#anways meme time

[daveyfvckingjacobs]

how to get better at acknowledge and being okay with saying you’re disabled via projection, a guide by me

[helthehatter]

From what the tags tell me I'm on a lonely road

[hirokiyuu]

Sol/Tang 43. Watching me while I sweat from exercising

She laughs, coming to sit down by Tangent's side. "It's not that bad. I'm not saying you need to come with me, but... I dunno, I just think it's fun!"

Sol's grinning at her in that way that always makes Tangent feel like there's ants crawling up her spine, her eyes curled up and warm and bright. The smell of her is all around, disgusting with sweat, inescapably present. Even if Tangent were to close her eyes she couldn't possibly escape. So instead she tilts her head and says, "Mm, I can think of more enjoyable ways to work up a sweat."

There. Sol goes even pinker at that, eyes darting away as her head ducks and her smile twists shyly. "Jeez, Tang, I mean, yeah, but...."

It's always a nice feeling, leaving Sol lost for words. Tangent reaches out, lets her fingers rest on the back of Sol's hand with promise. "Yes, Solanaceae?"

Another pause, before Sol laughs again and then leans forward, face half-hidden by her knees. "Oh, nevermind. I can't believe you can just say that kind of stuff so easily."

"Is that a bad thing?"

"Nah." Sol twists, and the smile she gives Tangent is softer than before, still a little shy at the sides. Bearable, but only just. "I like it, it just... kind of kills me a little, also?"

Good, Tangent thinks. "Then I'll try to limit your exposure to non-lethal levels," she replies, and when Sol laughs Tangent allows her smile to grow a little in return.

[thrown-away-opinions]

Fuck, I missed Killdozer day, so this will be slightly less impactful. Anways...

On this most sacred of days, the 20th anniversary of the Killdozer, I implore all of you to shit all over anyone who tries to ummm ackshually about Heemeyer's story. The majority of the spin on the story that claims Heemeyer was the cause of all of his own problems and that he spontaneously decided to self-sabotage until he went mad and decided to Killdoze his town largely comes from a single guy, Patrick Brower. Brower is not only someone who has made a career off the Killdozer story, but also one of the people Heemeyer was directly aggrieved with because, despite saying he was going to cover Heemeyer's story about his issues with a corrupt and abusive local government, he just conveniently never followed up on that story until it became the career-making Killdozer story much later, where he conveniently tweaked little details about the story to downplay the Grandy City Council's part in driving Heemeyer to "unreasonable action" in retalliation for their horrendous mistreatment of him over a couple acres of land.

Brower has reported a lot of contradictory information, while also neglecting or misrepresenting other information to make the narrative spicier. He turned the whole thing into a documentary, a movie, and a book and all of those things are slanted against Heemeyer so it looked like he was just an insane jackass who snapped for no good reason.

At the same time, with the Killdozer being kind of a meme and a "don't tread on me" quasi-libertarian/anarchist symbol, contrarians have come out to try and add more negative light on the story, painting Heemeyer as an unhinged asshole who was just attacking the city at random, and for no good reason, which simply isn't true. This recontextualizing of the event is done entirely in petty retaliation because they just don't like seeing their perceived enemies enjoying anything. So, they have to come up with additional spin on the narrative so they can say "There! Now you can't have any fun or talk about how local governments are full of petty tyrants!"

The Killdozer story is one that shows what happens when people in power feel like they are exempt from the consequences of their actions. When they believe they can simply bend and twist the law and the zoning codes and every little bit of pointless bureaucratic red tape to get whatever they want for themselves and their cronies at the expense of anyone unfortunate enough to be in their way. In almost all cases, these sorts of people go unpunished for their entire lives. In this one single case, someone was pushed too far and decided to take extreme, unreasonable action, and that's something to think about and remember.

[msmargaretmurry]

Mini fic 13. things you said at the kitchen table would be fun for matthew and leon, because another pair of my blorbos have several Important Scenes in the kitchen, so seeing how that setting is used for others is nice!

as i'm sure everyone has forgotten by now, eons ago i was doing this writing meme, and so many lovely folks left me prompts that i never got to because grad school destroyed my ability to write. but i am trying to get back in a creative groove so we're resurrecting it. so thank you for your patience/sorry about the wait i guess?? 😂 anway —

13. things you said at the kitchen table

“There you are.”

The kitchen had been so quiet that Leon jumps, looking up from his phone to see Matthew leaning in the doorway, eyebrows knit together with a frown. He’s bare-chested, barefoot, wearing the gray sweatpants that had been folded on top of Leon’s hamper, worn once but not dirty enough to put through the wash yet. There’s an array of teeth marks and mouth-shaped bruises down his torso, just starting to bloom with color. If he turned around, Leon knows, there would be a matching constellation on the back of his hip, disappearing under the waistband.

Leon tends to lose himself in the moment. Sometimes it’s a little embarrassing to see what he’s done afterwards.

Matthew tilts his head. “You okay?”

“Yeah.” Leon looks at his phone again, somewhere in the middle of a mindless scroll through Instagram, then sets it aside. “Yeah, just couldn’t sleep.”

“Coulda woken me up,” Matthew says, that cocky little grin of his tugging at one corner of his mouth. “I woulda tired you back out.” He’s crossing the room as he says this, ignoring Leon’s eye-roll, pulling out a chair to sit down across from him. Elbows on the table, eyebrows raised. The only time he’s stopped looking smug all night is when Leon had him gasping and panting and moaning too hard to look anything but desperate. Which is stupid, because his team kind of got destroyed earlier, but maybe his face is just kind of stuck that way.

Leon doesn’t really get Matthew at all. He likes him well enough — a surprising enough thing on its own, and one that Leon is still reluctant to cop to sometimes. But there’s something impenetrable about him. He always leaves Leon feeling off-balance. Something about the way he walks into every room like there’s no reason he wouldn’t belong there, including Leon’s kitchen. 

The sex is great, though.

Matthew hasn’t spent the night before, but not for any real reason. Just lack of opportunity. Leon usually likes sharing a bed when he has the chance. 

Matthew nudges his foot under the table. “Hey.”

Leon blinks at him. “What?”

“You sure you’re awake?”

“Yeah, I’m fuckin’ awake,” Leon says, and kicks him back.

“Well then act like it,” Matthew says, catching Leon’s ankle briefly between his feet. “Is everything okay?”

Leon opens his mouth to say yes, but then he takes a moment to consider the situation, and instead he says, “This is a little weird, isn’t it? You and me at the kitchen table?”

“Well, it’s not my fault we’re not still in bed.”

“Shut up, you know what I mean.”

“I think it’s mostly weird because it’s the middle of the night.” The way that Matthew’s curls fall in his face is distracting. Makes Leon think about how they feel tangled in his fingers. He’d be disappointed if Matthew ever cut his hair short. “You know I’m leaving at the end of the season, right?”

This startles Leon more than Matthew’s sudden appearance two minutes ago. “What?”

“Contract’s up. Bye-bye Calgary.” Matthew shrugs with an extremely measured amount of awkwardness. That— that’s why he’s so fucking confusing. Even his sincerity feels like an act sometimes. But even more than that—

“Why?”

“It’s too fucking cold, I’m homesick, and my coach hates me.”

“No, mean— really, he does?”

Another shrug. So helpful.

“I mean, why are you telling me this?”

“I’m trying to make you pay attention to me,” Matthew says. “Geez, why do you think I’m here?”

Leon raises his eyebrows. “You didn’t get enough attention earlier?”

A tiny grin. “No.”

“So where are you going?”

“Dunno yet.”

“Is that true or are you just not telling me?”

Another shrug. A slightly larger, smugger grin.

“You think I’ll miss you?”

“Nah. You’ve got Davo to keep you warm.”

“We’re not—” Leon ignores Matthew’s dancing eyebrows. “Seriously, why are you telling me this?”

Matthew kicks his foot under the table again. “Come back to bed. We’ve got, what, two games left this season? I’m trying to get the fuckin’ in while I still can.”

“So you’re going somewhere far away,” Leon says.

“Dude, you’re in Edmonton,” Matthew says. “Everywhere is far away.”

“I meant, like, out of the conference.”

Shrug. The temptation to reach across and hold Matthew’s shoulders still is so strong. Instead Leon just meets his gaze, trying for the umpteenth time to figure him out. It doesn’t work, so he looks again at the collage of bruises spilling over his collar bone. He’s changed, in the couple of years they’ve been doing this. His body used to be wirier, but now he’s starting to fill out like a grown man. Leon can feel it on the ice, when he hits him, and in bed when he fucks him. He used to be wilder, more immature, more willing to sacrifice the play to be annoying, but he’s honed that down to an art. Whatever team gets him is going to be blown away by what they find behind his reputation. And Leon— well. It’s strange to feel so acutely that in the grand scheme of things he’ll just be an anecdote in Matthew’s life. It doesn’t bother him, exactly. It’s just a strange little moment. He’d thought, maybe stupidly, that they’d be doing this for years to come. Battles of Alberta and all that. But somehow it makes a lot more sense this way.

“Come on,” he says, standing abruptly. He catches Matthew by the arm on his way around the table, pulling him along back toward the bedroom. Matthew shakes the grip off, but catches his hand instead. In bed, he kisses Leon like he means it, but there are a lot of ways to mean something.

[mismefancy]

Honestly, it took me months till I finally properly appreciated Focalors' character. (And it was probably obvious for most people but I'm an idiot who took a while to realise this. Lol)

Back when we first met her, something felt a bit off about Focalors. At least, that's how I felt. Her calming demeanour, the way she sounded so neutral about her crazy plan, how she never wavered a single time when explaining Furina's role. (Heck, the "So anways, then I cursed her" line became a meme. Lol)

Compare her to Neuvillette during the scene. The Hydro Sovereign who once never cared about humanity, was absolutely distraught once he realised what Furina went through. He sounded like he was in the absolute verge of tears the longer Focalors talked.

I think it was the first time I saw a God act like a benevolent, all divine being in the game. The other Archons, for all their developing understanding of humanity, still felt flawed and human under all that divinity.

That's when I finally realised what Focalors lacked throughout her scene: Her humanity. She truly felt like a God above her people, who had plans for her people and there was barely an doubt for failure because it felt like she was truly in control. For all her talk about saving humanity, she sounded so weirdly detached, even when her actions said otherwise.

Do not get me wrong, this is not a complaint on her character. It was just an observation I had. I was alright that Focalors felt different from the other Archons we met during our journey. Similar to how I was alright if we saw Ei under an antagonistic light.

But then it hit me like a brick thrown from across the room and I'm an idiot for forgetting this fact whne it was clearly stated... Focalors' humanity wasn't lacking, just removed from her entirely. Her humanity was in the shape of Furina.

Before everything that has happened, Focalors was once a human. Before she was even human, she longed to live life as a human. And when Egeria granted that wish for the oceanids, it was a dream come true. Her wish was to live and feel her humanity. To feel the everyday emotions and experiences that every humans encounter, to laugh, to cry, everything. Even when she sounded so neutral during the scene, she clearly expressed her love for humanity.

And honestly, it must've been difficult to completely split her humanity away from herself, the very thing she longed for, all for the possibility that Fontaine could be saved from the prophecy. For all the messed up stuff she had to put Furina through, she too screwed herself.

So let's imagine this:

If Furina was a representation of Focalors' humanity, and Furina was an absolute emotional mess during it...What did Focalors feel when she came to the conclusion that her humanity had to be seperated from her?

From everything we learned about Focalors, I think it's safe to assume that it was probably one of the most heartbreaking things she had experience.

And just like Furina, she sacrificed it for her people. It finally made me appreciate Focalors more.

[gramarye]

really really long post where i just talk about johan from yugioh gx thank you

im thinking about johan tonight bc i was drawing him and i wanna talk abt him. bear with me. I REALLY LIKE JOHAN . TO START THIS OFF WITH i have an official licensed johan "WHERE AM I" shirt and i adore it its really funny also i used to have like a johan pin i bought from a german anime store and it was like 8 euros but i shipped it off to my friend who is really really crazy about johan

^johan where am i shirt

anyway johan. jessejohan. i like johan so much believe me he is my nordic scandinavian brethen i just think his writing has issues mainly that he has like no real relationships outside judai and like. i know as a gay person -- i am literally a lesbian In A Lesbian Relationship In Real Life -- that characters will become more likeable when they're queer coded bcuz its Different and its relatable. however i think his writing is kind of really weak and i quote this thing my friend said in 2022 like a lot

HARD TRUTHS TO SWALLOW jesse is a beautiful damsel in distress and his personality outside jaden and crystal beasts is kind of nothing. i love him tho

but the most offensive thing abt it writing wise is like in season 4 when they duel against trueman sorry it was fujiwara. okay i was rewatching gx ages ago and my ex was watching it with me and it was her first time seeing it and shes a literature major and when the whole. "what is the darkness in johan's heart" scene, AFTER IT WAS ESTABLISHED EVERYONE, EVERY STUDENT INCLUDING MANJOUME SHO ASUKA O'BRIEN ETCETC has darkness in their hearts,

my ex goes "if they reveal that he has no darkness in his heart because hes such a special boy im going to be so fucking mad because hes already a mary sue" (HER WORDS NOT MINE she was so mad about johan its funny.) AND THEN THAT IS EXACTLY WHAT THEY DO

like he is literally too perfect. his only flaw is his one (1) time thing about getting lost which is never really brought up again (also its more of an endearing haha funny thing and yes i like it i have a shirt referencing that scene.) and the fact that.. he gets taken over i guess.

i do think the switch around where they bamboozle fujiwara is really funny. it is a funny scene i just wish they literally didn't do it at the cost of "johan is a perfect person without any mental weaknesses when literally every single other character has some flaws" I DONT GET IT!!!

maybe he can just photosynthesize his worries into strength i dont know. does anyone remember that meme

but really like WHAT IS JOHAN WITHOUT JUDAI!!!! why is he literally perfect and above other characters also. why could they not give him any darkness like What possible reason does that serve except me think he is BORING!!!! i do like johan btw as i said i really do. i just think his writing kinda sucks and people are way too nice on johan because he is queer coded but the fact is his writing is really weak. this isnt exclusive to johan ok i also dislike some aspects of jadens writing and asukas and so forth (naming characters i really like to prove my point) I AM CRITICAL this is just. about johan. ok.

and this brings me to the weirdo youtube essayists who only care about s3 and think its the peak of gx and yugioh in general and also. ONE SUCH YOUTUBER. WHO SAID IT IS "HOMOPHOBIC" THAT JESSE IS SOUTHERN IN THE DUB WHICH. WHAT?

you think all southern people all homophobic??? im sorry but i know so many goddamn queer people in thhe south. are you out of your mind. please blow up. LET HIM BE A GAY TEXAN you are just showing your own prejudice literally why did so many gx fans eat up "umm it was homophobic of 4kids to make him southern" they give like everyone accents. he has cowboy boots in his design. its not homophobia hes just southern and southern gay people exist. watch brokeback mountain or something

anway

i think johan is a much more interesting character if you incorporate his manga counterpart into it. like combine him with his anime self and it'd be really fun. his bug enthusiasm in the manga is fun like he has an actual hobby and personality. ADHD bug king

also i think personally they should lean into him being scandinavian more. ITS FUNNY. i think he should try to feed manjoume blodplättar because he looks anemic. he should open a can of surströmming around asuka (canonically very much hates food with strong smells) and she gets so upset she has to like leave the building entirely. she should get into a cultural dispute with o'brien because he thinks carola's swedish cover of mickey is better than toni basil's original

i think this and like. septembers mikrofonkåt is what he should listen to. swedish pop baby

anyway. i like johan i just think Some of his fans are insane and thats why i need to take him down a peg every now and then . in a loving bully way. also hes very gender to me dont worry about it. also TWO different people have said some variation of the "fuck danganronpa and its fans i hope komaeda marries a woman" post about him to me in different years which is so funny.

anyway yes i love jessejohan. send post

[socksandbuttons]

oh this is so awkward to watch

hilarious tho cassie... 'i dont know what ur talking about??' when lunar refers to his death fgnjd just casually drops his own death, i love u lunar

wheres that meme where u shove a character out of the way to look at the other character. thats me rn. outta the WAY helpi.

i can feel the uncomfortble air. cassie i feel u knew this would very awkward.

the slow turn of lunar gritting his teeth here. im so sorry man.

I FEEL VERY BAD FOR MY BOY AT THE MOMENT but i can tell thats the point here. its awkward for a reason.

anway sbdkj poor lunar he was just trying to signal to earth the WHOLE TIME. reel ur bear in cassie.

and this is where u find out this ship is never happening on my blog. its Banished fiveever. Anyway love that earth and lunar got to talk about it, and i want to lunar latched to earth the whole time. stay safe man.

[poindexters-labratory]

Could you explain the premise (or anything else you'd like to share) of The Abyss to me, to the perspective of one who knows basically nothing about creepypasta? ;-; like I know the names of the more known characters and that's it lol. it sounds cool and I'd like to know a little more though, if you feel ok with that :0

Of course!!

Creepypasta is an Internet term that's similar to copypasta, copypasta being a wall of text that would copy and pasted to troll or meme people. A creepypasta is the same premise, but it's a horror story. A lot of memorable characters came out these stories for better or for worse. Characters like The Slenderman, Jeff the Killer, The Rake, etc.

Then there's Marble Hornets, which is a web-series inspired by The Slenderman, and it's really awesome, I would recommend it to those who haven't watched it. I most recently was able to finish up all the seasons and it really is amazing to watch.

So, I was a fandom creepypasta kid in middle school, so I was very attached to the softer interpretations of these characters. There was more comedy to the short narratives that were told with them, I also found them to be used more as vigilante characters.

There was an aspect that I really feel spoke to a lot of younger people, which was that someone was coming for them, to help them and take them from the situation that was out of their control. I know that was true for me, even though I didn't necessarily need saving, I knew that there were people who needed help. Help that at eleven years old, I couldn't provide. As a helpless and outcasted kid, these characters, however silly it may seem, helped with feeling seen and understood.

Anyway, that's sort of what The Abyss takes inspiration from, added on top that I think I can make a story out of anything. I started working on it at the peak of the pandemic, so I probably also felt helpless in that situation as well, not to mention that's when my tics got to the point where it was debilitating.

Anway, context aside, I'll explain what The Abyss has going on at this point in time (the story has been changed so many times, that's why I say that).

So, it's mainly taking the big creepypasta fandom idea that all the creepypastas live together in a mansion with The Slenderman and expanding on it. For The Abyss, it's turned the mansion into whole another dimension. This dimension has been dubbed The Abyss (you can see where the title comes from).

It's a place for nature's freaks and society's rejects. They're used for the agenda of nature's biggest freak and mystery, The Tall Man, The Slenderman, The Boss, The Operator, whatever It's called. Most of the individuals who seek refuge under It don't know It like the people that work directly under It. Most of the people there can be compared to being in military reserves. They will be called upon if they are needed.

So far, the characters that get called on (mostly by Briar) from the reserves are Ben (BENDrowned), Cody (X-Virus), Anthony (OC), and Jeffrey (Jeff the Killer) (but Jeff just kinda joined on his own accord).

There are other characters that were pulled out of the reserves by The Slenderman are OCs and a few other canonical characters, such as Kagekao, Bloody Painter, Laughing Jack, and more once I start actual progress on plot and such.

Then there are the people who work directly under the command of The Slenderman. These are the Proxies. They communicate with It telepathically in the form of visions and nightmares and do whatever job It needs done. They get a brand in the shape of the 'No Eyes'/Operator symbol from Marble Hornets somewhere on their body and are forever at the mercy of The Tall Man.

These characters shown here are Roque (Rocky), Briar-Rose (Briar), and Toby (Firecracker) (I'll explain why he's not Ticci Toby some other time).

Other characters that are Proxies include characters like Natalie (Clockwork), and whoever else I'll put in that category.

Then there are the characters who exist outside of The Abyss, like Eyeless Jack.

That would be Homicidal Lui, Jane the Killer, Nina the Killer, and most importantly Tim Wright.

The plot starting out will be a crossover/continuation of Marble Hornets, following Tim as he goes cross country getting hunted down and stalked by members of The Abyss. Tim was a very important asset for The Slenderman because of his ability to spread The Sickness. Too important to lose. It has been tracking him down for however many years and now it's gotten to the point where It has to start using Its Proxies and Reserves to get this one guy.

If anyone would like to learn about the characters as individuals, just send an ask and I'll be more than happy to talk about them :3!!

[yourfavouritefighter]

Did something cause pimp King Kay's corruption arc or was he just built like that (a shithead) and hid it well? Also, what's Fent and Ghostie Dean's relationship *insert innocent angel meme*

GIGGLING AND KICKING MY FEET AISHDHSSJ I LOVE YOU DUDE AAA

okay okay okay so!!!!!!

Pimp Kay wasn’t always a little shit! once upon a time he was a kind lil rascal with a knack for showbizz, however when Dean died Kay was taken in by his mother the queen Zelus. Having seen how fragile her sons were and how quickly Kay tried to fight the guard who killed Dean, she decided to train him. You see Zelus had discovered old texts that told off ancient and powerful magic- and what better test subject than her heir. With dark magic Kay would be an unstoppable ruler and the perfect threat against those who dared to stand against her rule.

She had fent act as an assistant and helper to Kay, a) as a way to help train fent to be a valuable asset, and b) to help keep Kay in line and develop the social skills required to be king. And that’s how things were for a while. However Zelus didn’t realise that dark magic corrupted its user. (lemme just drop my notes on dark magic rq)

-very taboo was used a lot in the past before people began to understand the effects of it

-angels are more susceptible to the effects of dark magic due to being made completely of light

-when used the caster will begin to be corrupted by the magic

-when the caster uses the magic, the corruption will spread, however acts such as killing will heightens the effects

-past a certain point the corruption will continue on its own, without any magic usage to provoke it

-the corruption is the destruction of the casters own magic to feed the dark magic, this is why their will be dark gradients from areas of high magic usage (arms, face etc), these gradients are the caster’s body breaking down as all creatures are made from magic

-once fully corrupted the caster will cease to exist their entire being fuelling the dark magic/dark magic god

-if the caster loses their magic or their magic is separated from them (some people have the ability to block magic etc) then the effects will reverse as their soul is able to rebuild its magical stores, healing the body.

-dark magic like really messes with ur head because it’s literally controlling you as it destroys ur mind to feed itself like dude ur gonna go insane because ur mind is like half destroyed

-anyone who is hit by a dark magic attack may be susceptible to its affects (get infected punks)

-dark magic had all but been forgotten when zelus (jeez she’s just ruining everything huh) digs it up to test on her kid cuz she wants a warrior heir (big fuckywucky)

-anyone killed by dark magic cannot go to the afterlife as their soul is consumed by the magic

But yeah so Zelus didn’t realised that Kay was getting fucked up by the magic, it was relatively minor up until he murdered her and then he started acting really whack and Fent started getting all sus of the dude.

And that’s around the time Kay framed the angel guard who killed Dean for Zelus’ death starting a war against angels but yk. But it slowly became a self perpetuating cycle, Kay did bad stuff because of the dark magic, the dark magic got stronger, kay did more bad stuff, the dark magic got stronger. Yeah it was fucked up.

ANWAYS ONTO MY OTHER BOYS!

So i’m not entirely sure about the dynamic between Gohstie dean and fent (cuz i haven’t really thought about ghostie dean in a while i can’t lie dude).

Their personalities are like, Dean is quite curious and a lil bit awkward as he’s been trapped in the spirit world for like the past 5-10(+?) years (i haven’t decided how long he’s gonna be dead yet (prolly closer to 5)) and so doesn’t understand mortal customs and stuff. Whilst fent is quite moral and well intentioned. So it’s probably gonna be the pair of them sharing a brain cell. I’m thinking it will be a lot of dean chirping in with random questions about the world (aka my excuse to infodump in my story and it be relevant) and fent telling dean cool stories from his life or the world. Maybe a little bit of Dean offering really dodgy suggestions to the problems they encounter, because his view of the world is kinda whack in places. Hes normal but occasionally he’ll come out with the most whack sentence you’ve ever heard.

The group: is looking for someone

Nobody:

Not a soul:

Dean: we should ask The Candle Man for help!

Fent: the whAT 😟

All of it makes sense to Dean, because as a spirit everyone knows about The Candle Man (aka Wick God of Souls) however he is mostly unknown to the mortal world, and even to those who know of him, he’s not called ‘the candle man’. Basically there’s a lot of that going on.

Also i think Dean spends a lot of time just sprawled over Fent as a ghost. Like what do you mean he can’t curl around Fent’s shoulders like a lil creachure??? My lil touch starved ghost boy teehee

anyways thank you for reminding me to post pimp kay here

also also also bonus lil head canons for post ghost Dean

-will walk into walls or get startled when he bumps into things cuz he forgets he’s like physically in places now

-he doesn’t know how to facial expression (being a ghost is weird and a lot of things function completely differently)

-occasionally he’ll just forget that he’s supposed to walk becuase he’s so used to being able to just will himself to move and it works yk

-textures completely freak him out sometimes (FYM THE GROUND FEELS DIFFERENT IN DIFFERENT PLACES???) he also finds wearing a variety of clothes strange (wdym you don’t just have one outfit that you just wear yk???)

-occasionally he’ll just stand and stare at people cuz he forgets people can see him now (my bro is a people watcher through and through)

[oldfritz]

for character ask meme: without any guns, what about Karl? The narrative haunter? Hes so special.

oh karl. i'm sorry for what i've done to you posthumously. but think of it like those mushrooms that take over dead bodies or zombie cicadas! ...ah perhaps i should shut up now

favorite thing about them: the inherent tragedy of being so fucking old, truly an ancient being, and yet you're stuck in a child's body. the state you represent is strange. stronger when the sum of its parts are combined, but you yourself lack that imposing might. a mind so beautiful and active and yet it lacks the body to match. i...i get that

least favorite thing about them: i need a sitdown chat with the minds at funimation for why they decided the poor little german boy has to talk like 'it's-a me! karl-io!'

favorite line: i don't think i have one. is it him or young germany in the brothers grimm strips? i liked those. he was cute in them, pathetic, clearly dying

brOTP: per, i'm with you. i don't think this guy has ever had friends. true friends, people who don't want anything from him or see him as an avenue for their ambitions (whether by his/its destruction or through that nonsense that medieval austrians pulled)

OTP: i think by default it's feli but yeah also with you. it's never made much sense to me besides 'omg gerita star-crossed lovers twin flames my babies will find each other in every life.' which has never compelled me. but i like it well enough when i'm slogging through chibitalia sections again

nOTP: fuck, the guys only got one ship. should i make some up? yeah i really fucking hate the sickos that ship karl with matthew. see them all the time on this site and ao3. there, an answer!

random headcanon: i wrote this in my head but neglected to touch the keyboard. classic mistake. anways, i just imagine he's lonely. almost unbearably so. who can understand him? who has his burdens, his struggles, his pains? a holy child bogged down with the sins of this earth. poor guy needs a friend :(

unpopular headcanon: that him being the vessel for ludwig's soul or whatever is not a good thing. it's not sweet or anything. it's grim, man. it's fucking grim. and it's something i hope hima never canonizes. for this kind of stuff, i think our theories and speculation are better/more fun than what hima can come up with (and, to be fair to the man, i wouldn't be surprised if he knows that too)

song I associate with them: young lion by vampire weekend. it's a haunting song, one that's always made me think of death. only lyrics are 'you took your time, young lion' and it's just....yeah. yeah he did

favorite picture of them: again, the real answer is fanart. take something silly instead (because i gotta go marinate some lamb and can't devote myself to hetarchives time)

[sunnys-aesthetic]

regarding the music post, if you could use just one song to describe yourself what would it be?

Popping by doja cat bc it makes me want to cry but also reminds me to get my pussy up and get my money up from that one sasuke meme.

THIS PROBABLY SOUNDS DUMB/TMI AND IM OVERANALYZING BUT ANWAYS I THIN K ITS GENUINELY becAUse she used bubbles, a character i love and heavily relate to even today and how this song is constantly in an emotional spot bc it reminds me about my own trauma as a kid/'no ones want to be me' vs the upbeat uplifting message in it at the same time. <-- this personally for me I love bc it makes me feel seen as someone who is in constant state of being nice/keeping optimism even IF my world is crumbling yet despite it im fujkvbhdbadfjkghjdfgb gNAWING ON DRY WALL!!!!

anyways also shout out to this one comment i found under the video that explains it so much better than me LOL

anyways.

yeah, popping by doja cat.

[patchworkcowboy-archive]

✿ stands in ur inbox cutely with this relationships flower

THE PRE-ESTABLISHED RELATIONSHIP MEME 0.2 send me a  ✿  and i’ll fill out the template below. bold for things i could definitely see or want, italics for things i could see or am unsure of and striked out for things i don’t want or cannot see.

FRIENDSHIP.     childhood friends  /  work buddies or coworkers  /  family friends  /  friends with benefits  /  smoking buddies  /  adventure buddies  /  fake friends  /  recently friends  /  party buddies  /  friendship of need  /  dying friendship  /  circumstantial friendship  /  partners in crime  /  old friendship  /  [ your muse ] is the good influence  /  [ your muse ] is the bad influence  /  [ my muse ] is the good influence  /  [ my muse ] is the bad influence  /  opposites attract  /  ride or die  /  frenemies  /  roommates or flatmates  /  penpals  /  exes to friends  /  enemies to friends  /  other

I would very much like to see Puck's reaction upon learning about PJ's past and about Gortash sending him to kill the party in hisBG3 verse. I know a lot of my mutuals like to joke that PJ isn't dangerous but no one has actually done a combat thread with PJ so like.... The man is bringing guns to a swordfight and should NOT be messed with. Anways PJ likes the Bhaal-babe as long as Puck shows interest in rejecting the urges + remorse for his actions.

ROMANCE.     childhood sweethearts  /  [ your muse is mines ] childhood crush  /  [ my muse is yours ] childhood crush  /  exes  /  exes to lovers  /  forbidden lovers  /  highschool sweethearts  /  secret relationship  /  opposites attract  /  long distance  /  unrequited [ from your muses side ]  /  unrequited [ from my muses side ]  /  unrequited [ from both sides ]  /  skinny love  /  friends to lovers  /  enemies to lovers  /  spurious relationship  /  power couple  /  newly entered  /  soulmates [ metaphorical ]  /  soulmates  [ literal ]  /  awkward  /  turning toxic  /  toxic love  /  cheating [ on your muse ]  /  cheating [ with your muse ]  /  other 

When PJ falls for someone he falls hard. PJ loves Puck despite the fact he uses bones as puzzles and craves blood and I just think it's a very freak 4 freak relationship. I promise this is supposed to be a compliment. I hope we someday explore a thread where PJ finds a non-warlock way to practice magic again bc he is a BEAST with spells and I think him casting magic makes him 1000 times hotter/cooler. Puck can cuddle with him or rail him any day honestly.

FAMILIAL.     siblings [ half ]  /  siblings [ step ]  /  [ my muse ] is an older sibling figure to your younger sibling figure  /  [ my muse ] is a younger sibling figure to your older sibling figure muse  /  [ my muse ] is a parental figure to yours  /  [ my muse ] is a child figure to your muse  /  guardian figure  /  legal guardian  /  adoptive child  /  foster child  /  [ your muse ] is taken under mines wing  /  [ my muse ] is taken under yours wing  /  other

I adore a close friendship vibe but I personally don't get a familial vibe from them.

ANTAGONISTIC.     dangerous to each other  /  dangerous to others  /  unpredictable  /  rivals  /  petty  /  developing into sexual or romantic tension  /  based off family matters  /  based of off circumstance  /  based of professional matters  /  based off misunderstanding or lies  /  conflict of ideology  /  betrayal  /  hero - villain dynamic  /  enemies  /  fight club  /  friends turned enemies  /  lovers turned enemies  /  exes turned enemies  /  other 

Considering the fact Gortash was originally trying to get PJ to kill the party this made the most sense to me lol. Also dark Puck where he gives into the urges would make PJ very sad and angry and lead to their relationship detoriorating.

[stillgotme]

Idk if it's too early to ask about your characters without you reblogging any character ask memes but I am curious about this new story so here we are. What inspired you to create this story? I've been MIA for a while but it was really nice to see you start a story again so I'm just curious how this story came to be. So far I love what I'm seeing and I hope this story goes well! I can't wait to learn more about these new characters!

OF COURSE YOU CAN ASK ME ABOUT MY CHARACTERS

(this goes for everyone ok like just bc i don't reblog those character ask games all the time, know that i am always open to asks regarding my stories and characters)

now *cracks knuckles* time for me to tell y'all the story of how this new story decided to come into the picture

so rewind allllll the way back to february 2022. i was having issues with my saves so to check out what the fuck was causing this, i started a new save JUST TO TEST and so you know how they put you in cas when you first start a new game? the sim they gave me was actually super cute so i was like aw she cute i'll keep her in case i ever wanna do something with her or whatever. i saved her to my gallery, went and fixed whatever issue was happening to my saves, went back to my normal bullshit

fast forward to july 2022. my personal life in may and june was an absolutely nightmare. didn't touch sims for weeks bc i was so stressed and when it finally all settled by the time july came i didn't feel like doing anything serious with sims so i was like oh WAIT i remember that one sim i saved! lemme use her as a base and make a cute gameplay sim!

IN COMES RISA! she was just supposed to be a gameplay sim! that's why she's maxis mix bc i just wanted to vibe and have fun. so i move her into san myshuno's fashion district and start thinking about her backstory bc all fun, no story JUST FUN

but then guess who starts to interact with her when she moves in

AKIRA KIBO

YES. HIM. to all the new readers if you didn't know, akira is akira kibo from the karaoke legends household. MY BOY IS A PREMADE

i mean he was always hot but ea just didn't let him shine so i had to do it lmao

and bc my storytelling brain has no fucking self control my mind started thinking of scenarios as i developed risa and i talked to my friend about these concepts on discord and she called it before anyone else

i was like psh no it's not a story

yeah...........

the more i shared this with my friends they were loving it and encouraging me to do something with my ideas, even if it's a book, a draft, or some sim edits

and well. the storyteller in me couldn't resist. i was having so much fun with them and honestly doing something entirely new was a breath of fresh air, especially bc this story won't be as heavy and dramatic as redemption and sincerely, yours. i started plotting and eventually it turned into a story.

NOW WE'RE HERE

anway, so that's how this story was born lmao i hope you enjoy the ride!

and of course this in no way means i'm neglecting redemption and sincerely, yours! those stories are way too dear to me to give up on. when i reach a good point to stop at for this story, i'll return to them!

[consultingsister-a5]

james bond never has to put up with this sort of shit. {From Severin!}

a meme / for @samhlaiocht + severin moran

"James Bond wore fancy suits all the time, you fucking bet he dealt with this shit."

It was the fourth suit that she had forced her soon-to-be brother-in-law. Despite promising it would take less than an hour, they had already been here for two.

Celia sits crossed-legged on the silk-lined fainting couch, sipping her third glass of champagne. Dressing other people comes in a close second to dressing herself. She gets all the enjoyment of new shiny things without having to get half-naked in a little room with a curtain. Actually, to be fair, most of the shops she buys from do have proper dressing rooms. "Anway, you said you were up for spending some time together. What happened to our sibling bonding time?" She gins, cheekily.

The editor tilts her head and considers. "Mm, nah, I liked the second one better. Do you need a plus one to the wedding?"

[pixiestickers]

I was tagged by @theangrypomeranian Thanks!!

1. How many works do you have on AO3: 52

2. What's your total word count? 813,389

3. What fandoms do you write for?

atm it's Hunter x Hunter with wips in Over the Garden Wall, Futurama, and Lord of the Rings. I got my start writing Twilight fanfic on fanfiction.net and occasionally write for Star Wars when the mood is right. There are past fandoms, but I don't feel like naming them all.

4. Top 5 fics by kudos:

Okay, there is a problem. Two of my fics that are in my top 5 are also like ptsd for me from a bad fandom, so I am leaving them off this list despite their high kudo count. Right now I have them viewable only to AO3 users and you can't comment on them bc I just don't want to be reminded of them, but also am not strong enough to take them down. So anyway ... here's my edited top 5.

Blame it on the Nargles (Harry Potter)

If You're Lonely, Press Play (Over the Garden Wall)

The One With The Slaps (Friends)

Change Heartache Into Courage (Twilight)

The L Word (Twilight)

5. Do you respond to comments?

I try to unless the comment is kinda unhinged. I once had a really nice comment that switched gears midway thru to start in on a campaign to save the show my fic was based on getting nasty abt the network that canceled it and it just went off the rails, so in my head I was like thank u for that nice beginning but I'm just gonna walk slowly backwards away from this.

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Even my saddest fics have some sort of silver lining. I don't like leaving my characters suffering w/o any hope. So probably the AU I wrote to my own otgw canon where I kill Beatrice off (Not) A Happy Story is the angstiest, but there's some hope by the end.

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

idk I'm kind of partial to the ending of my iasip fic My Fair Charlie bc these are two characters who have been thru a lot in their lives and the scene in Charlie's room where he shows Dee his memory box is just sorta cute and innocent and gives me feelings.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

In the fandom that shall not be named, I got some. I never got any hate when I originally wrote for Twilight on ff.net but when I updated my fic from there to AO3 I got some.

9. Do you write smut?

Not really no. A handful of times and it's just sorta okay. I'm more of a write an intense lead-up and then fade to black writer. I'll leave the smut to ppl who can actually write it well (ie not me).

10. Do you write crossovers?

No

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Yes! It was so weird. There was another Twilight fic that I was writing that I had let sit for a few years and then someone messaged me that it had been stolen, the names changed and put on some anime fanfic website. The person knew bc the name Jasper kept popping up in that person's fic when there was no character named Jasper. They thought that was weird so they googled a portion of the fic and mine came up. Anways, I messaged the site, but who knows if they did anything abt it and anyway, I took that particular fic down since I'm not in the fandom anymore and won't ever finish it.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

My Twilight fic 'Change Heartache Into Courage' has been translated a few times.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before? No. I'm a lone wolf.

14. What's your all time favorite ship?

I mean it changes all the time, but I suppose if you want to know the couple that has the highest word count from me since this is a fanfic meme then that would be Wirt and Beatrice.

15. What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you will?

I have a 38k 'Dragon Prince' fic that's been sitting since 2021. I'm not in the fandom anymore and got rid of Netflix, so even if I wanted to write my ability to watch the show is hindered. Still, I like the character development I wrote and maybe one day in the future I'll work on it again, but as of now, it's probably going to sit collecting dust for a v long time.

16. What are your writing strengths?

Long inner monologues and flirty, fluffy banter

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Action, smut, and moving plot forward. I just want these characters to talk, not actually get anything done.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language?

Haven't done it

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Created a gender-swapped Aladdin AU when I was 13. Wrote 'Hey Arnold' fic in a HA forum in my teens. Posted my first "official" fanfic (Twilight) to livejournal when I was 28 then moved it over the ff.net midway thru the year and a half it took me to write it.

20. Favorite fic you've ever written?

A Perfect Sonnet bc even tho it's like 8 fics deep into my iylpp universe, I worked really hard to world-build and make it more high fantasy than fluffy slice-of-life stuff like I usually did for them. I'm not sure if I succeeded but I am proud of the effort I made.

I am trying to remember my mutuals who also write fic. Most are barely on tumblr anymore, but I'll tag who I can remember: @justme--emily @trashangel-dee @221bdisneystreet @america-oreosandkitkats @spectraling