#and then one FUCK YOU ASSHOLE at the end lol

[mod2amaryllis]

What's white elephant?

it's a popular Christmas exchange game in the u.s. where everyone brings a gift, usually a gag gift but it varies, puts them in the middle of the room and goes around from person to person choosing random gifts to open or, if someone else has opened a gift you want, steal. they're either awesome or the worst depending on who you're with lol.

like we had jose's company party white elephant on Saturday and some asshole brought a live betta fish with a bowl as their "gag" gift and i almost had a heart attack, i couldn't steal it per the rules of the game and it took all my fucking willpower not to steal it per the rules of Crime anyway. i did go over to the guy who ended up with it to give him the fish freak tank size lecture and he seemed receptive so fingers crossed.

then last night my family exchange was hilarious since we all know each other's sense of humor. i got a little teddy bear dressed in bdsm gear. i brought a tiny violin that plays sad music that my sister got and kept playing whenever she walked in the room. one of my siblings brought a t shirt printed with my parent's worst wedding picture, which my mom stole and wore the rest of the night.

[running-tweezers]

I have a playlist I’ve been listening to a lot lately for nostalgia purposes. It’s called “Listening To The Radio With My Parents” and it’s mostly comprised of a very specific brand of 70’s music my mom loves that I listened to a lot in the car when I was a kid. She has instilled that love into me now, I listen to a lot of 70’s music lol.

So anyway, I’m gonna pair some songs on this playlist with a few Redacted Characters bc why not.

Sam

Peaceful Easy Feeling - Eagles

One of my mom’s favorite bands. We were listening to Eagles a good 70% of my childhood. I first learned how to sing harmonies to Eagles. Their sound is SO Sam to me. This song in particular stands out as very Sam-coded.

Vincent

Time In A Bottle - Jim Croce

One of the most gorgeous love songs ever, honestly. And I think putting an immortal spin on it, it’s even more romantic. Vincent and Lovely are going to go through all time together.

Caelum

You’ve Got A Friend - James Taylor

I’ve associated this song with Caelum for a long time, ever since I decided to cover it for Caelum’s day in Redacted-tober last year. It’s everything about Caelum condensed down into a song. If you’re ever feeling down, he’s there. You’ve got a friend.

Gavin

Wonderful Tonight - Eric Clapton

The absolute adoration you can feel in this song. Something about the love even in the mundane is giving me Gavin, especially after the latest audio.

Huxley

Annie’s Song - John Denver

Another of my mom’s favorites, and one of mine too. I knew I needed a John Denver song for Huxley. Everyone knows Country Roads, but most of John Denver’s music is just about good vibes and being in nature. I couldn’t decide at first, but I went with this one for two reasons. One, it’s one of my favorite love songs ever. Period. Two, I am NEVER gonna turn down a chance to think about Huxley and Damien. NEVER.

Darlin’

You’re So Vain - Carly Simon

I wasn’t initially gonna do any listeners but I had to with this one. One of the cuntiest songs ever written /pos. Carly Simon really went in that recording booth, laid down the most specific devastating takedown of an ex, and refused to tell anyone who it was about for YEARS. There’s still some debate about it to this day. You can just hear the two middle fingers she’s holding up in the whole song. And I love that for her, and it just feels like Darlin’ to me.

[torahtot]

you can always tell when someone doesn't have maga men in their life and god it makes me angry.. "if you're nice and compassionate you can be the one woman that makes them realize women aren't mean!" my mom bent over backwards for my dad for 25 fucking years he has plenty of other women kissing his ass and it never changed anything. do you really think that before being radicalized they never knew a single kind woman? they were never friends with a nice girl? alt-right men's problem with women isn't just that they've experienced too many mean women and they need to be shown that women can be nice, it's that they think women are inferior and don't deserve rights and don't understand anything so you can do what you want with them. and it takes a lot more than being nice to show someone that you aren't inferior. this isn't a case of being nice even when it's hard for the sake of deradicalization, it's about spending every fucking interaction with someone trying to get them to see you as a human being with value and a functioning intellect while they just laugh and show you that's never going to happen.

i cannot stress this enough: random women are not just going out and Being Mean to men. ur average guy interacts with plenty of women throughout his life- close women amongst their friends and family, casual interactions etc. most people don't start out being shunned by women, they start out being treated as NORMAL. & when they show their disrespect in normal society, it isn't tolerated, but when they go to alt-right spaces (which they're pushed towards online) they're told they're allowed to be as horrible as they want with no consequences because they're entitled to everything. it isn't "women aren't welcoming and the alt-right is so friendly so i'll become alt-right," it's "women don't let me disrespect them and the alt-right tells me fuck them, do whatever you want, you're entitled to it all" and why would you choose the group where you have to be a normal accountable person when there's a group that will reward you for being a shithead who gives no fucks?

the alt-right can afford to be more friendly and welcoming because they can allow bigotry. this can't work the same way for progressive spaces because we can be as kind & welcoming as possible but at the end of the day we have lines where we have to say "this behavior/speech isn't allowed in this space," and for certain people, that just can't win against a space where you can be as nasty as you want. these posts always end with a disclaimer saying "of course being kind doesnt mean you need to tolerate their bigotries" but what they don't realize and what drives me crazy is that women not tolerating bigotry IS the "women are mean" that radicalized them in the first place. they perceive you pushing back on any bigotry or bullshit as you being a meanie and treating them like they're ontologically evil. the 'kindness' they need to be deradicalized is you letting them walk all over you.

idk what the answer is to deradicalizing them and im sure relationships are part of it but you can be as kind as you want and all it will do is destroy you ime. i cant stand to see people (who have never even successfully deradicalized any man by being nice btw they always speak in hypotheticals and not from experience) double down on telling women to do things that will see no results and only hurt them, especially when any woman who has tried can tell you exactly how it went

[kavehater]

Chappel Roan saying she’s sad she’s demisexual and then there’s me being aroace as a whole like don’t you think I’m even more sad 😭

[ssreeder]

AHHHHH i can’t believe Katara knows. And from Ara. And all of it at once, that’s gonna be a lot to process. Anyways I LOVED the chapter and CANNOT wait for the next one ( you always have to torture us with cliffhangers, don’t you? (Hah but i kind of love it a little bit))

I’m reaally excited for the next chapter the latest one made my week once again :)

What’s that meme? The one with the kid smirking back at the camera as the house burns in the background?

That’s Ara.

But in all honesty, I don’t think she truly understands what she just did, haha - not that she’d care much... haha, Ara is in her ‘IDGAF gurl mode’ so it’s probably better she’s leaving the compound. after one million words it’s finally time for her to put on her big girl pants on and actually take control of her life,,, away from the people she traumatized and who traumatize her. GOOD LUCK ARA!! WE WISH YOU THE BEST! (Well… some of us do haha… some still cry for her head on a stick)

I AM GLAD YOU ENJOYED THE UPDATE AND SUPER SORRY IN ADVANCE FOR THE NEXT EVEN WORSE CLIFF HANGER………..

[hecksupremechips]

Honestly though I think it’s really a bad sign when I look at Shin Tsukimi and literally feel like he’s a self insert 😩

[apathyfairy]

i always said that once i stop caring what other people think about me it’s over for you bitches and it’s finally happened i’m literally untouchable

[tardis--dreams]

Some of those doctors make hating oat milk their entire personality. I hate them. Cannot pretend to find them funny or like i give a shit. Fucking pretentious assholes

[devilishdelights]

i like the idea of mc and the brothers all sitting in the common room gossiping and talking shit together at the end of the week

[troonwolf]

my mutuals watching me blog for the past week like: this dumb bitch keeps saying he’s gonna move blogs. keeps spouting some bullshit about a redbubble store. you know what? I don’t believe it. this faggot aint doing fuck except being ornery on the damn internet

[maipareshaan]

The Dean loves kids is such a THING lol, i mean its so cute how he was with kids, its so adorbs but i don't mind how he is with Jack at all when it comes to his characterisation, not even from a 'it makes sense given the setting' thing, hmm like a lot of actual Dean stans seem to be fine with it because they like Dean's individuality more than wanting to like him, if that makes sense, and his parentification is part of it, obvs Dean mistreated Jack severely and that's beyond him having to or being told to parent but like Dean says he doesn't want to mother and that's fine.

Dean said i am not raising a satan child again and he was valid, just saying.

[mainfaggot]

I'm going to block this bitch's number i cannot!

[widevibratobitch]

almost made a very insensitive post but i Stopped <3

[kannagen]

went to my college’s bars for the first time this weekend and they were exactly as i expected. i did pregame too hard and was veryyyy drunk and i did have fun but they are lame and full of people i have no interest in. but alcohol and music will work on me regardless and no cover so whatever it was fun to be white girl wasted and bar hop for a night ☺️

[mohntilyet]

imagine being illario and finally finding the resolve to kill your cousin right. you seduce and fuck a blood mage venatori magister to get her to do this for you. you figure you’ll eventually kill her once you are first talon, tie up the loose end and make it look good for you. a vengeance story! except when your cousin’s body shows up your grandma retreats into herself presumably out of grief and you’re like jesus christ he’s a corpse and still the favorite. at this point you start feeling some regret and at the wake you’re beside yourself. it helps to be really feeling some of that to fool everyone else. but months pass and your grandma still isn’t even discussing the inheritance and you have to be normal because you don’t want to incriminate yourself. and then a year later some random guy (worse if its a de riva tbh) shows up saying they need your cousin to kill an elven god (what.) and he’s the only one who could (insulting). and its at this point your grandma is like “lucanis died… but he is not dead!”. record scratch freezeframe. while you juggle with the fact that the freak woman you fucked specifically to get her to kill your cousin didn’t even kill your cousin AND your grandma didn’t bother telling you (for good reason ofc but she doesn’t know that), you have to lead these assholes to go save him and unravel your hard work. so plan b. you kidnap your grandma and push your (now possessed) cousin away (and then get mad when he actually walks away. because you’re like this). and when your cousin comes dangerously close to figuring out what’s happened with you and the magister, you kill the magister. you ally with those elven gods and venatori (you aren’t sure how you’re going to get out of this one but it’s fine. that’s a hill for future illario) to make sure you have enough backing to stand up against the other houses if they challenge you becoming first talon. you continue to gaslight your cousin into staying away, because if there is one thing you can count on, it’s his literal inner demons and total lack of a support group, you’re certain he’ll fuck it up by himself. you know this because his support group used to be your grandma (dubious) and yourself (lol). you’re almost home free. and caterina will definitely acknowledge you as a player on the board. which isn’t important but it would be nice, right. BUT THEN IT TURNS OUT. YOUR COUSIN HAS RECENTLY MADE 7 FRIENDS. one of whom can speak to the fucking dead because of course he can. and then some of those friends show up to publicly humiliate you at the dinner party that should have been YOUR crowning moment. your grandma ALSO shows up to tell everyone you have gathered that your cousin is first talon. your cousin gapes at her because he doesn’t actually even want it so it’s kind of awkward for everyone. and then when you’re sure he’s about to ask viago de riva to poison you to death, he actually tells him just to take you away. because OF COURSE he’s being the bigger person. anyways the point is i’m surprised illario just lets himself be taken away because if i were him i would have started biting people and then bombed the villa

[hecksupremechips]

Persona 3 reload should not entice me with those damn shiny bells and whistles!!!