#and they asked for my discord which :))) yikes

[one-winged-dreams]

Person on my unused old WoW rp tumblr that tried to rp with me like twice and has never had a single meaningful conversation with me: Do you still want to be friends? You barely talk to me anymore :(

[dapper-lil-arts]

I'm invested now, why don't you like fluttercord?

Okay, here we go then, why don't I like one of the most famous and prolific ships on the fandom?

First of all, there's a major power imbalance at play, you know, chaos god that can reshape mind and reality with a snap of his fingers matched with a regular pegasus girl, and an drastic age difference (which could be discarded cause Fluttershy's an adult, just worth a mention.)

But the primary issue comes from the canon itself, especially with how they came together. Fluttershy was just shafted for her full responsibility to be to make sure Discord gets better; Something that already was a strange choice of Celestia (like girl why are you throwing a random mortal you dont know that well onto a godlike chaos being even you struggled with? It reeks of writers already having come up a solution and not wanting to build a foundation to lead there.) and canon proves again and again that if discord doesnt have fluttershy around, he will make bad choices and hurt people, something that gets proven again and again all the way to gen fucking five. That's textbook codependency and it makes it even more weird by the incredible, terrifying power imbalance. Discord isnt just an alicorn, hes the only one of his kind because of how powerful he is, and his powers are insanely dangerous to have on a relationship with a mortal. Like, you saw how he was when he was jealous of Fluttershy for having a diffrent friend. Can you imagine what he'd do if somebody flirted with her? (even if they weren't dating, if Fluttershy said she got a girlfriend or whatever, Discord would straight up throw rainbow dash on a labyrinth of infinite agony)

I think my primary issues come from the canon because he is always abusing his powers, never using them wisely, and always causing trouble (WHICH WAS THE ORIGINAL POINT OF EVEN BRINGING HIM BACK TOO)-- And the ratio of slaps on the wrist lower dramatically by the end (the final conflict is entirely his fault purely because he thought having a conflict would be cool)-- All of which just makes him untrustworthy to be on a relationship with a mortal hes obssesed with. He'd be like a yandere boyfriend exept a chaos god, which, yikes!

Srsly the fact that cozy glow the toddler gets sent to hell and turned to stone instead of the chaos god that sponsored her is just plain WEIRD. It's a writers problem.

There's a reasons why Alicorns have to ascend, earn their power-- And why they tend to abuse it less. Being born with power just begets a diffrent attitude towards it; Which is smth that the writers do interpret quite well, with how Discord acts. he has no empathy, he doesnt need to care, because reality is his to shape, and then boom, teaching someone to be better just became a lot harder. Good character! Very funny, very well designed and voiced-- But goddamn he's weirdly written as a ""Good"" guy.

Now lets finally turn to the woman in the relationship. because Fluttershy is a normal mortal gal with a normal mortal life with her own needs, which generally shouldn't have to involve her entire life or routine on making sure a godlike manbaby does the right thing with his powers. it doesn't feel like the kind of thing that has any consent to it, after all, discord doesnt need to ask for anything, he can just do. (THANKS FOR THE IDEA CELESTIA) It just reeks of a kind of misoginy-ass writing where the woman has to bend over backwards for the man.

Its like the shy pegasus was just. Set up for LIFE on this strange relationship. Its kind of creepy.

And Fluttershy just deserves better than him in my opinion; And she can do better, too. Also it doesnt help that you know-- 99% other ship with fluttershy dont have any of these issues lmao. Even canon Rainbow Dash would treat her better, so i dont bother with Fluttercord ever!

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

AITA for going no-contact without warning in perhaps the pettiest way i could?

Context: I(20m) had a falling out with my friend (18m) about 2 years ago. We were in this discord server with our friends, and I woke up one morning to find it gone. I asked him, and he dm'd me and began with "I just wanna say, I mean this respectfully;" followed by THE LONGEST RANT about a bunch of things I did (including not giving feedback on other people's art, dominating the conversation, and being "hard to corral into one topic" which i still don't fully get). He said "everyone else in the server feels the same, you make people really uncomfortable." I asked who had what gripes, so I could apologize, but he said nobody really wanted to hear it and this was a mutual decision. I respected that, cried for a day or two, moved on.

Enter a few months ago. I up-heaved my entire online presence, recreating my friend group from the ground up with people who were more up to my style of interaction, and got better with boundaries. We open a roleplay server for a fandom my old friend liked, and it'd been a few years, so I decided to hit him up, invite him and try to mend some things. I was different after all.

Shit hits the fan, let me keep it brief- a different friend (it/its) makes a comment about eating something that's gonna make it sick later, because it has IBS but it's fuckin hungy and wants pepper poppers. The old friend dms it and says "hey, you shouldn't talk about self harm in this channel, it's gonna make people uncomfortable!!!" Which. first of all, yikes, but secondly, nobody else seemed uncomfortable. I was in a vc with my friends which is where it told me about the dms, and everyone else agreed that yeah, he seemed to be overreacting a little. But I started piecing shit together.

Even though I never talked to most of the people from the old server ever again, none of them reached out to me either. Not even to ask for an apology or where I'd gone. I was just kind of relying on what my friend said to be true. I asked someone from that server, and they said that besides a few gripes mentioned here and there, nobody seemed that uncomfortable with me. In fact, many of them- whom i hadn't spoken to in two years- asked where i went.

I got pissed, and probably could have handled it better, but I didn't wanna see his face anymore. So I removed him from the server, and when he asked me why, all I said was: "I just wanna say, I mean this respectfully;" and blocked him. Part of me still thinks about it. I felt like a hypocrite, and wanted to explain what I'd found out and ask him about it instead of jumping to conclusions, but the deed was done and I figured I'd feel better if I ignored it. I do feel a little better, but I just wanna know if I was the asshole.

What are these acronyms?

[alacants]

tennisblr exchange/fest: follow-up poll and questions

thanks to everyone who showed enthusiasm for a potential tennisblr fic/art/fanworks event!!

about 75% of respondents who expressed interest in participating indicated that it would depend on timing and format, so here are some questions about timing and format.

important note: if you too are mainly on tumblr, you should know that there is ALSO a fic exchange happening via the tennis rpf discord!

my Vision was for a multimedia event—currently thinking fic, art, and edits/fanvids tho see below on that—so planning to move forward in some form but when/how is up in the air. open questions about format below the cut—namely, exchange vs fest. thoughts welcome in replies or via dm/ask if you prefer!

i was initially envisioning a classic secret gift exchange via the ao3 platform. (you are matched with a recipient -> you create a gift for them -> you post your gift to the anon exchange collection on ao3 -> the exchange collection goes live -> creator names are revealed.) a few cons here: everyone has to get an ao3 account, ao3 isn't the ideal platform for graphics and video. also depending on how unique your artistic style is, posting anon might be sort of besides the point. lmao.

having said that, the one major advantage ao3 has is great admin tools—particularly, mods/admins can see who has finished and posted their gift. this is important because the worst-case scenario for a gift exchange is that someone ghosts their recipient, and if it's up to each participant to post their work to their own tumblr, this becomes exponentially more likely. no matter how many check-ins there are.

so if it's an exchange ao3 is the way to go. however the other option is NOT an exchange but an open prompt fest, which could also be fun!! i'm personally fond of the exchange format (when you're creating for someone i think you're a little more motivated to think about people/ships/ideas that might not have otherwise occured to you) but maybe we don't need two??? an open fest would also allow for more people to participate on the fly, as irl allows, and potentially for people to create a wider variety of work like moodboards, playlists, etc.

eta: what i mean by open prompt fest: everyone submits prompts (as general or specific as you want, e.g. "anything focused on zhang zhizhen", "sincaraz uni au", "naomi osaka edit to number one fan") -> the mod/admin blog posts all the prompts anonymously -> you create based on whatever prompts inspire you -> you post during the posting period!

this is possibly too deep in the weeds for most people to care lol but if you have thoughts i'd be happy to hear them!

(and yes once timing format etc is decided on there will be a dedicated blog... just waiting to roll that out until further decisions are made. @oof-ouch-yikes-stripes is going to help out with admin and ideally we'll get one more person on board!!)

[mcrinmyhead]

INTRODUCTION

Hiya, my name's Dee or you can call me Dead! instead, cuz that's what my name is in Tumblr. I'm sixteen. I'm an Indian, racists better fck off. I like to draw, sing and write songs and poems. I mainly post my art here and I have two side blogs too, which are @mcrinmyheart (idk what I post there :D) and @shesacomplicatedpoet where... Er, you know it. And when I say "art" I usually draw My Chem, Fall Out Boy, Linkin Park, Bring Me The Horizon and a few other bands, but you can always leave a picture in the "Ask me?" box if you really want me to draw something that you like :). Just make sure it isn't something s!utty, cuz my parents like seeing my sketchbook sometimes, haha.

About me...

Name: Dead! / Dee

Age: 16

Pronouns: she/her

Likes: listening to music, art, singing, music bands, food, sleeping (I'm a very eepy person), travelling, reading, etc.

What kind of art do I do? Fanarts mainly.

Dislikes: peanuts (yea I don't like 'em, so if you know me irl and try to feed me peanuts, I'm gonna fcking stab you, you little shit), pedos, homophobic fcks, MSI apologists, basic DNIs, etc.

Am I single? Yes, and that's because I don't want to date anyone. Nvm, I'm taken :]

Music bands/artists I like:

+ twenty one pilots, p!atd, Bring Me The Horizon, Glass Animals, Bad Omens, Sleep Token, etc. I also liked The 1975, The Nbhd, Joji, Driver The Era, Arctic Monkeys and Chase Atlantic before, so I really don't mind if you wanna talk about them too. I'm basically a music addict who has listened to a whole lotta music genres throughout my life. But I'm currently into rock music rn. Yeah, I can't stop talking about music if I start.

My favourites:

Books: Agatha Christie's books, Heartstopper, Five Feet Apart, The Fault in our Stars, Crime/Horror/Mystery books (there are many but I can't remember them), etc.

Movies: anything horror, mystery, crime, sci-fi, Marvel, DC, Star Wars, from the 2000s and 90s, etc. (How do people actually choose a favourite movie??)

Shows: Loki, Heartstopper, Young Royals, Marvel shows, etc. (I literally like all the shows I watch)

Albums: My top 10 rn (June 2024) are like- Three cheers for sweet revenge (my chem), POST HUMAN: NexGen (BMTH), XO (LeATHERMØUTH), The Black Parade (my chem), I brought you my bullets, you brought me your love (my chem), Clancy (Tøp), A Thousand Suns (Linkin Park), Danger Days (my chem), Folie a Deux (FOB), and Pretty. Odd. (P!ATD).

Colours: (Bury me in) Black, Blood Red and Lavender.

Where else can you find me?

At home, in my room 95% of the time. Nah, just kidding.

Links:

Pinterest

Spotify

Discord: mcrinmyhead

Tags I use:

My art: #art

Asks: #asks #asks <3

Scroll down for more facts about me...

Or don't. I really don't care.

Fun facts about me ^^:

I'm a really joyful, chaotic, kind, funny and a sweet person! :D (according to my frens)

Until and unless you get me on my nerves. Trust me, That's when I go insane.

If you know me irl, hi... Uh, I know I don't talk much in person but I'm sorry. That's just who I am. But if you want to be my friend, you can start by texting me lol.

I'm a music addict who likes to annoy people by talking about music bands 24/7.

I have an unhealthy obsession over My Chem.

I'm a huge nerd (according to every person in my class) and I like Math and Science (but I don't really talk about it unless you are someone who is into math and science as much as me).

I'm also a sarcastic and sassy person. So if my words ever offend you, I'm so sorry bbg. Deal with it.

I'm a vampire (I have fangs and I will bite you to suck that blood your body holds, RAHHH).

Other than drawing and singing, my hobbies are fangirling, sleeping, reading books, travelling and sometimes even cooking.

I might be surrounded by many people who I call my "friends," but in the end it's just four people who are actually my friends.

I'm mostly an introvert, but I'm an extrovert when I'm with my friend.

I suck at socializing btw.

Yikes, this list is still going on!

But I like to annoy people at the same time.

Wait, does Tumblr have a word limit on a post?

SHALL I TRY REACHING THE WORD LIMIT???

Ah, yeah, I forgot to mention this but I'm a really curious person. I like trying out or experimenting on stuff. It's fun, okay?

I can be smart and an idiot at the same time B)

I write poems but I don't like showing them to others cuz I feel like they're stupid. Any tips on poetry from the poets of Tumblr?

I love cats. Cats or get tf out.

Am I annoying rn?

Idk.

This was fun.

Alright, that's enough fckery for today. Farewell my little kittens <333

So long and good night!

[chimerahyperfix]

RECIPE OF THE DAY

[OR: This was the most upsetting alternate looper option]

Long post because i have been cooking this in my brain for like, two months, and it's all-consuming. Also I'm not in the Discord yet because Anxiety so my ramblings had to go somewhere, and what better than one big fucking post yknow. I cast spell of fuck you mind blast on the tag/lh /j

TLDR for below: Siffrin words his wish differently, Bonnie gets trapped in a time-loop, and despite saying they're in a timeloop repeatedly nothing works and no one can help them. The normal ISAT absolute horrors ensue.

CONTENT WARNINGS: the normal ISAT tags [death, violence and trauma, suicide, self harm and unreality], Notable Pin on child endangerment and death, poisoning.

most of these get discussed ^ even if shortly

SO. THIS AU.

This is it this is my big one. Ignore me pushing the literal 12 other isat aus I have into a pile pls this is THE big one. I’m looking at the note I’ve stored all this lore in on my notes app,and it’s like. 35 fucking pages?

I've looked at a ton of alternate looper aus [that's part of the hyperfixation babeyyyy I need to consume ALL content forever and ever and ever] and I was like “oohhhh I wanna do that!!” So I literally just listened to music until I caught an idea and yikes. Looking at the AUs playlist now [it’s about 100 songs! Oops!] and I’m like [cartoony image of me laying face first on the floor]

This is a bit scattered because I wrote it over 3 days instead of working on the fic I’m supposed to be writing ooopsieeeee. Ramblings belowvvvvvvvvvv

It begins as simply as the game does. No one knows how to wish properly; so Siffrin wishes, because they know how to. The same folded leaf, repeated three times wish. Close to what is said in canon; different enough for the Universe to read it differently. No longer does Siffrin loop, because the wish isn’t about him, it’s about Bonnie and their sister. Siffrin’s wish is construed as “I wish Bonnie’s wish would come true,” and even if the Universe can’t hold onto Bonnie’s wish as they did it wrong, it CAN hold onto Siffrin’s.

And that’s the base point: EVERY LOOP, Siffrin wishes, because he wishes after he talks to them and that's where they loop back to, and its wish craft goes to Bonnie. A recipe for disaster with how much time they have!

They loop back when Siffrin gets crushed by the rock, because they can’t win while being down a party member. When they touch a tear, or when the sadnesses get the jump on the party and they all go down, or when they use the dagger equivalent [a poisoned snack], or when they get to the King. They Never Beat The King. Think SASASAaP but ISAT.

Bonnie doesn’t fight with craft, but rather craft-infused weapons. The wok and their pan for rock, a pair of kitchen shears for scissors and a cookbook for paper. Snacks for healing and buffs. And they have a cool friend that lives in the favor tree! [they get in fistfights like every five loops. Maybe it would be funny, someone just as willing to spar with them instead of trying to find the right words they can’t find because they’re a kid, if their friend wasn’t ALSO another version of themself, which bonnie clocks pretty late.] They pick up little quirks from their friends, like biting their nails like Belle, and puffing up to look bigger like Isa and stealing Dile's curses and closing an eye to match Frin's in focus. And maybe they start forgetting a little bit, just a little! The same thing over and over will get to you.

So everything essentially boils down to this. Bonnie specifically needs to be strong enough to beat the King, as the rest of the party doesn’t keep experience through loops. For a good chunk of the loops, they take advantage of Siffrin asking them if they need help and drag him into a training lesson that slowly goes from a whole emotional conversation to them quietly listening to Siffrin’s every word. [Siffrin fills this silence with random star facts that pop into their mind. This Is Important It WILL Be On The Test] Eventually the training becomes too tedious, so they start sneaking off to go fight sadnesses— and eventually just punch trees, which busts their knuckles— to get stronger faster! Everything goes downhill from there, with them forgetting to make food to them sneaking out at night to fight more to them getting reckless and uncaring; it snowballs down into “oh this could be considered suicidal confidence”.

Every loop, you say "hey, I'm trapped in a time loop", and EVERY time it is a big emotional thing that exhausts you to the point of going to bed immediately after, and everyone gets antsy and worried, and in the end the anxiety and trouble NEVER ends up mattering because the King still flattens the party every time. [And (shuffling through the sea of my notes for the au), imagine this from their situation for a second; Today, you tell your friends you are trapped in a time loop. They drag you into a long, uncomfortable conversation that makes you cry, and you go to bed with a full stomach and the knowledge they will protect you, and you will protect them. You make sure he doesn't get squashed by a boulder, you make sure they find the key, you make sure they don't die. Tomorrow, you will tell your friends you are trapped in a time loop. They will drag you into a long, uncomfortable conversation that will make you cry, and you will go to bed with a full stomach and the knowledge they've failed to protect you, but they're trying this loop, and you'll still protect them anyway.]

And then the King fight. He grabs them and he kills them and it fucks them up. [it fucks them up, until it too happens again and again, and eventually it simply is just another obstacle you must pass, because the second his stupid hand wraps around you like a ragdoll it’s over, so you just spit in his face to make him press the trigger immediately and not drag it out for forever- imagine the most traumatic event in your entire life, repeated over and over, until it looses all meaning. It’s still traumatic, it’s sewn into your brain forever you will never forget this.]

They tell the party ‘hey, I just got murdered’, and if this au was ISAT, it would go from having a memory that gave everyone a defense buff to a memory that literally stops you from winning, randomly attaching to a party member. You couldn’t get rid of it. They’d take every hit for you, and you’d have to loop back, because you couldn’t win with an unremovable memory like that. and that’s why they stop saying things, because if the people you loved would die to protect you, something you don’t want and have the ability to stop, would you stop them?

And so everything collapses, and from that point [the start of act 4] it collapses fast.

WHICH LEADS US TO ENDLESS MY FAVORITE LITTLE THANG

if this is transparent or not I don’t fucking know and honestly. After 2 hours of fighting ibisPaint X to make it transparent I stopped caring. o7

Slight design notes tangent: the fucking. Wispy things around their limbs just kinda move around them- yknow because black holes pull things in and they are one. Their like,,,, face spike design??? Question mark on what 2 call it? It’s designed to look like their hair lol. The little star-dot things on their knuckles are important smile. Eventually I’ll post a full thing 4 them (I have like 2 pages of random doodles of them it’s craaazy)

Endless (or Ness, later on) is Bonnie’s loop-alike. They’re a little angry hater and I based them on the song Black Hole Sun [therefore they double-dip in the space theming, the little scoundrel! Imagine being both a black hole and a partial eclipse!! Damn why you taking all the space theming for!!] which was the song the whole AU was based on! Woah! Damn you carrying ALL the out of AU lore in you! They’re anger over fear while Bonnie is fear over anger.

They make me SO fucking upset. Like. I’m not being funny anymore. This is THE most upsetting character I’ve ever written. They make me cry. My entire schtik is making horror and this little creature is the most upset I've ever been at a creation of mine.

Endless is a Bonnie who, without exaggerating, literally imploded from having too much wish craft in them— hence the black hole theme. They went through an unreasonable amount of loops [i think I noted down 400??? Probably not that many, but hey, leveling is slow when half the time you rely on a scripted event that has like 3 enemies. Never really pinned anything down, but it’s a CRAZY upsetting amount.] and just couldn’t win,, and they eventually broke, and begged for it to stop— and, well, with so much wish craft in them, even without the proper rituals the Universe just couldn’t ignore ALL this wish craft, overflowing, in one spot. They asked for help and it killed them.

And then they were at the tree! And they’re helping a DIFFERENT Bonnie, who they’re upset at because what. What why is this happening? They asked for it to stop, not for a whole NEW Bonnie to exist and to do it all over again, what is this what, stop stop it. And they have to keep watching Siffrin wish, and doom them to their endless loop, and they have to tell Bonnie no, the party can’t help them like they want the party to do because the party never could help them, and it’s just going to bring them distress and heartache. Bonnie does it anyways, until the very beginning of act 4: it goes downhill from there, until they’re worried This Bonnie will end up like THEM.

They’re not the most self-confident type. They give themself the most un-nicknameable name [Bonnie still finds one that fits— Ness. They reluctantly accept it.] [Endless vc: Ness? Like? From Earthbound???] they can think of because nicknames are a love language and they speak it, and they don't think they deserve it anymore because they've Changed, and trade out the nicknames they have for the party for things they learned from Siffrin in their own many many training loops: The Sun, The Moon, The Star, The Sky, and Bonnie is Supernova, because its cool as hell and Siffrin told them that’s what happens when a star dies, and they died. Open foreshadowing. They take to closing the same eye they made Siffrin the Star loose, because if he doesn’t get to see anymore neither should they— even if that eventually becomes a natural thing, something they do now to focus. They talk about a sister they have— had, because their world is gone and she never got unfrozen, they never learned if she was alive under all that icy craft or not, and they’re not Bonnie anymore. Ness is Bonnie, but Bonnie is not Ness.

And so, when act 5 hits, they’re desperate. They can’t see it happen again, because it erased them as a person and it was terrifying enough why would you want to see it happen again? they prepare to storm the house, bevause theyre strong enough to tear it apart themself, get stopped by the party, and essentially they’ve replaced Bonnie for a loop; which would be okay, if failing didn’t mean there would probably be Two Endlesses and No Bonnie’s. By the end of the au, Bonnie, lvl 99, is like bringing a brick to a stare down. Endless, in comparison, is like bringing a bazooka to a fistfight. They can’t face the King, they can’t, it would probably mess something up [the party has them pinned as being a kid by this point— wether they realise Ness acts a lot like Bonnie or not, who knows] so they panic and wave the party off into the King’s room and fights off the remaining sadnesses to calm down.

And the Party brings Bonnie down, and they fight a fake version of their sister [who they win against, even if barely, because Nille is their sister and damnit, Nille would never hurt them, not after giving up her life for them] and they have a breakdown, and then there's two of them. There's Bonnie and there's Ness. Bonnie confronts them and they get in ANOTHER fistfight, bveause how else would two angry ultra-powerful preteens settle things, and Bonnie convinces them to come along, because their identity has been found out and damnit Nille really won't care, Ness is her sibling too.

[Nille approaches the situation carefully, but Bonnie is right: Nille sees the two of them and immediately decides she has two siblings and she wants to protect them. Both of them went through so, so much, and they saved the country and damnit it would be monstrous to throw Ness out to the wolves because they Changed. Aka I was physically incapable of letting Ness dissapear or have a bad ending they deserve the world too.]

I just I jsutt. Auguhghghghhh. au too big in my brain spill it out on the floor it goes everywhere. When you hyperfix on your own au

[docholligay]

"Yikes" is in fact the reaction I feel i am about to have to everything that is coming around here. Didn't they just give you food poisoning? Why are you so eager to eat with them again? Given that the detective is now addressing him with immense respect I have a feeling I am about to roll my eyes and hurl.

Once again endlessly hopeful, given that automatuck reassured me about these episodes, that this is not just, the rest of the show. (WHICH MEANS NO ONE ELSE NEEDS TO THANK YOU PLEASE DON'T SPOIL ME IN ANY WAY)

Please read me before commenting or sending an ask! (i respect your right to be contrarian but bear in mind you’ve probably seen this anime 87 times and I am watching it virgin-style. There’s a link to the discord on the advisory)

[peterstamatin]

for those who still follow me despite my pathologic inactivity and are interested in IPL's new game Franz, let me save you the time and say that it is not good

havent even played it myself and just from what i see other people discussing in the IPL discord, its a game with tons of AI generated images, its badly designed, and and could be very well read as a story of grooming and abuse.

it also asks for a review and a donation before the game even properly starts, since its free to download lol

it involves getting constant notifications and even opening your camera, and has some anxiety and paranoia inducing things in it. this is less of a dig at the game but more something that can be uncomfortable to a lot of people and feels cheap unlike other IPL games which are scarier for their atmosphere and stress rather than cheap jumpscares. its about 10 hours with a lot of downtime.

i might still download it out of curiosity to report my actual opinion but this is a yikes from me. IPL losing more and more faith in my eyes

[trickstertriangle]

oh we're bringing back billza? thought that was dead media, what happened there? wasnt there some sort of dinner party? idk who all was involved what exactly happened with that, was it finished orrr...

Oooookay yeah hi. mod here. there's only one mod. me. hi.

Cutting TT off here. He has no awareness of my existence and it's STAYING that way.

Soooooo the Bill'za thing. From what I understand, it was meant to be an ARG. Run by the mod of bill's library with a bit of help from somebody else. there was a discord server where everybody else involved was, and I was invited myself when it started. Didn't feel comfortable there- people making weird jokes without punishment, you know how it goes- but I still wanted to take part.

Eventually there were server-exclusive codes and a channel made in that server meant for solving the ARG when nobody knew who was responsible, but eventually the person responsible was unveiled and the server's owner just stopped caring and deleted one of the codes without making any effort to preserve it. And it turned out it wasn't saved elsewhere. And it was a code required for solving every code after. Yikes.

So anyways that server's owner said that the thing was deleted because it was made without permission, but when asked why they didn't get a screenshot first (a simple "forgot" would have been fine) they decided to completely delete the channel in which all other server exclusive codes were stored and preserved as well. Which is irritating. Obviously. So anyways I no longer had any reason to return to that server at that point. I won't be going back, either.

So, not only was it never finished, it's impossible to finish it now without a force cracker or something. And I don't HAVE a force cracker. Sooo, the character? Bill'za still exists. Could theoretically be used anytime I think. But the ARG? Dead. Murdered.

-Mod

[bugmomwrites]

So there was some drama cd somewhere where Kurapika got absolutely shitfaced and tried to teach an English class

This is…horribly unrefined. I typically beta my other stuff and edit for days, sometimes weeks, but new year new me I’m just posting my incoherent discord ramblings and casting them into the void

I’ll revise and add a read more in the morning but it’s like 3am here

Anyway here’s some drunken Kurapika, in which he loves you a lot but is too damn nervous to say anything

TW for puking, drinking, generally poor life decisions

There was some fancy ass party at the Nostrade mansion and y’all were invited. It was a black tie event, and Kurapika, while not technically on duty, was still expected to be on his best behavior

He’s normally so composed but by the time you arrive you see Melody encouraging him to talk to you, he seems to glance over to you, flush bright red, and toss back the rest of the champagne.

Why does he seem so nervous as he approaches you? He’s stumbling a little bit, but you don’t seem to notice, or you’re too polite to say anything.

At some point Leorio brings you a drink and asks you to dance; you initially wanted to ask the blonde but he looked like he was deep in thought about something, so you didn’t want to bother him.

A few songs in and Kurapika is downing another full glass as Melody warms him to slow down before he’s marching over to you and just straight up tells his friend that he’s gonna borrow his partner for a few songs

Jealous mf just needed some liquid courage

Anyway

You guys catch up and he seems to be a bit more openly expressive. You’re not really in any place to call him on it though, a few glasses in and you’re both firing jokes back and forth like a game of ping pong.

He’s not bad at ballroom dancing even if he is a bit tipsy, but you accepting after he swooped in on Leorio kinda set into motion “alright, I HAVE to confess tonight” bc if other people are noticing someone as lovely as you, he needs to hurry it along. Months of pining is nothing without action.

You’re both drunk and giggling as you twirl around, and you’re thoroughly enjoying this side of Kurapika. You don’t even notice you’ve moved off of the dance floor and off to the side a bit, but it feels more intimate away from the large crowd so you can’t say you really mind too much. Even as you almost go tumbling when he tries to spin and dip you the shared laughter is contagious, and now is the perfect time to confess.

The setting is perfect, you’re both smiling and laughing, you look gorgeous in your dress, and he put on his best suit for this- Leorio even lent him one of his favorite ties for the night. There’s something magical about the way the chandelier lights glow upon you, not that you didn’t already.

The time is now. He’s had enough booze to push his inhibitions aside for a brief window of time, and he wasn’t going to let it slip away. He’s leaning in closer, squeezing your hand gently as he opens his mouth-

And then promptly throws up

Yikes

Bro has never been so mortified in his life, and when his brain finally catches up to him he’s frantically apologizing and hoping that no one saw that

If you’re disgusted (as you should be), you don’t seem to show it on the outside, opting to wordlessly guide him to the washroom instead. He’s not sure if he feels better or worse that you’re not scolding him, but all you’re thinking is you need to get his drunk self out of sight before his boss sees

Thankfully, Melody notices and is quick to distract the few people nearby before they can notice the spectacle

The door is pushed open and you two make your way over to the sink as your face gradually shifts to one of concern. You’re bundling up paper towels and running them under water before turning to wipe his blazer off.

“I’ll be fine. I can clean myself up. Your boss is here, I don’t want you to get in trouble.” Even if you’ve already had a couple drinks and aren’t as sober as you should have been, you pull yourself together enough to put his needs first. Perhaps that’s one of the reasons he fell in love with you. There were plenty of others, sure, but this had to at least be in his top ten.

His blazer was cleaned and with that you went to wipe your own clothes off. He certainly did a number on you, but you wanted to make sure you got his first seeing as how his boss was nearby.

As much as he wanted to fess up, talking clearly hadn’t done him a whole lot of good tonight. Perhaps the alcohol was clouding his judgement, but his booze addled brain urged him to take direct action instead.

You were finishing wiping the rest of the mess off your skirt when you suddenly found yourself caged between the sink and a familiar pair of arms you had just been held in not even half an hour ago.

“Can I help you?" You giggled nervously at the proximity and determination on his bright red face, but it tapered off soon after his eyes shifted to a matching hue. You had already taken your heels off and set them aside to make them easier to clean, so if you didn't already feel small enough under his gaze as you were halfway up from your crouch, you certainly did now.

He simply reached behind you, grabbing some more paper towels to run under the water and wiping the missed spots on the front of your dress off for you. He had to make a conscious effort not to let his hands linger too far up on the bodice. The lacy neckline, while classy, still sent his mind into the gutter as thoughts of him marking you up filled his brain. Drunk or not, there was no way he’d get lumped in with a pervert like Leorio.

He was looming over you like a hawk, and you nearly short circuited as he went to lean in. Common sense rushed over you just in the nick of time though, the smell of booze on his breath too potent to ignore, and you quickly put a finger up between you before he could close the gap.

“I think you’re lovely, and I would be more than happy to kiss you later. But keep in mind you did down about six shots before throwing up on both of us. Alrighty?”, and with that, you ruffled his hair as you pecked his forehead. He groaned in embarrassment, burying his head into your shoulder.

“ Please don’t remind me…”

Gn guys if you enjoyed this pls reblog and help a bitch share her content

[pastryinvasion]

Art Commissions Open!

Hello everyone! While not entirely new to Tumblr, it is my first time posting! And thus I want to introduce myself, why I’m here, and why you should commission me.

My name is Ryker, aka Ryk, and I am beginner digital artist! I only jumped back into to doing art around 2021, and as I see it, I have a lot room to grow: which is exactly what I plan to do!

So, if I haven’t been on Tumblr, where have I been? I started off posting my work in discord servers. Mostly small open/closed species server that I was comfortable sharing my stuff in, until I was confident enough to share it elsewhere as well. From there I joined Instagram (no longer in use because of Meta & it’s AI…) and TikTok, and then Cara and now I’m here. I actually joined Tumblr on the recommendation of a comment on a TikTok video I made; saying I should branch out to a platform with a broader audience! 

That same user, in response to me lowering my prices again, pointed out that people might be even less persuaded to commission me if they thought my art would be cheaply made or rushed. Definitely should’ve realized that in hindsight ngl, so shout out to them for helping me understand that! To show that I do in fact value the work I do, here’s a general estimate of how long pieces typically take me:

Sketch: 30 min ~ hour

Bust: 2hr ~ 8hr

Full body: 4hr ~ 10hr

Piece w/ detailed background: 10+ hours

Reference sheets: 3hr for single headshot + single full body ref; 50hr for headshot + multiple full body refs

So, after that long winded- probably unneeded spiel, let’s be honest here- why should you commission me? Well, everything I earn from commissions go straight into savings for a place to live. I plan on living full time in a skoolie, a school bus converted into an apartment, as a much cheaper alternative to renting or buying a house. They cost around a min 20k! For those who are always the first to ask “well why don’t you have a job,” I do! I’m just doing this on the side to hopefully make it go a bit faster. 

Side note: For anything over $5 I’m more then willing to do multiple characters in the same shot, as long as your aware of the time it’ll take me LOL (last time I did a piece with 9 characters and it took me 300+ hrs. yikes)

So, without anything left to say, here are my prices!

[florisgrad]

If you've ever heard of an artist by the name of incubusMindgame/incsnakz/incjinx, DO NOT INTERACT WITH THEM SHOULD THEY EVER COME BACK. I've had personal grievances with them myself, such as them lying about me only being trans just to get with them (while they admitted to lying about being trans to avoid getting hit on, which... yikes.)

I do have another account from another person who has had a bad experience with this person Inc (who was 18 at the time) knew to be a minor (who I will call Equius.) In May of 2020, they had asked Equius into drawing Shotacon art of Jude and Dammek. Funnily enough, they were called out for drawing chibi Jude/Dammek porn under their incsnakz alias on Twitter, before moving to incjinx on Twitter and going on Indefinite Hiatus of June 2022. Not surprising as I remember in 2019, they had an NSFW channel in a Discord server based on a Roblox game filled with MOSTLY MINORS.

I only have Equius' word for his part, but I do have evidence of my account of my grievance with them. The context behind it all is that they banned me for something in a Homestuck RP game that they themselves were doing (being a creep/making jokes about excrement/making political statements).

(Depicted screenshots: Inc claims the reason I made them "uncomfortable" is because I saw them as a girl during the time we were friends, and had claimed I was only trans only to get with this person and immediately had stopped identifying as such after being rejected.)

[pcrfectstorms]

leave my fucking friends alone you attention seeking cunt. I will fucking end you . this is your last warning. ☺️ 💜

yikes, someone needs to come collect their feral dog. what was it y’all were crying about how i should be ‘responsible’ for my followers and friends? yeah, maybe heed your own advice there sweetheart.

first up, i am not the one who needs to leave anyone alone, bitch i’m trying and yet here YOU are in my inbox spewing utter nonsense that tbh could be considered a violent threat, hmm let’s see what tumblr has to say about that shall we? i haven’t spoke about your friend in days, as i’m sure you can see from the fact you’re on my blog snooping, the last thing i said in reference to them was when they were mass tagging me in nonsense a few days ago; which ironically enough made them according to tumblr activity page my fourth biggest fan - but i am the stalker, right?

i have not attempted to contact them once, no via anon asks or otherwise, and yet i had their other friend harass me on discord, have you in my inbox, off anon because i had to turn it off to avoid further idiocy, and yet you still managed, so congrats, i guess?

it’s like beating an old dead horse at this point. the only people continuing the drama and bullshit is on your friends side, me and my mutuals are fucking tired on the constant daily harassment and attempt at getting attention.

i beg of you to use a little critical thinking skills about the situation. but then, if you’re in my inbox with this bullshit critical thinking is obviously beyond you. so i shouldn’t expect too much, but i’d like to think it’s common knowledge and courtesy not to threaten and harass strangers on the internet. seriously, you’re a faceless internet troll threatening to ‘fucking end me’ listen to yourself, what makes you think it’s acceptable to speak to someone that way?

also, im not sure if y’all are aware but time zones exist and i am in GMT. i was fucking sleeping until twenty minutes ago. i have barely been online all week bc i have a real life outside of the internet and a full time career, quite literally, fuck off and leave me alone. i don’t care about a bunch of idiotic gen z kids on tumblr.

and just for fyi; who’s really stalking who bestie?

[hollypies]

I beg of you please tell me the RW lore I am oh so curious

Ok so RW lore us super uhm!! Its a lot. So. Uhm

Short!! Version

The basics is that there was a race called the Ancients that really wanted to die permanently! Death in RW is like sleep. You die and wake back up again, over and over. A cycle.

One day they found the Void, a way to die or ascend permanently. So they started jumping in . Then it had some. Some bad affects on certain ppl. So they made giant living calculators called iterators to figure out how to die permanently. They built a lot of them.

Another point is that the Ancients didn't build things like we do. They made purposed organisms, so the iterators are alive beings. Not just robots.

Anyway there was a GREAT ASCENSION and all the Ancients ascended . So. Now there's a bunch of.. Basically teenage gods with discord. Literally. The communications are like discord lol.

One day an iterator named Sliver a Straw sent out a triple affirmative, basically saying that the Great Problem (ascending permanently and safely) had been found, could be reproduced, and was portable. The Sliver judt straight up fucking died.

Iterators don't really die, so Sliver dying was ljke a big yikes moment. Basically illegal. Not Basically actually, it was literally illegal.

Cue shenanigans, and enter Five Pebbles and Looks To The Moon.

Pebbles is really craving that death right about now, and starts making something to kill him. This is extremely taxing, and Iterators take a massive amount of water for their cooling systems. Unfortunately, Pebbles was built right next to his sister Moon, and so he started chugging her water. Thus slowly killing her of dehydration.

Moon uses her big sibling privilege to yell at Pebbles, making him lose control of his experiment and releasing robot cancer into his systems. While this would kill him like he wanted, he instead decides to keep chugging all of Moons water to fight it off.

Cue slugcat campaigns.

Each slugcat can have their own encounters with Moon and Pebbles. By the time the slugcats are around Moon is almost nonfunctional, her entire structure submerged and damaged. Pebbles is slowly being overtaken by the Rot, which is the name for the cancer. You can help Moon as a slugcat, either by bringing her neurons (literally stealing Pebbles brain cells and then bringing it back to Moon, or by a specific campaign.

Eventually Pebbles gives up, and asks a slugcat to bring Moon a power core to help her. And so she's restored to some power and can begin repairing while he dies of the Rot. Weeee!!

Tbh there's a lot of shit I've missed, but I dont wanna spoil like. All of it all of it. It's. Houghghh.

Also as someone with siblings I cant ever imagine almost killing one for my own personal gain. I know Five Pebbles is a fan favorite and that at the time he made the decision to steal Moons water he was in a dark place, but that just doesn't stand by me. He made the ACTIVE decision to steal Moons water, knowing what it would do to her, and kept doing it even after he unleashed the Rot on himself. I get he's sympathetic to a lot of ppl but I just. I just can't understand it.

[knightyoomyoui]

The 1% Of Chances | TWICE Jeongyeon x Male Reader Fanfic: CHAPTER 4

"Sky's getting dark, Imma go back to my house and sleep guys.", you said to the microphone of your headphone set placed near in your mouth.

"Same. It's better to continue this house in daylight.", Mina replied, her voice was clearly audible in your ear from your headphone.

"Jihyo, where are you?"

"Wait, I'm trying to go back up. I'm in the cave just finished searching for diamonds, guys.", Jihyo responded, a little bit of struggle poked in her tone.

"Alright, we'll just wait he-"

You were about to complete your words when a deafeaning scream barges in your eardrum that made you wince in pain and coated your skin in chills.

Mina suffered the same, and both of you caught a sight in your respective computer screens in sync after Jihyo's scream resonated in your audio.

"zyozyo was killed by a Creeper."

"AAAAAAAAAHHHHH NOOOOOOOO!!!"

"Yikes.", you simply commented. Mina stiffled a laugh until she immediately gave up seconds later, finding the unfortunate fate for Jihyo's avatar too hilarious which you helplessly joined in.

"HAHAHAHAHAHAHA, are you okay unnie?"

"LESS THAN OKAY, OKAY?!", Jihyo's frustration emerged. "Aaaaaa my things are now gone!!! And my 5 diamonds that I just freaking searched so hard too!!!", she lets out a baby whine.

You echoed another laugh which earned an iconic "Yah!" offended sound from Jihyo herself. "I didn't even know there's a creeper about to explode behind me while I'm busy making a dirt stair."

Confident that Jihyo respawned on her own house after the death screen, you commanded and attempted to relax her. "Don't worry, Ji. Me and Mina will help get that. You remember the direction of the cave right?"

"Yeah."

"Good. Let's sleep now so we can go back to our tasks quick."

You clicked on your mouse, pointing the  crosshair on the bed; controlling your avatar to lay on your red wooled bed.

The screen slowly fades to black while Jihyo spoke again. "As my repay, I'll make you guys diamond weapons and armors."

"Cool!", Mina reacted positively.

"Oh yeah thanks, Ji!!!", you said; fully motivated to follow Jihyo and reclaim her things that were left scattered in the cave.

But then, just as when all of your each characters awakened in a new morning setting; your phone begun suddenly ringing; alarming you from an anonymous call.

"Uhh girls, I'll be afk for a sec. I got a call.", you excused yourself after pressing the options menu of the game you're playing.

"We'll wait."

"Take your time, YNN."

You removed the headphone wrapped above your head, placing it on your gaming table then muted your mic on your discord channel where Jihyo and Mina are also active in the call before you swiped the screen to the green button to answer.

You recognized that the call is coming from Sadness noona, based from the tag labeled in the profile.

"Hello, noona?

"YN, hi!", Sadness greeted you. "May I ask if Jeongyeon can be free this week or in the next?"

"Lemme take a look, noona.", you reached for your tablet inside your desk and opened it. Scrolling through your notes, you entered your own made schedule calendar for Jeongyeon's pending activities and projects.

"Uhh yes, noona. She's available on the rest of this week afterwards."

"Good! Tell her that she was invited to guest in the radio show hosted by DAY6 YoungK which we were allowed to  asked and choose what day they are free. I called Heungson and Yeongsu for Nayeon and Sana's sched and they said they're also good to go."

"Oh, Nayeon and Sana will join Jeongyeon?"

"Yeah, three of them.", Sadness said. "So yeah, I'll infrom the staffs now that they can appear on the next episode this coming Saturday. Don't forget to tell Jeongyeon about this, okay?"

"Noted, noona."

"Okay, bye! Thanks for responding, YN!", you bid your goodbye too before noona did the serve to end the call.

After your conversation with Sadness, you placed your phone back to the table and wore your headphones again, unmuting your mic to speak for go signal to continue your Minecraft playtime that you promised with Mina and Jihyo today.

1 HOUR LATER

After your gameplay ended with them, you walked out of your room and went to their dorm where you gave a 'good game gesture on Mina and Jihyo who both exited their rooms to rest in the couch together.

"Is Jeongyeon in her room?", you asked after you glanced at the show they're watching on TV.

"Yeah, cleaning as usual.", Jihyo answered.

"Okay, thanks. I'll talk to her in a bit about her schedule.", the leader nodded before she directed her eyes back at the screen.

You cautiously stepped onto the front of Jeongyeon's door which is slightly opened, revealing a narrow view of the idol fixing her bedsheet and pillow.

"She really does love cleaning.", you chuckled to yourself. It makes you awe that before you can only hear and see from shows, interviews or even their own content that your bias is the clean freak of the group which is a nice thing to know; now you're literally standing in front of her room to see it by yourself personally.

You knocked at the door twice to grab the attention of the busy woman.

She turned around, seeing your figure blocking the doorway.

"Oh, YN oppa?"

"Hi Jeong.", you grinned. "Sorry to interrupt your chores, by the way."

"No it's fine, I'm almost done now anyway.", Jeongyeon smiled assuringly, swiping the fabric of the bedsheet to make it look less crumpled.

"What brings you here, oppa?"

"Well, Sadness-noona asked me if you are available this week for another schedule, I said yes because tomorrow you have your dance practice with your instructor and that was supposed to be the last for the remainder of the week.", you explained as Jeongyeon continued to fix her bed while she focusedly listened at you.

"But I gave away one free day of yours for a radio show invitation. Sadness-noona confirmed it now that you'll be there with Nayeon and Sana."

"Oh, they're coming too?", Jeongyeon was surprised.

"Yeah, as per request by the DJ.", you nodded.

"What radio show?"

"Kiss The Radio?", you were a little unsure in your tone because you nearly forgot what it called. "Noona said it's Day6 Young K who sent the invitation."

"Ooohhhh! Hehe, it's Young K sunbae.", Jeongyeon lets out an enlightened sound with her mouth agaped as she identified the person you just mentioned.

"He's a senior in our company, oppa."

"Oh? 3rd Gen?"

"Yup, he's part of DAY6 which is our company's band. Not our only one though, they just debuted a new rookie of ours named XDinary Heroes few months ago.", Jeongyeon shared another additional information which piqued your interest.

"That's actually fascinating.", you hummed and cupped your chin. "Well, have fun on their show okay?"

"I'm already excited.", Jeongyeon increased her voice of delight. "I love their group and... h-he's my bias too so... yeah hihi.", she giggled.

You aren't mistaken no matter how many times you want to replay it in your mind that Jeongyeon flushed right after she said that which kind of made your smile minimize a bit.

You snapped out of the ridiculous thoughts in your mind immediately that were beginning to cloud your head as you talked back to her.

"Aah, now it makes sense.", you gawked. "I could relate on how it feels like meeting your bias, that's why I understand your uplifted reaction right now Jeong."

"I figured out the same.", she agreed.

You cast another short stare at her as you can't help but to be stuck for a moment at her glorious visuals, heart rising and falling quite faster as you savor how good it feels to see her as usual.

"I-I'll go back to my dorm now, Jeong. Have a nice day."

"Okayyy! Thanks for the update oppa and enjoy the rest of the day.", Jeongyeon waved cutely at you which you unhesitantly responded the same, not wanting to leave it ignored.

You walked away from her room and whistled at Mina one last time before leaving their dorm, throwing a half filled pack of Skittles in your pocket which made the penguin instantly happy.

3 DAYS LATER

The van you're riding together with Jeongyeon, Nayeon and Sana along with Heungson and Yeongsu, two other fellow managers of yours who are in charge of the two other idols has arrived in front of the KBS Cool FM radio station in Seoul.

After parking the medium of transportation in the vacant lot, you escorted Jeongyeon on stepping out the van before all six of you entered the building.

Reaching the 5th floor where the Kiss The Radio room is located, the KBS staffs instructed you, Heungson and Yeongsu to stay behind the radio broadcasting room while Jeongyeon, Sana and Nayeon were offered to sit on their respective seats already while waiting for the show to start.

Few minutes has passed, the DJ himself Young K of Day6 enters the room which all of you stood up and greeted him politely while the girls' was mixed with less awkwardness because them four are already close to one another.

And there you noticed that Jeongyeon's reaction when Young K high fived with her was a bit suspicious from you. Even though she covered her mouth you knew exactly that she sported with the same blush she had earlier when YoungK's name is being mentioned.

You smiled along with your poker face and it vanishes painfully slow as you watched the entire segment of them conversing with full of fun around the room.

It's unavoidable to feel a bit disheartened seeing Jeongyeon listening very attentively at YoungK with her eyes sparkling in full brightness of energy within her, now that she's sharing a moment with her bias and you on the other hands, is having a heavy crush on the girl idol.

You tried to chill down as you repeatedly reminding yourself that he's just Jeong's bias but the negative is kicking back, telling you otherwise that why you should go on that side when you knew that you won't even have a chance with her, as if she'll care about your feelings for her... so you must let it hurt and keep that jealousy in you.

As the show ended, the girls requested for all three of you to capture a photo of them with YoungK together.

You followed too and grabbed your phone, pointing the camera at the group.

But what you saw made your heart ache more.

YoungK was beside Jeongyeon, his arm wrapped around her back and reaching her shoulder to hold onto.

You emotionlessly took a shot at them then showed the pictures at Jeongyeon which was nearly satisfied at these.

Nearly, because she gave a favor one last time for you to do quick to make her fully satisfied.

"Oppa, take a picture of us and YoungK please?", Jeongyeon pursed her ducky lips on you. It was cute, you admitted... but the mood has been ruined with your overthinking about their relationship together that probably more than meets the eye.

"O-okay."

Jeongyeon clapped before she called YoungK and insisted him to pose together for another picture.

There, you just witness them being very close together; standing in front of them looking like you're totally fine but you're not.

YoungK wrapped again his arm around Jeongyeon and they both showed peace signs which you quickly captured them, unable to bear this scene much longer.

You successfully made Jeongyeon think it was enough, allowing the six of you to leave and say goodbye to YoungK who is blessed to entertain his guests for tonight.

As you stood out of the exitway of the building, the cold night air harshly blew everyone of you; making yourselves cover your faces with your hands to avoid contact with the dusts splattered and went crazily flew around you.

Jeongyeon failed to manage protecting her own pair as you observed her blinking rapidly and rubbed her eyes furiously, letting out wincing sounds that concerned you.

"Ah my eyes!"

"Don't rub your eyes, Jeong. Show it to me."

You guided her hands to pull them down and reveal her poor eyes affected by the strong wind.

"Stay still okay?"

You gently opened her eyelid and expose her eyeball on you before blewing a small puff of air from your mouth carefully to lessen the pain and remove the fine dust irritating it.

You did the same on the other one before you let go as she recovers her sight.

"Geez, you turned into a rockstar.", you chuckled and made the rest laugh when they got what you were pertaining at.

Jeongyeon's hair was roughly haggard and unorganized, raising some couple of strand above her length.

You fixed her hair willingly in your own service, stepping forward and closer as you began combing her hair too.

Now that she looks presentable again instead of having a "woke up like this"-like look, you were about to take out your fingers stroking her hair when your eyes matched at Jeongyeon who has her sight clear again, and the first thing she saw properly back was the view of your face that drowns her in captivity.

It was a daring staring contest between the two of you, rolling your black orbs around every spots of Jeongyeon's unreal beauty while she does the same at you undeniably attracting babyface look.

Your senses reawakened when the van beeped caused by the driver to signal all of you, breaking the stare you had with her.

Sana turned off her phone and placed it on her bag. "Are we good now guys? Jeongyeon-unnie?"

"Y-yeah, my eyes are okay now.", she smiled.

"You should look at yourself earlier Jeongyeon-ah, the wind turned you into a chicken for a while.", Nayeon burst out in laughter while Jeongyeon got annoyed at the teasing of the oldest.

"Yah! Im Nayeon you're just lucky you didn't had your hair messed up like me... because for sure yours would be a lot worse.", she spatted bitterly at her bestfriend.

All of you started walking through the van, with you and Jeongyeon following behind.

"Is that true oppa? Do I looked funny there?"

"Y-yeah, it did.", you admitted. Jeongyeon pouted sulkily, which worried you and warmed your soul effectively at the same time.

"... but that was only your hair I'm referring at. Mine's not agreeing on what Nayeon described you. Like I said... you resemble a rockstar, a rad one.", you patted her head and smiled softly.

"What's rad?"

"Being cool.", you elaborated.

Jeongyeon went fluttered, tilting her head away from you slowly as she lowered it and took her precious time to calm herself down.

You let her enter first before you took the turn, sitting comfortably on the seat then closed the sliding door so that the driver can now engage the wheels and roll down the road back to your homes.

"Thanks, YN.", she said to you which you appreciatingly took it with a smile.

Everyone went silent during the drive. You were currently vibing onto your J. Cole playlist when in a single twist of your head you saw that Jeongyeon is flicking her eyelids on and off, yawning intensifies with her head waving back and forth, sign that she's getting sleepy.

You quickly took action, grabbing her head by your hand and placed it atop of your shoulder.

Placing the other piece of your earphone to her ear, you let her hear the song you're listening into.

Lack of awareness, it was just in time for Jeongyeon to hear the smooth ending adlibs of 'A lot' by 21 Savage ft. J. Cole with a woman melodically sang the words:

"I love you for so many reasons~"

Jeongyeon felt like as if it was a message coming from you, glancing at your side profile smiling at how good the song is before she slowly fell asleep with a intensely growing blush in her cheek and a blissfully quivering heart done by you.

[thebiscuiteternal]

would nmj's fate change in the larger age gap au? with the changes in relationships and political dynamics, i just can't see jgy finding it as easy to decide to kill him in this version.

I think it would, for a number of reasons.

First and foremost, no matter which version of canon you use, Nie Huaisang is going to push the "ge" button in the back of Meng Yao/Jin Guangyao's brain hard. I wrote a little snippet of them meeting on Discord using the non-CQL setting

Please imagine that during Sunshot in the greater-age-gap Nies timeline, something comes up at the Unclean Realms and since Mingjue can't leave the battlefield for whatever reason, he asks newly-minted 18yo aide-de-camp Meng Yao to go handle it.

So Meng Yao goes to the Unclean Realms and is met at the gate by a 10/11 yo with a grumpy expression.

"You're not Da-ge," he says, clearly disappointed.

Oh, this is the Sang-di that his sect leader is always talking about.

He's adorable.

Meng Yao smiles. "Sorry, but even your brother can't be in two places at once. This one is Meng Yao; his assistant."

Nie Huaisang brightens up just a little. "Oh! The really smart one!"

(Zongzhu actually said that in his letters home? Meng Yao's a little touched.)

Huaisang takes him to meet the supply overseers who needed assistance, but sticks around instead of going back to whatever he'd been doing.

Meng Yao catches the boy watching him a couple of times, but every time, Huaisang quickly looks away, face red.

They don't talk about it before Meng Yao leaves, crisis averted.

Cute little creechur! Who clearly thinks he's cool despite growing up around all these powerful cultivators! Meng Yao is smitten.

And then add in the fact that Mingjue and Huaisang's relationship is much more stable, with it being evident to anyone with eyes that they're each other's foundation, and Jin Guangyao would have a much harder time justifying the damage to a Huaisang that killing Mingjue would do.

Especially since, if I haven't fucked up my own timeline, he would be all of fourteen when his big brother died and he got thrown into an inheritance crisis. Yikes.

Of course, there's also another option.

Supposing instead that Jin Guangshan were to go the route that Nie Mingjue dreads the most, the very reason he'd held off on making Huaisang his heir to begin with: he is very young and very vulnerable and it would do a lot of damage to sect morale if anything were to happen to him.

Suppose Jin Guangshan decides the best way to remove Nie Mingjue from being a pest politically is to get rid of Huaisang.

Now, I've had a story where Jin Guangyao goes through with it; most of you have seen that.

But again, it's much harder to justify killing a 14yo than it is to kill a 20-23yo, especially one that clearly loves you.

Angsty soul-searching ahoy!

So I think either way, he'd try to stall for time. Maybe he can't tell them directly what's going on without feeling unfilial to his father, but he can drop hints and let his father braid enough rope to hang himself.

Whether or not it would work is still up in the air.