#anyway i watched 10 things i hate about you last night and i think its made me more of a sap than usual. unfortunately

[youssefguedira]

help i have to do stuff today but i'm stuck thinking about Them (people i made up)

[karvroom]

10 Things I Hate About Katsuki Bakugo

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⇦ 004. An Idiot with Money

005. The Beginning of the End

After school, Kaminari and Mineta stayed, in hopes of finding their (hopefully) savior. When they spotted him on the field with his punk friend, they took initiative. Jogging at the bench where Bakugo occupied, surrounding by fumes of toxins.

"Hey, how you doin'?" Kaminari asked as he came to a stop. Bakugo was taking a drag of his cancer stick, blowing the smoke from his lips. He took the cigarette out of his mouth, leaving it to dangle in between his middle and index finger. Kaminari smiled while trying to pick at the mind of Bakugo, "I had some great squirrel last night."

Consider Bakugo's attention grabbed at such an obscure sentence. Why was an extra like Kaminari speaking to him? They come from two different worlds anyway. Bakugo, an unpopular delinquent everyone steers clear of. Meanwhile, Kaminari was a chick magnet who basically "ruled the school". He whipped his head to the annoying blonde, furrowing his brows. "Do I know you?"

Kaminari's smile deflated, wanting to get down to business as soon as possible. He pointed toward a figure on the playing field, "You see that girl?"

Bakugo, annoyed, looked in your direction. The dark blue jersey you sported caught his eye. Your smooth (S/C) legs exposed to the sun and its heat. Your hair was pulled back into a ponytail, exposing the entirety of your warm face. Beads of sweat accompanied the heat which filled your face. You kicked the soccer ball to your teammate, shouting something to them that Kaminari and Bakugo couldn't quite understand.

"Yeah." Bakugo dryly replied, holding the cigarette back up to his mouth. What was the point of this conversation? He knew he should've went home instead of stayed after school; afraid of something like this happening. A man couldn't enjoy his free time on his on?

"That's (Y/N) Ashido." Kaminari explained, watching his classmate inhale the tobacco only to blow it back out into the air. He spoke in a more demanding tone, "I want you to go out with her."

Bakugo scoffed, an amused smile following shortly after. Puffs of smoke blew in Kaminari's direction as Bakugo spoke to him, "Yeah, sure. Sparky."

Even Bakugo's unnamed friend laughed, finding it hard to believe Kaminari actually thought he had a chance at making Bakugo actually go through with his command.

"Look, I can't take out her sister until (Y/N) starts dating. You see their dad's whacked out. He's got this rule where the girls—"

"That's a touching story. It really is." The pale blonde repeated the process of taking the cigarette away from his lips. He shook his head. Bakugo whispered teasingly to Kaminari, "Not my problem."

Kaminari knew Bakugo would deny his request at first, which is exactly why he came with a backup plan. Bribery, of course. "Would you be willing to make it your problem if I provide generous compensation?"

Bakugo dryly chuckled, "You're gonna pay me to take out some chick?" Kaminari nodded his head with a small 'mhm'. This lead Bakugo into a fit of laughter once more as he licked his dry lips, "How much?"

"Twenty bucks." Bakugo raised his eyebrows, turning back to see you on the field. He caught you at a bad time, watching you run into your teammate (playing the role of the opposing team). You knocked them over, quickly kicking the ball from in between their legs. The whistle blew at your foul. Kaminari and Bakugo's heads slowly turned back to meet one another's gaze. Kaminari sighed, "Fine, thirty."

"Well, let's think about this. We go to the movies, that's, uh, fifteen bucks." Bakugo looked away before standing to his true height. He really was intimidating to stand next to, even being just barely taller than Kaminari. Mineta cautiously watched his friend get sized up before Bakugo started to walk around him, "We get popcorn, that's, uh, fifty-three. And she'll want Sour Patch, right? So, uh, we're looking at seventy-five bucks."

"This isn't a negotiation. Take it or leave it, Trailer Park." Kaminari was quick with his comeback, trying to find a reason why this isn't a complete waste of his time.

Bakugo's wicked smile spread across his face, "Fifty bucks and we got a deal, Fabio."

Kaminari groaned, reaching into his front pocket for the bill to pay Bakugo. He wondered if giving this guy money was actually worth the hassle. The whistle blew as Bakugo graciously took the money from between Kaminari's fingers, stuffing it into his own pocket.

"Great practice, everybody." Coach Vlad exclaimed to the players across the field. You jogged in, wanting to grab your bag and go home. The coach called out to you as you passed him, "Good hustle, Ashido."

"Thanks, Mr. Vlad."

First thing you did when you got to the bench where your duffle bag sat was dig through the supplies. You eventually found your water bottle, chugging the warm water so greedily. You were parched after being outside for a total of two hours, practicing non-stop. You brought the water bottle away from your lips, twisting the cap back on. Setting the bottle on the bench as you packed everything else away in your bag.

Bakugo seized this opportunity to stalk closer to you. He slightly bent over to meet your gaze, gaining your attention. His voice was raised as he spoke, "Hey there, girlie. How you doin'?"

You were confused as to why he would be talking to you out of the blue. You squinted your eyes to hide from the blinding rays of the sun as you spoke, "Sweating like a pig, actually. And yourself?"

"Now, there's a way to get a guy's attention, huh?" Bakugo, once again, stretched to his full height. You were surprised by how much taller he was up close.

You scoffed, slinging your duffle bag over your shoulder, "My mission in life. But obviously, I struck your fancy, so, you see, it worked. The world makes sense again."

You started to walk away from him, hoping that would be the end of the conversation. To your dismay, he followed like a lost puppy dog. Bakugo looked almost desperate chasing you around. Others surrounding you noticed it too.

"Pick you up on Friday, then." He came into your peripheral view.

"Oh, right. Friday. Uh-huh." You humored him, continuing to walk forward towards the exit of the stadium.

"Well, the night I take you places you've never been before." Bakugo smirked. It was out of character for him to hit on someone. Usually, the girls (and some guys) would come up to him, begging for one chance. He would find it annoying, but now he's more irritated that he couldn't even win you over. Was his charm depleting? Was the dimple that appeared everytime he shot someone a wicked smile not enough for you to swoon over?

"Like where? The 7-Eleven on Broadway?" You sassed, swinging your arms dramatically. "Do you even know my name, screw boy?"

"I know a lot more than you think." Bakugo slowed his pace, falling slightly behind you.

You let out a breath of air, finding it amusing that he thought he really knew you, "Doubtful. Very doubtful."

You veered left, crossing over into Bakugo's path. You walked away, closing in on the exit. Bakugo watched as he let you slip through his sweaty palms.

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⇨ 006. Several Assholes in One Day

taglist🫐 @katsukota @wheezdostuff @honeydwitch @chuugarettes @suckstobrlaurie @the-hangry-otter

[mosviqu]

before the new year begins

happy new year everyone! 🫶🏻✨️ toffee @neo-shitty tagged me in this and since i absolutely love talking about myself and reflecting, i am taking the opportunity to look back on 2024 with this, so thank u for the tag hihi. 🩷

my no-pressure tags go to @sungbeam @from-izzy @gluion @jaehunnyy @sanaxo-o @injangism and @freakywonbin !!

1. share your favorite memory of this year.

as much as i shit on 2024, it surely was one of the best years of my life. I can't really think of one memory that would be my most favorite, but i really enjoyed my trip to budapest in june and also august, my internet best friend sleeping over, karaoke nights in november and december, getting drunk with my situationship, 11/11 manifestation with my friend and over-all many moments spent with friends during this semester :,)

2. what was the highlight of your year?

I think that an over-all highlight might have been me spending more time with my friends and building deeper bonds with the people around me, but once again, i dont think i can pick just one.

3. list the top five books you read this year.

AAAA i love book questions. okay so! first place definitely takes happy all the time by laurie colwin, which i didnt expect to like as much as i did, but its a solid 5* book that i think about often. second place is definitely tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow by gabrielle zevin that i read this time last year, it was such an enchanting and amazing read with an unique plot line and great world building. third place takes flowers for algernon by daniel keyes, my psych major heart enjoyed this one deeply. makes you think and reflect and i would recommend this book to anyone. I also very much enjoyed kitchen by banana yoshimoto, which was written in a very simple, yet beautiful way, and the last one im going to mention is never let me go by kazuo ishiguro, which i also didnt expect to like half as much as i did.

4. list the top five movies you watched this year.

I am not much of a movie watcher, if im being honest, i am convinced i literally watched 5 movies in total last year 💀💀 but i did really love fight club! I also finally watched the amazing spiderman movies which i loved, and beautiful boy which wasn't exactly what i expected, but i enjoyed it nonetheless and think about it often. as the fifth one im gonna mention john mulaney: baby j if that counts..? 😭

5. list the top five tv series you binged this year.

I havent watched much tv series either,, but twinkling watermelon was definitely my favorite!! I also enjoyed the eighth sense and the eight show, and i also channeled my inner uk culture lover and watched the inbetweeners finally LMAOO

6. what is the one new thing you discovered this year (could be a place/hobby/song etc)?

does a karaoke bar at uni count? 💀💀 i dont think i really discovered many new things last year, or i cant really recall anything..? but i definitely discovered more of my uni town and maybe more of my sexuality..? 😭 as for artists i discovered the kid laroi, role model and gracie abrams :p

7. top three albums that you played this year?

the secret of us by gracie abrams, eternal sunshine by ariana grande and kansas anymore by role model were definitely my most played this year 🙂‍↕️

8. your spotify wrapped #1 song

I feel like i am the only one whose spotify wrapped was accurate this year HAHA. anyways mine was sadly she moves in her own way by the kooks. 🧍‍♀️

9. your spotify wrapped top artist.

the 1975! matty healy they could never make me hate you.

10. your personal song of the year.

oof.. n e m u s i m e s a b a t by porsche boy and mess. this song was there for me when no one else was HAHA.

11. what is an achievement that you are proud of this year?

started putting myself first and taking more opportunities to go out/hang out with people. this used to be a big problem of mine especially when i was handling anxiety, but i found that getting out of the house helps managing it :))

12. what are your goals for the next year?

biggest goal is definitely graduating and getting into masters! then id love to travel to london with my friend in the summer and finally get that tattoo i've been wanting since 17 hihi. finding love would also be great but i dont think thats something i can impact haha

13. any three book releases you are excited for next year

I dont really follow any anticipated releases, to be honest! I just read what i find already released 😭

14. any three upcoming movies/tv series that you are excited for next year.

WEAK HERO CLASS 2 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

15. if you could change one thing about the past year what would it be?

the holiday season 💀💀 it was quite possibly the darkest part of my year/life and i did not enjoy it at all.

16. did you manage to stick to your new year's resolutions this year?

I just found a few that i had written down in my journal last year. I definitely stuck to taking care of myself more, put myself first more, hanging out more with my friends and continuing to write. I didnt however watch more movies, do more art and read 24 books last year ��

17. do you have any new year's resolutions for the next year?

I do! as i already mentioned, graduating and getting into masters is a big one. then going to london, get a tattoo, write more, continue to socialize even more, be more careless and have more of a yolo lifestyle, find a more positive relationship with myself and build my confidence in a way that doesnt depend on external validation. :))

18. favorite meme of the year?

mama a girl behind you was a big one in my brain to be quite honest. 😭😭 also 9/10 perfect score! OH and the sabrina "have you ever tried this one?"

19. which month was the most fun this year?

june, august, october and november were big ❤️‍🔥

20. what color do you associate the previous year with?

hmmm not gonna lie its very close to brat green in my eyes

21. if you could tell yourself something at the beginning of this year based on what you know right now, what would it be?

do things scared !!! don't worry so much about everything, because things will turn out just fine. also dont talk to the erasmus people in the club it's a trap! (/j. I've enjoyed this little fun romance side quest of mine so far.)

22. favorite viral trend of the year?

I think i kinda fell for the very cutesy very demure trend for a bit?? Also the viral dance to disco by surf curse was the highlight of my days i watched every single one on my fyp haha

23. list any three new things you learned this year (could be recipes, a new skill, etc.)

my signature pasta recipe i cook for me and my roommate every other week. I also feel like i finally learned how to park..? and uhhh the last skill may be how to give a bj idk sjsksdksksk

24. how would you describe your year in a word?

fun!

25. what color do you want to associate the upcoming year with? why?

yellow! it feels like a very positive/celebratory color and i feel like thats what i really need next year <3

[purplesurveys]

1968

Are you currently reading anything? Why did you choose to read it? I haven't been reading anything. I do have a book of history essays that I read on-off, if anything...I can only get to it when I'm in a certain mood and if I have the time. And I don't always have lots of the latter.

Do you prefer water slides or roller coasters? Is there a reason? Ooh water slides, easily. I can't ride roller coasters - the motion sickness I get from them is too much. Plus with slides, splashing into the water immediately after always adds to the fun.

What did you do today? Traveled to a place I've never been to before for work; had amazing mozzarella sticks at said place I've never been to before; had the most unpleasant religious conversation during my Grab ride home (why are their drivers more frequently trying to shove their god down my throat hahaha?); ate sisig rolls with rice for dinner; and have since been spending the rest of evening watching clips of my latest hyperfixation - BIGBANG lol.

Do you like writing stories or reading them better? You'll always find me reading them. I've desperately tried writing stories – it's just never been meant for me.

What, other than music, is your “outlet”? Bold of you to assume music is one of them, lmao. Anyway, for me it's pretty basic tbh - I just need YouTube and all the time in the world. I don't really ever run out of things to watch there.

Are you one of the people who believes their iPod/music is their life? No.

Are there any keys on your keyboard that have letters fading away? Impressively enough on this 8 year old laptop, no. Looks good as new.

Are you wasting your time with the person you like right now? I don't like anybody.

Do you remember the exact words that were said to end your last relationship? Continued from last night. No. And I'm thankful that I don't. Remembering the things I'm better off forgetting would be brutal for me mentally, I think.

What was the last song you had on repeat for more than 10 minutes? Home Sweet Home - GD, Taeyang, Daesung.

Is there anyone you used to have a crush on that you’d be embarrassed to admit to now? Yes. I had a few childhood crushes I'd like to keep tucked far, far away in the darkest of closets, lmao.

What was your favourite grade? Least favourite? If I'm remembering correctly, Year III (junior year, high school) was my favorite and best year both academically and in how my social circle exponentially expanded at the time.

Worst is easily Grade 6 - I had no friends, no social skills, and my grades were pretty lackluster. I think this was a time when life at home was difficult, what with my mom being at her peak Abusive Monster Mom phase...so it kinda crept its way into every aspect of my life, especially school.

What grade did you have the best marks? The worst? I made particular efforts in Years III and IV only because your marks in those levels are included in UP's computation for your UPCAT grade – so I definitely went the extra mile to perform well then.

Worst scores I think would be a three-way tie across Grade 4, Grade 6, and Year I. Hahahaha I hated studying so even though I know I could've done better, I just never put in the effort up until the one single point I knew it actually mattered, aka taking the UPCAT.

Is your iPod always charged, or do you leave it dead for a while? I'll refer to my phone for this one – it's not always charged. I'm quite terrible at maintaining the battery on it and oftentimes I'll let it go straight to zero.

Do you like long car rides, or do they bore you? My feelings about them vary depending on the destination. Am I going on a leisure trip with my immediate family? If yes, then I'd look forward to the ride, no matter how long it'd take. Am I traveling 100 km just to attend a work event/shoot? I'd already be dreading it like 48 hours before.

Are you hard to make conversation with? Not at all. I get excited with conversations + have no problem opening up, and enjoy it all the more when the other person matches my energy for small talk.

Do you read lots of magazines? Nope.

In your opinion, who’s the best looking celebrity right now? Aw man I have the fattest crush on G-Dragon these days...other than him, hmmm this is gonna be a problematic/questionable opinion for some lol but I've always found Kendall Jenner pretty. Xu Minghao too!

Would you rather go to a Taylor Swift or Kate Voegele concert? I'd rather stay home or do something else that day.

What is one concert you’re not going to that you’d do anything to be at? None at the moment + for the most part, I've been able to go to the shows I wanted to go to. The only exception was in 2023 when I had to miss out on Bruno Mars since I had JUST come from my Bangkok trip + it was simply impossible to get tickets for his show anyway. The entire Philippines wanted to see him. I wanted to see him, lmao. I'm still bummed and bitch about missing him to this day LOL

Using a quote, say something to your most recent ex: No thanks.

Also using a quote, say something to your current bf/gf, or crush: I don't have any.

What is a song you think is played on the radio way too often? I don't tune in to the radio nearly enough to make a judgment on this.

Who was the last person you slow danced with, and to what song? I've never slow danced with anyone other than the person I was seeing nearly a decade ago.

Who of your best friends have you not hung out with? I haven't really had a 1:1 date with Reena.

Who have you hung out with the most? Why? Angela. It's a bonus that she lives relatively close by; but distance notwithstanding, I know I'd see her the most often regardless. I've said it here many times but we're pretty much sisters and our lives are just super intertwined with one another's at this point that we naturally just spend the most time together.

Who was the last person to buy you something? Probably one of my parents; I can't particularly recall at the moment.

What did you last eat? Did you make it for yourself? A burger from Jollibee.

Are you talking to anybody right now? What is your relationship with them? Nope.

As a child, did you ever go to camp? I did not.

Do you remember who the first person you ever had a sleepover with was? Yes.

Who was the last person you had a sleepover with? I don't have lots of those anymore, lol. Last one was in 2022 when I spent the night at Angela's ahead of our quick vacation in Zambales.

How do you decide which surveys to take? Continued yet again from the night before. I can go for anything, really, but I watch out especially for surveys that are a layer deeper than the basics (favorite color, favorite movie, etc. Which works out for me, since most surveys do a great job of being creatively random.

If necessary, do you think you could go a whole week without eating? I would never do this as an active choice.

What was the last movie you watched, and with who? I'm having such a hard time remembering – I never watch movies anymore! I can tell you the last series I watched a few minutes of, though: Coffee Prince, lol.

What is something that scares a lot of people that doesn’t bother you? Public speaking.

What is something that doesn’t bother a lot of people, but scares you? Fire. I can't even turn on a lighter or use a stove.

Do you like all kinds of music, or are there some you won’t listen to? There's a lot of genres I wouldn't listen to. I'm not much of a music person to begin with, and I tend to stick to the genres I already like.

Who was the last person to have their arm around you? Why? My dad...we were just walking around the mall earlier and he rested his arm on my shoulder just because.

What was the reason for you last being mad at your best friend? I was kinda pissed at Reena for not looping me in her plans to get ticket purchasing assistance for Hobi's concert, lmao.

How often do you get mad at your best friend? I never get mad at Angela and Andi. Reena and I have a few fundamental differences that throw me off sometimes, but for the most part we're great and I try not to let it get in the way of our friendship.

Do you feel bad for people easily? Not usually. But what a broad question. I guess it depends.

End this survey with a random quote or random lyrics. "Then he flings it."

[maybe-not-a-robot]

Media Log 2024 End-of-Year Recap

Hey! After making so many entries this year, I wanted to go back through them and give some additional thoughts or edits to them. I also feel like stuff like this needs a capstone, y'know? Anyway, on with it!

Entry 1: Angel Hare: In the time between watching Angel Hare and now, I got a plush of Angel Zaggy! They also made a third season of Angel Hare, which I haven't watched - part of me wants to watch it specifically because I feel the second season wrapped it up well.

Entry 2: The Ray'z Series: I got really into shmups this year. Seriously, play some, they're great fun!

Entry 3: de Blob: It was really nice to replay this game and finish it after spending a lot of my childhood replaying the first level because the first level didn't have any enemies in it. Harder than I expected, to be honest.

Entry 4: Touhou Eiyashou ~ Imperishable Night: Udonge udonge udonge udonge. Mariali supremacy. Touhou good.

Entry 5: Touhou Fuujinroku ~ Mountain of Faith: Still not huge on using a level of shot power to bomb. Kappa's Pororoco is my least favorite spell card. I play Reimu C!

Entry 6: Bang Brave Bang Bravern: It is still insane how gay this was, and it was very funny how this made it parallel G-Witch from last year. I miss Bravern Thursdays.

Entry 7: Isle of Dogs: Stop motion is such a beautiful method of animation. Just... wow, man.

Entry 1X: Games I Gave Up On: I think next year I want to do more of entries like these, about things I chose not to finish or didn't finish by the end of the year. Eschatos would be on the docket for this year. I fucking hate Biomutant so much.

Entry 8: Dr. Robotnik's Ring Racers: I need to get back to this game. I loved doing time trials in it. Shoutout to Joypolis.

Entry 9: Neon Genesis Evangelion: I kind of can;t believe it really is as good as everyone says. Kawoshin has been the template for all this time.

Entry 10: The End of Evangelion: I don't have much else to say. I like the mass-production Evangelion units a lot, they have a very neat design.

Entry 11: Evangelion 1.0 You Are (Not) Alone: It's so weird that this covers like, six episodes total. Asuka isn't even in this, but Mari is.

Entry 12: The rest of the Evangelion Rebuild movies: My opinions of these movies soured in real time. I think 3.0+1.0 is probably the thing I disliked the most out of everything this year I finished. Don't wait up for the essay.

Entry 13: Poképark Wii: Pikachu’s Adventure: It's hard to overstate just how cute I think this game is. It felt so nice to go back to. I started the sequel, but didn't finish it this year.

Entry 14: Portal 2: Shorter than I thought I would be, but still fantastic. I need to play the co-op campaign now...

Entry 15: Deadpool vs. Wolverine: Just... really disappointing. Such a nothingburger of an emotional core.

Entry 16: Gundam Breaker 4: I was so hyped for this game I remember where I was when it was announced - I was at my community college, waiting for a class to begin. It was so worth it.

Entry 2X: Minecraft but I survive in PARKOUR CIVILIZATION [FULL MOVIE]: Mass psychosis event. If you told me this didn't actually happen, I might believe you. What the hell happened?

Entry 17: Mobile Suit Gundam: Still kind of stunned at how... normal this anime was. I was sort of expecting it to be life-changing because of its legacy. Guess not.

Entry 18: ATLYSS: This game is seemingly getting some new content soon, excited for that. Some of my non-furry friends also love this game. It's that good.

Entry 3X: Gundam Breaker 4's DLC: Mid. Like, really aggressively mid, and so few missions too!

Entry 19: Settlemoon: I completed this game back in July, but I started an NG+ run and doing a media log entry slipped my mind. Here's my town right now:

Entry 20: The Emperor's New Groove: Shoutout to this movie's singular musical number. Very funny thing to open a non-musical with.

Entry 21: Sonic the Hedgehog 3 (movie): I watched this movie in theaters with a few friends with Spanish subtitles. We all bought tickets for the wrong day, but the incredibly nice person behind the ticket counter gave us vouchers for free seats to any one movie... and they had a showing that night with Spanish subtitles.

What a year! Overall, my highlights of this year were probably ATLYSS, Evangelion, and Gundam Breaker 4. I also technically have, like, eight or nine written works I could include on here but didn't because they were assigned by classwork. Read Giovanni's Room. Get sad.

Of course, the media log will return in 2025... stay tuned!

[wolfstrong]

Okay fine I’ll finally blog about what happened that’s right I had recent stupid boy drama oh you thought this chapter had closed no it hadn’t. Okay so obviously I’m still gonna go to the club where I met him during the summer cuz that’s the only club I like but since I last stopped talking to him and saw him two days later at that club (this was back in September) I haven’t seen him around since. And of course haven’t talked to him. Well 1 week ago Friday I DID end up running into him at the club by chance. And last time I saw him it was like yeah no hard feelings whatever so I just went up to say hi to him. Bro TELL ME WHY he was completely shook by my presence. Like he was instantly freaking out. Like the first thing he said was like “oh my god you look so different your hair looks different did you change you hair?!” And the answer to that is like no. But like him immediately wanting to comment on my appearance like okay so you think I’m cute but you don’t know how to say that. Okay anyway then he kept saying over and over again “WOW ITS JUST SO WEIRD TO SEE YOU AGAIN” like we’d be talking and he’d just take a pause and say this and he did this like 10 times I’m not kidding and I was like “jeez whys it weird” and he was just like “uhhh” anyway we talked for a long time and NO I didn’t force him to speak with me he had free will and no I didn’t like try and do anything romantic I pretty much just wanted tell him I was sorry about the way things turned out and he said he was really sorry too. And he said that it was hard for him because we used to talk every day and now we don’t. So like yeah I guess we both miss each other kinda which sucks. And when he said he missed talking to me I was like “you know I learned a lot and I’m really serious this time we can just be friends if you want I wasn’t serious the last time but this time I really am” WHICH IS TRUE I can be his friend and expect nothing but he was so weird about it. He was pretty much just like no we can’t JUST be friends. OH AND I FORGOT TO MENTION this entire conversation he was looking at me EXTREMELY intensely like he wanted to kiss me. Like at multiple points I thought he might kiss me “gar your so delusional he was not thinking that” GUYS MY FRIEND WAS THERE SHE WAS SHOCKED BY IT TOO. she was like Jesus why did he look at you like that like he was in love with you. Like bro im so serious he gave me goo goo gaga puppy dog eyes the whole time I was like what. But anyway he pretty much said like we wouldn’t work as friends but I feel like the implication was because the attraction between us is mutual??? So like he can’t be my friend cuz he likes me but then he can’t like me for unknown reasons ??!?! ?!?? Anyway I was like “yeah if you miss talking to me you could always text me” but I knew he wouldn’t and he hasn’t and I’m not gonna text him I’m never gonna text him first. I’ll also never ever make a move on him or do anything romantic. I feel like if I did that to him it’d feel completely against his will just because at this point he’s made it clear he doesn’t want to date me and I want to respect that. So at this point I’m completely powerless and it’s very frustrating, especially after our encounter where he acted like he liked me so much. Anyway I’m not like hung up over any of this stuff. Nothing happened our status is still completely the same. I guess seeing him again made me miss him again but also it was nice to see him and be able to say I’m sorry and know he doesn’t completely hate me. Oh and also like 3 days before I saw him I told my friend “I think he’s thinking about me” and when I saw him he was like “I’ve been thinking about you lately”. And he said that he’d seen my Instagram story. And then I posted 2 insta stories on Christmas and he watched them both in like 15 minutes. So now I feel like he’s very curious about what I’m up to. But like I said none of this really changes anything. I really really missed him last night because I went back to the club and it was just shitty everyone was being shitty to me and I was like Jesus I wish

He was here so I had someone to talk to. Cuz like long story short my friend kinda abandoned me and then guys who I didn’t want to talk to kept trying to talk to me and get my attention and it was just like bruh if he was here I could just talk to him. It’s just like extremely frustrating and I have to let him go because obviously he’s got some kind of strange hang ups he’ll never explain to me and I just need to move on. It’s just frustrating

[fuckyeahnightmares]

Skinamarink Explained (JK I won’t do that)

I’ve been gone a while but that’s just because I’ve been Skinamrink’d.

Anyway...

What is this movie?

It was a viral sensation for a little bit before it hit Shudder and limited theatres (I saw it in theatres last night). Some people will say “know nothing about it, just watch it” so stop reading if you wanna do that.

It’s about two kids in a house looking for their parents and stuff around their house, such as windows and doors, start disappearing. It’s graiy as hell.

How scary is it?

I was scared. The whole time? No, I zoned off quite a bit, coming up with great ideas for personal projects, because man this movie goes on. Let it be known I did not take out my phone. But there were a few times that got me good, and I was scared later that night, and the story is scary to think about in hindsight. 8.5/10

Jump scares or nah?

A few, good ones. Cleared my sinuses.

On a scale of 1-10 (10 being Halloween Kills), how dumb were the characters?

They are kids! It’s also a weirdly told story so it’s hard to gather just how smart these children are.

Does the story make logical sense if you think about it too long?

This movie’s a good argument for me to get rid of this little section all together. It operates on a nightmare logic.

Overall

Ooh, this one is polarizing and I see why. My tattoo artist liked it, but she also said she liked boring movies. Unless you have the attention span of like, someone in the middle ages who threw around rocks for fun, you’ll be bored, but that’s kind of okay. Some guy blurted out at the end, “I should get an award for sitting through that.” It doesn’t reveal much about the characters, the setting, but for this I’m not sure it matters. Could it have been shorter? At least by 20 minutes. Did I appreciate it? Yeah, it’s so different from every other thing I’ve seen, and my mind can entertain me well enough for the brief lulls. It creates a vibe through basically grainy still footage and sounds.

And It’s scary. It pulls you into its liminal space. Confounds you a bit. It kind of lulls you in and then there are a few moments that oof. It really does feel like a childhood nightmare, so big kudos to the team for doing that. Anyways, it’s an original, go see it. Or don’t, you might straight up hate it. 7/10

Read below for some spoiler-y thoughts

I did feel real bad for the kids. This movie kinda evil, from Kaylee losing her eyes and mouth and Kevin seemingly getting stabbed over and over again in a time loop. Damn.

“Look under the bed.” Chilled the shit out of me!

That fucking phone jump scare. Gold.

I would have bodied that monster who could “do anything,” eaten him for breakfast, really

[thedreadvampy]

Midcentury American novels update:

Finished Farenheit 451 on Thursday and it didn't hit me to the degree Catcher in the Rye did but I do completely get the sense of despair and the hunt for something to cling to. Umm also there's an actual nuclear apocalypse in this book which I. Did not know through my general cultural osmosis. And it made a lot of the stuff that initially read a bit as 'you can't say ANYTHING now cause of 50s Woke' less irritating in hindsight, cause the looming presence of nuclear war gives some real crunch to the overall theme of looking away from the discomfort of acknowledging what's wrong. Still not 100% comfortable with 'well we started burning books lest minorities become offended' as a midpoint comment but like I read this when I was 12 or 13 and very much came away with the sense that it was a shallow What If TV But Too Much kind of story that was very pleased with its own intellectualism. and I don't really think that's what it is I think it's a primal scream of WON'T ANYONE DO ANYTHING????? CAUSE I AM TOO SMALL AND TOO STUPID AND TOO COMPLICIT BUT NOBODY ELSE IS MOVING EITHER???? which you know. I can connect with at this time.

anyway then I reread One Flew Over The Cuckoo's Nest yesterday. That one I actually have read as an adult, like 10 years ago, and what I remembered mostly from it was the degree to which either the characters, the author, or both, truly despise women. On reread I don't think that's entirely fair, although it's hard to tell inside one character's very limited and metaphorical perspective - I don't think Ken Kesey hates women, I think that Candy and Sandy are relatively whole people and the other women in the story are avatars of the system abusing the men on the ward, so Chief Brogden sees them as such. Getting over the general 60s misogyny miasma, though, I really really liked it and stayed up very late last night finishing it, I think it has a lot of very coherent things to say about trauma, power and marginalisation and I think it's all a bit Foucault. It's odd that I remembered it as being very het-white-American-male in tone because this time around it felt very interested in how people are artificially marginalised in order to preserve power, and specifically in the violent assimilation of Indigenous communities, so I truly don't know why I went away last time feeling it was so tone-deaf. It's really good, is the thing.

(As a side note, cause Sam's copy is an 80s film tie in copy - there's no fucking way that film is good, right? Cause I actively cannot imagine how you would make a film adaptation of a book that exists so much in one mostly-silent character's head, kind of unmoored from time and moving between reality, metaphor and hallucinations, and with a fairly distant relationship to the literal events, and have it not be shit. Animation could maybe do it and you could potentially do it with a really good effects department to establish early on that this isn't a neutral, literal depiction, but even so it feels like doing this in a visual medium would undercut the fact that most of the book's story involves stuff that isn't really happening on a visual or audible level.

Like about a tenth of the text is Chief Brogden drawing connections, conclusions, describing the emotional and sensory experiences of things like dissociation, anxiety and electrocution, and generally explaining why the things that he and the other patients do that seem random make sense to him. And even with heavy voiceover it seems to me that a) a film would mostly be us watching mental patients act the way we expect mental patients to act, without the insight we get through his eyes, and b) it would inevitably need to be about what a guy McMurphy is, either positively or negatively, which to be entirely honest is kind of not what the book is about even though that's the plot of the book?)

The book isn't about McMurphy, it's about people realising they've not only had their agency taken away, but given it up themselves, and how they react to that and what it would mean to reclaim that. McMurphy's one of several people going through that arc, and he's going through it in an opposite direction to the people around him, but it's not more about him than about Chief Brogden or Billy or Harding or even Nurse Ratched. But I feel like because of how film language works, it would be very hard to make a film of One Flew Over The Cuckoo's Nest where McMurphy wasn't the main character. And he's not. Chief Bromden is the main character as well as the narrator - his life is defined by people collapsing under unbearable pressure and giving up their freedom and agency, which is how his tribe lost their land and how he lost his agency and his power of speech, and watching McMurphy force the people in power to subdue him by force rather than him caving in, the Chief makes actual choices about how he wants to respond to power that don't involve him falling out of reality or becoming invisible. and I think like halfway through I was like 'ehhh don't really get why Kesey went with a specifically Native protagonist' and by the back end of the book it is extremely clear to me why.

Cause his arc has a lot to do with the violence against indigenous communities and while I don't think that the book is primarily a metaphor, per se, because it very much is literally about institutionalisation and the stigmatisation of inconvenient Madness, I do think it's also saying things it wants us to apply to other relationships of power and assimilation, starting with the forced assimilation and land theft of Native Americans, and touching in on class, politics, race and sexuality more generally. Not much on gender, mind - I don't think that it does actually despise women, but it also isn't very interested in interrogating anything about them other than the impacts they have on men, which 🤷‍♀️ 60s innit.

idk I liked it a lot. I liked Farenheit 451 pretty well and better than I expected to, but Catcher and One Flew have both got me in this kind of rambly post-read mode where I'm just turning them over and over in my head to look at them, you know?

[sportsthoughts]

15 people 15 questions

thank you for the tag @couthbbg !!

1. are you named after anyone?

depending on which of my parents you ask either lucy pevensie (chronicles of narnia) or lucy in the sky with diamonds (beatles) i'm kind of good with either tbh

2. when was the last time you cried?

lol i watched the makeover episode of canada's drag race this afternoon while i ate my lunch and it had me in bits. this season has been a*

3. do you have kids?

not yet. hopefully in the next two years. my inspiration is my sister who has a newborn baby and is still plugging away writing fanfic. best believe if i'm fortunate enough to have a baby i'll be on here doing night feeds and shitposting.

4. what sports do you play/have you played?

very keen gym goer and pilates doer but no fun team sports. did some dance as a kid. i love literally every sport though and will watch and enjoy any sport as a spectator.

5. do you use sarcasm?

does anyone answer this question with no?

6. what's the first thing you notice about people?

physically - hands. not sure why

7. what's your eye color?

what's YOURS

8. scary movies or happy endings?

happy ending. i am not joking when i say you could not pay me to watch a horror movie.

9. any talents?

i am the best houseplant gardener i know. i have never met a houseplant yet i could not revive or make thrive. at this point i maybe have like 50+ houseplants. hmu for gardening tips seriously. its a passion

10. where were you born?

England. not being more specific although if you followed this blog 5 or 10 years ago i actually used to have the name of my HOMETOWN in my blog title. I actually shudder to remember this. what was i thinking. at least i don't live there anymore lol

11. what are your hobbies?

watching sports obvs, pilates, walking, gardening, digital photography, reading, really want to do more crafty stuff but at the moment i struggle to make time for it even though i've hoarded a ton of art supplies. husband is trying to get me into gaming but honestly have 0 patience for it.

12. do you have any pets?

besides my houseplants no. not in a pet friendly house atm. would love a dog but i have to vicariously live through my sister and her cats.

13. how tall are you?

5'4

14. favorite subject in school?

call me crazy but legit all of them. my high school experience was actually pretty positive and i didn't really hate any of school except maths. favourite at a push was probably history although that was mostly due to a very foxy teacher

15. dream job?

feel like most of you know what i do for a job anyway and yeah, it's my dream job. wish i got paid slightly more for it but the work is a dream.

Tagging any of my followers, feel free to say I tagged you! Aaaaaand @heartsoftruth @carlando @geooooooorge @malkinse @queeerkings @cornerihaunt @prettyhockey @ferperss if you're in the mood!

[thegeminisage]

ok, its time for a QUICK tng update before xm*s proceedings. saturday we did "best of both worlds part ii" and "family" and last night we did "brothers" and "suddenly human."

best of both worlds part ii: I LOOOOOVED THIS EPISODE. mwah. EVERYTHING i wanted. creepy little cyborg implants. brainwashed picard. his beautiful perfect cgi tear (which may or may not have been cgi, this is a point of debate, experts please weigh in). data bravely doing a robot mind meld. 1000000/10 more borg episodes please please PLEASE

can you imagine if the borg has ben in tos btw. what a thought experiment, except for how i quite literally can't think about it or i'll get so excited i'll pass out

did guinan imply she and picard were lovers in this ep...girl you can do better

my one nitpick with william riker was him promoting that lady he hated instead of someone who deserved it, like worf or data. it probably would have given worf ptsd but can you imagine that enterprise having a captain and first officer being gay on the bridge again...wonderful. except this time there would also be deanna <3

"how much do you remember" "everything" AHAHAHAHA GREAT. GOOD. WONDERFUL. anyway

family: extremely unusual episode but i loved it nonetheless. i was really shocked worf's parents were so sweet!!! i fucking loved them. they're like the cutest people on earth i can't believe they raised such a taciturn and stoic guy like worf...

picard's family i wasn't sure about at first until the wrestling match in the mud. sometimes you need to punch a guy and his brother stepped up to the job admirably. i kept thinking he looked like michael caine, which would have been an incredible choice.

WESLEY.....................................................we don't need to talk about it

everyone's accents in this ep were wack. why does picard have a totally different accent from his brother. why is worf's accent different from his parents. ik its not that deep but its making me crrrazzzyyy

brothers: i didnt even get a look at the title of this episode before we started bc vumoo (the shady site im using to watch) doesn't display them but it was SUCH an unexpected pleasure to get a data episode

absolutely scuh-reaming at the ease with which he hijacked an ENTIRE goddamn starship. he's so competent i love that. a real "glad he's on OUR side" moment, not unlike spock commandeering the enterprise in "the menagerie" (rip i wish that had been a better episode).

lore grew on me really fast. i was neutral on him during his last appearance, the meme aside, but in this episode he was really fun and unsettling. brent spiner can do horrible, horrible things with his face

this ep felt a little cut off? i expected another confrontation with lore, a getting back of the chip, or at least some kind of burial or funeral for dr soong, but we just quit like 3/4 through the episode. maybe less time spent on the opening section of the hijack could have fixed this

anyway i love the foil between data and lore...one has support and the other does not...but it doesn't make sense for lore to get the emotions chip because it seems like he already HAS them??

oh yeah and data repeating "i am not less perfect than lore" got funnier EVERY time he did it. little man was really going thru it i was cracking up genuinely <3

suddenly human: this episode was wack

ok, did you guys read face on the milk carton when you were in school? i did when i was way too young to be reading it and it fucked me up real bad and i completely forgot about it until i watched this episode and then i got to unlock that memory in real time

anyway, while it is obviously the correct choice to return a child to their family when they are kidnapped as babies, it is also hugely traumatic for an older child to be ripped away from a loving home* and transplanted with strangers, which those books explore in horrific detail. so the whole episode i found myself going "i KNOW it's bad politics but could they not just CONSIDER leaving him with the only family he's ever known as a possible choice" and then they DID THAT and i wanted to be ill because it was obviously the worst choice in the world

* this is a different scenario than the first tng episode involving kidnapped children, which strongly resembled the residential schools from real life. THIS particular situation, minus the method of kidnapping (during warfare), more closely resembled the crazy cult shit happening in those books, where the kidnapped girl was being raised by people who thought they really were her biological grandparents and weren't bad people and her biological family also weren't bad people. a "no fault" situation EXCEPT FOR HE KIDNAPPENED THAT BABY DURING WARFARE.

anyway this is the second time tng has dropped the ball on this subject so i think from now on they should not do episodes like this anymore. really really really really bad.

NEXT TIME: "remember me" and "legacy"

[theorist-influencer-untitled]

6.17.24 Monday

9:10 am

Still,have windblow...

Well, probably Ely is still sleeping... I need coffee, will just use this old drip coffee that I saw...

Still,angels everything is "intentional" on my loans and creditz why the Philippines is removing me on "work-force"? I'm a college graduate...

Did Mitch give me this "simple battery"? I wonder where is she now...

Best consume from the past years.... But no actual expiration that is coffee...

Uncle DD and Aunt Karen are here again? Coz I know last night they went out and they are here again....

9:37 am

Still,have windblow...

Thank God for this great green ointment ( like my lil great green fingers). Barbie is back....Became Wolverina ;)

I need to maintain ointments coz I'm supposed to be Barbie....

10:19 am

Still,have windblow...

It is really funny I say say that my persona is a combination of "cottage fairy & Cecilia Blomdahl".

There are days that I love to be calmed and at peace with myself and with hoping and praying a positive energies...

I do agree on "cottage fairy" that meditating and journaling can nourish your mind and rewarding for your spiritual needs.

But still looking forward for vanity and some progress in me... Cottage Fairy is an artist that she wanted to calm every woman in the world, to embrace the solitary moment of your life for you to learn to embrace yourself and understand your surroundings and to be able to fight the unfair negative energies in this world.

It is so funny that one of her fans asked her about her secret on being fit... I can really see her perfectly fit body but I see no muscle but perhaps it is hidden,underneath... ;)

10:56 am

Still,have windblow...

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12:08 noon

Still,have windblow...

Hating some Eagle DJ's I'm not into super Tagalog talagah... I don't like this DJ POY teach him to talk in Taglish...

Anyways, I'm thinking of money and job and how to pay my creditz... I'm not for sale but I'm really a Barbie but singing for me is really a 10k pesoses, it is my emergency skill to pay on something... In USA they pull-up their shirt to get free stuff... Me? I sing from the soul to pay that 10k pesoses.

My nana is requesting for a "sungka" coz we used to play it... These days I really want to buy board games coz I used to have it way back... My other half-siblings here on my biological mother's side didn't know the value of board games. Board games are not only for kids but it is for adult as well... It is bonding, nourishing your mind to think like on playing "chess" or even "sungka".... Sungka is a Filipino wood game, it is not a board game... There are holes and each hole must have 7 shells that you have to maintain each hole to have shells....I was thinking if shells symbolize money.

I have no circle now and I was left behind here... One of the reasons I'm hating my some old friends....

Days and years that our family were on its peak of having a good life... I mean we were on the real upper middle-class....Our family used to play board games with our adult members such as our Aunt's and Uncle's and... We used to play charade as family bonding.

It is my frustration to have an upper friends again to grow and to have some vanity and adventures in life...

I don't know how to pay my creditz these days... If only I can monitize my story here hahaha I know the world doesn't like me.

I want my money back...

12:51 noon

I did click the "sungka" coz I pity my nana here... It is for her mental exercise,angels...

3:05 pm

Still,have windblow...

Hahaha Funny,I thought German, she is Spanish....

Garret is so white white....Spanish is yellowish skintone...

Why, is it they have the same face feature...

These are the circles???? Are they cousins???

German but Spanish???

3:14 pm

Still,have windblow...

I'm just really enjoying watching these people and their art is really artistic and creative. I have windblow and not really happy here,down here...

Having data or wifi is really an important thing for me to have... I'm so broke, I haven't seen the world since 2007 and I really do feel ugly,fat and old just for nothing..

They didn't tell me here in the Philippines that they are just wanting or planning for me to be ugly and fat and to make my skin ugly... I made a loan just to buy or creditz some cheap beauty soaps, lotions and some serums....You get my point angels....They remove me in "work-force"! What am I gonna do? I can't make a youtube coz I don't have money and I don't know the world hates me... But I still want my vanity and my progress as a "Child Of God"... I need to have money guys/angels!

Everything will be intentional angels...

4:01 pm

4:15 pm

It is so good to have a basement in the house... Probably, I can be a doctor again with Willa, Joyce,Rose and whoever I wanted on my batch mates.... We are all Biology graduate...

I chose my super close friends...Just a thought...Just a thought...

It is so good to have a basement in the house... I can go back to medicine school with my group without them I can't.... Only my Biology friends if ever...

Whenever my heart aches I just wanna study and learn and beautify but with my super close friends with Dr. Mitch???

Reserve my spot basement and attic...

I hate being flat and ugly....I will still do nose perfection...

4:29 pm

I feel so frustrated here in the Philippines....They didn't tell me they just want me to be ugly and fat and old for nothing since 2007... It is so funny that they remove me in "work-force" that I needed money...

Did Mitch give me this "simple battery"???

4:41 pm

Hey! Mitch I miss you... Where are you???

6:52 pm

I feel bitterish angels... ish ish... bullshit... I have no twin here....

9:40 pm

Bullshit to Cashmum very fakers loan app on chrome only... They need a payslip right away... I put I'm from ilocos...

I'm not stupid! Charge on ilocos! Supposed to be...Give me this moment Borgy to be a rebel in this country! No shame at all!!!

Don't dare to kidnap my cousin white Borgy! That cousin white is for me!

Clarissa Manotoc/

Portia...

The rebel...

10:02 pm

Fakers cashmum... Will try the other loan on apps not on chrome...

11:12 pm

Still,have windblow...

Uncle DD and Aunt Karen went out again...

11:15 pm

I have skin discoloration due to my sweat rash... I wanna fix this skin patches at my back and nape... If it is hot, the itchy and sting sensation is returning... This is their plan to make my skin ugly!

11:25 pm

I wanna do gluta and I need creams to even out my discolaration patches at my back and nape...

This is their only plan to make me fat,ugly and old for nothing... I hate it!

11:28 pm

I wanna get ish2x... I want my power... Ish2x is my cousin white... I feel bitterish will still beautify myself!

[which-hospital]

Liability (27/01/24)

Me and my mum watched The Big Night of Musicals before Casualty tonight because we are incredibly cool, and because we were watching all these musicals I got thinking about all the Holbyverse actors who have done stage stuff cause most of them have done something at some point. Anyway, did anyone know that Di Botcher played Madame Thenardier?????? I know there’s an audio recording of her in it out there and I’m now on a mission to find it like I was on my mission to find the recording of Milo Clarke as Max in TPTGW.

Because I’ve been so tired this week I haven’t really been following the spoilers, especially cause I wasn’t that excited for this episode based on its main stuff anyway. So when I went into IPlayer to watch it and Teddy and Jacob were the picture for it I was really pleasantly surprised (and then disappointed that they got like 10 minutes). Also because I’ve been so busy, I’m not gonna do my review for last week, sorry, I’m just tired and don’t have all that much to say beyond “hate the engagement being back on, loved seeing more Max and Dylan interactions but why no Donna mention?”.

Despite only getting 10 minutes of them, obviously and unsurprisingly my favourite part of this episode was Teddy and Jacob. Honestly, the episode wasn’t exactly full of competition for my ‘favourite part’ anyway but I think I would’ve enjoyed this even in an episode that had better other storylines happening. First of all, it was nice to see Teddy just doing his job and not anything that raises my blood pressure. Second, it was nice to see Teddy and Jacob just working together because I feel like the last time we got that was probably back in early Welcome to the Warzone.

I also feel like lately Teddy has seemed a lot more confident in his job which is surprising because normally when he’s going through it (which he currently is) then he’s also feeling on some level like he isn’t any good at his job.

Ngozi is actually so fun and brilliant and I love her so much. She has quickly become one of my favourites and yet we’ve barely met her yet. I appreciate her playing wingwoman for Cam but I also don’t think I really want him and Jodie to get together all that much anymore? She’s so ~Casualty~ and he’s still largely ~Normal~ and I don’t know if it would work.

Rash and Rida my beloveds, I’ve seen the spoilers for next week and I hope things work out for them. Rash’s storyline hits very close to home for me because my grandad had dementia and I just appreciate the portrayal even if it makes me sad.

I get that we are supposed to understand that Stevie is overdoing it and in many ways she is but if felt really ineffective to show that by having her think Harry was abusing his wife because who wouldn’t think that in that situation? Very reasonable assumption.

As I have repeatedly established, FAITH IRRITATES ME. But specifically it irritated me that she was acting like it was so unfair that she had to work under supervision as if she wasn’t STEALING DRUGS. The fact that she even still has a job is ridiculous but to be then acting like it’s so unfair that she can’t do her job like normal?? Consistent saying whenever she was on screen “YOU STOLE DRUGS!!”. No one trusts mee… you work in a hospital and YOU. STOLE. DRUGS.

On the spoilers: can Teddy not? Tired of him and Paige going back and forth, feel like they’ll probably end up getting back together at this rate. Don’t really like him and Jodie together. When I asked for him and Jan stuff this is not what I meant. Miss Sah.

[myhauntedsalem]

ERRIFIED PARENTS SHARE CREEPY THINGS THEIR KIDS SAY

My daughter said that there was a man hanging from our washing line, and when we went to look she said ‘It’s okay, he’s buried in the ground now’ she was about two and a half’.

Me: ‘Who’s the night night man?’ Her: ‘The night night man lives in our kitchen’.

“I work in childcare. A child once woke up from a nap, looked me dead in the eyes and quite plainly said ‘Everybody hates you.’”

“My friend used to volunteer at her mum’s primary school (ages 5 or 6 I think) and one time a little girl tripped on the playground. My friend took her inside and gave her a plaster for her knee and said kindly ‘Because you’ve been so brave, you can have your snack early. What would you like?’ The kid stops crying immediately, looks her dead in the eye and says ‘a rotten apple.’”

“I had a 4-year-old that I had never met run up to me very excited and say ‘I remember you from when I was big!’ I don’t believe in anything like that, but this kid was very sincere and refused to leave my side the entire visit.”

“My son once said to me. ‘I’m going to marry mommy when you die’. I said ‘alright, good night its bedtime’. He said ‘no Daddy, not good night, good bye‘. I slept with the door locked and one eye open that night.”

“Not to me but to my mother. I had a little brother who was blind by age 3 and had a brain tumor. My mother was feeding him oatmeal in the morning. He stopped and said ‘Aunt Mariam is here’ and pointed toward my mother’s bedroom. ‘She’s here for me.’ My brother never met Aunt Mariam, she passed away the year he was born. He asked to be laid on my mom’s bed and closed his eyes and passed away.” 8, “I lost my mom to a rare cancer when I was 8 months pregnant with my daughter.. (she is now almost 4). Last week while making breakfast she was just babbling about nothing and randomly said ‘your mom doesn’t scare me’ and then just kept talking about her ponies and what have you. It REALLY caught me off guard.”

“My cousin who was about four or five at the time looked at me dead in the eyes and said ‘I’m a baby just like Satan was!’ “ 10.“I was dressing my then 3yr old in his bedroom when he turned to me and said ‘mummy can you close the curtains, the little boy and girl are scaring me’ I asked ‘what little boy and girl?’ ‘The ones outside my window that watch us’. Safe to say the curtains stayed closed.”

“When my brother was little he acted like he had angels talking to him every second. One day my mom overheard him say, ‘I can’t kill him! He’s my only dad!'”

“When my daughter was three she had an imaginary friend named Kelly who lived in her closet. Kelly sat in a little rocking chair while she slept, played with her, etc. Typical imaginary friend stuff. Anyway, fast forward two years later, the wife and I are watching the new Amityville (the one with Ryan Renolds) and our daughter walks out right when dead girl goes all black eyed. Far from being disturbed she said ‘That looks like Kelly.’ ‘Kelly who?’ we say. ‘You know the dead girl that lived in my closet.’

“My little brother’s imaginary friend, Roger, lived under our coffee table. Roger had a wife and 9 kids. Roger and his family lived peacefully alongside us for three years. One day, my little brother announced that Roger wouldn’t be around anymore, since he shot and killed him and his whole family. I don’t know if he remembers any of this, but his genuine lack of remorse was very disturbing.”

My brother had an invisible friend named Tony Rygel. He was 6 inches tall and was elderly. One day we found my brother crying in his room. Apparently Tony Rygel had passed away in his sleep. We buried him in a shoe box in the backyard. So basically we had a funeral, complete with a moment of silence, for an empty shoebox.

“I was seventeen and babysitting a friend of the family’s six year old. He’d been in bed a couple of hours and I just peeked in to check on him. He wasn’t in the bed and when I opened the door wider, I saw he was standing in the corner, facing the wall. Creepiest thing ever. I asked him what he was doing and all he did was turn around, smile, and put his finger to his lips as if to say ‘shhh.’ i asked him again what he was doing and all he says is, ‘leave us. it is the punishment.’

[abeinginsand]

:D Hi Countless! How about 2, 3, 7, 9, and 31 for Sparrow!

Heya Baba!! :] Thank you for letting me ramble about Sparrow once again hehe 2. A canon or headcanon hill I will die on

Hm, strongest thought that comes to mind is that Sparrow loves his family (especially his kids) so very much, more than himself even. Also related, Sparrow and Rebecca having Normal as an accidental pregnancy isn't something awful. Maybe I feel strongly about this because...I was an accidental baby myself? But it kinda bums me out how harsh some folks on here were being about the reveal. Unplanned does not automatically equal unloved or unwanted is all I'm trying to say I guess.

3. Obscure headcanon Sparrow has always loved playing with his food, often using the edible materials to make mini food towers or little scenes or expressions. With drinks, he likes to mix them a lot to see the colors change or to making silly shaped stains on available napkins/his clothes/other material. As an adult, he still does this--just at home or when he's relaxing in the woods/park during a break (with picnic basket). Yes, he is one of those people who will press every drink machine option to get a little of each flavor in the cup. When he was little and left alone with other people's food plates, he'd start making art out of them too! He would then pretend he didn't do anything when the person returned and watch to see the reactions. He convinced a few of his elementary school classmates the school was haunted this way. 7. Age/height/weight headcanon So I think all the kiddads are in their 30s in s2, I assume Sparrow and Lark are 35? 10 in s1 and 25 years past... speaking of years, was listening to the uncut of s2 ep 1 yesterday and one of the things cut was Anthony saying it might be 30 years instead of 25. Height wise, I think Sparrow is like 5'9 and Lark's 6'. Sparrow closes his eyes to the truth and says he is 6' anyway (even now he still likes to match in some ways). Also, Rebecca is taller than them at 6'2. I don't have any specific weight hcs outside of Sparrow probably isn't that toned compared to Lark due to different fighting styles (hand-to hand combat heavy Lark vs Long distance caster Sparrow). Still skilled in hand-to-hand combat though when necessary. 9. Scene that first made me love (or hate) the character In the first ep, when Sparrow proudly talks about his doodler mascot design and also mentioned trying better next time about setting fires at the school haha. (I interpreted that last bit to be Sparrow talking at least, may be remembering wrong). The twins introduction in general seemed so fittingly chaotic as young kid characters. Kids will do the most unusual stuff (ex. being a menace to trees) simply because...why not! seems fun! I adore the whimsy and also understand Henry's frustration and concern about their actions too. 31. If the had a tumblr what would it look like? Chaosflower as the username, probably says "a beloved wolf" in the little blog descriptor along with whatever pronouns he's feeling that week. It would look pretty and/or cool palette wise with this night sky banner that has stars, a bright moon, various soft glowing flowers, and wolves walking along the path. Which looks normal etc UNTIL you zoom in and sees the skulls and debris laying in the sand and that some of the wolves have suspiciously reddish fur and glistening teeth. Also the banner has fake constellations that make various shapes...probably characters from shows/books/podcasts etc that he likes. He is so thrilled whenever someone sends in an ask commenting on the banner and is just waiting for the opportunity to explain in great detail all the info he put into it from the setting, the wolf names, to the meaning of each flower type. He also has a wolf icon--actual picture of a wolf with a pink rose on its head and what seems to be the unfocused image of a person (probs a teen) high-fiving the wolf. He wild shaped, posed, turned back into normal self and posed on the other side, stitched the image together. Its an art blog mainly where he posts fanart including animatics and lots of silly memes probably (&lt;-- based on the artist Sparrow hcs from the bonding with Taylor idea). I think he speaks a lot of Spanish daily (with family atleast) but mostly writes in English for school work etc. So he enjoys writing at least half of his tumblr posts in Spanish or with a mix of both languages. Probably makes wolf drawing tutorials sometimes, and of course he has a wolfsona of his own.

[whataphantasia]

oog i keep forgetting to post here,,, i did a really big oc x canon promptlist on my alt twitter acc like, last year, and i like the stuff i did for it so im posting it here :3

day 1: dancing

needed to draw this for the fic where they dance at prom and a destroyed universe respectively ^_^

day 2: stargazing. the thumbnail image at the top :D

day 3: phone call

day 4: (not so) sneaky glances

ely sits inbetween these two in class. they have to deal with them staring daggers at each other. very stressful sorry ely </3 here's the doodle from like 2019 that made me wanna draw this

also like there's this moment in the fic where eadr is watching mysterious mysteries together and..... HSHSBDHSHDGDHDHS

day 5: "i'm proud of you"

THESE TWO NEED VALIDATION SO BAD RAGHHH don't @ me about the lighting on zim IK ITS REVERSED,,,

day 6: music/playlist. i didn't make any art for this but i did show off my playlists for zaeadr :D i will not elaborate here bc I Don't Feel Like It.

day 7: whispers

this is actually a redraw... :3c specieswap eadr! so cute :)

day 8: closeness

ok i didnt actually make any new art for this i just posted two old ones from 2021 LOL

day 9: protectiveness (CW blood)

dib and zim r dangerous to have as love interests come on ely 😔

day 10: "how was your day" (CW blood as well)

ely needs to tell him to stop tracking blood into the house.....

day 11: one wish

WOW something NOT ely related?! anyways ana and ad's whole love arc is kinda like... they both have responsibilities and unrequited feelings. moreso than my other oc x canon pairings. i think them a lot

day 12: matching accessories

cove jumpscare. IDK I WAS THINKING ABOUT THE MATCHING KEYCHAINS HE BUYS FOR MC... this is reiner btw i was playing as xim in my like 3rd playthrough >_< xe's fond of spoiling him with gifts, more than my other mcs...

day 13: nightmare

it took me 13 days to break and make sans x shelby art SJWKDJWJ anyway. shelby doesn't meet him pre-corruption but whatever i think they're cute

day 14: makeup

I HATE THIS DRAWING RAAAA but ely likes asking to do his nails ^_^ even tho theyre terrible at it but he doesnt mind :3c

day 15: "you are my happiness"

ok uhh my bad this isn't oc x canon LOL. but... erfi and ana... have a lot of angst like halfway/early in their arc bc erfi sees her as a beacon of light/savior, especially due to her current relationship with the ppl in her life.................... they get better dw!!! ad goes through a similar arc so i think that was how i tied it into the oc x canon promptlist LMAO

day 16: indirect kiss

SODA BOTTLE... IF YOU KNOW YOU KNOW. i've talked about this scene in the fic NON STOP to my close friends.... its when dib realizes he has a crush on ely...... i drew this like in 2021 SHWJSJW

day 17: morning cuddles

SORRY i just think it's a super funny possibility that zim becomes domestic. idc if it's out of character thats why its funny U_U!!

oh and uhm yea i have a fankid 4 these guys... have i talked abt her... i dont think i have... but ive drawn her a lot... maybe ill post more art abt her later...

day 18: photoshoot

uhhhmmm im gonna crop this for my tumblr.... yea.... anyways i love the possibility that when they're adults they become super popular, like in dib's wonderful life of doom X)

day 19: voicemail. THAT ONE THING I POSTED!! yes it was a shelby x error thing. i was listening to pick up the phone by fir at the time, which like, its not the errorshelby dynamic at all they're not toxic, but. the vibes... in the fic after shelby leaves the anti void he has a massive crisis... thats what the drawing is...

day 20: "what happened to you"

BRO I HAVE SO MANY IMAGES RELATED TO THIS FOR ANA AND ADAMAÏ... the images explain everything idc read them instead

day 22/23: hand made gift, late night drive

ummmm sooooo theres this chapter in the fic where they go to an echo flower field on the surface at night........ this is that.... DIES

that last one i never posted on twitter :0c and uhm thats all i did of the 30 day promptlist! it was fun! i got to draw so much... yay :3 thats all. explodes in embarrassment

[misslauwie]

Been in a slump for the past 2 days due to the BB Hot 100 clusterfuck.

As a Jimin-bias I was saddened and disheartened by the opps that Jimin face.

Its been a roller coaster since he releases SMF pt 2 where ppl were shading on his autotune. But fortunately it didnt show up much on my TL. Hence I wasnt too bothered. Anyway for me the song resonates more than LC so at my age I dont really care about other opinion but my own for important things. People will have different preferences and you cant expect everybody to like what you like or hate what you hate.

And then the 10s encore happened. To be honest when I first watched it. I cringed and dread pooled in my stomach coz I just know he is going to be dragged over it. Nevermind the stunning performances he delivered in Musicbank. But he shut up the haters again with Lee Mujin accoustic performance and I was over the moon again.

And then Billboard Hot 100 happened and I literally cried while holding my phone and posting to twitter and stationhead because I was streaming there. Couldnt sleep even though it was a working day after that night.

Anyways the takeaway here is that. I know its cliche but I also need to remind myself that Jimin knows he's love by many. More than the hatred hes receiving. The fact that he tears up during the live after BB 100 also is a testimony how it was so unexpected & moving for him.

We came down and moved on too fast from the #1 BB Hot 100. It should be celebrated more. I was reminded yet again that Jimin is the first Korean soloist to achieve that title in the last 6 decades where competition is intense and GP is bombarded with new content every other day and where content is heavily curated for the GP to consume. So lets not dim the light from that achievement.

During all these chaos, I remember a saying...

The greatest light cast a long shadow.

As much as I hate all these shades thrown on Jimin... A publicity good or bad is still publicity. & Jimin will become more popular, well known because of it. We as his supporters just need to share more of the good stuff so GP dont misunderstand him or receives the wrong perception.

But I have faith in Jimin because hes known to break boundaries and delivers more than what is expected of him. He never overpromises and underdeliver. He always slay and perform.

Actually know BTS since 2018 but didnt become a fan until Sep 2022. Jimin was the one who hooked me from ON MV with his blue hair and just great dance performance.

I can just binge on his Lee Mujin performance. I do think he needs to release that accoustic versions to streaming platform. Its such a waste that I cant listen to it while I sleep. His voice is a lullaby for me.

I guess the whole point of this blog is to remind myself and everyone out there that we need to celebrate more on his #1 BB 100 rather than focusing on the negative.

I was thinking that we can do a legal recourse with regards to how blatant the discrimination against Jimin is. But other than signing a global petition to boycott BB, cant think of any other way. But this discrimination against a colored and non US artist and how Armys rallied and use different platforms to support Jimin is actually the first ripple of a stone drop in the lake. It might takes away relevancy of the ruling platform like YT and chart like BB.

After all consumer doesnt like being treated as fools. Im pretty sure even non-army who saw the blatant discrimination if they are rational will also see that this kind of monopoly is not good in the long run.

Changes always start small and then ripples to become waves. I believe in Jimin. I believe in BTS. I believe in Army. Lets pay the positivity forward.