#and there's 5 people ever who post about this podcast but they're all lovely it's just. more please

[literary-heights]

genuinely so upsetting how much i like nqd. it's like insane how good it is and i've never liked something so intensely that a thousand other people didn't like as much

[mariusperkins]

for the writing asks: 2, 10, 28, 33, 41, 42!

2. Go to your AO3 “Works” page, to the sidebar with all the filters, and click the drop-down arrow for “Additional Tags.” What are your top 3-5 most used tags? Do you think they accurately represent your writing habits?

honestly I think more than what they say about my fics, they accurately represent my need to make my AO3 tags as businesslike as possible lol

10. How do you decide what to write?

It can be a lot of things, I mean, I'm sure we're all familiar with watching an episode of something (or reading a book, or watching a movie, or whatever) and thinking like "well, okay, but what if THIS had happened" or "but what did THIS OTHER CHARACTER think about what happened", but apart from that it can be almost anything - cool fanart (honestly SO much of @wereshrew-admirer's art but most recently for relax we've time to spare (friends at the table)), a character I wish got more screen time (never did run smooth (the artful dodger), Rita Minute: Origins (the penumbra podcast), hand in glove (bridgerton)), a line in an episode (Five Calls Between Thisbe and The Witch In Crystal (friends at the table)), a fan theory that didn't pan out in canon (the long journey through the void of life (fantasy high)), or just plain ol' "can't stop thinking about this thing" ( I'm Not An Angel But At Least I'm A Girl (hello mary lou: prom night 2), Greetings From Nowhere (wish you were here) (lisa frankenstein), Final Girls Club (friday the 13th movie series), social media strategy for the unknown (knives out)) - really, I kind of just write whatever idea I can't stop thinking about. Whenever I get a new idea it goes in it's own google doc with as many notes as I can get down about the idea at the time (with links to whatever inspired it, if it's linkable), and then if it gets fleshed out enough (aka I'm so obsessed with the idea that I start writing it immediately) it goes into the spreadsheet I use to plan out my posting schedule.

28. Does anyone read your fics before you post them? If so, who?

I post too much to put someone through that schedule lol

33. If you write chaptered fics, what’s your ideal chapter length to write? Is it different from your ideal chapter length to read?

This is going to sound very like, horribly algorithmic, but when I'm writing out chapters or a multi-part thing, I try to make it so they're all of about the same length (generally, at least 1k, although if it's something that's multi-chapter it probably means it need the room, so likely around 3-4k). It's less of a like, 'optimising people's calculated reading time' venture capital bullshit and more like, I think it helps my pacing not go totally off the rails or spend more time on one character over another if I'm wanting to do an even-ish pov split.

My ideal length chapter to read is as much as there is written, read multiple times over until the next update (you'd better believe I do this with all of @msharmonycobel's gilded age fics).

41. Link a fic that made you think, “Wow, I want to write like that.”

I truly do go back to Reciprocation (merlin) by astolat any time I'm trying to write someone falling in love without knowing it, I feel like this fic does such an incredible job of cluing you into what's actually happening without it ever going out of Arthur's pov. It's funny, it's sexy, it's got heart! Areas of expertise (It) by dudski is another one I return to all the time, it's so funny and light and mostly outsider pov, touching on meta jokes about the It fandom and fandom/how internet culture snowballs (positive) as a whole, and all the voices really shine. And I really should say All the Worlds Between (x-men first class) by manic_intent, a role-swap fic that I would recommend to anyone trying to write role swap fics, it does such a good job of figuring out the points that would need to diverge from canon without it feeling like a complete personality transplant for either character, and figuring out the ways they would still align and fit together.

Also, if it's not to cliche to say since everyone who came within breathing distance of early marvel fandom heard about this fic, but 4 minute window (CA:TWS) by Speranza - if I can write anything that affects someone as profoundly as I feel when I get to the line "I can hold the line at two dogs" I will leave this earth feeling as though I have accomplished all I needed to (I mean, even setting aside the worldbuiling and fleshing out this fic does of canon, the layers it gives everyone inside it, it's the first time in the fic we hear Steve say something hopeful about the future! Something without this ragged edge to it! It lives in my mind and heart every day, rent free).

42. Have you ever received a comment that particularly stood out to you for whatever reason?

Any comment that I received on Blue Moon (les miserables) during it's literal ten year hiatus between chapters - just the fact that people came across it (or even came back to it!) over the -again- literal ten years that it did not update... it means so much to me. I mean, every comment does, really. I've been doing this for a while but it still kind of blows me away that people want to ready anything I write, let alone more than once. I mean, I like what I write, but I also think the movie Waterworld (1995) is the greatest movie ever made, so I cant trust my judgement.

ask me!

[thebrightsessions]

Hi !

I just finished the brights sessions and in one of the episode D. Bright said that the atypical represented 4% of the world's population, and that let me wondering, considering that almost every atypical that we encounter in the serie is queer, what percent of the queer community is atypical ?

Apart from that, i love your show and all of the amazing character! I hope you have a great day !

Oooh GREAT question! Lemme do some quick math here...

Okay, according to my universe bible (which is pretty accurate, if not fully comprehensive, I'm sure there's stuff I forgot to write down), there are 29 known and named atypicals across the 7 seasons of the podcasts, excluding the Bright Sides (Season 5, the bonus episodes) and the three books (though there is some overlap) but including Frank Sawyer and Sadie Greenwood, who are, like...atypical-adjacent.

Of those 30 atypicals (presuming I counted correctly (does this post have enough parentheticals yet?)), 14 are definitely canonically queer in one way or another. So, by that logic, nearly half of the atypical population is queer! I have a feeling that number would go up if I were to go through and pull out all the folks from the books and the bonus episodes (which perhaps I will do someday but I don't know the orientation of all the bonus ep characters (bc they were created by other people) and pulling out characters from the books is always a mess because, uh, I do not outline lol) but I also don't know that I can say our little atypical population is fully representative of the global population's queerness? Like flocks to like, so perhaps this a somewhat self-selecting bunch, or maybe there really is just a very high correlation between being atypical and being queer. Dealer's (fanfic writer and headcanon-er's) choice!

Counts under the cut:

Known Atypicals:

characters who are canonically queer are bolded - these are characters who either have queer relationships or talk specifically about their identity. some folks on this list are straight (Frank, Sadie, Marley, Jackson, Blackwell, (though tbf, Sadie is the only person in the whole series who ever says they're straight I'm pretty sure, so who knows)), but there are plenty who we never say one way or another, so anything is possible!

Sam Barnes Caleb Michaels Chloe Turner Frank Sawyer Robert "Damien" Gorham Mark Bryant Rose Atkinson Franklin "Frankie" Meeks Sadie Greenwood Ben Bernard Oliver Ritz Margaret "Mags" Densmore Jackson Crawford Jason "Marley" Beck Seamus Blackwell Michal Sharon Helen Sidney Alice Michaels Alice Rufie Jordan Tobias Sitzer Alexis Neal Cat Cam Vanessa Turner Ira Alex "Blaze" Chen Maguerite Sarai

[goldenkisscs]

one thing i'm a sucker for is mumu's and worldbuilding. if that interests you, below are some ideas i'm dying to do! note: i love to connect characters and have family/friends plot too. i'm just delulu enough to connect all of mine and your characters together. these are all just ideas, i am defs open to any plots you may have! please reach out or like this post if interested and i will message you <3

lifestyles of the rich and famous - celeb mumu! i'm talking musicians and actors and models and influencers and athletes and anything else you can think of. do not all have to be famous, just somehow in the industry (photographer, podcasters, etc) some plot ideas:

1. celeb x celeb plot. the most supportive couple ever. they're always going to each other's shows/events/games etc. can be cute but also room for lots of angst and drama!! 2. kardashian style plot. a family who's been reality tv gold for years and years. always up to theatrics, always being talked about by everyone. you either love them or hate them. 3. musician x musician plot. they're hot and cold, people are always wondering if they're broken up or together again, write an incredible amount of songs about each other. imagine all the sweet lovey songs and then all the depressed sad ones when they're in a bad place. 4. band plots!! girl bands like little mix. bands like the beaches. allllll the bands pls. 5. mainstream celeb x their onlyfans creator partner. enough said

famous in a small town - small town mumu! give me the local watering hole everyone goes to, the cute bookstore down the street, the local bed and breakfast. think a mix of star hollows and cowboys?? some plot ideas:

1. big city person x small town baddie. so many ideas. opposites attract?? maybe city person is famous and moves to a small town to "get away from it all" and small town baddie treats them like a regular person and big city can't help but be enamored?? grumpy/sunshine?? sooo many ideas 2. hart of dixie plot. similar to above i just wanted to specifically point out city dr moves to small town and gets tangled up with the local rancher or bartender or something 3. rich kid x wrong side of the track. come from totally different backgrounds but opposites attract amirite?? 4. momtok inspired group of friends yes i binged secret lives of mormon wives. ladies who became friends through social media and love to show that being a mom doesn't have to be one's entire personality. all come from the same extremely religious backgrounds, varying levels of commitment to said religion (does not have to be a huge plot point) 5. tattoo shop owner x sunshiney floral shop owner who's stores are right next door to each other.

[alexhornefan]

ALEX HORNE & GREG DAVIES - extended version- THEY LIKE TO WATCH podcast P.2

I reached the character limit so had to make a new post! Here's part two.

Asked about pets, Alex said they had the snail, chickens and a tortoise, but they'd all gone and now they have a dog.

Greg talks about how disappointing the Taskmaster house is to visit. Alex says there have been three proposals there and two of them they invited them in to propose. Alex discourages people from turning up to the house though. Greg suggests fans try and find out where himself or Alex lives and stalk them instead. They talk about taking selfies with fans and Greg says they're both quite tolerant with it all. Greg says having had a real job he doesn't forget how lucky he is with his career. Alex asks Greg asks about people who use a timer with a countdown from 5 which he finds very irritating.

Greg tells a story about he and Ed Gamble going to a bar in Norwich and it was a student night and because of The Inbetweeners they were swamped with people wanting selfies. Greg says the management asked them to stay and they'd buy their drinks all night, so they did. Greg said Ed hadn't done much TV then so he was taking the pictures and was deliberatly cutting Greg's head out of the pictures and people would be thrilled but then end up joning the queue again for another picture because of Ed.

Alex talks about acting and says that he thinks he's really good and even Greg says he's really good. Greg interrupts and says Alex is being self-effacing and that he does think he can act. Greg said he was surrised and that Alex could do a role quite nicely. Alex said he does have the fantasy of being asked to be in Snatch 2 and being asked to play a cool, hard-guy. Greg says he doesn't know if he sees that and Alex insists that he can. Asked if he likes the idea of not having to do much work in an acting role, with someone else doing all the writing, Alex says he does like that. He said he has a small part in a Sam Campbell pilot and because someone dropped out, he did the part. He does go on to say that he found the waiting boring with acting. Alex said he got the role mostly because they were filming in the town where he lived.

Greg talks about choosing friends who won't be bothered about his height and make a big deal about it. He tells the story of the short guy in a pub wanting to fight him, and Greg's even shorter mate hitting the guy over the head with a moped helmet.

Greg talks about the Kes documentary he made. He talks about watching or reading bleak things and that he can't handle it any more. He says he is too sensitive now. Alex says he can still watch bleak things and says he watched Tyrannosaur and it's very bleak but he really liked it. Greg says the last bleak thing he watched was Dead Man's Shoes.

Alex says Stephen Graham was very close to doing TM as he really likes it, but the filming schedules didn't work. Alex says about what a great actor Stephen is and that he came over to Greg and Alex at an event and Alex said how lovely and giggly he was to meet.

Alex talks about the sport he watches and watching Strictly Come Dancing. Asked if they'd ever do it, Alex said they were asked the other day by Shirley Ballas. Greg says you should never so no, and it's an amazing institution and Greg would prefer to watch than take part. Alex says Greg would be the best booking on strictly. Greg states that Alex is a very stiff person and Ales agrees and says there are times when he does loosen up, but being on BBC on Saturday nights wouldn't help. Greg looks like he's riding ontop of a hoverboard.

Greg says he doesn't watch comedy when he's writing as he's a sponge and will start to copy the style. He says he watches documentaries and he's recently been watching Last stop Larrimahr and Riders for Justice.

They talk about crying watching things and Greg says he doesn;t cry much. Alex asks if he feels it coming on and stops himself, but Greg says no, and he will cry as he thinks it's good to cry. He talks about going to a concert and getting their late with a GF and a song started and he started crying but noticed that not only was his GF crying, everyone else was as well.

Greg asks Alex if he can remember the last time he had an actual cry and he says no. He said the new John Lewis Christmas ad made him feel like he could cry if he let himself.

Asked about Taskmaster and how shows can be messed up, Alex is asked about how he had a brilliant idea and how every step along the way, Alex made it wonderful. Alex says Andy D is responsible for the look of the show. Alex said that they asked Greg and Frank at the same time and told both of them that the other one was doing the show to help convince them. Greg says he knew Alex a little bit and that their personality types worked well together. Alex puts it down to a lot of luck. Greg says it wasn't that weird because they did no each other at the start because of being in comedy.

They have a brief chat about the opening credits with beards, Alex having a beard since he got married.

[niuniente]

Have you ever heard of a podcast called Monstrous Agonies? It's an advice segment for creatures of the night, and I think it's really good. (They're also here on tumblr @monstrousagonies.) Asking because I realized you've reblogged the same types of posts as they have, which tells me you have similar tastes in at least some things, and also because I always want to share things I think are awesome. (All their episodes have transcripts, so one can read the stuff if listening to it might be a problem; great for ADHD, also great for when there was noisy construction going on outside.)

I listen to non-fiction podcasts (and videos) a lot! Especially when drawing. I will give a try to this podcast series, even though it's fictional.

I typically listen to peoples' experiences, like near-death experiences, cryptid encounters, paranormal encounters etc. My newest favorite is The Why Files, which is an investigating journalism channel or various topics as different paranormal encounters, CIA, UFOs, conspiracy theories like is the Moon a man-made object, secret USA military projects, time traveling etc. Always with the question "Is this REALLY true and if not, here are the facts supporting it and if yes, here are the facts supporting that". Highly fascinating and well composed, unbiased series!

Other channels I listen to are

Mom on the spectrum Taylor, a mom of 2, tells about her journey to autism diagnosis at the age of 32, and about life as an autistic, adult woman. Very informative, not a v-blog.

Weird World Stories of peoples' paranormal encounters, glitches in the matrix, past lives etc. unexplainable.

Darkness Prevails The best channel for all kinds of paranormal encounters! Contains tons of cryptid encounters, too.

Dogman Encounters An online "radio" program which interviews face-to-face people who have encounteres dogmen cryptids.

Raven Reads Tons of paranormal encounters of myriad of kinds! Typically sent to Raven directly. Raven also makes 5-10h long video compilations.

Absolute History Super amazing British history channel with short episodes of varied historical topics! These are made to be watched but you can follow them by listening, too.

What Lurks Beneath I haven't been listening to this channel much after it changed its format but the older episodes, which are just read compilations of peoples' paranormal experiences are amazing, especially the military encounters. These helped me to stay sane when I was recovering from a surgery and was in agony.

Paranormal Rising Another excellent channel for all kinds of paranormal experiences people have reported to have!

Anita Moorjani Official I love Anita and listen to her videos whenever I can. Anita is a spiritual speaker and a teacher, helping people to discover their own joyous lives.

Irish in Finland As it says, an Irish man lives in Finland with his Finnish wife. He makes lots of videos about Finnish mythology, history and ancient culture. Probably the best source for Finnish folklore history!

NDE Diary People tell about their near-death experiences. This is one of the best NDE channels if you ask me, as some of the American run NDE channels concentrate on NDEs which align only with Christian values. I want to listen to all kinds of experiences, not just something which supports one religion's views.

Thanatos TV EN An English version (dubbed) of a German channel, which interviews face-to-face German people who have had near-death experiences. Updates rarely but the quality is good.

SPECIAL MENTION - TO WATCH うさぎ村Ch - UsagimuraCh Usagimura - literally Rabbit Forest - is a Japanese breeder who breeds small rabbits. She always introduces newborn bunnies and follows their growth for a month. Videos have English subtitles, if you click them open. This is my happy mood channel!

[pbandjesse]

I was so anxious about coming to camp today but honestly it's been a perfectly lovely day. Even if I was incredibly tired at times. It was a good time. The energy feels better. And that's really nice.

After I finish my post last night I would end up taking a second shower because I wanted to wash my hair. And I cleaned the frog tank a bit because the snails were outrageous. But it was a nice night and me and James went to sleep around 1:00. Should have gone to bed earlier but it's hard when you don't want to stop hanging out together. You don't want the next day to start yet.

I didn't sleep great. For one it wasn't enough sleep but for two I just keep waking up with all the anxiety and I'm going to miss my alarm clock. For no reason. And I would get up at 7:10 which was 20 minutes later than I had wanted but not because I missed my alarm. I just kept changing the alarm ending because I was so tired. I would get up and scream out loud and was just so unhappy to be awake. I would wash my face and get dressed but I was just miserably tired. James was very clearly not in a great place either.

They would help me collect my stuff and I had a brownie for breakfast that I would bring with me. James carried a box outside for me and said on the stoop while I was leaving. It was nice but I got to see their face right before I left. And it wasn't a bad drive to work I was just exhausted. I listen to a podcast and tried to stay positive.

The weather was beautiful today It was so nice and cool compared to the last few weeks. And I was just really comfortable which was great. When I got to camp I didn't have to clean up too much from people doing stuff this weekend thankfully. And I didn't need to do a ton of stuff to set up for the projects. Mostly I was just arranging the tables and making things nice and tidy. But I desperately desperately wanted to lay down.

It had been a struggle to keep my eyes open while I was driving to camp. I would finish setting up and then I laid in my hammock for the next hour. Until it was time for my first group.

And all of my groups were great today obviously. All the kids have been so nice so far this year. The teenage boy did absolutely clock me by asking me why all the adults are wearing platform Crocs now. And I'm like because they're comfortable. And the other teenage boy said eh and she's got spikes because she's punk rock! And I thought that was a very funny.

I was a little nervous because we were doing bead lizards and it is hard to learn how to do it. And I did give everyone the out that they did not have to make a bead lizard if they did not want to learn that skill they could make a bracelet instead or a necklace. But it was for sure one of those things and I'm like okay this is going to be tough but I successfully taught like a good portion of the kids how to make the lizards. I had pulled out some giant wooden beads so that I could explain how to put them through the string in an x pattern so that it pinches the way it needs to. And I was really proud of them the ones that were diligent and accomplished it. Some of them just were not interested and that's fine. As long as they're not being terribly disruptive I'm not going to ever force anyone to do anything. I'm just going to encourage.

I was a little frustrated by this one little boy who would not stop asking when the program was over. I was like it's an hour and you've been here for 5 minutes. And I'm like what are you waiting for? And he just wanted to swim. And I was like okay well you're going to have two programs before swim every day so I think you need to find some joy in the programs or you're going to have a miserable time. I totally understand wanting to only swim but it's cold right now and you won't enjoy it anyway. And he just kept like pouting and I'm like and whatever but you're going to have a bad time if you keep that attitude it's not serving you. He seemed better by the end of the hour. He had found that he liked the hammocks and he likes some of the toys. And I hope you enjoyed climbing tower which was their second program.

Second program did go a lot better for me though. More kids understood how to do the beads and I was very happy with them being able to complete it. They were also just good boys and I thought that their counselors were silly but you know whatever. It was a good morning.

Lunch was okay. The non-vegetarian version looked so sad. It was a very very pale chicken sandwich. Like one very sad chicken breast on a bun. The vegetarian version was at least breaded and I put mayo and tomato and lettuce on it and at least was interesting then. I did eat a little bit of my salad later in the day. I was kind of grazing all day rather than actually enjoying meals. Nothing really tasted like anything today I think I may be getting sick. But that's not acceptable. So I have to focus on not being sick. And eating is part of that.

I would go and enjoy my half hour break after I ate. They can't tried to show up 15 minutes early and I was like absolutely not go do something else. And I felt a little embarrassed but I have really have to set that boundary. You cannot be showing up 15 minutes early. It's just not going to happen. Go play Gaga. Go take them to the field. I don't care what you do but you can't do it here. And I know that that's probably annoying to some people but honestly I wouldn't make you come back 15 minutes early from your break so please don't make me come back from mine.

And they were till about it and they went to play a game. And would come back on time. They were day camp and both day camps would do very good. But I had day camp one today and take him one was hilariously little. Just so tiny. So I decided to not even attempt to make them do lizards and instead we talked about measuring and cutting string and then coming to pick your color beads and then they would bead a bracelet or a necklace. Annoyingly I had under judged how big their heads were for necklaces. So we did our best with that but most of them ended up with bracelets. And I think they did really good. And then they just played in the hammocks and held some animals and played the instruments and it was a good day.

My last couple of day was Denali. And those girls were so nice. I had essentially three small groups doing different things. I had a group of girls inside who were doing metal stamping and embroidery. I had girls outside making bracelets. And then I had some girls doing gimp which I have never understood how to do but zari their counselor did know how to do it so she was showing a few of them. They were becoming very frustrated but by the end they had at least started and they were doing a good job. It's always that starting block apparently is the hardest part.

I would also show some of the girls how to make the bead lizards as well. And I made one for Daisy, one of the new international counselors, and she made a big fuss about how cute it was. I made it pink with purple toes. And I am glad she liked it.

I was really excited to be done though because while I was really nervous about the new schedule and worried that there would be a bunch of changes, my schedule essentially stayed exactly the same and I'm so thrilled about that. But it is still very tough having five groups, or sometimes six or seven groups a day. Today was five and so I was done at 3:30 and that was excellent.

I would sit outside and eat some of my salad and Read my book for a while. Charlotte came in to borrow some string and she is making an embroidery of her and Kate's one cat that passed away on Friday. She actually had started the embroidery before the cat passed away and it was just serendipitous. He died super randomly and everyone is really upset about it. When me and James got the text yesterday me and Joe started crying in the car. I feel horrible for them I don't know what I would do if it was my cat. I would not be at work for one thing. I think I would be losing it. But I'm glad that Charlotte would come and sit with me for a while and tell me about him and I hope that her embroidery continues to go well. She did get blood on it and I thought it was funny that she came to me to ask how to get blood out of clothing. Baking soda, Tide pen, or whitening toothpaste all work fabulously.

Want Charlotte was done getting her string I would collect my stuff and head down to my cabin. I had brought some clothes that were clean and new towels. I forgot my laundry bag here so I didn't have as many new things to bring in but I have so many clothes here so it does not matter. And I would put that away and I went through all my box of clothes and refolded stuff and pick things out to bring home. I feel very overwhelmed by how many clothes I have just in general right now and Jess said she's going to come and help me go through everything soon. Not sure when that is because we're both so busy but I hope that we can find time.

I would end up laying down to watch a video and fell asleep for a half an hour. When I woke up at 5:40 I was so ridiculously dizzy. And I was like okay dinner is at 6:00 and it's pasta and I want to go even though I'm not particularly hungry. And so I forced myself to get up and I went to get my water and then I walked over to the dining hall and I was just so dizzy and I couldn't shake it off. Like the whole world felt like it was in out and out it was awful. And then when I got to the dining hall I found it it wasn't pasta it was meatloaf and I was not thrilled. But they had made me a vegetarian one and made a red sauce with no onions and so I was like oh thank you so much like it's going to be great. And I have never in my life spit food out so quickly. It tasted horrible. And I think it was not the food I think it was me. Because the roll and butter tasted bad too and everyone around me was saying how great everything was and I was like this is the worst thing I've ever put in my mouth. It tasted rancid and I am sure it was just me because I would throw it away almost immediately and drink water and then I went up to arts and crafts building to try to eat something else and everything I've put in my mouth has tasted off and wrong. And that makes me nervous because that is what happens when I get sick. I don't feel sick besides that. Now that the dizziness is worn off I feel fine. So I don't know why my sense of taste has gone all sideways.

I would spend the next couple hours of arts and crafts. I would stop at the office to say hello to everyone and tell them my weird food experience for the evening. And grab my big water bottle before I went to arts and crafts to lay my hammock and read my book. I realized I have forgotten my battery pack at home so I was like oh it's okay I got my charger but for some reason I also don't have that? So I had to steal the one I have in the car. And that's fine. Not a big deal. Just a little annoying. So I let my phone sit in the art building to charge while I finished my book. Girl interrupted was good. It wasn't as narratively linear as I was expecting based on the movie but I still enjoyed it. I really liked how it was laid out with the medical documents inside of it and also the relationship to Vermeer's paintings. I'm excited to start my next book tomorrow I guess?

Once I finish my book I would pack my backpack up with some snacks to bring down to the cabin to keep in the fridge. My yogurt and some of the chocolates and the caramel rice cakes. Just a couple things I have in here at night time and even for breakfast tomorrow. I also made a very silly little sandwich with a Hawaiian roll peanut butter and a piece of chocolate. Honestly not the best but I don't have any jelly right now. I'm working with what I got.

I just came back down here not too long ago. I been sitting outside riding my post while the sunset. I can hear all the kids that evening program and they should be finishing up soon and doing mail call before bed. CJ will probably be down in the next hour or so and I'm hoping that we can just get a very easy night's rest. I'm going to go change in my pajamas now. And maybe I'll put a video on in just relax and try to sleep earlier tonight.

Tomorrow should be a good day. Good kids good project. The weather should not be too bad. It's going to get warmer as the week goes on but I'm not that worried about it. I hope that you guys will have a great night tonight and I hope that tomorrow I can find more wine berries to eat because they're starting to pop up and I'm really excited about it. I've been walking around just popping as many berries as I can find. It's really early in the season for them still so a lot of them aren't ready but I'm very excited when I find ones that are. They are for sure my favorite fruit.

Sleep well my friends. Until tomorrow.

[matchamenace]

I posted 880 times in 2022

That's 880 more posts than 2021!

38 posts created (4%)

842 posts reblogged (96%)

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@electricwalkman

@theamiableanachronism

@1980s-jean-ralphio

I tagged 648 of my posts in 2022

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Longest Tag: 138 characters

#everytime i think about him i get the weirdest mixture of joy and sadness and i just wanna curl up in a ball and cry and/or possibly vomit

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

Who is your stranger things tumblr bestie :)

Oh man I don't have just one bestie, but the peeps I'm closest to are probably:

@dxncingwithastrxnger

@bcyoureallthatmakessense

@claire-de-lune

@purpleangelsele

Of course there's plenty of other blogs I adore that I just haven't interacted with as much, but perhaps one day that'll change 😌

7 notes - Posted November 26, 2022

#4

Got covid booster #2 this morning. Already starting to feel cruddy. 😭

8 notes - Posted November 14, 2022

#3

MY DARK DASH IS BACK

OH THANK GOD- MINE TOO 😭 I don't know how I ever tolerated light mode in the past ahaksks

8 notes - Posted November 16, 2022

#2

Fuck, Marry, Kill

Hopper

Murray

Steve

🥰😌

OH FUCK WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO ME CLAIRE??? 🤣🤣🤣🤣

AHSHSJDJDJDK OKAY!! Kill Murray for sure (he's one of my least favorites, sorry not sorry 🙈) Fuck Hopper 😜, Marry Steve 😘

Ok this actually wasn't hard at all lmao. Just very telling... 👀

11 notes - Posted October 25, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Who are some of your favorite Mileven blogs and why? Let’s spread some positivity and smiles on this fine Friday🌻🐛🌼 then tag 3 other blogs to keep the smiles going.

Oh goodness!! Let's see here agsjsksksk

@dxncingwithastrxnger ABSOLUTE KING 👑🔥🔥🔥 Nothing but good vibes and the fluffiest fics and headcanons you'll ever read!! 🙌 They put SO much thought and care into their posts and are just such a pleasure to interact with 😋💕 Honestly my go-to if I'm looking for lighthearted, feel-good content. (ILY ALEX!!!!!!!! 👋)

@purpleangelsele ACTUAL CINNAMON ROLL ✨ (Sweet with a hint of spice 😎👉👉) Probably one of the friendliest people I've met online lol! Doesn't matter what I post, I can always count on Sel to give me some sort of engagement and I fkin love it!! 🤣 As for their content it's mostly fun and cute headcanons, but they definitely don't shy away from the occasional hot take or petty post 😌 Tons of personality. Great sense of humor. LOVE THEM!!! 💜💜💜

@mikes-pineapple-pizza Incredibly articulate and astute observations!! 🙌✨ Has a knack for breaking down a variety of ST topics (including, but not limited to Mileven) in a way that's intelligent, but also very chill and unpretentious. Idk. Their content just really speaks to me and I think they're super cool. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Fr tho, this person could make a podcast just analyzing anything in the show and I would EAT IT UP!!!! 🔥🔥🔥

@claire-de-lune Ah man the duality of Claire.... 🤣🤣🤣 Deliciously petty, but simultaneously has some of the sweetest and unique headcanons to offer! �� A VERY passionate Mileven defender who won't take shit from nobody, but an absolute delight to have on your side 😜💕

@lenorahills @fricchead @rllybritrlly @pumpkingface BITCHIN' ARTISTS!!! Each have such cute and unique illustration styles, and it's ridiculous how excited I get everytime they post new content asksksk 🙈💕 As an artist myself, I could not recommend them more 🙌

Anyway I think I'm gonna end descriptions here, but here's some other Mileven blogs I adore:

@truessences @teafiend @flamingfalcon3 @bcyoureallthatmakessense @pjo-fan17 @elsmike @crisperia @reganx2 @mikewheely

It definitely doesn't end there, but I'm feeling lazy today, so I sincerely apologize to anyone I might've excluded! I still love and appreciate you all!!! 😘

25 notes - Posted October 15, 2022

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[theunaestheticstudyblr]

hi! I just came across your blog and I'm loving these realistic tips on living uni life ❤️

coincidentally, I had my finals today and i opened Tumblr and found your blog lol

So, I get a lot of exam anxiety before any type of exam but the worst part is, I can't get myself to study on time. Anytime I approach the material, it feels terrifying and I end up not giving my best. I used to be able to do well (you know those kids who used to do really well until high school?)

What would you suggest I could do to at least get some motivation to start and be consistent?

Hey love!!! I'm glad you enjoy my blog!!! I definitely have been there as probably have many people. You go from never having to study to suddenly being overwhelmed and so far behind everyone because you have no clue what to do. A big part of this stems from looking at EVERYTHING. all the content is so overwhelming. And can make you spiral especially if you have mental health issues like me.

My biggest piece of advice is make review sheets for each topic. A review sheet contains any vocab, species, important ideas, people, and main concepts. They're typically a page maybe two in length. They're a great reference point and make things seem more manageable. Instead of looking at 10 pages of notes, it's just 2.

How I structure them in a way that helps me (you SHOULD play around with the structure and information you put in there to make them suit you) is I put all the main topics. Basically my main bullet points/headers. Just list them. Then I identify key terms/vocab. Then I make a species list if I have species I need to know. Then I list key concepts and ideas. I leave a little space at the end to make note of any topics I definitely struggle with. Or questions that I had while making the pages. These questions highlight areas that I'm not comfortable with and help direct my focus when I'm short on time.

As for ACTUALLY getting yourself to study, that's much harder. What works well for me, having OCD, is I make a ritual out of it. I go to the library and get the same coffee and snack and go to the same area of the library and sit down and lay my stuff out and get started. If I'm distracted or fidgety or something, I let myself have 10 minutes to just wander and whatever. I don't ever force myself to do something. Basically imagine you're a 5 year old kid and you're trying to tutor that kid. If they're distracted and stuff, you're not going to yell at them and tell them how awful they are because they can't sit down and focus. You let them play and get the distractions out of the way and then after you try again. That's how you have to treat yourself to. Get up, walk around a bit. Get you some water and fruit. Maybe read a bit. And then when you get bored of that, come back and get work done. If you are mean to yourself you'll never be able to have a healthy relationship with studying and academia. And school is much more enjoyable when you give yourself the patience and grace you'd give to a kid.

As for before a test, I actually JUST finished a post about things to do before a test and for you, I would recommend relaxing. Just tune the world out and do whatever you like to do to relax. Music, podcast, read, a phone game, doodle, whatever. Just distract your brain until it's test time and remember that failing isn't the end of the world. Even if you fail every test and class and get kicked out of school (this won't happen by the way), you're still you. You're still a valuable person and you can always go back to another school and try again.

Sorry that was long so tldr: take breaks, shrink the information down, treat yourself with kindness, patience, and understanding. Let yourself be distracted and don't tie your worth to your school. And give yourself little treats!

[fallingsunflower]

There's a quote in the movie that someone says 'he took from 1D the best core of 1D fans' about louis' fanbase, and I couldn't agree more. After following the careers of all the 5 members for years, I've actually come to realise that louis' fans are absolutely the best. The dedication, love, support they have for him is unimaginable. And honestly? Harry's are the worst (not all of course). He does alot just for people to circle back to his sexuality and personal life like ???? Nothing he ever does is enough for them and treating him like a sexual object is just so damn offensive. Niall's fanbase is just like him i think. So sunny and vibrant and happy go lucky kind of people. I mean of course there are always the bad example but i think they're those who are relatively young. Like 15-18 years old because i remember what happened with Amelia when the news came out that they were dating. Zayn's fans are so content deprived 💀. They have to make do with a picture of his hand in someone else's post or his shadow but yeah, they seem so cooooool to me. And as of liam, i obviously don't agree with whatever he said on logan paul's show/podcast and i know that he was going through a dark time but still, it wasn't very nice but yeah, liam's fans seem so collected if that makes sense? Idk. But yes that's about it. That's just my opinion though! Hope you're having a good day! ❤️‍🩹

Oh Harry absolutely has the worst fan base. I don’t even like considering myself a fan of his tbh because of them. They make it pretty miserable (again not all but just generally)

I also hope you’re having a good day 🤍🤍

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Short version: humans are absolutely moronic and boring, and as much as I respect the fact that people like it for some reason and that some alterhumans literally feed on it, I wholeheartedly believe that human society would be so much better off without recreational sex. love shouldn't be such a big deal, uncovering things in therapy shouldn't be earthshattering, fear of death is beyond stupid, and there are a lot of scientists and people in fields who just need to Stop because the "good" that comes of what they do is flimsy and frankly could've been solved by a combination of just being nonchalant about everything and also being open to the idea that if people believe it, it probably exists in some capacity.

Also sex jokes are dumb, 69 isn't a "funny number", and a lot of people need to grow up because witty jokes are automatically funnier and land better than haha glory hole or whatever.

Long version: cracks knuckles

I'll probably add to this more later but I'm bored out of my mind and need to get it out because I'm tired of not saying things for worry over hurting people's feelings.

I genuinely don't think I can put into words how beyond bored I am. Not only that, but I'm incredibly frustrated with how arrogant I come across when I'm not crunching myself down to fit on someone's level so they don't feel like I'm mocking them when I'm literally just trying to talk with them or engage in passionate conversation. I get it, I'm smart, I know things, I'm good with problem solving, but why does it seem like I'm the only one so much? If it was a sometimes thing, I'd get it, but genuinely I can't think of anyone I can just go off about things with anymore without having to slow down and break everything into smaller, more understandable pieces because explaining is all I ever do! It's all I ever do and I never get to be passionate about it! I never get to say things because I want to because people don't know what the fuck I'm talking about when to me it seems like it would be common sense!

And it's getting worse in media as time goes on! People praise stories for how well written they are, how good the mysteries and puzzles were but they're one-dimensional! We don't even get a semblance that lives are still happening as people go through things because the world just Has to get put on hold while this one character has a crisis over Ooh Spooky School Mystery - I am fucking LOOKING AT YOU, NETFLIX'S WEDNESDAY I literally solved your ENTIRE PLOT in 5 seconds because OF FACIAL STRUCTURE while knowing NOTHING about the show and that was it there was no other storyline there was no other plot there was no other meat on the bone, do FUCKING BETTER.

And YOU, Markiplier. Mr Horror Game himself, who has openly shared his experience with nightmares and night terrors and the like and how you used to avoid scary games for fear of making them worse and you finally star in a podcast that is all lead-up with no payoff, and when you star in the series it may as well be as sustainable as cotton candy in a sauna because no seriously what the hell. You're "Markiplier, bitch". You couldn't have said anything to the writers? At all? Not only that but you commit one of the cardinal sins of being an author/creator at all and you ADMIT TO YOUR AUDIENCE YOU AREN'T AS SMART AS WE THINK YOU ARE WHEN THE CORE OF WHAT YOU CREATE REVOLVES AROUND PUZZLES AND COMPLICATIONS?! ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!

And on the note of media, I literally cannot watch a show or movie, cannot listen to most damn songs, cannot read a single god-forsaken story without it having SOME sort of romantic or sexual plotline! And even when it's not the main focus, it's still key to the progression of what's actually happening! I get it, not everyone is ace or aro, that's a normal thing for most people, but why does that have to be the case?

Why is it even in the queer community when you see two people hanging out your automatic response is "oh I didn't know you two were dating" WHICH ACTUALLY HAPPENED TO ME AT ONE POINT AND I CANNOT TELL YOU HOW IMMENSELY DISAPPOINTED I WAS THAT SOMEONE LEAPT TO THAT CONCLUSION WHEN WE HAD DONE LITERALLY N O T H I N G TO INDICATE THAT WAS THE SITUATION. Not only that but with my m*ther's new boyfriend, I finally had the experience of a sleepover being mentioned and him laughing and going "So was it a sleepover or a sleepover?" Why does it fucking matter? WHY DOES IT MATTER? I have friends and we stay up late BIG WHOOP oh my lawd so scandalous! They're talking about neuroscience, how lewd!

Also, can we normalize not putting things in a sexual context? At all? Unless it is DIRECTLY A PART OF SEX AND NOTHING ELSE?

Can we normalize not wanting sex?

Can we normalize not making sex jokes and actually being smart with our humour?

Can we normalize being smart about things we do? At all?

Can we normalize stories actually being interesting and writers following the one kernel of advice I got that again seems like common sense that the job of an author/writer is to lie to the audience and then make that lie believable? Can we normalize people understanding that just because the world doesn't revolve around them doesn't mean it revolves around someone else? Can we normalize character development in real life? Can we normalize people not being absolutely terrible?

Can we normalize humans not being a literal plague of parasites because name one good thing a human has done that isn't either basic decency or is undoing some sort of harm that humans already caused? Can we normalize acknowledging that this species is objectively awful and deciding to do something about it to not be objectively awful? Can we normalize parents not being the worst thing to happen to a child?

Can we normalize being okay with death? Can we normalize death not being scary you're scared of it because after generations and generations of training yourself to be scared of change you are now programmed to be scared of change and change is literally the same thing as death and what does it matter oh no you're losing someone or something guess what that's what happens that's life "How can you say that you don't know what it's like to lose someone" my first memory was a funeral, I died before I even gained lucidity, and since then I have a list of around 40+ people and pets who I have lost that have affected me directly or by one degree of separation would you like me to fucking list them for you?

Can we normalize not giving humans stupid special treatments and then stigmatizing things like suicide? We put animals down when we as an outsider decide they have no quality of life but oh no if a human has no quality of life and they want to die they suddenly have So Much To Live For oh my gawd

And speaking of having things to live for, why have we all just collectively agreed it's fine that the things that make life "worth it" are literal torture survival methods. Life shouldn't have to be torture it should be enjoyable so why are we here

Maybe instead of worrying about how to make people live forever, doctors should be investigating WHY THE FUCK WE KEEP MAKING EVERYTHING HELL

So to sum up, humans are an idiotic, moronic, arrogant, self-isolated, ignorant, manipulative, narcissistic, exploitative, immature, unreliable, self-destructive, parasitic species of noisy, messy flesh suits who literally can't pull their act together if they tried and every day that continues without something being done is further proof of this.

When you actually sit down and think about it, psychology is really straightforward.

When you actually sit down and think about it, medicine is really straightforward.

When you actually sit down and think about it, astronomy and space related fields is ACTUALLY REALLY STRAIGHTFORWARD AND IF ANYONE HAD THE WHEREWITHAL TO NOT BE A TIGHTASS ABOUT THE NUMBERS AND METHODS AND FATHOM THAT MAYBE THERE'S SOMETHING WE DON'T HAVE RECORDED "PROOF" OF YET THAT WORKS REALLY WELL, THEN IT WOULDN'T BE SO DAMN COMPLICATED, WOULD IT?!

Oh. By the way. Explain the concept of "one".

Numbers are another language humans pretend to speak and understand when all they're doing is reciting words and phrases and concepts they don't understand more than they understand how to be humane.

Oh wait.

That's another one.

Where's the humanity in literally anything that anyone does ever.

Another thing: the things that people get excited over, 9 times out of 10, it's something frankly stupid like a building. Or some mountain. "The world looks like this and people would rather live in cities and work 9 to 5s?" they are equally boring. One is just more detrimental to you and the environment.

Oh my storms there's trees, I've never seen that before.

Wow a really big rock that I wasted 8 hours flying oversees just to walk on! Wow!

Woah, light distortion but only a really specific kind of light distortion reflected by water! That happens literally everywhere else!

I get I'm the asshole here but if you are genuinely so starved for interesting things that you find water vapor on a road interesting and not because you're invested in the science of it because hyperfixation just Happens, then genuinely how boring is your life and do I need to call someone not that it would do anything because they probably wouldn't help.

Besides, if you're really invested in traveling because you want to "see the world", pictures exist. Recreations exist. "But it's not the same" so you're going for the energy, not the sites. "No I'm going to see the-" okay and? You can literally just look up a picture of it and wow congratulations you have now Seen That Thing.

I seriously have absolutely zero hope of things getting better or this species improving as a whole because while we're out here causing problems like the nuclear bombs, we also have a non-zero chance of being invested in something like a leaf collection. Literally what good is that going to do you at making the demon core Not Dangerous

Edit 1: I hate feeling like I have to be secretly smart. I talk about anything, I'm boasting. I try to explain, I'm talking down or talking back. I try to uplift other people, I'm mocking them and rubbing it in. I get it, I'm smart and you don't think you are, I grew up on riddles and mind games you grew up on enjoying whatever distraction you were given. Doesn't change the fact that I was ignored and scolded and that I was genuinely friends with the teachers because they were closer to being on my level and I was the one always sitting alone at lunch because I was the outcast of outcasts. I get it, I'm smart to a fault. Doesn't change the fact that I connect with people intellectually and there's a crushing disappointment when I realize people don't get something.

[tellthemeerkatsitsfine]

When the comedian Gareth Richards died last year, there were all kinds of posts and things going around about him, other comedians talking about him. Everyone seemed to be saying the same main things, that he was a ridiculously kind person, that this had unfairly happened to one of the nicest people in the world and everyone else was missing out on the privilege of getting to know him.

I have to admit I only vaguely recognized the name and didn't really know who he was, and I figured from the tributes that he must have been a nice guy, but to be honest, I also assumed there must be some amount of exaggeration about how special he was, as there always is when someone dies, and to some extent, rightly so. You focus on someone when they die, that's the right thing to do. But I didn't assume he'd be likely to stand out among other comedians if he hadn't just died.

However, I've heard his podcast interview with Peacock & Gamble from the 2012 Edinburgh Festival, and I have to say this one would stand out to me, among the interviews with people I don't know, even if he hadn't died. Comedian interviews can all run together, there are standouts if they're from a comedian whose work I'm familiar with (if I like someone's comedy then I'll of course care more about what they have to say in an interview), but if I don't know they're work, they have to be pretty interesting for me to particularly notice them when they're just talking in an interview. And this guy was. I came away from this interview thinking "This is the only thing I've ever heard by this guy, but it makes me think any claims about him being a special ridiculously nice person are probably fully accurate."

The whole episode is really interesting - can be heard here - and has some great discussions about comedy and friendship and life in general. But I've cut out a clip where they talk about social anxiety (I don't mean in the clinical sense of Social Anxiety, just anxiety about social situations), because it's such an open and honest discussion and endears this guy to me so much:

This is just one clip of a larger thing, but it's all like that, a really lovely, insightful, kind discussion about how someone navigates life when feeling shy in social situations. While still being funny, there's a bit later in the episode where they do a roleplay of a difficult conversation that's hilarious and pokes at him a little without ever feeling actually mean.

I've heard a lot of famous people talk about a lot of types of anxiety in a lot of different ways, so it always feels interesting if I hear someone who manages to hit on a specific experience of anxiety that I've never heard someone put into exact words before, and the above clip did that about four different times. It was about 18 years ago now when my best friend/current roommate established the running joke with me that I have the words "fuck off" metaphorically written on my forehead, so the only people who ever end up talking to me are people who choose to ignore the sign or people who can't read, a joke I find funny and know is true due to my inability to talk to anyone I don't already know fairly well, but I also genuinely worry about it, and I have never heard it described as viscerally accurately as "I had a terrible realization in the last year or so that probably, every person I've ever gigged with probably assumes I'm a prick." (Obviously you have to make some minor changes to that sentence to apply it to my experience, taking out the word "gigged", though actually I have performed at exactly seven different open mic stand-up comedy nights, I've quite liked a lot of people there, I've found them terrifying to talk to and have been incredibly nervous around all of them and run away from any attempts they've made to chat with me even though I'd have quite liked to chat with them, one of them even made a joke in her set when she went on after me about how I seemed so nervous around everyone that I wanted nothing to do with them, so, you know, it might apply anyway.)

But it's not just about the bits I find relatable to my own experience, to be honest I wouldn't claim to be much like this guy because I could not imagine being so disarmingly open and charmingly vulnerable while still being funny and insightful. I don't have much else to say other than this is an excellent interview, well worth a listen, and would absolutely stand out in my mind among all the other interviews even if he hadn't recently died. It turns out no one was kidding about how special he was, based on how he comes across in this podcast.

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1) Artist of the image above: Jenny

2) Help Our Voices Be Heard: Sign the Petition

3) Thread of violent crimes against Asian Americans 

4) Amanda Nguyen on NBCnewyork

5) David So podcast 

6) WongFu Productions ft NextShark (asian american news) Founder Benny Lou

7) Daniel Wu and Daniel Dae Kim on msnbc

8) politicians pitting POC against each other (as per fucking usual)

hey guys, happy Lunar New Year! i really hope you’re all doing well and i wanna wish you guys a happy and healthy new year!

honestly, i wasn’t sure if i wanted to make a post about this, i’m not a very articulate person and i’m sure there are stronger voices out there. and usually i try to make my time on tumblr as positive as possible b/c let’s be real. the world is shitty and memes are my small source of fun most days. but this topic hits too close to home.

so in case you didn’t know, the hate-crimes against asian americans are fucking bad. i mean. this has been going on for years but the rise of hate-crimes has increased since COVID (obviously). and it's really really hard for me to sum up just how angry and frustrated i feel when i watch yet another video of our elders being attacked, brutalized and killed. just for being asian.

this may be the first time you’re hearing about this violence if you aren’t asian or you aren’t following asian american news because the mainstream media does not spotlight our stories. one of the main issues of this whole thing is that the media just... ignores us. because asians are the “model minority” and we have the “good stereotypes” so every hate-crime that’s ever happened to us is normalized and gets brushed under the rug or forgotten after a while. (like hi, united airlines? the rest of world may have forgotten, but we haven’t) &like the media only just recently started talking about this because people were making an uproar and applying pressure to them. and guess what? racism against asians is a real thing. we matter. we’re not fucking disposable. and like Amanda Nguyen recently said, “We’re dying to be heard.” Literally. in the last couple of weeks alone, countless of hate crimes have occurred against the asian american community. specifically, against our elders. from the murder of an 84 year old Thai man, to the robbery of a 64 year old Vietnamese woman, to the Filipino man who had his faced slashed on the subway. this is happening all across the US (and i’m sure other western countries too)

and right now all i’m asking is for you to share this. or make your own post. tell everyone about what’s going on. spread it like wildfire. let the world know that our stories matter too. we all need to band together to fight this. and i’m not talking just asian people. like, if you got a mum or dad. grandma, grandpa, auntie or uncle. and you don’t want to see them be assaulted when they’re minding their own business? then we’re on the same side. it’s easy as that.

idk more thoughts under the cut

okay i may just be regurgitating all the same fucked up news but there’s just something horrific about watching an old asian lady being robbed at the grocery store as she’s shopping for the lunar new year (a time which SHOULD be filled with joy and kindness and family and love) and about watching an old asian man getting assaulted for just walking down the neighborhood and then knowing that he died from those wounds. and they’re especially horrifying because when i see these elderly people getting attacked, i see my own parents. my aunties. my uncles. and a lot of these crimes are happening in my own city. like okay, i’ve been attacked for being asian. i can handle it. my parents CAN’T. they are old and weak and vulnerable. they're easy targets. 

it’s scary. and it’s also confusing because these attacks are happening in pretty diverse cities. San Francisco, San Jose, Oakland, NYC. and the fact that these are attacks aimed at the ELDERLY really fucking makes me sick you know? i can’t get over that. these are people who came to this country thinking it was a land of opportunity. a place where they could build a family and a life. a home. and they’re out here minding their own business and they get attacked. and FOR WHAT. what kind of shitty ass person attacks the elderly?

what infuriates me even more is that this is happening during the Lunar New Year time. a time where we’re supposed to be celebrating family and prosperity and unity and new beginnings. a time where we’re supposed to be kind to one another. and instead people are being murdered.

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My Top Posts in 2021

#5

Would you ever write… the "and there was only one bed" trope?

Figuratively? Yes(couple getting together due to circumstances out of their control and how they react to it,)

Literally? Less chance as a lot of them are either in an established relationship(so no problem if there's only one bed), or filthy rich.

4 notes • Posted 2021-07-17 02:45:47 GMT

#4

me, to @err-filecorrupted: Don't burn crackers, burn homophobes

8 notes • Posted 2021-11-03 06:50:12 GMT

#3

When was my last post again?? Anyway, I became an LoTR fan.

So I was away due to a lot of stuff happening, and you know how I do those profile thingies? Yeah, I’m doing one again. This time it’s for

*drumroll, please*

The Lord Of The Rings

So let’s roll

Favourite book in the series: Return of the king, duh

Favourite character: Umm Definitely merry and pippin, Because AAAAAA

Why: Merry and Pippin are the best balance of hard-working and fun-loving, I would love those two as friends! 

OTP: Gigolas, I scream over it, I’m only in for the uhh giggly shit

I don’t think I need to say why.

NO. T P:  I headcanon aragorn as aroace, just because. I think that is enough. 

Bro. T. P: Okay, Aragorn and Legolas and Gimli, or Merry and Pippin, except they were actually bros. I also wanna see what Elrond and Gandalf get up to in their free time. They might have less of it, but they can surely stir things up. 

Favourite place in middle earth? Maybe where Legolas lives, The shire gives me weekend vibes, not sure I could live there forever.

Who am I? That random musician in the background, Yes, the one in uhh the woodland realm. Exactly. 

Favourite type of people in middle earth: idk man, I think the dwarves are pretty cool. 

Favourite part of the fandom: Umm the modern aus, I love those sooo much. 

9 notes • Posted 2021-02-01 06:20:50 GMT

#2

Moodboard Monday

I make moodboards, calendars, and posters. So basically, I saw this moodboard monday post by @homesteadchronicles

https://www.canva.com/design/DAESU4Vw3Gk/zQzhIhUOfPwaZWQ61O8PyA/view?utm_content=DAESU4Vw3Gk&utm_campaign=designshare&utm_medium=link&utm_source=publishsharelink

I couldn’t post the image here, but anyone can view this canva link!

10 notes • Posted 2021-01-05 04:39:03 GMT

#1

Desi LGBT fest

Bollywood movies if they were queer: A few glimpses

Sholay:

Jai and Veeru are in jail for, ya know. Jailer has major qualms about letting them go free so Thakur just. Kicks. Him and is like "I DO NOT CARE THAT THEY SUCK @#$% I WANT THEM TO GET RID OF GABBAR AND I BETTER HAVE THEM BY THURSDAY"

Jailer nods meekly and the rest goes according to the movie bc guess what? They're practically a couple in everthign!

Except Veeru and Basanti don't happen, they happen platonically, and she's the chill but badass female friend every gay needs(Goggle in SMZS, Cecily in the two princes podcast, June and nora and Bea in RWRB, you know the drill)

@desi-lgbt-fest

116 notes • Posted 2021-06-09 14:46:59 GMT

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Arty Art Things ✨

Hellooo!

I've decided to post some of the arty things I've done either recently or in the last few years, well the pieces I'm somewhat proud of at least. All my posts tend to be a lot more wordy than they need to be but hey it's what I do here!

Conchúr White

Anyone one who's been on this blog for a bit will have probably have seen me talk about this lovely Irish fella. The pencil drawing is actually a year old as of yesterday, I only know that because screenshots of me flipping out about Conchúr following me on twitter popped up in my memories yesterday. I think I'd sent it to him at about 3 in the morning (I was not in a good head space at that point in time), so probably not what he was expecting to see when he opened his phone in the morning aha

The biro version is much more recent: I got bored while sat at my desk and doing research about university courses, saw a biro, saw my old drawing of Conchúr, had an idea. I revisited my GCSE art techniques and here we are. Again, I put this up on Twitter and now (at the the time I'm writing this) when you google "Conchúr White" it's the third top image of him which is a bit mad really. I think I spent all of about 20 minutes on Conchúr but another 45 minutes on the words behind him. The words are the names of the songs on his EP 'Bikini Crops', he doesn't just really love the idea of Channing Tatum driving him around at night in a daisy print bikini... Well maybe he does but what he does in his spare time is none of my business...

TechDif

So I mentioned that the pencil drawing of Conchúr came from a rough patch in my mental health and this one is no different! In fact this one came from an even worse circumstance so we love to see it. I had a bad, bad time in July and this started as a way of distracting myself from what was going on in my head. Without it, I can't honestly say I'd still be here so even if the final product of this had been a terrible mess I would still love it for keeping me alive. However, it did not turn out to be a terrible mess!

Now that the origin of this is out the way, where do I start with TechDif? Unlike Conchúr, I haven't really talked about them on here (unless you count one brief post about Citation Needed) before so I guess I'll do it here. The Technical Difficulties are a wonderful group of 4 British fellas who have had their fair share of fun online and even before. They did a radio show at university together, which went on to become their Reverse Trivia Podcast, later moving on to a panel show called 'Citation Needed': and a game called 'Two of These People Are Lying'. All of which I would thoroughly reccomend, they're one of my go to things when I'm having a rough time. All 4 of them are excellent! Tom Scott (red top, blue jeans on the picture) has his own YouTube channel which does content aside from TechDif. If you're quite nerdy and like science, linguistics, computers, or any number of other things you may enjoy Tom's channel. He is probably best described as "The Moderator" of the group, much like a tired teacher he tries desperately to keep everyone on track with what they're meant to be doing, but usually it does not end well for him. Then we have Matt Gray (space top, holding an ice cream) who also has a channel away from TechDif stuff, he does techy electronic things and has a series called 'Will it Soft Serve?' where he puts all kinds of strange things through a soft serve machine. Matt brings a very specific energy to TechDif and I can't fully describe what that vibe is but I love it. Matt and Tom also share a YouTube channel where TOTPAL is posted and they had a series called 'The Park Bench'. Moving on to everybody's favourite Gary Brannan: Gary Brannan (SATIRE hoodie, glasses) and can I just say, what a fella he is! He's just excellent! He is the one that will argue and rip into Tom the most (not in a malicious way) and hilarity ensues. There are some episodes where he is absolutely on it, getting all the points and others where he very clearly has no idea and that's where some of his funniest quotes come from. Given how badly I was doing at the time I made this, his response to it on Twitter was so so lovely. I specifically remember one tweet where he said I'd made him happy and although it was probably a flippant comment, it just made feel alright for a bit. Yeah I might be feeling awful right now, but I've made someone else happy so that's a nice feeling. Then last but certainly not least, we have Chris Joel (buffalo check shirt, beard)! I would be lying if I said he isn’t my favourite... His sense of humor is the one I vibe with most, he can get rather dramatic in parts and can chat bollocks like a champion. He has absolutely no online presence away from TechDif and, like Rens from Temples, I fully believe he’s a cryptid and lives off in a tree somewhere. 

The picture took me about 4 days to complete, well 4 nights because I did most of it between the hours of 12 a.m. and 7a.m. - I remember watching the sun come through my window each morning. It’s made up of lots of little pieces, all cut out and stuck on; even the sky and hills are made of separate pieces of paper. Nothing was actually drawn on the piece of paper it’s all stuck on, it’s not how I usually do things but if I messed up one little but I could just redraw it rather than ruining the whole thing. The most tedious parts to make were Chris’ shirt because I had to draw each square individually and then join the as well, and cutting out the ban-hammer in the bottom right was surprisingly hard. Every single detail of the picture is a reference to the podcast/shows, I still have the plan sketch and reference list knocking about somewhere. I listened to a lot of true crime videos while making it to the point that certain parts remind me of different cases: the brandy now reminds me of Peter Tobin, and the big spiral thing reminds me of Tim McLean (very harrowing case) - sorry that fact is a bit morbid but interesting nonetheless. 

I did post this for a little bit back in July, but I received some rather awful messages so I took it down. Generally, Tom Scott/TechDif fans are lovely but there’s been a few that have taken a disliking to me for some reason so I’m hoping they don’t resurface again. I’m in a better head space now though, so even if they do I’m more equipped to deal with it this time.

Hozier

This was a quick sketch I did in April, I was getting bored with lockdown and decided to summon the bog man himself. There’s not really much more backstory than that, no poor mental health story, no fun twitter story - he’s just here. He’s vibing. I will say I’m particularly proud of his nose, I just think it’s one of the best noses I’ve ever drawn. His hand is okay, but I think that the hands on my Conchúr drawings are better. So there is the Hozi-Boi...

The Corpse Bry

I’ve talked about Bry on here before as well, I love him, he’s excellent, top lad. He is a living Tim Burton character, he’s 6′6, very skinny, and his legs are longer than my will to live. I was watching ‘The Corpse Bride’ a few weeks ago and suddenly had an idea and so ‘The Corpse Bry’ came to be. I gave him a little panda friend because the panda has always been his animal - he used to wear a panda beanie all the time and his album had a panda on the cover. Again, there’s not really a fun story behind this one, I guess it’s somewhat fun because it’s the first art I made after finishing my psychology exams in October so it was nice to actually have the time to draw.

James Bagshaw

Ginger talking about Temples for the third post in a row? it’s more likely than you think! I did this one last week, I’d had a bit of a wobbly day and had group therapy on Teams in the evening and I just couldn’t concentrate on what was going on and I ended up doodling Mr James E. Bagshaw, the glitter crying fraggle man himself. It’s a bare-bones drawing that I could definitely work into more but I’m happy with it as it is to be honest. I’ll be damned if I’m going to sit and add the individual bits of fringe to his jacket, just thinking about doing that makes me tired. Maybe I’ll get around to drawing the whole band at some point...

Alice in “Wonderland”

This one is from about 5(?) years ago, it’s not my typical style and was a “study” based on another artists work (basically i just had to copy this fellas work). I’ll be honest, this one has a sketchy backstory that I won’t go in to because it’s not exactly a nice one, and because of that I also won’t say who the artist is that it’s based on. Despite this, I’m still really proud of this one and I’m so sad that I never got this piece back after I got taken out the class. I’ve considered trying this style again, I’ve even joked about doing another Conchúr drawing in this style as a nod to my progression through GCSE art, eventually leading to Conchúr drawn in ink on music manuscript and stained with neon paint and dyes - it would be quite the project!

So this has been quite a lengthy post so apologies about that but life goes on. Similar to the vinyl post, I’ll probably add to this as and when I make more art. Even if no one is reading these posts, I’m enjoying making them so that’s the main thing. It’s just nice to document things and the feelings that go with them. 💕

~ Love Ginger xx 

29/11/2020

[alifeofalifer-blog]

Seth Anthony - Episode Transcription

Podcast Music: [00:00:00]You have a collect call from Taylor, an inmate at the Washington Correctional Center. To accept the call press 5.

Taylor Conley: [00:00:32] There's nothing like waking up to the sound of clacking and buzzing as the door's crack open in the morning after count clears, waking up to the reality of life in prison. For some, it's just a stop along their journey, a mile post, an experience. For others, it is a revolving door, in and out, in and out. And that's their way of life, stuck in the cycle, pulling and eating away at them. And then for some it becomes their destination as the hammer came down and that judge issued him a death sentence, the slow way, by way of life in prison... This is the Life of a Lifer, by Taylor Conley.

Hello friends and family. Welcome and thank you for joining us today. Today we got an exciting program. I'm really, I'm really stoked about this today, I'm going to be interviewing singer and rapper Seth Anthony, a man who has been able to overcome the odds and take it adversity and whip it's ass, man.

So it's a continuous struggle and an uphill battle, this man won't stop. He's not going to stop. He's gonna get it, and he's getting there. He's grinding and he's making it happen. He's an example. He's an example of what change really is about, and change is a state of mind, and I wrote about this in my book called the convicted entrepreneur.

He's taking the discipline he gained through years and years of doing time and transformed that into a career. He's taken this huge negative and made it into an even bigger positive. What I like most about this dude is how humble he is and yet he's got such a confident style, and swag and he's unwilling to sell out.

He keeps it one hundred thousand, keeps it all the way real I can't do anything but respect this man, and that's why I support everything he's doing. You'll see Seth on the cover of the next issue of Inside Designed Conviction, the Magazine, which is coming out in late January. Really excited about that too, and you'll get more of the full story of his journey along the way.

You know, also coming out later on in January, towards the end of January is the Free Taylor Project album. And that's an album that I did together with my, my good friend and, and my brother Caleb Twidwell, we wrote these songs inside a prison over five years ago while we were serving time together, and he's since gotten out and been able to really take his music and take what he's done and though he's had a lot of struggles along the way, he's such a talented guy and I really am appreciative and happy to be able to, though we butted heads along the way and things haven't been easy and perfect. And you know, there's, there's plenty of different, different triumph or struggles that we've had to triumph over and been able to overcome these things and put together this, this album that we created with, you know, with guitar and just being able to sit down and really write, coming from a perspective of somebody doing life in prison, and there's also some, some nice feel good songs on there. Anyways, and I also added an additional song that I wrote called walk the line, uh, which Caleb is doing some rapping on that as well. We made this journey happen. We've released the two singles already Walk the Line and So Cold, which you can find out right now, and those will also be on the Free Taylor Project. Uh, we put this album out on our independent label, or we put these songs out on our independent label, Designed Conviction Entertainment, which this album is going to be the first album that we drop off of there and we'll see what happens with that.

Man, we just, we really want to do something that is coming from inside, and get it out there so people can really see that there's a lot of talents locked away inside these walls and fences. But I want, on a different note, I want to take a moment and talk about something that, that has me sad right now. I've got a little bit of bad news and, and that is, it's a program that I've been doing for, you know, about the last year and a half or something like that. And it got put on hold. The Toastmasters program. I've talked about it before, but Toastmasters is something that has really helped me to learn how to communicate and articulate myself better. It's such a positive outlet and given me the tools to be able to communicate with words instead of other ways of communication such as, you know, lashing out in anger or, getting upset about everything. To be able to just sit back and be able to communicate and learn these positive leadership skills, which I had, but this has been able to cultivate those things.

So it is unfortunate, and I'm, I'm truly saddened that our sponsors have had to step back. You know, they, they have health issues and, and personal reasons, so they're not able to come anymore. So I'm really bummed out about that. And until we can find new sponsors to come in and, and help us to be able to make sure that this program continues to grow, uh, we're not going to be able to do it. I love the environment that Toastmasters creates. That's what's the coolest thing about it. It's a space where you're able to really kind of just get away from everything else that goes on in prison and, and have the, the curriculum that you follow throughout, and it just really cultivates and helps you to develop these skills that help us to grow as people and express ourselves in a constructive way.

Like I said, man, being able to communicate is such an important thing in life, especially in this environment, and I cherish that and I hope that we're able to find some new sponsors soon. I mean, if you're listening, and you're interested in this, and you, and you're around the Olympia, Aberdeen area in Washington state, and you have anything to do with Toastmasters or you're were even interested by it, and you want to get involved in it, you know, feel free to reach out to us and we can try to put you in touch with the right people to make that happen because man, this is something that really does change lives. Uh, I've seen hardened thugs come into Toastmasters and within a couple of months begin to change their perspective. It's all about the perspective on the way you look at things. And it's such a cool thing to see that, you know, there's even a club out there on the streets that it's called the Inside Out Toastmasters, which consists of men and women who were formerly incarcerated, as well as advocates who advocate for the incarcerated and formerly incarcerated to help with reintegrating back into society.

And this program is continuing to help them on their journey as they get out of prison. So it's a great support system and having the clubs available in prison and then being able to transition out there for other people to get involved with it. And the Toastmasters organization is huge. So, I mean, it's the best program I've ever been a part of in here and had the opportunity to experience.

I'm actually the president of one of our clubs here where I'm at right now. Uh, a gavel club, which we are working on getting chartered. And what it means to be in a charter club is to be recognized by Toastmasters international. And so like, you know, you have to pay dues and, and people actually come in and help us to make that like a legitimate thing. Those are like legitimate credentials that people can get and they can take those and transfer those into real like things you can put on your resume and stuff like that. And not, not to mention, just being able to have a more positive environment within the prison system.

It really helps with that, it really helps with being able to communicate your issues better. Being able to actually work on rehabilitation and not just punishment. So I really believe in the Toastmasters program, and you know, maybe you don't live in this area, you've never even heard of it, but you want to know more about it.

I would encourage you to go to the ninth wave toastmaster.com website and you can, you can learn more about it. That's the number nine T H wave Toastmasters dot com and you can see different ways in which you could contribute and be a part of it. And you know, basically contribute to the rehabilitation of people within prison to where the hope is when they get out and they transition out, they will have better set of skills to work with and be, you know, a more productive member of society.

That's the hope. So without further ado though, I would, I would like to get into this interview and let's see if we can get Seth on the line here. One more thing though, I want to give Seth a big congratulations as he's just announced that his girl is about to have a baby. I think that that's so cool and I'm sure that he's going to be a great father. I'm really happy for you, man. But right now let's get into this interview. I think we got them here, so thank you very much. Look forward to what's to come.

Taylor Conley: [00:10:59] Hey Seth, how you doing today, brother?

Seth Anthony: [00:11:00] I'm doing good brother. How are you doing?

Taylor Conley: [00:11:03] Ahh, I'm doing good, man. Glad to hear you again

Seth Anthony: [00:11:07] Yeah, man.

Taylor Conley: [00:11:08] Thanks for coming on the show, bro.

Seth Anthony: [00:11:10] Yeah, of course, brother, of course, man. I respect what you're doing, man. So 100%.

Taylor Conley: [00:11:15] man.means a lot to me. It really does. I know you're a busy man, so I'm glad that we got you here. As a matter of fact, you know, earlier today, I was in there checking on Jpay man, where I get the music at, and I was searching through the top albums list and man, I seen your, I see your song on there, Rebel Road, bro. I couldn't believe it. I know it's like climbing on the charts, but uh, shit.

Seth Anthony: [00:11:42] Yeah, man, it's uh, it's, it's, you know, it feels really good man, because you know I, I, I put my heart into all my music man. And just, uh, that combi-, that gratification, man. It's just, it just, it feels like, I wrote that song about being in prison, you know what I mean? So I would..

Taylor Conley: [00:12:00] That's what grabbed me about it.

Seth Anthony: [00:12:02] Yeah, man. So it's like for people to just be so responsive with it, it means a lot, man. Cause that's just, I would just, I'm just real with my music, you know, I just, I sing or I rap or whatever, whatever I do, man, I do it from my heart. I do 100% of my heart, man. You know what? I've been through my life, man, and just for people, just for it to get that much attention, man, it just, it makes me feel good.You know? It's like all the hard work I'm putting into this, you know it's paying off, you know?

Taylor Conley: [00:12:33] That's great man. You know, I can tell too, when I listened to it, it's like, I mean, I don't want to talk bad about other people, but I hear a lot of these country rap songs and they're trash, man, they like, they don't sound, there's not good production on them. You know, it just sounds like, like some dude talking over a beat.

Seth Anthony: [00:12:56] You can only uh, you can only rap so much about Yetis and big trucks and mud holes, man. You know what I mean? So I try to open my mind up, man, and just literally, when I started doing this music, I said, you know what? What would I, what would I listen to?

And I said, I would like to listen to somebody that's being real, that's been a prison. Sold drugs, hooked on drugs, just went through the ringer, man. And then, you know what I mean? And talks about it, not ashamed of it, not trying to hide it. Nothing, man. So that's what I was doing, man. And since I've been doing that, um, literally, I've been doing music for 22 months now, professionally, and I got millions of views. Um. Um, you know, I'm just, I'm, I'm all over. I'm about to go on tour. It's just, it changed my life, man. And it feels good because, you know, that's why I would never sign to a record label because I wanna, I want to sing and rap or make the kind of music that makes me happy, man. I don't want to sit there and make any kind of music for album sales or this or that.

You know what I mean? So to do what you want to do and have that passion just really feels good, really feels good.

Taylor Conley: [00:14:07] That's definitely an amazing thing to be able to have the freedom to just, however you see it, however you feel it, you put it down and it comes through, man. Cause that shit touched me right, right in the soul, man. I could feel it. And those are songs too that you can listen to time and time again and they don't get old. And that's the great thing about it.

Seth Anthony: [00:14:30] Yeah. I still listen to them all the time, man.

Taylor Conley: [00:14:35] How does it feel to listen to your music?

Seth Anthony: [00:14:38] Uh, you know, there's only one thing wrong with it man, uh, the only thing that bothers me is, uh, I'm still obsessive with my music man, and literally obsessed with it. My girl will, I'll be in the living room and my girl was like, Babe it's midnight, you gotta go to the studio tomorrow and I'm like, I'm just going to finish this part for this song. She'll go, wake up, it's four o'clock in the morning. I'm still sitting out there writing and then refining things. So when I hear my music, I love it, but I'm always like, damn, I should've did that right there. oh damn

Taylor Conley: [00:15:07] Ahhh, man

Seth Anthony: [00:15:09] you know what I mean? So I pick it apart...

Taylor Conley: [00:15:10] Oh I know what you mean

Yeah, I know exactly what you mean, man. Whenever I write music, I do the same thing, bro. I'd be, you know, once it's done and it's down and you're like, damn, I should've done this. I should've said it like that or something. You know what I mean? But that shows, cause that's what makes great music, man.

That really getting passionate about it and getting into it. You know what's funny is it not only was it on the Jay pay, but then I was telling Cecilia's assistant Sara about that, you know, she's kind of looking after some of our social media stuff. She's involved with that. And, and I was telling her, Hey uh, Seth's, Seth's Rebel Road song is on, on the top songs on JPay, she was like, wow cause I was just looking at Facebook and he's trending on there with the video for that. I was like, damn, he's blowing up right now.

Seth Anthony: [00:16:05] Yeah, man. Um, yeah, it's, it's doing really good man. Um, and I just released a new video on Rough Neck Remedy um, off my new album, I'm dropping 2020 Vision and, um, I mean, yes, it's, it, things are just coming together, man. It's just, kinda just like that old saying, real recognize real man. Like there's not one person on the streets or in prison that could say that I'm not real. You know what I mean? So it's just like, I just, I keep you a real man, you know what I mean?

I didn't live the best life. I didn't live the worst life. I was just real throughout my whole life, and went through a lot of fucking shit. You know what I mean? So I just put that into the music and people just relate to it then because you know everybody, this is my problem with the music industry, man, and this is my real problem, is people that start getting a little clout and they do music, they want to act like they're just like on this high pedestal, and I'm this, this person, or I'm this, nah man, just, you know what? Fuck that you're, you're a human being. You still go through shit. People want to relate to you, man. So be real. You know what I'm saying? Like I just can't stand that because that's how I'm a normal guy, man. I'm a normal dude, man, that just love to make fucking music and knows how to rap my ass off. And I learned it cause I did fucking years and years and years in prison, you know what I mean? You ain't got nothing else to do but write letters or writing music or workout or, you know what I mean? So now I'm just a different level than a lot of these dudes.

Taylor Conley: [00:17:32] Yeah, yeah, man. That don't get no realer than that right there, bro. And you said it best when you say that, you know, you're, you're just a person just like any other person. You're not better than nobody else for doing it. And it just shows that I reached out to you, man. And you responded, cause real recognize real man. You know? And I, I just want to tell you that. That's cool, bro. You're like a real down to earth dude.

Seth Anthony: [00:17:58] And I mean I gotta be, man, I gave up for these interviews left and right man. And the only reason I did this is because there are a lot of people are just trying to get clout or this guy's going up, are you doing all this? And he's willing to do an interview. I won't do a lot of them. The only interviews that you'll see on my, on my go on YouTube and pulled me up is about prison because I want to inform people, man. You know what I'm saying? Excuse me. And they really see who the fuck I am, man. You know what I mean? So when I reached out to you and I clicked on your podcast, I was like, all right, I see, your name you caught me. I'm looking at 'em. I'm like, okay, he's trying to do something. And then I seen, Oh shit, he's locked up. And when you talk to me about the podcast and you say, man, your music hits you. I said, man, I'd be a fake motherfucker, man, if I didn't fuck with this dude, because you know what? I was there so, I'm out here now. Hey. You know what I'm saying? Like that's just not, I'm just a real person and I ,I fully back everything you're doing, man.

You know what I mean? And I tip my hat to your brother because it's hard to get caught up and twisted up in some bullshit when you're behind the bars, man. I was there for a long time, So it's just, you know, I tip my hat to ya, I respect what you're doing, man.

Taylor Conley: [00:19:15] Man, I appreciate it, man. This, uh, this shit ain't easy bro, but you know what? This is the stuff right here, what we're doing, this is what keeps me going, man, cause I'm serving a life without sentence, you know? And uh, man, you got to have something to live for. You know what I mean? I'm still struggling and fighting for my life with my appeals and shit like that, you know, I didn't, I didn't get done fairly, man. But at the same time, I'm not complaining about it. I'm doing something about it and I'm doing something with my life despite the odds, despite the situation I'm in, I'm not going to make that something that I, you know, just dwell on it and sit here fucking depressed and everything, man. But you know, it, it's cool that you recognize that shit, man. And uh, anyway, bro. I really do appreciate that, man. And so anyways, uh, as, as I was talking to you as I found out a little bit more about what you got going on, I hear that you're going down to Nashville to shoot a video with Struggle Jennings.

Seth Anthony: [00:20:17] Yeah yeah man, um I got the new album coming out 2020 vision. Um, so me and Struggle Jennings, uh, you know what I mean? He's, he's well known. He did all the, uh, Waylon and Willies with Jelly Roll. Um, I, I do, my producer is good friends with him and producer. So I was like, Hey man, let's make the play, man. I'm trying to climb the ladder. Let's do it. So we did the song together. I went to a show and got on his tour bus and I'm like, yo bro, what's up? I was like, we need to do this video. He's like, all right, you got to come to Nashville though. So I booked the ticket for me and the the video guy, we're bringing all the gear and we're going to go knock this video out, man for the album and uh yeah, I'm gonna make a vlog and everything. Like I was telling the assistant or whoever it was I was talking to. Um, you guys are going to be sending me some gear, man. You guys send me that gear, man, and the vlog I'll make and and everything, I'll wear it and represent shout out to you man, Free Taylor. You know what I mean? So I'm all for it, you know, and looking out, man.

Taylor Conley: [00:21:16] Yeah, man, uh, that's ,that's cool, man. Yeah, we shot it to you, man. So I hope you get it before you leave and, uh, you're gonna represent it. It's the Free Taylor Project, man. It's actually an album that we made with, uh, you know, a dude, a good friend of mine, man. He's like my brother that he was in prison with me. We did, we did time together, and he's an amazing musician himself. He's, he's a really talented singer. So, you know, we did the Free Taylor Project and, uh, it's, it's got some really really hard hitting song. It's like a variety of songs, man, you're getting some rock, some country, and uh even a little bit of rap on there, bro. And you know what I mean? That's something that I really, I really get passionate about myself, man, is writing music.

Seth Anthony: [00:22:03] Is that song that you sent me, is that on that, that that album you're talking about?

Taylor Conley: [00:22:10] It's going to be on there. Yeah. The So Cold song and the Walk the Line song are the ones, we released those two singles that we're going to put on the album. And uh, yeah, man, it's, it's going to come out in January actually as well. Probably the end of January. We're gonna put it out and uh, you know what I mean? It's just supporting that supporting positive shit that we're doing and getting the message out there. You know what I mean? It's like, Hey, check it out. Check what this dude's doing and come support it, and it's good music, bro. Like this music came out, came out of the inside. You know what I mean? We recorded a demo inside when we still had a, uh, we still had a music room that has some recording equipment, you know, some old stuff you recorded on tape deck and it was just a guitar and a, and some singing man. And we ended up being able to take that project and bring it out to the streets when my friend, Caleb Twidwell, when he got out, we got in contact years later and ended up making it come to life, man. And now we're now, we're going to really make it happen so. I'm hoping that

Seth Anthony: [00:23:18] Hey your boy Caleb though, I checked out the, I'm really feeling the So Cold. Um, song. He's got a good voice, man. When I was listening to, I was like, man, if you could just throw like a rap verse into that, So Cold song, it would be, it eb be really dope man. Cause he's just, he's killing it on that song,

Taylor Conley: [00:23:35] Dude, that would be, that would be a good idea, man. Maybe we can talk about the remix sometime.

Seth Anthony: [00:23:41] Yeah, yeah man.

Taylor Conley: [00:23:43] That would be cool. But well, what we did talk about was, uh, we talked about doing this Renegade song. So I threw it out there man that I wrote this song that I think would be right in their wheelhouse and, uh, sent you over the song. You know, it reminded me of something that would fit perfectly with, with you, man. Like, it resonated with you being able to do the song, man. And I reached out to you and you said that you were interested in bro. So. What, tell me about when you think about the song, man?

Seth Anthony: [00:24:14] I really feel, uh, like I said, when I, um, when I read people's, when some people send me music, I read the lyrics and I, and when I read the lyrics, like I instantly knew they were real because I've been in the same places that you're at. You know what I'm saying? So I was, I felt it 100% man. And I really, uh, I, I'm really down to, to, you know, I'm really busy and I'll finish this out. I got a project coming, I'm about to go on tour, but I'll definitely squeeze in sometime, man and find some time, man. And we'll knock the track out man and representing that.

Taylor Conley: [00:24:50] That's what's up man, cause you know, I couldn't do this song with anybody that hadn't done time and you know what I mean?

Seth Anthony: [00:24:56] Of course not, of course not.

Taylor Conley: [00:24:57] ... And then so we're going to get Caleb, we're going to get Caleb to do, he's going to sing the, he's going to sing the hook and you're going, you're going to rap on it.

Seth Anthony: [00:25:09] Yeah, I'm down brother, definitely down.

Taylor Conley: [00:25:11] Al- Alright broAlright, man. That's, that's going to be a hit, man. I, I know that with, with what you got to put into it and, and that producer that's gonna be producing it. It's going to be a hit man. And the beats, the beats that give me too man, and what with what we get put on it, that's, that's going to be a hit song right bro.

Seth Anthony: [00:25:33] Definitely man, I'm definitely down, brother. It's a good song.

Taylor Conley: [00:25:37] So, so the one other thing I wanted to ask you about, man, cause I think from what I understand, you're an independent artist, right?

Seth Anthony: [00:25:47] Hundred percent bro, hundred percent

Taylor Conley: [00:25:50] So are you trying to get a deal or are you trying to stay independent?

Seth Anthony: [00:25:55] No, I'll never, I'll never sign the deal, man. I already had a couple people, a couple, record labels already come to me, and a middle man tried to come to me and everything. And you know, uh, the last deal was good. You know what I mean? I'm not saying that's not, it's a, it's a good deal, but this is why I will never sign a deal, because right now, if I want to talk about prison or if I wanna talk about my woman, or if I wanna talk about my mom and dad dying whenever I want, however I want to sing it, rap it however I want to do it. I can do it because there's no one telling me, Oh, you get album sales as this, and this is what it's uhh generating right now.... and analytics show... Fuck that, man. I, you know what I'm saying? I just watched a video right before I got on this uh podcast with you, and a dude said, you know that the minute you start making music for album sales, it's fake. You know what I mean? You, you make the music man, because it's from your heart. And that's what people relate to it. So, and I already know the game with them record labels, man. All everybody should be trying to, man, you just gotta go get it. You gotta gotta get it, man. It ain't, it's not handed to you. It's not handed to you. You gotta grind, man. You've got to grind you gotta network, you gotta put the content on, you gotta put real lyrics, and you have talent and build a team behind you, man. That's what it's all about, man. You know what I mean? I was in prison so long, and that's why I'm ahead of the game behind these dudes, because I have street knowledge and music knowledge combined, man. So it's like, you know, I'm just, I'm killing it, man, because I have the drive, way harder. I, I've been in situations that I've never been in where my mind thinks a lot different than those dude, man. You know what I mean? So I'll never sign a deal, man, ever.

Taylor Conley: [00:27:43] Okay. Okay, well, say it then, man. Said that with some passion, bro. I uhh

Seth Anthony: [00:27:49] Yeah. I'm passionate about this music

Taylor Conley: [00:27:51] I hear you. I'm a, I'm a strong believer in that, man. You know, I, I really like it. I like where you're coming from. I like, I like the way you think and uh, there's definitely something about having..

Seth Anthony: [00:28:04] Look at it like this

Taylor Conley: [00:28:05] Yeah

Seth Anthony: [00:28:05] This is how I look at it, this is how I look at it, man. If I'm working at construction, I still work. I still work every day. That's how much I want it and get it. I wake up at four o'clock in the morning every morning, go to work, do commercial concrete, bust my ass climbing walls doing this crazy ass work. Come home, write music and record my songs and do videos on the weekends. Now let me tell you something. I'll never change that, that fire I have in me, I'll never, I'll never change that man. So a record label ... What is that going to do? You're going to give me some money and then you're going to own me. You see what I'm saying, man. But they did the fire in me, man. It would be taken away because it's like someone dictating your future. When I walked out of those prison gates, I made a promise to myself that no man will ever disrespect me or tell me what to do ever again. I'm free. You know what I mean? So. That's why it's just, I can't do that. You know what I mean? That's just something with me. I can't do, you know what I mean? So I'm just really passionate about it because I'm passionate about it, man. You know what I mean? It's just, if I was to be up, man, my producer's like Seth, calm down. I'm like, dude, you don't understand man. I'm honest music, man. You know what I mean? Like you don't get it. You know what I mean? Like this is not just like, people just don't get that I'm ahead of the game because of the shit I went through. You know what I mean?

Taylor Conley: [00:29:23] Absolutely. Man. Absolutely. And that's the drive that other people that have been in your situation could look to in and hear this. If there's anybody listening that you know is an aspiring, uh, artist of any type or know, I heard this story of yours, you know, and they can be inspired by it themselves to, to understand, you know, that you can take. What you've been through and turn that into art

Seth Anthony: [00:29:50] you always can,

Taylor Conley: [00:29:51] whether it's music..

Seth Anthony: [00:29:51] You always can, man

Taylor Conley: [00:29:53] whatever kind of art it is man...

Seth Anthony: [00:29:55] Because you know what, man, let me tell you. No, you're going to wh... I'm going to tell you something right now. Whoever's listening, well, anyone that's been incarcerated already will resonate with this man, and I'm gonna tell you what, just say you're in the, in the world. I'm in the world right now. People wake up on the wrong side of the bed. You see what I'm saying? People want, it's just human nature. You wake up in a bad mood and on the wrong side of the bed, but guess what, man? When you wake up in the bad mood on the wrong side in prison, it's not a fucking good day, man. You know what I'm saying? You got motherfuckers telling you when to eat when they sleep, count this blah, blah lock down on this. Um, the phone cut off or you can't get it. You know what I'm saying? Like, it's just, there's so much more shit. That weighs up on you when you're having a fucking bad day, that if you can get through that, you can get through anything, man. So that's why I said I'm ahead of the game man, and you know what I'm saying like that people just don't understand what it's like, man, to sit there and worry about your loved ones and nobody gives a fuck about you or this motherfucker, showing you all this pressure on the compound, man, I got to walk. You know what I'm saying? So if you, unless you live that, you know what I'm saying? People will never understand, and that's where the fire comes from, man. You know what I mean? Because it's like. I've been there, man. So it's like nothing can stop what I'm doing. You know what I mean? It's like this is what I'm fucking doing, and people are going to have to relate to it because it's real, they have no choice too. You know what I mean?

Taylor Conley: [00:31:21] Whoo, that's some heat right there, man. That's some heat, straight up.

Seth Anthony: [00:31:27] Yeah brother

Taylor Conley: [00:31:27] I might have to put that on the, on the backside of the album, bro.

Seth Anthony: [00:31:34] Yeah. Put it on there, brother

Taylor Conley: [00:31:37] Yeah, man.

Seth Anthony: [00:31:37] Put that on there man

Taylor Conley: [00:31:40] Cause that, I mean people need to hear that message right there, man. You know, it don't get no realer than that, bro.

Taylor Conley: [00:31:51] So I know that you're busy, bro. I know you got places to go and things to do, man, you're grinding, man. But I just got one last question for you if I could.

Seth Anthony: [00:32:00] Yeah what's up brother?

Taylor Conley: [00:32:02] So, man, you know, I'm serving a life without the possibility of parole sentence in here. And, uh, you know, I just, I would appreciate getting your take on what you think about life sentences?

Seth Anthony: [00:32:15] Well, a person that was incarcerated for many, many, many, many years and been locked up since I was 14 years old and on and off then. My personal opinion and I really don't answer questions like this, like just like I don't answer questions about politics cause it's just a huge debate man. But my, I'm going to answer it because I respect what you're doing. I don't agree with it, man. I don't feel like the system is so fucked up man, where they don't give a fuck what your situation was or if you see them, they don't care about the situation or anything. The circumstances of the situation. They just look at them points and you, and you've got a shitty public defender is working in cahoots with the fucking state attorney and you know what? They're, you know it. Do they look at that money, they'll get that money and they'll fucking ruin somebody's life, man. About a fucking, you know what I'm saying? No matter how severe it is, man, I don't think you should take somebody's fucking life away.  forever because of one incident. Yeah. You know, sometimes people make mistakes and you need to get punished for that. I needed to go to prison for the fucked up shit I did, but guess what? I did my time and got out and look what I'm doing now. Look what I'm doing now, you know what I'm saying? So for you to give a person life behind something for one incident, I think is ridiculous. Ridiculous.

Taylor Conley: [00:33:36] That's a mic dropper right there, bro. You know, I, I appreciate you, uh, coming on here, man, and, and being so passionate and really speaking your mind and speaking your heart. It uh..

Seth Anthony: [00:33:49] Of course brother

Taylor Conley: [00:33:50] It means a lot to me Seth

Seth Anthony: [00:33:51] Of course I respect what you're doing, man, I respe-, I really respect what you're doing. I'm not just telling you that I'm one hundred percent with you, man. cause you know, a couple of times since I got out, I could be sitting right there next to you, bro. You don't understand that. You know, you get out of prison, your mind is fucked up, man. You know what I'm saying? It took ...I'm still dealing with society, man. And I wig out sometimes, man. You know what I'm saying? Because that shit just fucks you up when you get out. You know what I mean? So. I'm all for what you're doing, man, and you're fucking being you're being positive, bro. And, you know, positive people make it in this world, no matter what circumstance their in, they make it, you know what I mean? So that's just something you gotta - I just respect what you're doing, man. You know what I mean?

Taylor Conley: [00:34:29] Likewise, man, I really respect what you're doing, man. I'm a big fan and I can't wait to hear the album, bro. And I like to do a follow up with you later on. You know, maybe after, after the album drops or maybe, uh, you know, at some point.

Do a follow up and see how you're doing. And, and definitely after we do this Renegade song, bro, maybe we can do it at that time, but uh, but yah look forward to it man, and uh, good luck next week down doing that, that video shoot bro. And, and just, just keep doing, doing the hard work, bro. Keep uh grinding out there man. Cause you're getting it.

Seth Anthony: [00:35:06] Yeah thanks brother, keep your head up in there man.

Taylor Conley: [00:35:10] All right brother.

Seth Anthony: [00:35:12] Alright man good talking to you brother

Taylor Conley: [00:35:13] You have a good one man. Absolutely.

Seth Anthony: [00:35:15] you too brother, alright peace

Taylor Conley: [00:35:17] Alright, peace man.  If you want to find out more about Seth, you can find him  @sethanthonycm that's C M as in country music on Instagram. Follow him. Check out what he's got going on. Get his new album when it comes out. I know it's going to be dope.

This dude's really doing it. And I just got to say, I really support this guy and what he's doing, and I hope that we can continue to move forward and feed off of each other in the positive direction that these things are going in. And I, I encourage, and I'm a big fan, so I just, I really thank and appreciate Seth for coming on the show and telling his story and I look forward to it being able to write this article about him and have that come out and have him be on the cover of our next issue of Inside Designed Conviction, the Magazine. So at this time, this is the segment in the show where we like to do a question and answer, and if you got any questions and you're listening to this and you want to know the answer to it, go ahead and hit us up at @alifeofalifer on Instagram or the Designed Conviction page lifeofalifer.com you can find us on all of these different pages and I want you to know that I will answer your question, whether it gets answered on the show or not, it will get answered. So thank you very much for your support.

And today we got a question from somebody and, and it's a question that I feel like a lot of people might have. So it'll be interesting to figure it out now how I answer it to the best that I can to the best of my ability. So what is it like to deal with the day to day of life in prison and do all the things you're doing?

I mean, it's kind of a general question, but at the same time something that, as I think about it for a second, I think like prison is such a complex environment. There's so many different variables, you know, uh, things can change within a second and we could all be, you know, have the life. There's so many changes that have happened since I've been in prison along the way that reshape basically the environment that you're in.

Prison's like a microcosm of society in and of itself in which you're under a microscope. Everything you do is monitored and there are rules for everything. It's difficult to navigate these rules, which are set by the state, but then within that is a whole another set of rules and conduct. So you really have to walk a fine line.

I mean, and it depends on what you're doing too. There's so many variables at play. Like I said. So if you're not vigilant in everything that you do, one wrong step could have your whole world flipped upside down and everything changed. Everything that you thought that you had is gone. So it's, it's really comes into balance, especially if you're trying to do something with yourself outside of the normal day to day life of prison.

It's, it's a balance of being aware of your surroundings. And what I do? I stay busy with my time, I grind it out. I'm involved in a number of positive programs that I try to stay involved in that as much as I can because it, it keeps my mind busy. It keeps me active in working towards becoming a better person.

And the biggest thing for me is, is if I can inspire somebody else to do something different with their lives so they don't keep coming back here to visit me. Doing life and fricking prison. It's, it's something that I'm very passionate about because I love to hear these success stories of people that get out and they do something different.

Man, I hate it when I see these people keep coming back in and like a revolving door and it saddens me. Really. It really saddens me. It hurts me. I don't even like to, I don't even like to think about it because it's happened so often. I've seen people come back five, six times since I've been in prison these last 14 years and I just, I truly, truly want to stop seeing that happen. Cause there's so much more to life and you can use these, these tools that you can create within yourself by doing this time to really have a success. And that's why I Seth Anthony's story is so powerful is because he used what he went through to make himself a success, and he's just seeing more and more success with it. So it inspires me to do even better and to go even further because I know that other people can do that as well. And I want to inspire that in them. So thank you very much for tuning in. I just want to give a big thank you to everybody who makes this possible, and I really, really want to say that I appreciate all the listeners.

Anybody listening who has a question, like I said, hit us up and we will get back to you. Alright? Have a nice day.

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