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mde1011 · 3 years ago

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when i got into the dsmp i started a note and wrote down any quotes or moments i thought were funny, and im bored at 3 am so enjoy some of them

how is being arrested real? just walk away!!!”

⁃ “once an american always an american. go...go protests masks...or something”

⁃ “...yEAH BUT DID YOU HAVE WAP” “what’s...whats wap?” “...WORSHIP AND PRAYER”

⁃ “HOW DO YOU LIKE POLITICS MOTHERFUCKER”

⁃ “i’m naked” “...no you’re not” “i can be...”

⁃ “uhhhh i’m in a high stress situation....i deal with these poorly”

⁃ “i should go first i’m naked”

⁃ “yEAHHHH WE KILLED AN OLD MAN WITH HEART PROBLEMS”

⁃ “what are you going to do?” “i...have no idea i think i’m gonna start out by punching a tree”

⁃ “tOmmy...did i just hear you say shit ass looking mofo?”

⁃ “i aM gOinG to gEt nAkeD to iNtiMidAtE HiM”

- “...i want freedom !” “you want BALLS.”

⁃ “...down the line. yeah that’s where we discover the art of cannibalism” “oh it’s an art?” “it’s an art”

⁃ “oh there’s some logs here. wonder what they’re saying to me. uh huh. uh huh. oh yeah that’s very racist” “tommy you gotta burn those logs.” “burn ‘em before they spread their racism to other logs”

⁃ “are you pooing?” “*whisper* i’m charging up-““ “he’s ejaculating on the tent.” “he’s WHAT?”

⁃ “he’s sPEEDING. LOOK HOW FAST HES GOING” “i’ve taken so many drugs. someone tell badboyhalo”

⁃ “we should make a pact. and that pact is, uh, we make a book...and in that book...we declare that saying ��muffin’ is a, is a slur”

⁃ “i was thinking what if one day your bladder just,,,,stopped working.....AGGGFFFFF i was tHINKING ABOUT THAT THE OTHER DAY IVE GOT TO PREPARE IVE GOT YO PREPARE thisiswhydiapersaintthatbad”

⁃ <sapnap> i think i was ordered to um

<tommyinnit> boobed

<sapnap> kill you

<tommyinnit> boobs

<sapnap> if this happens

<tommyinnit> think about boobs man

<sapnap> tsk tsk tommy

<tommyinnit> iM DISGRUNTLED

⁃ “why is this deadman so good at making drugs”

⁃ “i just learnt that a girl hero is called a heroine and it freaked me out”

⁃ “memento memento me-“ “that’s actually the worst word i know so you can’t keep saying that” “oh, really.....? have you ever heard the term ‘racist’?”

⁃ “the person who invented the phrase ‘be yourself’ hadn’t met you!”

⁃ “you seem like the type of guy whose dad would throw him overboard as a joke but he would just drown”

⁃ “shout out to dream for twerking!”

⁃ “let’s talk......let’s talk about sex” “wonderful. what do you think about sex, lazarbeam?” “i ain’t saying SHIT in front of a sixteen year old”

⁃ “what the- i think i’m seeing things” “....tommy i told you not to drink the sea water” “well i DID drink the sea water because it TOLD ME TO”

⁃ “it’s like the movie when that guy gets stranded on an island and has sex with a coconut” “whAT?? dream- dream, you vastly misinterpreted this” “it one hundred percent does”

⁃ “oh mastICATE.....isn’t that when a fish turns inside out?”

⁃ “what are some bad words YOU know, clay?” “i don’t-“ “what about ‘terrorist’?”

⁃ “my mind has to be on the same frequency as jesus when he walked on water”

⁃ “you wanna know why i was late?” “no i really do-“ “i was having a MASSIVE poo. really just a HUGE poo”

⁃ “jUST CUZ YOU TALK ABOUT POO ONCE AND THEN YOU SEE A BIG GREEN BASTARD AMD YOUR LIFE IS FLASHING BEFORE YOUR EYES AND THEN YOU CANT REMEMBER- YOU CANT REMEMBER IF IT WAS YESTERDAY OR TOMORROW YOU HURT THAT WOMAN”

⁃ “i love america. mmmmm patriotism

⁃ “LIFE IS NOT A HAPPY SONG KERMIT THE FROG”

⁃ “please stop taking the cock”

⁃ “two four six eight who do we appreciate? not the government let’s gooooooo”

⁃ “oooo look at the dogs😍” “wHAAAAAT. WHAT. THERES ACTUALLY LIKE. A MILLION DOGS HERE. WHAT THE HELL.”

⁃ “yeahhhhh bitch i stab- i don’t stab women-“ “woooooooah tommy you stab women?” “heyyyy sapnap”

⁃ “do you know what happens whne you reach the top of the ladder? there’s only one place to go.” “.....side to side😨” “down.” “...i really thought you were gonna say side to side🥺”

⁃ “one last time.” “just like in hamilton😓”

⁃ “you don’t know how many times i’ve mistaken trees for hot women”

⁃ “ i don’t feel better i just destroyed penis”

⁃ “i’ve never seen a snail with bad morals”

⁃ “awwwwwwww😢 i’m doin’ drugs🤧 just like the good ol’ days😓” “.....define the ‘good old days’” “back when i did drugs”

⁃ “have you ever fought a baby? i have and it was trivially easy to defeat, phil.”

⁃ “the only other i egg i know about was the one i learnt about in school....not allowed to say which one....”

⁃ “did you know one of my new years resolutions is to be more like 2010 justin bieber?”

⁃ “apparently cats don’t lay eggs”

⁃ “thinking about trees- if i saw a tree with a beard mmmmmm...holy shit id hit it”

⁃ “we’re in hell dude. science doesn’t matter here”

⁃ “i cant die i cant die i’m GOD”

⁃ “hey pig your letter is the same as pussy, hmm?”

⁃ “are we cool are we COOL guys? CRYSTAL COOL like CRYSTAL METH”

⁃ “he- he’s crying because - because i killed his mother isn’t that right? mother dearest mother deadest mother gonest”

⁃ “bro ive been drinking since i was six and let me tell you...it’s not good to be drinking that young. led to some poor life decisions when i was 8” “what did you do” “i cant say” “...who did you hurt” “....only myself”

⁃ “je suis” “ay i know what that mean you prick” “what does it mean” “it means you’re racist dickhead”

⁃ “i’d never poo in the presence of a women- which is why i’m scared to get a girlfriend i think i’d just explode”

⁃ “biff tannen is one of my idols”

⁃ “black widow died and i thought ‘wow it should’ve been the man’ because he’s a man”

⁃ “there’s a character called captain america and i think he’s stupid”

⁃ “i’m a GOOD LAD i’ve got GOOD MORALS and if i’ve DONE SOMETHING WRONG it WASNT MY FAULT I JUST GOT A LITTLE EXCITED”

⁃ “sam....what’s the longest you’ve ever wiped your arse? for me it’s 48 minutes”

⁃ “why are you standing in the shitter?” “....that’s a SINK” “uhhh welllll” “hAVE YOU SHAT IN THE SINK?????”

⁃ “you’re like a living ghost” “...i think that’s called a human, tubbo”

⁃ “maybe i accidentally kill ranboo and we just never see him again *laughs* ay? and then i go ‘april foooools!!!’ and then i kill their child. i kill him”

⁃ “you built a penis” “it’s a PENIS OF SAFETY”

⁃ “i saw the penis of safety and i pressed mouse button four my friend”

⁃ “the penis on the other side of the river is larger” “ive heard that before....”

⁃ “you’ve turned the penis into a wall” “a wall of safety is better than a penis of safety” “i think the penis was better”

⁃ “if you wanna make a penis i know where we can make a penis and i know how big we can make it”

⁃ “i don’t conceptualize death but i think i just saw it!”

⁃ “yeah i- yeah i know i’m- my first impression on eret was making him read a shrek fan fiction so- i’m not one for first impressions”

⁃ “i-i’m scared for him- i’m scared OF him. yknow the first thing he did when he saw me was imMEDIATELY strip down then jump off then immediately die?”

⁃ “where are you?” “getting stabbed, one second”

⁃ “you’ve seen the joker?” “yea-“ “i resonate a lot with that man” “...oH. oh. that’s- that’s not-“

⁃ “he bURNT DOWN MY HOUSE” “out of LOVE”

⁃ “ohhhh my god stop making me play with the neighbor kid” “o-okay if you don’t go play with him i’m kicking you out of the house-“ “wHAT THE FUCK???”

⁃ “there’s a STRIP CLUB” “oh yeah for wood!” “are you into strippers?” “i mean all it does is make the wood look different so....yeah it doesn’t really do much”

⁃ “no no we have categories, we have the poo-saster- you might have to take a shower after-“ “no, no i’m gonna stop you right there”

⁃ “as i was saying you can have a 1-to-3 wiper, that’s an A-tier poo, my friend”

⁃ “i want you to eat your sock”

⁃ “you know i’m a child- i’m a minor” “sO AM I DICKHEAD”

⁃ “everyone is calling you dresus” “yeah i am”

⁃ “ayyyy ayyyy los DROGAS LOS DROGAS” “no no big q- she’s thirteen- how does this happen with every 13 year old girl you meet?”

⁃ “my poo has muscles like i do”

⁃ “i cant hear the words among us without crying they’ll say there are aliens among us and in the back youll just hear me *choking noises*”

⁃ “tubbo...tubbo is like...tubbo is like mary” “.....did you just call me the Virgin Mary?”

⁃ “i’m just saying, have you ever seen me and jesus in the same room?”

⁃ “do you smoke sam” “all the time”

⁃ “i thought you were talking about the- the speeeeed drug”

⁃ “have you ever sold drugs to kids sam?” “......no”

⁃ “we can’t let the girlboss rule because she will gatekeepe my feelings” “that would not be good”

⁃ “THEY DIDNT INVITE ME TO KILL ME???? NOW I HAVE FOMO”

⁃ “you have obviously taken part in scientology-“ “i have not-“ “you’ve donated to tom cruises cult shit”

⁃ “....am i worse than david dobrik?” “are- are we worse than david dobrik?” “oh- oh god”

⁃ “he has broke one of the rules of the hit best seller ‘the bible’- this kind of looks like a cock”

⁃ “well i’ve moved now, KING”

⁃ “what is an angsty teen and am i one? because when i USED to hang out with my friends they use the word angst a lot”

⁃ “yeah yeah yeah i bench”

⁃ “sam i think i’m angsty i think i’m an angsty tik tok teen looking for a community to help me out”

⁃ “i don’t think you’ve followed the train of logic all the way-“ “there’s a TRAIN INVOLVED????????”

⁃ “i’m like the orange fucker from that animated rom com”

⁃ “i’m under the influence of big cock”

⁃ “it’s meeee big cock man”

⁃ “i cant look away” “sam please use your twitter alt for this” “he’s horny on maaaainnnnn” “and what’s wrong with that?” “.......”

⁃ “you’re a FUCKING IDIOT” “IM NOT A FUCKING IDIOT, BIG COCK”

⁃ “i’m gonna call you ‘cockity’ big cock” “sHUT THE FUCK UP SHUT THE FUCK UP-“

⁃ “STOP LOOKING AT IT” “ITS SO VIBRANT”

⁃ “at least this guy doesn’t have a cock-“ “itS NOT A COCK” “horny on main jesus-“

⁃ “is that a cock” “SHUT THE FUCK UP”

⁃ “.....i wanna see the inside of it again do a split”

⁃ “okay sam-“ “tommy that guy wants your cock-“ “no- no he doesn’t sam”

⁃ “sam, sam and i need you to hear this....dont. act. up.” “i don’t act up-“ “you were acting up-“ “i-“ “you were caught in 8k.” “but- but we both agree it’s not a tie-“

⁃ “please don’t tell me to kill cockity i am overwhelmed”

⁃ “why is there an anus in my tie?”

⁃ “what are the legal implications of this?” “...i mean besides hell you’re good”

⁃ “whatre the legal implications?” “i mean usually that’s a no-no but today, today it’s fine” “yeahhh lets go murder his family”

⁃ “i’d be an antivax landlord”

⁃ “jesus never does drugs” “well- well you turned water into wine king and wine is alcohol”

⁃ “can you put on pants i can’t- i cant stop looking at it- sorry tommy i know you said-“ “yeah sam i know you tried-“

⁃ “you know i fuck with satan”

⁃ “i’m sorry jesus lucifer is just such a good man-“ “oh you- hold me BACK FROM THIS FUCKER HOLD ME BACK ILL SEND HIM TO HELL YOU LIKE HELL-“

⁃ “are you jesus or just a man who grew a beard and put on a suit?”

⁃ “even the guy with his cock out is telling you to stop-“ “oh jesus, and i mean jesus-“ “shUT THE FUCK UP MAN”

⁃ “the best best way to slander him is to stop his offspring; we need to kick him the balls.....no? not a good....? alright us four each take a ball-“

⁃ “......why did jesus give him four scrotums man🙁🙁”

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pretend-writer · 4 years ago

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Until The End Of Time (Diego Hargreeves x reader)

Summary: After being separated from Five’s time traveling from 2019, Y/N reunites with Diego for the first time in two years. Noticing that Diego brought a friend with him, she started to become jealous.

Pairing: Diego Hargreeves x reader

Title Reference: Until The End of Time x Justin Timberlake

Word Count: 1.8k words

Warning: swearing

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Diego’s pov;

Maybe it was because I haven't seen Y/N in a long time, she seemed different. Sure her hair got longer, her smile was pretty as it had always been and her 60s styled outfit looked really good on her. But it was more than the change of her appearance.

It was as if she didn't notice me at all.

Ever since the family split up after Five time traveled from the apocalypse in 2019, I did everything I could to find Y/N. All the stores and the alleyways I've been at, she was never there. Eventually, some lunatic called the cops on me for disturbance and they decided to stick me here in the institution.

I couldn't lie about the fact that my emotions got to me to make stupid decisions. I've gotten angry at a man I tried to ask questions regarding Y/N. His rude response got the best of me and I punched him, called him fouls names.

If he hadn't said and I quote "No, I don't care about your bitch", he wouldn't have gone home with a broken nose and a black eye. It wouldn't have landed me at this institution either.

Couple months later, Five found me at the institution, told me he hasn't found anyone else in the family yet. The first thought I had in mind was Y/N and the possibility of her still being alone in the streets of Dallas.

Being a great brother that Five was, he left me in there. After I knew that the rest of the family had maybe landed here in Dallas as well, I had to try more to find Y/N. I needed to see her again.

With the help of my new friend Lila, we barely escaped from the institution. We've almost got busted by the security guards and the police officers that were looking for us but we managed to get their eyes off of us for a bit.

Who would've thought after busting my ass to find Y/N, she'd welcome me back with cold shoulder.

I'd thought the reunion with Y/N would be romantic in a sense, or at least heartwarming. She avoided eye contact with me, barely touching me as we hugged each other. I couldn't question her though, maybe later when we were alone.

Y/N’s pov;

Maybe I was overthinking, realistically I had no right to be angry or upset but I was. Diego returned to our family with a girl by his side. Not only was she a girl, she was unique and pretty badass. Not to mention they were oddly close to each other. This Lila girl and Diego looked like a good pair.

Yeah, I was jealous.

How can I not be? I've been away from my family for nearly two years after landing in 1961. Of course Diego found someone new, an upgrade if you will. After upgrading himself with nice hair and a beard.

It was still upsetting that after all the years of serving as a detective, going through hoops looking for him and Diego appears out of nowhere. I guess maybe I was the dumbass that waited years for him.

'Let's meet back together tonight to talk about dad and his whereabouts.' Five said as he stood up. 'If any of you are late I swea-'

'Yeah, yeah. You won't do shit to us.' Klaus smiled, tapping on his shoulder.

Everyone laughed in sync, Five rolling his eyes knowing damn well that we will at least 10 minutes late. 'The things I do for you guys.'

Allison giggled, pulled on my hand as she pulled me to the corner of the room. It had been years since I've seen my sister, her and Diego were the only two in the family that I haven't seen since the apocalypse.

'I can't believe you have a husband... again!' I poked her on the shoulder, 'Allison Chestnut does have a nice ring to it.'

'It does sound good, doesn't it?' Allison smiled, 'And Ray is great, amazing actually. What about you? Found anyone during the time you were here?'

"Pathetic" was the first thing I thought in my head when I realized the past two years, I didn't even bat an eye for anyone. There were other detectives and officers that were attractive of course but I didn't care to build a relationship past friendship with any of them. My mind was too focused on Diego and only him.

'A few dudes from work, yeah.'

Allison raised her eyebrows, immediately started to laugh as she detected my lie. 'You're still the worst liar I've ever met. Is this abou-'

'You know it is. Sh! Don't say it too loud.'

'So what? You waited for him and now you're not gonna talk to him?'

Having Allison as my best friend was a blessing and a curse, she read me like a book even when we haven't seen each other for years. Granted mind reading was my specialty, I always felt like Allison had this secret power and never told anyone.

'Well, in case you became blind in these past three years you've been stuck here, he has a girl with him.'

'I don't know, it doesn't seem like anything to me.'

'Okay, so you are blind.'

'Y/N, you're over thinking. The shit you always pull, I'm not even surprised.'

'I am not overthinking!'

She crossed her arms, fed up with this habit of assuming everything. She'd thought after this two years I'd be different, 'Then go read his mind then.'

'I don't need my power to figure this one out.' I chuckled under my breath, 'Did you see the way she was touching his thighs when Vanya was talking about her amnesia? Oh my g-'

Allison puckered her lips, nervously smiling but she wasn't smiling at me. 'Oh hey Diego! Long time no see brother!'

I glared at Allison before I turned around and flashed a fake smile towards Diego, I was definitely going to run my mouth about this after this encounter was over.

'Hey Allison. Congrats on your marriage.' Diego smiled sweetly, the same smile I loved for as long as I can remember.

'Thanks, thanks. Excuse me while I go talk to Luther.' Great, not only did she not warn me about Diego coming by but she left me alone with him as well.

It wasn't just me that felt the awkward tension between us because Diego was acting very strange too. 'I see you grew your beard.'

'Yeah, figured I'd do something different.' He breathed, looking at me up and down. 'You look really great Y/N.'

'Why are you telling me this?' I didn't mean to blurt it out, my stupid thoughts just came out of my mouth without me even thinking.

Diego just scratched his head, not knowing what to say after that. 'Because you do, why else would I say it?'

'Well, you need to stop.' I bit my lips as I walked out of the small apartment, making my way down the alley.

'Why are you acting like this?' He followed me. Man, I wish he didn't. Diego just made things even harder for me. 'I thought you'd be happy to see me.'

'I thought so too but-' I stopped myself, knowing that whatever came out of my mouth would definitely change everything. I couldn't do this to myself or to Diego.

'But what Y/N?'

'Nothing. I'll see you at the next meeting.'

'Wait-wait!' Diego caught my hand before I walked off, 'I've searched through this whole city looking for you. The least you can do is owe me an explanation.'

Immediately, I pulled my hand away. If I stayed here more with him I knew that I'd either get pissed off or I'd start crying. Either way, I didn't want Diego to witness that I care about all of this.

'I think the person who owes an explanation is you, Diego.'

Diego’s pov;

My brows furrowed, confused about what Y/N was going on about. What did I need to explain to her that made her to hate me so much?

Was she mad that I've beaten someone up without thinking of my consequences? Y/N used lecture me about controlling my emotions but there was no way she'd know about the reason why I got sent to an institution. Unless Five told her, of course.

But would she be this angry was the question. The way she reacted when I came to talk to her was as if I did something to upset her personally.

Then it suddenly hit me; the possible reason why Y/N was pissed off at me. The typical assumption and overthinking shit she pulled even back when we were in our old timeline.

I couldn't help but laugh, the way Y/N was eyeing me down as if she wanted to slit my throat. It was sort of kind of cute in a way, she really loved me that much to get this jealous over Lila.

'What the hell are you laughing about?'

'You're fucking adorable.' I continued to laugh, holding onto my stomach. 'You know there's nothing going on between me and Lila, right?'

Y/N's shoulders dropped as the tension in her muscles relaxed. She even had a slight, very slight smile on her face. I knew I hit bullseye the way she bit her lips and how her eyes wandered.

'Yeah, that's what I thought.'

'Shut up!' She playfully hit me on my arm, not going to lie it did hurt a little. 'Diego, I-you had me all confused... uhm wow I feel stupid.'

I pulled Y/N in for a hug, kissing her forehead and rubbing her back. 'For a mind reader, you sure assume the stupidest stuff.'

She hugged me back tightly and mumbled under her breath. 'I know, I know. When it comes to you, I go crazy.'

'It's okay, baby. We all have our moments.'

Y/N looked up at me, cupping my cheek and gently ran her finger like she used to do all the time. 'I'm so sorry, Diego. I spent these past two years looking everywhere for you and when I saw-'

'Sh, sh.' I licked my lips and stared at her eyes, it was hard to believe that she waited for me for two years. 'None of that matters anymore. We're both here now.'

A smiled formed on her face as she pulled me in for a kiss. This was a better reunion than I imagined, despite the complication we had a few minutes back. With all of this, I appreciated Y/N more and I was definitely glad that we've found each other again.

'I love you.' Words escaped my mouth as we both pulled away. 'Don't forget that.'

She kissed me again, running her fingers through my hair. 'I love you too, Diego.'

'Mhmm.' I said as I smirked, 'You know it's kind of hot when you're all angry and jealous for me.'

Y/N rolled her eyes, 'Too soon buddy. And that's not funny.'

#tua oneshot #the umbrella academy oneshot #diego hargreeves oneshot #diego hargreeves x reader #diego hargreeves fic

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atlasshrugd · 4 years ago

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Hey I just wanted to let you know I adore your page! I have just finished QAF and have been desperately searching for closure which some of your posts have helped me with so much hahah. I appreciate this is probably a while ago by now but I was just wondering what you thought about the Lipman quote you reblogged where he talks about them having other relationships? From everything else I can defo imagine them being together after the finale just on their own terms but this does not really seem to fit with that! I completely understand you are probably way too busy to reply to qs like this but genuinely thank you v much for all your content! I hope you are staying well during this awful time xx

Wow I’m sorry I only just saw this! Thank you and I’m happy that you got some closure out of my ramblings haha. As for the Lipman quote, I’m assuming it’s this one:

“Brian is the most moral person on the show; he had his own code and was always honest. That rubbed off on Justin; he was Justin’s ideal. The two of them transcended their society around them. They had their own code and realized they didn’t need rings, a ceremony or rituals that others need to know that they love each other. They will always love each other even if they have other relationships with people. That is their core relationship. and they’re confident enough to have that and that’s why they were able to do that. Justin went off to New York, which is an hour away from Pittsburgh. There’s no reason why they wouldn’t see each other. They just weren’t married in the traditional way that Ben and Michael were.”

— Dan Lipman

I honestly think this quote summarises Brian and Justin perfectly, so I don’t have much to add - but I can break it down.

What Dan is saying is that Brian and Justin have both impacted each other’s lives so deeply that even if they are in other relationships, they will always love each other. Their kind of love is the kind that entrenches itself in your soul and doesn’t let go. It doesn’t wan from distance, time, sickness, trouble, etc. As Brian said, “It’s only time.” When Brian says this, he is acknowledging this fact - the fact that their love transcends more than the society around them, but transcends time itself. He and Justin know that their love has become part of them as individuals. They both would not be here today if it weren’t for the other. They have both impacted each other in immeasurable ways, and have left their stamp on each other’s soul.

To be honest, I don’t really see Brian being in another relationship similar to the one he has with Justin. Their relationship is so special and so one-off. Because of Brian’s age and jadedness, I don’t see him ever opening his heart up to someone else again the way he did with Justin. Considering how hard Justin worked to be with Brian and getting Brian to trust him, I don’t see anyone else making that same effort. Let’s be honest - Brian isn’t the easiest man to be with. The fact that Justin made so much effort to be apart of his life, and loved Brian as his whole self, makes Justin’s brand of love very few-and-far-in-between.

I can see Justin pursuing other relationships, but never something as all-encompassing or incandescent as his and Brian’s. There are some great fics about Justin having dalliances in New York to pass the time and fill the void that being away from his home and Brian left, not to mention the stress of making it as an artist in New York. Due to the nature of Brian and Justin’s relationship - the fact that they’re not monogamous - would allow that to be so. But even if Justin had a boyfriend like Ethan - he would still always belong to Brian. And they both know it. The people in between them never really matter.

Anyway, as Dan is saying, there is nothing really suggesting that Brian and Justin don’t stay together after the finale. Again, New York is only an hour away from Pittsburgh, and it’s not as if Brian is poor. I do believe they would see each other. But the time and distance, while it strains, would not matter - because they have so much well-placed faith in their love. They know that no matter what happens, where they go, who they are with, or how how long they don’t see each other - they will always love each other. Their souls are knit.

#queer as folk #brian x justin #brian kinney #justin taylor #mine #asks #meta

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wallofweird · 4 years ago

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It's making me nervous that JH keeps making comments about not focing love with Madison.

Right. Well, the first thing I have to say about all this is: I’m not worried at all, if anything, I’m optimistic. I'm stating this first and explaining why because this might become a long answer, so I’m letting you know in case you don’t have the time/disposition/patience to read all of it or at least now at the moment.

The first thing we need to remember about headlines is that people usually make it dramatic, they carefully pick the most ambiguous or potentially concerning words, usually out of context and use it as a title to get clicks. They could’ve gone with something like “it’s an amazing story”, but that’s not engaging. On the other hand, “You can’t really force love”, certainly is. It’s all clickbait.

So, Justin teases: “I’ve said this before: You can’t really force love. It doesn’t work.”

And that is actually him making a reference to this old answer:

“Love is a strange thing. If you let it [love] happen, it could be wonderful. If you try to force it, then you’re always going to be searching for something that maybe never was there in the first place. And not only that, but maybe you didn’t even really want. You’re shutting yourself out to things, because you had this idea about what your life was supposed to be. And there it was right in front of you.”

For me, that was a great analogy between Kevin’s relationships with Sophie and Madison, with Kevin letting love happen to him with Madison instead of trying to force a fantasy he had on his mind like he’s done before.

And these are more important parts of interview:

Coming into Episode 5, is there any lingering doubt in Kevin’s mind about the path he’s forged with Madison? Or is he full steam ahead on “This is a good thing, and it’s all going to work out?”

I think the doubt is showcased in Kevin in fear. The fear that it might not work out. Gosh, I mean what if they can’t coexist together and be this cohesive unit that comes together and raises these kids, and he [only] sees them on the weekends? There’s all of that stuff. Probably, those are the things that keep Kevin awake at night. He said as much in the last episode. He sits there and stares at the ceiling and worries. All that worry comes from fear, the fear that it absolutely will not work out and that he’s trying to force something.

I’ve said this before: You can’t really force love. It doesn’t work. He’s also in a little bit of a predicament. It’s not like he’s dating a woman that he doesn’t want to be dating. He’s in a situation where she’s having his babies. And he has, his whole life, been bound by this idea that he wants to be what his father knew he could be. Because that was cut so short, Kevin doesn’t give himself the breaks that maybe he should. He doesn’t cut himself any slack… and then he finds himself in a bigger predicament. It’s not him messing up for the sake of messing up or being selfish, as we saw him do several years ago. It’s that he puts a lot of stress and pressure on himself, and that sometimes can lead to the balloon popping, so to speak.

It seems like the movie he’s currently filming is not going to help, with a hard-to-please director who has gone out of his way to let Kevin know he’s not going to pat him on the head. Tell me if you think I’m wrong, but it feels like Kevin has some impostor syndrome going on here.

I don’t think that’s overstated. I would say he’s going through yet another existential crisis. [Laughs] If I were his therapist, I would say you’ve got to prioritize the things in your life that are important to you and not live your life for other people. If you look at what he’s actually been able to accomplish, he’s dedicated to being an amazing dad and raising these kids together. Whatever that thing ends up being with Madison, he’s going to give it his all. His career is on track. This won’t be the last movie in the history of the world. Maybe you say no to the movie, or maybe you can do both. Maybe you don’t have to be there every waking moment of the babies’ lives. There are other things that you have to do. You have to leave and go put food on the table. There are other things. Live your life for yourself a little bit. But I don’t know if Kevin does that. I think he’s so focused, and he’s on a mission. With a good heart, but just sometimes a little bit misguided.

How clearly is Kevin seeing Rebecca’s level of mental decline right now? It can be a hard thing to accept.

I think that’s part of the stress. That’s why he’s eager to have these babies, and he wants his mom to meet the babies. Look, he’s aware that this decline is degenerative. It’s not going to get better. You have moments where it might be like, “She’s better today than she was yesterday. She’s better this week than she was last week.” But it’s a degenerative disease. There’s a fall-off. I think he wants to make sure that he has these babies and his mom meets them and spends as much time with them as she possibly can have. And also maybe that might actually…sometimes when you spend time around animals or babies or whatever it slows down the demise of your disease. So he’s definitely aware of all of that. [In the pandemic], how are you…gosh, that’s a stressful thing, too. If you have these twins and I want them to meet Mom, but I can’t right now. It’s not safe. It’s like every single second you hear the clock ticking. Kevin’s got a biological clock, let me put it that way. [Laughs] Kevin is the only man alive that has a biological clock that’s ticking.

The way I see it, there are two ways to interpret this quote about not forcing love:

1) He is not in love with Madison and is trying to force a relationship.

2) At some point, Kevin will have some sort of nervous breakdown and question everything, his relationship with Madison, fatherhood, his actions as a son, brother, actor, person... Including maybe how Madison feels about him, their compatibility and the functionality of their relationship. Does she feel the same way he feels about her? Is she all in with him, his career, the fact sometimes he has to stay away and maybe even travel to a whole different country to shoot a movie? They might love each other, but love isn’t enough. Take Kevin and Zoe as an example, they were in love, but they wanted totally different things. And their love wasn’t enough, because Kevin’s biggest dream was to have a marriage and kids, but Zoe didn’t want children. So, if it doesn’t work out, it can get messy. They will have to share custody, not Kevin nor Madison will be with the babies every single day, there are a lot of different outcomes their relationship can bring.

I personally go with the latter, specially considering everything Justin has said so far and how we was referring to his own answer about Kevin letting love “happen to him”.

Also, because Madison has never forced Kevin to anything. They had known each other for 2 years, they weren’t close friends, but there was a sense of familiarity and camaraderie there and they even got to hang out with each other a few times.

With Kate included, yes, but the three of them were comfortable and used to it, as you can see here, with Madison silently asking for Kevin’s support, Kevin backing her up, smiling and appreciating her little quirks etc.

And both and Justin expressed how they saw Madison as part of the family, even before the pregnancy:

Moving forward, Madison reveals the pregnancy to Kevin on March 5h, since then the show has implied they had talked and hung out before breaking the news to Kate and Toby and Kevin moving in with her, which happened in May.

The show hasn’t really specified when they got together and if it happened immediately after their second time or if they danced around it a little bit before starting a romantic relationship, but since the time they slept together again, they have shown that they do talk,

notice when the other is bothered or worried about something,

think of little things to please one another,

that they share a bedroom now,

and have a routine at home, having meals together, etc.

I mean, the very fact he was already about to put his shirt on before Madison told him to indicates that they they know each well, that they can predict what the other is thinking, that they have a little system of their own.

It’s also stated that Madison knows about Kevin’s ‘broken parts’

and she trusts and believes in him.

Plus, not only that, but she doesn’t think they’re flaws at all.

The fact she thought she had lost her babies and she just wanted KEVIN’S company shows their relationship was already considerably serious back THEN:

And THIS IS KEVIN after their second time:

He is embracing her and has his fingers wrapped around her arm, sort of locking her in, he is fondling her hair, when Madison slightly moves her head he goes down to her shoulder because while he doesn’t want to wake her up, he still just can’t bring himself to stop touching her, he is savoring the moment, he is savoring Madison. There are many ways they could’ve implied they had slept together and introduce the beginning of their relationship, but they specifically chose THIS WAY because they were making a POINT.

And when when Kevin proposes, you can see a little hesitation, like it’s not a in-the-spur-of-the-moment-kind-of thing,

that he’s actually been considering it for a while, his head is telling him to wait a little longer, but his heart is telling him to just act on his feelings and he ultimately goes with the latter.

You can see there is a bit of nervousness and vulnerability when he pulls down her mask because he didn’t initially understand her response:

and and THIS is his reaction when she accepts:

This is simple and pure fulfillment.

Yet, Madison understands how Kevin can get ahead of himself, which is why she gives him an out, but Kevin chooses not to take it back.

And he says that very with confidence and determintion.

Plus, he goes around referring to Madison as his fiancée to strangers.

Madison wasn’t forcing Kevin to do anything and he wasn’t forcing himself to do anything either, he was being genuine and acting on feelings he had both shown and mentioned multiple times, not only to her but other people as well.

Emphasis for him getting emotional just by TALKING about her here.

If ANYTHING, I’d classify his actions as impulsive, but not exactly rushed. He might have let his heart take the lead, yes, but he’s known Madison for 2 years before they hooked up, they had been talking and hanging out together and alone for about THREE months, they had been QUARANTINING together for around MORE THREE OTHER MONTHS. I think their peculiar situation actually justifies getting engaged so fast, they have spent a lot of time getting to know each other better and developing feelings for one another, not to mention the knowledge and familiarity they already had with each other since 2018.

And Justin himself has mentioned that Kevin is more thoughtful about his actions now and that he considers Madison and their children as well:

So I doubt he would’ve proposed and stuck to that proposal if his heart wasn’t settled on it, specially with the way he looks and talks about her. I believe that he is starting to get nervous now that there are a lot of things going on or about to happen.

Before, Kevin and Madison were in their little bubble, living together, getting to know each other, falling in love, dating, in a certain way, we could compare it to a honeymoon.

Now he is back at work, Rebecca still has a degenerative disease, her memory will deteriorate, she will lose her autonomy at some point, he is away of her, he is still at odds with Randall, he is away from Randall and his nieces, he is away of his uncle and second father figure, the babies could be born at any moment, he is afraid of not being a good father, of passing his problems on to his children, about his age, physical appearance, sobriety, he wants to do this movie so he can get a big award and bring Rebecca along with him to see it, he worries about doing things right with his relationship with Madison... And that’s all happening in the middle of a pandemic. it’s A LOT OF STRESS.

Now, add Kevin’s overall self-consciousness. Kevin is naturally insecure. He’s said and shown that multiple times for all these years. He doubts his talent, intelligence, wisdom, maturity, it took him a while to see himself as someone that could be a father and responsible for another human being. When things get though, his nature is to doubt himself, to think he’s not good enough, not capable enough, he’s gone as far as thinking that his issues weren’t worth of attention and care, that his parents didn’t love him as much as his siblings, he almost gave up starring on his old TV show because he didn’t think he was funny enough, there is a scene from season 1 when he’s reading the script of the play and he starts questions if if he even UNDERSTANDS the play.

And as Justin emphasized, he just keeps adding things to his plate, he got a part on a movie when he is about to become a father of two and has a lot of things happening in his family, not to mention his own physical and mental health.

So, I can see a moment when Kevin is overwhelmed and he has a nervous breakdown and questions everything he does, including as a fiancée and/or he overreacts and thinks Madison doesn’t reciprocate his feelings and his mind just goes to the worst case scenario, like maybe things don’t work out and he loses her while also not getting to be as involved in their children’s as he expected because they’re not together anymore. Which makes sense considering this is his most mature relationship to date and he is dealing with problems he’s never dealt with. He’s gonna freak out at some point. Plus, it also matches what Justin said on this very own interview:

Also, on this one:

And despite the dramatic and exaggerated headline, he added this as well:

And said this quite recently too:

So, he will probably panic at some point, which is normal, but like Justin pointed it out, it’s out of a place of FEAR, not second thoughts. If things don’t work out, it affects him, Madison, the children, Kate, Jack and Toby to the very LEAST, because they’re all close... However, it will work out and Madison will help him ease and navigate this situation better as well. They’ll be partners and work as a real couple should and does.

STILL, Justin always likes to remind us Kevin is all in. He did it now:

and for the past NINE months:

So, my guess is that he is overwhelmed with all things considered and maybe getting a part on this movie isn’t helping and he might even get to the point of having to prioritize things, but whether he has to choose between his family and the movie or manages to balance both out, HE IS PUTTING HIS FAMILY FIRST.

Plus, if you watch the promo, Madison reminds Kevin he promised he was “all in” and he replies "I know what I said”, with calmness, certainty and determination.

And they also have these clothes on:

Then, you have them in different clothes,

on what appears to be the next day.

And you can see they tried really hard to capture the most enigmatic expressions,

but on the last picture you can see a smile forming on her face.

And since the article affirms there will be a direct answer to that on the next episode...

Madison having a smiling on her face gives me enough reason to do the same myself.

#this is us #kevin pearson #madison simons #kevison #kadison #justin hartley #fae talks #anon #answers

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its-bound-to-get-loud · 4 years ago

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Why I believe 5SOS didn’t work as a pop-punk band (+ my opinion on THAT Rolling Stone article)

This title of this post may be an unpopular opinion for a lot of you. But I don’t believe 5SOS worked as a pop-punk band. In this post I will explain exactly why. I hope that even if you don’t agree, you will at least understand my POV. This post is probably gonna have a lot of text. Not a lot of links, videos or pictures involved. I hope it will still be interesting for you. All of this is just my personal opinion, I have no way of proving that this is 100% true. It’s just a careful deduction of things I’ve seen and thought about over the last few months, mixed with some personal opinions. With this post I’m trying to tackle some topics that are being talked about often and showing them in a different light. I’ve put quite a lot of time into writing this, so I’m hoping you will appreciate it. Finally a huge, massive thank you to my friend R for proofreading this, it means a lot to me.

To start things off, I’ve had quite a lot of thoughts about this topic: I don’t think 5SOS truly worked as a pop-punk band. The image didn’t fit them and it wasn’t right for their era. It was a fun sound, I enjoy listening to it, they probably even enjoyed making it. Obviously fans enjoyed it as well. I fully believe that when they first started, pop-punk is what the guys wanted to sound like. It’s the music they listened to, those were the bands they looked up to. When they got signed they had not been a band for a super long time, they were young and barely had any experience in both life and music. I’m not someone with an extensive knowledge of pop-punk groups, but from what I know a lot of these bands were misfits, outcasts. People who didn’t feel like they had a place in society. In some cases from broken homes, with bad childhoods, etc. That’s who they were and it’s what their music was about.

I’d say 5SOS as whole do fit those characteristics. They were from a small town where music wasn’t really a career for most people. So they felt the need to get out of their town and pursue music. Michael dropped out of school for music, Ashton obviously had a very difficult home situation. Calum has mentioned that his family didn’t have a lot of money when he was younger. I’m not sure how the situation was for the others. But besides this, everyone but Ashton came from a stable home, Calum’s parents separated later on. So I can see why the guys related to these pop punk bands put out songs about this. Especially when you’re a teenager you often feel misunderstood by everyone else.

But when 5SOS started they looked more like a boyband than a pop punk band. Their earliest songs were mostly love songs. While the boys might have felt like being a pop punk band, and maybe even considered themselves to be one, I would say they were more of a pop/pop rock band.

In some cases a label can mold an artist or band into a certain image upon signing. But 5SOS had already gathered a following before they were even signed, so molding them into a rougher pop-punk image right upon signing would not have worked, it would not have been organic. They probably didn’t want to alienate the fans they already had, because they were valuable in getting the word out about 5SOS.

Their first manager, Adam Wilkinson, didn’t seem to think 5SOS would work as a pop-punk band as well. Just look at these quotes taken from That infamous 2015 Rolling Stone article (I will not link it, because I despise it, just google if you feel the need to read it).

“While they cannot cross into the realm of pop punk, they can stand on the sidelines and capture the end of that market.”

“They always wanted to be Blink 182 or Good Charlotte, but I’ll be the first to admit I thought that was shooting too far,” says Wilkinson. “We tried to make them a little more pop.”

That last quote is basically what happened. 5SOS ended up connected to One Direction, a huge pop act at the time. A connection that wasn’t as much of a “coincidence” as they wanted to make it look like. Louis was never the one to truly discover 5SOS, this was simply a smart PR decision to connect 5SOS to the 1D fanbase and grow their audience. I highly suggest reading this post that lays out exactly how 5SOS came to get signed and how their connection to 1D began. You will see that there is clear evidence that it didn’t happen like they wanted us to believe.

And let’s be real. Take a look at this early 5SOS picture. Does this look like the next Green Day or All Time Low? They all look like the boy next door, with maybe the exception of Michael. Basically they had the looks of a boyband, and while they never have been a traditional boyband (and certainly aren’t now), they certainly were marketed as one early on. This is a label that still sticks to them to this day.

I fully believe that their team (management/record label) tried to slowly evolve them into a more pop-punk image as they got bigger. They couldn’t ride the 1D train forever and had to stand on their own 2 feet. That’s where we arrive at the Sounds Good Feels Good era. This is a fascinating era for me, because there is a shift. Their looks start changing, suddenly they slowly become rockstars, piercings start happening. The boys are growing up. They are old enough to drink, girls are in the picture, etc. Musically it’s also clear that their sound is changing. The self-titled album is still fairly pop-rock, 1D but a little edgier perhaps. Sounds Good Feels Good is the more pop-punk album. But is it really? Because as most fans will know, the album knows 2 sounds. It has the clear pop-punk bops, such as Money or Safety Pin (to name a few), but there’s also some songs that already predict the sound for Youngblood such as, for example, Waste The Night and Vapor. It’s clear to me that while they probably still enjoyed their pop-punk sound the guys were growing up and were slowly discovering what music their sound as a band should be.

If we’re being honest for a moment. What songs from SGFG really feel the most personal? Sure, She’s Kinda Hot is a bop, but what about Vapor? Vapor is by far my favorite song on the album, it tells me a story, it makes me feel emotion. Now I’m very biased towards SKH, because (unpopular opinion) I don’t like the song much because of the lyrics. But that’s a different story (we may get to that someday). There is nothing wrong with a song that’s a bop, you need those. I could enjoy SKH if it wasn’t for the lyrics. But bops can have meaning too. SKH doesn’t in my opinion. Besides the fact that the guys were growing up and maturing their sound, the music scene just wasn’t very pop-punk or even rock based anymore. It wasn’t a sound that was popular anymore.

I took a look at the billboard charts and pulled some statistics. Friday October 23 was the release date for SGFG. The Top 3 Billboard hot 100 songs that week were

The Weeknd – The Hills

Drake – Hotline Bling

Justin Bieber – What Do You Mean?

The songs/artists closest to 5SOS in sound in the WHOLE Billboard Hot 100 that week were One Direction – Drag Me Down, Fall Out Boy – Uma Thurman and Twenty One Pilots – Stressed Out. That’s 3 songs in a list of 100 songs and you can debate how close the sound of those actually was to the sound of 5SOS at the time.

Taking a look at the Billboard 200 Year-End chart, the #1 is Taylor Swift – 1989. SGFG ended up at #136 (keep in mind that the album was released in October, so close to the end of the year). 5SOS self-titled ended up at #73. The LIVESOS album ranked #176. There’s a few other records that can be considered rock in the list, but barely any pop-punk in the whole chart. The only one to be considered for that title would be Fall Out Boy’s – American Beauty/American Psycho album, which was #15.

Pop-punk or rock in general, wasn’t a popular sound that topped the charts around the time 5SOS got started as a mainstream act. Number 1 on the Billboard Hot 100 the week 5SOS released their first ep (Unplugged) was Call Me Maybe by Carly Rae Jepsen. The real mainstream success of pop-punk was mostly in the late 90’s running all the way through the early 2000’s. This is why I wonder why the label tried to make them into a pop-punk band in the first place. My best guess is that their team relied on the fans to push the success of the band forward after they came off of 1D’s Where We Are tour. They might have tried to create an edgier version of 1D with similar success. Where you create a fan base that is big enough to support the band without the need of casual listeners or fans from different demographics (male, female, old, young, etc.).

I think they relied too much on 1D fans to gravitate towards 5SOS as well, which may have been a mistake. Not all 1D fans actually liked 5SOS, some even actively stayed away from them the more they were pushed under their noses. When I entered the 1D fandom in 2014 most things I saw about 5SOS were negative. 1D fans considered them problematic and didn’t like them. This is partially why I steered away from 5SOS at the time. Besides that, I had enough going on with 1D to keep me occupied. Of course 5SOS’s fan base still grew quite a bit from the 1D exposure, but they never got to the same heights as 1D did. In several interviews the guys have said that they were being called “the biggest band that nobody has ever heard of”.

On a more personal note. As a recent fan, the whole pop-punk image never felt very genuine to me. Which might be because I came into the fandom backwards, starting with CALM and going back to their older material after that (side note: I did listen to the Youngblood album once or twice before). Don’t get me wrong, I love SGFG, I play it regularly. Money is a banger, Hey Everybody!, a bop, Permanent Vacation, love it! But as a fan I like to identify with songs and recognize that the artist is telling something that is personal to them. I don’t get that feeling from some of these songs.

An example of a song that is emotional, yet (mostly) not personal to the band is Broken Home. It’s a beautiful song, but I generally skip it. 1, because it’s a very sad song and it’s not always something I’m in the mood for. 2, because it’s not a song I relate to on a personal level. And most importantly 3, I don’t see the song relating to 5SOS as people, other than maybe Ashton. An interesting quote about the song, made by their producer John Feldman, is on the genius page for this song.

“Other than Ashton, the three guys have parents who are still together. Ashton has never met his father. Ashton really connected into the theme. “We’re saying something with this song, it’s going to connect with the audience, at least 50% of our audience comes from broken homes. We’re actually taking a stand.” The other guys are loyal and family-driven and sweet, so they were like, “What are our parents going to think about us singing about a broken home when we don’t come from broken homes? How authentic is it?” It was a two-month debate.”

So the guys themselves were already questioning the authenticity of the topic when they were recording it. Ashton connected to the theme of the song, but the others didn’t. It wasn’t something they had experienced. It doesn’t say why the song made it on the album anyway. As stated in the quote, a lot fans can relate to it. I’m sure many fans found comfort in the song, which is a nice thing. The song doesn’t make you relate to the band though. If any of them had written this song from a personal experience it would have connected a lot differently. I’m not saying it’s a bad thing that the song is not personal, it just doesn’t feel very genuine when you know the artist has no relation to the story they are telling.

Moving on to the 2015 Rolling Stone article I have mentioned before. This seems to cause some division among fans. Was it all true or was it made up? My opinion is that it’s a mixture of truth and BS. But a whole lot of it feels taken out context or exaggerated. I have been a fan since March, so I wasn’t around at the time this came out. But since becoming a fan I have watched tons of interviews and clips and have extensively discussed this band with my friend, so I’d like to say I have done my homework and have a good picture of this band. On top of that I’d like to think being a 1D fan sharpened my critical thinking skills and might have helped me see through certain bullshit. I don’t claim to be the person with all the answers, but maybe my thoughts make sense to some people. There might be some context that I’m missing or facts that I haven’t come across, if you feel like there’s a piece of information I’m missing, feel free to let me know.

The way the article starts, it reads like fanfiction. Literally. The extensive description of the surroundings, the time of day, everything. The first time I read it, it made me cringe so hard I had trouble getting through the whole thing. First things first. This interview takes place the day after the AMA’s. Who the fuck scheduled this? Either someone should have prevented them from getting drunk and partying, or they should have scheduled this on another day when these guys were in a better state of mind. That is, assuming things went the way they went as described in the article. Which is something I highly doubt.

The only direct source saying that this article is not genuine is this tweet from Luke. Besides that I have only read secondhand that the band and people surrounding them have spoken up about the inaccuracy of the article.

Some people believe 5SOS could have sued Rolling Stone for slander if this article was really as false as they claim. Now I’m no lawyer, but this is not how things work in the entertainment industry. An article like this has been agreed upon before. The interviewer didn’t just decide to drop by one day. During celebrity interviews there’s always someone from their management or PR team around to make sure they don’t say any stupid shit. Celebrities are a brand, they have an image to protect, albums to sell. If they say things that make them look bad it can cause damage to their good name. Record companies have invested money in artists and they want to see a profit in return. They don’t want to risk losing money, that’s why celebrities have PR teams. RS may have had a reputation for being a very honorable publication, but these days that’s not the case. They are not that far removed from cheap gossip rags such as the Sun or The Daily Mail nowadays. They still get read by a lot of people, which puts them in a position of power. Often when an interview takes place there are certain topics that have been agreed upon before, there are also topics that can be blacklisted if the artist or their team doesn’t want them talked about. For example relationships or family matters. These will also be agreed upon beforehand.

Here is a story about a former journalist for the British tabloid The Daily Star, who has admitted to making up stories and explains how they get away with it.

For arguments sake, let’s say the guys slipped up and showed their “true colors”. With a big publication like this it’s common that their team would have to approve the article before it comes out. If there’s anything in there that was not agreed upon that they don’t like, the article can be edited.

This leaves us a few possibilities.

The article is completely true and their team is shit at their job. They failed to prevent the boys from slipping up about stuff they shouldn’t and did nothing to stop Rolling Stone from publishing.

The article is true and their team just allowed the article to be published for whatever reason.

The article isn’t true, but their team let it happen anyway, possibly because they wanted to move the band away from their boyband image into a more punk-rock image that went with their sound.

My vote goes out to the last one. I think their team wanted to make the boys look more edgy/punk-rock and get rid of their boyband image and this is how they tried to do it. I think parts of the article may be true, but a lot of it is greatly exaggerated and in some cases made up. If my theory is true, it also means 5SOS or their team had no reason to sue Rolling Stone if they wanted to. Because it would mean you have a major publication on your bad side, which means no more future promotional opportunities for the band and/or the label. While Rolling Stone may be trash, it’s a publication that a lot of people read. Therefore it’s a very important connection that you don’t want on your bad side.

If you still think they could have sued Rolling Stone then take a look at some examples from 1D. 1D has been targeted by the British tabloid The Sun for YEARS. They wrote the most awful shit, a lot of it not true. Yet they still had exclusive scoops whenever something important happened. Exclusive meaning, these topics were given to them exclusively for publishing. It was proven that their PR manager is friends with the journalist from The Sun responsible for most of the stuff written. 1D never sued The Sun for those articles, because they most likely were agreed upon by their team beforehand. 1D has never tried suing the Sun over anything, despite what they wrote. This was not 1 article, these were many articles. Especially towards the end of 1D, when it was clear their label was losing 1D, there was a smear campaign in the media to discredit 1D and its members. There was a chance some members were going to sign with a competing label, and that’s something their label didn’t like. Here is a good collection of headlines from that smear campaign. Nobody ever got sued over these articles.

Do you still think 5SOS could have just stood up and sued Rolling Stone? The entertainment business is full of politics. If you don’t play the game you’re out. Also, question yourself. Why does Luke still say the article was twisted and inaccurate 4,5 years later? He has owned up and apologized for past mistakes, yet he keeps insisting the article didn’t tell the truth. He even goes to say that the article “broke and hurt him”. If you believe Luke is still covering his ass for what he said in that article, that essentially would he mean he is emotionally manipulating people by saying the article hurt him. Is that the person you think Luke is?

1 more thing I want to point out. Yes, I am aware of the fact that Calum has a large version of the magazine cover hanging around in his house. I can’t say exactly why. This is my best guess. That cover was still a big thing in their career, despite the article, it is still a Rolling Stone cover. That’s a milestone that not every artist gets to do in their career. Just because he has the cover hanging around doesn’t mean he enjoyed the article that came with it.

This whole post has gotten super long, it may not be the easiest thing to get through. So thank you if you made it till the end. As stated before, this whole thing is mostly just my opinion. But the parts about how PR teams work are a fact. I do not work in the music or entertainment industry, I’m not a lawyer, so I may have gotten some things wrong. If I did, please let me know and I will try to fix it. Feedback is always appreciated.

#5 Seconds Of Summer #Ashton Irwin #Calum Hood #Luke Hemmings #Michael Clifford #5SOS #musical direction #pop-punk #Sounds Good Feels Good #Rolling Stone #original

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silverbastardgoldenfool · 5 years ago

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Realm of the Quarantine Reread End-of-Book Questionnaire: Royal Assassin

Any differences between your first/previous reading experience and this one?

Not as stark a difference as with Assassin’s Apprentice, but definitely still there. Apart from all the obvious stuff, like feeling much more attached to the characters already and picking up more details, I think the biggest change was a complete lack of patience for the teen romance drama lol. There was a decent period where I was feeling quite frustrated with it. Not that I loved it the first time round, but back then I had a very different view of how it fit into the story. I saw it as teaching Fitz a depressing lesson of what it really means to be a royal bastard and a king’s man. Fitz’s literal need (for all he knows he would have been killed if not for his deal with Shrewd) and sense of duty to put his loyalty to his king and country first creates a relationship that is toxic, turbulent and built on lies. And teenage horniness masquerading as love. I saw all that the first time and thought it was just something he had to go through. Now I know it’s something he never really goes through but rather grips onto, romanticises and ultimately goes back to. I know the point of that is meant to be that he finally gets to have something for himself, but why it had to be Molly specifically??? I have very few qualms with Robin’s writing choices overall, but why she chose to write their relationship this way if they really are meant to be is beyond me, especially when so many of her other romances are written so well - it feels like it can’t possibly be unintentional. For most of this book they’re either fighting or fucking and honey! That ain’t love! Hell, Fitz all but sees her as just another demand on his time as the book goes on. But he can’t let her go because she’s the one thing he can point to that makes him feel normal. Not happy, not cherished, not safe. Normal. She’s simply a refuge from his real life. He literally says to Chade “I need her.” I find that so telling, man. It’s not really about her, which is a shame because Molly is great. They’re just really not good for each other.

So yeah. It’s just kind of trying to read all the Fitz/Molly stuff when you know and don’t like what it ultimately culminates in. At the same time… Bee… So I will always be conflicted lol. I just can’t separate the events of Royal Assassin from the furious disappointment I felt when I finished Fool’s Fate. Perhaps I’ll have a new Fool’s Fate experience this time that will make the next re-read a bit easier in regards to Fitz and Molly? But I won’t bet on it lol.

Anyway. It’s not as if I haven’t already said just about everything there possibly is to say about Fitz and Molly yet I also feel like I could go on about it forever. Luckily this is kind of as bad as it gets in terms of how much “screen time” they actually get (apart from Fool’s Assassin maybe? But they don’t bother me too much in that) so yay! I made it! And hopefully it’ll be a good few books before y’all have to endure my ranting about it again :)) Also hopefully this doesn’t give the impression that this read was more bad than good? It was mostly just a particular angsty chunk before they properly get together that was a bit of a slog to get through, but overall I really loved reading this book again and got a lot out of it.

Something you can’t believe you forgot

That Molly punches Fitz in the face hard enough that he bleeds and that Fitz fully intended to punch the Fool for asking if Molly was preggo before seeing he had already been beaten. I pretend I do not see it.

Favourite character introduction moments/scenes

Omfg I was just about to say “huh we didn’t really get any major character intros in this book” bitch Nighteyes???? But in my defence I just. Cannot process the fact that Nighteyes is only really in 3 of 16 books he just feels omnipresent to me BUT his introduction is most definitely iconique and god I love him and he made me cry eight thousand times!

Favourite character arcs

Speaking of Nighteyes: what a glow up. He goes from angry, scared, untrusting little bb to……. Nighteyes. Like. How does one even describe the kind of person Nighteyes becomes. He’s just Nighteyes and I love him with all my fuckin heart!! He is Fitz’s constant… He is wise… He is silly… a comedic genius…… a big, open, unconditional heart. Incomparable. I can’t believe I’ve seen ppl saying they dislike/d Nighteyes……. Honey…… it’s called taste xx

Favourite quote/s

Again no tabs so it’s a bit harder to keep track but there were a few that stuck out enough to copy down. There are a lot of iconic quotes in this book that get shared a lot so I only bothered with ones I didn’t remember.

- “I wince to think of the price willingly paid for loving me.”

- “My soft, clean bed beckoned, like a soft, clean tomorrow.” (mood)

- “I looked and saw they were both made of hungers, like containers made of emptiness.”

Favourite relationships

Kettricken/Verity obviously. I was shocked by how little time they actually have together being in love before Verity leaves??? Because all I remembered was how strong their love is. But the whole journey towards that love is what makes it stand out as an actual compelling story in its own right. This is definitely one of Robin’s greatest skills as a writer; giving the minor characters depth by giving them their own relationships that grow and change and have a life of their own outside of Fitz. It makes the world feel so much more alive.

Also Burrich/Fitz in this book continues to be bittersweet, but with a lot more sweet in there than usual! They fully start out this book as a team. Burrich calling Fitz “FitzChivalry” makes me fuckin emo and idk why even. Burrich does seem to start seeing Fitz a lot more as his own person in this book which changes their dynamic in some rly nice ways. The fact that towards the end of the book Burrich even uses the wit to help Fitz is enough to make me cry tbh - and writing this has made me realise that I’m officially past any uncomplicated good times between Burrich and Fitz y’all mind if I fuckin die real quick!!

Fitz/Verity is soy pure and beautiful. Fitz and the Fool is always, always compelling and complex and tender and perfectly mysterious. But overall you’d have to say Fitz/Nighteyes, hey? They are literally meant to be, in a way so straightforward and undeniable and beautifully simple that I never really know what to say about it. Little brother!!! :’) They literally make me cry all the frickin time lol rip!

Favourite setting

There aren’t that many to choose from in this book! Ima go with the skill river bc hey, Robin’s magic systems are so unique and beautiful and the fact that the skill is written as a kind of a place is really frickin cool and deserves a shoutout.

Favourite chapter

The final chapter (not the epilogue) ummm broke my heart but it is written so beautifully, oh my god, it’s like an out of body experience. I feel like this is kind of when RotE becomes RotE - the first time it really goes to that place that is so fitting yet so unexpected, so beautiful, so tragic, so awful, so visceral. Making use of the genre to really test the limits of humanity; to see how far you can bend a person without breaking them and then refusing to turn away from the consequences. Idk man!! I don’t know how to describe it without sounding like a pretentious dick but it really is that intense and strange and overwhelming for me. There is something in that moment, when Burrich pulls Fitz’s body out of the earth and Fitz/Nighteyes is recoiling from it and deeply terrified… Something about the enormity of the existential questions raised converging with the pinpoint specificity of it all being wrapped up in the story of a character that feels so real and who you care about so deeply… It’s almost written like a horror scene, but that’s not quite the feeling. It’s just the RotE feeling; there are multiple throughout all five series, and it’s what makes these books unlike any other.

Most loved character

Fitz, Nighteyes, the Fool all had my entire heart this book. The Fool is just so sad and pathetic and literally must be protected!! I think I’m kind of obsessed with Burrich? Also I think I almost forgot how much I love Kettricken? She’s a complete badass of course but she’s also got the biggest goddamn heart like…. Who said she was allowed to be such a beautiful person???

But god, everyone. I love them all.

Most hated character

What can I say? Regal is disgostang. Wall Ass a close second.

Raise your hand if you’ve been personally victimised by Robin Hobb (most heartbreaking and/or visceral moments)

Shall I list just a few? :)

- Burrich screaming at Fitz through the bars of his jail cell, horrible things you can’t help but feel are at least a little bit true

- Burrich sobbing over Fitz’s dead body repeating, “You aren’t dead, you aren’t dead.”

- Fitz going to Nighteyes before everything went down on the night of the coronation and just fuckin hugging him really tight

- Fitz trying desperately to leave his broken vessel behind but not quite being able to disown his body

- The Fool being beaten

- The Fool being beaten again

- The Fool sprawled and weeping across Shrewd’s dead body

- The Fool really believing for a moment that Fitz had betrayed him and killed Shrewd

- Fitz tending the Fool’s wounds………. bitch….

- Chade giving Fitz a chance to escape with them and Fitz going to kill Serene and Justin instead

- Idk why this is even that sad but Nighteyes saying the only person he loves is Fitz!

- The entire incident with the forged ones literally tearing apart a three year old girl, which I had completely blocked out until now :)

- The fact that Fitz continues to be reminded and traumatised by this incident for the remainder of the book beCAUSE HE IS A GOOD BOY. A VERY GOOD BOY WITH A VERY GOOD HEART.

- Fitz repelling at Nighteyes to try and force their bond broken

- LITTLE BROTHER

- WOLVES HAVE NO KINGS

- High off his face Fitz calling Patience “mother” no shut the fuck up!!!!

Details, observations, spoilery notes made with the benefit of the full picture

- I’ve been trying for ages to decipher when the Fool started falling for Fitz, and I think I’m officially putting my money on their last interaction in AA. “I wish I had a place that was as much me as that place is you.” I mean. If someone said that to me… I’m not a slut but who knows, ya know? (I know this is more a note for the last book but I thought of it while reading this book. So shh.)

- It’s so clear to see this time how much Fitz’s sense of self and politics are affected by his time in the Mountains. He obviously feels much more inclined to their way of thinking about royalty and sacrifice and equality and returns to Buckkeep with a self-respect he’s never really had before. Weird how being among people who don’t just think of you as The Bastard will do that.

- It’s no wonder Fitz becomes so fixated on Molly; he literally has almost nothing else to occupy him and no companionship when she suddenly shows up

- It’s gross that he spies on her, obviously, but you can’t not take into account the fact that Chade has been teaching him since he was ten that this is justifiable behaviour; a reasonable way to gather information and get what you want. Fitz’s lack of social awareness goes further than him just being a little awkward; he has literally been trained to believe the only thing wrong with stalking would be getting caught.

- I’ve seen a few people talk about the fact that Regal isn’t appropriately punished as if it’s bad writing and like, while it is frustrating, it is supposed to be frustrating - it is not a plot hole. It made sense to me the first time I read it and it was even more obvious this time; Regal has the loyalty of the inland duchies. If he were to be publicly punished those dukes would rally behind him and raise hell, and Regal would no longer need to play the part of the dutiful prince. Even if Regal died a “natural” death - something I can’t see Shrewd or Verity orchestrating anyway - the inland dukes would feel that they no longer have a Farseer on their side and may, again, raise hell. It’s a delicate balance that would be outrageously difficult not to topple if you removed Regal from the equation. There is a lot more to it than I’ll bother writing here but yeah. I don’t really know how people can read this book and think that Regal retaining his life and position is some sort of lazy plot contrivance. It was all set up in the first book dude.

- Fitz and Nighteyes meeting in this book is the perfect metaphor for our need for connection versus the fear of inevitable loss. Fitz’s experience tells him that entering into a bond with an animal can only end in pain, yet he can’t resist it. In real life this is especially true with humans and our animal companions, since they almost always have a shorter lifespan than us; signing up to love them is signing up to lose them. But the same is also true of our relationships with other humans. And like Fitz, we have all had our fair share of loss and pain. We all have our reasons to be afraid of the connection we naturally crave. Sometimes we give in to the fear to the point of holding ourselves back from it entirely. That’s where Fitz is at when he meets Nighteyes. But what’s so beautiful about their arc as a metaphor is that it suggests that these connections, if we submit to them, are what keep our vital spark alive. Even when Nighteyes dies later in the series, the sentiment always remains, essentially, “It’s better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all.” Ya boi is projecting bc it’s hard to be vulnerable and make friends as an adult, but I think the observation stands. Love and connection and vulnerability are key threads that run throughout all of Fitz’s story, but in this book it is best represented through him and Nighteyes.

- “I hoped I would not become too adept at lying to myself.” Honey, you got a big storm comin.

- Very inch resting (gay) that Fitz finds it hard to meet the Fool’s eyes. I know almost everyone does bc his eyes are weird, but I reserve the right to reach and I will absolutely NOT be accepting criticism.

- I find it interesting that Fitz says Kettricken’s wit is not strong just because she doesn’t use it exactly the way he does

- I know it’s not meant to be funny but……. The way Fitz described losing his virginity had me literally laughing out loud

- Fitz was really like “okay i better go break my bond with Nighteyes” just cos he and Molly fucked. Teenagers don’t deserve rights.

- You know what? I really, really appreciate how fucking weird these books are lol. What other author would use their magic system to have their characters accidentally intruding on each other’s awkward sex stuff? Okay, maybe a few, but they would do it to be like, edgy and sexy. Robin Hobb just does it to make you cringe so hard you lose several years off of your life.

- But seriously, even apart from the cringe stuff, these books get so strange and out there and like! That’s what magic is for!

- Bruh. When Fitz is like “omg poor Verity…. He’ll never have what i have with Molly” I don’t think I’ve ever heard someone encapsulate the self-important delusion of teen romance so perfectly lol. Wow.

- Okay some Fitz/Fool stuff that made me lose my tiny mind. Sorry.

- Fitz literally said about the Fool “he burned too brightly” I WILL DIE.

- Fitz is always like, irritated by the Fool… yet positively delighted by his presence at the same time…… okay bitch

- Inch resting how Fitz has always been uncomfortable with the Fool getting serious. I don’t quite know how to put my thoughts on this into words so like. I’ll just put it there. Make of it what you will.

- “Sit on my clothes chest and take your shirt off…” i stopped fucking breathing noah fence

- “I ran my fingers lightly down the line of his jaw, and around his eye socket. At least no bone seemed damaged. ‘Who did this to you?’ I asked him.” my GOD this is literally textbook gay/romance. It hurts me. It physically hurts me.

- Straight from my notes: “I can’t even focus on reading this bc it’s the first time they are tending each other’s wounds and I am a homosexual!” and “the gays are quaking!! (it’s me I’m the gays)

- Okay wow! I think that’s it! Hello if you made it this far! Hope this was remotely coherent and I’m always keen to hear your thoughts on my thoughts :)

Anyone doing a reread feel free to fill this out! You don’t have to use the tag :)

#rote #realm of the elderlings #royal assassin #royal assassin spoilers #fitzchivalry farseer #realm of the quarantine

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madsdefencesquad · 5 years ago

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You've mentioned that Justin seems to be pro Kevison, can you post all your examples?

Here’s some quotes from the actual captain of the Kevison ship (like, no joke he is actually so all in, it’s hilarious haha):

“But that is the love of his life so far.”

Him talking about Sophie after the A Hell of a Week: Part 2 episode. Take note of his “so far” comment as it obviously means he’ll have another love of his life and who else could it be...

“I guess it’s kind of a rebound...Then they have that immediate connection. I think it's just two people that were in need of something at that very moment. It was sort of like a perfect storm.”

Him talking about whether Madison was just a rebound. He always doesn’t confirm or deny anything about them two. The “I guess it’s kind of a rebound” is so telling. “Perfect storm” number 1.

“It surprised me, but I also think it's one of those things where [Kevin and Madison] both hit a rock bottom and they both hit a rock bottom today and she's saying these things about herself that are so sad. She can't find a guy to commit, you know? And he just spent the day with Sophie and it was almost like the perfect storm, right?”

“Perfect storm” numero dos.

I like the idea that they plant those seeds and then you wonder who it could be, but whoever it's going to be, it's going to be the right ending.

I mean, this is him already knowing who he ends up with at the end, so for him to call it “the right ending”? Okaayyyyy

It is so well put together. It is like a master class in how to tell a story. They've done an amazing job. It's really incredible.

When talking about the fiancée and how we’re going to find out about how they get together. And reading this after knowing that Madison’s pregnant with his kiddos and that in the soft flash-forward, his fiancée has morning sickness? Who else could it be but Mads!

They’re mutually annoyed with each other. She thinks he’s ridiculous. Hey, look: Things change. [Laughs]

The interviewer noted that Kevin has always been “kind of been annoyed by her” and that they’ve never sensed a “close bond between Madison and Kevin” and he goes to say “Things change”. LOL of course they do, when you have that heart-to-heart, boyooo

She’s not chopped liver...But at the same time, they’re both single. It was kind of the perfect storm: We’re both adults, we’re both single, whatever.

She’s not chopped liver! She’s significant, she’s important! Also, “perfect storm” number 3! How perfect really is this storm? Apparently, enough for him to say 3 times and counting!

“And is it safe to assume the woman he is married to is not the mother of his children?” I think it’s safe to have that question, but not to assume it.

This is Justin pretty much saying without saying that if we rule out Madison from being the wife at all, we will lose the game. Okay, Justin, promise we won’t.

“I think if you know Kevin and the way that his mind works and the way that he goes about his business and the way he attacks situations, when he commits to something, he’s all in,” Hartley said. “He didn’t have a romantic relationship with Madison because he never considered it, right? It was just not on his radar. But now, things have changed. She’s pregnant with what she says are his twins and with the information that he has, ‘OK, she’s carrying my two children,’ so now everything has changed. Everything looks different, right? What Kevin saw before was this flighty sort of annoying friend of Kate’s. And then it turned into this one moment that they had together where they were sort of sharing in their own misery, right? One was lonely and one was sad and depressed and it was a perfect storm and that’s kind of all it was.”

I have no other words. He’s pretty much said it all himself. Also, “perfect storm” number 4(!!!!)

“And then the unintended consequence of all that is she’s pregnant. So when she says things to him like, ‘This is kind of a miracle’ for me, I think everything changes. He sees her in a different light, obviously, and I think he will start to sort of have a relationship with her based on these new facts and the new information that he’s gotten. It’s not just, well she’s a person that Kate is friends with that is kind of annoying. I think he’s gonna really invest in the entire thing and try to get to know her. And, knowing Kevin, I think he’ll probably try to do everything he can to fall in love with her and have a family with her.”

Again, this is Justin saying without actually saying that they’ll fall in love and have a family together. He tries to hide it by saying Kevin will “try” but doesn’t that defeat the purpose of him saying that his kids will be the love of his life? Justin knows that Kevin saw something in Madison that made him go, HOLD UP, and now he’s going to figure out who this woman really is and then he’ll fall in love with her. Whew

‘I’m all in. This will be what I do. My child will be my great love story.’ I don’t know the answer to that, but it’s amazing thing to watch and see how those last few minutes set up the entire fifth season.”

As per above, Justin knows the answer to the whole “who’s his great romantic love story?” and he is so ready for it to unfold. Also, Dan has briefed him on all of season 5 and he thinks “it will be the show’s ‘best season so far’” and most of his storyline will be around Madison and the pregnancy. Game, set, match?

Although, like you said, morning sickness that late into pregnancy is uncommon. But it happens. He did look a little bit tired, like it's been a long, arduous pregnancy...a sickness that's not ending. I think it could go either way. You're on to something, maybe. Maybe, maybe not.

This is him on the defense about the interviewer’s theory of Madison not being the pregnant fiancée because it’s not common for women to have morning sickness in the third trimester.

I do. I do. I think sometimes the nontraditional and the unexpected relationships develop out of something that you in a million years would never guess that Person A would be with Person B. But, because of certain circumstances, they do. These two people find themselves together, and for whatever reason this person changed what they thought their life was going to be like and what they thought they wanted in their life. And the other person accepted a few things they thought they would never deal with. The next thing you know you have a kind of perfect relationship that is so strange when on paper. But it works in reality. So yeah, I think so. You also have a man who wants to have children, who was never taken seriously, who now has the means to support all of them. He's a year sober. He's found himself. He's comfortable in his own skin. He's older now. He knows what he wants. And you have this woman who never thought she would have kids and resigned herself to it. Then she ends up pregnant with twins. That is kind of a miracle. Miracles will make you rethink things, I think.

I mean, I actually have no words. He pretty much just wrote an entire essay paragraph as to why Kevin could have a great love story with Madison. Legit, the question was “Do you think Kevin could have a great love story with Madison?” and he goes on this tangent and more:

Love is a strange thing. If you let it happen, it could be wonderful. If you try to force it, then you're always going to be searching for something that maybe never was there in the first place. And not only that, but maybe you didn't even really want. You're shutting yourself out to things, because you had this idea about what your life was supposed to be. And there it was right in front of you.

AND THERE IT WAS RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU. Justin, my man, calm yourself. But also don’t. I love how onboard he is with kevison!

Then you have Madison...she is going to give him everything he wants. And also, she is not expecting anything from him. This could be the perfect love story for him.

Ah yes, the perfect love story for him.

Certain circumstances lend themselves to people changing their minds or sort of rethinking things that they thought. And also, I mean, gosh, he didn't see this happening, right? He doesn't even know her. So just to say that he couldn't fall in love with her, he doesn't even know her. So I think that's definitely a possibility, for sure.

Him answering whether Madison could fill the romantic hole in his life down the road. Note that he doesn’t, for once, deny that it can’t be a possibility. In fact, he says it’s “definitely a possibility” because he just knows and he is all for it.

I wonder if Kevin being all in with Madison is really that at all. I wonder if he's really all in with Madison. I wonder. I dunno.

When asked about dropping a clue about s5 that will make us wonder what he meant about “how many times Kevin’s going to be in the old makeup”. He’s pretty much telling us to be aware of what Kevin means by “all in” because in the s4 finale, it was meant for his kids and being there for the mother of his kids. But then he goes “if he’s really all in with Madison” so like, marriage and family, Justin? Pretty much!

Also, not going to forget this nugget from his Twitter page.

Anywho, there we have it! I know these are just from the recent interviews post-s4 finale and there’s tons more littered throughout s4 and even before that, but these are the most telling of him being so onboard with this ship and like Kevin, I am all in!

#we stan (1) man #legit the captain of the kevison ship #he loves it sooooo much! hahah #can't wait to see it unfold #the perfect storm turned perfect love story #it's going to be amazing #kevison with the clutch #peak romance of the ages #kevison #this is us #kevin and madison #kevin pearson #this is us madison #the fact that this post is sooooo long says it all #and that's not even including all the stuff he's talked about regarding sophie #and all the other women in his life

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fmdhanjae · 5 years ago

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without further ado i’d like to get into this intro, i’m mischa, please add me on discord if you’re ok with that and feel free to dm me about plotting any time. this is gyu hanjae, the group leader and hip-hop unit leader, as well as the main rapper, of CHARM.

gyu hanjae; eyebrows snatched, jawline snatched, wastline snatched, your girl snatched, your lead snatched, your hopes and dreams snatched, what can’t he steal, this man is swiper. modeled just a little after that one time g-dragon dissed mama while performing at mama.

he’s a leader, but like the way an older sibling leads. blaming things on you when it’s convenient, bullying you sometimes, being a know it all and complaining when they have to babysit bc they want to go out with friends. probably locked half of charm in a closet when they were trainees. used to be playfully mischief but now it’s because he knows he can get away with it. to his credit, also like an older sibling, he comes in clutch when he’s needed. he knows his members very well and loathes to see them feeling bad. his door is always unlocked for them.

on the coin toss, he’s very self assured and takes control like he was born for it. bossy, a little bit bad but in a likeable way. not annoying, but he can be a pest when he’s searching for smiles or annoyed with someone.

believe me, he was born for the stage.

at his best? funny guy, impassioned, colorful energy and he quotes movies and cartoons a lot. seems cooler than he is and it’s a well guarded secret. he’s a spiderman type of personality, the type who calls people ‘dude’. a real dudebro tbh. calls his crushes dude too.

at his worst? petty, passive aggressive or just flat out aggressive, immature, will hurt peoples feelings to push them away and sabotages his own relationships.

his subtlies are actually subtle, as in, they’re hard to spot. it’s tough to know he even has a side that isn’t displayed but he does.

he’s a hot and cold personality. little known fact but that ‘hot n cold’ katy perry song was written about him heh. the romantic consistency of water, good luck.

he was only a trainee for about 2 years before his group debuted, and had very little to no practice with rapping before joining. thought he would end up a sub vocal because he didn’t have quite as much experience as he saw many other trainees having, but he worked hard as a competitive person and has made a lot of progress.

he has a sister that he keeps in contact with, frequently calls her even on tour.

♥ ♥ someone give him a ‘say something’ justin timberlake romance like he deserves.

there’s a trigger warning here for his backstory so the next point will have that, skip it if you’re sensitive to topics of death and suicide.

he lost his mother as a kid due to mental illness which lead to her suicide.

due to the loss he suffered as a kid, he is a big advocate for mental health awareness, donates money and sometimes time and discussion to charities that support this. he’s really vocal about this (think, min yoongi’s vocal acknowledgement of mental health or, gong yoo’s discussing it publicly.)

extremely chaotic energy.

occasionally really hateful, very evil and immature about the things sometimes, when i say he gets cold i mean it.

he watches a lot of dramas in his free time and often bringes to catch up with releases. idol actors hit him up he’s probably a fan.

drinks slowly in groups and gatherings. recreational smoker and professional coffee drinker and juicer.

playfully cheats when the group plays games, like mafia or other group games for laughs.

check out his profile, bio and plots pages.

#fmdintro

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justforsmiles · 6 years ago

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I’m quitting Tumblr

I’m making the decision to leave Tumblr. @staff @support

Having been on Tumblr since 2010, I never really thought about when this day would come, but now more than ever, I don’t see why not.

It has been a great journey, I won’t forget that. From writing little poems to writing more about my personal experiences to reblogging Cyanide and Happiness comics, to memes, dogs, motivational quotes, inspirational images and building a positive community of my own, it felt so empowering and gave me something to look forward to during my high school and my college years.

It was addictive. It felt rewarding when I was featured on Tumblr’s “radar”- hand-picked showcase of creative, interesting, and awesome posts. It was my go-to mood booster. I read up on news, learned new terms, saved a ton of hilarious, fun gifs (back when Tumblr did not have a button to easily look up gifs and what not), became heavily invested in social justice issues, posted my ideas, learnings, what I stand for, and have people thank me and my blog for existing.

I connected with other people from all over the world. I met up with two of my Tumblr friends in person. I could share my thoughts, genuine interests, and have it liked and reblogged by thousands? It felt like a platform I was never ever going to see myself exit from.

Until the start of this year. I don’t feel safe on Tumblr.

On December 17, 2018, Tumblr’s ban on adult content went into effect (after the fact that Tumblr’s official app was removed from Apple’s App Store over the discovery of child pornography on the site). That meant that all pictures, GIFs, and videos that feature erotic content will be removed from the site.

A reblogged photo from back in 2011 of a newborn’s feet was flagged but when a porn blog (blacksinasian) decides to share my (fully clothed) self portraits and write crude things on it, impersonate me in writing those things to lead people to my Tumblr and social media- that is not okay.

I had to find out through Instagram DMs when some people let me know that they saw me on Tumblr, asked if I had Tumblr and if I knew that my pictures were being circulated on Tumblr.

This is screwed up on so many levels. I never agreed to allow my content to be used in this way. The blog decided to repeatedly take my content and twist it in their own nasty words.

This is unwanted harassment and violation of community guidelines, but Tumblr decides to do ABSOLUTELY NOTHING.

I sent in a support request January 21, 2019. I received NO reply whatsoever and followed up on February 5, 2019 to which I receive a reply to on February 11, 2019 with the following:

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satansluthouse · 5 years ago

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You were my mission (Pt 2) Bucky Barnes x Reader

Hey! Heres part two to the story. I hope you guys enjoy it as much as I enjoyed writing it! I’m very proud of this part and I can’t wait to write the next part!!

Read Part 1 Here

Word Count: 4351

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Reader (over 18 ofc)

Warnings: Language, there’s probably more but I’m blanking right now so put them in the tags if you find anything possibly triggering!

You awoke to the sound of a cryptically loud alarm going off throughout the compound. A simultaneous groan could be heard from every room that had someone in it. Tony had wired it so that the alarm wouldn’t shut off in your room unless you specifically asked FRIDAY to do so. Laying, pushing the soft pillow beneath your head against your ears to try and muffle the sound you let out a groan.

“Friday, will you please turn the alarm off?” You yelled into the air.

“Sure thing Ms. Y/L/N.” Friday chirped in her usual tone.

“Thank you.”

“No problem!”

You had never gotten entirely used to the idea of talking and giving commands to an AI seemingly living in the walls, but you had to admit that is was helpful. Kind of like an Alexa but smarter.

Wanting to lay in your bed for just a few more minutes despite having a mission to prepare for, you opened your eyes when you heard your door swing open and in walked Natasha. She sat next to you on the bed, her red hair a mess and began to shake you lightly.

“Y/N come on you gotta get up.” She said, sleep evident in her voice.

“I don’t wanna.” You groaned.

“I know, me neither. Don’t really feel like getting kicked in the ribs but I have you to protect me.”

“Oh, so what am I now? Your human shield?” You say to her, propping yourself up on your elbows.

“No, more like badass protector because after all, you are more qualified than me somehow? I think there was a glitch when your file was being printed.”

“It wouldn’t surprise me but I just don’t see how that’s possible? You’ve been doing this a lot longer than I have and trained longer than I was for that matter. Just seems janky if you ask me.” You said, sitting up completely and scooting next to Natasha, resting your head on her shoulder.

Laughing, Natasha agreed. “Yeah, super freakin janky...anyways, babe, we gotta get ready and head out to the jet so get your ass up and don’t take forever? I want you to braid my hair.”

“Okay, okay I’m getting up but no promises that I’ll be the first one out, you know I have to take my morning walk on the beach, darling.” You responded sarcastically, putting extra stress on the pet name earning an eye roll from her.

“God you will be the death of me Y/N, now get dressed! And brush your teeth.” She said before walking out of your room and shutting the door behind her.

You and Natasha have been the topic of many discussions due to your use of pet names when speaking to each other. Sam was convinced for a solid month that you two were a couple only to be let down hard after he pulled you aside and announced that he was very happy that you were being yourselves. Apparently, the other guys had a bet on how long he would believe you two were in an actual relationship and Steve won.

Standing up, you walked over to your bathroom and stripped your self of your clothing before stepping into the shower and turning it on, the water cold for a few seconds before it warmed up to a reasonable temperature. You didn’t spend much time in the shower before getting out, drying off, brushing your teeth as Natasha said, and finding your uniform. It was simple, black, with gold here and there, and kind of tight but it wasn’t anything that bothered you. You put it on, finding your belt that holds your weapons, thigh holster, and putting on your boots, lacing them up tightly. You walked out of your room, shutting the door you began to walk down the dimly lit hallway. You weren’t necessarily prepared for this mission mentally. You were exhausted, constantly carrying around the weight of guilt and keeping on a happy face so no one would worry about you. You knew you were here for good, to redeem yourself even but you could never seem to forgive yourself for the damage you caused in the past.

Lost in your thoughts you walk slowly tracing your finger against the wall, feeling all of its bumps and ridges. You barely noticed when Bucky walked out of his room but you soon stopped in your tracks as you watched him. He had his back turned to lock his door with a key he had and to be honest, you didn’t know just why he was so keen on keeping his door locked but that just made you even more interested in him and his motives for his actions. Sticking the key in his pocket, he turned around and immediately locked eyes with you. He smiled at you causing your stomach to do backflips and your heart to nearly stop. He was the most beautiful person you’d ever seen, from his soft brown hair, to the way his eyes sparkled no matter what, to his scars, his metal arm that he tried so hard to keep hidden. You thought it was all beautiful. You noticed all of this when he was nothing but a mere mission but you pushed all of those thoughts aside for the longest time. Of course, it would take a conversation about gardening to make all of those feelings and thoughts about him come back and suddenly you didn’t know how to act around him let alone think.

“Mornin’ Doll.” Bucky said, his voice and use of Doll making you blush.

“Goodmorning Bucky! How’d you sleep?”

“I didn’t really, but how about you? How’d you sleep?” He asked as the two of you began walking down the hallway, footsteps in sync.

“I slept okay, I wish I could have slept longer but duty calls.” You replied, “So why didn’t you sleep?”

“Um, Nightmares mostly... but you wouldn’t believe just how interesting that book was last night.”

“Oh trust me I know, it is one of my finest reads.” You exclaim to him, both of you laughing. “But the nightmares, do you have them every night?” You ask him, looking into his eyes.

“Pretty much, yes. I can’t remember the last time I slept without having one actually.” He says, his voice growing quieter and the line you often saw appearing between his eyebrows when he had a troubling thought.

“I finally stopped having so many. I barely slept for years but now that I’ve stopped having so many, I would sleep forever if I could.”

“You have nightmares?”

“Yeah, well, used to. They come and go occasionally but I started doing this really intense therapy program Tony invented crossed with just seeing a regular therapist and picking up new hobbies and they started to just kind of fade away.” You paused,

“I could see if you can do the program Tony made? I know you guys aren’t on amazing terms but I’m sure I could talk him into it, both he and I know too well how bad things can get in your head.”

Bucky looked at you and smiled that damned smile again.

“Yeah that’d be great, thank you Y/N.” He said as you entered the main living area through the kitchen where all of the others were already settled eating something.

“It’s no problem!” You chirped before joining Natasha and Wanda at the table where food was laid out. You picked up a piece of bacon and took a bite.

“Glad to see you’re not dead!” Natasha said sarcastically. You playfully nudged her shoulder before responding.

“Yes, clearly I’m alive and thriving.” You say, gesturing to your eyebags.

“Are you two ready for the mission?” Wanda asked giggling.

“Not as much as I’d like but you know I’ll kick ass nevertheless.” You said smiling.

“We’ll kick ass.” Natasha corrects with a nod of her head.

“Ah yes, the inseparable duo that is you and me.” You state, throwing your arms around her. Natasha places her hands on top of yours squeezing them as Tony enters the room asking for everyone’s attention.

“So today is mission day as you all know and I would like to go over one last time the general layout of where you will all be and what we’re up against.” Tony announced, bringing up the map of the general area that you saw last night. “The main threats are these people who call themselves ‘The Masters Of Evil’, pretty cliche if you ask me, anyway, there’s Justine Hammer who refers to herself as Crimson Cowl, Tanya Sealy, Cap you know her she calls herself Black Mamba, then there’s Zemo another friendly face I’m sure with a few HYDRA agents to back him up, and some man that calls himself ‘Machinesmith’ which seem’s like a total rip of of Iron Man by the way. Y/N and Bruce got the main information about them and what they’re about, some of you, of course, have already gone toe to toe with them though. Y/N , Bruce...wherever he is, go over things again, will you? Just as a refresher course before we kick some ass.”

You stood up and walked over to where Tony had previously been standing, Bruce nowhere to be seen. You pulled up each portfolio you had made on the enemies as you’re still tasked to do the homework on the people you fight, except this time you don’t feel as guilty. Pulling up Justine’s portfolio, you begin to speak.

“So this is Justine Hammer, who most commonly refers to herself as Crimson Cowl and is the assumed leader of the Masters Of Evil. Her motives for consistently attempting to attack Mr.Stark these past few months seem to be that Tony mentioned that her father, frozen and floating around in space would quote-unquote ‘live forever’, she wasn’t happy needless to say. We also have reason to suspect that she is targeting Tony due to the fact that he openly works and operates with Natasha, Clint, and James, enemies since Budapest. Justine’s strengths and abilities include flight, teleportation, and shapeshifting available due to her cloak. She’s highly trained in unarmed combat, she’s a supposed master negotiator and sadistically shrewd business-woman. So the game plan is to take the cloak if you can. Go to whatever lengths you can to get it off of her to get her vulnerable.” You say and turn to Clint, Signing to him asking him if he got all of the information.

“Yeah, I have my hearing aids in.” He responded, turning his head and showing his ear.

“Okay, I was just making sure. Does anybody need me to go over anything else regarding Justine or can we move on?” You ask, eyes scanning the room.

“So once her cloak comes off, she’s done for?” Sam asked.

“Pretty much, as long as you know for sure you can take her.” You responded. “Okay anyone else?” You waited and nothing.

“Okay moving onto Tanya Sealy, also known as Black Mamba, I couldn’t find much on her but I did find out that she has limited telepathic abilities due to a cranial implant given to her by Roxxon Energy Corp. The full extent of her powers is unknown so whoever takes her on will be walking in blind so watch out for her. Cap, I know you’ve been affiliated with her before do you have any information regarding her powers? I meant to ask last night.”

“No, I never took her on one on one but she’s up there so we definitely need to keep an eye on her.” Steve responded.

“Okay great.”

You slide through her portfolio and onto Zemos. “Now we all know who Zemo is and what he’s capable of, correct?” I asked, a murmur of agreement soon following. Your eyes travel over to where Bucky is sat, a stern look on his face as you can see his fists clench.

“He will most likely have HYDRA agents with him as Tony said so if needed I’m going to need immediate backup on Barnes in case they’re after him by any means necessary. We don’t win this fight unless we all win together. Now for our last guy, we have Machinesmith. Machinesmith like Justine, can shapeshift so stay close and stay personal with whoever you’re with before anything gets out of hand. I would recommend a code word or a signal that only you and that person know so if there is no response on anyone’s end, you’ll know it’s Justine or Machinesmith. And that’s all I have. Does anyone have any questions?” Silence again.

“Okay great, if anyone needs any of this information, I have it uploading and sending it to each of your communicators so study it if need be.” You finish before walking back over to the table where Natasha and Wanda sat while Tony took back over. This was going to be a long day.

The refresher course had finished and everyone seemed slightly more prepared than before. This was a mission where you truly didn’t know what was in store as the whole group is made up of mortals in suits with guns or super soldiers. It was time to load onto the Quinjets, Tony, Bruce, Clint, Rhodey, and Vision loading up into one and You, Wanda, Natasha, Bucky, Sam, and Steve loading into the other, Natasha taking the pilot seat.

The mission was in Lagos where Justine and her group were confirmed to be hiding out by Maria Hill so that’s where you were headed.

“Hey, do you still want me to braid your hair, Nat?” You asked standing beside the woman flying the jet.

“Yes please.” She said sweetly, smiling up at you. You stood behind her and began to mess with her hair, combing through the tangles of her soft hair with your fingers before carefully putting it into a neat french braid. When you were finished you tied it off with an elastic you had on your wrist and patted the top of her head.

“All done!”

“Thank you hon! You’re the sweetest.” She said, feeling her hair.

“It’s no problem.” You responded before walking and taking an empty seat next to Bucky.

“You okay?” You ask him, your shoulder brushing against his metal one.

“Of course doll.” He says, his brows knit together.

“I know things are going to be hard with HYDRA and everything but if you need to talk about it you can talk to me.”

“I just-” He started, “I’m afraid what Shuri did didn’t work and that all of that stuff is still in my head and what if they try and use the words against me? I don’t want to hurt any of you and I can’t control what those words do to me.”

You looked at him, tears evident in his eyes, you slipped your hand into his metal one, lacing your fingers with his. He looked at you just as a tear slipped out of one of his eyes which were home to so much fear but comfort in an odd way.

“I won’t let them get to you.” You said, wiping the tear rolling down his cheek with your free hand. “I promise.” Smiling at him, his blue eyes soften and he closes them as your hand lay still cupping his face. For all he knew, this was just some friendly gesture but to you, this was expressing your feelings for him in one of the only ways you knew how without directly speaking them into existence.

“You know, people are usually scared of my arm.” He said, a light laugh escaping his lips.

“Really? I think it’s really cool! I love it.” You told him, smiling up at him before examining his arm some more. His eyes stayed on you as you felt up and down on all of the grooves of his arm. He had never met anyone that was so interested in what most people were scared of. It was his weapon. It was the first-way HYDRA had left a definitive mark on him. Although the arm configured by HYDRA was long gone, he still couldn’t help but feel like a monster when he had his on.

“So can you feel things with it? Is that even possible?”

“Not necessarily. I can’t touch something and feel it but phantom pains pop up from time to time.”

“Phantom pains?” You questioned.

“Pain in my arm even though my arm isn’t there anymore. It’s weird and there’s no way to prevent them because it’s all a mental thing.” He explained.

“That’s so weird...I can’t even begin to think about what it would be like losing one of my limbs but can you imagine? We’d be like bionic badass’s on the battlefield and in real life.” You had never heard Bucky truly laugh until that moment. Every other time always did make your heart flutter but this time you could tell it was true, you could tell it was genuine, and it wasn’t soft. It was a pure laugh from James Buchanan Barnes. You smiled and laughed with him.

“I must say doll, you would look great with a bionic leg.”

“Oh really? Which leg? I was thinking my right one would be a nice look.” You told him, sticking out your right leg to examine it. Bucky squeezed your hand tighter, making you blush.

“That’s what I was thinking.” He said.

“Great minds think alike, Sargent Barnes.” You exclaim to him.

“If you two lovebirds could stop flirting in public space, that would be great!” Natasha called out from the front of the jet, causing you and Bucky to blush like crazy.

“Nat, how about you pay attention to the sky instead of our conversations you creep.”

“Well, that’s no fun.”

“Well, that’s too bad. Now be quiet!” You tell her before she playfully flips you the bird making you roll your eyes. You turn back to Bucky and smile.

“You know how I said something about code words? In the case of shapeshifting?” You asked him, receiving a head nod in return. “Okay, so what if our code word was Bionic leg? It could even work for the whole team.” Bucky chuckled and began to respond.

“Yeah that would work.”

“Yay!” You said, “So bionic leg it is. Hey Nat? Wanda? Steve?”

“Yeah, babe what's up?” You heard Nat say,

“Yeah?” Wanda, Sam, and Steve said in unison.

“For the code word we’re gonna use ‘Bionic Leg’ is that okay?” You asked them, agreement coursing through the jet.

“Shouldn’t we have a response of some sort? You know, for confirmation?” Wanda asked.

“Oh yeah! How about ‘It feels fine, thank you very much.’ “ You said, looking around for confirmation, hearing Nat snort and mock you.

“Natasha, shut up! This is for our safety, now let the other guys know please.” You told her.

“Aye Aye Y/N.”

You rolled your eyes once again and tilted your head, resting it on Bucky’s shoulder. You were exhausted and had no idea how much longer you’d be stuck in the air so resisting the urge to close your eyes was useless. You had been hoping for so long to become closer with Bucky and you feel like it’s finally happening, but it was all happening so fast. Your feelings were out of your control and quite frankly, there was no where else in the world you’d rather be than right there next to him. You quickly dozed off into a deep sleep for the first time in what felt like a million years, the amount of comfort you felt was unreal. Bucky looked at you as you were passed out and couldn’t help but smile. He looked up and he met eyes with Steve.

“I can’t believe you still haven’t told her.” Steve said in a hushed tone.

“Well, I’ve never exactly gotten the chance.” Bucky exchanged back in a whisper, careful not to wake you up.

“How about last night when you were up sharing gardening secrets with each other?” Natasha retorted, earning a snort from Wanda.

“Gardening Secrets? Really dude?” Sam responded, raising an eyebrow at him.

“Shut up.” Bucky replied to Sam.

“Either need to tell her or else I’m gonna make a move on her, I’m sure she’d love the excellency that is the Falcon.”

“Ha! You wish. You literally thought she was a lesbian a few months ago or did we all collectively agree to forget that?” Wanda added to the conversation.

“Well it is my motto to never pass up the opportunity for a hot date-” Sam began to speak before Steve cut him off,

“She has called you Big Bird on multiple occasions, Sam.”

“And lucky for her, pet names are my thing.”

Bucky glared at him. “I’m going to talk to her! I just need time. And plus there’s no definitive chance she’ll feel the same way.”

“There’s no way in hell that girl who has her head on your shoulder, sleeping while holding your hand might I add, does not feel the same way!” Natasha insisted from the front of the jet.

Bucky sighed and looked at you. Ever since you showed up in his life, you’re all he could think about. He didn’t want to infatuate with your recovery or life by attempting to pursue a relationship with you, but deep down that’s all he wanted. He would always try and find ways to talk to you without stumbling over his words, his brain suddenly going blank every time he tried to speak with you, half of each interaction ending with him calling you ‘Doll’. He was taken aback by the sheer amount of conversation you two had partaken in over the past 24-hours and his head was a mess. Everytime you looked at him, he felt things he had never felt before. Sure, in the 40’s, he would go on countless dates with countless girls, but now he can’t remember any of their faces and when he tries, he only sees you.

“Can we have this conversation at a different time and place?” Bucky insinuated.

“You have three days Barnes.” Sam declared, “Three days to tell her and if you don’t? That’s where I come in.”

“Whatever, big bird.” Bucky sneered, Sam glaring at him.

Rolling her eyes at the conversation, Natsha spoke up. “Hey you guys we’re here to fight bad guys, not eachother so shut up maybe?”

About an hour or so had passed and you were still asleep, except you had moved from leaning your head on Bucky’s shoulder, to laying your head in his lap. His fingers mindlessly played with your hair, Bucky lost in his thoughts. Your eyes slowly peeled open and the sight above you made you smile. Bucky had his eyes closed, his head leaning back onto the wall of the jet. He was so beautiful and he didn’t even know it. You pushed yourself up into a sitting position and yawned.

“We’re almost there I think.” Bucky announced to you, a small smile on his face.

“Okay.” You sighed. “How long was I out?”

“A little over an hour give or take. How do you feel?” He questioned, his hands no longer occupied in your hair but resting on his lap.

You exhaled heavily through your nose. “I feel better than before, I could still sleep though.”

“Y/N? Are you awake?” Natasha asked, turning her head to look at you.

Standing up and stretching, you walk towards Natasha and stop yourself on her left side. “No, I’m just really good at sleepwalking. What’s up?”

“We’re about to land, can you and Wanda make sure the supplies are together?”

“Yeah of course!”

Smiling Natasha continued, “Thank you, dear! Boys can you come up here for a minute?

You walk to the back of the jet and join Wanda in going through the checklist of supplies which range from food and water, to changes of clothes if need be, to ammunition.

“So, you and Bucky hm?” Wanda teased in a hushed tone, nudging your arm with her own.

“What about me and Bucky?”

Going through, checking the ammunition Wanda went on. “You two seem to have gotten pretty close.”

“Really? We just started really talking last night.” You recounted, “Dunno why we had never really talked before but he’s so nice to talk to.” Looking back at him, you see him being stared down by Sam who had always seemed to have a problem with him claiming he ‘stole his steering wheel out of his car’. Although Nat and Steve corroborated that claim, you found it silly.

“Nat everything’s here!” Wanda called out.

Turning away from the conversation up front, she responded. “Thank you guys!”

Putting everything back in its place, you begin to load your belt up with weapons and ammunition, placing a large knife in your thigh holster. Sometimes you envied Wanda deeply as most of her battles were fought through her powers and not hand to hand combat. You would love to experience powers like hers for a day. The jet began to shake lightly as it neared the ground, the other Quinjet already visible on the ground below. You walk over to Bucky and he smiles upon looking at you.

“You ready doll?” He asks, securing his ammo in his belt.

Adjusting your thigh holster to assure it won’t fall off you respond giddily. “Ready as I’ll ever be. How about you Sargent?”

He shrugs. “Feel like I may have fought worse.” The jet hits the ground just as he finishes his sentence.

Chuckling, you nod your head in agreement and begin to answer but you were cut off by a voice in your earpiece.

“Uh guys are you there?” You all simultaneously hear Tony’s voice.

“Yes we’re here Tony, is everything all right?” Steve asked, his finger up to his ear.

“Yeah we kind of have a problem. Be ready when you step out, the fights already here.”

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annashipper · 6 years ago

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Highlights from Enty’s 4th podcast on Benedict Cumberbatch & Sophie Hunter

Anna: Enty, I’m gonna say it again. Careful! Your Karon is showing ;o)

This is a collection of quotes from the 4th podcast, with Enty basically giving the Skeptics pointers on what we’re supposed to be discussing, versus what we are discussing:

“I think it was an arranged thing, things went a little haywire, and you just couldn’t put the thing back in the box. You just couldn’t get it back in there.”

“Just because a relationship is not real, doesn’t mean the child or the baby that comes into the relationship isn’t real. You don’t need to have dolls or anything. If you’re willing to go out on this ledge of having a fakish showmance type of relationship, then you’re probably willing to go out on the edge and do the baby thing too.”

“The Skeptics think if the baby is real it’s probably from the ex boyfriend. Again. Possibility. I’m more likely to believe it for the first rather than the next.”

“Could they have gone out one night after Harvey said ‘Go out’ and they hook up and she gets pregnant from a one-night stand? Is that possible? I say that’s highly possible. And I also say that she could’ve told him that he got her pregnant from the one-night stand. That’s also highly possible.”

“This is someone who was competing against other people and obviously really wanted that award and wasn’t gonna let anything stop him”.

“Even if Benedict found out after the fact that the child wasn’t his is he gonna say ‘Oh, I broke up with her because she lied about the kid’. You know, does that really seem like something he would do? Or would he just take out his frustration and just go have sex with a whole bunch of other people?”

“And once she got pregnant, she told Benedict ‘oh, it’s yours’, and he says ‘oh, well we should get married, it’s the proper thing to do, and also if we get married right before the Academy awards, perhaps more people will vote for us’. And I told you already that they got married far too late to influence any award votes. But. Somebody could’ve said to him that it would influence the votes.”

“Let’s ask some questions:

Why was she living in New York at the time… June 2014, when they were kind of starting this, right? And she spent March 2014 with a guy that was maybe her boyfriend.

Her brother said, in November of 2014, that the romance began about 5 months earlier, which would’ve been June 2014. But you see Benedict, he was definitely out on dates with people in the late summer. There’s that blonde that he was seeing at the end of August 2014. It’s definitely not Sophie. There’s loads of people on twitter who said ‘oh your girlfriend’s gorgeous’, and they were definitely not talking about Sophie. Benedict and Sophie didn’t spend any time together between June and almost the end of August of 2014. And then you had the blonde you saw in late August of 2014, and there’s a brunette he saw in early August of 2014. Not Sophie.”

“They used a lot of buffers. Whether it’s other actors or actresses, they used Benedict’s niece, Emily, one time, to just kind of have a distraction of what they should be doing.”

“And then there was the April 2015 Vogue article, stating that the wedding dress designers said in January that it took them 3 months to design the dress. So January they said that they’d already been designing for 3 months, which means that they were working on the dress from the engagement announcement, if not before. And then Valentino said they were rushing to make the dress in three months, even though it usually takes six months, but the photos from the Spring/Summer 2014 Valentino couture show, it shows Hunter’s dress was created for the collection that season that showed in January of 2014, which means it was designed in 2013, before Hunter even began dating Benedict.”

“There’s the BAFTAs, that video where Sophie just kind of shoves Benedict’s arm off of her back.

She then takes it back and pulls him close. I don’t know if she was angry and she saw the camera and ‘Oh, I’ve got to take it back, I’ve got to make up for it’.”

Anna: It wasn’t. She pulled him back because she was having a flash photography moment, even though Ben was done posing by that time:

“You have these Skeptics who don’t believe the relationship is real. Fine. I can totally get on board with that part. So then they have to say that the babies are not real and all that sort of stuff. The thing is that the Skeptics have a lot going for them in the sense that nobody had ever heard of Sophie before. She was most probably some type of escort kind of situation, considering the pictures on the websites. She has faked her resume to the n-th degree, and the relationship is not very chummy overall. But it could just be a British thing.”

“He had always said ‘oh you know, my private life, I’m an extremely private person.’, but then during that whole Oscar season, where he had Sophie coming around, all of a sudden everything’s timed to not. Engagement before the promotion, for them to , and then the pregnancy, and then you know, like I said before with the voting, and then the wedding during the final week, and you know… it was all timed in this tiny little window of promotion. Whenever you do something like that, it’s just gonna make people skeptical. I totally understand where people are coming from, I’m on board with you.”

“I’ve talked about the on camera affection and then that disappears right after, or they notice the camera and then ‘oh my gosh, they’ve got to be together’. … There was one time, I think it was after a premiere, they were holding hands and everything, and trying to look all lovey dovey, and then as they were leaving, they thought that people had stopped shooting, and they hadn’t; she got into a completely different SUV. They didn’t kiss, they didn’t hug, they didn’t say anything, they didn’t say bye. She just walked over to her SUV, he walked to his.”

“There was the staged paparazzi photos that he did right before and after the Oscars. And that was that whole Jaguar thing. When you do something like that, before and after the Oscars; when it’s obviously you’re doing it for Jaguar, you’re leaving the door open,

that it shows to me is that you’re willing to sell your soul; you’re willing to sell yourself if the price is right. So then it makes me think that you’re willing to do whatever it takes as long as there is something for you.

Am I willing to fake a relationship? If that cheque is right, if I win an Oscar, and then I get more; yes. Are you willing to do this? Are you willing do that? And it goes for both sides. Yeah, because I want publicity. I want to be a director. I want to be an actress. I’m willing to do that. And when I see people openly, blatantly doing this thing for Jaguar, and not even saying that it’s an ad, trying to pretend that it’s real, and that they’re real paparazzi when they’re not, and they’re professionally taken photos, it just shows that you’ll just do anything for the cheque.”

“I remember on Oscar night there were some reporters, and they were trying to ask Sophie some questions and he wouldn’t let her answer. And it’s the same kind of thing that Justin Timberlake did to Jessica Biel, basically shutting her down saying ‘this is my night, it’s not yours; you’re not important in this situation, it’s me.’ Now. Is that why Benedict was doing it? Maybe. The guy has got a big ego. Or was he doing It because he didn’t know if Sophie was gonna say something that was gonna contradict anything else that he had said earlier in the day in the 10.000 interviews he gave during the week?”

“You get all these inconsistent stories …. because he can’t keep his stories straight and what he’s told people.”

“You can’t choose to say ‘I’m a very private person, and hey I’m gonna go ahead and plant all this stuff, and I want you to report it all, even though it’s about my personal life, but then anything I don’t wanna talk about, or any questions that you have ... no no no no … cause I’m into my privacy.’

“…And then, at the end of awards season, you’re like ‘Oh crap! What the hell?’ but the problem is that at that point, people said ‘Is this all fake?’, and you’re like ‘No! No it’s not fake. No it’s not fake. We’re staying together forever’. And that happens a lot in the gossip business, and I’ve told you about this. Where I … Sometimes you’ll say OK, these people are on their last legs, and they’ve got a couple of weeks to go, and they’ll read it. And just to spite me, or spite any tabloid that says it, not just me, they will stick together for at least a couple of months, sometimes longer, just so the tabloid doesn’t look right. So if everybody is accusing you of having this fake relationship, and you don’t want to be proved wrong, what do you do? You just play that damned thing out. ‘We’re just going to keep going. We’re not getting divorced. We’re just going to keep going and going and going.’”

#crazydaysandnights #enty

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pindaleng · 6 years ago

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Title: I don’t usually give in to peer pressure (But I’ll give in to yours)

Pairing: Staubrey

Chapters: 1/1

Wordcount: 2902

Summary: Brooklyn Nine-Nine AU (Inspired by episode 1x13 “The Bet”)

Aubrey Posen loses a bet with fellow detective Stacie Conrad, resulting in being forced into the "worst date ever" with her, but things turn out better than she expects.

And maybe there's something there between them...

As Stacie Conrad knelt on one knee in front of her, presenting a ring in a blue box, Aubrey didn’t know if she had ever felt this humiliated.

She was supposed to win this dumb bet of solving more felonies than Conrad, and prove once and for all that she was the better detective. (And also take Stacie’s prized 1994 Mustang in the process.) But somehow, Conrad managed to run a prostitution ring and snag five extra felonies with an hour to spare of their deadline. So instead of holding her head up in triumph, Aubrey slumped her shoulders in defeat, awaiting her fate with an extremely bruised ego.

“Will you go on the worst date ever with me? You have to say yes.” Stacie grinned up at her.

“Yes.” She muttered, looking anywhere but at the woman in front of her.

“She said yes!”

The bullpen burst into hollers and applause, and music blasted from some boombox dug out for who knew where. Justin Timberlake’s “Can’t Stop the Feeling!” filled the room as everyone but Aubrey celebrated her misery.

This had to be the worst day of her life.

Continue reading on Ao3 or below

Aubrey groaned when she heard the firm knocks on her apartment door at 7 pm. She shifted her dress one last time before prying the door open.

Stacie stood smiling in the doorway, wearing a medium length black dress that perfectly accentuated her cleavage. (Not that Aubrey was looking there.) She held a bouquet of roses, and gave Aubrey an immediate once over. “I was right, hot pink does look dashing on you. Though I think the person in the dress is what makes the color hot…”

Aubrey rolled her eyes. “I look like freaking Elle Woods. Do I seriously have to wear this the entire night?”

“Yes ma’am. Though you might get to have it off early if you play your cards right.” Stacie teased with a wink.

Aubrey rolled her eyes again.

Stacie grinned and handed over the roses. “For you.”

“Conrad, you know I don’t like flowers. They’re wasteful and impractical and as my father always says—“

“Yes yes of course but a lady deserves her flowers.” Stacie interrupted. “Now let us go lest us be late to our celebration at the bar.”

“Are you going to speak like you’re from thirteenth century time the entire night, or?”

Stacie merely tutted at the jab and led her to her car parked across the street, pausing before the passenger door.

“Oh and there is one rule of the night. Break it at your own risk.” Stacie said solemnly, and Aubrey quirked her eyebrows. “No matter what happens… you aren’t allowed to fall in love with me.” Stacie deadpanned.

“Won’t be a problem.” Aubrey replied with equal inexpression.

“Great.” Stacie brightened and opened the passenger side door. “Into the car now m’lady, we’ve got a date to begin!”

They made pleasant small talk on the drive to the bar. Aubrey briefly worried if their “date” setting would make things awkward, but they quickly fell into familiar banter. Besides the excessively floral and pink dress she was forced to wear, the date was far from being the worst she’s ever been on.

They arrived at Barden’s, the de facto hang out spot of the ninety ninth precinct, and as Aubrey went off to the bathroom (after asking permission, and Stacie cheekily giving it), Stacie found a spot next to her fellow detective of the nine-nine, Cynthia Rose, at the bar.

“So how’s the date going with you and Posen?”

“Well, I’ve got a lot on the list.” Stacie began counting off on her fingers. “After hanging here for a bit, we’re going to Times Square and taking pictures with every single person in costume there. Hoping to see lots of cookie monsters. Then, we’re having dinner at a super fancy Italian place but we’ll be bringing our own bottle of wine, which was the cheapest I could find at the corner store, and is even labeled as ‘wine drink’. Finally, a night walking tour where I will ask our guide loads of dumb questions and say they’re all from Aubrey.”

Cynthia Rose narrowed her eyes in suspicion. “That’s a lot of effort and money going into quote unquote, ‘the worst date ever.’”

Stacie shrugged. “I’ll only have this one chance to make her do anything I want.” She frowned. “Wait, that sounded wrong.”

“Or,” Cynthia Rose mused. “You’re taking this as your one chance to romance her…Oh my god.” Realization dawned on her. “You still have a crush on Posen!”

“I don’t know what you’re talking about.” Stacie found it was a perfect time to look at her nails.

“You still have a crush on her after two years? I thought you were past that. Girl, you are so gone.”

CR looked pointedly at Stacie in silent challenge while she continued not to make any eye contact. They stayed like that for a moment before Stacie broke.

“Okay fine you caught me! Yes I still like her and it’s not like she’s the easiest person to ask on a date.” She threw her hands up in surrender.

“So instead, you just talk about all your dates loudly, mess with her entire organization system, and engage in various bets with her? That’s some real playground stuff, Conrad. You’ve never been the type to pine over someone, so what’s gotten you pulling on the reins with this one?”

Stacie snatched CR’s beer from the counter and took a swig. “Well, Aubrey’s not just someone.”

Cynthia Rose’s smile grew. “Yeah, you’ve got it so bad…”

“Shut up.”

Out of the corner of her eye, Stacie saw Aubrey return from the bathroom and immediately jumped up. “Love to continue chatting CR, but got a date to humiliate.” Stacie said, emphasizing the last word.

“You mean, romance.” CR muttered into her beer that she took back, but Stacie was already gone.

She grabbed Aubrey’s hand, dragging her up onto the mini stage at the front of the bar, despite her protests. Stacie stepped up to the mic propped up on a stand, tapping it to test if it was on. Satisfied, she stood up straight to address the crowd of her fellow coworkers.

“Welcome everyone, to Barden’s inaugural karaoke night!” Stacie announced, and Aubrey whipped her head to look at her in mortification.

“No you didn’t.”

Stacie grinned wickedly. “All songs tonight with be duets with our lovely Aubrey Posen here as your partner. And so, we will be starting off the night with me and her singing ‘Love Is An Open Door’ from Frozen.”

Cheers erupted as the unmistakable opening notes of the song started, and Stacie passed an extra mic to Aubrey. “You’re Hans! Don’t miss your entrance!”

Stacie started speaking on her cue. “Okay, can I just say something crazy?”

“You’re the worst.”

“Not the words, do better.” Stacie quickly said before her next lines. “All my life has been a series of doors in my face. And then suddenly I bump into you.”

Aubrey resigned with a dramatic sigh. “I was thinking the same thing! Cause like…”

Stacie was pleasantly surprised when Aubrey started singing, as she was actually really good. She made a mental note to ask about it later, and also to tease her that the resident “no-fun-allowed” Posen knew all the words to the Disney song.

Just as Stacie was about to start the second song (she queued up “Take Me Or Leave Me” from Rent), she heard a “Conrad!” calling from her side.

“Chloe, tag in!” She shouted to her friend as she jumped off the stage and walked over to see what her captain wanted.

“What’s up?”

“One of your informants called about a shipment happening tonight, and since it’s your case, I’m going to need you to stake out the spot.”

Stacie flashed through all the date ideas she still had planned (“how romantic” Cynthia Rose’s voice echoed annoyingly in her head) and hesitated. “Normally Captain, I’d be all down for this but I really was counting on a night of making Aubrey miserable, and I think rescheduling it would lose the first date magic.”

Gail looked unimpressed. “This isn’t up for negotiation.”

“Well, as long as I can bring Posen with me.”

Gail nodded. “Just get it done.”

Stacie turned around to Aubrey singing a duet of “For Good” with Chloe, looking like she was maybe enjoying herself despite her pinched face. “Darling! Duty calls!”

Aubrey cut off a high note with a relieved “Oh thank god” and hurried off the stage, following Stacie to the exit.

“I didn’t know you could actually sing.”

“There’s a lot you don’t know about me.”

They sat in Stacie’s car, observing the entrance of the warehouse in front of them, watching for any movement that might be deemed suspicious. Aubrey finally got to change out of the hideous pink dress and into her spare blouse and dress pants at the precinct, denying Stacie’s offer for the clothes stashed in her car’s trunk.

(“Those are the clothes you’re choosing to change into? When I gave you sweatpants and sweatshirts as options?? I’ll just wear them myself then.”)

“Like how you’re also apparently a closet Disney fan?” Stacie teased.

“I have some taste what can I say?” Aubrey shrugged.

They settled back into quiet, just looking ahead, comfortable in each others presence.

“Hey, can you pass me my binoculars? I think they might in the glovebox.”

Aubrey opened the compartment, and reached in to lift the binoculars to give to Stacie, who put them right to her eyes.

Still curious about what kind of things might be in her coworker’s car, Aubrey snooped through the glovebox, riffling through what seemed like important documents and insurance cards, and finding a massive bundle of something bound together with rubber bands.

Stacie looked over in mild panic at the sound of rustling papers. “Oh wait, don’t look through…that.”

Aubrey took out the object, eyebrows raises in inquiry. “Why do you just have a batch of pens in your car?”

Stacie turned back forward, and Aubrey could have sworn she saw a blush rise on Stacie’s cheeks as she put the binoculars back to her face.

“Just in case the roses actually went super poorly, I’d have a backup plan. Since you like that brand of pen in all those colors, or something.” Stacie said defensively.

“You noticed what kind of pens I like.” Aubrey stated, impressed.

“I’m a detective, I wouldn’t be qualified for my job if I didn’t.”

Aubrey smiled softly. “For the record, I actually did appreciate the roses. That was actually pretty romantic.”

“Shut up.” Stacie retorted for the second time that night, but with no malice. “Hey I think I see a door open to that building over there, wanna look if we can get to the roof for a better view?”

Aubrey squinted. “Looking at your car from this far away, is it red or orange?”

They sat on a stack of wooden planks as their roof lookout spot. Stacie was right, it was a much better vantage point than her car; they were able to get a wider view of the area.

Stacie chuckled. “It’s technically red, but the idiot I paid to do the paint job didn’t do so great, so it’s been peeling steadily forever, and thus you can see the orange under.”

Aubrey looked sternly at Stacie. “Your car still has manual roll up windows. And whenever I’m not hearing about the new date you’ve taken in the car, inappropriately at work I might add, I’m hearing about you bringing it to the shop again. It probably breaks down every month, why do you keep it around?"

Stacie was silent for a minute before slowly starting to answer.

“I have two older brothers, one of which is a doctor, and the other an engineer, and each of them probably make about five times my salary now.” Stacie admitted. “Before joining the police force, I figured that was the kind of thing that I should do, and it was what my parents wanted me to do. So, I originally went to school for chemical engineering, and got a job out graduation at Boston Scientific doing research, but it didn’t really feel right, so I quit after a year and enrolled in the academy.”

“That’s quite a big jump.” Aubrey remarked. “Why police specifically?”

“I watched a bunch of police and crime dramas growing up and always thought they were super cool. And I dunno,” she shrugged. “I guess I wanted to help people too, not just work where I’d make the most money.”

“Noble cause.” Aubrey said, genuinely meaning it.

“And I bought the car when I got my first police paycheck, as a kind of ‘fuck you’ to my family, since they weren’t exactly the most supportive with my choice.” Stacie turned to face Aubrey. “I’m assuming my Mustang has nothing on that sleek Subaru of yours, were you gonna just torch it?”

“Nope.” Aubrey popped the ‘p’ at the end of the word. “I was going to test out if it actually is a chick magnet, since I’m not sure if the rumors are true…” she teased.

Stacie put a hand on her heart in mock offense. “How dare you! I can give you plenty of proof thank you very much.”

“Okay, disgusting.”

Stacie laughed, a wonderful sound to Aubrey’s ears. “I wasn’t even thinking there, for once.” She looked thoughtful. “What about you? Why’d you go into police work? Your dad?”

Everyone knew New York Police Commissioner Posen. “He wants me to be commissioner like him someday,” Aubrey sighed. “But lately, I’m not sure that’s something I want. Like, he was never home when I was growing up, and when—if I have a family someday, I think I’d want to actually spend time with them. I want to make it to captain someday, but further from that I don’t have any plans.” She confessed, then looked apologetic. “Sorry that’s not really something I’ve ever really talked about with anyone.”

Stacie put her hand over Aubrey’s, the support grounding her. “I really appreciate you telling me. I honestly do.”

And suddenly Aubrey realized just how close they were, hands touching and faces just inches apart. She thought she saw Stacie’s eyes flicker down to her lips, but before she can contemplate it any further, they’re jolted out of their reverie by the sound of tires on the concrete nine stories below. They pull apart immediately, and Aubrey weirdly felt a loss of the warmth of Stacie’s hand on hers.

“Shit,” Stacie mutters under her breath, shaking her head as if to brush off some intruding thought.

Aubrey felt the similar need to clear cobwebs from her mind. Was the date real? Was Stacie about to…

“You good there Posen?” Aubrey looked over to see Stacie with her hand out. Did she want to hold hands…?

“I asked for the binocs?”

Right. Of course. The binoculars. Professional setting.

She handed them over and Stacie peered through them at the truck below, now with a couple of men filing out the front.

“Those look like our guys. Wanna go bust them?”

“Does Pilot sell fountain pens? What’s the plan?”

“I’m going to take that as a yes. Follow my lead.”

They arrested the two guys without problem, catching them off guard by pretending to be a lost, slightly tipsy, couple. After bringing them in, as it was late, they decided to just head home instead of rejoining everyone at Barden’s.

Stacie followed Aubrey up the stairs to her apartment, one hand on her lower back over her blouse. It pulled away once they got to their destination though, and Aubrey immediately missed the contact.

“You know you don’t have to walk with me to my door, I’m not going to get snatched in the five steps from your car.” Aubrey said in amusement.

“You never know! And also it’s just date etiquette.”

“Wasn’t this supposed to be the worst date ever?” Aubrey’s eyebrow quirked.

“Some rules can’t be broken even for bad dates.”

“Like walking someone back to their door.”

“Exactly.”

Aubrey actually had a much better night than she expected, not that she would admit it. It might have helped that the stakeout cut off any of Stacie’s other plans, probably each more humiliating than singing musical duets in front of all her coworkers.

“Right, and speaking of rules,” Stacie started in a serious tone, “did you manage to follow the only one of tonight?” Aubrey looked confused, so she continued. “The one where you can’t fall in love with me.”

“Ah yes,” Aubrey nodded in solemn recognition. “Of course. It was really hard, but I think I managed.”

A flash of emotion (disappointment?) flickered on Stacie’s face but quickly disappeared. “Well, good.” She glanced at her watch. “And, it’s officially past midnight, so I guess you’re off the hook, Posen. See you at work Monday.” Before Aubrey could react, Stacie placed a soft kiss to her cheek, and whispered a “bye” a hairbreadth away from Aubrey’s mouth, pairing it with the sweetest smile, before turning and walking back to her car.

As Aubrey watched Stacie’s back get smaller, she brought a hand to where Stacie’s lips touched, the skin seemingly electrified.

Maybe she did break the “not falling in love” rule.

#two days late sorry!!#Staubrey Week #Staubrey Week 2019 #Day 3 #Workplace AU #Stacie Conrad #Aubrey Posen #Pitch Perfect #fic #mine

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timeisacephalopod · 7 years ago

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4, 6, 9, 10, 12: Rhodey and Bucky, 15, 16, 21, 23, 27, 29, 30, 32, 35, 37, 43, 46, 50, 54: Tony

You know that meme where the white woman is looking at the math overlaying the picture in confusion? That was me when I got this ask because instead of reading the fucking questions on the ask meme I put up I decided ‘Rhodey and Bucky’ were some other thing? Long story short I’m a moron lmao.

4- Favorite actress

Tbh I don’t pay much attention to the actresses and thus I almost missed out of saying Tessa Thompson like some kind of savage. I appreciate how hard she worked to try and make Valkyrie bisexual and also her character was basically the only thing I liked about Thor: Ragnarok (controversial opinion, I know).

6- Favorite quote

“Trust my rage” from Thor The Dark World. This line is so visceral and poetic. Like shit son, the rest of the movie was eh, but that line? Fucking amazing, and Hiddleston’s delivery of it is top tier bois.

9- BROTP

Pepper and Tony. I’ve never seen the romance between them, and in my opinion it was there because it seems movies are fucking incapable of not having a romance subplot (no hate to pepperony shippers either, everyone likes what they like and the entire point of fic is to circumvent canon anyways). But as a friendship pairing these two are excellent- they’re a great team, they understand each other on a fundamental level, and their friendship dynamic is interesting. Also, to me, I think their relationship is more compelling without the romance.

10- How did I discovered Marvel?

I’ve mentioned this in other asks but I had a friend make me watch Avengers and I didn’t like it lmao. I only gave it another show two years later and started from the beginning with CA:TFA and then I got into it. I’m not sure what changed or why I took to it later, especially when I found the later half of TFA to be kind of boring (I love Skinny!Steve ok) but it happened and when WS came out I saw it in theaters. From then I was hooked.

12- Make me choose between two characters: Rhodey and Bucky

Damn, I’d rather not have to choose, you suck! But, for the sake of the ask, Rhodey. As a character he’s better constructed, has his own story and motivation outside Tony, he’s funny, and while he has his moments (that I mostly blame on shit writing) he’s a great friend. I honestly wish that we could get a whole movie about him doing things but I did hear some rumors not long ago about Marvel looking into making Iron Man 4 an Ironheart movie and the only thing that would make that better is if Rhodey were her mentor (I literally wrote a story about this once).

Anyways, although I write Bucky a lot more than I do Rhodey I do prefer his character in a more fundamental way simply because he’s more fleshed out. Plus I love male friendships that are actually good and James Rhodey Rhodes is the God Tier of friends. The man spent 3 fucking months combing the desert for his disaster friend and that’s some damn dedication. Especially when you know people must have gotten real damn annoyed with him using resources and shit. But that action alone tells you everything you need to know about him and none of it is bad. I love Rhodey, seriously.

15- Top 5 ships

Tony/T’Challa

Tony/ Bucky

Tony/ Stephen

Tony/Rhodey

And, because I feel compelled to put a ship that doesn’t have Tony in it Steve/Howard

Honorable Mentions: Tony/ Peter Q

16- Top 5 villains

THANOS

Erik Killmonger

Loki

Justin Hammer (he’s just so absurd)

Ghost (from Ant Man and The Wasp)

Seriously, this was hard because Marvel’s villains are shit. They’re all the same one dimensional ‘they’re evil’ type characters.

21- Dream crossover

Basically any urban fantasy world I loved in my teens and the MCU. I’ve written a Vampire Academy/ MCU crossover but I’d love to write a House of Night crossover (I hate the characters in HoN, but love the world ok don’t judge), and a Shadowhunters crossover. I’ve seen some cool stuff with Teen Wolf being crossed over too though.

23- Most layered character

Tony fucking easily. His arcs are always the most compelling (or close to it), he’s had the most character development, and his trauma plays out so beautifully on screen. I’d argue Steve is a close second post WS, but the MCU will never let his character play out the development he’s gotten because they’ll never let Steve be less than perfect, which pisses me off. Otherwise his transition from a solider who wants to do right by his country to a cynical man who doesn’t know how to process the new world he’s been tossed into or how to handle a situation in which the morally correct solution isn’t abundantly obvious would be a compelling watch. But its been consistently proven that Steve will never get a real realization of his new characterization because ~~perfection~~.

27- Favorite moment

Shiiiit. That’s a lot of material and because I have a bad memory I’m going to go with ‘don’t call us plucky, we don’t know what it means’ because that was hilarious lmao.

29- Saddest moment

Shit boi, probs a toss up between Peter P’s death and Bucky’s. Peter’s is obvious but Bucky fucking dusting in front of the dude who spent so long trying to find him again in an effort to feel, even if its just for a moment, like he’s home again? Sad af. I felt awful for Steve there.

30- Most beautiful scene

Pretty much all of Black Panther is a visual treat, but I’m especially fond of T’Challa in the dream world with his father. That scene was so beautiful, and all the colors? Amazing. Only Guardians of the Galaxy even compares visually and even then Wakanda’s beauty has something else to offer that space doesn’t.

32- Actor/Actress I’d like to be cast by Marvel

As mentioned above I pay literally zero attention to actors- its a personal choice not to spend time being a voyeur into other people’s lives and treat them like commodities to consume because I loath celebrity culture (and this isn’t a slam to anyone who enjoys it, its more a slam to people who over engage in it- ie people who care enough to send death threats or paps basically). Anyways that’s an opinion you didn’t ask for, but because of that personal opinion I have no real cast choice lmao.

35- Most boring plotline?

I love Thor but all his movies. The first movie had good personal growth but eh. The second was an ok movie but forgettable (aside from my fav line from Loki in it), and unpopular opinion I hated Thor Ragarok. I mean it was funny. That’s all the good I have to say about it really. Though I have no idea why every comedy writers room is not leaping at a chance to get Taikia on their staff because the man is a comedic genius and that’s honestly being impolite to his comedy skill. Still, as much as I like Thor I didn’t really love any of his movies and all his villains were so fucking boring, even Loki wasn’t that interesting till Avengers. Poor Thor, MCU did him dirty :(

37- Most well done character death

Peter P. I give this to him over Bucky because apparently most of that scene was improv? I cried over my spider son ok. There’s someone who was in that theater with me who heard me sob out ‘my spider son’ and went home to tell people about it. That shit was heartbreaking. Second runner up goes to T’Challa but I didn’t think it was well done, I just thought it was sad as shit for Okoye and I love her so it was upsetting to see her lose her king :(

43- Characters I wish they’ve met

I don’t understand the question :( I think it’s supposed to be ‘characters you wish would met’ but all my wishes were granted in IW. Tony and Stephen met and so did Tony and Quill. I shipped Tony with both characters before they’d interacted on screen so it was nice to see :) Rhodey and Quill would be a fucking hoot together though, throw in Okoye and Valkyrie and you’ve got a bunch of drunk overpowered people telling war stories or, in Quill’s case, stories about that time he stole some shit.

46- What characters outside of the Mcu I’d like to see in a Marvel movie?

Ironheart, but I heard rumors they might do a movie with her. I think it’d be fun to have Riri in screen, especially since Peter is around her age. I’d also love to see a Young Avengers movie or a Kamala Khan/ Ms. Marvel movie though apparently there’s rumors of that too.

50- Characters that deserved better

Tony, Bucky, and Steve but all for different reasons. Steve deserves his fall from grace and not because I think he should suffer, but because keeping him on his pedestal means he’ll never be able to fully process his trauma and move on. Allow him to fall, allow him to know he isn’t perfect, then allow him to know that that’s ok, he doesn’t need to be, he just needs to do the best he can and then allow him a proper chance to move on.

Bucky because he deserves to be a character outside of Steve and, to a much smaller extent, Tony. Let the man have a movie about self actualization after trauma, let him figure out he isn’t Steve Roger’s best friend anymore (and that Steve isn’t really Steve anymore) and that that’s ok, they can both accept themselves as they exist now and still be friends. Let him develop hobbies outside of Steve, have him bond with Rhodey, he needs a good friend. Shit, let him bond with Sam too. Give me a buddy movie where Sam lowkey therapies Bucky into being a fuckin person again and Bucky finds some way to repay him. He can go beat up Scott for that time he kicked Sam’s ass lol.

And Tony because the MCU makes fuckin everything his fault, even stuff that only somewhat involves him. They drive him to an absolute breaking point and then have the characters get pissed that he broke? The only one that I found acceptable was Pepper and that’s mostly because I understand why she’d be freaked out both by Tony’s obsessive behavior and by nearly being eaten by one of his suits. She had her own shit she was dealing with post Mandarin so her I understand. Everyone else though? Mostly makes no sense. Why are you surprised that a person snaps when they’re pushed to the limit? That’s how people work lmao but that’s also because the writers make an active, and completely senseless, choice to have the characters react like Tony’s mental health problems are a choice he made and now he has to suffer because he has PTSD or some shit. Idk, but AoU was the worst for it, and, to a lesser extend IM3 but I refuse to believe Rhodey would really tell Tony to get over himself after a panic attack- the man is emotionally intelligent ok, IM3 did Rhodey dirty.

54- 5 things I love most about: Tony

Tony’s sheer level of wonder at the world around him- the look on his face in IM2 when he rediscovers that element perfectly encapsulates how he feels about learning and moving forward. (Flipside is that sometimes he has trouble staying in the present and that causes problems).

The way he tries no matter how badly he fails. Bih, if my random tests on a rock nearly ended the world I’d out and out throw myself off a cliff. Instead he accepts his part in it (and more) and chooses to try and make the best of it. He’s done that from the moment he got snatched by terrorists in Afghanistan. That in itself is basically a superpower.

His humor. I, too, hide my emotional distress under jokes so I can relate to being a lil bit of an asshole to hide how I feel. (Flipside: people don’t think he takes stuff seriously- hence Steve in the Avengers).

His mental health problems. Ok this one is weird, but I can appreciate that someone drew up a hero that isn’t based in perfection, but who tries to get there anyways. But the dude has problems, a lot of problems, and they aren’t always pretty. But they are complicated and it is compelling to watch.

The way he builds relationships. Its unconventional- Rhodey is probably the only person he’s super close to that he met in a normal way. Happy and Pepper were both people that worked for him and instead of just being their boss he took the time to learn about them and get to know them on a personal level. Obviously he ended up engaged to Pepper, but a guy who knows what his driver’s favorite show is and why he likes it is a good dude. He’d be nice to wait staff in restaurants.

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Virginia Woolf: Mrs Dalloway in Bond Street

Virginia Woolf

Mrs Dalloway

Mrs Dalloway said she would buy the gloves herself.

Big Ben was striking as she stepped out into the street. It was eleven o'clock and the unused hour was fresh as if issued to children on a beach. But there was something solemn in the deliberate swing of the repeated strokes; something stirring in the murmur of wheels and the shuffle of footsteps.

No doubt they were not all bound on errands of happiness. There is much more to be said about us than that we walk the streets of Westminster. Big Ben too is nothing but steel rods consumed by rust were it not for the care of H.M.'s Office of Works. Only for Mrs Dalloway the moment was complete; for Mrs Dalloway June was fresh. A happy childhood--and it was not to his daughters only that Justin Parry had seemed a fine fellow (weak of course on the Bench); flowers at evening, smoke rising; the caw of rooks falling from ever so high, down down through the October air - there is nothing to take the place of childhood. A leaf of mint brings it back: or a cup with a blue ring.

Poor little wretches, she sighed, and pressed forward. Oh, right under the horses' noses, you little demon! and there she was left on the kerb stretching her hand out, while Jimmy Dawes grinned on the further side.

A charming woman, poised, eager, strangely white-haired for her pink cheeks, so Scope Purvis, C.C.B., saw her as he hurried to his office. She stiffened a little, waiting for burthen's van to pass. Big Ben struck the tenth; struck the eleventh stroke. The leaden circles dissolved in the air. Pride held her erect, inheriting, handing on, acquainted with discipline and with suffering. How people suffered, how they suffered, she thought, thinking of Mrs Foxcroft at the Embassy last night decked with jewels, eating her heart out, because that nice boy was dead, and now the old Manor House (Durtnall's van passed) must go to a cousin.

'Good morning to you!' said Hugh Whitbread raising his hat rather extravagantly by the china shop, for they had known each other as children. 'Where are you off to?'

'I love walking in London,' said Mrs Dalloway. 'Really it's better than walking in the country!'

'We've just come up,' said Hugh Whitbread. 'Unfortunately to see doctors.'

'Milly?' said Mrs Dalloway, instantly compassionate.

'Out of sorts,' said Hugh Whitbread. 'That sort of thing. Dick all right?'

'First rate!' said Clarissa.

Of course, she thought, walking on, Milly is about my age--fifty, fifty-two. So it is probably that, Hugh's manner had said so, said it perfectly--dear old Hugh, thought Mrs Dalloway, remembering with amusement, with gratitude, with emotion, how shy, like a brother--one would rather die than speak to one's brother--Hugh had always been, when he was at Oxford, and came over, and perhaps one of them (drat the thing!) couldn't ride. How then could women sit in Parliament? How could they do things with men? For there is this extra-ordinarily deep instinct, something inside one; you can't get over it; it's no use trying; and men like Hugh respect it without our saying it, which is what one loves, thought Clarissa, in dear old Hugh.

She had passed through the Admiralty Arch and saw at the end of the empty road with its thin trees Victoria's white mound, Victoria's billowing motherliness, amplitude and homeliness, always ridiculous, yet how sublime, thought Mrs Dalloway, remembering Kensington Gardens and the old lady in horn spectacles and being told by Nanny to stop dead still and bow to the Queen. The flag flew above the Palace. The King and Queen were back then. Dick had met her at lunch the other day--a thoroughly nice woman. It matters so much to the poor, thought Clarissa, and to the soldiers. A man in bronze stood heroically on a pedestal with a gun on her left hand side--the South African war. It matters, thought Mrs Dalloway walking towards Buckingham Palace. There it stood four-square, in the broad sunshine, uncompromising, plain. But it was character, she thought; something inborn in the race; what Indians respected. The Queen went to hospitals, opened bazaars--the Queen of England, thought Clarissa, looking at the Palace. Already at this hour a motor car passed out at the gates; soldiers saluted; the gates were shut. And Clarissa, crossing the road, entered the Park, holding herself upright.

June had drawn out every leaf on the trees. The mothers of Westminster with mottled breasts gave suck to their young. Quite respectable girls lay stretched on the grass. An elderly man, stooping very stiffly, picked up a crumpled paper, spread it out flat and flung it away. How horrible! Last night at the Embassy Sir Dighton had said, 'If 1 want a fellow to hold my horse, I have only to put up my hand.' But the religious question is far more serious than the economic, Sir Dighton had said, which she thought extraordinarily interesting, from a man like Sir Dighton. 'Oh, the country will never know what it has lost,' he had said, talking of his own accord, about dear Jack Stewart.

She mounted the little hill lightly. The air stirred with energy. Messages were passing from the Fleet to the Admiralty. Piccadilly and Arlington Street and the Mall seemed to chafe the very air in the Park and lift its leaves hotly, brilliantly, upon waves of that divine vitality which Clarissa loved. To ride; to dance; she had adored all that. Or going long walks in the country, talking, about books, what to do with one's life, for young people were amazingly priggish--oh, the things one had said! But one had conviction. Middle age is the devil. People like Jack'll never know that, she thought; for he never once thought of death, never, they said, knew he was dying. And now can never mourn--how did it go?--a head grown grey . . . From the contagion of the world's slow stain, . . . have drunk their cup a round or two before. . . . From the contagion of the world's slow stain! She held herself upright.

But how jack would have shouted! Quoting Shelley, in Piccadilly, 'You want a pin,' he would have said. He hated frumps. 'My God Clarissa! My God Clarissa!'--she could hear him now at the Devonshire House party, about poor Sylvia Hunt in her amber necklace and that dowdy old silk. Clarissa held herself upright for she had spoken aloud and now she was in Piccadilly, passing the house with the slender green columns, and the balconies; passing club windows full of newspapers; passing old Lady Burdett-Coutts' house where the glazed white parrot used to hang; and Devonshire House, without its gilt leopards; and Claridge's, where she must remember Dick wanted her to leave a card on Mrs Jepson or she would be gone. Rich Americans can be very charming. There was St James's Palace; like a child's game with bricks; and now--she had passed Bond Street--she was by Hatchard's book shop. The stream was endless--endless endless. Lords, Ascot, Hurlingham--what was it? What a duck, she thought, looking at the frontispiece of some book of memoirs spread wide in the bow window, Sir Joshua perhaps or Romney; arch, bright, demure; the sort of girl--like her own Elizabeth--the only real sort of girl. And there was that absurd book, Soapy Sponge, which Jim used to quote by the yard; and Shakespeare's Sonnets. She knew them by heart. Phil and she had argued all day about the Dark Lady, and Dick had said straight out at dinner that night that he had never heard of her. Really, she had married him for that! He had never read Shakespeare! There must be some little cheap book she could buy for Milly--Cranford of course! Was there ever anything so enchanting as the cow in petticoats? If only people had that sort of humour, that sort of self-respect now, thought Clarissa, for she remembered the broad pages; the sentences ending; the characters--how one talked about them as if they were real. For all the great things one must go to the past, she thought. From the contagion of the world's slow stain . . . Fear no more the heat o' the sun. . . . And now can never mourn, can never mourn, she repeated, her eyes straying over the window; for it ran in her head; the test of great poetry; the moderns had never written anything one wanted to read about death, she thought; and turned.

Omnibuses joined motor cars; motor cars vans; vans taxicabs, taxicabs motor cars--here was an open motor car with a girl, alone. Up till four, her feet tingling, I know, thought Clarissa, for the girl looked washed out, half asleep, in the corner of the car after the dance. And another car came; and another. No! No! No! Clarissa smiled good-naturedly. The fat lady had taken every sort of trouble, but diamonds! orchids! at this hour of the morning! No! No! No! The excellent policeman would, when the time came, hold up his hand. Another motor car passed. How utterly unattractive! Why should a girl of that age paint black round her eyes? And a young man, with a girl, at this hour, when the country-- The admirable policeman raised his hand and Clarissa acknowledging his sway, taking her time, crossed, walked towards Bond Street; saw the narrow crooked street, the yellow banners; the thick notched telegraph wires stretched across the sky.

A hundred years ago her great-great-grandfather, Seymour Parry, who ran away with Conway's daughter, had walked down Bond Street. Down Bond Street the Parrys had walked for a hundred years, and might have met the Dalloways (Leighs on the mother's side) going up. Her father got his clothes from Hill's. There was a roll of cloth in the window, and here just one jar on a black table, incredibly expensive; like the thick pink salmon on the ice block at the fish monger's. The jewels were exquisite--pink and orange stars, paste, Spanish, she thought, and chains of old gold; starry buckles, little brooches which had been worn on sea-green satin by ladies with high head-dresses. But no good looking! One must economise. She must go on past the picture dealer's where one of the odd French pictures hung, as if people had thrown confetti--pink and blue--for a joke. If you had lived with pictures (and it's the same with books and music) thought Clarissa, passing the Aeolian Hall, you can't be taken in by a joke.

The river of Bond Street was clogged. There, like a Queen at a tournament, raised, regal, was Lady Bexborough. She sat in her carriage, upright, alone, looking through her glasses. The white glove was loose at her wrist. She was in black, quite shabby, yet, thought Clarissa, how extraordinarily it tells, breeding, self-respect, never saying a word too much or letting people gossip; an astonishing friend; no one can pick a hole in her after all these years, and now, there she is, thought Clarissa, passing the Countess who waited powdered, perfectly still, and Clarissa would have given anything to be like that, the mistress of Clarefield, talking politics, like a man. But she never goes anywhere, thought Clarissa, and it's quite useless to ask her, and the carriage went on and Lady Bexborough was borne past like a Queen at a tournament, though she had nothing to live for and the old man is failing and they say she is sick of it all, thought Clarissa and the tears actually rose to her eyes as she entered the shop.

'Good morning,' said Clarissa in her charming voice. 'Gloves,' she said with her exquisite friendliness and putting her bag on the counter began, very slowly, to undo the buttons. 'White gloves,' she said. 'Above the elbow,' and she looked straight into the shop-woman's face--but this was not the girl she remembered? She looked quite old. 'These really don't fit,' said Clarissa. The shop-girl looked at them. 'Madame wears bracelets?' Clarissa spread out her fingers. 'Perhaps it's my rings.' And the girl took the grey gloves with her to the end of the counter.

Yes, thought Clarissa, if it's the girl I remember, she's twenty years older. . .. There was only one other customer, sitting sideways at the counter, her elbow poised, her bare hand drooping, vacant; like a figure on a Japanese fan, thought Clarissa, too vacant perhaps, yet some men would adore her. The lady shook her head sadly. Again the gloves were too large. She turned round the glass. 'Above the wrist,' she reproached the grey-headed woman; who looked and agreed.

They waited; a clock ticked; Bond Street hummed, dulled, distant; the woman went away holding gloves. 'Above the wrist,' said the lady, mournfully, raising her voice. And she would have to order chairs, ices, flowers, and cloak-room tickets, thought Clarissa. The people she didn't want would come; the others wouldn't. She would stand by the door. They sold stockings--silk stockings. A lady is known by her gloves and her shoes, old Uncle William used to say. And through the hanging silk stockings quivering silver she looked at the lady, sloping shouldered, her hand drooping, her bag slipping, her eyes vacantly on the floor. It would be intolerable if dowdy women came to her party! Would one have liked Keats if he had worn red socks? Oh, at last--she drew into the counter and it flashed into her mind:

'Do you remember before the war you had gloves with pearl buttons?'

'French gloves, Madame?'

'Yes, they were French,' said Clarissa. The other lady rose very sadly and took her bag, and looked at the gloves on the counter. But they were all too large--always too large at the wrist.

'With pearl buttons,' said the shop-girl, who looked ever so much older. She split the lengths of tissue paper apart on the counter. With pearl buttons, thought Clarissa, perfectly simple--how French!

'Madame's hands are so slender,' said the shop-girl, drawing the glove firmly, smoothly, down over her rings. And Clarissa looked at her arm in the looking-glass. The glove hardly came to the elbow. Were there others half an inch longer? Still it seemed tiresome to bother her perhaps the one day in the month, thought Clarissa, when it's an agony to stand. 'Oh, don't bother,' she said. But the gloves were brought.

'Don't you get fearfully tired,' she said in her charming voice, 'standing? When d'you get your holiday?'

'In September, Madame, when we're not so busy.'

When we're in the country thought Clarissa. Or shooting. She has a fortnight at Brighton. In some stuffy lodging. The landlady takes the sugar. Nothing would be easier than to send her to Mrs Lumley's right in the country (and it was on the tip of her tongue). But then she remembered how on their honeymoon Dick had shown her the folly of giving impulsively. It was much more important, he said, to get trade with China. Of course he was right. And she could feel the girl wouldn't like to be given things. There she was in her place. So was Dick. Selling gloves was her job. She had her own sorrows quite separate, 'and now can never mourn, can never mourn,' the words ran in her head. 'From the contagion of the world's slow stain,' thought Clarissa holding her arm stiff, for there are moments when it seems utterly futile (the glove was drawn off leaving her arm flecked with powder)--simply one doesn't believe, thought Clarissa, any more in God.

The traffic suddenly roared; the silk stockings brightened. A customer came in.

'White gloves,' she said, with some ring in her voice that Clarissa remembered.

It used, thought Clarissa, to be so simple. Down down through the air came the caw of the rooks. When Sylvia died, hundreds of years ago, the yew hedges looked so lovely with the diamond webs in the mist before early church. But if Dick were to die tomorrow, as for believing in God--no, she would let the children choose, but for herself, like Lady Bexborough, who opened the bazaar, they say, with the telegram in her hand--Roden, her favourite, killed--she would go on. But why, if one doesn't believe? For the sake of others, she thought, taking the glove in her hand. The girl would be much more unhappy if she didn't believe.

'Thirty shillings,' said the shop-woman. 'No, pardon me Madame, thirty-five. The French gloves are more.'

For one doesn't live for oneself, thought Clarissa.

And then the other customer took a glove, tugged it, and it split.

'There!' she exclaimed .

'A fault of the skin,' said the grey-headed woman hurriedly. 'Sometimes a drop of acid in tanning. Try this pair, Madame.'

'But it's an awful swindle to ask two pound ten!'

Clarissa looked at the lady; the lady looked at Clarissa.

'Gloves have never been quite so reliable since the war,' said the shop-girl, apologising, to Clarissa.

But where had she seen the other lady?--elderly, with a frill under her chin; wearing a black ribbon for gold eyeglasses; sensual, clever, like a Sargent drawing. How one can tell from a voice when people are in the habit, thought Clarissa, of making other people--'It's a shade too tight,' she said--obey. The shop-woman went off again. Clarissa was left waiting. Fear no more she repeated, playing her finger on the counter. Fear no more the heat o' the sun. Fear no more she repeated. There were little brown spots on her arm. And the girl crawled like a snail. Thou thy worldly task hast done. Thousands of young men had died that things might go on. At last! Half an rich above the elbow; pearl buttons; five and a quarter. My dear slow coach, thought Clarissa, do you think I can sit here the whole morning? Now you'll take twenty-five minutes to bring me my change!

There was a violent explosion in the street outside. The shop-women cowered behind the counters. But Clarissa, sitting very upright, smiled at the other lady. 'Miss Anstruther!' she exclaimed.

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