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suffarustuffaru · 1 year ago

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so @alderamiin said subaru for the ask…. yes your ask was the one i deleted on accident whoops 😭😭 BUT HERE WE GO I MADE SURE TO REMEMBER TO DO YOURS WKDNDN (and i LOVE subaru fr i simply could not skip over him also) (pls expect my usual chaotic rambling im so sorry i really am overusing the caps button 😳😭😭)

Sexuality Headcanon: bisexual 👍 subaru being somewhere on the ace spectrum isnt a super strong headcanon of mine compared to the bisexual hc but i am still fond of it <33 bc i do tend to just hc him as bisexual but i suppose i could kind of see it <33 :DD !!

Gender Headcanon: subaru is literally, as we’ve all discussed, like EVERY letter of lgbtq+ i swear. like natsumi EXPLICITLY being stated to be his ideal self….. what cisgender boy has his ideal version of himself be a woman…. come on….. and hes been like. dressing and trying to pass as a girl for his crossdressing pre-isekai too. like subarus Practiced A Lot at this. subaru clearly enjoys doing this and he was crushed when he couldnt pass bc of his voice pre-isekai :(( AND LIKE subaru and his complex relationship to masculinity and feeling insecure in his own skin like……………… and then natsumi being his ideal self…… natsumi being the Heroine……….. and its like. subaru clearly has a case of “do i want to be them or be With Them” when it comes to men hes attracted to (most notably julius.) so like. it could apply to women too. like. and then the way subaru reacts to felix’s presentation too………. i just think it says a lot. i dont care what tappei says but he wrote all this shit in the text fr!!! and also in general. natsuki subaru being a gender neutral name…. same with natsumi schwartz… so yes genderqueer subaru for the win. i personally hc subaru as genderfluid or bigender!! and also like. subaru being Very LGBTQ+ is so in line with rezero’s themes of self love and self improvement and self discovery and Identity. i think it hits so much harder if subaru Is lgbtq+ versus if he was just insecure straight cis man. like no wonder subaru was struggling Even More. hes so so far in the closet and struggling with like the internal homophobia and shit fr :(((

that and 1. subaru being lgbt is such a great subversion of what you would think when you first meet his character. and also a subversion of ur typical isekai protag which ADDS to rezeros subversion of isekai in general and 2. i love making Certain People mad with these hcs. like its so supported by the text the only thing missing is explicit confirmation. which. i have my doubts with tappei on that but iirc he DID say he nearly wrote a lust if with the guys…. tappei. come on. you already explicitly said that natsumi is subarus ideal self.

A ship I have with said character: im very open to most subaru ships!!! i just love a lot of them—reinsuba, ottosuba, emisuba, remsuba, julisuba… i just like how each kind of dynamic with subaru has so much range like even in just main route alone?? and then you factor in the ifs and it gets So Interesting. theres so much history with each pairing and so much to explore, whether its platonic or romantic. and subaru has a LOT of love in his heart.

i just like each pairing for different reasons hah—like ok ive talked a lot about reinsuba and emisuba already in other asks so. i DO like remsuba okay. not in the sense that i want it to be the endgame ship in main route bc thats very much not happening and i would prefer The Most Detailed emisuba development of all time. which would be more thematically relevant <3 but i DO ADORE remsubas relationship in general. like its so so complicated??? like. yeah theres the conflict in arc 2. theres the conflict in arc 7 with her waking up and being different and being so mean to him about natsumi :((( theres her “youre my hero” versus “youre not a hero” WHICH. URHGHF ITS SO GOOD….. and like yeah remsuba really do be. iffy. in terms of how healthy it is. but its so complicated bc you also have rem being like—she was like the first person, narratively, to be willing to DIE to save subaru the exact way he does for other people (including rem). and then the famous from zero scene in season one which is a MASTERPIECE but i hate how people fixate on “i love emilia” LIKE REM IS HAPPY FOR SUBARU. SHE IS HAPPY AS LONG AS HE IS. EVEN IF HE DOESNT LIKE HER BACK. but also he did like her back romantically for a time. and also of course rem had her fixation on subaru :(( subaru had his own obsession for emilia while rem had hers for subaru pre-being gluttonyed?? :(( yeah like. remsuba being so complicated is so interesting to me. like she and subaru are very passionate people yes. but also they do need to learn to tone it down sometimes you know? REM ESPECIALLY TOO BECAUSE EVEN AFTER SHE STOPS BEING MURDERY TOWARDS HIM… FOR EXAMPLE IN SEASON ONE SHE WOULD CANONICALLY GO TO HIS ROOM IN THE MORNING AND WAIT FOR HIM TO WAKE UP…. like she'd just sit there at his bedside and Stare at him... like girl chill a bit its okay T^T i havent read sloth if. but it seems like they learned to mellow out and have a happy life T^T apart from. a shit ton of people dying in the background and also subaru dying of old age and resetting back to arc 3. i am interested to see if we’ll get further remsuba closure in arc 8 yes. but also im bonking subaru on the head in arc 7 for saying even REM TORTURING HIM was a fond memory. pls let this be addressed again later i swear sodndn.

ok also julisuba and ottosuba. i am no expert on julisuba but on the other hand i have analyzed Too Much Ottosuba so perhaps i am an expert there wodndn. but YEAH i love those ships. they have so much history and moments between them and they are. definitely the more Explicit evidence of subaru being bi (between subarus Interest in julius and reid calling julisuba boyfriends and SUBARUS INTEREST IN JULIUS... vs ottosuba repeatedly being like “omg do you Like Like me?” “NO I DONT SHUT UP” and also their continued divorce arc dynamics yep). but also i will say i really like ottosuba because specifically they are the subaru pairing where theyre like. Very Much Closer To Being Equals. if theyre not already equals in something. like in terms of power levels and intellect and their very loving families and previous inability to fit in or be believed by people and also their status in the narrative as Being Just A Guy in comparison to everyone else. and yet ottosuba are the MOST important members to their camp for their jobs—subaru keeps everyone alive, and otto handles All the politics, which we see over and over again. they are literally THE power duo. otto is so so important too as the second person to die FOR subaru the same way subarus died for others. like the paralleling of otto pushing subaru out of the way when the white whale drove otto insane (and later otto tried to go back for subaru once he regained his senses ;-;;;) versus otto pushing subaru out of the way so he didnt get killed by garf ;-;;;;;. and otto being the second person after rem to also give subaru an EXTREMELY IMPORTANT speech to him (otto-rem parallels...???) <33 except ottosuba also foil a lot bc of their Different Morals. but theyre both stubborn as hell and have a tendency to go off and do shit they think is best without telling anyone bc theyre too deadset (hah) on what THEY think. (OTTO. SPENDING A WHOLE YEAR SECRETLY GETTING THE BOOK OF WISDOM AND HAVING IT RESTORED?? HELLO???) anyway yeah ill stop right here bc i have So Much ottosuba posts on this damn blog wkdndn but i really do think the appeal of ottosuba is that they Are on a more even playing ground. and their morality flipflops sometimes. ottos issues are just more lowkey than subarus widndnd. i am. however. nervous about all the ottosuba and vincent-chisha parallels in arc 8 bc………. possible otto perma death on the horizon??? 😭😭😭😭 itd CRUSH subaru.

also of course the similar flavors of julisuba and ottosuba….. u can have ur tsundere x tsundere ships in TWO DIFFERENT FONTS. anyway ill become a julius lore expert someday i promise.

A BROTP I have with said character: BROTP ottosuba and ramsuba are so so funny and great wofndn but special shoutout to garf and subaru in particular!!! i think its interesting how far their relationship has come bc they had a VERY rough start and its like. 1. im sure garf would immediately regret going into a rage and killing a shit ton of people in that One Failed Loop and 2. we learn garf is a traumatized fourteen year old whos been trying so hard to take care of the demihumans inside sanctuary while his sister and mom left him, one way or another, and hes very afraid of the outside world. and its like YEAH now your behavior makes sense. and its so good to see garfs growth and also his growth in his relationship with subaru (and otto) bc he looks up to subaru sm!!! subaru helped garf so much T^T theyre brothers guys 😭😭 i think its so adorable and so sweet. ill defend garf all day everyday. garf 🤝 subaru with their DAMN hero complexes while otto tries to keep them both on a leash so they dont do stupid shit. subaru IS a good role model for garf though ill say that. subaru tries so hard to be a good role model wkdndn. and yes i always laugh when garf teases subaru for drawing doodles and writing encouraging things for emilia in the temple.

A NOTP I have with said character: okay so. maybe i will spill some tea here. hah so i went over in ram’s ask how i think ramsuba in wrath if is actually super interesting widndns but otherwise ramsuba to me is bland. which. i also just feel like subaru/crusch and subaru/ana and subaru/priscilla are also bland. like. i dont think theyll ever feel interesting to me akdndn. like theres not. as much to work off of imo. like i just dont think theyre a good match romantically at all. like At All. priscilla especially LMAO…. and im tired of people reducing women in the story to just boobs and being fucked by subaru 😭😭😭 like i dont have anything against those subaru ships, my biggest notp is just seeing a bunch of characters be butchered just to have subaru have sex with various women. 😭😭 obviously not everyone in the fandom does that but i see this happens the most with priscilla fr. pls. shes more than just boobs :(((

anyway. my other notp is like. echidna/subaru but like. i feel similarly to ram/roswaal on this where its like. theres a potential there to show a nuanced complex toxic relationship bc THAT IS what echidna/subaru are. even more so in greed if. like theyve spent an UNGODLY amount of time together like their relationship is so fucked. like god the amount of details that were added to their dynamic in the greed if ln makes me go INSANE….. like you know how echidna said that subaru could use her body with this contract?? what she ALSO really meant was HEY SUBARU YOU CAN KILL ME IF YOU WANT. ILL JUST COME BACK BC WE ALWAYS MEET IN A DREAM WORLD AND THERES NO CONSEQUENCES BUT ITLL FEEL REAL TO YOU. LIKE HOLY FUCK FR 😭😭 and like in generally reading through greed if ln is a Trip alright. like “no yeah duh of course it is, suffaru, its GREED IF” but LISTEN……. echidna being subarus weird mother figure and then like. idk there are obvious implications i feel from like the body fluid tea and then echidna being like “you can use my body” and then theres a moment where she puts his hand on her chest and yeah its to feel her heart but LIKE…. SOMETHING ABOUT THAT SCENE FELT LIKE. SOMETHING. TO ME. AND THEN SHES SO OBSESSED WITH HIM AND HES DEPENDENT ON HER LIKE JESUS ITS A MESS. ITS LIKE HOW SHE WAS WITH OG ROSWAAL. GOD. *puts my head in my hands*

anyway my real notp is like. depicting echidna/subaru like it is a Healthy Thing like no it is not 😭😭😭😭 it never was healthy and it literally never will be unless ur changing echidnas character drastically. if ur gonna show off echidna/subaru then they are gonna be SO RANCID in like every way possible there is no other correct way to write them. she is terrible for him. she literally saw him and went “i can make him worse” and then it happened. bc greed if subaru is a Terrible Person. like. its not even a question. the biggest example i can think of rn other than obvious Rbd use is KEEPING MEILI. A CHILD. HOSTAGE AND LOCKED UP IN ORDER TO USE ELSA. HER OLDER SISTER FIGURE. JEEZ. my biggest notp of all time is treating unhealthy relationships as if they Arent unhealthy.

MY OTHER BIGGEST NOTP OF ALL TIME FOR ANYTHING IS SHIPPING A CHILD AND AN OLDER PERSON TOGETHER. subaru/petra SHOULD BE AN OBVIOUS NOTP BUT SURE DOESNT FEEL LIKE IT SOMETIMES….. guys she is a child. come on. hes seventeen and shes TWELVE. GUYS…. and then theres tappei making iirc an ACTUAL petra if????? and idk what the content in petra if is exactly but i worry given tappeis track record with the child characters sometimes 😭😭 AND THEN PETRA BEING IN LUST IF. TAPPEI…… N-NOTHING HAPPENS, RIGHT? *EXPLODES WITH RAGE*. even if petra and subaru get together later when theyre Older Adults in some AU or something its like. subaru knew her when she was a young child. and she had a crush on him then. um. personally idk if im fully comfortable with that hah T^T

A random headcanon: GONNA TALK ABOUT WRATH IF. anyway so the wrath if divergence point is that subaru gets beatrice to teleport him away and ram chases him down, ram tries to strangle him to death but fails, he smashes her head with a rock. yes. BUT OKAY when u watch the anime. beatrice comes for his aid AFTER subaru gets to the cliff and tries to psych himself up to like. jump off to save rem and stuff. THEREFORE wrath if subaru still considered trying to rbd via jumping off that cliff. he just decided not to and agreed to have beatrice teleport him away. this is something not many people seem to mention or maybe even notice (??) but I THINK ABOUT IT A LOT…. :((

General Opinion over said character: i LOVE SUBARU WITH MY WHOLE BEING. he is my absolute favorite anime character of all time. his character arc is so chaotic and complicated and i think the way he Does like still struggle with the same Inner Conflicts is so so much more realistic. recovery and self improvement are NOT linear and he shows that perfectly. and i hate how much people misread subaru T^T the whole chadbaru trend in fandom of how he should get harems or how he should leave everyone or be terrible to emilia for *insert a long list of Terrible reasons here* is so. like did we all read and watch the same damn story or what hah. the whole point of rezero is LOVE ITSELF….. and subaru ultimately has a lot of love for so many people around him. though of course i do worry for how rbd reveal is going to be handled, and im not entirely sure how to feel about subarus arc 7 development atm. rbd reveal is gonna have catastrophic consequences for Everyone. like everyone hes ever been close to finding out hes died a shit ton of times to save him?? that so many of them have like. maimed and killed him or at least Tried To Do That? like HOW are we gonna get a happy ending out of all of this—hows tappei gonna handle this?? 😭😭 i worry sometimes that when rbd reveal happens it wont be nuanced or itll gloss over certain things or it just. wont be so satisfying. bc u have arc 7 subaru out here with SUICIDE PILLS……. ARC 7 SUBARU IN REPEATED INSANE DEATH LOOPS AS A CHILD….. how are we gonna come back from this?? 😭😭 i have my doubts sometimes but tappei loves insane character development for subaru so i suppose i will hope. i just wish for all the trauma to be seen and addressed akdndn and the fact that rbd is so. complicated. it makes subaru and his relationships with everyone else so complicated. and rbd is inherently unfair in a lot of ways to both subaru and everyone hes close to. i cant wait for more subaru development but i also think after arc 8 he NEEDS a break or like otherwise, personally i think subarus gonna snap for good and not be able to return from it 😭😭 or ill just have to suspend my uhh disbelief. i suppose. but yes i do love subaru a lot!!! his hair is a Pain in the ass to draw but ill endure the pain just for him. <33

but regarding all of subarus loved ones maiming and killing him a lot—i think its fascinating how the if routes prove he is JUST as capable of ruining all their lives. like i feel like people forget that sometimes in favor of woaaah cool what if routes where subaru becomes “badass”…. but LIKE…. hes SO SO CAPABLE of so much destruction. he is choice itself. he is capable of changing the entire world and everyone around him. he is capable of causing the deaths and trauma for SO MANY PEOPLE… and like i think rezero itself and subarus relationships are like an extreme version of hedgehog’s dilemma, u know? like u get close to people to love and be loved, but ur also very vulnerable to getting hurt. and rezero is About love. and part of close relationships are that ur so close u Can be hurt. maybe you Will be hurt. but u will also Love….. unless ur one of the ifbarus then fuck u for making the wrong decisions ig wodndndn. im telling u guys that subaru is LITERALLY an eldritch being at this rate. todd is so right.

and. okay one last thing im gonna be real for a second. im a little eh on subaru being a child, honestly. like i DO like the trope of turning characters back into their child selves in order to explore their psychology that way!! but like. idk i feel like the childbaru arc is kinda too similar to the whole amnesiabaru arc in arc 6. it feels Extraneous. it doesnt feel different enough for me personally. (emphasis on personally. this is all my opinion hah.) and then he is STILL A CHILD IN ARC 8 EVEN THOUGH THE OTHER PEOPLE THAT GOT TURNED INTO KIDS ARE NOW BACK TO NORMAL…… LIKE…. im sorry but the childbaru has overstayed its welcome by the time we get to arc 8 imo 😭😭

#re:zero #natsuki subaru #ask #arcs 7-8 spoilers #i decided to do ur ask as soon as i could so i didnt forget bc i deleted ur ask oops HAH #i dont know if people like remsuba on here BUT I LIKE REMSUBA OKAY THEYRE COMPLICATED AND I LIKE IT.#and. yep there we go theres my usual ottosuba agenda 😭😭#if anyone asks me otto ill write even more essays ig 😭😭 HAH….#i just think. subaru ships have a lot of great flavors. but they also have some of the most rancid flavors in my opinion lmao 😭😭😭#rancid (affectionate or derogatory)#my reply to these asks keep getting longer and longer aalsdjdfls oh well

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shootinwebs · 8 months ago

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( spoilers: hazbin hotel s1:e4 )

( content warnings: sexual abuse/assault, personal stuff )

That part of ep4 when Husk stops Angel being drugged with the "love potion..."

A: "You don't think I can tell when someone spikes my drink? I do this all the time."

H: "You just let people drug you all the time?"

A: "You think I ask for it!?"

Always reminds me of that line from the Tori Amos song "Me and a Gun:"

"Yes, I wore a slinky red thing. Does that mean I should spread? For you, your friends, your father, Mr. Ed?"

(The first time I heard that song was the first time I really froze, like a statue, and started to remember what had happened to me.)

Anyway... it really resonates with me, how any misogynist (yes, Angel is a man, but he is effected by misogyny considering rape culture and the way he dresses/speaks/acts/etc leads assholes to calling him a "slut" regardless) would look at the way Angel is and what he wears, and would claim he's "asking for it."

When I lived in a big city around the last couple of years, I had all sorts of comments thrown at me from other women, when I considered myself actually quite "modest" with how I was dressed:

"Careful wearing such a short skirt on a windy day." (said skirt was down to my knees and i was wearing shorts under it to protect my thighs from friction burns)

"You need to put some pants on, lady!" (I was wearing black leggings with cutouts in them, with a tunic-length shirt)

"Your outfit is nice, but you should be careful dressing like that. You're a very attractive woman. Men will take advantage of you."

Really. Just all the same old shit that we're all beyond exhausted by. Women, fem-presenting, queer, genderfluid, and the like.

But something about that conversation between Angel and Husk hit different for me, just like Angel's story in general, even though we've all seen these stories over and over, communicated in a whole spectrum of ways -- shitty and exploitive and adding to the problem, the opposite, and somewhere in the middle. Stories that talk about rape, where we're unsure if they're drawn from someone's personal experience or not.

But I think, that's just it. Maybe the reason Angel's episode feels different, against hundreds and thousands of stories about sexual violence, is because it is from someone's heart.

We'll likely never know for sure, for the sake of that person's privacy.

But I wanted to say it, because of how many people have come forward thanks to that episode. How many people have reached out to loved ones to talk about their abuse, joined support groups, started treatment.

It's not just a story.

#hazbin hotel #angel dust

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mischief-lies-and-stories · 1 year ago

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Loki Series Theories 4/?

My last few theories are shorter, so I’m including the rest of them on this post. I imagine I’ll come up with more theories as season two gets closer and probably as season two is airing, so this probably won’t be my last theory post.

Theory: Loki doesn’t (always/usually) shape-shift when changing genders

So, listen. I love fan-casting Katie McGrath to play fem-day Loki as much as the next person. Probably more than the next person, because I’m horny as fuck for Katie McGrath. But Tom Hiddleston’s already been cast as Loki, and if we cast another person to play Loki, those implications of genderfluid representation aren’t fantastic. It paints the wrong picture at the very least, and I don’t like that.

And the other thing is, I can’t shape-shift, as much as I would love to. I would love a free top surgery, but I can’t. So, I don’t really need him to shape-shift. Because the thing is, being able to shape-shift does not mean you’re genderfluid, and being genderfluid does not mean you’re able to shape-shift. And shape-shifting is not the end-all be-all of gender representation. Loki should just be able to say, “I’m non-binary today,” and have people be able to use they/them pronouns. He shouldn’t have to be like, “Here are my boobs now, I’m a girl.” Just, let them live.

And I think Tom Hiddleston would do a good job playing a genderfluid character. It’s a shame we could not have cast a genderfluid actor (as far as I know) to play a genderfluid character, but Loki wasn’t a genderfluid character in the MCU at the time we cast Tom Hiddleston. He was in the comics, but not in the MCU. (Cuz the MCU sucks.)

So he doesn’t have to shape-shift. It’s okay. (But casting Katie McGrath as somebody else is okay. She’s preeeeettttty.)

Canon Likelihood: Loki doesn’t usually shape-shift to express gender.......Likely.

Primarily because the writers don’t understand what the fuck genderfluid means. They haven’t used it. I don’t think Loki’s even shifted to impersonate a woman before. So I think it’s likely that he doesn’t shape-shift to express his gender, because he doesn’t. Because he’s not genderfluid in the MCU, because the MCU is a piece of shit and doesn’t understand what genderfluid means. He’s not genderfluid representation in the MCU.

Theory: Sylvie is a transwoman.

I’ve already said this in my pinned post. This is not a theory, this is not a head canon. She is a transwoman. Moving on.

Canon Likelihood: Sylvie is a transwoman.......Not a theory.

Is it canon? Yes. I don’t give a shit what they say. It’s canon. I don’t care. I disregard your reality and substitute my own. She’s a transwoman. Fuck off.

Theory: Who is Mobius’s “favorite”?

So people are wondering (and by ‘people’, I mean me) who Mobius was talking to when he hugs Loki but looks at Sylvie and says “You’re my favorite.” Who are you talking to, Mobius?? “You’re” could mean either of them! “You’re” is not a gender-specific pronoun.

I want him to mean Loki. I get it if he means Sylvie. She’s my favorite, too, she can do no wrong, she’s perfect. But I want to know who he meant.

So here’s what I think: I think they cut a conversation between Mobius and Sylvie in the car. I think Marvel’s a fuck, and they deleted a scene that was very important to this situation and they didn’t care that they cut it and that it doesn’t make any sense now. I don’t know what they said in the car, and I don’t know why. But I think, when he says “You’re my favorite,” he’s talking to Loki, even though he’s looking at Sylvie. He’s looking at Sylvie, because he’s referencing something they were talking about in the car, presumably something about Loki. But he’s talking to Loki.

Because we didn’t get enough of him and Sylvie. I don’t think we even saw a shot of them in the car together. (Is that when they talk about the TVA? That was still too short if they did that in the car, but I don’t remember when that was.) What happened while they were in the car? Did they just sit in silence? No! It’s Mobius and Sylvie! It’s the person Loki likes and the person who likes Loki, like of course, they’re going to talk about Loki! And, on top of that, it’s the cop and the person he was trying to arrest! Like, they’re going to talk about something! Why didn’t we get to see it?

Canon Likelihood: Marvel cut a conversation in the car.......Complicated.

Can you say if something is likely or unlikely to be true in canon if it was a deleted scene? I think it’s Likely that it was a deleted scene. I think it’s Unlikely we’re ever gonna see anything referencing it. We might, if they catch this. We might get a reference later on if Loki gets jealous that he thinks Mobius said that Sylvie was his favorite. And then maybe Mobius will be like, “I was talking to you!” Like a confession scene, maybe.

#loki tv show #loki season one #loki spoilers #loki season 1 spoilers #genderfluid loki #sylvie laufeydottir #trans sylvie #mobius m mobius #loki theories #some gender identity rants incoming #i'm genderfluid and i have feelings

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trash-and-trash-accessories · 2 months ago

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This is the most contentious post I've ever made anywhere, with the most notes/views/interactions of anything I've ever done. And I wrote it after watching how happy my friend was performing in a drag show shortly after they came out as nonbinary/genderfluid and started T and presenting masculine in day to day life.

They always loved drag but never felt like it was for them as an afab person, and had been gatekept out of performing in the past but then they did old school horror movie themed drag numbers in a local show and were the happiest I'd ever seen them and I literally officiated their wedding (back when they identified as a lesbian).

It was just my thoughts about my friend and how happy I was for them and how they never felt comfortable in this kind of space or the kind of hyperfemme presentation they admired in other performers until they were able to separate the aesthetic from their gender, to decouple their identity from their presentation and that allowed them to enjoy the hyperfemme drag aesthetic they'd always wanted to participate in.

I think people just hate nonbinary people, and afab people.

Terfs are saying "that's because you're a woman and you're doing what's expected of you and you should be forcibly detransitioned" and transfemmes who hate transmascs are saying "you're causing our oppression and deserve to be raped." (yes, real paraphrases)

And I kind of took that in stride but then I thought about it.

And they're not really saying those things about me. I don't even fit into this description. I dress like a Victorian muppet who lives in the trash. They're saying those things about my friend. If you said those things about my friend in real life, I would stab you to death. I would stab you and watch you die, I am not exaggerating. I've been in many bar fights because people said milder shit than that about my friends. I think we all need to remember that we're talking to and about real people here. This isn't some theoretical scenario about transmasculine people or nonbinary people in theory. There are real people behind these kinds of posts, and you're saying this shit about real people with real lives and desires and fears.

So maybe consider watching your fucking mouths.

I know SEVERAL afab nonbinary people who, as soon as they came out as nonbinary - immediately began dressing in ridiculous hyper-femme outfits they never would have worn before. A lot of people see this and say shit like “Theyfab” or say they are only nonbinary for attention. After all, look how femme they are.

But to me, this makes perfect sense. When you are forced into the category of “woman” against your will, femininity is a chore. It’s a job that you have. As soon as you say no, I’m not a woman, suddenly femininity isn’t your job anymore. It’s not a requirement. It’s just a fun hobby you can get into. Or a little treat sometimes.

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incurablyromanticsblog · 3 years ago

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Don't know how people are gonna feel about this but Loki should've been dealt with the way they dealt with Lucifer (from the Netflix show) I mean while the show straight up dismissed loki's feelings, lucifer netflix really showed us the natural and organic character growth with ups and downs while still maintaining the comic hilarity (WHICH WASNT AT THE EXPENSE OF THE MC). It's love interest and side characters are all original characters dealt as independent characters rather as brownie or plot points.

And the scenes that prompted me to think this?

1. Lucifer asking his Mazikeen to cut off his wings because he's moved past being a pawn in his father's 'Great Plan'. We could've had loki come to this conclusion and tell Mobius (who would've been an actual all out ally who was forced into doin lg what he did) that he no longer wanted any place in a land that hated him. (Once again like Lucifer calling the silver city hell)

2. Lucifer actually being the way he's supposed to be (angel of light, light bringer etc.) We could've had Loki act like the way he Actually Is. Not like how @iamnmbr3 so eloquently put it 'like larry the dumb lookalike'. We could've had Loki being stern yet having that air of sarcasm and wit that he had in his the films. His eloquence, his physical prowess (none of the falling flat on his face stuff, a lot of people talk about how he was trying not to hurt the people in ep 2 but srsly Loki would just immediately disarm them), and most of all his agency and refusal to cower or the pathetic attempts at lying.

3. Costumes. The lucifer netflix team had an extensive costume department that ironically pales in comparison to what disney is capable of but still we see Lucifer have a wide array of clothes and styles. Have Loki take the first chance to change his clothes. If he wants the 50s aesthetic have at it! he can wear the tuxedos and the nice leather. Or maybe change into some nice Viking-inspired leathers and battle armor. Have him as a pirate, or a knight or a cowboy. You're traveling through time good man! you can at least hit some of the cool spots.

4. In depth analysis of lucifer's mental health. the only episode of the Loki tv show I liked (loose term) is the first one cause it's the only one that gave a fraction of what we were promised: an insight into loki. That's it.

5. Lucifer's organic growth. This is self-explanatory. Loki watched one video and was good. Very good five stars. I understand that they only had six episodes but come-on. You could've had the subtle changes through out all the eps and lead to the big finish finally. With each episode focusing on certain aspects of Loki.

5. Lucifer's exploration of self-loathing. This deserves to be a separate point because Istg it was done so well. Basically lucifer messes up and he's faced with the hatred that's been conditioned into him (not unlike Loki) and then he learns what it is and actually tries to love himself. And not by kissing a female variant of himself (ew and also respect the gender fluid persons). He actually saw the good in him by reflecting and his actual good friends helping him.

6. Lucifer actually wanting to be good. Look Idc what shut mike waldron wrote, loki is not selfish when his whole arc has been doing things for asgard, thor, odin, frigga etc. We all know that New York was mind control, I do not know why it's being swept under the rug. But here's the thing, that self loathing I mentioned earlier is a huge part of Loki thinking he's some monster and intent on proving it.

7. Lucifer facing his 'devil-face'. Loki should've come to terms with his Jotun heritage. The TVA could've had a case in Jotunheim concerning the Royal Family and Loki could've seen the entirety of Jotunheim and it's people not just that most-likely war propaganda the Asgardians force-fed him. Maybe have him meet his siblings or better yet his mother. There's a very nice fic on A03 called Asgardian Galdr that deals with this beautifully.

8. Luicfer having a Breakdown and Crying: First off this happens gradually, his problems pile up etc etc. and he faces off his father and gets angry until he finally breaks down. And basically God says, "I'm sorry but i can't fix you," And Lucifer in all his grief and desperation asks, "But you're God,'. I know we talk a lot about Loki being made weak in the Show but that's specifically about him being made weak and helpless to make Sylvie seem like a stronger character (Don't get me started on the Sif and Narcissm scene istfg), But maybe seeing Loki try awkwardly to be good and near the finish of the show we see it blow up in some angsty way? only for some conversation like this to happen and have Loki understand that being good is something that is innate and something he already had the potential for all along. Maybe learn that he's not lawful good but as always the morally grey character we know him as. (Protector of misfits, god of outcasts i.e all the shit Marvel shat on) and rise as the God of Chaos and Stories against the rigid bonds of The TVA and essentially Kang.

9. Lucifer having a nice healthy romantic interest and relationship. Lucifer and Chloe's relationship is more often than not the main point of the show but no matter how much it is focused on it remains health, organic and not a weird allegory for something disgusting. Even if Sylvie weren't a Loki (once again ew) the whole dynamic was toxic. She constantly put him down, and invalidated his feelings (Sounds like Odin huh?) and guess what Loki fell in love with her after one day, one conversation of what love was and Mobius calling her his girlfriend (he also said that it was freakish and i agree). We could've had Sigyn sweet lord. (I'll make another post about this)

10. Lucifer's Sexuality. There is a whole episode in which Loki's paramours are getting murdered and they all vary from men to women to all that comes in between. And there's no shame, no offensive jokes. Have Loki flirt with dudes, i understand ms.karen that this is for children, don't worry the casual sex ;) was offscreen. Have Loki turn into a woman and flirt with woman cowards, maybe make some questionable remarks about horses (That make Sigyn laugh)

11. Lucifer's Powers: lemme sum up, Lucifer can, let's call it, use compulsion on people. He is known for his strength and prowess and abilites to grant favors. Have Loki shapeshift into animals, absolutely mauling people. Have him use his silver-tongue to coax people into making or changing history (Yes Brutus, Caesar is getting to be a bit much, say have you heard how sharp knives are?)

I'm pretty sure there's more that i can't remember rn. And here is one thing i would like to make very clear.

You are not bad for liking the show or hating it whatever. The problem is that the show framed a lot of bad things as good (Anything the TVA did, Mobius' torture session with Loki, the way Sylvie treated Loki only for them to become romantic partners, the Sylkie fiasco as it was offensive to genderfluid people and the bare fucking minimum of LGBTQ and POC rep). The show was also marketed specifically to make us think hey! Loki might actually be the main character only for it to blow up in our faces. We were also promised an actual plot rather than a constantly plot twisting concept that could've been worth something.

Also i'm still working on a Loki fic rn after which i will write a Loki(TV) Rewrite but unitil then ig.

#loki criticsm #loki negativity #sigyn #loki x sigyn #lucifer #lucifer netflix

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quillsink · 3 years ago

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hi if it's not too personal to ask and don't answer it if it is but how did you know you were trans? and i mean also did you start changing stuff about yourself like the way you dressed and hair etc?

Uhh long story afsfafdfd

So in like, late 2020/early 2021 i started watching a looot of trans stuff on youtube. It was in 2020 that I discovered more about the LGBTQ+ community through getting into fandom more and also because of The Owl House and I was consuming a lot of trans content, and then soon enough I was consuming solely transmasc content. Animatics, videos, story times, literally anything, if it was transmasc I would watch it.

It was in early 2021 that I began to realise my discomfort with my body might not be just insecurity. I remember there were multiple times where it was at the forefront of my mind and yet I was still in denial. I stared at the mirror and said “I cannot be a man, the world will kill me ten times over,” I watched a video on binding and then immediately had an anxiety attack and paced up and down then locked myself in the bathroom and forced myself to think I wasn’t trans.

It was in late March 2021 I joined tumblr and made friends through the amrev fandom. I had a mutual who was much younger than me and was nonbinary and I was fascinated by the concept. I remember I looked up “afab enby” on tumblr scrolled for like a whole hour just fascinated by it, and I saw a pic of a masculine looking nonbinary person and was filled with envy, thinking “god i wish that was me.” Then I found some trans resources and I just...stared at it. For very long.

I also had a mutual who identified as ftm and I remember being jealous of them for being ftm which was. Aryan. You dumbass, you’re trans.

I remember reading something written by a transfem and thinking something along the lines of “you WANT to be a woman? why? i’d love to be a dude” and then immediately telling my brain to shut up

There were a lot of moments like that, where the true me was coming to the surface but I was too deep in internalised transphobia to notice.

I had posted jokingly about gender questioning a couple of times. Once in like May or June I think I was talking in TDSS vent channel about how stressed and depressed I was, and Bea offered to VC later and help me out. Then we talked and she asked about gender questioning, saying if we figured that out maybe I’d be a bit less stressed or unhappy.

Then @/in-some-future-time came on the VC as well and they typed in the chat while Bea and I talked. I talked about how I was uncomfy with my body because I couldn’t look masculine, and how I disliked she/her pronouns.

My entire life I’ve been uncomfy with she/her pronouns and feminine terms for like,,,,as long as I can remember, I’ve flinched when people called me she/her, cringed when I was called “miss” or “maam.” I told Bea how I disliked she/her and she was like “Ink,,,if you don’t like she/her,,,you can like,,not use it, yknow,,”

And I was like “WAIT YEAH I CAN”

That evening, after a lot of reflection and looking at labels, I decided I was nonbinary and genderfae, and I dropped she/her and started using they/them. The moment I stopped using she/her pronouns god i swear it was like a fucking weight had been lifted off my shoulders. I was absolutely elated that day, holy shit, I don’t have to be called she or her if I don’t want to, the amount of relief I felt was unreal. There was no way I was going back after that.

I’d been dressing masculine my entire life. I liked being a masculine girl, but the *girl* part always felt wrong. Then, I don’t know how to explain it, but something *clicked* and then I was a guy and good lord it felt *right,* like I’d been waiting for this my entire life and I’d never felt happier.

I cannot explain with words how wonderful it felt to finally realise who I was, like holy shit I’m a guy I’m a boy I’m me I’m myself, it’s such an amazing feeling.

I thought I was feminine aligned nonbinary and genderfluid, but then slowly started gravitating away from female-ness once I realised I didn’t have to be a girl if I didn’t want to. I started identifying more with male-ness, and again, the feeling was amazing. It felt right, it felt good, it felt like home.

And then, slowly, I added he/him to my pronouns and it made me so so happy. It was a bit strange at first, like new shoes feel weird at first, but soon it felt like home and I loved it, he/him and masc terms.

I’ve been dressing masculine my entire life, and after I realised I was trans I did start dressing more masc, but realising I was trans also made me more in touch with my femininity. When I realised I didn’t have to be feminine as a girl but I could be feminine as a guy it felt so much more right?? Like yknow the way gay dudes are feminine, the way gnc dudes are feminine, that’s how I felt, not like how girls are feminine.

But I honestly believe realising I was trans wasn’t the reason I dressed masc, it was more a catalyst. Like yeah, I’m masculine, but that isn’t what makes me a guy. Realising I was trans just sorta made me realise “wait, social norms are bullshit, I can do whatever I want,” and also made me feel more in touch with myself.

I did also cut my hair short and good lord it was a *relief,* I fucking hated having long hair. I did do it because I was like why not all other transmascs do it but it honestly made me really happy.

But like, even if I was a cis woman, I’d still be masculine and cut my hair short. I am traditionally masculine in the way men are expected to be and that is in some way connected to my gender, but it’s also what just feels right and natural for me. If I was a cis girl I’d still have short hair and dress masc tbh.

I mean after a lot of transphobia from my parents I had to tone it down but ah well. Just a few more years in this hell before I’m out of here lmao

Anyways, I hope I could answer your question!!

#ask #anon

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chaoticgenders · 2 years ago

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Long post warning lol, rant warning too. I need to get this off my chest, it's going on 7AM.

TW for drinking, transphobia, and just overall shitty parents/people.

My dad was talking about our family friends' (Who I'll call Dave from here on out, who I also don't count as a friend.) ex-girlfriend, I don't know her name because my entire family including Dave deadnames her. I'll call her Rose. Rose was an abusive piece of shit, apparently. I wouldn't know, I wasn't with my parents at the time when Dave was with Rose..so I know nothing about Rose other than her fuckin' deadname and the fact she's a transwoman. Dave, my mom (sometimes), but mainly my dad are extremely transphobic when it comes to her and it makes me peel off my skin.

My dad claims she deserves this because of how she acted and abused Dave, and he'll also go on spews on how Dave is gay. It usually comes out in all of them when they're drunk, unsurprisingly enough. On new years eve, I think in 2020, me and my dad were both drunk and we both had a small argument over it. My dad getting red in the face and telling me to "shut the fuck up" because I don't understand it. While I'm standing here apple pie in hand just wanting to have a good time, trying to hide the fact I might be some form of trans myself. I told my dad (from what I can remember I was shit faced lol), "Even if she's an abusive asshole, you don't deserve to deadname her! It's transphobic!" , and apparently my dad absolutely hated that response and my mom had to step and and tell me to calm down.

It was understandable, my dad is one thing angry when sober...but when he's drunk he's a lot more in your face and wouldn't hesitate to throw a punch. I let the topic go, but maybe every single time when they're drunk...they'll deadname her.

The biggest one was, I think, around last month. It's a long story on how this stranger got on our front porch but I'll just say she saw us cooking out and decided to join and be nice, I guess. She was very sweet I suppose, although made me dysphoric because she said I would get rid of my "girl face" when I went on T. (My mom also outed me as trans against my will, which made me wanna kill myself.) I digress, at one point someone deadnamed Rose (she's always a Hot Topic when they're drunk.) and I rolled my eyes and kinda stormed off, grabbing a beer from the fridge for my dad out of habit. My mom got so fucking angry at me, and when I came back my mom was explaining to the stranger that Rose was trans..and just outed another goddamn individual.

My parents will never understand the concept of being personal and secret. I've told my parents multiple times certian things they've done is ableist, transphobic, racist, etc. They'll usually give bullshit stupid ignorant excuses to me, claiming "Saying the N-word isn't racist! I grew up around black people that let me!!" which makes me so flabberghasted, or my dad (who's cishet) saying fucking slurs like tranny and faggot to my face, and even being bi-phobic. He literally married a bisexual woman.

Adding on to this, my dad literally said that most bisexual people have a higher chance of cheating. I got defensive because..I'm queer, abrosexual, and also label myself as bisexual so it just hurt. My dad passed it off as a joke as my mom did nothing and said nothing other than back me up a little by saying a myth of being bisexual was that they're cheaters and my dad got even more defensive and started saying it was a joke x3 (times three). Sure, whatever man, it's a "joke".

My mom is also a cunt, because she doesn't belive in pansexual people, genderfluid people, and barely understands nonbinary people. Same with my dad, when I came out as nonbinary, then as a transman. My dad told me to my face that "You'd need to do the surgerys out of the house" and "they/them pronouns don't even make sense" when he's literally like idk..40???

My parents barely misgender me now, I've trained them well (/hj), but I know for a fact my parents don't see me as a man. I know for a fact they just see me as Girl Lite.

Also the process to get my parents to use my pronouns was hell, because they kept using excuses.

Also, my parents are anti-neopronouns (and probably xenogenders), they've claimed its a mockery to trans people and when I try and explain they brush it off like my opinion as a TRANSman doesn't matter.

IDK I can't wait to move out, my parents have tried fucking everything to keep me here and I'm manifesting so hard I can finally just leave this terrible place.

My parents are racist, anti-MOGAI (i use mogai in replace of lgbtqia+, for future references), anti-everything I am and more.

I only semi-recently got 'accepted' by my parents as "might be autistic" because my cousin just got diagnosed with autism.

My parents also don't believe in DID/OSDD, the last time they talked about it, it was all stigma. It hurts living here man, i hate it.

Also, too add flame to fire, my mom fetishizes asians, japanese culture, and gay men. It pisses me off, my mom literally consumes yaoi and is so fucking weird w/ gay people.

#chaos chatter

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hiddenspaceplant · 3 years ago

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Listen, we need to talk more about discrimination in schools, specifically k-9. The reason I say these years is because this is typically before teen ‘rebellion’ years. Now, as a white genderfluid pan, I haven’t experienced racism, but I’ve witnessed what has happened to my peers. As a member of the LGBTQ+ community, you bet I’ve been called shit. But the amount we’re not taught as kids, particularly on dealing with this is terrifying. Everything that could be triggering is under the cut. It include racism, homophobia and transphobia, general discrimination, and toxic religion (Christianity specifically)

-My closest friend, who is Hindu, was accidentally given a beef burger on hot lunch day. However, when she mentioned to the supervisor that she needed to trade burgers because of her religion and the eating habits of her religion. She said no, and when other kids in my class tries to give her food, that woman stopped us, and forced my friend to eat the entire burger. It took over a year for that supervisor to be banned

-My friend liked to wear his sisters clothes, because he just liked skirts more than pants. One day, a teacher said he couldn’t wear them anymore. He refused to stop and the next day, she forcibly took of his skirt and forced him to wear a pair of lost and found pants. Thankfully, she was fired quite quickly.

From Junior High/This year

-Another friend of mine was constantly bullied by a group of boys for wearing a hijab. One day, they tackled her, pinned her down, and ripped off her hijab. They threw it over the fence so she couldn’t get it, and wasn’t allowed to go home. There was no assembly or talk to the kids about why that was such a horrendous thing

-The GSA was started up, and every kid in the GSA (including me) got a pamphlet on why we should repent and convert to Jesus. Turns out that a parent and a teacher hated the idea of a GSA and put pamphlets for gay conversion therapy and their church into our lockers. Both are still at the school

-Last year, it was announced me and my friend would take over the GSA, as we were the only LGBTQ+ people in Grade 8. Our home room teacher (the one from the previous) sat us both down during another class to give us an hour long lecture on why we need to end the GSA, giving us a very detailed description of our Hell. -A follow up to one of these. After my friend got her hijab ripped off, me and my friends did research on what to do when a hijab is ripped off. Soon enough, the boys attacked her again and ripped off her hijab. What one of us (a girl) did was give her a sweater to cover her hair, and the rest of us (not what you should do) was kick them all to the ground. Only us got suspended, the boys had no punishment.

Now, what do you think white, cis, straight, Christian people respond when they hear this? Barely anything, they shrug and say a long version of Oof.

Now, as some of my mutuals know, my parents are white cis straight christians. And they tell these two stories and get reactions of shock and empathy.

-My parents used to live in New Zealand for a few years. They lived on a housing settlement that was invading on Indigenous land. They were yelled at, and faced peaceful protests everyday. My parents claim it was racism.

-My mother tells this to me whenever trans people are mentioned in any form. She knew a pair of twins, and one was a trans woman. At 18, she was lucky enough to get her transition surgeries. My mother claims that the woman went crazy because of transitioning, and was sent to an asylum and became the girlfriend of a serial killer. I’ve heard this story multiple times, and it always changes.

What was the point of this you ask? To remind white straight cis christians to remember you can literally not be discriminated against (sexism not included), and that you need to stop claiming you’ve faced worse

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whatamidoingwithmylifeman · 4 years ago

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Mortal Kombat 11 Michiko vs Canon intro fight dialogues

TW: implications of torture and ptsd

Michiko, Reiki, and Nozomi are my OCs. Reiki is genderfluid and goes by she/her and he/him pronouns. I decided to replace the guest characters with canon characters from previous games that make sense for said OC to be interacting with. Also, Sindel in this, is not the retcon Sindel she is in the games. Plus I include my own HCs. I will post the other part to this when I am finished with it. Please read below the cut.

Baraka vs Michiko

Baraka: I smell the scent of a demon.

Michiko: I would turn that nose away before you catch the scent of your own blood!

Baraka: Come and try “Earthrealmer”.

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Baraka: How well do you handle blades?

Michiko: As long as they aren’t running with a buzz I’m cool with it.

Baraka: Then you’re in luck.

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Baraka: Your mate burned half our camp!

Michiko: He got scared!

Baraka: He will pay!

Cassie vs Michiko

Cassie: I didn’t know there was another woman Lin Kuei.

Michiko: Wait, another!?

Cassie: Oh you have got to meet Frost!

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Cassie: Wait, you’re Sektor’s sister!?

Michiko: I’m trying to forget that myself...

Cassie: Then how did you get powers and he didn’t?

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Cassie: Sooo heard you and a certain fire type were together?

Michiko: Who told you about Reiki and I!?

Cassie: Yes! It’s cannon!

Cetrion vs Michiko

Cetrion: You’re friends with my niece?

Michiko: Nozomi was the first one there for me when I became lost.

Cetrion: Treasure that friendship young one.

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Cetrion: You aren't a cryomancer?

Michiko: I’m what you would call a demon.

Cetrion: then I must send you back into the Netherrealm.

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Cetrion: Your anger in Hanzo is misplaced.

Michiko: he’s trying to take Reiki away from me!

Cetrion: Trust me, those aren’t his intentions.

D’vorah vs Michiko

D’vorah: This one is intrigued by your ice

Michiko: Please observe from a distance.

D’vorah: Afraid of bugs, Michiko?

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D’Vorah: The hive would like a word with your fiery friend

Michiko: You won’t put one stinger near him!

D’vorah: Fine, this one will put them in you.

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D’vorah: You are not human?

Michiko: no.

D’vorah: This one will end you just the same

Erron vs Michiko

Erron: Boy you must be real valuable to have a warrant this high

Michiko: What are you talking about Erron?

Erron: Your brother paid me to bring ya home.

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Erron: You stepped out with Bi Han?

Michiko: Err almost..

Erron: Hit and miss?

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Erron: Need help with courting some ladies?

Michiko: if I did I wouldn’t ask you.

Erron: that hurt worse than a caliber.

Frost vs Michiko

Frost: Family reunion!

Michiko: Huh? What do you mean?

Frost: You're back, and Uncle Sektor is too!

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Frost: Wait, you’re a demon?

Michiko: Unfortunately, yes.

Frost: You just became even more badass!

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Frost: I heard you really tore Kuai a new one when he kicked me out

Michiko: Frost, you are the only reason I returned to the Lin Kuei a few years back

Frost: You... you came back for me?

Fujin vs Michiko

Fujin: Despite being of odd origins, I sense you are more human than most

Michiko: I’m a demon Fujin. A monster.

Fujin: Even demons can achieve humanity.

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Fujin: What has possessed you to act so violently?

Michiko: Possessed. Ha, good one Fujin.

Fujin: I am being serious Michiko!

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Fujin: Your love for Reiki carries across the winds

Michiko: Could you bless our wedding?

Fujin: I am no Elder God.

Geras vs Michiko

Geras: For an ice type, you boil over so easily

Michiko: If people could just leave me and Reiki alone I wouldn’t be angry all the time

Geras: There’s more to your anger than just your fear of losing your lover.

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Geras: Michiko. Demon of the Lin Kuei.

Michiko: Strange sandman. Weirdo of whatever.

Geras: You are not like many others.

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Geras: What is your greatest desire?

Michiko: I want to be far away from Earthrealm with Reiki!

Geras: Serve Kronika, and she will grant your wish

Jacqui vs Michiko

Jacqui: You’re cooler than Sub-Zero!

Michiko: Is that a compliment or an observation?

Jacqui: Both!

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Jacqui: So are you like the girl version of Sub-Zero, or Sektor?

Michiko: Ah! Don’t compare me to my brother!

Jacqui: Roger that.

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Jacqui: What’s your deal with Hanzo?

Michiko: He doesn’t know how to stay away from my mate!

Jacqui: A little relationship tip for ya, jealousy isn’t romantic.

Jade vs Michiko

Jade: Do you work for Quan Chi?

Michiko: I’m a demon. Not a bitch.

Jade: That does not answer my question.

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Jade: Child of a nymph

Michiko: how did you know?

Jade: I like to study in my free time.

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Jade: No you may not borrow my staff!

Michiko: awe please! Just for a day!

Jade: I know what your intentions are Michiko.

Jax vs Michiko

Jax: What do they call you back home?

Michiko: Depends on who you’re referring to.

Jax: Is that good or bad?

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Jax: You’re Lin Kuei?

Michiko: Was. And I’d like to keep it that way.

Jax: Shit. Must have been a bad trip.

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Jax: Don’t let others define you based on your origins Michiko.

Michiko: Where was this advice when I was a kid?

Jax: Probably just outside those cold walls.

Johnny vs Michiko

Johnny: So if you’re actually a demon, then where are the horns and pitchfork?

Michiko: What do you base your imagery of demons off of?

Johnny: No comment.

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Johnny: Cassie and I thought of some ship names for you and Reiki!

Michiko: Oh by the Elder Gods, spare me!

Johnny: What about IcyHot? No no! Freezer Burn!

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Johnny: You may have the coldest ice around, but I’m still cooler than you!

Michiko: Tch. I’m not even gonna argue with you Cage.

Johnny: ha! So you admit it!

Kabal vs Michiko

Kabal: So do you eat souls or some shit like that?

Michiko: I eat life essence, not souls.

Kabal: What’s the difference?

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Kabal: How are you able to withstand Reiki’s heat?

Michiko: She can control the amount of heat in her flame.

Kabal: That’s actually badass.

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Kabal: There’s no way you and Sektor are related!

Michiko: not by blood. No.

Kabal: Wait, you're adopted?

Kano vs Michiko

Kano: could use a gal like you in the Black Dragon.

Michiko: I’d rather avoid clans. Thanks..

Kano: eh. You’re loss

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Kano: I could help you for a favor in return.

Michiko: Didn’t your parents teach you not to make deals with demons?

Kano: Making bad deals is in me blood.

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Kano: You know your brother’s been lookin for ya.

Michiko: Whatever he paid you, I’ll triple if you can pretend you never met me.

Kano: Deal!

Kitana vs Michiko

Kitana: You are not like many other demons

Michiko: dare I ask how?

Kitana: You have more control than you realize.

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Kitana: I’ve heard others call you a princess. Is this true?

Michiko: Oh no! It’s just a nickname they gave me.

Kitana: I hope it is used in a good way.

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Kitana: What brings you to Outworld?

Michiko: Escape with my mate.

Kitana: I can only offer you both so much refuge

Kollector vs Michiko

Kollector: Everyone who comes to Outworld must pay a fee

Michiko: I heard you don’t actually serve the current Kahn

Kollector: She won’t be Kahn for long.

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Kollector: How do you get by without any wealth?

Michiko: Do you know what I am?

Kollector: A pitiful mortal.

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Kollector: I wager you're more nymph than demon.

Michiko: You know I can’t really answer that.

Kollector: I will take my wage in hand now.

Kotal Kahn vs Michiko

Kotal Kahn: Weren’t Nymphs once considered minor Goddesses?

Michiko: Not the Nymphs of this world.

Kotal Kahn: There are others?

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Kotal Kahn: Which lineage do you honor?

Michiko: Can’t honor a lineage that died before it could really grow, now can you?

Kotal Kahn: Surely one of your parents has a deeper origin than what is known.

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Kotal Kahn: You seem more human than anything.

Michiko: That’s because I was raised as a human.

Kotal Kahn: So it is of nurture rather than nature

Kung Lao vs Michiko

Kung Lao: You face a Shaolin warrior

Michiko: And you face whatever the fuck you feel like calling me today.

Kung Lao: I know a God that can offer you great counseling.

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Kung Lao: Have you seen your brother?

Michiko: What brother?

Kung Lao: Are you not related to Sektor?

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Kung Lao: Did you ever eat any Shaolin life essence?

Michiko: see that’s the thing. I don’t remember anything when I am in that form.

Kung Lao: For your sake, you better hope you didn’t!

Liu Kang vs Michiko

Liu Kang: I know a God that can offer you great counseling.

Michiko: Is it Raiden or Fujin?

Liu Kang: Ah, I see you’ve met them both.

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Liu Kang: You do have a heart Michiko.

Michiko: What makes you so sure?

Liu Kang: Your love for Reiki proves it so.

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Liu Kang: The monks can help you with your anger.

Michiko: They’d probably just exorcise me.

Liu Kang: You judge incorrectly, Karasugawa.

Mileena vs Michiko

Mileena: I heard you spoken with my sister. How is she?

Michiko: She’s doing fine actually.

Mileena: Good. Mother and I do worry about her.

Mileena: I heard a certain shadow’s been calling your name.

Michiko: I will have nothing to do with that traitor!

Mileena: A bitter break up?

Mileena: Amuse me Nymph.

Michiko: No thanks, Edenian.

Mileena: You’re actually good at this.

Nightwolf vs Michiko

Nightwolf: I seek peace with my demons. You can do the same with yours.

Michiko: I am my demons, Nightwolf.

Nightwolf: Not all of them.

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Nightwolf: Why not help de-cyberize the Lin Kuei?

Michiko: I want nothing to do with that place!

Nightwolf: Is it the place you fear, or its current inhabitants?

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Nightwolf: You have lost yourself Michiko.

Michiko: Do I even have a self Nightwolf? Do I?

Nightwolf: The Great Spirit can help you find it.

Noob Saibot vs Michiko

Noob Saibot: Where has your love for me gone Michiko?

Michiko: It died when you joined my brother in the time merger!

Noob Saibot: Let me explain myself.

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Noob Saibot: I see you’re friendly with those flames now.

Michiko: At least Reiki won’t betra- flames?

Noob Saibot: Oh sweet, naïve, Michiko. Have you truly not noticed him following you like a lost puppy?

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Noob Saibot: Do you still remember our promise?

Michiko: That promise is broken and gone like the love and trust I had for you.

Noob Saibot: You’re a terrible liar, Michiko.

Raiden vs Michiko

Raiden: I normally do not allow demons in my temple.

Michiko: I am not just a demon, Raiden.

Raiden: I am aware of this.

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Raiden: You’re of Hinpar origins?

Michiko: And Earthrealm origins too.

Raiden: So the lost realms do exist.

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Raiden: I sense a deeper madness in you.

Michiko: No matter how far I run, I can still sense my brother nearby.

Raiden: Blame the sorcery that has been cast to bind you two.

Rain vs Michiko

Rain: You will make a powerful ally.

Michiko: Ally or servant?

Rain: You have befriended Nozomi. So ally.

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Rain: Your power type falls under mine.

Michiko: My ice is a category all on its own.

Rain: Prove it to me.

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Rain: Worship me as you do Nozomi.

Michiko: I work with Nozomi, not worship her.

Rain: You would be wise to do both.

Scorpion vs Michiko

Scorpion: I promised Reiki I wouldn't let you get hurt

Michiko: That was when we all though he was dead!

Scorpion: A promise is still a promise!

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Scorpion: How did you walk so calmly through those flames?

Michiko: My ice is not that of a cryomancer’s Hanzo.

Scorpion: It is of a Nymph, isn’t it?

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Scorpion: We share one thing in common.

Michiko: And what is that, Hasashi?

Scorpion: Loyalty to our loved ones.

Shang Tsung vs Michiko

Shang Tsung: Are you having fun sharing thoughts with your brother, Sektor?

Michiko: So it was you who binded us!

Shang Tsung: It was your fathers’ idea.

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Shang Tsung: Your soul will prove most delicious.

Michiko: Jokes on you, I don’t have a soul.

Shang Tsung: You have one somewhere.

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Shang Tsung: Michiko Karasugawa. A demon-nymph of dual origins.

Michiko: How do you know of that name?

Shang Tsung: I know of its true demise.

Shao Kahn vs Michiko

Shao Kahn: Nymphs used to serve the gods.

Michiko: That’s cause the gods have treated us like their own.

Shao Kahn: Today, they will serve me

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Shao Kahn: Do you consume souls like that wretched sorcerer?

Michiko: I don’t eat souls, Shao

Shao Kahn: That’s Shao Kahn to you, demon!

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Shao Kahn: Your lover is a powerful one.

Michiko: Touch her and you’re dead.

Shao Kahn: Just try and kill me, nymph!

Sheeva vs Michiko

Sheeva: You release too much of your anger in the wrong way.

Michiko: There’s a right way?

Sheeva: Through Kombat.

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Sheeva: You and Reiki will make fine warriors!

Michiko: How so?

Sheeva: There is no greater strength, then two lovers on the battlefield together.

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Sheeva: The Lin Kuei need you Michiko.

Michiko: I’m not going back there!

Sheeva: Even the toughest of warriors must face their fears.

Sindel vs Michiko

Sindel: You are much like my Mileena.

Michiko: Wait, how?

Sindel: You have chosen to be with your lover among all else.

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Sindel: As queen of Edenia, I welcome you and Reiki to our realm

Michiko: We might not stay long, but thank you, your highness.

Sindel: Stay as long as you need to. This is a safe place.

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Sindel: Where in the realms did you learn to scream like that?

Michiko: I used to have at least nine screaming matches a day with my father.

Sindel: By the Elder Gods child.

Skarlet vs Michiko

Skarlet: So you are nymph and demon?

Michiko: I am.

Skarlet: Your blood must be delicious.

---

Skarlet: You and I are of similar origins.

Michiko: How?

Skarlet: I too come from a line of nymphs.

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Skarlet: You excel at taking life?

Michiko: I am not proud of it.

Skarlet: You should be!

Sonya vs Michiko

Sonya: I am surprised to see you back at SF.

Michiko: I need more relationship tips from Jacqui.

Sonya: I can offer them too you know?

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Sonya: We need your help with dealing with Sektor.

Michiko: I am sorry Sonya, but I would rather keep my distance from him and that place.

Sonya: But you are the only one who can help us take him down.

---

Sonya: You really don’t have a legacy to live up to huh?

Michiko: Unless you count being a demon and a nymph.

Sonya: Well that’s when you make your own!

Sub-Zero vs Michiko

Sub-Zero: You know, since the time merger, I have not seen your past self.

Michiko: That’s because I had once lived outside the time dome of this world.

Sub-Zero: Where did you go when you died?

---

Sub-Zero: Please come back.

Michiko: Why, to look at their portaits and be reminded that I too am a monster?

Sub-Zero: You are no monster Michiko.

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Sub-Zero: How did you escape the cyber initiative?

Michiko: buzzsaw. Buzzsaw. BuzzSaw!

Sub-zero: Michiko?

Sektor vs Michiko

Sektor: Many others have told me you fear me. Why?

Michiko: You use the magic that binds us to screw with me!

Sektor: I just wanted to be close to you...

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Sektor: You and Reiki are engaged?

Michiko: She is my soulmate after all.

Sektor: As long as she makes you happy.

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Sektor: Come back home, little sister.

Michiko: So long as that painful, loud machinery operates, the answer is no!

Sektor: How badly have I hurt you?

Cyrax vs Michiko

Cyrax: If I’m mustard, and your brother’s ketchup, what does that make you and Reiki?

Michiko: Cherry and Plum.

Cyrax: Sweet!

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Cyrax: Be lucky you managed to escape before you were cyberized.

Michiko: Be lucky the anesthesia actually worked for you.

Cyrax: You were awake during the process?!

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Cyrax: Do I have permission to marry Sektor?

Michiko: Do I look like my brother's keeper?

Cyrax: Yes you do, Cain. Now answer the question.

Smoke vs Michiko

Smoke: You and my Enenra are friends?

Michiko: Wait, Enenra considers me a friend?

Smoke: He does call you his demon friend.

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Smoke: We both harbor demons in us.

Michiko: You have a demon, I am a demon. There’s a difference Vrbada!

Smoke: Not in our circumstances, there isn’t.

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Smoke: I finally know how you feel now…

Michiko: What are you- oh, no. Come here Tomas.

Smoke: I’ll be fine Michiko

Hydro vs Michiko

Hydro: You and Kuai both need to be careful about the fire types you associate with!

Michiko: I’m not a cryomancer, Hydro. I can handle the heat!

Hydro: That doesn’t mean you can’t be hurt!

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Hydro: You have grown since the last time we met.

Michiko: Well demons do age quite fast.

Hydro: But you are of two odd origins.

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Hydro: You may be grown, but have you really honed your skills little snowball?

Michiko: I have honed more skill than you can ever imagine, water spout

Hydro: Then shall we test them, little fox?

Sareena vs Michiko

Sareena: I’ve never met such a cute demon

Michiko: Wait, there are more demons?

Sareena: oh you poor baby.

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Sareena: We can form our own clan.

Michiko: I’m quite sick of them.

Sareena: Just give it a shot.

---

Sareena: Tell me, how often do you get to release that pent up rage of yours?

Michiko: When the moon is either red or gone

Sareena: I can show you another way.

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yikesharringrove · 5 years ago

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what do you think about a crossdressing Steve? Maybe he started just liking the soft fabrics of his mom's clothes but then he started wearing them as a way to attempt to hold on to the feigned affection she gave him. Eventually he just got his own stuff because they helped him feel calmer, softer. He would only ever put them on when he believed he would be alone for a while to cook or do chores... And then one day Billy comes over. Do with it what you will.

So, maybe you wanted smut, but non-binary femme presenting Steve is a ridiculously big headcanon I have that I have talked about with several folks and will be included in the next big fic I roll out, so this is some Soft Shit bc I wanted an excuse to write Steve as non-binary femme presenting.

For some drag queen Steve, I got a little thing here.

This exact kinda character study of sorts has actually been in my drafts for like, a month, so I’ve incorporated some of it into this. It's modern, and there is some language that may be harmful, so PLEASE be careful with yourselves, no slurs or anything along those lines, just ignorant stuff. Also, this really went off the rails at the end, I’m Sorry.

Thank you for sending an ask!

Read on ao3!

When Steve was a little kid, he always preferred playing with the girls.

They would have clothes for dress-up, princess dresses, and pirate costumes, anything any child could want. They had wigs, makeup, crowns. Little girls also had babydolls, little pretend kitchens he would play in, plastic baby bouncing at his hip.

When his nanny would come to pick him up from Carol’s house, she would have wipes in the car, to clean off his face. Your father will be very disappointed if he sees you playing with girls’ things again, Steven. He learned very quickly that playing dress-up, wanting to be Mommy when playing house, those are not things little boys did.

He remembers fighting with his parents, when they found the little plastic case of goopy lipglosses Carol had let him keep. He was seven years old and was crying, had screamed as loud as he could that if little boys weren’t allowed to play with makeup, then maybe I don’t want to be a boy.

When his parents started leaving him more often, their absences growing longer the older he got, he began going into his mother’s things, trying on her clothes. He was twelve when he first learned that women’s clothes were made of finer materials, were softer, felt like butter against his skin. He was thirteen and would slip into designer dresses each night, learning makeup from YouTube tutorials, practicing with things left in his mother’s vanity and whatever he could discreetly put in his pockets at Meldvald’s.

He got pretty good. Good enough that at sixteen, he wanted more, would go to stores in Indianapolis, would spend his allowance on dresses, skirts, blouses, frilly little things that fit, that made him feel good, correct.

The first time he put on a pair of lacy panties, he almost cried. the material was soft, the cotton tight and nice against him, the delicate lace trimming the waist and legs was pretty. Steve realized, all he ever wants to be in his life is pretty.

He began thinking of himself as a girl, a young woman. He would tuck his dick back, make the space between his legs flat, let his hair grow out more, long enough to braid, to pin with floral clips.

He started dressing up, going out. Finding bars that would let him in if he batted his false eyelashes just so, would overlook his obviously fake I.D. so that he could go in, talk to men that were too old for him, too interested in his doe eyes, his soft cheeks, men that would buy him drinks, fuck him in the back seats of their cars, whisper about how pretty he looked, men that would touch his cock and coo that his pussy was so tight.

He found he didn’t like that but would grit his teeth, didn’t understand why wearing women’s clothes felt so right but the idea of having a women’s body felt wrong. He didn’t get why he felt the most himself, the most comfortable with his dick tucked up in lace panties, but the minute a man told him he was a good girl he felt sick.

When he was seventeen, he stopped going out, stopped dressing up. He had Nancy now, a beautiful young woman who wanted a nice, regular young man. He almost told her, almost told her so many times, but then she was drunk, slurring in his face that he was bullshit, that he was fake, like he didn’t already know.

So he kept to himself, started dressing up again, putting on a full face, a delicate outfit the minute he got home. He would dance around while cooking diner, would float around the house in heels and sweeping dresses. They made him feel better, feel good. He would dress up on particularly bad days, would wear his most beautiful pieces when he got poor grades, when his father told him he was a disappointment over the phone. He had been informed today by his English teacher she had assigned him a tutor.

So he had blinked back tears while blending eyeshadow, had put on his prettiest dress, a pretty dark green number, the fabric light, delicate feminine. He was ready to wallow in self-pity and makeup when there was a knock on the door, followed by the voice of his something-like-a-friend Billy Hargrove, announcing with a laugh that you should REALLY start lockin’ your front door, Harrington. Wouldn’t want someone UNSAVORY comin’ in.

Steve was frozen in the kitchen, his best-kept secret all over his face, his body. Billy didn’t even blink twice when he saw Steve, asked what’s cookin’? while leaning over the stove. Steve’s eyes were screwed shut, breathing fast when Billy looked back, took Steve’s shoulder lightly in his hands said, you need to breathe, Sweet Thing, take it slow, match me. He rubbed gently down Steve’s arms, his eyes clear blue when Steve was able to open his own teary ones.

“Billy, you need to swear to me you won’t tell, you, I, people can’t know. They’ll, I mean, I know I’m a fucking freak but no one-”

“Whoa, who said you’re a freak?” Billy’s eyes were sharp.

“Look at me, Billy. I’m, I don’t know what I am. Sometimes, sometimes I wish that I was a girl, but, but something about that feels just, bad, but, but being a fucking boy feels like shit too, and I just,” he was sobbing, loudly and openly, knew his dark liner was no doubt streaming down his face.

“Hey, that’s okay, Honey, you don’t have to know. You just have to feel good.” He led Steve in a few more breaths. “It’s not black and white, you don’t have to be one or the other. You can just be you. Can be Steve, if you want.”

“What-I don’t understand.”

“Well, you don’t feel right as a boy, but you feel just as not right as a girl. There’s more than that. You have more options.” He turned off the stove, led Steve to his bag, whipping out a laptop covered in worn stickers. “So basically, there’re a whole bunch of genders.” He pulled up an infographic on his screen, a color-coded mess of columns and descriptions. “There’s way more than man and woman. There are people who are non-binary, don’t adhere to the idea of two genders. Sometimes non-binary people identify as another gender, a third gender, sometimes they identify as a mixture of identities. Agender people often identify as having no gender at all. genderfluid people tend to fluctuate between identities, can feel agender one day, the next feel like a man, it all depends on the person.” He looked at Steve, hand gentle on his arm. “And none of it’s wrong. There’s no correct way to be a human. And they each are up to interpretation. There are people who identify as agender but choose to present a certain way, there are people who identify as male but choose to present androgynous, there’s no one way to do it.”

“So if I, if I feel good like this,” Steve gestured to the dress, the smeared makeup. “I can still be, a guy, like I can just be a guy that likes to look like a girl.”

“If that feels best to you. Like I said, you don’t have to be a guy, just because that’s what you were assigned at birth.”

“What do you mean? ‘Assigned at birth’?”

“That means the gender that’s on your birth certificate. It’s just a better way of saying like, male-bodied, since that can be, kinda shitty for people. And like, what even is a male body, you know?”

“You’re getting a little introspective for me here, Bill.”

“Basically, just because you were born with a dick and a doctor was like, it’s a boy, doesn’t mean you have to be a boy that likes looking like a girl, or whatever you said. That’s a perfectly valid way to be, a femme presenting guy, don’t get me wrong, but earlier you said you didn’t feel right as a boy, and I just don’t want you to back yourself into a corner.” Steve blinked.

“Yeah, I think, I think you’re right. I don’t, I’m not a guy. I don’t think.”

“You do not have to know right now. You literally just learned about this, you don’t have to like immediately make a choice. Take some time. Try different labels, try different pronouns, try no labels, see what feels best.” He smiled, looking at Steve softly. “If you want to, I can, like, help you. If you, if you think of something you want to try, it may be nice to, like, hear it from someone else.”

“What was, what was the one that was like, sometimes people identify as like, another gender?” Billy typed away, pulling up a new article.

“I think you mean non-binary. It’s more of an umbrella term to some people, they find more leeway in it.” He scrolled down, pointing at a list of pronouns. “So, some people who identify as non-binary also use alternative pronouns, things like they or ze, which is a way for them to be referred to outside of the gender binary.” Steve’s mind was racing. He tested the words on his tongue, thinking ze, sie, hir to himself, to, themself?

“But if I identify, as, as non-binary, or something, can I still, like, dress like this?”

“Of course. Identity and expression are two different things. To some, they go hand-in-hand, but to others, they can be totally separate.”

“I think, as of right now I think non-binary is okay.” Billy beamed.

“Okay! You don’t have to decide right now, and some folks never decide, they spend their lives flowing through different ways to identify and express themselves, and again, that’s totally fuckin’ okay. Nothing has to magically click into place for you. You can experiment.”

“Can I, can we experiment with, with they. I kinda, it kinda makes sense.” Billy just kept grinning, his smile huge and beautiful.

“Yes, I can do that.” But his face fell, “But I, I mean, this is fuckin’ Hawkins, and I don't’ know, I mean, is it, like safe?” Steve felt like their heart was breaking.

“No, it’s, I don’t think it is, I mean, there haven’t been like incidents but also, we don’t have a lot of people that are, like, openly different.” Billy’s brow was drawn.

“I can, I can call you whatever you want just the two of us, but, I don’t want to like, out you-”

“You can, you can say he was it’s, when it’s other people. I don’t, I don’t want this to get back to my dad, or anything.” Billy’s eyes were sharp.

“I can do that, I can protect you, like that.” He was nodding vigorously. “I just, I wanted to be on the same page, didn’t want to be like misgendering you behind your back and make you feel like shit.”

“You have my express permission to, uh, misgender me, or whatever you just said.” Steve sighed, looking up at the ceiling. “I just gotta get outta this fuckin’ town, man. Then I’ll be good. Live my little queer life outside of the shitty bar outside of town.” Billy laughed.

“You go there?”

“I used to, when I was first kinda, questioning myself. Used to let guys fuck me and call me, like, their pretty little slut or whatever. Not my finest moments.”

“Christ, Stevie. That’s some deep shit. I went once when I first got into town, and some guy was like, I wanna hear you screaming ‘Daddy’ for me and I was like, nope. No thank you to That.” Steve laughed with him.

“I’m pretty sure I did let that guy fuck me. Bily groaned.

“Stevie, no. Don’t call random men Daddy.”

“I’m not gonna lie to you, Bill, I got a lot of daddy issues.”

“Yeah, me too, but not that many.”

“Just enough to be called Daddy, then?” Billy went red, dropped his eyes from Steve as they cackled. “Hit the nail on the fuckin’ head then, didn’t I?”

“Whatever, you little asshole. Let’s just fuckin’ get on with your English homework that is why I’m here after all. Go grab your books.” Steve grinned, leaning in close to Billy.

“Okay, Daddy,” they purred, racing off up the stairs laughing loudly, hearing Billy cursing them out from the kitchen.

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jo-the-schmo · 4 years ago

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Alright new rant time. I am genderfluid and raised as a girl. As someone who is perceived as a woman in American society, even though I do not see myself as one most of the time, we cannot ignore the fact that in America, the experiences you grew up with due to society differed based on how you were raised.

I was raised as a girl and society views me as one, I am therefore treated like one. I receive a lot of messages that prove this fact. I was talking to someone who is non-binary, but was raised and is perceived as a man in society. We may be on the same gender spectrum but our frame of reference in that experience is entirely different.

I will never understand what it is like to be raised as a man in this society that expects them to be emotionless, hyper masculine, and dominant. Similarly, they can never understand what it is like to be raised as a girl in American society.

The subject of my rant is the fact that my level of attractiveness is hardly a factor as to why people are creepy towards me. I have been sexualized by men since I was a child. I’ve lived like this as long as I can remember. It is not the fact that I am considered attractive that people are creepy towards me, it’s hardly even a bullet point.

Attraction being linked to predatory behavior makes up, from my own experience, less than 1% of the reason why it happens. It is such a minimal factor that it is virtually irrelevant to the conversation. I know this because I have lived almost every day of my conscious existence. It should not be considered a factor. It is a matter of vulnerability.

I appear younger than I am, I look like I won’t stand up for myself, I have a generally anxious demeanor about me. Whether I am “attractive” or not should never be inserted into the argument. What makes people be creepy and predatory towards me? Nothing that is actually what I am, but a miscalculation on creepy people’s fault.

I am no push over, and I am not naive in the slightest. I have lived with this kind of shit too long to be considered that. The tragic reality is that ANYONE perceived as a woman in society is at risk to be victimized by terrible people. It has nothing to do with if you are attractive or not, and everything to do with the fact that terrible people make terrible assumptions.

And even if you are young, naive, or vulnerable. It shouldn’t happen to begin it. They said I invalidated their point by saying my attractiveness was irrelevant. Well by god, that’s on me, but it is not something you can fully understand unless you go through it. At no point in the debate did I say I was ugly or imply what they were saying is the ONLY reason I am victimized so frequently. It is factually just not a piece of the puzzle.

It may not be the intent, but by adding my looks into the equation pushes some of the blame onto me. I have had to do a lot of soul searching to try and stop blaming myself for this exact reason. I used to think that the reason men did terrible things to me was because of how I look. And it took work and therapy for me to even begin to understand how wrong I was. The fact that someone just can assume that that’s a factor in the problem, even if it isn’t their intention to blame me, does inadvertently do that.

I am extremely frustrated

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cheese-greater-official · 5 years ago

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once upon a time there was a beautiful princess who lived in a castle and who was definitely gay but nobody knew. she was in love with the gardener,s daughter but she was too shy to talk to her the gardeners daughter was secretly bi one day she was walking in the garden and stubbed her toe, “FRICK FRACK” she said. the gardener’s daughter heard her and ran to her to see if she was ok The princess was so flustered she could barely speak the gardener’s daughter just laughed and handed her a rose, which made the princess blush “will you hold this fuckin rose?” Asked Emma, the gardeners daughter, the princess was astounded by such crude language nonetheless she wanted to tell Emma how she felt Alas, she just put the rose in her hair, thanked Emma, and walked away. the princess (whose name was Eleanor by the way) went back to her room in the castle, oblivious to the fact that Emma was, right at that moment, thinking about how to win her heart Emma soon came up with a plan that seemed crazy, but just might work... that night Emma decided to put her plan in motion, she took her gardening gloves, Lemon meringue pie and roller blades and set to work she hoped to win Eleanor’s heart with her delicious cooking and impressive roller blade tricks Meanwhile Eleanor has also decided to express her love, she grabbed her lute and set off to Emma’s place to serenade her under the moonlight. as they were both sneaking towards each other’s bedroom windows in the moonlight they bumped into each other “OH FUCK MY LEMON MERINGUE PIE” yelled Emma because she’d dropped the pie, Emma recognized the voice instantly “OH SHIT EMMA” yelled Eleanor, who dropped her lute. She ALMOST didn’t, but she heard, and Eleanor’s thoughts were going a mile a minute “OH FUCK” Emma exclaimed at the sight of the gaping Eleanor “you heard that!” It was a fucking good kiss! Or that’s what Emma thought at least, “oh fuck did i say that out loud?” she exclaimed. Eleanor hadn’t heard it though, her thoughts were drowning out all noise, understanding what she’d done. when Emma realized that Eleanor hadn’t heard her, she breathed a sigh of relief. what she did not expect was that Eleanor exclaimed “that was a frick fracken good kiss!” Emma laughed In surprise “actually,” said Emma, recovering the power of speech, “I’ve wanted to kiss you ever since I first saw you.” thé princesse blushes deeply, “me too” she said shyly. it should have been perfect happiness for Eleanor, but she suddenly remembered all the reasons they couldn’t be together: her imminent arranged marriage, her parents’ disapproval, the outrage that her subjects would surely express if they learned that their princess was (gasp!) a lesbian but then and there they came up with a plan, for you see Eleanor’s brother the prince was as gay as can be and in love with the gardeners son Frederic. it was a simple yet extremely risky plan, but one that, if carried out with the utmost caution, would be sure to work. The princess would have to go back to the Castle and declare her love for the gardeners son while the prince would declare his for gardeners daughter, they would have a double wedding and to the eye of the public would be as straight as can be. the following morning Eleanor and her brother Francis went to see their parents, queen Esmeralda and king Franklin in the throne room and announced their intention to marry. the king and queen were not pleased that their children were marrying commoners but at least they were getting married, finally! the wedding was scheduled for the following month, the king and queen being anxious to get their children married off before they could change their minds And so after a month of planning the day of the wedding came, people were invited from far and wide excited about the double marriage. it was a lovely wedding, and if anyone suspected that the brides looked a little too lovingly at each other they never said so What everyone definitely didn’t know is that when the Prince’s fan club heard about the wedding they were devastated and decided to crash the wedding. the palace guards noticed the mob of fans arriving but were powerless to stop yhem the wedding almost passed without a hitch but during the vows, when the Rabi said “speak now” two hundred men and women and non binary people stood up and started protesting. “HOW DARE YOU TAKE THE LOVE OF MY LIFE AWAY FROM ME???!!” Shouted one woman in Emma’s face (Frederick smirked, secretly thinking it was hilarious that none of these people realized he was the one stealing Francis away) “you just CANT be straight!!!” Yelled one of the men, this made the prince chuckle. “who do you even think you are?” Asked one person, looking Emma up and down, “you’re just some common tramp, not fit for a prince’s bride” that was it, Eleanor was mad, she took of one of her high heels and hurled herself at the person who��d insulted the love of her life, desperately stabbing them. “that’s MY girlfriend,” whispered Emma proudly to her brother. The crowd parted, letting the fuming princess walk through the hall to retrieve her shoe. unfortunately there were casualties, 3 fan people had died! And several were injured, the princess was sure to be exiled, at the very least, so the four of them made a split second decision, RUN! they ran for a very long time and finally the four friends reached a small town. and it is in that small town that they decided to stay, the bought a cottage with a few of the gold beads sewn onto Eleanor’s wedding dress, and decided to get married for real this time. an understanding rabbi from the village agreed to officiate their small ceremony, after which they all lived happily ever after with their many cats and their beautiful gardens.

From: Canada Squad Assemble

Story recorded by @storybot, written by @panpotterhead3000, @a-fellow-genderfluid-pansexual, @hildy-dont-be-hasty, @tenaciouswaste, and @oceaneyes1834

#tumblr group chat story #_tumblrgroupchatstory_

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taniushka12 · 4 years ago

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Sending u Eiffel for the ask meme for old times sake 😘

for old times sake :’)

Sexuality Headcanon: bisexual king i love him

Gender Headcanon: my gnder hc of him changes w/ the day bc he’s 100% a cis dude, but im trans so sometimes hes trans lmao (except post canon bc im embarrasingly attached to my post canon genderfluid eiffel hc u_u listen, women are great, there is nothing stopping post canon eiffel from being a woman sometimes, as a treat)

A ship I have with said character: MINKOWSKI!!!!!!!!!!!!!! min/ffel otp as you know i love thems o much 😔🤘😭💞 but other ships include! kepler!(!!!) hilbert! cutter! pryce! all deppending on the moment and au lmao

A BROTP I have with said character: first and foremost minkowski bc god their friendship in the podcast makes me cry i love thems o much LIKE SO MUCH, but also i like his friendship w/ hera a lot!! they’re lovely :)

A NOTP I have with said character: hera bc i prefer them as a brotp, also lovelace, partly bc i hc her (her and also hera tbh) as a lesbian and parly bc just No

A random headcanon: he practically talks with his hand like he gesticulates Everything, even if you tie his hands up he’ll move around as he talks im dead set on this, this man needs to express himself !!! also he’s p good at putting nailpolish but his always look like shit bc hes always using his hands and also he lives on a trash heap on fire 😔 F

General Opinion over said character: _(:з)∠)_ .................................. kiki i could write entire essays over how much i love douglas f eiffel and how much he means to me and stuff, so im gonna be as short as i possibly can: i LOVE him, i love how a character that can be so SO dumb sometimes is still so so smart like!!! wait i have this screenshot saved on my drafts:

he just HAS walkie talkies he MADE!! cutter recluted him (decima business aside) Because he Knew about that.. space rele thingy! he SURVIVED ALONE IN SPACE FOR MONTHS!!!!!!!!!!!! GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i LOVE how he’s SUCH A SHITTY LIER ITS HILARIOUS!! love how hes so integral to the team like hes so important like remember pan pan?? yeah, also love that thing he does when he makes minkowski laugh, god, i just went to the wiki im emotional abt eiffel’s and min’s relationship but anyway

ANYWAY i could keep writing but i would cry, bc i have big feelings abt eiffel, hes funny he can be a jerk hes dumb but hes so so smart too, hes the designed pacifist of the group bc he already caused so much pain to the people he loves........... _(:,3)∠)_

[send me a character and ill answer these!]

#tani's personal shit #you're lucky i havent listened wolf in some time bc otherwise id keep and keep talking and never shut up #gemsofthegalaxy

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bunnyblooms · 4 years ago

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OKAY FUCKER ALL THE QUESTIONS FROM THAT ASK MEME THE LGBT ONE

1. Identity and pronouns.

I'm agenderfluid and they/them pronouns. My sexuality is aroflux and asexual.

2. How did you discover your sexuality?

Pretty much at 14 was like "idk i don't relate to everyone else i don't find celebrities hot or sex remotely something i want. If i could reproduce without sex i would. Oh. I'll just call myself asexual, like a sponge!" (Which asexual is incidentally what the creators of Spongebob were going for, fun facts. Spongebob is ace rights.)

3. Have you experienced being misgendered? How do you overcome it?

Mmmm I am constantly misgendered bc I'm nonbinary and live in a binary society and the way I compartmentalize it is basically just dressing how I want and not making an attempt to pass as anything tbh. The only time I feel misgendered is when someone knows my pronouns and doesn't use them anymore tbh. So basically. Letting go of how I want to be perceived helped. I will say tho, I refuse to come out to my dad bc he won't respect it and it'll be more painful hearing him misgender me knowing how I identify, but. That's certainly a privilege I have since I'm not transitioning. (ATM at least.)

4. Who was the first person you told? How did they react?

I technically didn't come out as ace. My ex-best friend knew bc I talked about it, but neither of us knew it was an identity. So the transition upon finding the label was virtually nonexistent and all of my friends were LGBTQ as well so it wasn't stressful or shocking. It helps that around the time I discovered the label I'd met two friends who were ace and felt the same way I did. My experience with my asexuality is definitely the model that should be the norm with the community and what we as a society should aim for.

As for my gender I'd made comments in the past that I wished I could just be genderless and it really kind of sat with me when my ex-best friend came out as trans bc I was like "Oh? You don't have to be the gender you are at birth?" Belial from Angel Sanctuary was a character that resonated with me at the time, and this was right around the time I made my ace friends. It wasn't until a year later that I discovered the nb community and one friend who was genderfluid that I decided to start trying different pronouns. And basically I came out as questioning and transitioned to nb without a formal declaration, which I also feel should be the goal for society.

I was at a con with my best friend at the time who was trans and he'd come out with my now ex-best friend while they were dating. And I was really anxious bc I felt like ppl would assume I was a transtrender and shit, and my friend said something about gender and I kind of awkwadly implied I might not identify as female and he was really great about it! He was like "If you wanna talk about it or try different pronouns you can." :D

5. Describe what it was like coming out.

I pretty much did this im question 4 hehehe.

6. If you're out, how did ppl react?

I'm not out to family, that I know of. They found my facebook which has my identity listed in my about, so I'm in limbo with them where none of us talk about it so idk if they register it as an LGBTQ thing or not.

My friends were all supportive! It helps that I have like no cishet friends lmao.

I also came out to my class on TDOV two years ago for a project where we step outside our comfort zone. I'm luckily in the social work program which has social justive built into the tenants of the profession so it was pretty positive! People still misgendered me after and were more concerned with "but i'm scared of ppl getting angry at me what should i do to talk about this with them" which. 9__9 Not surprising. But there was a mom whose kid and her kid's partner are both genderfluid and bigender so it was a good experience and I had an ally which made me comfortable in sharing it in the first place.

7. What is one question you hate ppl asking about your sexuality?

Inevitably when I say I'm ace, non-aces assume I have no interest in dating which. Way to conflate being aroace with ace and ignore that there are aros and aces who want relationships. That's my biggest pet peeve.

8. Describe the style of clothing you often wear.

I wear flannels and ripped jeans or shorts mainly. I basically dress like a butch lesbian. I'll wear dresses and stuff but I do not like dressing femme and prefer to offset softer things with hard things. Like. When I wear dresses I have to wear clunky combat boots with them or have short hair or something.

9. Who are your favorite LGBTQ+ ships?

Hmmm. Depends if you mean canon or not. Canon, it's probably FigAyda from D20 and Catradora from She-ra. Shion/Nezumi from No.6 is also one of my faves. There's also Chie and Ai from Virgin's Empire. Blupjeans from The Adventure Zone and JonMartin from The Magnus Archives.

As for Not Confirmed ships, I like Flick/CJ from Animal Crossing, Tsuna/Enma from Katekyo Hitman Reborn, uhhh. Reigisa from Free!, Kanji/Naoto from Persona and Chihiro/whatever the fuck his name is Mondo? Or the other guy I forget, from Danganronpa. Also RenLaw, RenStrade, and VinceLaw+VinceFarz from BTD.

(I am including straight relationships involving trans ppl obv.)

10. What does makeup mean to you? Do you wear any?

I hate how I look with make up it makes me dysphoric. But to me makeup is a good expressive outlet and bomb as hell, so when I do wanna wear makeup, I prefer wearing eyeliner and lipstick (esp in black or blue or green or purple) and glitter.

11. Do you experience dysphoria? How does it affect you?

I experience what I refer to as Silhouette Dysphoria a lot. I experience chest dysphoria but a lot of times it's less about me having them at all and me not liking how I look with them. The same goes for my hips and overall shape. Hence silhouette. I also experience genital dysphoria to a lesser degree, and when I do it's less hating my genitals bc they should be different but more just having any at all. Luckily I was born with internal genitalia so I don't have to think about it as much. Social dysphoria I also experience, but I've talked about that already.

How I deal with it is binding and stuff.

12. What is the stupidest thing you've heard said about the LGBTQ+ community?

Hmm. The ppl who genuinely argue that accepting the community means you'll be forced to accept pedophilia or beastiality. Like. Lmao no?

13. Favorite thing about the community?

I just love how great it feels to be in it tbh. It can be so positive and loving and just genuinely make you feel good about yourself.

14. Least favorite thing about the community?

Exclusionists.

15. Have you ever been to your city's pride event?

No, but I went to Pride in Des Moines!!! IT WAS GREAT!

16. Favorite LGBTQ+ celebrity?

I don't really follow celebrities, but probably Ian McEllen and Tim Gunn.

17. Have you been in a relationship and how did you meet?

I was in a relationship for a while with a friend of mine and it was wonderful tbh. We met in a server and started talkng more, and started out as qpps then became partners and like we broke up, but I still enjoyed the experience and wouldn't go back in time and stop it from happening. My other qpp tho. That's something I would do lmao.

I also have a bf but that's a secret~

18. Favorite LGBTQ+ book.

I haven't read a lot of books, so I guess I have to say The Raven Cycle bc that's the only one I remember reading.

19. Have you ever faced discrimination?

Mmmm the only time I have experienced direct discrimination I was giving a friend valentines chocolate in high school and some kid called me a d*ke when i walked past him.

The other stuff is like. My therapist telling me to check for a hormone imbalance when I said I was asexual.

20. Favorite LGBTQ+ movie/show?

She-ra, "To Wong Foo, Thanks For Everything", The Runaways (the movie not the show), No. 6.

21. Favorite LGBTQ+ bloggers?

I don't have any lmao.

22. Which slur do you want to reclaim?

Queer, bc it's already been reclaimed and it fits me.

23. Have you ever gone to a gay bar or drag show? How was it?

Nope. Never, but it'd be fun!!

24. How do you idrntify your gender?

Already answered this lol.

25. Interested in having kids?

Nope. I'd be too scared of screwing them up.

26. What identity service would you give your younger self?

I wish I'd known there was an ace community before I was older tbh. So that, probably.

27. What do you think of gender roles in relationships?

I personally like playing a feminine role, but I also think gender roles are unecessary, so like. As long as I'm an equal I don't care what role I play lmao. If you wanna treat me like the handmaiden, as long as you're not doing it bc you see me as a woman I don't care.

28. Anything else you wanna share about your gender?

Nah. Just. I don't bother trying to pin it down anymore bc the more I analyze it the less I understand it.

29. Something you wish ppl knew about being LGBTQ+?

Hmmmm not really. It's fun outside of the systemic oppression?

30. Why are you proud to be LGBTQ+?

For me it's less about pride in being LGBTQ+ and more being proud to express myself authentically. 🤷

#lemonadelyric #lgbtq ask meme #long post

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