#and this is also late lmao i forgot to post it yesterday

[ficoandleo]

LEO, drop a Halloween costume try on stream and my life will be yours 🗣🗣🗣🔥🔥🔥

Well you'd better have your wish prepared for when you sell your soul to the little demon because Leo is live on TikTok, WickTok, and YouTube! "🎃Halloween Costume Try-On Stream!❤️‍🩹" Pretend I posted this on Halloween and not literally the next day!

Since he's streaming from his phone Leo does try and give it a minute to let the stream load and populate for all the earliest viewers, humming along to the royalty free, slightly spooky, lo-fi music he had playing in the background while wiggling around in a little half dance in front of his tripod.

"Hey, everyone! It's me!" Leo greets with a chipper wave of both hands. He laughed a little, shaking his head. "I think it'd be way more weird if it weren't me. Why do we always. . .anyways, hi!! Happy Halloween!"

The stream of comments and hearts increased, greeting him, and wishing him a happy Halloween. On Youtube he got a few Super Chats too, which he thanked the senders for. Everyone who paid a certain amount and above got their name read out, too.

"Soooo Halloween, right? I always do a little costumed stream with Sho-chan and we'd go around street parties or like we went to a zombie run two years ago that was super fun--and I hate running! Sho was carrying me by the end of that stream."

Newer viewers or people who missed it commented in amusement, some asking if anyone had a recording or highlights. A few people who had been there for the stream said that Leo got drunk on top of running from zombies and they were surprised at how much he could drink for such a small guy.

"But here in Darkwick apparently they do like an American Halloween thing. So there's kind of trick-or-treating? And I've never been trick-or-treating because we don't do that here in Japan! So I'm kinda excited to trick-or -treat and I was like. . .well, I need to have a really good costume for my first time trick-or-treating! And I ordered a bunch and they didn't get here until, like, last night because shipping stuff to Darkwick is a fucking nightmare?"

Several Darkwick students in chat agreed that it was a pain to order things to be delivered to the island. You'd think such an elite school wouldn't have these problems. Some people mentioned sending things to Leo and asking if they'd arrived yet, or saying that it took an unexpectedly long time for things to be delivered on their trackers as well.

"Yeah. . .sorry about that guys. I'm talking to them about seeing if there's a way I could, I dunno, pay extra to get some kind of faster processing for stuff people send me but. . .mail doesn't really work like that. You guys haven't been sending me perishable food or anything, right? You know better than that. Anyway.

"Everything gets here like yesterday afternoon and I'm like 'that's way too late for a whole stream,' so I decided I'd just do one this afternoon. And I wanted to do a trick-or-treating stream for you guys but the way my data works here it's hard to stream if I'm not somewhere with access to wifi. So I'm probably just gonna record it and edit it down for a VoD. Sorry!"

Everyone understands at least and tells him that they'll be looking forward to the VoD. Someone said they'd be handing out candy at their House and they hoped Leo would drop by.

"Oh! So trick-or-treating, for anyone who doesn't know, is like. Normally you go door-to-door and say 'trick or treat!' and get candy. And if you don't get candy you can play a trick. But since Darkwick's only got the dorms and the main buildings and some shops and a restaurant or two that's kinda lame, right? You'd run out of places real quick.

"So you go to different dorm rooms and trick-or-treat. And some people trick-or-treat, like, individually? Like they go up to people and say 'trick or treat' and it's kinda considered fair game. But also it's also totally fair game to be tricked instead of given a treat! It seems like a way smaller kind of event than what you might normally see in Shibuya but there's also only, like, a thousand people here. So it makes sense not to have a huge event. Especially since there's normally a school festival--they call it Samhain because they want it to have a fancy name--around now. But it got delayed."

Then Leo claps his hands and steps back from the camera a little. "But that's enough chatting! I bought a bunch of costumes to try out! I match with Sho every year, but he didn't wanna try on his costume with me and just said to bring it to him when I choose mine so. . .sorry, no Halloween Sho live this year. But I'll make sure he goes trick-or-treating with me so you can see what he gets to wear too. So! Let's check out my costume options!! Obviously I can't, y'know, change on stream but I'll step off-screen and you can entertain yourselves for a couple minutes while I get dressed! Be right back!"

With that explanation out the way, Leo waved and stepped off screen. Behind him his bean bag chairs had been given Halloween themed covers, a pumpkin, a ghost, and a skull--Monster, the red teddy bear he likes, is sat on the skull off to the side, and some of the chat greets him excitedly. He left a screen on his wall playing a little video of a chibi of him dressed in previous years' Halloween costumes popping up around the words "HAPPY HALLOWEEN"--one of the chibis was also with Sho, in a girl's costume that matched Leo's as always. Regular viewers would recognize the chibis as having had been redressed versions of the ones that played during other streams where he tries on clothes or puts together outfits. The artist was credited beneath the text.

"I can't see the chat, so don't say anything my mods would have to get on you for! I mean it~♥" Leo called from where he was changing out of sight. The chats proceeded to fill mostly with silly, non-punishable words or promises to be good among the usual chatter and cries that Leo was 'gone forever,' although a handful of people did get timed out or have messages deleted. He'd considered borrowing Romeo's fox robe and just buying accessories for each costume rather than getting whole costumes, but there was something less fun about that. Besides then he would have the hidden zipper on the back and someone could ruin his time by unzipping him. So his time spent changing was all realistic.

"Okay! Were you guys good? Did you behave for me~?" Leo's voice again came from off screen to herald his coming return. He also chimed in a shout out and thank you to the artist of his background graphic before he stepped back in sight, jangling gently with every step.

His first costume was grim reaper inspired, and he specified where he got every piece of the outfit from the hooded cloak to the red-tipped metal ribcage 'vest' around his torso and the matching clawed hand bone gloves going up his arms into his sleeves. Beneath the 'vest' his black shirt was nearly skin tight with gaps in it that opened to his pale tummy following the shape of the vertebrae in his spine, tucked into plain black pants. The belt took the role of the bones instead, chains looping into the shape of hip bones and dangling leg bones, bound behind his slim hips and legs by black-painted chain that blended in to the rest of the outfit.

"I could not find matching shoes that didn't look tacky to me." So he went with plain black boots with buckles, tapping them with his simple scythe. "Or a cool-looking scythe that wasn't plastic. So I'm not sure about this one! It feels, I dunno, incomplete. I really like the top and the ribcage though--I was thinking I could wear the glove bones as like a bracelet and rings instead, though. What do you guys think? Sho-chan would get like a little torn up white dress and some powdery makeup for the ghostly look, maybe we could get his hair in his face. . .and I got manacles and a chain for his ankles so it's like I'm leading him to the afterlife, y'know? I'd probably throw on some makeup too--give my face a skeletal look."

He posed a little bit, trying to read the stream of comments as they came in, although they were coming in pretty fast. He went on a little bit about the way it fit and felt, and complained some about the chains looking cool but getting a little tired of the clanging noise.

"Why do I always make Sho-chan crossdress? Because it's funny? And he looks good like that." He shrugged, closing the bottom of the loose cloak over his legs to see if maybe he could get away with having it partially closed. "Also let's be real, I'm not making him do anything. Sho's like twice my size. I can't make that guy do anything he doesn't wanna do.

"I did kinda think about crossdressing this year?" He says in response to another comment he kind of sees go past. "But no matter how I look at it it's just kind of boring if I do it. I mean I look like a guy who'd crossdress, right? Obviously I'd look good but that's not really the point, right?"

Understandably quite a few people disagreed and would have loved to see him in a skirt or a dress, or even a particularly feminine pair of shorts, something frilly or something sexy, even if it wasn't particularly Halloween themed. . .he smiled in amusement and ignored those comments. Maybe if he lost his next bet with Sho. For a while he continued to respond to some comments that he could catch and respond to superchats as well, and showed off parts of the reaper costume.

"Okay, gimme a few to try on the next one! Be back soon!"

This continued on for a while with Leo showing off a variety of costumes, some from popular media especially from this year, some from classic media or media that he liked, some his own takes on something more generic. He sources each piece, mentioned what he would do for his makeup in each one and how he would dress Sho to match, what he liked about each, and what didn't vibe with him. He conducted it very similarly to how he did other outfit streams, chatting with viewers in between everything, always kinder and sweeter with his words than he was in real life, laughing and smiling, but so skilled with his acting that he never seemed unnatural.

"Okay, okay! Last one! Be right back!"

Leo once again left the camera, stretching before getting to work changing out of his newest costume and into the final one. "This one's a bit more exposed and honestly I originally wasn't gonna bother with it because I was like 'it's autumn, it's gonna be cold!' but it's actually cozy enough today that I was like. . .maybe I can get away with this. It's not like exposed exposed where I might be considered indecent or something, and it's got a jacket so if I get cold I can just close it."

After a few minutes of fussing Leo returns in a somewhat simpler costume than his last ones.

"Honestly the thigh-high boots are gonna take some breaking in to be comfortable walking around in, so I was kinda thinking I could swap them out for like. Chaps?" He explained, turning around to show his back. "Cuz I have chaps. They're a couple shades lighter than the shorts. I'll show you the chaps in a minute."

The chat is moving a little too fast to read. The simple, platform, black thigh high boots are buckled closed with a line of metal clips and leave a few inches of Leo's upper-thigh exposed before the legs of the matching colored shorts end to keep his modesty. They hug his hips well enough that the studded belt is wholly unnecessary for anything but securing the inverted pentagram harness over his torso at the bottom. His torso is otherwise bare save for the oversized leather jacket hanging more off of his arms than his shoulders and a pair of somewhat low hanging chains. Without his shirt quite a few of his viewers are learning his navel and nipples are pierced. Around his neck, along with his headphones as usual, is a choker in which he's clipped his yellow Vagastrom broach.

"Honestly it's a lot of black and grey and silver." He turns around again, showing the way his wings and tail, also decorated with chains, originate from somewhere under the jacket and have some sort of wiring in them allowing him to reposition them slightly. He reached up to adjust the pair of ring-decorated horns on his head too. "I usually do more monochrome colors but it feels like too much? I kinda wanted some gold accents but it made me think too much of my house uniform. Oh, and the jacket was made by--"

He read off the name of the fan who'd sent him the jacket, repositioning it so the design on the back was visible--his own name, in a spraypainted design, the O stylized as a heart. He faced forward again. The chat hadn't slowed down by much. He had to catch up on donations--one asked if he was wearing pointed teeth, and he pulled his lips aside to show them off. Another reminded him that he mentioned possibly wearing chaps instead of the boots and he said they were right before running off to swap the boots for another pair that slightly resembled hooves the way they poked out from under the chaps.

"So for makeup I was mostly thinking I'd just make the bases of the horns blend in more. Maybe try and put some kind of marking on my stomach? That'll be hard to do myself so I might see if Romi-sama will do it for me. . . ." He ran his fingers above the hem of his shorts and around his belly button to show around where he wanted the marking. "But also maybe it'd be too busy. What do you guys think? Oh and I wanted to do, like, claw nails or rings too. I was thinking gradient dying my fingers but I don't want the color to get stuck. . . ."

Reading the chat was probably not possible at its current speed. Leo caught that people were vying for the boots or the chaps, suggestions that he wear something beneath the top harness and not just go topless, people who preferred a previous costume. . .he fiddled with the tail again, wrapping it around his leg then bending his leg at the knee to see if it'd be comfortable to walk that way. He continued to give special attention to superchats and donations with comments, as they were the only thing he could really read.

"Oh, Sho? I can't choose between a nun costume and a succubus for him to match me. I'll see what we decide on when we go out. . .probably have to go with the nun since his outfit probably wouldn't cover enough and we might end up in trouble." Leo muses, pausing while eying the camera. "Aaand as I say that he's texting me."

Leo comes closer to the camera, checking his texts with his lips parted in focus, inadvertantly showing his false fangs. The comments enjoy this closeup as much as one would expect. "Yep, he's on his way back. And I've got clothes all over my room! Okay, I've gotta clean this up and start getting ready! Sorry I gotta cut it like this, guys! I'll make up for it with a longer stream another time, okay?"

Leo starts to go over his stream schedule for the coming week and gives an estimate for when the trick-or-treating video will be out, although he admits he doesn't know how long they'll be out or just how much will be worth sharing in the first place so editing it down could take more or less time. He thanks his top donors and his chat mods, and everybody for coming and supporting him, and he tells the others at Darkwick he hopes he'll see them when he and Sho go out.

Finally, he signs out as he always does, smiling brightly and making a heart with his fingers, telling his viewers he loves them and will see them again soon.

[midnightsslut]

what are your thoughts on "and no one here's to blame, but what about your quiet treason" ? i started breaking down the album to my mother yesterday and i was having new thoughts lmao. i always assumed this line was about joe and that the rest of the song was about matty because 1. joe's quiet treason was "he was with her in dreams" and 2. i can't imagine her saying that matty wasn't to blame whereas with the joe situation, she also was having thoughts about someone else while they were together (ie guilty as sin). HOWEVER, i was thinking about the smallest man and "were you sent by someone who wanted me dead? did you sleep with a gun underneath our bed? were you writing a book? were you a SLEEPER CELL SPY? in 50 years with all this be DECLASSIFIED and you'll confess why you did it? ... you said normal girls were boring but YOU WERE GONE BY THE MORNING. you kicked out the stage lights but you're still PERFORMING. and in PLAIN SIGHT YOU HID". like,,, he metaphorically committed treason and then quietly walked away. i still find it odd that she would say no one here's to blame though...i am confusion. i do think fortnight is the most confusing song on the album though and i think that's intentional. maybe she was trying to make light of it because she still loved him, so she's telling herself "no one here's to blame", but there's an anger simmering in "but what about your quiet treason". maybe she wrote fortnight before the smallest man, and that's when she finally accepted what he did and how fucked up it was. "you are what you did. i'll forget you but i'll never forgive."

oh sorry for the late response!

fortnight is super interesting to me, because it’s an intro to the album that mentions both muses. jaime explained the song better than I can. to me, that line is specifically about joe because of the callback to hits different right before:

I was supposed to be sent away, but they forgot to come and get me

I was a functioning alcoholic ‘til nobody noticed my new aesthetic

And all of this to say, I hope you’re okay, but you’re the reason

And no one here’s to blame, but what about your quiet reason

to me, this verse describes her misery with joe. she was in pain, but no one saw her. his treason (which she references again with the line ‘my husband is cheating’) was hidden, but it hurt her all the same. no one realized how much she was suffering, and it’s not all his fault (taylor’s instagram post explains that a lot of the pain on ttpd is ‘largely self-inflicted’), but he certainly played a part. then, the chorus talks about the distraction she found, the exciting love that brought her back to life and made her wonder if she was stuck in the wrong relationship. the car hasn’t started yet in this verse, which indicates that she’s talking about joe.

[ophexis]

Yesterday I cooked hot dog burritos from The Neopets Cookbook! I didn't make the post yesterday because I got very sleepy after eating 3 hot dogs. Anyway-

I made 3 versions of it, one exactly like the book (minus mustard cuz I don't like yellow mustard), one with relish (cuz i like my hot dogs with relish) and one more fajita-style with lettuce, salsa, and some tomatoes cuz i felt like eating tomatoes. Alas I did not have sour cream to complete.

The recipe is very, very simple. The only cooking you'll be doing is caramelizing onions. I also got a bit too into caramelizing the onions and forgot you're supposed to salt and season them at the beginning lmao but that's ok.

The recipe only uses a bit of oil but i wanted these onions to pop off so I added a chunk of butter lmao

Some of mine did end up burning a little because I got distracted making a huge mess with my lettuce on the side. u-u I just removed the burnt onions and moved on.

The recipe honestly also doesn't caramelise them for that long but was I gonna let that stop me? No. (Anyway be patient and don't use super high heat with your onions!)

"Well I wouldn't have burnt them."

Then you only have to simmer 4 hot dogs or substitute of choice (or grill them, if you have a grill or a grill pan!), heat up your tortillas, and prepare for assembly. That's it!

Honestly I kind of expected the default version to be a bit boring, but it ended up being the better of the 3 I think. The ketchup was just better with a hot dog (relish too!). The lettuce/tomato/salsa was good but the flavors just didn't marry that well with the hot dog lmao. With chicken it would've been great. But this is what science is for! I also found that the pre-made fajita seasoning (or the amount they ask for) didn't really do a whole lot, flavor-wise, but idk if its bc I put it in too late or if I should just make the mix myself next time. And also the fully loaded one was difficult to close and made a huge mess while eating.

There was something comical about these hot dogs man.

The tortilla isn't anything special with the hot dog, its flavor got kinda lost, but it was a fun thing to eat (enrichment!) and would make a great party food I think. If I make this again I'd probably half it because that made a lot for one mortal woman. And also if you're alone the assembly takes some times and everything gets cold. welp!

SO final word is that this is nothing special, but it's fun to eat, tastes good, and is incredibly customisable. I mean you can put whatever sausage you want in there. Whatever topping. Go wild! This is what Hubert would want.

[foolish-artworm]

totally forgot to post this yesterday oops

i tried to stitch letter by letter but it was taking forever and that glow in the dark thread is a pain to work with when it's entangled in other threads

at first i wasn't going to stitch black around the letters but bc im carrying so much i think adding black will help the threads from snagging, etc. etc.

i will show the back when im finished and trust me it is not the prettiest but honestly i dont care lol

also i realized too late that the tiny amount of glow thread adds almost nothing to the design :') i should've used more glow colors instead of reusing the threads within the pattern, but honestly i like the color scheme ive got, and i did Not have the money for any other colors when i went and kitted this one lmao

also also i don't have a blacklight so idk if im gonna be able to take a photo of the glow in the dark bits, but whatever.

so glad im almost done with this so i cant watch tv again— ive been listening to a lot of music and visual-less videos bc the constant color switching takes a lot of my concentration :0)

[visitor64]

I can 3D model, NOW HES REAL!!!! :D (ART/OC DUMP PART 2.5?)

(Okay, what the heck- I SWEAR I posted this already!!! But I guess I forgot or smth lol)

(This was originally going to be posted yesterday, so some information might be outdated)

Wow, I have been posting a lot lately… maybe I might post ART/OC DUMP PART 3 after this?

WHO KNOWS!!

I know, that’s what

And I say…

Hmmmm…. Let me think…

No.

Nah im jokin

…

OR AM I-

Oh wait, I’m getting off topic lol

This blog… post… thing- is going to be about 3D models I made

(These aren’t actually ALL the 3D models I’ve made, I’ve made a lot more, but they’re VERY VERY OLD, like 3 years ago I’m pretty sure, so if you guys wanna see those then uuhhh idk comment down below shajnsajjxhwjnx)

(Uhhhhh I was gonna put more information here but uhhh like and subscribe to join the fortnite vbucks give awa-)

(Oh yeah, also, I made these models with Tinkercad, it’s on IOS and PC, idk if it’s on android though)

Okey, first we have Visitor!!!! Who is in stupid dumb heads art style and flat for some reason lol

I swear, it was SO HARD to get the ears to look right, and they still kinda don’t!!! There’s still like a SLIVER of whatever there, Idk why they just don’t wanna cooperate with me 😭😭😭

And then there’s this.

I don’t even know-

I half hate it and half like it

Oh, and I forgot the little triangle things-

BUT WAIT! There’s more!!

There are two more models I made

They’re pretty old, but oh well!

first we have sys… again-

I still love this model

And that definitely isn’t because it’s a model of a character I like in their original form kinda sorta idk!!!! No way!!!! That’s total madness… MARIO MADNE-

There was another one, but I hate it so much that I don’t even wanna show it.

So thats it

Oh, wait, I almost forgot!! There’s also this.

I guess this is kinda an ART/OC DUMP, but it’s actually just a ART DUMP

Let’s just say this is a ART/OC DUMP PART 2.5 lol

Uhhhhh the end lmao

hahaha lol the end mario mad-

[kazz-matazz]

I swear bro the next time you tag me and I dont answer within and hour or few dm the post and I WILL reply like tumblr actin up😭 also you sent me an ask like yesterday 😭 and I didnt know till now😔

DAMN REALLY?? I FORGOT I EVEN SENT ONE IN LMAOO 😭 and ok i promise! its ok tbh sometimes i dont get your tags either so mutual lateness lmao.

ALSO YOUR TAGS ON THE ONE I TAGGED YOU IN ARE SO FUNNY IJM GIGGLING

[909th]

forgot to do this yesterday but anyways was tagged by @1892 to post four recent fav albums and i couldn’t decide so here’s the last four i’ve downloaded:

lmao can you tell i’ve been on an experimental kick lately? anyways in order:

1. the great annihilator - swans

2. cosmogramma - flying lotus

3. vulnicura - björk

4. there existed an addiction to blood - clipping.

also honorable mention to wish you were here by pink floyd bc i listened to it for the first time recently and that albums insane

[confettihipster]

so yesterday @cherryade2002 reminded me of when i made the chart of all the gays but i can't find it on here. i did this during covid on the back of a pension statement

green stands for my delusions which as you can see are varied. some of these are/were widespread, some of them i invented out of nothing

i think i deleted this because i forgot liam/joel and james/sami green lines. v essential to the infrastructure of 2019 oaks. walker/kevin also a brief late 2012 ship before we all went back to just bralker posting

the red line fucking kills me

should there be a dotted line between jp and harry? one of their worst teases imo

there is some inciting incident for the grace and sally line but nobody remembers what it is. there should also be a grace/neeta line

if i did this now as a snapshot in time of early 2020 (note no ste/james line lmao) i would include darren/luke calum/robbie romeo/prince carmel/cindy mercedes/cindy/lindsey mercedes/grace brendan/that twink from the hotel

[theharrowing]

OK Collateral thoughts:

The POV scenes are incredible and I will definitely be subscribing to read the entire things. I don't know how I missed those posts but I can imagine you were probably not pushing them too hard since you mentioned feeling awkward about asking for money (I would too!)

I love seeing the nickname list evolve, and I remember swooning over the idea of Jungkook calling mc "doll/dollface". It gets me every time. And I am obsessed with the fact that you randomly write scenes for future chapters with a vague plan to figure out how they fit into the story. I always just assume that everything is written linearly all at once, so to see how you plop scenes in is fascinating because it flows so well.

Also your note of, "changing the anime mc and Jimin are watching from Attack on Titan to Chainsaw man because i absolutely fucking hated the ending of AoT lmao." LOL. My older brother watches AoT and he was SO FUCKING MAD about the ending. He also read the manga and hated the ending then, and I remember him saying, "I sincerely hope the anime has a different ending because that was some genocide-loving bullshit." I would love to know your thoughts!

Also your little "he’s ready to love, 내게 말해 줘, can we stay together? can we stay together?" made me laugh so fucking hard and I even sang it aloud hahaha. Is this what you are like IRL? I wish we could be friends IRL because you always seem like so much fun. Are you a carat? Who is/are your bias?

ALSO YOUR FAVORITE PARTS FROM CHAPTER 18 SENT ME TO HELL. Like, I also loved those lines while reading the chapter but then to see them listed out was deadly. "You can hear the sound of his fists gripping the sheet below, soft material scratching against blunt fingernails—a quiet, tactile cry of desperation." !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Absolutely deadly. How do you think of these lines?

These are the end of my notes! I see that you posted 19 and I am so excited to dive in! I'm also really glad your bags are home safe and that you seem in much better spirits today than you were yesterday! Thanks again for all you do!!!!! - 🗡️

OMG DAGGER LMAO your recent message came in reminding me of this one!!! i saw this come in the other day while busy and then i forgot, as i am wont to do hahaha. gonna respond to this one and then immediately respond to that one.

you are correct that i don't push the pov scenes too hard haha. i feel awkward asking for money but i also spend a lot of my free time writing and was looking for a way to make a couple extra bucks back when i made that patreon (which is now a buymeacoffee.) it's a shame because those really do have scenes that i feel are important to the story, but i also can't ask people to give me even $2 (tbh i only see like $1.30 of it lolol. more like buymehalfofacoffee.)

i used to write everything linearly but my mind sometimes races and i do my best to keep up and jot ideas down as they come, because i will forget otherwise. i do a lot of daydreaming when i commute especially, and it is easy to get lost in imagining scenarios. also, i am glad you like doll/dollface. i wasn't sure people would, but it seems a few do! (i'm more of a kitten person but i ruined calling mc kitten for myself with boy blue.)

i did not read the AoT manga but i did read about the manga ending and i am mad for exactly the same reasons as your brother. i have A Lot of Thoughts™ but idk if this is the place for them lmaooo.

singing in the middle of a sentence IS how i am irl and i am glad you are charmed bc i always worry about being annoying. (i suppose both things can be true!) you're so sweet for wishing we could be friends! 🥺😭 i am not fully a carat because i don't have a lot of energy to give to other groups lately, but my biases are Hoshi & Jeonghan. i love them very much.

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SHARING YOUR NOTES & THOUGHTS WITH ME!!! 😍🥰🥰 i love that you are so hyped about this, and i am excited to read the other message that just came in!!!

[moonlit-main]

Good things lately #42

So I have been somewhat keeping track of the good things, just haven’t been posting them! What I normally do is write them down in my notes app throughout the day, and then make the post at night with those things + anything else I remember. So here’s the good things I’ve written down for the past few days!

•At work on Tuesday I saw the tiniest little yorkie puppy!! He was so cute

•After work Thursday I went to my first therapy session with my new therapist, and it went amazing!!! She’s literally the best therapist we’ve ever had, I loved her and she was so knowledgeable and understanding about DID/systems, very LGBT+ (especially trans) inclusive, and just all-around very nice and helpful. Our head gatekeeper in the system is so thrilled lmao

•Got Starbucks after therapy and had a yummy iced chai

•My roommate gave me late Valentine’s presents 🥺 I love them, he gave me a small deer squishmallow, a cat sticker sheet, and a cute little unicorn-cat figurine

•Thursday I got to a 1,000 day streak on Duolingo!!

•Yesterday with my lunch I had the most perfect shaped, cutest little strawberry ever

•I got to see and pet Señor Lime! Also got to pet big fluffy Koda

•On the way home, the sunset was very pretty

•My roommate & I had fun spraying each other with water guns last night lol

•I finally finished a little writing prompt story I’ve been working on for a few days now!

I apparently forgot to write down anything for Wednesday and tbh, I don’t remember that far back now lmao but even though this week has been a bit rough, there were still lots of good things. Here’s hoping the rest of today + this weekend goes well

[dailylumi]

Jan 5th

Well looks like I forgot to write the second part for yesterday but oh well we move on and don't think about it.

I think today was a better day overall than the past few days in all honesty. I mean it was still a mixed bag kind of day but the good really carried me through the day to be honest.

To start, I've been really sleep deprived lately and today was no exception. I slept somewhere between 6-7 but I forgot about ember's appt so I had to get up at 9 to take him. Feel like that was my own fault among my other issues with sleep and my avoidance of it. But yeah very off state as usual and while I wasn't grumpy I felt a bit sensitive and just overall dread this morning.

I already feel embarrassed writing this next part cause I know they read this SAKSLDJ

I think the main turn around for the day was a phone call with my bff. I don't know it just meant so much and was just so nice. They're such a grounding person for me and I'm always so grateful with just everything. I dont know just the phone call made me finally feel like time slowed down for a second and forget about everything for a little while. It's kind of ironic since the time went by so fast on the phone LMAO. Really it was the sense of connection for me through the phone call. I know that I am always connected with them and I bother them literally all day but mental illness and boundaries just makes me feel disconnected when I know that isn't it all.

I feel like that left me with a lot of serotonin and feeling of ease like I was okay for the day. I feel like they do that a lot for me :( I tried to make myself sleep but I couldn't really force it so I read manga until I passed out for like 40 minutes. It was really short and I felt more tired when I woke up but I think it's probably good I got a bit more rest.

The rest of today felt slow. I didn't know what to really do but I ended up cutting my hair since it has been a bit. I think I'm always frustrated with my hair. It feels like there is nothing I can do with it and Ive just had the same overall short hair style my whole life. If it grows past a certain point it just becomes too curly to manages and dries out super fast. I wish I could experience a different hairstyle but that feels like a reach both from logical standpoints and from my lack of self esteem on the matters. I feel like id just look weird doing something new. One day I should try dyeing it maybe I wanna try.

Thinking about the future there is just so much that feels overwhelming but at the same time I know I'm not completely alone regarding it. I don't really wanna talk about the things changing in the future but maybe my worries.

Ive been so worried about the future and meeting people. I am someone who is so bad at first impressions and worried about upsetting others. I know that I would try my hardest to get along and not cross lines with people but Ive begun wondering if any of my habits would cause any issues. I just don't want to be hated or do something off putting especially since I can be unaware of things at times.

On a separate but slightly connected note I feel like I should try to be more outgoing and form an actual friendship. I think I am still acting a bit stand offish and shy and thats because I really am but also like what if I am hated lmaoo I usually don't care if others hate me because I am mostly disconnected from people but it feels like I can't be like that right now. It helps nothing and my anxiety won't let me.

Sometimes I really wonder if I ever let myself breathe or am I just someone stuck in an endless loop of mental illness and self deprecation lmao

I'll never really know but I don't think the answer matters as long as I don't cause others to feel suffocated by my issues and presence.

I think tomorrow might be a bit of a better day. I might see a friend in person that I haven't seen in like 7 months. So that might be interesting.

Can't believe I'm on a three day streak of posting. Hopefully I can continue

[gretel-moonlit]

Ok so as expected, I did not finish drawing anything, so in honor of Celeste's birthday, here's me rambling about her character for far too many words. I’m not saying anything I say is canon at all, it's literally just my cringe rambling thoughts about her character 

  i will finish the drawing though i swear to you all

This isn't even correct, I just wanted to talk about some of the random moments in her free time events and stuff that imply that she’s not the person she says she is beyond just her having a different name and not actually being French, and I've thought way too much about it and it think it's interesting, so here’s some small details I’ve over analyzed about her character even though it definitely wasn’t meant to be that deep.  I may be cringe for this but at least I am free(?)

First of all, if you look at her interactions with other characters in the talent development plan events (TDP events), danganronpa s events (DRS events), and even her drthh free time events, it becomes very apparent that without the unusual situation of a killing game to distract you, she’s incredibly socially awkward. Like I nearly got secondhand embarrassment from some of her DRS events they are an experience. It’s really interesting because when I first played the V3 TDP events, and especially the DRS ones, by the second event I was just like “has she always been this awkward?” and no, she just is. I think the general chaos of the DR1 killing game made it less apparent, but her dialogue is written in a really awkward way, and she just kind of enters conversations to say and few lines that sound really rehearsed and sometimes are only kind of related and then she just vanishes from the conversation. It could be a translation thing, but given that her lines are also written that way in other translations, it seems intentional? Another interesting thing is how quickly her persona starts to break down when she’s unprepared for a conversation or one-on-one. Like in most of her DR1 free time events she’s telling him very rehearsed and polished stories (which are literally from real-life gambling manga, by the way) or having conversations that she initiates and therefore knows the topic of, but if you look at I think it’s her second free time event? The one where she really awkwardly talks to Makoto in the kitchen and within like 10 minutes ends up confessing that she misses the gyoza from her hometown and then immediately backtracks and says she thinks it awful while still admitting to liking it. I feel like that event in particular says a lot about her character, since I feel like the fact that she slipped up and broke character that easily or over something like wanting gyoza so soon into her events feels like something that should definitely point to her not exactly being the person she says she is. She also says it’s the one thing she’d miss from the outside world like it’s just kind of an afterthought like she didn’t want it enough to break character talking to Makoto because of it? That free time event is interesting because you definitely see a lot more of her real personality than most of her other free time events but I feel like people forget about it when it comes to how much of her personality is the persona she puts up.

And especially in the DRS events, half of them are people saying she’s weird and they don’t like her, or her getting made fun of by literal children, or that one event where Miu literally tells Mukuro to “Forget hanging out with that worthless loser and hang with a real hottie!” like Celeste isn’t literally standing right next to them and then Mukuro just responds by saying “I mean, like, I wasn't ever hanging out with Celeste, to begin with” and Celeste literally just stands there the whole time, that one was definitely something. Basically, my point is, there are actually a lot of instances of her being socially awkward in the games, intentional or not.

There’s also the fact that she would have had to have started gambling at a pretty young age, probably around 13-14, which is something that is not only incredibly dangerous but also literally illegal in Japan (even if it’s not illegal in the danganronpa universe, it would still be really dangerous for a kid). For someone that young to end up gambling in the first place, even if she had a talent for it, isn’t just something that casually happens, that’s something you only resort to if you’re really desperate, which I feel like should say something. Also, it seems to be implied* that her family was very poor, given that she was born in and presumably grew up in a big city and her liking gyoza because she had it as a kid, which isn’t known for being expensive or high class. (*Heavy on the implied, it seems to be the general consensus and it’s also what I assumed when I played the game, but I’m not sure if they were trying to imply that, so don’t take this as me claiming that is canon) Another interesting thing is a panel from one of the official mangas which seems like it implies that she was bullied in school, which would give her specific issue with being called a loser a lot more context since that's definitely something kids would call another kid rather than something that would have come from an adult. (I know it could possibly mean loser in the “loser of a game” context, but in the trial, it sounds like it’s being used in the insult context). Also, the fact that she is the only member of the 78th class who doesn’t have anything listed as the school she attended before Hope’s Peak might mean she never went to high school until she went to Hope’s Peak.

 Other than that stuff, there’s not really anything else to go off of other than her kind of acting like someone who was bullied in the past and is trying desperately not to get bullied again, but this is already multiple pages and that’s getting too far into conspiracy theory territory/stop trying to justify your headcanons territory, so I’m not going to get into it, I could potentially if people want it, but it can be a separate thing. 

Again, I’m not claiming any of this is canon or you have to have the same opinions, it is just my cringe ramblings so please don’t think I’m trying to tell anyone what’s right, I literally have no authority on this topic

[completeanduttermess]

Say hi to Ophelia~

Tbh she's less a familiar and more a random-child-on-the-street-who-followed-me-turned-niece but like. Oh well.

Also say hi to Flo's sister Rena and her wife Daria who basically adopted Ophelia because Rena didn't trust Flo to be able to take care of her as well as themself-

This just turned into a family lmao but yepp

[renlysrainbowguard]

ASOIAF Valentine's Rarepair Week - Day 5: Favorite way to say I love you / Love letters / Hands / Longing

No garb could disguise [Brienne's] plainness, though; the huge freckled hands, the wide flat face, the thrust of her teeth.

[Brienne's] hands were big, her feet enormous.

Brienne said, "I remember a woman . . . she came from some place across the narrow sea. I could not even say what language she sang in, but her voice was as lovely as she was. She had eyes the color of plums and her waist was so tiny my father could put his hands around it. His hands were almost as big as mine." She closed her long, thick fingers, as if to hide them.

[astrxealis]

good morninggg <3

[kuiinncedes]

i fucking messed up the lyric for “don’t you” lmaooooo