#anyway I'm just trying not to fall asleep at work
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It's exam season and to help me cope I've been writing fun stuff between study sessions. Maybe my opinions could be appreciated and debated on the interwebs.
Ranking (some of) the LL crew based on who would let you take a nap on them and how comfy that nap would be:
Rodimus: 6/10 He would be so down with you taking a nap on him but he's very sharp and very distractable. His neck flare plate(?) would prevent you from sliding off but you better hope when something get his attention you don't get crushed in his neck cabling. I think he would try to remember you are there, maybe poke at you when he's bored, but if he's active, try is the key word there. Bonus points for running warm though… hopefully not too warm.
Megatron: 8/10 A solid nap to be had. Good flat shoulder plating and he would never forget you were up there. Loss of points over the fact he would only let it happen if he really liked you and, lets be real here, there would always be that prickle at the back of your neck over how low your defences are and how many organics this mech has crushed.
Ultra Magnus: 10/10 The holy grail of naps, plenty of flat surfaces to rest on, no one can bother you cuz almost no one is as tall as him, he would willingly be your alarm clock, always knows you're there, incredible nap spot. Only issue would be convincing him, but you could make up something about how humans need to nap in high places or whatever and he would fold in concern for your fragile human health.
Ratchet: 5/10 Half of the battle is getting him to agree and the other half is trying to fall asleep whilst he grumbles, he also moves around a lot cuz he never rests and is always helping bots in the medbay. I don't know if you can fall asleep to the sound of metal being welded together or someone getting yelled at for injuring themselves doing something stupid but… all the power to ya.
Drift: 9/10 Respects the need of the nap, it's basically like meditation so he gets it. His calm energy really helps when drifting off. I think he likes the idea of protecting a little human as they snooze which gives him guard dog energy when you're out, no ones messing with you and ruining your beauty sleep. Lose a point cuz he is sleek in design so fully resting on him comes at a risk.
Rung: 4/10 Doesn't mind if you ask but, I'm sorry, he's too rounded, not good for lying down. Although, he would be very careful and gentle with you so it just might work out. He works in a quiet environment which is nice but if he is having/about to have a therapy session he will ask you to leave, patient confidentiality is important to him. You would have to schedule your naps with him which is not the point of naps.
Cyclonus: 1/10 Zero flat surfaces so you would need to strap in. I don't think he would want you napping on him, he would constantly need to check you haven't fallen to your death and would find it awkward talking to people with something hanging on his shoulder. Would tell you to just go back to your berth or find a non-moving flat area, why do you want to nap on a Cybertronian anyway? A single point for at least being nice about it when he denies you.
Tailgate: 7/10 Absolute sweetheart about it but there's nowhere to really lay down on him. He would offer to hold you as a solution, which, if you don't mind being cradled like a baby (or having other people see you being cradled like a baby, tanking your reputation), seems alright. Since you are right in front of him at all times that way, there's no chance of him forgetting you're there. Will shush other people if they're being too loud around you. High chance of inducing cuteness aggression in him when you're asleep and softly snoring, will go for the cheeks.
Swerve: 3/10 This mech spends all his time loudly blabbering in a bar, noise needs to not be an issue for you. Similar issue with Tailgate where laying down is difficult. Unfortunately, does know what a human baby is so will coddle and humiliate you if you agree to being held. Another issue, the prankster Swerve is, you can't trust this guy to not draw on you or not steal something from you and hide it in an unreachable spot or not put you on a floatie in the middle of the oil reservoir. Gets some points cuz only HE can mess with you, anyone else tries to wake you up and they're out the bar.
Whirl: 0/10 …I mean there is literally nowhere to lay down, he's too damn skinny. You…could take a chance with his giant chassis but you'll probably slide off or look like you're in a baby holder if you strap yourself down. IF you are successful at staying in place (somehow), he would just bother you the whole time or not give a shit you're there and start running around. Worst case, he tries to use you as a meat shield to get away with annoying bots cuz "If you try to punch me, you'll punch the squishy human as well!"
Brainstorm: 3/10 Mech hangs from the ceiling sometimes. Sure, he has some alright shoulder plating to work with but his spontaneity could literally throw you off. Would allow a nap but wouldn't check on you, too absorbed in his work. If he was bored and didn't have any ideas coming to him, you could suggest a sleeping bag that attaches you to mechs you want to sleep on.
I know I've missed some bots, maybe my stress will produce a part 2.
#transformers#lost light#transformers x reader#transformers x human#transformer x human#please don't beat me with sticks for putting this in the main tags
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An Observation
Disclaimer: This is written by a sex(also kissing) repulsed, Asexual.
I think I finally realized what made Veilguard my favorite out of the other 3 games.
In the other 3 the precedent was set. If you wanted a relationship, sex, and its various other intricacies was a requirement.
Heck even the chantry boy was ready to go to the bone zone in no time at all.
If I could mod out the sex and stuff from the other games I would do it in a heartbeat.
Veilguard however? They took care of that for us- or me anyway!
Not to say you don't get to the bone zone at the end of the game, but at least to get a 'relationship' you didn't have to jump through the hoop of physical intimacy to get there.
They made you work for it!
Earn it!
Build a bond with the person you were interested in.
I'm so tired and bored of romance portraying the importance of sex, when some of us value a deeper emotional connection far more than any form of intimacy. I get it, I'm on the more niche end of my little spectrum, but how I feel is still important and valid.
Seeing media, in any form, push how important and expected sex is in a relationship just hurts to see, for me. I've known enough people in my life who don't understand asexuality in any way shape or form and will try and guilt you into putting out because, well, if you aren't there's something wrong with you. And I'm wasting my time with you if its never going to happen.
I'm not for everyone, and I don't expect to be. But if you're with me, you already know what to expect. I'm up front about it and am not going to hide who and what I am.
I dare say that my opinion on this translates onto my romance choice in Veilguard. Lucanis. Who was so clearly on the spectrum of asexuality it could make you cry. The fact that we, or I, got someone that just wanted to be with you without all that extra stuff... maybe I did weep a little.
Because FINALLY!!!
I refuse to believe that MK said he was Demi to, as people like to put it "pull a JK.R" because I knew what he was pretty darn quickly. And even then she responded to someone asking if he was, because clearly other people could tell too! And OMFG the Wyvern thing???
The thing about us Ace people and dragons being cooler than sex(I came into the community later than most so that was always the inside joke I remembered)? Perfection! I don't know if that was the goal, but damn did I love it regardless! It was so good!
So, all in all, I'm sorry that most of you don't think Lucanis' romance was done very well, and it needed more of something. But... you can pry his MK post confirming, slow burn, acts of service, demisexual, just let me fall asleep in your arms at the end of the day, having romance, from my Cold Dead Hands!
I've seen the cut content. I've seen the other romances in game, and I don't want his to be anything like theirs. Or change, get patched with more content, etc.
Let me, or dare I say 'Us' have this! You had 3 other games to enjoy your sex drives. Let me have just this one! He's not for everyone, and dare I say it, he doesn't need to be.
Much like how Dorian was gay, Sera was a lesbian, Cullen wouldn't date a Qunari. Solas wouldn't be with you unless you were an Elf. Not all romances need to be for everyone. And that's okay!
End rant!
Disagree with me if you wish, idrc, just be civil about it.
#dragon age#lucanis#dragon age veilguard#rant#I have a lot of feelings#about a lot of you and your opinions on lucanis' romance#did i share them all here? no. but I have a lot of them#lucanis dellamorte#you won't change my mind so don't bother trying#my tags are as chaotic as my thoughts fight me
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i compiled a bunch of subspace and medkit headcanons because they plague me. they plague me. they anyways . uhjjmmm subspace headcanons r. im not gonna lie i got some of these from deadplate. but. THERES!! a lot of these. be prepared 1. I don't think he can eat properly. Not only because of the rot, but because not being able to taste things irks him, so he has to make a smoothie out of it 2. I thuuink i think he already. was struggling with an ED before the disaster. and not being able to taste/the rot makes it. way worse 3. I think! I think he has bipolar and audhd. 4. He keeps his hair short on the side of the rot so it doesn't irritate it 5. hes. extremely touchy. not to be affectionate. he's just always in peoples personal space 6. Often chews on his fingernails and/or picks at his skin. bad habit of his methinks 7. i think he listens to like. metal. specifically freak on a leash and rotting in vain by korn really reminds me of him 8. scarring and burns. like. everywhere. coupled with the rot obviously. i think in his line of work he gets injuries pretty easily even when trying to be careful 9. EXTREMELY tone deaf. but also sometimes ignores social cues on purpose because he knows it annoys people 10. hates the rain. he hates the sound of it. he hates the water. it ruins his day. heres medkits ... 1. Also can't eat very well but its mostly from. after the disaster. he completely lost his appetite and also lost a lot of weight just because it was. really hard for him to find the energy to even get up let alone eat 2. generally kind of. not able to take care of himself very well. even if he can take care of others 3. extremely depressed. like. really bad seasonal depression + chronic (it gets worse when he sees snow though. reminds him of blackrock) 4. during his blackrock days he would straighten his hair. he can't afford to do that now though because its too expensive + too much energy 5. god AWFUL doctors handwriting. scythe hates it. nobody can fucking read it except for medkit 6. He has generalized anxiety, depression, and PTSD, as well as autism 7. hates being touched except for in very specific situations. he also hates being close (physically) to people 8. adding onto the last one, he HATES when people touch his back or his shoulders. IMMEDIATE fight or flight response 9. extremely bad posture. shrimp posture. im telling u 10. painted his horns teal because they were originally green. he doesn't like the color green very much. nor does he like that pinkish-red color (reminds him of subspace) 11. (somewhat canon? not the indie part) usually likes classical music. sometimes dabbles in indie music. he's not into the loud shit 12. violin and piano player .... 13. tried to sand down his fangs at one point. why? i dont know! 14. his sarcasm is crazy. if he's not being sarcastic its not him 15. loves the rain. he likes the quiet and being alone but when it's deathly silent it spikes his anxiety. so the background noise is nice. it also means he has an excuse to stay inside AND!! combined headcanons. things i have that i hc for. both of them 1. both of them have hand tremors. subspace's are a little worse though 2. even though they both have separated (and medkit really tries to stay away) they both still have habits that they got used to from being around the other. medkit still makes extra of things by accident because subspace would always steal it. subspace still keeps a blanket in the lab because medkit would always fall asleep at the desk. i could keep going on im so serious. they are so horribly intertwined in the worst way possible and even if they hate each other that red string is still there. its still there. do u get it. in this essay i will- anyways! thats it for today. sorry guys i needed to YAP
"Looking. Respectfully. Peak as always. This fits them so well that I can't even explain. I would yap more, but I'm tired, and my shoulder hurts from a shot I had recently, so another time TwT"
#phighting headcanons#phighting!#headcanon#phighting#◇ mod sianachkit ◇#subspace phighting#medkit phighting#scythe phighting
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I need overlord to be a whiny mess for a smaller bot. Bad manners to open like this I know, but I'm desperate Milan you don't understand
I need big, strong, certified POS overlord to be absolutely whipped for a tiny mech. He's normally attracted to strength I think, and will only sleep around with weaker mechs if they're interesting or he thinks he's got something to gain, but he made a mistake going down on some random tiny autobot's valve
I need them to be tiny, far less significant politically, and I need them to be the opposite of him in every way. Most importantly, I want their valve to have overlord WEAK. (Bit of contect for this next part; I think despite being so strong after serving as a gladiator overlord would have a complex about being vulnerable and sleeping around others and needing the presence of others, idk why but I hc this hard about all gladiators from cybertron)
I want him chasing them across the galaxy for just the chance to sleep with his face between those thighs, i want him to have a wet dream about falling asleep not only between the mech's thighs, but with his face pressed into their bared valve. It breaks him. That one oral session was bad itself, but now he was using trepan to dig through his memories of the night to find each and every little detail so he can reconstruct a valve exactly like it because he CANT sleep anymore. He needs it on his spike, pressed against his own valve, on his face- ANYWHERE in order to feel safe enough to sleep.
I don't know what idea this had originally came from, but it's all I can think of now. Overlord with his obsessive tendencies and my hc complex resulting in a life altering oral fixation on a tiny autobot who's nothing like him.. urgh...
And the poor autobot. I specifically drempt up a small, frail, mommy mech for this. One who's low ranking, he's probably a medic, kind and caring and incapable of hurting a fly. He's not important like ratchet or pharma or even the little red and white combiner- first aid- that he'd worked with, but somehow a massive, terrifying mech found him and decided to torture him by... eating him out? I don't think he'd try to understand it, can't understand crazy and all, but in my world mystery mech tries to enjoy it anyway. He gets too into it, too mommy, too medic, and now he's got a big ass puppy chasing him down for a lick (hah) of attention
Thank you for creating a safe space to put this kinda stuff, I needed to let this out somewhere and after finding your content I thought my rambling would be welcome here 🥹
Overlord just needs to be knocked down a peg or two...
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GOOD: Byakuran's a wanton seducer who has had many a conquest using his good looks and charm. Compared to awkward nerds Shoichi and Spanner, he's much more experienced.
GREAT: Although Byakuran has extensive carnal knowledge due to his powers, he rarely if at all has ever been comfortable enough with another human to get intimate. Shoichi, however, has truly tapped into his Sun-flame wild side since he got older. Leaned into the indulgences of rock n roll so-to-speak. He's surprisingly much more experienced than Byakuran and awkward nerd Spanner.
GORGEOUS: Regardless of Byakuran or Shoichi's histories, Spanner has been to a LOT of anime conventions and done some WILD SHIT in those hotels with fellow con goers/guests. He is the true master, with a lot more than tools below his belt ha ha ha
#byakuran#irie shoichi#spanner#millefiore trio#my disaster ot3#just thoughts. we always assume Byakuran sleeps around but it's that really so. what if he hasn't been deflowered.#what if Shoichi is big on sex with strangers at concerts and clubs#what if Spanner has unlocked all levels of weaboo and also his dick is huge#i think the last one is true#anyway I'm just trying not to fall asleep at work
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did you remember to leave space for all your phantom limbs?
⋆。 ゚☁︎。 ⋆。 ゚☀︎。 ⋆。 ゚ ┊ ┊ ┊ ┊ ┊ ┊ ┊ ˚★⋆。˚ ┊ ┊ ⋆ ┊ ★⋆ ┊ ◦ kirbytober 2024 #03 ★⋆ miracle // phantom // magic
#starstruck dee#bandana waddle dee#my art#my comics#kirbytober#rare un-bowed starstruck moment!! only sometimes when sleeping; mostly with company who do a similar ritual. so she participates#you would not believe the number of incredibly important monologues that occur while starstruck is snoozing!!#truly she can sleep through anything (if you can get her to fall asleep). not an easy feat#though bandee always manages it! when she can't sleep but she's trying (often) she comes to his room. she just sleeps better not alone.#i wonder if someone from last year's kirbytober will recognise this location design!! i tried to keep it consistent!#anyway! hello lore comics it's been a while! this one wasn't planned actually. was not next in my schedule for her#but this prompt worked so well for it!! so here it is. hope you enjoy!! <3#do i need to... i mean it's obvious this is lore but i guess i should tag it:#🎀🔍#my dream is that one day i will drop something So Pretentious or Confusing or Cheeky that folks will full-legal-name me in comedy rage#“STARFLUNG!WADDLE!DEE!” etc. i think i've said this before actually. i'm getting deja vu... but i do always think it's peak comedy!
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does anyone have any ideas for treating headaches if you're not supposed to be taking NSAIDs? please note that tylenol and acetaminophen DO NOT work for me. i know tumblr isn't a doctor but i'm crowdsourcing here
#i'm not supposed to take nsaids because of ~gi bleeding~ but i do it anyway because it's the only thing that actually works on me#my doctor isn't. happy about this#anyway.#i'm not supposed to take any nsaids right now because i have a procedure on tuesday and i'm supposed to quit 5 days in advance#should be easy right? it's not like i take them like candy! it's just a few doses a month!#nah of course yesterday i get a headache. starts mild. i try to just ride it out & drink fluids & take a nap & asked my aunt for tylenol#doesn't go away. becomes a splitting headache in the middle of the night & i cannot sleep. eventually i break down at 3 am & take ibuprofen#finally fall asleep pain-free at 4 am#and i just??? i hope this isn't an issue since the procedure is still 4 days out? i will try to avoid taking it again??#but like What Am I Supposed To Do
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and then no one said anything about the fact that if i watched ONE MORE episode tenax pulls a "i'm not angry i'm just disappointed i'm hurt" about scorpus signing with the white faction.
#do you see the vision here <- guy who has a watch rate of one episode per month#oh the implications of scorpus not being there for tenax in his time of need... the death of the child who is not but is symbolically their#is that a separate fic completely yes but it is ALSO in some ways a divorce fic. tenax like i needed you but scorpus also needing him#OH MY GOD THEY LITERALLY DO SAY FELIX WAS HIM and i can do SO much with the concept of a “stray”. oh please. please strays instead of rats#one knife to the ribs one fixed race one apartment board THAT'S A STORYLINE BABY RISE OR DIE THE ROMAN WAYYYYYY#i do see your calla/tenax storylines i do. i could be swayed but we are not here for that currently this is the same as the chariot racing#like i KNOW what i said about the gold faction representing everything that scares scorpus a dream he never thought they'd reach#and then to have it ripped away now he no longer even has the dream untarnished i do understand. which is why the “i'm disappointed”#kills me even MORE because it shows he gets it. like on some level he does understand why scorpus had to but it's his pride that's wounde#so to continue from what i WAS saying with:#sets the bar so low because how else would tenax love him (as if tenax would not do the same thing if he lost) and they have even MORE#questionable celebratory reward sex. yes i assigned scorpus a degradation/praise kink the world works in wondrous ways don't question it#scorpus/tenax#those about to die#tenax making sure to care for the kids is what's killing me too because i REALLY want to draw a parallel with scorpus making sure he takes#care of the prostitutes. yes he's a notorious hedonist yes he has a lot of sex but he always pays well doesn't he. over-well. he pays too#much and ends up in debt he pays enough to buy girls freedom. so that they only have to if they want to. it gets him a reputation sure AND#it gets whole houses of girls under his (and therefore tenax's) protection. you can't bruise her up; that's scorpus' favorite girl.#she can charge more for being favored. he can pay for massive parties where no one else is invited and if he falls asleep midway drunk#off his ass after a race the girls would never say. they still get paid. if tenax comes to watch and give instructions they'd never say.#if tenax tells them all to leave and it's just him and scorpus in the golden room and all the girls see before they shut the door#and latch it behind them is scorpus on his knees in the soft plush cushions with tenax offering him grapes one by one from his fingertips#like a favored concubine instead of the champion whose laurels are tilted on his head they won't say a word. not even when the noise#inside the room continues for long after the hour runs out the girls still stand watch until it's quiet and then crawl back in around where#scorpus is alone in the big wrecked bed with a smear of blood or wine on his mouth who could say. certainly they wouldn't.#no matter what they still get paid. whether they did the work to wreck him or not.#ANYWAY#they take care of the selves they couldn't protect is what i'm trying to say. for tenax it's the child he was/scorpus it's the body he sold#only he hasn't stopped having to sell it. & i guess as we're learning with the extortion tenax is still a child running from a burning hous
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vent moment but my health is a bit worse than i let on, which is weird ik since it seems like complain about it all the time here, and apparently i also look sick, because two separate people in their 40s or 50s asked me, 24, if i needed their seat on the bus. kind of them. but humiliating nonetheless.
#medical stuff cw#i sat on the steps instead of taking their seat#vent cw#i have to take five different pills a day excluding birth control which i also take for health reasons but okay#i have to thank italy for its healthcare system because at least i dont have to pay a fuckton for all that stuff. except birthcontrol.#as i may have mentioned they found quite a bit of blood in my piss so im getting tested for ✨️cancer✨️#also because i've been having health issues which might be rated#my blood work is all off but i didnt get tested for tumoral cells specifically because i may have 'just' an autoimmune condition#so im on heavy duty antibiotics too now bc i also developed antibiotic resistance last year. anyway.#i need to take those and then they'll test my peepee again but this time they will also test explicitly for tumoral cells#because something is off and my previous blood work didnt point out what exactly#terrible anemia and other slightly-off numbers that however shouldnt be off considering my lifestyle#i eat almost everything. drink plenty of water. exercise. barely smoke. not even drinking anymore. i'm not too fat nor too skinny.#so. some of the numbers that are off dont really have a reason to be off which is why they are testing my blood and piss for cancer#but like. in 3 weeks because i have to take antibiotics and iron meds (not supplements. meds.) first#so my mind's trying to convince itself that i dont have a tumor. but what if i do? i know i dont. but not knowing makes me go insane#also i have to get tested for heart disease because that motherfucker is not working properly. doesnt pump enough blood to my brain.#i took an ekg and it came back pretty normal except for tachycardia#now i have to go get an holter ekg - but was told to wait until uni starts again bc i need that exam to be done when i have a daily routine#so basically they slap electrodes and shit on me for 24 hrs while i go do my shit around the city and then see how my heart behaved#because i cant stand without struggling to breathe and sometimes it happens when in laying down to.#sometimes i cant fall asleep because i cant breathe#at first the doc thought it might be a reflux issue but not. all good on that front.#so. we'll see. and i mean. i KNOW it's not cancer. like. i'd be dead by now bc i've been having these symptoms for five months#however. i dont know if it's not an autoimmune disease. and if it is? what am i gonna do?
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wish I could simply input what I want my personality to be and my physical body to look like each day and it all simply working out, no spacing out, no dissociation, just fully present and aligned with my body and mind without a herculean effort to ignore every uncomfortable painful incongruence...
#it's like i'm trying to run an ill-equipped homebrew code on a malfunctioning computer#just so i can seem like a functional well adjusted member of society#BUT my cpu is constantly overheating. my fans are whirring. everything is lagging. because i need to run that cobbled together code#just to reach the base level of everyone around me. and it's bleeding me dry tbh#idk how else to explain it lmao#anyway been dreaming of simply reprogramming or inputting things i want into my brain/body and everything just working out#ever since i can remember. like with me being unable to fall asleep fast or simply wake up and immediately get up in the mornings#like my mother was annoyed at me over it and I MYSELF WAS ANNOYED AT MYSELF OVER IT#i wished there was a remote where people to press a button telling me to do something and my body would do it. no hassle. no lagging.#idk idk idk very in my head tonight ugh
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Starting pride month with the pharmacy denying me my testosterone prescription until mid-June and my doctor saying she can't do anything about it because it's a controlled substance 🙃✌️
#i should also add that it's been a week of trying to get her respond to the messages#'hey i don't want to be off my t for a month'#[full day of silence]#'sorry i don’t know why you can't get your refill but i can't do anything about it'#i am going to lose my mcfucking mind#that's not to mention a long argument where my now former friend#because they're one of those 'trump and biden are both equally bad' people who's planning on just letting trump take power again#because they seem to think that you can boycott a high-level politician in a critical election like it's a fucking soda company#for someone who used being communist as a justification for it#they sure have a very capitalist perspective on politics#i also couldn't fall asleep until literal dawn this morning because i forgot my sleep aids#and then when i did fall asleep i had a solid hour of nightmares#and tw for neurodivergence-based disordered eating for this next one#but my brain hasn't let me eat much of anything all day because it's not 'the right food'#it also will not tell me what 'the right food' is#anyways pride month is off to a pretty shitty start#OH and work changed my schedule from working mids to working primarily night shifts without telling me#and my ortho's advice for my wrist fucked it up a lot more and she hasn't responded to my email from a week ago#i'm fucking miserable#if you need me i'll be playing stardew and listening to sad gay music#personal#vent#rant
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#i need to stop doing this. but i just. i.....#.....I'll probably fall asleep minutes after i post this#so if you message me about it and i don't reply that's why#but i just#............fuck I'm trying so hard#it doesn't seem to matter#no matter how much i get done or accomplish it's never enough I'm always ten steps behind where i need to be to even reach net zero#not even the point of making progress. the point where i can so much as rest#I'm so tired. im so tired. nothing i think of works nothing i try is ever the right thing#i know from the outside looking in i may not seem like a burden i may even seem like an uplifting person to be around#but I'm a burden.#i am. I'm not self deprecating. it's a fact. it's just a fact.#as i am now i am a resource sink and i need too much help and i can't really be independent#and yet i don't really have a choice#so at present whoever i live with (currently my husband) gets stuck taking care of me because i just fall short in so many ways#.....i can't do anything right#nothing i do seems to matter. i can't.... i can't do anything#fuck#I'm just repeating myself I'm almost certain but#...............why can't i have a decent idea for once#all this confidence and i just keep fucking up anyway#worked so hard on being confident in myself that i don't match up to my own expectations now#i#.............fuck#everything hurts so badly#I'm so tired#....I'm so tired#....................if anyone happens to live in Minnesota and wants to just. come shoot me dead hit me up#im too much of a coward to do it myself
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Yes I totally agree with cancelling jkr and I don't support her in any way but i just can't unlike a book/movie i grew up with😭
sure, just keep in mind every bough book and every streamed movie keeps giving her money and platform to hurt more people.
#if u want detailed worldbuilding and character description. a bit blunt storyline and fantasy world try tolkien.#not a 'clean' author btw i didn't read his works so i can't judge details but the racism is suggested in some characters#if u want relatable kids in modern world yet fantasy battling the evil i suggest pjo series. again riordan is no saint but he#came out and apologised for the stereotypes he used and amitted he would have written things differently today#so u have 3 big authors aimed mostly at young adult readers with similar specific taste in books#tolkien can't tell us anything today. riordan apologised. and rowling keeps posting more and more horrifying stuff#doesn't learn anything and instead keeps producing stuff based on the original idea#not only disregarding the call outs but taking them like some kind of prize.#i'm not asking anyone to start hating on a story they loved as kids or forget a crush on some kid they had back in 2000s when they saw#the movie in the cinema#i'm just asking everyone to stop buying the books the movies the merch the games. stop borrowing the books from libraries.#stop giving jkr money and platform. for every teen happy with their new hp book that fits aesthetic of their home library#there's a teen coming in terms with who they are who is directly harmed#anyway. it's 2am so idk if any thoughts i had were coherent#i'm a lit major so i believe u can divide the artist and the art#but i'm also a nonbie with periods which is something that gets jkr so pressed. so beside that#i also believe that sometime - and especially in this case. u can't separate the two#more thoughts on thos some other day i'm falling asleep bye.#ask#e#(oh and the books and the movies? i only saw about 30 mins and read a few parts of some random book my cousin used to have#but from what i consumed of those. they're super super overhyped)
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MY PAINTING TURNED OUT OK....... I'M SO RELIEVED!!!! HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
#last week i felt like “i hate painting”#cause i was trying to do these crazy concepts and it just wasn't working#so for the final project i wanted to try and have fun with it but still execute a concept#anyway i wasn't crazy about how it was turning out and i thought i'd gotten in over my head again#like last night i was literally laying in bed trying to fall asleep thinking i would have to paint over the whole thing to salvage it#and that if i wanted to get rid of it i wouldn't even be able to sell it for the cost of the canvas it was painted on#but after putting this last colour on i think it actually turned out really good....#i'm so happy ;w;#i'll try to get some good pics of it at my class tonight!!
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whoops
#it's nothing crazy lol i just.#my new coworker keeps falling asleep. which is understandable but not cool bc we need to be awake?#as in literally the whole reason we're here is to be awake while everyone else is asleep. it's fully a safety thing. so that sucks#but anyway her sleeping breathing is both the loudest and quickest I've ever heard. i mean like she's breathing in every other second#like her breathing in and out is in sync with the seconds counter on my watch. and it sounds like she's VERY congested?#basically it's very loud and annoying. im not mad at her abt the breathing thing bc that's not her fault.#(but jesus god it's so autistically annoying.) (and i AM mad abt the sleeping thing. we've all done it but sleeping the whole time?? rude)#ANYWAYS. i was staring at her bc i was trying to figure out like. is she actually asleep rn? is smthn wrong?#and then she jerked awake and looked directly at me. which like. what the fuck. ok#so that's where I'm at currently ✌️#rowan raps#edit: she started FULLY snoring and my other coworker dropped her keys loudly to try to wake her up. it did not work.#edit 2: she's watching some show on her phone without headphones. also my other coworker fully left and is somewhere else? idk
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iiiiiiiii must get to more giffing but i should go to sleep bc i have work tomorrow buuuut i had two lebanese coffees at the restaurant tonight that we had to go to bc of the relos aaaand... lebanese coffees are basically espressos aka yummy soooo.... so i had two... and i also had a cup of (black) tea there........ and i'm not tired. despite having 2h of sleep yesterday, and 9h today, and still waking up tired. but after the coffees? yaaaaaas
#actually it's all been terribly hectic#bton coming out. relos coming over. grandma dying. work requiring awkward emails to be written#which i finally did after like a week#whoops#i dont want to go to work tomorrow!!! i'm all socialed out#i need a hibernation day#but noooooooooooooo#i miss a/b!anthony#and anthony generally. but a/b!anthony is comfort character rn. aka the one i torture just to make myself fall asleep lol#eta: torture as in he got bullied at school lmao. not torture torture. that would be a different anthony for a different fic#me.txt#i have gifset ideas#well. since i have to leave the house so much this week... maybe some of them will actually be done#bc if i'm at home for the whole day then i just write. or try to#anyway tumblr give me a nice anthony or a&b or benedict thing to reblog before i go to bed. orrr i should get into bed first and if nothing#new comes up by then.. then i'll just do some comfort blogging#eyyy a plan
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