#and u both know something’s there and neither of u are interested in other ppl

[steve-brules-rules]

do u mind??

[thequietkid-moonie]

I have a request! If i can

Qin shi huang and hades ( if you can do both not separate ) with the most sweet and kind reader. Who is basically an angel and just them fighting over her.

Thats all! Thank you if you can do the request if you cant thats okay! I love your works aswell 🩷 have a nice day

In love with the same sweet and kind person

[ HEADCANONS ] [ Hades & Qin Shin Huang ] [ Records of Ragnarok / Shuumatsu no Valkyrie ]

I love when ppl tell me that they love my work! Is super reasuring and make me feel better!! ❤️ Thank u!!

Also, I love the prompts where is two characters in love with the same person, so thank you so much for requesting this!!!

Qin Shin Huang and Hades get along rather well, Qin remember Hades to his beloved brother and after a while he just start to platonically like him, while Qin since the start had treat him rather friendly and grows to admire him as a person, both grows to have a good friendship

For non of them matter if you are a god or a human, not even if you are a demigod or another kind of creature, Hades doesn't discriminate for the race and he just treat you as a equal while Qin just isn't bothered by it and just treat you like anyone else (and once you become his friend he is even more friendly and trust in you a lot)

Both of them tries to spend a lot of time with you, Hades likes your company and enjoys having you around even before developing romantic feelings, while Qin is more clingy, he is prideful and loves having little adventures so he is always draging you around to whatever he is planning to do

For both of them to develop romantic feelings for you is a slowly process but when it happens is actually pretty quickly for them to notice it

Hades is a mature and calm person, he knows himself pretty well so he almost immediatly notice the change on his feelings for you, and just like that he accept them complety with a smile. Hades will take a while before start trying to court you, being a slow start because he doesn't want to make you uncomfortable or rush things

In the other hand, Qin is more carefree and kinda childish but that doesn't stop him from noticing the growing feelings of love he holds for you, it take him a little while but when he does he accept it right away, he thinks you are amazing so it isn't weird to think that he is in love with you. Qin becomes pretty open with his feelings, he becomes a little more clingy and affectionate, is pretty obvious that he is interested on you but he never accept it if someone asks

Your sweet and kind personality makes Hades feel at peace, it makes him feel like nothing else in the world exist aside from the two of you when you two are together, and is something that he loves, Hades feels like if with every day it pass he just admire you and falls in love with you more and more

Qin loves your personality, your kindness brights his day and your sweetness make him feel the need to protect you from anything and everything, also it make him being more playfuly, he just can't get his hands out of you (like holding your hands, resting his hand in your back so you don't fall or even carrying you around if you let him) and he doesn't seem to be able to leave you alone neither, he just loves being around you a lot

It won't take much time before both find out the feelings of the other, Hades is the first one to notice for how obvious Qin is, and won't doubt in confront him, calling him irresponsable and irritating for how clingy he is and when Qin notice Hades' feelings he tease him about it, but even if it doesn't seem like much there it start a little war between them

Both are constantly having arguments over it, mainly just when one of them are monopolizing you and being possessive, Hades calls Qin an irresponsable and sometimes a danger for you, while Qin call him boring and overwhelming with all his worries. However they never fight in front of you, they don't want to upset you or anything

Sometimes they opt to spend time the three together and they get along pretty well, the two of them were already friends so it isn't too difficult to let aside the fights for a while and just enjoy each other company

Both of them are man of honor and knows when they lose, if you ever choose one of them the other will totally understand and respect your relationship, but that isn't going to happen until they end with all the ways they have to try to court you or that you directly tell them that you love one of them (non of them will ever force their feelings onto you, but Qin is more probably to insist a little longer). As well, non of them will let this afect your friendship and will continue being your friend (of both)

If you end up being in a relationship with someone else it would be pretty irritating for both of them but at the end they will be supportive towards you (to Hades will be easier to accept it than for Qin)

Even if you don't choose non of them they will respect your choise and let you be, keeping your relationship as a friendship (however there is a chance that they will try to flirt with you sometimes for a while)

[natashasbitxh]

I have to say it. I started my Shayne journey this week and honestly not mad at all. I just u know, love to see sometimes how Shayne will be looking at chance like he's trying to understand something in him, that he doesn't even realize. Always when chance isn't looking obviously, the other part to me is how gentle the interactions are, sometimes I feel like Shayne is afraid of Chance in a good way I think. Then when they laugh at the same joke, it's rare but curious. I sense like they could be really good friends, but there's something that doesn't let them be close in that way. Maybe they're not trying to be friends, maybe they will always see the other as someone dar away even though they actually have a lot of things to relate. The new video with the fanfic really highlights for me that strange aura around them, like a wall they're too afraid to be friendly, Shayne seemed nervous and I don't understand why, nothing bad really happens and he doesn't like the eye contact too much hahahaha. Those two are a funny little duo, like they would be the kind of friendship that act like they have a secret and wouldn't tell anybody and inside jokes. So I'm saying this to you now, thank you for sharing your love for this duo, they deserve more, even if it's only shipping, it works for me, I don't mind. Another thing is, I would love to see more banter between them in the next videos hahahaha. Chance did a great job in the fanfic, he really is a theater kid. I wonder if he sense Shayne nervousness sometimes or not. Please share you thoughts on them too!!! I would totally read just an essay of them, explaining why you like this dynamic if you ever wanted to write it

Well first off, welcome to shaynse nation! Was gonna say that I hope ur enjoying ur journey but it seems u r!

(Putting more under the cut because this got rlly long!)

Adding on, I also find that Chanse does the same with Shayne! Both of them watch eachother and seem to REALLY be listening. I think Shayne wants to impress Chanse, not always but often he'll make a joke and look over to Chanse for his reaction.

And I understand what u mean sm! I could deffo feel some nervousness from Shayne, once again I've seen other ppl say it but it is so introvert x extrovert!

and honestly even without shipping, I think their dynamic and friendship is so fun and entertaining! They really are so funny together!

I honestly tried to go back and see what video made me think of shaynse, but I honestly can't remember at all!

Honestly, I think I like this ship just cause its so interesting and like you said, gentle? There's this sort of softness that I always associate with shaynse, and even any angst I imagine to be the same if that makes sense. I've said it before, but they really do give me the vibes of evermore (by Taylor Swift), Cigarettes After Sex, Lana Del Rey and maybe even Mitski. Also just throwing this in but I've noticed he's started to give Shayne the "Angela..." treatment, "Shayne..." and I think that shows a development in at least friendship. Like taking out any romance, I think you really can notice how they've gotten closer in videos and have great chemistry. I've also noticed in videos recently that they mirror each other a lot or even finish each other's sentences to an extent and I think that's rlly sweet! I've mentioned this before but Chanse often twirls his hair whilst he's listening or talking to Shayne, just an observation! I've noticed he does this kinda thing (not saying it's just limited to Shayne) where he responds to Shayne with this far off look in his eyes as he twirls his hair. Honestly that may very well not be a shaynse moment and is probably Chanse just zoning out, and quite frankly he's so real for that I relate to that so hard. And I'm sorry but my shipping self...the way Chanse looks at Shayne makes me insane sometimes!! Even when neither of them are talking!! And then when Shayne is talking, the eye contact from Chanse is so FIERCE. I've said before that the formula is that Chanse gazes at Shayne and Shayne cries at Chanse's jokes...and honestly now both things apply to both of them! Shayne also very much gives the vibe that he's nervous to compliment Chanse to his face but absolutely gushes abt him to other ppl (this thought coming from Shayne bringing up Chanse AS MUCH AS HE CAN).

Sorry, this became sooo unorganised but I kinda just jotted down all my shaynse feelings/ideas! Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts, I found it so fun to read and so fun to reply!! Don't be afraid to do it again! (And that goes to everybody!)

Shaynse is a niche ship and I get that not everybody is gonna like it, but I do rlly appreciate shaynse nation and smoshblr in general!

[ca-suffit]

There's a new interview in which the interviewer asks both Sam Reid and Assad Zaman to describe their characters relationship to Louis. And is so funny to watch how they talk about them side by side.

Because, Sam Reid was like: "You know when you are a vampire there's a loneliness and a real fear people will leave you and Lestat thinks Louis can support being his companion in his inmortal life, and loves his strength and that's what they are soulmates."

Wherareas Assad Zaman is more like "Armand is very selfish in his love for Louis and that's the tragedy of their romance."

[This is paraphrased]

Which neither of them are completely wrong. But it is interesting to note how Sam Reid is more lenient, for the lack of a better word, with his interpretation of Lestat (I think his as selfish a bastard as Armand), and Assad Zaman is less generous with Armand.

I dont know if this is some great insight, but I do find it interesting how the fandom (and some interviewers) also treats their characters in a similar way. Like people are rightly calling Armand on his bullshit and giving him the hate he deserves for directing Claudia's linching, meanwhile forgetting Lestat stared in it.

Also, personally I found Assad Zaman's response to be more unique to Armand, I don't know, something about Sam Reid's made me think he was talking about all/any vampires not just Lestat. And it makes me wonder, if Assad Zaman is able to look at Armand through a more "objective" (still subjective ofcourse but less rose-colored) lense because his character is not being pushed as the favorite (not to say people don't love it) while in the other hand Lestat is said to be the protagonist of next season, so he needs to be seen in a more likeable light, and that is why Sam Reid is more kind to it.

Plus Louis & Lesstat being teased to reunite, meanwhile Louis & Armand finishing this season with the fastest divorce ever.

(PS. Using their full names because I feel weird about using just their first names)

I rly like all the ways ur looking at this and thinking about it. I wish ppl like u could be doing these interviews tbh.

reading this, I was also trying to remember if I knew assad's history with any knowledge of the VC stories beforehand. we all know sam read them as a teenager and all that, but idk about assad. that could also account for their different perspectives.

I do think that lestat and louis getting back together *is* a driving force of a lot of ppl (from cast to fans) softening lestat's actions. although I also wonder why they feel the need to do that tbh (I generally know *why* I'm just saying....it's literally not required tho).

I think there's two ways u could tell this story. most likely, given what they've said, they're leaning towards keeping it romantic and learning from past mistakes. but u could also tell the story of cycles of abuse and being unable to escape them. I think ppl not giving room for others to explore that second option, even if it's unlikely that's gonna be reality, is just shit tbh. let ppl explore things in fiction ffs. especially as a lot of these darker theories are coming from fans of color who are also usually queer and/or trans and don't have many outlets for exploring interracial abuse like this plot has given. shouting down all those experiences to say "well it's not what they're doing so stop talking about it" is fucked up. isn't that what fandom is for?? exploring why things are meaningful to u, using it as a tool to express urself in diff ways and connect with others over it too?? fuck anne rice forever for creating this selfish breed of rotten fans who can't let anyone else exist outside their own warped interpretations and hcs.

I'm kind of getting off topic lol but anyway. lots to think about.

4:05 at the interview here btw

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OK. OK OK OK. HI. IM AT WORK NOW SO THIS IS GONNA BE DISJOINTED AND NOT MAKE A WHOLE LOT OF SENSE BUT IM COOKING SO THIS REQUIRES AN ASK AND NOT A REPLY BC THOSE HAVE CHARACTER LIMITS (cooking both metaphorically and literally because it's 95 degrees outside at 9am and it is so so so so fucking humid) oh god get me out of the kitchen before i start burning things!!!

this could be Nothing. bc again I desperately need 2 learn more about cauldron and their motivations and such. BUT. going back to the tide/leviathan comparisons because they're making me kind of insane and i want to give him a Complex about it. because if we're not going to lobotomize him I need 2 hurt him in other ways (sorry dad)

so. this doesn't EXACTLY work 1:1 because there are only 3 endbringers and only 2 of them seem to be element-focused as far as i know. but if we have tide as a comparison to leviathan, we also have MAGMA who could be a comparison to behemoth if my thoughts are correct and behemoth is . big fire guy (he sleeps in a volcano so. I'm assuming.) . granted we also have like. whirlwind and shockwave and seismic who are the other elementals and they don't actually have an endbringer counterpart BUT IM !!!! going a little crazy thinking about like. if tide + his siblings are artificial capes, what if they (or at least he and magma because I'm kind of thinking abt them as the older ones. havent listened to the oneshot in a while so this may not be accurate) were given their powers SPECIFICALLY to be counters to the endbringers. or at least in an attempt to make a cape equivalent of the endbringers to better like... study their powerset or something. (I keep saying cauldron studies things bc I said that with david too and this really just comes from my inherent need for a big evil science team. in worm it seems like they're more capitalism focused but let a guy dream here)

this also brings up an interesting point with Elle who i know u don't know yet but she could be an interesting counterpoint to simurgh? Who as far as I know now isn't necessarily elemental but . neither is Elle really!! and that creates the big disaster in the oneshot bc she can't control her powers and goes kind of nuts about it.

anyway anyway anyway. tldr; tide and magma were specifically created as parallels to leviathan and behemoth, this wouldn't really be common knowledge to the rest of the capes bc of cauldrons secrecy BUT i think ppl would definitely notice the similarities in their powersets and that makes a subconscious fear response in people who have seen an endbringer attack firsthand (I believe in scary intimidating tide supremacy but then you talk to him and he's the sweetest human being in the whole world) . tide and magma both know this and have complicated emotions about it. I think tide has a very bad reaction to the leviathan attack if we are keeping that as an event that happens.

OR IT COULD ALL BE COINCIDENCE AND THIS IS NOTHING. but until i learn more about cauldron I am choosing to view them as my favorite trope of big evil science corporation <3333

OHH U R FUCKING COOKING DUDE YEAH <333

it is. so hard whenever u r talking about cauldron.... mallard conway ass levels of "oh okay i literally Cannot talk about this or else im accidentally gonna say spoilers." but. i DO think this goes so hard & conceivably makes sense for cauldron to do...... man one day in the far future we're gonna have to sit down and talk about if cauldron even would exist in this au. but. for now. hehehe :33 & i will say!!! i will say!!! research is. involved, in what they do. you are not off the mark.

ANYWAY. love this for him so much..... the way he moves and acts in a fight echoes leviathan.... does he have that water afterimage too??? when he's fighting?? because that shits cool as hell he should have it. i'm always just really ill over someone made to be a weapon who never wanted to be one.... tide you have to be at the leviathan fight but you shouldn't be :(((

i gotta listen to the elementals oneshot i have it downloaded rn.. i wanna know elle's deal because you have just said something unwittingly extremely funny & i need to know What happens to her before i comment on it!!!! anyway!!!! thinking abt tide lambert forever & always...

[akajustmerry]

would LOVE to hear more about your tabitha and naomi headcanons!!!

and yee shall receive !! idk these are probably silly n basic because we know SO LITTLE about both, but whatever it's free real estate!!

considering we meet tabs at the underground rich ppl party, its a fair bet she's probably a rich nepo baby like everyone else in succ, but she seems pretty chill about it. she's just vibing, wooing her hot rich peers.

tabs has the laidback vibe of old fuck off money. older than the roys or pierces, i think. probably in property or land which is why she has no interest in the Roy trust or the pierce's or politics. we know that makes her more attractive to rome but probably to naomi too. here's someone so rich they really are only in it for you!

i imagine naomi and tabs crossed paths and hooked up occasionally in the past, but grew closer during/after naomi's accident. naomi told ken in the show she was struggling cos of press, trust, trauma, addiction, etc, during that time. from what we see of tabs with roman, she is a pretty patient and understanding person, at least to a point (everyone has limits). i imagine after her accident, naomi would have appreciated having someone like tabs in her life who isn't after anything and is relatively non-judgemental and chill.

don't really count this as a headcanon cos it's just true but tabs and Naomi were hooking up that whole weekend at the Pierce estate. I know it's framed as the "Ken and Roman attempt to get Some" weekend but we know neither of them got any lmao but u know who did?? my gorls <3

for what it's worth I do think naomi and Tabs both genuinely liked kendall and roman. i don't think there were any ulterior motives on their parts. as we saw, neither naomi or tabs had any power or insight to sway the deal in any way. equally, tabs and naomi really gain nothing power-wise from dating these guys so u gotta assume it was genuine on some level. like they really just saw these human shaped messes of men and went "hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii <3" kinda very bisexual of them both really. I felt v represented by it I must say

i dooooo think in the immediate aftermath of naomi and Kendall break up, the next time she hooked up with tabs, they defs had a little "what IS wrong with them?" convo where they probs just showed each other roman and Kendall's lame texts, had a laugh, and then washed their hands of the roy boys

when it's announced tom is ceo of waystar, naomi calls tabs like, "isn't that literally the guy who swallowed his own load because you told him to 😂" and she's like yeah turns out he never stopped and idk they probably start dating seriously again after that.

after naomi gets her share of the money from the sale to the Waystar I like to think she uses it to start some overpriced rehab centres or something. eventually, her and tabs get engaged. nan pierce never acknowledges the relationship and passively refers to tabitha as a friend of the family, even at their wedding because she honestly seems like that kind of bitch.

honestly they probably just continue living cool beautiful bisexual women lives. maybe naomi has some rough patches here and there cos you know addiction isn't easy, but tabs is there for her. they just become this quietly classy wealthy lesbian couple who throw great parties with other philanthropic influential gays and closeted wealthy folks. I'm imagining something like what the kindness blind items say sandra bullock does with all the Hollywood lesbians gays.

shiv invites them both to her baby shower because they're honestly the closest thing she has to friends who are women after everything. they don't go though cos they assume shiv is just inviting them to mess with the boys. they send a very precocious expensive gift though like literal gold and silver baby cutlery or something

tabitha becomes like an insanely successful ghostwriter or something. idk why I just have the impression she's kinda been a wallflower in all these insane wealth spaces and eventually tells all those stories somehow

I feel like if I don't stop I'll just be writing fanfic so I'll stop but idc if it's just projection I jus love that there's 2 beautiful aloof bisexual women in this show and the only thing we really know about them for certain is that they were both way too good for the Roys <3

[desertbled]

shipping guide or whatevaaaa (under a readmore for length)

types: wolf doesn't really have one, per se. i know a lot of people keep asking what wolf's type is and i truly cannot tell you. i wish i could. it would make all our lives easier. but honestly i don't think wolf has one. he's the kind of guy who just naturally falls into loving anyone. the only thing i've found in common with most of his ships is that he tends to gravitate towards people who are strong in some way or another (be it physically or mentally.) though that isn't a strict rule either, since he's dated people who are shy & less physically capable. the real question is whether your muse really wants him tbh 💀 like are YOU sure you want this alcoholic sarcastic asshole with avoidant attachment to be your man???? are you SURE????

(although side note: he does enjoy being bullied. if u are mean to him then ur chances of him falling in love with u are probably higher than most ppl. do with that info what u will.)

age differences: wolf really prefers people closer in age to him. he feels a bit weird dating people who are a lot younger. that isn't to say he won't date someone younger, it just might take a bit more convincing from the other person. the youngest he'd probably be willing to date is around 28, 29ish although it's highly unlikely, because like i said, he's more interested in people close in age. you sure can shoot your shot tho LOL. ( and by younger i mean by a significant difference, he's 42 in most verses, so someone in their mid-late 30s is fine by him )

species/races: i dunno about other genres / fandoms since i have yet to hammer out the details for that stuff, but in terms of the fallout universe, wolf doesn't care about that kinda thing as long you're at least human-adjacent. ghouls, synths, mutants, super mutants are all fair game. he doesn't give a fuck.

gender: much like everything else on this list (besides age) wolf just...... does not care. he's bisexual, with no preference. man, woman, neither, both, feminine, masculine, androgynous, etc. he thinks it's all attractive. he has more of a tendency to date women, because he's been closeted for a lot of his life & had to hide his queerness, but he isn't more attracted to women than anyone else necessarily.

substance use: wolf is a chainsmoker and an alcoholic, and that’s likely never going to change. he can cut back on smoking & drinking but i don’t think he’d ever go completely sober. just as a forewarning. if your muse isn’t down for that, then they aren’t compatible.

as for the reverse, wolf doesn’t really mind what habits your muse might have as long as A) it isn’t something that’s too dangerous (as in, moreso than nicotine or alcohol. something that could cause great deals of harm. ) B) it’s not something that interferes with the relationship. (i mean this kinda goes hand in hand with the first point, really.)

if you want to have a reference for types of people he’s dated, his “”canon”” love interests are:

luz - fellow ranger. beat him in an arm wrestling match. he asked her out afterwards. she (gently) bullied him and still does to this day.

garrett - also a fellow ranger. they fell into a relationship naturally after being friends for a while, but it was very messy. they got on each other's nerves a lot & probably had a lot of angry makeout sessions.

jude - always had a little bit of a crush on wolf since they first met, but never did much to act on it & was content with being friends. they naturally gravitated towards each other as they got to know each other more intimately.

salem - thought wolf was annoying as fuck when they re-connected (long story, might post about it later). lowkey hated his ass. told him that to his face on multiple occasions. very much bullied him all the time. ofc he started to fall for wolf a little bit around the same time that jude & wolf started getting to know each other better.

( slightly off topic if u want to know more about jude & sal they have their own blog on @psychebled although on tumblr i do not write them as being affiliated with wolf, since wolf's main storyline is something i tend to keep to myself/off tumblr)

as for wolf's ship partners with my friends we've got:

courier six - would antagonize wolf CONSTANTLY. went out of his way to ruin wolf's day every time. idk if u can even call what they have a relationship. it's more of a friends with benefits type deal, except half the time they were beating the shit out of each other and the other half of the time they were hate-fucking. the few times they didn't do either it was just 2 dudes hanging out sipping on sunset sarsaparilla.

a prospector - wolf kissed him (a stranger) while he was black out drunk (and no he did not remember doing that at all.) would not leave wolf alone after that. followed wolf around everywhere. he was a soft lil guy. wolf kinda told him to fuck off a few times (in not so mean terms) on account of him being younger & a very chatty, clingy person. (sadly wolf’s efforts did not succeed & he eventually let the guy into his life b/c wolf is secretly a softy.)

sole survivor - a lawyer pre-war. her and wolf were sheltering from a snow storm & both of them were very drunk & lonely. they flirted a lot & wolf ended up kissing her since she was too shy to kiss him first, but they parted ways afterwards thinking they wouldn’t see each other again. but being aligned with the railroad, they ended up crossing paths quite a lot, and now they’re practically married raising shaun together.

ofc there’s more than that but like…. do y’all get it now. wolf’s relationships are just. so up and down, and no 2 partners have rlly been the same.

honestly if you want to ship with him just shoot ur shot. the answer is more likely to be yes than it is to be no, and wolf can easily fit into many different dynamics.

even if i DO say no, sometimes i change my mind. there’s been a few cases where my friends have tried to ship with wolf & i said no multiple times, but then after writing together a lot, i ended up shipping our muses hardcore.

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This is the official dialogue per IMDB. I guess you could say it's questionable but Daniel does call out the BS about how they were scattered and then Louis has to admit he just didn't wanna share it last time?

Daniel Molloy: So, it begs the question, where were all these diaries in 1973?

Louis de Pointe du Lac: Scattered. One in New Orleans, another in Paris.

Daniel Molloy: Bullshit.

Louis de Pointe du Lac: [long pause] Claudia was… everything. I loved her unconditionally. All the noise, the chaos, the crisis of my former existence, silenced. The simple joy of her hand in mine.

Daniel Molloy: You had a daughter.

Louis de Pointe du Lac: I had a daughter.

Daniel Molloy: I've got two. The love is kind of…

Louis de Pointe du Lac: And if you were to come across their diaries and learn, in detail, how and when you failed them, would you share those failures with a brash young reporter you met at Polynesian Mary's?

So I think Louis just couldnt face his failures then or share them with someone he met in such a casual encounter vs now trusting them wth an older Daniel who has kids of his own

thank u for the script! i agree that louis didnt want to face how he hurt claudia.. even now, when recalling the day he doomed her to being trapped in a physically eternal adolescence[+ her later, even crueler death], he still frames claudia as 'his light, his redemption' [for what, lou? his past of tricking? when her life would be so tragic with or without louis?] but as to if he knew the full content of claudia's diaries in the 1970s we wouldnt know yet + daniel dont rly got the perspective to know whether louis did or didnt have them neither? i dont think we as the audience were meant to take what daniel said here as some sort of confirmation that louis always had the diaries. n tbf would louis rly wanna share those diaries w a 20 something he met at a gay bar tho even if he had them? if we r meant to think louis had claudia's diaries in the 1970s based off this scene id be interested in how the show would do this.. i just find it rly interesting how louis seems to be motivated to gather this truth + reconciliation committee over his own life knowing in his read of claudia's diaries that she resented both lestat and louis, who cut out which parts exactly, as well as other extenuating factors i done said before contrasting his mindset in the 70s v. now.. im not tooo committed to any particular line of speculation but i took dan’s saying its bullshit bc all he know is 1) claudia literally isnt there in the modern day and its clear other ppl have censored her diaries and 2) he suspects louis’s involvement in why/how.. he says bullshit on the diaries being scattered but we know louis and claudia traverse both new orleans & paris so i took it as dan's pov also being biased just as any other? dan is using this interview as a means to doubly probe into louis’s psychology, and he doesnt have the most generous read on louis's 'reliability'. this 'trust' or reliability as i put it erodes the further the interview goes on, the less daniel knows the more hes afraid of, and when hes afraid like bogosian says, he becomes more combative + less concilatory/actually conducting a proper interview lolol. his prior knowledge of the 1970s tapes is being subsumed by the modern interview. the old tapes just got burnt by lou last ep after all, and what we see on screen is not word for word beat for beat what louis is telling daniel [or otherwise showing daniel thru the mind].

side note: something i find interesting in the script..

Louis de Pointe du Lac: [long pause] Claudia was… everything. I loved her unconditionally. All the noise, the chaos, the crisis of my former existence, silenced. The simple joy of her hand in mine.

Daniel Molloy: You had a daughter.

Louis de Pointe du Lac: I had a daughter. Daniel Molloy: I've got two. The love is kind of…

trashbag deadbeat dad whos daughters prolly refused to talk to him if not cut him off completely the older they became [daniel] meets emotionally codependent mom/vampire sibling ..

[south-park-meta]

tbh It made me realise the reason why I loved SP's take on depression was better, if u compare Stan with other characters whose purpose is being social commentary on depression and mental health (Effy Stonem from Skins and Hanah Baker from 13 RW).

Hannah Baker (13RW)

Her character frustates me because 13 RW had so much potential,the idea was creative,narrating how many stuff drove her to suicide: from bullying,h4rr4sment,SA'D r4pe, not only adressing depression but to adress those things as well.

I know the author's intention and Selena Gomez's idea were good and focus on mental health but the development was icky,some dialogues feel rushed to arrive to the tragedy, some traumatic events feel to gave shock value to the audience than genuiely comment on it, besides how the series remarks you that if the love interest would have confesed Hannah, It would have saved her.

Which is very hurtful for many reasons.

A partner can help u throught recovery and being moral support but they aren't ur therapist, adding the fact that selling the idea "if he would have confessed,he would have saved her" when confessing or just be with them doesn't automatically saved them??.

Very different with SP, like Wendy and Kyle genuinely wanted to help Stan, but their moral support isn't enough to get him out of depression and sometimes it can be tiring for others (Kyle)

However If we compare a character that is more similar w/ Stan.

• they are both main characters and the leader of their friendgroup.

• they are the younger sibling.

• they can be charismatic,smart, and independant from such young age

• they can be bit arrogant sometimes.

• both of them are done with everyone's bs.

• both of them distrustful of adults, and sometimes get embarrased at their parent's stupidity.

•struggles with relationship, fear of abandoment.

• heavy uses of alcohol plus depression.

However their character differs on how the writers made them, while Skins's purpose was to show life never ends how u want it to be, and endings could be most be sad or just neutral,healing. Showing adolescence,teens struggling with addictions,disfunctional families,etc.

Skins GLAMOURIZED her depression,unlike her brother's behaviour. He was villianized (bc he was an asshole,he deserved it but he matured),he got heavier consequences. unlike her, while her friends and her love interest were fed up,they forgave her too quickly. it also presents u the narrative "love interest saves depressed person" to a whole level, while she was ""recovering". Out of nowhere,her bf gets killed by her psychiatrist?? Out of shock value. Even when she gets a bit of consequences she managed to manipulate to save herself, even with that smirk of "I'm effy stonem I'm always get what I want".

Effy represents an unhealthy and glamourized ideas of depression that the show pushed on it's female fanbase. (as someone w/ depression, when I saw the show I questioned why my depression didn't make me mysterious and prettier or get a bf that saved me from it)

"Her depression it's destructing her but that makes her even prettier and mysterious, ppl want to be her or fuck her"

and it had such an impact that on tumblr when the show came out until this day, many ppl want to be as mentally ill as Effy or fuck her.

Stan's depression and his self destructive tendencies is never showed as something that makes him mysterious or quirky. Neither his philosophy and way of thinking. His conflicts don't feel like to be shock value.

Althought he didn't get therapy at all,it protrayed realistically how some ppl don't get opportunity to be treated, and how sometimes they just have to move forward, feeling like shit but then a neutral point u don't care about anything,neither happy or sad, and keep moving.

Plus his personality,his behaviour in certain situations makes him more relatable to me than any character.

Tegridy farms burning? It was smth u see was coming. Because his anger is explosive, he puts out with his father behaving like a child,drinking,sometimes belittle him, always fighting with this mom for dumb stuff. The farm was an idea clearly Shelly,Sharon and him disliked. And them fighting over the divorce bc Randy didn't want to share money w/ Sharon was his breaking point, the impulsiveness "oh fuck it farm goes boom bc he is an asshole" cost him sister's life in the bad ending.

They showed Wendy trying to be suppoetive but not as his therapist or "love interest saves depressed person". Neither make Kyle his therapist or sm.

And it sometimes surprised me how SP while is social commentary is also dark humor and parody treated depression withot demonizing Stan neither glamourizing his depression.

Honestly his character is so interesting i could analyze that bitch for hours.

Idk how to expressed it but ugh.

I haven't seen Skins so I don't have a point of reference for it lol. I'm gonna go on a bit of a tangent with this.

Depression in South Park and its fandom is a tricky thing because I think a lot of people don't have realistic, or sensitive, headcanons about depression. Which is probably obvious by my whiny posts lately lol.

But it's also something, both for South Park as a fandom and media at large that needs to be looked at pretty carefully. There's a lot of headcanons that if I'm being blunt I think are God awful and insensitive if people think about it critically at all. Which I do try to weigh with the source being South Park which can in itself be insensitive.

The thing that makes South Park as a source fairly unique is it represents a more stereotypically 'masculine' depression. Which isn't to say women can't or don't act that way. But the 'explosive' depression is something that is more typically present in men. And that isn't something that is often present in media as a whole; the typical depiction of depression is more by-the-book representative of young women. (Again not exclusively so. Some of Stan's more annoying/negative traits are things I've felt and worked to outgrow. Probably some I've failed at lol). It also feels very authentic, presumably because Stan is so much of Trey in ways that characters aren't typically so emotionally autobiographical and usually have multiple writers.

That leads to the crux of my waffling with a lot of handling of depression. It very often is based on female depression, and whether in media or fandom is often based on stereotypes of this, such as cutting etc. A lot of stereotype appears because the authors can't personally relate. But then again, quite often authors DO relate to this, and it occurs so often because the authors themselves are more typically women than men, in particular in fandom. But on the other OTHER hand, depression is often treated as childishly annoying and something to grow out of, and in mocking it it very often is done by exaggerating the female depression stereotype that everyone has in their heads. Even in South Park there's a mess of trying to write mental illness but not being able to relate personally, relating personally but not presenting in the same way as is typical the demographic represented and shown in South Park, and finding mental illness annoying and actively mocking it, usually in these underhanded kind of headcanons.

Anyway this is a mess lol I'm about to clock out for work but hopefully there's still something decent in what I said. Mental illness and its representation is so multifaceted! Maybe I'll talk more about it tomorrow when I'm off :) thanks for the ask!

ETA Now that I'm back home:

Overall what makes good representation is:

Knowing from personal experience

Being earnest

There are at times things you can extrapolate from your personal knowledge of being human and feeling emotions even if you don't know things personally. But it's going to always feel truer when it is truer even with the best of intentions.

Being earnest makes a huge difference, too, and is something I think people forget. Shows like South Park can be and often are insensitive, but the feelings behind them are also often authentic and earnest. Shows like Skins, often aren't earnest by design in that more dramatic/soap opera based shows are usually looking for more shock value than emotional authenticity (someone feel free to correct me if I've missed the mark on the genre though. This is just what I've vaguely picked up from Skins from seeing like 2 or 3 eps and knowing the general premise lol). I think it also speaks to my earlier points in that the VAST majority of the writing credits for this show are men and have no lived experience as being a depressed teen girl. No lived experience and a desire for emotional reaction over emotional connection is, to me, always going to lead to a less 'true' outcome. Even if the show has its own positive merits.

I actually DID read Thirteen Reasons Why (in high school) and watched uhhh about 15 minutes of the show, which I quit because it struck me as OTT in a way that I don't really like. I did like the book okay but also thought at the time 'this dude doesn't know what it's like to be a girl', which is the crux of a lot of problems. But I do think Jay Asher has his heart in the right place which covers up some of the problems. I've heard a little bit about the show that makes me inclined to agree it leans into shock value though.

Side note as a rec, everyone should watch Ordinary People. That movie's good as hell.

[juni-ravenhall]

yesterday on sso ig post i saw some number of ppl commenting that the final 50sc wasnt enough for the disco reward, that we shouldve gotten 200sc since it was 200k people, stuff like that

this is one of the few times that ive felt some (mostly kids/teens..) criticism of a sse choice was kinda silly, since we have been getting a lot of free sc in the past half year, and at the current rate id assume we will get more small free sc codes again in the next months. if youve been using every free code since xmas til yesterday, you prob got more than 200sc for free in the past half year. which is nice and very welcomed from sse, who had otherwise gotten very dismissive and disinterested in rewarding players' loyalty and patience with them (which they should be grateful for due to all sso's years of problems!) with rewards that the players feel actually matter.

but, i dont have anything rude or disrespectful or mean to say about those people (mostly kids/teens...) for saying it was cheap of sse to not give out more sc yesterday. i dont think theyre greedy and i certainly dont think it would be okay to publically (including in gc/servers/communities) call them greedy or whiny or entitled or stupid, if you did think that about them. (i say that bc ive seen those kind of words used over and over. do *you* want to be called those things, especially in public, or in someone's gc? is that really how you want ppl to treat each other? instead of having respectful convos about things you disagree on, or just take a deep breath and move on [when the thing isnt really a real problem hurting real ppl]?)

even if i disagree with their opinion, the fact is that

1) most of those players are frustrated with sse for a lot of valid reasons. even tho sse is trying to give out more rewards, it feels like too little too late for them. which is okay. they dont have to be loyal or patient with a game they paid like $€100 for that was a hot mess and often failed to deliver things or didnt uphold a standard quality (or even child safety, like human moderation, player reporting, manipulative marketing tactics to children who dont understand theyre being exploited...). they might not know how to convey their frustration in other ways than asking for more loyalty rewards bc they are regular young ppl who dont deeply analyse things before they talk. its not hurting anyone in this case and therefore isnt really an issue (sse is a company and can not be hurt. if any one person at sse is hurt by "give us 200sc you suck" comments on the company ig page, something is wrong that can be fixed), and companies do need to get negative feedback as well as positive. even when that feedback isnt well-phrased: "i love this game" is also not well thought-out feedback, the same as "i hate this game". or "thank you for the reward" vs "i wanted more rewards". both are okay. neither are especially concrete or analytical.

2) some of them make a point that for the free sc we've received lately, you still can't even buy a 350sc pet, much less a 800+ sc horse. in.... you know, the horse game. which is a fair point. if you're a young player, without an income or the ability to make your own digital purchases, and maybe your parents either dont pay for sso for you *or* only pay occasionally... then, if you're passionate about wanting to play this game, you really *wish* you could buy a horse in this game but you cant, you're an engaged player/customer that should be valued by the company for your interest and loyalty... it does make sense to think that you could be rewarded with enough to buy a horse, once in a while. you would barely even be able to buy tack or clothes or a pet, still, without buying more sc (esp until recently when firefly shilling grinding wasnt a thing - but u still lose access to that if u lose your sr sub bc you / your parents couldnt pay for another month). and, you probably still want to buy another horse. its not as if getting 900sc for free and buying a horse means you wouldnt be interested in buying more sc later, for another horse, for tack, for clothes, for pets. you were engaged enough in the game in the first place to desire that horse so badly. its not likely youd just immediately stop being interested in buying sc or paying for sr... rather, you might be even more passionate now that you have that pretty horse you wanted for a year, now you really, really want to try to get star rider, or get that tack set for the horse. and maybe you can afford paying for a month of sr or use double sc weekend next time, even though you couldnt last year. engaged, passionate and loyal players/customers are important and should be valued. (not as in, value every single thing they say. value as in consider how to keep them positive towards your product and company. they will also spread word of mouth advertisement etc for free for you, if you keep them happy.)

ive said this before, but remember that getting a free horse should actually be a normal thing in sso (sc allowance isnt really "free" considering you have to be paying to get the allowance). the same way giving out a free weapon or free mount in other games makes sense (if its not possible to just earn them with non-premium currency). it brings in attention and eyes on your game when it happens, the same way their current micro-dosing-sc campaigns are getting them lots of players attention, and brings positivity and excitement in the playerbase. it makes returning players come check out what they've been missing and maybe spend some cash if they like what they see.

alternatively they could offer some horses for shillings instead of sc to help reward the players who just cant pay much for the game, if they dont want to give out large sums of sc (like 500-1000) or give out free horses. ofc the 10k js limit is a problem here if they want the horses to cost more than a sweater (tho... i think instead, no objects should cost more than 5000js individually..), but even that can be solved by making some system where you pay 10k js multiple times, like by unlocking different parts of a bundle or buying a few items that together will combine and form the full "key" to buying your shilling horse.

anyway. i think that before you call people names (greedy, untitled, whiny, stupid, mean, rude...) for something you disagree with, you should think properly about whether theyre actually hurting any real people (saying "i hate this" about a company or product or situation etc =/= saying "i hate you / i hate this person / i hate these people" about actual individual people or groups of people - and no, saying "but sse staff are people" doesnt make it different than criticising a company/product, unless one is literally sending hate to individual staff members as persons).

and, you should also try to understand where that reaction is coming from - both theirs, and yours. people are frustrated with Thing, people express negative emotions and thoughts and opinions towards Thing, and sometimes thats fair and okay. sometimes Thing has bad things that are worth being frustrated over or criticising, and yes, even if there are also good parts to Thing, its still completely valid to criticise the bad or less good parts, and to be frustrated about them. (nuance is necessary - its not okay to want people not to criticise Thing just because it has good parts, or just bc you love it - criticising Thing also doesnt mean they hate it or hate you - those are unhealthy mindsets without enough nuance.)

yes, sometimes people also "hate" on a Thing to take out frustrations that arent even related - it does happen, but its really just.... not that serious if 3 people are taking out their frustrations on a commercial product or capitalist company.... if you had a hard day and say, comment on a brand of soda's page to say "fuck you i hate you", this should not be a big deal to anyone. professional social media page managers need to be trained in how to cope with spam and other negative interactions. on the other hand, you taking out your frustrations on actual real individual people - or groups of people - is a genuine problem. saying "these people on ig are so whiny and greedy about this videogame" is rude and disrespectful when those people's frustrations are actually coming from a pretty reasonable source and arent hurting anyone. this teenager on instagram doesnt have a social media manager, this unprofessional sso youtuber is just a normal person like you, this tumblr blog doesnt deserve mean reactions from their peers just for expressing opinions about a Thing that isnt a Person. not if its not harming people.

but i know its really hard for me to ever get through to people about this bc some people just feel so strongly that "hating" on a product/company *is* somehow hating "on real people", is "harmful", usually both on the staff of the company and on the non-"haters". we're "harming you" by criticising your favourite game or disagreeing... "harming sso staff" by leaving negative comments... and so on. which is just not true and not reasonable. (usually painting people as either lovers or haters - and those of us who love the game but also criticise it and criticise the company, get painted as haters for no other reason than lack of nuance. i really cant believe how i've had a sso-centric blog for 5+ years and play this game a lot and people will STILL claim that actually i hate sso, im biased against sso, i dont care about sso, etc, etc, etc. its crazy.)

[coquelicoq]

#yoohan……………………. perplexes me in the exact way that u describe lol. they dont even have metamour energy. DESPITE#WHO THEY ARE TO EACH OTHER…… so interesting in a different way theyre not even friends either but neither of them have other friends#than each other. i adore when ppl get weird with it. obsessed w ur they have kim dokja clone sex bc kdj is#Not Participating. fits nicely against my 'yjh is the only allo one in the group but hankim are the ones having gay sex' corner

#YOO JOONGHYUK WANTS HIM TO HOLD HIM DOWN (which would require an entire rewriting of kim dokja)…………………….. wow thats so true#hm putting them next to each other they are a little matonato. in the way of. yjh is NOT the barrier here the barrier is kdj stubbornly#rejecting/not acknowledging/refusing to even notice his feelings. but also yjh is the problem bc he is always being misinterpreted#as a hater. bc he acts like a hater.

#SPEAKING OF. AUGHGHH TO PUT MATONATO AS 'why they/why not they' sums it up so perfectlyyyyyyyy#the unresolvable conflict. that from an outside perspective could be gordian knot solved by making out about it except they are#tangled in the threads of ten million miscommunications and conflicting motivations/values/responsibilities/goals/desires#self awareness and lack of simultaneously et cetera.#i get what ur saying. the tension between all of that is so endlessly delicious. theyre perfect little guys lol. made for coming up w#ten thousand ways for them to get married/divorced/married again.#but written in a way where even ignoring the easy ship bait their relationship is insane. what do you MEAN you hate him but you take his#side against his sister. you dont trust him but you turn to him for help. you remember his cute cat-loving childish side with a fond smile.#he lets you drag him out of meetings to help your friend you think he's got nefarious motives about. you dont know this yet but he#knows SOMETHING about your intimate family secrets you have core shame about and hes just going around quietly investigating that.#possibly doing a 'natori trying to solve the BOF and natsume trying to solve the lizard' thing on his own.#and its taken u guys six years of working past ur defensive/offensive communication styles to approach something resembling friendship#except why would u even want to be friends you dont agree with each other. but after all this time ur still each others closest thing#to a peer!!!!! <- u see i go insane about even platonic canonic matonato lol midorikawa is killing us (via @joelletwo)

sorry everyone ignore us i just need to preserve these for my sanity. yoo joonghyuk is not the problem except that he is the problem but if he stopped being the problem he would run up against bigger The Problems (kim dokja's whole i don't love you what are you a comedian + i alone among everyone in the universe do not deserve love <3 things) so ultimately he kind of gets a pass. hankim gay sex agenda you're a genius. the gordian knot that could be just solved by making out about it IF YOU ONLY CHANGE EVERYTHING ABOUT WHO YOU THINK YOU ARE AND THE ONLY WAY YOU KNOW HOW TO MOVE THROUGH THE WORLD ughhhh it's that simple guys just do it!!!! each other's closest thing to a peer. shut up they're both so alone it's fucking knives time in my chest cavity.

hmmm for the shipping meme! matonato and hankim or yoohankim?

[ID: A graph with the x-axis labeled "makes sense" on the left and "doesn't make sense" on the right and the y-axis labeled "compels me" at the top and "doesn't compel me" at the bottom. points labeled MN for matonato, HK for hankim, and YHK for yoohankim have been situated on the grid: MN in the top left (makes sense, compels me), HK at the top and to the right of MN (makes some sense, compels me), and two points labeled YHK, one slightly above and to the left of the center (makes some sense, compels me some) and one in the bottom right (doesn't make sense, doesn't compel me). /end ID]

wow this threw me off because for some reason i assumed that makes sense would be on the right instead of the left! so hopefully i made all the necessary corrections to what i originally wrote lol.

matonato: makes sense, compels me. probably obnoxiously obvious to everyone at this point. do they get a happy ending? i mean it's very fun to think about and i love me a good actually-together-matonato concept, but probably the most compelling thing about them is the star-crossed aspect. it's not will they won't they, it's why they why not they. why do they want this and why can they never have it? it's, how can i make this about natori's self-hatred? it's, who is matoba if he quits the exorcist business? (EXTREMELY JUICY AND COMPELLING QUESTION 2 B ASKING.) it's, what changes in their individual priorities and self-conception would be necessary before they could get together? asking myself these questions and understanding why they in their current forms can't be in a relationship helps me to better articulate who exactly they are and what motivates them and gives me avenues for thinking about possible character development. but like i said i do really love thinking about matonato endgame, and even though i know it's never going to be canon (which it doesn't need to be, obviously! we are in our sandbox making our own dreams come true), i'm reading the homura arc like girl why did you do that. where are you going with this??? fellas is it gay to stalk your homoerotic rival's enemies and the answer is a resounding YES. they are a good ship because thinking about each of them in the context of the other expands my understanding and appreciation of their individual characters, but also because it would be sexy for them to mash their mouths together. both are very important elements of shipping 2 me.

hankim: i want to say this is one of the most compelling relationships in orv but they are all compelling, it's actually insane. however hankim is definitely tied for first (with twenty other relationships). her love for him is the beating heart of the story. like the entire plot hinges around her loving him so much she would [redacted], but also the central themes are exemplified by how she feels about him and what she does about it. and he trusts her in a way he can't really trust anyone else, because she knows enough about the world that he can be open with her about things he can't tell others, and because he trusts her to be competent and able to achieve his objectives. mostly to me though their relationship Is About her love for him because of how badly he needs it and how little he can understand it, and how central it is to his entire character that he needs but cannot understand receiving that kind of love. i have not yet succeeded in imagining any kind of compelling sexual relationship for them, except the somewhat indirect one where he gives her permission to make a kim-dokja-looking avatar with which to fuck yoo joonghyuk while kim dokja is elsewhere minding his own business, but that's fine, they don't need to be having sex to have a compelling relationship, obviously. so yeah it's compelling af and it does make sense, but i'm taking some sense points off because the kdj-to-hsy direction is pretty standard shipping material while the opposite direction is like the entire point of the book. it's a lil unbalanced.

yoohankim: this ship fascinates me because i definitely never would have come up with it myself. hankim? see above. yookim? see below. but yoohan - DESPITE THE WHOLE DEAL AROUND WHO YOO JOONGHYUK IS AND HOW HE GOT THAT WAY - are just like. Only Here For Kim Dokja. any relationship they have with each other is a proxy for a relationship with kim dokja, mediated by their feelings for kim dokja, and put through the sieve of who the other person is to kim dokja. i think they have a very psychosexual thing going on where they're having a lot of sex with each other but mostly in order to feel close to kim dokja, who is not involved lol. which is its own kind of compelling, certainly. i guess you could say yoohankim is the ONLY way that yoohan makes any sort of sense to me whatsoever, so in that regard yoohankim is squarely in the northwest quadrant. but at the same time i feel like if kim dokja is actually present, their relationship with each other is more like in-laws than anything else. it's indirect. they don't have divorced energy…they don't even have metamour energy. i don't know. they're like this is my sister's mailman and i have no idea what he's doing at my nephew's piano recital, which is insane to me because they should have (nonsexual) parent-child energy if nothing else. so i also have to put yoohankim in the southeast quadrant. so far this is where most yoohankim fic i have read falls, but probably i just haven't yet found the one that would unlock it for me.

to close the loop i gotta talk about yookim (joongdok). the most enjoyable thing about it to me personally is that yoo joonghyuk so clearly wants kim dokja to hold him down and it's very fun to see kim dokja have to shift his entire paradigm to make that make sense. i mean, i think all of kimcom wants to hold kim dokja down (most of them nonsexually imo), but yoo joonghyuk is the one guy who's like "if you would just stop trying to kill yourself for two seconds then i could let you out of these handcuffs so you could have your way with me. you bastard." they make me crazy because they work together SO well and trust each other SO implicitly while also being like, wow this idiot has terrible priorities and so i have to manipulate him into furthering my agenda (keeping him safe) instead of his agenda (keeping me safe). they're also that evergreen combo of guy with low self-worth who's oblivious to other people's love for him/guy who loves so hard but never uses his words about it that makes me wanna read about them getting together 100 different times. in a slightly different sense than with matonato, thinking about them as a twosome better elucidates aspects of their own individual personalities and worldviews, which makes for a compelling shipping experience.

[extreme-technicality]

Hhhhhhhhh somehow my cast of OCs gets yeeted back in time to see the ninja and they bOND, specifically Aster gets the chance to tell Zane she loves him to his fACE and it’s not the same, of course it isn’t, this Zane doesn’t know her like her dad Zane does, but she gets to face him with pride and with his last name and uGHHHHHHH IM EMOTIONALLLLLLLLLLL

[doodlebloo]

u r so right about cBeeduo both being kinda fucked up! Ur so right! Like,,, if we look at the bigger picture,, ppl calling cTubbo a bad husband for the anvil (who was in a way trying to help Ranboo and the moment he said he was uncomfortable, they stopped and tubbo never did any experiments again) don't judge Ranboo as much cuz he is more attentive and shows his affection more. However, he did so much shit that affected tubbo and is still does, and Tubbo never confronts him about it.

Like Ranboo siding with Wilbur. Tubbo doesn't like wilbur, doesnt trust him at all, he is the reason why Tubbo died both times in a way, both fighting for Wilbur. But he never got mad at Ranboo for his decision. But when he joined Quackity, Ranboo immediately acts like tubbo is in the wrong for doing so.

sorry for ranting,, its just,, you were so right. cBeeduo are such an interesting relationship. Cuz you can see how much they love eachother and care for the other, but at the same time they are so fucked up and they end up hurting the other cuz they dont know how to express themselves or talk to eachother

YES YOU UNDERSTAND...

Part of the reason that their marriage is so interesting is that they really did rush into it... And that doesn't mean they don't care about each other because it's plain to see that they do, very much so.

But neither of them had the time to really think about the implications of allying themselves together, not to mention the fact that they both have different opinions on what that means in the first place... Like obviously cTubbo is pretty ride or die for his people, but cRanboo still thinks he can be allies with everyone, it hasn't clicked for him yet that "people not sides" will never work.

And also their ways of handling conflict aren't compatible, because cTubbo won't ever speak up if he feels like something is wrong and cRanboo will acknowledge their problems but put off fixing it/sometimes flat out ignore it until it festers and grows and becomes too big to ignore, y'know? Like for all they care about each other, they cannot for the life of them communicate in an open and healthy way, if at all.

It's like, if we just knew more about Enderwalk, about cRanboo's motivations for betraying his friends the way he did, I would NEVER shut up about them and their dynamic. But I just feel like there's this one last piece of the puzzle that were missing to tie it all together, and once we get that it'll be so much more interesting, y'know?

[yurtletheturtlehenderson]

i just wanna talk to someone abt this because i trust u and ppl on tumblr actually freak me out and scare me so…hear me out. im not at all opposed to byler and im not homophobic bc i dont particularly ship it as much as others. yes i do ship it some amount, but the only thing that worries me is homophobes. being a queer person in a homophobic family is reallt hard and u have to learn to grow with a fear of them hating u. im just afraid of how ppl will take it if byler is canon. again i am not against the ship. that being said i am a girl who simps over will byers and i adore the y/n x will dynamic they have. just wanted to tell someone bc a lot of ppl on this sight would call me homophobic and stuff over this

Aw honey... of course it's okay. And I'm sorry things have been like this. I totally get it. What's not okay is a fandom getting so protective over their ships they make people of afraid of not shipping something enough. (Long but necessary rant ahead. Sorry, but its worth it)

I'm gonna lose a lot of people here, and likely cause they don't want to read to the end to hear all I have to say, but here goes: I don't particularly ship Byler either. When most people hear this statement they immediately equate it with the statement "I don't think Will is gay and neither is Mike" (I feel like this is true for most queer ships, or just shipping culture in general?).... this could not be more wrong. For one, nobody ever immediately knows why someone ships something (and a lot of times, the person themselves don't understand/realize why they subconsciously pick to a specific pairing and cling to it so tightly) and while it's completely understandable to have become defensive, say, because you feel as though your own identity is under attack, it's so easy—natural even—for people to snap into survival mode and try to defend themselves. But as we've seen, this can, in the right circumstances, also feed the pre-existing cycle of offense and defense that is far too long and philosophical a discussion to dive into here and now.

No, for now I wanna just reiterate that just because someone admits to not being particularly hyper-enthused by a specific ship��yes, like Byler—doesn't mean they automatically hate it. I don't particularly campaign for Mileven either! I've been persuaded by both in the past, but I've never found myself at point where I'm making fan accounts surrounding the ship, pumping out content 24/7, and I certainly haven't felt compelled to bash anyone who ships the other. But ya know what? I will say, and I bet im not alone here, the more I encounter Mileven content/space OR Byler content/space, the more I'm driven away. Why? The fucking shipping wars.

Byler and Mileven shippers, hard-core super-shippers specifically speaking, are some of the most toxic fans I've ever encountered. Is it every one? No!! But most. Most. The most extreme ive heard/seen is horrific. I'm talking death threats, suicide baiting, doxing, constant harassment and just overall borderline cyberterrorism. It's fucking unacceptable. And the underlying theme here and why there's so much fear spreading throughout fandom spaces. Why someone felt the need to limit contact and come to someone they claimed to trust to anonymously admit they aren't frothing at the mouth for one of these aforementioned ships. (Thank u btw for feeling u could trust me) This is not okay!!! People have to see how wrong this is!!! Right?? Right?!

I have no idea how much people will respect all this considering the source: a 21 year old reader insert writer who dedicates most of her time to writing teenagers into the plot of stranger things with Will Byers as their love interest (yes, specifically fem presenting/ she/her pronoun users). So no, I wouldn't blame anyone for hearing me say the words "I'm not a big byler shipper" and assume it has anything to do with that. But I'd hope that anyone who knows me, or is at least willing to hear me out, will understand that I have stated many times (and likely will again cause im a ✨️repetitive bitch✨️) that when I was a teenager, I was going through the absolute worst years of my life. Like, it warmed me up the for 2020s, that's how bad it was for me. And the only thing that got me through (likely without falling into what I believe would have become some incredibly dangerous habits) was falling into a world I could completely disappear into and forget my own shitty world existed.

I found this series called The Maze Runner, fell absolutely in love with the books and the world and bought every copy I could get my hands on. And when that wasn't enough, I looked for every blogspace I could get my hands on. Enter tumblr. Not even five minutes into my new account and searching the maze runner tag do I find a short little story called an "x reader". I literally cried. I was so fucking alone cause, and I'll tell yall, in the span of 15 months, I put down my dog of 11 years, lost my great-grandmother, then my grandpa, then my great grandfather, and then my grandmother. I had reason to believe I would suddenly lose my best friend to depression, and then to top it off my parents got divorced. Granted things have definitely gotten brighter, but little 14 year old me was no where near a healthy state of mind, or body and stumbling across something that not only let me disappear from my collapsing world, but surrounded me in love and encouragement, no matter how corny or silly, by the characters I had fallen in love with was an indescribable experience. This. This is precisely why i write. If theres even a chance i can provide that for you, and God, in the 2020s of all time to be a teenager, than i want to. I want to pay it forward.

That being said, I'd also hope one would understand while things were on the mend, I wasn't fully recovered by the time stranger things came out and i decided to write for it. The grief and trauma was one thing but, another thing you guys might know about me if you've been following me for a while is in the past, I've struggled severely—and still do a great deal—with compulsory heterosexuality. And honestly, a little internalized homophobia I think. It's stuff I work on daily, and it's stuff, I'd be willing to bet, a lot more people deal with than you'd expect. It's for this reason, that I suspect hilariously enough, me a deeply closeted lesbian while planning an x (at the time fem!)reader rewrite for younger kids to escape into, was faced with the choice of a love interest and subconsciously chose one of the only semi-canonically gay male characters available. Yes, essentially, in my own comphet riddled brain, I subconsciously gave both the (fem)reader and Will Byers my own comphet.

But guess what? Characters evolve as the story evolves and that rings true for COSMIC. I wish I had stories back then that casually explored sexuality outside the confines of cisgender heterosexuality in a safe, fun, encouraging way. I also wish I had stories that led you down one story with one character only and suck you in only to change and evolve if needed to say, an opposite sex or nonbinary character as the new love interest and being able to do so cause the love interest was never THE PLOT in the first place. It certainly would have helped speed things along I think, and even if I wasn't its healthy to try things out/consider before saying, ya know I think this still feels right, I'm good! And that's okay!

I deeply deeply appreciate anyone who read this far. I completely understand how much i tend to blather and granted i didnt plan on going into the specifics of my childhood trauma but i felt it necessary info as to why on earth im preaching gay Will while i currently have a Will x fem!reader on my page (Again, dont worry. Im not about to disrespect/erase anything likely to come in s4, nor have is this is a sudden thing in COSMIC) and seemingly shitting on ships. Again, it's the over intense shippers, not the ships themselves and overall lack of byler content that failed to get my attention.

In conclusion, yes, I don't particularly ship Byler much like you dear nonnie, but anyone who automatically thinks that statement makes us homophobic really needs to take a step back and perhaps consider taking a break from public fandom space. If you as a byler OR mileven shipper feel confronted at every corner to a point you're jumping down others throats, you need to take a break from the internet. Draw your ship, write some fanfic if you still want to engage in fandom activities offline but take a break from the internet and prowling for any throat to jump down.

Blech. Rant over. I kinda accidentally combined it with the pre season 4 premiere disclaimer for Cosmic and how and why I have a will x reader with a fem reader copy and how that's going to be affected by s4 so that's prob why it's so long but I don't regret it. The point is, this is and always will be a safe space for fandom enjoyment and just hanging out and the last thing I want here is someone to be feel afraid or threatened in any way. I love you all so much and wish nothing but amazing things for you all. And thank you again, dear nonnie, for trusting me. It means a lot.

💕💕💕 - Yurtle

[6okuto]

hcs for rime and felix dealing with an mc who wears jfashion like fairy kei? super self indulgent but pls. or an mc who wants to get into it but is worried ppl will judge them

— rime and felix with an mc into j-fashion

ohhh a lot of j-fashion scratches my brain good choice !! if ur worried about people judging just remember there's also people who'd be in awe and appreciation . u r the person i'd see in public and be like Wish that was Me...wish we were friends...

very different from either of their own styles but they support it fr!

they'd probably ask about the history behind it and why they dress that way but at the end of the day ! cool person with cool style

if we're talking about astraea,, i don't think fairy kei fashion would be Easy To Find. if possible?? but they'd sure go looking! if all else fails it's time to use capitalism and pay someone baby

as somebody whose friends constantly say "Do it. Buy it right now." ,, neither of them seem like good impulse control

other than rime stopping them with stuff like "that won't suit you as well as the other top"

on the bright side that means mc can't easily back out of buying some pieces that fit the aesthetic

rime is the friend who doesn't back down and aggressively compliments you. it's the "shut the hell up are you serious you'd pull that off so well buy it right now." y'know

like mc already looks good in the clothes they have. imagine if they wore things that they really liked and felt confident in. come on you know you want to

and it may be the complete opposite of everything felix has going on but that just means he empathizes with their fear

felix :handshake: mc two sides of the same coin

they can be like the meme with the black and pink houses !

felix and mc making a deal to indulge in their interests as long as the other does while they're out shopping

if anybody sends looks their way felix and rime are now on either side of them and glaring back/distracting them

also i don't think mc would be the only person they'd look at. jumping from looking at them to felix to rime and it's just like oh . an alt/queer friend group HLEPSFJAD

they also just,, act normally. do you know what i mean . like when you feel like you're standing out but your friends just accept it and you kinda forget about your anxiety . yeah

anyway they also compliment mc's outfits all the time

especially little accessories or details that they notice so mc knows it's sincere

also i know wigs/dyed hair? are part of fairy kei and i do think they'd help manage them . you might be like Felix?? but he'd try his best he's careful when he needs to be/mc asks i think :[

if they notice mc feeling a little nervous or insecure they're reassuring them and reminding them that they Look Good!!!! anybody who thinks otherwise is dumb and not worth their time!

rime says something along the lines of everybody looking boring so mc is always a sight for his sore eyes

if they saw mc wearing something one of them bought they'd feel honoured and Accomplished :100:

tbh the both of them would probably buy things just so they can go "i hope i'll get to see you wearing this some time soon :)" and now everybody wins

felix and rime arguing over what mc should wear 😭 they're so annoying /j mc asks what shoes would pair better with their outfit and rime is calling felix an idiot for ever thinking those sneakers are better than his own choice

"what do you know" technically neither of you know anything about this fashion style but carry on i guess

[scandeniall]

story of us

pairing: suna x reader

the story of ur relationship <3; alternatively (more) dating sunarin headcanons but this time is somewhat of an order and talks good and bad 2K+ worth lol

a/n: i had more planned but half of these have been sitting in my notes for months and its kinda fucking long already bc he lives rent free!!!

warnings: uh the usual aged up (in ur 20s time skip type beat), language, yeah

Meeting

Now when y’all met suna was not looking to love at all. That man was just living his life and so where you. The two of you pretty much meet through komori. You’re a friend and it’s his birthday so him and a few of his friends go out for drinks bc why not. Young hot pretty financially stable v-ball players. Nah no ones there for any type of hookups literally just there celebrating a great guy.

They rent out a section at a relatively nice bar tbh. Not the cheapest and you can actually hear conversation. But also not a super expensive one where the patrons are middle aged with jazz music and the occasional track to relive “youth.” Komori’s a sweetie and will come outside to get you when you text that you’re there. You’ve met washio and ofc sakusa Before so you greet them casually then you turn and there’s Suna and a few others you haven’t met.

That greeting isn’t anything special I promise. Just “hey I’m so and so” and vice versa. It’s one of those meetings where you just think “he’s cute” but it’s such a fleeting thought. Y’all don’t even really talk that first night tbh. At the next practice Suna mentions offhandedly that he didn’t know komori was dating someone and komori is like: huh? Yeah sorry. I love (Y/N) and all but were just friends. Suna just shrugs not really caring to be honest until Komori just asks what did he think of you.

“Don’t really remember much man. Seemed cool though” he didn’t think he’d really see you again. Yeah you were close enough to have been at Komori’s birthday but if that was his first time ever meeting you, he figured you weren’t from around there are present very much. Yeah he was wrong.

Suddenly you were on Komori’s snap story more often, or maybe he’d just been noticing more. Too bad he couldn’t even remember your name 💀. Then it turned into you occasionally popping up where he was. He’d been told your name at least 5 times already but wouldn’t remember it the next day. Whenever he’d see you again he’d get a strained look like: “what is this mf name again” just laugh and tell him again bby.

That changed at some random house party by another mutual friend you two apparently had? You two were the only people just around the fire pit trying to catch some warmth in the chilly night. He’s probably just on his phone head bobbing his head to the muffled music from inside. And you’re just like “remember my name yet?” All jokingly. This sparks the tiniest bit of interest in him and he lets out a low chuckle and just admits “not at all.” I also feel like this is the first time he really looks at you and he’s like 🤨, wait you’re actually kinda cute.

That night y’all just kinda talk and vibe. The conversation comes easy as you two jump back and forth from talking about the music playing to sneakers which he brings up to stuff that you like. He’s actually really easy to talk to. So easy that u can forget about him not remembering your name despite meeting several times. You mention that you’d hung around komori before while they were gaming and that he seemed pretty cool. That leads him to asking “how do you know him anyways?”

“I used to date Sakusa”

Mentally he’s just like— ‘yeah I’m not getting involved in this. Time to go.’ Until you just start laughing.

“I’m kidding. He’s not really my type. We met after being paired together for a project in school.”

The two of you spend quite a bit of time just talking that night until you are joined again by some friends and it’s deadass like y’all weren’t just talking for almost an hour straight.

Getting Together

The process of getting together is like a cat and mouse game. You two start getting closer than friends and then something happens and you’re not talking for weeks. Whether it be life just getting busy, and then someone ending up on some random tinder date or so be it. Definitely one of those things were somehow someway y’all end up just hanging on one of your couches watching a movie. At some point there’s definitely a hint of sexual tension but neither of y’all act on it (later on you find on his finsta that he used to post several “i wont you 😔” memes  Folks can’t tell if hes joking or not (hes not))

You probably gotta tell that man you like him so if that ain’t you I’m sorry. Y’all not dating 😹. It’s something casual, y’all going to pick up some snacks for a movie night and why this mf keep looking at you out the side of his eyes instead of the road. You def texting the groupchat asking if you should confess. They tell you to boss up and just do it baby.

You literally end up confessing in that parking lot. Like right when he shuts the car off and starts swinging his keys on his finger and you kinda just blurt “I like you. Like like you.” He just kinda nods before his eyes widen. “Wait are you fr?” Like no you’re joking tf. It gets a lil awkward so you just go to get out the car and he’s like “I like like you too.”

I definitely don’t think either of you ever officially asked the other out it’s just at some point the understanding that you two are a couple. Like when you’re hanging out just you two hes more touchy, and then y’all start kissing and holding hands at some point. Then when you’re with friends he almost exclusively sits next to you and your friends notice the whispers in one another’s ears at the loud bar that seem just a hint too intimate for ppl who are just friends. Then y’all start arriving and leaving places together and people just at some point get the message (it’s later confirmed by you tweeting some shit like: I hate Rin why is that mf my boyfriend)

As far as anniversaries y’all draw straws to pick a day in the ballpark of the time y’all both think you became official. That’s the day you stick with even if it’s not true.

Relationship Flaws

A fault in the relationship is sunas kinda poor communication when it comes to things that matter. How he feels. Arguments. Love sure as hell don’t come east with anyone but when your partner won’t let you in? Yeah that’s like hell. That’s something you struggle with. And then on your end, it’s the impatience with him not letting you in. You try to wrongfully rush it.

 There’s definitely been arguments that stem from him just being upset about something unrelated to the relationship then coming to you for comfort without actually telling you what’s wrong. He kinda just wants to lay with his head on his chest but at some point that’s not enough. Y’all are in a relationship and should be able to talk about your bad days too.

You’re not innocent in this issue either because sometimes it comes off too pushy. Yes it’s from a place of care but sometimes that silent comfort is necessary. The walls will break in due time and y’all both know that deep in the back of your minds But then there’s a part that’s like— yeah we can’t let this become the norm

“Rin, can you please talk to me”

He will have literally told you “whatever” and that he “can’t deal with this rn” several times as he just shrugs and is like yeah “I’m gonna just go home. I’ll text you later” with an awkward ass pat on your shoulder if it really ruined his mood. If he’s leaving before he gets super upset and uncomfortable just some half assed kiss in your cheek

Another thing is I feel like he could be passive aggressive and let’s be real other folks doing it causes you to do it to. Y’all probably drag eachother on your finstas where you can both see it lol

But when it comes to making up he cracks first and apologizes when he started it. Or as y’all get more comfy with communication. If it’s not anything major he’ll just hit you with a text like “I’m bored come hang”

More Relationship Things

I feel like he love/hates driving. Likes the ride not always driving though. So if you ever proposed a late night drive he’d be down (if you offer to drive). He does let y’all take his car though. He reclines the seat pretty far back. Alternates between just closing his eyes vibing w/ the music or kinda just looking at you (he the type of bf that makes u nervous no matter how long y’all been together)The way he looks at you makes you nervous cause that man is fine as hell and you can just feel his eyes on you.

He films you on Snapchat and sends the video to you like “you look hot”

If he’s not ‘resting his eyes’ he’s mumbling along to the music because he has the aux. if y’all music tastes are different he occasionally throws in something you really like bc he likes how you perk up at one of your fav songs

Moving on. Y’all dap eachother up after s3x because it’s “modern romance” (boy stfu). You two came up with a sex playlist together and it’s on both of your phones. Sometimes one of you will add a troll song that the other doesn’t know and put it in the lineup. (Stole my heart by 1D has definitely played before and you were practically in tears laughing at his reaction. That was one of those songs he was like ‘yeah alright i think we’re done).

At some point you two develop your own handshake and it’s cute. Whenever either of you have to travel without the other that’s always the last thing you do before you leave eachother. There’s vids of your friends daring y’all to do your elaborate ass handshake drunk and doesn’t matter what’s in your system, you both know it like the back of your hand.

I think he values quality time a lot so there’s so many nights where you’re both just chilling in his room just doing your own things. He could just be at his desk watching some game highlights and you’re just doing hw on his bed with your own earbuds in work all spread out and he’s content. He’s also attentive so if he calculates that you’ve been working too long he’ll just take ur earbud like “hey let’s go get something to eat.”

People definitely think he’s the lazy one in the relationship but it’s 100% not true. Like stated above, he’s very attentive and can pretty much gauge how you’re feeling in the blink of an eye. He knows when you need alone time but won’t go without reassuring you that he’s here whenever you’re ready. When you do just need him he’s there without a second thought. If you’re more touchy he’ll have your head in his lap his arm running up and down your as you tell him what’s wrong. He knows when to joke about a minor inconvenience and over the course of your relationship knows when to cut the jokes and be serious with you.

He’d never admit it but he knows your coffee order by heart (he keeps up his image my asking wtf do you get everytime. Just let him LOL). He the type to peek at what you plan on wearing and ‘accidentally’ color coordinate then pull some shit like “why are you copying me”

Y’all def shit talk together. See someone doing something completely out of pocket in public— straight to ur phones you go (pack it up shade room). To the public it just looks like you aren’t paying any attention to one another on your dates but y’all are. Just over the phone so u don’t piss off ur target 😌

Y’all are very comfy in your relationship that you just say stuff. Y’all don’t even think.

“Rin, what if i crashed us in this car rn 😹”

“Do it. Might be fun”

When you two finally move in together it’s almost like how your relationship starts. Slowly more and more spares of stuff for you end up at his. He does sorta make the move near the end of your lease and is just like “you’re here more than me anyways.” (hes nervous but swears he’s not. Bby you’re literally shaking). Him moving you in is like hell. This mf takes sooooo long to help with boxes. Picks up 1 then sits for like 15 minutes. You ask for help the first few times and he’s just like “I got you” while continuing to scroll his phone.

Sleepy Shoulder kisses in the mornings. Only form a greeting you get but it’s ok

this is like my 100th dating suna hc and im still going this is SICK. it was so hard to not drop old refs bc i still believe in them 100% yes i do!!!!