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#deltarune#undertale#deltarune fanart#undertale fanart#utdr#crossover#crossover comic#comic#twin runes#twin runes comic#twin runes au#kris dreemurr#frisk#lesslo#my art#and we're also getting more hints to frisk's little secret#not long until the truth comes out I'd say#depends on how long they can keep in the guilt#but as we've established#this place is kinda made to amplify these feelings#kinda like it was made to teach someone a lesson#HMMMMMM#lesslo seems to know this place preeeetty well#don't tell me they kept him prisoner in there because he kept making everyone's life worse#yep#that's totally what happened#apparently he's immune to guilt though#cheeky bastard#I WAS PROMISED A MINOTAUR AND NOT SOME BITCHY CUPID
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Part four of old GF sketches
The twin thing, Stan and Ford edition
#fanart#gravity falls#stanley pines#stanford pines#i saw a lot of posts pushing the big/little sibling titles on these two when I was drawing this#i won't say it's irrelevant to their characters#(though it comes up way less with Dipper and Mabel)#but as someone with a twin and other siblings very close in age#I've only used 'big/little' instead of 'older/younger' as a joke#other families definitely care more than us#so my opinion is that Ford cares very much about being the 'older' sibling that sets the example and has a respectable title#and Stan has never thought about Ford in these terms in his life#being in their late fifties/sixties just makes it worse for him
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#a doodley#i had to make this blue so tumblr would stop hiding it from the dash#anyway no caption this happened 2 hrs ago#im happy abt my surgery but it and other things this year keep beinging conversations like these up#and i cant handle it at all.#everything my dad tells me just makes me feel worse and not bc its anything bad but bc I Feel Bad#like the conversation then continued to him being like no dont cry im just saying i wpuld have wanted to#quit my job decades ago and set aside money so I wouldnt be struggling as much now but that didnt happen#and i just dont want that to happen to you guys :)#so we have to support u so that your life is what u want it to be#and i cried even more bc what do u mean. thats so sad. ur a person and u were a child and baby once and ur gonna die#and you always almost cry when u talk about your mom who passed away decades ago#and your brothers that passed away#recently and im going to be your age and still sobbing bc i miss my dad. just like i have been prematurely crying about since i was 7#the other day my dad asked my mom if i cried a lot when i was a baby/kid and my mom said no and then my dad#said that when i Did cry it was so severe he thought i would ''drown in my own tears''#bc i could never stop. like. thats still true today. ive been crying on and off since then#i think i mentioned he's just been telling me stories about his life lately and it further fuels this. i get so sad. im sorry your life was#like this. i dont want to die i dont want you to die im sad im sorry im sorry#im scared. im never going to see you again. how horrible. how horrible#i cant enjoy my day today bc every day is a day closer and i get sad
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something people just don’t think about is how often chronically ill and disabled people just don’t have access to good food. not healthy food, good food; well made, tasty meals that don’t come from a jar or a freezer. how many of us are housebound or can’t drive? delivery services only offer within certain distances, if you live outside a city they aren’t an option. many people don’t have the energy or ability to cook for themselves if they have the skill to begin with. many certainly don’t have the ability to learn how. it’s something that goes completely unnoticed, just the opportunity to have a good meal and how much that wears you down
#all i want is chinese food#the closest one to me is 40 minutes away and its a /bad/ chinese place#its my worst option and its not even an option#‘fried rice is easy to make heres a recipe!’#i cant use a stove bc the heat will give me a seizure#even if i keep myself cool something that should take 15 minutes will take upwards of an hour bc i need to take breaks#even then ill probably be too nauseous to eat it after being active for so long#all of that for a bad cooks version of fried rice#more expensive and worse than a takeaway place#but i cant get it from a takeaway place#repeat ad nauseum for the rest of my life and is it any wonder im so sick of the same food ive eaten for 10 years#the only time i get takeaway is when my parents decide to go out and bring something home#can you imagine living like that for the rest of your life?#i dont have to#and its so dumb to want to cry over rice#but its not really about the rice is it#coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt#spoonie#chronic illness#disability#pots#postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome#ehlers danlos syndrome#fibromyalgia#chronic fatigue#chronically ill#mental illness#mental health
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Do you think elves felt when Númenor sank. When the world turned round. Do you think Elrond felt the moment when his brother's legacy was swept by the waves, and his blood punished for their craving to have more? Thousands years old heritage lost forever? Do you think
#elendil and the faithful surviving and getting to eriador had to be like therapy for him#more so when they got news from isildur and anárion in the south#just saying#if elves didn't feel it happening#elrond part-maia peredhel SHOULD have#rotating my blorbo in my head and making his life worse#tolkien#elrond#lord of the rings#lotr#silmarillion
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Okay but Gojo raised two children at 17/18 alone with like zero experience on how to be a good parent while he was training to become the strongest and shortly after loosing his best friend who had also been the one he had been in love with in one of the most horrendous and cruel ways possible all while keeping up an incredibly cheerful and carefree personality.
You can't tell me that this man wasn't emotionally, mentally and probably also physically exhausted during that time.
#Doing all of that is honestly so impressive#And doing so while being at a bad place in life/struggling with mental health makes it even more difficult to manage#I like to think that Nanami and Shoko kept checking on him frequently despite him saying that he was fine and didn't needed any help#He was just 17/18 at that time. He was so young.#Hc: When he had a moment for himself in the evening when the kids were already in bed he would just sit in bed and stare holes into the air#he would do so for nearly one hour unless one of the kids would call for him which happened rarely#shoving only tiny parts of headcanons which aren't bsd related into the posts which aren't bsd related so that I can still publish them#Listening to sad songs while my mental health is getting worse again really sets the mood for this one#satoru gojo#gojo satoru#gojo saturo#saturo gojo#megumi fushiguro#tsumiki fushiguro#fushiguro tsumiki#geto suguru#suguru geto#satoru x suguru#satosugu#jjk gojo#jjk spoilers#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#not bsd related
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I got. thoughts. about valens and voices in imperial roman history. but I also got a lot of thoughts about uhhhhhh choosing your brother for co ruling the Fratricide Foundation Story Empire. many thoughts about themistius' oration too
Brotherly Love, Themistius (trans. Peter Heather & David Moncur)
⭐ places I’m at! bsky / pixiv / pillowfort /cohost / cara.app / insta
#it's also the Incest-Cannibalism Empire but that's a discussion for a different blog#all of the heavy hitters were Incest Empires btw. that's a feature of Empire across all of time. not always Cannibalism tho. TRAGIC.#but rome specifically being the Fratricide&Stuprum Empire is funny AND makes parts of this speech feel. uh. UHHHHH.#feels like you're trying to overwrite history and while you succeeded ONCE the uncle-nephew antagonism with a body count#somehow feels worse????? feels worse. i dont like anything that happened to valentinian 2#anyway. as a result: i personally will be including the bigamy accusations against valentinian into my belief system#stuprum babyyyyy! a requirement for every emperor! valens is lacking here so valentinian has to pick up the slack#valens will be giving me an opening to fire shots at figures in christianity i dislike which is honestly better than scandalous sex#later roman empire tag#komiks tag#brother emperors tag#IF. you missed my brother emperors posting. the head in hands thing here is meant to be a little bit offputting on account of#valentinian being valens' imperial maker. that's a life in your hands. overtures of fratricide. etc. you get the point#whatever other subtext you want to apply to it from the subtext spice cabinet. im not picky. this was a quick comic i did#to shake off the depression cobwebs lmao. eventually i'll style guide this era and do comics with more intentional thought later
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There's a weirdly poignant sort of... metaphysical tragedy in the fact that pain, which evolved as a helpful signal to alert us when bad things might be happening to us, grew into becoming... well, basically the Bad Thing. To the point where by universal consensus the very worst thing you can do to a being like us is torture them (i.e. trigger the warning signal as strongly as possible while perhaps deliberately avoiding causing "actual" harm). And there are tons of illnesses and injuries and disabilities that massively impact people's quality of life, ranging from annoying to depressing to driving people to suicide, basically purely because they're very physically painful, while the underlying bodily dysfunction that the pain is supposedly "warning" of is either relatively minor or literally non-existent.
The capacity to feel pain is a good and important thing, some people lack it and that's generally awful for them, only in a universe unrecognizably different from ours could we ever do without it. But isn't it awful to think how if only there was somebody up there to adjust the settings for us, they'd probably only have to tweak them the tiniest bit to keep 99.99% of the benefits while saving us from all the most extreme miseries forever?
The mechanism didn't have to be perfect for natural selection's purposes, it had to be good enough that the average individual in the average situation would be motivated to stay more or less out of trouble. Measured by the metrics nature was working towards, she could afford to be a little slapdash with the exact implementation, and she was. In doing so she opened the door to infinities of evil and suffering that wouldn't otherwise be conceivable. All this only had one chance to happen, and it happened that way. There's nobody to be mad at--I'm mad about it, though.
#I should say for what it's worth#the pains I've had to deal with thus far in life fall into the annoying shading into slightly depressing category#and are intermittent in nature and don't bother me most days#although they have interfered with my ability to have a hobby more than once and make me concerned about other stuff sometimes#there are people I care about who have it much worse#this clarification is only to ensure nobody expends undue sympathy on me#uninteresting
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Sam at the beginning of S9 when Gadreel is giving him a false sense of everything being good and him feeling happy, before the exhaustion set it and all the missing time started to get to him. That Sam thinking, maybe the Trials worked even if I didn't close the gates of hell, maybe they really did purify me.
#would maybe make “maybe it's just me” in a Rock and a Hard Place even worse#if Sam thinks for a bit that maybe the demon blood has gone and there's STILL something wrong with him#maybe for a second having to look in the face the fact that the demon blood was a retrospective explanation#for the way he'd felt since childhood and not an explanation#but of course not getting to “its because I was othered my whole life”#and ending up at its something even more fundemental to my being than the blood#sam winchester#spn#s9#I'm not clean
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One day I’m gonna snap and start being so much more fucking annoying about my sexuality and being pan and gay at the same time until all the stupid 14 yr olds who I’ve been queer longer than they’ve been alive trying to tell me what definitions mean stop following me entirely.
#someone was fucking annoying on one of my posts. big surprise#for every person who tries to TELL ME I’m omnisexual im gonna add a new contradictory label#next time someone does this I’m gonna start identifying as a pansexual gay lesbian girlboy#I will make my gender worse and more incomprehensible and I will be more messily queer until the annoying people fuck off#i don’t have time for exclusionism I am an adult with a life..
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taco and mephone have fascinating parallels more people could explore if taco haters weren't biased cowards
#meeple.txt#inanimate insanity#ii taco#ii mephone4#dare i maintag this. watever#like taco haters r obsessed with the idea that taco is ruining herself worse and dragging everyone down with her#when shes literally just doing the challenge mephone created and even changes her intentions on hosting the challenge partway through#bc shes REALIZING how badly everyones been affected by the show just as she was#and she uses the attention she now has and urges them to leave and escape because she doesnt want anyone to end up like her#she believes shes past saving Yes#but thats exactly why shes trying to help the others avoid getting to the extent shes gone#meanwhile even when getting his wrongdoings slapped in his face mephone doubles down bc thats all he knows#thats all he feels safe with. he cant let himself trust and be vulnerable and its ruining his life and all his relationships along with him#it says SO MUCH about both mephones and tacos arcs that MEPAD. the one whos been inseparable to mephone from the Start#is seeing more hope of improvement in TACO than mephone#taco the infamous villain to everyone since s1. since before mepad was ever conscious#if anything mephone is the one ruining himself in denial and hurting others in the process#and im not saying that to vilify mephone either !!!! before you 0 nuance bitches come in#if it wasnt obvious from my entire page i LOVE mephone and i LOVE where theyre taking his character. make that man Worse ❤️#but i feel like so many ppl are just projecting mephones arc onto taco bc they dont wanna admit mephone has Issues
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ok hear me out on this fic idea i'm working on. so my own special little version of wade in my head is a massive empath in the sense that he not just knows about other alternate timelines and things behind the fourth wall but he actively feels the emotional and existential effects of them. i kinda mentioned this in one of my fics and already but imagine wade knowing what every other version of himself has been through, the good AND the bad. but he feels it all the same way because he doesn't have the good things in this universe but conversely he's also kinda been through all the bad things too. (in my head the things about him he knows unprompted but he has to voluntarily tap into everything else if he wants to.)
SO THEN imagine that because of this he also has the power to know what every single wolverine has been through. him not just empathising with logan but actually knowing and feeling all the shit he did and how he feels about it. like a person-A-can-feel-others'-emotions AU but dialed up to 11 because he also has to deal with his OWN shit from other universes
#user: gossippool 😝#me seeing a tragic character: how can i make their life worse#do you see my vision DO YOU SEE MY VISION#i know there have been some existential moments in the comics like in deadpool kills the marvel universe#or that one snippet at the end of vol 5#idk if they've explored this more in other comics bc i haven't GOT TO THEM but heehhee#ok. goodbye#deadpool & wolverine#deadpool and wolverine#poolverine#deadpool#wade wilson#wolverine#logan howlett
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this screen, this companion combination, with davrin having this shield equipped, cracks me up so hard every time I see it. davrin really is stepping up and keeping hard eye contact with rye like 'hey. hey loverboy. we need your attention elsewhere right now. eyes off the insufferable killer for hire abomination for five minutes please we're on the clock chop chop'
#I think towards the end of the game we could get to a place where davrin notices rye looking slightly pained and is like 'hey#everything alright man? you good?' and rye leaning his forehead against davrin's strong safe steady shoulder#to thinly admit 'he's so handsome I feel a little dizzy sometimes when I look at him'#(the mortifying ordeal of allowing yourself to be known. as the embarrassing simp that you are. rye has come so far I am so proud of him)#and davrin is like 'sincerely I have never been more sorry in my life to have asked' but also pats rye's back soothingly#because rye is like a very annoying brother to him and davrin SUPPOSES he can't help having abysmal taste in men#the delight that is my favourite boys squad. the disaster energy off the charts and only making each other worse#I always have lucanis on the right side of the screen when I get to choose companion order. and some of davrin's shields are very large#so this keeps happening and it's one of the best probably unintended things that makes my day brighter#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#davrin#lucanis dellamorte#oc: Ellaryen Ingellvar#rook x lucanis#rookanis
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I JUST FOUND OUT I CAN BIKE WITHOUT* PAIN!!!!! I JUST FOUND OUT I CAN BIKE WITHOUT PAIN!!!!!!! I NOW HAVE TWO PHYSICAL ACTIVITIES I CAN DO WITHOUT PAIN!!!!!!! I CAN BIKE WHEN IM NOT FIGURE SKATING!!!!!!! IM GENUINELY SOBBING RIGHT NOW THIS IS SUCH A MASSIVE THING FOR ME YOU DONT UNDERSTAND
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#My chronic pain has been getting so much worse lately#Dislcoations are also happening more often#And as someone who used to be insanely athletic I’ve been grieving so heavily for who I used to be and what I used to be capable of#I used to be able to run a marathon easily and now *walking* is painful#I use a cane most days now#My literal only freedom is while figure skating#And to discover there’s another thing I can do? I feel like I’m getting a piece of myself back even while my health is getting worse#This feels so euphoric#But knowing I be active by skating? It’s been my life line. And now I can bike!#And I just don’t know what to say#Also for clarification I can bike now but it’s still painful to a degree: Figure skating is not painful for me#But biking still has a level of pain but so far it’s not like ‘I’m completely unable to do this’ pain instead it’s like#‘Wow yeah this is painful but everything is and this is a pain I can manage to deal with because I’m being active and that makes me happy’#ykwim?#Oh and new symptoms of paralysis. I’ll make a post about that too. My luck is awesome /s#Chronic illness#Fibromyalgia#hEDS#Cane user#dynamic disability#Disabled#Chronic pain#Disability#Chronically ill
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scribbles based on my Another Wonderful Life file where i discovered Rock and Nami showing up together at Vesta’s farmhouse late at night on multiple occasions to cause various types of chaos and disturbance and havoc until Marlin and Vesta’s bedtime (which they both announce in unison to kick everyone out) this included
Rock levitating and attempting to rizz up vesta
Nami making a beeline for Celia’s room where she stands around making very subtle remarks (celia isn’t even in her room)
Marlin Enduring
haunting crime scene photos of the shenanigans:
#bokumono#my art#harvest moon#rock tumbling (sos)#hm anwl#harvest moon a wonderful life#hm awl#story of seasons#harvest moon another wonderful life#rock (awl)#cora clownposting content#nami (awl)#marlin (awl)#awl pony#sos awl#story of seasons a wonderful life#hmanwl#for some reason i’m very amused when people visit each other in awl#levitating rock reminded me of mystery of the druids somehow. hence lowryposing#marlin is halligan coded. to me#rock and marlin were both on the murders squad when they lived in the city and fought for dominance over the pair of scissors#(the scissors don’t belong to either of them)#marlin’s myriad health issues come from his diet of pitza and cigarettes and straight medical alcohol#also the last picture is inspired by a very suspicious line vesta says in response to seeing the milker#which somehow sounds worse in japanese because of the phrasing#instead of ‘planning to milk me?’ she’s like ‘are you trying to squeeze mine?’#anyway. rock would take her ‘i’d like to see you try!’ literally and then get killed i think#i’m sorry (not sorry enough)#after analyzing everyone’s dialogue very scientifically i once again feel that the girls anwl lines have 1000% more bittersweet yearning#(no bias in analysis at all) i can’t explain it their lines obviously were targeted at me to make me long for them
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and if i said suguru’s relationship with weakness (’the preciousness of the weak, the ugliness of the weak’) was born out of his feelings towards his mother …
#.#feeling abnormal feeling extremely abnormal#i think suguru fucking haaaaaates his father but his connection to his mother is just . so much more loaded#in that sense his mommy issues are far worse but his daddy issues are definitely more . apparent#he hates his dad he’d do anything anything anythingggg never to end up like him#but he resembles his mother in many ways (the hair. the eyes. the frail heart)#and because of that his hatred/love for Her in particular is just … one big can of worms#’you shouldn’t have given birth to me. you should have saved yourself. it’s your own fault that you’re stuck with him’#etcetc#he feels pity and guilt and hatred and biological love he’d be better off without#i think his mother was very very awful to him too#but even baby sugu knew the root cause was his father#hhhhh ….#i’m a little on the fence between . ’his home life was violently abusive’#and ’his parents were obsessed with appearing normal and perfect no matter the cost’#maybe both ?#like … idk if ever got physical. but i think just the psychological torture of living in that kind of household#left scars in his soul that he’ll never get rid of#in my mind sugu’s backstory is akin to nobara’s but make it straight up horror#anyway that’s all 🙏 sugu your parental issues have bewitched me#ari noises ✩#meta ✩
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