#and vaggie

[notherpuppet]

I started calling her “Lottie” 🥰💞🩷💘🌈🎀

[vampiric-fangirl]

okay i want to take a minute to talk about the exact way in which i think lute hates herself because i don't think i really have yet.

(this one ended up pretty long so i'm going to put it under a cut.)

the blueprint (and part of it) is her exact flavor of internalized misogyny. she's a pick-me girl - any woman with even just an amicable relationship with adam is some level of that by default and lute goes the extra mile. and, according to my understanding of the subject, the pick-me girl is characterized by her hatred of women despite being a woman herself and, as a result, desperately trying to distance herself from her idea of shameful femininity and mocking women who don't, often for the purpose (whether conscious or not) of being accepted or given attention by misogynistic men. the pick-me girl forces herself to be a certain way, perhaps a way she didn't really want to be in the first place, because she wants to be able to love herself and be loved in a patriarchal system and doesn't have the awareness or the willpower to fight it. she hates what she is, hates herself, but warps herself and her view of herself and others to escape it.

now i'd like to argue an extension of this principle when it comes to heaven vs. hell.

the storybook opening, regardless of how biased its author may have been as so many people in this fandom like to argue (and they do have a point but some of them take it too far and use it as an excuse to ignore - not the point), presents a clear theme: heaven represents order and obedience while hell represents chaos and freedom. lucifer and lilith are "rebellious dreamers". however, with the way the conflict between adam and lilith is presented, gender is woven into this dichotomy as well. heaven is the patriarchy; hell is the feminist rebellion against it.

(queerness could probably also be incorporated into this model as well, but. this is already an entire fucking essay and it's not extremely relevant to the topic at hand. but it does mean a homophobic homosexual lute would track.)

with this added context, adam and lute hating hell as vehemently as they do - especially with the subtle differences in the way they each do - can be read as, at least to a certain extent, a symbolic + abstract representation of their misogyny.

(something important to note here and maybe something that i just want to talk about, also, is the way vaggie embraces femininity after falling. after falling, she can finally be feminine in the way she want to, not the objectifying and restrictive way that was forced upon her as an exorcist. after what may have been years of healing and encouragement from charlie, she wears a giant puffy bow and does not give a damn. and it's beautiful and i love her for it and i love her so much and - oops got sidetracked there. basically: hell allowed vaggie to express her gender freely. heaven did not. patriarchy. freedom. big bow. pretty woman. i bow and walk off stage.)

and you can kind of see something similar to her internalized misogyny in her hatred of hell. i mean, it is, of course, not a 1:1 comparison given she actually IS an angel, but some elements persist. there is still that desperation to distance herself, even at the cost of basic reasoning ("Angels don't make mistakes"). there is still that forcing herself to be a certain way. there is still that warping of her view of herself and others to escape her self-hatred - or maybe, in this case, a more accurate way to put it would be: to escape her self-hatred-inflicting-guilt and the doubt threatening her unfathomably thick defenses against that guilt. there is still that apparent fight for male - or, in this version of the conflict, angelic - attention, specifically from adam.

(side note 2. a lot of the comparisons i drew here also are/related to stuff characteristic of many cults, which the exorcists - at least as far as the mental and emotional effect on the members goes - functionally are. maybe there is something to be learned there, about the intersection of cults and misogyny/sexism. maybe not. i don't know actually sometimes i straight up have no idea what i'm taking about.)

although, this method of analyzing lute only REALLY gets interesting when you look at her hatred of vaggie with it. vaggie, who was an angel - just like lute is! - once, but is now fallen (for daring to step outside the violent orders that police them, another thing that's mere possibility terrifies lute) - just like lute could be! vaggie, who is happy in hell. who is happy being all of the things lute hates, from perhaps both a heaven vs. hell perspective AND a gender perspective. (and possibly a sexuality perspective too.) and if it is not only possible for an angel to be like this - hellish, and perhaps more importantly FREE - but also for an angel to be HAPPY like this, then. that's fucking horrifying! so she of course doubles down on her hatred and tries to maim/kill vaggie. so that she never has to face this - the reality that the hatred she is consumed by could so easily include herself. that maybe it already does.

and THAT'S why she begs to be killed when she loses the fight in ep. 8, i think. it's a combination of two things: 1. she does not want to face reality and 2. she hates herself. (also she has self-worth issues. did i mention she has self-worth issues? yeah she has self-worth issues. at least when it comes to her compared to adam. natural consequence of being a loyal follower and dedicated lieutenant of someone like him. her self-hatred and self-worth issues are thoroughly intertwined, though, just like vaggie's are.)

that's also why she just fucking. tears off her arm as soon as vaggie leaves, too. she does not care about physical pain or keeping all of her limbs attached, she is far too wrapped up in a. trying to preserve her intensely unhealthy mental state by Not Thinking About Things b. wanting to sacrifice herself in some way, even if it's just losing a limb, because of said mental state c. trying to get to vaggie so she can kill her and be rid of this plague on her conscience d. trying to get to adam too so she can fulfill her desperate (after?)lifelong mission to be of service to him to fill the void inside her caused by her deeply repressed doubt and inner conflict. probably? but then again i'm just a fallenwings girl at heart so idk honestly.

tl;dr: lute hates herself. she makes herself perfect in the way she understands perfection to avoid this. after that, she shoves her hate onto others to distract herself from her own internal conflict and, in some cases (vaggie), she hates others (vaggie) because they (vaggie) exhibit the traits she hates that she has driven out from herself. (although, despite my fixation on fallenwings, this probably extends to other exorcists showing weakness/making mistakes in general.) finally, she works feverishly for approval to reassure her of her place in the grand scheme of things from the man whom she, for reasons brought about by her blind, unquestioning efforts to cling to the version of right and wrong forced upon her and that she has also forced upon herself, views as the paragon of everything she strives for: adam.

she does not fight the system. she breaks herself apart to fit into and work for it.

[parrotscopes]

Saw this fuckass temu ad for hazbin dolls

Everyone meet Vagina, Alashit, Angle Huff, and charlitane

[phantommalice]

Oh my God I need to draw my version of Angel Dust so badly

[oatmealdoodles]

The second I saw this I just bolt right up and HAD to draw it. As my fist comic this took me SO much longer that it needed to -_-

masterpost

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[yoko-art]

🌈Chaggie🎀

[drazhaq]

First time chatting with the crew is very overwhelming, Luci would prefer lighter conversations.

*first art post with my new name!

[barblaz-arts]

They forgot to tell him

[kimik0hippie]

Happy Valentine's Day to everyone! 💗

[chronic-art]

fallen angel gang! I love these two and need more of them together

[greykolla-art]

Oh boy this has been one of those days where I just draw all day and forget to eat.😂

Enjoy my brain rot doodles while I go fix that!

[notherpuppet]

The facility manager returns to the hotel 🏨

[barkeroodle]

Happy birthday to everyone’s favourite spider!

(for clarification, he thanked Charlie afterwards for whatever she gave him)

[peachebo]

s̶p̶i̶d̶e̶r̶ ~angelic senses~

[cholvoq]

HELLO YALL- It's Chol!

You may or may not have seen my HH stuff on Tiktok 😭😭

I wanted to post my Hazbin redesigns on here one bc l've literally been neglecting Tumblr and I feel bad and two, they've been getting a ton of love on Tiktok so I wanted to share them here as well!

Pt 1!

[polubrony]

More of these two, cuz I'm still feeling inspired

Yes, my love language IS resting with each other, how could you tell?