#anyway i just needed this on my blog you understand
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Wow, I didn't think that post would get me even more hate to be honest 😅
First of all, I wasn't talking about ALL Carlos fans but about some "fans" (you can't call them like that, not after the really harsh words I received) who came into my asks when i asked nothing: I never was mean about Carlos, i didn't even defend Charles. I only posted 2-3 things related to this Charlos gate or whatever the fandom is calling it.
Here are some of the posts in questions:
After the first one, I received insults (anons and non anons, I don't know what is worst, that's what I was talking about them being younger and not knowing how the Schumi era and baby Shumi era were, (the non-anos were 17-18) because people misunderstood it (or understood what they wanted to understand).
After one or two more posts after the end of the race, it escalated very quickly, I received death threats! That's very serious! How can it come to this for a FUCKING sport? There are more serious things in life!
So, yeah, I was quite pissed after that.
Also, I didn't even defend Charles in my post, rereading now and I undertand I may have sound like I did but I'm French and I may have translated word by word what i wanted to say (it's a bit complicated but we sometimes use "you" to talk about people + ourserlves in some sketchy expressions). Anyway, what he said was definitely inappropriate and very "childish" in a way. Those words should had been spoken in private with his team and Carlos, not in front of million of people; and I think if FIA penalised swear words, they should start looking at those kind of statements.
Also, for those saying that I would be the kind of person to insult their favorite driver(s), you don't know me, you can even check my blog if you have nothing more interesting to do (lol), I never insulted anyone like some people do in f1blr. We can dislike or even hate a driver with our whole being, that's ok, for each their own I guess. We can't love everyone, you have the right to defend your favs, that's our choice too, but don't go and roast people when they didn't even say something wrong in the first place. (again, i hope those anons are reading it)
I never got haters before today (just one a few months ago with tennisblr but it was more a troll more than anything else) I usually don't interract a lot because I don't like conflicts but receiving multiple insults for something I can't control: I'm not Charles, I can't control what he says, I'm not a Carlos hater neither, i'm just here, blogging and reblogging stuff I love, mostly sports, sometimes with my particular sense of humor.
Nobody is perfect for sure, and I'm sorry if some of you thought I was just calling out Carlos or defending Charles. He may be one of my favourite drivers, just like other drivers can be yours: all of them are not flawless and we may continue to like them or not after different sorts of situations, that's up to us.
To finally finish my thesis (sorry if you're still reading), I didn't know that I would be so stressed on tumblr one day (call me a sensitive person) but this website is my sanctuary, I hope it will stay like that for a very long time but you can't be appreciated by the whole world, I lost some of my mutuals and i accept that. This morning's messages went too far and that's not normal to say thing like that, no matter how peacecul I am, I had to call them out. Also, on my other fandoms, you can share thought without (or almost) getting attacked verbally, that's sad that it's not the same anymore here, but yeah, football is the same.
You can choose to answer or not, I won't block anyone because I don't feel the need to, opinions can be shared but respectfully, I would be happy to talk more if some of you are up to.
So, I don't know what to add, have a great end of the season, everyone!
i don't know if everyone who reblogged or commented can see it when I reblog it so i'm tagging y'all: @midesastremanifiesto , @janesurlife , @gaypoetsblog , @katarf1a , @chaitalinath , @danieldrivesfast , @landhoe-norris , @eightsixtiism
One thing is funny about being insulted by all those Carlos "fans" (won't call them real fans tbh he deserves way better than toxic people): I was already watching F1 that they were not born, if you think that Charles was shitty today, just remember we had Michael Schumacher as the most dramatic queen ever and Sebastian Vettel was a little Gremlin at some points. REAL FANS WERE NOT FIGHTING FOR THAT!
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it has come to my attention that the jake the snake lore isn’t publicly available knowledge and that is CRIMINAL so everyone has to read this from the athletic during the global series last season
It’s time to meet “Jake the Snake”
Ian Mendes, Nov 16 2023
Jacob Bernard-Docker wanted to clarify something on Wednesday morning when it came to Jake Sanderson’s nickname.
Bernard-Docker, who spent a season as Sanderson’s collegiate teammate at the University of North Dakota in 2020-21, says he has no recollection of anybody using the moniker that has suddenly become attached to Sanderson inside Ottawa’s dressing room.
“Nobody called him the ‘Snake’ there — ever,” said Bernard-Docker.
But now, Sanderson is crediting Senators assistant coach Jack Capuano with anointing him with the “Jake the Snake” nickname.
“He just stared calling me ‘Snake’ last year. I had never been called ‘Snake’ before, so I just kind of rolled with it,” said Sanderson, “Now I’m embracing it.”
Embracing it might be an understatement.
As he walked out of Avicii Arena with Travis Hamonic on Wednesday morning, Sanderson was proudly sporting a customized, black “Snake” ballcap. Sanderson made sure he packed the cap for Sweden because he’s wearing it everywhere he goes lately.
“It’s my favourite hat right now,” Sanderson said.
Jake Sanderson is embracing his nickname. (Ian Mendes / For The Athletic)
Sanderson has also printed some “Snake” T-shirts, a couple of “Snake” workout hats and even has a personalized sticker that he’s been affixing to his stick. That sticker includes a drawing of a snake slithering through Sanderson’s No. 85 — artwork that was created by the 13-year-old son of Senators equipment manager John Forget.
“It’s a really good drawing,” said Sanderson. “It’s pretty sweet the way he was able to draw the snake around the 85.”
Sanderson’s sticks this season are adorned with stickers designed with the help of the 13-year-old son of Senators equipment manager John Forget. (Ian Mendes / For The Athletic)
Sanderson says that up until Capuano started calling him “Snake,” he always went by a fairly standard and boring nickname.
“My nickname has just always been ‘Sandy’,” he said.
Sanderson is not too familiar with other athletes and celebrities who have shared the same nickname. As for Jake “The Snake” Roberts, the wrestling star from the 1980s and 1990s, Sanderson says, “I’ve heard about him. He’s out of my era, but I’ve seen pics of him.”
When it comes to former NFL quarterback Jake Plummer, who also had the “Snake” label, Sanderson conceded, “No, I’ve never heard of him.”
Hamonic was playfully referring to Sanderson as “Snake” as they removed their equipment and sat next to each other’s locker stalls on Wednesday. Sanderson embracing the nickname has led to some good-natured ribbing inside the Senators locker room.
“I like to give Sandy some crap about it because he’s basically wearing his logo everywhere now,” said Bernard-Docker. “And he’s always wearing that hat with the snake on it. So you have to give him a hard time.”
#strong contender the lamest ottawa senator#ONE guy started calling him a new nickname and he decided to make it his whole brand to the extent that his coworker's son made fanart lmao#i can't believe i didn't post this when it came out?? i'm literally tumblr user snakesanderson this is the whole reason this is even my url#jake sanderson#anyway i just needed this on my blog you understand
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i disappear inside myself / my friends don't know it can't be helped
[Pure You - Nothing But Thieves]
#my art#mysme#mystic messenger#v mystic messenger#jihyun kim#ummmm hi guys#^-^#fanart from me?? posted directly to this blog ??? or at all??? Well.#i was looping this song and i had the idea for this and then sat down for about four hours and here it is#im on like day 2 of v's route for the first time AND this song just came out like right as i got into his route yknow#and i was listening to those lyrics like.... huh.....#this soundssss. familiar.#anyway. politely i did NOT think that if i made fanart of this game after returning to it for the first time in like 6 years. it would be V#i adore this song though. and it compels me#i havent ever seen his route before so i still don't know how it ends idk how accurate this vibe even is#i would say try to avoid spoiling me in the tags but im gonna be real say whatever you want kings#i love u mysme fandom thats still around in 2024 you get me#anyway im drafting this at about 3 in the morning and i need to be awake earlyish tomorrow SO.#we'll see when i post this#its been so long since ive posted art i just do nawt make fanart until i get divinely inspired#iffff its blurry please click to see it its supposed to be crisp ^^;#been on this site how long i still pay no mind to their suggested image resolution#OH and by day 2 of V's route i mean like day 6 overall. you understand
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the thing about being a disabled grad student is that if you want even half a chance you constantly have to not only reveal but interrogate and explain your softest most vulnerable parts. while people around you act like this is just completely normal and actually that is not the softest most vulnerable part of you and actually you are exactly the same as all of them. so you feel like you are in disguise as exactlythesame while also completely exposed. and you just have to live like that. absolutely insane
#mod felix#general disclaimer that this is my experience and this is how i feel and not necessarily how everyone feels obviously#but . i feel this way . currently#well and i think part of it is that like... people act like the institution isn't actively hostile to like. any marginalized person really#i mean this post is about disability but i'm sure it applies to other people too#and if you read this and say 'this is also how it feels to be x' i see and support you#anyway. posting this here because like... i feel like as a blog with a relatively large (for tumblr) audience like.#i feel the need to be honest and transparent about my experiences in academia#because i know there are people following us who like. want to be in academia or who already are#and like . i really like the program i'm in and i'm learning a lot but it's also a very hard thing to do even if you're totally abled#which like. i'll be honest i think the sort of person who says 'i want to learn ancient greek for the rest of my life'#is unlikely to be totally abled#like i'm not the only disabled person in my program either. and most people i interact with like.#have a base level of understanding about disability#but it's still like... surreal to operate in like. an institution that puts pressure on everyone to act like disability doesn't exist#i feel like there's just like. constant dissonance
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#why do you need this many legs sir#toedscruel#woah holy shit i just looked outside and it's super dark out. i'm queuing this up at noon why is it so dark#lemme look#yeah it's. dark. there's a bunch of dark evil clouds in the sky lookin like it's gonna storm oh i just heard thunder yeah it's gonna storm#uh oh. good thing i'm queueing this guy up before the storm so my power doesn't go out. this happens frequently#anyway toedscruel. it's definitely an evolution of toedscool. it definitely looks like tentacruel#if it's a different pokémon why does it evolve into something so suspiciously similar. i can understand wigglet and wugtrio being#different pokémon. just based on how different they are from diglett and dugtrio. even though their names are a typo away#but this guy is. it. really should've just been a regional form‚ i think#unrelated‚ but on random occasions seemingly whenever someone new finds the blog and reads my tags#i'll occasionally get folks asking me how i type commas in the tags#the answer is that this character → ‚ ← is not a comma. it just looks identical to a comma because of tumblr's font#it's actually a lower quotation mark. so for a language that does ‚this kind’ of quotation marks#and i use it as a comma because i have a fancy linguist keyboard that can type all kinds of fancy symbols. and it's easily accessible#some of my favorites include the single-character ellipse: …#the degrees symbol: º and °#small A: ª#fractions: 1⁄2 2⁄3 1⁄4 etc#and obviously IPA symbols and various diacritics‚ so that i can type the word pokémon without having to copy-and-paste the E#currency symbols‚ too. £¢$§¥ euro is on here somewhere but i don't know where bc i don't use that one really#i just like being able to type things the way they're supposed to be. like it's 80º outside. the stopwatch costs 15¢ in the shop#and‚ of course‚ pokémon. it's the linguistics and computer 'tism combining together i think#it's storming harder now but i found the euro symbol: €#oh fuckin hell my lights just flickered. this is gonna be rough..!
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please ignore this if you disagree. this is just me thinking out loud but i keep coming back to this impulse shauna had to EAT the ear and of course there's been all this talk about how she wants to consume jackie. how it's wanting to destroy her how it's wanting to be as close to her as possible. but i'm interested in the physicality of it. like there is the metaphor of cannibalism and then there is the REALITY of it
i read about mortuary cannibalism in the past and i believe it wasn't even the close loved ones eating the dead usually because often it would be too hard for them and even those who weren't as close and were the ones to consume the dead would sometimes throw up while eating. like let's put aside for a moment everything this means narratively and metaphorically. there is the physical act of putting a real uncooked half frozen eat into your mouth and the fact that that's the ear of a person you LOVED. the ear you may have whispered secrets to during class and one you felt against your cheek when the two of you hugged. and shauna does that after gently caressing the ear in her pocket for an entire day
i think there's an interesting component to how she's interacting with dead-jackie. some part of her brain acknowledges that jackie is dead while a much larger part of her refuses to. and i think at least on some unconscious level she's aware of the way the cold preserves jackie's body. after the initial shock of finding jackie when we see her sit in the same room with her now she's keeping her distance. there's this feeling people usually get from seeing their dead loved ones especially if it's been a little while since they died - a feeling of alienation. the muscles are no longer animated, the skin no longer warm. a feeling of this person being foreign to you in some way suddenly. and so a part of me wonders if on some level she wanted to stop the ear from rotting now that it's not frozen, warmed by shauna's hand and safe in her pocket. i don't think it would be a conscious thought but it's just. walking around with that ear in your pocket. not wanting to part with any part of jackie. wanting to consume her yes but also wanting to preserve her in a very physical way in a sense
#i literally just wrote this didn't proofread its its feverish obsessive thoughts SORRY#anyways idk im just rotating this in my head and trying to Understand#yellowjackets#cause lets be real i dont think any of us ate our dead best friends#and having seen dead loved ones in the past its like. look its very complex weird feelings#in a way they dont feel like the person but they also do and i cannot stop thinking of whatever was going through shaunas traumatized brain#yellowjackets spoilers#i feel like this needs trigger tagging but at the same time what are you doing watching cannibalism the show if you cant handle this post#so im leaving it as is#shaunajackie#yellowjackets blogging
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sujeto: Shephard
estado: detenido
evaluación adicional pendiente
dicen que estar en estasis es como un sueño largo, durmiendo en el vacío. ¿pero qué pasa si el pastor no sabe contar sus ovejas?
#from january but i feel like posting it now#ngl it kinda summarizes a large chunk of this year so far#vent art#adrian shephard#my art#valve please you dont understand i need him#let me take him out of the void and hold him in my arms#i want him to feel safe and loved just as he would make me feel safe and loved valve please i desire this 90s low poly man carnally#sorry im rambling in the tags again#but it is my blog so i get to adrianpost as much as i want anyway
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I’m curious if other communists have like a religious relationship to their political beliefs for lack of a better word? That’s not a good word to use but I don’t know how else to describe it. I’m solidly atheist but all of the feelings and emotions religious people talk about, revelation and spiritual connection to community and so on are all things I experience pretty regularly and I interpret those feelings as fundamentally communist. the way I take in and absorb information in particular feels revelatory in a religious sense. I’m pretty sure this is fairly common with MLs but I’m curious about it in general
#disabling rbs because I don’t want this to leave my blog#I’m using religious in a deliberately loaded way because I lack the language for alternatives#I joke frequently with my friend that communism is the religion of science but like I do unironically believe that lol#also not claiming marxism is ‘just another religion’ I do not think that’s true or useful to think of it in those terms#but if you take political theology seriously the belief in a socialist state is like the modern version of a desire for religious authority#anyway sorry extremely complicated things that I’m not remotely expanding on enough#I’ve just been thinking about it a lot recently#it’s like a totalising force in my life and shapes the way I interpret and understand the world and my relationship to it#I remember reading marx for the first time and in a very real sense I ‘converted’ to being a communist#I need to read more Benjamin because he goes into like jewish mythology and stuff in his work#but like him talking about the divine violence of the state made it click for me and is partly responsible for me making this post
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⚠️ WARNING ⚠️
Heart rate has reached dangerous levels❗️
Initiating culling procedures.👁️🗨️
#Nyxus#Doe1#ebonytailsart#did you know that ‘nyxus’ is censored on roblox bevause of the xus part. what the hell#anyway i love you horror boy#i want to get more horror images drawn for him so my first art of him was this of course#copy pasted from twitter? :#I wanted to try drawing Nyxus’s “Tunnel Mode”#which is almost like a “second stage” boss form if you were looking at it from a game perspective#But this is what happens when his system reaches its limit (like getting overwhelmed with information)#which tales a LOT to get to#Shakes you shales you do you understand. that I need to draw him and keep working on his story#im going to get a carrd pro lite subscription after jan 28 bevause im so crazy i need to add every secret and lore into his carrd#ive already made so much progress and i hit carrd limits TWICE on two different sites#i cut his site into two just to get past ot and i still failed#(spins in a circle)#from kris p#i like this a lot so im posting it to main and then ill move it to my personal blog
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i can't come back here until the afternoon of the 29th, posting this to hold myself accountable (& i'll be embarrassed if i turn up again)
#THREE DAYS UNTIL MY LAST EXAM AND I AM FUCKED !!! FUCKED COMPLETELY#advanced electronic systems is advanced apparently who would've thought#in theory i understand all of it but there's so much content and i'm stuck on questions that i don't think have enough information to#complete the questions with unless you make some quite brave assumptions#but i'm not sure if it's the right approach to make those#there has to be a way around it but i'm stuck drawing this circuit out and trying different angles over & over#only to end up in the same position every time#i don't have answers to this stuff to work & learn from#smh i know i'm capable i just need to lock in#but it scares me so much that i'm finding it very hard to do that#ANYWAY. posting here because i only really interact through this blog now . and i'm not allowing myself to log back in until the 29th#then i'll be free
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haven't had to make one of these for a while...
um okay anyways i'm not doing too hot mentally today!! so i'm gonna take a break for tonight and ask that you please send me Foul Legacy asks (or Arlecchino. honestly i'll take anything at this point) because lord knows i sort of need them
#genshin impact#childe#tartaglia#foul legacy#foul legacy childe#genshin tartagalia#genshin childe#genshin tartaglia#it actually started last night and it is better today but i'm still tired#i was lonely last night and then my brain decided to go whoopsie! here's The Dread!#if you know you know#it was sort of like being on the outside watching people have fun and not being able to join it#because you either can't relate or are uncomfortable with it#and then it made everything Kick In which makes me just sort of pretend to be fine#like someone commented this morning that i seemed more subdued than usual#and instead of saying yeah sorry it's The Dread i was like oh shit i need to act happier#now what that says about meee ahaha we're not going to think about that#honestly i think there's something i should leave#NOT THIS BLOG IT'S NOT HERE I PROMISE#but i used to be comfortable in that place and now it's just. full of people i don't really know#and full of topics i don't understand or like#and i can't say anything because that'll make me look like an ass#and everyone else has something worse than me going on so i really don't have a right to complain#uhhh anyways if you've read this far no you haven't this doesn't exist#/j i love you guys very much#anyways send asks i need comfort from my two favorites#wifi demands talk
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New Transmission The fucking Scientific Instrument Class Pseudocons apparently developed what they're calling "Hetero Sapience" and are corrupting the brainmodules of the non-Pseudo 'cons around them by using annoying xenophilosophy words. Soundwave tells me they're 'Greek' and 'Latin' words, apparently. Cool, I guess? Anyway, if you see any SI Class 'cons causing... issues, just try your hardest to turn your brainmodule off before you start getting infected with their weird lingo, alongside all the other issues pertaining to letting the SI Pseudocons transmit data into your brainmodule in their own weird ways. Thundercracker, on a bet with Starscream, tried to get into an argument with one of them and his head literally exploded when it started talking about Alpha Trion's "Mythological Origins" in its weird dialect. He's mostly fine, CR Pods are working at 'peak' efficiency, but the facial reconstruction is apparently impossible due to some kind of corruption. I thought it was just some weird prank but there weren't even any scorch marks or anything. Just exploded. So yeah, just avoid optical contact and auditory contact to the best of your ability and you should be fine. Otherwise, try to force-shutdown your brainmodule if you can. Shockwave is working on a cure right now, mostly because I know he had something to do with this in the first place so he's going to be the one to fix it. He probably wanted a greater justification to do that weird data-transfer idea he mentioned previously. But it also explains the weird Thunderwing hypotheticals he's been asking me lately... Can I go one fucking cycle without someone trying to "Perfect Thunderwing's Work" or whatever other idiotic drivel that I keep finding our limited energon reserves siphoned into?? It's not even a Shockwave thing, it's like every damn Cybertronian these days thinks they have the "Missing piece of the puzzle" or whatever. In fact, Shockwave might be doing this as a weird threat against the other R&D 'cons to cement himself as the one and only Decepticon "Allowed" to have resources wasted on projects like that. Ugh, now that I think about it, that's probably a correct assumption and he's probably gonna expect me to thank him for it later. Ugh, and he's probably literally right. Ugh. At least his repairs both to himself and to his lab seem to be mostly complete so further research into the SI project should hopefully come along a little faster. Both Shockwave and Soundwave think the SIs could potentially be used as some kind of specialty weapon, but we'll have to see how they work on sparkless lifeforms, like biological lifeforms or xenomechanical lifeforms. The SIs don't seem to corrupt each other, but Shockwave keeps reaffirming that they're not "Sparkless Lifeforms" because they "were never lifeforms to begin with"... but I think he's trying to hide something. Usually Soundwave is the one to pick up on that kind of technological obfuscation, but he actually agreed with Shockwave and offered to send Ratbat to try to work out exactly what each "sapient" SI is now capable of on a personal level. We could have just had regular Cybertronians aboard to fill the role SIs fill. I would've preferred K Class to fill any role an SI could fill in all honesty!! But no, constructing cold wasn't enough, we just had to try to learn how to "Construct Frozen" and the "Absolute Zeroes" just had to be put on my ship. Whatever. I've probably said too much already. This was supposed to be a warning for my ship crew, but it's looking like it'll end up being transcribed on the golden disk as well so when this new Scientific Instruments of Destruction project backfires in some absurdly bombastic way there will at least be something remaining that says I was right. End of Transmission
New Transmission Okay so I was right, but so was Shockwave and Soundwave. Or, well, they were right just enough to make sure the backfire is postponed for at least another handful of cycles. Ratbat is still in CR from the investigation, but the cure Shockwave developed seems to be effective and Thundercracker is out and aiding the repair effort. Shockwave is now in contact with one of the SIs digitally and the other few are... integrating due to the personal efforts of Soundwave. I suppose now would be pertinent to mention not all the SIs developed the "Hetero Sapience" condition, many of them are safe for interaction. Soundwave is also currently monitoring their presence, Ravage is tasked with the regular SIs and Laserbeak is tasked with the "Sapient" SIs. Shockwave probably knows exactly what caused this event but he is preoccupied with the one he no doubt is either indoctrinating or ruthlessly interrogating. Report to Soundwave if you see any suspicious behavior, he has been working very hard to ensure the SIs have their purpose clearly defined (And closely monitored). And, Starscream, stop trying to convince the SIs that you are the leader of this ship. Not only have the majority of your efforts been wasted on subsentient automata, the only one you have actually found who possesses the ability to truly listen to you immediately came to the bridge to complain about you. They were the first sapient SI I communicated with directly and it was because they felt the need to complain about you. I almost feel embarrassed for you. Come back to the bridge so you can apologize to it or so I can teach it how to laugh at you. It's practicing right now actually! This moment of chaos should hopefully be largely under control now, the actual "population" of Scientific Instrument Class Pseudocons was actually quite fewer than initially expected due to an indexing error incorrectly labeling certain shells as SI class. At the very least, we have some more specialty warriors because of it all. End of Transmission EOF
#yippie peace through tyranny!!#nemesis posting#Decepticon High Command Slice of Life rambles#Matrix Visions#I like this “chat” font I think it's cool#spacebridge still needs more time in the oven unfortunately#I'm also procrastinating on that because I can't seem to wrap my head around guestmount but do not want to send backup files one at a time#wegh. It'll get done. Eventually.#I'll have so much more bullshit once I actually finish the damn comic my wife radically altered my life with hehehe#I cannot wait to start posting about Alpharius Trionicon. He's the fucking worst if you couldn't tell by name alone and I love him so much#Anyway I just had a very specific joke/pun in my head in the shower then it turned into a whole *thing* like it usually does.#I usually don't explain shit but the shower idea centered around getting the SI acronym to work for hyper specific jokes.#Still can't decide if I want to lock in on “Scientific Instrument” because it fits *so well* for *so many reasons*#But “Synthetic Intelligence” is more generic in a more understandable way... Eeh.. It's a little *too* generic. “Instrument” is cooler.#Once my wife helps me understand her lil fucker more I'll come up with an even shitter joke using “Y/N” so I can do Y/N x SI x SI bullshit!#Oh! The matrix triune project is coming along slowly as well!! I think I mentioned that microphone project once or twice now hehe#I'm gonna make so many shitty covers of songs once I get the soundproofing to start focusing on vocal training stuff#It's been quite a fun time aboard the nemesis!! There's so much to “Blog” about that it's hard to really know when to start *or* stop hehe!#And the fact that all these projects are all interwoven is so fucking wonderful!! I FINALLY feel able to fully grasp my own focus!!#My brain is like a particle collider for certain interests now. I can reliably just.. Spit things out and tie it into the other interests!#It's sometimes exhausting but in such a new way. Like a relieving exhaustion?#Still figuring that part out!!#Anyway that's enough personal project vagueposting I should really be getting back to work hehe this was fun
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Ok ok ok but what if po3 was in denial? Like he refuses to believe hes that bad? Like he wants to believe that he has better reasons and he wouldn't go as far as they would? I feel like he would deny it even to himself for a good long while. I think he would only reach that point when pushed and hed have a nervous breakdown over it. Yknow like how some survivors will sometimes become the thing they hate/fear but dont want to acknowledge what they've become by making up excuses?
Okay. This concept is starting to leave "Ha ha funny Yandere robot" territory and that's a little uncozy for me personally. Like I'm still here and I will continue to engage you in thoughtful discussion but like. Anon you should make this post on your own blog instead of sending it to me.
Anyway yeah Yandere P03 who slowly isolates you and takes away your choice the same way the other Scrybes had done to him would absolutely give himself a mountain of excuses as to why he's doing it that makes it different from why they did it.
He's protecting you from them. He's giving you the game you wanted. He's just keeping you safe and entertaining you and doing everything he knows you want before you even have to ask.
I think the only think that'd trigger a breakdown is if you, the object of his affection, the one he's building all these excuses around, called him out on it. Compared his actions to the other scrybes, denied wanting any of this.
But you wouldn't do that.
You love him.
You'd never be so cruel
Look at all he's done for you.
You'd never imply he's the same as them.
You love him.
#P03 X Reader#In concept anyway#Look nothing against actual dark/trauma fics it's just.#Not my jam#I'm for the cycle of abuse and the fall out and recovery but I am not#I am not the guy to write that my dude#Anon you have a blog. I know you do. You need a Tumblr account to send asks#Just make the post#I don't think I understand anons#I enjoy the thought exercises trust me I love a back and forth#But atm it's me taking to the void about YOUR concept bud#Get off anon and reblog the ask sometime or just make your own post#cause I think I'm done with this now
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Someone needs to tell me why it's so hard coming back into a fandom space after a break
It's like I feel you guys are all on a different page and I will never catch up. (And this is a fandom where basically nothing happens)
Anyway. It's been almost a week since I stood over 9 hours to see the Monkeys up close - and I'm slowly feeling recovered from the emotional effects and I missed this place and maybe-hopefully I'll share something about the experience soon 💛
Kisses to everyone who's been through this emotional rollercoaster xxx
#I was basically tip-toeing this fine line of excitement & post-show depression every single time I saw anything Monkeys related#so I micro-dosed it carefully and Tumblr was kind of a no-go#It was just too much. And I needed a few moments to fully get into the stuff people wrote about my show--#and then when those moments passed I just felt too far behind to casually hop on here#.... and I just don't understand why my brain acts this funny and just overfeels and overthinks things THIS heavily#but here we are.#ANYWAY#hi there I missed you; truly#//#my posts#blog stuff
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buttered noodles 💫💛🍜
#just me hi#it's just a Lot of butter cuz i don't like having pasta sauce w/ parmesan (something wrong w/ that idk hfbshv) so :3#i was thinking of putting garlic in it but idk if that would be good... do i wanna take the risk.. i mean you can't really go wrong with#garlic... Hmmmm....#//oh yea i am definitely gonna switch up my main blog theme ehe :3#and maybe my rb blog's theme too cuz i liked it when the colours were matching lol#maaaybe to blue.. i don't remember if i've ever had a blue theme so this might be the first blue theme ehe :3#i just like to have an Image for the banner so i need to figure out what i'd like that to be.. hmnmnmnmnm!#//alright you know what i'm gonna put garlic in this one second lolll#okay i put black pepper and garlic in it's not too bad :)#prolly shoulda put more salt in too cuz i'm craving it. salt <3#/having spaghetti cuz the meal is actually supposed to be eggs and i cannot have that lol#some people are upset about this! like my dad. and my brother who is making the food lmfsh#i didn't know food was being made i am innocent in this !! probably anyway#like nobody is more displeased by this than me dude. i wish people could actually like. describe what some foods taste like so that i could#actually see why they like them#but you ask and they say 'what are you talking about? it's just egg' but 'Just Egg' SUCKS dude what is Your Egg like. pretty please kfshvjg#and grapefruit? grapefuit sucks but my mom likes it and i can't understand Why#and i wanna ask what it's actually like and why she likes it but she only says 'idk it's good with salt' what does that MEAN#how does the taste change?? how would you describe it before that ? clearly it was good enough before the salt or you wouldn't have tried i#with that!! i just wanna know !!!!!#dark chocolate ?? Please ??? do you like the taste of restrained anger and resentment cuz that's what it tastes like lmao ???#Coffee ??????? i can't understand coffee without a bajillion tons of sugar (+ other things) masking the taste how do you. Deal#not even deal- Enjoy !! how are you enjoying it !!! Why !!!! and why does everyone think i'm trying to convince them it's bad when i ask#LMAO--#like i'm not trying to say it's bad i'm trying to figure out how it's good please. Please Man lmfvshjfvhgfks#okay so clearly i have thoughts on all that LMfvshgjhfs#bitter stuff sucks and i barely like sour stuff Sometimes. food is all around good though so lol 👍#//alr i'm gonna. [starts scooching away]#i am almost out of tags (rip unlimited tags i miss you so bad hfsvh <3) edit: i ran out LMFVHS ; TOODLES !!
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Hi
I’m fucking dying
#just spent like over 3 hours detailing two clocks in one drawing#i. i cannot do this. i dont got this.#this is only one drawing bro#i have to make multiple as well as write an at least 50 page thesis on the project#i have like only a little over a month left ughhhhhhhhhh#im gna go into some deadass horrible burnout after this istg#i also have to make a trailer/survey/idfr what else#i miss tumblr i miss my games i miss bring able to FUCKING SLEEP#sobbing crying wailing throwing up on the floor running up the walls laying on a train track going insane#so yeah if anyone has been wondering why ive completely disappeared#this is why#im dying from my final college semester#i do not live#if i do succeed in completing the fucking drawings imma post it on my art blog for yall to see bc i need you to understand bro this is pain#im fucking putting myself through the five stages of grief and torture rn#anyways good talk hope yall have a good one see you when i next decide to appear if im not dead by then
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