#anyway a LOT of stuff happens in this chapter
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Book 7 Future & Loose Ends
Things Book 7 Has Set Up to Hopefully be Resolved
Malleus dream battle
Malleus IRL Overblot battle
Silver overusing his UM
Lilia leaving school and going MIA
Sebek & the First Years reconciliation (aka: fulfilling Lilia's request at the Goodbye party to hep him if he ever seems to have lost his way)
Lilia and Idia being gaming buddies
Idia having a big character moment about making 0% not 0% anymore
Magic being based in wishing and desire
Also I've seen lots of talks about book 7 ending soon or talking about how long this story segment has been. Personally, I see us having about 2-4 story chapter left before we're finished. I mean the characters have to defeat Malleus in the dream world and in the physical world as well so we still have a bit to go.
The newest story update, chapter 12, ended with Riddle being summoned into Idia's room to help him finish the cheat code and defend against Malleus at his door.
Following that I think chapter 13 we will have Idia and Riddle on the defense ultimately culminating in them finishing the cheat code and the rest of the attack squad joining them to fight against Malleus. During this part we will probably also get an update on what happened to Lilia because damn ngl Im a little worried about grandpappy
Power of teamwork ensues and the gang is likely broken up into different teams and stuff to fight Malleus. TBH it would be fun if they were broken up into years. Anyway I think chapter 13 will end with them finishing up the battle with Malleus in the dream.
Chapter 14-15 will then cover the irl overblot and I think it would be cool to see RSA help out with the evacuation efforts or play some role to possibly set up their presence in the next books. Then we will have the epilogue part of the story.
#twst#twisted wonderland#twst spoilers#disney twisted wonderland#twst theory#twst thoughts#mina ramblings#twst book 7 spoilers#twst book 7 part 12
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Hello :) i really like ur writing style and wanted to know your writing tips!
Like, how do you get a clean and nice pace? Or how to write intense scenes? Or what words to choose? Etc
I thank you graciously for sharing your works 🙏🙏
HELLO SLEEPY!! I meant to respond to this way earlier but stuff got in the way -- however I have arrived!!
Let's dig in:
In terms of pacing, it is always helpful to have a clear outline of every event that will happen - I write all of mine in a notes app, write down each key event and how the chapter will progress. I think that way I get a good idea of what sections should be longer, which are more important and need more detail, and which should be intentionally fast to amp up pressure. Ofc it depends on what you're writing! I've always written these sorts of angsty hurt/comfort fics, so I've just had a lot of practice with them. I can assure you that I'd struggle with a slow pace slice-of-life au in any fandom.
Writing intense scenes mostly comes with practice, I've had 10 long years of experience haha! But there are some things that I've learned to do for those scenes:
Positioning is important, set it up early. You want your readers to know exactly where your characters are so they aren't confused which will slow down how they read the scene. You want them following the speed of the scene you've set.
Shortening your sentences and descriptions will make your scene more intense because your reader feels like they are struggling to keep up with it. It also makes them predict a breaking point - a point in the sentence structure where it reaches a limit and either stops completely or slows back down. So they hang on to every word, waiting for that drop.
Metaphors and imagery are great for describing emotional or physical pain - but I try not to overdo it, especially in "Nobody's Soldier" when those scenes are pretty lengthy. I try to keep those scenes feeling intense and quick because the stakes are supposed to feel high for Gi-hun - and by extension, for the readers.
As for word choice, that really depends on your style and where you find your inspiration from! Like I said, I've primarily written hurt/comfort and whump fics, so my style developed to be very physical: I always think about the facial expressions of the characters, the way their body reacts to stimuli, where they are standing and how they stand, etc. That comes from working on how to describe reactions to pain, and they always tell you to show it instead of telling it: "he winced/he flinched" rather than "it hurt him".
A lot of my style just comes from the things I take inspiration from. Funnily enough, I don't read fics or books for fun because I read so much for university in my history/english program. So I find my inspiration in the historical sources and literature I read. I think a good example I can give is from a poem by Wilfred Owen, an English poet who fought in WWI, called Dulce et Decorum est, which uses very visceral language (ie. "His hanging face, like a devil��s sick of sin;/ If you could hear, at every jolt, the blood/ Come gargling from the froth-corrupted lungs..."). I'm sure you can some similarity between his descriptions and my own -- albeit, mine are far less sophisticated than his. But I still try to emulate how grotesquely he describes the human body, as well as the sharp rhythm of certain lines like "sick of sin." ANYWAYS thats enough university talk that i'm sure sounds boring haha. I also find inspiration in video games, in TV shows, in everything. The world around us is composed of sentences waiting to be written, you just have to look for them and put pen to paper :))
One last tip I can give is to just write what you enjoy! I know ao3 can be disheartening if your work doesn't get a lot of love, but honestly as long as you are having fun, it is well worth it. I have written for dead fandoms in the past - and in fact, I have more often written for dead fandoms than for popular ones. I'm somehow always late to the party, except this time ofc with Squid Game.
Anyways, I think that is all I have for now!! If you have any further questions, please ask away. I'm so flattered to have been asked about something like this, thank you to coming for me and reading what I write <3 <3
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reading the sixth extinction for a class and ive started nihilistically waxing poetic in my reflection assignments:
When someone is faced with the idea of everything suddenly dying much, much more quickly than normal, they’re more likely to ignore it than embrace it with open arms. This is a very human reaction, of course, but it did also hold Darwin back from perfecting his theory. It really makes me think about what kinds of fears modern scholars have and how we may be held back by ours. I’m reminded of the grim reality that Kolbert (2014) tells of conservation attempts in chapter I—in our fear of losing everything, are we prioritizing the wrong things? Is our fear preventing us from seeing something obvious in retrospect? Is the fact that I am so afraid of the idea of it being “too late” to save a species evidence that it already is?
(for context, im talking about how charles darwin believed sudden mass-extinction events were impossible and extinction always happened at a fixed, extremely slow rate. obviously this is contradicted by the fact that many species went extinct in his lifetime)
like ohhh brother get a load of this guy. i know the TA who grades them is sick of me
its depressing to think about the stuff the book is getting at and im really trying to look at that critically and why its making me feel that way and what i can actually DO with that emotion. its just at the same time ive been having a lot of complex thoughts about wildlife management and prioritization and long term conservation. things that i will need to really have solid ideas about when it comes to my career in the field! the idea that eventually we might have to just give up on certain species because attempting to save them is a sisyphean battle and might end up just giving the remaining individuals a poor quality of life or wasting resources we need elsewhere is! really hard to stomach! but ive been chewing on it.
anyway sorry ace being a college student and yapping about what hes learning and thinking about moment
#i want to take a wildlife conservation philosophy class but im not sure it exists#inb4 im talking grand scale and i think absolutely that we should be trying to conserve species right now as much as possible#but like in 20 years if shit is still going absolutely terrible and nothing has improved at all. there will probably have to be choices mad#and ill still be here in 20 years (god willing) so im thinking about it#ramblings#aceirl
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for you i’d wait (‘til kingdom come) [chapter seven]
summary: Quiet, gentle, and driven more by their emotions than their duties, the twin princes of Ayutthaya turned out to be nothing like what their people imagined. Now eighteen, they’re both expected to be engaged in a year’s time and married in two, despite their lack of marriage prospects. However, when Tinn falls in love with the singing voice of a servant boy he’s never actually met and Heart finds himself unexpectedly confronted by the boy’s twin, they both end up spellbound in more ways than one, and must choose between what they want and who they need to be. a/n: This fic takes place in a magical alternate universe set in 19th-century Thailand, where it’s instead known as Ayutthaya. For more information on the historical and magical lore of this world, check out this reference page. Fic title is from the song ‘Til Kingdom Come by Coldplay.
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“How are you feeling?” Li Ming asked while Heart took a generous gulp of water, temporarily releasing their horse’s reins. Heart nodded brightly, his excitement outpacing his exhaustion from how little he’d slept last night. “Are you hungry?”
“I had a small breakfast, just like you said,” Heart replied after he’d returned the flask. As Li Ming took a swig of his own, he added, “And my mother paid a visit right after.”
Li Ming nearly choked on his water. “Really?” he managed to say after coughing profusely and wiping his mouth with the back of his hand. “What, is she tripling your guard now?”
“Nothing like that,” Heart said with a beatific smile. “Actually, our conversation took a pleasant turn in the end. She said that while I must marry a daughter of the Chaophraya, nothing is keeping me from having another consort, even if they’re not of the Munnai.”
A smirk tugged at the corner of Li Ming’s mouth. Heart felt a sudden, almost feral urge to press his lips against it and taste the droplet of water pooling in Li Ming's dimple. “That’s very specific. Was that something you’d been considering?”
“Uh…” Heart blushed furiously, turning away, but Li Ming was quick to catch him by the chin and bring Heart’s gaze to meet his.
“Heart,” Li Ming whispered slowly before releasing him. He looked serious now, and Heart wasn’t sure what to make of it. “Is that something you’re considering?”
(read on ao3)
#my school president#my school president the series#moonlight chicken#moonlight chicken the series#tinngun#tinn x gun#guntinn#gun x tinn#heart liming#heart x li ming#limingheart#li ming x heart#myfic#myfic: til kingdom come#long post#li ming continues to have the most rizz of all the gemfot characters#other than maybe kongthap by accident lmao#anyway a LOT of stuff happens in this chapter#i've been waiting to get to this one for a while#so i hope y'all enjoy!
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so, like... do you think Sorata is actually pushing to swap the main couple in AnS to Obi and Shirayuki? I know that being in this corner of the fandom imparts some bias and that ships don't have to be canon to be good, but Shirayuki and Zen have seen each other, what, twice in the past 50 chapters? It doesn't really seem like she's terribly interested in maintaining their dynamic.
It has been forever since I had the chance to dig into my asks, so let the record show, this ask came to me pre-ch 136, and I'm glad I sat on it because I think I would have given a much more equivocal response in August, and now I'm like:
Sorata did not give us 28 pages of Obi feelings for me to doubt her now 🤣
#asks#obiyuki#ans#listen could it still be zen & shirayuki in the end? absolutely#sorata is a great visual storyteller and I feel like even if that's the case#i'll be happy with how she leads me there even if I wanted obiyuki in the end#but like...she literally had every reason to keep zen there and then sent him away anyway#after he literally engineered this meeting between them#zen & shirayuki haven't been getting development like this either. like most of their story happened in the first 20 chapters#and every step forward they have Shirayuki tends to put a stop on a few seconds in#they haven't done FEELINGS stuff in so long. and meanwhile we're getting this big arc#of obi learning he has worth. that he has something to give her that isn't acting as Zen's tool or her bodyguard#like. the REUNION. the calling each other home. the date with canon tomomi where shirayuki (and zen) freak out over#shirayuki stopping to tell him that he looks good in firelight and following it up with how he's the reason#that she had the courage to stay at lilias. THE WHOLE FAKE DATING ARC. and now this???#we're getting a much bigger story with them. and as we've seen with mistuhide/kiki/hisame#she is looking not for easy ships but the story to get them there#could this still just be her developing an important platonic relationship? sure. but there's been a LOT of focus#on Obi's feelings for that to be the case#so WE'LL SEE
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HEY HI GUESS WHAT
TFS CHAPTER 20!!!! CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? HALFWAY THROUGH IT THATS CRAZY. Tfs my beloved :3
See that cat? That cat is me RIGHT NOW
#shou my friend shou#i say that a lot#about a lot of characters#i have a lot of friends trust me#guess what day it is!!!#not Tuesday :(#urghh one day#one day itll be the right day#that day?#not today#i sprayed some stuff in my room earlier and its making me SO DIZZY rn i think i might have to leave#ANYWAYS THATS NOT IMPORTANT#WHATS IMPORTANT. IS THIS.#you have NO IDEA how excited i am for this chapter#NO. IDEA.#cause i think i know whats going to happen this chapter#i think#i have an idea#a notion#a hypothesis#a feeling#a vision#vision might be the wrong word#idk#WHATEVER#DOESNT MATTER#give me just a minute ill be RIGHT BACK
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Background teaser for the next chapter's artwork ;)
#The next chapter for The Veil is 74% finished#I really really reaaallly wanna get it out this week#lots of stuff happening in it!#like you guys think the wait is killing you? its killing ME#there's a particular scene near the end of the chapter that I've been dying to write#its going to be the start of a little#something#and I can't wait to sink my teeth into it as the story progresses#anyway I just wanted to chatter about the next chapter for a bit#this BG teaser seemed like a good opportunity for it >:D#pmatga#pacman and the ghostly adventures#The Veil#my art#pmatga fanfic#pmatga fanart#Netherworld
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To Shape A Dragon’s Breath
YA fantasy
a young Indigenous girl finds & bonds with a dragon hatchling - the first time in many generations for her people - and is required to go to the coloniser’s dragon academy in their mainland city, to learn how to raise her dragon and the science of its magic
historical inspired setting on the cusp of industrial revolution with steampunk vibes
bi polyamorous MC, Black lesbian SC, nonverbal autistic SC
#To Shape A Dragon’s Breath#aroaessidhe 2023 reads#this is really really good i loved it!#the chapter titles are all like snippets of a story. or like sentence fragments that match up. which is cool#it is definitely more about being indigenous in a coloniser institution than Dragon School - not Super dragon heavy if you want that#I suspect the subsequent books will get into that when she gets big enough to ride and stuff#t’s also def YA! i’ve seen a few ppl assume it’s adult and be like its very young :( but like. I mean its perfectly reasonable for a 15yo m#definitely a Lot of racism and colonialism which is not fun to read! though it's still through a YA lens. there was def a part of me that#was imagining consequences of the narrative as if it were an adult novel#on that line of thought - at the end a lot of it is kind of solved by them going to the king and he's is like. oh no racism is happening?#that's bad i'll deal with those people! which felt like. a little simplistic. but maybe the easiest way to end the narrative for book 1 -#I don't think the author ACTUALLY is going to portray the king as a Good Guy throughout the series - it just felt conveniently like -#a simple YA solution to some very big and complex elements? if that makes sense? (but again - it is YA so it's allowed I suppose!)#some of the worldbuilding (like all the science learning) is probably setup for next books - we don’t really see any practical application#the romances are also subtle and not Overbearing In Book One which i like - leave some space for the series!#also her getting fanmail from a 10yo mixed race girl who looks up to her 🥺#anyway. i really loved it!#oh also it reminded me a little of leviathan. i guess just the steampunk/time period/european culture....#To Shape A Dragon's Breath
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MY BOY HAS RETURNED!!
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God, I have so many thoughts about this. The fact that they were playing a word game so they'd know how the other was doing without explicitly expressing how they were doing is driving me insane.
#I know a lot of other stuff happened in this chapter#but I'm biased ofc#God I want to talk more about these handful of panels and what you can read out of them#but I don't have the time atm#feel free to ask if you're interested in hearing them!#but I might do it anyways later#Owari no Seraph#OnS 136#OnS 136 spoilers#Shinya Hiragi#Kureto Hiragi
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there are already roughly a million posts like this already circulating, but man. just. sometimes you really do have to step away from something you're working on and come back to it later.
creative buds, please. please. no one is worse at taking my advice than i am, believe me, but seriously, if you've been feeling down or frustrated or stumped with something you've been working on lately, take this as your sign to maybe take a little break. a week, a month, whatever. you've been looking at it too long, you've read it too many times, you've erased that same line so many times you've lost count - you need to come back to it with a rested brain and fresh eyes.
however rough it feels to you now, i promise, promise, promise that it'll feel so much better after a little distance. <3
#queenie rambles#writing woes#full disclosure this is 100% about me finally sitting down and forcing myself to reread my own stuff lmfao#there was a lot of Other Stuff happening during the time but the last like. 5-6 chaps of like wringing blood made me SO anxious to post#no matter how many times i edited/reworked them i felt like they were hot fucking garbage#and every time i posted a chapter i was just like. consumed. with anxiety for hours/days after lmfao#now i'm rereading and i'm like aw shit. why was i nervous about this????#anyway. yeah. let your brain rest. sometimes you need that.#and to anyone who's in the middle of the venn diagram of 'tag reader' and 'like wringing blood reader' hey#thanks for never questioning my rampant misuse of commas and italics and the word fuck!!!!! y'all are the real heroes <3 heheh#and as soon as i finish rereading this you guys better strap in because...i have like...two chapters almost ready to go lmfaooo#FULL SPEED AHEAD FUCKERS
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Peace of Mind
There was something incredibly soothing about the daily business of the Silver Bazaar.
The same familiar friendly faces, simple mundane tasks he could help with, no unforseeable occurrences disturbing the peace. A’viloh loved this place and it’s people from the bottom of his heart. They had taken him in the way he was, like he had always been one of them, and he knew they would always welcome him back with open arms. And this was exactly what the townsfolk and Kikipu had done when he had appeared not only without announcement but also visibly shaken at that.
A’viloh had pretty much fled Ishgard. Hadn’t even bothered to return to his room at the inn. There was nothing there that belonged to him. The few things he possessed and wasn’t carrying with him still were at the room in Fortemps Manor and he certainly wouldn’t return there ever again. As late as it was he had gone straight to the place where the Haillenartes had accommodated Cid and his team for the time he spent working at the Skysteel Manufactury.
“A’viloh?”, the man had asked with a yawn, visibly torn from his sleep, as he opened the door.
“You have to take me to Ul’dah.”, the Miqo’te had demanded without any word of greeting, much to Cid’s confusion. Of course he had tried to question him but A’viloh hadn’t let him and in the end he had agreed to have Biggs and Wedge fly him to his destination early the next morning.
The few hours it took for the sun to rise he had spent at the chocobo stables. Yugiri had taught him enough so he was able to sneak in there unseen and so he spent the night cuddled close to the soft warm plumage of the black chocobo Haurchefant had gifted him, silently crying about how lost and alone he suddenly felt. The bird had made a low, almost purring, sound and nuzzled his head with her beak until A’viloh wrapped his arms around her long neck and buried his face in her dark feathers.
The airship departed as the sun rose and after wondering for a bit wether or not he should, he decided to take Chloé with him. The chocobo was rightfully his, so the caretaker at the stable did not protest, and yet it somehow felt like theft to A’viloh. But the bird seemed quite attached to him and for the Miqo’te she was a welcome companion now that he traveled alone again. He had left his other chocobo at the stables in Ul’dah on the day of the banquet and there he still was right now, as Pipin had assured him. A’viloh hoped that the two of them would get along well and also that they might be useful to help with tasks at the Bazaar.
The flight had been uneventful and quite fast for the distance. It wasn’t even noon, when he thanked Biggs and Wedge, who planned to stock up on a few materials before flying back, and said his farewell to them. Then A’viloh got his second chocobo from the stables of the Immortal Flames and soon was out of the buzzling city and only a short distance away from the next best thing he still had to a home.
As he slowly rode towards the small settlement he felt such a strong feeling of familiarity that it made tears appear in the corners of his eyes again. He had not noticed how tensed up he had been until now all the pressure fell off of his shoulders at once.
At first all the people curiously eyed the two tall chocobos before they quickly realised who traveled with them. As a few of them stopped in their tracks to greet him, the news of his arrival spread like a wildfire among the townsfolk. No one had expected him and his sudden appearance was like a special happening for this quiet small village. It only took a few minutes until an excited voice hurried closer and made A’viloh instinctively turn his head.
“A’viloh? Oh, it’s so nice to see you!”, the lavender haired Lalafell exclaimed as she ran towards him. Blinking away tears A’viloh knelt down to greet the woman with a smile on his face and a tight embrace. “Kikipu, I’ve missed you so much.”
Happily she smiled at him before observing the two chocobo’s and looking around for a bit. “Are you on your own this time? Where is Rael?”
A’viloh’s expression visibly soured. Like a sulky small child he claimed, “I don’t know and I don’t care.”
For a few seconds the Lalafell quizzically stared at him. While it would have been just like her to scold him for such behaviour right away or at least pry the truth out of him, she must have decided to take a more careful approach to figure out what was wrong with him. Such a sudden visit, all things considered, and at that alone and despite his best efforts to hide it in a quite desolate shape, he should have expected for Kikipu to see through it all.
“You look horrible, my boy!”, she stated instead of insisting on the subject of Rael any longer and worriedly grabbed one of his hands with her tiny ones.
“I am fine.”, A’viloh tried to assure her but she simply made an incredulous face. “You look tired, A’vi!”
He shrugged. “I am…”
“Outright exhausted!”, she added. “Have you been eating properly. Come! I’m going to make you some food.”
“I am not hungry, but thank you.”, he claimed although he had barely eaten anything since days.
“No, no!”, Kikipu protested and pulled at his arm. “Come on! Tea and food for you! And then some rest! There’s still plenty of time for talking once you recovered!”
There was no arguing against her. There really never was. And so in a way everything was just like it always had been here at the Silver Bazaar. If there was any place where he would be able to find peace, A’viloh thought, it would be here.
Without too much protest he let the Lalafell woman coddle him for a bit until the accumulated tiredness of the last week overwhelmed him. As his eyes fell shut, after drinking tea with Kikipu in a comfortable sunny spot, a deep dreamless sleep finally embraced him.
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To A’viloh’s surprise the first few days at the Bazaar were incredibly busy. Everyone wanted to hear from the faraway city he had visited and the other curious places he had seen. A lot of the townsfolk also asked for his help with some work or transporting thing back and forth to and from the crossing or city. He had been grateful for the fact that he could help at all and also keep himself busy.
All this time he had tried not to think too much about everything unpleasant that had happened lately and especially not about the way he and Rael had parted ways. And for a while this had worked perfectly fine. But the more time he spent here and the more he settled back down into this peaceful daily life, just as a certain calmness slowly returned to him his thoughts began to wander. Back to the events of the last weeks and months. Back to the people he had simply left behind in Ishgard. Not only Rael, but also Tataru and Alphinaud to whom he hadn’t even given a single word of excuse or goodbye.
But especially his thought returned back to that night where he had stood only one step away from the abyss, his heart and mind overwhelmed by grief and pain and fear. He still felt all of that, still understood what had led him there to that ledge and yet thinking about how all of this could have ended, now that he was here among the people dear to him, deeply shocked him.
If Rael hadn’t been there… Maybe the Viera had been right with everything they had said. As painful as it was to admit this, but maybe he had lied to himself all along. Of course he had gotten a little bit stronger in the last year but apart from this he still was the same person. Although he had tried to become someone else, deep down he still was just terrified little A’viloh pretending to be alright. Pretending to be brave and pretending to want a new life for himself. Pretending to everybody and himself too.
While in reality he still hadn’t made his peace with everything that had happened before he had even washed ashore at the Silver Bazaar, he had gone to Ul’dah wanting to make up for all the pain he had caused. Wanting to finally return some of the goodness that had been given to him by Kikipu and the others. Wanting to help people, who needed help like he had needed it.
As he had tried so desperately to be something more than he had always been, to finally be useful, ignoring the protest inside him, he had not even noticed how he slowly accumulated even more weight on his shoulders. More pain and grieve. More guilt and self-hate. With every little failure and loss he had encountered along the way. Instead of healing he had pushed himself closer to the abyss step by step.
Maybe it was the best, for himself and for everyone, if he just admitted that he was not made for such a life. Maybe it was for the best if he just stayed here, taking some simple jobs here and there, not much more than was necessary to keep himself and the people here alive and happy. A quiet uneventful life.
And yet…
With each passing day, he found himself wondering more often. Not in the busy hours but instead in the silent moments. When he sat down at noon to have lunch in the shadow of a canvas awning, when he went to bed and could not sleep until late at night, when he opened the windows early in the morning and felt the salty wind rolling in from the sea pulling at his hair.
Then he wondered. About all the unfinished business. A whole city in turmoil. All the people he had left behind there.
Diligent, caring Tataru, who had always remained optimistic and cheerful despite everything.
Young Alphinaud, who himself was struggling and yet tried so hard to improve and make up for his mistakes.
Rael.
A’viloh was not sure anymore if he knew who Rael was or if he ever had known. But he knew Rael had always been at his side this whole time. Whenever he had felt bad Rael had been there for him and he also knew he owed the viera his life multiple times already. So did it really matter that Rael had kept this secret from him? He had known all along that something was bothering Rael. He had known that here were things they could not talk about. An he also knew that this hadn’t been easy for Rael either.
Again and again he wondered. What were all of them doing now? What were they thinking of him? And more often than every other question: Were they alright? Or maybe in danger?
Silently he kept asking himself this over and over again. One day, after he had picked up a delivery at the Quicksand, he even wondered if he should walk over to the Hall of Flames and see if anyone there knew about current happenings in Ishgard. As his chocobo kwehed impatiently, A’viloh had vehemently shaken his head and told himself that Kikipu was waiting for him and that everything in Ishgard would be perfectly fine now that he was no longer there to make everything worse.
And still the thoughts and worries returned day after day. Until one morning he stared out of the window with a vacant expression, entirely lost in thought. Kikipu stepped beside him, a mug in hand, and looked at him for a moment. “What‘s wrong?”, she finally asked.
Her voice startled him. Nervously he continued to put some things into a small backpack, readying himself for another trip to the city. ”Nothing. I was just distracted for a moment…”
“I see.”, with a stern expression the Lalafell put down the mug and placed her hands at her hips. “And will you finally tell me now what you are doing here?”
“What I am doing here?”, the Miqo’te repeated as if he didn’t understand the question. “I am supposed to take these things to Ul’dah of course and buy supplies instead.”
The small lavender-haired woman didn’t move one bit and just kept seriously staring at him. “Don’t play dumb with me, A’vi. I meant why you returned here and are staying so long, while your friends are still in Ishgard.”
“I told you I am not needed in Ishgard any longer. You almost sound like you want me gone…”, he answered, keeping his gaze fixed on his bag instead of risking to look the Lalafell in the eyes.
“A’viloh…”, Kikipu said with a sigh. “My dear, you know that you are always welcome here. But we also both know, that you haven’t been telling me the whole truth. So you better spit it out now!”
With furrowed brows A’viloh looked at the small woman, who in return stared at him with a serious unwavering determination on her face. Yes, there really was no arguing against Kikipu. Yet alone lying to her.
“Something horrible happened.”, he admitted finally before adding, “And I fought with Rael.”
To be honest he was not even sure if this were the right words to describe what had happened. Probably not. And yet it felt like it.
“Oh no… Why didn’t you tell me ealier?”, Kikipu asked with worry in her voice.
“I didn’t want to bother you…”, A’viloh explained and while this wasn’t a lie, in reality he had just not wanted to tell her the whole truth. He still didn’t want to. How where you supposed to tell anyone you loved that you almost threw yourself off a cliff anyway? Neither did it feel right to him to just retell the secret Rael had kept so carefully, even though by doing so they had lied to him.
The Lalafell sounded and looked a bit reproachful, when she addressed him again. “You are never bothering me. Please, sit down and tell me what happened.”
A’viloh shrugged uncomfortably and suddely pretended to be in ahurry. “Maybe later, I should really go now…“
But Kikipu wasn’t going to let him evade her this easily. „Uh-uh, the delivery can wait! Now, stop running away and tell me what’s wrong.“
Stop running away.
Somehow the way she said that reminded him of Rael. Running away… Was this really what he was doing?
With a sigh A‘viloh put down his bag again.
Maybe he could tell her at least a bit. Maybe it would help somehow…
#ffxiv#ff14#final fantasy xiv#final fantasy 14#ffxiv screenshots#ff14 screenshots#gpose#ffxiv gpose#ffxiv writing#Aviloh Tia#Kikipu Kipu#If I had tried to enumerate all the times A'vi tried to hide or run away from his problems this chapter would have been twice as long XD#Was this chapter really necessary? maybe not but I like writing about A'vi at the Silver Bazaar!#But maybe he also needed this little detour and distance to proberly think about stuff...#We are moving closer to main-HW ending... I dont know how many chapters this will still be...#I really want to get up to date with my game progess#I am so slow at playing but even sloooower at writing XD#I should probably just skip a lot of msq stuff again or just write small snippets#I can always go back later and flesh stuff out...#But there are still some things for Stormblood I havent made up my mind about yet...hmmmm...#well HW patches first anyway! Theres still a LOT of important stuff happening there...
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if we’re mutuals and you attacked me on artfight, i WILL draw something for you back but it’ll probably be sometime during august instead! just letting all of you know that i haven’t ignored or forgotten about u, i just… fell very behind and ran outta drawing spoons. but watch out, i’m gonna draw your oc when you least expect it… muahahaha
#feels bad but i also posted three tllr chapters this month which is a LOT#very proud of myself for that#and the excitement of introducing Max and all the support yall gave me got me super excited to keep writing#and the book of bill. that happened too#so i haven’t artfighted as much as i wanted to#but that’s okayyyy#i will draw fanart for everyone anyway#sooooon#wyrms says stuff
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happy one year anniversary to cbiuc
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#in the earlier chapters i did not mean for it to go where it went#but things happened and i needed to deal with them#and i wish i could say writing this worked entirely#but it didn’t#but i do love it and i’m glad it’s there for me#and for anyone who it reached in a meaningful way#it matters.#i am glad to be miserable in your company.#my writing#anyway would anyone be interested in behind the scenes stuff for the anniversary#and if so what would you want to see#there are a lot of deleted scenes or i could do commentary or something idk#cbiuc
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Kusakabe, dear, you're too beautiful to be saying that kind of stuff
#jjk spoilers#All the prettiest characters were brought back from apparent death#Nobara was okay and it's true that when I read the lawyer's and Kusakabe's fights against Sukuna I thought it was being kept vague#but to pull a Nobara with all of them... idk#No one stays dead here except for the people who actually care for the kids and by that I mean 'including Yuuji'#kinda lowkey bitter about it#Don't get me wrong I like the characters and also they're super pretty but idk It makes death feel cheap? And the high stakes kinda fake?#Choso Gojo and Nanami actual only characters who died apparently#Well. Poor Itadori#And Kusukabe goes and runs his mouth that way in front of the kid. He is not entirely wrong but also he very much is#And yes he also says 'don't worry it's not for you to feel guilty over anything you're just kids' but also he did very much say that thing#about it all being Gojo's fault for not killing Itadori. In front of Itadori who feels guilty for that precisely#and in front of Megumi who asked Gojo to spare him and also went through the experience of Sukuna using his body as well#So Kusukabe's reassurance about them just being kids and not to feel guilty falls a bit empty#It does feel in character but man it truly makes one appreciate the way Gojo and Nanami dealt with the kids a lot more haha#Ui Ui seems like a dear#Anyway... this chapter felt a bit lame for the most part for me? I like the idea of the characters discussing the could have/would have#and feeling guilt and helplessness over their choices but the way it was done felt a bit lame and without any real emotional punch#It felt more like an explanation to the reader in an awkward way. And there's a lot of empty chat about guilt and grief#without any of the characters really giving off a grieving air about everything and everyone they've lost#And this is precisely what I felt was going to happen with this manga's writing haha#I truly don't understand this kind of writing choices. Contrary to some other shonen writers this author did seem to have the potential#to write this kind of thing well besides the worldbuilding and powers and fight stuff. It's truly a pity. It so breaks my heart#And still this is considered one of the good shonens. Well. WELL haha#I do think shonen can be good! I just think it falls almost always even when there's potential into bery shallow writing#I don't know. Maybe I should read that one Alchemist manga#I've been repeatedly told that one's good and it does seem like it doesn't do... this. But I find the art style so not to my linking#I wish I had never gotten into JJK for real for real. I absolutely adore it. I always end up frustrated. It could be so good. Genuinely good#And yet it's just okay in a sort of forgettable way. What a pity#Everything good ever is present but it never dares do anything to fully explore what it sets. It just does the typical shonen stuff
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I’ve been thoroughly roped into the portal fandom now
All I know right now is the song “Mr. Blue Sky” by Electric Light Orchestra is fucking magical what the hell-
Why it doin that, more importantly how??
#istg it tells me exactly what’s happening at any given moment#I can’t do this guys#blue sky is gonna ruin me#earlier today I asked myself so when does he become human?#and now I’m over here sitting like what the hell did I just read#I’m literally only on chapter 4#and not a lot of things can chill me to the bone istg but#the stuff I read today was so freaking good and bone chilling like what the hell#just take a sec to imagine you’re fleeing from imminent doom#end up dying#and then are revived into a different body and have to hold your dead corpse???#like pause. that was a level of like mental anguish a character can show that I was NOT prepared for#anyways it’s good real good fic guys#I’m not going insane definitely totally#ari rambles#portal 2#blue sky portal
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with the whole thing of Akito and Kohane reaching RADer levels of singing, do you think there’d be a possibility for an akihoha event?
#like one focusing on how they feel towards each other (platonically obviously)#Especially touching on the main story too?#Cause like it bothered me that we never really got much closure on what happened with them#And since chapter two of vbs stories focused a lot on kohane and she got RADer levels of singing#I have a slight feeling this year will be Akito focused in terms of vbs events?#but yeah anyways I also want an antoya event of at least how they feel about all this stuff#Cant wait till January for (I think) the next vbs event#hopefully it’s Toya focused too cause last one we got was Walk On and On I think#project sekai#akito shinonome#kohane azusawa#akikoha#shinonome akito#azusawa kohane#akihane#not gonna tag antoya cause I mentioned it once#vivid bad squad
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