#and there are so many asks i want to answer ahhhhhhhhhh

[naffeclipse]

I want to answer asks but the sleepiness is setting in and I'm struggling for my life here help

[softhairedhotch]

DUDEEEE HELLO??:!:!::&: PLEASE I LOVE YOU, YOUR WONDERFUL BRAIN N UR RESPONSES???!! like sometimes i think damn my thoughts r sooooo filthy i wonder if anyone would even feel the same like am i crazy :-///.... THEN UR REPLIES JUST FUELS ME EVEN MORE ARGHRHHHHH LIKE??? im so glad we have the same brain like damn... i love talking abt him hehe rly.. thank u for entertaining my thoughts n making it even more amazing <333 also i hope u are feeling better now!!! 🫂🫂 tbh i feel the same bc the idea of aaron has made me feel better so many times n it's years since i started liking him :-(((( fr i never ever regret starting this show n falling in love w him 😭😭😭

"imagine just sitting there with him fully inside you, tie in your mouth, head on his broad shoulder, one of his big warm hands occasionally rubbing up and down your back as you hear the other write away" ‼️‼️‼️ PLEASEEEE omfg he'd feel so good and he'd make you feel sooooo safe 😭😭😭 i need this so badly . being on his lap would literally make all the painful noisy thoughts in your head go silent because all you can think about and feel is him <3333 though i don't know how i'd be able actually to be quiet n not be reduced into a whimpering mess because GODDDDDD HE'S JUST SOOOO..... my god. if u do turn this into a fic i'd probably be reading it 9784953 times n manifesting it to appear in my dreams 🙏🙏

and OOOOOFFFFFFFFF cannot decide if i would want him to make a mess all over me and use his thick fingers to scoop it up and shove it into my mouth or have him cum deep in my throat ! 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 like man.... the idea of messy wet sex drives me insane like having him a panting sweaty mess 🧎‍♂️🧎‍♂️ n downright filthy cum eating . like my thoughts abt it are ENDLESS n its literally a can of worms im afraid of opening-- AWOEKFJFKEKD thinking abt that episode when aaron jumps into a lake to chase an unsub n he comes out of the water all WET N THE WATER DRIPPING DOWN HIS SKIN??? I CANT REMEMBER WHAT EPISODE IT IS BUT I THINK U KNKW WHAT IM REFERRING TO???

omfggggg when he's ruthlessly riding you and jerking himself off, his chest would get soooo red and it'll feel soo nice to run your fingers down his body and literally worship every inch of him 😵‍💫 he'd look soooo pretty with little marks over his chest as you shower him with praises... thinking about praising aaron HEEEEHEHEH he'd get sooo shy n flustered the first few times but slowly he'd get used to it and literally bask in the attention n praises 😭😭

my god n i must say u rly perfected his voice n what he would say......i swear my love for aaron not only solidified my kink for suits but also... voice 😵‍💫😵‍💫🧎‍♂️🧎‍♂️🧎‍♂️ like it makes me think how he'd react the first time when he realised how much power he has over you just from his voice and words alone.... like first he'd be confused why your reaction sometimes gets a lil funny but then his expression darkens when finally he realises. but he likes building up material to tease you later on so he doesn't really point it out at first but just has an amused smile.

then imagine one night being on a phone call with him as he just talks about his day and that it's pretty late at night so his voice starts getting huskier bc he's tired.... and he's just rambling about something unrelated but you feel the heat crawling up your neck because he just sounds so good . you can't help but clench your thighs and swallow your saliva. then he asks you a question but you're SO distracted that you miss it and when you finally answer him, your voice shakes. he goes silent before breaking into a low laugh because he recognises that tone of voice and picks up your breathing. "oh my, baby... i don't even need to see your face to know what's up. here am i trying to tell you about my day... but you just can't help yourself, hm? ...pathetic."

YEAHHHHHH 😭😭😭😭

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AHHHHHHHHHH SDJFHSJDF THANK YOU hehehehehe n YEAH I GETCHA, I BE THINKING "oh GOD what if what i say is too weird???" n then you get back to me with basically the SAME THING AHHHHH i'm sooo happy we be thinking the same thoughts LMAO. and thank you sm <33

YESSSSS HE'D MAKE YOU FEEL SO SAFE FR <333 i wanna sit on his lap soooo so so much, god it'd be so good. i would love to write it as a fic tbh but i just have sooooo much to work on already UGHHH why is writing so hard and time-consumingggggg

REALLLLL I WANT BOTH !!! n oPEN THAT CAN OF WORMS RN CUM EATING IS SOOOOOOOO HOT I SWEAR DDSKFSK AHHHHH AND YES YES YE S I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT SCENE YOU'RE REFERENCING

OUGHHH HE'S SO BEAUTIFUL FUCKKK

yessss he'd looook so pretty riding youuu <33 all red and sweaty and a whimpering panting mess oughhh i love it i love him sm n yessssss i wanna praise him sooo bad. like if you praised him he just WOULDN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO but then as he gets used to it, he loooooves it and craves it ough

hehe thank you!! N YEAH VOICE KINK AND SUIT KINK GO BRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR 🤭🤭 he'd get sooooo cocky knowing he has sm control over you oughhh and he'd be so proud of himself knowing he can get you to do almost anything with just his voice n pretty face

STOPPPP I'VE HAD THE EXACT SAME IDEA AND STARTED IT AS A FIC ONCE BUT NEVER GOT AROUND TO IT KSDFJK i loooooooove the idea of calling him on a case and he's just like. tired but tryna talk n his voice is sooooo deep and gravelly and it sounds so hot (bc sleepy/morning voices might be one of the best things in existence <33) and he notices you trailing off your sentences and stuttering a bit and going quiet and he just KNOWS what he's doing to you and he teases you relentlessly <33 he'd either get you all hot and bothered n then tell you that you gotta be patient and wait til he gets home orrrrrr he'll go "do you think you can show me how much of an effect i have on you, sweetheart?" and when you send him a pic he'd hum in appreciation and tell you how pretty/handsome you are and how he's gonna make you feel real good when he gets home but for now he's gonna talk you through making yourself feel good <33 maybe you can hear him letting out cute lil moans as he tells you how he wants you to touch yourself and your stomach drops when you realise he's getting off on it too and you ask him to send a pic of himself and he does and he looks sooooo good <33

also i gotta ask,,, how do you feel about daddy kinks LMAOOO bc i haven't thought about it much relating to aaron lately tbh but when i first got into him two years ago, all i could think was him saying stuff like "let daddy make you feel good, hm?" or "you wanna touch daddy?" n stuff like that,, are you into that?? i'm leaning more toward softer aaron n bottom aaron lately but godddd soft daddy dom aaron is soooooooo <333

[yantao-enthusiast]

i completely understand celebs in general taking private jets; taylor in particular has a huge fan base (part of which is pretty crazy) so for security reasons of course private is better?

what i have a problem with is what she’s using those jets for: a decent amount of her flights seemed to be to watch travis kelce’s matches, is that really needed? like i get being in the honeymoon stage (i don’t really i’m single af lmao) but come onnnn, how excessive is that?!

especially if you’re going on a huge-ass tour that is guaranteed to have huge carbon emissions, why would you want to add on to that? not only is it being incredibly careless for the environment, but it’s also just poor from a pr pov, which is shown through the fact that she has gotten backlash for it

and for me, it’s not just taylor, it’s all celebs using jets for simply pointless reasons (like kylie jenner taking a 45 minute ride just for some groceries or something?)

the environment is a huge issue that affects ALL OF US, and i’m sure it’s pretty tiring for people (myself included) to be consciously taking actions to be more sustainable while seeing all these people doing things seemingly just because they can with little regard for the general impact they will have.

i have multiple reasons for disliking taylor, but this isn’t really a huge one, as i can understand the perspective she may have. regardless, it’s still a valid criticism to have in my eyes, and it isn’t (and shouldn’t be) limited to her.

i….. wrote an entire response…. and posted it…. then tumblr DELETED IT!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHH

anyways i’m going to try and recreate what i said the best i can! thanks tumblr :)

okay so hello thank you for your response! i got your other ask apologizing for sending an ask instead of rbing or commenting which is totally fine, honest mistake we all make them! though if you have anything further to add or ask about, i would ask you either reblog or comment on this or the initial post i made, but i’ll still answer on this ask!

yes i hard agree, too many swifties are invasive and obsessive to the point of forgetting taylor swift is a human being who deserve private affairs and has a life outside of her career, hence my huge advocacy against her switching transportation methods for the tour or anywhere long distance. but even outside of the tour, like her relationship with travis, i don’t think it’s strange that she’s flying out to go to his events all the time. i mean, to me, it’s not really a “honeymoon phase” or excessive at all. wouldn’t you want to be there for your partner at all their important events if you had the time and money? really, i think it’s just them maintaining and being in a relationship by supporting each other.

though i understand it’s not just about her going to see travis, obviously. from a surface level, of course it can seem rather reckless and selfish of her to be flying so often especially combined with the eras tour but here’s my argument:

look up “taylor swift carbon credits”. taylor/her team has bought twice the amount of carbon credits to offset the emissions created by the transportation of the eras tour. and with how often she moves cities, i would think that more than makes up for the trips she makes to see travis. i wouldn’t say she’s unaware of her stake in the environment at all and even in the midst of her career high at the moment, she’s doing much more than the bare minimum to make up for the cost to the environment, which many celebrities don’t even do. it’s why i’m always amazed/appalled at how the spotlight for celebrity carbon emissions is always on taylor swift when she’s not even in the top 30 in carbon emissions from 2023. now i don’t know if taylor antis know of this or if they just ignore it but if only people put more research into these things, their perspective might change.

now i’m not saying taylor is perfect, not by a long shot, no one is. and i’m not trying to convince you to like taylor! it’s completely fine to not like her for any number of reasons, like you just don’t like her music or her personality. she’s literally a billionaire, which i strongly agree that no one person should ever have that much money (though she donates money to every city’s food shelters she performs in, enough to buy a year’s worth of supply so it’s not like she doesn’t give it away) there’s a various amount of different valid criticisms to make against taylor but at the end of the day, my take is if you’re going to criticize her, there’s pretty much no valid reason to dig at her for using a private jet when she buys carbon offsets, hence why i made these posts (though i know you said it’s a smaller issue to you, but it’s the whole topic nonetheless)

and thank you again for your take, it was really informative to hear your direct and respectful response, even if we do disagree. once again, if you wanna add on to this, i ask that you please either reblog or comment on this post or the original post i made this time but no harm no foul this time :) hope you have a great day <3

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[exhaustedwriterartist]

1, 8, 17, 28, and free pass which is “what’s your favorite hadestown song/ ramble about hadestown?”

Hiya Jade!!

What is your nickname?

It's primarily May. There are some nicknames that have permanently been ruined for me due to certain people in my past, or that only one or two people can call me. However... due to a tragic and also hilarious experience I was nicknamed Dobby (after the house-elf). That is no longer in use though XD. There are some funny experiences because of that nickname.

8. What is your dream job?

I would love to be an illustrator for comics (of my own stories)/children's books or an animator (or both)!

17. What is something you're really good at?

Is procrastination an answer? XD But in seriousness, I think that I'm pretty good at developing characters.

28. Do you believe in love at first sight?

In terms of platonic love, yes. Romantically, no.

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Ask game

Thank you much for the questions Jade!!!

36. what’s your favorite hadestown song/ ramble about hadestown?

AHHHHHHHHHH SEJESKLFJSLKFJSELFJ

A jumble under the cut:

My top 5:

AHHHHHH I ABSOLUTELY LIVE FOR THE DESIGN CHOICES!!!!!!!!!!

AND THE THEMES AND THE ELEMENTS AHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

Like, on the surface, they are poor but free and easy going, in Hades town it is perceived that the inhabitants want for nothing according to Hades so they are free, yet are less free (and more oppressed) than those above. Then the choice of Hadestown of being an industrialized monotony with blaring lights and factories galore. Makes me think of the Gilded Age of America, where there were the very rich few and the working class many. I mean, that makes sense, seeing as Hadestown is inspired by Great Depression era New Orleans, it definitely would make you think of the Gilded Age decades earlier.

The different music styles scattered throughout the musical are such good choices afelajf;lewkfjlwkflawkfl

They fit so well together RAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I could talk about this all day but it probably would be undecipherable jabber XD

Thanks again for the ask Jade. ^^

[frozeninice]

Notes upon my re-read of The Hunger Games series by Suzanne Collins.

Part I: The Hunger Games

November 9, 2023

Warning: Spoilers !!!!

- Madge gave Katniss the mockingjay pin and kissed Katniss on the cheek. Was Madge part of the rebellion???

- Katniss was only 16yo ??

- Peeta telling Katniss and Haymitch that his mom, when she came to say goodbye the day of the reaping, “she’s a survivor, that one. She is” 😭😭

- THE BOY WITH THE BREAD

- Peeta, “I think we have a shadow”, RUE

- Katniss shooting the arrow at the apple in the pigs mouth. “Thank you for your consideration”, bow’s then leaves. SLAY QUEEEEEEN

- Peeta asking to be coached separately. I see what you’re doing boi. You’re trying to save her. I seeeeee youuuu boi.

- Good ol Haymitch. “You’ve got about as much charm as a dead slug.”

- Peeta’s “because she came here with me” AHHHHHHHHHH

Peeta being a boss ass bitch

“My best hope is not to disgrace myself and … I don’t know how to say it exactly. Only … I want to die as myself. Does that make any sense?” he asks. “I don’t want them to change me in there. Turn me into some kind of monster that I’m not.”

I bite my lip, feeling inferior. While I’ve been ruminating on the availability of trees, Peeta has been struggling with how to maintain his identity. His purity of self. “Do you mean you won’t kill anyone?” I ask.

“No, when the time comes, I’m sure I’ll kill just like everybody else. I can’t go down without a fight. Only I keep wishing I could think of a way to … to show the Capitol they don’t own me. That I’m more than just a piece in their Games,” says Peeta.

- “Nervousness seeps into terror as I anticipate what is to come. I could be dead, flat-out dead, in an hour. Not even.”

- Katniss is in the cylinder, with the podium thing she’s standing on rising to bring her to the arena. Random thought. What if one year, they actually launched the tributes into the area? They landed in like idk water or something? What a thought.

- Oh my god. This is bringing back sooooo many memories. Remember the Goodreads groups? Like discussion threads? I was in so many for the hunger games. You’d make up your own character and reenact the HG with other people’s characters. Wild time.

- Ah fuck the game makers for creating a forest fire. Don’t they know about climate change??

- Ohhhhhh shit. Rue pointing to the wasp nests above Katniss in the tree. Shits about to go downnnn

- “Peeta Mellark just saved my life.”

Katniss being dumb ass shit about Peeta

“You know the boy from my district? Peeta? I think he saved my life. But he was with the Careers.”

“He’s not with them now,” she says. “I’ve spied on their base camp by the lake. They made it back before they collapsed from the stingers. But he’s not there. Maybe he did save you and had to run.”

I don’t answer. If, in fact, Peeta did save me, I’m in his debt again. And this can’t be paid back. “If he did, it was all probably just part of his act. You know, to make people think he’s in love with me.”

“Oh,” says Rue thoughtfully. “I didn’t think that was an act.”

- OMG KATNISS YOU ARE SO DUMBBBBB “So Peeta is out there in the woods, wounded badly. But I am still in the dark on what motivated him to betray the Careers.” YOU. YOU ARE WHAT MOTIVATED HIM YOU BIG O DUMBASS

- Not Katniss blowing up the Careers’ supplies with 3 arrows like a mf badass

- “Let the Seventy-fourth Hunger Games begin, Cato, I think. Let them begin for real.”

Katniss not realized Rue has gone missing

- “There’s no sign of Rue, not on the ground or in the trees. This is odd. By now she should have returned, as it’s midday … She’s probably just being cautious about making her way back. I wish she’d hurry, because I don’t want to hand around here too long.”

- “I go ahead and eat the second fish. It isn’t going to last long in this hot sun, but it should be easy enough to spear a few more for Rue. If she would just show up.”

- “Dangling up in the tree, with the sun warming me, a mouthful of mint, my bow and arrows at hand . . . this is the most relaxed I’ve been since I’ve entered the arena. If only Rue would show up, and we could clear out.”

- “In less than an hour, I’m at the place where we agreed to have the third fire and I know something has gone amiss.” Fuckkkkkkkkkk Katniss only now realizing.

- “When I break into the clearing, she’s on the ground, hopelessly entangled in a net. She just has time to reach her hand through the mesh and say my name before the spear enters her body”. 🥺😫😭

Rue has rolled to her side, her body curved in and around the spear. I shove the boy away from her and pull out my knife, freeing her from the net. One look at the wound and I know it’s far beyond my capacity to heal. Beyond anyone’s capacity probably. The spearhead is buried up to the shaft in her stomach. I crouch before her, staring helplessly at the embedded weapon. There’s no point in comforting words, in telling her she’ll be all right. She’s no fool. Her hand reaches her it and I clutch it like a lifeline. As if it’s me who’s dying instead of Rue.

“You blew up the food?” she whispers.

“Every last bit,” I say.

“You have to win,” she says.

“I’m going to. Going to win for both of us now,” I promise. I hear a cannon and look up. It must be for the boy from District 1.

“Don’t go.” Rue tightens her grip on my hand.

“Course not. Staying right here,” I say. I move in closer to her, pulling her head onto my lap. I gently brush the dark, thick hair back behind her ear.

“Sing,” she says, but I barely catch the word.

. . .

Sing. My throat is tight with tears, hoarse from smoke and fatigue. But is is Prim’s, I mean, Rue’s last request, I have to at least try. The song that comes to me is a simple lullaby, one we sing fretful, hungry babies to sleep with. It’s old, very old I think. Made up long ago in our hills. What my music teacher calls a mountain air. But the words are easy and soothing, promising tomorrow with be more hopeful than this awful piece of time we call today.

I give a small cough, swallow hard, and begin.

. . .

Rue’s eyes have fluttered shut. Her chest moves but only slightly. My throat releases the tears and they slide down my cheeks. But I have to finish the song for her.

. . .

Everything’s still and quiet. Then, almost eerily, the mockingjays take up my song.

For a moment, I sit there, watching my tears drop down on her face. Rue’s cannon fires. I lean forward and press my lips against her temple. Slowly, as if not to wake her, I lay her head back in the ground and release her hand.

“Rue’s Farewell”

I can’t stop looking at Rue, smaller than ever, a baby animal curled up in a nest of netting. I can’t bring myself to leave her like this. Past harm, but seeming utterly defenceless. To hate the boy from District 1, who also appears so vulnerable in death, seems inadequate. It’s the Capitol I hate, for doing this to all of us.

Gale’s voice is in my head. His ravings against the Capitol no longer pointless, no longer to be ignored. Rue’s death has forced me to confront my own fury against the cruelty, the i justice they inflict upon us. But here, even more strongly than at home, I feel my impotence. There’s no way to take revenge on the Capitol. Is there?

Then I remember Peeta’s words on the roof. “Only I keep wishing I could think of a way to . . . to show the Capitol they don’t own me. That I’m more than just a piece in their Games.” And for the first time, I understand what he means.

I want to do something, right here, right now, to shame them, to make them accountable, to show the Capitol that whatever they do or force us to do there is a part of every tribute they can’t own. That Rue was more than a piece in their Games. And so am I.

A few steps into the woods grows a bank of wildflowers. Perhaps they are really weeds of some sort, but they have blossoms in beautiful shades of violet and yellow and white. I gather up an armful and come back to Rue’s side. Slowly, one stem at a time, I decorate her body in the flowers. Covering the ugly wound. Wreathing her face. Weaving her hair with bright colours.

They’ll have to show it. Or, even if they choose to turn the cameras elsewhere at this moment, they’ll have to bring them back when they collect the bodies and everyone will see her then and know I did it. I step back and take a last look at Rue. She could really be asleep in that meadow after all.

“Bye, Rue,” I whisper. I press the three middle fingers of my liegt hand against my lips and hold them out in her direction. Then I walk away without looking back.

. . .

Another mockingjay, a young one by the look of it, lands on a branch before me and burst out Rue’s melody. My song, the hovercraft, were too unfamiliar for this novice to pick up, but it has mastered her handful of notes. The ones that mean she’s safe.

“Good and safe,” I say as I pass under its branch. “We don’t have to worry about her now.” Good and safe.

- ITS A LIE. DON’T FALL FOR IT. DON’T BELIEVE IT. ITS A TRAP. NOOOOO. “The news sinks in. Two tributes can win this year. If they’re from the same district. Both can live. Both of us can live. Before I can stop myself, I call out Peeta’s name.”

- Ooooooh shit i forgot Katniss drugs Peeta with the sleep syrup, so she can run for the feast prize. You sneaky bitch.

- Katniss @ Gale. “I wonder what he makes of all this kissing.” ASHSHSHHS KATNISS YOU FOOL.

- Thresh sparing Katniss after learning she was allies with Rue and protected her before her death. An eye for an eye.

- I wonder what was in District 2’s feast bag that they desperately needed.

- Also, as a nurse. I wonder how one injection is gonna help save Peeta from sepsis. How strong is that one shot?? The fuck is in that thing?

- “It’s him. I do not want to lose the boy with the bread.”

- Mutations time.

- OHHHHH SHIT. THE MUTTATIONS ARE MADE FROM THE DEAD TRIBUTES!!!

The ending

“Greetings to the final contestants of the Seventy-forth Hunger Games. The earlier revision has been revoked. Closer examination of the rule book has disclosed that only one winner may be allowed,” he says. “Good luck and may the odds be ever in your favour.”

There’s a small burst of static and then nothing more. I stare at Peeta in disbelief as the truth sinks in. They never intended to let us both live. This has all been devised by the Gamemakers to guarantee the most dramatic showdown in history. And like a fool, I bought into it.

“If you think about it, it’s not that surprising,” he says softly. I watch as he painfully makes it to his feet. Then he’s moving towards me, as if in slow motion, his hand is pulling the knife from his belt—

Before I am even aware of my actions, my bow is loaded with the arrow pointed straight at his heart. Peeta raises his eyebrows and I see his knife has already left his hand on its way to the lake where it splashes in the water. I drop my weapons and take a step back, my face burning in what can only be shame.

“No,” he says. “Do it.” Peeta limps toward me and thrusts the weapons back in my hands.

“I can’t,” I say. “I won’t.”

“Do it. Before they send those mutts back or something. I don’t want to die like Cato,” he says.

“Then you shoot me,” I say furiously, shoving the weapons back at him. “You shoot me and go home and live with it!” And as I say it, I know death right here, right now would be the easier of the two.

. . .

If Peeta and I were both to die, or they thought we were …

My fingers fumble with the pouch on my belt, freeing it. Peeta sees it and his hand clamps on my wrist. “No, I won’t let you.”

“Trust me,” I whisper. He holds my gaze for a long moment then lets me go. I loosen the top of the pouch and pour a few spoonfuls of berries into his palm. Then I fill my own. “On the count of three?”

Peeta leans down and kisses me once, very gently. “The count of three,” he says.

We stand, our backs pressed together, our empty hands locked right.

“Hold them out. I want everyone to see,” he says.

I spread out my fingers, and the dark berries glisten in the sun. I give Peeta’s hand one last squeeze as a signal, as a goodbye, and we begin counting. “One.” Maybe I’m wrong. “Two.” Maybe they don’t care if we both die. “Three!” It’s too late to change my mind. I life my hand to my mouth, taking one last look at the world. The berries have just passed my lips when the trumpets begin to blare.

The frantic voice of Claudius Templesmith shouts above them. “Stop! Stop! Ladies and gentleman, I am pleased to present the victors of the Seventy-forth Hunger Games. Katniss Everdeen and Peeta Mellark! I give you — the tributes of District Twelve!”

KATNISS UGH WHY CANT YOU TALK ABOUT YOUR FEELINGS EVER

I want to tell him that he’s not being fair. That we were strangers. That I did what it took to stay alive, to keep us both alive in the arena. that I can’t explain how things are with Gale because I don’t know myself. That its no good loving me because I’m never going to get married anyway and he’s just end up hating me later instead of sooner. That if I do have feelings for him, it doesn’t matter because I’ll never be able to afford the kind of love that leads to a family, to children. And how can he? How can he after work what we’ve just been through?

I also want to tell him how much I already miss him. But that wouldn’t be fair on my part.

So we just stand there silently, watching our grimy little station rise up around us. Through the window, I can see the platform’s thick with cameras. Everyone will be eagerly watching our homecoming.

Listening to the official OST

- the way “The Cave” introduces Katniss and Peeta’s theme so well. Sounds so similar to “I Need You” from CF.

- The second half of “Rue’s Farewell” hits hard. The emotion. The hints of rebellion. Yessss. Also fuck the Capitol for choosing Rue and choosing her death.

- Second half of “Tenuous Winners/Returning Home”, or the “Returning Home” part is interesting. As in CF, “The Tour” has the same theme. It’s a nice play where returning home and returning back to the Capitol has the same theme.

[queenofbaws]

ahhhhHHHHHH it's been a hot minute since i've stopped and done one of these, but i figured now's the time, huh??? a quick little update here on my end: i'm hoping to be finishing of mummy men & bathtub soup, my conrad manofmedan-centric ghost hunting fic, in the coming weeks, so everything else is likely to be running a little slower for the immediate future. it's one of a handful of wips i'm REALLY trying to wrap up before the guilt eats me alive, telltale heart style, M O S T L Y because i have so much stuff planned for the creepiverse that i'm just...bursting at the seams to get some sort of momentum going there, haha!!!

my weekends have also been a bit more chaotic than usual lately, between health crap and family crap, so once more, if you've sent me a flash fiction prompt recently that i haven't gotten to, i promise you'll see it filled one of these days 😭 just waiting for things to calm down a bit.

BUT HEY with all that in mind, i'm throwing a chunkier sneak-peek of like wringing blood from a stone here under the cut! never fear: i'm way too deep into hackett hyperfixation to NOT be working on it in the background, but until conrad's story comes to a close, hackett house will just be a littttttttle quieter than usual ;P

(as always, i hope you're all doing well out there, that you're being as nice to yourselves as you possibly can, and that YOUR creative endeavors are going well <3 you got this!!!)

He knew better to bring those questions to Constance; in his heart he suspected she would’ve known plenty and more about this bizarre side of things, but in nearly sixty years of marriage, all she’d ever willingly shared of her life before him was that the mother and grandmother who’d raised her up had been ‘ugly, witchety women,’ and not much else. Not ‘witchy,’ mind, not ‘wicked,’ not ‘wretched,’ but ‘witchety.’ That was as far as she’d be pressed on the subject, and he’d been raised to let sleeping dogs lie, so that was as far as he’d tried to press.

Jack, though. Jack you couldn’t get to shut up.

And he was more than a little witchety, himself. He hadn’t been able to make heads or tails of that word until the first time the Fiddlers had shown up on his doorstep—then it’d made perfect sense. Witchety. Yeah.

“I’m gonna ask you something.” Jed didn’t wait for him to react, instead sitting back in his own chair and rubbing tiredly at his stubble. “Figure I might as well, seein’ as how you’ve got an opinion on every other thing under the goddamn sun. You level with me now…this curse shit, it real?”

“Oh, it’s real. Real as the shirt on your back, I promise you that.”

He frowned. Not only was it the answer he’d least wanted to hear, but Jack hadn’t even paused to mull it over. That told him a great many things at once; very few of them good.

“Tell you something else, though,” Jack soldiered on. “Since you went and opened the door and all.” Then he did pause, looking down at the whiskey in his glass as he swirled it. After another couple seconds, he took a belt of it and set the glass back down. “People think of curses like a cold. Someone gives it to you, or it’s…I dunno, catching.” He shook his head. “But that ain’t right.”

He narrowed his eyes, trying to make sense of it in his own head. “No?”

Jack shook his head again. “No. Curses are something you bring on yourself. If you’re cursed, well…that ain’t anybody’s fault but your own.”

Much as it pained him to do so, Jed held his gaze, dead eye and all. He wanted to see if he might backpedal, apologize for the slight when he realized what he’d said…but the only thing Jack did was take another drink of his whiskey.

“That don’t sit well with me.”

“Doesn’t have to. It’s the truth, Jed, and you know what they say about the truth. It shall set you free.”

“You understand you’re sittin’ in my house, telling me to my face that it’s—”

“Your own damn fault you’re up Shit Creek,” he finished for him. “Unfortunately, I am.”

“Now, you listen. Those kids were—”

Jack held both his hands up, rolling his eyes towards the ceiling. “Helpin’ that boy. Uh huh. Yeah. I know. Six years I’ve been hearin’ about how helpful the pack is. Six fuckin’ years. And know what? That’s great. Real swell. And if I were a different man, maybe this is where I’d pat you on the shoulder and say somethin’ conciliatory. ‘No good deed goes unpunished,’ maybe. ‘There but for the grace of God go we.’ Only I’m not, and so you’re stuck what I’ve got to say. Which, if you hadn’t noticed, rarely runs on the side of consolation.” He took another breath, Jack, then sat forward with his arms on the table such that he could lean in. “They meant to help that boy, Jed. What they actually did was kill his whole family right in front of him.”

“Family,” he scoffed, leaning further back to show him what he thought of that one. “What family would that be? A truckful of carnies roaming town to town…that ain’t a fuckin’ family.”

Jack didn’t drop his gaze. “No? It ain’t? Huh. See—to me at least—sounds an awful lot like what you married yourself into.” He gave his glass another swirl. “An awful lot.”

[artisticbunny]

(Tiredsleepytiredsleepyboredtiredsleepyboredsleepy—)

Right HELLO! I been out for a few days haha sorry ya missed me! Saturday’s my off day and I went to an art museum yesterday to see my works! (And the many others) Also been working on my hair a lot this weekend and stuff to get it done and out the way for the next month, so sorry I’m late! But I’m here now!

So! In regards to your ✨wonderful✨ tale of Whispering Willow, how about some Corey lore?! (I know I’m going for like all most abstract guys lol I was gonna make a joke in regards to fractions but later—) Half dead, ALSO BETRAYED BY HIS TEAM! Big brain enough to have a potion on hand tho! Ôwô

Was it in cold blood this time!? It sure smells like cold blood bro. No way that was fraud or frame or lies!! HIS TEAM LEFT HIM FOR DEAD!! AHHHHHHHHHH I CANT!

(But gosh dang I hope I’m wrong at the same time lol. Also writers block utterly terminated! Yeah! Random Bonus question too tho: anything ur working on currently? Just school or something more? If it’s a secret that’s cool of course, but if it’s shareable I’d like to know! :D Oki I’ll buzz off now lol I need to finish an essay before I get marked down ^^” keep being awesome as always! Love ya Bun! <333)

Sorry for how long it took to answer this!!! I’ve been busy too >w<

Tw for gore, because Corey DEFINITELY didn’t get away unscathed!!!

Cory’s story isn’t super complex, they mostly just wanted to provide for their family!

Corey was an adventurer for hire, in simplest terms. He would go and join other adventuring teams for short quests. They never really stuck with a single group for longer than one or two quests, always on the move, and only taking a fairly small cut of the reward as compensation. Corey’s mentality is that others have families they need to feed too, he doesn’t need as much for his small family than others may need for theirs. His family consists of his mother and his little sister. he loves them dearly. Corey knows the work they do is dangerous, but he genuinely enjoys what he does, and is the main breadwinner of his family.

When Corey was betrayed and left for dead in Dread Caverns, everyone thought they died. His mother and sister were distraught. They tried to murder him so they could have just that little bit more of the money. It was their greed that pushed them to commit murder. Obviously, they told the guild it was an accident in the cave that lead to his death.

Though nobody knew, Corey WAS still alive, technically. He tried for months to find a way to get out, but with his limited range of movement, it proved too difficult to climb out of the caves on his own. Though there was ONE good outcome from his being betrayed: now having no heartbeat, he was basically invisible to the beasts that roamed the cave system. The same beasts that feed off of the fear of their prey. The first person to find him came soon after they realized this. Some random adventurer, trying to collect minerals and resources from the cave in order to study it’s properties. Corey tried approaching this person to ask for help, but as soon as he stepped closer, they freaked out. Corey is, quite literally, walking death. He has his head smashed in, cuts all over him, his lip split in half, dried blood running down his face, and even the limping walk of a zombie. To be completely fair, seeing him come at you in a dark cave like that, I don’t really blame the guy for practically pissing his pants! It doesn’t really help that Corey is partially mute, only really able to get out short sentences at a time, so on top of it all, he was completely silent walking forward XD

The adventurer practically bolted out of the cave after that, and told the guild. Thus birthed the rumor of the “King of Fear”, believed to be behind the properties of Dread Caverns.

Many would come over the next few years, none of them willing to listen to reason. They tried to kill Corey. Out of self defense, Corey ended up killing them.

He would rack up quite the kill count before Brook came along. Corey hates what he’s had to do, and hates that he’s begun to kind of like it in a twisted weird way. They hate themself because of this. They feel evil. They think they’ve started going insane. Being isolated in the dark for years with only the occasional battle, it was akin to torture.

Brook, even while terrified out of her mind, was the first one to actually stop and listen to him. She helped him to escape and finally see the light of day after years underground.

Here’s the boy!!!

To answer your last question, yeah I’m mostly working on schoolwork right now haha! But I’m also working on a new profile picture since the one I have currently was originally made for Halloween XD I’ll finish it soon and post it for you guys to see when it’s done!

[dragonrider9905]

I'll let you take your pick from 28, 52, 79, 81 and 99; answer as many or as few as you'd like!

@frostycatblr-fandom-files 🩷

Hi Frosty!!!!!! ❤️@frostycatblr-fandom-files!

heheheheh I'll answer them all!!!! Thank you so much for the ask!!!!!

28. Hand written or typed notes?

I definitely use both. Depends on where I'm at. If I'm out and about, I prefer hand written notes. I don't like keeping notes on my phone at all. There's something about handwriting something that I remember things better and are so much more fun. But if I'm at home and I have the computer available to me, I'll write my notes right in the doc I'm working on.

52. How many unfinished ideas/stories are you working on at the same time?

Heh. Heh. Heh. Litterly too many. I REALLY need to just freakn work on the ones I have but so many ideas are coming to me I need to write notes on them and I work on little sections of each if I'm out of focus. If I'm in focus of a story, I'll just write the one to finish it but when my brain doesn't like to co-operate, I just sit there flitting through them and trying to get little sections of each done. I also like to do a good job on requests, hence why it takes me a bit to do them. I feel so bad because people are waiting for them but I want them to enjoy it and not just pump out a 'whatever'. I litterally can't tell you how many I have right now in my folder because there are too many....I have so many series and in those series sub ideas and ahhhhhhhhhh!

79. Are you an over writer, under writer, or just right-er?

EEEEEEEEEEHHHKKKKKK definitely and over writer. I literally can't write anything freakn short. I sit there like ohhh I'll get this idea down but then my brain is like "you can add this? and this? It'll work with the story." and I just literally keep going. "This Bond Between Us" is a great example. I worked with the request idea but freakn ran with it. I keep adding so much backstory because it was too juicy not to.

81. If you could go back in time and give yourself a piece of writing advice specific to you, what would it be?

Frick frack I don't know. I guess maybe I'd tell myself to stop overthinking it and just write for dang fun. That it's ok to have it as a hobby and people can enjoy it, even if it isn't something to be published. Being published isn't everything. It's touching people's hearts with your writing. So stop stressing over small stupid stuff and who cares if it's bad? Start from the bottom and work your way up. Have fun and its a calling.

99. Was being a writer a dream of yours when you were little? or did it spring up when you were older? Or is it just a hobby?

First off, thank you for picking 99 just because I love the number now ;D

I ALWAYS wanted to be a writer. I have always loved stories, storytelling and literature, reading since I was little. I actually wrote stories before I know how to read and write. I'd draw out a picture book and I'd tell my story from the images. My parents were always surprised when I 'read' my books to them that the story stayed consistent and I always remembered what the images meant. For ages, I wanted to write something to get published. That is the dream of my life. To write a novel that will one day touch people's hearts.

Thank you my friend!!!

Ask Game for Fanfic Writers

[norcalbruja]

Continued from this post.

I’ve been asking Haik Number 4 to help me out with my job search, and I got a job at a cupcake shop in late February/early March! The position is at the front of house for filling orders, but my love of baking is definitely a plus, but! Day 3 of my training and the Red Flags have shown up.

As usual, behind the "read more" for length.

--

So I was like “Haik, was that you helping me out with the cupcake shop?”

And Haik Number 4 was like “Of course it was! You keep getting desperate and asking ANYONE for help, and then you keep reeling it back in because you don’t want to BOTHER me. If I don’t at least TRY to help you, I wouldn’t be a very good god.”

So then he asked me if I needed help with something else, and I was like "Sure, but I'd like to wait until the paperwork is done, so I'll ask around next week."

And Haik Number 4 was like "Why?"

I told him it's because I don't want to jinx myself, and he went "WHY?" again, very pointedly, so I said, "I don't know why you want to keep hearing that, but I need to be careful around asking 'spirits who claim to be the anito' about too much. One reader says I DID bother the anito enough for them to just quit on me, so I really don't want that to happen with other Tagalog spirits if I can help it. Hence, making sure I have the paperwork for my job filled out before I start asking about other stuff."

And he's like "We don't have a WAITING PERIOD for however many things you can ask us! Tagalogs used to ask us about all sorts of normal things--getting a wife or a husband, having good harvests, getting lots of money! If you were really bothering me, I'd think asking about non-sailing issues would be enough for me to not answer you!"

Then Lola Buwaya walked in and went "Ay, did you get her the job??? You shouldn't have done that!"

And Haik 4 was like, "Do you want me to leave her like this, Lola? Your son cannot help her, or at least he thinks he can't."

Lola went, "Well, my son has gotten stupid because the years have not been kind to him. I thought you'd be a LITTLE smarter."

And I was like, "Lola, please don't call him that."

And Lola told me, "Anak, I do not tell Tagalog spirits to keep away from you because I'm being smothering. I do it because after the things you've been told, you're going to cling to any Tagalog spirit who isn't a murderer and who shows you a hint of kindness. Like getting you a job."

--

So the spirits cooled down for a bit, and then... uhhhhh. The owner of the shop took her sick daughter in to work.

Like, the kid was sweet and well-behaved, so I thought it was unprofessional but at least tolerable.

AND THEN AROUND CLOSING TIME, as the daughter was talking to one of our last customers, she coughed and went something like "I'm not in school because I'm sick!" And I was thinking "ahhhhhhhhhh!!!! this is why I'm still masking!!! Lady, just because we're all vaccinated against Covid doesn't mean I want to catch whatever your kid has!!!"

And then she CONTINUED to take her kid to work several times. Technically after the shop closed to customers, but I was still closing up, and you're not LEGALLY supposed to take kids to a workplace with ovens and sharp things and all that unsafe stuff!

-

Anyway, I have sent an email to OSHA and then quit a couple weeks ago, by saying I needed to take care of my mom.

Also I forgot to press Post about two weeks ago, soooooo I've technically been unemployed again since around the end of March.

[minzart]

You are right. I will think how to finish the story, but until than.... please accept this idea. What if when you came to 1st dorm, Cater decided to make an account of Yuu’s shenanigans. Like “Adventures of alien” and it’s literally awkward pictures/videos or meme-level types of pictures with Yuu and others? Maybe that’s how RSA’s boys found out about Yuu?

YUU GOES VIRAL WITH VINES AND TIKTOK REFERENCES THAT ARE NOW OFFICIAL MEMES IN TWST

Yuu and Grim @ Jade and Floyd: Don't fuck with me I HAVE THE POWER OF GOD AND ANIME ON MY SIDE

Jade: what-?

YUU AND GRIM: AHHHHHHHHHH-

_____________

[After eating some of Lilia's cooking]

Cater: Yuu... how are you feeling buddy?

Yuu: like Death wants to French kiss me out of my misery

__________________

[At a sleep over]

Yuu: YOU GO TO YOUR CORNER!

Grim scaling the fridge: THIS HOUSE IS A FUCKING NIGHTMARE!

_____________________

Yuu was dared by Cater.... to steal Vil's book: EPEL START THE BIKE I GOT HIS GENDER!

_______________________

Cater invades Ramshackle to see if he can snap more gold for his new magicam, he opens the door to Yuu's room: oh good you aren't busy

Yuu: actually Cater ( half their face is painted like a steampunk clown) I am busy

______________________

Yuu: is there anything better than pussy?

[Riddle and Azul walks in]

Yuu: yeah! A realy good book

_______________________

Cater gets to Ramshackle's kitchen and hear a energetic music while all first years are smacking thinks at the perfect time: what is going on....

_____________________

Yuu: things in my dorm that just 🌟makes sense🌟~, the bathroom door that just won't close, the bathroom window that just won't open, the poisonous mushroom that grows behind the restroom,it's name is Gerald. The wacky floor, the broken wardrobe, the broken cabinet, my roommate that is a monster raccoon, the three ghosts of the ex students that died in this dorm, my cactuses friends that Jack gave me, Tsunotarou

_______________________

Yuu: people aways ask me whose the damm pretties person in this fucking school, and I aways answer (camera shows Grim eating tuna) this bitch

__________________________

Ace with the most ridiculous fake mustache on, and in the worst ascent: Querida

Yuu, with the work wig on: last night you were... unhedged, like a howling demon.... do it again

[The dorm leaders walked in with the most confused and betrayed faces]

[Cater is SHAKING]

_______________________

Yuu: every group of friends has- the babysitter [Jamil], the children [ace and Floyd], the weird uncle [Jade], and the emergency food [Azul who was reading a news paper]

Azul: I AM THE WHAT NOW?!

___________________________

Neige is LIVID, he hasn't laughed so hard in so long, someone help this boy he's choking on air, he can't wait to meet Yuu again, holly shit, he wants to learn ALL THE DANCES AND HOPES THAT HE CAN PARTICIPATE IN ONE OF THOSE VIDEOS BC THEY ARE ALL SO SINCERE, SO SPONTANEOUS, IT'S INSPIRING-

Rielle is losing it, first time he heard from Azul was through a meme oh my lord, it's fascinating, he wants to meet them so much, please teach him how to meme he needs to make videos with his friends and his father reactions bc the old men will lose his shit-

Cater has now so much entertainment and so many followers there, he's living his dream~

[missmonsters2]

👀 for the Halloween drabbles what about wanda x reader going through a haunted house but r is absolutely TERRIFIED of anything horror and is just latched onto Wanda's arm the whole time and it either leads to a confession or is already established. either works. I'm just starving for spooky fluff 🥴

I hope you enjoy this because your reblogs are always <3

Pairing: Wanda Maximoff x Reader (Modern AU)

Warnings: Wanda is such an asshole LOL

Count: <1k

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"Wanda, this is an ACTUAL haunted house."

"You don't know that for sure."

You looked over at your girlfriend. The thought of perhaps strangling her would be the only way you were getting out of this.

"When you said haunted house, I assumed you meant the carnival," you sighed.

"You're the one who kept insisting nothing scares you. There's no way I would take you to a simple fake haunted house," Wanda rebutted.

"So, you admit this place is actually haunted," you accused.

Wanda made a motion of zipping her mouth.

"I'm not going in," you shook your head.

"Then you're admitting you ARE scared then," Wanda looked positively gleeful.

"Yes—of death!" You threw your hands up in an exasperated manner. "Which is exactly what will happen to us if we go through this house."

"Scared you might see a real ghost?" Wanda waggled her brows.

"I'm scared of the structural integrity of this house," your voice deadpanned.

"Either we're going through this house or you're admitting you're scared and I win the bet," Wanda sternly said, signaling that she wouldn't be debating the conversation anymore.

God, your girlfriend was so obstinate.

"Fine," you gritted out.

The notion of everything being a mistake becomes more prominent as you walk through the dark and strangely damp house. It was a mistake to get cocky with Wanda while drinking with her the other night.

Why had you insisted you weren't terrified of things like haunted houses or ghosts?

You thought it may be because Wanda looked like such an asshole when she was smug.

You gripped her hand tightly.

"You scared, miláčik?"

You didn't need any light to know Wanda was smirking.

"No, just wouldn't want you to wander off and die if your foot fell through this rotting floor wood," you tried to say casually.

It felt the house was expanding and contracting, a strange breeze flowing through despite no windows being opened or broken.

Why they haven't torn this building down, you'll never know why.

Pitter, pitter, pitter.

"Did you hear that?" You asked Wanda suddenly.

"Hear what?" Wanda said offhandedly as she swung both your hands back and forth.

"The footsteps upstairs!" You hissed.

Wanda hummed. "No? I mean, it's kind of hard to hear anything when you're cutting off the circulation in my hand, miláčik."

"What would that have anything to do with your ears?" You asked in disbelief.

"I'm using all my focus to make sure I'll have fingers after this. They're quite useful to me...and to you," she smirked.

You wanted to tell Wanda she was the worst and that you hated her, but you bit on your tongue as you powered through. You just needed to do a walkthrough upstairs, and it'd be over.

It would be so worth it when it was over.

Wanda's phone buzzed in her pocket as the two of you walked, and she let go of your hand to check and answer the text. You tried to walk closer to her as she dawdled.

You turned your head to look at the walls as you passed. So many portraits of the previous tenants still hung on the wall. There were a lot of family photos as well. You wondered why they hadn't taken these with them.

Or did they not take the photos because they couldn't. Because they died. In this house.

This was so fucking miserable.

"Wanda?" You whispered but turned your head to find her rounding the corner. "Wanda," you called again as you picked up your pace.

You turned the corner and—

"BOO!"

"AHHHhhHHHHH!"

You screeched, your whole body freezing and jolting. You felt your heart pound painfully in your chest as it began to race. Your blood was pounding in your ears.

Wanda burst into a fit of giggles, slapping her hand over her mouth.

"Oh my—I'm so sorry," Wanda's shoulders were shaking with laughter. "But you're totally petrified, miláčik. I'm definitely the winner."

You raised your hand to your chest, taking deep breaths. "You're literally the fucking worst!" You glared at her. "God, I wish you'd fall through the rotting wood."

Wanda dropped her hand, her lips still pressed together as she tried to compose herself. She took a step forward and wrapped her arms around you.

"I'm really sorry," Wanda pressed a kiss to your jaw. You hated that her lips felt extra warm in this cold house. "C'mon. Let's get out of here and I'll make it up to you at home, okay?"

You scrunch your nose, half-curling your lip at her but didn't protest as she took your hand tightly and began to lead you out.

"You're awful." You muttered forlornly as you made it down the steps, just a couple feet away from the door. "You really wanna be on top that bad tonight?"

Wanda chuckled. "I have plans for you, miláčik. None of which can be done when I'm underneath you. Also, I really want to watch more FRIENDS after."

You groaned, thinking about how your girlfriend's toxic trait was watching FRIENDS too many times.

"Whatever," you sighed as you finally exited the house. "At least we're done with this place. It's really weird how they kept all the portraits in the house when the house is so worn down."

Wanda stopped as she looked at you with her brows furrowed and a frown. "What are you talking about? There weren't any photos in the house."

[destinyc1020]

What on EARTH are you talking about ANON??  🥴

You must be confusing me with another blog girl.  🙄

I never even started blogging about Tomdaya until August 2020.  You can even go and check my blogging history PRIOR to August 2020 and see that I wasn’t really blogging much about Tomdaya or answering a bunch of asks in general prior to August 2020. 

In addition to that, while I LOVED Tom and Z together the first time, I NEVER went on Jacdaya blogs or other shipping blogs and  crammed Tomdaya down anyone’s throats, nor did I ever send in anonymous asks into other blogs shipping Tomdaya.... And I certainly NEVER did that LONG after they split up!  That’s CRAZY-making behavior!😒

I didn’t even talk badly about their other relationships or post negative stuff about them on my blog!  EVER!!! 

In fact, I even reblogged and commented THIS about Tadia back when Tom and N went “public”!!  

I sometimes reblogged stuff like this:  

But even after Tom and Z broke up, I was NEVER delusional about them no longer being together.  I ACCEPTED it, and MOVED ON.  

You can even check my archives and reblogs during the time that Tom and Nadia were dating, or even when the TomdayApocalypse happened in July 2019!  You can even check my archives and reblogs back when Z was spotted with JE in NYC back in Feb 2020!  I have NEVER posted anything negative about their SO’s while they were dating them.  NEVER.  And I never crammed Tomdaya down anyone’s throat after they broke up either.  

So you are HIGHLY mistaken and are definitely getting your facts mixed up completely.  

By the way, I don’t care if people want to playfully ship Hunterdaya, or Johndaya, or even Tom w/Jake, or  Tom and Ciara or whatever.  But when you all repeatedly come into my inbox trying to paint Tom as a CHEATER, try to link him with women like O and N who he has CLEARLY moved on from AGES ago, and try to link Tom with any RANDOM woman who he breathes within 2 feet with, you all are the ones being highly disrespectful.  Especially when Tom has a gf.  

Even when I didn’t really care for the Jacdaya relationship, I simply accepted it, and allowed things to unfold the way they were destined to unfold.   

It’s YOU TROLLS & ANTIS that make it your full-time job to come on Tomdaya blogs and harass them to no end with your silly nonsense because YOU all (for whatever reason🙄) can’t accept that Tom is dating Zendaya and HAS dated her for years in the past.  YOU all are the ones who are so toxic and bitter that you have to cram all sorts of other girls down our throats to link Tom with (ie. Sydney, Olivia, Nadia, Sophia, Ciara, [insert model x, y, z here], spider emoji girl, RANDOM girls in London, etc) because for some reason, it bothers and TRIGGERS you all SO MUCH that Tom is with Zendaya and LOVES Zendaya!  You all are the ones who are seriously unhinged.  😒

You are such a LIAR Anon! 😤 Why are you blatantly lying??

I can’t believe you have the audacity to try to come here on my blog and make blatant LIES about me AND my blog! 🙄

Get your nonsense out of my blog. 😤

[papers4me]

Fruits Basket, Se03, ep10 (part 1)

“ What to do? & how to do it? the answer & the method are so simple, so simple but difficult as hell. it was hard for me to get them, & that’s exactly why I treasure them/ makes them valuable”. kyo~ This is my favorite quote in all anime.

How many times a domestic abuse victim was told just leave this abusive partner? report them? easy. just make a call. Report your abusive parents? tell someone. easy. Just speak up. It is true. It is easy but difficult as hell. To believe it is your right to fight. No, to believe you deserve to fight. to Live. This abuse is not a punishment you must endure. Hope is not dead. How simple yet so difficult to do that. ugh! my heart!

- Seeing Death vs Facing Death: ( The abuser who was stopped):

Abuse is a form of slow death. An actual intentional murder of an innocent soul. Abusers suck the life out of their victims & kyo’s biological dad is the poster monster for that. His appearance:

thin deathly demeanor, lack of nourishment, excessive drinking, lack of desire get out of the abyss, wide eyes, tiny pupils, manic laughter. shaky body movement. pathetic outlook at things.

heavy breathing, lack of logic & distorted facts, blurry speech, bizarre mentality, toxic behavior, tendency to hurt, injure, both physically & verbally.

inability to grasp reality, desire for inflecting pain on others, finding joy in that as it justifies his entire toxic mentality.

Fear of being hurt like he hurt others & being paranoid since he KNOWS he should receive punishment.

Kyo stood watching this man spit, rage, shake, scream. The man from his past, the authoritative figure in his early tender years, the person who must always be right: a parent. Facing his dad, Kyo’s entire gradual change was fantastic:

Kyo went from feeling utter fear from this man, hatred towards him, grief at the loss of a father & a mother, to force himself to stand his ground & not leave” easy but difficult as hell“ , to talk ” easy but difficult as hell“ , to announce that isnt gonna die ” easy but difficult as hell“ to say I’m loved & I want to to be with someone ” easy but difficult as hell”

to then realize the source of his mom’s misery isnt him after all, but this jerk! & not crumble at this realization ” easy but difficult as hell“ to grief over his mom’s tragic life & still announce again that he’s anit throwing his life away ” easy but difficult as hell“ to still look at his dad with pity rather than immense hate & anger ” easy but difficult as hell“ to remove his hand & leave him behind in the past while he moves forward ” easy but difficult as hell“ to say “ i’ll come visit again, cuz I anit afraid of you anymore, I’m not running, but I’ll try to extend a hand if you wanna do the same one day. It is your choice to be the abuser who must be stopped or the one who is atoned! you can choose, dad! We heard his choice as kyo was leaving, didn’t we? locking himself in an eternal cage that he made for himself. After all, he is the monster in his own story by his own choice.

-Seeing death (1): Kyo watching his mom’s suicide is a traumatic experience especially considering she chose such a graphic way to exist this world. Kyo once said to tohru “ mom went flying”, he now said“ mom threw her life away” very graphic ways to explain her death both literally & figuratively. This alone coupled with his father accusing him, resulted in a 4 year old screaming” I’mma yuki & kill myself, this would make you happy, dad”. This explains kyo’s 2 meetings with yuki as kids“ I hate you” at the sohma estate, the 2nd meeting “ I hate you” at the street. Mimicking the toxic behavior of the dad. Why didn’t kyo mimic kazuma? cuz trauma doesn't work like that. Kids can live safely for time then one traumatic experience shatter their self-worth into an endless cycle of self-hurt, low self worth & anger issues or withdrawal. The writing that set kyo/yuki against each other is perfect.

-Seeing death (2): Kyo watching kyoko’s death hammers all the insecurities of child kyo deep down into teenage kyo. Kyoko too, went flying, blood everywhere. too much pain happening again, crashing hope & killing his fighting spirit over & over. Be with tohru? why? to kill her, too?

-Seeing death (3): Kyo watching tohru’s injured body. Yup. You caused this. not by pushing her or failing to catch her. No. but by hurting her with harsh words. by forcing her away from you.

-Facing death (1): Kyo facing his dad, the symbol of deadly-abuse. To stand & announce to live is huge. -Facing death (2): refuse death: being caged till death, -Facing death (3): To say, I wanna be loved & love someone, life is not just being outside, heck! kyo was outside for 17 years! life is abt being with those who give it meaning! -Facing death (4): To not demand others to die as a punishment. Walking away from his dad without igniting the cycle of revenge & hate. ahhhhhhhhhh~~~  Chef’s kiss!

-Seeing eye to eye: ( I don’t need to be you, but I appreciate you):

Kyo & yuki toxic relationship has been ongoing since their birth. The moment kyo’s dad was dismayed that he got the cat of all zodiac & the moment yuki’s mom was delighted she got the rat of all zodiacs. From that moment it became: look how lucky the rat parents? You shamed me? Look how pitiful that cat? eww! stay away from his filth. The explosive nature of kyo’s tragic fate tainted him with the blood of his mom & the daggers of his father’s hateful words, while the nature of yuki’s sheltered & locked fate tainted him with fear & isolation. They meet & both carry out the feelings of rejection & hate all while envying the other. The toxic nature of their relationship consist of fights & condensing words. Tohru connected both. Through her, they became civil. Even talking abt perverted shigure. Now that she is hurt, they are lost without her. Their lives are empty.

Yuki’s “ kyo has his own pain & reasons”  (to not see tohru) is my fave line! even better than all the epic lines after they confess their feelings. cuz this like happened before they connect. it shows that, I see his pain, I get he has his reasons. But whatever issues he have shouldn’t hurt tohru. this is when yuki interferes in kyo’s choices. For tohru. This is also when kyo really allows him to. For tohru. Had tohru nor be part of the fight, kyo wouldn’t even engage in it & yuki wouldn’t initiate it.

-“I wanted to be you!” : Kyo said it first. I loved this so much! Cuz kyo said I hate you first! it is so fulfilling that the truth is now out. From kyo first. Cuz really... that hate was all toxic inheritance from a toxic father & a toxic system.

- “Why do you have to say it firs!” Yuki was mad, cuz he was struggling with it for the longest time. to be kyo. He even mused on how kyo interacted with ppl in school, got himself his own mini kyo. lol. studied how kyo filled tohru’s world just by existing. yuki can't do that for tohru. he looked for someone whom he could do that for! yuki/machi scene at her house paralleled kyo/tohru scene at her room when she was sick (se01, e023) & when they eating the somen together (se02, e02), yuki/machi chalk scene paralleled kyo/tohru scene at the beach where he coaxed tohru to tell her mom’s story (se02, e07). Yuki really was having a hard time finding his true self & accepting it without needing to learn from kyo. It is hard to say “ i admired you” after being rejected by you! so kyo saying it first helped yuki say his after. Also, both boys were hella shocked they admire each other. Like both were deeply shocked! stupid boys! XD

Side Notes:

Kyo’s confrontation with his dad is furuba’s most powerful scene & most well-written one! From the fear of facing him, to talking to him with low voice, to physically stopping him, to the exposed last piece of locked memory abt the mother, to the freedom gained by walking forward! Heck, even how it was weaved psychologically to perfectly mimic children’s self-defense mechanisms & children copying their parents theme. The realistic depiction of abusers both in their most powerfully menacing moment & in their weakest cowardly moment. Top-tier writing! Hands down my fave furuba scene! Can’t ask for better! Can’t even imagine better! genius- writing Takaya-san!

The boys had a necessary fight & confrontation & the yuki’s entire speech was valid & perfect speech. However, as usual, I’m not a fan of how violence is depicted in furuba. I was actually “warned/ ordered” by an anon to not “ sh*t” on the boys fight scene. I don’t know why someone who’d read my reviews would think i’d have anything but love for both boys. I criticize the writing not the characters. Also, furuba fans have always been good to me, I state my opinion frankly & they talk to me! “ talk!”. You don’t have to throw virtual fists over different perspectives on fiction. Talking kindly does magic, also having different opinions is natural & normal for humans.

I love yuki so much, he’s one of my top faves in furuba & I get why the boys would quarrel & throw fists. I get the history between them, the current state of mind, their emotions & mentality & I get it’s fiction & drama that needs its “ OMG” moment. However, I cringe when I see violence used as a bonding moment in fiction in general. That’s just me. I wish the fight was done in a more artistic style without showing that scene where yuki corned kyo & punched him in full view of the screen. (again not hating on yuki nor the fact that they needed to fight). I’m jus saying I didn't need to see a one-sided beat up from a character I love to another one I love. That’s just me again~ feel free to enjoy this moment to its fullest. It’s fiction & I’m not judging anyone at all, nor hating anyone from real life or fiction <3<3<3.

Yuki’s last piece of character development is in my part 2 review! Along with machi. Also, yuki’s Japanese VA was awesome!!

Also, let yuki have deep various facial expressions!!!! ugh! In the fight scene they did yuki so dirty with his hair covering his eyes all the time! then followed by low quality shots of him breathing! Why?! The voice acting sold the entire excellent emotional rage more than the animation! Yuki can look pretty even when mad, heck! screw looking pretty! just give him deep facial expressions to mach his feelings! boy was hella mad like he never was his entire life! always forced to wear a mask or be diplomatic! now he’s screaming his lungs out, you hide his face??? really?? Sigh~ the anime always do this wit yuki, replace facial expressions with hair on eyes or having his eyes without light. I wanna see them expressive eyebrows so bad!!!

Another powerful VA performance was both kyo’s dad VAs! both the Japanese (with his excessive breathing) & the English VA (with his range). They sold the mad abusive character! they gave me chills!

Also, I sound like a broken record, but kyo’s both VAs did phenomenon in the dad’s scene & tohru’s scene. Honestly, I only watch the dub to hear Jerry! I learned his name & would watch the dub for him!

Akito, Arisa, Kureno in part 2 of my review as well.

Shigure/yuki returning home scene is call back to ep1. Ok, everybody loves a call back scene & the full circle thingy. but C’mon! you dont have to copy everything! the walk, the scenery, its purpose, dialogue & all! The anime really took advantage of kyo being missing. XD

Tohru’s dress/top color matches the color of kyo’s old hat (The hat). symbolic of him finding her? As if he did find her when they were children? cool. I love this detail. But i do NOT love this color on tohru at all !! lol. it is so dull on her. The dress style/ design mimics her same dress in se01, ep26 as she was talking to kazuma & kyo fought him. Their first intimate moment after nearly loosing the other. Heck! tohru was even hurt on her hand as well. but the color was a nice pastel yellow. It suited tohru. The hat’s bluish-greenish color matches tohru’s own pajama at home!!!! & kureno’s hospital pajama! T_T... why couldn't the hat be red!!!! a color that both represent kyo & yuki! both were compared to red before~ oh well~~ minor issue~

[fantasy-dating-sim-trash]

Omg look at these BOYS! AHHHHHHHHHH

Okay now I'm gonna finally do the part 2 for the charts

So if you're interested strap on in and let's GOOOOOO

JUST A HEADS UP THIS PART IS VERY MATH HEAVY!

U hath been warned

So we have a part one which I'll link right here for the other chart explanations since they show up on this one too. Since I'm fucking lazy, for convenience, and don't wanna explain it again 😂. Plus the fact I couldn't fit all the photos here again. 😂

So I'm just gonna get straight (even tho I'm anything but STRAIGHT) to the point, so this chart is a for new events that are released.

*slaps new chart down*

As u can see there is only really one chart added here

Which would be this one!

*slaps down chart*

I do apologize for my cursor being in the pic. I'm lazy and I didnt wanna take a new photo.

SUE ME

Anyways as u can see there's grayed out areas and stuff.

For the following categories

Ad battles (I normally don't do these in LD & I just assumed nobody else did so oh well)

One of the most important ones THE CHEAT card BOOST. I'll explain it in just a few.

Now the Cheat card one will vary person to person. This time my boost is stupidly high (I REALLY WANTED THE SATAN CARD OKAY!!! HES SO PRETTYY)

If you don't like math I suggest this part u skip. Cuz I enjoy math and I think doing it in this context is enjoyable.

Edit: a lot of my math is pretty accurate for when you have gotten far enough in the game where you just 3 star all the event battles! So plz be warned that the math may not look exactly like this if your just starting out. It may look different for u depending on how many stars u get per battle!

normally the base item at 120 per battle, so depending on if u have any cheat cards & how many you have this might help. So with my boost at 129, I add that to the base total of 120 & I get 249. The math as follows

120+Y= 249

In this case Y is the boost you have

120+129=249

Now I'll explain my formulas here. As u can see I multiplied 249 by 3 (since there's 3 battles per stage) to get 747. Which is the amount of items I get per stage and typically there's 13 stages in a chapter/lesson.

Yx3= X

Where X is the answer to have many items per stage u get:

249x3= 747

And if there's 13 stages in one chapter if there is 2 chapters I count and check. In this case chapter 2 also has 13 stages.

So 13x2= 26 so overall you have 26 stages with 3 battles each.

Now to figure out the items I would be getting in one day if I three stared all the stages I used this formula

(Ax26)+(Bx5)= C

Where A is the Value of the total items u get for one stage (three battles) which in my case it's 747

B is the number of items u get for one battle

& C is the answer

I take the over all number I got from the amount of items I got in one stage and multiple it by 26. But that's not the best part since we get 5+ ads to get 5 extra battles I have to take that into consideration.

So my formula looks a little bit like this

(747x26)+(249x5)= 20,667

Now the only way I can test this math is by doing the actual event and would ya LOOK AT THAT

My numbers match up!!!! :D

Now to calculate how many items for each day

Multiply the total amount from one day by the amount of days you have been doing the event

For simple

AxB = C (no these don't go with the uses from before in this formula)

Which in my case would be

20,667x2= 41,334

And so on and so forth for each day u wanna write down. But what happens if you mess up one or more of the dance BATTLES? u may ask?

Well HEHEHE HAVE I GOT U! CUZ I DID THAT EXACT THING!

*Slaps photo down*

In which I wrote out all the math here in this photo above! To make it easier on myself! Plus that way my formulas were properly adjusted in the case I messed up. So there was evidence and proof of all the numbers & formulas changing. Making it much easier to follow along and adjust as needed.

But NOW U may be asking what about the events WITH THE KEYS?!?

To which I respond with I have accounted for that! SO with all of this into consideration the keys and two paths THE MATH WILL CHANGE slightly for that!

I got y'all! Don't worry!

*slaps down more NOTES & MY CHART*

So the math correlates and changes here as u can see! With the examples I have provided!

And the math changed for about 4 days in total for me

So I had to adjust the amount of battles happening and how many keys I got and which stages I unlocked to change the math as u can see. And for each day I would calculate the number of items and then add the previous total to the following day.

For example:

Day one(from the I KID u not event as that's the only one I have data on with keys) went as follows

With the math from earlier with the cheat cards in play:

With a boost of 7 I add that to 120 mean for one battle I'd get 127 items. Then multiple that number by 3 of one stage of battle equaling 381.

So the math looking like this

Ex:

120+7=127

&

127x3 = 381

Which makes this part the same as the others but since its a keyed event that means specific stages at blocked off until u get the appropriate amount of keys to unlock more stages and story. until all of it is eventually unlocked.

Which means the number of battles in stage 2 changes with each passing day.

So to figure that out I wrote down what stages I unlocked for each day and which ones I could get keys from. Which means I had to slightly modify my math for a few days. Which means I don't have 26 stages in total to get battles from.

And I'll add a photo instead of u scrolling back up through my math to understand this

So on day one I only had 21 stages (instead of the normal 26) plus the 5 extra ad battles to get keys from (and when its a a key event I almost always use the ads to snag extra keys in hopes of unlocking more stages to get keys from.)

Now for the examples to showcase my work and explain it as best as I can going forward from here:

Big example here

So instead of my formula looking like in the photo it changes to this instead on Day 1.

Ex:

(381x21)+(127x5) = 8,636

For a total of 8,636 items on Day 1.

But here's where it can get a bit confusing is Day 2.

Since u still can't multiple everything to get a solid answer.

But I came up with an easy solution for that. As stated in my notes on Day 2 I unlocked two more stages to get keys from. Meaning that the total battles changes to 23 instead of 21. So I now change the math from this:

Ex:

(381x21)+(127x5) = 8,636

to this:

Ex:

(381x23)+(127x5) = 9,398

But how do we account for the previous days items?

EASY PEASY! We just add the previous days items to the equation like so

Ex:

((381x23)+(127x5))+ 8,636 = 18,034

For ur new daily total! And for each day I counted how many stages i unlock and then added the previous days items into the equation

So for my day 3 (not including the new summons i did) it would be as follows:

Ex:

((381x24)+(127x5))+ 18,034= 27,813

And lastly my Day 4 in which I finally unlocked all the stages making the math finally look like this,

Ex:

((381x26)+(127x5))+ 27,813= 38,354

And you keep adding the total so on and so forth until the event ends to keep getting ur new total!

So u skipped all the math u COWARDS (JK JK ILY)

To sum up BIG MATH BRAIN FIGURES OUT HOW MANY ITEMS U GET FOR UR OVER TOTAL. and how many times days it takes for u to unlock specific stages with keys.

It doesn't change by much but hopefully this is HELPFUL! If y'all have any questions feel free to ask me in my DMS!

I hope this MAKES EVERYTHING EASIER TO UNDERSTAND!

Also of u read this far I really appreciate u 🥺🥺🥺. Thanks for dealing & listening to my nerdy ass taking about my spread sheets. I worked really hard on them and to make them super efficient.

And if anyone wants I'm willing to make a blank template for ur own personal use.

AND I hope and wish u all HAPPY EVENT FARMING/card upgrading

[literaticat]

I've also noticed an uptick in rude or snappy responses from agents. Maybe it's just the state of the world we're in rn? But u see agent can be snappy and rude to a writer with ZERO consequences but if the writer was rude back, the agent would either blacklist them or create a Twitter thread about it. That's an imbalance in the power dynamic right? A writer has to be polite back.

This bums me out. I'm sorry if an agent has been rude to you. Obviously, best practices is for everyone to be polite to everyone. Writers, agents, and everyone else is just exhausted, the world is hard enough, let's do our best to extend grace where we can.

And yes, there's a power differential at play; there are just a LOT more writers than there are agents, and so agents get this "mythic status" -- but actually, we are just random schmucks doing jobs, not Gods from On High. We need writers in order to do our jobs. And it kills me when I see AGENTS buy into the hype about agents. Like - dude, you don't need to be on a power trip, you are nothing without great writers.

(And writers do talk. If an agent was regularly a total dick to authors, they would get a bad reputation!)

Look, I can be curt. I'm moving quickly, I'm answering things quickly, I'm doing twelve things at once, and I'm not really the "send a lengthy email full of flowery prose" type person, I'm pretty direct. But I would rather pull the wings off butterflies than be deliberately CRUEL to an author, and I think/hope that people know that.

Here's the thing though -- and I'm not making excuses for agents if they are being rude -- they should not be. BUT. It's hard for me to overstate the *sheer volume* of stuff we have to get through every day. Like -- I can't -- it's just -- AHHHHHHHHHH.

Sometimes. . . sometimes, friends... it's enough to make anyone feel like they are going to snap.

For example: I have said a million times not to DM me queries. I make my query information exceedingly easy to find. And yet I get DMs every day -- NOT just to query (though there is that as well) -- but to repeatedly ask me questions like "what's the name of your agency" or to berate me for not answering frankly ridiculous and easily google-able questions like that one (and no, I'm not joking, AT ALL).

So my options: I can ignore things like that (which I mostly do). I can block the person (which I sometimes do). I can give a snappy answer. Or... I can write a tweet that does not mention them personally but is something like "hey y'all, please don't DM me to ask me submission questions or send your query, my agency info and query info is all online, please google it, I promise I am easy to find!" (and then they can flip out at me via DM because I was "subtweeting them" Jesus Christ IT IS EXHAUSTING.)

Anyway. Yeah. Writers can actually be quite rude to agents, as well, trust me, some of them do it quite a bit.

Here's the good news: We can't actually "blacklist" you - that's not a thing. We can personally decline your query (and obviously I would, if you were rude to me!) -- but if you are being rude to me, you probably don't want to work with me anyway. There's nothing further I can do to affect you. In fact, it might surprise you to know that there are SO MANY rude writers that the very act of creating and disseminating some sort of "blacklist" would take an amount of time that is simply unthinkable with our hectic schedules, and gossiping about rude writers would be the most boring gossip in the world. Like, Agent A: "omg, somebody was rude to me on twitter!" -- Agent B: "oh really? somebody sent a weird package full of powder to my house and I had to call the FBI." OH . . . OKAY I GUESS THE "RUDE" STORY ISN'T THAT INTERESTING AFTER ALL!

[build-a-beary-workshop]

I can only think of a handful of kids who like the licensed Build a Bears you posted in the previous ask answer but their parents aren't happy with the prices (even though one sells Build a Bears themselves). Do you think if enough people "protested" certain licensed animals than Build a Bear would stop making them? (I am thinking indirectly about what happened with the Minions even though it wasn't a "protest."

Of course! If enough people stopped buying the licenced bears of course BABW would stop making them; it costs a lot of money to get those licences and to design them! They wouldn’t keep doing that if the money wasn’t in it.

But that won’t happen. There is a REASON why these bears sell, they are memorable. They are built on the foundation of recognizably, when you show anyone (especially a small child) a BAB original like Classic Teddy they aren’t going to instantly know what that IS, they might not care but show them Spiderman? Cinderella? Yoda? Pokemon? People naturally gravitate to the familiar. Honestly the price here doesn’t matter, you walk into BABW with your five year old in toe and ask them to pick out a toy. They pick Chase from Paw Patrol because of course they do, they watch that cartoon every morning! You frown because it’s $45 AUD, you try and get them to buy the $18 AUD BABW original Lil’ Brownie cub (god $18 AUD? Back in 2015 when I started collecting they were $12 AUD wtf) because $45 AUD is too much but your little five year old is a monster and is crying and throwing themselves onto the floor and you end up caving. 

But the price here again isn’t the point either. The Minions are an interesting case. It was a case of BABW not knowing what people actually want because what did we learn here? Children don’t collect the licenced bears so much as adults do. Minions are a kids thing and like barely one now. Adults are so over minions, adults don’t want them (and I’m saying this as a person who OWNS a Minion BAB). Adults have the credit cards, the bank accounts and adults can afford to spend $40 AUD on a BABW. BABW is pivioting, it is very clear to see. They KNOW they cannot compete with the modern world so guess what? They are cashing in on their brand recognizably and nostalgia of their aging demographic. BABW is more for people trying to capture the familiarity of their youth (aka us) but also use their licences to cash in on the broader demographic of fandom. 

Men who have never walked into a BABW have walked in just to buy the Star Wars plushes, and these same men might be there to buy their children these. Adults love sharing their childhoods with their children. It’s all a deeper psychological desire to return to childhood. 

AHHHHHHHHHH. I could probably talk about the psychology of nostalgia and how BABW is one of many hubs of this psychological phenomenon for days but anyway. 

TLDR: Of course BABW would stop making licenced bears if we stopped buying them but that won’t happen, psychologically we are drawn to the familiar; from childhood into adulthood. We can’t say no to the licenced bears, we like them too much.