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I realized that I've never addressed the elephant in Lucanis's room, also known as his romance plot, as a "Had been delusional about him for months before release" individual, so here's a surprisingly long rant/summary of how I felt about it in the process of playing the game.
As a Rook de Riva player, I obviously loved "Coffee with the Crows": we met Illario, joked about haha three Crows talking about nothing, talked business, Rook and Lucanis had a nice moment getting to know each other better outside of being teammates, Rook de Riva's background was acknowledged again, it really felt like a nice bonding moment, right?
Thennn a whole lot of nothing happens during any of the conversations between them, huh. Lucanis doesn't acknowledge flirting, which is fine, take your time bud, you'll get there; you keep pushing being supportive, he ignores you, you deal with his personal stuff for him one (1) time, and in my case he then proceeds to ignore Rook for 10+ hours of pure game time while busy talking to Neve at every opportunity until I finally get one (1) dialogue option to "express romantic interest in Lucanis".
And let me express my honest innermost feelings on the matter:
Not only did it feel like Lucanis genuinely couldn't care less about Rook even as a friend, it also felt like Rook was forcing Lucanis into something he simply wasn't interested in and that we were just getting in the way of his relationship with Neve. It was genuinely unpleasant to experience in a videogame that is supposed to be wish fulfillment and whatnot, and let me tell you, it was especially jarring because Dragon Age games also have a tendency of occasionally making you feel like the most special little protagonist known to Thedas, at the very least to your companions who you're supposedly building bonds with.
I loved hangout events in this game, too, I was so happy to just have these conversations about whatever with companions, have these little one-on-one moments with them that genuinely felt like walks with friends (especially with my bro my bestie my homie Davrin), and with Lucanis it started and ended with the coffee date. His fears and doubts about Rook later are never addressed, and lol lmao even, yeah, why would they be, when it feels like he barely acknowledges Rook exists outside of accompanying him to deal with his problems, none of which need Rook there? There's no reason outside of gameplay for him to ask Rook and not, say, his favorite Neve he talks about everything to? Somehow a lot of times when I hoped for any sort of dialogue with him, I was met with him talking about something very personal like his current feelings about Illario to Neve, like, isn't Rook supposed to know anything about anything, or are we just his convenient weird coworker he sometimes asks favours from?
We persevere though and keep supporting Lucanis, and can you take a wild guess what was waiting for me after like 40 hours of the game and after the infamous "kabedon assassin style" scene? Yeah bro, Lucanis just happened to talk to Neve. I wish I was making this shit up. My coping strategy was to come up with an entire jealousy subplot for my Rook because if I have to feel like I'm in the shittiest unrequited situationship of a triangular shape, I might as well do it on my own terms, right? It feels petty and stupid because as a player I like Neve, too, she's one of the coolest (no pun intended) characters, but as Rook, and Rook de Riva making an obvious choice especially? Yeah, let's just say this relationship fucking sucked for a while.
So after many trials and tribulations we're finally back with Inner Demons, and yeah, Neve is there again, I couldn't even give a shit at that point, and I'll be real here, the locking in didn't feel like we went through angsty slowburn or that we earned Lucanis' trust. Remember DA2's Fenris situation? Because I suddenly did, and surely one of many, many Neve banters I had to eavesdrop on could be sacrificed to have one or two banters that acknowledged Lucanis's anything towards Rook at all?
Also, Spite? Spite seemingly likes Rook more than Lucanis does. In between "It's so over" and "We're so back" in the Fade Ossuary it feels like somehow Rook gets more bonding time with Spite, which is kinda crazy to me.
We are so back though! As I mentioned, I was a "delusional before release" individual, I am perfectly capable of filling the gaps and extrapolating meaning from implications, and here's where one of the most infuriating things is: the rest of the romance is good, too! I can write whatever the hell I want between the beginning and the end of it, but like, why should I? How should I go about it, when in my game I was under the impression that Lucanis would rather just spend time with anyone other than Rook for seemingly no reason in particular, because there's simply nothing there? The fact that none of my pre-release ideas or comics even necessarily contradict anything about Lucanis or his romance as it is now is more telling than impressive honestly.
So where do I land with this exactly? Well, mostly in the glorious Fanon Land where I've been making my silly comics the whole time anyway. The highs are high, I love what they did at the end and how stable, protective and devoted Lucanis is, but the lows made me salty as shit and I wish I didn't have to feel that way to begin with. I wish I didn't have to connect the dots and joke about how badly Lucanis sucks at this and "Let's go girl give us nothing." And yes, I know about writer lay-offs, rewrites, restarts, etc etc, and it's a miracle that this game came out at all, but it hardly matters when you're just trying to do the good old datesim part of a Dragon Age game and end up feeling like a third wheel while trying very hard to get anything out of the character you're interested in.
#rookanis#lucanis x rook#lucanis dellamorte#lucanis romance#datv spoilers#datv critical#rant#long post#datv#dav#dragon age
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Actually, yeah, there is such thing as trespassing, and you sure do seem to complain a lot about me "misconstruing" your arguments when you came here to argue with me and then claimed about four times in this reblog that I said Mai was an abuser when I said nothing of the sort. I thought you wanted to agree to disagree. I think "nasty" is a word that fits you better, since that's how you started acting because I didn't agree with your opinions on a fictional character.
"Aside from her just existing as a fire nation character on the wrong side of the border"
Lol, THIS is the kind of stuff Azula stans say, actually. Mai helped Azula capture Zuko and infiltrate Ba Sing Se, and fought the gaang numerous times. The first time we meet her, she shows disdain for the city her father helped colonize. We are told that Mai and Azula bond over their "dark sense of humor," which is also what we see a lot of from Mai. She makes a joke about the Dai Li "peeing their pants." She makes a joke about ordering around servants. She's a villain. She's not the worst villain, but she is a villain. We are supposed to think she's a villain. It's not speculative. Otherwise, why did she need to learn to be better in the first place? I know the show is making an attempt at showing her growth, I just don't think they do a very good job of it, and I find your arguments of "but actually she did nothing wrong" alternating with "but actually she got better" to be inherently contradictory and not helping you here. The difference between the Azula stan arguments you are citing is that while we are supposed to feel sorry for Azula to a degree, we are also still supposed to recognize she is a villain. I think you know this, but you're using a strawman argument. Just like I think you know that we're supposed to not think Mai is not being particularly kind when she dismisses Zuko's worries about going home. Something she does in part because of her own trauma, but also because she helped put him there and that is not something she is willing to admit. Saying that she "doesn't have to be his therapist" is not only callous, but an inherently bad reading of the show. And no, the scene is not portrayed as it being "just a joke." Zuko looks upset when she says that. He accepts being kissed, but the tone of the scene is still meant to make us understand that Zuko is right and Mai is wrong.
I don't have time to go through every scene with you and explain where you're being willfully obtuse about this because you don't like that I don't think these two characters would be besties. But I do think it's interesting that you jumped real quick to the "but Zuko." I think you also know that the difference with Zuko is that he was actually shown unlearning most of the things that Mai kinda sorta unlearns on a personal level, actually understood why his country was wrong and worked to correct those wrongs. Mai ends the show with "actually, I kind of like you" but also feels entitled enough to tell the person she's with to never break up with her. That's not good enough for me. I get what the show was trying to do here, but I don't have to like it, sorry. That's not the same as me saying Mai is an abuser. Get out of here with that nonsense, or stop acting like you're better than Azula stans who blatantly make shit up.
I know what Zuko says about protecting Mai. That doesn't erase the context of him not trusting her. Why would he? Their relationship is not built on trust. That's not entirely Mai's fault, but there is a fault when we try to ignore the context which does include Mai being an agent of fascism, does include him being in a context where he is not safe on a personal level and is being abused. Ignoring that context is not great. And if you have to ignore it to make maiko work, well, then, that's why it doesn't.
Anyway, I don't actually think Katara should punch Mai (mostly), but like. Come on. The comics are bad but they didn't pull Mai supporting imperialism out of thin air, and "he wasn't a real threat" is a ridiculous thing to say in her defense. Zuko's characterization in the comics feels regressive because we actually do see him working to end the war. We don't see Mai care about anything except Zuko. And that's me being generous about it. It's not unreasonable to critique her character based on that alone.
You're also still making a false equivalence based on Sokka and Suki's relationship. What would be a real comparison is if Sokka and Suki broke up because Suki tried to kill him and then when they met again Sokka wasn't sure whether she was still his enemy. The difference is that Suki is never written as a villain and Mai is. Like, it's okay to admit this. And again, if you can't, then that's why her character arc and her relationship with Zuko don't work.
"I think Katara would get along with Azula/Mai because female solidarity!"
Cool. I think Katara would punch fascists in the throat.
#the discourse#'there's no trespassing'#okay but i will block you if you can't play nicely#antimaiko
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🔞Protective| Arthur hill
[You and Arthur have been dating for around 4 months now, although sweet, he has a very protective side when it comes to you, he'd do anything to protect you from anything no matter what, a night out with the boys proves this]
The night was just starting out, you all opted for a small live music place to kick off with, Arthur loves anything music related to appreciate any talent that may grace the stage. You head to the bar and George asks what you'd like, whenever you're out you decide to pay in rounds one at a time, making it fair. "I'll just have a vodka like and soda please" you say with a soft smile as he nods his head, asking everyone what they wanted. You spot a table in the corner of the room, near the singer which was free you decide to take it so you could enjoy the entertainment. Arthur stayed at the bar to help George carry the drinks as-well as Chris. You place your bag down as you slide into the chair, awaiting everyone to sit down. They make their way over as they set the drinks down "Thankyou George" you say as he hands you your drink "you're welcome" he responds, Arthur slides next to you, placing a hand around your waist as the singer begins. The hums of the speak vibrate through your body as you feel the music through your fingertips "he's really good isn't he" you say to Arthur "yeah, so good!" He responds with a smile, the first set of the singer finishes as you get up to go to the bar, it was your round. You ask everyone if they want the same and they nod; Chris comes over to help as Arthur goes to speak to the singer, having a similar career and all.
As you placed your drink order you catch a guy at the end of the bar staring at you, you try to ignore the eye contact he was forcing as you look down to the bar "you okay?" Chris asks "yeah, that guys just staring me down as if he's undressing me" you say back to him as he glances over to look at him "don't take no notice, he looks hammered and you're with us anyway" he says reassuring you. Just then the guy arises from his seat and walks over "this your fella?" He asks gesturing to Chris "no, he's my friend" you reply with no interest in continuing the conversation "oh, that's good then" he replies with a snicker "no it's no mate, her boyfriends over there so you may aswell save your breath" Chris says bluntly pointing to Arthur; "who him?" He laughs in response "I'd be better for you" he says with a dark tone, his hand stretching out, George notices the tension and comes over "everything okay over here?" He says, Arthur hears George's question and tell the singer he will be back and makes his way over. "What's going on?" He says snaking his hand on your waist "nothing mate, she was just gonna tell you we're off home" the bloke replies, George turns around "you what? You're having a laugh aren't you?" He says, Arthur's eyes flash with red "I don't think she is mate, so I'm not sure what kind of delusions you're trying to feed by saying that" Arthur spits, his lip curling. In the nick of time the waitress fetches your drink order as if a guardian angel was watching the altercation unravel.
"Thankyou darling" you say to the waitress, ignore the testosterone circling you like a hawk; "come on baby help me with these drinks" you tap Arthur on the shoulder, snapping him out of the anger he was feeling. As his brows unfurrow, turning to help. The guy just sits there and smirks "do what she says pal" he responds "will you shut the fuck up?" You say with a sharp tone, fed up of his arrogance. George makes Arthur walk away back to the table as you do so yourself. Chris looks at you with a concerned look "you okay?" He says "yeah I'm fine, he was just, weird" you reply "yeah well he's lucky" Arthur says with a clenched jaw as you place a hand on his, trying to diffuse the tension building up inside of him. Just before the act starts you go to the toilet quickly, on your way back you see the guy staring at you once again, his eyes sending a shiver down your spine. You walk back to the table as you lean over it "can we go?" You ask the boys, just before they respond you hear a whistle come from the other side of the bar, Arthur's eyes ignite and his jaw becomes tight again "yes we can, because he is really pushing it now" he stands up, as the boys follow suit, you walk in the middle of them all, Arthur at the front. "Going so soon pretty?" The man taunts towards you, Arthur stops in his tracks as he grips the man by the shirt "you're a disgusting man that has no respect, I suggest you apologise" Arthur spits, George goes over to get Arthur off the man "Arthur come on leave it, not infront of y/n" he says as Arthur looks towards you, your face drip white in nervousness as Arthur shoves the man into his seat "next time you won't be so lucky" he turns on his heels as Chris walks out with you. George calming arthur down outside, "sorry y/n I just hated that, he had no right to speak to you like that" he says with a sigh "it's okay Arthur, I know you were only looking out for me" you say going over to hug him. He smiles as you place a kiss on his lips "maybe we go back to the flat for a few drinks?" You advise the group and they nod, as you make your way to the flat.
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Howdy Eerna frequent reader, first time asker here.
I have weathered so many bad finales in my life and yet Arcane has me completely debauched. As a rule I dont comment on fandom things unless they bring me joy, but this season has me out here stopping myself from breaking into peoples posts with rants.
Most of my feelings have been better said already, however I haven't seen people talking about how the fights are actually ass in the last arc. Literally the shows bread and butter is soured by the lack of stakes.
The first arc had the Jinx/Sevika team up, the second at least the shock of Warwick's prison break in. The finale's battles are so lack luster i cant remember any of their beats. Well except for Jayce/Viktor photobombing the family reunion. I showed that to my partner without context and it only made me realize it isnt any better with it.
Things dont flow, they lack logical consistency. Cait get stabbed with Ambessa's lil fist knife and then does a whole fight fine. However that same knife I guess is infused with anti-Ambessa magic cause it kills her (I actually cannot remember if that's what happened, I was so bored and I refuse to check).
Even Ekkos last charge was interesting for a moment due to finally using the time powers but it didnt really feel like... anything. Like he gave Jayce mental time with Viktor but, like how would he know that was what would happen??? Jayce looked super duper out of it and if the mindmeld was the plan all along then why did our hammer man wait till the top of the tower and how Ekko even know that cause he was with Jinx and aajhhhh
I need to not think about this show any more help 😭
Hello hello welcome~ So sorry you got so wrecked by this finale :((( I feel you though, it is on my MIND and it needs to be PURGED OUT!!!
It is a different type of fights for sure, focused more on Big War rather than anything else... I liked them (except the Ambessa-Cait-Mel one, you're so right, what was that) but I can totally understand why someone wouldn't. I just really like final wars. But yeah the Ekko final blow didn't really make a lot of sense, I was just cheering because my boy was gonna be the hero (and then everyone ignored him WOW OK). I too prefer not to think about it. Let us all not think about it!!!
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i was tagged by @theoniprince and @schuerk thank again :)
I'm just gonna go ahead and tag all the mutuals (except the ones who already tagged me):
@sherlocksdriedplant @longliveustherecklessandthebrave @dunkelrotzuschwarz @dasloddl @keineahnung-ichhalt @krimiqueer @daency @bonsaibovine @lyxchen @sheepybee @pumpking64 @sokoleipzigfamily @anotherobsessedfangirl @letsbealone-together @its-imber @sprotteslaettberg @bookandpencil @queercowboyinspace @two-hearts-beat @honestlyunbearableprincess @strawberryspence @captainliam3 @superwho-ace @innocentbi-stander @shadow-of-a-cloud @cynyxx @thewindandthewolves @inkedrings @conchshell @crystalsgalaxy @nrecoveryn @ancient-namess
(sorry for spam tagging if you're not interested just ignore me)
#tag game#this is really nice thanks again for tagging me :)#and yeah just ignore me if you're not interested
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hello internet users. this is a fandom discourse vaguepost. whoopee!
i'm not a fan of this topic because it makes me anxious any time it's brought up
but i want to just get it out there that i don't really give a shit about fandom discourse. i have an extensive blacklist for my squicks and i do go out of my way to avoid interacting with people who post about them a lot. but i don't predicate my every interaction with a background check, and i don't actually care what people do behind my back. if i don't have to see that, it's no longer my problem. i try to keep my blog as clean as possible for me and my followers and i think that's all i need to do tbh.
i don't have an issue with people who think differently about this, but i don't want the expectation that everything i post is extensively background-checked. disclaimer: sometimes it is, sometimes it isn't.
there's enough shit going on IRL, that i want to make it clear that fandom discourse is not something i take as seriously as a lot of y'all. if there's something i do post that you want to be tagged, i'll do my best to make that work (as long as it isn't like... undertale itself. i can't do that haha) but i really don't want asks 'warning' me about people i follow or people i'm friendly with, unless they're committing harm to people. (i appreciate that you care, but it makes me super anxious.)
tl;dr i don't care who i'm friends with, because i can't only talk to people who agree with 100% of my opinions. even if sometimes i prefer it.
#blast babbles#i'm not gonna tag this i'll just hope the keywords in the post itself are enough to get this to whoever is interested#you can probably guess which squicks i'm talking about#but i dont feel that the details are super relevant#i'm down to discuss this more if for some reason anybody wants to; if you're chill i'm chill#otherwise ignore this whole thing i want to forget about it immediately after hitting post 👍#oh yeah btw somebody did ask me to tag undertale once. it was like the only ever time somebody requested that i tag something#and i had to politely decline 😔#edit#did i accidentally make this in an essay format. squints
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uncle jim rly said this guy who's been helping with all the bills, organising my shit and trying to help save my livelihood means less to me than a guy i shagged this one time ?? make it make sense mate
#I'M NOT HATING I'M JUST SPIRALLING#ok i may be hating a lil#purely on jim everybody else is fine i even like wen#buddy u have 2 episodes to get some serious character development#but rly u only have 3 people??? r e a l l y how interesting#ignore me i'm throwing myself at walls#i'm not here for gaipajim gaipa can do better#i just think jim being like yes my only family are a one night stand an employee and my nephew i only acknowledge to yell at#it's just. it's a choice is what it is#and it's not very sexy of u jimmy boy i'm sorry to break it to u#oh god this has turned into hating i'm sorry#i'm still posting it bc i think i'm funny#like yeah sometimes family is a one night stand a fiscally irresponsible employee and the nephew you're mad at#that's cool. but /dude/. brother. buddy. pal.#moonlight chicken#mlc jim#so it is decreed#jayisms#dunno what my personal tag is still oops
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I woke up to this and am really thinking about this
#this guy proudly proclaims being an ''extremely progressive bisexual interested in expanding democracy & ending poverty''#how progressive and effective in ending poverty by ranting about helping OTHER countries when natural disasters destroyed all the resources#what do I expect from someone that brings up democracy unironically though#when these people realize you gotta make change for your OWN place of living first if you wanna have this mindset I will know peace#sounds like my damn mother if she wasn't racist you gotta choose something to put work into and stop fretting over the whole world#yeah it fucking sucks and needs to be addressed but what are you gonna do by bitching on a fascist social media site?#you're not ending world hunger by ignoring the very people you spout performative nonsense in the name of#you may be a POC too sir but in the end you are also American you're not immune to what the Residue(tm) did to POC here#sue me for saying I don't really keep up with most politics because I can't vote or anything but fuck even I know this shit#care about politics and changing lives? do something to make that happen because bitching ion the internet isn't changing anything#I'm not even fucking mad I'm just in AWE because I've NEVER encountered one of these people responding to ME before#I'm speechless yet have so much to say because I got this reminder that this really isn't deemed common sense like it is to me#this is my most popular tweet too and it's a damn political reply I'm kinda pissed at that though dhyuigbfuyh#EDIT I JUST REALIZED THAT HE'S NOT EVEN GOT ANY AUTHORITY TO SPEAK ON THIS SHIT BECAUSE HE'S 4TH GEN ARLINGTONIAN#say to my Native ass that the fascist regime should collapse by destroying the whole country to help the reservations boy#you're throwing yourself into the gringo corner of your own volition this is too funny
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#kind anon#yeah i feel you#i know i've been lying to myself and almost forcing myself to have a good time here#when it comes to the louis fandom#i ignore 90% of louis content on my dash bc it doesn't resonate with me#i still feel like i'm a fan of who louis “is” but i am just not into the hard lad act he's putting on#and i also know he's been putting it on for years now so. im a lil jaded ig#im not attracted to him physically i am not interested in being a fan in that way#and my dash really is /like that/ which obvs is great if that's what you're into but it's alienating to me#which has been growing the last few years#i think it's time for me to let go#and treat louis and walls and fitf as nostalgic things i liked instead of an active fandom#bc that's the reality#who knows how i'll feel if he releases something new but idk#maybe this is also bc i'm depressed as fuck and i don't care about anything anymore but hey#we'll see in the long run#i haven't felt a ton of warmth for whatever louis is doing or the fandom around him for a long long time#ive been a ghost on tumblr i feel. just trying to discover new things
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what if instead of messaging me in the middle of the night about your stupid fucking girlfriend and your stupid fucking problems with her you actually act like my fucking friend and message me like how you message everyone else in our group
#bye ignore my venting bigger problems what fucking ever#im sick of her ass she only messages us for us to help her with her fucking girlfriend problems like we arent even friends atthis fckn point#and i love her shes so funny whatever but god shes literally the worst because i just want to be friends i dont fucking care ab her goddamn#selfish ass gf thats shes obsessed with. be obsessed tell me about it but cant we be friends ab other stuff too#we used to be her 'favorite friend' cause we shared so many interests and we hung around what fucking ever but fuck that right#get a gf and just use us to help better yalls relationship without even telling her you're sharing her private msgs w us huh yeah sure#what fucking ever im so done with this bitch and i cant even get my contacts out cause i have long nails and im js poking my eye#AND SHE WOULD NEVER BE SORRY if our friendship fell apart she would tell everyone i was jealous of her gf or what ever i literally dont care#she was like an older sister before i dont get why getting a gf would have to change shit like ok good for u but what ab us#what about me its not even fucking fair like is it that hard to keep up w ur friends?? NO its fucking not#taking me so long to write a post bc im still fucking helping her with her stupid dumb selfish idiotic gf omfg#just BREAK UP i literally dont fucking care just leave her if she makes u unhappy its literally online tf is she gonna do to u nothing omfg#why am i the one being punished when shes the one with the stupid dumb gf that hates her and herself i dont fucking care i js want m friend#and i cant tell any of our mutual friends cause she dont do that to them its js me so itd be like im being dramatic#and like shit i guess i am but i dont care atp thats all she ever talks to me ab like ok i get it i helped u but stop jfc#but if i said that we'd never talk again bc what fucking ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! cause im just dramatic whatever#if u cant resolve these simple problems of communication on ur own then maybe u shouldnt be in a relationship idk js my thoughts! die#sry the 1 person who knows what xactly i mean is asleep and im so tired of getting late night msgs being like hii can u help me SHUT UP#id love to help if we were actually still fucking friends but we arent so js leave me alone bruh#post#nickpost#will delete in morning my mom keeps telling me to put my phone down bt i need 2 say smfh 2 some1#i hate change i hate slight differences in my normal day to day i hate everything i hate not having smth to rely on i hate change i hate it#sry im alg now im js sick of her ass js leave bruh#nimbhe my moms yelling im tired anyway i need to js isolate myself forever no problems if im on an island alone#living my best life in the shade drinking idk water or whatever and just talking to myself bc who even needs friends right!!!!!!!!#its 11:11 make a wjsh#adding more cz whatever im deleting this ltr anyway#its so clear where i stand with everyone cause its always close but not close enough friendly but not friends and i guess its the same w her#bye im out of tags etc whatever nobody matching my freak ever never comfortable in any friendships
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Not to be a #hater but they rly did make the wrong Superboy bi (it should've been Konnnnnn)
HELLO ???????????????
#Yeah yeah Jon's a Superman now b/c Bendis whatever#And like I'm pretty neutral on timkon as a ship but you cannot tell me he's the straight one with that leather jacket outfit#(ignoring the t shirt/jeans outfit in which he looks like the straightest guy ever)#As long as he doesn't get the immediate boring boyfriend pair off like Jon did it would've been way more interesting for his character imo#But they fumbled the bag w/ Tim doing the exact same thing anyway so who knows#I wonder if they were afraid of potentially making timkon even possible in canon#b/c most of the time when the canonize a character being queer they never explore that w/ characters they actually have chemistry with nooo#just put them w/ some boring minor or new character who CARES ABOUT DOING SOMETHING INTERESTING#WHEN WE CAN JUST GET POSITIVE PRESS FROM NORMIES#BUT AGAIN IDEC ABOUT TIMKON I JUST WANT SOMETHING INTERESTING#CONTRAST IT W/ HIS MASCULINITY & SYMBOL & HISTORY OF GIRLFRIENDS#MAYBE HE'S BAD AT TRYING TO DATE DUDES#Urrrrrrrgh#REMEMBER HOW HE GOT TAKEN ADVANTAGE OF BY ADULT WOMEN AS A TEEN TWICE? DOES THAT MEAN ANYTHING TO ANYONE#FOR HIS DATING LIFE? HIS SEXUALITY#HELLO#DC#DO YOU REMEMBER#This has gone completely off the rails#WAIT DC YOU COULD DO SOMETHING RLY FUNNY SINCE YOU'RE MAKING M'GANN--A SHAPESHIFTER-- HIS GIRLFRIEND#JUST SAYING#Kon-El#Conner Kent#ALSO WOWWW HOW DID THEY MAKE THAT RED HAIR STREAK LOOK SO BAD#WAITX2 THE ACTION COMICS WRITER ACTUALLY WANTS TO DO SOMETHING QUEER W/ HIM IF DC LETS HER ??? HMMMMM#(I hope it involves the shapeshifting lmao)#Actually I think she wants to trans his gender
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I really do deserve a fucking apology for all the times my friends and family valued strangers on the internet and their opinions more than me
How am I supposed to be just fine with being ignored for years and years or bullied for openly liking what I like, only for those same fucking people to then turn around YEARS LATER, AFTER THE DAMAGE WAS ALREADY DONE, and be like "actually this is cool, so glad I found it" while still ignoring me. Why am I not allowed to be fucking pissed about it? Why is it considered ""gatekeepy"" when I get upset someone who deliberately ignored me for years and insulted the shit I enjoy when I asked them to get into it cuz I thought they'd like it suddenly finds interest in it because it got popular online, not because I'd been begging them to give it a chance and to listen to me for years???? Why is that not allowed????? THAT'S SUCH AN ASSHOLE MOVE, WHY IS IT 'NOT OKAY' TO BE MAD? WHY DON'T THEY GROW A SPINE AND APOLOGIZE FOR DISMISSING ME FIRST? HOW ABOUT THAT?????
#I fucking hate this it keeps fucking happening#I have a fucking LIST of all the times it's happened this is not a one time thing it's fucking reoccurring#Nothing I say will ever fucking matter to anyone not even the people who are 'supposed' to care about me#Grumble grumble#Literally showed my dad a song and he was like 'well I preferred the one that came on autoplay after'#And I was like 'oh that song? Oh you mean THAT song? OH YOU MEAN THE SONG I SHOWED YOU MONTHS AGO THAT YOU DISMISSED AND CRITICIZED?'#THAT ONE? YEAH? YEAH???#Gee I wonder why you like it NOW and not when *I* showed it to you!#UGHHHHH#Begged my friend to get into OP and he would go 'no it's too long and the art style is kinda ugly'#GUESS WHO'S NOW ASKING ME TO GUIDE HIM THRU THE ANIME CUZ OP WAS TRENDING ON TWITTER OVER THE SUMMER#UGHHHHHHHHH#Begged friends to watch Trig/un for years it was always the first anime I'd recommend anyone when they asked and was always ignored#Guess what everyone did once stampede started *trending on Tumblr*?#They certainly didn't care when I asked or when I was hyping up the trailer for stampede or literally any point before then#Nobody would ever reply to me when I talked about it#But now that it's trending on Tumblr NOW they're interested. GJSGDHDJDJDK#Happened with Pe/rso/na and Ro/tm/nt too.#Begged my middle and high school friends to get into the per/sona series. Nooo never it's sooo lame#Get made fun of for being hyped for 5's release in Calc class#Man you'd never believe who I see on Twitter as the biggest fans nowadays!!#Same with ro/tm/nt begged my friends to watch it but was dismissed and the episode I showed them heavily criticized bc it wasn't 2012#Then learn the same friend who criticized it so heavily bc he *hated it* WAS WATCHING VIDEO ESSAYS EXPLAINING WHY THE FINALE WAS SO GOOD#And there's NEVER any acknowledgement like 'hey sorry I made fun of/hated on this thing I see why you like it now'#Am I actually mental?! Would that not be the polite thing to do???#I would do that if a friend begged me to watch something and I openly dismissed them or criticized it as my reason why#And then later on I saw something online and was like 'actually...'#I would GO TO THAT FRIEND AND BE LIKE 'hey sorry I dismissed you earlier man I get why you like it now' AND THEN WE COULD TALK ABOUT IT#This isn't even about like distant acquaintences some of these people are my best friends and my roommates and my own fucking parents#People I talk to daily or near-daily. You're just not going to acknowledge what happened before??? Just expecting me to be fine with it????
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oh to pour your heart out while messaging someone, only for them to ignore that specific part making you wonder if they even read it, didn't care, or are actively choosing to ignore and not respond
#awn thanks man#iwhy do I always do this#I should've learned already#I love being a clown#only not#DID YOU FUCKING READ IT AND IGNORED IT#OR DID YOU NOT SEE IT AMONGST THE OTHER MESSAGES YOU WERE RESPONDING#the first one is clearly worse#but at least it would mean something#something bad but something#now the second one is a lack of interest in the minimum I say that is ridiculous#and maybe it hurts just the same#and not being able to complain abt it to anyone#because yeah it's my fault in the end#should've seen it coming#obviously#I hate this#I hate what you do to me#and maybe you're right#you did convince me you were a nice person#because moments like this show me you're not
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//As is usually the case around this time of the year, I’m terribly busy with studies and it’s been hard for me to do things on the blog in the little spare time I have, I can’t focus very well.
It will pass soon, and hopefully after that I can resume the work of giving this blog a little more life. The itch to write is still there and I can’t wait to be free to scratch it.
#ooc#been taking measures to not feel so overwhelmed by stuff and manage my time better to avoid this situation#but that takes time to take effect and I started mid-semester so here we are- nevertheless things are advancing#I just need to be patient#I also want to have another look at all the different dynamics that have been discussed#been rather quiet with most people save for a few who have gone out of their way to approach me for plotting or simply talking#these things are a two-way street and I aim to improve things on my side#that being said this will also come with cutting some ties where I feel there's just too little chance of any interactions to be done#of course it's one thing if we're both somewhat inactive but there's been a few patterns of my interest not being reciprocated/being ignored#and it's something that's been wearing me down over the years and I don't want that to affect my relationships with those who do care#that being said: communication is key as always and I have plenty to improve on that front myself#so I'll try to check in with some folks and see if we wanna keep things up#and also want to point out that there are some cases where we may not interact much but I still like being mutuals#there's multiple ways to engage with a blog#but yeah all of this likely won't come until late June so. There's ample time to talk or approach both before and during#hope you're having a good time. Take care!
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Wow haha
Life really is so much better when you block stuff you don't like and don't need to worry about
Coming across fandom interpretations and au's that give me the ick and with a simple press of a button i don't have to see it
No worries
It's great
You're allowed your opinion, it can be as wrong and terrible or just off cuff as you want, I'm just gonna block it because I don't like it
I don't even gotta say shit to them either and they won't ever really know
I go back to having fun and forget about it
YAHOO
#fiden rants#gender stereotype reinforcement??? in MY twst feed??? it's more likely than you think 🫠🙃#anyways i high key don't give a fuck I'm just yapping and it's just new blog problems so new algorithm that shows stuff i normally don't see#ah well#like damn can't i have a canonically gender nonconforming man in peace???#let me live#no big deal it's just that any fandom that is idiotic with genderfuckery in canon makes me a mad because I'm already slapped in the face by#actual IRL transphobia and bigotry and it sucks when you see some type of non-cis rep in media and people don't know how to act#like way to go fuckers!! y'all did it!!!#y'all made him boring as shit AND fucked up what made him interesting AND nerfed representation AND ignored his characterization and motives#way to go dipshits#sometimes it's not even that big of a deal.#sometimes it's just someone “genderbending” them. but they end up doing it to the nonbinary or the non conforming#and it's like ?????? they... they weren't even the gender?????#and it's never in a actual interesting and analytical way that actual takes into account gender versus perception and body#genderbend is just switching up gender but gender itself is irrelevant to the body#so it would affect how the fucker would dress and look in a gender bend of the char also takes into account their body when dressing#ex: someone buff who feels self-conscious about it so dresses to look smaller would genderbend into someone small who dresses to look bigger#but yeah that doesn't happen#and it just reeks of stereotype half the time#but also i know that this is just someone's fan stuff. and that's okay. i don't have to like it and they don't have to cater to anyone.#i just block it and move on#it just sucks cause it FEELS like it happens the most to the gender non conforming ones and the non cis ones...#like way to go... you inserted straightness and conforming stereotypes into my canonically queer non cis characters...#like there's a shit ton of straight cis characters. go play with them. go with them and do that.#i don't see why you gotta do it to the few canonically queer rep characters...#i know folks do different au's for the canonically straight ones but I'm used to that because there used to be nothing.#like legit there was nothing and there couldn't be anything like that due to rules and stuff.... so folks made do because they wanted rep#idk it just hits harder when you're trying to escape and you already get blasted with offline real life bigotry and queerphobia#yeah ...
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"We should hang out this summer" on god bro? so you'll respond to my messages right? yes, you agree?
#bro how we gonna spend time together if you won't even open the gc#“you never wanna go anywhere” yeah cause you ignore me for 7 weeks and then slide in like let's go out RIGHT NOW#“We should hang out” but actually you mean *I* should be on standby for you and *you* should just vibe as you wish#fuck off man#Effort both ways or not at all#i have no problem returning the energy actually#ghosting and getting interested *only* when they realize you're not responding to them after a while#“why are you ignoring me” Oh hello to you too#Took you only 8 days actually
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