#and they tried not to let charlie know. theyre safe from all that so as long as she doesnt know itll be fine

[dvilborn]

listen. i'm just saying here. i don't think charlie was told anything about heaven besides that story. maybe there were plans to, when she was older. maybe it hurt too much for lucifer to talk about the angels that were his family. but by the time she was old enough to get it, what she knew of heaven was the exterminators. so why would lucifer tell her of his siblings and the love they once had when all the damage had been done already.

[necroromantics]

You have opened a whole new perspective for me with the Nina & Kate ship. The idea, the execution!!!!!! PLEASE I am in need of more

MAN Ok Im very glad this is getting attention cuz bro…. The potential…

MORE NINAKATE HEADCANONS 🔥 (Ill write more proper pieces in the future, for now yall are getting rambles)

- Nina invites Kate to raves and parties, but she refuses to go due to her migraines, sensitivity to light, and cuz shes a feral killer proxy misanthrope…

- Nina sometimes ends up drinking or smoking too much and comes home sick and a mess. Kate just softly scolds her, gives her stupid drunk gf a kiss, and takes her to bed

- She wakes up changed into pajamas, not a clue what happened, Kates already gone doing god knows what. But man its so much nicer for her knowing shes being taken care of

- Kate started off being very against the idea of make up, dressing up, nails done, etc. Until one night after Nina had spent hours begging Kate to let her do her makeup. Nina leaned in so close, so close. Kate didn’t get why her heart was beating so fast, or why she kept eyeing the girls lips. She thought she was getting sick again or something

- After that, she was more open to the idea. Especially since its an excuse to have Nina touch her. And she hasn’t been touched as if she was anything but a monster in so long

- Nina is soft, happy, a loving lover. She absolutely showers Kate with affection and is horribly devoted. She has a journal she doodles and writes in. 90% of that journal is about Kate

- Kate skates, both board and roller skating. Roller derby was a huge interest of hers, but circumstances never really let her fully pursue it. So some nights Nina will take her to a desolate skatepark and Kate will teach Nina to skate

- Once she gets the hang of it, rollerskating dates are frequent. One time, when she was still learning, Nina slipped and busted her ass. Kate laughed so hard water came out of her nose, before she ran to Ninas side to check on her

- Nina was fine of course, but god was she unresponsive. All she could think about was that strong, rough laugh. She started doing everything she could to make Kate laugh, even bought herself a “how to be funny” book

- I headcanon Nina to have BPD. Kate is very good at being her FP, and handles her episodes well. It took Nina awhile to learn how to manage her own episodes as well, especially after she relied so heavily on certain behaviours to get attention from Jeff

- But Kate helped her learn how to calm herself down, how to control her emotions and overthinking. And everyone noticed the improvement in her mental health. Having a person who cared, tried, understood

- And Kate is very protective. She was with Charlie, and she is with Nina. Absolutely no one gets to hurt her, talk bad about her, torment her. Toby went too far with a joke once and accidentally made Nina cry. Tim had to hold Kate back from breaking his jaw

- Theyre each others safe person, a place in the terrible, chaotic world they live in where they can find peace

- They have their own history, secrets, inside jokes. Nobody expected the two to get together, especially not a girl like Kate falling in love. But Nina saw that humanity in her and brought it out in ways nobody had even bothered to try, and Kates patience for her sunshine is infinite

- Surprisingly, works out very well

[thequeenofcupps]

CHARLIE DOMPLER X FEM!SHY AND CHUBBY READER

a/n: I’m just gonna fuckin write this on my phone 😭 also I had to re-watch smiling friends

Also an anon requested this so enjoy anon!

Warning!!: insecurity, shit bag parents, swearing from me

☆ﾟOk so it’s no surprise that Charlie’s also chubby, I mean have you seen his fine ass? (Sorry), but he tries to get you more confident and that doesn’t just mean you being chubby it also means helping you get over being shy he helps you with social skills

Like if someone fucks up ur order he lets you try out some of those skills ( you chicked out, he helped you 😭)

☆ﾟ He likes to give you compliments that focus on your personality and interests that are more meaningful than those about your appearance.

He also supports you in anyway shape or form.

☆ﾟ although you may be shy, you treasure quiet moments of connection where you can open up and share your thoughts, feeling safe and valued.

He also likes when you also take the time to understand him, also probably don’t bring up the fact he saw aliens and satan AND Jesus

☆ﾟyou guys have a slight communication issue but yall try and work on it.

But don’t worry you both send each other encouraging or notes saying stuff like “look hot today babe!” And other stupidly cute shit like that

☆ﾟhe likes to brag about you too Alan, glep and pim, also since he doesn’t shut up about you Mr. Boss also hears about you like all of them are TIREDDD of him yapping on and on and onnn about you

☆ﾟalso since he goes to the gym he likes to pick you up despite your protests

☆ﾟhe has THE BIGGEST BEEF WITH UR PARENTS, ok so back story you’ve been chubby even when u were a kid (but just slightly) so ur parents just brushed it off as baby fat, AND THOSE FUCK ASSES they fucking treated you like shit when you were a teen, like saying ignorant shit like “oh ur still fat? Maybe try losing weight sweetheart!” Or like “maybe you should start eating less baby!” LIKE HE FUCKING HATES THEYRE ASSES CUZ FUCK THEM UP THE ASS

☆ﾟ also you know that weird eye thing that he does when he’s scared, or shocked? He does that when you say something mean about yourself and then practically fucking screams in ur face about how you’re more than what stupid shit you just said abt ur self

A/n: I’m sorry if this was short I ran out of stuff to write 😭

[bizlybebo]

haha i wonder what silly adventure i write out this time!!

bizly: okay so you guys all fuckin, get in marks car, and-

grizzly: what songs he got playing?

charlie: (quick giggle) yeah, is it taylor swift this time?

bizly: HE IS NOT PLAYING TAYLOR SWIFT

condi: thank god

will: hey mark i didnt know you liked bad blood!

bizly: NO, IM NOT DOING THIS BIT, YOU GUYS DRIVE THERE IN SILENCE

yakko: ashe is playing his playlist

bizly: yeah, ashe you have the headphones on, its like…

yakko: car seat headrest

bizly: sure, whatever

("hey, space cadet" from car seat headrest starts playing faintly in the background)

bizly: as you guys get in, and your driving there, probably staring out the window

grizzly: dakota is just criss cross apple sauce in the middle, just meddling with his thumbs in his lap

bizly: and as you're staring down at your lap dakota, and out the windows vyncent and william, you cant help but reminise on your first visit here. being led into that lab, fighting what seemed like a hopeless battle, and winning with a cost. the o-

grizzly: dako- oh sorry

bizly: no, no, go ahead

grizzly: dakota is thinking about all those heroes who were waiting outside, the ones who di- couldnt help them, and how he failed to help with the trickster, and he looks up, over to ashe.

bizly: do you say anything to him?

grizzly: no, he just looks at him, the back of his head, not trying to get his attention or anything.

charlie: will glances over at dakota, kinda trying to see what hes thinking.

grizzly: hes thinking about that first time, obviously-

will: dakota? you good buddy?

dakota: uh, yeah. yeah.

will: it couldnt have gone differently, you know.

dakota: yeah.

bizly: you two are having this little talk- condi is vyncent-

condi: vyncents just letting himself think these thoughts

bizly: alright, ashe, you remember, what to you, was the last time you felt really, awake, and like your brain wasnt really malfunctioning or something. and you remember that familiar feeling, that one of losing touch, losing control, of your body, of yourself. you knew in the end, there wasnt a way to fight back against this, this force, and yet you tried, and the reasons you tried your sitting next to in this car.

yakko: can i look over at mark?

bizly: mark is focusing on the road, pretty focused on where hes going. you can tell he has some mixed feelings about this all.

yakko: and the guys in the back?

charlie: will has his arm around dakota, leaning and whispering to him.

grizzly: dakota has this like, pretty serious look on his face. hes quieter then normal as he and wiwi are talking.

condi: vyncents still looking out the window, maybe fiddling with a dagger absent-mindedly.

bizly: as you turn back around, you catch a glimpse of your hand, and in this moment does it truly register that the runes on them are no longer glowing, go-

yakko: to ashe, theyre not gone. he can see the faint lines on his hand of where they were.

bizly: and as your looking at these lines, you feel the car stop.

mark: we're here.

bizly: im assuming you all get out the car?

ashe: what? oh, okay, thanks dad.

mark: im gonna keep an eye on the car, you guys go in there, find what you can

will: we'll try our best

mark: be safe kid.

bizly: he looks at you ashe

ashe: its not easy with this group, but ill try

bizly: and you all head inside, and you get down there- it hasnt been changed from when you guys fought the overlord from what you can tell, nobodys bothered to fix the place up. theres no heroes set up here, no guards or anything, this place has been basically abandoned. its almost-

will: this place feels eerie like this.

bizly: yeah, exactly, as though your walking through the ghosts of the heroes here at this battle, the one that seemed to change everything. and you remember, just how big it felt, how giant the overlord was, how giant it all was. what do you all want to do first?

will: remember when our worst enemy was a crocodile- alligator man?

dakota: if we met him now, i could beat his ass, one hit

will: im sure you could dakota.

condi: vyncent is gonna look at the tubes, like the ones he and dakota got trapped in

bizly: they are completely destroyed, like theres bits of glass everywhere

vyncent: cant believe we were in one of these before, huh kota?

grizzly: yeah i was gonna say, dakota would look over with vyncent.

dakota: i could have broken out of it if i was stronger then.

vyncent: yeah. i dont think the greats appreciated being tubed.

bizly: so you two are gonna look through this area?

condi: yeah, well vyncent will

grizzly: ill help- dakota will look through with vyncent

bizly: alright, we'll get back to that. lets see whats going on with will, will! what we doing?

will (charlie forgot to turn off the will voice): will is gonna just get a general lay of the room for right now

bizly: alright, is that gonna be-

charlie: just what he can see right now

bizly: okay, so looking around, it looks very beat up, its a strange sort of deja vu, and you cant place your finger on it, but the situation makes you feel a bit like your back, in your brothers office-

condi: oh thats sick

bizly: -with alan and xavier and cantrip.

charlie: god….yeah. will just wipes a tear from his eye.

bizly: you do also catch onto a piece of something purple- and dakota youd see this too, its purple, what looks like cloth, stuck onto the glass of one of the tubes.

dakota: hey will, i found something!

will: yeah dakota?

charlie: ill go get a closer look at it.

bizly: so will, you would recognize it to be a piece of a purps suit.

charlie: of course, of fucking course it is-

bizly: and dakota, you would remember this to be a piece of your purp suit, one that got ripped off during your escape.

will: a pur- i thought we got rid of these before-

dakota: it- its mine.

grizzly: hes gonna pick it up and put it in his pocket.

charlie: yeah ill go to looking on the other side of the room then

bizly: alright, and yakko, whats going on with ashe?

yakko: ashe is gonna go for where the trickster first got summoned

bizly: as your walking up to it, that spot in the floor is charred to ashes.

grizzly: hah, like ashe!

yakko: ashe is gonna just, stare at it. remembering it all.

bizly: well, you find something too. as your looking at this burnt tile on the ground, you see a page, which you know is one from your book.

ashe: didnt know one fell out.

yakko: i pick up the page

bizly: you look at it, reading it, and its the page about that demon arm you summoned quite a bit, how you'd try to use it in combat even if it didn't always hit, i think it was pretty safe to say one of your strongest moves

yakko: and it just got left here. i pick it up.

ashe: maybe this time around i can do something a bit better with you.

yakko: and i put it into my pocket

bizly: and as you put it in there, everyone gets this sort of feeling, and you all look up at the crater in the wall. its the one where the overlord was. and as your all looking, a thought crosses your mind: when, did it get so small. when did the issue of the overlord, of even the planet that one time, become such an insignificant thing? what set the change up, to where you stopped being heroes in kid costumes, and became kids in hero costumes.

charlie: can we all like walk closer to it, like meet up over-

bizly: i say you can meet over by it, yeah, sure

grizzly: yeah, lets-

condi: vyncent would probably go closer, why not

vyncent: yknow, the whole reason the trickster came out and everything was because we thought this was where it was gonna end. how silly is that.

ashe: im glad it didnt.

dakota: it made us stronger, yknow, we grew from it! became like, actual heroes and stuff!

will: maybe we shouldnt have. for what its worth, im glad that i got to fight in the ends with you guys.

me, who broke into the studio because im a little rat: and THAT is where we're gonna end the scene

the whole council: kys

DUDUDEEEEE. WHEN I JOKED ABOUT US GHOSTWRITING SEASON 3 I DIDNT EXPECT THISSSSSS /INSANELY POS

the smaller mannerisms and stuff have me half-giggling and half-punching the wall. grizzly saying stuff like “the heroes that di- that couldn’t help them” and charlie being “stuck” in the william voice and the small comment about the greats and like. even the way ashe speaks/yakko talks ooc and bizly shutting down stupid bits. i think we both listen to this shitty podcast too much and are both fucking deranged i’m grabbjng you by the fucking shoulders and shaking you so violently for this

[anachronistic-falsehood]

EPISODE 21 TRIVIA:

- CROP TOP KARATE KID

- "ashe is an edgy kid thats mad at his dad, but when you tried to get him arrested i really didnt know how he would respond to that"

- "wavelength has a +10 to deception." "YEAH, AND THAT SHOULD BE A RED FLAG"

- THE CHOICE THIS EPISODE. to go with either tide or mark. it was flipped! they went with mark bc in a meta way they thought that would be the most exciting/dangerous and going with tide wouldve been the safe route. this is not the case if they wouldve gone with tide something crazy wouldve happened !!! mark was the safe option. hehe

- now theyre all disappointed they didnt go with tide:

grizzly: "what happened, charlie? you were so set on going with tide at first"

charlie: "i KNOW!! because he was THERE IN THE ROOM WITH US and hes TIDE and hes my... FOSTER DAD!"

- grizzly: dakota would always go with tide no hesitation. the only reason he didnt is because william said otherwise and he trusts william (<< im literally always so fucking crazy every time he says something ljke this)

- LOTS OF WILLIAM CRUMBS THIS EPISODE. i havent actually relistened to it yet and charlie is being really vague about what they are so i dont remember but. apparently there were a lot of little conversation moments that were dropped in here that allude to wiwi backstory

- "mark is a bitch" << theyre so fucking mean to him in the rolleds all the tjme. free my man

- "ashe is really mad at him right now but if he lost mark he wouldnt have any family left" HEY YAKKO???? hey yakko im at work rn dont do this to me .

- condi responds to this immediately with "welcome to the no family club, me and dakota are already here" guys please

- chorus of "i love tide"s . these kids have a favorite divorced father fr. sorry. no im not

- AND THUS BEGINS THE INFAMOUS LIZARD DISCUSSION. FORGOT THIS STARTED HERE. OKAY. im so mad this happens almost entirely in rolleds because most people miss it and the payoff is SO fucking funny. theyre discussing power levels. and in the m&m handbook it gives like. template enemy statblocks and some of those are animals and for whatever reason theres just a WHOLE PAGE of this that are various kinds of lizards and they all find this so funny. bc pd at this point is power level 6. the first thing listed on that page is an alligator..... which is power level 7. "we are not even strong enough to defeat an alligator at this point, we cant even go to florida safely" "dont worry tide we'll come save you from your inevitable offscreen death because we didnt come with you and instead went with asshole mark" (bizly, in tide voice:) "dont worry, just bring 4 alligators with you" THIS GOES ON. FOR A WHILE. ITS REALLT FUNNY. this continues to be a topic of conversation for ljke the next 3 rolleds so prepare for more lizard power level discussion

- they start talking about tides powers and apparently they thought he could breathe underwater and talk to fish but bizly describes him as "more like a water bender than aquaman"

- grizzly said this was lame bc he thought it was the other way around but then charlie was like "listen, we already have aquaman on just roll with it and its gillion tidestrider" this is not relevant at all but i have to include every time gillion is mentioned outside of riptide bc i hear his name and my ears perk up like a dog

- anyway. CONCLUSION to that is that tide cannot talk to fish but it is unconfirmed whether or not he can breathe underwater. which i think is neat :]

- "do you think people let le frog rob them because they feel bad for him" "do you think le frog gets hired for childrens birthday parties"

WAVELENGTH HAS A PLUS 10 TO DECEPTION. YEAH. BIT OF A RED FLAG THERE. JUST A BIT

NOOO they could have gone with tide and had exciting times but instead they had 2 babysit mark the depressed widowed dad </3 thats ok tho i love when they have to babysit this grown ass man. i love the pd + mark winters shenanigans

"ashe is really mad at him right now but if he lost mark he wouldnt have any family left" WHAT IF I EXPLODED??? RIGHT HERE AND NOW???? HELLO

the lizards..... i an beginning 2 understand why overlord's reveal was so fucking funny. it was funny without context but the context is funnier

MAC GOING CRAZY ABOUT ANY MENTION OF GILLION TIDESTRIDER (A SEA THEMED CHARACTER). FORK FOUND IN KITCHEN!!!! (<<said very affectionately)

i like 2 think le frog gets hired for birthday parties <3 i love le frog. le frog i love u. favourite pd character right here. le frog u are everything 2 me <3

[dennisboobs]

the entire gang doing "family style cooking" without dennis honestly sticks out at me, and like, presumably still something actually happening irl considering what charlie says over the phone at the end.

speaking of. "are we above or below sea level" as dennis sets up the watch monitoring his fluctuating blood pressure.

i don't think it's just a wacky (recurring!!!) statement unrelated to den's mental state considering the entire point of the pressure cooker diamonds plot was clearly meant to reflect his mental state through the episode before it was cut for time

gotta make sure we're above sea level to be safe. if its under sea level it may explode. that's our big worry, that this sucker's gonna explode. you can't take a pressure cooker under the sea. it's not gonna explode. yeah that's not how pressure cookers work. yeah.

the fact that it was supposed to explode in the end or at least the gang THOUGHT it was going to and were hiding from it behind the pool table still haunts me

dennis going to hang the phone up multiple times and then deciding against it and letting the gang ramble until he starts to get stressed/angry with them all 🤐

why did den put himself through every possible hardship he could dream up in his fantasy. not only is all this misfortune befalling him but like. right from the start. his car is in the shop? did someone drive him to the doctor's. did he forget about that between the time he got home and the time he answered the phone. he's wearing the same clothes in the doctor's office that he is in his apartment. did he drop the car off after his appointment and then got a ride back. and he still somehow forgot. this is the most minor plot hole and clearly just a setup for him getting the tsuma but i need to know. how did he get to the car rental place. you cannot tell me he lives within walking distance to both of these places

dee offering to drive him and wanting to come with him to the beach :) does this mean she has a car again or was this with the assumption that he would get a rental car??

i can't quite hear what frank and charlie are talking about while den's yelling about taking his mental health day but it sounds like theyre saying something about the tides affecting things definitely nothing to do with dennis' rising and falling blood pressure and the watch beginning to beep at that exact moment

is the annoyance at the receptionist typing for so long a misophonia thing. the closeup suggests to me it's the sound.

there's something in the tsuma being (more or less) fully automated and dennis saying he's going to take a passive role and allow it to do it's thing, being stoked about it having those capabilities, saying the car is Nailing It and then having to come to the realization that these systems don't actually account for the humanity confined within it, as well as being less efficient than a human controlled machine in the long run. certainly not like we've seen dennis' systems compared to automation or an algorithm before.

calling tapioca pearls a "covert diabetes mechanism" is so insane like. it's of course a specific concern this episode because of his blood pressure and the heightened awareness of his health after going to the doctor's but. also the fact that he actually does like it once he tries it. do you ever allow yourself to enjoy anything, dennis. i am once again reminded of 7x01 and him insisting to mac that it "has to be miserable, no pain no gain" about him not eating proper meals. restricting himself.

his way of calming down is to apologize and remind himself it's not the employee's fault

the system "is what it is" and they're both Victims of it (unknowingly in the employee's case, knowingly in dennis')

technically "the system" causes dennis to leave his phone on the roof of the car because his hands are full with the two boba teas. technically him rebelling against full compliance (only going halfway because he didn't want to download the app) led to a string of other problems. listen to your heart blasts again, startling him into leaving The Key behind.

we're just calling now so that you don't get mad at us later. yeah, we're hoping that you get mad out there and then you come back and you're happy.

worth noting that dennis was only telling them not to eat the french dip because it probably wasn't safe to eat; concern for the gang, not for selfish reasons (nothing about it being his). but also the gang asking for forgiveness rather than permission. interesting.

trying to reason with an authority figure and getting hit with the realization that The System doesn't care about his needs as an individual and won't make special concessions

speedrunning his social script

the way he tries to pull other random bystanders into things in the cell store, trying to have some sort of external reassurance about the ridiculousness of the system but they all refuse to engage

interesting to me that den starts progressively referring to The System as if its a tangible object, and even back in the boba place seems aware of the situation (ie. it being in his head, representative of his own frustration with his failing body)

calming himself down enough that he's able to suggest an alternative that works

meanwhile frank endorses self harm and dishonesty to avoid being open about poor mental health <3

throughout the episode dennis answers whenever the gang needs him but they don't answer when he needs their help.

followed by > why won't you talk to each other.

listen to your heart plays again as a hold song. as he's literally trying to get through to someone.

questioning whether or not his fantasy is real, whether it's a nightmare.

S – somebody help me

N – never gonna help me

dennis cutting off daisy's automated customer service script and telling her she doesn't need to be sorry, he's upset at the system, not her. she didn't create the system. she's stuck in it, just as all the other customer service reps have been that have no capacity for empathy for him and his situation, passing him back and forth because that's their job, they're functioning as intended, it's not their fault, it's the heart–

a broken system engineered to drive them crazy.

i've been better, i've been worse. 🙃 god what a fucking thing for him to say.

Customer Feedback is Very Important To Him. Leave Him A Message. another degree of separation when all dennis has been trying to do the entire episode is get through and talk to a human face to face. not another cog in the machine, not someone's secretary, not someone's representative, not the person behind the counter who has no personal stake in things. they're mouthpieces, they're not people who are acting of their own volition. they are no different from the automated voice in the phone. no one can help him because they're all following protocols. can you assure me. that YOU will get this to HIM. person to person. can you make a personal promise to me.

what can i even say about THE heart scene. listen to your heart. finally finding that humanity dennis has been seeking. his own heart, buried inside the CEO that's been the root cause of most of his problems throughout the day. and he takes his hand and lays it over his heart. and smiles. succeeding in making a diamond under stress (unlike the halfassed pressure cooker diamonds that exploded). scene of all time. and i will return to this bc it deserves its own post.

the waiting room being filled with dennis' lovely lineup of repurposed NPCs, right down to the daisies. doctor tsuma.

charlie calling to ask whether they're above or below sea level again and dennis being newly ready to face helping the gang now that he's calmed himself down.

the issues are still present, he's just managed to enact the surest form of control over himself, regulating his anger so that he can be of use again. the communication is still a concern. the gang still relies on him and yet he can only rely on himself.

hi people awake at 5:30am and also the people in different time zones i'm going to watch dennis taking a mental health day and maybe discuss because i have literally been thinking about it nonstop for the past 3 days (more than i do usually) and unlike usual i am feeling very no quality filter no editing braindumpy in a way that i don't often do on this blog

[superspookywombat]

falling {j.h} chapter eleven

Warnings: a few swear words I think, theyre not too bad though, i didn’t proof read i was too excited to post lol

Taglist: i’m moving it to the comments (or at least I’m going to try to so i’d appreciate it if you could let me know if it works :)

A/n: this chapter’s a bit longer than usual. I’m not totally in love with it but i know i’ve kept you all waiting long enough (oops) hope you enjoy!!

Everything was still. You laid in a sterile room, your torn and bloody clothes dried to a vinyl cot in the middle of the room. Jasper wouldn’t let Alice change your clothes, he wouldn’t even let anyone near you. He sat at your side, never taking his eyes off of you once. The venom was taking longer than usual to take over, leaving Carlisle intrigued. Jasper was worried that his venom didn’t work, but was instantly reassured by Alice that you would wake up. 

It was three nights after you’d been bitten that you began the early stages of transformation. You weren’t awake just yet, but every so often your heart would stutter and slow. Jasper listened closely, and tried his best to radiate calmness for you even though he was feeling everything but. He couldn’t feel anything around you, which was something he wasn’t used to. The rest of the Cullens gave him as much space as possible, almost as if he was grieving. He was grieving, though, because he knew this was the end of an era. This officially ended things between him and Alice. He felt guilty for leaving her by herself, but he knew she was a strong woman and would be better off without him.

“You don’t have to be sorry, you know.” Alice said, approaching him a few weeks ago. He didn’t understand what she was referring to.

“You’re in love with her, Jasper. And that’s okay.” She said softly, reassuring the conflicted cowboy. 

“We were supposed to be together for the rest of our lives.” Jasper had responded, his heart dropping at the sight of Alice’s sad smile. She cupped his cheek in her small hand and he leaned into her touch.

“I know. But this is the start of a new life.” She said. He paused, unsure how to respond. Eventually, he knew.

“Thank you, Alice.” He said, his voice no more than a whisper. He was sure if vampires could cry that tears would be running down his scarred cheeks. She never responded, they just sat in silence while she held him, their love still as strong as the day they met, just displaced. 

Five days after being bitten you started visually reacting to the venom. Sometimes your hand would flinch, or your eyelids would twitch. Mostly, whimpers escaped through your clenched jaw. Your body was changing dramatically, you got slimmer in sections but filled out in others, your lips got plumper and your hair got thicker and shinier. Your clothes barely fit you anymore, not that you’d do anything but throw away the outfit you had on. Jasper finally started to calm a little, but was still on edge because he knew the upcoming part was arguably the hardest. 

Eleven days after you were bitten you had the ability to be conscious, though most of the time you weren’t from the unbearable pain. Your screams were heard throughout the house, including a small part of the surrounding forest causing the Cullens to have a new-found appreciation for the seclusiveness of their house. Bella had visited you multiple times, but Edward wouldn’t let her get too close in case you suddenly awoke and decided that she was going to be your first meal. Being right next to you while you suffered hurt Jasper too. He could feel your anguish, your confusion. When you’d cry out, he’d groan; when you’d squeeze his hand, his other one would crush the armrest of his chair. 

Fourteen days after you were bitten, the pain finally died down. You were unconscious again as the final stage of transforming took place, making major changes in your body- including your heart. Jasper could hear your heart straining to keep up with the venom, but eventually it gave in and stopped altogether. Jasper sat still, waiting anxiously for the next step. A thump at the large glass window had made him jump, which was unusual for a vampire because they were rarely startled. Another thump made him stand, and after another he called for Esme. Birds ran into the windows a lot because of how clean she kept them, and if they were injured either her or Carlisle would aid it. Esme had rushed to his side immediately, most of the Cullens were sat just outside of the room incase of an update on your condition. As soon as she entered, Jasper watched as her eyebrows knitted together. She strode forward and reached to open the window, and almost immediately the room was invaded by multiple birds. Jasper jumped to hover over your body protectively while Esme yelled at the birds to get out. Hearing all of the commotion, Rosalie and Emmett entered the room. Rose helped Esme shoo the birds while Emmett walked over to the window. 

“Oh hell yeah!” Emmett laughs, clapping his hands. Once the window was closed, leaving the birds to sit on the balcony, Jasper felt it was safe enough to leave you unprotected. He walks over to see what Emmett was talking about, only to see a bear standing on its hind legs, pawing in the direction of the window. 

“Good God.” Jasper says, his jaw ajar. Esme walks over, her expression just as shocked as the boys’. 

“It’s like a pizza delivery!” Emmett exclaimes. He places two of his huge hands on Rosalie’s shoulders. “But instead of pizza- it’s a bear!”

“Em, why is there a bear waving at you?” Rosalie asks him. Alice entered the room so quietly that no one had noticed she was there.

“It’s here for y/n.” She says. Jasper whirls around, his eyebrows pulling down to frame his scowl. 

“What are you talking about?” He asks. Her eyes glaze over as she stares into the distance, and Jasper rushes to her side and holds her upright.

“I can see it.. She’s calling them..” Alice says. Jasper glances at your unmoving body. A squirrel leaps from a tree that hangs over the balcony, and scratches at the glass.

“Calling them how?” Esme asks softly. Alice snaps out of her vision, blinking a few times until she sees clearly again. Carlisle walks into the room, followed by Edward and Bella.

“They can sense her pain, she’s reaching out for help and she doesn’t even realize it.” Alice says. A creak from the bed diverts everyone’s eyes to you. 

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After feeling nothing but unbearable pain for what seemed like forever, it was almost instantaneously that it went away. As if a bucket of water was poured onto your burning body, the flames were extinguished. You could hear before you could see; you could hear so many different things at once. The flutter of a bird’s wings, the rhythmic beat of a heart- who’s heart? Then you heard him. It sounded like him, but clearer. As if someone had flipped a switch to turn his voice into HD. You could hear Emmett and Esme too, along with a melodic unfamiliar voice. Then Alice’s voice. Everyone spoke in worried, hush tones. Worry ran through you, what was wrong? Did something happen? Then, your eyes flutter open.

You sit up with a gasp, your hand instinctively reaching for your throat. It felt so dry that you were sure that if you tried to speak, nothing would come out. The first thing you saw was Esme, a worried expression plastered on her face. You turn your head to find Jasper, but the speed at which you turn takes you by surprise. You lift your hand from your throat, holding it in front of your face. The paleness of your skin shocks you. Actually, everything about your hand does. The room is silent as you place your other hand next to the first one, staring at both in confusion. You don’t recognize them, the only similar factor being the red nail polish you applied the night before. You pull up your sleeve, and you flinch when a loud ripping noise bounces off of the walls. Pinched between your thumb and first finger is bloody fabric. You’re too bothered by your sudden strength to notice that your arms, like your hands, have no freckles or moles. You twist your arm to look at your elbow, surprised to see that the huge scar you got when you were eight is no longer there.

“Y/n?” You hear Jasper say. You over at him, his beauty leaving you wordless. Sunlight from the window streams through the mop of his blond hair, leaving it looking like pure gold. His pale skin glitters- wait, glitters? You stand up, looking down at your bare feet and bloody pants. 

“Jasper?” You ask. Your brain swirls as you think about what happened the night before, but as soon as you smell the dried blood on your clothes you shudder. “I.. I died.” 

“We’ll let you two talk alone.” Esme says softly, walking over to Jasper like she’s balancing on eggshells. She leans to say something in his ear. “We’ll be right outside if you need us.”

Jasper approaches you slowly as Esme, Emmett, and the blonde girl exit the room. He keeps his distance, but reaches out to hesitantly take your hand. You let him, and his skin no longer feels cold.

“What’s going on?” You ask, your voice not even sounding like it belongs to you. He glances over your shoulder, and you turn to see what he’s looking at. Three deer stand underneath the trees outside of the window, seemingly watching you two.

“Y/n.. I had no choice.” Jasper says, his voice sounding unusually stressed. You look down once more at your bloody clothes.

“Had no choice about what?” You ask. He opens his mouth like he’s about to say something, but then closes it again. “Jasper what’s going on? I feel like I’m going crazy. I could have sworn I.. died. I thought I died. But you saved me? And I’m okay now? Did you tell Dr Cullen to do some sort of risky procedure and bring me back to life?”

“You did.” He says. You furrow your eyebrows, unsure of which thing you said he’s responding to. “Die, I mean.” 

“Very funny. Just tell me what happened, I probably won’t be mad. Charlie might be though.” You reply, wishing he’d just blurt it out.

“My family and I.. we aren’t normal.” He says. Okay..?

“Well one look at Edward and that becomes pretty obvious. Not sure what it has to do with what’s going on here though.” You say sarcastically.

“I’m serious. We aren’t like anyone you’ve ever met before.” He says. You sit and wait for him to finish monologuing- which is what he clearly wants. “I’m not as old as you think I am.. I was born as Jasper Whitlock in 1844. My family and I are immortal.” 

You wait for him to say more- for him to laugh and tell you Bella put him up to a prank or something. He stays silent.

“You’re serious? Like, immortal as in you were born in 1844 and you haven’t aged a day and you can’t die and you’ve been through highschool like a million times and-” You ramble, still waiting for him to come clean about the joke. “And.. you’re a vampire?”

“Yes.” He answers shortly. You scoff.

“Bullshit.” You say, anger coursing through your veins. He looks taken aback as you gesture wildly. “I’m not as gullible as my sister thinks, okay? So you can go and run to her and tell her that her stupid prank isn’t funny.” 

“Y/n, I-” He starts.

“No! I don’t like being made fun of.” You growl. You turn to walk towards the balcony. As much as you’d like to leave, he still needs to explain what happened the night before, unless that was somehow a part of the sick joke. As you go to step forward, Jasper places a hand on your upper arm. You shake off his hand and he falls forward a little, making your mind swirl. You step forward and instantly you’re zooming through the air and through the glass doors. You try to catch yourself on the metal railing of the balcony, only for it to bend, letting you fall two stories to the ground.

“What the hell?” You exclaim. You look at your body, which looks and feels unscathed. Jasper runs out of the you-sized hole in the door, jumping off of the balcony and landing on his feet next to you with a ‘thud’. Soon, undoubtedly drawn by the noise, Emmett and Dr Cullen ran- teleported (?) over to you guys. “So.. Uh.. You were saying?”

“Two weeks ago, you were attacked by another immortal. They were here for your sister and while we were fighting a flock of newborn vampires, one broke off from the rest of them and came to your house. He.. he killed you. I made the decision to bite you.” Jasper says, his voice seemingly shaking. Your mind swims as you try to piece together what he just said. Two weeks? But it was just last night. He bit me? Am I an immortal- or vampire now?

“So.. you decided my fate? Whether to let me die or make me a vampire? I am a vampire, right?” You ask slowly, still trying to figure it out. You hear a rapid heartbeat thumping behind you, and you turn to see those three deer watching you a few yards away. You want them to come closer, something about them drawing you to them. As if you had asked them, they slowly trot closer, until they are about an arm’s reach away. You can hear a whooshing sound- the blood running through their veins? Your mouth could water as you deeply inhale, a delicious scent filling your nostrils. You can sense their trance-like state almost radiating off of them as they walk closer. Jasper gets closer to you, as do Emmett and the Doctor. You almost unconsciously lunge at the unsuspecting animal, until another scent hits you. Why was I about to attack that animal? To.. drink it’s blood? The scent is much sweeter than the deers’, it smells more appetizing than anything you’ve ever smelled before. You want it more than anything you’ve ever wanted before. You rush to your feet and sprint around the corner of the house and down the driveway, only to see Bella being rushed into Edward’s car. Your hands shake and your throat burns as her scent surrounds you. Before you even know what you’re doing, you’re crouched in an offensive position. Someone wraps their arms around you before you can lunge, and the scent lets you know it’s Jasper.

“Y/n.. y/n, stop!” Jasper commands as you struggle against his grip, and soon Emmett is there to help him. Your throat feels like it’s going to catch fire and burn into a crisp. You groan as you try to claw out of their grip, but they don’t let up. You sink to your knees, Jasper and Emmett following you to the ground, and anguish rushes through you. Birds caw as they circle around in the air. A bear dazedly walks out of the forest, his eyes glazed over. The deer from earlier walk towards you, not affected by the loud noises. Squirrels run down from trees and snakes slither out from the forest floor coverings. A fat racoon waddles out from behind a pile of logs while two elk walk out of the woods. Alice, Esme, and the other girl come outside. Everyone is silent as they look around in amazement, creatures from all over surround the front of the house where you kneel.

Alice is the first to speak, a small smile on her lips as she utters the words, “She’s a Thiriokinetic.”

[bluebuckstallion]

kinda ramble-y fic below the cut, includes a metric fuck-ton of angst, macdennis, teen au, drinking, and a Lot of implied abuse/trauma

summary: macs a rebellious 14 year old tht hates the rich, dennis is a dick that really just needs an outlet to share his feelings, theyre sad together

ok no offense but i just...really love the concept of like, teen mac & charlie crashing house parties. them sneaking out of the house together and their late night adventures quickly becoming a blur of adrenaline and laughter as they jus show up at random parties someone down the street is throwing. they show up undetected at the peak of the utter chaos that is teen rebellion, take a shitload of booze, and then ditch just as fast. they go by the train tracks after and get wasted together, drowning out the deafening reality that is their parents dont care enough to notice theyre not at home every night & that life isnt going so well. and for once they can be happy in each others company and have a taste of a childhood they deserved, even if they can only find it at the bottom of a bottle

one night mac goes off by himself, probably because charlie just hasnt been as up to going out. mac has no clue why, the only things charlie’s been sputtering about between drinks every night is his ‘son of a bitch of an uncle’ who moved back in recently. mac doesnt understand and charlie wont give him what he needs to understand it. so mac gives it no second thought. he spots this absolutely huge house in the suburbs. hes never seen something with architecture like this and hell sure as hell never understand how someone can afford so much room, or what its even used for. the yard is donned with blacked out kids he knows from his classes, and the inside of the house is filled with the melody of drunk kids slurring and laughing to party songs.

he decides this is it-this is the one place hell allow himself to go without his best friend. and hell definitely save booze for him. and he wont allow himself to feel guilty for it, he never does anything for himself anyways. he strides in with a nonchalant facade and his best ‘yes-i-definitely-belong-here’ smile from cheek to cheek, waving at classmates that never noticed him before and definitely wont now. which is the only advantage that comes from being the rat, one of the sore losers in the bullshit hierarchy that is high school popularity. nobody will notice when youre taking something right infront of them.

he makes it to the kitchen and finally pieces together who lives here-its the piece of shit he has half his classes with, the word snob as a person, someone he cant help but loathe for his gross elitism. its dennis reynolds. some kid thats really full of himself, someone who helped trademark ‘the rat’ and laughs at mac while hes down. he didnt really mind, its not like he was bullying charlie, and he was strong enough to take the half-assed insults this guy threw at him. it wasnt a big deal.

but here, now-he found dennis in the midst of his own party, alone in the kitchen, half-empty bottle of tequila in tow, and what looked like mascara trailing from his eyes. what a pussy is what he was about to say, but something stopped him. dennis looked at the other boy looming over him and flinched, covering his face instantly. mac was confused, what the hell was he doing that for? when dennis realized he was fine, he instantly tried to revert back to his cool guy defense mode. something compelled mac to crouch down next to him because, well geez, the poor kid was a mess.. and he felt like it humanized him. the urge to steal his things for a taste of a life he never had slowly died down as he said hello to the gracious party host himself. “why-are-you-here”s  were spit out instantly, because dennis didn’t remember inviting some dirty street rat to his party. mac gave a really half-assed excuse, which was all he needed to convince dennis he was supposed to be here, considering all his thoughts were mush from how out of it he was-he never had the opportunity to drink this much on account of his sister beating him to it, or his mom emptying everything after heated arguments with his dad. and although it annoyed him when she was drunk, it was better than falling asleep to the melody of fighting and the threat of an impending divorce.

but anyways, now mac is lost in his eyes and they’re both half a bottle of tequila down, and he isnt sure if hes holding his hand or just dreaming it. and oh god, his eyes are so beautiful and his lips are coated with strawberry chapstick and he wants to kiss them so bad, he wants to keep holding his hand for all of eternity but at the same time he wants to hold his face in his hands and wow he wants to kiss him so bad and to taste the strawberry chapstick and god, hes infatuated. he wants to wipe his tears away and to kiss his rosy cheeks and run his hands through his hair, so bad. and it hits him that hes too deep, what would charlie think of this? falling for the enemy? fuck. but that doesnt matter because all that matters now is the fact hes really hand in hand with someone hes fallen in love with, and all it took was talk of trauma and a bottle of tequila.

theyre no longer on the kitchen floor as theyre giggling hand in hand stumbling up the stairs, leaning on each other and shushing one another as they laugh too hard to smile right and their cheeks are flush and they arent sure if its the drinking or their company. theyre trying to be quiet as they close the door to the twins’ room and dennis tries to lock it with a shaky hand. mac watches him in utter jaw-dropping awe, feeling butterflies fill his stomach and suffocating any insecurity hed ever felt before. this was new to him. but dennis felt it even stronger. hed spent so long building up a wall, hed spent so long listening to his mothers vodka-fueled lectures about never letting yourself fall in love. barbara made him promise hed never do that to himself, it hurt too much she told him. but now he was sitting on the top bunk of his bed with what seemed to be the boy of his dreams, he didnt know he could ever feel this way or honestly feel anything at all, and he was too drunk to feel guilty for it.

hours pass and now mac is laying on his bare chest. dennis has his hands intertwined in his hair and hes taken away by how soft it is when he strokes it. macs never felt a wave of clarity envelop him so softly before. hes at peace. all the droning hum of party music is drowned out. all he can hear is the soft rhythm of their hearts and their cautious breathing, both scared that this still might not be real. macs heart flutters when he realizes dennis’ breathing gets faster as he moves his hand across his chest, and he looks up with half-slit puppy dog eyes that dennis is absolutely in love with. mac opens his mouth to speak, but changes his mind. he doesnt wanna jinx it, hes so scared he wont be able to impress cool kid dennis reynolds, and he doesnt wanna do anything to change this moment. he plays it safe. as he snuggles closer, dennis holds him and macs face is the warmest its ever been, and he buries it in the other boys chest. he doesnt know how to react to this, hes never known how to react to anything but especially nothing like this. his face is even warmer than macs and hes trying so hard to not let him know that he likes him because thats something his mom would be ashamed of. mac falls asleep on his chest, and dennis cant stop playing with his hair.

dennis wakes him up because he knows everything would be ruined if anyone found them together, especially his sister. god knows what she would do. and dennis tries to tell him he should leave, but the words choke him too much to come out when he sees macs adorable face glance up at him. and hes just too shy to say a word.

the next thing they know, dennis pulls him closer and theyre both kissing for the first time, and mac feels wrong. he wants to push him away and he knows he should feel absolutely horrible, he knows god would be disappointed in something like this and hes terrified of the consequences hell get. but he pushes the thoughts away and succumbs to the warmth that surrounds his body. dennis is holding him so gently and neither want to ever move again, and something compels them to stay together. the kiss is only broken by dennis’ nervous laughter, and a smile that he cant hide. and when the boys recollect themselves they start kissing again. they never went further than that, partially because they couldnt get it up this drunk and partially because they were too scared to ruin it, but it was still nice to fall asleep side by side, even if they didnt mean to

mac wakes up to the soft golden smile of the suns rays against the bed, and he vaguely remembers last night. panic sets in like it never has before. hes never stayed somewhere else this late before. what if charlie’s looking for him. what if whoever hes with didnt lock the door and someone saw him. and then he remembers who hes with, and hes terrified. what the hell did he do? he feels tears of shame well up because he knows hes a sinner in gods eyes and hes made the biggest mistake of his life, and oh fuck when he tried to get out from under the covers he woke dennis up. he isnt even half as shocked as mac is, hes calm. hes happy. hes never woke up so peacefully before, and hes grinning. he tries to tell mac good morning but hes rambling under his breath about how wrong this is and hes going to hell, and dennis takes that as a sign he shouldve taken his mothers advice. hes utterly crushed.

mac doesnt even apologize as he leaves, he slips on his boots and gets out as soon as he can despite the wavering tone in dennis’ protests and pleads to stay. he forgets his jacket during the rush. he leaves dennis confused and more scared of opening up than hes ever been, and he doesnt know how to deal with his feelings anymore. mac tries to forget everything. he never tells charlie. he doesnt ever want to look dennis in the eyes again. he never wants to feel that way again, because he went from feeling on top of the world to being ashamed and thinking he knows its wrong. he doesnt tell anyone.

[groundramon]

Homph I finished tri and I wrote down my thoughts as I was watching because I had too many funny shitposts and nobody to share them with bc charlie hasn’t watched tri yet

PS i wont be reblogging tri spoilers (besides MINOR stuff like, digivolutions of already confirmed digivolution lines or non-spoilery shitposts, but I’ll try to tag shitposts as #tri spoilers anyways [digivolutions specific to tri ill tag as well but not ones that were already basically confirmed]) for a while so ur safe here!  I’m just gonna like everything/most things because then I can rb em to hisyaryumon lmao (also u should check out hisyaryumon....its me n charlie’s digimon blog)

EP 1:

- ok. alright. ok. good. they’re dealing with kari’s emotions now instead of just. nothing.  ok. alright. cool.  Still dont like how obscure/”artsy” they’re being with it, this is digimon not kagerou project, but ok.

- Also. I stand by tk and kari being one of the few good straight ships in digimon.  just saying.

- kari: this is my fault... me: god damn it shut up you little brat also me: god relatable ALSO me: ill take whatever display of emotions i can get

- I love how nobody believes tai is dead like.  They’re upset and worried but they’re also like “nah. he cant be. that fucking asshole just left us in our time of need” (actually only matt is the last one)

- Gabumon i would die for you also im crying and I think that’s the first time tri managed to make me fucking CRY

EP 2:

- I had thoughts but then the 02 kids happened and I entered another plane of reality.  I don’t feel real right now

- the only one I can remember is evil!gennai being a dumbass and being like “SUFFER AND SQUIRM YOU PATHETIC HUMANS AS YOU FIGHT OVER THE LAST SEAT” 1. humans are KNOWN for their ability to care for others you dumb obvious fuck and 2. is. is the entire tube going? because that tube can fit too people if they squish.  This isn’t a joke I’m serious it can.

- oh yeah also when i saw whomstever the fuck his name is (adult guy who i love but fuck names) and he was all bloodied i was like “its a cold day in hell when i see blood in digimon” (I think there was blood in an earlier ep but shh idc)

EP 3:

- didn’t nishijima start off as a fucking life coach to these kids.  What the fuck he was supposed to help them find a career not emotionally scar them by bloodily dying in front of one of them

- im realizing that the reason hackmon was always in his cloak, in the shadows, standing still is that they cannot animate him in any normal position for the life of him.  I drew him with better anatomy when i was 14 and didn’t have a tablet.  No seriously, look:

I didn’t say it wasn’t bad, you guys are just underestimating how bad the anatomy on this poor creature is.  Why cant ppl draw dracomon or hackmon correctly imma cry

- ordinemon has the best reaction faces

the best part about these two screenshots is that they literally cut one to the other, first the first one to the second one and then it cuts back to the first one.  They were really proud of these stupid ass expressions.

- I started overcoming my dissociation shock from the second episode and my hypercritical mind was analyzing the shit out of everything that happened (it is Not happy) but then evil!gennai called kari and evil goddess and idk if he’s exaggerating to make her feel bad or if she’s literally a fucking god of chaos and destruction and either way im like

she did kinda like.  Watch wizardmon die, watch tai die, watch gatomon get absorbed.  The dark ocean is just a metaphor for depression and honestly if 02 wasn’t all over the fucking place I think Kari would’ve had some pretty decent development in it.  Actually you know what, I’m using that as an angle to approach Tri at now, wish me luck bc i might actually give it more leeway now

EP 4:

- I’m not dissociating but I forgot to say anything again and I already forgot what happened

- Cant believe mei is fucking dead

EP 5:

- I like to imagine that Tai got there like a few minutes ago, but he was like “well damn guess yall figured it out without me.  alright ill just. see if I need to do anything” and then meicoomon was Still Bad so he waited for when she struck just to make the most badass entrance possible.  Fucking extra ass bitch

- I forgot to write anything again but uhhh I wasn’t satisfied so anyways lets just get into the Juicy Details

Originally I was actually planning to be kinder to Tri than I expected.  Was very invested during it.  ‘Round the end of the last ep I realized hmmm no this isn’t working out.  Where are the 02 kids.  You should’ve brought them in to save the day.  That would’ve been SO cool and SO fun.  Fucking cowards.

god I’m kinda tired so I’m going to address a couple things I still had problems with, note that this isn’t everything it’s just everything I felt comfortable yelling about without rewatching past eps.  Like I forgot nishijima was all bloodied and presumably died in the last part until they brought it up and I was like “????” ALSO DID THE LADY WHO WAS HIS PARTNER OR W/E KILL HERSELF WITH THE GUN SHE FOUND, I JUST REALIZED LITERALLY AS I WAS TYPING THIS THAT SHE FOUND A GUN AND THEN I THINK IT CUT TO BLACK AND I’M

DID SHE FUCKING KILL HERSELF WHAT THE FUCK

anyways my problems:

1. They did joe. really dirty.  I’ll write a more proper rant on this sometime later (mostly bc charlie is MUCH better at talking about joe than I am) but basically I can tell you that his character development in the movies squandered his OG character development.  He’s basically an entirely different person.  Like Tri joe isn’t bad, besides being largely neglected (yes he has a whole half a movie to himself, no that doesn’t make up for it all), its just...not OG joe.  He’s a fine character just not the same character, and its NOT fine when you put the two together.

2. THEY DID THE 02 KIDS EVEN DIRTIER IM SO BITTER sorry you nostalgia-blind, money-hungry fucks at bandai, but the 02 cast is PART OF THE ADVENTURES UNIVERSE.  The only people who hate 02 are ones who like the characters but hate the mess of the storyline at the end, or are completely irrational and elitist about their love of the digimon series and would greatly re-evaluate their opinions if they watched the original series and 02 back to back.  They couldn’t even show them in some kind of group montage at the end??? Standing in the background when they call Mei???  Why couldn’t they call mei from a home phone also, but that’s a less important problem idc that much.  It was a cute scene besides the lack of 02 characters.  Whatever.  AND THE PROBLEM IS LIKE kari and tk?  This entire time???  Were like “oh they disappeared. oops” instead of being frantically searching for their lost friends???  Like i get tk and kari probably have fucking ptsd and can’t express any emotions because they watched important people die in front of their eyes at an incredibly young age but also 1. they didn’t address the ramifications of ptsd, so fuck that theory/excuse and 2. THAT??? WOULD ONLY MAKE THEM LOOK HARDER??? and put on a brave face as they look, but inside they’re so scared and so worried.  Not just “oh sweet, they were found/saved, theyre in the hospital but that’s fine” like WHAT theyre fucking assholes if that’s what they’d canonically do lmao.  God I am SO bitter over the ENTIRE thing with the 02 kids, it would’ve been BETTER if they were deleted from the fucking canon entirely.  Would I have still been bitter?  Yes.  But at least I wouldn’t be madder at TK and Kari too.

3. I stand 100% by the notion that Digimon is not and will never be cut out to be an adults’ franchise.  It wasn’t designed for adults, and it can’t be skewered towards adults.  These particular characters were designed for kids to relate to and find entertaining.  They do not work when placed into an adult setting.  Like, can you imagine a character like Ed from FMA going to the Digimon world?  I guess in a way that’s just Marcus but like.  Just imagine the FMA cast in Digimon Adventure.  It doesn’t work.  Digimon Tri is basically that except real.  Also Data Squad was darker than Adventure so my joke doesn’t even work.

I guess my primary point is that Tri isn’t mature enough of a setup for an adult audience.  It puts a focus on being “complex” and “philosophical” instead of working within Digimon’s constraints and making something good and adult out of that.  Like!  Digimon is a fucking TOY COMMERCIAL.  Don’t give me messages about the futility of human life.  I want bad puns and emotional characters.  That’s what Digimon has ALWAYS been, and ideally always will be.  Tri could’ve made itself more mature by dealing with the ramifications of the Digital World’s events, how it affected the kids psychologically and dealing with healing old scars.  It would’ve been a more mature take on a story we loved and would use things we loved about the story already - the fact that it took so much time exploring characters’ emotions and was surprisingly mature for the time - to make itself better.  You need to take the aspects that drew adults to the show and amplify them, not just slap on a complex story and unfunny dialogue and be like “oh this is fine, right?”

It’s not that Digimon can’t exist as an adult property, its just that if it repeats what Tri did, it’s got no merit and in my eyes the franchise is dead.  If it survives I guess I’ll be happy that people can still enjoy it but I find it unsustainable and unsatisfying to fans of the older series.  Tri is just a fuckfest of highly specific nostalgia that tries too hard to appeal to old fans without capturing what made the original series so magical, and in part thats because the original series WASN’T FOR ADULTS.  I don’t know about the Digimon Story games, bc they’re T-rated so perhaps they’re a better take on an adult Digimon story than Tri?  But you either need to make your own characters and lore specifically for an adult-oriented Digimon season, or perish.  Also, please make it a series and not a group of movies.  Getting four eps every 6-9 months was hell.

I stand by saying Appmon is a more faithful Digimon season than Tri to Digimon’s original spirit.  I believe it holds more potential for success than Tri and better embodies the spirit of the older Digimon seasons.  It’s dumb, its corny, it has horrible puns, but I LOVE it because it also has a deep dark story and emotional moments.  If you dislike Tri and you agree with things I said that make it unlikeable, I highly recommend giving Appmon a chance - if you watch a few episodes and think “oh yeah, I guess this is decent” you’re going to like it.  It’s everything Digimon has always been and hopefully always will be, just with a different concept.  And hopefully the end of the series doesn’t leave a sour taste in my mouth and I have to redact this statement haha since I’m not done with it yet, but I’ve heard good things about it so I’m hoping not so.

Overall, if you watch Tri, don’t get your hopes up.  It resolves everything okay-ish but it’s a pretty forgettable anime on its own and simply doesn’t work as part of the Digimon franchise.

I am, however, pretty interested in what evil!gennai said at the end about Diaboromon and Daemon.  It raises interesting questions about the timeline too.  We know Daemon is in the dark ocean, so perhaps that’s a hint at a future project?  (They did confirm a future project btw, in conjunction with tri being over)  But what about Diaboromon?  I dont believe that Our War Game (I think thats what its called?) took place after Tri, based on the outfits and ages and stuff, but I also don’t remember the movies that well.  Could Diaboromon still be out there too?  It’s interesting.

However, because of the lackluster performance of Tri, I don’t have my hopes up and I really hope that this “next project” goes in a different direction.  Although I guess if they include the 02 kids, I’ll be somewhat less salty...

Side note, did they ever explain why the gennais went evil?  Like ?  That’s a pretty important thing.  The gennais helped SAVE the human world in 02.  And I get that apparently Tri is ignoring 02′s ending but still.  It’s shitty, because Gennai was still a good guy in the original too (and also they cant just keep is younger look and act like 02 never happened)  MAYBE its something I missed but I dont think so.  God there’s just.  So much wrong with Tri.  I’m very displeased and very bitter and I wanna get back to Appmon asap.

It’s got good moments, its got bad moments, I dont know, I don’t care.  There’s nothing wrong with you if you like it, there’s nothing wrong with you if you don’t, and there’s nothing wrong with you if you flip flop and are split like me.  I just wish Tri fulfilled its potential instead of becoming a boring mess.

[missjackil]

My Season 10 Opinion

Of the post Kripke seasons, Season 10 is my least favorite. There was some good stuff, so i do still watch it, but even if I overlook my obvious issues with it, like dealing with Crowley’s mommy issues, which taught me storylines for side characters, apart from Sam and Dean, really suck, and Sam’s haircut was awful most of the time (though sometimes it looked good, which just makes me pissed they didnt just style it the good way and leave the Jackie Onasis style in the trashcan) There was a lot of sloppy story telling in this season.

The whole Mark of Cain arc was a clusterfuck. I knew the second Dean got the Mark in S9, that it would lead to him having to kill Sam at some point. I mean, that is what Cain is famous for. However,Biblically, it wasn’t given to Cain as a curse per se, but Cain killed Abel, and God exiled him from his home, and Cain was afraid others would kill him as soon as they saw him, and God gave him the Mark to protect him. However, on the show, Cain tells us a different reason. Cain told Dean that he didn’t kill Abel because God liked him more, but because he was talking to Lucifer, so Cain made a deal with Lucifer, Abel’s soul in Heaven, for Cain’s soul in Hell, but he had to be the one to kill Abel. This right here, could have been the foundation for a good storyline for Sam and Dean. We all like to see the boys bust their asses and sacrifice themselves to save each other, but the writers didnt go that way, and here are the problems:

For one thing, even after Cain tells Dean about how he got the MoC, Dean accepts the Mark with no question just “You had me at ‘kill Abaddon... lets dance!” Really though? If anyone knows that such things cause huge problems, it’s the Winchesters. Dean isn’t dumb, he wouldn’t normally just jump into it. 

With how much knowledge of Religion and Magic Lore, these 2 highly intelligent men have, and the amount of literature they were reading about the MoC, neither would have figured out that it would eventually cause Dean to kill Sam? Dean doesn’t know this until Cain tells him just before Dean kills him somehow. 

In the episode About a Boy, Dean gets zapped into his 14 yr old body and the MoC is gone. Why wasn’t The Darkness released then? Did Cain have The Mark back during this time? Death tells us in Brother’s Keeper, that the MoC cannot be removed lest The Darkness be released, sooooo where is it? 

For some reason, Sam isn’t willing to have Dean younger, to free him from the MoC. Okay, I joked along with many of you that Sam doesn’t like it because he can’t make out with a 14 year old (wink) but really, WHY? Dean still had his adult mind and could still hunt, and jeez it would even extend his life expectancy, so there’s not logical reason why Sam would want Dean to be safe, even if he had to deal with a younger body. 

Then we have Sam later, willing to do anything no matter the cost, to get the MoC off Dean, was he now regretting not letting him go back to being young? I know they couldn’t/wouldn’t have Dean stay young, for obvious reasons, but they could have had the Mark still on his arm when he was 14, or, later have Sam, vocally, regret that decision. 

When Dean sees that the MoC is making him more violent, he decides to try to live healthier. He tries to eat healthy foods, gives up drinking (which was looking like it was becoming a problem when he started sneaking his drinks, and shaking when he saw the liquor bottles at the bar) but he eventually, somewhat reluctantly, takes a shot at the bar, all intense looking like something bad is gonna happen, but nothing does really. He’s back to eating and drinking the same as always. 

Dean finds out from Cain that he will first kill Crowley, then Cas, then the big one will be killing Sam, and he wont ever recover from that. Now, not only does Dean never tell Sam, this, nor did Sam ever figure it out, but Dean never even tries to kill Crowley, he does try to kill Cas but backs off, so, why does he still have to kill Sam? 

Sam begs Charlie to help him translate the Book of the Damned without Dean knowing, She agrees, because she loves Dean, but then decides to leave on her own, behind everyones back, after Sam warned her she isnt safe out there, and gets herself killed. Sam gets blamed for her death. That he “bullied” her into getting herself killed. Does anyone writing know what bullying is? Well it’s definitely not asking a friend for help. And yet, we have Sam accepting this as something he did wrong. 

Sam tells Cas that he has to save Dean no matter what it takes. He gives this emotional speech about how its been him who has been out there alone and scared, and Dean saved him, and it’s become “his thing” but can someone tell me what he’s talking about? If he’s going back to S4 and the Demon blood thing, Dean didn’t save him, he locked him in a room alone to die. The Trials maybe? Ok, we can think at the end, in the church, Sam might have been scared and alone, and Dean saved him, but that’s enough to make it become “his thing”? I dont know folks... seems like a bad line to me. 

Since the MoC carried itself into S11 with Amara, Dean should have known Sam’s visions were coming from Lucifer, or Sam would have known, if Dean had ever told him Abel was talking to Lucifer and thats why Cain killed him. 

Not telling Sam about the MoC will cause Dean to kill him, isnt a problem, in and of itself, because its completely in character that the brothers hide important things from each other *side eyes the boys* but that it’s never actually made an issue. Dean never says “I can’t tell Sam this” nor does he ever debate if he should, and even to this day, Sam doesn’t know. 

Sam also never gets his own storyline throughout the season. It’s all about Dean and the MoC and Sam’s story is just basically how he handles it. Now, this season, the boys dont have theyr own storylines either, but thats alright, because they’re sharing storylines on the same side of it. In the case of S10, he whole first half is just Sam trying to Deal with Dean, and then later he has a lesser storyline of secretly trying to find a cure behind Dean’s back. In either case, it’s really just Dean’s story and theyre not really on the same side. 

Now, I dont think S10 sucks so much that it needs to be forgotten, and like I said, I still watch it (I do love Demon Dean) but I havent seen writing this sloppy any other time in the series. Well, except fot the last few episodes of S11.