#and... 😮‍💨 really tired

[studentbyday]

50 days of routine (october 30, 2024 - december 19, 2024)

an attempt to physically and mentally survive the remainder of this semester. motivation has been dwindling and motivation drops even further when i feel like i've failed because i can't stick to a routine nor figure out how to be sustainably productive! 😓😖 so here we are with...a challenge? 😅🫠

there'll be a checkpoint for updated goals 32 days in (dec 1) 📍because after that, i start reviewing for finals full time…

updates ~daily with my forest 🌲 for the day or week so far and the everyday stuff i want to keep track of or celebrate! 🍾 because even on the days i feel like there's nothing to celebrate, i bet there is if i just...stop comparing myself to others and lower my expectations (progress > perfection) enough that i can truly appreciate life as it happens and just...live. 😖🥀🌹

here's what an ideal week would look like...roughly. i expect things to shift around a little if not a lot, especially as life unfolds and i get into the nitty-gritty of the schedule, but what's non-negotiable is daily movement, as consistent a sleep schedule as possible (bed by 9, up by 7)...and by nov. 3 (end of this week) or nov. 10 (end of next week), i'm hoping to also add the stuff in dark green, the purple, wind-down time after dinner, and hobbiting time as higher priorities too... my main goal for these 50 days is to figure out a sustainable routine that leaves me feeling fulfilled and satisfied with the direction my life is taking. 💃🏻🎶

by cbt i mean since therapy isn't really accessible for me rn i'm going to read about it and/or fill out a workbook 😅

[mushtoons]

just got a pretty rancid ask in our inbox and we aren't even gonna dignify it with a proper response but some of yall need to understand that fiction and reality arent the same and we really dont care about what people ship and dont ship or all that jazz like genuinely we aint got time for all that shit

sure we try and make sure our followers arent exposed to that sort of stuff and will attempt to delete anything associated with it out of respect for them if we accidentally reblog from someone who blogs about weird stuff, because people feel differently than we do about it but just because we arent telling people we dont agree with telling them to kill themselves doesn't make us bad people.

so unless its something actually harmful don't tell us how to run our blog and attack us because we dont agree with what u say. just chill its not that big a deal.

[rapidhighway]

the food noise

[angelfacemjj]

Mfs when

Mfs when I tell them that regulation does not equal censorship.

[greenarts]

lmao i'm so mad that if I ever give birth to twins I will separate them (?

[happybunnykat]

Should I go to the ceramics thing tonight or just go next week?

[countlessrealities]

Send 🖤 and my character will answer about yours || Accepting !

@advnterccs sent:🖤 { For the Ricks ofc fshdjkf }

Attractiveness

repulsive / hideous / ugly / not attractive / unappealing / not unattractive / meh / no preference / ok / mildly attractive / nice looking / cute / adorable / attractive / pleasant on the eyes / good looking / hot / sexy / beautiful / gorgeous / hot damn / would tap that / perfect / godlike / holy fuck there are no words

"I-I could go on a rant a-about how hot and gorgeous my boyfriend is, b-but I'll fuckin' sum it up by saying this. I-If you look at him an-and you don't see that he is t-the most handsome, sexiest, attractive, m-mouth-watering piece of ass you've ever seen in your life, t-then you need new eyes. N-Not glasses, t-they won't fuckin' do. G-Get a new pair of eyes. An-And a new brain with better tastes, w-while you're at it."

Personality

grating / irritating / frustrating / boring / confusing at best / awkward / unreasonable / psychotic / disturbing / interesting / engaging / affectionate / aggressive / ambitious / anxious / artistic / bad tempered / bossy / charismatic / appealing / unappealing / creative / courageous / dependable / unreliable / unpredictable / predictable / devious / dim / extroverted / introverted / egotistical / gregarious / fabulous / impulsive / intelligent / sympathetic / talkative / up beat / peaceful / calming / badass / flexible

"W-We...Our personalities are really fuckin' similar an-and I can't say that I-I am the easiest person to deal with. I-I'm the fuckin' opposite. An-And Rick...as much as I'd love to say tha-that he's perfect, he's not. H-He has a lot of shitty traits, almost as many as the good ones...b-but when they don't get between us? E-Even those are enticing on him. S-So...we make it work. An-And knowing each other inside out...i-it makes shit easier, o-on the long term."

Level of friendship

never in a million years / worst of enemies / enemies / rivals / indifferent / neutral / acquaintance / friendly toward each other / casual friends / friends / good friends / best friends / fuck buddies / bosom buddies / practically the same person / would die for them / true friends / my only friend

"R-Rick is my best friend. W-We understand each other in ways n-no one else ever will. W-We are closer than we could ever be w-with anyone. R-Romantically, b-but platonically too. I-I just...I-I trust him. With everything. M-Morty than anyone. E-Even more than myself. I-I trust him with shit I-I wouldn't trust me with. B-Because I know for certain tha-that he'll go to hell and back not to fail me."

First impression of them

i hate them so much / i don’t like them / i don’t trust them / they annoy me / they’re weird / I’m indifferent / meh / they seem alright / they’re growing on me / truce / I think I like them / I like them / I’m not sure if I trust them / I trust them / they’re cool / they’re genuine / I think we’re going to get along / I really like them / I think I’m in love / oh fuck they’re hot / I love them

"S-Saying that our forced encounter was messy i-is a fuckin' understatement. W-We were instantly distrustful of each other on principle b-because we were dealing with another Rick. T-Then we found out that we were the same Rick an-and we disliked each other even more. S-Self-loathing and all that shit. Y-Yet...we bonded a little, w-while figuring out how to leave the limbo. An-And the whole gun thing? S-Shit, that was hot. H-He was hot."

Current impression of them

i hate them so much / i don’t like them / i don’t trust them / they annoy me / they’re weird / I’m indifferent / meh / they seem alright / they’re growing on me / truce / I think I like them / I like them / I’m not sure if I trust them / I trust them / they’re cool / they’re genuine / I think we’re going to get along / I really like them / I think I’m in love / oh fuck they’re hot / I love them

"I-I've said it a thousand times, s-so I won't go on a rant about this either, b-but...Rick is everything. M-My universe starts and ends w-with him. W-When we are together, a-all matters is us. I-I could have just him in my life f-from not to the end of forever an-and it would be enough. I-I've doubted everything in my life, b-but now I can't even think about doubting him an-and all that he is to me."

[stillcominback]

🏝️🌞💗

[aturnoftheearth]

going to explode forever

[faceglitchsworld]

Good Night everyone. I need energy for tomorrow because the SKZ CB will be out and I'll listen to it asap.

Fyi I don't know almost nothing because I didn't catch up with any content except some videos here and there and that's it. Am I hyped? Yes.

Yes I am.

A lot

[wolfiewhiskeybutch]

.😮‍💨🐺

I hate people who think it's fun to race down the streets in the wee hours of the morning. Just about every time I'm just about to sleep someone revs their engine. It's 01:30.

[crewman-six]

I can't help thinking that Delayed Sleep Phase is only considered a disorder because capitalism doesn't accommodate alternative schedules. This despite the necessity of 2nd & 3rd shift jobs in fields like medicine and emergency response and any number of jobs involving processes that take longer than 8 hours to complete.

Like, I get that economy of scale means that some things all get done at the same time because it's more efficient. But surely there'd be benefits to recognizing that more than one schedule exists in society?

People shouldn't have to spend their entire lives struggling with insomnia, being called lazy and irresponsible, and suffering the ill effects of never getting enough sleep just because some smug assholes got together and decided that "the ass crack of dawn" is the only acceptable wake up time.

And I'd bet monies that the 10am-12pm folks are just the furthest edge of this Delayed Sleep Phase nonsense. Everyone out there who needs multiple alarms to get up in the morning? Every person who only ever gets up 10 minutes before they have to run out the door, sucking down a pot's worth of caffeine by the time they get where they're going? Tell me they wouldn't benefit from pushing their entire lives back a couple of hours. I dare you.

one of the most enlightening realizations ive had was finding out that non-24 hour circadian rhythm people were a pretty large group and most of us have oddly similar cycles of usually around 28hr internal "days" and this masquerades as "insomnia" but if allowed to sleep and wake naturally we will just advance forward through time an extra 2-4 hours a day at a relatively stable pace. we can't go to school or jobs or even run errands on normal schedules without massive pharmacological and behavioral intervention. most of the people who have been diagnosed or figured it out themselves will report horrific, life-ruining disruption in their professional lives and terrible health from accrued lack of sleep. this disorder is most common in vision-impaired people which seems to suggest it's related to light cues. anyway just thinking about this as extremely loud yard work woke me up at 8am for the second day in a row

[arashi-no-saxlphone]

This is what inspired the blocking post. I hate fighting this character I hate it. She's so cute I love her but why the FUCK DOES SHE GET TO HAVE HER DP WHERE THE HELL IS MINE??? WHERE ARE MY PLUS FRAMES AND MIXUP IT'S NOT FAAAAIR WAAAAH.

I finally bit the bullet and made an account to use clipchamp. I'm not happy about it but I can finally censor names so that's nice. I will be doing it shittily but hey it's censored so that's something. Please enjoy me desperately scamming my way to victory as per usual.

[nebucat]

the tug and pull of I don't want to force someone to open up / make them feel pressured to VS realizing that if they don't open up then I'm the only one making myself emotionally vulnerable anymore and our bond is losing that connection

[little-noctuary]

Here I go again, trying to gather up my will.

[ligninn]

why are companies doing more summer internships for students when i just graduated, and why were they only recruiting new graduates when i was looking for a summer internship last summer??? they really dont want me to work huh