#and they'll fucking AGREE WITH ME
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people trying to say that delusion-based identities aren't valid really just feels like people trying to say people with delusions don't deserve to have identities
#like i'm sorry i have a disorder that means it's impossible for me to tell what's real sometimes#i'm sorry that it affects every single aspect of my life including interests likes and personality because it is constantly there#i'm sorry that some of these delusions resonate with me in a way that makes me feel like i want to define myself by it#as long as nobody's being hurt what the fuck does it matter to you#yes i am aware that these things are delusions that doesn't make it any less a part of my identity#who the fuck does it hurt to just call me by what i want to be called or respect my beliefs#especially when sometimes things i believe are CALLED delusions even though religious people get a complete pass on the same shit#i believe there's an Omniscient Entity Watching Me At All Times and certain symbols have different meanings to it#but because it's not the fucking christian god i'm just delusional and need to be shut down and not respected in my beliefs#i believe that my soul wasn't meant to be in this body and that i was always meant to live among the stars#but because i don't have a specific name for an afterlife people assume i'm a 'fucking crazy person' trying to start a cult#i've tested these things before with therapists#where i'll mention a belief i have and frame it as objectively as possible#and they'll try to convince me otherwise#and then in another appointment start talking about a very similar but specifically christian concept#and they'll fucking AGREE WITH ME#it's bullshit and pisses me the fuck off
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how to explain to your parents that you can't move back in with them because every time you're near them a big part of you buries itself and you're not sure how long that part can stay buried before its hidey hole becomes its grave?
...without offending them, of course
#eliot posts#last time i was forced to move back in w them was when the dorms closed for quarantine#and a part of me DID die then#and i think in those first 18 years i spent living with them so many parts of me died before they even had the chance to be born#they keep framing it as a generous offer. i won't have to pay rent AND they'll get me set up working oart time for my dad's friend#AND they'll replace my car with a newer one#but i do NOT fucking trust it#they act nice while i'm not living with them and am able to freely escape#but that niceness goes away once i have nowhere to go#like that's exactly what happened when i was forced back to them during quarantine#and how hard they're pushing this seems realllly sketchy#i told my mother i'd think about it (to get her off my back) and she said ''don't waste time thinking. just agree to it.''#like hellll no. i do NOT trust like that.#even my sister was trying to talk me into it which i don't get because she of all people should understand.#but anyway. i'm applying for jobs and looking at extending my lease. i am NOT going back there.#i just wish i could tell them that without getting yelled at and guilt tripped and talked to like i'm a stupid little baby.
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Adjacent topic, but. One of my favorite things actually is when Alfonse pulls the player aside and is like "Let me think out loud real quick." and when the situation calls for it, "Also what do you think?" Like obviously this happens so much across any game ever, especially ones that have a designated partner character. But it feels so special to me...
Especially with Alfonse, especially when he calls the summoner by name. He didn't used to do that!! In the very beginning!!! And he slips up, as Lif. Trying So hard to take it back. It just feels so personal... 🥲🥺
#i have no greater point here i just like it a lot.#like to me i feel like he has that deep unique bond that the pmd2 partner has w the player#again could just be. two games w a designated partner character. but to me personally how i feel.#like i feel like it's comparable actually esp the way your partner pokemon will pull you aside too#making a point to include you. and also will just talk at you extensively LMFAOO but it's okay 😊💖#but also it just feels SO special and so personal and so rewarding from alfonse in particular.#like this guy did Not want that. he was so scared of that. he's also just one big loss away from feeling like he's lost it all.#one thing about me is that i don't agree. w how he feels about losing friends. i think it's okay. i think it's for the best.#i'm not lonely and sometimes it's a relief. knowing i'll never have to see that person again.#even when there's no hard feelings. even when i geniunely liked that person and they liked me well enough.#i just tell myself it's for the best. they'll move on without me. i'll cherish the memory. i hope they forget me.#but even as i say that it's like. i don't know how true it holds. but i do know it's fine to leave actually.#and i do know i'm not lonely. i've made peace w it a long time ago. i'm content by myself. i keep myself occupied.#meanwhile. i am always obsessing over what alfonse says and what he feels and i feel a DEEP. DEEP SEATED NEED.#to pelt him w rocks. FUCK YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU 😤😤😤😤😤😤😤😤#this is why moe exists. the vessel. to pelt him w rocks.#fe alfonse
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ngl i didn't mean for the jason cass twin au to be a pair but I've been sending so much jaycass dead dove shit that i can't complain. never even considered it, thanks op!
WELL happy accidents then khjggjhkjl. i love JayCass so dearly so i'm happy you liked the thought anyway. i think ti's also a really cool platonic concept as well! Jason and Cass as siblings is just something i'm always thinking about. i love them and i love the potential sm. i just think they should interact more DC let them be messy.
#necrotic answerings#jaycass#pft when I was answering I was like “is this shippy or not?”#and I shrugged and just guessed#it works both ways tho#platonically I love them as siblings sm#like children of shiva who ended up separated and have No Idea#there's such a tragedy to them not finding out until their lives have taken them in such different directions#and now they have irreconcilable differences#like how do they cope with it yk? how do they handle being strangers and siblings at the same time?#knowing they'll never agree?#it's good fucking shit to me#but them as twins is even more big brained.
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i would like to stop experiencing the full spectrum of human emotions every day please. putting this out into the universe
#had suchhh a good workday. had hot pot with my roommate where we talked about our quarter life crises#and then came home and had a 3 hour screaming match with both of my parents where i said i was cutting them out of my life#it turns out. my dad still does not understand what the word bi means even tho his fucking wife is bi#he was like 'so you marry someone and six months later you see someone else you like and u go marry them instead?'#like genuinely. truly trying to understand#and that shocked me enough to stop crying#do not reblog please#like in hindsight it is SO funny#and that was the point where i was like. wait is this not malice#this is homophobia but i don't think it's malice#anyways we're all Ok now#we've agreed that i'm going to do what i want#and even if they're unhappy they're still gonna have a relationship with me#and they'll figure out how to adjust#my brother periodically came into the room and also screamed at my parents#i feel bad for them a lil bit. like they're not bad people#after he left my mom told me that a week and a half ago#my brother came into her room and told her that when she died he would bury her in a grave instead#of the traditional last rites (cremation rituals etc etc)#if she wouldn't accept me#and my mom said she was on a bunch of meds cause she's sick so she was so out of it it didn't even register what he was going on about#and then today after that convo she was like WAIT A MIN WHAT THE FUCK DID THIS BOY SAY TO ME#funniest 16 year old u could have on your side#truly he kept coming into the room every 5 min and going HEY HAVE YOU BOTH CONSIDERED NOT BEING HOMOPHOBIC. HAVE YOU.#HEY CAN U TELL YOUR DAUGHTER YOU STILL LOVE HER MAYBE??? THINK??? USE YOUR BRAIN???#this is why i would die for this kid#he's the best#he's such an idiot most of the time but when he's not being an idiot he's my favorite person on earth#don't tell him that tho anyone please#he'll hold it against me forever and ever as siblings do
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love how my friends just cannot resist telling me how whumpable i look whenever we hang out together
#and i’m glad someone else finally agrees /hj#it’s so funny though like#if i have to go somewhere by myself they'll be like#guys someone has to go with jay or he’s gonna get KIDNAPPED#we don’t want you to get KIDNAPPED jay!!#they literally have said i look extremely kidnappable on multiple occasions#it’s so fucking funny#like… do they know they’re telling me i look like i’d be a whumpee…#i love my friends btw they say this to be funny and are only joking#just needed you all to know this very important piece of lore about me#wyrms says stuff#kidnapping mention#wyrms lore
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Struggling so hard to make the designs for the performing dragons im not that smarttt
#dragon lore theyre probably aliens. i mean all the species are since thats not earth but theyre alien aliens#everyone agrees theyre not one of the Intelligent Species but theyre cool i mean we dont even see them that much#theres no humans in this setting but the dragons have human hands and feet#and leg wings#it works thats not the part of their design im struggling with#idk how their symbiosis w the rainforests work yetttt#also a group of dragons is called a performance. but also a group of dragons is only two. you'll only ever see dragons in a pair#and during their performance#nobody knows what the fuck those are for. fight for territory? sex dance? theyre bored? how it works is that theyll meet on a clearing#(not sure if the animals arrive first or if theyre already there waiting for them)#and then they'll get up in two legs and dance! kinda#its like half dance half pretending to be the other's mirror but no ones quite sure who's mirroring who#the loser gets eatenn i think#they also have big ass crests tgat are giving me so much pain and grief and these change color like octopus skin#i need my pc please please please please#talk tag#rouxinol
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why're things so fucked upppppp~
#stayed up too late#did nothing#should've done something#should've been doing uni applications or chemistry#instead spent my time thinking#didn't even get to good thoughts#I'm still anxious on my future#i haven't picked up my anxiety prescription#felt anxious and still didn't#now just stuck#I don't want to do anything because it feels like everything I'm gonna do is like changing something and changing something with my parents#usually for the worse#even talking with my parents#there's also their mood swings where i cannot for the life of me tell when they'll get worse and better#and if better it's usually to manipulate me#oh we bought you yarn now force yourself into these uni choices#or even the ultimate of it#get married#if only they viewed people as humans and not puppets of god#if only they cared about people than their ideals and god and marriage#shove enough money into a dowry and everything's fixed#break your kid into a doll for marriage and it's fine#we don't talk about any of my interests in the kitchen#the only thing we talk about is my education#and like even then we don't agree#my mother judges medication like hell#despite taking medication herself!#but for her it's medicine and for me I'm gonna be a drug addict#she even fucking judges disease#yeah mom thanks I'm sure all the cancer patients appreciate you judging them like an ass
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"Highly respected individuals including henry kissanger..." well I gotta stop you right there, you've got a major inaccuracy cause no one in their right mind respects that man
#I'm barely even joking there; obviously politicians have for whatever god awful reason#but when it comes to actual people; I don't think I've ever heard a single person say anything respectful or even nice about him#not to mention that from everything I can tell he was a fucking idiot who not only did horrible things#the horrible things he did didn't even lead to the outcomes they were supposed to#he kinda just made the world worse for no reason#not to mention me and everyone else for years and years all seemed to collectively agree 'I thought he was dead'#and I didn't respect him enough to even acknowledge him dying at the time#but honestly while I don't believe in celebrating most people dying; it's hard to say the world isn't a better place with him gone#I wouldn't even call him slightly respected; let alone highly#the person who said it seems nice enough; but what he posts is all economics and man...#some of the stuff that comes out of his mouth it's like... I suppose from an economic theory that makes sense#but as a normal human you just sound sick#like any time he frames stuff around how 'companies expect that they'll be able to charge more each year for their products'#like listen... I'm not saying I fully get deflation; but I get enough to realize that it's sadly generally not great#but 'companies won't be able to charge more for their products' is the worst way to explain why it's bad#anyway; my point here is that it didn't surprise me to hear him say kissass is highly respected#but I stand by my assertion of 'respected by who? I ain't met them; all my friends hate his dead ass and want to send him to Cambodia'
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I know it makes sense cuz duh, twitter's in the name, but boysplanet-twitter really is the place where taste dies
#🧍yall cmon....#and theyre so Shady for WHAT. girlies will side eye an imaginary lad for supporting a Dozen while having one in their pfp‼️#makes me spite vote for their most hated contestants fr#'u guys r voting for x UNDESERVING guy when MY one should have UR vote he DESERVES IT' well fuck you lol im voting daeul again‼️‼️#'we HAVE to make this final lineup GOOD' we have to make it suck itd be funnier#lets all vote for the shit guys tje look on mnet's face will be priceless#then its my fault for even going to twitter but i didnt chose to see boy planet content there the alg just puts it under my eyes cyz#i made the mistake of joining ppl who were once bitching abt the girls who r so vocal about how chiu n my klorbo are alledged lookalikes#not theyre NAWT lmao‼️#coming in like 'i agree they dont look alike' setting myself up to seeing the WORST takes ever formulated later#anyway daeul sweep#also its very clear that despite whzt their self righteous words say in opposing themselves against the 'ur just voting for visual'#they r HELLA basing their standard on it too#cuz like im a junhyeoner but he did NOT do well on the K vs G stage lmao#'their stage was ok' it was NAWT n i can say in unbiased words cuz half the team there is my top9s fjdjsjsjsjdjdj#i was gritting my teeths bro 'haha its not. so. so bad haha' < with tears in my eyes#but theyre collectively good looking aint they 🤨 weird‼️#just like how they'll last five seconds hating on jay before calling him ugly lmao u guys are TRANSPARENT#they can hate on him all tbey want doesnt change that he's The vocalist of the season oh well
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i don't think we do luv i don't think we do
#i do agree (obviously!) that for a series you need to get people to care about your characters so they want to keep watching it#comedy barely holds up without a story.. if you don't take time to work on storytelling or you want inexhaustible archetypes for characters#that you can use to churn out jokes‚ whether that's pointless random skits like family guy does it or something based on the relationships#like relationships within a certain status quo (s1 rick garbage man abuses his family. except it wasn't that simple back then either)#the problem with the sitcom where nothing changes so someone can just write gag after gag without changing the foundations is that it#becomes tiring. people stop caring because you've made it impossible to care for the characters by not allowing any meaningful changes#so in that sense i do agree it is 'becoming an actual series'. but it was on its way from the beginning‚ just needed some refinement#a whole lot maybe#but with setting limits for your writing and keeping your characters consistent and engaging emotionally you limit the#wacky hijinks as well. like don't tell me we got a banger like the vat of acid episode from season 6 or even 5 lol it's no longer explosive#i think rick and morty has always been inconsistent and that bred both great episodes and khm bad ones#there's definitely gonna be less bad ones from now on but the potential of the r&m dynamic has also been.... i would say curbed#that's okay this needed to happen like this. and i think they're going in the right direction and i think the stars will align and they'll#write bangers again#a lot of great things could happen following this. like in these actual arcs that they're developing there's still potential for comedy and#drama and they'll find their way back imo. to the sweet spot between chaos (wacky random funny) and order (meaningful and consistent)#ok that's all. if one hates rick being a miserable pathetic piece of shit one should mayhaps fuck off#✌️💗#kata.txt#rnm
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I once was talking with my pharmacy manager about... democracy, about how while there's plenty of stupid people in the world we'd all probably prefer didn't vote, that it was very very hard to actually make a line that makes sure only wise people vote while keeping all the idiots out
And I basically said to him "think of all the doctors and pharmacists you know who are smart, well educated people, who you 100% don't think make good choices"
From the look and his face, I'd say that spoke to him (it's incredible how many smart idiots there are in the world, isn't it?)
Anyway, I make that point because it much more addresses the whole concept of... lets call it democracy of the fit
Like it sounds great till you actually take even one second to think about it. It's almost like trying to draw any line in the sand for who it's ok to disenfranchise is not only dumb and ineffective, but also super dangerous. Ah man, I'm sorry, you scored too low on this test which happens behind closed doors and is graded by my political ally... it's not like you disagreeing with me had anything to do with that
(I'd hope we don't even need to touch on why the idea that testosterone levels are a really stupid useless way to decide who gets to vote, cause if that's true then we don't even have to disenfranchise anyone, we can just give out steroids and have the best country in the world... or is it only naturally produced T that makes you a free thinker?)
oh hey just in case anyone who left twitter is wondering how things are going over there
last night elon tweeted a 4chan screenshot (with bonus antisemitic text in the OP image) advocating for only “high status males” in government and the implied repeal of women’s suffrage. Cool cool cool
#as if elon musk is a free thinker instead of someone that gets lead around by the nose nonstop#and seriously; you'll forgive me if I give hormone levels absolutely zero credit when it comes to intellectual inner workings#...mhh... I'm reminded of someone I know who was talking to me and saying he thought that low testosterone#was causing him to have trouble focusing on things#and it's like... my dude...#you have ADHD; just the other day you were talking to me about when you were younger and spent years talking to a therapist about this#and how they had you on medications to help you with your ADHD... and... you're not on any meds right now#perhaps you less need testosterone and more need... your ADHD meds#but to be clear; this is the guy I'll refer to sometimes on here as Dr Jekyll and Mr Dumbass#cause he's capable of being either real smart; or saying the stupidest edgy shit you've ever seen#...and... I honestly feel like there's a strong correlation between which of those he is and how much weed he's been smoking#but like... people get way to fixated on estrogen and testosterone... especially dudes getting fixated on... well... both of those actually#'the soy has too much estrogen; it'll make me a woman' that's... that's not how any of this fucking works#'if I just got on testosterone everything would be cured for me' often... you hear those ads and they talk about stuff like hair loss#I had a teacher in high school who was bald specifically cause he had too much testosterone#he was quite literally a big bearded bald mountain man; lived up in the mountains with no running water#would come into town on his motorcycle and shower at the YMCA and then taught at our school; everyone still to this day loves him#real great teacher in a lot of ways... and I think he'd be the first to say you're stupid of you think his testosterone is what makes him#people are their choices and their thoughts and their actions; not just a readout of hormones#just such an idiotic shit show of an idea on how the world works#'oh lets just have a council of high testosterone men... and autistic' my dude you're being fucking weird and fucking stupid#I'd love if only people with good ideas could vote; but there's literally no way to make that happen#and lets be blunt that no one would agree on what that looks like; and in the end that's called a dictatorship#where a select group of people who are so smart that they'll always vote for the leader has a sham democracy#so we're not doing that; and since we're not doing that I'm just telling you that there's no way to weed out stupid voters#and again; T levels is the stupidest of them all; cause if that's true just give everyone steroids#this is just so stupid; and it's being said by someone who can't even understand how stupid they are#(which... is most people who spout alpha bullshit; which anyone who knows anything knows alpha stuff in wolves was dropped)#(and the person who said this actually has no value was the person who put forward the idea)#(realized his model was messed up by the situation the captive wolves were in and it wasn't actually true in the larger world)
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Another day another having to argue with clients on behalf of people who have strong opinions but don't have to argue with the client themselves
#evelyn stuff#im so fucking tired i swear#i want to quit so bad#but they'll probably fire me first! because im stuck arguing with people instead of doing work FUCK ME#i legit just wanna rage quit this thing#and at the same time i feel that this is partly normal!#and i should be able to handle it! and im having a hard time because it's my first time#and im a pushover so im not used to having to argue!#and my boss agrees with me! but like!! the clients are so condescending#and every time i send an email there's a 'i dont understand ' okay then!#guess I'll just make my boss send my emails then !#they're british and the other day the client was like 'i know English isn't your first language so there are communication barriers'#fuck you! I've been learning English since i was 5!#im so tired for real. for real#never been so stressed in my life
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#ah. i think i get it#the clones and brotherhood and all that. friendship and loyalty#i have friends who reach out and ask if im good or tell me they're here if i need but also im afraid#im bad at feelings. bad at talking. bad at needing. i need a lot and feel a lot but i hate expressing it#the clones are the perfect friend/family depiction. they experience a lot of tragedy but they come out stronger as a unit#they'll do kind things for one another and protect one another even if someone refuses#i think im frustrated at myself for making myself hard to access for others#ppl want to do that for me and be that way for me but i cannot.#whether its the parts of my brain or just who i am idk but i just. cant. i cant#and i need and im lonely but im also so adamantly against needing and being helped#but im looking at echo and he's looking at me and we both know i fixated on him bc of it#hes angry and grumpy and so hurt and even when he turns the 99 away they still push back and help#this isnt a fantasy world where i can be difficult andppl will still try and help. im the obstacle to my own problems solution#i want a fake sort of brotherhood and comradery i will never get#it doesn't matter if we share experiences of trauma or situations. i feel like im so far away from everyone#this is why i have fox. he gets it. echo gets it. we're so far away from anyone.#fuck this shit sucks.#this is why i feel like i have no friends or family. im being such a fucking brat#i want relationships that feel like in the end everyone collectively agreed it was worth fighting for#that im worth fighting for
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David Tennant interview at the British LGBT Awards, June 2024 (x)
Int: You being an ally to the community isn't something new. You've been doing it, but recently you've obviously really stepped up for trans and non-binary people in a time that's so, so needed. What made you do that?
David: I don't know that I feel like I've done anything that I wouldn't just sort of be normally doing. I mean, it's for me it's just common sense that there's there should be any suggestion that people aren't allowed to live the life they want to live and and to be who they want to be with and to express themselves wholeheartedly. I mean, as long as you aren't hurting anybody else, everybody else just needs to fucking butt out. I don't really understand why...
Int: ...it's controversial.
David: Yeah, there is and the thing... the thing, if there's something that's particularly sobering and depressing, it's that certain debates are being weaponized by certain elements of the political class, often for no... it seems it's not ideological so much as opportunistic. And I just think that's pretty disgusting, really.
Int: I couldn't agree more. What message would you like to send out to trans youth?
David: Please don't feel like you're not loved and that you're not accepted and that you're not... you know, most people in the world are good and kind and just want you to be able to be who you are. Most people in the world don't really care. I mean... you know what I mean?
Int: We're all narcissistic.
David: Exactly. Everyone's so self obsessed that really, the sort of noise that comes from a certain area of the press and of the political class is... it's a minority. It really is. And please don't let that make you feel diminished or dissuaded or discouraged, because, you know, you just... you have to be allowed to be yourself, and you are, and you are yourself and you must thrive and flourish, and we're all here for it.
Int: Amazing. I think, yeah, it's so important .I think sometimes it feels like there's so many people, but it is a minority. It's such a minority.
David: It's a tiny bunch of little whinging fuckers that are on the wrong side of history and they'll all go away soon.
Int: Like what happened with gay people 20 years ago.
David: When I was a kid, when I was a kid, exactly. You know, I was at school when Clause 28 came in and it all felt like being gay was something to be terrified of. And gay men in particular were demonised as paedophiles and now that just feels historic and ludicrous and, I mean, I don't see all those... all those battles aren't won, but we're in a very, very different place. And I feel like.I feel like history is on a progressive trajectory and it might get knocked sideways now and again by people for all sorts of reasons, which are often quite selfish and quite, as I say, not coming from a place of any sort of genuine belief system, but other than a place of opportunism. And that's something that we... I hope that in 20 years time, we're talking about, you know, these culture wars as something of the past.
Int: I believe we will. I'm a huge Doctor Who fan, so.
David: Oh, good, me too!
Int: You are my Doctor.
David: Oh, thank you very much.
Int: But recently, obviously, you came back for the 60th anniversary and you got to work with Yasmin Finney.
David: Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
Int: What was it like working with her?
David: Oh, she's brilliant. She's fantastic. Yeah. And she's in the show again now, she's back in it, so that's fantastic to see. She's lovely, talented, cool as a cucumber, articulate, brilliant. I learned a lot from her as an actor and also as someone who, you know, who's become a sort of de facto activist just because of who she is and where she is, and she becomes a sort of symbol of hope, and she's wonderful.
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Read 2 ttcc opinions and kinda wanna put my head under a train Jesus christ I hate fandom discourse I hate everyone please shut up (I don't mean this everyone entitled 2 their own opinions I'm just a possibly undiagnosed tryna figure out what's wrong with me ocs bitch who sees 1 opinion I may not think and be totally convinced people are out to get me for thinking it or not actively showing how smart I am or my opinions or smthn)
I will be biting my arm off now and cooking soup with it forever eve.
Christ this fandom has no chill honestly I think I'll shut up about opinions on anything including the lore issues and only speak on it with like 2 of my close friends I'm so done j hate this fanbase seriously you guys need to chill oh my god
#Hate it more when I feel like I'm made to be a moral monster bc I remember how I once said a thing abt misty I no longer agree with#And THE PEOPLE WILL GET ME. IF THEY KNOW THEY'LL HARASS ME. I WILL BE GOT#WILL I be really? No but my brain believes I will be#I have issues to work out#... I seriously need to consider that I have ocs bc Ive been reading into stuff and talking abt stuff and#... Yike#Comforts me as an explanation tho. YAAAY I'm not the only one fucked.
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