#anyway Pat and Millie are so cute together

[rain-shoshana]

Every day I think about these lesbians from Agatha Christie’s Poirot season 1 episode 5 The Third Floor Flat. I hope they lived happily ever after.

Also the way Poirot and Hastings look at each other on the landing?!?!? It doesn’t get better than that.

[takabinaryy]

Pumpkin Patch

( this was originally written during October in 2022) Caregiver- Stolas Little-Blitzo 3-5 Agere age. Blitzo calls stolas "birdie" because I said so.

During October in hell of course it was a cold and a very windy day. Full of demons planning and scheming for plans for everyone's favorite Time of year. No it wasn't Christmas. It's Halloween of course! A certain owl prince , had plans for his little love. Pumpkin picking, making fall treats , watching movies and such. However Stolas's little love work up small today, that definitely didn't change thier plans for today. So after breakfast the little imp was scooped up into his birdie's arms , and back into their shared room.

" Birdie nu we gotta go outside! The leafs need messin wit!"

" Yes yes I know you want to jump in the leaf piles. However it's cold out and I would definitely hate it if you got sick."

" Hmm kitty ears hat? "

"Yes you can wear your cat beanie , now let's get you dressed in warmer clothes , Little one"

And just like that Blitzo pouts but that turns into a smile when he's handed his beloved horse stuffie"Milkshake". Stolas hums a little tune as he goes through the little clothes he had gotten the imp , over the years of supporting his husband's coping mechanism. The owl demon finds some cute warm clothes and brings it to the toddler on the bed showing Blitzo the clothes. Of course the regressed male doesn't really care about the other clothes, he does however make grabby hands at the cat beanie. Which makes Stolas laugh in amusement and gets his little love dressed in a adorable black knitted sweater with tiny white ghosts all over it, paired with grey overalls. And the cute black cat eared Beanie that the baby made grabby hands at a moment ago.

It even has custom made extra yarn bits to cover the imp's horns so they don't get cold.(blitzo's horns are sensitive to the cold) And lastly Stolas puts on the warm fuzzy pumpkin socks and little dock martins on the baby's feet. Honestly blitzo was very adorable dressed like that especially when the little one was so happy about the the beanie and the leaf piles. Blitzo jumps off the bed to go look into the full length mirror to see the beanie. A smile spreads on his face loving the outfit mostly the beanie.(it was a gift from his sister , that's why it's so well loved)

Now that they are outside the regressed one of the two immediately runs off and jumps in all seven piles of leaves in the front yard. Once all piles are no longer in well piles anymore, Stolas dusts off the leaves and twigs off his little one before picking him up and, settling the toddler on his hip and begins their walk through the park and to Blitzo's work place to meet up with Millie and Moxxie. Now hours later the group is now at Millie's family farm that just so happens to have a pumpkin patch. And where are loona and Octavia you ask? Well the two are actually costume shopping doing their own thing together, you know sisterly bonding moments , at least that's what Stolas likes to call it. Blitzo himself was getting excited seeing all the pumpkins everywhere he wanted to definitely get out his Birdie's hold and run to all, the pumpkins however before the group got there. He did promise stolas he would behave and be good while they were here. Something about respect? Eh who knows.

" Now blitzy sweetheart if I put you down will you not run off without me? Hmm?"

Stolas asks being a little curious about his little dove's answer. Since said imp is known for needing a backpack leash sometimes. Heck even when not regressed to. Anyway said little nods his head yes before answering verbally instead.

" I promises birdie! "

" alright little one , birdie will put you down now. Sweetheart "

True to his word , stolas puts his Little one down with a gentle pat to the other's head. The owl smiles with amusement as the imp takes his caregiver's hand and happily leads the other to the pumpkins. Having excitement written all over his face and even waves at Millie's parents , seeing them helping a few kids pick out their pumpkins. After a while Stolas's little imp had picked 5 pumpkins, four regular ones, and a small white one. Millie actually laughed when she saw her regressed boss try and carry all five pumpkins by himself. When two of them fell from his hold, stolas stepped in to help and just put the two that fell in a wagon with the two other pumpkins that Moxxie and Millie had actually picked out. Once they gotten back to the castle (all three imps and wolf were staying there for the upcoming holidays)

Stolas had put his little one down for a nap in his room. And then helping the other two imps clean off the pumpkins of all the dirt and such. Octavia and Loona come back exactly two hours later with a few bags in their hands. Two of them set the bags down next to the now cleaned up pumpkins on the table. Via looks over at the two imps and can't help but laugh at the two , Moxxie is trying but failing at trying to stick on those rubber bats on the wall, they keep falling off each time he puts more tape on it.

" Mox Honey just hand the darn thing to me instead, I'll just tac it to the wall instead."

" The stupid things just don't like me, that's all. "

" Thier rubber decorations sugar"

Moxxie huffs then hands of the box over the Halloween decorations to his wife. Millie just kisses his cheek and helps him out on readjusting the bats on the walls with tacks instead of the tape. Loona of course rolls her eyes at the mushy lovey dovey couple, then walks over the Kitchen to get the knifes for carving the pumpkins.

[emeralddaydream]

𝙺𝚢𝚕𝚎 𝚂𝚙𝚎𝚗𝚌𝚎𝚛 𝙳𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚂𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚆𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝙿𝚎𝚝𝚜

Kyle x GN!Reader

requested by a lovely anon💜✨

A/N: Just gonna go ahead and make this Pre-Death Ky, since we saw what happened with Fiona's dog... Poor boy is a sweetie pie, he just doesn't know his own strength :/

Warnings: mentions of animals eating prey

I can high key see Kyle being an animal lover. Doesn't matter what species, he wants to pet them all.

They are all babies

(Okay, but one thing about Post-Death Ky, if you had fish, he'd probably try to pet them, too lksdflaksjflas, gotta keep an eye on him)

(Anyway, back to Pre-Death)

I feel like if you have snakes or anything that eats other animals, he'd be interested in watching them feed the first time, but would get really freaked out and leave feeding them to you from now on.

He'd absolutely love to take you to the pet store or animal shelter for dates to get supplies or for a new lil friend.💜

When the two of you move in together, getting a new pet is one of the first things on his list

Ky ls definitely an 'adopt don't shop' kinda dude.

He'd would also absolutely remember and celebrate each pets birthdays/ gotcha days.

And I also kinda see Pre-Death Ky as a cat person, so maybe y'all end up with a cute lil old lady cat.

Ky gives him a lil old lady name like Edna or something.

He and Edna are besties, practically attached at the hip.

Seriously, she follows him everywhere.

She always falls asleep on him.

One day you come home from classes to find the two of them curled up on the couch together, Edna's head tucked Kyle's neck, both of them snoring softly.

You take lots of pictures, which you end up printing out and putting on the fridge🥺

If you have birds, Ky loves standing in the middle of the living room, arms spread out like a tree for the birds to land on, making the both of you laugh.

Loves giving your babies treats, to the point you have to tell him to slow it down.

"You're spoiling them too much, Ky. They're gonna expect this all the time."

"They should," he coos, patting one of the dogs on the head as he feeds him a treat shaped like a little steak. "They deserve all if it."

Basically Ky is just a big softie, and I think that would definitely shine through in this aspect of his life.🥺💜

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[dumbgirlswrite]

Lucky (Benny Rodriguez x Reader) pt. 1

wc - 1192

an - pt 1 to the extended lucky series :)

in the summer of 1961, you and your friends had decided to put together a baseball team, seeing as you already played the game for school. the others were decent, but everyone on the team agreed that you were the queen of the diamond. you ruled at not only batting, but fielding as well. not to mention you were star pitcher of the entire school.

while out scouting for a place to practice at, you discovered the sandlot. it was an empty diamond and it was perfect. the next day you brought the girls to practice, only to discover a group of boys already there.

standing in the outfield, you observed the game, seeing some familiar faces. one of which was benny rodriguez. he was a good friend of yours and was by far the oldest out of all of the kids in the sandlot.

"so much for this idea." you grumbled, rolling your eyes.

"hey!" a small kid with glasses yelled to your group. "what're you looking at?"

"we're looking at a real cool place to play ball, but there's other people on it." you say back.

"yeah, yeah, well, bad luck girlies." another kid said.

"we own this place." a taller kid with glasses spoke.

by this time, the game had stopped and it was one team facing the other.

"that's cute." milly, one of your teammates, said sarcastically from behind you.

"why don't we just play against each other?" benny finally spoke up. "i mean, we could use the practice."

"benny, man, you don't need no practice. you're the best at baseball. plus, what sort of competition is a bunch of girls anyway!" their catcher laughed.

"more than you think, buddy." you said, poking the catcher in the chest.

"oh yeah?! a bunch of girls against us?! no way are you going to win!" he said.

"what's your name?" you asked.

"ham." he answered, quite confused.

"well, ham. you're just jealous because you could never be as good as a bunch of girls. all you are is a loser, and we will further prove that point to you when we beat your ass." you said softly, trying to intimidate the boy.

"oh, it's game on." he said through gritted teeth.

"anyone got a coin?" benny asked.

"yep!" brigette, your second basemen said, passing the coin to benny.

"heads or tails?" he asked.

"tails never fails." you said with a wink.

he flipped the coin in the air and caught it in his hand, slapping it back down onto the back of his other hand. he slowly removed his hand and revealed the tail side of the coin.

"we'll start on field." you said, already walking off.

"benny, are we seriously going up against these girls?" ham asked benny as they walked over to the dugout.

"trust me when i say, y/n wasn't lying when she said that they're more competition than you think. they're good, real good. y/ns got a better pitch than kenny's heater." benny responded.

"no way!" kenny exclaimed.

"yes way. i've seen it." he confirmed.

"ok, but they're girls!" squints argues.

"so what? you keep saying that but you've never seen them play." benny fires back.

"come on! less arguing more batting, boys!" your teams catcher, liz, called to the boys.

ham grabbed the bat and the other girls on your team started 'oooh'ing

"are you gonna give him 'the hurricane', y/n?" abbiegaile asked from third base.

"nah. first batter, i'll go easy on him." you chuckled.

"easy!" he said astounded. "do I look like i need to have an easy pitch?"

you looked at the girls behind you who were struggling to keep it together. "no offense, catcher, but yeah." milly laughed.

"i don't like your attitude, shortstop." he called out to her.

"and i don't like you. come on, let's play ball."

ham mumbled something under his breath and liz punched her glove, preparing for the ball. "play ball!" she called as she squatted down.

you took a breath and wound up, bringing your leg in close to your body and then taking a large step outwards, throwing the ball over the plate. ham swung a millisecond after the ball had passed, missing it completely.

"strike one!" liz said, putting one finger up. "y'know, you could just give up now." she said to ham, who just ignored her.

you threw another pitch and got another strike on ham. "i feel like you're cheating." he said.

"i don't need to cheat to win, ham." you spoke with a grin. you threw one more pitch and ham swung. he missed and then threw the bat down out of frustration.

"batter out!" liz laughed.

"shut up! i know!" ham yelled as he stomped off to the dugout.

benny patted ham on the back with a sympathetic smile. "you can't say i didn't tell you, though."

tommy went up to bat next, but got struck out too. benny was their teams only saving grace, but at this point they all had their doubts. benny grabbed the bat from a sulking tommy and set himself up at home plate.

with the bat over his shoulder, he looked up from his feet and at you. you grinned at him and wound up for a pitch, throwing it faster and harder than any of your previous pitches.

benny didn't even swing at the ball and he let it go into liz's glove. "strike one!" she announced.

benny took a deep breath and readied himself for the fastball you would pitch. you pitched it the same as before and benny hit it, only for it to sail straight into your glove.

"sorry, benny boy, looks like your out." you shrugged with a smirk.

the boys were shocked to say the least. they hadn't expected a team of girls to get out their star player before he could even start running. the other girls were celebrating their victory while you went over to the boys.

"so, does this mean we have to give up the sandlot or something?" ham questioned.

"nah, just let us play against you every once in a while. i mean, if it were up to me, i would want to come here every day, but the other girls are always doing different things." you shrugged.

"why don't you join our team?" benny blurted out, causing everyone to stare at him. "we need an extra player anyway."

all eyes had switched over to you, awaiting your answer. "wait, are you serious!" you answered excitedly. benny nodded.

"yes, of course! i don't mind just playing outfield or whatever positions you haven't got filled because i know you already have a pitcher and i don't want to mess you guys up and-"

"you're gonna be our pitcher because you're the best pitcher i've ever seen." benny cut you off. "plus, i wouldn't mind seeing your face every time i go up to bat." He ended with a smirk.

you rolled your eyes, but smiled nonetheless. "well, i guess it's settled then. what time do you guys normally get here?"

"around 8." benny answered.

"awesome. i'll be here." you grinned.

[pogueshomecoming]

I brought soup - Kiara Carrera

requested? yes: “hello! maybe a request with kie where you’re together and then you get hurt or something and she gets all worried but takes care of you” AND “hi something with kie where she takes care of a hurt or sick reader”

description: you try to hide at John B’s while you’re sick but Kie finds you and insists on taking care of you.

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warnings: mentions of sickness but not really? fluff.

word count: 1044

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When you tested positive for strep and the flu, you hid out at the chateau. You didn't want your clingy parents fussing over you, and John B agreed that you could hole up in the spare bedroom until you weren't contagious anymore.

However, you also have an overprotective girlfriend, and despite John B's efforts, you were only able to hide from Kie for two days.

John B hasn't ever been scared of Kie until she showed up at his house. Steam was practically coming from her ears. "Are you kidding me, JB? You let her hide here without telling me? She needs someone to take care of her, not leave her in a room to puke her guts out alone!"

You could hear her yelling outside, even being in the spare room with the door shut.

"Hey, I've been keeping her company through the door. Giving her food and snacks and all the good things. Y/N is taken care of."

He wasn't lying. You two had played Go Fish under the door just last night.

"I don't consider you, my best friend anymore." Kie huffs, and you hear her enter the house. You know she's teasing him, but you're fully prepared for her to go off on you too.

"Shot me right in the heart!" John B calls after her.

You're bracing yourself for impact when you hear the doorknob start to turn, but as soon as Kie sees you, her facial expression softens.

"Oh, angel. I can tell you don't feel good. I brought soup and heating pads, and ice packs are freezing in the kitchen." Kie swings her bag off of her shoulder and starts to unpack everything she brought. She shows you everything: containers of your favorite soup made special by her mom at the Wreck, crackers, water, sprite, a thermometer, and so much more.

"Have you showered since you've been here? Why don't you do that while I clean up in here? I'll change the sheets and everything so you'll feel cleaner." She pats your leg, signaling it's time to get up. You feel weak, and you're probably dehydrated, but you do what she says anyway.

The water runs over you until you're pruning, but you were avoiding the effort of getting dressed. When you step out of the shower, you find your favorite one of Kie's oversized sweatshirts waiting for you.

Back in the spare bedroom, she's laid out your medicine as well as a plate of food. "I'm too exhausted to eat."

You groan, collapsing onto the bed. She crosses her arms and watches you crawl back to the hole you made in the mattress from not moving for two days.

"Babe, you have to eat. I can already tell you're dehydrated. You can't wither away to nothing on me." Kie sits on the edge of the bed.

"If I drink a bottle of water, can I take a nap? I'll eat later, I promise."

Kiara weighs her options. You're stubborn as a bull, so she's going to pick her battles and be happy that you offered to do that much. Plus, you happen to look very cute laying there with a pitiful look on your face.

"Fine, but you're eating when you wake up. No exceptions, got it?"

You smile, nodding. "One more thing?"

"What is it?"

"Will you let me lay in your lap? I know you don't want to get sick, but I miss you."

Kie's heart melts on the spot. She's suddenly not worried about getting sick anymore.

"Of course." She moves to the top of the bed, getting comfortable in between the pillows so you can use one of her thighs as a headrest. Kie slowly runs her fingers through your hair, occasionally scraping your scalp lightly with her nails, and it puts you to sleep faster than she can tell you she loves you.

Kie braids your hair while you're asleep. Multiple times actually, trying new things each time. When she finally finds her favorite one, she lifts your head a little bit to tie it off at the end and accidentally wakes you up.

"Sorry, my love, but it was good timing. If you don't stay awake for a little while, you're not going to sleep all night. Besides, it's time for you to eat something. I'll go heat up the soup, okay?" Kie leans down to kiss your forehead, feeling for temperature at the same time.

"Okay. Thank you." You snuggle into the pillow after she's gotten up.

After Kie heats up the soup, she leaves it simmering on the stove and pops her head into John B's room. She's surprised to find JJ also. "There's soup in the kitchen if you want any. If not, turn the stove off soon cause it'll burn."

"How's Y/N?" JJ sits up from where he was sprawled across the end of the bed.

"I don't know. I haven't seen any improvement, I don't think her fever has broken yet. I'm working on it, though." She turns so they can see the ice packs she stuck in her back pocket.

"Here you go. And ice packs." Kie hands you your bowl of soup with a kiss to your cheek.

You joke about Kie offering to spoon feed you, and then she feels like she should, just to keep you laughing. Kie loves seeing your smile. Despite feeling like shit, you're so happy Kie is here to take care of you and make you feel better.

After both bowls of soup are empty, and you've settled back into her lap, you look up at her with a soft smile.

"Thank you. I love you for taking care of me."

Kie reaches for a water bottle and takes a big drink. Your eyes widen when you realize it's yours.

"Wait, have you been drinking out of that one? That one's mine!" You sit up immediately, looking to the nightstand.

Sure enough, there is another one that looks just like yours.

"Oh my god. Why didn't we mark them?" Kie groans.

"I did! Mine has a black dot here." You take the bottle from her hands and show her the marker.

And poor John B, he spent the next four days looking after the both of you.

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[alloveroliver]

Sirius x Jonah “ The Love Accords”

Smut n Fluff: Sirius Oswald; Jonah Clemence

M/M WC: 2,095

Ikemen Revolution Fanfic

• ·  .  ·  ´  `  · . ·•· . · ´ ` · . ·•· . · ´ ` · . ·•· . ·  ´  `  ·  .  · • Jonah admired many things about the opposing Queen. His hidden dedications, how well he decelerated tense situations, and the way he treated Luka with care as if he were his own brother. These qualities always stuck out to the Red Queen but only when he found Sirius alone at the tavern one night, did he ever mention it. Sirius offered to meet him in the tavern every so often to chat. Luka would always come up as well as inquiries of their personal life. Over time they learned enough of one another to bring custom gifts. Jonah felt himself blush handing Sirius a packet of hybrid rose seeds, breed to grow a deep shade of purple. Sirius learned how to make Millie frillie the right way from Luka. He added extra strawberries and boxed up the cake to gift the younger man. Both danced around flirtatious touched and joking comments about people thinking they were dating. But, Sirius soon realized that he didn’t actually care if anyone mistook them as a couple, in fact, he got excited when they did. The only evening that seemed to change everything was the night the Black Queen drank slightly too much liquor for his body to handle. Jonah helped the taller man to a room at the tavern with the barkeep's extra leverage. Worry overtook the Red Queen, bringing extra water and some bready snacks to put by his bedside. Ultimately, Jonah decided to stay with him until he knew he would be okay. That morning Sirius woke up to Jonah sleeping in the most uncomfortable position on the couch. After knocking back some water he staggered over to the younger man, helping him to his feet. In a groggy haze, Jonah was walked over to the bed, plopping down onto the warm covers. Sirius slid in next to him, and the pair of them slept the rest of the night comfortably. That was when it all changed, however, neither of them brought it up for a while after that. Jonah became easily bashful of things Sirius would tease him about, and Sirius would stand up for Jonah any time someone tried to tease him. Gentle touches were shared and soon when Sirius met up with Jonah at the light festival. Under the bridge of shimmering colors and multitudes of small bulbs lighting the pathway, the older man took ahold of Jonah’s cheeks, eagerly kissing him. The light kiss seemed to ask a silent question to Jonah, asking if the young queen shared his feelings. Jonah let the kiss linger without pressing back, not until Sirius pulled away ready to apologize for the suddenness of it all, did Jonah grab his collar and pull the taller man into a deeper more passionate kiss. From then on, their meetups were called dates, and their hands always found one another in private. Neither of the men were ones for public displays of affection, so the concern of the two opposing army queens being seen in a compromising position was low. Tonight, Sirius was nervous as he waited patiently at the bar tavern for his lover. He ordered a large pot of tea and an appetizer to tide him over. Sirius had gotten there a bit too early, ordering a room at the tavern to leave his overnight bag in while they ate their meal. Jonah was surely late due to the number of items he probably tired of stuffing into a singular bag. A smile touched Sirius’ lips at the thought of the younger man dragging around the hefty load of clothes just for a single night out. He was able to get through one cup of tea before he spotted the man's mint hair through the growing dinner crowd. Low and behold, he was dragging a rather large rucksack that looked dreadfully heavy. Sirius leaped up from his chair to greet him, make fun of him, or help him, he was waiting to decide. Jonah saw him and dropped the luggage. “Sirius,” His golden eyes lit up, drinking in the sight of him. Sirius sent him a sexy smirk. The urge to hug was too much, but they both refrained, standing inches from each other. The chatter in the restaurant became muffled in the Black Queen’s ear despite the establishment being packed. “I know you’re strong, so that must be one hell of a deadweight bag for you to be looking so exhausted right now.” Sirius’ hand itched to move up to cup his cheek, so he clenched it.  Instead, Jonah huffed, gesturing at the baggage. “It's not just clothing… It’s other products, and I don’t know what we had planned for tomorrow, so I packed a few different outfit choices.” Cutting his eyes to the side, he spotted the tavern owner. “Did you get the room already?” Sirius smiled wide, his heart filling as his boyfriend's cuteness overwhelmed him. “Ah, yeah.” He ran his hand through his hair then over his face to try to hide his smile. “C’mon, I will show you the way so we can eat dinner without having to worry about anyone tripping over your things.” “Thank you.” Jonah was blushing causing Sirius to squint. “Why are you flustered? I don’t think I’ve done anything worth being bashful over, yet.” Jonah huffed as if the other Queen should already know why he was so sheepish. Fixing a piece of his hair back into place he cut his eyes to the side. “You mentioned us staying together is all. Anyway,” He perked up, walking a few steps to leave his bag behind. “Why don't you carry my bag and show me the way.” 

Sirius shook his head, grabbing that straps of the massive monstrosity of a bag and lead the way to their room. Up the wooden stairs and to the right were all the smaller rooms. This time Sirius veered left towards the more expensive custom rooms that were large enough to be an entire apartment home. Seeing this change in direction Jonah grinned. “Spoiling me, I see.” Sirius’ laugh was husky. With the drop off of the baggage inside the freshly cleaned bedroom and the slam of the door, Jonah wrapped his arms around Sirius’ neck. “Woah, ah ha-” Sirius’ surprised laugh was then muffled by Jonah's firm lips. Unable to stop the kiss, both lovers held one another tight. Sirius finally wrapped his arm around Jonah's waist and pulled his body firmly against his heaving chest. Jonah’s hands wrapped tighter around Sirius’ neck. “Isn’t it obvious that I want you? Do I need to spell it out?” Jonah pouted, pressing his forehead to Sirius’ lips. Sirius grinned, pecking a kiss to his lover's skin before leaning down to his ear. His nose nuzzled the man’s mint hair, gently brushing the sensitive part of his neck. Jonah shuttered, yet lay farther into the older man’s arms. “We will miss our dinner reservations.” Sirius’ voice dripped seduction, scraping his teeth under Jonah’s ear. “I-” Jonah let out a groan when Sirius bit his earlobe. “I don’t care. When I first saw you in the dining area, I wanted to run at you and kiss you silly. Now that we’re alone, I can.” He back away, looking the older man in the eyes. Sirius’ sparking heliotrope eyes darkened as they narrowed to Jonah's first button. With a glance back up, Sirius pressed his lips firmly against the Red Queens in a desperate fashion. His hands came up, popping each button of his shirt before pushing the clean-pressed fabric off his toned shoulders. “Unbutton me, if you would,” Sirius asked in a husky tone. Jonah went to work on his buttons while Sirius shrugged off his jacket and loosened his tie. Sirius tossed off the accessory, letting it fall next to his jacket. With each button Jonah undid he pressed a firm kiss to his chest, a sigh left Sirius’ lips while his chest heaved at the contact. “You’re lips are so soft.” The older man commented while running his fingers thought Jonah's hair. His locks tousled, but Jonah paid no mind until he reached Sirius’ belly button. Lingering for a long moment, he decidedly began unbuckling Sirius’ belt. “Ah-” The Queen of spade sighed. “You’re so eager for me, Hm?” He meant it to sound like a question, but it came out like a longing plea. Jonah let the belt fall to the floor, then popped open the button of Sirius’ trousers, unzipping them abruptly. Jonah stood, eyeing his topless lover, drinking in his sold chest encase with soft, smooth skin. “Or are you just teasing me?” Sirius added, a mischievous grin on his face. Jonah sauntered over to the bed and took a seat. He patted the space next to him on the mattress and smiled wide. “Not a tease, just wanted a place more comfortable to ravage you.” Sirius squared his shoulders, moving over to Jonah. His muscles rippled when he walked, bicep flexing as he ran his fingers through his dark hair. The unbuttoned pants hung low on his hips revealing a distinct line that drew Jonah’s eye.  Biting his lips absently, Jonah’s hands came out to Sirius’ pants before he could sit. The fabric hit the floor, and Jonah let out a long sigh as Sirius stood bare-skinned in front of him. “Stand up.” At Sirius command, Jonah hopped up to his feet at once. Sirius sat down in his place adjusting his feet apart. He pointed to the floor and looked up at Jonah. “You were so eager to please before, why don’t you start now?” Despite the taunting grin on Sirius’ face, Jonah moved between his legs. Press the palms of his hands over the thighs of his lover, he knelt completely. Grabbing the base of his member, Jonah stroked a few times slowly before pressing a kiss to the tip. Jonah's lips encased the head of Sirius’ cock, taking him in slowly. The older man groaned as he started to lean back. He caught himself on his elbow and brought the other hand to Jonah's head. His digits tangled in the Queen of hearts hair. “God Jonah,” Sirius hissed when the man grazed his teeth over the shaft. His hand pushed harder on the back of Jonah’s head, making the younger man take his cock all the way to the back of his throat. Jonah took him all, then pulled back out. He then looked up at Sirius, brows knitted. “Is there something wrong?” Sirius was concerned, moving his hand to cup the younger cheek. “No, I just…” He trailed off. “I just want to make love to you, but I also want you to be, um…” He was quiet again, alerting Sirius to sit up straight. “I want to make love to you too.” He reassured the golden-eyed man. “What else were you saying?” His plumb eyes search his partners face. “You can be rough with me,” Jonah spoke in hushed tones. Sirius’ lips formed into a wordless O. He leaned down, cupping both of Jonah’s cheeks with a gentle gaze. “Anything you want, you can have it.” As he spoke, Sirius began to stroke Jonah's disheveled hair. He would meet his lover's request, asking along the way if he was okay. Taking the time to kiss him passionately letting him know how much he was loved. With Jonah writhing beneath him face down, Sirius would tug his hair as he sheathed himself into the Red Queen continuously. Both men were spent at the end of it all. Sirius was finally able to hold his lover in his arms as he wished to do the entire long week. The dinner crowd came and went as the men indulged in the others pleasure. As they lay naked by one another's side on the massive bed, Jonah snuggled into the opposing Queen’s neck. Sirius’ large hand ran through his messy mint locks, sweaty and tousled after their passionate display. The Black Queen panted still, catching his breath while they snuggled. “What about a nice hot shower?” Sirius’ voice, gruffer than earlier, sounded in Jonah’s ear. “Mm, Yes. That sounds nice. But, I think I may need more time to recoup.” “Nonsense. I will help you. I’ll even wash you if you're too weak. I don’t mind, and I’d love to take care of you…” Sirius yawned. “What about dinner?” Jonah whispered sheepishly, realizing they missed their reservation time. “It’s a tavern, and they are open until 2 AM. We have plenty of time to wash up and get changed.”

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Thank you for the request @bangtanfangirlxx !!!

[I actually love this ship oh lorddddd]

I hope you don’t mind that I changed the prompt slightly. For prompts that are more complicated, I would wish to be compensated. All these fics take a lot of work, many hours of writing and editing, and I’m doing it all for free. I hope you understand! <3

ML // KOFI // AO3

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[averymessyxmas]

Chapter 7

adding songs to each character based on the plot or present song) (I have not proof read SORRY FOR TYPOS)

MJ: “Last Time” -Trey Songz:

After 5 cups of Exclusive Liquor Gia and I was making out on the couch, I was trying to get her bra off, while she was trying to get my belt off. I wasn’t thinking about Danielle, my kids nothing, the liquor and emotions was taking over. My iPhone kept going off. Gia got up and sighed, she passed me my phone. “You still married” She said with an attitude. I palmed my face sitting up on the couch. She passed me my keys. “I’m not doing this with you Malcom, I told you I’m not your #2, stop hitting me up and seeing me when I’m second on your mind or your wife and you have issues” Gia said. I shook my head. “It ain’t like that G” I said. She laughed. “Then what is it then, you always do this, and I fall for that stupid shit, I been with you since I was 16, I had your back when you was selling that shit, I bet your perfect wife knows nothing about your past, I was there, I helped your grandma bail you out and you sidelined me fuck you!” She yelled at me. I shook my head and picked up a picture frame she had of us together. “Why you still waiting for then G?” I asked her. She shrugged her shoulders. “I’m not anymore, I got somebody that I been putting to side because I’m scared another Nigga will come up in my life in make me a side chick when I was the main bitch, I deserved the ring, but all I got was Dick and trust issues”. She walked over to the linen closet. She threw a blanket at me. “You can crash on my couch tonight, but you got to be gone by morning” She simply said to me. “Gia, you act like you wasn’t out here having me look over my shoulders, you fucked my homeboy, you also had a whole nigga while I was jail, man fuck out here with that “Wifey” Shit, that’s why you just get the dick and she got my kids, and my ring”. I told her turning around. She started hitting my on my back. “Fuck you! I never fucked anybody you believed all the lies Mack told you about me, that’s on you stupid ass, be honest with yourself you just never loved me” She said. I shrugged my shoulders. “You held me down yeah, you helped me get out of jail, you helped me sell, you helped me but you didn’t better me G, you loved that hood life, I wanted out man, you kept wanting me to be down, I had to go to college and get my education, what are you doing with your life? Still waiting on a Nigga that’s married, you used to have dreams of doing hair and makeup, how’s that going?” I asked. She looked at me with her eyes watering. “I work at Mac now, I been doing what the fuck I got to do, but your right yeah I loved that life but I was young just like you, you still left me hanging, you just wanted somebody who didn’t remind you of who you used to be, now look at you, she’s out of your league and your crashing on my couch”. She walked away snatching the picture of Us off the table near the couch and tossed it in the trash before turning off the light and leaving me in the dark. “Man, what the fuck” I stressed.

Narkim:  (ASAP- T.I.) :

I was racing through 285 to get back to the West Side to give Mack this $50,000 for this drop I just had to do. “A nigga try to play me Ima blow him off the map ASAP” I sang zipping through cars in my range. When I pulled up at Macks spot. “Listen Nigga, I don’t know what you do for your respect, but Ima die for mine”. I milly rocked a little before getting out the car. “Finally, my best man done came through for me, how much they give you College Boy?” He asked. I dropped the bag infront of him. “50 thou” I told him. He smiled and opened the bag, “Take your cut nigga” he gave me 10 bands. I nodded. He motioned me to meet him in the back room. “Sit down youngin” He said. He sat on the desk while I sat in the chair. I was nervous around him ever since he pulled that glock on me. “Be easy man, chill, relax motherfucker” He said laughing. I tried my best. “Now, I noticed that, that little bitch Nisha has been having your head all fucking twisted kind of remind me of how MJ, had this little broad named Gia, fucking with his head and shit back when we was both big balling for King Ace, now MJ left the game got that white picked fence life, but I can tell you really made for this shit, you could one day take over my west side wing for me young blood, I mean you book smart, fye with the shit” He told me. I didn’t know If I wanted this as a career, can’t be a dope boy all your life, I could save maybe then get out the game but right now this shit excited me. He went in his drawer and passed me a strap. “Yoo Mack, I don’t know” I said to him. I put it back on the table. “Nigga, motherfuckers what to take yo spot, you riding round with my money, and your money it’s either kill or be killed” He told me. I nodded. He patted my back before leaving me to stare at the gun. I thought about what he said and grabbed the gun, my cut and bounced to my girl crib. “You off today?”  I asked her. She nodded. “I needed a break” She said. She climbed on me and kissed on me. “What’s up with you, where your head at baby?” She asked. I sighed and laid my head on her chest. “Nori, Mack, my family” I said to her. “What’s up with Nor Nor?” She asked. I sighed and looked at her, she lightly got up and sat near me. “Man, Andre’ in prison cause of me, I put the brick in his car, that shit been laying heavy on me ever since I found out my sister carrying his baby man, shit stressful, she could do this by herself cause of me, then Mack want me to take over the West Side turf, he gave me a strap, my parents divorcing, my brother fucking his teacher, MJ found out I’m selling he going to kill me before the streets do man”. I confessed to her. She just stared into space. “You got to tell Nori, you got to do something better with your life then just be a “West Side Turf” nigga”. She said. I shook my head. “Nah, if I tell my twin what I did she going be hurt forreal Nish, I can’t” I said to her. She palmed my face. “It will hurt you more to see her struggle with that baby more than it will to just tell her the truth, at least try to come up with the money to get Dre out, ASAP and maybe she will forgive you”. She told me. I kissed her. “Man, when I take over baby you wont have to strip no more, shit you don’t have to strip now I pay your rent, I bought you that Lexus you pushing we all good, you can be my Queen” I told her. She smiled. “Aww your trap queen? Worrying about both of our lives, our future kids lives, Prison, Nah nigga I’m cool” She said. I tickled her and kissed on her. She giggled. “Stop nigga, you going to keep playing or come to the room”. She said looking at me seductively. I smirked at her and undid my pants. “We can do it anywhere” I sang.

Nori: (Next morning) (9 days till Christmas) (“To Zion”- Lauryn Hill)

I woke up to a text from Narkim. “At Nish, I’m good, how’s nephew?” He asked. I texted back. “He’s fine, moving around”. I replied. I got up and took a shower and got ready to meet the fam downstairs for breakfast. I went into Narkims room and grabbed his Adidas track suit. I wanted to be cute through my pregnancy but for now I’m just hide it. I did my make up a little and straightened my hair. I felt pretty for once. I walked into the dining room where D, Vi, and Michael, Nylah and Nessa were. Mommy came down in her robe with her scarf still on. “No breakfast?” She asked. “Vi made Cinnamon rolls that’s it” D said. Nylah was going in on them rolls. “Dang La, can mama and I eat?” I said laughing. I poured some cereal and fixed 3 cinnamon rolls and dipped them in the cereal as I ate. I looked up to D and Mama looking at me. The others were having a debate on if Cinnamon rolls were better then French toast sticks. “You hungry?” My mama asked. I slowly nodded. “I didn’t eat much last night” I lied to her. She nodded. “Well guys, I had a dream about a fish again last night” She said. Everybody looked at me but D and La. I’m assuming Vi told Mike. “Mama you know that fish aint accurate, last time you assumed it was Nori, and she was still a virgin, who you think it is now me? I have been feeling crazy” D joked. She waved him off. “I was right about Dani both times, that last time, I assumed it was Vada”. She said looking at Vada. “Nah mama we good over here” She said. My mom nodded. “I see that” She laughed. “I assumed it was Nessa last time, but she was just about to graduate so I knew it wasn’t her, it wasn’t Dani, it wasn’t Nori, I even asked the boys if they got somebody pregnant” She giggled. “Now I could be wrong this time too, she looked at all of us suspiciously. “Mama I wrap it up, aint no babies this way” D said. She cut her eyes at him. “Better not be no hoes coming up in here claiming you got them pregnant, I will whoop yo ass “She said. He smirked at her, while Nylah was laughing but looking down. “Nori?” She asked. “You been weird lately, I know you better not be knocked up coming up in here after me and your daddy worked hard to get our baby girl in the best HBCU” She said. I tried my best to not make eye contact with her cause she could tell when I was lying. “Mama, I been busy with Majorette classes that’s the last thing on my mind” I lied. “Could be me!” Nessa blurted out. She looked at me then back at mom. She shook her head. “No man, no ring, you better not be before me and your father have met them” She said. Nessa laughed out a fake laugh. “Gotcha!” She said. My mom rolled her eyes laughing. “Yall are some funny kids, I could be wrong again, maybe Dani is pregnant again” She said. We all nodded. “Seems accurate or it could be Grandma Rudy” Vada said smirking. My mom threw a dry piece of cereal at her. “Shut up!” She laughed. “Where is that mother of mine anyways?” She asked. “Charles, I think” D said. My mama rolled her eyes. “Damn Charles”. La and I cleaned the kitchen while everyone chilled out for a little while, we were going to have Italian night with the family, catered from Olive Garden, it was going to be the 2nd family dinner since the last blow up we had. We wanted to be drama free for a moment. I went upstairs to take a nap. While I was dozing off, my mom walked in. Damn no privacy I thought. “Norielle, I know I’m hard on you and Narkim, but I want the best for all my kids, but you guys were my miracle babies, I expect nothing but greatness from yall” She said to me. I nodded. My baby had kicked me hard as shit. “Shhhhh” I said out loud. My mom looked at me crazy. “Cramps” I told her. She nodded. “I have pills if you need some, I’m sorry for excusing you, I know you not stupid” She said smiling before closing the door. I rolled my eyes. Shit happens, I’m not stupid. I pressed play on my phone for my music to play. I put the phone on my tummy, so the baby could hear music, so it could calm him down. “You trying to get me caught Baby” I said.

Vada: (“Sorry Not Sorry” -Demi Lovato)

It was 3pm and Omari had decided to meet me at this Milo mar a fancy lunch spot before Dinner. “Baby you like nice” Michael said kissing me. “Yeah meeting my old friends” I lied. He left to go in the living room of the guest house. “Hey Mike” I heard. I walked in the living room to see Nori. “Hey Nor, Nor, what’s up baby mama?” I said to her smiling rubbing on her tummy. “Nothing bored” She said. She laid on my bed while I closed the room door to finish getting ready. “Going out with Omari?” She asked. I shushed her. She shrugged. “Why open up a door you already closed for what?” She asked. I rolled my eyes.  “Nori it’s not like that”. I said. I looked at myself one more time before I grabbed my keys. I kissed Michael and walked out with Nori. “Don’t tell Nessa shit!” I told her. She nodded. I got in my car and drove to see Omari. I pulled up 15minutes later, I got out and gave my key to Valet. I walked in and he was sitting at the table smiling. “Hey Beautiful” He said to me. I felt like I was back in high school. I smiled. “Hey” He got up to hug me and pulled out the chair for me. “Thanks” I said nervously. “You have blossomed into a beautiful young woman” He told me. I blushed looking down. We talked for a little bit. He let me know he was a HR director for Home Depot. He was married once but got a divorce a year ago. He has a daughter who is 4 named Violet. He showed me a picture. “Wow, she is beautiful” I said to him. He nodded and smiled. “All my relationships failed because I missed you, you were like my best friend and my homie, man we were dope together, you were going to be my trophy wife and I was going to be a football star” He said. I nodded slowly. “Yeah, young and dumb, I am now a top stylist for Essence Magazine, I live in New York and I have a bomb ass Mercedes Benz, my life is amazing” I gloated smiling. He looked down and nodded. “I know, I fucked up” He said. “I’m sure it’s behind you but I really need you to know man, I was fucked up man, we both were, that night fucked up our lives more than you know, I mean I’m sure you do. When you left Ness found out she was pregnant, I wanted her to keep it because I felt I made my bed, so I should lay in it. She ended up getting an abortion, she felt bad she said She didn’t want a constant reminder that we fucked you know. She went into depression that so she got hooked on pain killers, I went to Georgia State playing for the bulldogs, but my grades fell behind and I got kicked off the team, We was there for each other at the time, but we ended up ending the relationship cause I loved her yeah, but I felt like we should have been together and I didn’t know what to say if you had seen us together, so we just cut all ties with each other, her senior year” He confessed to me. My blood was fucking boiling. “You fucked my sister more than once? You formed a relationship with her? You got my sister pregnant?” I said to him. He looked at me concerned. “Ness aint tell you?” He asked. I shook my head and grabbed my purse as I got up. “Stop calling her Ness, It’s Janessa to you, I thought I was over this bullshit, but this shit fucking hurt more than it did before, I wish you the best Omari, but I’m engaged to a doctor, were on two different levels honey” I told him. I was almost out the door when he chased me down. He turned me around and kissed me. I thought about him chasing me down and telling me he’s sorry many nights when I was young, and this kiss felt nice, but it felt wrong. I pushed him back. “Omari please let this go, let us go I would never be with you even if I was single you betrayed me” I told him before leaving. I couldn’t wait to get home and let that fucking lying bitch Janessa have it.

Janessa: (Bag Lady- Erykah Badu)

It was almost time for Dinner, we were all getting ready. Moms new man was coming over and so was Dads girlfriend Kristen. I was nervous because Dylan and Chase were finally going to meet my family. I went down stairs to help the caterers bring the food to the table. “There’s my lovely daughters” I heard my mother say. Nori had just come down stairs to help me. We both looked at her, she was arm in arm with a Handsome Older Man. He smiled at us and kissed our hands. “Lovely to meet Rice’s beautiful daughters I’m Stephan Morris, I thought you had 3 girls?” He asked. He looked at her. “Oh, um Vada is out with friends she will be here soon”. Nori said. They sat down at the table and was giggling at each other all night. “This is weird” Nori said. I nodded. Narkim came in a minutes later. “Whats up fambam!” He yelled. Damien dapped him up. “Yo where’s MJ?” I asked. MJ came downstairs. “Yo you snuck in?” Damien asked. He shrugged “yall was napping and shit”. He went to sit down. Narkim and Nori of course sat down next to each other. MJ was mugging Mom’s new man Stephan. “Hello Family” My father said. Behind him trolling in awkwardly was Kristen. “Hi” She said. Damien and Nylah were chatting with each other sitting down. Dad and Kristen sat at the opposite end of the table. “Vi!” Damien yelled. Michael and Vada walked in. I smiled at them. “Hey yall” Vada ignored me, Michael hugged me before sitting down. Everyone was at the table. I was nervous as I sat down at the table. “Hey babies” Grandma Rudy said walking high as hell.  She sat down near me. “We all here?” My dad asked. The doorbell rang and Narkim who was already up went to get it. In walked my husband looking sexy in his Denim Coat with the fur collar, with Chase matching coat. “Umm I remember you…Um Dylan” Damien said. He then looked at me. “Ohhhhh shit Dylan from past thanksgiving” He said. My father looked over at me. “Janessa what is this?” He asked. I grabbed Chase from Dylan and brought them over to sit down near me. “You got his portable highchair?” I asked him. “Nah, I left it at my mom’s crib” He said to me. “Janessa your father is talking to you?” My mother said. “Mom, Dad this is my family. My son Chase Matthew Scott, and my husband you remember Dylan?” I said. “Hoooeee my goodness” Nylah said. “Yooooooooo .“Damien replied. Nori smiled at me. Narkim was looking between us. “You knew damn Nor, could’ve told me” He said. She shrugged. “Janessa, I told you, I didn’t want you to bring another white man in this house”. My dad said sternly. “Well Dad, he is my husband now, you want him to go then we will go, but this is your grandson’s father” I told him. Vada started laughing. “You are the queen of secrets” She said. My mom palmed her face, Stephan was rubbing her back. She stood up and walked over to me. She held out her arms for Chase. I put him in her arms. “Hey little man, I’m your grandma” She said smiling at him through tears kissing his cheeks. “Come here Dylan, it’s rude not to hug the lady of the house your mother in law” She told him. He smiled and hugged her. I felt a knot in my throat I was so overwhelmed. “Sharice” My dad stressed. “Malcom it’s not that deep, it already kept your daughter away, plus this ain’t your house no more” My mom said rolling her eyes. “But he helped pay for it” Kristen said. “Man shut yo…but up” Damien said. My father looked at Damien. “Boy you better watch it” He said. Damien sucked his teeth in. “Control your hoes Malcom” My Grandma said. My dad grabbed Kristen and got up. “I will see yall Christmas” He said mugging me. My father walked out with Kristen. “Anyways” Damien said. We passed around the food joking, everyone was playing with Chase except Vada. It was bothering the shit out of me. “Vi what’s up?” I asked her. She shrugged her shoulders. “Im happy you have your own little family, I wonder does your husband know you fucked my boyfriend and got pregnant and had an abortion? Or you got hooked on pain pills and dated him for 2 years”. She blurted out. I glared at her. My grandma motioned for Nylah and Damien to take Chase. “Man, this is getting good” Damien said. “D get your ass up!” Grandma Rudy said. He got up fast and took my son with him. “You had no right Vada!” I yelled. She glared at me back. My mom chugged her wine glass. “Janessa, you know what yall are grown, I’m tired of this bickering between yall it’s old and tired” My mother said before leaving from the table with Stephan. “Vi not cool man let that shit go” MJ said. Vada groaned. “I’m tired of yall being on her side, she betrayed me” She said. “Abortion pills you never told me this” Dylan said looking at me. I shook my head. “That girl been through some shit we all have but it ain’t the right to be throwing shit out in public Vada you wrong” Grandma Rudy said. “Omari told you this?” I said pissed. She nodded. “Yes, today at lunch, and I forgave you but you still lying and keeping secrets Janessa, were done were not sisters” She said. Michael punched the table. “I’m tired of this shit with you Sky!, I’m done man fuck that nigga! We didn’t come here for this, you are lying and seeing him now man fuck this” He said before he got up and walked out. “Michael!” She cried out. She looked at me. I got and nodded. “Yeah we are done” I said to her.

Character Alert: 

Gianina “Gia” Angel Monetz 33: Francia Raisa 

Gia is MJ’s ex girlfriend. They were together 10 years before he left her. and moved to D.C.

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Freeze - MCU AU Fanfic - C19

Previous chapter(s): 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18

Story synopsis:- When a burst gas main destroys everything and leaves Peter with nothing, the Stark’s take him in. Thrown together by necessity, they then need to try to keep it together and build a new life. Devastated by loss, Peter doesn’t make things easy for them, and Loki and Tony struggle with their own grief and the responsibility of having someone completely dependant on them.

Chapter description:- Life takes another turn as the rest of Peter’s classmates rejoin the class after their trip

Story warnings/themes: character death, hurt/comfort, trauma, grief, depression/mental health issues, bullying, corporal punishment

Relationships: Frostiron (Loki x Tony) (romantic), Tony and Peter (platonic), Loki and Peter (platonic)

From the same AU as Called To Be A Rock

Chapter 19 - And They Call Themselves Friends

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True to his word, Peter slept most of the weekend. He was wiped out, physically and emotionally. Malaki hadn’t been back on Friday, so he had another tired, lonely day at school. Taking his school uniform off on Friday after school felt great. He flopped down on his bed and slept soundly until 9am on Saturday. He got up and had something to eat and went down to the lab with Tony, but by 1pm his head was nodding and Tony told him to go and have a lie down.

On Sunday, Tony was out, so Thor came round to keep an eye on him, which was easy work, as the boy was asleep for the most part. 

It ended up feeling like a bit of a wasted weekend, and Monday morning came as a bit of a shock. Peter hid under the covers, hoping that if he was found all hot and sweaty, and if he put on a croaky voice, Tony might let him stay home. All the kids who had been on the Spanish trip were going to be back today. Peter just knew they’d all be Nigel’s and Wendy’s, and he wasn’t prepared to deal with that. He wasn’t strong enough.

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His plan of pulling a sickie didn’t work. Tony just shook his head and said; “Nice try”, and made him get up and get ready for school anyway. 

“The rest of your class will be back, won’t they?” Tony said. “You should be able to settle into the routine a bit better now”

Peter didn’t bother telling him that that was exactly why he was dreading going. He decided he’d just have to grin and bear it - but he didn’t feel much like smiling.

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Peter sat on the end of the front right hand row in the form room, pretending to be really interested in his white board. The classroom was already fuller than last week, and the new voices and noisy chatter were most off-putting. He fiddled with a dry-erase marker, picking at the sponge on the top of the cap. He had horrible heart palpitations. He was just waiting for one of these new voices to start scoffing about Common Muck with Scholarships.

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Three girls entered the form room, arms linked, talking together. The girl in the middle stopped, spotting Peter. 

“Oooh, new kid” she said, glancing to either friend. “He’s cute, don’t you think?”

One of the other girls laughed. “You really have no filter. Well, go and say hello then!”

The girl unlinked herself from her friends, jumping forward, planting her hands on the desk in front of Peter, making him jump.

“Hi! You’re new, aren’t you? I’m Millie!” she looked over her shoulder at her friends. “That’s Florence and Macy”

“It’s Flo” Florence said. “Everyone calls me Flo”

Peter blinked at them, unsure how to react to their sunny, friendly personalities. A voice behind him piped up:

“That’s Peter. He doesn’t talk much”

“Oooh” Millie tapped the white board on the desk. “Is that why you’ve got this?”

Peter nodded, and jumped again as Ms Hathersage appeared.

“Quiet now, you lot! You have exactly four minutes until the bell, and I want absolute silence”

No one else seemed phased by her. Flo tapped Peter’s desk.

“This is our row”

Peter’s heart beat faster. This was it. They’d turn on him now.

“I always sit at the end” Flo said. “Do you mind moving up one?” 

“Honestly Flo, you are so particular sometimes” Macy said, scooting past the back of Peter’s chair and taking the seat at the other end of the row, up against the wall. 

Millie sat next to Macy, and patted the chair beside her. Peter obediently moved over, and Flo took his place. She smiled gratefully at him.

“Thank you” she put her bag down, and spotted Peter’s satchel. “Oh wow, I love your bag! It’s brand new, isn’t it? Where ever did you get it?”

“Flo! Stop badgering him!” Millie laughed. “Ignore her, Peter. She’s got about a million bags already - she doesn’t need to copy you”

“Amelia, quiet now” Ms Hathersage said, and started to take the register.

“She thinks I talk too much” Millie whispered to Peter. “Flo talks lots more than I do, though” 

“Amelia, I’ve already asked you once!”

Millie put a hand up in apology, but as soon as Ms Hathersage’s back was turned, she rolled her eyes. Peter smiled slightly. He liked her.

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Peter did worry that they were all just being polite, but when the bell rang, Millie and Flo linked arms with him while Macy danced ahead. In Geography, they insisted that he joined them on their table, and Mr Tucker didn’t object. 

Peter felt almost comfortable. These girls were kind, and they didn’t act weirdly about him not speaking. They included him in their conversation and gossiped about the teachers and other students. 

Peter looked at them.

Millie was definitely the leader of the pack. She was a conventionally attractive girl, with shoulder-length dark brown, almost black hair, with sparkling green eyes in her round face. She radiated confidence. 

Flo was definitely the most attractive of the group. She was sweet and bubbly, with porcelain skin and long blonde, almost white hair all the way down her back. She seemed happier daydreaming and doodling in her notebook than paying attention in lessons.

Macy was a bit of a mix. She was calm and collected in class, a little mad outside of it, and she knew exactly how to manage her friends. She had short, medium-brown hair, mostly covered by a headband. She seemed distracted, somehow, but happy.

Peter thought they were all very real people.

-

The three waited at the end of the lesson, making sure Peter didn’t get left behind. They all sighed in an exaggerated fashion as soon as they’d left Mr Tucker’s classroom.

“Thank God for that! I hate Geography more and more every day” Millie said, linking Peter’s arm.

“Me too” Flo said, linking Peter’s other arm. 

“What? Geography’s a laugh - it’s the teacher that’s the problem!” Macy said, prancing ahead.

Peter suddenly realised that she might be a show-off. She seemed to perform her part of the conversation as they went down the corridor, spinning on her toes and clapping and somehow managing to never crash into anyone. 

Peter decided he might like her best. 

“Hey, Peter!” Macy said, stopping suddenly. “Have you had the bagels yet?”

Peter blinked at her.

“Aww, no way! You must try one: they’re the best! I’ll buy today, ok?”

Peter nodded. He didn’t see the need to protest.

-

Macy went off to join the queue in the dining hall, while Millie and Flo took Peter over to a round table at the back of the hall by the coffee machine. He still felt a little nervous. These girls all had big personalities, and he still couldn’t shake the feeling that they were just taking pity on him. 

“So, why have you joined in the middle of the term?” Flo asked. 

Peter didn’t really want to share his story with them. Still, he got out his whiteboard. 

I moved house and my old school was too far away to keep going to. 

Flo nodded. “Oh, right. That’s a bit rubbish”

Peter nodded slightly. Millie smiled at him.

“Are you cold? You’re shaking”

He didn’t want to tell her that he was scared, so he just nodded.

“Aww. You’ll warm up after you’ve eaten”

At that moment, Macy appeared and handed them all cheese and tomato bagels. 

“The food here is great, trust me” she said, taking a seat. 

Peter didn’t feel hungry, but didn’t want to seem rude, so he took a bite when the others did. He was pleasantly surprised. These bagels really were good. He was quite content sat back eating and listening to the girls talking. 

Once he’d finished, he wrote them a question.

Are you all boarders?

Millie shook her head. “Flo and I live with our families not too far away from here. Macy boards though, don’t you, Mace?”

Macy looked up from filing her nails. “Yes, I live Bay Laurel. That’s the girls house. I go home during the holidays though. What about you? Are you boarding?”

I live with my guardians

“I wish I did” Macy said. “But they live in Canada. It would be a long daily commute”

How long have you been boarding for?

“Since I was six. I was at the sister school, and then I moved into Bay Laurel when I was ten, going on eleven. I had some friends moving up with me, so that was nice. We helped each other pack and it made the move easier”

“I used to board” Flo said. “When I was really little, I went to a boarding school a few states over. But it didn’t work out, so father brought me over to St Hendricks so I was closer to home”

“Well” Millie said. “I’m glad I don’t board. We all know the boarding master in Scotts-Pine has a cane”

“Don’t get into trouble and it’s not a problem” Macy said, grinning. “I love how you say it like your father doesn’t own one! Peter? What are you looking so worried about?”

Peter didn’t respond. He knew they might think he was weird if he started asking questions of the corporal-punishment-in-schools variety. 

“You know, I hope I’m not overstepping the mark” Macy said. “But I heard Nigel talking in the queue. He said your family are all gone and that’s why you moved here”

Peter was horrified. How did Nigel know about that? He sighed deeply, looking down at his whiteboard. Millie squeezed his hand.

“You don’t have to tell us”

Peter nodded, but decided he did. If he got it out of the way now, he wouldn’t have to do it again.

My parents both died when I was little, so I lived with my aunt and uncle. My uncle died years ago, and my aunt died in January. I couldn’t stay in Queen’s on my own, so a family friend and their partner took me in. 

Tears filled his eyes, and he looked away quickly. The girls exchanged shocked looks, and Millie took control of the situation.

“Aww, don’t cry! Oh Peter!” she hugged him tight, and he hugged her back. “How awful! I’m so sorry to hear that”

The other two joined in the hug. 

“I’m sorry for your loss. I know it’s hard” Macy said.

“It really does get easier” Flo said. “Thank you for telling us. You didn’t need to do that. We didn’t want to upset you”

Peter couldn’t help crying, not only because of what had happened, but also because these girls were being so kind to him. 

-

The three looked after Peter, getting him a drink and making him laugh to take his mind off it all. Peter appreciated their efforts, although his tears of sadness were very nearly replaced with ones of happiness. Everything that had happened with Ryan and his gang at the other school had left him so isolated and hopeless, so much so that it felt as though kindness was a thing of the past. These girls had proved that theory wrong. 

-

The girls stayed with him throughout the next two lessons, and all through lunch. His appetite still wasn’t great, but Millie introduced him to the pasta queue, and somehow a bowl of pasta and cheese was all he needed. He’d never known it taste so good.

Peter had to see Miss Marns in fourth period, but they came and found him just before fifth so they could go together.

“This is literally a dream come true” Macy said, rereading the brief. 

“Snakes don’t often feature in my dreams” Millie said. “Why are we making snakes? Textiles should be dresses, skirts, maybe even bags!! Not snakes!”

“Make a snake wearing a dress then” Macy said, as though it were an obvious solution. “I’m totally tattooing mine”

“How can you tattoo something made of cloth?” Flo said. 

“By drawing them on! Honestly Flo, stop asking silly questions” she shook her head, and looked at Peter. “What are you thinking for yours?”

Glass eyes

“I don’t think there’s any in here. Maybe you can use buttons?” she said. “Are you any good at sewing?”

Peter shrugged. 

“I’m rubbish at it” Millie said. “At least, I’m rubbish at sewing machines. I can hand-sew ok”

Peter looked down at the brief. He wasn’t sure he’d be any good at sewing, and he didn’t have any ideas about how to design it. He kept thinking about Loki. A part of him wanted to make it for him, but the overwhelming reality that no one knew where he was right now was enough to stunt his idea. He sighed. 

“What about this?” Macy said, shoving an IPad under his nose. “Do you think you could make one like this? I like its little fangs”

“That snake would destroy you, given half the chance” Flo said, peering at the cobra on the screen. She took the IPad and started typing. “You want a cute snake for a toy, surely. Something like this”

She showed them a photo of a corn snake. 

“It’s got massive eyes” Millie said. “We could always use Marlin for inspiration”

Peter looked at her.

“Marlin is my brothers snake” Millie said. “It’s a ball python. I don’t see it often because it lives in his room, but sometimes we put it in the paddling pool just to watch it swim”

“It wiggles” Macy nodded. “I’m not making a boring snake. I’m having a king cobra-type tattooed snake. Can snakes have piercings? I might make a gangster snake”

She looked so serious that Peter couldn’t help but laugh. She glanced at him, and then nodded triumphantly at the other two.

“Peter likes my idea” she stuck her tongue out at them.

“Macy!” Ms Castleton snapped. “Don’t be so rude! That was very unladylike”

“Sorry, Ms Castleton” Macy said, but she crossed her fingers behind her back. 

Peter saw this, and looked at her fondly. 

“What are you staring at?” she said, and stuck her tongue out at him when Ms Castleton’s back was turned.

Peter hesitated and returned the favour. Macy grinned, moving her chair closer to his and pretending to look at his work over his shoulder.

“You’re gonna be just fine here”

-

Tony watched out of the car window as Peter was hugged goodbye. A minute later, Peter opened the passenger door and climbed into the car. 

“Hey kiddo”

Peter pulled the door closed, flopping back in his seat.

“I’ve gotta go to the shops to pick up a few bits before we go home, ok?”

Peter nodded. 

“I’ll try to be quick” 

-

Peter fell asleep in the car after they’d been to the shops. Tony was worried, as he hadn’t said a word since he’d picked him up. Sure, Peter didn’t really talk to strangers any more, and he didn’t speak at school, but he’d mostly stayed talkative with him and Loki. 

He gave him a little shake when they got back to the house, and they went to the kitchen together.

“So” Tony said, switching the kettle on. “How was school?”

Peter just shrugged.

“I saw those girls hugging you. Friends of yours?”

“Oh” Peter didn’t realise he’d been seen. “Um”

“Are they some of the people who were away on the Spanish trip?” Tony pressed.

Peter nodded. 

Tony sighed. “What’s up with you today?? Cat got your tongue?”

Peter just shrugged again. Tony sighed again, and shook his head.

“Go and get changed, and then get your homework done”

-

Peter sat doing his homework in silence. Tony gave him a poke.

“Hey, do you want a snack?”

Peter shook his head. Tony watched him working for a minute.

“Are you ok?”

Peter shook his head again. 

“Talk to me?”

Another shake of the head. Tony didn’t know what to do. He tried to give him a hug, but Peter leant away from him and wouldn’t let him. Tony sighed and left the kitchen, going downstairs and checking the post. He sighed heavily and threw the letters down on the cabinet. Nothing of importance. Still no word from Loki. It was a worrying development, or lack thereof. He didn’t know what to think.

-

Tony caught Peter on the way to his room.

“What’s the matter? You know you can talk to me”

Peter shook his head and tried to wriggle free. Tony held on tighter. 

“You can’t bottle it up forever, kiddo”

Peter pushed his hands away and darted into his room, shutting the door behind him. He wasn’t in the mood for an ultimatum. 

-

Tony kept his distance for a while, but soon time was getting on, so he knocked on Peter’s door. 

“Peter?” There was no reply. “I’m coming in now”

He opened the door and found the boy fast asleep. He sighed and gave him a good shake, waking him up.

“We need to think about getting you fed”

“...’m not hungry”

Tony seized him under the arms and sat him up. 

“Oww! That hurt!”

“Sorry. Right, you need to tell me what’s going on with you” he said. “Are you just tired? Is that it?”

Peter shrugged. 

“Peter, stop being so evasive”

“I don’t want to talk to you! Leave me alone!”

“Peter-”

“No!”

“Oh fine then, be that way” Tony snapped. He checked his watch. “Ok, it’s half seven now. If you’re not in the kitchen by eight o’ clock, you’re not having any tea tonight”

-

Peter went into a sulk. He decided he didn’t care, he didn’t want to speak, and he wasn’t hungry - certainly not for anything made by the likes of Tony. 

But, sulking was hard work. He was determined not to show his face, but he started clock-watching, and at five to eight he cracked. He rushed to the kitchen and buried his face in Tony’s chest.

“I need to talk to you!”

He told him about Millie and Macy and Flo, and his fears that they were just hanging out with him out of pity. He told him everything that had happened that day, and started talking about textiles.

“-so I thought, y’know, I could make it for Loki, but he’s not here any more, and so there’s no point, and I was so horrible to him before he left and now I feel so guilty and a miss him so much and, and-”

“Ok, ok, sweetheart, shh” Tony hugged him close. “It’s ok, chick”

“I want him to come back!”

“I know. I know you do. He’ll come back when he’s ready”

“No he won’t! He won’t ever want to be near me again! I was so hateful to him”

“It’s not your fault he left. He will come back; he promised he would” Tony said firmly. “When he’s ready, and not a moment before”

Peter rested his forehead against Tony’s shoulder, breathing deeply. He knew he needed to believe Tony. After all, he knew him better than anyone else. 

“I just want him to hurry up”

“I know. Try not to think about it. You’ve got other stuff to focus on. School, for a start, and your new friends”

Peter stood back slightly. “Do you really think they’re friends?”

“Sure” Tony said. “They’ll come running up to you tomorrow morning, you’ll see”

“What if you’re wrong?”

Tony smiled. “What if I’m not? Come on, lets get you fed”

*

[phakjira198]

2020 Recap

Most people won’t reminisce the year 2020, but they’ll probably look back and think what a shitty year it was, with covid-19, lock-down and abysmal economy. But for me personally, 2020 wasn’t all too bad. I’ve learned a lot from this year. This year was like a roller coaster for me, a lot of ups and downs. A lot definitely happened, most of them are new things I’ve never experienced before. I mean, I think the reason why 2020 was not so bad for me is because I like who I am now. I think I’m a lot more stronger, a lot more confident, and a lot less tense than who I was in 2019 or earlier in 2020 itself. So here’s a list of recap of what happened and how it has changed me. 

JAN 

1. Stressing about a side project that I had with Pat, Ammy and Dao, called Thunder Bolt (I think) 

2. Went to Perth and Melbourne, Woo hooo. Perth was a lot of fun; we stayed at an AirBnB and cooked every night. The lamb chop was wicked. There was a bush-fire when we went to Melbourne but it was still fun. 

-> at this point I was so sick of Arts and Museum lol. (because I over did it in Tokyo last year 5555)

3. Exchange decision: debating between Dartmouth, USA and Groningen, Netherlands. Made countless list of pros and cons. In the end, I decided that I need the sun and can’t stand only 7 hours sunlight everyday for a month in Groningen, so choose Dartmouth instead. Anyway Him pissed me off so much about deciding where to go, peeps keep pressuring me to choose because my grade is high. In the end it doesn’t even fucking matter bitch, you just need to ace your interview, which I did and got a full score baby! 

-> I just remembered that my Mac went cra cra and I had to change my screen. Thank god that I had Apple care otherwise, I’ll have to pay like 21000 Baht, but instead I got it fixed for free eiei. Anyway, I went to Australia without my Mac and I think that’s probably the longest that I’ve gone without my mac. 

FEB 

1. Lot of school work, according to my monthly calendar 55555. Had to prep for the exchange interview and everything as well. And had champ thingy as well. 

2. Had a weird, random, study date-ish session with Pat. I don’t think he think of it as a date, he just wanted to study and I’m a somewhat useful resource ( or at least I hope so) -> because of working with him in Jan and like whatever the fuck happen in Feb, I started to develop a crush on him (again! jesus woman). But this time it was different, cause I actually told people about it, and by people I mean Tam 5555555. Anyway it was because on Valentine day, Tam, Por, Ohm, and I (we were all single, so sad) went out to celebrate the fact that we got to go to Dartmouth. And I was not very alcohol tolerant back then (notice the back then part, cause girl I can handle my alcohol nowadays 555), so when they asked me whether I liked someone or not, I hesitated and they spent the entire night try to figure out who. Later on that night when I got back home, I told Tam wa who 55555. But like it was just a crush, I didn’t like like him. Cause I don’t really know him well enough for me to “like” him. 

3. GOT MY FIRST CAR!!!!, aka Stacy. But haven’t really got the change to drive her yet 555555555. The story behind how I got the car sound very privileged. I didn’t noticed it at first, but then went I told Ming what happened, she was like what a rich people way, and I’m like oh yeahh. So I stopped telling the story 55555. Anyway, I’m gonna tell it here again cause only future Jessie will read this post. 

MAR 

1. Midterm during the first week: so nothing much, just studying 

2. Drove my car for the first time after mid-term. Took it to uni for like 3 times and then number 3 happened 

3. COVID-19 hit baby -> online studying ->  I was enjoying life as fuck. My introvert self was striving. I was playing piano, doing arts, keeping a bullet journal. Watching shit load amount of studio Ghibli and other movies. 

APRIL 

1. Pretty much the same as march. To be honest, they kinda merged together cause you can’t really tell time when you’re at home all the time. It’s just like school holiday. 

2. Cheesy Avocado. Worked a lot on this joint-project for my 3 classes (software engineering, database system, ICE capstone). Spend a lot of time calling with Tam, Party and Nat. Shout out to Party for being a good PM; we would have never finished the work without you, and if I was the PM I would have drove myself crazy until the work is finish, you really help my mental health 5555. 

3. Songkran that doesn’t feel like Songkran at all. Had all my classes as usually, and didn’t get leave my house. ToT 

MAY 

1. Final the first 2 weeks. Got a chance to work on a killer report for my history of animation class. I wrote an almost 20 pages report on “Whisper of the Heart”, a lot of it are my own analysis from scratch, so I’m very proud of it eiei. 

2. Prep for Agoda -> I was very lazy to do this. I procrastinated it to the very last minute and didn’t even finished it properly lol. 

3. Went out for lunch with friends for the first time since the pandemic at a Korean restaurant in Siam One. (Had a record driving time to Siam at 12 minutes I think) 

--> I think May was like boring af. Nothing really happened that much. 

JUNE 

1. Started my internship at Agoda as a data engineer in the Messaging team. It’s a part of a bigger team called Agoda Data Pipeline, and I worked on a project called improve Kafka Offset Monitoring, where I implement this new feature called “time lag”. I wrote a blog post about it but never actually posted on Medium 55555. It requires too much work man. But I first started the internship we had to work from home, because of covid-19, which was depressing as fuck. It was not fun at all!!! To top that off, it was difficult and I was lazy and just no no. Then we got to start working at the office on the 21 of June and that was a lot more fun and everything. I really enjoyed working there. 

2. Grandma passed away on the 19th of June. Thank god that I was working from home then cause I was crying my eyeballs out and it did not look pretty. But it wasn’t as bad as when P’Rin passed away (where I cry for non-stop 3 days and had to missed a trip that I was supposed to go on), because we were expecting it to happened. It was out of the blue or anything. The doctor asked whether we want to ฝอกไต her or not and the family agreed that we don’t want to put her through anymore pain, so we decided that we’re not going to do it. And the doctor said that if we’re not going to do it, then all we can do now is wait for her to go. I was in her room (well almost the entire family was) when her heart stopped beating and I think grandma was happy that we were all there. 

-> nothing much else. Just hangout with people, ทำบุญให้อาม่า and just work. 

JULY 

1. Continue with the internship. At the Internship they had this thing called the the intern pitched competition and my team fucking won. (I probably already covered this in another blog post, so I’m not going to get into the details here). Anyway, we won 6000 Baht and spent it a Japanese restaurant in Gaysorn Plaza. 

2. Finished up the internship project towards the end of the month. 

3. Went drinking multiple time at Groove 5555. 

AUG 

1. Went to Koh Kood, it was so goooddd (pun intended 5555). A couple of days  after the internship ended on the 5th of Aug. The trip itself was fabulous, pretty beach and fin food. But the weather itself wasn’t particularly good, but that’s okay. 

2. Started talking to a guy for the first time (Woo Hoo!). It was all fun and game until somebody loses their mind (and that somebody just happened to be me, SAD) But actually I haven’t lose my mind in August yet. August was a lot of fun, I really liked the version of myself was talking to him. I was open and honest and wasn’t afraid that he would judge me. We had like 3 cute calls, but that was it 55555555. I called him on his BD at midnight to wish him happy birthday; I was cute as fuck. Just think back about it is making me blush, and boy did I blushed a lot. I’ll probably write more on the experience later in another blog post. 

3. Started my senior year at uni. But this time it’s a little different because your home girl is a TA as well. I have the power to influences a the grade of a sophomore, felt powerful 555. We still had to do online studying, although I don’t really think it was necessary at that point, cause there wasn’t really new cases and people were out and about like normal just with their face masks on. The classes that I took this sem were good as well, I actually enjoy all of it, especially Stochastic and Optimisation, which makes me consider studying my master in Operation Research, but will still have to do more research on that 55555. 

4. Worked on the Global sustainable development SDG goal competition thingy, and we got into the final 10 rounds. But we didn’t win 5555555, but it was still great cause I made a new friend. (which is really rare for me 555) 

SEP 

1. Your home girl 20!!!! I’m now officially legal and can drink and buy alcohol in public casually, which I am enjoying 555555555. Let’s just say I drink now 555. Btw I cried the night I turned 20 because I didn’t want to. I don’t want to grow up and I don’t want to become an adult, but I guess we can’t avoid it and we’re just going to have to embrace it instead. Also I think I was crying as well because I expected something from prime, I don’t know what I was expecting and keep telling myself that I didn’t expect anything but that’s not true. I did. Anyway he sent me a voice message and was the first one to wish me happy birthday eiei. And you guess it, I blushed bitch. 

2. Shit also went to hell this month with the Prime stuff. Specifically on the 25th of September, where Millie told me that Prime told her that he likes her. And that he asked her to watch a movie and eat out (which he never did with me wtf bro). So when that happened we stopped talking, like literally stopped after that night. The last thing on our chat was me sending him the brown bear confetti at almost midnight on the 25th and that was it, we never texted each other again. Which was really sad ( I mean sad for me but and easy way out for him), because I never get to know what happened, why it happened, and I didn’t get to scream at his fucking face. I eventually did in a dream later in December, which leads to a fucking closure after a 3 long and depressing months. (I just want to say, Fuck you Prime) 

3.  Nothing else really happened that much but studying and love stuff. I was so fixated on the love stuff though 5555, but can you really blame me; it was my first time actually liking a guy not having a crush on him. (You know what just thinking about what happened my eyes are tearing up 555) 

--> Just 

OCT 

1. October was a month of tear. Jessie was experiencing her first heart break; earlier this year back in July, Jessie just told Millie that she has never experienced heart break before in her entire life, but now she does. What a growth man. I did not enjoy the experience one bit, it was depressing, and just bad for me in many aspect. I tried to summoned stone cold bitch Jessie and killed of soft Jessie, which ultimately lead to me feeling numb and just plain sad. I lost inspiration, I just don’t enjoy the little shit like I used to; let’s just say I was not in a particularly good place. The only way to maintain my mental health was to run. And thanks to the free personal training that I got from Mr.Prime when we were talking, I started running more. 

2. Midterm. Got full score for introduction to stochastic modelling bitches. I remember going to Sea life right after Stochastic exam and just try to get my shit together. I really thought that I had picked up the pieces together but I really hadn’t, it was only 2 and half weeks since it happened. I was rushing into healing too much and didn’t know that these things take time to heal. Screw you knw for telling me that it only took you a week to get over Tam, that was total bullshit, and I tried to used that as a fucking standard, which just killed me. 

3. Skinny Bitch Jessie emerged. I lose my appetite because of the heart break so I ate a lot less. Actually I think I consumed a normal amount of what an average human being should consumed, I just ate way too much before 55555. And like with all the running, my weight got down to like 50, 51, which is the skinniest I’ve ever been since I got to uni. Maybe even the skinniest I’ve ever been since year 11 as well.  

NOV 

1. Shopee GLP application. I didn’t get the job but it was a great experience. I learned what a case interview, and thinks it very oppa. The process of preparing for it was fun, but I wasn’t totally into it because I was still dead inside. And still have no passion, no inspiration, no motivation, no goal, and everything because of what happened in the last 2 months. The only reason why I wanted to job was because I wanted the money 5555555. 

2. Won DevDisrupt Hackathon 2020. Ter did most of the work though, but it was still a lot of fun, and something that I could add to my resume 5555. 

DEC

1. HAPPY JESSIE IS BACK BITCHES!!!! I LOVE December Jessie; she’s STRIVING. Thank god I got my shit sorted out before the end of the year. She is once again enjoying life, feeling inspired, and motivated. And she’s doing all this while she is dressed to the nine every single fucking day! 

[ayyani123]

Camp Drama 29

I stayed laying down and I froze when I heard Louis' voice. Great, that's really not what I needed. I bit my lip softly and closed my eyes, trying to stop the tears from falling. I shouldn't care, but I do. Louis walk out obviously hurt. "I'm just here to get my boots "Stan announce and awkardly get his boots under his bed and step out of the room . After he close the door there is a long silence. "Are you awake?" I asked looking at you. "Yeah I'm awake" I whispered and sighed deeply "did you see him?" I asked quietly, looking up at you and sighed, wiping my eyes quickly "yeah he looks hurt" I told you and move your hair away. I look at you as you wipe your eyes. "I know you are too " I told you . I sighed deeply and looked at you, nodding a little. "Of course I am Harry, I loved him so much. But he's hurt me so much more" I said I sigh this makes me feel guilty it's like I took advantage of you breaking up with Louis. I get up and stand up grabbing my boxers . "Get dress " I told you and reach for your pants. I sighed softly and pulled my clothes back on. I suppose it did really hurt Louis, I got with the one person I told him I never would think of sleeping with, yet here I am. It was a bad choice, but I guess I just wanted him to feel as hurt as I did. I was wearing my pants when I turn to look at you. "Do you think this is a mistake ? Did you regret it?" I asked looking at you. I looked at you and shook my head "I don't regret it, I think it was just the wrong time, but it wasn't a mistake at all" I said, walking over to you and wrapped my arms around you "Do you love me?" I suddenly asked. Shit I wasn't suppose to say that what is wrong with me damn it. I wired for you to answer that as you wrap your arms around me. "It's hard to say that so early on" I told you and looked up at you. "I like you, but love is a bit too much to say for now" I said. I hoped that didn't hurt you, but how could I possibly love you when I've only just admitted into liking you and not hating you anymore I remove my hands around me. " That's OK forget that I asked " I said and get a new shirt from my drawer and start wearing it. I frowned slightly and looked at you "you're not mad at me are you?" I asked, raising my eyebrows slightly I shake my head . "No I don't want to be burden to you" I said and patted your head. " you already hurt with Louis. being mad with you makes it worse " I said looking at you . "And sorry if this makes everything worse" "I don't want to think about Louis. I know I hurt him and he's hurt me more, he deserves it" I shrugged. "It doesn't make everything worse, maybe a little confusing for me because I don't know what I want, but please don't push me away" I told you, taking hold of your hands I look at you , is she actually begging for me . " Why do you thinking I'm pushing you away?" I asked looking at you as I raise my eyebrows . "I don't know, you just seem a little off after the Louis incident" I said, frowning slightly "I don't think you're pushing me away, I just don't want you to push me away" After you said that I just got the urge to kiss you. Once that comes in my mind I find myself pinning you against the wall and kissing you I smiled as you kissed me and I wrapped my arms around you and kissed you back, closing my eyes and sighed happily against your lips I feel you respond to my kiss very well I smile between the kiss and slowly pull away. I look at your eyes. Damn it's like I can't help myself. I looked up at you and giggled softly, leaning up and pressed a quick kiss to your lips "I think you've proven me wrong" I whispered softly I look at you "I did?" I asked and chuckle. "Fine I just did that to make you shut up" I said pushing myself away from the wall looking for my shoes. I laughed and rolled my eyes playfully "well either way it worked" I smiled. "Are we going back to the clinic?" I asked, looking at you "sure ,I think my brother is already worried and so is Millie for you" I said looking at you as I finally found my shoes and wear them. "Yeah probably" I nodded slightly "are you ready?" I asked, walking over and kissed you again. It was addicting, kissing you When you did that I slipped my tongue inside you ,teasing you. I moaned softly and smiled, pulling away "don't do that" I giggled "otherwise we'll never get out of this room" I smiled I laugh "maybe you want to stay ,I really don't mind if you do" I said hearing you giggle is funny to hear. "I would love to stay, but we really should get going before Millie starts looking for us" I laughed then sighed softly. I completely forgot how much Millie was in love with you, if she found out what's happened she'll probably never speak to me again. I nod and chuckle as we went to the clinic. I don't know how this would end well but probably if I give in to go to the clinic sooner I wouldn't be able to sleep with you. I went to the clinic with you and sighed softly. No one has to know what happened, I can just say we had a talk and had some time to ourselves, which we did. No one needs to know what happened next. When we got there Millie is talking to Liam ." Jesse where did you guys go?" Millie asked and notice something different. "We just went off for a little walk, nothing big" I shook my head "we needed to talk really and Harry was also being stubborn and wouldn't come back here" I laughed softly Millie nods "well your boyfriend did wait for you he hoping to talk you " she said being worried. "Are you sure everything is OK?" She continues to ask I frowned slightly and sighed "he's not my boyfriend anymore Millie" I told her and sat down, rubbing my head a little "then who's your boyfriend now Harry ?" She asked being surprise. She turn her gaze to me who is currently talking to Liam. I look at him with disgusted face as he talks about his first time in the hospital that's when her sister is giving birth to his nephew. "No! Not at all" I shook my head and frowned "why would you think that? I've just broken up with Louis" I sighed, glancing over at you quickly and sighed "why not I mean you thought I didn't notice ?" Millie said smiling . "Ohh come on Jesse I have a crush on Harry so it's very obvious when someone likes Harry too" she said smiling obviously not jealous. I blushed a little and shrugged, biting my lip softly. "It's not that obvious" I said, smiling slightly. "We might have kissed a little" I told her quietly. Millie laugh "ohhh Jesse I spare any day to see this coming it's like I know deep down this would happen" she said smiling."every day you will complain about Harry but now you're no where to be found because you're kissing him" she said and laugh I blushed more and rolled my eyes "stop it" I laughed softly "I guess he's not as bad as I thought" I told her. I was glad that she wasnt mad with me She laugh "not bad he's better that you ever expected " and slap you arms slightly before putting something back to the medical kit. "Yeah okay shh now" I laughed softly, shaking my head slightly and glanced back over at you. "I don't think much will happen between us though, with us all graduating. I might never see him again" I told her "I don't know Harry is a type of guy who will surprise you so I don't think that's possible" she said looking at you."I don't he wanted to get sick just so he can be with you and I didn't know you would like to help out too though isn't a little coincidence that everything happened in this camp is-" she said finding the right word. "Everything happened for a reason really" I told her, shrugging slightly. "I guess finding out that Louis got Emma pregnant and that he cheated on me multiple times told me that I really shouldn't keep going back to him and that's it now" I told her Her eyes widen when you said "what? He cheated on you with Emma ?!!" She said with disbelief. "Yeah, didn't you know?" I said "he cheated on me the first time with her, and then I found out it happened more than once and when we broke up the first time he slept with her again and he got her pregnant. Now he doesn't want to me with me because he doesnt want to ruin my future or anything" I rolled my eyes and sighed "well it make sense I mean I don't know if it's true but during the time of the foot ball game where Harry and Louis team keep on winning she's bragging about his fiance aka Louis will someday build a happy family with their own soccer team" she said and shrugged. "That fiance word feels like they are arranged marriage or something" I listened to her and frowned "wait what?" I said, looking at her and shook my head "that can't be true, she seemed pretty upset that she was pregnant. She's not that good of an actress" I said. "And Louis would never have gotten back with me if that was true" "well maybe Louis does love you but knowing Emma come on what do you expect with a girl whose queen and friends with Alison no offense. I bet she did that so Louis can say no to Emma because he knows he would be sue" Millie said. "I don't know Millie. If he did love me he wouldn't cheat on me multiple times would he?" I sighed deeply. "I just don't want to think about him anymore" I frowned "you're right you got Harry anyway" she said and laugh and hug you. I blushed and laughed softly "stop it. We're not officially together anyway" I told her and hugged her back "but you guys already kiss ,you can't kiss your friend right ?" She said shaking her head as she pulls away. "you guys are cute I'm happy for you probably I'm the reason why you guys made it this far I'm a match maker" she said and laugh. "Well you can" I shrugged slightly "I don't know I'll have to see" I said then looked at her, laughing softly "yeah of course you are. I'm giving you all the credit" I smiled She smiles and hug you again. Before calling my name "Harry!!" Millie called me. "What ?" I came to her as she rest her arms around your shoulder. "Don't hurt my precious Jesse here because it takes a guy with balls to be Jessie's boy " she said smiling . I look at you a bit confused. I looked at her and widened my eyes as she spoke to you. "Millie shut up" I mumbled and blushed deeply, looking at you and bit my lip softly. I laugh when saw your reaction."I'll let the doctor know " she said as she laugh and run towards Mike's office. "What's going on?" I asked smirking. "Millie you don't need to say anything" I sighed and rolled my eyes as she walked off then looked at you. "Millie knew there was something going on, I told her that we kissed and now she's really happy about that" I laughed softly "you did "I also laugh and watch Millie went into my brother's office. "Well she's happy are you happy?" I asked looking at you. I nodded a little and smiled "yeah I think I am" I laughed softly and took hold of your hands "are you?" I asked "of course " I said and give you a quick kiss thats when my brother went out of his office. "What the hell youre getting on relationship faster than I do" Mike said. I smiled and kissed you back softly, wrapping my arms around you then looked at your brother, laughing softly and blushed as I looked back up at you I sigh cross my eyes. "Finally he will never stop talking about you anymore" his brother said as he shakes his hands to you. "And you finally get out from the hate zone to friends zone to infinity and beyond " he said and patted my cheeks . I look At him with embarrassment . "Welcome to family Jess-" Mike said as I slap him."too soon Mike too soon" I told him. I laughed softly and looked at you "thank you, anyway...I think" I smiled, blushing slightly. "I suppose this gives you even more opportunity to embarrass him" I told your brother and smiled " yeah wait until you come to our house and see his baby pictures .He has a tiniest Willy -" Mike said showing the size using hit thumb and index finger. "Mike!!" I scold him as I blush harder. " It has a size of a tictac glad that Anne showed me that" Mike said laughing. I slap my forehead."will you just get out of here you bastard " I said and push him away. I laughed softly and wrapped my arms around you. "Well it's good that is isn't anymore" I whispered softly to you and smirked a little, looking up at you and giggled a little I smirked as I slapped your butt and kiss you again. I laughed and kissed you back, slowly pulling away from you. "Are you going to pretend that you're sick so you can stay here with me the next two days?" I asked and laughed softly "nahh I don't think I have to my brother will have a plan to annoy me " I said and kiss you again and slowly pull away. "Plus I can visit just before the camp ends" "Yeah but visiting isn't the same as seeing you everyday" I frowned slightly. I didn't realise how much I would actually miss seeing you everyday really I look down at you "don't worry I'll find a way" I said and kiss you again "I hope so" I nodded, kissing you back and smiled against your lips, holding you close to me Deepen our kiss as you continue to respond to it. It seems like I don't want this day to end. I smiled as you deepened the kiss and I let you, deepening the kiss more and closed my eyes. I guess I really didn't realise how much I did like you I feel you smile between the kiss and realize how much this means to me then I decided to make an opportunity to make things better and looking forward to. "Wanna share cabin with me again?" I nodded and smiled widely "I would love too. But we'll have to make sure we don't get caught" I frowned a little and looked up at you " don't worry ill talk to Mike about this I got it all control" I said smiling give you a wink. "Okay, that's alright then" I laughed softly and kissed you again quickly, wrapping my arms around you to hug you I gladly kiss back and hug in return. I hope things will be good I want this two days to be memorable specially this would be my last time to be Jesse. "What's going to happen after this camp ends?" I asked you quietly. I did want this to keep going on between us, but it could be difficult if we were nowhere near each other "well we will go to college and you will be an artist" I told you forcing a smile. "Yes, I know that Harry. I mean between us" I said, taking hold of your hands and sighed softly I look at you as you hold my hands. "Us ?" I look down as I think. "Yeah" I nodded slowly and bit my lip softly. "What's going to happen with us?" I asked