#anw i love the first one soooo much

[yume-fanfare]

hina 3* compilation

[lovesunshinefelix]

Perfect dad

Tags: dad!skz x reader (no specific member mentioned so just imagine any of them), angst (??), reader has heart eyes for dad!skz

Author's note: hello omg it took me a while to get back to writing 😭 my burn out has been soooo bad since my term break so I hope y'all understand 😭 also really fucking sad about Chan's room 🥹 I seeked so much comfort from that small part of my life until it's suddenly just gone 🥹 so I hope upon reading this fic you'll get a little bit happy somehow. Also, this was in my drafts for a while. I originally thought of this with Felix in mind but I eventually thought that this suits the other members too. I got inspo from watching Modern Family 🥹 I acc love that show so much I think I'm in my fifth rerun 😭 anw I hope you would all love this !

“Rough day?” you asked, closing the car door behind you and giving your husband a kiss upon seeing him pouting in your car. He just nods at you, giving you no explanation whatsoever. You just laughed as he drives away from the grocery store.

You were out running some errands for your family, which left your husband to hang out with his daughters’ boyfriends. You both have 3 children in total, all grown up. Your two daughters all thought it would be a fun idea to have their dad hang out with their boyfriends. At first, he seemed delighted with the idea, picking out itineraries that would be fun for all of them to do. You figured it all came crashing down when he suggested he pick you up, contrast to what you and your eldest daughter talked about. “Tell me what happened?” You asked, to which your husband lets out a fit of rage.

To their boyfriends making him feel out of place, to them complaining about how horrible was the plot of his chosen film for the day, your husband was really frustrated about the day. You really tried listening to his dilemma, but as he was going on to you about how much of an “assholes” their boyfriends were to him, you were just reminded of how good of a dad he is to your daughters; He has been so hands on with them even when they weren't born yet, and this never faded the minute they were born, making sure he could capture everything that they did. From the second they started crawling to babbling, and even walking, he made sure he caught it on camera. From canceling a whole day of work just because they’re sick to rushing to their recitals from a comeback stage. He always made sure that he made it known that he loved his kids and will always do.

“And I really want to get along with them, I really do.” he said, making a turn towards a street you’re unfamiliar with. “But they’re making it so fucking difficult for me.” he said. You just giggled at his complaints, “Love, I’m sure there will be other opportunities for you to have a deeper bond with them in the future.” you said, to which he just huffed at you. “You say that because they already respect you.” he said, “They better! I’m the one who took care of their girlfriends starting from my womb.” you argued, to which you both just laughed. “By the way, did you realize that we’re currently nowhere near home right now?” you asked him with a chuckle. “Oh I did that on purpose. They’re still at home with the girls and I still have a lot to tell you.” he said, taking a sip of the drink he bought before picking you up. “You idiot. I bought some meat and dairy back there!” you exclaimed, chuckling at your husband. “But I still have to complain to you!” he pouted, looking at you for a second before focusing his eyes on the road. “One way or another, they have to have a bond with you if they want to marry our daughters.” You said to him, “You really think so?” he asked, to which you hummed in response. “You were literally the perfect dad for them. If they can’t form a bond with you then I don’t think our daughters would settle for less.” you said, grabbing his hand that was resting on the gear stick and holding it. “I taught them so.” you smiled at him, to which he smiled. You gave him a peck on the cheek and you notice him make his way back to the direction of your home. “Wanna go home already?” you asked. “Yeah, I miss our kids already. Fuck their boyfriends.” he said, to which you just smiled and leaned on his arm.

No matter how well their boyfriends treat your daughters, you always know that they’ll always fall short of him.

[personasintro]

Hi, mimi!! I’m a silent reader for idk how long. And I just want to tell you what’s on my mind. First of all, mutual help is so soooo good. I swear to God. I feel like I wouldn’t be able to find another story or book that is as good as mutual help. huhu Maybe it’s because I’m a solid fan of friends to lovers trope. And then I loooove how unbothered you are! <3 Since I’m a silent fan, I’ve been reading the questions and your answers. I love how your decisions don’t get affect by those haters (well, as you should tho!). Idk but those people who comments on wattpad are in another world or maybe its just me haha their anger towards y/n, especially jungkook is on whole another level.

Little TMI :) as I mention, I’m into friends to lovers trope. And I kinda experienced some part in mh in real life. Maybe it’s one of the reason why I understand the story and every part of it. But I also think that an open minded person can understand mutual help that easily if they just work with their emotions.🙄 because everything is soooo realistic. anw this is getting so long. And I’m excited for chapter 56!! the latest chapter was so good, you explained very well their sides and I really missed them being clingy on each other. I’m excited on how will they pull off that “break” haha imagine the tension.

Thank you for sharing your talent with us. <3 Please don’t get tired of writing and with those haters/close minded people. Stay unbothered, love!! Will always wait for mutual help update and your other stories. Yk, It feels like a reward when there’s an update. Haha Oh and lastly, I love every little detail of mh. I swear, if there’s one person who truly understand the story on another level, THAT’S ME!! hehe

Hello 🦋

Thank you for loving MH, I’m glad you’re enjoying it and I hope you will to the very end!

Oh really? Actually, friends to lovers isn’t my go-to trope hahaha I prefer enemies to lovers like 10000% more

Ooooh you experienced a little bit of MH in real life? 😮‍💨 Interesting! Makes me even more curious!!

You’re absolutely right about that. I’ve said it myself a few times as well. MH is that kind of story where you should be at least a little open-minded. Of course readers especially the ones from Wattpad who are used to a specific pattern most stories there have. I could see it from the moment ppl expected the cliché stuff all the time and then got frustrated when it didn’t happen. Most readers there don’t understand that despite me putting MH on wattpad (and reposting some of my stories there too) I’m still a tumblr writer before that. Tumblr is my priority and if ppl read my other stories, they would understand my type of writing. Unfortunately, there’s nothing much I can do. I’ve done everything I could do to make ppl understand but the truth is, there is always someone who just doesn’t understand. But I guess it could’ve been expected when the big numbers kicked in.

Anyway, I’m thankful to everyone who’s simply here for the story and enjoys it 💘🦋 means a lot and I’ll never be able to thank you enough!

[kobiiioo]

lihan's mj and his lore (spidersona, spiderverse related)

what do i even say. where do i even start. *sobbing violently*

it's crazy because after designing MJ i've been more obsessed with him and lihan than my hobie x lihan ship. however that doesn't mean imma GIVE UP ON HOBIE X LIHAN BECAUSE THEY ARE MY HAPPINESS !!!!! and MJ already has his ending soooo haha (Imfao bye ✌️😘) (actually no it's sad). anw so first INTRODUCTIONNNNN

here's a character sheet i made especially for MJ because he's a precious baby who just need to hear comforting words and a tight hug 🫂 i have so much to talk about this character that only exists in my head but him, just his existence, he is such a tragic and sad character and it genuinely makes me ill and sick because i feel so much pity for him (I CREATED YOU F*CK.)

character introduction:

Minjun aka MJ was well known at school for his looks and his extroverted personality but also worldwidely. He's after all a national team player in korea's biggest basketball team and his sweet demeanor and charming smile was simply a "+" making him even more attractive than he already is. He was basically the popular boy in the whole school that everyone knows when his name was mentionned. Anybody would fall for him; so did Lihan.

He was her first love, her first boyfriend, her endgame.

That's what she thought; her endgame. But she was wrong. Things went differently than expected. If she knew the consequences of what was coming next, maybe she would've never made the same choice. But as Lihan says to herself, even though meeting MJ was maybe a mistake, she would make that same mistake in every universe, fall in love with him and lose him, all over again. Because that's their destiny and they were never meant to be.

MJ's lore:

MJ was raised in a rich and strict family that had too much expectations for him. He tried his best to reach their expectations, following the future they had already planned for him, listening to their wishes and simply obeying, without complaining. Nobody knew that he put a mask to hide his flaws, his background, his true-self, how vulnerable he actually was. And since he cared so much about how people saw him and his image in the society was too important, he had no choice but to always put an act. He needed stability, he needed security, and he did had those. He went to a good school, he had lot of "friends", his family was wealthy, he was good at school, he was popular/a celebrity, everyone loved him; he had a successful life. His life was "perfect".

But that's only what others saw in him. Everything was superficial.

The so what called "stability" and "security" he had was only objective but not subjective. He was fighting alone his internal conflict, not daring to ask for help and simply numbing all the pain and suffering he was going through. No one knew that everything was pushing him over the edge. Keeping that persona to please people by showing them a fake side of him that everyone admired and loved was simply getting to him. He thought no one would ever love him for who he is. He was done. He wanted to end things at this point. Everything seemed meaningless. He had no dreams, no will, everything was planned since the day he was born. So what is the point ? He thought to himself.

That's when he met Lihan.

And everything changed. She was the last spark of light from a dying fire that was about to put out but only grew bigger and bigger. It was a simple question that he had asked her.

“Hey, sorry. Can you pass the ball ?”

Who would have thought that one simple question will lead him to actually gain interest in her (will write more context of this specific dialogue and their first meeting on another post). She was so simple, quiet, unoriginal with a bland personality. There was nothing about her that made her special or out standing. She was nothing and far from exceptional. That’s what everyone thought. But she was definitely something else in MJ’s eyes. He saw something in her that nobody saw. Her indifference was what was making her different. That’s what made her more special. That’s what made her stand out more than others. She was unusual. It was such an unexpected meeting. Everything about her was so interesting to MJ. He had never felt such joy or take genuine interest getting to know someone. She was his last light of hope he had. She had become the reason he could keep going with his life. It felt like things were just going to be fine if they stayed together, forever.

But as time flew by, things were changing. Not in the good way. It was going the opposite way. It was only getting worse. The relationship was becoming more and more unbalanced. He was too dependent. He was selfish and lost. And she was as lost as he was. And he had totally destroyed her.

here’s a doddle of mj x lihan and how their relationship looked when they used to date (because WELL I THINK YALL GUESSED WHAT HAPPENS NEXT).

i have sooo much more to talk about him and his relationship with lihan AUHAGSUAG he’s probably one of the most interesting character i’ve created until now (jk lwe love lihan),(but still mj is such an interesting character in her universe) but i will talk about this on another post since this is simply an introduction of mj and i want to bring him more often on my posts (including tiktok). anw.. thanks for reading this silly writing of my ocs 🫶🫶

[mmmmuffins]

dried mulberries my most beloved 

[darcyfirth]

legit got locked out of my own house today after hanging some clothes to dry in the backyard and the door of the laundry room just banged close on its own so i had to climb back into the living room through the window

[sharpe-lances]

7.11 Rage Against the Machines

Okay that was one of the most stressful episodes of the show, and probably the most stressful one so far in the season. The emotional rollercoaster I had??? They better pay for my therapy. Wow. That was really intense. I couldn’t get over it.

First of all… our Legends’ plan about boarding the Waverider not pushing through, the robo!Legends going on a killing spree murdering all the time travelers, Ava getting shot, robo!Sara stabbing Thawne???? Holy hell that stressed me out more than anything in the world.

Jes directed the episode so I was expecting some angsty reason for Ava to have less screentime. But I wasn’t expecting that the reason would be she got shot????? I literally screamed when I saw her got shot. I knew she would eventually recover but I was so worried for her?????? They had no medbay but luckily they had Gwyn who had experience about gunshot wounds. (Also, for a while there, I was worried it might get worse and she’d die lol).

On top of that, I was also so so so soooo worried (most definitely an understatement) about Sara having to replace Thawne in guarding The Fixed Point. She looked so worried and stressed when she picked up Thawne’s time manipulator. I know she must have been thinking a lot of things: her wife getting shot, her having to stay in The Fixed Point to protect it, getting the Waverider back, not knowing how to defeat their robot doppelgängers. She was at a loss. She was overwhelmed by the problems she thought she should fix. Well, I couldn’t blame her. I was overwhelmed, too and I’m not the captain lol.

I really liked it when she tried to talk to robo!Nate and robo!Sara, and not like fight with them. Another one of her developments to be proud of, for sure. Early seasons Sara Lance’s first instinct would definitely be fighting but now, she wanted to talk it out with the robo!Legends first and negotiate with them. Although, I think it was because she couldn’t seem to think of any other way to get home, knowing that they wouldn’t stand a chance with the robo!Legends. Still, it was refreshing to see.

Gwyn having a panic attack but thinking of his memories with the Legends has somehow helped him get through it??? Loved it. He hasn’t been with them that long but I liked how he had drawn enough great moments with them to help him recover. Also, I loved how he was so motivating of Sara and I’m glad he got to lead the mission this episode. I’ll always be glad to see the other members leading the team because as we’ve all seen, the captains don’t always have the answers. Anw, Gwyn is so smart and wise and I liked his war plan. He really said ‘we can outthink them’ and in the end, they actually did.

I also liked how he comforted Behrad when B was nervous about having to board the Waverider alone. Anddd, he was constantly calling B ‘my boy’ 🥺🥺 They’re so soft, I love their friendship so much.

Behrad ‘my boy’ Tarazi having to see his robot doppelgänger murder people was heartbreaking. He’s literally incapable of fighting and seeing robo!B shoot the other time travelers bothered him so much that he actually confronted them. It showed how much he was bothered by it when he was so uncomfortable about holding a gun (he was even practicing to make it more believable 🤏🏽) and thinking about going on a year-long cleanse after that. I was also kinda scared for him when he had to board the ship alone. The way he said so awkwardly, “I slaughtered those innocent people,” and how he added, “Their relatives are definitely mourning right now,” was such a Behrad thing to do lmao. Also, I loved his scene with robo!Zari when she said she’s proud of him. That was the closest thing to robo!Tarazis we could get and I’ll take it 😂😂

BEHRASTRA KISSED?!?! Feels like a fever dream to me. Astra’s “Finally!” after they kissed, though 😂

Okay I love protective Astra so much but I was also really sad for Gideon. She was really disheartened when she got yelled at and also I’m kinda done with it. I would really love for them to treat Gideon as an equal and not just dismiss her. I know she’s new to being human but she can think for herself and the least they could do is guide her and protect her, not dismiss her?? I am thankful of Gary being protective of Gideon in other way. He looks out for her and he stands up for her when literally no one else is. I also kinda wanna see Gideon standing up for herself. I think she’s capable of protecting herself. (Getting stabbed(?) at the back by robo!Astra doesn’t count because she literally did not see it coming).

ALSO WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT?? When you thought everything was fine already but then robo!Astra sneaks up on Gideon and attacks her????? (Alexa play Ironic by Alanis Morisette). MY FAVORITE HUMAN COMPUTER DIDN’T DESERVE THAT. What was the reason??? Lol. I suspect that by the end of the season, after they eliminate evil!Gideon, our Gideon will return to her AI form because our Legends already have the Waverider back??

I gotta admit, our Legends was so smart about tricking the robo!Legends. Gary tricking robo!Astra and Dr. Sharpe and pushing them to hell, I wasn’t expecting that lmao 😂 and Spooner was so quick to think on her feet when she said she was robo!Spooner pretending to be human Spooner and robo!Alien Gary actually believing her 😂😂 I guess the robo!Legends weren’t programmed to be as smart as our Legends. They’re literally so dumb 😂😭 (I loved Gary’s line when he said, “Just play dumb. It took the Legends years to figure out I was an alien.” I mean, he’s not wrong 😂)

Our Zari fighting robo!Zari was downright hilarious. I love how even evil, robo!Zari still was a lot like our Zari. They were really entertaining 😂😂 They were both reallyyyy terrible fighters. They were literally kicking air 😂 and Gary and Astra getting confused at who the real Zari was?? Same here. Tala is so amazing like that. (Zari pulling all Gidget’s wires was so on-brand of her. I love her so much, she was hilarious the whole time).

Our Legends pretending to be the robo!Legends (Astra, Z, and B) were great, most especially Z. Tala playing our Zari pretending to be robo!Zari?! That was an outstanding performance, really. All of the cast were able to play both versions of themselves very well. It was like we can see some similarities between our Legends and the robot ones but not in an exact way. The actors played both versions differently but not so different that there are still hints of the real Legends in the robo!Legends and not so similar that we know the robo!Legends are not the real Legends. (I’m not making sense but I don’t know how else to say it lol).

Also things I loved seeing this episode: our Nate steeling up (missed it big time), the Legends manually driving crashing the Waverider (even if it’s just Astra and B), the Legends IN the Waverider, and simply robo!Sara (also missed her btw. It’s sad we won’t get to see her again in the next two eps r.i.p.).

When Gwyn, Spooner, and Nate were celebrating after evil!Gideon’s been shut down, it was when I knew we were screwed. It was time for Sara to stay in The Fixed Point and I was really upset about it. I literally almost got mad at her for being so selfless and for making promises to Thawne. I was really worried and sad especially when she said, “Tell Ava to come and find me.” LIKE WHAT WAS THAT???? What about “I’m not going anywhere ever again, I promise,” and “I already told you I am not leaving you again????” God the angst would have probably been so great, but I don’t want them to be apart ever again after season 6.

I read some stuff saying it was ooc for Sara to not worry about Ava getting shot and I agree. But I only attribute it to other things so I wouldn’t stress out myself further. Like Sara having so many other things to worry about and her being captain and protector of the timeline first, wife second. And I’d like to think that if she had been all over Ava, Ava would go and tell her to kick ass and just focus on getting their team home. I just wish she’d be the one to personally tell Ava about her staying in The Fixed Point or that we got to see Sara worrying about Ava even just for a second. But I guess there wasn’t enough time. Time was their literal enemy lol.

I love Sara so so much but I just wish she wouldn’t have to face their enemies alone. Just because she can regenerate and can be considered immortal, it doesn’t mean she’ll have to sacrifice herself for the sake of her team. I mean, yes, she’s captain (and captains should be the last one to leave the boat or something like that) but she has teammates for a reason. And it is definitely a lot better when they fight together. Also, I think the reason she’d rather go at it alone is because she’s suffered from so much loss in her life (not only those who died, but also those who left the team) and she’d prefer getting hurt than losing another one of her own. It doesn’t mean I liked it, though. I was really really glad and thankful for Nate, Spooner, and Gwyn when they refused to leave Sara, I almost cried. Also, that scene of theirs only proves how smart our Nate is compared to big dumb lunk!Nate. Our Nate really tricked him into replacing Thawne lmao. (I thought it would be robo!Sara at first lol).

OTHER NOTES

I was so stressed in this episode that I didn’t get to appreciate much Jes’ directing of the episode. But she did it so so well and I’m so proud of her!!

My season 7 episodes ranking:

7.10

7.11

7.09

7.07

7.08

7.04

7.01

7.03

7.05

7.02

7.06

I loveddd this episode so much. It was so great but I only ranked it second because it stressed me out so much, I probably won’t recover 😂

Also I think they’re gonna do a bottle episode for the next episode? It would be fun, I think. Just like Ship Broken lol. I’d say I can’t wait to see Gwyn on the Waverider but I think I didn’t see him in the promo? Does it mean anything? Oh no. I hope not.

I wonder if they’re gonna be able to eliminate evil!Gideon next episode and just focus on saving Alun in the finale? If that is the case, there wouldn’t be a big bad in the finale? I hope there will be. It would be underwhelming if there won’t be.

They’ve also hinted the character that’s gonna be in the finale and many are suspecting it’s gonna be Booster Gold played by Donald Faison. I don’t know how I feel about it because I literally don’t know Booster Gold and all I know is that he’s Rip Hunter’s father. Full circle. Could be a perfect series finale IF they don’t get renewed.

But I need for them to be renewed now, please. We only have 2 episodes left and there’s still no news about their renewal 😞 plus, there’ll be a two-week hiatus so we’ll see them again on the 23rd.

[ratedhaikyuu]

Miya Twins (not separated) fall in love with Inarizaki manager headcanons, please!

oh dear lord how can this be lucky and bad at the same time..... anw im sorry this took SO long like omg i took a hiatus but hereit is, hope you enjoy anon!

for the Miya twins to like the same person, you'd have to be someone that they knew for a long time

both of them did know you for soooo loooong

as in "our parents were close neighbors so we grew up together and we've been inseparable ever since" long

you were present in all of their milestones

and they were also in yours

the three of you were THAT trio

so when Atsumu discovered his love for volleyball and played the sport itself

and his twin Osamu followed after

it was no surprise you also became a part of it

being the manager of the boys volleyball club, you had your moments

with the help of the coaches and your senpai, it was quite easy to understand the basics

but in dealing with the boys? especially the twins?

a wreck

the first one to realize they had feelings for you was Osamu

he always had that Older Brother instinct whenever you're involved

until the day you chose to help his brother practice instead of helping him in making your favorite food

you did say you will help him afterwards but the little boy...... he felt something

Osamu chose to deal with his thoughts and feelings alone

then he realized he admired you

he admired you as someone who is kind, had always cared for him and his brother and he will continue to admire you for who you are, even more so than a friend

when Atsumu found out about his feelings for you

it was after practice

everyone was up and ready to leave

then the only remaining people at the gym was just you and him cs he kept on insisting to practice his serves

as a manager, you would advise him not to practice too much

as a close friend, you understood him so you decided to look out for him

that's when it hit Atsumu

whilst wanting to improve on his volleyball skills, he also wanted more than anything for you to go home and relax

you had a lot on your plate already and with you being here at gym with Atsumu instead of resting at home

it hurt him

Atsumu could easily say that it was probably bc he cared for you as a friend

but that time, it felt different

along with the memories of him getting too protective of you when his senpai got too close while talking to you

now that the Miya twins had thought enough about their feelings towards you

ofc they thought of going beyond the line of friendship

yet what if

WHAT IF

you didn't feel the same?

oh boi were they fucked.

[shanghai-lu]

my lovely lu! (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*.✧ dropping by because i received a notification from tumblr the other day that you’re back! and i got excited like 💞💗✨🌸💓 i was actually about to drop an ask that time but contemplated a lil bit bc i dont want to be a bother AAACK 😖 but shyness will get me nowhere that’s why i am here now! (hope you don’t mind, this is my 2nd time here oh would you look at that? 🥳)

have you listen to nct 127’s first love? they just released it today, it is the 3rd track from their upcoming 2nd japanese album loveholic. and honestly i haven’t heard the song yet bc i have no idea they are going to release it today 012721 😖 (maybe after this 😗✌️) im very much excited for this album bc we’ll be able to hear kick it jap ver!!! isn’t that crazy? 🥺

anw, how have you been? seems like you’re busy but i hope you’re doing well, mon amour! stay healthy and safe wherever you are. alsooo i just saw that you have an upcoming work, i can’t wait to see it!!! (｡･ω･｡)ﾉ♡

Nwahhhh my lovely Rainie!!♡(> ਊ <)♡

Boo you can drop an ask 💖24 - 7 - 365 - ∞💖 I don't mind if you send a million asks I'll answer every single one!~~(っ˘з(˘⌣˘ )

I had no idea they were going to release anything either! I've now had a chance to listen to it and oh my I luved it! It is madness that we get a Japanese version of kick it and it's ~chefs kiss~ Have you had a chance to listen to it yet? Oh and did you see the relay camera event thingy that's going on at the moment?? Jaes was ... 100000% wholesome comfort content ʕノ♡ᴥ♡ʔノ ︵ ┻━┻ like ajshidblkab 😫💖😫💖

I've been alright, thank you so much for asking Rainie!! I hope you are staying warm, healthy and safe wherever you may be as well, and for your loved ones too! 💚💚💚💚 How have you been? Staying hydrated? Hopefully not too stressed?

About my ~work in progress~ smh I'm struggling to get it to flow because it's a bunch of dialogue and my lack of social skills are making it soooo difficult to get the conversation to feel natural and like 💫real💫, you know what I mean? But hopefully I will be able to finish it in the next week (*﹏*;)

You're the best honestly♥╣[-_-]╠♥!! Mwah mwah mwah!!

[shijiujun]

History3 ep 13 summary - TUGS AT UR HEARTSTRINGS BUT it’s a good episode

I’m soooo tired but the energy has come again because of Trapped HAHAHAHA the thought of BIRTHDAY SCENE gives me strength to go on praying there is NO JAM on the live stream today we’ll see

OMG what the hell we don’t get a bed scene so the two bed scenes that the writers were talking about WE WILL GET THEM SOMETIME LATER it might be after birthday scene now that I think about it but also guys I think you’ll like this episode because the PLOT MOVES and there’s plot development thank god and we actually delve into serious stuff - the dilemma of Tang Yi as a mob boss and Shao Fei as a police officer finally comes into play here

Shao Fei runs off after Tang Yi kisses his wound (DAMN HE PRESSED HIS MOUTH TO THE WOUND FOR SO DAMN LONG?!) and asks if it still hurts and Tang Yi just laughs and says ‘he’s still too soft’ AND SHAO FEI IS LITERALLY HYPERVENTILATING IN THE TOILET THEN WE GET DOMESTIC SCENE - Tang Yi cooking in the kitchen for Shao Fei WITH AN APRON ON and Shao Fei is all: “it smells so good! is this the spicy dish we had with coke the other time?”

and wow BEST HUSBAND IN THE WORLD JUST SMILES AND GOES: “you can’t have spicy food or coke while you’re recovering”

shao fei: *pouts* “you’re so stingy, controlling this and that”

DOMESTIC HUSBANDS THEY ARE RIGHT HERE GUYS!!!!!

so they sit down and cute shao fei takes a bit of the dish and puts it on tang yi’s rice first before eating himself (i LURVE THIS) - and tang yi obviously is kind of amused and touched that shao fei did that, and as they’re about to eat that’s when tang yi broaches the topic of shao fei staying at the police station because it’s safer for him there, and obviously shao fei is all ‘WHY?!’ and demands to know a reason and i thought they were gonna start fighting but thank god they’re both soft smol bbs so they just look at each other waiting for the other person to say something, and tang yi goes: “i’ll tell you, but you must promise to stay out of it. if you can’t promise me that, i won’t tell you”

so shao fei obviously agrees and tang yi starts the flashback by saying: “do you know what it’s like to grow up in a place where no one cares about and loves you? that’s the kind of place i grew up in”

AND YES HERE WE GET TANG YI AND BOSS TANG AND HONG YE BACKSTORY (still waiting for Shao fei’s COME ON) - This entire like flashback tugged at my heartstrings guys TUGGED AT MY HEARTSTRINGS I almost cried?!!! - So young Tang Yi was adopted by adoptive parents because the mom wanted to adopt him but the mom died, so the dad was never supportive of his wife adopting tang Yi and when she died he became neglectful and abusive

We start off with young Tang Yi going home and it’s his birthday but obviously the terrible dad doesn’t notice, but Tang Yi goes to his room and eats food and is about to eat cake in front of the photo of him and his mom - the dad comes into the room and he yells at tang yi for going into his room to steal the photo of him and his mom - tang yi says that it’s not his, it’s a photo of him and his mom

and the dad goes: “she’s not your mom and i’m not your dad!”

tang yi doesn’t get why he can’t have the photo and snarks back and the dad slaps him, and says a bunch of other stupid shit, so tang yi leaves home with literally just the clothes on his back and the backpack (can’t rmb if he took the photo or not) - and this scene was truly realistic, i felt that slap and everything so kudos to the actors playing young tang yi and the dad?!

then next scene: we see a super skinny hong ye fighting with a bunch of older male teens over the bicycle they stole, and tang yi is somehow there as well, and they end up fighting with the older teens - long story short, boss tang (tang guo dong) passes by with a SUPER YOUNG LOOKING DAO YI OMG?! and they help tang yi and hong ye out - boss tang tells them to hurry and go home, and hong ye just simply says: “i don’t have a home”

boss tang stares at them for a while, and although tang yi doesn’t say a thing you can tell by his clothes and dirty face that obviously he has been on the streets for a while as well? so boss tang is all: “you guys hungry? want to eat some food?”

tang yi, the cautious, smart boy who knows that most strangers are up to no good, says no, while hong ye who really is hungry, says yes

anw in the next scene boss tang and tang yi are eating at the table alone - although tang yi isn’t eating (and boss tang mentions that hong ye has already eaten three bowls of rice), so boss tang leaves tang yi to eat by himself and give him some space while he goes check on hong ye to see whether she’s gone for a shower yet 

a year or less later, we see tang yi coming home to the house, and boss tang is cooking dinner - it looks fucking delicious btw and i haven’t eaten dinner so jfc i really wanted to reach into the screens for those golden fried mantous (buns) - anw, tang yi is holding onto a little box that is definitely a cake for his birthday and boss tang tells him that dinner is ready so he can come down after he’s put away his stuff - much later, the sky is dark and they’re eating already and BOSS TANG says there’s one more dish and then switches off all the lights, much to tang yi’s confusion

then boss tang comes out with a cake!!!! omg sweetest thing ever - after that they sit at the couch and make playdoh or clay figurines of ‘old tang’ and ‘little tang’ - it’s the cutest shit i’ve ever seen

so while tang yi is reminiscing all of this, he says: “boss tang gave me my first home, my first birthday etc. etc.” - basically boss tang gave him the home he never had, and then he says to shao fei: “but on that day four years ago, i watched him bleed to death in front of me - can you imagine in that moment i lost everything, and my life was ruined? do you think i can let the person who did this go?”

shao fei: “so that’s why you said you didn’t know anything, because you were waiting to take revenge yourself”

then: “tang yi, the best punishment for that person is to get justice under the law”

and of course tang yi insists that he will never ever give this person to the police, he WILL take revenge by his own hands - and shao fei dishes out what probably is the most realistic line in this entire damn show (and one that i think we’ve all been waiting for): “but tang yi, you know that if you take revenge on your own, as a police officer, i will have to catch you?”

and OMG THE HEARTBREAK BETWEEN THEM BOTH!!!! tang yi’s eyes are already watery and he just says: “you do what you need to do. i do what i need to do”

GOSH COULD THEY BE ANYMORE HEARTBREAKING LIKE WE BARELY JUST GOT THE HAPPY PARTS TWO EPISODES AGO?!! (and though i say that i think this episode was about time, because we really needed to move on the plot!!!!)

the next scene we get zhao zi asking online on a forum “what to do when a guy confesses to another guy” AND OMFG THIS IS HILARIOUS he gets the following responses:

“welcome to a whole new world”

“rmb to prepare some VASELINE”

#gaypanic!!!!!

LIKE WOW chinese netizens, you guys are real damn helpful?!!!! HAHAHAHHAA anw i totally died at the vaseline part and the funniest thing was zhao zi, at work, was READING THE RESPONSES OUT ALOUD like did you want the entire police station to know that jack, a well-known gangster and criminal, wants to bang you? and then yu qi who sits next to him (she’s recovered at least on the surface and moving on with her life ATTA GIRL YOU GO!!!) gives him the WHAT THE FUCK look at the things he’s saying - then zhao zi goes to shao fei and asks him the same thing, but shao fei was the one who confessed in this case, and zhao zi just shook his head and goes: “irrelevant, totally irrelevant”

then we move to tang yi’s house!!! omgggg TANG YI LOOKS DAMN FINE WITH THOSE EARRINGS AND THAT WHITE TURTLENECK i would like to thank the wardrobe in charge for picking out tang yi’s HELLA FINE CLOTHES

anw, hong ye and dao yi are there to discuss work, and she’s obviously still mad at dao yi, and tang yi then peruses some files on the project they’re on and picks a company - hong ye is like: “are you sure? they’ve only been around for 5 years”

and tang yi goes on and on about how he thinks the founder of the company is a good and capable person, and that hong ye should meet him because for work, and also secondly, because the founder actually told tang yi that he kind of liked hong ye at a party previously (so anw this founder is the guy we saw in the previews) - and then obviously dao yi is not happy about it and tells tang yi not to do that, but tang yi reminds him that: “if you keep on regretting, you’re going to miss her and you will miss this chance forever”

ah de turns up then and tells tang yi that chen wen hao has invited him for tea next week and tang yi says: “i’ll be there” - ah de tries to discourage him from gg but we all know that tang yi is doesn’t usually listen to ah de so he ignores him

the next scene: tang yi opens the box and we see the birthday hat from his first birthday with boss tang and the clay house he made when he was younger that represented the home that boss tang gave him, and he says to himself: “a year has passed again, happy birthday (to himself)”

AND YES LI ZHEN JIE AND BOSS TANG HAVE THE SAME EXACT BOX THAT THEY GAVE TO SHAO FEI AND TANG YI SO THEY ARE DEFINITELY CONNECTED AND EVERYTHING I really can’t wait to see how it all plays out!!! 

anw we’ll get all the crazy scenes like the drugging part and the knifing parts PLUS BIRTHDAY SCENE TOMORROW - everything exciting is only happening tmr so let’s all prepare for death tomorrow friends!!! i’m just glad they’re moving things along but i’ve really got no idea how they’re gonna squeeze:

1. dao yi and hong ye

2. jack and zhao zi

3. tang yi and shao fei being happy and all and omelette scene and DOMESTIC HUSBANDS 

4. slightly more backstory to reveal the incident four years ago

5. tang guo dong + li zhen storyline briefly at least

6. li zhen and shao fei relationship 

... all in the next 7 episodes, which is like about 3 hours worth of screen time, i really got no idea

i really liked this episode though! really liked that we saw young tang yi and younger boss tang!!! <3

[taeyeonsa]

Updating on my mental state and my April 2019

Soooo, i got to get this out of my head, so hopefully i could sleep after this.

Remember when I curhat here that my mental state was not at its peak position? Idk idk idk i think when i went home last week, it was the healing I needed. Plus Surabaya alone+healing time.

This is the last week of Semester 6 in tekkim, meaning that it's almost holiday. But with penulap, seminar soon, and all the exams, I feel like I'll reach a new level of stress so very soon. Moreover, since I accepted this Kadiv Relasi ('Kesayangan' we say) TPB MWA-WM, I'll be super busy, well busier since I already have ChEWeek and it's not progressing the way i wanted it to be.

ONE MORE THING, for the first time in my uni life, I WIN SOMETHING!!! Me and seno worked so very hard for everything, and to say that we're happy is a huuuuugggggeeee understatement, i love it!!! Alhamdulillah i'm so happy, got my healing time plus my first ever win in a regional SPE competition! OMG I'M 2019 PETROLIDA PAPER COMPETITION 1ST WINNER!!!

Okay, return to my mental state. The main turmoil for the past few months have been people in my circle of inter class. Well not saying that i hate them or anything, but yea. It's tiring and it drains me, hanging too much with them. Yeah sometimes i feel this intense love for them, but the rest of the time is filled with resentment and all that. BUT i should stand on my own now, I have people around me who appreciates me more.

I have my happy squad (dinar yasmin anggi adit tecta), Ardi-Kukuh (but lately i feel like i'm losing contact with them), Aida (who panicked this morning because i randomly accidently called her), and maybe ??? I d k, who the fuck is ??? but come hurry i need you. Been waiting for you all my life.

Anw, it was all depressing me for the past months, but hey! I don't feel anything to Jon and Emma being together now. Okay maybe a little pang, but mostly resentment for how Jon did me so dirty for the whole year, making me his dirty laundry secret, while now having a very public relationship with the girl. Ohhh they do deserve each other, may both of you last for a loooooongggg time.

I realized that i have to stop blaming people, and mostly stop blaming myself because i need to find the beauty in me first (and most definitely start dieting) before seeking other types of beauty. Loving myself is the priority now.

Good luck, Ci for May!

Thanks for the Great April!!!

[moonbeaminquarantine]

kitten

so my mom hates cats. it was more like a phobia.

when she was a kid, she lived in her village and as the world, cats often associated with witchery. so her siblings often scared her saying that when there's cat then there's ghost around and so many more that are worst. so she always freaked out when cat's meowing so loud around our house especially at night.

now, our neighbour, right beside our wall, often fed the stray cats. and so that made these cats playing around our house too. and of course they pooped and peed in front our house too -_-

we always hush them away if we saw them.

one night, at the end of october, which means raining season, we heard a frightened and panic meow from kitten. sounds like it screaming from the top of it lungs. first night I didn't care. the second night, I peeked outside cause it was raining hard. I think it called for the mom. but I thought kitty was hungry and thirsty. but we don't have any food anymore, only porridge. so I put a little bit porridge on an unused lid, mushed it even more with warm water, went outside and put it under the AC fan where the kitty sheltered.

the next morning I checked, the kitty didn't touched it. I looked after but didn't found it.

so I wasn't worried. cause the kitty probably just wandering around the neighborhood and probably found the mom at our neighbour house. kitties are safe here.

but then one day I saw the kitty in our garden, sunbathing. this time it didn't cry anymore. well yes the kitty cried, but not like the last time where it cried nonstop.

so I asked my friend about kitty. what should I fed it? my friend explained it all. so I right away ordered the kitty wet food and kitty milk, and later vitamin.

The kitty was soooo shy and I don't know if it was afraid of human or just shy. my sister said because it's still a kitten.

If I want to let it know that I have food, I have to lure the kitty from the bush by putting a little bit of tuna on the leaf. tuna smells pretty strong right. so it came right away. and I put kind of a track on the floor with the food, directing to the bowl I bought, which is under the AC fan. and I put a little box too for it too sleep while raining.

at first it didn't want to came out from the bush if it can still saw me, the kitty just keep peeking. the minute I enter home, I peeked through window, the kitty went right away eating the food. surprisingly, the kitty loved the milk! oh yeah, I mixed the milk with the wet food, but if I put only milk, the kitty gonna finished it.

the second or third day the kitty started to came out when I was still there, and even eat from the bowl while I was beside the bowl. but still in an alert gesture. cause both of the back legs were faar from the body ready to run if I moved an inch. oh yes I had to stay still. even at first it was gonna run seeing my stomach moved from breathing.

one suday, I didn't expect the wet food finished earlier, at noon. so I tried to fed the kitty dried food that I've bought but hadn't gave it. I put dried food and milk in the bowl. mushed it. then I entered home, ordered wet food from online shop while peeking at the food. the kitty drank the milk but didn't touched the food. I was like damn I need this wet food asap. so I ordered with an instant deliv, but... it was sunday. the shops were closed. so I thought well, if the kitty really hungry at night, it gonna ate it. be patient till tomorrow morning, kitty!

the next morning the wet food came. I orderd quite a lot cause just in case. I put the food on the bushes leaf and in the bowl. but the kitty didn't showed up. until now :) why I kept saying "it" cause I literally couldn't see! I couldn't even touched! if I was 1 meter close, the kitty would run! and I never saw it peed.

anw, I fed the kitty with goal one day when the age is enough, I'll neutered the kitty. cause the population of cats in this neighborhood is just too much. Idk what my neighbour was thinking.

do I miss the kitty? hmmm maybe yes, like 10%? I just like to watch the kitty eat. that's it.

oh I called the kitty as Pecundang, which means coward.

[ckyun]

HELLO! how was ur day today?? I hope it was good n filled w lots of love ♥️ I listened to blue moon, honestly and one love today!! They're rly nice songs :'( && ck's narration in honestly :"( I almost took the wrong escalator down thinking about it while walking home hdbdhsbw I also listened to The Clan Pt 1 today!! Do u have a fav song from that album?? And do you have a fav photo from that era?? anw thank u for always entertaining my asks eeK I'm rly grateful!!! 💕 xx - kka anon

hey!!!!!!!! it was… pretty fine! i had a lot of work to do but just the same as always… dsiojfdoifjdio how about yours? THEY’RE SO GOOD, right?! i love trespass era so much (everything abt it, including what seems to be the last time of emo!kyun after no.mercy) !!!!!! icb you almost took the wrong escalator down bc you were thinking abt ck! i call it “love” :) hfdoigufjhnjd. 

from the clan pt 1 i gotta say… soft songs as always. i’m sorry? i just love the warmth in it all. i love it when you can hear them singing so softly that you can even hear them breathing! ! my heart goes 💗💝💞💟! soooo: sweetheart/white sugar, because of u and ex-girl are my top 3 songs from the clan pt 1! 

for the pic i’m gonna 

yes fjdopfjdopfikd so! where should i start from: ?? ? 

this is my fav ever 

bc u can see all sides of kyun, he :) he :| he :( nd he :(blank)

ALSO

BC MY 2 BBS INTERACTING ND BEING CUTE! ALSO MEME!

this cfknG MASTERPIECE :) ) ))) ) )) )) )) ) )) )) ) )

this is the first selfie i’ve seen of him when i became a kyunbebe! i fell in love!

ANGEL! HIMSELF\!

SO SOFT ND THE CHOKERJFIDOJFDIOFJD

i dont wanna flood so, this iconic day is gonna be my last pic bc kyun wearing all pink is the reason i’m still alive :(