#anyone who's like 'oh he should just tell ppl about the demons' like what are you onnnnnn if you went to a job interview with a creepy old

[yappacadaver]

and it's like despite all the awful shit he's done and continues to do, like, i get it. he's employed like 24/7/365. he never got to live a life, despite spending a childhood clinging to the hope of having one someday. He knew companionship and love but lost it and can't ever get it back. His circumstances are so anomalous and gruesome that it completely isolates him from pretty much every other human being on the planet. he knows hell is real and he is basically guaranteed to go there if he can't break this demon curse thing.

like it doesn't make the kidnapping and spreading the curse around any better, but i do get it.

[weaselbeaselpants]

Legit Bad-take/Bad-Faith Helluvaverse critics you should not trust if you see them

Interpersonal squabbles within the critical tag are irrelevant, sorry. This here is a genuine warning against users you should keep your distance from in regards to any VivziePop drama-discourse because their names may come up and you should know what it is that crossed the line.

Starlatte/Starvader/HonestHazbinCritiques/OhGodDude and Woomycritiques/RaySquid - Serial harasser(s). Long story incoming. Starlatte was/is a Vivcritical who got involved in the fandom back in 2019/2020 when she was a minor and didn't tell anyone. Her blog on tumblr was HonestHazbinCritiques where she made some good points but also managed to find/be a part of everyone else's takes in the critical community. Her relationship with several criticalblogs turned sour when she started lashing out, talking over people, being accused of faking her age, and doing stuff like arguing with irl sexworkers abt how they should feel about Angel Dust. Whatever her age actually was at the time, she was also sending her own rewrite scripts and fanwritten episodes to Spindlehorse in order to 'fix' Hazbin. In 2021 Star returned to Tumblr under the name "Oh-God-Dude" w/o disclosing to new people who she was while also starting shit. When said new ppl found out her past and got mad at her, she proceeded to block-backtalk every one of them.

Woomycritiques (twitter handle: Raysquid) is a critical blogger who stans Star and calls everyone else in the critical community an obsessed stalker while lashing out herself. She accused others of racism (unfounded), her friends of predation just for being proship (not the 'cest and underage is good'-kind, the "I like some problematic stuff in fic-context"-kind), and heckled Dirgentlemen over how much they should hate Helluva, and more.

Regardless of if you believe Woomy and Star are the same person, which ppl do, they are both -by now- adult persons who have been asked to stop and DIDN'T, which is why people don't trust them. Star and Woom were asked to tone it down, stop making accusations and even asked by many criticals to leave and stop talking about Helluvaverse as she/they seem to have nothing good to say about it. To put that into perspective, cuz I know some HH/HB fans are gonna be reading this: the people who've self-styled themselves antis and criticals begged this person to leave cuz she had nothing nice to say and was being a nuisance. I know the stans think that's all of us anyway, so let that sink in.

LincarRox aka ToyTaker - Creep. Nasty jealous stalker freak who got kicked out of Helluvaverse servers and Aminos for saying nasty shit like how he "wants to put a baby" in Viv. No really. He took his shit and grievances to BadWebComics wiki under the name TheToyTaker while also seemingly trying to get work at Spindlehorse in order to have access to Viv directly and to 'fix' her show. He did so by faking his animation portfolio. BWW did eventually catch on and kick him out but yeah....bad. May or may not still be going under his old pseudonyms, but regardless if you see someone talking weirdly sexually abt Viv while saying they were "let go" both by SH and BWW, get out now. That's probably him.

Animation Call-Out - Bigoted shitlord. Twitter user who rags on Vivz' controversies w other people but also hates gays and BIPOCs. Admitted to submitting one of the anonymous reviews against Spindlehorse "for fun" amidst legitimate ex-employees. All of the reviews, even the ones that seem the most validating/believable should be taken with a grain of salt I believe especially since they are coming to us anonymously, but when a racist person admits to def being one of those fake reviews for "Lolz" sake, that's def when shit's hit the fan.

DoodleToons - Also bigoted creeperlooser. Altright white kid who hates BIPOC existing in anything and admits to hating Viv's stuff for their LGBTisms and 'demons'. Yes, there legit are bad-faith critics who are homophobic. Just because Viv and her crew have a way of saying that's EVERY critic of her work doesn't mean there aren't shitty people out there.

[rainbow--panic]

Yall I’ve been seeing all this Black myth wukong art and Ocs from other ppl and wanted to throw my hat in the ring as welll.

This is my oc and a quick lil sketch with the destined one

She isn’t my only JTTW oc but i drew the others in the style of LMK

Originally she was going to be a fox who, though the power of will and love for her little sister, went to find the Colossus star guardian dragon (My goddess character), becoming human and joined the destined one on his adventures in hopes that they could revive sun wukong and he could find the godddess.

But as I always do, I’m thinking about scraping that lore.

Instead, sticking with the fox theme, I was thinking that when the goddess was born, her uncle feared for her safety and didn’t want her to be alone, as she belonged to a family of physical, magical, and political power, so they grabbed a baby fox abandoned in the woods and granted it power. That fox became Tiānhuǒ. Not only did she serve as a friend to the goddess, but was also considered a sister and earned the role as her advisor.

As centuries past, she had witness the goddess go down to the mortal realm and be apart of a party traveling to the west, which she also briefly joined until she was able to convince her goddess to return back to heaven to complete her duties.

When sun wukong died, the goddess went missing. The first place Tiānhuǒ checked was a village the goddess and herself had looked after and grew, which is around the area of where she met the destined one and, to her dismay, the pig she had met all those years ago that she wished she would never see again. Originally she played the part of a warrior from that village looking for the goddess as the crops had began to wither and her people were plagued by sickness. She offered to help find the remaining bits of sun wukong, thinking that he would be the last person to know the goddesses whereabouts.

Her identity, which was “The immortal vixen Priestess” was revealed later on as a demon had outed her, being the only one to recognize her human disguise. Pigsy (bc I CANNOT remember his actual name and i am not looking it up bc reasons) wanted to kick her out of the small group with the argument of ‘you lied to us once, you’ll lie to us again’ which she fought with the fact that she IS a warrior who IS ‘from’ the village as that as where her starting point was, the crops in the village were withering and the people were sick, so she technically didn’t lie about anything.’ She also had a new relationship with the destined one whom she named Chén Yàn and her actually being an immortal fox wasn’t a deal breaker for him.

Now to describe interactions

Pigsty + Tiā= kinda a love/hate relationship. Like she talks down to him ad does not like him and is rude to him and him to her, but like, on the battle field that doesn’t matter, no matter what she looks out for her comrades, even if they ae annoying

Tiā + Yán= She was annoyed at first when he didn’t talk much and never really cared about that till one day he said something to her and she flipped her shīt like

“Oh my god, I thought you were mute and you were just ignoring me this whole time? I could have used your feedback so many times and you just stayed quiet?!”

I’m still working on how their relationship started but essentially after working side by side, back to back, with one another for so long and going through hell, she started t view him in a new light and it didn’t help that every time she felt sad, tired, hungry, thirsty, what have you, that he was there with everything she needed. She always tries to be logical and it didn’t help that her logical mind was telling her that all her needs are being met by this one man so she should marry him.

As for Yán, he sees how balanced she is, being able to be this polite, courtly, heavenly women, used to having power at her finger tips, but yet is not above calling a pig demon a bastard and getting into trouble. She isn’t afraid to speak up to anyone, and speaks to others with authority, even him. At times she has even spoken for him since, well selective mutism, and also in times where she feels he’s being disrespected.

But anyways this is them, enjoy! <3

[skylark325]

Omniscient Readers View Point Read Through

Ch 73-92

Beginning: Ch 1-10

Note: This was so hype AHHHHHH so many of my favourite scenes

———————

"I am also like Dokja-ssi. We are on the same QA team. I heard the same nagging every time and lived with their contempt.

>when an ugly btch calls you twin

[The constellation who has been waiting for a harem carefully puts both hands together.]

>I…a what

WHO?

"You're not a woman."

>…huh?

She refused to admit that she plagiarized to the end. I grabbed her collar.

>ngl dokja i don’t think anyone ever would 😭

"There is no such thing as a meteorite in my novel!" It was surprising. I thought she would've copied this as well. "I have a sealing stone!"

>girl you’re really not helping yourself here

"By the way, I was in pain a lot back then."

Whenever I looked at this guy's face, I felt the '17 year old Kim Dokja' inside me shrink back.

>as someone who was bullied in hs i remember almost crying reading this scene in the manhwa. get his furry ass dokja

"Yes! I'm really really sorry! I-I was young at the time…"

>that’s BULL! you’re not the only one who was young! using your age as a mistake is only justifiable as long it didn’t hurt others. basic empathy isn’t taught with age, it’s something you should know or you’re just a shitty person. and like YOU WERE SEVENTEEN

"First, I will hit you until all my trauma has disappeared.

>oh yeah fuck him up dokja

[Some constellations are disappointed with your hypocrisy.] [Many constellations are questioning your judgment.] [The constellation 'Secretive Plotter' is watching your judgment.]

>it’s so interesting to me how sp never actually judges dokja on serious stuff. he’s just in the back secretively plotting.

[The constellation who likes harems is cheering on you and Han Sooyoung.]

>didn’t realise there were doksoo truthers in the book but pop off my dude XD

No matter how I thought about it, this was the sound of gunshots. Wasn't the army already wiped out?

>i…oh right this isn’t set in America

"You must be mistaken. My name is Yoo Joonghyuk. Kim Dokja is the name of the guy I hate the most."

> there he goes role playing again

I winked at her. If I knew Han Sooyoung, she would understand what to do from now on. The woman opened her mouth. "I already know that you are Kim Dokja. Stop the unnecessary lies."

> that’s just embarrassing man. it’s ok, you win some you lose some

"I needed something to tell her when I met her." I gave her a moment before continuing. "Because I had nothing else to say to her."

> 😞

Living things with less intelligence than a kobold should do their jobs!"

>Excuse you? WHAT THE FUCK IS A KOBOLD

"Protector… you don't have any qualities suited for Way of the Wind. No, to be honest, you don't have the qualities for almost every skill."

>that’s…damn what are you, my calculus teacher?

'You will be busy when you reach intermediate level'.

> Kdj: once you get that promotion you’re not going to pay attention to me anymore! i’m going to be a neglected wife!

"You are the first person who is more suspicious than Yoo Joonghyuk."

> why does kdj’s perception of ppl range from like-yjh, not-like-yjh and yjh

[The constellation 'Demon-like Judge of Fire' is looking forward to your companionship.]

The messages of the constellations, including Uriel, arrived. What was going on?

> oh gee i wonder what’s going on. wonder if there’s a possibly super hot *enter kdj’s long ass description* man possibly fighting and injured nearby

The bleeding Yoo Joonghyuk was waiting for me there.

> are we sure ways of survival isn’t a fanfic written by dokja?

Even if Yoo Joonghyuk was nearby, he couldn't be found in such a timely manner. It was clear that Bihyung had made a sub scenario to bring Yoo Joonghyuk over here.

>not bihyung sugar daddying his way through the scenarios for dokja. that or he’s the vice captain of our ship after uriel

Yoo Joonghyuk was staring at me with bloody and teary eyes.

> HELP what did I say about the fanfic part

Why was the protagonist of Ways of Survival such a person? The story would've been easier of it was Lee Hyunsung or Jung Heewon.

> bestie you gotta be attracted to them for this to work

"He was like this the whole time. He kept asking me to take him to Kim Dokja…"

> GUYS 😭

But I felt that some of my answers were being diluted in the soup. Did I know Yoo Joonghyuk at all?

>welp existential crisis let’s go

I scooped up the soup with the spoon and put it in Yoo Joonghyuk's mouth. Han Sooyoung watched me blowing on the soup. "You are acting like a wife."

> you see that’s because they’re already marrie- *gets run over by a truck*

I thought it was a loss to me but it turned out to be a huge honey event. Indeed, people should live a good life.

> that’s not…ok then. preach king XD

[The constellation 'Demon-like Judge of Fire' is impressed with your good deed.]

…Was this constellation really impressed with the good deed?

> oh yeah just the good deed dw. definitely not the yaoi you’ve provided in the middle of a shounen show

I frowned at Yoo Joonghyuk's words. Move to the east right now? I saved his life and now he was giving me an order?

> such be them dom daddies dokja

–Don't be so prideful. I really will abandon you.

> sure kdj. in fact i dare you to do it

–Why come to me? I honestly thought you would commit suicide. –Suicide? How ridiculous.

> is it though? like really think about it XD

> i stand corrected 🥲

–I wanted to make her a companion.

> oof rejection isn’t easy man i get it

–She isn't the person I remember. I knew it. Still, I wanted to believe for a moment that the woman in my memories was still alive. I wanted to be with her again.

> ouch think my heart just got ripped out

All the threads were connected to one woman. The woman wearing a tight black battle suit flew through the air.

> MY WIFEEEEEE

–Kill her.

–Then you will be unhappy. –It doesn't matter.

> 😭

"…It doesn't make sense." Lycaon exposed his fangs. "Antinus. The conversation ends here."

> damn my tragic ship 😔✊🏼

–You, are you that weak? –What? –All the words you told me were false. I reflexively raised my body. This bastard…

> yjh sure knows how to get dokja fired up XD

–The one who told me not to give up on this world will succumb to a disaster of this degree?

> did i mention i love their bond

the way both of them know exactly what to say to help the other is so precious to me

If you want to survive, don't answer his questions. But you are still going to die.

> BITCH?

> HSY certified yapper

Imagine being summoned to another dimension, suddenly receiving a powerful strength, spending a hot night with a cute elf girlfriend, saving the world and being loved as a warrior!

> Not all men fr 💀

–My attribute is a 'pro gamer'. What is yours? -What? –I'm asking what can you do well?

> one of my favourite scenes 🥹

"…Uh?" The Hunters Association people from before?" Myung Ilsang laughed.

> …?

does he think he’s in solo leveling?

What could I do well? It was to 'read'.

> i’m so hyped AAAHHHHH

Pathetic. Why the hell did I forget about this skill? Wasn't this the first thing I should've done?

> honestly yeah how did he forget that? it’s like one of the biggest cheat codes he has

I was a 'reader'.

> YEAH YOU ARE

READER REPRESENTATION ARISE!

"Get started." Yoo Joonghyuk stood before me as if he knew what I was trying to do. "I'll block him."

> did your heart skip a beat dokja? cuz i know mine did

A fierce aura started to crush Bihyung's body. The power of the dokkaebi depended on the size of the channel.

> OH THIS FUCKER

how dare he mess bihyung lemme at him. one swing that’s all i ask

[…Please choose a reward.] Bihyung told me with a grouchy expression. He was exhausted by the harassment.

–Personally, I recommend the Infinite Dimension Space Coat. There is one more hidden option. It is easier to transcend later.

> oh god plz let me give him a hug poor bby

–I will speak bluntly. Come to my channel. I am going to expand my channel to the Korean Peninsula. I will be happy to meet your desired items and conditions.

> I THINK NOT BTCH

Bihyung's face turned red and he was tearful as he looked between me and Dokgak. It looked like tears would burst out as soon as he was touched.

> THAT’S IT WHO’S COMING WITH ME

[Constellations. Incarnation Kim Dokja colluded with the channel's streamer, 'Bihyung'. He deliberately concealed his strength and manipulated the development of the scenario. He made the scenarios harder for malicious purposes.]

> i don’t…is this really such a big deal? like people are being murdered and super magical stuff keeps happening. is this really such a big deal in comparison? 😭

[The constellation 'Secretive Plotter' shrugs like it is fine.]

> SEE sp gets me

"Prisoner of the Golden Headband, Abyssal Black Flame Dragon, Demon-like Judge of Fire…"

> not kdj name dropping his fans

[The constellation 'Secretive Plotter' is somewhat annoyed.]

> DUDE SAME

"By the way. As a memorial to my channel, I will do a small event. I mean, a joint event between South Korea and Japan… If you are curious, please connect to #BI-7623 right now. I will draw tickets for the early constellations and give coins―"

> LMFAOOO

A voice was suddenly heard. I instinctively knew. The owner of this voice was now protecting me.

> fangirling so hard rn

Bihyung moved from behind me towards Dokgak. "By the way, were you this small?"

> Oof the burn

———

Previous: Ch 53-73

Beginning: Ch 1-10

[calypsolemon]

if i did have one Actual Criticism of ToH (I actually have a few I just am trying to avoid sounding negative about the show bc overall I very much enjoyed it and think its good) it would be that I do think the reasoning Papa Titan gives Luz for why Belos's actions and her own do not come from the same place is... a little off the mark.

Mainly because I think there's not too many ways in which you could say Belos's choices aren't genuine to him. Oh, the reasoning he gives other people of course are a bunch of lies and bullshit, and he even lies to himself, but the root cause of his delusions lies in the puritanistic upbringing he was exposed to from a young age. An upbringing which very much convinces people that control and subjugation of others are necessary to protect their mortal souls from the damnation of hell.

For this reason, "genuine-ness" reads a bit too much of a handwavy abstraction of Luz's actual concern to me. Belos's existence has made her painfully aware that it is really easy to rationalize massively harmful actions to yourself if you believe it is in service of protecting someone else. This doesn't mean that Luz actually has hurt anyone, or that she needed to be as harshly punishing of herself as she was (in fact I would say her desire for self-punishment is a reflection of Belos's puritan values weighing on her), but rather that I think it doesn't really solve her conundrum to simply tell her "well, Belos is kind of a big fat liar who is trying to control people, but don't worry, you're Not That."

What I really wish he had said, and what I do think the series implies in other ways but maybe could have been served to have said openly in that moment, is that Luz is not the same because she is capable of self reflection. In all the times Luz has ever lied to someone, or attempted to change someone or something else to fit her idea of them (think attempting to cure Eda, playing along with King about him being the king of demons, Witches before Wizards, etc) she has ultimately realized it was wrong, and allowed herself to embrace the way things naturally are. In fact, she more often feels like she should be trying to change herself in response to ppl expecting her to fit into social norms. When her environment feels too stifling for her, she finds a different one. She doesn't attempt to fit everything around her into a mold that perfectly suits her, nor does she attempt to destroy everything which doesn't agree with her.

Luz stresses over being just like Belos because she has been raised to, if anything, be too self reflective, and feel like an awful person for not being able to conform to norms that don't naturally fit her. What she needs to be told is that it's admirable, that she tries so hard, and it's a good thing that she is able to see where she maybe needs to change herself at times, but she needs to allow herself the same grace she gives others. She needs to be told that nothing good comes from keeping yourself from happiness. That wanting acceptance and love from others is not the same as attempting to control them.

Buuuut I know they only had like 3 minutes to convey what's going on so I get why they phrased it the way they did. What Luz really needed was a 7 hour long therapy session with daddy titan which. I'm not even sure would have been entirely on point bc the Titan himself probably has some issues he needs to work through. But that's another post

[kendrixtermina]

the problem i see with those till lindemann parties is that in most cases they didn't openly communicate from the beginning that they were sex parties. Tell people that this is what you're inviting them to and the ones who aren't interested will probably just say no. It's not that unreasonable to feel unsafe and scared when you realize you have been lied to about the intention of an invitation. So if they didn't want anyone to feel uncomfortable they could have made sure everyone was on the same page about what was going to happen from the beginning.

Well, you can't exactly advertize an orgy. Or at least that's probably what he thought. Still there are very much ppl who want them.

The idea was probably to get everyone together who might be interested & 'surprise them' & that those who wouldn't want to be personally involved would just have a regular party with booze & watch the show. For the many ppl who report positive experiences that's precisely how it worked out.

That said, he certainly did fail to consider that not everyone has a forceful personality & some people might freak out. (& in that freaked-out state for example see the security guys as not for their benefit but possible goons to trap them etc. It's not like rich guys doing that is unheard of. It's probably no coincidence that the whole thing exploded now after stories of that became so frequent in the news) or feel conflicted/pressured.

Personally I like casual sex but I've read various articles of ppl who had a bad time of it for reasons that wouldn't have occurred to me - It's not something you can do unless you're confidently in touch with your instinctual sense of 'I want this' or 'I don't want this'

The reports are inconsistent about whether it was communicated, in some cases it was & in other it wasn't. It definitely should have been consistent at least at the e-mail stage, eg. no one should have arrive there & be surprised that there's making out going on.

I can't blame ppl for getting freaked out at all; It was poorly thought out.

I remember one youtube newscaster mentioning that the one thing you really gotta be afraid of in showbiz is the Yes Men that will surround you like piranas and that will just tell you you're the greatest & never veto or sanity check anything you do, because that makes it easy to lose touch with realistic expectations. You lose the constant feedback you'd normally get from ppl surrounding you.

By which I don't mean 'oh hes a poor baby blame the bad bad staff', again as someone who's into BDSM he should have thought of measures to ensure everybody's comfort. There's nothing wrong with living out fantasies (& I mean not just his own but those of his fans, which no one seems to consider like passive victims none of which could possibly want to fuck a dude who's very much a sex symbol. ) but there have to be sanity checks to avoid stuff like the shitty experiences that some ppl describing in the news.

Again I'm just lamenting that the media is boiling it down to this dichotomy of cancellation or support when we could be having an intelligent debate & sensibilization for the various issues at play.

I certainly wouldn't say that I 'support' or 'stand with' him cause he did make errors that had predictable consequences that one should be sensibilized for in this day & age.

But on the other hand, while this is a fuck up, I don't see it as meriting total demonization you're seeing in the media.

If the roofies thing had been true or anything about people not being allowed to leave, that certainly would be 'burn in hell' territory & I would currently be thinking of the most metal way to destroy my CDs, but from the actual evidence I just don't think that happened & it's unfair that the media keeps spreading this version without any corrections.

[spectreofthevalley]

okay so spoilers for autopsy simulator (2024), though i doubt anyone cares. and if you do wanna play, i'd say play for the gameplay and not the story so yknow. also warning i yap for several paragraphs

the gameplay is (unsurprisingly) the highlight. apparently, the devs directly got real doctors' insight, and it shows, especially when combined with the very realistically textured bodies. there's little ig i would call them minigames? for each thing (like cutting organs you have to move your cursor w/o bumping into the walls of the outline). honestly it kind of reminds me of like. girlsgogames LMAO

though, sometimes what you're supposed to do isn't very clear. and unlike most games where if you take a while your character will say some dialogue to tell you what do you, you're just supposed to. figure it out yourself.

i saw ppl on backloggd say it was buggy but i never encountered any – just finicky mechanics. for like 10 minutes i was stuck on draining a body of blood because i couldn't find the minuscule amount left, and there were a few times the camera was very awkward to use.

the story (until the last like hour) is fairly interesting. the VA for your character was fr putting his work in and i'd say his reactions to things is somewhat realistic. like bro hallucinates a demon and he's just like "what the FUCK is happening" lmao

i feel like the two main things that really fucked this whole game up was the "horror" and the ending. for a supposed horror game, it wasn't really scary at all. in a five-hour experience, i got about four genuine scares (not including vague atmospheric things that are meant to unnerve you). this game advertises itself as a combination simulator and horror game, but there's no sandbox mode and barely any horror.

the ending...... oh god the ending. basically the whole game your character is grieving his dead wife. at the end of the game, you find out you were the one that killed her (technically an accident) and just lied about it to save your career. her brother in law, who has also been helping you the whole game, kidnaps you and goes on this whole villain monologue spiel. he (a southern cop btw) shoots the black guy (not earning yourself points here game) and then it just. ends?

zero conclusion. we have no idea what happens to our character, if the cop gets yknow. arrested for all those people he brutally killed. there is literally no resolution at all, it just goes straight to credits.

and here's the thing; what an awful twist. first off, the "omg WE killed our wife" thing is so overplayed. same with the culprit being our brother-in-law all along. especially because. why? the main character is literally at rock bottom. he works at this shitty coroners office, he lives in a shitty apartment, and he's in an awful mental state over his wife's death, constantly taking pills.

it'd be one thing if lying about killing his wife had actually advanced his career and he was now rich or smth. but no he's literally already having an awful time. what is the point of torturing him 😭 if you're that mad about him killing your sister, just kill him straight up.

but the thing that really gets me is that earlier in the game, a criminal called "red pete" allegedly escapes police custody.

...who the fuck is that guy?????

because at first it seems like he killed our wife. the main character is sent into a panic when he finds out he escaped, and the brother in law seems similarly panicked. but if we actually were the one that killed our wife, then who the hell is red pete? why do we care that he escaped?

the #1 thing about a plot twist is that it should yknow. make sense. i honestly think it would've been way better if they just played it straight and the story was about us being tormented by our wife's killer and hallucinations.

unlike mortuary assistant which i may come back to since you can embalm as many bodies as you want (plus it was actually scary), i will literally never play this again. 2 & a half stars out of five.

EDIT: im looking through my clips and apparently red pete is some guy we caught. but my point still somewhat stands because he's still a poorly written "red herring" and it would've been better if he was just the actual antagonist.

[superanonymousthethird]

This is going to be a giant rant on how Sylvanas seems to be mistreated by both the narrative and the characters around her.

As a Sylvanas fan it kinda hurts that the next expansion's key characters are Anduin and Alleria when both of them basically have traits similar to Sylvanas herself, but these good Alliance characters are all nice and it's some character drama for them, meanwhile Sylvanas' suffering was either used as a justification of her being evil or as a demonstration of something else.

Like her suffering under Arthas' control is only brought up in Shadowlands to make us see how bad *Anduin* feels. Or earlier, in books, like for example in Stormrage: she's vividly described to endure a nightmare of being repeatedly stabbed and raised by Arthas, purely as a demonstration that undead like her are affected by the Nightmare too (and there's no fucking scene of her waking up and getting any shred of comfort she just shows up one time to suffer and that's it).

Going back to Shadowlands I'm so baffled by the scene of the heroes trying to infuse the shards of Helm of Domination with memories of resisting said Domination. They go through Darion (absolutely deserved yes), Bolvar (okay I suppose he did resist Zovaal all these years) and then Anduin (I mean like ok deserved too but guys mb you should also go ask the creator of the helm, no?)...

Bolvar and Darion endure the mental pain fine. Anduin says he'll bear anything but when it begings his waves of memories are WAY bigger than others and he yells in pain and asks for it to stop.

Okay, I remember thinking, it's too much and it's too fresh clearly. Damn, if his scars are that big from a mind control experience that's objectively less horrifying than Sylvanas' (he is still alive, he hasn't killed anyone, he has his body, wasn't victim blamed for the genocide of his people etc), then what will Sylvanas' memories be like?..

And Sylvanas comes up, says she'll help, does a little pep talk to Anduin... And that's it?! She's only there to prop up Anduin?! What the fuck!

The talk itself imho doesn't count as *her* reflection on her struggle against dominantion because it boils down to "I broke free and tried to avenge myself and that didn't work out well life sucks", and Anduin's like "aaah so it's vengeance that kept you going, ok, ppl who resisted all had some goal", it's ultimately some lesson for Anduin to learn.

What also made me grind my teeth in Sylvanas' speech was:

"I thought that if I punished him for his crimes I will be absolved of mine..."

And yeah okay I can see that in her "by whatever means necessary" mindset, she led the Forsaken on a rather evil path where they developed the Blight, a weapon against undead, via experiments on living subjects, mind controlled some humans and ogres to not get killed by demons after being freed... I can see all of that as Sylvanas going "Arthas needs to be taken out at all costs" and doing atrocious things because in her mindset her sins won't count if they're used to strike down Arthas.

But then she finishes the sentence:

"...Forgiven for the atrocities he forced me to commit against my own people"

That hurts me so bad. The thing she said about thinking that if she killed him she'd be absolved of her atrocities wasn't about her as the Banshee Queen? It was about this *freshly freed* Sylvanas who simply tried to strike Arthas as soon as possible?

I mean okay I suppose blaming herself for the things she was forced into doing by Arthas is now a character trait of hers, but the way nobody bats an eye and doesn't say "hold on, *against your people*"?.. She thinks (or thought at that point) that she had to actively seek redemption for things done under mind control?..

And again, Anduin shows similar fear ("My hands don't feel clean"), but he has Sylvanas tell him: "It is perilous to confuse what you are made to do with what you choose to do"). Oh. Cool. So when Anduin blames himself for stuff he was forced into doing Sylvanas tells him it's not his fault. But Sylvanas can't apply that logic to herself and there's nobody to tell her that. Thanks.

And as War Within content shows up and I watch the trailer and I read short story about Anduin's PTSD I do agree it's a *good* idea to depict it as traumatic, but I'm wondering where the fuck was all of that for Sylvanas, who had to immediately gather fellow survivors and fight for their place in the world as they were threatened to be wiped out by Dreadlords and the Living, and who unlike Anduin couldn't just take a pause from her duties, and who didn't have any living friends that still waited for her return :/. I agree with you so much on that.

Alleria. Gods. Alleria. I'm not familiar with WoW enough (I'm new in the fandom) but from all I know I want to punch her.

She has similarities to Sylvanas. She had a rough relationship with her mother (though tbh their mother as per the Sylvanas book deserves another rant), was somewhat of a rebel, fell in love with a human despite the elf society being xenophobic, was incredibly consumed with desire for vengeance after her relatives died.

She later gets transformed into another type of her race (a void elf). The difference in her case though is transformation is completely consensual and although the Naaru does throw her into prison, her humanoid allies do not ostracize her too much, despite her powers being more ominous than Sylvanas' necromantic ones (given to her very unwillingly).

Alleria's also accepted back in the Alliance just fine and the poor little void elves (who got kicked out for researching magic that is dangerous to the Sunwell, and used notes from Dar'Khan goddammn Drathiir!!!) are taken along with her too.

She isn't *too* welcome in Quel'thalas either.

Sylvanas was alienated from blood elves because she's some undead monster who wants to only use them (in the Shadow of the Sun's elven treatment of her is insane)

Alleria is kiiinda kicked out because she demanded they switch factions, said they only refuse because of Sylvanas' words (Alleria ma'am you missed the mess that was WC3 events and the relatively recent Purge of Dalaran), then accidentally brought void to the Sunwell and then resisted arrest.

Alleria's still depicted as being allowed on a wedding or to visit her son but largely it's a point of drama for her: oh look the high elf hero Alleria isn't that welcome in Silvermoon :(... Am I supposed to feel sad for her when her case is a string of "fuck around and find out" and Sylvanas' case began with her just... being killed and raised?

Alleria is also given more drama regarding her Void powers: when she's in Void form, Light hurts her! Oh no! She can't touch Turalyon when she's using void!..

Okay. But. Girl you accepted the void. And actually it's *Forsaken*'s thing about experiencing agony from contact with Light, at all times!.. But no, gotta soften that aspect of the Forsaken (Before the Storm has Faol having 0 reaction to getting blasted with Light, and Calia blessing some regular undead makes him merely wince because it's "unpleasant" and that's it) and go into the topic of how tragic the pretty Alliance character Alleria is :/.

With all these similarities in mind I find Alleria's reaction to Sylvanas in Three Sisters unnecessary cruel. Sylvanas (ignoring her inner motives of killing them, a plan she is eventually too soft to commit to) is behaving at her tamest. She tries to touch them (Alleria recoils), keeps up some small talk in the form of that game and, what I find important, doesn't say a thing regarding Alleria's void usage. Nobody says anything.

But then... Sylvanas says she'll never betray her sisters and Alleria goes "oh like you never betrayed Vereesa?". Vereesa blatantly lied about herself reaching out to Sylvanas for help (deserves a rant on its own how she ignored her for what 9 years or so and only reached out when she had a favor to ask) in a way that left Vereesa a victim of the evil manipulative Sylvanas.

And Alleria... never bothers to ask Sylvanas what happened?.. Just blindly believes Vereesa?..

Sylvanas is *reasonably* offended, says Garrosh should've been killed (agree), gets emotional and tears up a zombie. Does nothing wrong. Defends herself, kills an opponent. Sisters aren't grabbing ears so wail didn't injure them. She has the right to do that. Yet it's what triggers Alleria to call her a mockery of her sister and abandon all hope at reuniting? What the fuck.

Vereesa's great too. "Oh you both stop fighting!" (as if it's something they're equally responsible for and not Sylvanas defending herself from what Alleria started due to Vereesa's lie), "Do you know what [you sacrificing yourself to cut off Azeroth from the orcish threat and fighting in a war for a thousand years, and you being killed, raised and enslaved] did to me! You made me think you're dead!" (Do you think they did that on purpose, girl?)

What I also find repulsive is the way Alleria talks of this meeting with Anduin in Before the Storm. Imho in any other situation she'd be shown as obviously wrong but Befote the Storm is "demonize Sylvanas at all costs even if it breaks what was established before" book, so of course Mr Magic Bones and Alleria are the right ones:

> It... did no go well

And whose fault is that? Vereesa's who framed Sylvanas? Alleria's who tried to attack Sylvanas over a righteous emotional outburst? Or Sylvanas (whose worst sin was wanting to kill them to be with them in undeath which she didn't even have the guts to do in the end. And the desire is unhinged but built on heart wrenching loneliness).

> the darkness has eaten away what is left of the sister I loved so dearly

The sister you loved so dearly was just there trying to hold your fucking hand before you accused her of shit she didn't commit and got upset when she tried defend herself and used an ability Arthas "gifted" her.

> Alleria was wounded. She was still capable of love.

AH YES POOR ALLERIA WHO HAS FRIENDS IN THE ALLIANCE IS IN GOOD RELATIONSHIP WITH VEREESA, IS ALIVE, HAS A SON AND A WORKING RELATIONSHIP AND WHOSE CRIMES CAN BE HANDWAIVED (she will later be tasked with hunting down Sylvanas and Alleria and her hubby would torture civilians to try and find information about Sylvanas. When Jaina informs Anduin of that he's like "but oh they're looking for SYLVANAS, it's fine they're torturing civilians, it's worth to stop that monster! Plus Alleria and Turalyon are honorable people that's why we have statues of them!").

AH YES REUNION WOUNDED HER. I WONDER HOW FUCKING MUCH IT WOUNDED SYLVANAS WHO REMAINED EVEN MORE ALONE AFTER THAT

> nor would I trust the rot-riddled brains of the Forsaken to be able to distinguish between friend from for if they came face to face with their loved ones

That's such a utterly vile thing to say about a race your sister now belongs to.

Forsaken live in a kingdom where they have a functioning society, they follow Sylvanas not because she's controlling them to but because for one reason or another they're loyal to her... and they're all fucking capable of thinking and speaking they're *people*, free-willed conscious people...

With all of that, when pre War Within short story has Alleria hear Turalyon calling her a creature, I can only think of all the times Sylvanas was referred to as "not she who was my beloved sister", "monster wearing her face", "demon" and "a mockery of my sister", and I'm like huh... Am I supposed to feel sorry for Alleria?..

"I lost my sister to herself". What. Like.

If we even take Shadowlands' plot, what makes Sylvanas ultimately go off the rails is the fact she finds some sort of fucked up feeling of being undestood with the JAILER, THE GUY ULTIMATELY RESPONSIBLE FOR HER TORMENTS. But hey, he says kinship is a blight and family always falters and the way Sylvanas' closest keen barely apply any effort to comfort her, to her trusting the guy she found at the bottom of Hell in the moment of her suicide seems not that bad of a deal :(.

Some fans say "oh there are other characters who got mind controlled and still remained good people for example death knights like-" - I am glad for these death knights, not everyone has the ability to uphold their morality when faced with the amount of suffering Sylvanas did. She deserved support, period. And while of course she is responsible for her actions, I think the fact it got bad enough for Jailer to take advantage of her mental state and recruit her also speaks words for how much her friends and family let her down.

I struggle to feel for Alleria's and Anduin's troubles because all I can think about is "Where was all of that for Sylvanas?"

Anduin still gets more respect and dignity than Sylvanas ever did and I'm still mad about it.

Aight, the new WoW trailer stirred up some old animosity that I have to get out lest it fester.

The problem I've had with Anduin for the past few years is something that isn't even strictly his fault, and is just symptomatic of how shitty the writing staff is. In theory, Anduin is an interesting bit of flavor for the Alliance. Someone who was raised in a very turbulent time in the Alliance's history, gone through some shit when he was too early to handle it and is plagued with self doubt because of it. All of this complimented by Velen's vision of Anduin's future going down two very different roads.

Alas, the problem is in execution. Because what we are left with in practice is a character who goes through comparatively less than other legacy characters (Thrall being raised as a slave, Jaina losing her home and loved ones regularly and Sylvanas with fucking everything) but who, by the time Shadowlands rolls around, insists that he is the one suffering the most and everyone else needs to get over themselves. And that wouldn't be so bad (hell, in Shadows Rising, it's kinda treated as a genuine character flaw) but that's not the case because WoW treats Anduin like the moral barometer of the franchise for many years now.

There are multiple examples of this throughout, but the biggest culprit is all across BFA and Shadowlands, where Anduin is made to understand the hardships that Sylvanas and the Forsaken have suffered, most of it by the Alliance's hands, and just shuts it down with "Everyone suffers, stop hiding behind your trauma and rise above it," and because BFA is framing him as the hero and Sylvanas as the villain he gets away with it. In the fucking Sylvanas book, he has the gall to say Sylvanas had a better life than him because she knew her mother and calls her selfish for committing suicide. And of course the book frames Anduin as being in the right about all of this because they decided Sylvanas holding him captive was the time they would even allow to let her reach out to someone and hope they understand her. The deck was always stacked against Sylvanas and in Anduin's favor in terms of audience sympathy.

But then, what happens in Shadowlands? He gets dominated by Zovaal, stabs the Archon (doesn't even kill her), maybe kills a bunch of unnamed npcs off screen, and fights his friends. Not a single tally to add to his body count while he was a puppet. And when he is freed from Zovaal's control, he doesn't lose his support system, he doesn't lose the respect of his loved ones or his people, and he's not put under pressure to just be okay again.

AND YET!

He still goes on this self imposed exile of his, and has been on it for over half a decade at this point, because he is just too haunted by everything he's 'seen and done'. Things that we as the audience don't really see. So in practice, the justification for all this on screen angst is so painfully weak. And yes, there's no wrong way to respond to trauma and there never will be, and Anduin's trauma responses are far from unrealistic.

But compared to Sylvanas, Anduin is giving a great deal more respect and dignity by the narrative for, comparatively, much less. Sylvanas was enslaved and forced to murder her countrymen (onscreen too, we MADE HER DO THAT in warcraft 3) and when she was finally freed, she had no support system besides her rangers and Nathanos, she was feared by her former homeland who only accepted her help out of desperation and was hated and distrusted by enemies and allies alike way before she might have done anything to deserve it. The game even leans into the idea that the Sylvanas who suffered all this trauma isn't the real Sylvanas and we just needed to restore her soul to have the pure pious ranger general back (barf). And she still has to toil away in superhell because the writers were too chickenshit to fully backpedal on the deliberate character assassination the sexual predator on staff forced upon her.

"Oh, but M'Kay! That's the writers fault, not Anduin's! You can't blame him for all that."

Maybe not but a lot of the issue here comes from the fact that so long as the people who enabled this inequity of care remains on staff (IE fucking GOLDEN) this won't stop. So what choice do I have but to loathe the byproduct of this fuckery when it's being shoved in my face like this? What other way could I possibly interpret this disparity other than as misogyny?

[s0ggycerea1]

This is v specific bcuz it's my MC but I am smooth brained so taking this opportunity to have someone help come up w stuff. So bros w an MC who has a 7 yr old son and MC ends up momming the bros. (Bonus if Luci is like the single dad of the bros and MC becomes the cool/kind step parent). And like how each bro interacts w the kid.

Knock urself out! Ofc if inspo doesn't strike for this there's no need to answer. Thank you!

I am also smooth brained so this took longer than I think it should have but thanks for requesting! :D

I also stayed up till 2am when I made this so there might be typos.

gn!mc

Warning: minor swearing, child? (I see ppl put this as a warning so..)

Demons bros with an Mc that has a 7 year old son

Lucifer

Now lets see whos ne-

OH GREAT ANOTHER KID IN THE HOUSE

Give the poor man a break he already has 6 kids to take care of

Classic strict but has a soft spot for the child kind of dad

Anyone but you or him (and Diavolo because reasons) touches the child then they can say bye bye to their life.

Congrats you also the parent of 6 other demons!!!

It's kinda like a whole Murry and Beverley Goldberg thing, your more sweet and less strict and Lucifer is just straight up...annoyed

Like "I'm going to murder mammon." "Oh but I'm sure he didn't mean it." "Mc....He sold Levi..."

How idfk

He does have SOME sweet moments

You dead ass had a panic attack because you couldn't find your son anywhere only to find him sitting in Lucifer's lap asleep while he was doing paper work.

Mammon

"Oi, human! And smaller....human?"

What the fu-

No swearing infront of le child

Basically cool parents over here

You would have to be a bit more strict that Mammon though because this broke bitch would try to spoil your son so...

"No mammon you can't buy him a horse." (Why a horse? Idk but Mammon wears those werid cow boy looking boots so-)

Very protective of your son and I mean like....

Your son tripped on a rock once and mammon....beat up the rock-

"Mammon it's a rock it's fi-." "IT HURT MY SON!"

Other than those very weird momments he's overall sweet

But since he's greedy he will try to take you both away form his brothers

Leviathan

Teaches your son all about TSL which maybe have been kinda hard since 7 year olds don't have much of an attention span

Normie 1 and Normie 2 there done.

Basically didn't like you and you kid but if you both watched anime and stuff then you're on the right track.

When he warms up to you both, he would start to invite you both to his room and play video games

Another cool dad but just not as hyper as Mammon

Your child is definitely doing Otaku Bootcamp. No questions asked.

Definently convinced you son to cosplay with him. >:)

If you couldn't find both of them, they were most likely in Levi's room playing video games or watching anime.

Family game night with all three of you? Duh!

Avoid playing Monopoly because either tables will be flipped or Mammon barges in and then table will be flipped.

Satan

It was just supposed to be you only. Not you and a kid

Lucifer seemed confused so HAHA

Kinda like Lucifer (please don't kill me Satan), strict but also more calm about it.

If your spn did something bad he would scold him but not like Lucifer kind of scolding.

Don't tell me he wouldn't read you son bed time stories BECAUSE I KNOW FOR A FACT HE WOULD

You son is also cat obsessed like him?

This is his kid now PISS OFF

Also don't be surprised if you find out your kid is the the Anti-Lucifer league all of a sudden.

Does have to try to keep his wrath in check if your son does something that genuinely pisses him off because he still doesn't want to hurt him.

Asmodeus

Cute human? Cute kid?

Sure why not

Kid = dress up partner

It's like his own Ken...erm Baribe doll? (Do people dress up Ken dolls?)

I don't know but if your kid wants to wear a dress and have his make up done THEN IS GONNA BE DONE

Mostly make overs with eachother and stuff like that.

THIS CHILD WILL BE RASIED BY A FUCK GENDERNORMS DAD

Mini spa days? Mini spa days.

Your son is basically all over his devilgram (besides himself of course)

Beelzebub

If this man isn't a baby already-

Hungry Hungry Himbo tried to eat you kid a first

Ok maybe he suggested it BUT THAT WAS JUST ONCE!

Protecc le babies

Kidna like Mammon witht he fact that he's over protective but also clueless

Was making food for him and your son once and almost put him on the stove.....

BUT IT'S FINE, WE'RE ALL FINE

Piggy back rides? Yes! Your son sitting on his shoulders with Beel running arouns the HoL? Yes!

It's just a little wholesome familt :D

Belphegor

Your son climbed uo the stairs and saw him before you

Oh great another human....AND IT'S WEAKER THSN THE OTHER ONE WTF IS THIS!?

your son would talk about stories from the human world and about you and somehow Belphie ends up friends with the kid.

Well great now he CAN'T kill you.

When he got out of the attic, nap times with Belphie and your son were a very constant thing and were mostly cute!

Until Belphie leaned on your son and fell alseep ontop of him....

It was one the couch though!

But also....ouch-

A/N: anddddddd done! Hope you liked it :D

[darksapphire29]

Imagine #6

You give Peter the silent treatment while you try to accept the newly discovered truth.

Warnings: silent treatment, mentions of death, stressed Peter (ya know, this is just a recurring theme that can probably be expected in most (if not ALL) my imagines), tiny OOC Pan (but I don’t think it’s that OOC), crying?? Umm... trigger warning for ppl who are still recovering from season 3 and/or season 5?? (I AM)

Peter was scolding Adam for something when you first left your tent.

“You idiot. You never pick dreamshade without gloves. Do you have a d-death...?” He stuttered a little, losing his trail of thought at the sight of you. You looked awful.

Your skin was pale, your eyes lined with a darkness that hinted at a lack of sleep. You stumbled a little as you wandered off into the forest to gather some fruit for breakfast. You didn’t even look at him as you passed, and his stomach dropped.

All but forgetting his annoyance, he walked briskly after you. You weren’t even following any of the trails. He passed the huts and ignored the confused look Felix sent his way. All he could think about was what was wrong with you. Were you ill? Hurt? Did something happen last night? Yesterday? He didn’t know, and was determined to find out.

When he caught sight of your cloak, he ran right up to you. He grabbed your shoulder, and you stopped. You didn’t turn to look at him.

“(Y/n),” he started, walking around your body with a hesitance that caught you off guard. You had honestly expected him to be mad. When he stood in front of you, his eyes filled with concern, you found you couldn’t look at him another second, so you turned your head away from him.

Peter furrowed his brows. You were never the shy type, always standing up for yourself and speaking out against him. It was one of the both impressive and frustrating traits he loved about you.

“Why aren’t you following the trail?” He searched your face, trying to read your eyes. But just as he was about to catch them, you looked away from him. Somehow, the boring new shades of moss by his feet were more interesting than Peter. It was too peculiar for him to leave alone.

“Is something wrong?” He asked again. The (tall/short) girl before him said nothing, all too lost in her thoughts. Was this a game to him? Or did he seriously have no idea? The most obvious answer was that he was mocking you. That he found your anger towards him amusing and silly. But you wouldn’t retaliate. That was what he wanted. Instead, you walked right past him and continued on your way.

Peter felt as if you had dug out his heart and jumped on it. Twice. His confident stance faltered as he watched your back. You were acting so… different. But then again, it was unnervingly familiar. Only, the last time you had acted so demeaned by his presence was almost a hundred winters ago. When his shadow first brought you to Neverland, and you were still jumpy and untrusting from your past life. Why were you suddenly reverting back to your old self?

When you began to fade into the forest, he chased after you. Peter followed you for a while, calling your name and demanding you talk to him.

You didn’t answer his questions, completely disregarding his presence. You wished he would just leave you alone. After everything you had learnt, all the secrets that had been laid before you, you needed to be alone. You needed time to think. And you especially needed Peter to go away. But no, Peter Pan never fails, and he was more than ready to win this game. Only it wasn’t a game, and if he wanted it to be, you weren’t intending to play.

Annoyance clouded Peter’s mind, and he tried so hard not to let you anger him. So hard. But it wasn’t getting any easier.

“(Y/n), come on!” He tried, throwing up his arm and following you deep into the forest. “Where are you even going?” Luckily for the both of you, he was Peter Pan, not some Lost Boy. Because if he wasn’t literally half demon, neither of you would be able to get back.

You really didn’t know where you were going. But all that mattered right then was the distance between you and the boy who’d broken your trust. Although, deep down, you were grateful he had followed you. Otherwise, you would be completely lost.

You didn’t know how to forgive him, and by the sound of it, Peter hadn’t even realised what he’d done. You chuckled. What a narcissist. Of course, he hadn’t thought it would offend you. But you couldn’t approach him about it, or anyone, really. What a girlish thing it was, to be so hurt by such a thing. Secrets like this one were more damaging than any poison or sword. But how could he have known? This was a grown-up sort of thing, and Peter was still only a child.

“(Y/n)!” He shouted again, and you jumped, having forgotten he was even there. “I can literally feel the rage in my blood.” He threatened, but you were unfazed. Nothing could hurt more than—

“Please, don’t make me force you!” His voice cracked a little on the please. Your heart clenched. He was trying to hide his desperation, but you could sense it. You wanted so much to just turn around, hug him, tell him it wasn’t his fault.

But that would be a lie. Because it was his fault. It was entirely his fault. He should have shared all those damned thoughts with you. If only he’d opened his stupid mouth, confessed, revealed everything. Instead, he’d left you to stumble blindly in the dark. But the idiot forgot to take the oil away from the lamp, and now that you’d shed some light on your life, things would never be the same. And it was this senselessness that kept you away from him. Like two magnets of the same pole—it was all Peter’s doing.

But the most disturbing truth? Your very soul threatened to shatter at the very thought. How could he have kept such a thing from you? How could he have been so careless? You tripped on a few sticks and roots as your blood threatened to boil over with rage. Had he even spared your feelings a thought? You shook your head and quickened your pace.

Peter watched you stumble along, your hands clenching and unclenching like you didn’t want him to know they were shaking. He was near you, now, and he reached out for you again. Wanting so badly to touch you again, even for a second. But then you took longer strides, taking him off guard, and his fingers missed you completely. He growled in frustration. He’d had enough.

“Fine.” His tone darkened. Chills ran down your spine, you skin crawling with goosebumps. He had never spoken to you like that before, and it scared you to no end. “But don’t say I didn’t give you a chance!” With that, he appeared right before you, and you collided with his chest. You leapt back almost immediately, like fire to your skin. Meeting his eyes for a second, you found a hint of pain behind them. But it was replaced with frustration before you could blink.

“Why are you ignoring me?” He was so lost. So hurt. You wouldn’t even look him in the eye long enough for him to see the (e/c) in them. That beautiful (e/c) he would so often lose himself in.

Quickly, he reached for your shoulders. His hands rested there, his grip gentle but firm, not wanting you to leave him behind, again. You still didn’t speak. He missed your voice, your laugh, you eyes, your smile. It had probably been an hour, but that was already too long. He clenched his jaw.

“(Y/n), this isn’t a game. Talk to me.” As much as he didn’t want to, he was losing his patience. He spoke through gritted teeth, his hold on you tightening, his eyes set in a nasty glare. His hands were harsh on your skin, and your eyes glistened with an unholy fire. You didn’t move.

He couldn’t take it anymore.

Breathing through his nose, veins popping out of his neck, he shook you. Hard. Your hair fell over your face, and your cloak would’ve fallen off if Peter wasn’t holding it there. Tears stung at your eyes as your body was thrown around, your shoulders aching.

“TALK TO ME!!” He screamed, fuming. You nearly broke down at his anger. He stopped, but you didn’t do anything. He had hoped you would yell, scream, cry, shove him off, kick him, slap him, run away, anything! You just shivered a little under his hands, but other than that, you held yourself together. His eyes reddened, almost like he might cry, himself. “Why won’t you just look at me, at LEAST?!” A part of him was begging, but the rest of him was infuriated.

In spite of yourself, you looked up at him. Your eyes were probably swollen, your skin whiter than usual, but you hardly cared. You glared at him so hard you might’ve set him aflame.

“Well then, Pan.” You croaked, a single, hot tear falling from your eye. “I’m looking at you. I’m talking to you. I’m even bloody crying. You’ve won. Now get the hell away from me.”

He stepped back, not meaning to look cocky. He was shocked. He had won, but that wasn’t important. The look on your face was important. That angry tear was important.

“I-I—” he stuttered. What could he do? You were obviously upset with him. But why? What had he done? For a short second, he thought hard about everything he could’ve done wrong.

Nothing came to mind.

“What did I do?” It was an innocent question, but when he finished, you were so pale he feared for your life. It came out so wrong. So demeaning. Ridiculing. It sounded exactly like him, and for once, he really didn’t mean for it to sound like that. 

Your usually bright and (e/c) eyes darkened a few shades. He winced.

This was not going to end well.

“What did you do?” You laughed. It wasn’t joyous and contagious like the one he obsessed over. It was maniacal, nearly psychotic. Like his laugh. “Oh, I wonder!”

“(Y/n), please—”

“Oh, no! You don’t get to speak. It’s my turn.” You spat, waving a hand in his face. “Did you think I wouldn’t find out?” Peter was completely taken aback. Fear placed his confusion and he worried for his own sake. So much was happening, now. Who knew what you had discovered?

He had wanted to keep his plans to himself. Everything he was doing, everything he planned to accomplish, he knew you wouldn’t approve. Even to save your own life, his life, everyone’s lives, the whole of Neverland. You would insist on finding a better way until your final breath.

“Kidnapping people? Using some girl? Taking a kid from his family and keeping him against his will?” The colour was quickly returning to your face, but even when you tanned to your normal colour, you continued to redden with every breath. He tried to get a word in, tried to explain himself. But it was no use.

“I can’t believe you, Pan!” He winced again, that familiar pain building up in his chest once more. “What happened to you? Why are you doing this? You used to be fun. You used to really care about everyone.” Your face was wet with tears, tears that wouldn’t stop, and Peter wanted nothing more than to hold you.

He remembered those days. The days where he and the Lost would just play around and joke and tease. When nothing mattered but you and him and Neverland.

But then, he remembered the day he returned to Skull Rock. The day he was reminded of his incoming doom. He knew what was coming. He knew it had to be done.

“(Y/n), please listen to me.” He started, but you weren’t finished.

“But you wanna know why I’m upset?” Peter didn’t say anything, he didn’t even nod. You were suddenly calm, and it scared him more than your angered screams.

“You told Felix you were—” A broken sob hacked at your throat, and you collapsed into Peter’s chest. Pride be damned, you were sick of this. Sick of being angry and scared and alone. You needed Peter, and when he wrapped his arms around you, that was it. You were finished. Your eyes red. Yours cheeks soaked. Your hands shaking. Your hair in more of a mess than usual. Your lips quivering. And just like that, you broke down.

Peter pulled you closer, just holding you. He didn’t say anything. There was nothing to say. You knew everything, and there was no way to assure you that everything would be okay. Because he didn’t know that. And as he held you to his chest, he let out a few tears himself. In minutes you were both huddled together on the ground, dirt and leaves sticking to your clothes. You clung to one another as you cried, his hands stroking your hair while you clutched onto his shirt.

Peter shushed and soothed you, stroking your hair as cries escaped his lips.

“I-I’m s-sorry,” he croaked out between sobs. You just nodded, clutching onto his tunic and gasping out that it didn’t matter. Peter kept apologising anyway, his hair tousled, his face puffy and stained with tears that you feared would never stop.

You sat like that for a long time, your sobs filling one another’s ears and more water leaked from your eyes than you knew you had in you. Because nothing was okay, and as you sat in the dim and cold light of the sun—lost in the middle of the Neverland woods—neither of you knew if it would ever be okay again.

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you know what i’m getting a little sick of seeing ppl complaining about this game pretty much all the time. like yeah it has a lot of flaws both in the storylines and sometimes design/graphics wise but it’s getting annoying seeing ppl be so negative

Oh god, this is reminding me of a post that I saw and ending up liking to "anchor" it so I could reblog it later. (Still need to do that.) That talked about this exact concept. About how, even if the criticisms of popular media are valid and constructive, and even if I actually agree with them...the endless bashing of the "bad" parts drowns out any other attempt to have a conversation about the good parts. HPHM is a pretty good example of this. Sure, it has it's problems, but the characters in this game are still phenomenal, and I think we shouldn't take it for granted that this game has a diverse cast of characters who are, by logic of the dating options, predominantly LGBT.

HPHM isn't the only example of this, though. Some of my top fandoms have become like this is in the last five years or so.

Doctor Who fans, you out there? I know, I know, you didn't like the Chibnall Era. But that's literally all anyone talks about. Some of us do like this era, and *insert Joker meme here* we're tired of pretending we don't. Especially since Jodie is the first woman Doctor. I'm not saying the criticisms are exclusively sexist, I'm saying I can't tell the sexist ones from the genuine complaints about the era and it's starting to exhaust me. In general, (and I've talked about this before) I think some of you are way too loyal to some imaginary legacy that you think was "ruined" by The Timeless Children...but this is Doctor Who, people. That same season completely un-wrote Gallifrey's return. The canon has always been at the whim of the current head writer. The Timeless Child is no different. It may or may not even last.

Game of Thrones fans...I mean this in the nicest way possible...but please, oh please, shut up about Season 8. I get it, no one liked the end of the show. That's understandable, that's valid. But the complaints are becoming overpowering, and this doesn't just impact discussion of S8. Most of the compliments toward the earlier seasons have now shifted focus to act as a comparison. If you're just talking about Season 4 to show me how good the show "used" to be, that's still being negative and that's equally draining. I can talk about what I don't like from S8, I can even go to town on it. But I acknowledge the good in that season as well. And even if you don't see the good, that's fine, but...there's only so many ways to say this before you're just repeating yourselves. You should also try to enjoy the earlier seasons without making it all about the show's "golden age." Just...every rewrite of this show that I see online gives is a happy ending, which it was never going to have. Ramsay even told us as much. This show's ending was always going to devastate us one way or the other.

I actually left the Star Wars fandom for this exact issue. I won't generalize, I know not everyone is this way, but it seems like damn near every single Star Wars fan with a voice has a hyper-specific interpretation of the Galaxy Far Far Away, and they get angry whenever anyone (official media and other fans alike) propose something that conflicts with their vision of this 'verse. Please, stop demonizing the sequels. I know they aren't perfect, but that point has been made. And stop trashing Rey, especially if you're romanticizing Luke and Anakin at the same time. I know I'll probably ignite a fire by saying this, but some of you treat Luke like he's a gift from God, and treat Rey as nothing more than a contemptible pretender. Star Wars protagonists have always been overpowered, guys. Again, I'm not saying everyone who does this is motivated by misogyny, but I can't tell the misogynists from the regular fans. Star Wars is a wonderful universe, and it achieved such a cult following that any follow-up was never going to please everyone. The prequels had the same problem when they first aired.

I was gonna talk about Harry Potter, but like...Rowling completely abandoned us and is now doing actual harm, so like...go ahead and trash her, I'm right here with you. Still, I think the same mindset applies here. Crimes of Grindelwald is not the "worst movie of all time," guys. Chill out. I have to admit that I kind of roll my eyes at the idea that the books were "always" terrible, and we just didn't see it until now. At the risk of being rude, my instinctive response to that is - grow up. Transphobic pieces of shit can also be really good writers. Admitting this doesn't mean I endorse Rowling as a person. Others have claimed that her bigotry is evident in the books, and I'm not knowledgeable enough about the various points that have been made to really critique them, but...I just don't see it. If anything, I think Rowling's past writing is proof that, at least at one time, she was on the right side. Which makes it all the more heartbreaking that she turned on us.

I love these stories and their fandoms, just...sometimes, being part of them is exhausting. Y'all should go watch CinemaWins. (Seriously, go watch Cinemawins, he's lovely.) If you feel this motivated to discuss the flaws of these particular stories...I've got news for ya. That means you're emotionally invested. So on some level, you're still enjoying yourself, right?

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i am vigorously nodding my head at this!! i definitely agree with you that AFO's selfishness is a natural characteristic and was magnified by the state of society at that time and with what he had to do to live in it.

i am putting the rest under a read more because uhhh this gets long :'D

i think it is safe to say that everyone was born selfish, the problem with AFO was that he thought himself above everyone else that he wouldn't listen to anyone who would try to assuage that selfishness to think about others? community? being of help to others? making a connection to be part of society in general. because the only family he really had was Yoichi and our boy tried SO HARD to let his brother know that straight up killing ppl isn't the right way to do it???? i mean at the end Yoichi still blames HIMSELF for not being able to guide his brother away from his descent to villainy which is..... SO SAD! YOICHI BABY YOU DID NOTHING WRONG!!!!!!!!

even with someone like Yoichi by his side AFO CHOSE to Keep Doing the things he did. chose to see people as objects (and especially in his case 'quirk factors') he can use to better his state of living. choosing the same decision over and over again to be an absolute ass! and with a quirk like his, well.... it's so easy to do???

and lmaooo AFO as bastard boyfriend material is so so right! especially the comparison of his viewing of Yoichi as a doll, that is so on point!!! and it's so curious to think of When and Why AFO chose to put Yoichi in a vault! because what i can see from the manga.. it isn't until adulthood that AFO locked Yoichi in there.... well, it's probably when AFO rose to power and had acquired that disorganized crime boss money had he the resources to have a very sinister and totally not creepy vault under his mansion lmaoooo

to add on to what you said about "he’s not upset at what Yoichi could be feeling - he’s upset over how it made him feel." i also love how he BLAMED. KUDO. FOR EVERYTHING. for even having the balls to reach out to HIS YOICHI LMAOOOOOO

LIKE BRO YOU'RE THE ONE THAT KILLED HIM REMEMBER???? oh how convenient that you forgot that very specific thing you did. you know? THAT YOU KILLED HIM???? the grief you're feeling????? that's because you killed the only thing you ever loved you idiot!!! ya grade-a moron!!! our golden boy even had to remind AFO smh

like it's never AFO's fault. it's always somebody else's and it's just..... yeah..... bastard boyfriend behavior

AND YES! AFO fixating on the whole demon lord shtick to thwart the hero Yoichi looks to with admiration is so right! and it even shows in the manga how Yoichi hides away to read said comic books.

like it's only one panel but how AFO worded this seems like he was looking for Yoichi and going '?????' because again, as you said, everything, esp Yoichi's interests, gotta center back to himself. but we don't know if Yoichi actively hides this hobby from AFO, we can see later on that he enjoyed sharing everything he likes about the comics with his brother. AFO just assumed he did.

and i absolutely love how you pointed out that yes, Kudo, Bruce, Yoichi and AFO all lived in the same era! and man, Kudo is such a sweet and romantic guy but he can't let himself be--because what with being a leader of a resistance against the demon lord and all-- that this really leads me to believe that he must have had at least someone who loved him. a parent or a mentor. someone who loved him enough to tell him that the meta ability that everyone around them are saying it's dangerous and should be destroyed is something that could be nurtured and could help people! i believe this because it was Kudo that said this part in the manga

and i also think that this is what he tells the down trodden people in the same situation as him and was able to recruit them to help his cause. (i also saw a tweet weeks ago that said that the term 'quirk' wasn't used a little later and they couldn't help but think how Kudo would have really liked the term when it was first used. and i think so too!)

with all that said, this also makes me think of Yoichi..... who was also born in the same circumstances but with the only person whom he received "love" was from AFO. but aaaah im getting off track!

AND OMG THAT LAST STORY you mentioned! that really hits! that is such a very succinct way to portray AFO and Yoichi's relationship. especially that 'What's he got that i don't' yeeeesh. i hope that tidbit you just shared about the oppressive father and his daughter isn't like... a true story or something😢

expanding on the thought of kudou getting the call sign 'hero' and afo getting irked by it for some reason

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What do you think of this whole "ppl shipping SessRin are basically supporting paedophilia” on tumblr? I've seen lots of japapense fans on twitter and they're all basically happy for the huge possibility of having Rin as Sesshomaru's wife and the mother of Towa and Setsuna, and then I go to tumblr and see all these SessRin bashing, saying that their bond should have kept platonic, the "real" sesshomaru will not behave romantically with Rin, etc. Idk what to think? :/ What are your thoughts?

oh goody, this is going to be a long one.

it’s so ridiculous 🙄 I’ve seen this “paedophilia” argument so many times and it’s triggering how they misuse this term so much. Especially as a law student (pet peeve: people misusing technical terms and making very serious (false) accusations).

Paedophilia tends to be the umbrella term for everything with a big age gap or when one party of the couple knew the other party as a child, which shows how uneducated they are with their try hard activism. Paedophilia is a psychiatric disorder, when an adult is primary or exclusively sexually attracted to prepubescent children.

No one in their right mind ships Sesshomaru with Rin while she was still a kid, I’ve yet to see someone who actively ships them in a romantic setting with her still being a kid. All the shippers I’ve come across and fanworks made, are her being a young adult or adult.

The other term they’re throwing around is “grooming”, while thinking it means he groomed her into his wife, which is also false and a misuse of the term. Grooming happens, when an adult is befriending and establishing an emotional connection with a child in order to lower the child’s inhibitions with the object of sexual abuse. Sessh didn’t approach her with any sexual intentions in mind, he tolerated her following him out of pity, which turned into being her protector after a while. As I see it, Jaken was more of a father figure for her than Sessh was. He ignored her most of the times, just watching over her and made sure she was safe (i mean, like a dog...a guard dog). And he certainly didn’t “groom” her into being his wife, that dude did not show any signs of romantic interest while she was a child. Heck, he was pretty stoic most of the times.

The fact, that people who saw Sessh as a father figure for Rin exist, is actually our strongest argument against their paedophilia accusation. They wouldn’t have been able to perceive their relationship as such in the first place, if there were ANY romantic advances or signs while she was a child. Wanna see and read about a real pedophile story/relationship? Go read Lolita by Vladimir Nobakov, it’s disturbing.

Another form of grooming happens, when someone is manipulated until they’re isolated, dependent and more vulnerable to exploitation (can also happen with adults). Though it was only a filler episode, in episode 162 (Forever with Lord Sesshomaru), Sessh even gave her the free choice to either stay with humans or follow him (with his trademark line “do as you please”). In the Manga she was staying with Kaede in the end. And she was friends with Kohaku. She mostly fended for herself (with Jaken), foraging for food in the wild or secretly on farms. Rin was certainly not isolated or dependent. I’m not even digging into the exploitation point, because there is nothing to say.

I admit, they way SessRin developed is not completely unproblematic and the biggest factor is, that he met her while she was still a child. I can agree with that, but most SessRin shippers do not ship them because he knew her as a child, but because she was the first one who he cared for. If you break it down, it’s pretty much the cold-emotionless-bad boy-falls-for-a-girl-after-being-shown-kindness-for-the-first-time trope. SessRin shippers would’ve also shipped them if Rin was the same age as Kagome the first time they’ve met. Rin being a child when they met is not the base of this ship, it’s their relationship and how she broke through Sessh’s walls and that she was the first (human) being he ever cared for. She was also the reason Sessh slowly began to accept Tenseiga as his sword.

People who are saying Sessh went out of character and should’ve stayed on platonic terms with Rin, clearly have no idea about storytelling and character development. Sessh is a dog demon. Inuyasha is a dog demon. Inu no Taisho was a dog demon. Rin is a human, Kikyo was a human, Kagome is a human, Izayoi was a human. Basically, dogs love humans and create very strong bonds with them. Even staying loyal when their owner mistreats or abuses them. The whole series builds up on this dog-human dynamic. Basically every romantic interest involving a dog demon ended up being a dog-human pair. What’s not clicking?

I also find it quite funny, how some of those people can also ship Kagome and Inuyasha while preaching their (false) paedophilia speech in the same sentence. Kagome was 15 when she met 200 year old Inuyasha. 15. That’s a teenager. I’m 26 and when I see 15 year olds, they look like toddlers to me. I don’t see anyone advocating for Kagome’s minor rights. The whole world flipped when Drake was dating a 18 year old but the fandom is still pretty silent about the fact, that Kagome was also 18 when she was married to 203 y/o Inuyasha in the epilogue. InuKag and SessKag shippers don’t get the same criticism as SessRin shippers, even though Kagome is also still a minor and that’s where you see the hypocrisy.

They can ship her because her design looks older and it’s easier to forget that she’s 15/18. Usagi from Sailor Moon was 14 when she met and began a romantic relationship with Mamoru, who was 17. Even though both are considered minors, 14 is a lot different than 17 but nobody bat an eye for that either. Probably it’s because Usagi doesn’t look like a 14 year old. Kagome doesn’t look like a 15 year old. But Rin looks her age, she looks like an 8 year old when they first met, evoking a different perception in people of being a minor, the age gap and her vulnerability. That’s the only reason I can think of, why people are fine with InuKag, SessKag, KogaKag and whatever, even though it’s essentially almost the same setting as with SessRin. Rin is a minor, Kagome is a minor, they both are protected by their stronger and much older demon travel partners. And its hypocritical to try and argue a difference because grooming and abuse of an 8 year old is such as horrific as of an 15 year old. If one of them is a victim, then both are.

I’m not trying to shit on InuKag or other Kagome ships btw., I love Kagome and InuKag, I’m just trying to show the hypocrisy in their fake activism, because it’s not based on facts and information but rather on subjective feelings and perception. It’s fine and legitimate to not like SessRin because of said reasons, but it is wrong to judge others for shipping it and accuse them of supporting paedophilia. People who are triggered by SessRin, should stay away from it but leave those alone, who enjoy it.

Oh and before someone runs their mouth at me and use personal history as an argument, I’ve been a victim of paedophilia and grooming myself. I was touched and molested by my private tutor for years between 5th and 7th grade. But I’ve overcome my trauma, educated myself and I’m able to tell fiction from reality. Nobody watches Inuyasha for relationship and dating advice. Misusing terms is actually harming the ones involved and projecting one own’s traumas and struggles onto others, by shaming them for shipping something is not helping anyone and doesn’t make a difference at all.

Lastly, no SessRin shipper is condoning real life child/adult relationships. We are able to ship them because fictional stories are less dimensional than real life situations are. Fictional relationships have less nuances, cherry picked dynamics and moments that make us perceive them in a specific way. It is man made. What seems romantic in a fictional story (even between two adults) may be littered with red flags or less exciting and boring in a real life setting. People consume fiction mainly for entertainment, not for real life and dating advice.

Remember, this is just a fictional story, just chill the f out.

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My Top Posts in 2021

#5

my girlfriend got me into ice planet barbarians and this is the ONLY straight smut writer that is valid

125 notes • Posted 2021-06-11 01:00:42 GMT

#4

a self published smut series has NO business being this funny and cute

139 notes • Posted 2021-06-14 08:02:08 GMT

#3

people are getting mad that ppl are simping for lady dimitrescu bc “omg no she’s evil and tortures/kills people tho” and all i can say is they hate to see a girlboss winning 💕

148 notes • Posted 2021-05-10 00:00:17 GMT

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Obey Me!

The brothers with a MC who has a shitty home life and is genuinely scared for their life as it gets closer to the end of their 1 year student life with them?

this got long so after lucifer’s it’ll be under a read more! as will most requests like this probably, cause both a lot of characters and im trying to like.... make hc posts longer

Obey Me! One Master to Rule Them All

- Lucifer sees your hesitation and anxiety, as the year comes to a close. He’ll pull you aside to ask what’s wrong, and if there’s something he can do to help. He will be HORRIFIED when you tell him of your situation. His jaw will tense, before he simply pulls you into his room and pulls his phone out. Guidelines be damned, he’s not about to send you back to a place where he can’t readily protect you. Sure, the Devildom is dangerous, but at least here you’re safe with him.

“I’m sure Diavolo will understand and allow us to bend the rules of the exchange program a bit.”

- Mammon is a dense as a bag of bricks, so he doesn’t realize something is up until you’re mid panic attack. Aka he walked in on you while you were mid panic attack. He was flustered, going back and forth on whether he should get someone else, before shutting himself up and coming to help you. He’d guide you through the breathing exercises, trying to get you calm enough to speak. He’d stay with you no matter how long it took, and would listen to you shakily explain what happened. And oh, the guy gets furious.

Sure his brothers may be mean to him, but the idea that you were terrified of your own family? It made his blood boil. You’d have to stop him from going to the human world or else he’d do something drastic. Pulls you down against him while calling Lucifer.

“I don’t give a fuck about the rules- you ain’t going nowhere! Especially not without me!”

- Leviathan is a master at spotting anxiety, so he’s on you in an instant in his own way. He’ll drag you to play games with him, side eyeing you the whole time with an increasingly-reddening face until he finally asks you to talk about your problems. It almost seems like he isn’t paying attention, because he kinda keeps playing while you talk. Until the controller just snaps under his grip. He gets startled for a minute, before he shakes it off and pulls you to him.

“I... I’m not gonna let anyone hurt you, alright? I’ll get Lucifer to keep you here- I’ll fight Diavolo himself if I have to.”

- Satan is on top of it. He can tell you’re anxious, and he knows it’s more than just about leaving. He’ll bring you to his room for a private talk, and will let you vent about it. He tries to keep his composure, he really does, but you look up and he’s in his demon form without even realizing it. Slowly, he calms himself back down, and goes back to his human form. The last thing he needs is to scare you.

“You aren’t going anywhere, I’ll make sure of it.”

- Asmodeus makes little jokes at first, when he realizes you’re stressed. Stress just causes wrinkles, you know! But then he realizes it runs a lot deeper than just surface-level anxiety. He does what he knows best- gets you in a bath with him, just to relax, and sees if you want to talk. When you do, and he learns of your situation, he can’t help but cry with you. He’ll hold you until the bath water turns cold, joking that you two turned into prunes as he gets you out, dry, and into the bed with him so he can continue to comfort you.

“Well, I was thinking of trying to keep you here for myself, anyway. Guess there isn’t much to stop you from agreeing to stay with me, right?”

- Beelzebub is another thick one. He means well, he just doesn’t see the telltale signs right away. He notices after you accidentally cut your finger while on kitchen duty, and just... break down in front of him. The small cut was the catalyst for everything else, and you start spilling to him after he asks what’s wrong. He listens intently, carefully dealing with your cut as you cry to him. As soon as you’re done, he places a hand on your head gently. He’s smiling, but his eyes are serious.

“I’ll protect you. I always have.”

- Belphegor is immediately aware something’s wrong. He invades your dreams, witnessing nightmares of distorted family members and memories. As soon as you both wake up from your nap, he’s rolled over on top of you. He hovers over you, staring down at you in both concern and anger. He gets the truth out of you, maybe a little more forcefully than he meant to, but he never raises his voice. Once you’re finished, he’ll roll back over onto his side to pull you close to him. He’ll let out a bittersweet chuckle, pressing his face to the top of your head.

“I was even going to ask you to stay with me and Beel, on your last day here. Guess I know the answer that ahead of time, cause I’m sure as hell not letting you leave.”

151 notes • Posted 2021-05-16 03:21:35 GMT

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ruby dixon said “im gonna play into your breeding kink AND your fantasy of a possessive doting partner that makes you the center of their world AND your fantasy of a giant monster treating you like the most precious thing in the universe” and slapped me in the face

1115 notes • Posted 2021-06-16 06:19:23 GMT

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i think it's especially easy for neurodivergent ppl to blindly follow a community's "rules", especially when they're created by communities that overall have seemingly "good intentions". there isn't that necessary process of criticism, and context is rarely used alongside these "rules".

i randomly joined tumblr way back when, and IMMEDIATELY was like "wow, this is amazing. these ppl care about human rights and want to make the world a better place!" lol. and i began to blindly follow a lot of "rules" and cast a lot of judgements without thinking. it was pretty easy to do, considering i'd left places like youtube where (hatespeech and prejudice ideas are really common). tumblr seemed like paradise.

sure enough, i found myself saying things like "i hate men" (im he/they), "i hate white ppl" (im white), "i hate cis ppl". etc etc etc. it's really easy to like... passionately want change. and think the groups you're supporting are always right.

it's easy to make blanket statements... to follow "rules" without thinking? when your intentions are "good". i just wanted actual equality. the culture i was involved in said "these ppl are at fault, we need to change them to fix things". so i went along with it. i didn't think. i wanted to be "good".

but what about male allies. what about trans men. what about WHITE allies... do some of u gays REALLY not have a single cis person you're friends with? sorry, but theres a lotta ppl that fall into these groups who are ABSOLUTELY lovely. and also on your side.

and yet here you are, blogging about how much you hate them. throwing them under the bus based on the color of their skin, their gender, or their prefs.

just bc racist/sexist/transphobes commonly call out tumblr as a "place of hate" to try and justify their OWN hate (u know the tactic)? doesn't justify what we're doing. many of tumblr's "rules" and widespread beliefs? are inherently prejudist.

and neurodivergent ppl can just... eat this stuff up. me personally? i'm ALWAYS having to ask others "is this okay" or "am i doing this right"? it's really hard to make confident decisions on my own. so i would see "rules" as a godsend. something to trust in.

not realising that the same type of authoritarian, control-freak mentalities that exist in like... government? are also in these marginalised communities.

not to call anyone out, but i ran into yet another person with an absolutely silly dni today (ftr they seemed like a rly sweet, at most confused, younger person doin their best). but they literally were like "if someone i follow is bad, please lmk"... like? while on the surface that might seem like "oh i wanna know if someone i rb from is a secret terf" etc? i can't help but see it as "i dont know the rules! plz tell me the rules!!! i wanna do the right thing". bc i'm sorry. i see this stuff too much from atypical peeps.

there was a lot of confusing stuff in this dni. another being "if you believe there can be racism against white ppl, please dni" (the user claimed to be white btw). like... honestly? this one makes me wanna scream. bc what ppl call "racism" is usually just "prejudice". and YES prejudice actually DOES happen against white folk. your statement is an example. seriously tired of marginalised communities excusing their prejudices simply bc they're poc or gay or just whatever. like if you CHOOSE to make excuses for why hating someone based on their race or gender or sexuality is okay? you're excusing prejudice.

it even gets extra silly w the less serious "rules". like i'll see things like "no self-shipping" (its fictional), "no problematic character love" (its fictional), "you must set up/format your blog in this way" (its not your say, so if u dont like someones blog just unfollow/block omg). just a lotta weird "rules" where i KNOW these ppl got em from other cutthroat, authoritarian, self-proclaimed "good people". "no racists" is a rule that makes sense. but "no vtuber shipping"??? are... are u kidding? u know that anime youtubers are designed to be horny, right? lol... i just see a lotta stuff. too much demonizing and over WHAT? it's ridiculous.

PLEASE! for the love of GOD just TRY and use context and individual judgement. and i say this ESPECIALLY to other neurodivergent ppl. bc i get that it's really hard for ppl like us. but...

i guess i'm just tired of seeing so much hate being disguised as justice and love. and i'm tired of atypical ppl's trust being taken advantage of. i'm tired of blind rulefollowing. if tumblr communities should teach you anything, it's to be critical and analytical of morality. i know it can be difficult, but please just THINK.

[normal-thoughts-official]

I'm ignoring my responsibilities in favor of watching the All Malec Moments video compilation so get ready for a livewatch no one asked for

Hodge is so incredibly wrong about everything he says about Magnus and it's kind of impressive because all he says is heavily supported by the Clave's files, which. Is proof of how great Magnus is at manipulating them and having them think exactly what he wants them to, tbh. Especially considering that as much as Magnus closes off emotionally, he was always very caring and kind to all other downworlders and warlocks, like, they all know they can trust him, he was named HWoB, he has a thousand kids, he took them all into hiding, etc. But the Clave and circle members are still 100% sure he's a super greedy lothario who's good for nothing but partying, and like. Obviously it's because they racist but they have an intelligence system and a file full of pictures and information and it all seems to support what Hodge is saying about him. So like Magnus was quite literally living a double life, with a whole personality he put up for shadowhunters and enemies, and another for his allies and friends, and even that one isnt 100% him because he was still trying to protect himself by closing himself off from relationships. and thats fucking impressive like my man is so smart i love him

Their first official talk is so funny magnus literally goes "I'm magnus" and Alec goes "Alec" and then he smiles and then he just goes. "Oh yeah right we should uh we should go to the hmm youhavebeautifuleyes what's it called hm" and its hilarious because they exchanged three (3) words and Alec is already all lost because Magnus is just That Beautiful. also all Magnus has to do is introduce himself and Alec smiles for the first time in 4 episodes like bro. bro. seriously. help him

he's SO frustrated when Alec doesn't get the "i love a dirty lair" flirt like he does that little eyebrow raise and hes just like "what the hell i thought that was GOOD" but Alec's head is legit playing wii music

Magnus pays izzy for "defending the warlocks" i had forgotten about that and it makes me so soft ;-;

Magnus and Izzy were just vibing with magnus asking her what presents Alec likes and clary immediately interrupts to ask about the memory demon like homophobic from day one i guess

Magnus is positively impressed by the way Clary goes "I'll do anything to save my mother" you can see how much he values loyalty right then have i mentioned that i love him

we talk about the "I'm talking to you" part a lot but we never mention how Magnus just throws that one and yeets off with clary not even waiting for a reaction he's just like that's RIGHT bitch you have beautiful hazel eyes too! do with that what you will i am now summoning a demon goodbye forever

the second him and Clary are away from the rest he tells her not to trust anyone and to be careful, like... ugh he cares so much it's unreal and again very deliberate, flirt a little, give izzy a necklace, throw in some innuendos, make it seem like it's all very innocuous so no one bothers to follow them or listen in when he goes away with Clary alone, and then immediately warn her about the clave when he gets away from the others. like he cares so much and he's so good at keeping that visible only for those he wants to it's astounding, my man is so talented and i hate that he had to learn to do that to survive but god i admire him and how committed he is to helping others too. like he could say "welp who cares it's dangerous imma go fuck off" like ragnor did but not only did he stay but he had a huge vulnerability with all his generosity and he never gave that up not for a second, even as he closed himself off from having any close friends or family or lovers, he never was anything if not generous and kind

the way he deliberately calls Jace shadowhunter in the most uninterested and even lowkey condescending way after the "pretty boy" incident idndjdndi we stan a king

the way Alec and magnus hold hands to summon the demon and even Magnus seems a bit shocked at the intensity of the sound and the bond that they make like. obviously they have their little staring contest and Alec is doing the Lightwood Intensity™ thing but like you can see Magnus frown just slightly and be a little confused because it was so strong right off the bat. even the sound of when they hold hands is louder than when the others do, like you can just feel their connection and the way magnus' magic flows so freely through Alec like god the soulmate energy tbh

Alec has a full body jerk when they hold hands too and he's the only one like damn we get it u 2 r vibin get a room

Izzy going "you ppl are pathetic" straight to the hets is so funny especially after Alec reacted to holding magnus' hand like he had gotten a 1000W electric shock or something. but i get the feel maybe she did that deliberately so they wouldnt pay as much attention to Alec's reaction too

the special effects were truly so bad like we all knew this but damn

Jace is such an asshole like Alec made it to kill the demon because it was you know about to seriously hurt them all and Magnus had just said that he couldn't contain the demon for longer (and like we know that Alec is the only one who ever cared if Magnus overexerted himself out of the shadowhunters but like bro this affects you) and Jace just???? shoved him??????? against the wall???? like a fucking piece of shit??? they should have let valak kill him tbh

the first time magnus calls him Alexander is when he calls Alec to see if he wants a drink and it's just like very clearly a thing that's supposed to be between them two? like he never did it when there were others nearby and i dig that

the fact that when asking Alec out he said "it was nice getting to know you, you seem sympathetic" like he could have gone with a lot of better more flirty adjectives but for a second the truth slipped out and he said what he thought - that while Alec was objectively you know tall and strong and all what really attracted him was the way Alec clearly gave a fuck whether or not Magnus was struggling with his magic to keep the damn demon at bay. and that was before the magic sharing shit too when Alec proved him right by cleaning up his things and saying that he had exerted himself enough for one day. like so many ppl see Magnus as the All Powerful Son Of Asmodeus Who's Also There To Service Shadowhunters and Alec just shows the faintest signs of caring about his wellbeing and he's immediately drawn to him like damn Im sad

also maybe this might be why he asked Alec to come so he could draw from his strength specifically, like he knew from the little hand holding thing that Alec was open and receptive to his magic (which probably adds to the "sympathetic" stuff like the fact that Alec had such an intense reaction to his magic and yet didnt try to push it back or draw away from it basically shows that he's open to Magnus if that makes sense? not only because magic is a part of warlocks but also because shadowhunters are all taught that magic is like, dirty and evil, so it would be instinctive for Alec to be resistant to demonic magic in his body, but he wasn't, he accepted it so readily and intensely it was a shock to the both of them) and also that he cared enough to support him. he kinda had Magnus' back from the beginning, first killing that circle member in the club before Magnus even saw him, then helping Magnus kill the other, then immediately making it to kill the demon when Magnus said he couldn't hold him back for long. like im aware I'm reading too much into this but s1 malec was very kept to the between-the-lines and its very interesting to me to think what Magnus was thinking, even if obviously on a subconscious level. Alec was showing himself to be open, reliable and caring, and magnus values that, and hes attracted to him and he hasnt had that in a while, because he wouldnt allow himself, but now he's healing and the pull he feels when he finally gets that while being emotionally available enough to accept these little gestures of caring is really strong. love that for him tbh

i go FERAL over everything about the magic sharing shit okay i always have. the way alec shows up and Magnus is kind of falling over, exhausted from trying to hold onto luke, and Alec immediately runs to support his weight and make sure hes okay? and magnus even as he was about to fall over never had his magic falter, my man couldn't keep his balance but still wouldnt come close to stumbling and risking luke's life further for even a second. so when Alec gets there he's just quite literally having his back, supporting his weight, when even Magnus didnt care about that (which like. unhealthy) and was focused on luke? and like Magnus can focus on luke because Alec is there to give him his support and make sure he's fine and how long's it been since he last had someone to do that?? and it's clearly alec's first instinct and like we know Jace or even Clary wouldnt fucking react like that. and then they have this ridiculous fucking staring contest again like we get it alec you're gay panicking at Magnus' beautiful eyes but like pls? and then we get to the most important part which is TAKE WHAT YOU NEED

like JDNDJSNSKDNDJDBSHSBSUSNSISNSIBSZJBZUZBSJSBSISNSSINSIS *SCREAMS INTO OBLIVION, SENDING SELF OUT OF EARTH'S GRAVITY ZONE*

his reaction is just SO intense and immediate he's just like "take what you need" he just offers himself fully to help Magnus just like that, no hesitation, and like Magnus is literally drawing from Alec's strength/life force, there should be some kind of resistance, even from a regular person or a friend, like its a very natural instinct. but Alec just grabs his hand and goes take what you need and he doesn't resist he just lets him do it and lets Magnus take his strength, because he genuinely worries about his wellbeing and safety just because he does, he believes in protecting others and being there for them, same as Magnus, and to Alec it's the most natural thing in the world but to Magnus it's shocking because he's always been self reliant, he has to be, he's been alone too many times and he's been used too many times and he's scared of what he'll let people take from him if he opens himself up because he always gives and gives, and he hasnt even let anyone be there for him to have his back and give him support when he needed in these last few centuries, not fully, not since Camille. but Alec shows up and just immediately cares for him in both small (like later when he refuses to let Magnus clean his couch magically because he knows he's tired and does it himself) and huge (like literally not hesitating before letting Magnus use a super intimate and presumably draining spell on him without putting any kind of limit, so Magnus can not overexert himself like he always does) ways and it means so much to him? and hes just so drawn and attracted to him and suddenly he realizes he's catching feelings that he had forgotten how to, because of course he had been healing and opening up, but he still kept people at some kind of length that didnt allow them to take care of him even if they wanted to, but Alec got that opening and he dived right in, and Magnus realizes how starved he's been for this kind of care and support that he's been denying himself and he decides to chase this, take it seriously, and i just aaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

and like again Alec doesn't even think twice about it, because he's always been the protector and the support anyway, and he doesn't want to let anyone struggle and also most of that is just him being a Decent Human Being, but just like he got that opening that no one else did before, he met Magnus at the right time and he was sympathetic and caring and that sparked so much in Magnus, made him realize just how much he's been craving affection and care and close contact with people, and being vulnerable emotionally, and all of that that he's been denying himself. obviously magnus is romantically attracted to him but right then Alec is unlocking honesty with himself inside of magnus, he's unlocking vulnerability and not using it against him but really making a good thing out of it, and magnus' forgotten it could feel like this, safe and nice instead of hurting and scary. and again it's such a simple gesture but fuck my boy's been starved!! for so long!!! okay! and he can't help but want to desperately clutch to that feeling because against all odds he trusts alec to see his vulnerability right then (and he deliberately lets him see it further when he gives Alec that drink, tells him he's been closed off, that alec's unlocked something in him. you can see all the sadness and hope and vulnerability in his eyes right then, pretty much for the first time in the show, hes just so open and vulnerable and that's deliberate! first time was a fluke but second time he's choosing to because he wants to see where this goes, and if the magic sharing scene is the spark, the drinking scene is the fire, because they're not in a life or death situation anymore, Magnus is choosing to give Alec a chance by showing him a glimpse of his insecurities and Alec answers in kind, letting Magnus see his own confusion and want, and also again shows his caring and doesn't betray or use magnus' vulnerability and fuck!!! Magnus falls in love right then because this boy stays with him all night and talks, and he sees Magnus look at him with shiny eyes and admit that he's been scared of relationships, and he tells magnus not to overexert himself, and they click and Alec is open to his magic and hes funny and hes compassionate and also passionate about what he believes in, and they have so much in common with the way they hide and care so deeply and protect others always and are so loyal and i just. udndjdndidjdjxnxjxnskxndk SOULMATES god)

I need to lie down actually this was a bad idea I'm not strong enough I'm too feral

Might continue this later who knows. I'll be tagging malec livewatch and also long post as always if you want to filter this nonsense out