#anyway anyways im in so so much pain today 😭 girl help

[bunnyb34r]

Was able to work in my area today! First sunday in months! And thank god too bc half the damn table is clearance and people are fucking feral bc I GOTTA FUCKING LOOK! (Why dont you have my size?! I should be able to get this in MY size for $3. Why do you only have THESE sizes?!?! like maybe bc people bought your fucking size when it was full price and no one is buying these sizes which means they make it to clearance 🙄)

I'm thankfully not there to listen to customers be brats ab clearance, but I do have to deal with the aftermath...

Two weeks. Two weeks and then everything clearanced leaves 😭🙏 soon....

[wintersera]

Can you make a fic about vampire!karina? Her fangs in supernova mv got me dizzy😵‍💫

not so much of a fic but maybe a short little imagine/drabble thingy? cause yk yuh eslayyy

tw: blood 😰

anyways she looks like a little brat here it’s actually driving me a little insane CAUSE HOW DOES SHE LOOK SO CUTE WHEN SHES WREAKING HAVOC IN THE STREETS (and in the sheets ifykwim)😭

the typa vampire girlie to be so desperate to feed on reader bc shes so pretty and shes so so hungry ;;

lets say one day you woke up in the middle of the damn night, had a singular thought- the thought being explore the forest, at what? 2am. what a great idea 😭

so you prepared essentials in a backpack; some food, water bottle, a torch, lighter, batteries and thats about it.

you weren’t too big of a believer in the supernatural, you thought the concept of it was cool yk, warewolves and vampires- all that interesting stuff that you’d see in movies and books. obviously all that stuff was fake, so really, coming across a vampire wasn’t on your list of ‘what to do and encounter at a forest’. and now you’re aimlessly wondering around in the butt fuck of nowhere ignoring the obvious signs as to why your ass should NAWT be in the fucksss forest at this ungodly hour. you could’ve chosen any other time but naaurrr,,,

anyways, as you were strolling around without a care in the world, you heard the snap of a twig and something rustling around in the bushes. it could be a bear, or a man… the idea of that was worse by tenfold.

was the right option run back home and go back to sleep, yes! did you do it? NO, you know what you did? move towards the bushes… any reasoning? “what if its a cat? the cat distribution system could be in my favour today” :]

WRONG.

out from the bushes came a pretty tall girl. she bared her teeth at you, a clear warning so you could back up before anything bad happened. yet you stood there observing her instead. ngl you were pretty terrified none the less, pretty girl with sharp fangs that could rip through your skin. you were convinced she wasn’t real, maybe she was a hallucination??? idk bro maybe you were on shrooms or something.

“what are you doing here all alone in the woods pretty girl?”

tbh you were pretty shocked to the point of not being able to talk, so you stood there.

“aww too scared to speak? that’s okay, come with me” she grabbed your hand, grip pretty tight since she didn’t know how strong she really was. now all of a sudden you’re in an empty cabin log “dont be alarmed but… im hungry- can i get a bite? just a little. i promise i’ll only drink a little” you thought this was a big ass lie but let her bite you :( she’s so hungry.

her sharp fangs pierce into your neck, moaning at how good you taste. she couldn’t help but to embrace you as she was savouring your blood. the pain only lasted for a mere second before your body was engulfed in warmth, you thought that maybe you were gonna pass out but you were fine. i guess she figured out how nervous you were, your body tense and everything?!?2)2! she pulled back “i’m sorry did it hurt too much? it’s okay i can make it feel better” kissing your neck and whispering how happy you made her “i’ll return the favour” trailing bloody kisses from your neck down, to your collarbone and further down. ngl you thought it was pretty hot at how messy and how inexperienced she was at this. her hands would be all over you at first, on your tits mostly playing with them through you clothes “feel any good…? c-can i still taste you?” you nod hesitantly, but it did feel good though!

maybe because you were her first victim, she didn’t know what in the hells she was doing :,( obviously as a new vampire spawn she was trying her very best to make you feel good after she fed off of you. ripping your clothes off with ease, she wasted no time :] she made sure that every inch or your body felt good— leaving bloody stains wherver she kissed you, yes shes a messy eater 😭 the blood is all over her mouth leave her be-

after a long time of being kissed and having your boobs played with, she finally takes off your panties- soaked ofc! and blushes at you, looking up with her darkened puppy eyes,, awww how cute ;; you give her a slow nod and she just goes for it. so desperate and needy to make you feel good, she wouldn’t be lying if biting you made her so turned on. she fr eats you out like you were her last ever meal on earth 😊 like she gets so pussy drunk, lapping up all your juices, sucking and licking your clit so harshly earning a whimper from you.

she just thinks you taste so good,, your blood, your pussy? her heads spinning from your scent,, ouh girl she’s feeling dizzy, but that only drives her more insane. gripping onto your thighs, digging her nails into them. she wants more- moaning loudly as she continues to eat you out vigorously, her tongue circling around your clit so fast that it brings you to tears- are you sure she’s inexperienced bc this feels way too good “mmmhf is.. is this good? does your pussy feel good pretty girl?” that sentence alone brings you towards your climax- thighs squeezing together, essentially trapping her inbetween your legs 🫣🫣

so know if you’re ever feeling bored, you’d know where to go to find a certain specific desperate vampire waiting for you in the log cabins at 3am 🤩

IGNORE IF I MADE ANY MISTAKES PLEEKKKK 🙏🙏🙏🙏

[heleneplays]

shaking sobbing crying over SOOOO many good demos ive just had the pleasure of reading and like. AUTHORS PLS KNOW IM GOING STUPID FERAL OVER YOUR WORKS AAAAAAAA

the wars we wage by mah_sanogo (cog forum) - when I was browsing the dashingdon page I got intrigued by the summary (lmao i am currently looking for more isekai IFs >< if yall have a rec aside kingdoms & empires my inbox is OPEN <3) and while technical wise there's still a lot to correct (esp typos), the idea is VERY solid + as a fellow fan of Youjo Senki, i am SO thrilled to play, getting into a very oblivious MC and hopefully reach my goals. ALSO GOD????? CAN I FIGHT & ROMANCE GOD???? i wish 2 know bc i KNOW we can fight (technically) and im 👉🏻👈🏻

Before we are Ghosts by @anjiefiction - HELP HELP HELPPPPPPPPPPP FROM CRACK I IMMEDIATE GO TO SHAKING SOBBING THROWING UP— author i am. *clenches my fist* SO in love with this heartbreaking concept and i'm literally honest to God sobbing into my teddy bear wishing I could hug MC rn. and everyone else honestly, they need all the hugs SO bad 😭😭😭 Anyways to anyone who wants to plays this game, fucking get your tissues ready bc you'll sob with the pain and angst and. the tenderness that's still abt to come 🥺🥺🥺

Vendetta by @vendetta-if - IT'S BEEN SOOOOO LONG since i actually played through the demo, and replaying it now......... GETTING BACK INTO MY VILLAIN ERA HEE HEE HEE <3

Sinners by @sinners-if - if villain bad why hot??? <- literally the only thought in my mind EVER!!! anyway, reading the update to ch 2 on itch.io was SO unexpected, i remember only reading it on dashingdon and then. yeah. twine has never looked so good. ANYWAYS WE'RE COMING ALONG SOOOO NICELY <3 and i cannot WAIT to see what happens next!!!!!!! (also sidenote i am reading allnthe drabbles available and im. 🤡🚩over here.)

The Price of Emeralds by @thournewrites - currently scream laughing @ my MC in this one bc WOW bestie your shit out of luck!!!!!! and KDHDJDKDK HELP HELPPPPP not me getting clowned on by the og ro :((( welp! wishing them a very yess get u in that funky crew and get that money bby girl <3

Replica: between universes by @replicabetweenblogs - i see multiverse and i immediately think abt helene-verse and DEAR GOD this wip!!!!! im biting myself soooo bad rn im being absolutely INSANE abt the whole thing!!!!!!!!!! im 7 ways enamored with everyone but most especially to the bestest little sister i am going to love and cherish now and forever 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

The Eye of Eikshal by atlas7 (CoG forum) - :3c :3c :3c intrigue??? WITH A BUNCH OF FOUND FAMILY BESTIES??????? oh boy, not to mention a benefactor turned adoptive father who's wish is for the kids to actually be happy???? man. investing rn on it <3

Through Broken Lenses by Interestedparty (CoG forum) - ok on a more serious note, this story was actually one of the first ever wips i've read in dashingdon and rereading it today had me. well. feeling a lot of 😔😔😔 anyways Vi, you're so fucking mecore and much as MC is traumatized in this one, all I can say is that I she can't help but watch you :)

I actually have several more tabs left to go through but it's literally 2 am and I have been writing this on my phone since 5 pm yesterday so. yeet!!!

[caztiel]

hiiiiiiii paris!! My day has been hmmm

Had bad pain so ugh and couldnt do much, but my friend visited and we had tea and it was just very nice! Oh and I've been doing more research into Linear B as I'm starting to slowly hopefully learn as much as I can of it, and did you know that like. it's been aprox 3500 years but me and someone from the late Bronze Age Aegean use basically the same word for cumin? because I do now and it's making me so emotional!!! the word is witten as 𐀓𐀖𐀜 in Linear b and transliterates to ku-mi-no, like that's my girl cumin!!! 3500 years old (at least) and she's still going strong 😭 how am I meant to be okay about the sheer cathartic joy of connecting to someone so so distant and recognising their mundanity that is also your mundanity through such a temporal span it can't be conceived like at all. just like. fucking humanity man!!!

anyway moving on from my cumin spiral hope you're good and sleep well tonight byeeeeeee

hi kira 💗 im hoping u have little to no pain today sending psychic beams to help that sucks :(( tea tho omg niceee! thats so cool i don’t know much abt language but omg the fact that people all those years ago were people saying similar things about the same things

edit i accident hit post before i was FINISHED i was going to say i love humanity i love people i love thinking abt being connected to people who never would have conceived of my existence and whose existence is so vague to me 💗💗💗

[lemonthepotato]

So I finished Helluva Boss today. I like to make notes when I consume a piece of media. I never said those notes were peak maturity. Far from.

Enter.

Two seconds in: holy shit is that MORDERCAI?? 😰😰😰😰 no wayyyyyyyy.

And that kids, is how you traumatise a class of kids. I mean, I know I’m meant to feel bad for… whatever her name is, but those poor children 😭

HELP I LAUGHED LIKE AN IDIOT WHEN SHE THAT KID GOT CHOKEHELD IM A MONSTER OMG. IM SORRY 😭 it was just so funny 2 me I’m so so sorry.

She’s kinda hot tho when she’s a demon. Ngl.

I need the furry wolf’s number. IMMEDIATELY. I am DOWN BAD.

Is that fucking… stock horror music? HAHAHA- no no I’m imagining it, but imagine if it was.

HES BRITISH. THE BATHTUB GUY IS BRITISH.

BRUH. HES DOWN BAD, EVEN AFTER THE SHIT HES STILL RAMBLING ON?? HIRE A HOOKER!! GOD ITS ALWAYS… certain types of… I’m Irish, okay?!?! It’s a personal attack on me!

HAHAHA. L. L MOXIE L. The family just died anyway that’s a fucking LlLlLlLlLlL.

Closing thoughts: give me the satanic wolfs number immediately. I am down bad rn.

Rating: 3/5.

It kept me entertained, and hooked.

Episode 2:

This song reminds me of a particular band, I just don’t know what. There’s a certain “style” that’s familiar to it. I don’t know what.

Yeah I just. I saw that exact thing coming. Something going wrong, and something going wrong fast.

Octavia is just like me except my dad hates me and is just as unstable as my mom.

Okay so here’s my question: his eyes. Uhhh, the British bathtub guy. I forgot. It’s full red, is that his iris? How huge is his range of vision? Because MINE? Hun-knee, I have visual snow syndrome and shit eyesight, I’m nearsighted, this British fucker- see I’m Irish so this is a personal attack on me.

If you become a demon when you die, are their kids biological or did they die too?… dark thought.

Is there another… character that isn’t Moxie? Because I don’t care to remember his name tbh. So I’ll call him ‘Not Moxie’.

Blitzo, Stolas, I get it mixed up. And I can’t tell who Moxie is and who… the other one is. Moxie has a high voice, right??? I don’t know. I’ll learn it eventually.

Imagine your dad loving you. Couldn’t be me. Ever. Now I’m shedding. Skin or tears? You decide. (I shed my skin when emotional, like a snake. HISSSS)

Thoughts: Poor Via.

Ranking: 3/5. I liked it, I guess.

Episode 3:

God damn it why are all the female demons so hot. Damn you episode. I mean, *ahem* hello senora. ;)

I think my favourite characters so far are uh… what’s her name? Something -ica, and uh…….. the asshole. What was his name? Is he Stolas or Blitzo? I keep forgetting. 😭

Can I call her Titanic? No reason. She just looks like a… Titanic. Surely there are kids called that. (Rereading this I had a reason for this but I don’t fucking remember what the fuck?)

Blitzo. Gotta remember that. Blitzo. Ok. I’ve got it.

…UH OH. IVE BEEN CAUGHT. HELP THAT FOURTH WALL BREAK CREEPED ME OUT OK IM SORRY FOR BEING A SIMP IM SORRY.

Overall thoughts: None.

Ranking: 5/5. It was my favourite episode so far.

Episode 4

Uh… I liked how the piano switched places just to fall on his head? Yeah this episode kinda was meh.

2/5.

Episode 5:

Yeah I didn’t care much for this either.

2/5. Maybe I’m not paying attention enough.

Episode 6:

Okay so Red girl (what I’ve been calling in my head) is called Millie.

“Ee-dough” it’s pronounced Eh-doe period. In Japanese, ‘e’ means the ‘eh’ sound.

Is that. I was right, that’s just House Of Leaves or whatever?? It’s not bad to use horror stock music just funny.

Ohhh, Stolas is the bathtub guy. I think I’m developing a sexual attraction to him. Not as much as I was down bad for Loona. And the other one. Ika. I’m calling her Ika. Wait, Verosika?

Episode 7:

Okay… I am now realising that Moxie and Millie are married. I’m kinda dumb.

Season 2:

Lmao M&M.

HELP STOP GASLIGHTING MOXXIE INTO THINKING HES FAT EVERYONE IS SO MEAN TO HIM SHHSHSHS

Ah yes, the angel dust treatment. “Harder.”

Bro the pain of someone typing and then not responding.

Ok… why is season one episode 8 only out now? Huh? I don’t understand… (I checked the desc, nvm my words)

The mean girls reference XD.

I’ve heard of holding your breath, but not under honey?

The more I hear Kesha-

You: Her name is Beelzebub

Me: Anyway Kesha

The more I hear her, the more I might develop a Keshaccent. She’s cool but she seems like the kind of girl who would’ve bullied me for being autistic in high school.

So this takes place after uh… what happened again? I forgot. The night at the… lust club? Yeah whatever I forgot. Obvious from the start, just forget what exactly happened… anyway, how the fuck can Blitzo DIE ALONE?! HES IN HELL! You need a cold shower man…

Overall thoughts: I liked it. I’d give it a 7/10. I thought I wouldn’t like it, but I also thought that about XRA… I liked some characters, and even the ones that are like- beyond horrible people (like stella) I found entertaining to watch at the very least.

Pro’s:

- I liked the characters relationships with each other in various episodes. It made for comedic, or sometimes sad situations.

- I rarely found myself bored.

- It was pretty okay.

Cons:

- Some of the humour bordered on whiplash. Going from an emotional scene to comedic can be… really distracting. It wasn’t too much of an issue. I guess it’s intended as comic relief. Some of the humour was also immature which can throw some people off but I didn’t mind, I like vulgarity.

- Honestly, I can’t think of much else to critique. It was pretty good. It just didn’t impress me, or wow me, or make me feel much other than ‘oh, that’s sad’ or ‘oh, that’s funny’. But that’s okay.

Edit: I forgot to watch the pilot episode… and a new episode dropped today. So yeah, did that, been there. It’s been there did that, not… did that been- ugh why do I care about the semantics of this?

[afterglowkatie]

It will never be true and I’m not the one lying bubs 🤨💔I thought you said you wouldn’t lie to me :/

You in general just make me happy sweets 🫶🏽 stopp that’s acc made me smile you’re so cute I love thattt 🥹 I love anything and everything you send me :)) it’s okay just one of them days + cramps don’t help so :/

Just customers being absolute dicks and my colleague doing fuck all and me having to run the store by myself when it was the busiest it’s ever been - just a bit overwhelming but it’s okay I’m home and one day to go :) thank you for asking that meant a lot 🫶🏽

Luckyyy I wanna call in too but promised my girls I’d come 😭 but that bad?? What happened to the old ones? (Last I remember, one left?) - jaw pain? How comes love? But I’m sorry you can’t sleep, is there anything I can do?

Plss all the pictures are so pretty and the koala is so cute stop (not as cute as you though) - I have some I’m probs gonna send later that I think you’d like :)

Thank you angel - all my love cuddles and kisses for you too 💋💋💋

sorry that’s a lot I just realised 😭

but i’m not lying to youuuu >:( so it’s clearly you lying! 🤨

aww well i’m glad that i can make you happy 🥺 you always deserve to be happy babes 🫶🏻 i love sending you things and showing you stuff! and i know you love anything nature related! it’s been raining here a lot! you would love it 🫶🏻 supposed to be rainy all week too! aww i’m sorry, how are you feeling today?? 🤍

oh i’m sorry :( that sounds horrible and yeah super overwhelming and draining as well! there’s not much you can do either when things like that happen! i hope you can have a better day today though! 🫶🏻 of course, always here and wanting to listen if you ever need to let anything out 🤍

awww hehe yeah i called in so now im only working one 5 hour shift this week! much nicer than what i’ve been doing. but i didn’t want to work with the new manager bc last time i worked i hadn’t even gotten in the door and wasn’t supposed to start before he’s already complaining to me about things, and even complaining about all the staff and how ‘he’s the only one who’s doing anything around here’. as if he said that to me when 5 of us worked on a whole department relay the week beforehand and stayed until late every day to get it done 😭 but yeah things are very different. the company thought it’s a good idea to put two completely brand new people to the company, that’s only had two weeks training prior, to come in and manage our store. our assistant manager is doing more than the store manager is atm. but yet our store manager is the one complaining about different things but not actually doing anything about it 😭 i’m sorry! that was a lot! things changed so fast though!

hahaha no no! the koala is definitely way cuter than me! don’t lie! eee yes please! i always like anything that you send me anyway! no matter what! 🥰🫶🏻

don’t say sorrrryyyy you know i don’t mind how long things are!

[damn-stark]

LORD WHERE TO START WITH THIS CHAPTER. UHM WOW??? YOU LITERALLY DELIVERED BEYOND ALL THAT MY ANTICIPATION COULD EVEN ANTICIPATE. LIKE AND LET ME JUST SAY I WAS ITCHING TO GET OUT OF WORK JUST TO READ IT CAUSE I KNEW IT WAS COMING OUT TODAY.

FIRST OFF.

LEVI IS FINALLY BACKKKK😭😭😭 NO CAUSE I ACTUALLY FKN CRIED WHEN HE SAID I LOVE YOU TO CHERRY BC IT REALLY HIT RIGHT THEN IN THERE THAT IT WAS HIS FIRST TIME EVER SAYING THAT😖😖😫😫 And queenie CALLING HIM HER DAD TO HIS FACE??? I CANT ANYMORE. The way Levi has also realized how truly precious it is to be gentle and loving to Cherry now. His words and knowing he smiled through it all after now being able to hold her and see her🥲🥲🥲GOD THE COMFORT HE BROUGHT OUR GIRL I KNOW SHE NEEDED IT MORE THAN EVER. I’m so happy that his and Hange’s return guided her back to her hope. And you wrote that and delivered it so beautifully!!

The Ackerman cousin interactions this chapter was just absolutely *chefs kiss*😫. From the protectiveness, the emotional support, the loyalty, and FR FR BOTH OF THEM DESPITE WHAT THEY WERE GOING THROUGH HOLDING IT DOWN FOR EACHOTHER👏🏽👏🏽 And even their small teasing moments? Cherry even calling her “cousin” too was so cute to me🥲🥲🥲 LIKE I ATE THOSE INTERACTIONS RIGHT TF UP THANK YOU.

THE REINER PART??? LORD SOBBING FR LIKE HOLY SHIT. I LITERALLY COULDNT HELP BUT GET REMINDED OF THE WHOLE MADDIE AND CASSIE SCENE FROM EUPHORIA. WAS SO HEARTBREAKING HOW YOU WROTE IT BUT IT WAS SOOOO GOOODDD. Like you truly did such a great job delivering the feelings, thoughts, feelings of betrayal, deceit, and hurt Cherry was feeling in that moment and afterwards.

THE JEAN ANGSTTTTT. ISTG YOU HAD NO BUSINESS MAKING THAT HURT THE WAY IT DIDDDD BUT IT WAS STILL WORTH THE PAIN. AND WAS MADE UP FOR QUICKLY THROUGH UMM A LITERAL UNOFFICIAL PROPOSAL HELLO???!!??? LIKE PLEASE THIS WAS JUST TOO GOOD. Mans was going through it and managed to gather himself, and let his own guard down for Cherry which I’m so happy he did, HE NEEDED A GOOD LIL VENT. AND THE TREE SCENE? HELP HES SO DOWNBAD AND I LOVE HIM FOR IT😩😩😩😫😫

AND NOW OUR CHERRY GIRL😭😭 ALSO HEARING HANGE CALL HER CHERRY SO MANY TIMES MADE MY HEART SING DEADASSS. BUT OUR GIRL SHE HAS HAD SO MUCH MENTAL AND EMOTIONAL TURMOIL LATELY. BUT SHE HAS BEEN NOTHING LESS OF RESILIENT AND IM HOPING SHE IS STARTING TO SEE THAT IN HERSELF NOW. I’m so proud of how far she has come, ESPECIALLY in the way she has owned that part of herself that is like Kenny too. (Also knowing what Kenny said about her to Annie…broke me down…like…I KNOW HE LOVED HER BUT LIKE IT ONLY REMINDED ME OF JUST HOW MUCH HE TRULY LOVED HER MORE THAN ANYTHING😭) BUT ANYWAYS IM JUST SO PROUD OF OUR CHERRY GIRL.

AND I CANT WAIT FOR NEXT CHAPTER FOR THE FIGHT SCENES. KNOWING HOW CHERRY AND MIKASA ARE ABOUT TO EAT THAT SHIT UP FULL THROTTLE. WITH THE WAY YOU ENEDED THE CHAPTER TOO?? NO DOUBT IN MY MIND CHERRY ISNT NOT GOING TO SWEEP SOME MFS UP.

Again AS ALWAYS I APOLOGIZE FOR HOW LONG THIS IS. BUT THIS CJAPTER WAS JUST SO AMAZING IN EVERY ASPECT YOU DID AN AMAZING JOB. AND YOU DESERVE TO BE PROUD OF WHAT YOUVE CREATED. CANT WAIT FOR THE NEXT CHERRY THURSDAY<33

HOW CAN I EVEN START THIS….THIS IS JUST SO….AHHH THIS IS SO AMAZING!! I’m completely speechless!! I don’t care if it’s long I love every word of it, and it really makes my day and keeps me inspired to keep writing!! Like you don’t know how much I cherish these!! They really make me feel special not only because it’s amazing but because I know you enjoyed the chapter enough to go out of your way and write this!!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!! THANK YOU!! I’ll read and re-read this so many times you don’t even know bro!! ❤️❤️

And yes cherry is about to kick ass next week!!! I’m so excited!!!

[koishua]

Hiii, here to tell you that I'm (surprisingly) still alive 🤭🤭 He's a handful when his mother enters the house, but as the majority of the time we're alone he has been actually behaving better than what I expected.

Finally I'm not staying for a month, I'll be going back this weekend, but I'm *thinking* 🤔 of coming here to study (there's better chances than at my country), the only thing taking me back is having to learn another language 😩😩 they all say I'll learn it quickly but I just don't like languages 🤧

It's actually really cold here but I don't go out more than to take my cousin to school so no problemos, thank you <3

As I've been really unoccupied these days I started a drama called Law School and I'm currently obsessed, but I'm planning on watching All of us are dead after 👀

Besides, apparently even if my other friends are studying they appear to be free everyday for an anime hangout 🤔 (but who am I to reject?🤷🏽‍♀️)

I end up sending such long asks bc I accumulate so much info 😔... But please do tell me, how are you baby? Elaborate as much as you want. Seen you've been feeling under the weather, hope you're feeling better, I gotta work those reconnections to my good vibes, seems they aren't reaching you 👀✨✨

Have a great day tomorrow (today?) bubs 💕 - 💐

well hello there miss 😭 i kinda wanna ask why you're up so late but then again that would be hypocritical of me so i'll stay quiet bahaha it's so nice to hear from you again and im so glad to see that you're still all intact 😩 i'd be going back home asap too lmao also ooh studying there? i have heard that it was quite nice there but yeah the language problems </3 what do you want to study anyways?

that area is freezing istg im just glad that where i stay, it doesn't go lower than -10° c or else i would literally die of hypothermia or something regardless of how many layers i have on 😶 they call me michelin man on the streets smh

OMG LAW SCHOOL AS IN THE ONE WITH THE GIRL FROM ITAEWON CLASS?? or did i mix things up? anyways!! all of us are dead is SO goddamn good oml korea really has apocalypse movies down like man train to busan, happiness, this. all of them are *chef's kiss* ugh

any animes y'all are watching other than the new aot season? im gonna start this new badminton anime and it literally looks so good and the animation is PERFECT 😭 i think i'll enjoy it a lot like haikyuu since i actually used to play for a team too so that's nice 😩

also no worries i love your asks!! i just like talking to you in general haha as for me... idk man things have been all over the place but we're getting there ig 😔🤚

my mental health has been jumping everywhere every two seconds lmao it didn't seem too bright for me last night and im just glad im still here and breathing tbh 💀 i DID transfer schools again though so ig leaving my old school has helped me regain some sort of stability? (we are just going to ignore the fact that most of my issues are probably BECAUSE i had to move schools every six to ten months the past ten years 💀)

good news tho omg i am getting better at italian 👏it's similar to spanish, yes, but the speed and the way things are pronounced while natives speak made it difficult for me at first but bless easy italian bc it literally is my saving grace 😭 ive been binging their videos the past week while under quarantine no thanks to my siblings bringin covid back home with them lmao

i had the biggest urge and inspiration to paint something yesterday, but i ran out of the necessary paints and it pained me greatly that i was stuck inside till next week 💔💔 BUT‼️‼️i ordered A Thousand Splendid Suns, champion (marie lu) and They Three Body Problem and im so so excited to read them oml i read cixin liu's The Wandering Earth over and over so many times and am now in the process of reading all of his other books starting with the three body problem haha

i really recommend him if you like reading sci-fi‼️‼️and that's it from me <3 take care and stay safe >:(

[astroyongie]

isn’t a girlfriend - but maybe his dad ? idk what you think, idk if my theory makes sense to you either. and i hope im not going too deep as well ! i just feel like its a possible option. anyway, take care of yourself, and thznk you for sharing your knowledge here ♡ 3/3

(3/3)

First of all thank you so much for sharing all of this with me ! It was actually very interesting to read and sjsjjs I love when people also give me their opinions because it helps me confirm theories that I don’t share

Secondly, in my NCT rising post I said that for me Hyuck’s Rising was Gemini so yes we are completely together on this. The Gemini energy is very very intense around him, his aura radiates that strength and presence ( and the intensity is only accentuated by his Leo Moon ). It was interesting to see your opinion about it and I’m glad we share the same !

Thirdly, actually when I said it was a possible girlfriend it was because it’s such a personal thing that I didn’t wanted to start making conclusions so people wouldn’t come for my butt 😭 But you are indeed right. My first thought was actually someone from the family and not a love one as a girlfriend. That because my cards somehow told me it shaped him. So it means it has to come from his past. He is young and an idol so I don’t think he has dated too many people for it to actually be really a girl but there’s always the posibility

Thus, your theorie is quite interesting, maybe it is his father. Maybe it is someone else of his family. All I can confirm is that it was someone he loves deeply, someone whom hurt him, who deceived Hyuck. And I guess it must have been really traumatic since there’s still this pain haunting him today.

[kouyurii]

rereading this again bc i absolutely love this

Not when Love is wearing a rumpled button down, half-frame glasses, and a sheepish expression on his face. 

aWH AKAASHI KEIJI BEING CALLED LOVE IM SO 🥺🥺

“I’d consider myself more of a hopeful realist than a romantic. It makes sense, no? Sometimes there are those people we meet that just seem… right.” 

i love me an akaashi keiji who believes in soulmates 🥺😭

It’s not hard to fall in love, not when Love believes in soulmates and rips the crusts off his sandwiches. And something tells you it’s not hard for Love to fall for you either. 

aWHHH FKDNCJDJDJ HELP I LOVE THIS ALOT

What used to be a vague outline fleshes out, rendered in flushed skin and ink-shaded hair and blue eyes so dark they nearly look black

iM SCREAMING AW

And millions of different people dreaming millions of different lives into being every single night

oh woww fjskjfks this is definitely something akaashi would say aaa

you’re being pressed up against the graffitied wall of an alleyway, hands bunched into Akaashi’s collar as he kisses you

as his fingers tangle in your hair to draw you closer to him. His lips are gentle but firm on yours, smooth and sweet as maple syrup. 

AKAASHI OMG FKSHFKSJDS HELP IM SCREAMING

“No,” says Akaashi. He grins, the dimple in his left cheek winking. “You just make me impatient, I guess.” 

heLP I AM BLUSHING FKSBFJSJ AKAASHI YOU CANT JUST SAY STUFF LIKE THAT

HIS DIMPLES FJKSJFJS

nOT HIM MAKING OUT WITH YOU IN AN ALLEYWAY IM SO FJSBFJ CJSNFJS

Perhaps it was the graffiti in the alley. Perhaps it’s the lingering giddiness of a first kiss. Or perhaps, it’s the sudden realization that just because you can’t see the stars doesn’t mean they’re not there. 

fjskfbskdj omg hELp i love this sequence of lines soso much omg im cjs fjsjfjsnscksnkf

Akaashi clears a space for you in his life. There’s a you-sized indent in his mattress, the result of sleepless nights and sleepy mornings spent tangled in his sheets.

awwww akaashi making space and time for you in his life im so 🥺🥺 heart is so full fjsbfjs this is so sweet 😭

She’s shorter than you, but she takes up so much space, a sharp contrast to Akaashi’s habit of seamlessly melting into corners. 

eep i love that you gave personality to his mother too 😭

“Keiji never smiles as much as he’s been smiling since he’s met you. I’ve never seen him so alive.”

“Keiji’s so picky about girls — the fact that you’ve surpassed his standards means he’ll never let you leave now.” 

aWH FJSBCJSJ HIS MOTHER'S SO FREAKING SWEET IM SMILING SO HARD MY CHEEKS ARE ACHING FJSJFJDJ

No, the places you overlap are enough to show you’re just two shades of the same color. You give each other depth and richness, cerulean and indigo so well blended it’s impossible to tell where one ends and the other begins.

hELP ANOTHER BEAUTIFUL LINE FKSJFJSJ MY HEART IS BURSTING OMG this really is such a nice line 🥺

“Anyways — you were right. Waste of time.” His face falls. “Oh, baby.” 

ohnooo 😭💔 poor reader 🥺🥺 akaashi calling yoh baby 🥺

He squeezes and squeezes and squeezes, because even though he can’t find the words to say, he is still his mother’s son and he knows how to hug love into someone.

aww akaashi sweetheart 😭

i should have known that line about his mother hugging you would be referenced again

Sometimes, change hurts, and we mistake that ache for falling out of love. 

oof ohnoo i have a bad feeling about this 😣

Your two year anniversary, for instance — it’s not as scandalizing an offense as it might be were you married, but you can’t help but acknowledge the small pinprick of pain you feel when the warm June day comes and goes without Akaashi’s recognition. 

:((( akaashi ohno ☹️

While I’m out there doing real, professional work, you have to clean the damn bathroom once a week. Oh, the humanity!

akaashi stop being mean im gonna cry :((

“I’m sorry about what I said earlier today. It was mean. And untrue.” “I’ll try to do better.” He falters, starts again. “I’ll do better.” 

okay at least he apologized gjsjfjs but i don't think itll make much of a difference if he continues to not have any time for reader 🥺

“So it’s like a slam poetry sort of thing?” Akaashi muses. You try to ignore the obviously contrived, over-compensating interest in his tone.

oof uhoh bad feeling bad feelingg ☹️

He doesn’t come. 

aaaaa i loved the ticking of time and the repeating 'waiting' soso muchh fjsbjfdjs big sads hello who said you can break my heart like this 😭

“You said you would.” Your voice is quiet but quivering with frustration. Without meeting his eyes

fjskfjsj aaaaa i can def feel reader's frustration 🥺

I’m sorry — but you’ll have another performance, right? And it’s just poetry anyway.”

akaashi thats so mean :((

“But that’s the thing,” you say, stuffing a handful of chargers into your bag. “I’m not. I’m into you. I wanted you to come listen.”

i am crying rn wtf gksnfjdjs

I’m so, so wonderfully proud of you, and of all the good things in your life right now. But it’s like I’m not even a part of that life.

aaaaa poor reader 🥺 i hate that she got left behind after akaashi became famous 😭💔

“And that’s why I agreed to take that dumb poetry class in the first place,” you call over your shoulder. “To prove something. I’m not sure what — maybe that I can be eloquent, too. Or creative. Or whatever you want to call it. Anything that would get you to see me again.” 

ohnooo 😭 there are literal tears in my eyes pls stop 🥺 pain is real 😭💔

Akaashi, standing there in the center of the living room, dark eye bags and the slumped shoulders of a tired man who knows he’s made a mistake. “Don’t go. Stay.” 

Your chest throbs, and every fiber in your body screams to drop your bag on the doorstep and fling yourself into his arms. This is the only person you’ll ever love, you’re sure of that.

can you hear that thats the sound of my heart breaking into a million pieces 😭

i feel like its a hundred times worse bc they still love each other but circumstances have changed and akaashi is so busy now that he forgets and reader def doesnt deserve that but theyre still in love 🥺

Well… it’s the story of a grey boy who meets a rainbow girl, essentially. 

ohmann its about him and reader 🥺😭 keiji bby pls lemme give you a hug 🥺

I tried to show how the differences between two people aren’t always direct opposites. Sometimes they’re just… balances.

gjsfjskfjs this is what they talked about when talking about love earlier isnt it 🥺

im just the other side to your coin 😭

Thank you. But yeah, she really is my soulmate, you know? I love her more than anything. 

akaashi bby fjdjfjjsdjs 😭😭

yellow Post-It note, with Akaashi’s small, even letters spelling out: Because some things are worth trying again. 

tknsnfsncjsj IM SOBBING PLS AKAASHI NOT GIVING UP ON YOU 🥺

Love believes. Love believes in you. “She’ll be here,” he says, staring into the distance. “She’s a better person than I am.”

THE WAITING PARALLEL

AKAASHI TRUSTING THAT YOULL COME IM GONNA CRY AGAIN

You love him, undeniably so. And sometimes that means giving second chances even when you’re still hurting. 

ahh i love that readers gonna give him another chance 🥺

He can’t tear his eyes away — even after sprinting a quarter mile, you’re lovely. Your hair is falling out of its updo, and your face is flushed, and the bottoms of your feet are covered in street grime... and you’re positively beautiful. 

aKAASHI FKDNCJD FJSJ STOP IT IM GONNA CRY FKEJJFDNFJS

Oh, he’s missed you. 

wtf this made me sob jfskfbjs its so simply just him thinking he missed you but i think thats exactly why i love this sm?? cuz akaashi is poetic and knows the nicest way to say things but here it's just 'he missed you' bc thats all he can think of im so soft rn nobody touch me 😭

And then he looks at you, and he says your name with such tenderness and magnitude that you’re frozen, as if the earth has just shuddered beneath your feet. 

youre gonna make me cry again i just know it

“Especially not when Love was the most beautiful woman I’ve ever seen, standing right in front of me in the Barnes & Noble on South and 22nd.”

iM SCREECHING THE PARALLEL TO THE READER'S THOUGHTS WHEN SHE FIRST MET KEIJI FKFNDKCBKSs

“I hate that I ever made you feel small or unimportant. Because, actually, you’re the most important person in the world. You’re truly, honestly, genuinely my other half. You’re the reason why I desire to excel. You’re braver, funnier, and cooler than I am, and you both challenge and comfort me like nobody else can.”

“Which all goes to say,” he breathes, “if you were to forgive my wrongs and give me a second chance… I would take it in less than a heartbeat.”

He swallows. “Because some things are worth trying again.” 

iM GONE FKSNCJSJD MELTED INTO A PUDDLE ON THE FLOOR GKSNFJDJDNS AKAASHI MY LOVE PLS IM ACTUALLY CRYING WTF FKDNCJDJD

Love outstretches his hand, pale and soft in the white lights of the gallery. It’s a slender hand, but a large one, palm wide and empty, the perfect landing place for your own. You reach out, the centimeters between stretched like whole galaxies as you slowly extend your offering.

sobbing shaking crying rn

‘Marry me,’ it says. And judging by that wedding band on your finger…?

HIM PROPOSING VIA HIS SECOND BOOK

My girlfriend — wife now, actually — was the first one to receive a copy of the published book. I thought I was clever for that one. She opened up the first page, read the dedication, and then I was on my knees in front of her. 

OMG FKDJCNSKCNKSJS MY VOICE IS GONE BUT IM FKSBCJSJFKSDJ

THIS IS GENUINELY ONE OF THE BEST THINGS IVE EVER READ IM VERY HAPPY I HAD THE CHANCE TO REREAD IT TODAY FKDNFJS

synopsis: sometimes the person who’s right for you is not the one who’s “perfect” for you. 

genre/warnings: akaashi x fem!reader, nyc au, mostly fluff, about three minutes of angst, like four (4) swear words.

tags: @neonghxst​ @catzula​

commitment level: 8.5k words.

a/n: dedicated to sandra bullock and my cat. I tried to capture the ups and downs of a real relationship, but with a hollywood feel haha. I know it’s kind of a biggie, but I personally think the end is worth it :)

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It’s not hard to fall in love. It really isn’t.

Not when Love is standing right before you in a crowded Barnes & Nobles on the corner of South Street and 22nd Ave. 

Not when Love is wearing a rumpled button down, half-frame glasses, and a sheepish expression on his face. 

Not when Love, rubbing the back of his neck, apologizes for reaching for the same book that you were reaching for and says, “I’m Keiji Akaashi, pleased to meet you,” and “You have good taste,” accompanied by a laugh that sounds like almost everything you’ve ever wanted wrapped up in one chuckle. 

It’s not hard to fall in love with Love, especially when he offers you the last remaining copy of that book and asks if you want to grab lunch after checking out. 

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