#angry this good shit doesn't show up in my feed

[chasmalvice]

GO MY FLESH MACHINATIONS

More flesh monsters. They are teaching themselves to form bones and hands.

[deadsnakey]

𝐒𝐋𝐘𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐈𝐍 𝐁𝐎𝐘𝐒 —> 𝐃𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐌𝐀𝐓𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐎˚ᡴꪫ

๋࣭ ⭑⚝ fluff ೀ Headcanons. . .ᐟ 10k words 𐙚˙⋆.˚ ┈─★

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જ⁀➴ He has a lot of issues and anger, but he tries his best to control it around you.

જ⁀➴ has never raised his voice at you because of this.

જ⁀➴ I think he's all scary and intimidating, but once you get to know him, like know him, he's genuinely sweet and a decent person.

જ⁀➴ loves being around you, he feels comfortable enough to be himself around you and that's a privilege.

જ⁀➴ loves physical touch, knowing you're still with him is reassuring and grounding for him.

જ⁀➴ spoils the actual shit out of you dude, your complaints will be shushed with a soft kiss and soft eyes, "I love you, let me spoil you, okay?"

જ⁀➴ a bad boy on the streets a gentleman in the sheets.

જ⁀➴ his friends definitely remind him how gone and whipped he is for you on a weekly and he doesn't deny it, he knows and is fine with it.

જ⁀➴ if yes ever making you uncomfortable or doing sum you don't like, he stops immediately and never does/says it again. He'd hate for you to be uncomfortable let alone from him.

જ⁀➴ loves showing you off and will shamelessly do it, because you're a goddess why wouldn't he??

જ⁀➴ I think he's still learning the rights and wrongs while dating you so just put his ass in line and he'll immediately straighten up and act right.

જ⁀➴ he's your bitch, you're his girl.

જ⁀➴ he'll let you boss him around as long as youre happy but God forbid someone else tries to boss him around and they gone (to the hospital wing..lol)

જ⁀➴ will happily watch you get ready even if it's just to go on a walk or to grab a few snacks n stuff from the store or wtvr, will gladly help with wtvr if you ask him too.

જ⁀➴ teased you a lot especially if you get flustered easily butttt knows when to stop and to not take it too far.

જ⁀➴ also he tries only doing it in private or if it's just you two somewhere bc he doesn't want someone else thinking they can also tease you, friends or not.

જ⁀➴ hatesss the thought of losing you, definitely has nightmares and needs to either be held by you or hold you, it just depends how bad it is.

જ⁀➴ feeds you so much, he ain't letting his girl go hungry ever, not on his watch. He'll happily give you his food if you're still hungry or felt like you didn't eat enough.

જ⁀➴ ass man.

જ⁀➴ his and your friends are so nauseous whenever they see you two together because y'all are so sickening In love it's gross. (Don't get fooled they think it's cute.)

જ⁀➴ so soft and clingy in the mornings omfg, dude is pouty, a little whiny and his raspy voice telling you not to leave while holding you closer👁️🫦👁️

જ⁀➴ will be so quick with it if he feels like someone is disrespecting you or being rude to you even a little bit and don't get me started on flirting with you, you need to control your guard dog please!!! He will bite his dick off and leave him bloody and bruised for weeks.

જ⁀➴ true story, you scolded him and made sure he wasn't getting into as many fights after or at least not to the point of last time, but he listens to you because he would hate for you to be disappointed or not happy and especially with him.

જ⁀➴ I don't think Mattheo can live with himself knowing he's the reason you're angry, upset, sad, disappointed or literally anything that is happy or a good emotion.

જ⁀➴ opens doors, gives you his clothes, let's you borrow wtvr you need from him, buys you anything you want, gives you your favorite flowers every date night, give you massages, run you nice and relaxing baths, helps with studies, always with you especially in public.

જ⁀➴ no cause actually ever since y'all started dating you haven't been seen with mattheo with you, either behind you, either side of your or like 2-4 inches behind you watching over you carefully. Like he's a great protector!!

જ⁀➴ my boy working overtime to make sure you're safe and he wouldn't have it any other way tbh.

[luveline]

could you please write an early!roan fic where maybe she thinks Y/N is actually just coming around to spend time with her and then she finds out that it’s actually cause of her eddie, and gets all grumpy like “i thought you loved me” and Y/N comforts her “i do love you, but i also love your dad!”

thank u for requesting!! eddie and roan 1k, fem

There's a distinct smell of burned toast coming from the trailer. You trust Eddie but you rush up the steps anyhow, alarmed to find him coughing in the kitchen, window thrown open. 

"Will you take her?" he asks you immediately. 

You spy Roan sitting at the kitchen table and swap her for your bag of groceries. She gasps and giggles at your sudden appearance, quick to wrap her arms around your neck when you offer your embrace. You walk her to the open door and stand there sucking in clean breaths as Eddie fans a dish towel around under the smoke alarm. "What's dad burning?" you ask. 

"Um. Bagels?" 

You rub her shoulder. "Hey, I missed you, huh? It's been a long time since I saw you." 

"I missed you too!" Roan says quickly, eager, wrapping her arms tighter around your neck to squish your cheeks together. 

You smile into her hug. You and Eddie have been busy once again, and when you did manage to steal a date night, Ro was at Wayne's. You really have missed the little girl and you intend to show it, stroking your fingers through her hair gently. She dissolves like always. 

"Shit," Eddie says, throwing two blackened bagels into the sink and running the water. "Shit, fuck. I'm sorry, girls, I don't know where my head's at." 

"Cream cheese can't fix that." 

"It's okay, dad," Roan says. "We can get burgers." 

"I can't always feed you burgers, babe, it's not good for you." Eddie rubs his hair out of his face. "And Y/N just got here from work, she doesn't wanna go out again." You're dying to flop on their couch, but if she wants a burger for dinner, who are you to stop her? Still, Eddie puts his foot down. "No, bub. I'll make some more bagels. It'll be yummy. We have salami and everything." 

"Uh," she whines, laying back in your arms. You nearly drop her. You laugh at her dramatics as she slowly drags herself back up, her eyes practically sparkling with an idea. "Me and you can go get burgers," she whispers. 

"I really am tired. Let's get burgers on the weekend, maybe." You don't like letting her down but you have to be a united front with Eddie. Usurping his authority helps no one, especially when she wants something she isn't going to get today. "And I'd miss dad." 

"Who cares about dad?" she says. 

You laugh. "I do! He's my boyfriend." 

"He's your what?" 

Eddie looks up from where he's cleaning. The burned bagels have been disposed of, the kitchen sink washed out and the toaster cleared of scorched crumbs. "You knew that, Ro." He sounds puzzled. 

"He's my prince," you say. "You know? The prince to my princess Polly." 

"What?" Roan stares at you with an extremely amusing expression, her eyebrows tugged in betrayal. 

"Sweetheart, you know me and daddy are together, don't you?" you ask, hosting her higher on your hip. "That's why we go on dates and stuff. And why he brings me flowers, why we had that anniversary dinner, remember, with the melted chocolate?" 

"I thought you loved me." 

"I love you so much," you say, looking to Eddie for assistance. He seems as lost as you feel. "Like, so much. But I love dad too. He's hard not to love, isn't he? He's handsome and funny, and he makes great grilled cheese–" 

Roan does not look happy. She pushes at your chest to be put down and sprints out of the kitchen to her bedroom, where you hear a clattering of things being pushed over and a whine filled to the brim with attitude. 

"Should I…" 

Eddie shakes his head. "In a minute. Let her be angry for a bit. This is her first heartbreak." 

You meander into him and pinch his waist. "Don't say that to me, that's awful. Poor baby, did she really not know we were dating?" 

"Of course she knows. She just forgets, 'cos she loves you and she thinks you're best friends" He wraps an arm over your shoulders. "Wow. I wonder if she thinks of me as the third wheel when we hang out." 

You take the bread knife out of his hand. "Don't bother with that. We're getting burgers." 

Eddie's laugh is more of a girly, cute giggle, like he's just had a shot. You elbow him in the stomach until he cuts it out, and beg forgiveness for being grouchy with a hug. You press your face into his neck and huff. "I missed you before you got me in trouble," you mumble. 

"Nuh-uh, that had nothing to do with me." He kisses your temple. "She loves you. It's nice. It's… You're awesome. It's great that she thinks you love her more than you love me, even if she's wrong." 

"I do love her more than I love you." 

"Are you trying to piss us both off? You can go get burgers by yourself." 

Roan is face down in her bed when you knock on her door a couple of minutes later, completely still. You pick up the plushies she's flung off her bed and sit them up in pride of place against the wall. "Princess, you know I love you," you say. "Don't you?" 

"Yeah." 

"But you know I love daddy too?" 

"Ugh." She shakes her head in disgust. 

"Ugh," you say agreeably. "You're my favourite, though." 

She turns very slightly to peek at you. "I am?" 

"Obviously. That's why I just told dad we were going for burgers whether he wanted to or not." You tickle her side until she laughs and turns on her back to escape you. "I'm sorry if I hurt your feelings, I wasn't trying to. We're still friends, right?" 

"We're best friends." 

"That's what daddy said." You scoop her up into your side for a squish. "We're best friends forever," you whisper. 

She leans up to rub her nose against yours. 

[whumpdoyoumean]

Whumptober #29

A/N: Sorry for the delay on this one, guys! Holiday festivities have been keeping me busy, but hopefully I'll get the last two out on time! :D

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part 1

xxx alternate prompt: used as bait

River is having a hard time focusing. He's in a wooden chair. The rope binding his wrists to the arms are tied tightly enough that the scratchy fibers bite into his skin. His captors hadn't bothered with his ankles. Probably figured there was no need, since the bones in his lower right leg are most likely in about a million little pieces.

The room is cold.

Any adrenaline he'd had from the attack has long since faded, and his leg is killing him. It might literally be killing him, actually, because at the moment it's all he can think about. He should be trying to figure out a way to escape, but he just can't get his thoughts to line up properly for long enough to come up with anything helpful. Or anything unhelpful. Any hope for survival, it seems, rests on the shoulders of the Slow Horses.

He thinks probably he's not supposed to find comfort in that—the Horses being, well, the Horses—but he does. Or, maybe not comfort, per se, but there is a distinct lack of dread which is close enough.

The strangely calm, detached feeling continues even when a door opens somewhere behind River, and he hears the sound of footsteps. It's the first time any of his captors have entered the room where he's being held. If he were going to feel dread at the situation, now would be the time for it.

Instead, he says, "It's about time. I've been here for ages, could really use a drink. You haven't got scotch, have you?"

"You're funny," the person who'd just entered says, and he sounds...normal. River's not sure what he expected – maybe something more Darth Vader-like? At the very least a little gruff and intimidating. This guy sounds like he could host a mediocre lifestyle podcast. He walks into River's line of sight and waves. He's got a mask and gloves on, and River recognizes the outfit. This is one of the people that had dragged him into the car. He gestures at River's leg.

"That must hurt." The way he says it seems...odd. Loud. "Mind if I take a look?"

River shrugs.

"Be my guest."

The man draws a knife from a sheath at his hip and steps forward, slicing open the leg of River's trousers to the knee. He hisses a little, then straightens, glancing over his shoulder before saying, again overly loudly, "It doesn't look good. Definitely broken. You'll need surgery if you don't want to walk with a limp for the rest of your life. Might even need to get it amputated if it's bad enough."

This man, this weird fucking guy, is behaving oddly enough that it gives River something to focus on other than the agony in his leg. He wants to interact with him more, see if he can figure anything out...

"Yes, well, that's what happens when you hit someone with your car."

It's the wrong thing to say, apparently. Or maybe what happens next would have happened no matter what he said, or didn't say.

The man kicks River's leg – not hard, he barely touches it in fact. But that's more than enough for the already awful pain to become excruciating. River's vision goes black, and when awareness comes back he can hear someone screaming. He's screaming. He clamps his mouth shut on the sound.

"You--" he gasps, struggling to catch his breath. He's trembling, and a cold sweat has broken out over his forehead. "You bastard."

When he looks at the man, though, the man isn't looking at him. He's looking up at the wall. At the camera. That's why he's been speaking so loudly, acting like he's putting on a show. He is putting on a show. Because River's not the target.

He's the fucking bait.

"It's not like I enjoy this," the man is saying. God, he's a shit actor. Probably wouldn't know subtlety if it bit him on the arse. "None of this has been for-"

"Right," River interrupts. He's in too much pain and too angry to listen to this prick monologue. He doesn't know for sure whether it's a live feed or whether the camera is recording a video that the man intends to send later. He really, really hopes it's the former. "Are they seeing this right now?"

River can't see the man's face, but his posture changes, growing rigid. He looks up at the camera again and River almost smiles. Clearly he hadn't intended for River to catch onto that part of his plan. River looks at the camera now, too.

"It's a trap," he says loudly. "You dickheads better not walk right into it, or else you're just as stupid as everyone says you are!"

xxx

"What the fuck is he doing?" Shirley practically shrieks.

The second link had come in shortly after she and Louisa got back to Slough. They hadn't gotten much from the police, and Roddy apparently hadn't had much luck either. Now, though, there's a live-feed for him to trace. A live feed of River acting like a complete fucking idiot.

"Does he honestly think we don't know it's a trap?" Louisa says, both hands gripping at the sides of her head, eyes wide. She wants to reach through the screen and cover River's stupid mouth.

"You should not have fucking done that," the man in the video says. The knife he'd used to cut open River's pant-leg is back in his hand.

Louisa can see what's coming, but that doesn't stop her from letting out a small cry when the man drives the knife into River's gut.

"Oh, fuck!" Roddy says, eyes wide, his fingers freezing over his keyboard as he stares at the screen.

"Roddy, focus!" Shirley snaps.

"Right." Roddy looks back at the monitor that doesn't have the video on it and he starts typing again, hands flying over the keys.

Louisa's heart is pounding, fear and anger mixing as she watches the man pull the knife back out. Their timeline for finding him and staging a rescue has just gotten significantly shorter.

"How long before he bleeds to death, d'you think?" Shirley asks, and there's none of the usual sarcasm in her voice, just a hollowness. Her face is pale. Then she says, voice sharpening, "Where the fuck are you going?"

Coe, already halfway out of the office, keeps moving, not looking back. Shirley glares.

"Hey!"

"Leave 'im," Lamb says, putting an arm up to block the doorway. "Ho, update."

"I've almost got it."

"Good," Louisa says. "We need to get him out of there."

Lamb raises an eyebrow at her. "Are you forgetting the part where it's a trap? We need to be smart about this. I know that isn't exactly everyone's forte, or you wouldn't be here, but I'm going to need you all to try and use your brains."

The anger that roils in Louisa's gut makes its way to her mouth, and it's moving before she can stop it.

"Can you not just take something fucking seriously for once?"

Something flickers across Lamb's expression and his eyes twitch slightly. "I am taking this seriously. That's one of my agents. And if he dies, then the people who did it are going to have hell to pay. But what do you think happens if we just charge in there, guns blazing, the way these aresholes obviously want us to? In all likelihood Cartwright will still die, and the rest of us with him. Where's the good in that?"

Louisa takes a deep breath, chewing the inside of her cheek. "You're right."

"Of course I'm right. Are you going to be able to do this? 'Cus right now you're looking like a fucking liability."

"I've got it," Louisa says. She doesn't know if that's actually true, but she can't be left behind while they go to save River. "I'm good. Sorry."

Before Lamb has the chance to respond, Roddy claps his hands together, then throws both arms up in the air, spinning around in his chair to face them.

"I found him."

xxx

This is bad. Obviously it's bad, being stabbed is bad. But somehow, against all odds, it's given River a sort of second wind. Adrenaline is coursing through him, dulling the pain to something near acceptable levels. He knows it won't last long, knows it's only a matter of time – maybe only minutes – before the blood loss starts slowing his thoughts again.

The man throws some more threats around, a bit more gesturing, and then he leaves. River waits until he hears the door close and lock behind him before looking up at the blinking red light.

"I think you guys can hear me," he says. "And I just – I want to say, it's alright. Whatever happens, it's...I don't blame you. I said to keep away and I meant it. But, uh...Just in case, I'm – I'm gonna stay awake as long as I can."

He lets out a brief, breathy laugh that's completely devoid of humor and shakes his head. It feels odd speaking to an empty room, and frankly kind of stupid. "Fucking ridiculous..." he murmurs. He looks back up. And he keeps talking because, somehow, it makes him feel a little less alone.

(He doesn't want to die alone.)

He doesn't talk about anything in particular, at first. He talks about the dinner he wanted to cook this week, and about the OB's garden. He talks about getting chased by dogs in France, and how even though they were barking like they wanted to tear his limbs off, he still prefers them to the Dogs. That makes him think of Duffy, and he comments on the fact that he still wonders where that missing diamond got off to.

He talks until he feels the cold start to settle in, and tingling in his hands and feet. He's getting light-headed too. Bad signs. He knows that. Fuck.

"Uh...Not sure how much longer I'll be able to stay awake," he says. He blinks heavily. "Maybe-maybe don't call my mum this time? Until you're, like, positive...And if someone could go visit my granddad a few times a week, that would be..." He blinks back tears, swallowing the lump that rises in his throat. "Maybe Catherine? She was good with him."

Being outlived by the OB. That's not something he'd ever imagined, especially not with how his granddad's health has been recently.

"He'll be confused. So make sure – make sure he knows he didn't kill me." There's darkness crowding the edges of his vision, and his ears are starting to ring. When he speaks again, his own voice sounds foreign to him.

"And make sure you find who did this."

It's the last thing he says before he slips into unconsciousness.

xxx to be continued...

[rapha-reads]

IWTV rewatch

(this show and these books are insane and inspiring - spoilers for both seasons)

Season 1 episode 5 [A Vile Hunger For Your Hammering Heart] - part 1/2

- Previously... Trouble in the Unholy Family.

- Hey, did y'all notice that the intro card, the red sky with the skyline, actually changes? I was rewatching some parts of s2 and noticed that the skyline is different cities, but some buildings disappear from one episode to another.

- *wheezes* What the hell is this opening. Loumand indulging in some exhibitionism for Daniel while Daniel's going through Claudia's exploits. Hilarious. This show is a comedy, I swear. Holy shit, look at Armand's face, he's having the time of his life. And Louis doesn't give a shit, man wants his blood and that's it. Freaks. I love them.

[Daniel] "I'm trying to think of something more fucked up than this." - I don't know, what's going on in front of you maybe? *dies of laughter*

- [Rashid/Armand] "'And how is your work any different? Well, what do you think will happen to Mr du Lac when you publish this book, when the other vampires of the world get their hands on it?' [Daniel] 'As long as they pay full freight.' [Rashid/Armand] 'They will make their way to Dubai. They will scale the sides of this building, force their way inside, and paint the walls with his blood. You are chronicling a suicide. Do not look down on Claudia. Look in the mirror.'"

... Hey, Armand? Pot meets kettle. Don't pretend you care about Claudia. You could stop this any time you want. You're enjoying this, you're enjoying Louis' pain, you're thinking that the book will never see the light of day, that you're in control of the entire narrative, that you can stop this any time you want, that nothing will come out of this enterprise. You're thinking that if, if it comes to this, you'll get to play hero and "save" Louis' life again, and thus tie him even more to yourself. You're assisting that suicide, Armand. You just think that you're in control of the dosage. Look in the mirror.

- [Louis] "Honey and pineapple. He stuffs himself with both for days before he offers himself to me." - Lou baby I love you but you are insane. And also there are things you'd do better to keep in your head, actually. This whole roleplay thing is crazy. I'm imagining Daniel thinking back on these moments after he's turned and just going "what in the seven hells was that".

- [Rashid/Armand] "I care for him more than I care for himself." - oooh, did you guys notice that quick side glance Louis throws at Armand there? That line is Armand being genuine and Louis going "hey dear that's not in the script, what are you saying". Louis is done with both Armand and Daniel, he's being very bitchy and mean.

- What'd that bird do to you, Louis? Leave the poor birdy alone.

Aw, how the tableturns have turned, or however that expression goes. Now you're trying to get her to feed when you made Lestat's life hell refusing to eat yourself...

- Lestat reading and mocking Claudia's diary = Damon Salvatore reading and mocking Stefan and Elena's diaries (my first vampire show was Vampire Diaries, sorry, can't escape your past and all that).

- Oof, Claudia shattering the mirror and Louis being the cautious, angry one for once. Family's in trouble. And then the river of corpses... Oh, trouble, trouble all around.

- Ugh. Tom fucking Anderson is back. When does he die again because he's ugh.

- [Anderson] "Every single one of those corpses had some soft part of it lopped off. Finger here, a foot there... a toe." - yeah, I'm good with blood, but body parts? Claudia's trophies? That is actually stomach turning.

- [Lestat] "One each" - power couuuuuple. Look at them go! Unstoppable when they finally work together, and so in synch. That's what we like to see! Also let's just get rid of Anderson now, thanks.

- Oh, man, Claudia being drunk when the cops are searching the house, half comedy, half horror show. And then the real horror starts as she gathers her trophies. Ah, fuck, I had forgotten about the half dead guy in the closet. She craaaazy.

- [Lestat] "You wanted her, you fix her!" - when one of your parent tells the other "that's your child" when you do or behave in a way they hate. Classic parent stuff.

[Louis] "'We're doing this together.' [Lestat] 'Do you remember our life, how happy we were before her?' [Louis] 'Happy? We were not happy!' [Lestat] 'An anvil, tied around our ankles, pulling us towards the pitch-black ocean floor.'"

Ouch. You ever hear your parents fighting because of you, blaming you for their issues? Yeah... Can't say I blame Claudia for going off the rails.

- [Claudia] "Who am I supposed to love? You two have each other. Who's my Lestat? Who's my Louis? I'm not human. What human would want me? Perverts? Like the uncle at the rooming house who used to watch me pee? Or little boys? And 40 years from now... still little boys? How are you gonna fix it, huh? Which one of you gonna fuck me?!"

Hey, more of Claudia's fucked up backstory. 'You broke it, you fix it', except they can't even begin to understand what's broken, because she's right, they've got each other, even when they fight, that's Louis-and-Lestat, Lestat-and-Louis, they can't even understand why she's so mad and so sad and so angry. Kinda like when allosexual alloromantic people tell you, an aro ace person "but you don't love?" - bitch, I do love, I just don't wanna date anybody, thanks. L&L to Claudia: "but we're a family, we're rich and we're powerful, why are you not happy". Claudia: "bitch, maybe because I'm stuck as a kid for the rest of eternity while my mind and spirit age and I gotta see you two romance each other every fucking night while knowing that nobody will ever want to romance me?".

- [Claudia] "'I'm gonna go out there and find other vampires.' [Lestat] 'If you could find them, which you won't, they would shred you to strips, because you are build like a bird, because you are a mistake.'"

Bedside manners, Lestat. You know the worst thing, Lestat does warn here that she'd be in danger, but he does it in such a mocking, cruel manner that obviously she doesn't believe him and doesn't even take him seriously.

- Louis' dejected scoff when Lestat tells him he's killing Antoinette soon. These madmen are so bad at communicating.

- [Louis] "We made her out of remorse, out of selfishness." - ah, the self-awareness brought by a century of reflecting on your past. But what's that "we", Louis? You wanted her out of remorse, as your penance, your redemption for your sins and mistakes. Lestat made her out of love and pity for you.

- [Daniel] "'Poor dear. She wasn't held enough in between ritualistic murders.' [Louis] 'She spent every night for half a decade with no friends, locked in the emotional storm of puberty.' [Daniel] 'Look, Charlie Manson wrote a couple of beautiful songs. Still, he was Charlie Manson.' [Louis] 'Is that all you think of her?' [Daniel] 'Mostly. I also think she makes you and Frenchy look like a couple of whiny, existential queens. Probably why she's a fucking goldmine. The girl who moves a million books.' [Louis] 'I won't have her exploited.' [Daniel] 'Won't matter what your intentions are. It's the world out there now. She's the - the... single-shooter, Xbox, mouth-breather shit they crave.'"

Daniel's right. Look at us, we fucking love Claudia. She's a psycho, she's murderous, she's cold-blooded... She's our babygirl. She's our bicon. She's the moment. We love her because she's unhinged and feral and unapologetic about her pain and anger.

I love this writing, how it totally recontextualizes the whole story in the 21st century. Book!Claudia is disturbing, little blond angel with blood on her teeth, the eternal child with the wisdom and anger of a grown woman. Show!Claudia is pure attraction and mass adoration, the symbol of teenage angst with all of a lifetime of anger and rebellion. We relate to her, we the generations that have had to grow up so fast while simultaneously stunted, can't find jobs but expected to be way more qualified than our parents, can't buy a house but gotta be way more independent and resourceful and crafty than our elders. The whole world at our fingertips but completely unable to reach it, stuck in an eternal loop of doom and gloom as we watch the world burn without having the slightest power to stop it.

And of course Daddy Lou still wants to protect her from that, even in death, still sees her as his precious little daughter/sister who needs sheltering and safeguarding, even after she tells him she's not that kid anymore.

Well, that was heavy. Doom and gloom indeed. Don't think part 2 will get any better.

episode 1 | episode 2 | episode 3 | episode 4 | part 2 | episode 6 | episode 7

[daydreamgoddess14]

Support System pt. 9

Roy Kent x Reader - domestic fluff and hints of further spice to come 😍

CH1 | CH 2 | CH 3 | CH 4 | CH 5 | CH 6 | CH 7 | CH 8

MASTERLIST

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You're enjoying the hottest shower you can bear and also not looking forward to going back to your poor water pressure trickle when he taps on the door. 

"Why you knocking?" You laugh over the pounding water. 

"Don't want to catch you doing something you don't want me to know about, " he says with a wink. You turn the shower off and step into the towel he's holding out. "Your phones been going mad, I hope you don't mind but I wanted to check it wasn't Lexie?" 

"Thank you, course I don't." You take the phone and look through the notifications. "Lots from your sister, she's seen the red carpet pictures… shit, the pictures!" You keep scrolling, reaching with your other hand to hold onto his t-shirt. He takes you hand and kisses the palm. "Ah. Here we go." You hold it up to show him. A slew of messages and missed calls from Andy. 

"Fuck. What a knob. Come on, I've made tea. Do you want to read them while I get angry or the other way around?" 

"Ooh we can switch and both get angry."

"Can't do that, you look really hot when you're mad and we haven't got enough time for that."

"Uhh you need talk? Jamie asked me last night if permanent concussion was a thing from all the times you've headbutted him." He holds his hands up, backing out the door. 

"I deny everything." He leaves you to pull on some leggings and one of his Richmond t-shirts (no name on the back). You bounce down the stairs, your heels from the night before discarded at the bottom. Your dress had been left there too but Roy's obviously rescued it and draped it over the back of the sofa. 

"Thank you for saving the dress." You tiptoe to kiss his cheek. 

"It's only down here so I can put it on you again and then take it back off." 

"Oh I'm sorry, I didn't think we had time for that this morning?" You tease. You sit up on one of the barstools and he steps between your legs, holding out a piece of toast.

"We don't, but I can look at it and dream." He sneaks a kiss before passing your breakfast and moves to stand behind you. 

"I see what you're doing, feed me, put me in a good mood before I have to read these stupid messages?"

"Is it working?" He kisses your neck. 

"No."

"Yes," a laugh which makes you shiver.

"Fine, yes. OK, what have we got…" You unlock the phone and open Andy’s contact page. "Ready?" He nods into your shoulder.

" Now I see why you said no to getting back together. Starting tame, also he's not wrong. I'll allow it. You look like a slag in that dress. Juicy, god I haven't heard the word slag for years!" Roy growls. " I'm guessing Lexie doesn't know. She will when she wakes up. Hmm. OK. I mean, she likes you so I think we can cope with that situation. I think she'll be OK?"

"She's a fucking great kid, smart as hell. She'll be OK." He assures you. 

"There's more. He must have been pretty drunk by these I think. Bet he can't even fuck you with that dodgy knee. Uhhh, better than anyone. Ever. Ever." You feel his grin against your neck. "Don't get a big head."

"Not my head." He laughs, his beard and warm breath tickling you. 

"Ohhh stop doing that. Moving on. I'm sorry you dint really look like a slut. or slag. Ah, spelling and memory are becoming an issue. Oh god, he's back to sex. No idea why, he has literally zero to brag about. can't believe that wanker gets to fuck you in that dress bitch I wud fuk u better. Wow, that one is a real mess. Its the last one, I'm guessing he passed out after that because that last bit is just wishful thinking on his part."

"Didn't he have Lexie?"

"She went to his mums I think, he was going to the West Ham match."

"Good fucking job, if I find out he's getting wasted while she's with him-" You spin the seat around to face him again,

"You'll do nothing. I'll rip his dick off with my bare hands though." 

"Fuck me, you're hot when you're angry." 

"I should go and get her. I just need to check where from. Are you with Jamie today?"

"Yeah, but I can see him later if you want me to come with you?"

"I'll be OK. How shall we tell her? Do you want to be there?" 

"Your call babe, whatever you think she'd prefer? I'd rather not scare the shit out of her." 

"I'll get her and go back to mine. You could come over when you're done later if you want? If she asks me, I won't lie to her but if she doesn't, then we can tell her together? I'll cook for you for a change." 

"Perfect. Do me a favour?"

"Anything." 

"Wear this when you pick her up." He traces over your heart where it turns out, his name is on the shirt embroidered above the Richmond logo. 

"Baby, I would turn up in a full kit with your name on the back. Knee socks included, and football boots, just to piss him off." He kisses you fiercely, 

"Now you're just talking dirty to me," he mutters. 

"Yep, you love it. Come on, I bet Jamie's dying for gossip and I've got to get going." You text Andy while throwing only the important things in your bag. You're sure you've left a breadcrumb trail of your belongings around the house, but you know Roy won't mind. You head out together, the walk taking you both in the same direction for much of the journey. "Did you need to do anything about the photos?"

"Nah, no point in retracting them now and you look fit so the whole world can see them for all I care."

"Including your mum."

"Including my m-, shit, yeah I'd better call her. And your parents? Are they gonna wonder what the fucks going on?"

"I'll take Lexie round that way on our way home I think. Appease them."

"Nice one. Right, this is the Tartt's palace. See you later. Good luck, don't fucking kill him without me there to watch."

"Hmm I'll try. Don't make Jamie vom, he was trying really hard not to get too drunk last night but I don't think he was very successful."

"Story of his life. Love you." You smile up at him, 

"Love you too." Jamie has the door open before Roy's even hallway through the gate, waving at you. You wave back and carry on up to Andy’s mum's house. She had been largely on your side up to now, annoyed with Andy for breaking up the family and worried that she'd see less of Lexie because of it. You'd reassured her repeatedly, taken Lexie in for tea on the way home from school, picked up bits of shopping for her and gently tried to let her know that nothing had to change between them. You weren't so sure that would be the case this morning. 

 

~~~~~~~~

 

Andy’s car was on the drive so you braced yourself. 

"Darling girl, come in! Tea?"

"Hi Daph, yes please. I've only had time for one this morning." So far, so good. 

"Sore head?" She asked knowingly. 

"Not too bad. I suspect someone else is more hungover than me."

"You're not wrong. Did he give you crap?"

"A bit. How was Lex?"

"Oh golden, we had a lovely night. She's none the wiser by the way." She leads you from your hushed conversation in the hallway to her kitchen where Lexie sat eating breakfast and Andy hovered with a coffee in hand.

"Morning poppet, did you have a good night with Gran?"

"Yeah, we watched the new Matilda film!"

"And she hasn't stopped singing the songs yet!" Lexie grinned at her Gran.

"Show me later. Did you do your homework with Dad?" She nodded through a mouthful of cereal. Andy had yet to acknowledge you so far. "Shall we pop and see Nanny and Pop-pop on the way home?" Her face lights up, Andy grunts from the corner of the room. 

"Something to tell the folks eh?"

"Nothing we haven't already talked about." You quickly come up with the white lie. You don't want him to have the satisfaction that you're on clean up duty today. Lexie finishes her breakfast, puts her bowl in the sink and gives Daph a big hug. 

"Thank you Gran."

"Anytime pickle. Have a lovely week at school."

"And bye to Dad?" You prompt her, finishing your tea. You manage to leave without being cornered by Andy, it's pretty clear that his mum has told him to keep his mouth shut, so the short distance to your parents is a happy one. Your dad is already in the garden checking his plants and you can see your mum in the kitchen window beaming at Lexie. "Morning!" You call out, Lexie runs straight in so you go to your dad first. "Hiya dad." 

"Morning poppet," the same nickname you use for Lexie makes you smile. "Saw the paper."

"Hmm I thought you might have."

"Isn't he an almighty arsehole? I saw him on Sky Sports news, proper miserable bugger." You laugh at your dad's straight to the point question. 

"I still need to talk to Lexie, so I can't really talk about it too much, but he's so lovely dad. He's a grumpy fucker but he loves me, and Lexie too. It's early days, but he makes me very happy." Your dad stays quiet, just a grunt of acknowledgement. 

"I'll see about that. You'll bring him?"

"Soon, let's get the season finished first. It's a busy couple of weeks."

"Any luck on the job front?"

"Not yet."

"I hope you're not planning on just letting him support you? I didn't raise you like that."

"Dad! Course I'm not!" It stings a bit that he'd even ask that. You leave him to his tomato plants and go in to your mum. 

"Morning, love. Good night?"

"Yeah, thank you." Lexie is distracted by the baking your mum has already started, "you're not going to ask if I'm in it for the money as well are you?" Your mum laughs, 

"Don't be daft. Nice t-shirt," she notes. "Does the situation make you happy?" She asks cryptically for Lexie's benefit. 

"Very."

"Well that's enough for me for now. More details to follow though please. And you looked beautiful, my sweetheart."

"Thank you."

"He's very handsome. The only reason I'd put up with your dad watching Sky Sports news, really. Don't tell him I said that."

"I'm not telling either of them. Don't want him leaving me for my hot mum!" You stay long enough for Lexie the bottomless pit to have one of your mums famed apple muffins and pack up a couple to take for Roy, thankful that they can't ask too much with Lexie around. You plan to walk home via the park so text Sara who meets you with Phoebe. 

"How did the parental rounds go? Roy called this morning, said you'd have to deal with Andy's mum as well?"

"The mums are fine, I think. Turns out he's got a good fanbase in older women." 

"Oh that'll be his yoga women theory rumbled then. So confident they have no idea who he is! Like their husbands aren't all glued to weekend football."

"My dad asked if I was a golddigger."

"Ouch, rude!"

"Just making sure I'm not throwing my career away."

"What career?" She sniggers. 

"Oi, cheek!" 

"You looked so great together last night. The pictures were amazing."

"It didn't even cross my mind that they'd get attention like that. I wasn't expecting damage control this morning, or to have to tell those two so soon." You look over at where the girls are playing. 

"Phebs hasn't mentioned it yet, but it won't take long. You haven't got to see the playground parents tomorrow have you? That'll be fun, they love a bit of extracurricular shagging!"

"No, she's at breakfast club thankfully! I'm going to tell her this afternoon." 

"Good idea, gotta do it before anyone else can." You say goodbye with plans to watch the following week's Man City game together with the girls and to catch up in the week at school. 

 

~~~~~~~~

 

You're considering tackling the mountain of washing and more job applications when the front door knocks. Lexie, who's been quiet all morning, jumps up to open it. You can just about see the front door from the kitchen, so the first thing you see is Roy handing Lexie a bunch of pink tulips. 

"For me?" She squeaks, "really?"

"Is that OK?"

"Only mum has ever brought me flowers before! Mum! Roy brought me flowers!" She rushes in to show you, shaking the bunch in her little fist.

"Oh honey, they're beautiful! Shall I help you put them in water?"

"Can you do it? I'm making friendship bracelets."

"'Scuse me?"

"Pleaseee?"

"That's better, yes, I can do that for you." She puts the flowers on the table and runs back to the living room, high fiving Roy on the way past. "Someone is on the charm offensive." 

"Oh big time," he pulled another bunch from behind his back, peonies.

"How did you know?"

"Dunno what you're talking about." He checked the door before kissing you lightly, you cock your head to one side, "alright yeah, Lexie told me last week when you were out shopping with Sar."

"I knew you were a softy really."

"Only for you, don't get destroying my fucking tough man image."

"I wouldn't dream of it. I like that side too. Did you make Jamie vomit?"

"Unfortunately no. Did you kill anyone?"

"Unfortunately no. Bad mornings all round." He hasn't moved from your side yet and keeps looking to the door. "I think you're safe. She's making Richmond coloured bracelets for the match, we're watching with your mum and sister."

"So I've heard, means I'd better tell my mum about you then." At the knowledge that you shouldn't be interrupted for a few moments, he takes the opportunity to crowd you against the counter and really kiss you. You tilt your head to give you both better access and he sweeps his tongue over your bottom lip before biting it. The small gesture sends a wave of pleasure through your body and your hands go to the hem of his t-shirt of their own accord. You slide them just underneath enough to feel the warm skin on his stomach. The lightest scratch of your nails so close to the waistband of his jeans makes him growl into the kiss. "I've got to stop," he groans, pulling away from you. You can't help the desperate, needy moan at the loss of contact, and the look he gives you from that sound alone is enough to leave you trembling. You take a second to get your breath back and go back to sorting out the flowers. "Has she asked?" He questions once it feels safe enough to talk again. 

"Not yet. I'm going to go and talk to her, you're welcome to come with me?" He squeezes your hand reassuringly but makes sure to let it go once you're in the living room. "Hey, Lex? I need to tell you some that you might end up hearing about from someone else, I wanted to be able to tell you first though?" She sits up and starts measuring your wrist for a friendship bracelet.

"Is it about Roy?"

"Uhh yeah, how did you know?" She shrugs,

"He's here. And he brought flowers." You nod, 

"Right, of course. Yeah, it's about Roy. He asked me out to a fancy party last night. You might see some pictures of us-"

"Have you got them, can I see now?"

"Sure, I just need to get my phone." You're about to stand when Roy passes you his phone instead, and you see the lockscreen is one of the pictures from the night before. You hold it out to her, 

"You guys look so cute." Roy grunts at being called 'cute', "It's true!" She says, taking up his wrist to measure him for a bracelet. "So he's like, your boyfriend?" You steal a quick look at him, his eyebrows raise in anticipation of your answer. 

"Yeah. Is that ok?" Lexie shrugs,

"Sure, you're cooler than dad's new girlfriend but they broke up already. And now I get to meet footballers and hang out with Phoebe even more. She said we could be cousins and I told her I didn't have any so she said we should definitely do that. Can we?"

"Let's ummm… cousins is a very big step for you both. You really need to make sure you're ready so just slow down a bit there." Roy is sniggering at the big deal you've made cousins out to be, but Lexie is having none of it. 

"Mum, I think we'd be OK. We're nearly 9. We're not babies. I think you should just be brave and let us do it."

"Thanks for that input bunny, I'll take the cousins thing super seriously, ok?" She accepts your suggestion and thankfully drops the conversation. In the safety of the kitchen, you lean into him and let his arms wrap around you. "That was so scary. Why are 8 year olds so fucking terrifying?!"

"You were the shit, I fucking loved that." He laughs, his chest rumbling against yours. You stand together until Roy's phone rings and disturbs you. "It's Phoebe. Alright love?" He asks her. You can hear the squeal through the phone but can't make out what she's actually saying. You move away from Roy and give him a big thumbs up and a: you got this ! He doesn't look convinced, despite you only just telling him how scary it was. You can only hear his side of the call. "Nan saw the pictures? Yeah it was a fucking great dress. Yeah alright, I owe you. Worth it. No, this doesn't mean you're cousins now. You can be cousins when I tell you so. Cos it'll be up to me! Phoebe, put nan on the phone. Mum? Yeah she's OK. I'll come and see you tomorrow. I will, love you." He hangs up and you wait. "Phoebe is suddenly obsessed with cousins and mum wanted to check you were ok." You smile,

"I think that went well then. All the mums are on board, all the kids, I'm claiming the win." 

 

You cooked dinner, as promised and let Lexie watch a film with Roy afterwards while you packed her school bag and your work things. He left at her bedtime, leaving you with a kiss at the door. 

"Maybe Roy could have a sleepover next time, mum," she said halfway to sleep, "but you can't steal all the covers or he'll get cold."

"Thanks poppet, I'll make sure I don't steal the covers."

~~~~~~~~

[posallys]

ok 1 ur desktop theme is GORG and 2 i need (if u wanna) ur thoughts about the show (or show sally in gen bc ur the only one i trust with her)

thank you!! i was actually thinking about updating it but maybe i wont 🤭🤭 and i have a lot of thoughts about the show except none only very few of them are good and i will be crucified by the 13-year-olds

im going to tell you anyway.

i will start with something i like....percy being angry. like yes give me the anger of a 12 year old who feels utterly alone in the world and doesn't understand (or does and it makes him more angry)

the fight scenes are dog shit. the only kind of cool one was in the arch but it was only cool because of percy doing the bait and switch and falling through the arch...the fights are bland boring sucky whatever other synonym you wanna use

uhhhhh sally jackson is not and would never be sitting in the rain pining of the god she told to leave....and especially not to teen pop...if she WERE going to act like a 16 year old and do the pining thing it would be to fucking like...billy joel and ricky martin and donny hathaway and stuff llike that okay...

i will preface this by saying that yes i understand that talking back to an abuser the way sally does in ep 1 doesn't make the abuse less abusive....however i DO not like the fact that that scene explicitly goes against sally characterization in the books....i am not digging my book out atm but the part where percy is like "my mother has never raised her voice or said an unkind word to anyone"....me thinks the writers all read the books 10 years ago and are going off of memory alone + or their brains are so clouded by the obsessive Big Screen Need to make women a badass girlboss slay queen i fucking hate it here

LET ANNABETH BE SILLY AND FUNNY AND CUTE AND CRY AND NOT BE AN ADULT THANK YOU....hated that they made annabeth the one to realize that it was medusa and not grover...give me back grover having to wrangle percy and annabeth into backpack leashes just to keep them on task/stop them from wandering off...book trio i miss you

i absolutely ADORE leah, walker, and aryan though the three of them are so so perfect, A+ casting no notes couldn't have done it better myself. if it weren't for the three of them i would have zero hope for the show i cannot lie...they're carrying. without them it's just..bad.

the pacing???? bad.

why did we waste half of the 4th ep on the train with echidna...stupid dumb pointless i hate it here

i do like the whole not all monsters are monsters and the gods aren't inherently good just because they're gods thing they've got going on though...very inch resting...silently hoping that they do a complete 180 and have percy side with luke and redo the series from there because that would be iconic as fuck <3 a girl can dream because at least then i could take the show at face value and not take 80 health damage every time they mess up a key part of the books...im at -29834 heath rn.

where was the time at chb before the quest??? the oh so important vital scene where luke teaches percy to sword fight???? like BRO that's soooooooooooo important to ME how could you get rid of that

not having annabeth show percy around camp

additionally, not having annabeth feed him the nectar and ambrosia, WHICH BY THE WAY they haven't even mentioned in the show yet...plot armor gone rip

not the fredrick chase sympathy while simultaniously blaming the woman...........rick when i get my hands on you...

annabeth having to EARN thalia's love??? absolutely not probably one of their biggest fuck ups fr.

the scene where sally is talking about Poseidon to percy...i do not like it sam i am. bad. not wistful enough not longing enough not sad enough not gut wrenching enough...also not completely here for sally telling percy that his dad was a god because....sallys whole thing was NOT telling him in order to keep him safe...i know they changed it in the show so sally knew he was going to camp immediately but that does not mean i have to like it

the scene with sally and percy in the pool. i hated everything about that. sally would never talk to percy like that never talk to him about money never make it seem embarassing NOT TO MENTION that percy simply wasn't scared of the water. that's stupid as fuck. theres a part in the book where percy literally says being by the water calms both him and his mom like...come the fuck on just admit you can't fucking read or at least didn't read the book.

sally annabeth get behind me so they cant hurt you anymore

i did loveeeee percy praying to sally though...absoutely insane and true of them. also the "I AM SALLY JACKSON'S SON" yesss baby you tell them about your mommy!!!!!!

them making athena moa level bad in tlt is quite interesting. setting up annabeth siding with percy pretty well.

also the whole impertinence thing over medusa's head was weird to me. when annabeth first said that i had immediately thought that annabeth's impertinence was telling percy to pray to poseidon IN ATHENA'S TEMPLE bc that made much more sense to me...but whatever

the annabeth/medusa parallel is intriguing at the very least

the underwater scene with the neraid was cool even though i hated the parallel to the pool scene w/ sally.

the dumbass pinecone fate line. 0/10 did you read the book? did you pay attention to how empathetic and reflective percy was when he found out about thalia?

honestly....i think disney was just the wrong place to go with this show because it's like what...pg? it should be pg 13 and should have more... sustenance.

this medusa was so cool though. which we could've seen a fight.

i need to know how many women are in the writer's room though...because It Does Not Look Good. funny how the characters that they're fucking up are all women....crazy. weird. totally coincidental.

are we just not going to talk about the vitality and pressure of getting the bolt back on time? where is the inherent inevitable danger, the suspense, the fear of not accomplishing a seemingly impossible talk looming over everything

this is 10000% not all of my thoughts but im not going to rewatch in order to collect them all so this is what you get xoxox

[ikamigami]

Eclipse was right!

Sun will die and it'll be Moon's fault.. but it won't happen in the way you expect it.

People started to see that Sun is seemingly acting like Evil Sun thus they're scared that Sun will snap once again. People also started to see that Moon is slowly losing his mind thus he'll have a mental breakdown soon.

What if I told you that show does it intentionally and want us to think that Sun will snap and Moon will have a mental breakdown.. what if they're doing this so we won't see what they'll actually planning to do..

In my most recent posts I pointed out something which I think many people forgot about.. and this thing is Moon's paranoia.

I realised that Moon became more paranoid after he visited Evil Sun's dimension. Many people thought (me included) that Moon's paranoia is centered around Ruin. Which honestly would make a lot of sense. But something wasn't adding up with the way Moon was acting with Ruin.

When Moon returned from Evil Sun's dimension I immediately saw the shift in the way Moon is acting around Sun but then I didn't connect the dots yet. Only after my friend on Discord pointed out to me how Moon is acting weird towards Sun I realised that I was wrong.

Moon's paranoia isn't centered around Ruin. It's centered around Sun. First Moon started distancing himself from Sun because of what Evil Sun told him. That Sun and Moon being brothers is a rare thing.

Another thing that Evil Sun told Moon about is that our Sun didn't reach yet the point in which he'll become like Evil Sun. And what was Moon's reply? He said that Sun already reached that point when he snapped and killed Bloodmoon.

Moon knows Sun so he knows that Sun won't lose it once again, right? Yes but also no. Maybe everything would turn out somewhat fine if the only issue was Ruin. Because if they would learn that Ruin isn't the bad guy it could ease Moon's paranoia and he'll be in the right mind to address the brotherly bond thing and talk about it with Sun.

Unfortunately Eclipse returned.. and this is when shit hit the fan. Moon started acting as if he was losing his mind. Because he thought that he was able to get rid of the thing that caused so much misery to Sun. Moon views Eclipse as a threat to Sun's life.

Paranoia is feeding on our fears. And what is Moon afraid of the most? He's scared that he'll lose Sun.

Moon already feeling insecure about his and Sun's brotherly bond. And when he started to see that Sun is acting more violent and more angry in games it only fuelled the paranoia that maybe Evil Sun was right and Sun will lose it. Moon is scared that Sun may try to hunt down Eclipse on his own. He watched the show so he knows what happened last year. He also knows which Old Moon's mistakes led to that. He won't repeat those same mistakes.

Important thing to note is that Moon is more afraid that Sun will end up injured or dead when he'll try to hunt down Eclipse on his own. Moon doesn't think that Sun will become evil. Definitely not.

Getting back to the point. Because Moon is afraid that Sun will snap once again, he decided to not include Sun in dealing with Eclipse and Ruin's situations. That's why he's mainly doing things with Solar and only inform Sun about results later. So Moon will both keep Sun safe and not keep him completely in the dark about what's going on.

But it's not enough. Sun still can decide to go hunt down Eclipse on his own. Sun can easily escape from the Daycare. Moon knows that because he watched the show and he saw that leaving Sun in the Daycare alone isn't a good idea. And that's why Moon bought their new house on the island so he could trap there Sun. Because Moon can easily block Sun's access to the portal and Sun won't be able to escape from the island on his own.

And it's the better way than the Old Moon did it. Because Old Moon trapped Sun in magic box where Sun couldn't even move. And here Moon bought huge house on the island. So there's plenty of room for Sun to move and Sun wouldn't feel trapped there.

Moon's words are proof that he's doing it because of his paranoia: "I need this.." "..I need to clear my head.." Moon is doing this because he's losing his mind from all this paranoia. He doesn't realise though that what he's doing isn't much better from what Old Moon did. It's because Moon is doing different things from Old Moon. But different doesn't immediately means better.

Moon doesn't realise how much it's affecting Sun and his poor mental state. And I think that Moon's paranoia will drive Sun to attempt suicide. You may think that this is too much and it's too dark for the show. Do I have to remind you that show started showing more dark stuff after Bloodmoon's return? But you may say that it was only in laes. Mgafs was pretty dark from the beginning. Now it's sams turn.

I was talking about Sun's mental state many times so I don't have to explain that isolating Sun on the island will only make his mental state worse.

Also paranoia makes Moon unable to realise that what he's doing is affecting Sun badly. Because paranoia is clouding Moon's mind. He's unable to see Sun's side of things. He doesn't take Sun's feelings and what Sun wants into consideration. Paranoia makes Moon act on his fear and he's doing whatever it takes to ease his paranoid mind.

If you think that I'm exaggerating then let me tell you one thing. If you continue to fuel your paranoia, you may end up harming not only yourself but also your loved ones. Your actions may even lead to death of your loved ones. This is the dark truth about paranoia.

Like I said Solar won't be able to stop Moon because 1) he may think that it's better to keep Sun safe - and because he doesn't know Sun because he doesn't hang out with him because of issues he has, he doesn't realise how Moon's actions affect Sun, 2) he doesn't know how paranoid Moon can be - he only saw what Moon is capable of while angry because this is what he learned from his own Moon. Solar's Moon wasn't paranoid because he was too much driven by his kill code.

That's why Solar is only trying to keep Moon from being too caught up in his anger. He doesn't know how much paranoia can lead to tragic things. Also Solar might act paranoid towards Sun as well 1) because of what happened to his Sun, 2) because he want to keep our Sun safe so our Sun could avoid Solar's Sun's fate.

But unfortunately this is what will lead to tragedy. Eclipse was right. Sun will die. And it'll be Moon's fault. Because Moon can choose if he'll act on his paranoia or not. Our thoughts and emotions aren't controlling us. Ultimately we decide if we'll act on those thoughts and emotions. The decision belongs to us.

If I am right show will get very dark. Because these topics are something not easy to talk about.

And then if Sun will try to kill himself, Moon will definitely have a mental breakdown. He'll be forced to face his own mistakes and that what lead to this tragedy is that he tries to be completely different from Old Moon. But he doesn't realise that isn't acting that much different from him.

Same is with Solar. If Sun will end up in a coma because of the suicide attempt, Solar will be forced to face his own trauma and his feelings that he locked deep in himself.

It'll be brutal way to force the reality check on them but probably this is the only way they'll be able to realise that what they're doing is wrong.

I hope that I didn't do too many mistakes in this post cause I'm not feeling too well rn..

[sapphic-agent]

Hopefully, this ask won’t get you in trouble. If you feel it does, then feel free to disregard this. Or if you don’t feel comfortable or confident talking about it, cause it does involve talking about ships.

But it somewhat feels like Horikoshi for the later chapters seems to be catering for same sex pairings, like Midoriya always being around Bakugou, or Ochako’s most significant moments now being around Toga. At least to me.

And the fact he seems to be focusing on same sex pairings certainly isn’t the problem.

The problem is the fact is the pairings he’s focusing on are f****** shit!

BakuDeku is an angry asshole bossing around and being a d*****bag to a boy that has been conditioned to think so highly of his abuser. This is a hop, skip and a jump away from Stockholm Syndrome.

Togachako, imo, is slightly worse than BakuDeku (but not by much) simply because it’s a very one sided relationship where one partner always has to cater to the problems of the other with no sign of returned love or reciprocated love. I wouldn’t trust Toga to know when she’s had enough of my blood. Why should I believe she would know where to stop drinking Ochako’s blood? And despite the images throughout their fight, like Toga GROPING Ochako, Horikoshi, for some disturbing reason, tries SO hard to paint this as a CUTE couple. (Hell, the dude could be showing Toga literally EATING Ochako and somehow paint it as an endearing thing…)

Why is Horikoshi banking on these toxic forms of love for the LGBTQ when he’s had more HEALTHIER couples?!?

TodoDeku? Tsuchako? IidaDeku? Minachako?

Hell, there are other pairings that were literally already there!

MomoJirou!

Mirio and Amajiki!

It’s just…it’s baffling why BakuDeku and Togachako are paraded as these fantastic M/M and W/W ships when they are anything BUT.

I have a sapphic couple in their wedding dresses as my pfp and my user is sapphic-agent... I'd honestly be impressed if someone could accuse me of homophobia😆Feel free to submit any LGBTQIA asks :)

In the case of TogaChako, I just think Toga herself is queer-bait. Among BakuDeku and other queer ships becoming popular, good old Hori probably thought to himself, "What's the best way to capitalize on this?" without actually putting any thought or care into it (like with Bakugou's redemption once he started to become popular). So he made Toga canonically bisexual (I'm like 90% sure she wasn't originally intended to be bi as she was way more infatuated with Izuku than Uraraka initially). And she's bad rep to boot. Horikoshi is making his only canonically queer character a predator... that's not a good look.

I even like Toga. Or, I liked how much potential she had at the beginning of the series. She was original and I liked her quirk. He could have given her a lot of depth, but nah let's just make her creepy and a predator mfers will eat it right up... And he was right unfortunately.

What makes it worse is that Uraraka has to be at the center of Toga's advances (again, WHY THE GROPING PANEL). Idk if it's because she's the main girl or what, but she deserved better than this.

(Tbh, I know she's Izuku's LI, but her and Tsu are way cuter and a lot healthier than her and Toga)

BakuDeku I feel like is part of that queer-baiting. Look, the fact is that it will never be canon. We know it, the shippers know it (even if they feign delusion), and Horikoshi knows it. But that doesn't mean Hori isn't milking it for all its worth. Do you see how the shippers go nuts when Izuku and Bakugou are in the same panel together? The entire MHA feed will be filled with it here on Tumblr for weeks. They eat that shit up and Horikoshi knows that. That's part of the reason why he forced reconciliation between them, so that he'd have more content for them to froth at the mouth over.

[jaskierx]

Dear god that post you reblogged is making me want to rip my skin off (not because of you).

Just repeated the same BS misinformation we've been disproving over the last few days, weeks in the comments.

' The lead actor is a proud Zionist' no he isnt, 'actor says he was fired for being pro palestine' NO HE WASN'T, HE SAID OMFD WASN'T THE SHOW HE HAD TO COMPROMISE HIS BELIEFS FOR'.

It doesnt even matter what the truth is any more. People just love being assholes online and don't want to give that up, fucking brats.

Sorry for this, you're amzing. I'm just so angry

💕 this website is both blessed and cursed

people do be making shit up on the internet unfortunately

words don't mean anything anymore. 'zionist' has become a term to throw around to describe anyone who hasn't crafted the most perfect, morally pure social media post about palestine. anyone who calls their reps and donates money to the relief effort but doesn't post about it is somehow 'condoning genocide'. it's all just become an excuse for people to bully others on the internet and pat themselves on the back for doing good activism when all they've actually done is feed their own fucking ego

[daydreams-to-passages]

So I found this little snip bit in my docs and figured I share. It's clunky at best and can feel a bit odd since it's an isaki.

Anyways best of reading for yall.

I just about threw my phone again. It was getting on my nerves! Like why is she such a bitch to him! She manipulates and is so toxic.

The concept of this show is great the love interest hate her-hate hate hate her! It's not even meant to be a romance!!

The Flash was apart of the arrowverse list I decided to finally sit down and watch. Green Arrow season 1 passed, building was solid Helena that show’s Iris was dead. Omgosh how happy was i to see her die on screen. Why did the female leads or potential female leads have to be so manipulative. Like give me someone sweet and gentle with their hero partner. Something that while not physically strong is still strong and able to overcome stuff. I don't want her to feel so out of this world, more like if a hero clinged to the idea of normal. And her turn around to “i didn't want to be normal. I wanted to be abnormal like you. But with you I learned that normal is just fine. That normal is peacefully morning with coffee. They're watching kids in yards.” Domestic shit. And the hero? He gets that normal that he so desperately wanted.

Like that'd feel so much more in character for someone sweet and nerdy like Barry. Why the hell would he go for a journalist? Why would he stick with his first love who clearly wasn't interested in him. Like think of the angst of a world crossover where an Iris gets Barry versus not. It'd be much more interesting than whatever the hell Spiderman x Superman fusion they wanted for flash.

“did you throw you phone again?”

Stocking my tongue out at my Roommate, “Your sure one big simp.” They laughed at my agony, “they could do Barry so much better if they gave up the Iris subplot! Let her die and stay dead!”

“What like you?”

“What no! Why does everyone assume that? Like sure I'm not against filling shoes but I don't think I'd be a good match for him.”

“Why? You simp hard enough.”

“Romance and relationship aren't about simping, dude. Plus he needs to slow down and breath. I'm someone who needs to go fast. Sure theorically would could balance each other out but…”

“But?”

“I'm not that much in dululu land. I'm aggressive and visually angry all the time. Defensive at the best. We'd probably grate against each other and ruin the whole friendly sweet personality Barry has.”

“You know? I think it'd be the opposite. Like you want to go fast but he needs to slow down for you. Where he's friendly you could keep a leash on him. Where he's late your already planning and coming up with ways to make him on time. I think it'd be a match made in heaven.”

“Ewww stop feeding my delusions. It doesn't matter anyways.”

“Why?”

“Cause he's a simp for Iris.” I say turning back to my phone with the paused TV show. Grumbling going back to it.

“I wonder….” My roommate trailed off clicking my door shut once again, I got the weirdness uneasy feeling running down my spine. Though shrugged it off for a hunch that something bad was going to happen in the show.

Oh how right I was.

3 days later.

“Your Caitlin Snow. Your Cisco Ramon. Your Harrison Wells.” I slowly spun pointing at the once characters so far away was now within touching distance. “And that means your…” A red blurr skids to a stop, “Flash.”

I let the silence steep in the air as I chewed my thumb, “fucken Void.” I grabbed phone calling them immediately, “YOUR A FUCKEN BITCH! What did we say about dululus! WE DONT NOT ENCOURAGE OR CHANGE WORLDS TO SATISFY CURIOSITIES!”

“Well hello! I wanted to see if sparks would fly.”

“Oh sparks are gonna fly when I kill you and burn your body.” I snapped back before ending the call rubbing my forehead trying to think of a way go fix.

“So how'd you get in?” Cisco asked over his snack of the moment.

“Didn't mean to I opened a door.”

“A door?”

“Ya? Worlds are interconnected. You know the speedforce and realm jumping and all that shit.”

“You know about the Speedforce?”

“Now to find the right door so I can strangle my darling roommate. They said go for it. They said what could happen with an interdimetionable being? Nothing they'd be too scared to ruin the balance of things. NO NO ONE MET THIS Stupid fucker! So long as it's interesting it'll happen.” I wandered through Starlabs I could feel people staring into my back as I open and closed various doors in opens to finding the right one but no luck.

“So this happens often?”

“Yep.” Popping the P with a big sigh of defeat, as another door failed.

“So Void? Just sends you off with nothing?”

“No no. He chaotic neutral bish knows I know my way around this world.

“So its not random?”

“No. Gods do you enjoy interrogating me? World's often have echos of each order. Speedsters can only come I contact with ones that either have speedforce on it or if a doppelganger is there. Void doesn't have those restrictions. He's not a bad guy or even someone who you can fight. He's not a rogue or a metahuman you created. He just like putting theories to a test.”

“Is it alright that your sharing this information?”

“Sure it's not like you'll remember me when this is over.”

“Wait why not?”

“Cause I don't exist here? By allying myself with my roommate I essentially killed off any dopples of myself. I'm the one and only. And two you wouldn't remember me cause it'd break timelines. Everything I do will be edited to fit whatever narrative. With minor exceptions.”

“and those exceptions?”

“I'll will be replaced by someone who fits better.”

[lemonhemlock]

Thoughts on helaegond

helaegon has so much potential, yet gets so ignored. aegon & helaena just make sense from a political perspective - here's a v good analysis on this topic (i included my own comments)

in the books they have a more fleshed out relationship, aegon gets mad at jace for dancing with her, they are known to share a bed and after her death aegon insists that people only refer to her as "Queen Helaena", alongside "Queen Alicent" since "they are the only true queens" of Westeros !! so there is love there. aegon loves all of his family i will die on this hill if i must.

the show just gave us some crumbs, as in aegon is obviously not into helaena & forced to marry her. he rejects her as he rejects all of his duties, but it's hard to say if she is just a symbol of everything he is supposed to be (The Perfect Heir TM) or if he's just not attracted to her at all (maybe both). hard to say if this is an outright rejection of the practice of targcest or if these two individuals just don't happen to mesh. if aegon had another sister, would he still refuse to marry her? we don't know at this point, since they've barely developed their relationship.

that being said. it seems to me aegon acknowledges this is not an ideal relationship for him, but he doesn't go out of his way to antagonise helaena either. this is not an aegon iv/naerys situation. on the contrary, he mostly lets her be and tries to be kinda nice to her sometimes?

he is presented as a sexual harrasser, but is obviously not sexually violent with her (complimentary medal for doing the bare minimum, i know). at dinner, there is dialogue that suggests aemond is cajoling aegon into apologising to helaena for something and aegon mentions getting her some swanky gift. he's not angry about it, he just complies. when helaena inadvertently mocks him at dinner, he does not lash out at her in any way, he's just sort of humbled at being called out (this feeds into my theory that aegon accepts violence & insults from his own family but not from other sources). he doesn't get "angry" like in the books when jace dances with her, but his face totally falls and he is mortified, like he's resigned himself to jace's insult. he turns to aemond like "can you believe this kind of shit?" idk. there's something there.

their personalities may not gel well together, but he is such a loser craving validation that i can't imagine that he wouldn't get an ego boost if he got acceptance & encouragement from his sister (he has to deserve it first ofc but he's too busy being genre-aware). god knows where they will take this dynamic in the show, but i hope they choose to build up some rapport and empathy between them, bc it's a much more interesting story than another deadbeat targ king being mean to his sister-wife

[psychewritesbs]

Confession: I saw you talking about jjk ships and giiiirl I started to feel bad lol. I used to really enjoy various jjk ships but after unpleasant experiences and among other things I saw out there, this whole thing just left a bad taste in me. It become very common to attack people's reading comprehension or even call them homophobic in discussions about canon, but the thing is if it's not explicitly in the story or said by Gege, then people are arguing about personal interpretations based on personal perspectives or personal preferences.

I love stsg. I think it's a canon romantic couple? No. I think their relationship is at least ambiguous? No, (but at this point I am judging from my own experience, I have a best friend and she's the person who understands me best but I can assure you that there are no romantic feelings). If I put on my shipper glasses, I think stsg can be more than best friends? Yeah. If I look for it and I find it . Also, based on my personal preferences, they have what it takes for me to like a ship lol.

The same with itafushi, I love this pair, and it hurts me that it is not appreciated enough (if you want to talk about them I will read it with pleasure). Of course I don't think there's anything romantic there, even if Megumi's answer to Aoi's question raised doubts after Aoi clarified that it doesn't matter if Megumi prefers boys or something. The desire to save each other from the beginning and the mutual understanding even if they have only known each other for a short time is wonderful. Sukuna even adds more flavor to this ship.

Anyway, discussions about whether a ship is canon or not are useless because the only canon ships can be counted on the fingers of one hand and they aren't even the popular ones. Also Gege said that he didn't think there was romance for any character except maybe Miwa with Mechamaru and we already know how it ended.

Nooooo wait 😭. Why did you feel bad tho?

I have to agree tho. One of the reasons I don't talk about jjk ships is BECAUSE of past experiences that were very unpleasant. I have also seen moots get bullied over talking about their ships.

It's almost like talking about ANY ship in jjk means you are opening yourself up for others to come shit on what you love. It doesn't matter who you ship either!

"You like yutamaki? Well I hate your guts because I'm team nobamaki!"

"How dare you?! yutarika is the only correct answer!"

"You like stsg? Well you're a delusional fujo!"

"If you like gjhm you are stupid, homophobic and support heteronormativity!"

So noisy...

But like... THIS:

"people are arguing about personal interpretations based on personal perspectives or personal preferences"

More under the cut...

I'm going to go ahead and quote Jung because, similar to what you said "we don't see the world as it is, we see it as we are" 💯.

Also, everything else you said here 👏.

After second angry anon's ask came through, I wondered whether I should take the anon option off, but the rest of your ask is GOLD, and I know that people (in general) can't say what you said without suffering the consequences of having made such a statement. So anon option stays 👍.

To that point, I never saw anything remotely romantic until I read a really good fan fiction about stsg. That's why I don't care to get involved in an "are they canon" conversation. It doesn't matter because, if I put on the pink-colored fujo glasses, I can see it and that's enough for me.

I am also not interested in going to a stsg fan and telling them their interpretation is delusional because obviously they see something I don't see without the pink-colored fujo glasses. I am not interested in negating their experience either.

The thing I didn't say in my answer to baity anon is that baity anon is not prepared to have a conversation about how "the show really... acknowledges that fans like various relationships so it feeds them these irrelevant crumbs" also includes stsg according to other people.

SO WHO OWNS THE TRUTH?!

If Gege himself said the only canon romantic pairing is mechamiwa, the question is, who owns the truth about any of the other pairings and the subtext involved?

And why does someone get to be the authority on what is and isn't authorial intent if Gege has not made an explicit comment about it--to the point that they insult others' intelligence and reading comprehension?

As you said...

"people are arguing about personal interpretations based on personal perspectives or personal preferences"

The problem is that people think that their interpretations are the ultimate truth, and that anyone who doesn't agree with them is wrong.

Thanks for stopping by and sharing your thoughts!

[esteemedproblem]

Vriska & Terezi

[Plain Text: Vriska & Terezi]

When I first got into homestuck at 15 I was filled with so much hatred towards Vriska and this ship. People genuinely saying Vriska was without flaw and this relationship was healthy goals just infuriated us for some reason. Like we love flawed characters and awful fictional relationships because they are interesting to read! However, just at least back then, I could never find people who actually portrayed them with their flaws. They always just sanded them off.

However, now adays, it's just mildy annoying, and I can enjoy this fuckery. Both of these characters are flawed, and their relationship actively harms both of them, and that's interesting! It's tragic, it's fun, it's awful and beautiful! These girls ruin their own lives, each other's lives, and the lives of those around them in a horrid dance.

Terezi is entirely codependent on Vriska, even after her friends are hurt and killed and she is blinded by Vriska she hesitates at stopping her from causing more harm. Terezi is alone in a forest without a real lusus and I'd bet money Vriska was her first friend and first person to show interest in her so the idea of losing her is devastating. Even after all the things she does in game playing a part in the end of everything because Vriska wanted to be the hero and still spending the rest of her life looking for her. She seems incapable of getting as close with others as she is with Vriska. Mild friendships with bullying and games but never talking deeper and getting into a different toxic relationship with Gamzee.

Vriska. Where do you start. She was raised by one of the worst lusus, if not the worst. (Feferi's sucks but seemed to not give a shit as long as she was fed) Vriska, I'm sure since she exited grub form, he was forced to kill other children to feed her lusus. Befriended someone who idolized her, some asshole fish, some cute boy she was convinced was going to die without her help. She both thinks she is the most important person in the world and the worst if she is not constantly proving how cool she is. Kids with good self-esteem don't create a villain to kill to become the hero. She knows all her friends hate her or are angry with her, and this was a chance to change that. Even then, when she did become better, it was in a gross relationship with Meenah and then abandoned when she wasn't fun anymore.

These two kids are so incredibly fucked from start til finish. They never really get better or have an end to their story. Vriska is never seen again and never gets her starlight and praise that she worked so hard to get, and Terezi keeps looking for her when she might not even be out there anymore unintentionally ignoring all of her friends that are back on earth. They don't get their happy ending.

I would love for them to, though. My favorite ship flavor is probably moirails for them. For them to have each others back and work towards happiness and healing together and getting their chaos out in constructive ways that doesn't get them or the people they care about hurt. Feelings jams where they don't feel the need to impress each other anymore. No more trying to seem perfect and cool just talking about how fucked up everything was and how they're hurt each other without the fear the other would call them a loser anymore. They have such potential for hurt/comfort and a moirail slowburn just imagine it with me for just a moment.

I want them to have fun and I don't want them to change completely I just want them to heal and learn how to be a version of themselves that they can be happy with and doesn't get them justly killed. Is that too much to ask for?

[llycaons]

ep27 (1/3) : it's not that jgs is a master manipulator, it's all these people are just so easy to manipulate

honestly these in-between episodes are not my favorite, but what can ya do <- written before I watched the episode and I completely did a 180. I LOVE eps where all they do is talk. get that juicy drama and characterization out there into the world. BUT FIRST

ICONIC ROMANTIC LINE FROM THE WORLD"S GOTHEST MAN

SINGLE TEAR OF REGRET AND LONGING

DRAMATICALLY STANDING IN THE RAIN FOR WHEN A REALLY RESERVED GUY JUST NEEDS TO BE INSANE FOR A BIT

this line makes me insaannee it gives him nightmares postres stil 'I'm friends with it' ITS HURTING YOU

oh shit lqr hasn't left CR in that long?

jc does try to stand up and apologize for, then defend wwx's actions.

and so does lxc! a tiny bit of respect for him once more

nie mingjue fans I hope you know your guy advocates openly for war crimes. not living him this rewatch. in fact I find his reputation for justice pretty galling at this point

i never cared about this before but that's sect leader ouyang. whose son will become one of wen yuan's best friends, who will defend him and care for him and fight by his side, who will advocate for wen ning and choose to stay with wwx instead of returning to his own father. this sect leader calls for the murders of wen yuan and his entire family, and 20 years later his son is one of that boy's best friends. might be getting emotional over ouyang zizhen for the first time...ever? it's the close read. I didn't dislike him, it's just the juniors are all best as symbols. only jin ling is much more than that

...really does make me wish the blood pool scene was in this show. fuck, what a moment. watch the donghua if only for that

oh, dastardly. he pretends to not care and play the forgiving patriarch and people naturally jump in to defend him and vilify wwx anyway. he pretends to care about jc as a sect leader but he really plants doubt and feeds off insecurities to push jc in the right direction. he was how jc grew up, he knows him. jc isn't that hard to manipulate, unfortunately. but this is vile

and now he's blatantly lying about things wwx said, and people are agreeing with him because they're eager to hop onto a scapegoat and they want to be one with the group, and jc is clearly believing it bc he doesn't trust wwx again and maybe never did, and lwj is the only one to go um? no?

yeah we know they're buds but this is one of the few times a stranger has recognized their closeness, and the fact that everyone knows about it. very different from the novel obviously, where tales of lwj hating and pursuing wwx were legendary and fed a lot into the miscommunication

uh oh. that means his actions are under suspicion too. not much lwj can say here without being undermined

ik I said earlier that wyb is too reserved sometimes? this isn't one of them. he's so angry here he looks about to cry, or throw up, or something. it's in the throat, and the mouth mostly. really good expression here

OH I SAW THIS TRANSLATION AGES AGO. LMAO

MIANMIAN YOU GO GIRL!!! xizun is so offended to have someone disagree with him. someone from his own sect! who should be parroting his words!

GIRL. ITS A LOST CAUSE BUT I LOVE YOU FOR TRYING

[lizajane2]

Avatar the Last Airbender Live Action Episode 1

Oh, damn the bending is awesome. Like I can see why people say that the earth bending still needs a little work but it's still good though. And I appreciate that when the fire hits you your clothes are singed.

Shit. We're burning people alive now. Okay. Wasn't expecting that.

The music though. Such nostalgia. Makes me tear up a bit.

They made Aang fly like Zaheer. You know what? I'm not angry about that, I always wondered why Aang never tried it.

Gordon embodies Aang. They are the same person, and you cannot change my mind.

"Monks don't trust me to feed the baby bison and they want me to save the world." "I'm scared of my power! I'm scared of being alone." He is just a boy and has no idea about the world.

Okay seriously the writers showing the battle between the Airbenders and Firebenders is pretty fucking cool. Especially seeing a bit of Sozin vs Gyatso.

"Finally." Maybe it's just me but the way Dallas said that was perfect. That was Zuko. All the way. That ponytail isn't easy to pull off and somehow it works.

"Sky bison. Sky bison. Sky. Bison."

"Repeating it doesn't help."

I admit that made me chuckle.

I have watched the animated series again and again and again. However, I still never get over the fact that a 12-year-old boy was thrown into a completely different world from the one he was used to, one that he has to immediately save from due to war when he wasn't ready to even face the fact that he's the Avatar.

"When the world needed the Avatar the most he vanished because he's a coward." That's not fair, Sokka. Don't be so harsh he's just a kid.

"Lord of uh Snow and Ice." lol. That's definitely Sokka.

God the bending is just perfect. Yes, the dialogue needs work and the acting is sub-par but I love the writing and the visuals. I enjoy the cheesy one-liners. I think every actor does great at portraying their character, especially Dallas. He's a perfect Zuko. It bothers me a little bit that they didn't have Aang waterbend in this episode while in the Avatar State.

I like that they changed that it was Gyatso who was able to calm him down rather than Katara like in the show. Nice little change there.

Okay, I really don't understand the hate here. And I'm seeing people all over Tiktok suddenly love the live-action movie more? God, that movie sucked, it always did. I definitely prefer the series over that ridiculous adaptation.