but metal and rock and I don't, know who the fuck this obscure band is? I may have heard of them once eons ago but they apparently made no impression? I'm sorry). I won't go as far as to say BWL was a Western summer anthem because much of the gp still doesn't know them, this is true. But apparently that's never stopped the Academy before. Bonus, anyone remember Bon Iver winning Best New Artist over Katy Perry all those years ago? No, just me? Good times. (Respect to Bon Iver, I'm just making a point that a lesser known artist won that award over a popular artist and the public went "waH?" Bon Iver being nominated for Record and Album of the Year this time honestly has the same effect as before because what is Hey, Ma even. I listen to Indie music so. What it is.)

Anyway. That's my thoughts. Expect nothing and you won't be disappointed is a myth. You will always have room to be disappointed in humanity.

Edit: while I'm at it, a big, massive fuck you to the Academy for never nominating Halsey for Without You.

[starlighthan]

my ults in my top 4 artists in spotify wrapped... i am not surprised

anyways sharing what i got from spotify wrapped below the cut! read it if u want to know ofc <33

my top artists:

1. stray kids

2. twice

3. day6

4. wjsn

5. blackpink

my comment: top 4 are my ults (and my top 4 last year also revolved around them! day6 was my first one last year) so there’s nothing surprising! i rarely listened to bp this year tho, except the members’ solos so i believe that is not my fault... my dad and sister do love them a lot and we all use the same account (i use spotify the most so majority of what stats from spotify is from me anyways)

my top songs: 

1. i can’t stop me - twice

2. alcohol-free - twice

3. easy - wjsn the black

4. wolfgang - stray kids

5. more & more - twice

my comment: not surprised that it’s mostly from twice LMAO im surprised by wolfgang tho i was not expecting that this would be my top song from skz :0 anyways easy is a sexc song she deserved top song i recommend 100/10! icsm has a strong grip on me tho lol i was SO shocked that spotify told me that i listened to icsm exactly 200 times woah

overall comments: 

for most parts, it was kind of predictable for me! i checked the songs outside my top 5 and 98% of it was from my ults and several ggs!

the only three random songs that got in was txt’s 2 latest releases (my dad love those two songs so much lol) and enhypen’s drunk-dazed (i was into it at first but i guess my sister was the one playing it a lot which was why the song got in :0 she stans them)! 

i was surprised that aespa’s next level got 6th, i was expecting something higher bc i was and am still OBSESSED with this song!!! i still play next level every day til now lmao

day6′s the book of us: negentropy album tho, 6/7 tracks got in and i feel bad for so let’s love </3 i usually play from first to last but i dont get to finish it sometimes aah 

UPDATE: SO LET'S LOVE IS IN THE PLAYLIST HELP i probably missed it 😭 i have the whole negentropy album in it im happier than ever lmao

I FORGOT!! got7′s if you do got in bc i liked this song a lot and i remember listening to this a lot a few months ago lmao

that’s pretty much it!! i think there’d be a shift next year since i’ve been listening to western artists again lately and paramore’s probably releasing an album anytime next year :0 i’m looking forward seeing paramore, my chemical romance, and taylor swift in my spotify wrapped again next year! i thought i really sticked to kpop this year bc the pandemic really got me in to kpop even more and encouraged me more to get fit through dancing to kpop songs! lately, i havent been exercising and im listening more to the mentioned western artists bc im in college already :’D kpop distracts me a lot while studying so i had to listen to english songs a lot lately (this is why im expecting the shift next year lol)... so yeah, that’s all... thanks for reading this whole thing if you reached til the end :0

[bubblydreamies]

mcnd - top gang, ice age

both these are amazing and like i listen to both when i'm hella happy and they're just

wow iconic. kinda sad spring and nanana aren't as wow but i hope their next cb is amazing

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ateez - answer, inception

answer deserves soty like seriously it really set the tone for the year and was the start to a line of amazing releases. and i didn't like inception at first but it really grew on me and i'll argue that hongjoong's rap in the beginning is one of the best in kpop this year

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loona - so what

this lowkey sounds like a war anthem and i love how hype and energetic it is like i just wanna run a marathon while listening to this. it's the main reason i wanna stan loona

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the boyz - reveal, stealer

so i admittedly stopped liking reveal for awhile and i didn't like the stealer at first but

reveal is already a classic and i will: jam. and the stealer is such a unique concept i feel like and it's just amazing and we need more like it

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pentagon - dr. bebe, daisy

okay both of these are slept on and they fucking deserve better. pentagon is one of those groups that doesn't seem to care so much about trends and what's popular and they're just doing their own thing and actually caring about the music and we love to see it bc both of these are art and some of the best releases of 2020

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dreamcatcher - scream, boca

dreamcatcher really is doing their own thing and it's just unique and works so well and both these songs hype the fuck out of me like yes lemme go to hell real quick and punch satan

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nct

i'm not even gonna list songs for them like there's so many. 2020 was nct's year, tell me otherwise. everything they released was quality and amazing and just,,, s o much like wow. ig that's the perks of having so many members and multiple units. but fr mark needs a break next year. poor guy has been promoting like almost all year

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itzy - wannabe

this is the first itzy era that really felt like an era to me like

i see so many people talk about how taylor swift was everywhere and inescapable during 1989 era and that's what wannabe felt like for the kpop world like,,, the song was everywhere, ryujin's shoulder dance was everywhere. it's still everywhere. this is probably one of the most (if not the most) iconic releases of 2020

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(g)i-dle - oh my god, dumdi dumdi

okay i feel like oh my god blew up for a second and then just,,, was forgotten. and dumdi dumdi lowkey felt like the only people who acknowledged it were the fans and the general kpop community ignored it. at least from what i've observed. but both deserve so much more like idle really didnt come to play this year and the q u a l i t y of the music was just wow. stan gidle for clear skin

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solar - spit it out

sigh, another amazing release that was slept on. i have so many good memories with this song already and i think it's gonna be a super nostalgic song for me

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chungha - stay tonight, play, dream of you

this year really feels like one big nct and chungha era and i love it. chungha snapped with each release and they're all so fucking good like

can this woman do any wrong

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txt

just like nct and chungha, everything they released this year was on another level. q u a l i t y

txt never fails to amaze me with the way they offer so much quality and they're only a year old like

music industry take notes

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twice - more & more, i can't stop me

i'm getting lazy now so im probs not gonna make as many paragraphs but twice just being iconic queens this year as usual. we stan

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n.flying - oh really.

this is like,,, my mega emotional support song of the year

like oh yay will to live gone crying on the bedroom floor, oh really is there to give me a big hug and just help me cry it out and help me feel better. the emotional attachment i've got for this song is probs far from healthy

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nature - girls

OKAY BUT WHY IS THIS SO SLEPT ON. THEY PERFECTED A HORROR CONCEPT WHERE'S THE ROUND OF APPLAUSE AND AWARDS. THIS IS 2020 LIKE LETS GIVE CREDIT WHERE IT'S DUE

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stray kids - easy, back door

easy deserves better js. but anyway back door is about gay sex, i will not be convinced otherwise

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seventeen - right & left, 24h

seventeen is one of the groups that really just made my summer amazing and helped me to have hope despite all the crazy shit going on

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blackpink

too lazy to type out their releases. but blackpink was just i c o n i c this year. i dont own multiple copies of the album for nothing

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sunmi - pporappippam

this song is like

such a mood setter for me. no matter what mood i'm in it can improve it. if i used spotify this would probs be my most streamed song of the year

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what you waiting for - somi

yeah we're lazy now. this song is like a cavity of happiness and i will ward off anybody that tries to fix the cavity

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treasure - boy, i love you, mmm

i havent kept up with award shows this year but if they didnt win roty then i'm rioting

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[haeddoti]

Hey there once again! This time I talk about mycurrent favorite songs, my most-listened-to songs and my all-time favorites as well! Actually, I think I can make a whole separate post about k-pop, there is so much more to talk about!

Most-listened-to songs

Whistle- Black Pink

Pop/Stars- K/DA

favOriTe- Loona

Touch- NcT 127

Wow Thing- SM Station

Google Play Music lets you see how many times you listened to a song, so that’s what this list is based on. I don’t use Spotify as much (at least not now) plus I don’t think it would change the ranking too much.

Current faves

Runaway Kids- Harbour

Talk too much- COIN

Tick Tock- Day 6

9 and three Quarters- TXT

modern loneliness- Lauv

For my all time favorite songs, I actually want to go more in-depth than with these previous songs because I actually care a lot about how music makes me feel and I like talking about things I like.

Now let’s get into the songs that are my all time favorites, songs I have enjoyed for a long time already or songs I don’t think I will get bored of. Note that these songs don’t include my “emotional well-being songs”, aka songs that I listened to in really emotional situations and songs that will make me cry if I listen to them in the wrong moments. I do love them too tho.

“Fireflies”- Owl City

“Cause they fill the open air

and leave teardrops everywhere

You’d think me rude but I would just stand and stare”

Oh wow this song is a masterpiece. It was my first ever CD that my parents got me for my birthday and I loved listening to this song even when I was a kid. It has this dreamy atmosphere and the lyrics are so beautiful yet creepy at the same time. It paints this image in my head and I attempted to draw it a lot of times already but I’ve got it quite right, so I guess I have to keep trying. The song also has a certain kind of melancholia which I really enjoy.

This song fits somehow every mood I’m in. Happy? Yes. Sad? Yes. In need of comfort? Yes. Need to calm down? Yes. It is such a timeless artwork and I’m sure I will listen to it many more times.

“Cruel Summer”-Taylor Swift

“I don’t wanna keep secrets just to keep you”

(I’m aware this sounds like Stylish but eh)

Ahh my summer-romance-dream-wish song. If this song would be a photo, it would be the sky right before dawn with little pink clouds. It sounds like vintage camera videos look, you know, the one’s where the video is squared and the screen flickers slightly and everything is sepia-ish yellow.

It sounds like late night talks in the summer and eating watermelon and swimming in a lake in the forest and hiding your clothes behind a tree. It sounds like summer nights. And I love it so much. It sounds so sad somehow, almost like a heartbreak. This is one of my summer road trip music songs, which is a genre you’ll find quite often among my favorites.

This song makes me wanna dance and draw and cry all at the same time.

“Summer Days”- Macklemore& Patrick Stump

“Pull the roof back just me, you and the stars

Toast to the Gods”

Did I mention I like summer road trip music? Yeah. This is coincidentally also my favorite walking-through-the-city-song at any time of the year. It boosts my confidence, my self-esteem and even though I’m not that into highly sexual songs, this one is really nice. I actually listened to this song for the first time on the radio while driving to Lake Constance and it took me a solid 3 days to find this song on YouTube because I couldn’t make out the singers voices as much and they didn’t say the title of the song afterwards. The imagery sounds like the “The Last Resort” Map from Hitman 2, at least that’s what I thought of when I listened to this song another time. I really like the song and the ~vibes~ it has when you play it as a background music while chilling with your friends.

“rooftop”-N.Flying

“Every time I look up in the sky,

There’s not a single star,

It’s alright, you’re my universe

shine bright for me”

Do you believe in love at first sight? Or rather, first listen? I certainly didn’t but BOY, this wasn’t love at first sight but a whole marriage proposal on my part. I randomly listened to this because someone on twitter said they were underrated so I just looked for their most recent comeback and I instantly fell in love with every single thing about this song. This is another road trip star gazing song, which I absolutely love. It literally says so in the lyrics.

This is also such a pretty, romantic love song, I can’t.

“Butterfly”-LOONA

“Fly like a butterfly”

Best K-Pop MV and Choreography of 2019, don’t @ me. This song is my favorite Loona whole-group song and the best Music video of every genre I’ve ever seen. Aesthetically pleasing? Superb editing? Diversity? An expensive looking MV with optimal usage of minimal built sets? You name it. This MV has it all. The song itself is also a work of art. It sounds dreamy, like early mornings and soft music in the city.

Some people criticize that the chorus doesn’t have actual vocals but honestly, that would ruin it. The  chorus is fine as it is and from a performing pov, it also makes sense; as a viewer, you are supposed to focus on the dance and the atmosphere and not the singer.

Idk man, this song is just so good and I highly suggest it to everyone who at least wants to see a really good music video.

“Vegas Lights”- P!atD

“We gotta be starting something,

would you change it if you could?”

My favorite P!atD song. It’s another road trip song and the song that would play in a teenager movie, when they are in the park during summer eating pizza pretending to be in Vegas. This song is so fun, and fast paced and an instant mood maker and I love every second of it. The bridge of the song is also really good, amazing contrast between the chorus.

The sass in the voice of Brandon is also amazing. Walking through the city while having an “Oh if you only knew, what we’ve been up to” is very much amazing and confidence-boosting, even though I’m just walking to the supermarket.

“I just”- Red Velvet

“I just leave”

This song is the epitome of melancholic-break-up-love songs. They way it summarizes the want tot run away from pain and sadness is projected really well through their voices and it is definitely my favorite RV B-Side. It makes me want to cry sometimes. There are, in fact, not as many lyrics because they repeat the “I just leave” and Ah-y-ah quite a lot, but the actual text lyrics are so powerful and deep, it’s amazing. I usually don’t listen to b-sides at first and the only reason I found out abut this song in the first place was because they actually did a “vertical MV” and I watched it because I thought it was a title song and then I was shocked because I learned it was in fact a b-side. This is one of those songs I could show to my nonkpopfans-friends because it doesn’t sound too k-pop-y and the instrumental provides enough atmosphere to make everyone understand what the song is about: Break-ups, fear and longing of something new.

“Letting Go”- Day6

“Holding onto you will do you no good,

I know, so I struggle to get you out,

The times we had together, our dear memories,

I let go, let go, let go

So you can smile someday.<i> “ </i>

Let me present to you the most underrated and under appreciated Day6 song to this date. This is, in my humble opinion, not only their best but also their most heartbreaking song. Its different to “How can I say” or “I need somebody” because it depicts a different kind of pain. The pain of wanting someone else to be happy while knowing that you’ll never be the reason they’re happy. Its just so...wow genius Young-k, we stan. Anyways, this is also the only K-Pop song I can sing in Korean and actually know all the lyrics. Definitely a must listen, even if you don’t listen to K-Pop on a regular basis.