#anyway I'm definitely excessively rambling lol

[ereh-emanresu-tresni]

Lowkey tempted to start using þ and ð

[bokettochild]

Hi! First off, I sent some ramblings before, and I feel safe here to share my thoughts! Your blog is amazing, to start.

Okay, so I can't read your opera house AU, though I bet it is amazing. I just don't have AO3, and when I look it up, I can't find it, so that's fine! I read your thing where it described who each LU character was in your opera house AU, and I love how Legend is a jack of all trades.

(I think it's a jack of all trades. It might be a jock of all trades.🤷‍♀️)

I feel legend, is kinda of self-conscious about his voice and thinks he isn't good enough to be on stage. That's why he mostly stays backstage and fixes things for last minute, and lets Fable take the stage.

I feel like even though Legend has been there for...like all of his life, when he saw Dusk, Artemis, and Warriors, he kind of shrunk in on his talent, seeing how they were literally crowd-pleasers. Everyone loves them; the crowds go wild when they see them on stage.

I feel like this happened once when everyone went out to get something for the play they were doing. He went on stage and just sang a hard song that not even Artemis or Warriors could do, but he nailed it.

I also feel like he would act like Jeremy Jordan. Jeremy Jordan.

Jeremy Jordan Did Bonnie and Clyde the musical and the scene raise a little hell The song, the first one he does, this great acting where he acts like he got beaten horribly, he is terrified. I describe it badly, but if you look it up if you want, I feel like that's how legend would act. He would put his heart and soul into his acting.

I feel like the warriors accidentally bullied the legend once because of something that made him shrink in on himself more when it came to stage time.

Anyways I love your blog!

I'm sorry to hear that! I have most of my fics blocked so non-users can't see them, mostly due to the rise in bots on Ao3 scraping for works and stealing our creations. If you'd like though, I can post them here as well! I used to cross-post a lot of stuff, but I stopped when I realized I could never find the fics again after LOL

And yes! Legend is the jack-of-all-trades at the Crown City opera! He grew up in the opera house (Twilight, his uncle, has been a stage-hand there since he was a baby) so he's been able to learn first hand from masters of the trade how to do basically everything there is to know! He's not as good with paperwork and the advertising aspect, as most of that sort of thing is done by Lullaby and Dot, but he's got the bare-bones knowledge (there's a rumor that Lullaby made sure he knew because she intends to leave the opera to him one day, but it's just a rumor).

I don't know if Legend is so self-conscious about his voice, but he's definitely not aware of how good he is. Like I said; he grew up learning from the best, and a lot of the crew and cast found it fun to show him how to do stuff in their down time, so he's probably got a better education in music than anyone else in the building. However, because he doesn't take acting as his main role and mostly helps in the back, he's sort of fallen into the belief that he's only maybe slightly better than average. Is he? Heck no! He could probably give the divas a nice run for their money if he was trying hard enough! However, while he most certainly has given his all to every role (he really does love acting) he still maintains that he's an "average nobody" who fills in on occasion when someone calls out sick, or plays the lesser roles when they're short on cast.

The opera knows he's good, Lullaby knows he's good, and gosh do their audiences know he's good! but because Legend is under the impression that he's average, he doesn't seek more time in the spotlight. Additionally, since Lullaby knows he loves what he is doing (he very much enjoys his prop work and set creation and costuming opportunities, don't let the grumbling fool you), she doesn't see a reason to call on him excessively if that's not what he wants. After all, he wasn't hired to be part of the cast (although whether he was actually officially hired at all is unknown, although he's paid very well).

I will say he does compare his skill to the divas, but sort of in a casual way when he's talking to Hyrule and the rest of his team. Sort of in the whole manner of: "I'm not like Dusk or anything, there's a reason you don't see my face on the billboards". I will say he's probably compared himself a lot to them in this manner though and convinced himself that he's not that great in comparison, but he's chill with it because obviously he can't be good at everything, and he's good at his job, so that's what matters.

His biggest point when people bring up his skill is always that there's a reason the divas' names are well known and he's just crew. What he doesn't know is that he very much has a near cult following and there are theories online. He's not very present on social media or anything, but their audiences know there is this one actor/actress who appears sometimes to fill roles or to cover when the headliners can't be there. Nobody knows what said actor/actress's name is, and they actually aren't even sure what gender he is, they just know said person has a lot of skill and they wish he'd show up more!

Lullaby is aware of this, but again, she respects Legend's choice to do his job, and also has no interest in throwing him to the dogs by releasing his name if he doesn't want her too. She wants him to have a normal life, thank you, not get hounded by media and fans like some of her staff are.

His skill is totally comparable to Jeremy Jordan though! Absolutely love that idea (and the idea that maybe he sounds like him too!)

As for the whole Warriors suggestion, I think they both tease each other back and forth a lot. Warriors is a good few years older, so he isn't mean with it, but considering their dynamic, it's not too far out there to suppose that maybe he once teasingly commented on Legend's singing skill with the intent of implying it was good, but Legend (pessimist that he is) assumed it was negative. In which case, he probably is a bit self-conscious about it sometimes, although it's less noticeable. It'd be more like he doesn't sing as loudly while working if he hears Wars nearby, and gets touchy when the diva talks about his skills. Wars isn't a jerk though, so he probably is clueless about the mix-up.

With all this in mind though, I can totally see the main story (when I do actually write it, LOL) featuring Legend as that sidelined, super-star-level nobody who teaches our lead (Hyrule) how to absolutely wow the crowds. Would he know why Hyrule asked him? No. He probably assumes Rule just asked the guy he actually knows, that and the divas are unapproachable or smth, or maybe because Legend's been here a while. Man has no clue, but he will help Hyrule to the best of his abilities!

[spotaus]

(hi I’m just gonna finish what I wanna say here cause the tags are getting excessive and people can only handle so many reblogs of moots gagging)

I won’t get burnt out! I’m perfectly content right now just really hyper fixated on pretender. Also he is still taller then Ozzy without heels by like half and inch. It still counts for something.

low-key wanna continue this comic but I have no idea how he’s canonically react to being kissed. Flustered yes but who isn’t? Anyway that’s it for my ramble I just finished making a quiz for a whole new fandom so. Yippieeee!

thanks spot for making Pretender and N! They’re the silliest AU’s I’ve come across. (And the most smooch able.)

Heya!! (And yeah, good call! I forgot that Asks exist lol-)

And nice! Glad ta hear you'll be good lol, I always just like to check in on folks ^^. And NICE! Tall Pretender from comic holds strong then! (Plus who knows, Pretender does shape-shift so he could totally just... change height to mess w/ ppl or tease hehe)

And Ooh!! I'd love to see where you could go with it! If ur looking for a potential reaction I might have a few? (Adding them... now: 1) Pretender kinda like, melts a lil. When he's emotional he kinda loses his shape and sinks into that purple mist, so I could totally see him just kinda getting flustered and literally deflating for a sec before popping back up with a stuttered little surprised response. 2) He's definitely Blushing, but doesn't like, react very obviously. More of a, "Well, that's a first!" Followed by a cheeky, "Usually I try to eat a human's face, not the other way around.... Not that I'm complaining!" Or something with a stupid lil grin and a wink, before he continues conversation. 3) "You sure know how to greet a new pal!" As he kinda squints at them and goes, "So, do I get a name to match the kiss?" Looking flustered for sure, but low-key smug as he jokes to cover his loss of composure. These would just depend on how competent u think he'd be in the face of a Random Wonderful Smooch hehe...) And those are just loose ideas? I'm actually not sure how he'd react to romance yet, if only because I haven't written him in that situation often enough yet hehe! U got him p spot on tho, so take any or none of these as guidance if you want! (And if not this was still a fun chance to write him some dialogue lol---)

And You're so welcome!!! Thank you for enjoying them so much!!! I pride myself on the Silly since my Serious sticks to writing, so I'm glad ya like em! (And wanna smooch em too! The rizz was built-in I suppose lol---)

[mikaharuka]

So I... err... I had a little bit of a wild time today. It'd be excessive if I explained everything, so I'll keep it short. Basically, my brain is a wild place and I get all sorts of wild ideas and sudden realizations all the damn time. Function of the sensory, imaginative brain and all.

Well today, life was normal and all, then a random chain of events sort of triggered a massive fundamental shift in my Winter Light world? But definitely for the better, and in the strangest way possible, everything I've written is perfectly compliant. Not only that, but somehow, it fits even better than my original plans.

This sort of fundamental change has only happened once before, triggering a whole slew of realizations that made everything infinitely better and now I'm realizing this is the same phenomena. It's actually kind of eerie, how everything I've written and planned is 100% compliant - like I was writing this story all along but didn't explicitly realize it until today, and was only moving on instinct somehow?

Nothing will change on the surface (since I'm working with an unintentionally future-seeing genius brain here), but I am taking a day or two off from writing Prithvi-Chandra to figure some stuff out, since this whole realization actually made Chandra even better, more thematic, poetic, and honestly beautiful in a way it wasn't before (or wasn't as much, anyways)? But it all works out, since my goal was to finish editing and posting Prithvi-Surya this weekend anyways, so that's the deal. Editing while I figure stuff out for the umpteenth time lol

But I swear, this'll be really amazing and... hopefully Annie (@udaberriwrites) can vouch for that when she wakes up in 8 hours? Not me, about to go ramble to Annie in the DMs like usual, but in most epic way ever since we first met and I first posted Apricity lol

[forcebookish]

So we've talked in the comments a few times but I wanted to say I agree with everything you've said about TopMew it's so annoying that they either ignore them and only focus on Top supposedly cheating not noticing how Boston is assaulting him but Top is the bad guy while Boston gets a blind eye tbh I feel TopMew gets so overlooked anyway cause everyone is forcus on SandRay (which I am finding boring I love sober Ray but I'm not feeling Sand at all) and BostonNick (I love Nick but hate Boston it's quite annoying I don't even go on any only friends tag I just stay in the fandom

omg i feel like i'm starting a topmew cult 🤭

but yeah! i keep seeing the same people who love boston fucking HAAAAAAATE top. and like, look no one has to like my favorite character, but willfully misunderstanding him to support their own excessive, disproportionate hatred?

it would be one thing if the fandom were all in for every slutty bitchy man on the slutty bitchy man show, but like you said, apparently boston's the only one who gets a free pass. (side-note: i maintain that top is a slut and a bitch; while boston is a player and an asshole. so far, i have been proven right *flips hair*) we're okay with the sexual predator, who literally refers to people as prey and hits the person he's been sleeping with? if we're going to take the trailer as gospel (which we shouldn't tbh), why is that overlooked?

and if they really care so much about the cheating subplot, again, why does boston get a free pass?????!? it takes more than one person to cheat. he's supposed to be mew's best friend, they've known each other for yeeears, and he fucks the guy's first boyfriend. for me? burnt fucking bridge. i'd kick him in the pool too!!!! that is the real betrayal, not whatever top does.

i also find sandray boring 👉👈 i'm kind of the opposite though, i'm a little over ray and sand seems like he'll have a more interesting arc. but as characters and a ship they don't do a lot for me.

i mean,

(before anyone comes for me: THIS IS A JOKE! i don't actually think he thinks that lmao)

but i might change my mind about them!! i like firstkhao at least, so it's not like they're a chore to watch but definitely not a dynamic i'm into. i liked them well enough in the first episode and i mean, it does look like they're going to have public sex, which... if you've read my guncher fic, you know i am into lol so they might win me back

nickboston are probably the most doomed by the narrative, which makes fandom being more into them all the more annoying. i guess because they're """""messy""""🙄😒 at least mark's getting the attention he deserves, he's one of the best actors in the show (i'm not going to go into anyone else's acting because i will be harpooned). and nick, ugh, i just want to scoop him up into my pocket and take him away from it all. stop having sex with the walking red flag who dresses like a grandma and has a serial killer wall of photos of men he's fucked 😭😭😭 the dick cannot be that bomb😭😭

thanks for popping in and encouraging me to ramble!! hahaha

[distortedbeat]

KNOWING YOUR PARTNER WELL CAN POTENTIALLY MAKE WRITING TOGETHER A LOT EASIER.  REPOST.

name.    Ren ( formerly Cry/Cryptic or Cereal )

pronouns.    They/he/she

preference  of  communication.    Discord is the easiest way to reach me! I don't mind the tumblr IM system terribly, but it's much easier for me to keep track on Discord, as Tumblr doesn't always notify me.

name  of  muse.    Kyouka Jirou

rp  experience  /  how  long.     About 12-13 years! As far as Tumblr goes, though, it's been like... 7-8 years, I think? Across many, many blogs

best  experience.    Probably getting to meet @invisiquirk and @empyrrrean. Those two are absolute GEMS in my life, and Cinder has been probably my closest friend for so, so long. I don't know where I'd be without the both of them. Getting to meet them in person a few years back is an absolute highlight of my life.

rp  pet  peeves  /  dealbreakers.    I honestly can't think of any pet peeves in this moment. Maybe purple prose? I am a native English speaker, but a lot of that is excessive and just muddles whatever it is you're actually trying to communicate. Dealbreakers, though-- that shit is all in my rules, naturally.

fluff,  angst,  or  smut.   I love fluff. So much. You don't understand. Platonic, familial, romantic-- you name it, I will find any way I can to make it cute and fluffy. It's my favorite. Angst is nice too, but I don't like angst just for the sake of angst, and usually I like for there to be some kind of good resolution/ending to it, or at least a neutral one. You're talking to someone terrified to death of the 'major character death' tags on AO3, man. LOL. Smut, though, is a no-go on this blog. Jirou's a minor.

plots  or  memes.    To be completely honest, I'm trying to get better at plotting, and would love to do more of it. But winging it/going off of memes has been my way for a long time-- so I'm very much open to doing both.

long  or  short  replies.    Long. For better or worse, I usually try to make myself write at least 3 paragraphs, at least for answers to memes. Threads usually end up about that length anyway. Short replies just... don't come to me tbh. I like to ramble lmao

best  time  to  write.    Whenever I find the time, honestly. Evening and night time hours feel the most productive to me, but I often work during the night so that's not exactly feasible. And with my shifts seemingly getting longer lately, free time is sporadic as hell.

are  you  like  your  muse. We're both definitely "The Music Kid". Jirou, however, is way more talented than I am. I only know how to play a trumpet and vague piano skills, and she can do like... everything lmao. But in terms of aesthetics and attitude, I think we're pretty similar! Except I'm just an angrier person. Bitter and small like a human espresso lksmdlkgm

Tagged by: I stole it off the dash except it was a couple days ago, I think LOL Tagging: You, with the eyes. I'm too scared to tag people yet lksmflkdmg

[slowd1ving]

REACHES THROUGH THE SCREEN AND SHAKES YOU ??? YOU UPLOADED THE REST OF THE FIC WITHIN TWO OF MY SLEEP CYCLES ?? (● ˃̶͈̀ロ˂̶͈́)੭ꠥ⁾⁾ didnt even give me the time to react !!! aaaaah !!!!

i dont even know what to say anymore dude , this work is a fucking masterpiece . the feelings feeling’d so hard and your writing style is SO . YUMMY . can i eat it pls ? (*´∀`)♪ i loved reading vil’s thoughts n stuff because they were all narrated so … good . amazing . wonderful . what words can i even say to describe the feelings reading your work made me feel ?!?!! AAAHH

and . oh god the spicy bits … />\\<\ ur gonna kill me lmfao , i had to pause several times and like shove my face into the cold side of my pillow bc ,,, gawd damn ,,,, KXJAKDJKSND LOL rivalry spice gotta be my favorite flavor of spice ever it has no right to be so good .

ALSO . reader and rook . they made me giggle . i love them . one of my friends really likes rook and im like yes ! the silly with the fuckass bob ! /ref ( theyre the reason my first and only colored twst fanart is him )

i like actually dont know what else to say now , so im gonna just end here but before i go i would like to inform you that you inspired me to go and level up my vil card , which funnily enough the only SR i have of him is his labwear card (°▽°) so now whenever i fucking look at it im going to think of your fic series I HOPE YOUR PROUD OF YOURSELF FOR TAINTING MY MIND !!!! /lhj

i also fucking saw your comment about a possible al-haitham fic . im perceiving you so hard for that right now . i would get on my hands and knees for an al-haitham fic from you pls (>A<) i love that smartass so much .

anyWAYS i hope your days been well and that the rest of it is awesome as well ! much love ! (´꒳`)♡ & pls excuse any excess ramble-y ness or if my typing is weird / unclear i just woke up from a nap a while ago so im . out of it heheh .

SPEEDY UPLOADER FR!!! nah I'm so impatient I like seeing all the reactions to the uploads so I tend to update quite fast 😭😭

THANK YOUUU it took such a long time to find a writing style I enjoyed so I'm glad others enjoy it too lmao. and yes I agree vil's thoughts >

writing interesting character's perspectives is always so fun to do

imagine how it was writing those parts !!! i had to take so many screaming breaks to continue each line cause he's TOOOO FINE!!! rivalry spice all the way brooo

rook's so silly fr; writing him was the only use I had out of taking french so I'm glad the opportunity came up

LMAO IK WHICH CARD YOU'RE TALKING ABOUTTT 😭I'm glad more science vil appreciation is coming up and what an honour it is to be associated with his card 🙏🙏

alhaitham fic is definitely in the ideas stage (god I've got such good ones lmao) like you cannot imagine how much I'm rubbing my hands in glee when I say this

thank you so much I hope your day has been excellent tooo!! and don't apologise for rambling it was very enjoyable reading your comments and thoughts anon 😭😭

[creechurfoundincheckerboardvoid]

I only started following you because of my salad fingers phase and you had a crossover comic featuring him, but now the lore of dhmis is enticing and I have no clue where to start. Can you- can you pwease explain it to me?

-dysrix anon

ok got it!!! no problem!!!!!

(before i start rambling excessively i just gotta say that's different to hear lol, i think the majority are around for the puppets and just tolerate mr sally's presence)

OK SO. dhmis is a webseries that started in 2011 as a short film made by a couple of college kids who wanted to say something about not imposing rules on how creativity should be expressed, because art school is kinda just Like That. that video was put on youtube and went really super viral and all the Reaction Video People were a "so scawy 😥" whiny baby about it. the creators wanted to make a series but left the idea alone because it was a lot of work and also expensive (puppetry). then in 2014 they were commisioned to make 2, they did, and then tony the talking clock (emphasis on those last three words) became a tumblr sexyman and a bunch of everyone started shipping him with sketchbook (who they called paige) and humanizing them and it was just this whole thing. anyway thanks to them the creators made a kickstarter to fund the rest of the series and it actually worked out, too. so i'd like to thank the clockfuckers we would not be here without you. i hope you fucked your clock. anyway then over the next two years the last four episodes came out and they were epic and gamer and increasingly Kinda Horrifying (three still messes me up a bit but none of the others ever scared me, it's just more weird than anything. in a very good way) and the last one, six, came out june 19th 2016 (which was father's day, and it hasn't been father's day june 19th since yesterday, and it won't be again until 2033), and it was awesome. then september 13th 2018 wakey wakey (thirteen second long trailer) happened and everyone lost their shit and then sundance film festival in january 2019 where they pitched that pilot they made around (and seeing as the pilot as we know it is almost certainly a lost media now, those very low-quality cam leaks on youtube are possibly all that remains). then in july 2020 they started making the show and well you know Plague Was A Thing That Happened so it was pretty quiet for a while and then august 30th 2021 they announced they finished filming and then february 25th there was a clip continuing the pirate joke and saying they were finishing lines and then late may wakey wakey disappeared aND THEN YESTERDAY FLY HAPPENED AND

and the reason i'm finishing that particular tangent very quickly is that i am now realising you were likely asking about the lore of the story itself. and not its process of existence

well

SO NO ONE KNOWS WHAT IT'S ABOUT.

there sure are a lot of ideas out there!! and i have definitely got my own ideas which i don't really talk about ever because they're honestly a bit too rude to the media theory (which i hate - a lot - but also which a lot a lot a lot of other people really like. so it'd be mean)

ANYWAY THE BASIC SUMMARY OF THE WEBSERIES is there are three puppets and they're yellow guy and red guy and duck and they all live in a house together and every episode some object in their house comes alive and sings to them a lesson about an abstract, basic concept like yknow creativity and time. so it's sort of meant to resemble something like sesame street at first. but these sentient objects (who are usually called "teachers") are kinda Really Fucked Up and the lessons go wrong really fast and usually end in uhhhh murder. also their life is a lie and it's like puppet matrix and roy, yellow guy's dad, really does seem to be the guy pulling the strings behind it all. man it's like thirty minutes total on youtube i don't want to spoil it TOO much in case you ever decide to check it out lol. oh wait. oh wait you asked where to start

well you start there!!!!!!

ALSO there's a bunch of lost videos and that one puppet interview and a collection of little things around miss becky's instagram or mr joe's twitter that all just weaves together with the main thing to make A Web of Story and it's awesome. i'd be glad to tell you all about that too if you ask!!!! i'm very normal about all this that's why i have lists and notes and a handful of rambly word document essays about this everywhere

ok i'm done thanks for coming to autism hour with creech

[bourbon-ontherocks]

hellooooooo again! well I’d never heard of Good Girls before, but that hasn’t ever stopped me from reading a fic so I’m saving yours for later 🤗 how’d you get into it? as for Grace&Frankie I watched a couple of eps when it first came out, but that’s it! you seem passionate about both tho, so maybe… someday… as for JTV; trust me, pregnancy is the least of poor Jane’s problems 😂 it’s excessive in the best ways, and full of laughs, love&plot twists

(Julia's adventures with the HPI anon)

Oh hey anon!! So good to hear from you again!! ❤️ (please know that while I absolutely love these interactions we have because it gives me a fantastic opportunity to endlessly ramble about HPI on main, I'm also extremely impatient to find out who you are 👀👀)

How come you never heard of Good Girls before? 😱 I feel like everybody I know has at least heard of it just from Netflix suggestions/top ten at the time it was airing! But it's cool to find out that it's actually untrue because this show is a trainwreck lol! It's a cool watch though, I guess you could give it a try, at least for the first two seasons. And that's so sweet and brave of you to read fics with absolutely no context hahaha! ���

How did I get into it? Wow. Well as far as I remember I just watched the first season casually because Netflix suggested I might like it, then season 2 dropped and broke me. The ship in this show is an absolute dumpster fire that invented sexual tension, with all the angst and toxicity and unhealthiness and murdering attempts that you could expect. No fictional couple does it like Brio lol! 🔥🔥🔥 It wrecked me so hard that it actually got me involved in fandom for the first time in my life (now I realize that I'd been a fangirl for a very long time before that, but I just had no idea there was a name for it, and other people to share it with). I didn't know what words like AO3 or Tumblr meant. I started writing fanfics, posting on Tumblr, interacting with other people, and that has been a huge part of my life for the past three years, so yeah, basically Good Girls changed my life and I'm grateful for that. 💕 It doesn't make it less of a trainwreck though 😂

And I must say I never saw myself as a multifandom person with a new hyperfixation every six months or so, I didn't think I'd ever fall so hard again for another fandom, but then Morgadec showed up, and literally lifted me up from depression, and um... yeah. That's the stuff. 😭😭 Which surprises me a lot because their thing is completely different from Brio's dynamic and what I liked the most about them but I guess one doesn't get to choose what they fall for...

Anyway, enough rambling about Good Girls and my fandom life!! Grace and Frankie is a great show, which truly delves into the lives of elderly people, I definitely recommend it.

And oh, I'll add Jane the Virgin to the list then!! 👀👀

[nuclearforest]

☕️🍬 👻

Hehehe thanks for the ask!! Hope that the candy counts like, from past chapters because you saw the chapter for this week and there's no fluff. Just excitement.

☕ coffee or tea: describe your OC’s favorite place to relax.

I've got Claire, my fire lady, and also Rosemary Briar! New sweet and powerful lady that kinda took the shape of the reader in Une Chien Nuit. I love her too so I'm doing BOTH. I need to learn how to draw.

Anyway, Claire's usual place to relax is at home. And that's boring. So her favorite place to relax away from home is along the shores of the great lakes-- doesn't particularly matter where, as long as it's in a wooded cottage along a lakefront where she can just unwind and pretend that she's on an actual vacation instead of remaining on call 24/7. Hans and Schrodinger enjoy going with her, and they rotate between lakes every year.

Briar, on the other hand, loves little cafes. Good for warm drinks, sweet pastries, and peoplewatching. It would be a bit harder to peoplewatch if Barrett were to tag along, but that's only because her eyes are focused on her favorite romantic goofball.

👻 ghost: can you tease some wip ideas that have been haunting you/something you want to write in the future?

Rotten I'm haunted by everything but you'll have to pull sirens plot from my cold, dead hands. Anyway i do wanna ramble on about the recent idea I had deserving of horny jail:

Reader's a fae, hopped up to mirror a heat, with the logic I explored in Une Nuit Chien, and turned loose in the woods as competition for Hellsing's big 3 to catch and breed (reasons why still tbd but this is effectively pwp so who cares? (((((((......I do.)))))))). Alucard's an eldritch horror with two whole hotdogs, Anderson is probably something mildly demonic, and Hans is a werewolf. It would definitely be PWP with three branching chapters after the introduction for reader to pick their poison. If I could restrain myself from my usual excessive authoring tendencies, I could do a male and female reader version. But I don't wanna set myself up for failure and promise the world lol. At the very least there will be some predator/prey stuff going down. Definitely highly possessive.

If anybody checks my new pinned post I have a summary of ideas there too lol.

🍬 candy: share a sweet or fluffy scene from your wip!

Ok this is where I need to cheat because the new Sirens chapter is like, all action. So instead, take one of my favorite bites of fluff:

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Satin shows quickly after and Hans ends up passing out bananas left and right to insatiable sirens. He must’ve been right, given the reception, and by the time they’re out Claire’s begging him with wide eyes and a pronounced bottom lip to fetch another bunch. Looking over the others, all donning similar expressions, he sighs to himself and weighs his options. He had never considered women could be bottomless pits, originally thinking maybe Zorin had been an exception, and just shakes his head.

“ha…” Claire tries, mouth forming awkwardly around the noise with the rasp in her voice returning. Hans quirks an eyebrow at her, slightly leaning in as the other sirens turn their attention to their sister and cock their heads. “ha…”

The werewolf slips a bit closer to the ladies and pats Claire’s head, cutting off her next attempt before taking to his feet to clean the mess he threw behind him, gathering the pile of peels into his arms. “ha…” He ignores the haunting thought of the flash of sadness that ran through Claire’s eyes as he had turned away. One more bunch couldn’t possibly hurt. It’s not like he’d figure out how to preserve them all, anyway, he tells himself as he hikes up the beach.  

“Hase!”

Freezing, Hans robotically turns his head to look back at the blonde who had slipped up and settled in his old spot, hands clasped over her chest with determination in her eyes. “Hase!” she repeats and Hans’ heart melts, jaw loosening a second time.

It was his name.

She knew his name. And she said it.

Blinking dumbly at her, she just repeats it a third time. “Hase!”

He’d gladly trade all the blood in his body and flesh on his bones to hear it over and over again. He had wondered if he would ever hear it again. Swallowing the sudden lump in his throat, he fully turns back to her before the others start to chirp amongst themselves. And just over the sound of the waves, the chirps fade into those same little ‘ha’s as Claire’s determination slips into another pout and Hans remembers how to move his legs again.

Bananas. They wanted bananas.

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[op-sheepy]

One Piece Manga spoilers ahead...

Got a message from someone expressing disappointment that the recent OP manga chapters dashes their headcanons that the Heart Pirates are medically trained... or at least competent enough at it... I can see how the latest chapters could somehow change this perception which is a totally valid interpretation. (Likely to be canon too though it could all be interpreted some other way with our favorite headcanons intact.. :D)

Of course, bringing my attention to this could only mean that they wanted to be convinced otherwise. Using my favorite fandom tools of some recontextualization, selective interpretation, and some basic relevant medical tidbits (my friend preferred calling it me 'bulsh*tting' my headcanons into the realm of possibility, which fair) I did manage to convince them (it helps that they really wanted it to be true lol) and they've convinced me to share here. Remember to take the following with a grain of salt and to not take anything mentioned that's medically related seriously or as an absolute fact that would automatically reflect in real life. I mean, it's a manga and we're definitely stretching things here... Anyways, here goes...

Let me start off with this panel:

Now it's been years since I've had any use for BLS but still the first thing that struck me when I saw this was, 'That is not how one does chest compressions...'

You can do a quick search for proper hand placement for CPR and it will tell you that the heel of one hand is at the center of the chest with the other hand on top of the first hand, fingers interlocked. Now, I'm not really that good at making out details from manga panels but the hand placement does not look correct at all.

My first instinct was to make another WIP fic where their captain drills them and they review this (which I did do lol). And then made my assumptions if I go with the premise that the crew is doing their best to their knowledge.

This would bring up the following points:

As mentioned, the hands do not look correct for chest compressions.

Water is spouting from Luffy's mouth like a fountain suggesting that the pressure being exerted on the chest is pushing the water out.

The purpose of chest compressions in CPR is not to expel water but to emulate the heart beating and maintain circulation. (so the Oxygen can get to your brain continuously)

The incorrect hand placement would then suggest that Bolero Hat guy is not trying to maintain circulation but instead trying to expel the liquid from the lungs. Sort of like a lung massage. This is somewhat confirmed in a succeeding panel with them with someone trying to affirm whether they've gotten rid of all the water.

Basically, they are clearing the airway. Which they would only do if they've established that Luffy's circulation is fine and that the obstruction is the immediate issue that needs to be addressed.

Now, during drowning, generally, aspirated water should end up in the stomach because of laryngospasm (vocal cords spasming). For some reason, maybe force of will (because he did look like he was still screaming while he was drowning) or his strange anatomy (because he is rubber), the water somehow ended up in his lungs. We assume this because Luffy with water in his stomach looks like this:

Not as relevant but we can also assume that his rubber powers affect the displacement of liquids within the different membranes inside his body.. because otherwise, the next image wouldn't be possible (Bolero hat guy would have had better luck performing some modified thoracentesis with a spigot)

If you're still following my rambling, what we've pretty much established is that whatever the Hearts were doing it wasn't necessarily the chest compressions done in CPR or rather, it has maybe passed that (also note the lack of defibrillator use which should be available in that submarine).

Right after clearing his lungs of water, they move on to the next thing they need to address which is his lack of consciousness ('Open your eyes, man!') because from the image above the 'sh---h' sound coming from Luffy suggests that he is already breathing.

For alteration of consciousness, the treatment would depend on the underlying cause. Here the presumption was the lack of Oxygen (or whatever gas is being breathed in One Piece).

This is pretty much the scene that shows them seemingly not knowing what to do but given the circumstances, I thought it was understandable. Also, Luffy's physiology is pretty unique. I doubt squeezing the lungs would have been viable as a method of removing the fluid (it would have been postural drainage, some modified Heimlich, or straight up inserting a tube) had he not been made of stretchy rubber. Any further intervention without the accompanying knowledge could be more detrimental. Here is a picture of our other resident genius doctor saying as much regarding administering medication he doesn't know enough about.

Since no return to consciousness was imminent and there was no doctor to make a diagnosis and prescribe treatment, the team is left to determine the next step by themselves. (Look at them looking for their captain who happens to be their doctor...)

'I don't know what more to do for him,' suggests that they've already performed all necessary procedures based on the circumstance and Luffy's unique anatomy.

If we dissect the scene further, their panicked suggestions could only come from people who have some passing medical knowledge.

Someone suggests giving him some pills and someone quickly rebuffs by suggesting giving him an injection instead. Between the oral route and intravenous injection for drug administration after drowning, the latter should be the preference (to maintain the airway and because of possible injury to any part of the airway). But they probably have prior experience on the difficulty of getting a normal needle through Luffy's rubber skin.

It also suggests that they have a specific medication in mind to give him as they are arguing route.

Someone notes that Luffy is pale. As we are assuming that they've established the lack of a possible cardiac arrest, they should be looking into addressing any other possible underlying cause. It could be blood loss, poor peripheral circulation, anemia, hypoglycemia, hypotension, etc.

Ultimately, though, the team was successful in reviving him. Given that Luffy pretty much recovers from eating excessive amounts of food, he'll be fine and will probably be rejoining the battle good as new. The same could not be said for the Polar Tang's food supply.

TL;DR: The Hearts did a good enough job. Their captain would still drill them but he'd still be proud. And now they really need to win that battle because they'll be out of food.

[hzrnvm]

ok so basically today, two of my teachers and the school counselor and high school principal came over for dinner, and i was ready for this to be a very awkward moment, but! once i got into the groove of things, I started actually TALKING! like, if anything, i talked a little TOO much (a little)! which is definitely better than not enough, lol. like before it, my parents were like "you should take advantage of this opportunity to get connections with your teachers and stuff" and when i told my dad that i didn't know what to say, he said to "answer the questions". and that advice genuinely worked holy crap? i think it works bc whenever i answer a question it's often a full response, depending on the question. so that rocks i have a piece of genuinely good advice now. and luckily these were my two nicest teachers. so yeah! i made genuine, actually conversation and i was worried about blunders like slurring (like slurred speech, not the other kind), excessive rambling and hedging, taking too long, stuff like that, but my dad said i was being self-conscious! which is great news bc ig that means its not a big deal, really! i'm just so happy to finally be taking pills that actually do something i've been taking different ones for a while and none did anything and it was so frustrating. and also! so a few days ago i found out that this melody i wrote down on a recipt and some lyrics i wrote in summer match pretty well! so i started making the song, right? and i brought it up in conversation, and my math teacher apparently really enjoys music so he said he'd be glad to check over it whenever i'd like to send it! life is literally going so insanely good it's so crazy that just two nights ago i was polar opposite

OH. AND! I GOT A JOB ‼️ i'm gonna be tutoring math! im really excited, i srsly want to help kids understand this stuff better i love helping pppllllll.

i don't know i just feel so much more full! full as a person! so much LESS EMPTY! i feel like i might actually have hope in making good irl friends, i feel like i actually freakin'. am free from all the emptiness filling me up. anyways.

[retvenkos]

alright, Olive, I'm back with a weird question. (but first of all, I hope you're doing good! how awfully rude of me to not start my ask by that) because you're so good at psychoanalyzing people (and I adore your rambling thoughts), I was wondering if you could maybe help me? I've always wondered who my godly parent would be in the PJO universe - it's been the biggest mistery in my life since I was 8. I just haven't found myself in any figure of the Olympus, maybe because I'd be the child of a minor deity? I've thought about Apollo, and I genuinely like it, but idk, maybe I need a more thorough analysis. I've also gotten Iris and Hemera from other people? I just think your piercing mind could see right through me. anyway, this is weird lol, I hope you don't mind me asking this! and don't worry if you can't answer, it's totally fine. 💜

asdfgfddfgfd, when i get my two weeks off for summer break, i should just do placements for inquiring mutuals because honestly it's one of my favorite things,,,

also, before i get into it (because i have some thoughts™), i'm going to plug one quotev quiz that i think is better than the rest when it comes to these matters: this godly parent quiz.

now, clara, i am not nearly as versed in pjo cabin placements as i am in hogwarts houses, but i'm going to give this my best shot:

first, i think i would be remiss not to mention that you are a libra, and libra is associated with themis, (idk really what that means since i'm not into astrology, lol), but themis isn't mentioned as one of the gods with a cabin, so i'm disregarding that. if we are following this logic though, i think that aphrodite is also associated with libra, so perhaps you could fit into that cabin? personally, i don't see it as strongly as i see others, but you do have a hopeless romantic streak, and a strong sense of community, which could sway you in that direction.

as for apollo, i'm going to unpack that for a minute, because it's very interesting that you'd place yourself there, and i'm on the fence with that myself, lol. (this is very stream of consciousness, so let's see where this section takes us)

i definitely see the association with the arts - music and poetry - although in my mind apollo has always been the performer, and less of the creator. i always associated the muses more with the creation stages of music and poetry. like... the muses are the fashion designers and apollo is the model going down the runway. or the muses are the writers and collaborators in the writers room and apollo is the actor or director. so, while i see the association, i think it's a little weak, because you strike me as more of the quiet artist who's behind the scenes, rather than the bard singing in the pub, trying to get coins. but, you know yourself better, so maybe it's a good association.

and after that, what always strikes me about apollo is the volatile contradictions of his personality. i mean, he's associated with the sudden death of children (rightfully so, i mean he slaughtered all of niobe's sons), along with his sister, artemis, but he's also a healer. he's like that "i'm a healer, but..." meme, which is funny as hell but also a little concerning. like, in many stories he is that godly sort of intelligent strength, but also he's really volatile and has quite a temper on him. i don't really think this relates a whole lot to you, because i get the vibes that you are generally mild mannered, but when something pisses you off, you let is really simmer. i feel like you aren't one to fly off the handle - if you do, it's probably been stewing within you for a while, and whoever your anger is directed at really knows that you're upset, and they knowingly pushed you to that place. i feel like you're more of a grudge holder than hot-tempered (but girl, same).

and then, of course, we have apollo's prophecies. now, maybe this is me reading too much into your scientific mind, but i think you are concerned with the future, but also don't think too much of it is predetermined. i feel like you are more of a trailblazer than that, and might just be prone to ignoring or actively working against anything you saw in the stars, asdfghgfsdfggfdsdfggfd

oh, and, apollo just has so many unfortunate romances, and on one hand, i have you quoted that you are more of an eponine than a cosette, but also, no hate to apollo and his tragic affairs, but he's openly mocked eros, and that truly gives off the vibes of working off of one (1) braincell, and you are too good for that, clara.

and just going back to personality, i think you have a lot of flexibility that just doesn't fit with the apollo cabin.

tldr; kinda but no?

now, i'm gonna kinda hop back into possible theories.

one of my gut reactions was the say athena, but after thinking about it, i'm still a little unconvinced. you have the intellect and pride for this cabin, and i feel like you would get roped into helping a lot of heroes like athena, but you also just have a charm to you that athena lacks. part of athena is that she's unapproachable and her pride is excessive. you, again, are too flexible to be athena. she's staunch where you are willing, and i feel like the rigidity of her nature is too constricting for you. it's very similar as to why i didn't place you in ravenclaw.

i also considered nike because of your competitive streak, but this placement kind of takes away from the underdog vibes i get from you. the righteous fury... the glee in the moment... it's definitely there, but i feel like there's a level of unsurety to your psyche that you don't really get with nike.

which leads me to my final analysis, where i think you would do well as a child of tyche.

let me go through this. so, i mentioned your competitive streak with nike, and that is 1000% evident in tyche. tyche is all about luck and fortune, and i feel like competition is a shoe in. children of tyche like to dabble with the unknown or the novel - it makes life interesting. they like to go against another and see where the cards fall, and if lady luck isn't on their side.... well, tonight's just not their night. they have a secure base to fall back on, and that allows them to stretch their wings and fly.

furthermore, with nike, victory is expected and guaranteed. luck is far more fluid and unpredictable - it's harder to pin down. you can have a lot of luck and a lot of things working in your favor, but still, the desired end result isn't set in stone - it's likely to happen, but there's always risk. this risk leaves for an air of quiet self-assuredness that isn't overbearing. there's always uncertainty in the mix, and that leads to less overt confidence. it also adds to the thrill (or the anxiety).

plus, i think that the gap between fortune and certainty (a pitfall of risk) leads to a lot of checks and balances that i really see in you. there's a lot of clear headed logic that gets weighed against ambition and desire, and it makes for a kind of pragmatism that doesn't stomp out dreams, just looks at them realistically.

which means i feel like a lot of people ask you for advice, clara. it also makes you a decision maker for sure. you might falter for a moment, but in the end, you make a choice and you live with it.

also, i have a personal headcanon that children of tyche are really well rounded, which harks back to my gryffindor analysis of you, where i mention that you have many tools in your box. you are able to manipulate many different things, and you can look at them from many angles, and i love that for you.

i also think this is a good placement for you because luck is all about what-ifs. it's about actively manipulating the world around you. like i said when i mentioned apollo's prophecies - i don't think that you do very well with the predetermined. some things, certainly, but one (1) you are too stubborn to believe you can't change things (oh, the contradictions of a gryffindor and child of tyche), and there's also a level of desperation that things won't always be like this. luck can come to anyone in any place. this is definitely tied to your bleeding heart - you care for people who have fallen on hard times, and you can't help but pray that it's only temporary.

oh, and i headcanon that tyche holds grudges sO BAD. she is only outdone by nemesis and hades.

anyway, this was long and it winded, but TLDR; i hereby herald you a child of tyche. you are my lady luck, clara.

[serenagaywaterford]

1) Feel free to keep rambling! Not only I love talking with level-headed fandom people, but our opinions seem to converge (even if my wording comes off as weird/wrong because of Tumblr's word limit). Anyway. I had many issues with S2, besides Serena's arc I mean (I'll get back to her). Blessed be the goddamned plotholes! Fred becomes a cockroach that just won't die (Red Center), because he's essential to the plot. Same goes for Aunt Lydia. (Although I'm kinda glad that she's alive, because

2) I LOVE Dowd’s acting and I’m excited about her background story.) Emily comes back from the Colonies and is smfh 100% healthy. Moreover, Gilead has been surprisingly lenient with Fred and Serena’s constant fuckups in S2 (mutilated fingers aside). June won’t leave with Emily, bc MOTHERHOOD (more like there’s a s3 on the horizon and drama is needed). And don’t get me started on that slow pace. The beginning and the finale were explosive of course,but some mid-season episodes?

3) They were dragging on and on. Examples? 2x11, where only 2 things happen: a) June gives birth to Nicole, b) Fred and Serena make it clear that they want to tear each other apart (duh). The only redeeming qualities of that episode was the wolf symbolism and the excellent cinematography. I get it, the series is successful and has more seasons ahead. But if only they had squeezed some episodes, it would have been so much better.

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OMG YAY!!! I’m gonna answer these in pieces since I’ll prolly flood a giant essay otherwise. Cos, lbr, if I didn’t know better, I’d swear I had multiple personalities and was secretly sending these to myself from a fugue state, that’s how much we agree! Cos I’ve just read through all your messages and sat here going “YES! YES!” lol. I think you, me, maybe 5 other people on tumblr, and 1 TV reviewer are of the same mindset and it’s such a relief to find others who are reasonable and critical about the show/Serena.

Yes, Fred not dying was just so fucking stupid I couldn’t deal. Like, it’s not even like, “Well, he didn’t die which is crazy but he’s horribly injured and disfigured cos I dunno, he was like 15 feet FROM A MASSIVE BOMB EXPLODING.” But noooo. Instead we get Fred in hospital with a scratchy throat for like a few weeks, and when he comes back he’s got a little bit of a limp. No burns, nothing. And, to top it off, he’s got all the strength and balance of a perfectly healthy man to whip the shit out of his wife. I get they needed to get him out of the way and out of service so Serena and June could have all sorts of treasonous hi-jinks together but surely… they could have considered having Fred not 15 feet from the bomb. It killed handmaids that were way farther away than that. Just a thought. Deffo an eye-roll moment.

Aunt Lydia I’m less irritated about simply cos, like you, I love Ann Dowd and think she’s done a fab job. And we honestly haven’t got enough of her backstory and I wanna know that too. I think this show can only really captivate if it tells ALL the women’s stories, not just the victims. Like how does a woman become an Aunt? How do they justify that? Or is it simply a type of socio-religio-politcal brainwashing, akin to a lot of Nazi Party supporters? Is she a True Believer? Like, honestly, wtf is up with her? Like, cos so many of us can empathise with the Handmaids and we understand how that came about–but it takes more sides to tell a full story. So, Aunt Lydia being back… I’m not too fussed about. I really do consider Emily so damaged that I would never trust her with a baby–but that’s me. She’s been so broken, so traumatized, and like I don’t blame her at all ofc, but she needs softness and patience and no stress ever again. Like, she is not well emotionally by any stretch.

Which leads into the Colonies bullshit. That was just really bad writing. She, Janine, etc, were there for MONTHS. Like, June ran away and was gone for 92 days (Thanks for that count, Serena!). And then add on whatever time passed between her being returned to the Waterfords house and when Lilly set off the bomb. That is a long ass time to be splashing about in radioactive waste. Emily’s teeth were falling out, right? Like, how she went from literally dying of radiation poisoning to “Totally healthy enough to pop out some totally healthy babies!” I’ll never understand. The loss of the Handmaids in the bombing isn’t a good enough reasoning. A dictatorship like Gilead could easily have just conscripted a bunch of Econowives with the sweep of a pen. That is how these militant theocracies work. They’re already half-indoctrinated anyway. It was dumb to put Emily and Janine there in the first place if you knew they had to come back, as they are main cast members.

I always thought Fred and Serena were getting away with too much but I wrote it off as Fred (and Serena lbr) being a HUGE part of bringing about Gilead in the first place so they get some leeway. But then, you see Warren and Cushing being dealt with fairly severely for basically hearsay. (Okay, Warren’s I get cos you had outcry from Janine in a massively public display and backup from Naomi.) I guess because Fred/Serena’s fuckups were a little more ~private, they could excuse/lie about them/cover them up them easier? Cushing was dealt with way to easily. Like… no. “Fred” signs some paper and suddenly Cushing is being disappeared immediately. I suppose Fred took over Pryce’s place in the hierarchy? Who knows. And from what I understand, nobody in SOJ knew about June’s escape to the big country house. But c’mon, one Handmaid kills herself, the new one another starting shit every where she goes with other Handmaids and is pals with two of the most notorious other Handmaids (Emily and Janine), then is “kidnapped”, is partners with the bomber, then runs away again, then again… Sigh.

June not leaving… I just… it was so obvious that she wouldn’t cos otherwise there is no show. But why bother with all that drama then. Like, what if Emily hadn’t been there??? June had no way of knowing she’d be meeting up with Emily. She would have just dumped Nicole in some van and run back? Ugh.

And the pace was bad. ITA. There are whole episodes I don’t even bother with on rewatches. I thought the season premiere was great, then it fell of a cliff and lost my interest until about the 5th episode? Then it got going nicely (altho 2x07 wasn’t great either), then took another nosedive in 2x10 and sort of coasted almost aimlessly until the finale. I don’t like to hate on June but honestly the really 100% June-centric episodes bore the shit out of me. 2x02/03 and 2x11 being the biggest culprits. I’m just tired of the excessive use of flashbacks that all basically say the same thing now. And Moss is a great actress but there’s such thing as too much of a good thing. Not to mention, Nick and June bore me to tears as well (SACRILEGE! Send the indignant rabid fangirls on a rampage into my inbox!) so when there’s a lot of focus on that clusterfuck of inanity, I tune out. I can’t help it. I find them so annoying lol. (Which is were I usually lose common ground with basically everyone in this fandom cos everyone loves Nick for some reason I just cannot understand. If you like him, I apologise! I just can’t. I liked him more at the beginning but as it’s gone on the less I give even the slightest shit about him.)

Also, like I found 2x02 and 2x03 to just be… a waste of time? Like, okay, we got to see the Econopeople and how they live or whatever but to me, there was zero point to the whole thing because we all know June isn’t going to get away with it. So, why waste 2 whole episodes building to something everyone knows ain’t happening just for the sake of some worldbuilding that I’m guessing could have been done some other more cogent way? 2x04 was basically just to show more breaking June down in various ways. Then 2x05 was just to show the Colonies and had a lot of filler in it about that. I still don’t understand the point of the “wedding” bits. It wasn’t uplifting or hopeful at all. It was still really dark, like killing the Wife. I only really liked watching Serena go apeshit because her babyslave isn’t making proper gossipy conversation. It’s just an interesting angle cos finally Serena gets what she asks for with a super obedient Offred, and low and behold, it actually sucks and she wants June back. Story of Serena’s life and she never fucking learns lol. And Aunt Lydia flexing on Serena was hilarious. I just enjoy watching them go head to head. Not to mention the grotesque child brides thing. Gross. Super gross. Like, a bunch of stuff happened but I’m not convinced it needed to be dragged out over 4 episodes like that. Not to mention it was all really depressing. I remember watching and going, “JESUS, this show is fucking depressing. Why am I torturing myself?”

But yeah, 2x11 was super slow and all the important things that happened (that you listed) could have taken 10 minutes. Like I get too that she had to see Hannah in order to… make her decision in the finale make sense??? Was that the reason? I still don’t know. All of this could have been dealt with way more quickly and with just as much emotional gravity had it been done well.

I really like Moira but she’s been given shit all to do. I liked how we got a little insight into her and Odette. A LITTLE. But a huge weakness is that the Toronto peeps are so divorced from the drama that it often seems, not pointless, but something like it. It definitely slows the pace down to a crawl. That’s why I thought 2x09 worked well because it married both worlds. (I will never understand why 1x07 exists the way it does. What a stupid episode. I do not care about Luke’s journey, tbh. I’m here for the women–good, evil, or inbetween; not an entire episode devoted to him–especially not when we could have had Moira’s instead. I accept that his is intertwined with June’s attempted escape but… meh. It’s just like I will never care about Nice Guy TM Nick’s backstory or character. I don’t care about Fred’s childhood, or Warren’s marriage, or Luke’s manbabying, or Nick’s manpain. Eek.)

I dunno. Personally I think it could have been tightened up a bit better. But again, what do I know? I’m just a viewer. I’m sure other viewers have completely the opposite opinion.

[smokingbomber]

Ha ha. Re: the planet thing, this isn't me being a dick about mogai. I support mogai! I support anybody finding creative and healthy ways to express who they are.

This here is IF... my Mamoru -- specifically my Mamoru -- if he bothered to think about his gender, he would take it seriously as a question, almost certainly overthink it, and come to the conclusion that gender doesn't apply to planets, and then come up with the "i'm a demimonde" verbal dadjoke shitpost before moving on to whatever.

Further horrible ramble of assorted 3am overedited Feelings and meandering repetitive essay under cut

SO!! @sugar-konpeito We have close headcanons with some pretty great overlap!! But I think where we don't overlap primarily comes down to the fact that we seem to be approaching our mutual blorbo's clear genderfuckery from very different directions.

In other words, I'm nonbinary with a side of transmasc ( shoutout @barkhyde ), and I don't like most stereotypically girly things. I will cry and hate myself and the entire world if this body I'm stuck in has to wear a dress. I absolutely loathe pumps and stockings and complicated underwear, and I only wear non-eyeliner makeup when I'm doing David Bowie or Adam Ant tiktoks or smules, and the eyeliner is almost exclusively for goth/punk looks. Nail polish? Absolutely. Excessive jewelry? Hell yes. Fishnets? On the arms sure but fuck on the legs because it leaves a NET impression on your FEET and is so WILDLY uncomfortable. I'm also neurodivergent, and I'm pretty sure it's just a lot of bad ADHD, but like toooooo many sensations, too much discomfort? How much discomfort? Well, the bar is low and I get overwhelmed and it's a social dealbreaker. Mamoru is also an introvert, and canonically has a superpower that complicates that; I write him as ghosting parties *at his own place* after 30m because they're too much, and that's without being hyperaware of trying not to get makeup on anything lmao

so anyway i'm not coming from a place of 'mamoru needs to look pretty like a girl sometimes to be happy' and i personally find most 'pretty' things unpleasant to wear for various reasons. all that means is I'm not gonna be someone who writes him as experimenting in that direction when writing him as my blorbo. XD That doesn't say I think you're wrong!! all of this is personal headcanon, and both our headcanons come from a place of love and also extrapolating from actual canon! And I would read the shit out of anything you write with your Mamoru! I just refuse to make myself uncomfortable by writing him in a way I don't naturally fuck with, lol.

Right so! while my Mamoru isn't a fan particularly of the ritual time-taking stuff-on-your-face muss and extra difficult additional fastenings of applying a different kind of mask (wearing makeup/idk shit like uhhhh fancy dresses??), he reaps the benefit of the disguise pen: you don't have to do any prep at all. it's a henshin. no jarred elbow mascara nightmares, no contortionist bra straps, no teeny tiny buttons, no cufflinks or pique vest-- just a henshin, all shortcuts, no waiting, and it goes away as quickly and easily as it's summoned.

uhh for casual non-yukata though, i did have him wearing casual clothes that pretty boys on lookbook.nu were wearing at that time, and sometimes that means embroidered roses or stars and moons? and all his guys have two ear piercings each and he just had one and it made him feel left out, so he got the other, and wore mismatched studs because one earring was from usagi and the other was from kunzite 😂

he'll definitely commit to the bit and wear pink glitter if that's what's absolutely required of his job but jesus christ glitter is craft herpes it gets everywhere and you can't get rid of it. he'd wear lipstick if he had to but oh my god it smudges and it leaves gross stuff on coffee cups and he doesn't get anything out of it. if something messy or inconvenient is not something he's obligated to do or something he above and beyond enjoys, he's not gonna do it lol

the thing too is, i figure he has spent since he was six constructing the "mamoru chiba" persona, because of not remembering anything at all and just being told that was his name in the hospital, so the way i write him is as very attached to that identity that he built, and that identity is full of specific things that he has defined for himself. he'd be absolutely delighted if, say, zoisite wanted to give him lessons in how to present as feminine-- *specifically because* zoisite would be teaching him something interesting, and it would be helpful if he had to go undercover as a girl again. but the "mamoru chiba" persona he built doesn't present as a girl. a different role might! in the plot where i had him use the disguise pen, he didn't blink at she/her because obviously, at the time mamoru was not presenting as mamoru. (he HAS used the disguise pen specifically in the bedroom when usagi asked, and one of those times usagi borrowed minako's so they were both having an interesting experiment, but for him that's like 'oh huh this does feel different in ways i didn't suspect it would, and textbooks are absurdly wrong about this--' analysis territory, not gender dys- or euphoria) but-- AH I FIGURED IT OUT

THIS is why i say he is genderqueer: *any human body* he could possibly have is a disguise to him, including his own since he built mamoru from scratch. ( so yeah @blackmantagirl agender would also fit, but i still will use gq for him because it feels more flexible. like agender feels like the word is a statement of deliberately opting out as opposed to an umbrella word. in my perception of the language, nonbinary covers more, genderfluid is different entirely because it's ever-changing, agender knows where its towel is and that place is NOT on the genderbus, gnc CAN BE 'you're not the boss of me' but it also feels more like a combo of agender and questioning, and genderqueer seems the most like a big handwave after getting tangled in trying to define one's personal relationship with gender and getting really tired of trying to be understood. ) maybe his gender is golden crystal

but i guess the most important part is that my headcanon mamoru is literally so fine with himself that he doesn't need to make any statements. he doesn't think about it, and anything he feels he's missing isn't something that can be fixed by wearing a skirt as mamoru. and i do know plenty of women who wouldn't be caught dead in a skirt lmao 🤣

(my mamoru specifically finds what he's missing when he uses his uhhh. geomancy? dirt psychometry? idk-- he gets a sense of completion when he does things like stick his hands in the dirt and check in on barcelona and crabapple cove and buenos aires and jaipur while he's planting marigolds for ikuko.)

TL;DR: he wears what he likes and frequently that means he dresses like a 1980s lesbian off-the-clock business professional anyway

(also YES blackmantagirl NAIL POLISH UNDER THE HENSHIN GLOVES holy shit you're a genius. ... omg, MOOD POLISH. 👀 it's probably never pink but it absolutely shows up as different colors depending on how he feels.)

(oh my god. dendy. dendy's henshin nailpolish. oh my god. i just had so many bad ideas all at once.)

i do headcanon that mamoru has an unusual relationship with gender, but not in a conscious way– but if it were in a conscious way then he would absolutely haha-no-serious dadjoke it to anyone that asked