#2 days ago I was in a fantasy/romance mood and then now im in a mystery/angst/crime mood and i think thats v sexy of me

[heleneplays]

shaking sobbing crying over SOOOO many good demos ive just had the pleasure of reading and like. AUTHORS PLS KNOW IM GOING STUPID FERAL OVER YOUR WORKS AAAAAAAA

the wars we wage by mah_sanogo (cog forum) - when I was browsing the dashingdon page I got intrigued by the summary (lmao i am currently looking for more isekai IFs >< if yall have a rec aside kingdoms & empires my inbox is OPEN <3) and while technical wise there's still a lot to correct (esp typos), the idea is VERY solid + as a fellow fan of Youjo Senki, i am SO thrilled to play, getting into a very oblivious MC and hopefully reach my goals. ALSO GOD????? CAN I FIGHT & ROMANCE GOD???? i wish 2 know bc i KNOW we can fight (technically) and im 👉🏻👈🏻

Before we are Ghosts by @anjiefiction - HELP HELP HELPPPPPPPPPPP FROM CRACK I IMMEDIATE GO TO SHAKING SOBBING THROWING UP— author i am. *clenches my fist* SO in love with this heartbreaking concept and i'm literally honest to God sobbing into my teddy bear wishing I could hug MC rn. and everyone else honestly, they need all the hugs SO bad 😭😭😭 Anyways to anyone who wants to plays this game, fucking get your tissues ready bc you'll sob with the pain and angst and. the tenderness that's still abt to come 🥺🥺🥺

Vendetta by @vendetta-if - IT'S BEEN SOOOOO LONG since i actually played through the demo, and replaying it now......... GETTING BACK INTO MY VILLAIN ERA HEE HEE HEE <3

Sinners by @sinners-if - if villain bad why hot??? <- literally the only thought in my mind EVER!!! anyway, reading the update to ch 2 on itch.io was SO unexpected, i remember only reading it on dashingdon and then. yeah. twine has never looked so good. ANYWAYS WE'RE COMING ALONG SOOOO NICELY <3 and i cannot WAIT to see what happens next!!!!!!! (also sidenote i am reading allnthe drabbles available and im. 🤡🚩over here.)

The Price of Emeralds by @thournewrites - currently scream laughing @ my MC in this one bc WOW bestie your shit out of luck!!!!!! and KDHDJDKDK HELP HELPPPPP not me getting clowned on by the og ro :((( welp! wishing them a very yess get u in that funky crew and get that money bby girl <3

Replica: between universes by @replicabetweenblogs - i see multiverse and i immediately think abt helene-verse and DEAR GOD this wip!!!!! im biting myself soooo bad rn im being absolutely INSANE abt the whole thing!!!!!!!!!! im 7 ways enamored with everyone but most especially to the bestest little sister i am going to love and cherish now and forever 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

The Eye of Eikshal by atlas7 (CoG forum) - :3c :3c :3c intrigue??? WITH A BUNCH OF FOUND FAMILY BESTIES??????? oh boy, not to mention a benefactor turned adoptive father who's wish is for the kids to actually be happy???? man. investing rn on it <3

Through Broken Lenses by Interestedparty (CoG forum) - ok on a more serious note, this story was actually one of the first ever wips i've read in dashingdon and rereading it today had me. well. feeling a lot of 😔😔😔 anyways Vi, you're so fucking mecore and much as MC is traumatized in this one, all I can say is that I she can't help but watch you :)

I actually have several more tabs left to go through but it's literally 2 am and I have been writing this on my phone since 5 pm yesterday so. yeet!!!

[yunoyeol]

His ripped love

Genre : romance; smut later; streetracer!au; angst

Warnings : explicit use of drugs; swearing; illegalities; explicit smut

Pairing : you x kim hanbin

Chapters : 1 / 2

Chp. 2.

Hanbin.

BI.

Hanbin.

You enjoyed how the syllables sounded, how they left a spicy effect on the tip of your tongue and how nicely the letters rolled out of your mouth. Even when your eyes were glued to the book's written pages, your mind was absentmindedly somewhere else. You couldn't focus, the only image you managed to produce being of that Saturday night. Laughing, you leaned back against your chair and cursed at your own foolishness, finding yourself talking alone on your room, specially when it was possible that the man in question probably didn't even remember a glimpse of you.

But, boy, did you remembered him.

Actually, that's all you've been thinking about for the past two weeks. 

You did your exam, and you thought it went good, but you recollected how surprised your were when in the middle of the test, your brain traveled to that scene once again. Your hands dug into your scalp, pushing the long hair strands back in frustration.

" - Enough. " You got up, practically shoving your feet into the slippers that rested nicely on the floor. Grabbing your phone from the desk, your fingers searched Lisa's contact rapidly. You knew that Jennie was unable, locked deeply in her room, probably with Bobby deeply inside her. Not that you mind, it was true that Jennie has been happier lately, and if she's okay with their arrangement, you were in no position to go against her felicity. You wondered how would that feel like.

Your steps guided you to the kitchen as you waited for Lisa's voice on the other line, which was heard soon after a few seconds.

" - Hello my favourite girl, at least you didn't ditch me for some dick like the other three have! " - Her voice was distinctly loud, and you could hear the was in a crowded place. " - I swear, some day they will decide to do a threesome, a sixsome actually, all they want is t- "

" - Hello Lisa, yes,- " You cut her off before she started rambling, chuckling at how whiney Lisa could be. " - i know. Where are you? "

" - Im at Midnight! That bar downtown where I'm usually at. " Her characteristic chuckle could be recognized even from afar. " - Come join me! "

" - I hope you're not alone, Lalisa. " Your voice sounded like a worried mother, scolding her irresponsible child.

Again, the laugh was made percieved. Lisa was probably around her fifth drink of the night, you judged as you grabbed your leather coat and your everyday sneakers. Now you had to go.

" I'm not, but come! I miss you. " Lisa mumbled the end of her sentence, making you roll your eyes and smile in tenderness.

" - I'm coming, give me 10 minutes. "

With that, you slid your finger on the screen and shut the call off, checking if your keys were on the jacket's pocket and your wallet still in your bag. With everything on order, you left the shared apartment, hitting the door with a loud bang to warn Jennie that she was alone now, and could moan as loud as her lungs desired.

×××

Downtown, 01:23 AM.

Finding a parking spot was difficult, and now you knew why. The bar was packed, smoke filling the atmosphere and the music quite obnoxiously loud. As soon as Lisa found you, she raised from her seat and waved, extending her fingers as high as they could. She was on a table with a familiar looking trio, the same blonde one that took the bag that time, a quieter guy that scrowled his phone down and him.

Him.

Hanbin was here.

The same man that didn't leave your brains and wrecked your rational mind everytime you tried to get some rest and peace.

Your throat went dry, and you suddenly thought that staying home and hear your roommate's pleasured screams wasn't actually a bad idea.

With a gulp, your feet lead you to the table they were in, an awkward smile resting on your nude lips.

" Hi. " Your voice came quiet, probably more quiet than it should, and you found yourself nervous at your own actions. Lisa laughed and swung her dainty arm over your shoulders.

" Guys, this is Y/N. This one is Yunhyeong, this punk here is Chanwoo, and that one over there is Hanbin. " Now you could associate the face with a name, Yunhyeong was the bag carrier, Chanwoo was unknown for you, and surely you already knew Hanbin's name.

" I know this lamb. " Hanbin pointed his indicator finger at you even if it lazily balanced a cigarette with his middle one. There was a glint of mischief on his smirk, and in the way his lids seemed to be fighting against it's own weight when they danced from your uneasy expression to the colour of your jeans.

" Lamb? Wait, wh- " You scoffed, a sudden chuckle following the question. But for your luck, Yunhyeong cut you mid sentence, saving your unnecessary embarrassment.

" She was with them two weeks ago, on our race, right? " He scrunched his eyes as if he was trying to figure it out himself.

" That's right! " Lisa answered and took her seat back, pulling you next to her. Sitting, your hands fell on your lap and glued to each other.

Hanbin nodded, taking a sip of his drink and setting the cup down again, a soft giggle vigorously leaking from his throat. It sounded like venom, but you'd likely get drunk on it. Chanwoo noticed how you stared, his eyebrow arching up and his irises moving to his friend.

" You guys know each other? " Chanwoo asked, locking his phone and leaving it on the wooden surface of the table.

" No. "

" Yes. "

Both of you answered in chorus, his affirmative answer making you slightly confused.

" I presented myself the other day, didn't I Y/N? "

And you could feel your feet shaking, effect of his perfect smirk that turned into a wide smile. The sound of your name leaving his mouth blanked your thoughts, and you swore his voice was your favourite melody from now on. Chanwoo seemed observant, glancing quietly between the two of you.

" Well, I'll go meet Daisy, so I'll be taking my leave. " Yunhyeong got up, drank the last sip of his beer and grabbed his wallet, waving at the rest of you.

You noticed by the corner of your eye how a familiar looking girl aproached the table once Yunhyeong's seat was empty, nicely next to Hanbin. You thought in getting up and moving there, but that kind of courage was stored in your deepest fantasies only. Instead of you, a girl with a heartwarming smile took his place.

" Hello, how are we today, huh? " Her voice was sweet, happy and she seemed to be in a great mood.

" Dahyun! Long time no see! " Lisa got up from her seat only to embrace the newcomer. You had a feeling you've seen her before. By the way she instantly circled your friend with her arms, you knew they were close somehow.

" Dahyun, from my history of arts classes. " Lisa looked at you as if she heard your thoughts, and now you knew why she was familiar.

Hanbin took a sip from his cup, his tingue grazing over his lower lip agonizingly slow. He seemed to be quieter now, deep in thoughts, only to interrupt himself and get up, grabbing his pack of cigarettes.

" I'm going outside for a smoke, I need fresh air. " Even you not knowing anything about this man, you knew that it was a awful excuse to take a step away from the table.

With that, you got up too. Stumbling on your words after grabbing to much attention, your shaking irises moved to Lisa that stared at you with a unknown expression.

" I remembered I have to finish my essay. I'll be leaving, it's late.

What an awful lie, Y/N. The only thing you wanted was a small conversation with Hanbin to leave you daydream for the mext two months.

Lisa watched you for a couple of seconds, before nodding with a small grin. She wasn't dumb, she knew how to read people.

Hanbin walked out of the scene, leaving the bar and leaning against the brick wall. You just followed his lazy steps outside, zipping your jacket up once the chilly night touches your neck and made you shiver.

The temperature, you supposed.

" You'll be leaving now? " Hanbin lightened a cigarette up, hanging it on his chapped lips.

Ah, stupid Y/N. How ridiculous was it, always finding beauty in places that you shouldn't be looking for. You dove into the idea of how excruciating painful it could be : hungrily searching for something that would spark you out of your mundane life, even if that interest was found in the shape of hostile man, that managed to catch all of your senses just by standing there, lightning a cigarette up. 

" Yes. It’s late. How about you, are you always smoking? ‘‘ Your voice slightly trembled, but you blamed the weather, not the puddle of fire that agonized your stomach in ways you still had to decipher. 

Hanbin just took a deep drag out of the death stick he now held between his fingers, inhaling the smoke with dull grace and exhaling a cloud of carbon dioxide mixed with nicotine. With his irises finding yours, his voice came out deep but clear enough to be heard even with the distance, the muffled music and the chuckle that leaked out of his throat between his words.

‘‘ Want to go for a ride? ‘‘ 

Without much thought, your head instantly nodded in a affirmative motion.

[beeblugbug]

A Story (Chapter 1)

Author’s note: I’m not a writer, I’m not born to write. English is not my first language but I’m comfortable using it although i’m not good at it. This story is a mixture of recent dramas I watch and my fantasies. I just want to write it and read it for myself later (when i’m older and wiser) as a keepsake of my lonely youth. BTW i wanted to write an R18 story but i can’t vividly describe r18 stuffs so i give up. maybe. 

She rubs her eyes as faint sunlight touches her face. She realizes she is not alone. She’s lying beside a guy she just met last night. They are in an unfamiliar room that looks like a room from a low class motel. She pulled the bed sheets to cover her naked body. Her heart is throbbing, she’s sweating and feeling scared. She checked the clock. It’s 7 o’clock in the morning. She is bound to death when she goes home. She doesn’t have an excuse. She gathered herself altogether and began to pick up her things with a blanket wrapped around her body. She checked the guy she slept with and he is still sleeping soundly as if he’s sleeping in his own room. She changed into her clothes and checked every corner of the room in case she left something. While looking at the guy she slept with, she walk through the door cautiously and made her exit. She was still nervous. Memories of last night began flashing into her mind. She’s embarrassed and hating herself. She grabbed a taxi and went straight home.

She bit her fingernails and grabbed the door keys. She opened the door as quiet as she can. She felt relieved that no one have woken up yet. It’s 8:20, she began to change into comfortable clothes. She heard from the outside that someone have woken up and is now walking to her room. She hurriedly lied down and pretends to sleep. It’s her mother.

“Elysse are you awake?”

 Elysse’s mother woke her up and asked what time she went home. She lied and said she went home at 3:27 am. She made it odd to make it believable. Her mom just told her to sleep more. Her mom gets her laundry and walked out of the room then she fell asleep.

The man in the hotel scratch his head as he woke up. He suddenly get up in awe that the girl he slept with last night is gone. He checked his wallet and phone first in case the girl stole something. Fortunately, his things are all complete. He changed into his clothes and walked out of the motel room like nothing happened. He’s an expert. He slept with numerous girls before, but he’s worried of thievery and getting STD. He was sure the girl won’t have STD because she’s a virgin. He get his car and drove to his dorm. He’s a 3rd year College student. He practically lives in a dorm and never comes home even in vacation. His family is well-off but they don’t have good relationship. He showered as soon as he got home. 

2 weeks later

Elysse’s packed her things. She’s moving into a dormitory. She’s a freshman college student. She’s older than any freshman because she stopped for two years after she finished high school. Her mom bid her farewell and her dad took her to the dormitory. It’s 7 hours ride from their home (including the traffic). Her dad accompanied her to her room and helped her unpack her stuffs. 

“Elysse, you better study well and don’t go in late. There’s strict curfew now, so always check the time”

“yes, dad”

She kissed her dad and said good bye.

Elysse doesn’t have a room mate. It’s a high class dorm so each dormers have room of their own with own bathroom. Each room is small but big enough for someone living on their own. They have a common dining area, laundry area and a lobby for guests. Only relatives are allowed in the dormitory. It’s a coed dormitory with guys living at the right side rooms and girls at the left side rooms. All rooms are airconditioned and has a big window overlooking the campus. 

She decorated her room to her liking and setup her study table.

She logged into facebook to check messages. Her mom and sister messaged her and told her to stay safe. She send picture of her room to her mother and sister. She browse facebook and saw posts of her high school classmates. She began to tear up not because she misses her high school classmates but because she felt lonely. Everybody seems to get along with each other well. 

Elysse doesn’t have anyone she can call friends.

They’re classmates, groupmates, schoolmates, neighbors but never friends.

She’s a loner and doesn’t converse well with others.

She quite and can’t stand to be in big groups of people.

She’s the worst type of introvert

Elysse loves to read books most. Her genre’s are random (according to her mood) but most of the time she reads romance and psychology.

Her school will start in 2 days. She went to her dorm early to get used to it. She have troubles sleeping in new places.

While reading her book, she remembered her first night with a guy…

(1 month ago)

She’s anxious going to college. She heard many or most college students goes to parties to relieve stress. Elysse can’t stand the crowd but she want to change her college life, far different from her lonely highschool life. She searched online what clubs college students go most. She decided to try going to one. She also consulted online what clothes to wear and make up. She told her parents she’s going to a friends birthday party. They were happy (since she rarely have this kind of event) and permitted her to go home late but don’t spend the night. She thanked her parent and began to prepare. She leave their home at 7 o’clock in the evening. The club was so loud as she expected. She’s alone and began to feel anxious. She sat on a free seat when suddenly a man approached her.

“are you alone?”

“ah.. yes..”

“Hmm relieving stress?”

“..yeah, kind of”

“why don’t you join our group?”

Elysse followed the guy. His group look like students of her age, consists of 3 girls and 4 guys. They were very friendly but Elysse can’t get into their conversation since it was about their lives (which she isn’t included to). They played never have a ever game.

“never had a boyfriend/girlfriend”

all laughed

“comeon guys we’re not kids“

“it’s just a tryout question hahah”

they were surprised when Elysse shot a glass

“you really.. didn’t have a boyfriend?”

“not even a fling?”

Elysse shyly said yes. The grouped laughed in disbelief. 

“it’s okay, you’ll find one”

said a guy while he wrapped his hand around Elysse waist.

“hey, don’t even dare. Elysse don’t give him your number. That guy’s a player”

Elysse just nods and the game continued.

She made an eye contact with the guy in front of her. He’s not the one who invited her to the group, neither the one who held her waist. He’s the guy who caught her attention from the start. He is handsome. Maybe the most handsome guy Elysse have ever met in her life. He’s silent and doesn’t laugh much as others. He oftenly whispers to the girl next to him. Elysse assumed they’re in a relationship.

They’re eyes locked for a second but Elysse hurriedly look in another direction. Her heart is breathing fast and her breath feels warm. She’s having a crush on a guy he just met. 

As the game progress, Elysse have taken alcohol beyond her limit. She began to feel drowsy. The man beside her whispered to her

“do you want to go out?”

She shook her head and insist she will continue the game. The girl beside her told her she should go home. In Elysse mind, she wants to know the guy’s name in front of her. She looked at him with her half asleep eyes. Unlike earlier, she didn’t bulge when their eyes met. She smiled like a moron

“ohh, look like this girl is interested with our Shin”

“You better not dare Shin”

“I don’t know”

Shin smiled.

They ended their game because most are drunk. Elysse passed out since round 1. Nobody tried to take her home because they don’t know her home and she’s not waking up. Shin is still wide awake and a sober. He haven’t drink much. He pretty much done everything. 

Elysse opened her eyes. Other’s were dancing crazy on stage. Others are sleeping like her. Shin is just sitting staring at her with a glass of beer on his hand. She sober up. Her heart beats crazily when she realizes Shin was looking at her. She felt hot with his gaze alone. She crazily asked Shin to go out and grab a coffee at the nearby coffee shop. She is expecting to be turned down but Shin stood up and asked her where they should get their coffee.

Elysse thought they should be getting coffee for everyone but Shin told her the club doesn’t allow outside food and drinks. They went into a nearby coffee shop and talked for a while.

“You really didn’t have a boyfriend?”

“no..”

“Are you a minor ?”

“no”

“you must be a nerd?”

“no.. im.. i just”

“You don’t need to explain haha”

Her heart stopped beating for a bit with Shin’s short laughter. Their coffee was ready. There was an awkward tension between them. They have nothing to talk about. Elysse tried to break the ice asking if Shin if he has a girlfriend. Shin said, at the moment he doesn’t. Elysse said she thought Shin has a relationship with the girl beside him.

“You really didn’t have a boyfriend haha”

They’re conversation began. Shin talked about how relationships are like and such body contact doesn’t mean they are into a relationship. He taught Elysse how to differentiate those who are in a relationship and flings and those who are just touchy. Then asked Elysse who she thinks in the group are in a relationship. She answered correctly in her 2nd try. They laughed and looks like their conversation will be long.

Their conversation touches relationships and sex but they talked without malice. Elysse felt like she was learning a lot about life. Shin is really good with his words. He gave advises which as really true and useful. Elysse felt comfortable with Shin. She felt he’s a good man.

Their topic suddenly went to playboys. Shin told Elysse what kind of guy she should avoid if she wants serious relationships. 

“What about you?”

asked Elysse

“Are you the kind of guy for serious relationships?”

“are you even listening?.. What do you think?”

“ My first impression? Hmm I find you attractive and all but I thought you’re a playboy but now I’ve talked with you.. I think you’re someone that can be trusted”

“I taught you a lot today.. Do you think so?”

“why are you always giving back question when I ask something about you?” It was a rhetorical question but Shin replied in spite

“You want to try?”

“What?”

Elysse knew what Shin was asking about. She knew but despite of that she was feeling adventurous and wanted to try something she never done. She’s still half drunk and maybe the alcohol is the one making her daring

She just followed shin outside and they went into a motel nearby. Elysse hesitated as they entered the motel. Shin looked at her

“are you sure?”

She continued walking and Shin just smiled. They had their first night. It was Elysse first time so Shin only lead her. Shin was gentle to her. She was scared at first but Shin was really gentle that she felt safe. She just go all the way and didn’t care what her next day will be. She’s feeling daring for the first time and she’s making the biggest mistake she ever did all her life. She doesn’t think about anything else. She’s stressed, depressed with her current life situation. She wanted to do something out of her character.. The alcohol still has influence on her. 

Shin began to kiss her. They make out and slowly undress themselves…and that’s how their night began..