#anyway i’m losing my FUCKING MIND
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THEY DIDN’T EVEN, FOR A SINGLE SECOND, CONSIDER THAT THEY WEREN’T DRIFT COMPATIBLE. IT WASN’T EVEN A FUCKING QUESTION.
#benny beeps#pacific rim#pacrim#newmann#hermann gottlieb#newton geiszler#newt geiszler#no i do not know why i’m tagging this </3 thanks#anyway i’m losing my FUCKING MIND
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…Tired of losing my nightmares are lucid I ain’t won a battle in my head since this war’s fuckin’ begun…..
#yes I’m still here unfortunately#not by my choice tho#against my will#i’m losing my mind#I still don’t understand#broken heart#trans#transgender#trans pride#transisbeautiful#mtf#transgirl#girlslikeus#mtf hrt#maletofemale#transformation#he told me to un-alive myself#you can’t tell a suicidal individual that#and he already knew I am#anyway I’m under observation#like I fucking want to be watched 🙄#trans woman#trans women#sad girl#i'm sad#sadness#transexual#this is what trans looks like#trans experience#trans positivity
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Please stop taking away the clones’ agency.
They are HUMANS.
They fuck up.
They make mistakes.
They make bad decisions and choices.
Because they are HUMAN.
One of the best parts of TBB is that we get to follow different perspectives of the clones: those who want to fight the Empire (Rex and his rebels), those who want to settle down (CF99), and those who WILLINGLY serve the Empire (formerly Crosshair, formerly Cody, currently Wolffe).
What makes these characters interesting—and HUMAN—is that they fuck up. They are not perfect. And they make decisions we do not agree with. Because they are HUMAN.
Crosshair served the Empire willingly.
Wolffe is serving the Empire willingly.
They are both complex characters who chose/choose to serve the Empire based on their own decision-making.
Stop taking away their humanity just because you don’t agree with their decisions.
#if I see one more person claim Wolffe is working for the Empire because he’s controlled by the chip I’m going to lose my fucking mind#why does this fandom claim they support clone individuality while taking away that very same agency and indiviudality?#anyway this was a great reminder to myself to stay off Reddit#commander wolffe#tbb crosshair#tbb spoilers#tbb s3 spoilers#tbb season 3 spoilers
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I have unlocked the ability to draw them hot and I’m gonna enjoy every second of it
#art#my art#artists on tumblr#izuart#izzy oc#vanitas the hedgehog#vox the hedgehog#ultimate lifespawn au#human au#sonadow#sonadow fankid#sonic fankid#sonic fankids#sth fankid#fankid au#sonic art#sth art#sonic oc#sth oc#oc#original character#THESE KILLED ME YOU HAVE NO IDEA#I AM LOSING MY FUCKING MIND#THEY ARE SO HOT#I ACT LIKE I DIDNT DRAW THESE BUT JUST AAAAAAAAA#fun fact I only drew them shirtless bc 1) I love their markings and their clothes cover them#and 2) I’m so happy I can draw male/masc torsos now so I’m having too much fun#oh and 3) i just really didn’t wanna draw clothes rn TvT#ANYWAYS AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA#I THINK ALL US VOX AND VANITAS ENJOYERS WANNA DO THIS OK (me included)
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us all, starting yet another one sherlock adaptation and telling ourselves it’s hope and not delusion to expect johnlock to happen maybe this time:
#sherlock & co#so yeah anyway when are we going for a group therapy to treat our delusional brains?#for the sake of our sanity I will hope nevertheless that this time we’ll be rewarded for our patience#with a fantabulous john and sherlock getting together#they’ll kiss and then I’ll want to kiss the podcast creators on the lips out of my eternal gratitude#one day I’m gonna lose my mind if yet another show dares to queerbait me in the fucking 21st century#don’t get me wrong this is not me hating sherlock and co because it’s doing great and I love it#it’s just me with a festering wound and ongoing trauma after lokius or rather the lack of it#john watson#sherlock#sherlock holmes#goalhanger#goalhanger podcasts#johnlock#sherlock and co
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hi.
#i know most of you didn’t even realize i was gone#but man…#my mental health was like in a state of 📉📉📉 in the past 30 days like we love being mentally ill and fucking insane <3#it was mostly bc i panicked and started obsessing over possible water damage in my flat kind of out of nowhere#like it started when my landlord came to check my bathroom bc my downstairs neighbours had water stains on their ceiling back in july#which had been caused by their shower curtain apparently but i was already spiraling when my landlord told me so i was sure it was my fault#i was assuming it was bc of me bc i had sometimes been spilling some of my bathwater and i was like WHAT IF IT HAS GONE THROUGH THE FLOOR?#and it didn't help that it has been hot af and very humid in my apartment LIKE WELL OVER 25 DEGREES AND 60% HUMIDITY#anyways i couldn’t shake this not matter what i tried and my fucking insane brain made me think i was going to get arrested for like#flooding the whole building or for causing some sort of mold infestation#i had SO MANY panic attacks; i wasn't able to sleep; i wasn't able to eat; i was on edge and panicky basically 24/7 so fun fun fun :D#and i kept waking up in the middle of the night and HAD to go check my walls or the space below my kitchen#it was compulsory like i couldn't not get up and go check and tbh i would've thrown out all of my furniture if i could've to check for mold#(and shhhh i know how fucking insane this sounds but having a mentally ill brain that's anxious all the time does suck ass sometimes 🥲)#(the worst thing about it tho was that i was SO AWARE of how insane about this i was being and yet i couldn't stop losing my mind over it)#(also i was so ready to move tf outta here bc i couldn't handle being triggered 24/7 which is why my mom let me stay with her last week )#i was so out of it that i couldn't even let myself do the things i usually enjoy... like at all#like watching my shows or spending any ungodly amount of time on tumblr... or replying to messages i got from people who i love#ig this goes to show HOW bad this actually was for me mentally bc usually tumblr and my shows are like my safe place#anyways we finally had a leak detection dude come over today and we had him check the water levels in my walls#and he said everything is fine and he specifically told me i should stop worrying about any water damage BC THERE IS NO WATER DAMAGE#he also said that the weather has just been insanely humid this year so it's not surprising that the humidity levels are higher than usual#i’m still a bit scared about some possible mold but ig this is good enough for now#i am aware how ridiculous this must sound for anyone who's reading this now but couldn't let it go not even with meds so let me live pls :(#TLDR I WAS GOING THROUGH IT BUT I AM BACK I THINK AND I AM MOST LIKELY GOING TO START BOTHERING YOU WITH MY GIFS AGAIN <3#AND I JUST REALIZED I HAVEN'T EVEN SEEN ANY OF THE HEART KILLERS STUFF YET ASIDE FROM ONE OR TWO PICS LIKE :(#OH AND I NEED TO START WATCHING SUMMER NIGHT ;_;#sabrina talks#@AIRENYAH GIRL I AM SO SORRY I WILL PROBABLY REPLY TO YOUR MESSAGES LATER TODAY OR TOMORROW MORNING ;_;<3
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another one because i have no self control
alt batfam shifter au (but its animals that are actually native to new jersey cuz why not yk)
alfred: white-tailed deer
bruce: black bear
dick: american mink
jason: raccoon
cass: big brown bat
tim: long-tailed weasel
duke: eastern cottontail
damian: black bear cub
bonus
steph: eastern chipmunk
babs: red squirrel
#i’m losing my fucking mind#anyway#dc comics#dc#dcu#batfamily#batfam#batfam au#new jersey#gotham#bruce wayne#barbara gordon#dick grayson#jason todd#cassandra cain#tim drake#stephanie brown#duke thomas#damian wayne#alfred pennyworth#random batfam shit
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I think you made me start shipping Marchil
Your posts got me thinking about their dynamic then I wrote a fic that was supposed to be platonic but midway through I realized it could actually be interpreted as romantic too and now I'm just sad about how little time they'll have together
First of all, you have a lovely icon, second, I’m so honored… I finally read Not a bad way to go and it was soo so good like. My god!!! Pre-canon is underused and you did so many interesting things with it.
It sounded like a cruel joke, that the one who needed her concern the most was also the one least interested in it.
^^^ go read it go read it
Chilchuck was drunk enough that he needed to hold onto the walls not to fall, but apparently still sober enough to remember emotional vulnerability was his worst enemy, as he made sure to avert her eyes and said: “Namari made me come talk to you ” to make it clear he wasn't being nice voluntarily.
Yeah.
“Of course I'm scared of dying.” He scoffed. Did she really think so little of him? “But if I could choose, I would want to die doing something I love, like drinking. Or maybe fucking,”
Maybe you wish you didn’t know but my new favorite HC because of this is that Chil dies yes prematurely not of liver failure though but during coitus. Especially if marchil, the thought of him busting a nut and his heart giving out makes me laugh so hard. My god. Lmao. Oh god. Lmfao. Worst day of her life
Marcille knew Chilchuck wasn't a kid, but she often struggled to take him seriously as an adult because he was just so adorable and small. In this moment, however, she saw them exactly for what they were, even if it was just a glimpse. A sheltered, naive little girl trying to tell a tired, much more experienced man how to live the rest of his life.
Standing ovation
She tried to find an explanation to give him, but she couldn't even find one for herself. Why would she miss him? He was just Chilchuck, her coworker, Chilchuck who was cold, aloof, sometimes crass, evasive, and even outright mean. He who was level headed, reliable, trustworthy, perceptive and clever. He who had the least time left, even in a best case scenario. “I guess that despite your best efforts, there's still a lot to like about you.”
This fic goes so hard, standing ovation pt 2
“I just think it's better if we don't get too close. Don't you agree?” “I… maybe” she said, uncertain as he didn't know how to feel about that. Caring about people would only hurt her in the wrong run, she knew that, but unfortunately she couldn't help it.
I looove how they can be read to be similar on this aspect. My hand clenching around my phone as I rear up to rant about Marcille and the way she does keep people at an arm’s length subconsciously again my god my goood. Obsessed with this obsessed with this, underused for marchil. Terrified of loss through death vs rejection duo I love youuu
Brilliant ending I’m in shambles. I’m not gonna spoil it
You get marchil so much you truly do. The way they mesh, the way their views on mortality clash and both soothe & bruise… He doesn’t have much time left even in best case scenario (which Mr I won’t eat well I’ll drink and smoke a lot I’ll stress all day every day is determined to not make happen) which makes it all the more meaningful for Marcille’s arc when she learns from him to finally enjoy the present moments… It’ll only be a fraction of her life, but to him he’s giving her the rest of his life. What are some decades of love worth? Worth it, surely, if nothing else
#My only nitpick is that canonically they rarely hang out after work and you wrote that they did it often but that’s lit the only thing#Chilchuck tims#dunmeshi memes#ask#I have friends big fans of the timeline where Chil is one of those who miraculously live to 70#Marcille is always bracing herself year after year to lose him and it just becomes anticlimatic#Chilchuck the old fart grumpy husband who REFUSES to die#I wanna write pre-canon marchil as well eventually…#Anyways i hope u don’t mind me putting ur fic on blast!! I liked it a lot and again i couldn’t be happier i made you like the ship#Or even write fic like omg… i hope you make more!! You got them down real well#Thank you for the ask and thank you for the content!!! Made my day. Bith when u sent it and when i rea the fic i was having a bad day#Like his dad WOULD say that. ‘I heard you crying what the fuck’ aughh they’re so so compelling pre canon oh my god#I looove ‘platonic or romantic you choose’ fics and tackling alcoholic Chil is an instant like. The 1 flirty line was a nice treat#Marchil union is brainstorming Coraline AUs btw they all go so hard I’m looking forward to that wave#Tried to keep this a lil more composed than the ao3 comments I make lmaoo but yeah know that i’d do rabid keysmashes about it#‘You’re easy to love despite it all/even if you try to make it hard to’ is such a core of marchil
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a man said the most eddie-coded thing about me that i genuinely cannot stop thinking about it days later but he doesn’t know that i know he said what he did
#my friend said i’ve got a special flavor of trauma from my childhood#and he immediately goes ‘i wanna know what it tastes like 😏’#i’m haunted#he met me twice and just alluded to eating my [redacted]#and i’d let him !#this is why i’ve been mia#him: don’t judge#the girls in question; not judging but losing their fucking minds#such casual rizz someone fucking sedate me#i also have a story time about how he paid for my (well mine and my best friends) dinner and it gave me BUTTERFLIES#anyways boys#be careful with what you tell her best friend#she’s loyal to me first 😤#i don’t think y’all wanna hear about my love life but this is the most exciting it’s been in a while#eddie munson would 100% joke about ‘tasting your trauma’ idc
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IM LOSING MY ABSOLUTE SHIT! YOU MEAN TO TELL ME THAT SEASON THREE OF JACKSON’S DIARY HAS BEEN OUT FOR MONTHS AND NONE OF YOU LOSERS LET ME KNOW????
#gotta go read it all#so fast#losing my shit#i’m losing my mind actually#going insane#i fucking love jackson’s diary#it’s one of the few webtoons i consider to be like a tv show to me#it’s part of my enrichment habitat#i’ve been regularly reading it for like two years now#you cannot imagine the amount of anguish i went through when realizing s3 was out#AND I DIDNT KNOW#anyways#brb i need to read it all#cress talks way too much#jacksons diary#webtoon
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Got diagnosed with adhd lmao
@wathav you were right 🙄 /j
#sillyposting#adhd#AuDHD#she had me so scared because she was saying my attention was actually really good on the qb test#I was like if she says I don’t have it I’m going to lose my mind#but she said I still met the criteria for adhd and actually had more hyperactive symptoms than innattention#which is WILD to me#and I feel is not very accurate but if it gets me meds I do not care#got lots of imposter syndrome about this but pushing it aside under the goal of ‘who cares about the diagnosis#if I can get meds that help me stop failing at school from absolute dogshit executive dysfunction#that I’ve had for as long as I can remember’#anyway trying meds fucking HOORAY.
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you know what. they could have done more with the mimetic rivalry actually
#not thee most interesting take on aufidius tbh. like i was ready my horrible mimetic thoughts into it#but i can do that to most things.#and it’s funny because they were Very Much doing things with rome and. fuck what’s the volscii’s city called. as mimetic doubles#in fact for a few scenes i thought both senates were double cast but it turns out i’m just very faceblind :(#they DID have the same plebeians in colour swapped versions of the same outfits though. yay#anyway. need to reread coriolanus and lose my entire mind at every occurrence of the word envy#beeps
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So when Swerve and Hangman become a tag team, what’s their chant gonna be? I don’t feel like Cowboy’s House or Whose Shit will quite work.
#aew#y’all I’m so serious when I say I’m losing my fucking mind#I need SLEEP#I haven’t slept correctly in like 3+ days#but anyway#I’m manifesting and pushing my strickpage tag run until it happens#I will bully Tony khan one way or another#swerve strickland#hangman adam page#strickpage
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Old sketchbook dump ig
#I like the colors.. I need to do this more often.. the more recent pages are looking bland😭#anyways I’m making one for the bear.. if yall have any doodle suggestions🤷#danganronpa#danganronpa fanart#makoto naegi#ibuki mioda#mikan tsumiki#kyoko kirigiri#kazuichi souda#gundham tanaka#chiaki nanami#monomi#maki harukawa#kaede akamatsu#chihiro fujisaki#I also obviously don’t know how to use watercolor#I’ve started drawing in my sketchbook again.. which is why I posted this#drawing digitally isn’t as stimulating and I’m losing mind in this fucking dorm😭#/lh#?#my art
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Jack Harkness is in love with the Doctor, in all their incarnations, and people can pry that from my cold, dead hands.
yes of course but i’m saying, canonically, he is ??? like he absolutely is i don’t see how you can interpret it in any other way
#like i live in delusion so#for me the doctor is too in love with jack#but that’s me#but he canonically is what the fuck#did media literacy die#IF THEY DONT KISS (WHICH THEY DID) ITS NOT CANON THEN#it’s aziracrow all over again#2023 media killed media literacy im sorey#people don’t have to say it out loud to be true (WHICH HE DID ANYWAY?)#i’m losing my mind#torchwood#doctor who#jack harkness
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:c
#i luv my friends ;-; i feel like i’m gonna lose my mind when i’m not living right by all my friends lmao 😭#i’ve literally been hanging out w ppl like at least every other day if not every day#we made semi spontaneous plan to go to pride tmrwwweww 🥹🥹 i’m excited#i just am so happy that i get to spend sm time w ppl rn bc we’re all somewhat free bc summer 😭#also idk i was just thinking abt this recently but like#it’s kinda new to me to like actually be comfortable/confident in knowing my friends want/like my presence ;-;#even then i’m not that confident LMAO bc after sm time together i’m like surely they’ll get sick of me#like we’ve seen each other every day the past like three days#but no 🥹 ugh like idk man i had one elementary to sort of middle and high school friendship#that like fucked me up i feel like lmfao 💀#like girl sidelined me so much for other friends that i just#:l and cried so much bc of that 😀 anyway 😀#so like idk i’m just so grateful rn 😭😭😭#also was thinking abt it recently bc my mom made me feel judged/ made me feel like she was annoyed that i was staying here on campus#when i technically don’t need to and my main/only reason is bc friends#and after that conversation w her i got kinda annoyed bc i was like#i have had so many conversations w you where i was sad af or frustrated that my friends wouldn’t reach out to me ever#or my friend who never paid attention to me when other friends were around#like i don’t think she’s actually judging like me staying for friends but it was that one conversation we were both kinda annoyed idk#and i was just like . pls#anyway 😀 i always have so many friend thoughts i always be overthinking it LOL#anyway anyway i need to be up in like 6 hrs LOLLLLLL pride tho yay 🥰🥰🥰#rip me not having clean cute clothes for this LOL 🤪#ong last yr i tied my hair in a ponytail w like rainbow hair ties tied down the ponytail……#idk if i have those but if i do maybe i should do that again LOL#idk might be too lazy tho we’ll see how much time i have to get ready when i wake up 🤡#jeanne talks#TOO MUCH BYE
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