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Dear Universe in general and anyone friendly and listening and capable in specific:
I would really really like it if the office worker who handles prior auths at my neuro's office could get to mine on Monday or Tuesday at the latest.
Thanks,
A migraineur who is sick of this shit
#I am two weeks late on my injection and they have not done the first prior auth#which will no doubt be rejected#and then they'll need to do the appeal#and in the meantime whenever the weather shifts my head fills with dense fog#so far the pain has mostly been minimal#except on Christmas#and I do still have enough of the rescue med for a while#but the last time I was off the injection for more than a month it didn't work as well anymore#and I'm terrified that's going to happen again#personal#migraines#healthcare system#deny defend depose etc#prior auths should not be A Thing#whining
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using ai to get inspiration and creating what specifically appeases the general public are both byproducts of the whole "I consume fics/books/films/music/art" paradigma. Creators will create only to feed the insatiable hunger for more, and more, and will put little heart in what they do aiming only for their creations to be as much "consumed" as it can be. So maybe, as a whole we should re-think how we perceive the art we engage withâstarting from dropping all this "consume" nonsense and using its rightful verbs (read, watch, listen etc.). It certainly cannot help dehumanizing something that's supposed to carry the heart of its creator.
#I found some of this âthe fics I consumeâ in a discussion *against* ai and lost it#ai#anti ai#anti whatever you do only for clout#I'm not that naif to say people who live off their art don't need to reach a broader public by appealing to its preferences#but I hold to the conviction they'll still tell the story they want with minor compromises#if something is good it's good; it will be appreciated no matter how âweirdâ#this is how we discover new things
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[emerges from my office covered in blood]
just used my insurance company's online messaging system
#it's specifically designed to be as unhelpful as possible and what should have been a five minute task has taken two days#I had to send them my authorization for my doctor's authorization that they know I had to ask him for#so that they'll look at our appeal#so that I can maybe have some goddamn androgel#I have already given them verbal authorization because they originally said that was all I needed#they really do not want to pay for my androgel
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The thing is that in the US not only are cars and licenses easy to acquire, the infrastructure to support them exists pretty much everywhere. That makes using public transit a choice for most people. So if we ever want to see mass adoption, we have to contend with the fact that its use is very much optional. If it doesn't offer enough advantages (or offers too many disadvantages) people will not use it. If it is unreliable, unsafe, inconvenient, or even just unpleasant, people will not use it because most of them don't have to.
#Obviously there's a spectrum here and some people do absolutely need to use public transit#But many people have a car and a license and don't need to#And some people don't have a car but do have a license and could buy a car if it came down to it#If transit is always late then people will stop taking it. They'll just drive instead.#If transit is gross then people will just drive instead#I'm saying this as someone who only takes transit! I don't even own a car!#But most people in america DO and if we want to convince them to take public transit then we need to make it appealing#Because they have alternatives#And idk if any of this will ever be fixed because it requires money and good luck getting that#But damn I do think we could use a few more cleaners yknow. Maybe even enough that we could do some emergency middle of the day cleaning#Because sometimes it gets pretty fucking bad#Also it would be amazing if transit could be on time. Not holding out hope for that though#Also even more controversial - people who need to take transit deserve a decent environment too#They shouldn't have to suffer through dirty transit and overlapping loud tiktoks either
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TBH If you were to go back in time and tell me TOH was going to be the show that completely turns me off from consuming and analyzing stories, I would have called you crazy.
#I'm definitely in my ''I will not consume any piece of media unless it's from a person who can create good conflict and puts effort#into their storytelling instead of making their weird little self-indulgent fanfic shows''#I honestly wouldn't be so annoyed if the fanbase was tolerable - but it isn't#because the pick me bisexuals keep letting the lgbtq+ biphobes run rampant instead of telling them to fuck off#see the thing is most of these clowns rlly do think the show would be better if Luz was a lesbian#but they won't overtly say it - what they'll do is make shit up abt Luz and Hunter and their dynamic#or they'll say some crazy stuff like: it's good Luz didn't end up with a boy to subvert expectations... as if bisexual media#needs to subvert those expectations CREATED BY STRAIGHT PEOPLE. As if straight people can relate to bisexual people...#Right because the bisexual girl getting with the bisexual boy is totally relatable and appealing to straight people... this is sarcasm btw
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ive never really been into breeding but i think i get it i get it now đ¤
#f.txt#something about a character crying and telling the other to stop or to not come inside#bc they cant. they cant get pregnant. they cant they cant they cant#while the other takes a hand to their belly and coos at them and whispers sweetly about how well they're taking them and how they're gonna#fill them up and how pretty they'll look with their babies.#and the other is clenching around them. bc no matter how much resistance they give their body betrays them#and when B has come. they make sure to keep pushing gently inside making the other take every single drop.#and they kiss A's forehead and A's crying but they've taken them sooo well. so so well.#jhjdhsfjdhjfgsdsdjadhfjsk#well it only took one (1) sukugo bedtime scenario to achieve this fjdhdks#tho i think maybe it's the non/dubcon aspect that makes it appealing to me đ¤#yeaaaahhh yeah that's it#bc like the usual consensual mutual breeding kink really doesnt do anythign idk#then again dubious consent makes everything sexier tis the way of the world#sighs.......................need to breed someone while they cry and plead to stop OTL#ohgfhdfjdhfd but then u also have the bottom who wants to be bred and forces the top (who doesn't want to) to do it..........also hot af
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Look what I found in a local hardware store! đĽ°â¨ The Thai Beauty looks a little beat up, but for 1,99⏠each you can't go wrong. I've been thinking about adding a Fusion White to my collection again, since humidity is pretty high in this apartment and almost no issues with pests for the last 1,5 years, but didn't even think it was possible to find such a tiny one, and I don't have the space for a big one (let alone 2). And now I not only found a tiny Fusion White but also a tiny Thai Beauty?! If that's not fate idk what is đâ¨
#calathea#calathea fusion white#calathea thai beauty#I will forever be calling them Calatheas lol#for me that's part of the appeal it just sounds so beautiful and it's very fitting đ#goeppertia#idk that just doesn't do it for me XD#anyway#so happy to have both of them bean in my collection đđ#i've missed them so much#let's hope they'll thrive for a long time â¨#no need to grow big or anything I just want them to be happy and healthy â¤ď¸#calathea louisae#calathea lietzei
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aâight so far, early progress with the antipsychotics, we got:
- so so so so SO sleepy syndrome but I napped 2 hrs and it felt like 8 hrs so nice, tight, hell yeah. I cannot keep running on 4 hrs of piss-poor sleep this is NOT sustainable. these fuckers got hands. I wanted to do my usual ânooo I gotta do [x]â schtick but the second they hit, I got dragged kicking and screaming into beddy bye time. kinda dope. - I had the energy and drive to fucking make myself a proper meal for the first time in... oh jesus, like two weeks? I think Iâve been just grazing on bagels, plain rice, and whatever the fuck else I can find for two weeks now (shoveling $1 fries into my mouth between sprinting across campus aside). thatâs grim. jesus. so marked improvement. - the anxiety has not gone away... :(
promising!
#spext#spext: menthol illness#they also upped my lamotrigine dosage so B) we'll see how it all goes. lotta exciting things in my Brain Department rn#the main appeal of these fucking things besides kicking my lingering malaaaaise#from the stupid cringefail bipo depression (bc the lamotrigine has killed the mixed episodes which is all I DESPERATELY NEEDED IT TO DO)#is that they also increase the dopamine buildup in my shitty little brain#so maybe the adhd symptoms will be a little more bearable until vyvanse becomes an opnion to try (and god#I will be SO pissed if vyvanse does FUCKALL for me like adderall like brother I am on hands and knees)#also damn they'll write these things for all sorts of stuff huh? do we even fucking know what's going on ever is the brain okay are we okay
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I saw someone refer to Steter as a comedy relief duo earlier and it just completely sent me, because that's just... so far from what Steter is, in canon?
As I'm currently rewatching the show, it has shot up into being my favorite ship on the show because of the gravitas it has.
It's a ship that highlights Stiles' fearlessness in such intriguing ways, in canon. From the boy who yelled at a feral Alpha in the school, to their first face to face meeting at the hospital, when Peter recognizes him, knows him, acknowledges him ("You must be Stiles", as though Stiles' reputation as the one who figures things out proceeds him, as he is the first one to put together that Peter is the Alpha).
There's nothing comedic about the scene on the lacrosse field, when Stiles is kneelng beside Lydia's unconscious form and Peter... for reasons beyond comprehension... decides to curl his claws beneath Stiles' chin and guide him up. Not grab him by the arm and haul him up, not command him, not demand.
This is... sensual, filled with tension, and I don't even necessarily mean the sexual tension (even though the imagery of Stiles kneeling before Peter and Peter grasping his chin is something that I find hard to not see a sexual read on).
Peter kidnaps Stiles into the parking garage to force the boy to track down Derek and, sure, the "His username is Allison? His password is also Allison?" - "Still want him in your pack?" is absolutely iconic and is comedic... how do you boil that entire exchange down to "comedy relief"?
The way Peter offers Stiles the bite - Peter, who so far, only took whatever he wanted, never asked or offered - and doesn't force when Stiles says "No". Even the way Peter catches Stiles on the lie is a moment of tension and revelation on Stiles' part. The way Peter acknowledges Stiles as the clever one.
The season 1 finale? When Stiles sets the survivor of a horrific house fire on fire? Absolute riot, huh. It's vicious, it's cruel - it's everything.
And when Peter is resurrected? Sure, Stiles sarcastically asks if someone can kill him again and sure, Peter snarks about living in a cave system. But even in that episode, these brief comedic moments are absolutely overshadowed by the way Peter and Stiles work together, figure out what the vault is made of, then call Scott to warn him and Derek, by finishing each other's sentences. Two brilliant minds working together, on the same wavelength.
The next time they interact is when Peter tells Stiles about Paige, explains what the blue eyes mean. It's one of the more heavy and serious moments in the season, aside from all the death scenes. It's a big lore drop and character background on both Peter and Derek. And it's Stiles this information is shared with. It's a serious moment and even as Peter tells it all, Stiles doesn't trust, sees past the silver tongue and that too is part of the appeal.
When Peter and Stiles work together to save Cora's life in the hospital, while the Alpha Pack is hunting them down? Blind trust. Stiles asks Peter to help him and Peter doesn't even ask, much less quip, he just follows Stiles' lead and they work together.
Now, I'll admit, I haven't seen seasons 3B through 6 in six years and hey, maybe they'll be a real Abbott and Costello in season 4 and I'm just not remembering it, but damn it all to hell if the first half of the show doesn't present them as two clever minds challenging each other, with a growth from terror and pain to respect and teamwork.
I understand and respect not liking a ship, but I am genuinely baffled when people deliberately misinterpret a canon to suit their needs. Always makes me wonder what alternate reality's version of the show they were watching, surely not the same as me.
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This is a RACK focused best practice guide to doing a drowning scene, more specifically a scene where you're repeatedly forcing your victims head under the water. These are my suggestions based on extensive research but they are only theoretical i haven't got to do this to anyone yet. If you have actual experience id love to hear from you please.
Pre-scene setup
Learn CPR. This is the single thing that I'm going to say is mandatory, everything else is just a suggestion this isn't. If worst comes to worst and your victim is drowning you need to be able to save their life.
Learn your victim. How do they react in pain, when they're scared or panicking, where are there mental breaking points. Especially helpful to have done breath play with them before, how long can they hold their breath, how hard will they fight, what are their non verbal cues. Are they the type of person who will push their limits past the danger point, are you comfortable shutting the scene down when they're begging you to continue.
Figure out your nonverbal communication. A safeword is important but not nearly enough for a scene like this. Their head is going to be underwater most if the time and they'll probably be struggling and fighting. What signs can they make to tell you to stop or slow down under these conditions. I would suggest giving them something to hold that can make noise, a squeaky toy or a clicker or something similar, with which to signal you.
During the scene
Use warm water. Cold water adds a whole plethora of new problems significantly increasing the risk. I'm not sure of the exact temperature but I think it should be either room temperature so your victim doesn't feel a temperature difference between the air and the water, or body temperature so the water doesn't change their core temperature. (If you'd like to use cold water or even ice water, if that's part of the appeal, ill happily figure out the additional risks in exchange for a video of you drowning your victim ^.^)
Watch their face. Like any other form of breath play hypoxia is a major risk. This post isn't about breath play, I'm assuming you know all those risks and how to manage them before you do something like this.
Start slow. Put your hand on their head but let them submerge themselves and then come back up when they're ready. This will get them used to the sensation and you used to the rhythm. Slowly increase pressure and intensity until you're forcing their head under and pulling it up against their will.
Have the person fill their lungs to capacity before submerging them. The reason being they will have to breath out before they breath water back in so as soon as you see the first sign of bubbles you can pull them out.
After care
This scene will be intense so the aftercare needs to be too. Again this post isn't about proper aftercare I'm assuming you know how to do that if you're doing something like this. But in addition to the usual.
Have a plan for monitoring your victim for the next 72 hours. There are two major complications that can occur after a drowning incident and both can take days to present themselves. The first is when a persons throat spasms and closes, this is supposed to happen when they initially inhale water but can happen much later. The signs to look out for include persistent coughing, irregular breathing, dizziness, confusion, and foam around the mouth and nose. The second is when water gets deep into the lunges it can cause fluid to build up which inhibits gas exchange causing the person to slowly suffocate. The signs to look out for can include coughing up blood, excessive sweating, anxiety, pale skin, and a crackling sound when breathing deeply. If your victim shows any of these signs get them to a medical professional asap, don't risk it these will both cause very painful death.
Enjoy ^.^
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Ur monster drabbles got my brain churning....Yandere caregiver werewolf who after turning you into a werewolf, treats you like one of itâs pups! Bonus points if they DO already have pups that try to play with you and treat you like their real sibling! ^w^ your content is awesome btw!!
Double bonus points if freshly turned werewolves also have instincts more similar to a pup than a fully grown wolf...
Your sibling playfully nipping at you, at first just snapping at them because you're already so distressed and they aren't helping! Realizing that playing is actually fun, having one tiny moment of respite as you wrestle with them.. until your caregiver comes back with a horribly smug look, knowing they have something new to goad you with.
Perhaps... sibling that was once in the position you were in? Pleading, trying to appeal to the fact you were both once human, only for them to run off and snitch on you! Sorry, but they can't lose their baby sibling. They'll make it up to you though! They'll hunt you the tastiest things and will even try to get caregiver to let you visit town so you can pick out a toy! (Caregiver threatening to put one of those kid leash and harnesses on you if you don't behave and hold their hand nicely in the store..)
Having to deal with them both trying to smother you in their scents... pups need to smell like their pack, little one! Caregiver giving you their shirts to lounge in and sibling constantly draping their favorite blankie over you. Feeling so disgusted and angry when it starts to smell like home and comfort... when you start to want your "family's" scent
(Thank you, Anon!! ^^)
#famial yandere#forced age regression#platonic yandere#yandere age regression#yandere agere#platonic yandere x reader#forced agere#you've got mail! đ¨#i love yan! siblings..
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Hello!I hope you are having a great day!I love LOVE your writing and I would like to request a fanfiction where the reader is Hotch's daughter who works at the bau and is in a secret relationship with spencer without her dad knowing.Spencer wants to tell the team but she is scared about how they'll react so they fight but during a case she gets kidnapped and the feelings are high,so spencer accidentally reveals the relationship.I would love if it ended in smut (possibly dom!spencer who is angry at her for being so reckless and risking her life like that) and maybe a lot of angst??Hotch could potentially be fuming but when they get her back he decides that he will let them be??I would like my emoji to be đź!Thank you in advance and if you write this I would absolutely LOVE to read it!đ¤đ¤
A/N: I love writing for a Hotchner Reader because the Hotch/Spencer parallels are so đđ This was so fun to write!
Warnings: Smut/ Angst with a happy ending, Semi-public sex, oral (f receiving), dirty talk, case details, kidnapping, abuse, strangulation, mentions of child death/ allusions towards pedophilia etc, Hotch is a somewhat shitty/overprotective dad/boss.
Masterlist!
Falling back into a hotel bed that wasn't yours, you wrapped your legs around Spencer Reid as he furiously worked open the buttons of your shirt, his lips locked with yours in a furious exchange.Â
âSpencer, Spencer, we can't-â You moaned as his lips fell down to your ear, a small tap to your thigh signalling that he wanted tour legs spread for him. Despite your vocal protests, you complied.
âNeed to feel you,â he groaned, nipping and sucking his way down your chest as his big hands began pushing your skirt up and your panties down.Â
âSpencer, someone will hear.âÂ
âI don't care who hears,â he whispered, finally ridding you of the last piece of material covering your wet sex. âI just want to make you feel good.â
His lips fell to your cunt, falling on your cunt as he began his ministrations. You loved this, the feeling of him near, his lips on you, his tongue teasing out whimper, then moan, then a scream of his name as you came undone on his lips. But that wasn't a chance you could take today.Â
âHe's in the next room, Spencer. Fuck, he's going to hear us.âÂ
You wouldn't push him off, enjoying too much the feeling of your building pleasure, so appealing to your boyfriend to do the right thing was your last resort as your hips bucked into his face, chasing your orgasm.Â
He didn't stop, but held your hips down, thrusting his tongue in and out of you as his fingers came up to tease your clit.Â
âSpencer, fuck-â you slapped a hand over your mouth as you shuddered below him, finally reaching your climax.Â
Your hands fell limp as he worked you through the end of your orgasm before rising up to lay beside you on the bed.Â
âI wish you wouldn't push it, Spencer. You're a dead man if he catches us like this.âÂ
âHotch won't kill me just because I'm dating his daughter. I don't understand why you don't want to tell people.âÂ
You ran your hands through your hair in frustration. It was a conversation you'd been back and forward on a lot in the past six months.Â
Dating a coworker was tricky, doubly so when your coworkerâs boss - and your boss - was your overprotective father. Things only became more complicated when you factored in a ten year age gap and the fact that your father refused to view you as an adult, even when you were a fully qualified member of his own team.Â
You'd had to fight for acceptance into the FBI and go above him to get the job on his team, a decision that he still berated you for to this day. But you'd had enough of him shielding you from reality, and it was a step you needed to take.Â
Falling in love with Spencer Reid, though, that was just pure bad luck.Â
You weren't sure how it had taken you until joining the team to meet the man, but you sure were glad he hadn't been introduced earlier. You'd joined the team at 24, having been in grad school until your FBI Academy application was approved, and somehow in the 10 years before that Spencer had worked under your father, you'd never crossed paths.
Of course, you knew who he was before that from context and conversations with your father, and of course, he figured out who you were quickly based on the many arguments you'd had in Hotchâs office. But that hadn't stopped you from repeatedly falling into his bed month after month, and then falling in love with him.Â
Your relationship was more than the sex, but it was also a lot of sex. From the stories you'd heard, and from the look of him, you'd assumed that Spencer was a delicate little flower, an innocent in the bedroom as much as any 34 year old man could be.Â
And then you'd both been offered spiked drinks at a holiday party courtesy of Penelope Garcia, and he'd proved you deliriously wrong. He'd been hooked from then on, and after waking up awkwardly in his bed the next morning to two cups of coffee and a spread of breakfast pastries he'd gone out to specifically pick up for you, you'd been hooked on him as well.Â
The only problem was Hotch.Â
You certainly weren't winning any daughter of the year awards already with the stunt you pulled to get on the BAU, but you didn't want to be completely and totally disowned just yet.Â
âHotch won't kill you for dating his daughter, you're right,â you mumbled back to Spencer rolling yourself back on top of him and pinning his arms down so his fingers couldn't tease you any further.Â
âThank you, now if you trust me, I've ran like four different scenarios in my head so-âÂ
âHe'd definitely fire us both, though. And that's worse than death.â
âY/NâŚ.âÂ
âTell me I'm wrong, please. Back up your findings with empirical evidence. He doesn't want me on the team, Spencer. He doesn't even want me in the FBI. I think he'd be happy enough to ship me out of the country, too, if that helped.â
Spencer sighed and tugged your hair behind your ear as he gestured for you to sit up.Â
âI know it's scary. But I love you. I don't care about the consequences because I'll still love you before and after telling him.â
âAnd during?âÂ
âI might freak out a bit, but deep down, the love will be there still.â
You hit him with a pillow and climbed off the bed.Â
âOkay, get out now. I'll think about it but you really can't stay here tonight.â He nodded, grabbing his things and pulling his clothes back into place.Â
âSo, like we're totally done for tonight? Nothing else.â
âSpencer! Out!â You whisper-shouted the words and watched him turn your door handle as slowly as possible before he waved his goodbye and left your room.Â
12 hours later, you were once again getting frustrated with Spencer Reid. And Aaron Hotchner. They may soon be enemies, but goddamn they were perfect for each other in some ways.Â
âHotch, you can't just give me nothing to do. Send me to the morgue with Rossi, or let me interview family members with Tara. I'm a member of this team, too, so let me do my job.âÂ
âYou'll do well to remember that I'm your boss, Y/N.â
âYou're acting more like my dad right now. A boss would utilize his team members.âÂ
You'd been stuck in this stale mate since the morning, and Reid hadn't helped at all. When giving out assignments that morning, you'd not been notably left out of crime scene investigation, suspect interrogation, and anything helpful. Reid usually asked for your assistance at times like these, but he was finally putting his money where his mouth was and keeping distance from you in the office.
So far, you'd ran coffees back and forth between the kitchen and work room and had been communicating back and forth with JJ and Derek in the field and Garcia back at Quantico.Â
You'd been, for lack of better comparison, relegated to receptionist.Â
âAt least let me work on the geographical profile with Reid-âÂ
âAbsolutely not.âÂ
You stiffened at the reaction, wondering just exactly why he would react so strongly. Spencer had snuck in a few secret kisses here and there this morning, though you'd been sure that you'd had no witnesses.Â
âWhy not?âÂ
âI don't want you to distract him.â
Bile settled in the back of your throat as you tried your best to bite your tongue and keep the bitter words in.Â
âYou know, sometimes, Dad, it feels like you love everyone on this team more than you love me.âÂ
He locked eyes with you quickly, but he glance was dismissive and stern, almost as if he was asking you âseriously.âÂ
You turned on your heels and began to walk out before he called out from behind you again.Â
âY/N,â you stopped despite yourself.Â
âLeave the gun and badge on the desk. We'll discuss this after the case is closed.â
You almost laughed. You almost blurted out your relationship with Spencer just to spite him. You followed his order and took yourself out of the office for some fresh air, finally giving him what he wanted.Â
An hour of aimlessly wandering down the street, and you turned into a run-down park. 16 missed calls from Spencer and other members of the team, who'd no doubt watched you turn in your badge.Â
Garcia had even called a few times, and you felt guilty for not forwarding her calls somewhere else, knowing she'd probably have key case information for someone.Â
But you just couldn't handle it anymore, so you switched it off, pushed it back into your pocket, and kept walking.Â
It was two more blocks before the man following you pushed a soaked rag over your mouth and nose and pushed your unconscious body into the back of a waiting van.Â
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Two hours of near constant complaining to Hotch had gotten Spencer nowhere in his demands to know just where you went.Â
He'd called you 36 times since Hotch had told him you'd left, and he hadn't stopped freaking out since.Â
âBut where did she go?âÂ
âI sent her back to the motel.âÂ
âAll of our cars, bar the one JJ and Morgan took to the crime scene, are outside and accounted for. The motel is a 34-minute drive away. It'll take her 5 hours on foot through our unsubs hunting grounds, and I'm not sure if you've noticed, but she matches the victim profile we just gave. Where is she?âÂ
A muscle in Hotch's jaw twitched, but neither of them moved, eyes locked in battle to see who would back down first.
A call from Penelope ended whatever disaster was storming between them.Â
âHotch hey, I can't get in contact with mini-Hotch, so here I am. Morgan called earlier from the crime scene. From the way they're posed, he said they could be possible stand-ins for a lost child a daughter or a sister, so I cross checked the ownership of the vehicles that run with the tires we found prints of at the scene, and I got a name. Like one.â
âGreat work, Penelope, send it over.âÂ
Hotch dropped the call and looked back up at Spencer, readying himself to give orders and push the issue.Â
Again, their standoff was interrupted.Â
âHotch,â JJ rushed in, carrying a radio dispatcher, face white, and filled with worry. âYou need to hear this.â
âWitness reported an abduction on East and 7th, patrol surveyed the scene and found a cellphone. Identifying information suggests it belongs to a Y/N Hotchner. We're bringing it into the stat-âÂ
Hotch stood so fast his chair almost crashed to the floor. He stood so fast that he barely had time to dodge the lunge Spencer took in his direction, fist pulled back. It would connect, given the chance he knew it would. He'd been the one to teach Spencer to throw a punch in the first place.Â
Morgan insinuated himself between the two men before, and blood could be shed, quickly pulling Spencer back as Rossi, too, rushed into the room to diffuse the situation.Â
âOne hour. I've been asking you for one hour where she went, and you wouldn't answer me. You made her leave her gun behind.âÂ
It wasn't exactly a shout, but there was something broken in his voice, as of his mouth had filled with blood and he could only spit hate at a man who'd been a mentor to him until seconds before.Â
âIf she's hurt- fuck, if even a hair on her head is out of place, I'll-âÂ
âWhat, Spencer? What will you do? She's my daughter. What could you do that-â
âShe's my girlfriend! She's my girlfriend, she's the love of my life. God, I want to marry her, I have the ring, I have the proposal planned, all that was left was telling you and then asking her, but you've been such a dick to her about this job, and about cases, and God knows what else, that she doesn't want to say anything to you, and now you've driven her away and she's fucking gone. And she could be hurt or in danger or d-deâŚâÂ
He crumpled to the floor, Morgan still holding him as his legs gave way beneath him.Â
Nobody moved for what felt like hours, still in their grief, shock, some just nervous to see what would happen next.Â
âYou've been in this situation before, Hotch. So have I. It's âŚ. It hasn't ended well for us before.âÂ
The words were so final, so defeated that they sucked the air out of the room.
âMorgan,â Hotch started quietly, eyes still locked with Reid's, still staring down the reflection of his own despair.
âGet Garcia back on the line, I want confirmation that the vehicle that picked Y/N up is the same one that our unsub has been using to set up crime scenes. See if she can lift a name and an address. Rossi, if he's skilled enough to pick up an FBI Agent unaware, we need a SWAT team, get one on standby.â
Slowly growing in volume, he continued, as the room started moving at his signal.Â
âJJ, Tara, take over where Reid left off with the geographical profile. Look at Y/N's last known location and how far a car could've gotten in the last 24 minutes.âÂ
He paused again, staring Reid down.Â
âReid, you're with me.âÂ
xxxxx
It took you a few seconds to gain a sense of your surroundings when you came to. Partially because of the drug induced migraine splitting your head, and partially because of the mess of ribbons and stuffed toys you'd woken up in.Â
A change of clothes, and hands tied to what seemed to be a children's bed and you felt so grossly vulnerable your body shook with a few harsh sobs before you regained your composure and remembered your training.Â
The knots on the rope holding your hands were tight. There wasn't much room to move with them pinned above your head, but you recognised them as naval knots. Your unsub had experience at sea, recreational or professional you'd yet to determine.Â
Looking around again, you looked for entries and exits, wanting to know how the unsub would come in again and how you could get out.Â
There were no windows, but a set of stairs leading up towards a solid door told you that you'd been locked inside a basement. A basement decorated similarly to a child's bedroom.Â
Dimly lit by a mass of fairy lights, the room seemed covered head to toe in teddy bears, dolls, and children's books, a sturdy handmade dollâs house standing in the corner of the room.Â
Faintly, you heard the creaking of floorboards above you before the handle of the basement door rattled and more light poured in.Â
âI bought you breakfast, cupcake.âÂ
There was no time to feign unconsciousness again as your captor finally came into view.Â
He was older than middle-aged, slightly wider around the midsection than you assumed he'd been in his youth. His hair was closely cropped and laid neatly, leading you to suspect he was former military.Â
âOh, good, you're awake. What do you want to do today, cupcake? Daddy has some time off now, I can play with you all you want.âÂ
You moved slowly, pushing yourself up to a seated position so you could bend your arms a bit. But you didn't look away, needing to keep him in your line of sight the entire time.
âWhere am I?â You asked slowly, trying to keep your voice steady.Â
âWow, you must've had a deep sleep cupcake. You're in your bedroom, silly!â
The man's sprightly tone was disconcerting, and you could see a muscle in his forehead twitch slightly as you spoke.Â
âO-of course. My mistake. Maybe I'm just still tired.â
He laid the tray on the bedside table and sat on the bed next to you. You tried your best not to shy from his touch as he stroked your hair, but every muscle in your body tensed and pulled from him reflexively.Â
A quick glance to the tray and you saw the food he'd brought you was a small cup of pills and a glass of water to rinse them down with.Â
If he noticed your flinch, he said nothing, grabbing a hairbrush from the nightstand and beginning to comb through your hair slowly and deliberately, taking care like one would a daughter.Â
âDaddy,â you took a chance, recalling the name he'd given himself earlier. âCan we play outside today? I want to go to the park.âÂ
He stopped moving, and you held your breath as his smile dropped.Â
âNo, sweetie. You know we don't go to parks.âÂ
âWhy not? I really want to play there, Daddy, please!â
In seconds, his hands wrapped around your throat as he pushed you back down into the bed, holding you there with his tight, suffocating grip.Â
âShut the fuck up you little slut. I said we don't go to parks, you listen. I am your father, you are not being taken by one of those sick freaks again.âÂ
He released you as quick as he grabbed you and stood up, pacing as he attempted to regain composure.Â
âYou can draw or we can have a tea party but you know we can't go out. You know that cupcake, I've told you so many times.âÂ
He grabbed at his hair, pulling it from its carefully styled arrangement into a mess, his fingers leaving red marks against his white skin as he pushed and pulled his head.Â
He breathed deeply, and you sat up, trying to regain your composure as you watched him lose his.Â
âWhat was her name?â You whispered, half hoping he would hear you, half praying that he'd ignore you for the sake of his fantasy.Â
âW-What?âÂ
âYour daughter. What was her name?âÂ
He focused on you again, but his hands - hands that you knew could and would choke the life out of you if you did something wrong again - his hands were shaking.Â
You heard the floorboards creaking upstairs and decided to push your questioning, hoping it meant what you thought it did.Â
âWhy are you saying it like that, âwas?â Is. Her name is, your name is Laura, and you're my little cupcake.âÂ
âWhat happened to her?â You filled your voice with as much sympathy and understanding as you could muster, one eye on the basement door that was being slowly pushed open. One look at Morgan at the top of the stairs had your heart rate slowing to a calmer speed. You locked eyes with him for a second, halting him, and he nodded, waiting for your signal.Â
âYou, you're my cupcake, you look just like⌠She should look just like you.âÂ
The man sat on the bed again, stroking a hair out of your eye as his filled with tears.Â
âFifteen years. I looked for her for fifteen years, you know. If I hadn't taken her to that park-âÂ
âThat must have been hard.âÂ
He nodded as he broke down in silent sobs.Â
âThey said⌠they said she probably died a day or two after we lost her. When they found her, she wasâŚâ he rested his head on your shoulder, let him cling to you as he mourned his daughter.Â
âWe couldn't identify her, but she had that teddy with her. The teddy with the cupcake in its hands. She never went anywhere without it. So weâŚwe knew.
You looked at Morgan as he slowly made his descent into the room, closely followed by JJ.Â
The man looked up into your eyes again, wiping the tears from his face.Â
âShe was only 8.â He looked defeated, and your heart broke for him, even as you wished to get as far away from him as you could physically muster.Â
Morgan pulled him up and away from you as he secured the man with handcuffs, but his eyes remained locked on you.Â
JJ untied you and guided you out, but you felt his gaze bite into you ever after you'd left the basement.Â
As soon as you were above ground, you let your body divest itself of adrenaline, your legs buckling as JJ tried to catch you. Another set of arms was quicker, though, and you didn't even register Spencer's arrival before burying your head in his chest and letting your sobs escape you.Â
He guided you to your feet and walked you out to the ambulance, his arms protectively wrapped around you, his lips peppering kisses along your hairline and forehead, anywhere he could reach. In moments, you were bundled into the ambulance, and three gentle voices were trying to calm you, to pry you away from your comfort doll.
You wondered if you'd die like the unsubs daughter had, if they'd find you clinging to Spencer the way she had to her teddy bear.
âY/N,â your father's deep voice was clear and smooth, the only thing that was cutting through the wretched moment of pain you were enduring.Â
You remembered yourself again, relinquishing your grip on Spencer and wiping the tears from your face as you finally looked towards Aaron Hotchner.Â
The paramedics took their chance and began checking your vitals, working around you in a hurry.Â
âDad, I'm sorry, I was walking and didn't notice that he was behind me, I should've been more careful-â
âY/N, itâs okay. You're okay now.âÂ
You nodded as he came closer. You ignored the tears in his eyes, trying not to break down again. It had been an age since you'd last witnessed him cry, at another crime scene with another family member and another unsub. You couldn't think about how close you'd come to making him relive his worst nightmare.Â
Spencer's hand was still firm in yours, and you held it like a lifeline, though you were sure your nails had to be cutting him by now. It took another moment to register that he was holding onto you just as hard, that he was unmoving, still where he was usually a series of compulsive moments, tapping, hand wringing, fists clenching and releasing.Â
You glanced between the men, who had now become quiet as they surveyed you, and noticed the tension. Before you could say anything, though, the paramedics took over.Â
âWe're going to get you to the hospital now, Agent, one coworker can accompany you in the vehicle, preferably one with knowledge of your medical history.â
Both men immediately moved forward again, as if ready to jump into the van, before turning again to each other.Â
âShit,â you mumbled to yourself just as the buzzing in your head from the migraine grew louder.Â
âY/N, it's your choice. Who do you want to come?â Spencer said gently, his body still stiff with worry.Â
âI'm her father. This isn't a question of who she likes better.â
âI have her medical records memorized, and I have more knowledge about the drugs the unsub gave her, but Y/N can choose for herself because she is a grown woman.â
You sighed and dropped the man's hand as the medics ushered you into the van fully, but the men were fully absorbed in their fight for dominance that they barely registered it.Â
âJJ. JJ is coming with me,â You could see both of them turn back to you to argue, but you continued before they could. âBecause I am a grown adult who knows her own medical history, and I don't need my father and my⌠coworker having territory wars over my wellbeing.âÂ
And possibly because she'd be the least awkward option to answer the questions about sexual activity and possibility of pregnancy around, but you really did not need to vocalize that.Â
âRight now, I'm just a victim you've saved. Go and do your jobs and meet me at the hospital later because I am not doing overtime completing paperwork while on suspension.âÂ
JJ climbed up into the ambulance and the doors shut, letting you finally get a few moments peace as it began slowly making its way to whatever hospital was closest.Â
âHe knows, right?â You asked, covering your eyes with your hands as you braved for the answer.Â
âHotch? You could say that he figured it out.âÂ
âThat bad?âÂ
âSpencer threw a punch at him. He tried to at least.âÂ
âWhat?!â Your body shot up, but the paramedic gently forced you back into a laid position, giving you a warning look to stay put as she checked your blood pressure.Â
âDon't be too hard on him, Y/N. He thought he was going to lose you. They both did. I don't think either of them would survive it happening again.âÂ
The guilt hit you right in the chest as you nodded and dropped the conversation.Â
âMaybe I should've let Spencer come with me.âÂ
âWhy?â JJ asked, not offended bit curious.Â
âBecause I'm not entirely sure my father won't throw that punch back at him now he knows I'm okay. It's hard being in a relationship if one of you is dead.âÂ
The older woman chuckled slightly, and you settled back down, letting the car movements rock you into sleep.Â
xxxxx
A few hours later and some quietly bickering voices pulled you from the rest you'd so sorely needed. Without even opening your eyes, you knew they'd both subtly scrambled to your bed to make sure you were comfortable.Â
âWhat are you talking about?â You asked, wiping your eyes carefully as you tried to sit up, arms still aching from being tied up.Â
âOh shit-â you exclaimed after seeing your boyfriends freshly split lip.Â
âDad, what the fuck?âÂ
âY/N, it's fine. It doesn't hurt.âÂ
âAaron Hotchner, do you have nothing to say for yourself?â You tried to put all of tour anger into the words as you said them, bit he looked at you again with his straight face, and you crumpled under the pressure.Â
âI won'tâŚI'm not going to object. I just ask you to keep your private life separate from your work.âÂ
âAnd you're going to punch my boyfriend while I'm unconscious, so I can't defend him.âÂ
âI'm still your father, and he deserved it.âÂ
You looked back over to Spencer, who was quite notably not meeting your eyes.Â
âDo I want to know?âÂ
âI'm leaving now. Jack will be here soon. He wants to check on you now that school is over. We told him you were hurt trying to save a sick man.âÂ
âThank you, dad.âÂ
He nodded at you and left you alone in your hospital room with Spencer.Â
âWhy did you deserve it?â You whisper shouted the moment you assumed he was out of earshot.Â
âThe doctor came in and asked about some old bruises on your upper thighs. And ass. And chest. I had to admit they weren't sustained during the kidnapping, and Hotch wasn't pleased.âÂ
You huffed out a sound halfway between incredulous and a strangled moan of shame as you curcled yourself up into a ball and tried your best to die.Â
âGreat. Wonderful.â
âIf it makes you feel any better, he thought it was signs of domestic violence and not just rough...sex.âÂ
âYes, Spencer, that makes me feel entirely more comfortable with the situation.âÂ
Registering the sarcasm in your voice, he quieted down again, settling into the chair by your bedside and grabbing your hand.Â
You sat silently together for a few minutes before either of you said anything.Â
âI'm sorry. I know you didn't want him to find out.âÂ
âSpencer, you don't have to apologise. All things considered, this is possibly the best way he could've found out.â
âMy busted lip suggests otherwise, I think.âÂ
âAnd a whole lot more would've been busted if he caught us any other time. Besides, I already lost my job, so there's not much else at stake anymore.âÂ
The words stung you as you said them, but you did still feel the weight of your dismissal in your chest, spreading miserably through your bones.Â
âDoes your head still hurt?â
âNot really, why?â
âYou're not as perceptive as you usually are.â
You shot him a confused look as he smiled softly down at you, offering a nod towards the small coffee table under the window of your hospital room.Â
There on your table sat your creds and your gun. The silent acknowledgement you'd been waiting for from your father.Â
Spencer sat by you as you did your best to hold off the tears. He let you pretend there was something in your eye, let you wonder if your eyes had become watery because of dust from the basement. He quietly held your hand as you grinned and grinned until you pulled him in for a kiss and held him close to you.Â
His lips were soft as you wrapped your arms around his neck, pulling him down on top of you even as he tried to hold himself up and off you so he didn't hurt you.Â
âYou know,â you said, punctuating each word with another sweet kiss. âThis means- that- you're- stuck- with- me.âÂ
He laughed into your final kiss, finally pulling back for more air, studying your face as if he were trying to memorize it.Â
âThat was never the issue.âÂ
âOh really, and what was?â
He kissed your again, slow and deep this time, taking his time working his hands down from your hair to your neck to cup your face so you were opened up to him, letting his lips and tongue explore everything he wanted to. He pulled away eventually and instinctively your lips tried to chase his, even as he pulled out of reach.Â
âMaking sure you stayed by my side.âÂ
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ghoapxreader in the baby trapping series IM BEGGING đ§ââď¸
i think i've exhausted the whole "tampering with contraceptives" thing to death by now so i would probably do something different with them. like a surrogate situation or something, but awful lmao
maybe down on her luck reader is in desperate need of cash, and these two men swoop in to save you from this horrible pit you've fallen into.
you need money. they need a baby.
simple, right?
except the simplicity falls apart when they blatantly tell you they want a natural inseminationâas in, a threesome.
multiple, the pretty Scot tells you. after all, it has tae take, hen.
(and this is the part where you should have run. the moment when you'd be screaming at the television at the hapless protagonist as they walk mindlessly into danger despite the warning signs hanging overhead. but like the oblivious hero, you're too blinded by pretty, gleaming white to realise that the thing you're marveling over is a maw. cracked open wide and full of jagged, deadly teeth rearing up to sink inside of you.
but the problem with making shady deals when you're desperate is that no one really bothers to read the fine print, do they? and by the time you see past their crooked charm, you're waving your child off as they skip up the stairs to school, standing like a prisoner between them as they lean down and ask if you're ready for anotherâ)
but that comes later.
what comes first is message on Craiglist.
one that you spend less time considering it than you should have. desperation, you find, clouds your judgement. blots out common sense. makes you susceptible to manipulation. and oh, how susceptible you are. despite priding yourself on your common sense and keen self-awareness, the overarching issues hanging over your head like an idling guillotine seem to erase that instructive need for self-preservation.
so, when the message itself pops up, you're already primed for making bad choices. ones out of malformed desperation. the barrage of texts from your landlord demanding rent, the ones sent to your family in moments of dire need asking for fruitless aid that will never come in time if the read receipts mean anything at all. the package from HR apologising for the inconvenience, but this was, regrettably, the only feasible option for the company at present, and too bad you didn't sign up for that union, huh? student loans. credit cards.
the measureable calamity of your life manifests itself in the shape of a black cloud hanging onto your aching shoulder, wrapping long, inkstained fingers around your jugular as it hisses the insurmountable figure needed to climb out of this pit in your ear.
sleepless, of course, hasn't helped.
and in that bog you can't swim through, their offer sounds far more appealing than it should.
let's meet up somewhere, comes the next message at half past three in the morning as you talk yourself in (and out) of this mess. talk about things more.
what else are you supposed to do?
job hunting sites mock you with their generic emails, thanking you for applying, and saying they'll reach out within a few business days for an interview if you're a good fit. ones sent off weeks ago. hundreds of them to no avail. it's almost like you're being plagued. blacklisted from the city.
even the fast food chain down the street refused your application when you sent it in, and the help wanted sign has been taped on the drive-thru window since you were sixteen.
it all pushes you closer and closer to making stupid choices, like replying with a simple (nervous, shaky, bile-tinged) sure to the message they sent. i'm downâ
(âand drowning)
but you're smart enough to know better, so you act like it, too.
ping your location to your friends. tell them where you're going. clutch your keys so tightly in your fist that your knuckles just out through thin skin. layers upon layers of safety measures glimpsed through the various articles about how to stay alive.
but all the tremulous air is siphoned from your lungs when you see them for the first time.
something magnetic thrums through your chest. copper sutures running lines from their skin to yours until touching just seems like the most natural thing in the world. and you suppose it is when the pretty Scot folds you into a tight hug, cinching you close to his chest as if he's known you his whole life instead of just several seconds.
he's a thing of beauty. chiselled from marble, almost; David made human when he runs his tanned hand through the tumble of uneven hair along his crown. eyes the same varicoloured palette of a boscage in autumn framed in the setting sun's golden halo.
there's a distinct ruggedness about his beauty, too. one that reminds of you a lion's mane. the sleek fur of a stallion. pretty in a wild way. and as his eyes list towards you again and again, like he can't quite manage his fill of staring at you, taking you in, you think about that wildness again. the hunger in his eyes so similiar to the desperation of a predator fattening up for the encroaching chill of winter. it makes you shiver, but you can't look away
(because you know what's waiting for you when you do)
and when you finally pluck up the courage to glance at the shape devouring the light with his intimidating bulk, you come to quick realisation that if Johnny is the personification of an autumn evening, then the man standing next to him is the tried and true testament that bad things happen after dark.
he's a strange figure, one who veers almost comically into the uncanny valley with his hood pulled over the plain, black ballcap hanging low over his brow. a balaclava covering every inch of his face with the exception of a small, ovaled hole for his eyes. remnants of something ashy smear into the corners, running up the crooked bend of his nose.
he doesn't look like a real manânot with those liquid, haunting eyesâbut at the same time, there's something preternaturally human about him. a stereotypical sense of masculinityâjust one warped around the edges.
with his worn jeans pulled tight over thick, bulging thighs, and the silver zipper of his hoodie resting at the base of his throat, you could easily think he was just another man in the crowd, but it's off. a glitch. a skip.
like mistaking a coat rack for a man in the dead of night.
eerie.
dangerous.
if the man beside him is playfully carnivorous, a basking lion rolling onto his belly at the zoo, separated by thick glass, then he (Simon, Johnny supplies readily when the silence lingers; Simon Riley), Simon, is what it feels like to be followed home at night.
butâ
there's something about fear and desire that are almost inseparable when broken down into a physiological response.
and when he steps up behind you, close enough that you can feel the heat of his body soaking into the drying sweat on your back, you liken the way your heart climbs up your throat to same as it would seeing a dorsal fin cutting above the waves in open water.
desire, you think, and then catching the white-hot burn of the stare, you add, in a thin whisper: fear.
when they sit you down, and begin to spin a story about how they just want a babyâno strings attachedâyou stay seated in the chair even as an itch in the back of your head starts, nails scraping at your skull.
their reluctance toward traditional methods makes sense when they explain that with their lifestyle, it's impossibleâor the Scottish man does; the other one with a marbled skin of thick, ugly scars on his hands just stares, pinning you down with the weight of his gazeâand this arrangement is the only way they'll get the baby they've been hoping for.
and even though the scratching in your head sounds suspiciously like why you and run, you eat the food they bought for you in the fancy restaurant where appetisers start at $30, and a glass of water is priced at $6. volcanic spring water, the waiter explains as he pours it from a marbled glass pitcher.
you haven't eaten a real meal that wasn't microwavable or cup noodles in weeks.
maybe that's why you find yourself thinking why not instead of no.
they're attractive men. it's not the worst situation you could have found yourself in, even if the idea of parenthoodâhowever brief it's supposed to beâhas bile clawing up the back of your throat, and the bones housing your trembling heart feeling laden, heavy like iron, and starts to cinch your chest shut each day, squeezing tighter, and tighter, andâ
they drop off the first the installment to you the moment your doctor starts to talk about boerhaave syndrome, as if they know the doubts that plague your head when they leave your apartment and the silence starts to mock you.
and that leads you here.
guilt for their situation. desperation over your own. an overarching need to please. it's all a dangerous cocktail that douses over rationality until you're nodding along, accepting their words as gospel until sleeping with themâmultiple timesâdoesn't seem like such a bad thing.
until it happens. until you have Johnny and Simon actively working to knock you up. a marathon of intense sex with the single-minded goal of putting their baby in you.
Johnny drooling all over you as he ruts between your thighs, mindlessly driving himself into a frenzy as he slurres out his desires in an incomprehensible mess of English and Gaelic and animalistic grunts. barely pulling out in time before Simon is pressing your knee down to the mattress, cooing mockingly at the mess his boy made of you. cruelly taking bets as he slides into your sore, aching cunt about who will take first. his or Johnny's? and who do you want, birdie? who's baby do you want first?
fingers always shoving inside to cap the overflow when they exhaust themselves in a liquid-limbed stupor, barely conscious as you tapped out some three, four rounds ago. unable to keep your eyes open any longer as they both came to the same conclusion that cumming inside of you at the same time was the quickest way to knock you up together. ain't he a romantic, birdie?
and it's probably for the best that you passed out before it happened, drooling on Simon's scarred shoulder as he gripped the cheeks of your ass, pulling you wide open as Johnny shuffled forward between his spread legs, eyes riveted to the spot where Simon's cock split you open. the ache you felt the next morning, coming to on a broad chest with fingers stuffed inside of youâshush, shush, just keeping you nice an' plugged, sweetheartâwas almost unbearable.
you expected them to clear out after getting what they want, but they stay. tend to you carefully like you're made of fine china.
orâJohnny does. bundles you up in his arms before setting off towards the bath, finally letting you wash the sticky, flaking grime from your skin, some awful mixture of drying cum, spit, and sweat, groaning in your ear as he pulls you to his damp, hairy chest about how sweet you are for them. how they're going to take care of you.
Simon caters to other things. packs your bags as Johnny scrubs thick fingers over your shoulders, pausing to grasp a sore, tender breast in his palm, hefting the weight up as he feverishly mutters about how hot it'll be to watch you feed their baby. an' maybe you'll let him have a little taste, tooâ
and when you finally emerge from the bath, sorer between the thighs than you were when you woke up, another mess pooling in the gusset of the panties he pulled up your legs, Simon's waiting, eyes riveted to your belly. staring at it with so much hunger, a cold sweat breaks out along the nape of your neck.
in the grand scheme of things, the threesome is the easy part. the hard part comes when they turn the arrangement into a prison, locking the shackles around your wrists when the pregnancy test comes back positive a few weeks later.
they're only doing what's best for their baby, they say, when they move you out of your apartment and into theirs. the cut lease was the only way to do it, Johnny says, shrugging. why make you pay for something you aren't using anymore?
and maybe if your head was thickened with a fog, you'd have questioned the phrasing, but as it stands, pregnancy, even as early as this one, adles you. leaves you a syrupy mess of emotions that they take turns exploiting. aren't you so lonely all by yourself, hen? don' ye want a family?
aren't they good enough for you?
it's less subliminal messaging and more overt coersion. what are you going to do after this? where will you go with your lease cut? and when the funds run dry? what then?
gonna find another couple to knock you up? Simon hisses, mangled hands mauling your belly, pinching and squeezing the flesh as if he could feel the fragile box their happiness is housed inside. should jus' stay with us if that's the case, birdie.
but it's all so sweet, in its own wayâ
(âsweet like a parasite nesting inside of it's host.
but at least you'll never be lonely.)
they stand by the fact that they're looking out for you. that they care. that they can't do much else but idle and watch your body evolve into something new (an' magnificent, Johnny breathes, kissing this unfamiliar shape you call home) and it grates at them because they're not used to feeling so useless, so can't you just let them do this for you? take care of you in all the ways they see fit? like cutting your lease and giving you a better place to stay. handing in your resignation from that shitty nine to five that wore you down to the bone. culling out the annoyances in your lifeâthe friends and familyâwho kick up needless fits over your wellbeing, and just stress you out more than you need to be.
they're not good enough for you, is what Simon says when you ask why he blocked them from your phone, Johnny hovering by the doorway with his arms folded over his chest. barring the exits, you'll realise later. but what comes first is fear, is anger, isâ
happiness. maybe. or some broken, fragile facsimile of it. a subpar humuliculus masquerading around as if it was realised flesh and bone.
"oh," you say, and think you should be touched by his care, his concern, and so you are. shape this emotion from the sludge that pools at the bottom of your chest, running fingers through the muck to find pieces of gold. and then: "thank you, Simon."
it's sweet. or it could have been if it didn't spiral out of your control when they systematically dismantle your entire life until all you're left with is loose sediment slipping through your fingers. the foundation itself soften clay they shape into the image they've been after with the whole time: you.
(or more specifically, a momma for their baby.)
and when they ask you, at the end of this thin, fraying tether, if you want to be with themâan equal, a motherâand be a mother again for them, there's nothing else you could say except yes.
nothing because they made it so.
#a more literal spin to âbaby trappingâ lmao#ghoap x reader#double p with brief hints of somno manipulation social isolation its implied that Ghoap ruin your life from bts too
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Big fan of the idea that Niko and Crystal keep accidently walking in on a private moments between Charles and Edwin.
Something where they freeze up and stop breathing as soon as they notice, still in the doorway and incredibly thankful the door doesn't creak. They haven't been seen yet.
Charles is sitting on the coach, slouched a little, and Edwin on his lap. Crystal can't really see Edwin's face from this angle but it looks like they're talking, Charles occasionally leaning in to nip at his jaw or throat.
They're both stripped down a few layers, nothing indecent, just the clear desire of wanting to be closer to skin.
Charles has his thumbs under Edwin's shirt, just stroking the skin there. He says something and Edwin leans forward to kiss him, there's a lazy roll of his hips that has Edwin pulling back and hiding his face in Charles's shoulder.
There's no rush to their actions, it doesn't even seem like they're trying to get off as much as they're just enjoying each other.
It's... intimate and very distracting. They look really good together. To be completely honest, Crystal isn't entirely sure who to look at - the confident and so very careful way Charles is easing Edwin into it, sharp eyes watching for any hesitation or displeasure or the slow and sweet way Edwin is letting himself sink into it, trusting and oh dear god they need to focus. They absolutely can't be seen.
Edwin will freak out. He'll get flustered and embarrassed, work himself up into panic, and never let himself relax enough to be in a situation like this again. It took Charles and him a long time to even get to this point, over 30 years, and she refuses to be the reason why this never happens again.
Niko and her have backed up slowly and are almost back through the door when she glances up and freezes. Charles is watching them out of the very corner of his eye, a warning look on his face, and she tries to convey that she knows and they're working on it, okay? Keep him distracted.
She rolls her eyes a little at him. Protective asshole probably doesn't like anyone else seeing Edwin like this, not that she blames him. She's had fleeting thoughts before that Edwin could be very attractive, especially if he updated his style, but she never really thought of him as attractive. She sees the appeal now though, how good Edwin looks with someone who knows what to do with him.
The flush on Niko's cheeks seem to indicate she's feeling the same way.
Edwin says something and Charles easily turns all his attention back to him again, a pleased grin breaking out on his face and he looks absolutely smitten.
Even when she and Charles had their little thing, he never looked at her like that and honestly there's no way he would look at anyone except Edwin like that.
The door closes silently behind them and they both sigh, exhausted and relieved. They take off down the hallway as quickly and quietly as they can.
They'll come back later.
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Been thinking about intimacy and relationship dynamics...
Also Charles is 100% someone who always starts smiling when he's kissing.
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When I say I hate being black in this fandom, this is exactly why. The constant dismissal, exclusion, and judgement of the only black character is frustrating. The way some people treat those who are bothered by this is frankly disgusting.
Had someone reply to a post I reblogged about fandom racism the other day calling the OP delusional for being upset (op if you see this I'm so sorry someone did that from my blog).
Saw someone on twitter saying that them excluding Wyll from an artwork they labeled "full party" was fine because they drew a red girl and a green girl (because that is totally the same as black people /s) and then basically said they'll never draw Wyll again.
Seeing constant criticisms and judgements of Wyll for things other characters do and arent criticized for.
The white washing mods, the racist comments on his appearance, the fact that Larian reworked him to appeal to crybaby white gamers, etc. etc.
And now what just happened to Theo in the interview makes me livid. He deserves so much better than being shoved aside by both the fandom and the interviewer.
Y'all really need to examine your biases and behavior and do better. No one has to like Wyll or any other character, but some of y'all need to put some thought into how you behave about him and how you talk about and represent black characters and how you address BIPOC fans who are hurt.
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How about yan!Kaeya making reader believe he's going to babytrap them? Him all, "If you have my child, you can't leave" while his darling is helplessly bound and begging for him to not do it. (he won't, of course, he's not ready for kids but causing them that fear is Delightful to him)
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Breathing heavily, neither of you was in a position to talk.
Kaeya watched as your chest kept rising and falling, your nipples surrounded by marks of this teasing and swaying with the motion, abused and swollen, beckoning him close again. There was nothing Kaeya wanted more than to get lost in the daze with you, feel your soft and wet cunt wrapped around his cock while he made you moan with his wandering hands and obedient tongue.
But as much as he loved your long, passionate lovemaking sessions, he knew what you needed afterward. Yet, he couldn't quite get up and give you the aftercare you deserved, all his strength having vanished with his own release, the liquid sprawled across your stomach.
Your pussy still dripped with spurts of your own cum, lips puffy and emitting the heat that could make even the Kaeya Alberich lose his mind. It truly was a sight for the Archons. You were the epitome of sexy, seductive, and tempting, making Kaeya's mouth water for a taste of you. Not a day passed where he regretted his decision to take you home with him and lock you up, so he was the only one to get to be with you. Every day was manageable, knowing he'd end up next to you at night, your presence healing a small part of all the pain and hurt he carried with him at all times.
You, unfortunately, disagreed.
"You disgusting piece of--"
"Ah, welcome back to the realm of the living, darling."
You let out a huff of breath, a mixture of exhaustion and ridicule, your head slowly rolling to the side to glare at Kaeya, who sat grinning between your spread legs, gently massaging the one thigh laid across his own.
"You are the worst! Scum! Complete trash!"
"That's not what you called me while you came on my cock, though."
Scoffing, Kaeya could tell you were almost done with your anger, a reoccurring emotion after every intense encounter you two had. Emotions tended to run high between you two, and he got used to it. It still hurt, though. He couldn't deny this.
"You'll pay for this," you slurred, your adorable, befuddled glare barely intimidating when you were fucked out of your mind. Like this, you were almost cuter than normallyâperhaps because it was Kaeya who made you this way. You were only this cute because of him. For him.
But like always, even he got tired of your anger. Relationships, right?
"You'll regret ever kidnapping me! I'll get out, and you'll lose everything! They'll lock you up, and I'll make sure you don't get to see the light of day ever again, you bastard--"
"Right, right," Kaeya agreed for the sake of settling the argument. His hand reached out, fingertips dipping in the slowly drying jizz on top of your belly, creating such wonderful marks of possession. Undoubtedly, if anybody saw you like thisâwhich he wouldn't allow anyone to do but himselfâthey'd think he took great care of you, making sure you were well-fed and well-fucked. What more could you possibly want?
"All those assumptions, I wonder how you'd want to prove them?"
Rubbing the cum between his fingers, it drew soft strings as he pulled them apart, slowly dripping off in front of the smile that crept on his lips. A new idea formed in his head, one that would afflict delicious torture to your mind. Torture that would draw you closer to him, make your demeanor softer, and mend the wounds your denial slashed into his soul.
Lowering his hand, he held it suspiciously close to your lower lips, just inches away from your sopping cunt, and you shuffled in your bonds, twisting your hips to get away.
"Who do you think they'll believe if you get pregnant?"
"That's not funny, Kaeya! Get that shit away from me!"
However, instead, Kaeya's hand kept encroaching, causing your movements to become more and more erratic as you tried to avoid his cum-stained fingers. Although there was a good chance nothing would happen, you both had been surprisingly vigilant to not accidentally get pregnant. It was too much trouble and too much work, and neither of you was in a position where you could risk it. Neither did you want his child and to co-parent with him for all their life, nor did he want to share you and risk losing something as precious as you were.
"You think they'll believe a disheveled, hysteric person over their trusted Cavalry Captain? Will they assume I am as crazy as you make me out to be or that you just want to frame me so you can get a lot of money from me?"
"I get it! You can stop this now!"
Your voice grew softer now that you felt threatened by him. Agreeable, docile, sweet. Kaeya wanted more of it, the tremble in your words silken on his mind like honey running down his throat. If he could make you confess your loveâeven if it was out of fearâthere would be no holding back for him, but that was exactly what he wanted.
"They'd lock you up while I'd be the scorned, pitiful boyfriend that is out of his mind with worry for you. I'd visit you daily, bring you food and clothes, and make sure the baby is alright. You'd never get rid of me. I'd always be involved with you or the child. I'd have you back before you could even blink, and I never repeat a mistake."
Pressing his palm against your cunt, you whimpered, the threat of his semen-smeared fingers much too close for comfort. One dip in, and there would be a real chance all the doubts he planted with his words would come true. Kaeya's grin widened as your expression began to falter in worry and fear, another delicious sight, meaning you were so close to caving. He wasn't going to actually do it, but you didn't know that. After everything, you always assumed the worst, never bothering to ask him what he wanted. Your mistake, really.
It made you so easy to manipulate.
"Don't you want to, baby? Be all round and swollen, feeling our child kick, and have me massage your breasts since they'll be so heavy with milk? Are you not excited at the prospect of living with me forever, caring for the kid, and giving them a sibling or two? Would that not be so fun, taking our relationship to the next stage?"
And there it was. Subtle as the sun rising and falling over the day, you conceded, turning your head away ever so slightly and closing your eyes in defeat. Kaeya had learned to read you many nights ago. Learned that sometimes "stop" meant "more" and that you could be placid and coy when you wished for things to go your way, overjoyed that your "plot" worked on him when really, it was Kaeya stringing you along.
"--don't."
"Hm? I'm sorry I didn't catch that."
"Please don't," you repeated meekly, the propitiation in your voice causing gratification to soothe his ego. "I don't want to be pregnant! I didn't really... didn't really mean what I said."
"Mhm, I see," Kaeya hummed, faking his thoughtfulness as he pressed his palm a bit harder against the warmth of your pussy. He had to leave an impact you wouldn't forget so quickly if this punishment was supposed to further your relationship. "Do you still think I'm scum?"
Biting your lip, Kaeya could watch the inner fight you had with yourself not to reply snarkily. Watching your fight die down as he pressed his hand a bit lower, dangerously close to your entrance, immediately shutting up your inner thoughts, was hilarious. At the same time, the control almost went to his head, knowing all the things he could do to you at that moment.
"N-No! You're... you're alright. I was just upset, sorry."
Delicious. All good teasing had to end, even though there was much more to fish for in this situation. However, compared to the last few times you two had this argument, you had relented much quicker with the threat of pregnancy looming in the air than ever before. It was almost like he had slowly chipped away at your resolve, and just now, a big piece broke out of the wall you built around yourself.
"It's fine~" Kaeya chimed forgivingly, immediately withdrawing his hand and rubbing off his cum on your leg across his lap. Wasted opportunity, but it did the job.
"You know I can't be mad with you, darling," he mumbled, purposefully using the same hand to cup your face and rub your cheek as he leaned closer, forcing your head up. Your eyes shot open, anger and more resistance sparking in them momentarily before it died down, too, turning into frustration. Perhaps more than him, you were angry with yourself. Enraged, you had to appease him just to get your way. But Kaeya only heard the walls continue to break, chip by chip, slowly but surely, as he leaned down to kiss you.
You weakly reciprocated, just enough to satisfy him, but it was indeed enough for him. Every little hint of affection willingly given was proof that there was love inside you. Even if fear and hatred had wrapped around it like barricades, he knew it was there, waiting for Kaeya to pull it out and set it free. Soon, you'd cling to him like he did to you, and he couldn't wait to be needed by you like the air you breathed.
"Are you hungry?" he asked softly, brushing your hair aside. "Thirsty? Want a bath?"
"A bath," you immediately replied, almost too quickly. Kaeya grinned some more, knowing you just wanted to get rid of the possibility of him knocking you up anyhow by washing off the cum clinging to you almost as possessively as he was.
"Your wish is my command," he announced solemnly, almost coaxing a laugh from you. Almost.
Maybe if you two had children, you'd laugh more and be happier. Perhaps your features would soften when you looked at the father of your children. Or you'd cuddle with him as you two watched them play and be merry. But who was he to think about this?
You weren't ready yet, and by the Archons, neither was he. But the idea did settle in his mind, how wonderful it would be if this love you two shared accumulated in something new, something wonderful.
Shaking his head, he picked you up from the bed after loosening your restraints, carrying you to the bathroom, ready to fulfill your wishes and make you happy. He could do this without the need of anyone else, just like he swore the day he decided it had to be you who waited for him at home. Had to be you who received all this misguided, toxic love that burned inside of him. As if this idea of children and a family could ever come to fruition when you two barely went a day without arguing and manipulating each other.
As if he'd ever share you with anyone.
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