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me and my friend oftentimes talk about tfp ratchet. and by "talk" i mean engage in direct sexual harassment. anyways, i made grandpa squirt
#valveplug#he's my friend's favourite tfp transformer of course i've gotta make him squirt. for her#me? i only like him a normal amount... haha...#i definitely havent drawn him pregnant and laying eggs and stuck in a wall... nooooo#also yeah in the first one that's megatron. i just needed a distinct pair of hands. not that i would have drawn them well#most of my artistic talent was used up by that point#but whatever. we're here for robot pussy not robot hands#tfp#tfp ratchet#transformers#oh holy shit i accidentally posted this. was gonna keep it in the drafts until i could find the courage to post but#well. here it is
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Alice is an episode where you can tell they had absolutely no idea what they were doing with Tom at this point. his character kinda ran his course, so then they put him with B'Elanna, but then they got together and they clearly had no idea where to go from there, so he hasn't been around all that much, and then they decided to do an episode about him and they went "what does Tom like? cars? ships? what if he had a toxic relationship with a mommy domme personification of a ship" and then they wrote it and filmed it
#star trek: voyager#tom paris#insane episode#absolutely insane#its insane to me that they cant think of shit for Tom to do when theres a lot of story potential just with his daddy issues alone#or Tom and B'Elanna stories that explore their relationship more#or even more Tom and Harry episodes that explore their friendship#but yeah he really just kinda. runs his course and they stop doing shit with him#and then they put him with B'Elanna and that breathes some life into him#but now we're stagnating again#and will continue to stagnate until we get to B'Elanna being pregnant and Tom contending with the idea of fatherhood#they were just throwing spaghetti at the wall until something stuck with him
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Sorry for the slow down around here the last few weeks, things are hectic, have some silly minecraft doodles from a few weeks ago that I never posted <3
#atlas.art#atlas.mc#silly minecraft doodles save me. save me silly minecraft doodles#i think i said this awhile ago but stuff is slowed down cause my family is moving.#it was supposed to be over quick but there was a leak in the new house and we're stuck in a hotel until the insurance finishes investigatin#i miss having good enough wifi for gvh 😔😔😔i miss herobrine my buddy herobrine. and my infinitely unfinished base#but yeah uhhhh fic posting schedule /should/ stay in tact. art is either gonna stay slow#or ramp up wildly as i try to outrun boredom and the looming imminent death of my pen battery#we'll see#but uhhhhh asks are always open y'know <333
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im literally fucked
#fuckass alarm didnt go off despite me double checking it yesterday#which meant i didnt get up til after 7:45#which meant my roommate is already in the (regularly scheduled) throes of getting ready#WHICH MEANS i cant leave the house until the bathroom is free (need to piss + brush teeth)#so im stuck with my class starting in 20 minutes :/#& of all the fucking days for my alarm to pull this shit it's the day we're going over the final in my first class#😭😭😭#jem rambles
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So I think I'm over my Obey Me Phase or like at least over Nightbringer because it's Season was shit but just you know food for thought...
Aint it funny how MC is now completely isolated from other humans/their friends/family/pets?
Like my friend and I were talking about it and like imagine MC has HUMAN/MORTAL family and friends that they talk to every time they were separated from the brothers. Like whenever the Immortals really tries them or pushes them they can go to their human friends for like a palate cleanser and a clear head/remind themselves and ground them to the reality of their situation/support from NOT blind lemmings. Like sort of remind them that they're still human and not on the same playing field as immortal Demons/Angels/Sorcerers
But now in Nightbringer that's literally stripped from them; MC has NO ONE outside of the Brothers/Immortals they're literally FORCED to bond with their circle of dysfunctionals and its like now you are stuck in that toxic friend circle because literally your circle of support hasn't been born/exist yet. That's fucking horrific.
No wonder MC is far more clingy and annoying in Nightbringer than they are in OG; Every lesson is a chip away at their original personality and sanity to replace it to the codependent creep MC is now lol.
#obey me nightbringer#obey me#obey me MC#obey me nightbringer MC#MC is so fucking annoying this is the only headcanon i can work with#No but like its so creepy because i always imagined MC balanced their human life and their Devildom life to stay rational but now#Well now with no circle of human/mortal supporters like their friends and family theyre literally forced to cling to the brothers#Its so terrifying about Nightbringer thats why Im still so upset we're stuck in the Past#Its shit like this that makes me unable to enjoy Time Travel Shit like I want to go for Boba with my friends but I cant do that#No i cant do that because I got a toxic friend group to babysit#No but like MC seems more stupid and clingy so my guess is theyre mentally unraveling to the point they just dont want to be alone#Like begging for validation and attention from anyone especially the immortals#Pray for MC theyre going into their codependent phase now#Don't worry; just like with real friends theyre not gonna break out of this for years until they get the courage#Which we all know MC doesnt have the balls to drop the brothers/Immortals like bad habits lol#Ima play with this headcanon until MC stops sucking or we go back to the future.#I miss MC's family and friends who have to live with the fact the immortals took them from them again
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Maybe some of you don't know but I already had a really difficult last 12 months that really wrecked my mental health to the worst it's been in a decade so Yeah obviously I'm super scared and depressed right now. I spent most of the year already feeling like that and now it's Worse.
#there's been multiple health scares and problems in my family including both of my grandparents nearly dying#my Grandma probably has Alzheimers but refuses to see a doctor#I was unemployed#lonely as hell#had huge problems getting the visa to move to the US#which was my last choice after being rejected by all other graduate schools#had to pay so much money#and now we're getting fascism#and I'm stuck here until next summer at least#when I will drop out of graduate school and be unemployed again#and without health insurance#macks musings
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Music Monday, Fallout OC Sheet & Enemies Meme
Tagging @imogenkol @inafieldofdaisies @voidika @cloudofbutterflies92 @josephseedismyfather @direwombat @noodlecupcakes @socially-awkward-skeleton @adelaidedrubman @raresvtm @derelictheretic @cassietrn @aceghosts @davrinsgriffons @shallow-gravy @strangefable @statichvm @carlosoliveiraa @g0dspeeed @wrathfulrook @starsandskies @ladyoriza @la-grosse-patate @thewanderer-000 @omen-speaker @alypink @shellibisshe @josephslittledeputy @skoll-sun-eater @afarcryfrommymain @strafethesesinners @turbo-virgins @florbelles @minilev @justasmolbard @softtidesworld-deactivated20241 @yokobai and @seedsplease + anyone else who want to join.
Alright last two Five Nights at Freddy's songs for this little spout of FNAF resurgence. Anyway, music for The UnTitledverse and The Silver Chronicles with templates for OCs from A Radioactive Calamity Of Love, Bombs & Gore and An Old Ballad Of Chance And Ember Hearts Trilogy. You can listen and view these below the cut:
First song is for my FNAF WIP More Than Bargained For? and it is a remix song for the Ruin DLC of Five Nights at Freddy's: Security Breach made by my one of my favorite artists The Stupendium (who previously made a FNAF: SB song). Anywho, plot relevance. Unless the next game(s) come out, the Security Breach and Ruin DLC (plus FNAF VR: HW2) are intended to be the last section of the "Lena finally destroys the Mimic and takes down Fazbear Entertainment" arc, and after that will be the "let's all get healthy coping mechanisms and therapy" epilogue. At this point, Lena's done with this shit, like, this is the culmination of everything she's had to do and go through just to finally put a final end to this tragedy, just like Henry and Mike would have wanted. For her efforts at the Pizzeria Megaplex, she gets a little brother in Gregory, a little sister in Cassie, new animatronic friends rocking their aesthetics and gives Vanessa a sapphic awakening. Her girlfriend Cassandra's going to be thrilled. [Cassandra be like: "Ah yes, just me, my girlfriend, her new gremlin brother and sister that she adopted, the alien shapeshifter she befriended with his android girlfriends, the queer mall cop she saved from the serial-killing bunny-looking malware, an animatronic daycare attendant struggling with self-identity, and the 2,000 pound bear, chicken, wolf and alligator animatronics that slay the 80s vibe... truly winning in life."] Anyway song below:
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"So you're trapped after dark in the park and you're tasked with surviving the night So your ma and your pa have departed the party and left you to fight So hang tight, to the tickets you've won And your toy laser gun Set your Faz-watch to 'fun' 'Cause it's hide and seek hunted By musical monsters Ain't that what you wanted? You came for some games and a bite The doors have all been closed but the stage has been set So on with the show, no escaping it yet The night is still young and the fun's just begun You've been played like your grave of arcade cabinets
When you've gates stormed by gators and wolves at the door When the power is down, you can't bear any more When each tick of the clock has you checking your watch And the chicken is watching you hungry for gore Oh, the fun that's in store! (Oh, the fun that's in store!)
Come get a pizza the action You want a pizza the action A tasty pizza the action You want a pizza the action
So come pick your destiny off of the menu (Fate won't wait 'til the sun comes up) Or be laid to rest in your favorite venue (Arcade to arcade, crust to crust) In this amusement park you are the Super Star We know that you'll go far but you must choose your path Those neon tubes cast shadows on a truth so dark It's up to you to battle its putrid heart So savor the taste of your last pepperoni (You've got a party pass to a backstage tour) 'Cause you're taking the stage for one night only (But will dawn chorus be your encore?)
Perhaps it's your birthday? Or your graduation? We're always the first place for a celebration Now maybe you've heard say, of some violations But it's not since Thursday we've had strangulations The go-karts are revved and the ball pit's been cleaned Montgomery's ready to tear up the scene Roxy's got the rock that's just got to be seen Just as soon as Chica's cleaned out the canteen Hear the cry of the fans as we strike up the band Now the time is at hand for the tightest of jams 'Cause it's tiny and cramped where you're hiding but Vanny Won't find you when crammed inside our leading man
When you've gates stormed by gators and wolves at the door When the power is down, you can't bear any more When the sun's gone away but the moon's come to play A more punishing game till the break of the dawn Oh, the fun that's in store! (Oh, the fun that's in store!)
Come get a pizza the action You want a pizza the action A tasty pizza the action You want a pizza the action
Darkness falls across the mall And metal mascots stalk the halls More murderous with each defect And out to prowl the pizzaplex And whomsoever shall be found By S.T.A.F.F Bot hoards that roll around Must then escape the bunny's wrath Or rot inside a stomach hatch The air is filled with pungent reek Of robots oiled in pizza grease And terror's bathed in neon light Are on the hunt to grab a bite For no amount of birthday cake Piñatas, games or fanfare Will help a lonely child survive The night at Freddy Fazbear's..."
Okay, the final(ish) FNAF song for this FNAF song streak I decided to do. Straight up, with The Living Tombstone's "This Comes From Inside", it's my favorite FNAF based song of all time. And I'm likely going to make 100 essays of why this song fits each of my stories, characters and the fandoms I'm in despite it being made for one fandom, and I will be really annoying about it. However, for now, I'll start with my Unnamed Elden Ring WIP. There are three main Tarnished OCs (with more on the side) that this WIP follows; Logan the Vagabond of No Renown (you can guess what his class is), Selke the All-Seeing Mage (she already knows of the horrors before she even experiences them), and lastly... Chiwa (...the Formless Mother favors this one). Let's focus on Logan. The Land's Between is stuck in a stalemate of a forever war, with nothing really proceeding and with no Demigods gaining the title of Elden Lord and achieving the Elden Ring, Queen Marika's Grace awakens the Tarnished that were previously exiled beyond the Fog, to call them back and do what Marika's children failed to do. Logan is amongst the earliest Tarnished to be revived (perhaps even a bit too early) and through no fault of his own, becomes one of the oldest Tarnished through process of waiting and living throughout the decades. Where he is at fault is his ambition (and his tendency to just... be a piece of shit, in general). In his youth, he was no better than the Demigods in his own hungry quest for power, glory, and reaching for riches and respect he'll never actually receive... given all the bridges he burns and the mistakes he refuses to learn from until it's way too late. Speaking of which, in his elder years, his ambition becomes... lackluster, to say the least. Considering what he learns from this whole thing, he becomes as bad as Morgott; he doesn't believe there can be anyway to proceed, so he just leaves the Lands in this state of a slow decay. The main theme of this WIP (as is the main theme of the series it comes from; The Silver Chronicles) is change. Change of self, change of system, change of environment, change of eras, change of ideologies and much, much more. With Logan, "This Comes From Inside" acknowledges what he comes to learn in his final years; nothing is going to change. With the way him and many others try (or tried) to satisfy their lust for power, they're just gonna remain in this stagnate state of despair and suffering to the expense of everyone else. If he wants to succeed, he needs to change his own inner-corruption... and if not? Things will only get worse. But the thing is, Logan won't do that, because he has no reason, no incentive, no purpose to do so in the present. He has died so many times for something he no longer believes in nor cares to do so, to the point his Grace is becoming more difficult to see every day. And when that's gone... he too will succumb to death. And even if he could get past his apathy, bitterness and selfishness, he's far from his prime nor can he do anything remotely closely impactful for anyone else. His use of Grace grows thinner too, so he only has a number of revivals before he's dead for good. So he can do nothing... unless he finds a drive to change. And he does; discovering it locked away in the darkest chasms that only the Eternal Queen Marika knew of... and sets out on a new quest with only two new goals in mind; to tempt an Outer God in a binding contract to give a fighting chance to become Elden Lord, and to ensure ownership over the Great Rune of the Unborn, no matter what it takes. I'm sure I'll expand more in either the notes or a more refined essay of ramblings. Enjoy listening below:
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"How we could have known That we're stuck in a system? There was a pre-existing dictum, programmed to do nothing else Why feel so alone When we share so much wisdom? But you set fire to the kingdom, burn it all until it melts Or else
Now this comes from inside, how long do we have to try? Now this comes from inside, and stays there until you die Now this comes from inside, how long do we have to try? No this comes from inside, and stays there until you die
Long time ago, it was all for a show Fill out wounds with a pound of salt And your reason to justify scars You can't quantify, lock us inside a vault
Now this is your fault Everything is a problem There was a poison in the air, despair is an eternal blight You're losing it all You've been blinded by stardom You think that you're alone, but we are waiting for you every night You're mine
Now this comes from inside, how long do we have to try? Now this comes from inside, and stays there until you die Now this comes from inside, what you have, I want, it's mine Now this comes from inside, and stays there until you die!"
Here is a Fallout OC Sheet Template for my Vault Dweller OC Elrand Brandt from my UnTitled Fallout WIP from my A Radioactive Calamity Of Love, Bombs & Gore series. You can find a blank template at the end too:
And finally an Enemies Meme for two characters from my An Old Ballad Of Chance And Ember Hearts Trilogy WIPs, specifically two characters named Tyche (the God of Luck) and Rouske (pronounced ROSS-SH):
And the Empty Templates are all here:
#music monday#oc template#series: the untitledverse#wip: more than bargained for?#five nights at freddy's#five nights at freddy's security breach#ruin dlc#oc: lillian “lena” elliot#series: the silver chronicles#elden ring#oc: logan the vagabond of no renown#oc: selke the all-seeing mage#oc: chiwa#trilogy: an old ballad of chance and ember hearts#oc: tyche#oc: rouske#series: a radioactive calamity of love bombs & gore#fallout#fallout (1997)#the vault dweller#oc: elrand brandt#analysing logan and “this comes from inside” lyrics because yes:#“how we could have known/that we're stuck in a system?/there was a pre-existing dictum programmed to do nothing else"#logan and the tarnished are meant to uphold marika's (really the two-fingers) golden order of the greater will which is really based on lie#“now this comes from inside how long do we have to try?/now this comes from inside and stays there until you die”#marika's grace keeps logan alive and by that point he's learned the truth making everything pointless and he will have to keep quiet#“now this is your fault/everything is a problem/there was a poison in the air despair is an eternal blight” towards logan/marika/two finger#“you're losing it all/you've been blinded by stardom” logan/the demigods/two fingers & other tarnished are all blinded by their power hunge#“you think that you're alone but we are waiting for you every night/you're mine” logan in isolation & lures an outer god with trump card#“now this comes from inside what you have i want it's mine” either the life marika lived/forsook or elden ring or even rennala's rune/egg(?
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#currently on the worst road trip of my whole entire life! well. i don't want to jinx it lmao but#today i popped TWO TIRES at once in the middle of the Katy Freeway in Houston TX (the widest highway in the US; 26 lanes btw)#managed to make it over to the shoulder without DYING but then had to sit there for like an hour? and panic called a tow truck because duh#I know how to change a tire but I was – again – sitting on the shoulder of the widest freeway on the continent so#anyway I called a tow; a guy showed up. I assumed it was the tow! turned out it was not. but he helped me put on the spare and then was lik#“follow me to my shop I can do the tires for you” and I was like okay! 👍 but then the ACTUAL tow called me and I realized this was#just a random guy (very nice up to that point but then I got scared about following him to a secondary location?) and so I didn't lmao#I just kept driving and didn't follow him but the guy on the phone was then mad at me because I wasn't where I said I would be because#AGAIN – I thought the original guy WAS the tow company that I called? but anyway guy 2 on the phone was like “YOU OWE ME $200!!!!”#and I said for what? also how would I pay you? and he tried to get me to cash app him lmao?? I didn't. I hung up on him#he called me like 6 more times yelling at me until I finally just blocked his number 💀#however NOW at this point I'm driving on one spare tire and one rapidly-flattening second tire and I still have 3 hours left to get where#I was going for the night and to top it all off I'm in the middle of a city I've only been to one time before? so I manage to get to a hote#like a nice-ish one where I'm like “okay if I get stuck here this won't be the end of the world”#because keep in mind today is a national holiday so basically everything is closed!!!! btw!!!!!#but eventually I'm sitting there and it's literally 100F outside and I remember oh right lol I have car insurance which pays for a tow#(a normal one; not a random one I panic-found on google who calls me screaming at me to cash app him $200)#so anyway I call my insurance and the guy on the phone is very nice and is like “it's okay; we'll have someone to you in 45 min”#and I'm like okay. OKAY. 🙌💪 I am a strong independent woman who is figuring this out and no longer on the side of the highway#but instead in a nice calm neighborhood and all I have to do is wait 45 min and everything will be okay#one hour goes by. I call back. get redirected to the tow company that was dispatched. guy says oh! is my guy not there yet?#I say no. he says okay – I'll have him call you. hangs up.#okay. 20 more min go by. guy finally calls me. says “I'm 20-25 min away” at this point I've been waiting about an hour and a half#I say. okay? okay. 30 more minutes go by. I try to call the guy back. straight to voicemail. three more calls. three more no answers.#I call my insurance back. sit on hold for 15 min. eventually get put through to a different person who's like “okay let me check on him”#get put on hold. eventually she comes back and says “okay he says 15 minutes” I've been waiting over 2 hours at this point. I have to PEE#I just... burst into tears. on the phone with this poor random woman from Geico Insurance. I'm bawling my eyes out.#she was trying to get claim info from me but I'm crying so hard she's like “oh baby no. okay. okay. we can get that from you tomorrow.”#when you cry so hard that even the insurance company is like “you know what we're just going to let this one slide”#anyway guy eventually shows up. he's very nice even though I hate him a little for being so late. he drives me to an OPEN TIRE SHOP
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Hello, followers. If splitting the parties for dungeon delving within circumstances beyond their control, what do you, personally, think is the most potentially interesting assortment of two to three Explorer's Association bugs to team Leif up with? These can be from any team, and may in fact be from multiple teams within the association. We need them to watch Leif overextend itself very badly and shatter half of the chitin on its arm. You will not see the results of this for like a month we just want your opinions.
#we speak#applicable modifiers: the shattering chitin is a side effect of the ice magic in that active ice magic makes leifs shell more brittle#no one is going to be correctly identifying what's up with leif but it's probably gonna have a panic attack about Being Found Out anyways#(note: irrational fear of discovery is an issue with a lot of parasitic species and anyone with experience with this may twig on to it)#(however they will not have enough info to act on it. because we're doing short promptfic again and leif will also activeely conceal itself#they will be fighting shit because we're basically sticking them in A Dungeon in which they are expected to fight off creatures#they are not the “fighting the boss” team. they are however stuck in here until that team does their part.#we're doing outlines n junk for whumptober stuff
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#‘ 001. ’ (out of character)#sorry for the lack of activity i'm just stubbornly insisting on not starting anything new until every single thing i owe is done so i#can queue them up to post over a few hours in the middle of the night or something but i have been absolutely stuck on these last few#we're almost there and then things should resume as normal on here and on my cora OTL
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#Been a little stuck lately!!! But we're about to get unclogged so good I fucking prommy dude#I won't rant here I've just been a little overwhelmed with work and I wanted to say I'M STILL ALIVE#I'm almost done with this goddamn thing!!!#It's maybe a little silly I just didn't want to post anything else until I finished this comic#Anyway!#Scream with Knox and me it's theraputic
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I think as a reward for getting KOed last episode at the end of the next one when lauren is defeated and the boy is. still there. kevin and charles and donovan should get to be like "heyyyy we have an announcement everyone,,, we're moving to night vale!!! yippee!!!" because theology in nv is suuuper interesting now because of the aftereffects of lauren and also kevin wants to keep an eye on the boy (and have weekly duels). carlos is thrilled about this because it means he has an opportunity to learn more about doubles AND study the differences between the boy and kevin. esteban is thrilled about this bc he has a new friend who kind of looks like him but older. tamika is thrilled about this because she'll have a past enemy to hang out with and discuss the benefits of talking it out instead of fighting. the tweens are thrilled about this because they get to spar kevin. etc etc etc. the only person who seems to think this is a bad idea and is NOT thrilled about this is cecil, who goes with it anyway like "😑 yay. 😒yippee. 😮💨hooray." because he wants to make carlos happy.
#kevin wtnv#wtnv spoilers#welcome to night vale spoilers#cecil wtnv#the other residents are thrilled about this because they like charles. and they can throw rocks at kevin again now.#then we're stuck with him until the podcast explodes <3#steve? thrilled bc he gets to talk to another stepdad and also try to discuss why kevin wanted to 'fix' janice when kevins also disabled
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Okay, so I saw a thing mentioning how you could wag your butt as if you have a tail to kinda mimic the feeling and that's so smart!! For me, unless I'm super super super happy, wagging my butt is usually just a shaking-water-off-my-fur motion T-T Like, I've been feeling a tail behind me pretty consistently for years now, and when I'm really happy it wags and the feeling gets stronger, but wagging for me is an exclusively tail motion. There's no physical signs because just it's moving (and that's part of why wearing a tail feels weird for me, cause mine will be wagging but since I don't move my butt the tail doesn't move with me T-T ). But I might try that sometime to let my friends know my tail is wagging :3
#wagging your tail is such a good stim until no one can see and since you're no longer stimming visibly folks don't think you're happy :')#also I've been feeling pretty doggish lately!! Normally I don't talk about it all so I guess getting to tell folks is letting it out a bit#but I just wanna run around and bare my teeth and bark at something#I've kinda figured out that I'm prolly a working dog? or at least a mix of one#but I most certainly don't listen to instructions easily XD#I'm more of a “will work for fun but will stop as soon as someone tells me to” kind of dog#Like I'm so happy to finally have classes again I would've been soooooo bored without them#But catch me in a week or so feeling upset that I have to work 😭#And two of my classes are the kind of class that you can't easily work ahead so I can't just ride off the early days' enthusiasm#So things are certainly gonna be interesting#But at least me and the college buddies are back to our old shenanigans#*wags tail* I love em so much#We're thinking about going to a beach soon hopefully none of us get stuck by a jellyfish /reference#alterhuman#nonhuman#therian#dogkin#caninekin
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'Trapped in the end!' said Sam bitterly, his anger rising again above weariness and despair. 'Gnats in a net. May the curse of Faramir bite that Gollum and bite him quick!' 'That would not help us now,' said Frodo.
Sword in hand Sam went after him. For the moment he had forgotten everything else but the red fury in his brain and the desire to kill Gollum. But before he could overtake him, Gollum was gone. Then as the dark hole stood before him and the stench came out to meet him, like a clap of thunder the thought of Frodo and the monster smote upon Sam's mind.
Now he tried to find strength to tear himself away and go on a lonely journey – for vengeance. If once he could go, his anger would bear him down all the roads of the world, pursuing, until he had him at last: Gollum. Then Gollum would die in a corner. But that was not what he had set out to do. It would not be worth while to leave his master for that. It would not bring him back. Nothing would.
Sam and vengeance in today's entry
#idk i have Thoughts about this... rambles ahead...#there's an interesting arc here with how sam approaches his feelings of vengeance in this entry#starting with the first quote. frodo's response to sam is so brief and doesn't get much time to sit with all the action going on#but i feel like it speaks volumes#at least in showcasing the different points they stand on#sam centers his resentment and feelings of revenge... he's quick to get frustrated and immediately goes for threatening gollum#meanwhile frodo is focused on getting out. he doesn't have time to nurse anger nor does he want to#it feels like he's advising sam to move past it because he knows it's futile to stay stuck in those feelings#then there's sam's fight with gollum#after days and weeks of building tension from his mistrust towards gollum... this is where the dam finally breaks#sam's been feeding into his resentment for SO LONG it's no wonder he gets into this state of blind fury towards the end#he set himself up to seek vengeance the moment he gets the opportunity#which in some way i'm sure does help him in fending off gollum... that strength had to come from somewhere#but once he's staved him off he continues to fixate that anger on gollum and forgets what he originally set out to do-- protect frodo#and then we're left with the final quote...#it isn't until sam has (perceived to have) lost everything that he is able to come to the conclusion that vengeance won't serve him#...a lesson learned a little too late?? maybe?? no?? it feels cruel to say that#i definitely do not want to take the position that sam was responsible for what happened to frodo#he was pinned in a horribly desperate situation and couldn't do much once gollum attacked#i don't think much would've changed if he hadn't had his moment of fury with chasing gollum#anyways newbie here-- i haven't read anything ahead from here so idk what character arcs await sam#but i'm interested to see if this is later built upon or acknowledged#end of rambles skdfjgkdjsfg#lotr newsletter#lotr newsletter march 13th#EDIT: I forgot to space the quotes out 😭#not a crime but they can get confusing to read when scrunched together hrnnnn
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Got on curse. Got off curse. Curse shut down.
Got on rita. Got to the break run. Rita shut down.
Got on smiler. Got to break run. Smiler shut down.
Am I cursed guys?
#went from never being evac'd to being evac'd so i cant complain. experience and all#it was funny on the smiler for aboyt 5 minutes until we realised. oh shit we're stuck on here huh#we had a good day despite it tho#alton towers
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@desceros still singing your song
#My ass trying to move on with my day after the most recent update of Symphony#Literally stuck on this peak point waiting for the corkscrew to start#I was trying to doodle to soothe but all it did was turn into this#OK I'm I think I'm done I think I'm ready to move on until we get the next chapter now#/ holding back tears/ I'm okay I'm good we're good
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