#and they are NOT related to the existential crisis arts!

[lindentea]

my polycules keep being really sweet and helpful to me and i don't feel like i deserve it and uhhhhhh Blitz really is just becoming a self-insert character for me, huh?

[usefulquotes7]

Don't ask me who I am. I'm a stranger, even to my own name.

[esthercism]

rendering to get better at drawing to get better at rendering to get better at drawing to get better at rendering to get better at drawing to get better

[thishasbe]

damn the blog started to feel a bit too cramped and chaotic and since i managed to power through my yearly panic deletion of every social media i own, i think getting more specific with tagging might help

[artist-issues]

I also think sometimes we’re losing the art of simple lessons in kid’s movies. Probably because of the whole self-focus thing. Adults make the movies. Adults use the movies to get through whatever they’re going through.

But like no 6-to-12-year-old kid really needs to jump over “how should I handle a big change” and land straight in “THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU GROW UP, YOU FEEL LESS JOY”

Like what? Where are we? What happened?

I am not saying that kids don’t experience anxiety or prejudice or whatever. I’m saying—

—nope, one more time, because you weren’t reading, you were responding in your head before the post is finished, without understanding—I said, I am not saying that kids don’t experience anxiety or prejudice sometimes.

I’m saying stop trying to use a kids’ movie to teach an adult lesson, because the majority of kids aren’t there yet. And sometimes when you expose a kid to a problem that never even occurred to them, even in the name of solving that problem, or “telling the truth?” You know what you give them then? Uh, anxiety. Or confusion. Not a real solution.

Kids in a healthy environment, and even kids in an unhealthy environment, are not ready to have an existential crisis about their purpose or the way all of society sees them because of their race/religion/sex/age. They’re usually still figuring out the difference between “sharing” and “selfishness.” “Fear” and “respect.” That sort of thing.

Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs is a good movie for kids and adults to watch because kids know what it’s like to get carried away by fear and selfishness. Snow White can’t just sit and cry because she’s surrounded by scary trees. The Dwarfs shouldn’t be beating each other up over who gets to use the one pillow. They should share their bed with the lost princess. Simple. True. Good. Kids can understand, kids can relate, kids can absorb. And adults? Adults need to be reminded of the simple stuff because we’re too “intellectual” for our own good and we overcomplicate stuff and stop realizing when we’re giving in to fear and selfishness.

But these movies, and these shows, that say they’re meant for kids…when really they’re just meant for people who have the taste for kids’ visuals and kids’ media design, but are actually grown adults obsessed with mental health jargon? They’re walking a dangerous line.

Good parents know not to “awaken” considerations in evil and hard stuff before it’s time in a child. They already have enough to deal with just figuring out how to move on after they scrape their knee, or how to be okay even if their little expectation about their friend coming over to play isn’t met. You don’t need to add on top of that “what happens if nobody needs me” or “what is a panic attack.”

…unless your kid is already having panic attacks. They happen, I know, I was 9 years old. But you get what I’m saying. Kid’s movies should remember that they’re for kids, and simple truths make the best stories. Because usually truth is simple, and it’s our desire to have control over it that overcomplicates it to the point where it’s not true anymore.

Anyway.

[str8rat]

Drawing request, if it is still open: Siffrin becomes aware of the player and tries to talk to them. Make it as harsh or as silly as you want it.

Also, love your ISAT x F&H crossover art, especially Sif's breakdown. God that scene is RAW.

( You. You’re there, aren’t you? Watching. I can feel it. Does it entertain you, dragging us through this over and over? Is this fun for you? )

( You could stop it, couldn’t you? End this right now. But you won’t. No, you like this, don’t you? Watching us die over and over, as if we’re some twisted little game for you to play with. Do you enjoy watching me suffer? My friends suffer? How many times have you watched me die now? )

( Please.. I know you’re there. You have to help me. End this. Just.. let me rest. I don’t want to do this anymore. Please, just let me go. Let us go. I can’t do this anymore. I can’t watch them die anymore. )

Siffrin becomes existentially horrified at the realization that all his decisions, his choices, have been yours all along. His autonomy stripped away, every decision he thought he made was just an illusion of choice. This would shatter him, his sense of identity unraveling.

( Was any of it real? My choices, my thoughts- were they ever mine? Or was I always just.. following orders? Your orders? Am I even me, or am I just a puppet on your string? No, you’re not just some God. You're something worse. You don’t even belong to this world, and yet.. you’re stronger than everything in it. You’re stronger than the blinding Universe. And yet.. you're still here. Why are you here!? )

( Look at me. Look at me! Stop hiding and face what you’ve done. You think you can just watch me bleed, break, and die, without consequences? I see you. You’re here. I’m real, damn it! We’re real! You have no right to do this to us! No right..! )

( Please.. just let me go. I’m begging you. Let me go. Stop watching me. Stop following me. Please please please stop. )

( STOP WATCHING ME STOP WATCHING ME STOP WATCHING ME STOP WATCHING ME STOP STOP STOP STOP!!! )

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i love existential crisis uwu

also thank you for the request and for enjoying my art and my AU ^^

Speaking of, some extra art below that i doodled in class. All related to my isat/funger AU

[seishiroses]

I love Nagi being a "I didn't sign up for this crap but fml the crap is starting to feel interesting and move me in mysterious ways" protagonist. Like:

And while that's common with the lazy genius trope, where it actually gets super interesting is when Nagi starts to really ask himself why he is feeling this way, and what is it that he even wants:

This panel below is really cool, not just because it definitively marks Nagi's transformation from a passive to an active character in his own story, but also art-wise I love the grey and black smoky tendrils curling around him. It creates an aura of something really dangerous, like poison gas, like he's not human (a bit like Venom in Spiderman?)

Dark smoky auras are not new in manga but I particularly like the way Blue Lock does them. And how it uses effects like these to depict a character's overall mood or the perception they give to others. Like look at Isagi's face here he looks like he's watching a scorpion shed it's skin.

I think effects like these are especially useful for a character like Nagi since his facial expressions are designed to hide more than they reveal. But I also like that they are used sparingly. We don't see the smoky darkness or skull aura all that often, at least early on. Because unlike other characters, Nagi feels his main character energy quite inconsistently, in between a lot of very "bored/tired/it's a pain/I don't wanna" moments. So those sudden bursts of pride or determination feel all the more impactful.

I think Nagi in the current timeline needs a hard reset back to the line of questioning and soul searching we see in the panels above. He kind of is getting there (post-match conversations with Rin and Barou) but the danger is that the stakes are too high now and will not allow him all the time in the world to figure it out.

The problem is very relatable especially if you're someone who cannot settle on what to do with your life and why, while everyone around you seems to be laser focused and driven and knowing exactly what they want. And sometimes even though certain moments can stir your soul, they don't necessarily help you magically find motivation in the long term. But time is running out and you'll get left behind if you don't figure it out soon.

In moments I do feel like the slow-burn existential crisis which defines a lot of Nagi's journey is frustrating, but then I realise that shit is even more frustrating IN LIFE, and so this is actually more realistic than I thought. 😔

[jigujellee]

(gif creds: kimlipz)

YOUR VOICE IS MY FAVORITE SOUND -> while helping yunjin write her new song, you realize that there's more to her than her loud goofball self.

yunjin x 6th member!reader FLUFF >> word count: 1.4k warnings: none bc fluff is meant to be soft and gushy

a/n: here's me apologzing for the yunjin angst <3 to avoid any confusion - this is NOT a prequel to "love the way you lie" nor is it related in any way; this is its own thing where reader and yunjin are happily together bc they deserve it; enjoy soft and whipped y/n while i try to get angsty again

even with the water running, kazuha and eunchae could be heard in the background, giggling at whatever they were watching on the older girl’s phone.

“i’m sorry i couldn’t help you tonight y/n. i’ll do the dishes tomorrow okay?” your leader says as she magically emerges from her bedroom and immediately snakes her arms around your waist, leaning her head on your shoulder.

“i don’t mind cleaning up unnie, it’s really okay” chaewon hums in response while you place the last bowl on the dish rack to dry.

“where’s yunjin unnie?”

“in her room. i think she’s writing again”

you smile at the thought of your girlfriend trying to write a song. you could easily imagine the way she scrunches her nose while trying to figure out a chord progression, or the way her tongue slightly pokes out as she writes down lyrics in her notebook.

“maybe you should go help her instead of standing here and smiling like a creepy idiot” chaewon interrupts.

“for a moment, i forgot you were here” you joke as you playfully wipe your wet hands on her face.

“ya y/n!! i just did my skincare routine!” she yells while aggressively wiping her face on your shirt, which earned chaewon a playful slap on the shoulder.

once you finish wiping down the counters and tucking in eunchae’s chair (she swears her new year’s resolution is to push in her own chair), you walk towards yunjin’s bedroom. her door is ajar and from where you were standing, you could hear her hum a melody and attempt to strum a few chords. her back is to the door so she’s unaware that you’re leaning against her doorframe, admiring the art that is huh yunjin herself. you watch as she puts her pen down and clears her throat before singing;

it’s kind of shitty isn’t it? not the way we pictured it feels like an existential crisis or am i being dramatic? i wish the world would shut its mouth

“give me space to… sort all this shit out? no that doesn’t sound good” she grunts, and yunjin drops the guitar pick to replace it with her pen, scribbling out what she previously wrote. she sings the same line over and over, and just as she’s about to give up, you finally break your silence and offer a suggestion.

give me space to fucking sort it out?

yunjin’s head immediately turns around, you’re worried it might have given her whiplash. as soon as your eyes meet, you watch a smile grow on her face and you return the gesture with a smile of your own as you walk towards her bed.

“give me space to fucking sort it out,” yunjin tests the way it sounds before continuing on;

like i’m fine, just leave me alone i’m great on my own

you can’t help but stare at yunjin, watching the crinkles on her forehead when she sings and listening to how soft and melodic her voice is.

“honey, you’re staring”

“am i not allowed to admire you, my love?”

“it’s making me shy,” she admits, pink blush slowly painting her cheeks resulting in another smile on your face.

it's rare for yunjin to openly admit when she's shy. though her mbti says she's an introvert, you'd believe she's everything but that when you get to know her. she was a loud goofball most of the time and you absolutely loved her for that. but you also loved her in moments like this; when she’s quiet, focused, and vulnerable. yunjin always felt shy whenever she showed you the songs she wrote, and you’ll never forget about the time she admitted that it feels like she’s naked and bare in front of you when she presents her own creations.

you then realize you don't need to physically touch her to feel close to her - you feel her heart and soul in every word she sings, and you believe it’s the closest you’ll ever be to yunjin.

“helloooo anyone there? looks like someone’s staring again”

“well i think it sounds like an amazing song already” you say, finally breaking out of your daze.

“oh stop it, you’re just saying that because i’m your girlfriend”

“i’m saying it because it’s true. now sing some more, i’ll help with the chords”

now it’s yunjin’s turn to stare as she watches you take her acoustic guitar out of her hands, and grab her electric guitar instead.

“now look who’s staring” you say while plugging the guitar into an amp and start tuning it.

“i’m just lucky to have a girlfriend who’s talented like you”

you never liked to brag about your talent, but yunjin wasn’t lying. you’ve always loved anything and everything to do with music, and you would beg your parents to get you any instrument they could get their hands on - piano, guitar, drums, bass, and even violin. at some point during your trainee days, you even learned how to produce and mix songs. by definition, you were indeed an ace but you didn’t like admitting it and you’d playfully roll your eyes whenever the other members called you their ace.

“just sing darling” yunjin momentarily gushes at the pet name prior to singing, just as you requested.

i don’t know what i’d be doing without you you love who i am cause i don’t care as long as i’m with you i’ll reach for your hand

you couldn’t even bring yourself to try and come up with a chord progression; you wanted to hear that voice over and over for the rest of your life.

along with her heavenly voice, you also admired yunjin’s penmanship. you could tell her lyrics always came from the deepest parts of her heart and after hearing what she just sang, you feel your heart swell - you were just so amazed and proud at what she was capable of doing.

“go again,” and so she did. you asked her to sing about 3 or 4 more times before she realized you weren't even strumming anything.

“baby, are you gonna play or what?”

you chuckled and asked her to sing once more, with you actually playing the guitar this time.

“how was that?” she asks as you two wrapped up the song, and you notice her fidgeting with the corner of the page of her notebook. hearing her ask for feedback brought you back to the days you’d spend by her side while she’d practice before her monthly evaluation. it's a bittersweet memory for they were the moments you cherished the most but were also considered some of the toughest times in your career.

you don’t answer her and instead lean in to kiss her soft lips. of course, she enthusiastically returns the kiss causing her to drop her pen and notebook to wrap her arms behind your neck.

“ew,” says the leader from outside yunjin’s door. “close the door next time, eunchae might see you two,” and you look at yunjin before bursting out into laughter with her.

-

“3, 2, 1!” the staff counts down and the 6 of you blow the candles on the cake they prepared for you.

“happy 100 days to us!” eunchae yells while taking pictures of the cake and the decorations surrounding you.

after posing for pictures, the staff begins to play yunjin’s song through the speakers. everyone, including you, cheers and congratulates her for the release of her own solo song. you make your way towards her and embrace her lovingly, ignoring the sound of your other members fake gagging.

“you made a wonderful song, mahal”

“no, we did” she chuckles.

“you know what i think? we should write another song together and perform it on our wedding day”

yunjin feels her heart burst at the mention of your wedding. although it wouldn’t happen anytime soon, it brings so much excitement and leaves her to wonder what else was in store for the two of you, and also for the group.

she tries to lean in for a kiss but unfortunately, you're torn apart when chaewon and kazuha pull her away to take pictures while eunchae and sakura invite you to start eating the cake. yunjin's song comes to a close as you stare at your members and staff, and you smile as you think about all the memories you’ve made together while looking forward to the future of le sserafim.

but raise your glass, to the story of us.

[13lunarstar]

Ardra

The sixth nakshatra

Degrees: from 6°40' to 20°00' Gemini

The ruler of nakshatra: Rahu (North Lunar Node)

Ardra signifies a journey of deep emotional exploration, transformation, and growth. The deity associated with Ardra Nakshatra is Rudra, a fierce form of Lord Shiva, symbolizing the destructive forces of nature. This association reflects the nakshatra's themes of destruction and transformation, common in the life of the natives.

Nakshatra's guna: tamas (demonic)

Ardra keywords: transformation, destruction, regeneration, storms, tears, intensity, curiosity, innovation, emotional depth, research, investigation, technology, change, perceptiveness, fierceness, ambition, sorrow, struggle, penetration, sensitivity.

Symbol: A teardrop, representing sorrow and emotional depth

Ardra in various planets

Sun in Ardra: intensifies one's sense of self-expression and creativity. These individuals may possess a strong drive for transformation and may be drawn to fields involving innovation or change. They may also face challenges related to ego and identity, learning to navigate through intense emotions and personal growth.

Moon in Ardra: enhances emotional depth and sensitivity. These individuals may experience fluctuations in their emotions, ranging from intense highs to deep lows. They are curious and perceptive, often delving into the depths of their own psyche and the world around them. Their journey involves emotional exploration and understanding, leading to profound personal transformation.

Mars in Ardra: amplifies energy and ambition. Individuals with this placement are driven by a strong desire for change and may channel their intensity into pursuing their goals. They are innovative and resourceful, often finding unconventional solutions to challenges. However, they may also need to temper their impulsiveness and confront their inner conflicts to achieve lasting success.

Mercury in Ardra: enhances communication and intellectual curiosity. These individuals are analytical and investigative, keen to explore new ideas and technologies. They excel in fields requiring research and problem-solving skills, and their sharp intellect enables them to penetrate the heart of complex issues. However, they may struggle with overthinking or anxiety and need to learn to balance their mental energy with emotional awareness.

Jupiter in Ardra: brings wisdom and philosophical depth. These individuals have a profound interest in spiritual and metaphysical matters, seeking truth and understanding amid life's challenges. They are drawn to philosophical inquiry and may undergo significant inner growth through their exploration of higher knowledge. However, they may also face periods of disillusionment or existential crisis as they grapple with life's deeper mysteries.

Venus in Ardra: enhances sensitivity and artistic expression. Individuals with this placement have a deep appreciation for beauty and may excel in creative pursuits such as art, music, or design. They are emotionally attuned to their surroundings and may seek solace in aesthetic experiences. However, they may also grapple with feelings of melancholy or longing, as they navigate the complexities of love and relationships.

Saturn in Ardra: brings lessons in emotional maturity and resilience. These individuals may face challenges related to loss or hardship, prompting them to confront their deepest fears and insecurities. They are resilient and determined, capable of enduring even the most difficult circumstances. Through perseverance and self-discipline, they can transform their struggles into sources of strength and wisdom, ultimately emerging stronger and more self-aware.

Rahu in Ardra: amplifies the transformative and intense qualities of this nakshatra. Individuals with this placement may experience a strong desire for change and may be drawn to unconventional or disruptive paths in life. They may encounter significant upheavals or crises that propel them towards personal growth and evolution. Rahu in Ardra can also enhance one's investigative and research abilities, leading to discoveries and breakthroughs in various fields.

Ketu in Ardra: brings a deep sense of introspection and spiritual inquiry. Individuals with this placement may feel a strong pull towards exploring the mysteries of existence and unravelling hidden truths. They may experience periods of solitude or withdrawal as they delve into their inner psyche and past life experiences. Ketu in Ardra encourages detachment from material concerns and attachments, leading to profound spiritual insights and transformation.

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// Hello! Eddie here! You can find my other blogs at @eddie-roo-rp-hub

I’m an adult, he/they

This blog will touch on topics relating to existential crisis, depersonalization, loss of identity, solitude and entrapment, so be aware!

Any pokeblog shall interact.

I intend to do some mystery stuff, so feel free to poke and prod for answers.

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[victusinveritas]

The Adventures of Tintin and the Horrific World of H.P. Lovecraft

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A Scottish graphic designer Murray "Muzski" Groat has created an incredibly fun series of art that takes Hergé’s classic comic character Tintin and throws him into the terrifyingly awesome universe of H.P. Lovecraft. I'd love to see how these stories play out! Maybe Peter Jackson and Steven Spielberg's next Tintin film should be The Adventures of Tintin: At the Mountains of Maddness.

Watch our brave adventurers flee from shoggoths, Deep Ones, fish folk, ghouls, Formless Spawn, Mi-Go, Elder Things, nightgaunts, Old Ones, Outer Gods and foreigners (i.e. non-Anglo-Saxons) as they face many an existential crisis regarding their insignificance on a cosmic scale!

What eldritch horrors await our companions as they unearth the secrets from untold aeons in the dark corners of the earth? Will they heroically flee from these abominations from the stars, or will they choose the merciful oblivion that is death by throwing themselves on squalid pavements or shooting themselves in the head? And what trick does Nyarlathotep have up ‘His’ sleeve this time?

Find out in The Weird Adventures of Tintin, by H. P. Lovecraft!

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Covers:

* Tintin in Innsmouth (originally posted 27 September 2010)

* Muzski's note: "Zadok Allen (the town drunk and ex-sailor) could be played by the villainous Captain Allen."

* Tintin in R'Lyeh (originally posted 5 October 2010)

* Muzski's note: "PLOT ENDING: Tintin uses a crowbar on Cthulhu (BONK!), while Captain Haddock kicks his groping tentacles and curses alot. Cthulhu see's stars and hears little birds chirping, and slumps back into his tomb. Our heroes slam the cyclopean door shut, then have a wee chuckle to themselves, while walking back to the boat. Once they sail off, only Snowy notices the great city of R'Lyeh sinking back into the sea, before he puts his head down for a long nap while the sun sets in the distance. The End. 🙂 "

* Tintin and the Reanimator (originally posted 29 October 2010)

* Muzski's note: "PLOT: Ok, here we have Tintin and Snowy investigating the dubious activities of (the misunderstood) Herbert West, who loves bringing dead things back to life with his lizard-gene-soup. Eeeek!"

* Tintin at the Mountains (originally posted 18 November 2010)

* Muzski's note: "PLOT: Tintin and Snowy travel to the newly discovered and very mysterious Mountains of Madness, in Antarctica. They are looking for a missing expedition party from the Miskatonic University. Their bold leader and their friend, Professor Calculus was with the doomed party when everything went wrong."

* From Beyond (originally posted 2 December 2010)

* Muzski's note: "THE PLOT: Prof. Calculus is too busy working on a top-secret project at the Miskatonic Uni involving an expedition to Antarctica, so he asks Tintin and Captain Haddock to check in on his old friend Prof. Crawford Tilling-Ghast. To make sure he is well. Crawford has recently been slandered by the scientific community, for his outrageous cosmic theories, and becomes a recluse. Our heroes visit Crawford, but they are surprised by his bizarre machine, humming away suspiciously with a feint violet glow around it. Something is wrong! Crawford acts strange. His house staff have disappeared. Snowy keeps barking. There is a sudden sense like that of a rushing incoming train. Slowly, and slippery, something ghastly appears above Captain Haddock's head....!"

* The Shadow Out of Time (originally posted 9 December 2010)

* Muzski's note: "I based the layout on the June 1936 issue of 'Astounding Stories' magazine cover, where Lovecraft had this story first printed -> [link] "

* The Dunwich Horror (originally posted 3 January 2011)

* Muzski's note: "PLOT: Prof. Calculus is currently teaching at the Miskatonic Uni. on the subject of Antarctica. He contacts his pals Tintin and the Captain about several strange goings-on in the area, which seem to relate to the scarey Book Of The Dead - The Necronomicon (the uni library holds a copy). At night, the mutated Wilbur Whateley has broken into the library, looking for THE BOOK, but he gets savaged by the watchmen's dogs. Our heroes here this, but are too late. Wilbur dies, muttering "YOG SOTHOTH!" Snowy sniffs around, and spots a very old book lying on the floor."

* The Whisperer in Darkness (originally posted 18 May 2011)

[xijura]

I saw 'rock climbing first date' and it magically brought me out of my art related existential crisis. Sounded fun, so...🙂

(thanx @rhyslahey^^)

[girliestwomaninstem]

introductory post (⁠◍⁠•⁠ᴗ⁠•⁠◍⁠)⁠✧⁠*

Hellooo <3 I've been on Tumblr for a few years now, however, lately I have become a bit of a slacker in terms of my student and professional life and a lot of y'all have inspired me to get a studyblr + accountability blog to help keep myself in check, focused and driven

🌻 about me ♡

name: tofu

age: 23

pronouns: she/her

zodiac: ⊙ aries, ☽ scorpio, ↑ scorpio

languages I speak: english, hindi, japanese (beginner)

🌻 my favourite subjects ♡

- academic: chemistry, cybersecurity, creative writing, biology, personal finance, physics, discrete math, intro to programming (the easiest part about a cs degree yet daunting)

- non-academic: cosmetic science, psychology, literature, ancient/modern history, physics, astronomy, linguistics

I'm trying to once again pick up hobbies that I used to have as a child, such as reading, singing, gardening, cooking/baking, scrapbooking

In my free time, I love watching asian soap operas, Studio Ghibli, and sitcoms that I'd like to call my comfort shows and video essays related to all my non-academic subject interests

I'm an undergrad student currently enrolled in a computer science/fintech double major and I'm preparing either to enter the workforce or pursue a masters in either quantitative finance or bioinformatics engineering or data science (wow, the existential crisis that came with typing up that sentence). I could also talk more about my interests in the above-mentioned subject areas, or new ones as they come up. My goal is to create a routine for myself that I can actually stick to, and spend each day having learnt at least something, no matter how small. I feel like the only way to achieve that is by comparing myself to my peers (I know that is v toxic but hey it helps). Additionally I really want to learn how to drive this year, learn to crochet and keep up with new technologies, do some art journalling to take my mind off stress.

I'm so excited to meet new people on here and keep myself busy and productive! ❤️

[acheronist]

I am reading The Goldfinch. I'm where he just started hanging out at the furniture/antiques place regularly. It's written well, it's holding my inerest, but I don't yet see what all the fuss is about. So not as a criticism but in an effort to appreciate something I might be missing, why is it a book you love?

well.

donna tartt is one of my favorite authors anyways. I think she's a spectacular freak and her storytelling skills are exceptionally good and i've read as much of her work as i can possibly get my little hands on!

but for tgf specifically, the narrative being soooo so so centered on personal emphasis & meaning being bestowed upon specific artworks despite them being very unpersonal objects (after they get out of the artist's hands, that is,) in stark comparison to the way that art that can belong to/be seen/be consumed any random fucking person alive in the modern age has been the only existential buoy in my life for a very very very long time. in my lowest times, instead of killing myself i go stand in art museums and think about how much love and creativity is innate in humanity despite times of crisis and war and disease and all of the fucking agonies and everything going wrong and having no control over it. ha ha. it's always been a balm to me, to remember that there is goodness and love preserved in artwork, and that artwork is tougher and longer-lasting than you'd initially think, and that it's always there waiting for me to come back to it and see it in a different emotional state to find new meanings in it. this is the same as how theo thinks about the painting thru different times in his life!! going from needing it desperately as a connection to his mom, obsessively as a comfort, and then reviling it for being a representation of his life's biggest trauma and yet still tending to it and caring for it, to the heartache of losing it and the relief of retrieving it with the one person who genuinely loves him as an act of devotion and apology for a previous betrayal....all while navigating how systems in power are neglectful and uncaring and capitalistic. it's all just So Much To Me.....

and I know the middle chapters where theo just goes on and on about the intricacies of antique forgery aren't as fun and sexy as the vegas chapters with boris (underage drug abuse and gay sex WHEEEEEE) OR the actual criminal chapters at the end (mysterious borderline-noir criminal heist slash subtextual romcom), but they're soooo so poignant to me. because in my own little life, curating the art and music around me and finding beauty and importance and symbolism in these subtle things is a vital central axis that i need to have, much like i need a nice bed or a good meal or a glass of clean water. much of how i cope and navigate the world is very deeply focused around art & art analysis, and I think the only other book i've read that articulated that sort of feeling quite as eloquently would be john berger's way of seeing, which is an academic and analytical text. but i just love fiction so much, so to have tgf as the extremely emotional fiction option to go along w my nonfiction art thesis books that are tonally very prim and objective and well organized..... DELICIOUS. i love it. and i love a fictive narrative built upon tragedy. i love works that call back to each other in conversation, and stories that cannot exist without the foundation of Something Else Existing A Millennia Prior. i love comparing works and establishing what makes them similar or different but how they approach the same themes. and i love to see characters (THEO. boris. pippa. hobie. andy.) that i can identify with who struggle with similiar problems i have, because it makes it easier for me to get thru my own life. this isn't groundbreaking reasoning though, that's just how every human alive consumes art and content. of course we look for ourselves in fiction. of course we as individuals want to find things that we relate to.

and also in a purely self-indulgence way, I also looooooove it when media is unbearably long and i can get completely entranced and study it closely and always be able to find new details that throw the whole story into a completely new light, which I think tgf does very well because it's almost 900 pages LMAO. every time i reread it there's a new nuanced angle for me to think about actions and thoughts leading into consequences and i just eat that up every single time.......

but despite all of this i do recognize that tgf is not everyone's cup of tea. like it's genuinely one of the most meaningful texts in my heart but i completely understand how it can be long, and boring, and melodramatic, and a bit insane, and convoluted, and pompous, and not worth the time to get from cover to cover.

but it is worth the time. to me.

[our-transmasculine-experience]

I started getting the Gender Feelings in 7th grade, when we were having a ballroom dancing unit(?) in our fine arts class. Since there were more girls than boys, the girls partnered up and had to choose who would be the lead. I took the traditional "boy part" and since I was an overdramatic theater kid, I took my position as "the man" seriously. What a surprise it was to feel some stirring of gender euphoria as being perceived in a masculine way, even if it was literally just for 20 mins of dancing around. I had a little existential crisis for the next week XD and started experimenting around with my presentation. Years later and I'm still a rockin boy!

i’m not saying this to invalidate your experience but that actually made me laugh. well, looks like it worked out huh? i’ve had stuff like that too but i always just assumed it was related to my attraction to women rather than related to my gender.

tbh the first thing that i recall making me euphoric was when my friends were flipping their hair over and putting it in their hoods to look like a boy and i did the same thing. i did that in the mirror and realized i liked it a bit too much.

i have so many other experiences from when i was a kid that pointed to me being trans (which i thought were normal? asked my cis friends and no it’s not). i could make a whole post about it lmao

[niqhtlord01]

man, i love your writing, but i really dont like the use of ai imagery. i feel like i cant ethically support your stuff if youre gonna tack ai pictures onto it, given ai is all trained on stolen stuff, yknow?

It is understandable given the current climate of AI.

I've made my thoughts about AI related content known with previous posts. To me it is just a fun medium to help expand my stories into a visual perspective. The majority of pictures I posted have either the artist name attached to it or specifically calls out that it is AI generated so there is no confusion. The only art I do claim partial ownership to are the pieces I have paid for with commissions from real artists, who are also then tagged in them as well.

And as always, if an artist stepped forward and gave me proof that a piece I posted used stolen designs from one of their pictures I would credit them as well in the sense of fairness.

That being said the majority of my stories do not include AI generated artwork. Out of the 550+ stories I have written I would wager maybe 40 have an AI image attached to them.

Stories of love an loss, real world social problems, massive scifi battles and duels, and the occasional funny bit of a human having an existential crisis when an Alien thinks that pacman must keep devouring pills to keep the ghosts of his past from getting him and destroying any semblance of a hopeful future.

The pictures may be AI, but the stories they stand for are still all me :)