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here-but-forgotten · 8 months ago

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tag vent

#I haven’t fucking had one good day without it being ruined #today was amazing until everything went horribly wrong #i hate it #i hate being happy now because I know my day will be ruined before it’s over #i busted my knee because no one was fucking paying to the dog that is explicitly not mine but I always have to take care of #and then my dad didn’t even notice #he just kept watcHing a fucking basketball game #then he complains about me not doing enough #i can’t do anything right #i can’t get it right #i haven’t had a good day of my life that hasn’t been catastrophically ruined #happiness is now my worst anxiety #i can’t have a good day because it’ll end horribly #it’s better to have a bad day so I don’t get my soul crushed #i saw wicked I ate at my favorite place to eat I got ice cream and I was so happy and it all got ruined

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scionshtola · 17 days ago

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anyway. corishtola. have you heard of that

#i’ve been playing da all week but i miss them soooo bad #even tho i logged out early last night after raid night and immediately started playing da #i think the break is making me think about them more some how so this is good #i was walking and my coworker was smiling and nodding at me and i didn’t notice bc i was thinking about cori’s mom and shtola having brunch #in the breakup au #i need a text post tag #and also cori’s mom and dad holding hands on the beach bc i am nothing if not a romantic sap at my core!!!

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diegusting · 3 months ago

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What do you think jose’s favourite chemical element would be….. mine’s berilium 🤔

The safe answer would be Gold and Hydrogen because he’s a fancy sailor and all that but the right answer is Boron because he’s a Baden and a moron (affectionately)

Also berilium looks really nice, what makes you particularly drawn to it? Is it edible? 👁️ 👁️ (Asking for a friend)

#har har har my garbage humour would get me vip spot under a guillotine a few centuries back #this isn’t even a dad pun this is just painful #I definitely know my periodic table by heart #identity v #jose baden #omg I just noticed I didn’t colour the green liquid entirely my life is ruined

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melrosing · 1 year ago

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anyway in an absolutely wild turn of events I think I’m free of my hideous job and like. substantially richer for it??? lmao 2023 you really owed me

#ok so this a lot of personal shit but I’m just gonna incredulously vent into the tags #like I don’t even know how to describe what 2023 in this job has been like lol #since April they’ve been insulting and scrutinising and scapegoating me over absolutely everything #they were really angling for just firing me outright for never measuring up to their constantly shifting and increasingly bizarre goalposts #and it got so personal man they kept insisting that it wasn’t but my god #then my dad gets sick and it suddenly becomes awkward for them to keep insulting and overworking me #so they switch to just ignoring me entirely so they don’t have to reckon w what me and my family are going through #like they never ask how he is or how things are going just every Friday they say hey do you reckon you can take more work on again?#and THEN I get a gut infection and suddenly im being guilt tripped for taking sick leave and pestered for evidence #it was giving like ‘we had to give you time off for your dad but now you’re taking the piss’#to the point I DID reach out to a third party at the company and was like ‘I’m sorry but why the fuck are they treating me like this’#and she was like ‘confidentially this is disgusting and I advise you to report it’#WHEN SUDDENLY I get back from sick leave and it’s like ‘the business is falling short so we have to make some redundancies….’#and now they’ve had to pay me a SUBSTANTIAL sum to fuck off!!! I think I win???#like I was so close to quitting but thank god I didn’t because now I’m getting a sweet deal to fuck off with no notice lmao #i leave end of the month #at first I was shocked like y’all really doing this now??? but suddenly I’m like. this is the best possible thing that could’ve happened #I spoke to that third party again and she was like ‘I am so happy for you’ like omfg it was a curveball but we’ll take it!!!#I’m fucking outta here and in due course I WILL be writing on glassdoor how fucked they are

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jammyshouse · 6 months ago

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finally accepting i am a gay man rather than whatever i thought i was is explaining a lot about everything to the point it’s actually making me angry. like man. man i guess it was very fucking obvious to everyone except me huh

#ftm #trans guy #trans gay man #like OHHH that wasn’t a weird mix of hatred and excitement #it was literally desire #i just process every strong emotion i have as anger #and i wasn’t a butch lesbian #i just felt most like a man when i could be the more masculine partner #even if i couldn’t pass for a cis man #which made me not even want to try #and then obviously i’d not want to be GAY as a man on top of that because then i might STILL be the feminine partner #and idk i just was less affected by lesbophobia because lesbians tend to be mocked by portraying them as manly #which obviously i didn’t mind #but the internalized homophobia ON TOP of the internalized transphobia is too much for me #im a coward and i like living in the comfort of ignoring my problems #despite all that i feel happier than i have ever been though #it’s like i finally slipped into my own skin #just wish gay transmascs would talk about the denial and shame more because then i might’ve realized sooner #but online algorithms kept feeding me only lesbians doing so #and i kept liking it because i was like #‘i relate to SOMETHING in what you’re saying but im not so sure what it is’#because i’m blind #actually come to think of it i might not have noticed if trans men spoke of this more often #because i would have covered my ears #anyway #whatever i guess i figured it out now #if only transition weren’t so expensive #at least i look like my dad already anyway

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ennuijpg · 2 years ago

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just had the worst time at graduation dinner w my family and my roommate’s family :/

#nothing to do w my roommate and her family rly like they were lovely #but like #this is the first time our families are meeting after us having been friends for all of uni #bc we’re both from out of state #and like #i know my parents esp my dad can sometimes be a bit tactless during social situations #which like fine fair enough i get it it be like that sometimes #and ik it’s not on purpose or w any ill will #but like so i kinda gave them a heads up beforehand like hey just so u kno #rmr not to do/say xyz #anyways in short #they committed enough social etiquette faux pas and one huge one that just left me feeling so embarrassed #and like what’s worse is i was already worried smth like this would happen which is why i gave them a heads up and reminder #and yet while it was in the midst of happening they didn’t listen to my hints to like Fucking Stop and kept going making it worse #and like my roommate’s parents were very gracious and acted like nothing happened but i know they noticed #and it all just left me feeling so embarrassed and sad that this is what came out of a dinner between our two families #who are finally meeting after 5 years #and like afterwards my parents realized they were wrong and apologized to me #for doing all that and not listening to me #but it just sucks so bad it even happened #it was so frustrating #like my younger brother put it #it was like i was watching all my anxieties abt what could go wrong unfold in front of me #and go wrong in even worse ways than i anticipated #and it all could’ve been prevented if they listened to me #很丟臉很沒有場面：/#it’s 1:15am and i need to sleep #bc i need to be up at 7:45 to get ready for the actual ceremony tmr morning #gn 晚安 and ty for reading my vent <3 #ennuitxt

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kalach-cha · 1 year ago

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probably the funniest thing about me that ppl online don’t know about me is that i conduct when i’m nervous. i’m damn near always listening to music when i’m in public to block out other sounds so if you see my right hand moving oddly but in a pattern. yeah. im conducting something you can’t hear

#i didn’t really notice this abt myself until i caught someone staring at me bc of it #i don’t hum under my breath and i don’t sing along to stuff bc i would get in trouble for it as a kid #(unless i was with my bio dad bc he liked the sound of my voice and would even ask me to sing sometimes)#but with my mom and stepdad? i was repeatedly told that it wasn’t a good thing to hum or to sing in the shower or the car #not even humming in my own room was allowed really #so ig i just learned to either tap out rhythms with my fingers (bc foot tapping was also a no) or conduct #michi.txt

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trynadraw · 1 year ago

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the sheer and raw embarrassment of becoming hyperfixated and getting Piet Piraat in your July top deezer songs

#this will probably only make sense to a select few people #belgiumposting #piet piraat #joeys doodles #digital art #comic #belgian #belgium #almost all of my top songs are pirate related and unfortunately that includes piet piraat #you haven’t known fear until you accidentally blast ‘piet piraat is verliefd’ in front of your dad and two of his friends #luckily it was just the first few seconds and they didn’t even notice #but Jesus Christ my heart stopped #wowee two dutch posts in a row

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thetorturedbolter · 1 year ago

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my mum forgot about my existence and left me out in the rain (literally) earlier tonight and then she got mad at me for being upset about it? like girl what

#so i was walking home earlier (it was dark already and it was raining go figure)#and i got a call from my mum and she was like #‘where tf are you?? we ate dinner without you because you refused to leave your room when we called you!!!!’#and i was like. “mother. i’m not at home??”#and she was just like “oh really? we didn’t notice! there should be some dinner left over for you!”#LIKE WHAT??? WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU DIDNT NOTICE???#I NEVER COME HOME LATE THAT SHOULVE AT LEAST RAISED SOME ALARMS????#BUT YOU DIDNT EVEN BOTHER TO CALL ME UNTIL YOU DECIDED MY ABSENCE WAS INCONVENIENCING YOU????#this never would’ve happened if my dad were at home #papa come back from your stupid business trip i miss you #someone in our town died under mysterious circumstances a few weeks ago #and you didn’t think it’s a big deal that i was wandering around on my own after dark??#this isn’t the first time she’s forgotten me somewhere but it’s really getting to me rn #maybe it’s because i had a bad pain day so this is just insult to injury #anyway rant over lol

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bookwyrminspiration · 1 year ago

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THE RICE KRISPY CURSE HAS FINALLY ENDED IM FREE MAYBE HAPPINESS DOES EXIST

#shitpost #FUCKING FINSLLY!!!#like several months ago my dad bought a different kind of Rice Krispies #instead of the basic ones #and they sucked real bad #no one liked them but we didn’t want them to go to waste #(he got the Costco size </3)#so I have spent. the last several months steadily eating my way through shitty Rice Krispy treats #because only me and my dad will eat them and I moreso than him #and as time went on the remaining got more stale and even worse #BUT I JUST STE THE LAST ONE!! I AM FREE!!#THE CURSE IS BROKEN!!#never again will we buy those they sucked #(the chocolate drizzle chocolate and rainbow pack)#chocolate drizzle was best but still meh #rainbow sucked ASS #but honestly are this point I’m desensitized I don’t even notice anymore #im immune

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jettison-my-gift · 2 years ago

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Mild rant incoming:

My dad just misgendered me multiple times in front of my brand new friend who’s only ever known me as a guy. Like I met her only a few months ago after being on T for years, so as far as she’s concerned I’m a guy, I look and sound like a dude. It’s chill. (Testosterone is fantastic 10/10 everyone should try it)

And then my dad comes in like “she this” and “her that” and he’s laughing and joking with my new friend and she looks super uncomfortable and I just want to disappear. And the worst part is I don’t even think he realised he’d done it. like it was a super brief interaction before he walked off and no one said anything about it. He’d just done it by accident. So I feel like I can’t be mad at him, like if I brought it up he’d probably be like “I hadn’t noticed I’d done that, I feel really bad about it” or whatever, and then I’d feel bad for even mentioning it. But it was devastating.

It just reminded me that it doesn’t matter if everyone who meets me reads me as male (which they do) they’ll always be some people who just think of me as “she” no matter what. I could have the most luscious beard and the deepest voice and my family will still call me “she” in front of people who I don’t want to think of me like that. It’s Inescapable.

And my family are accepting, they’re trying, as I said I’m convinced dad hadn’t even noticed he’d done it, but you can’t force people to forget who you were, you can’t force people to move on even if you have.

#I don’t know if I should bring it up? like with my friend or with my dad #like what would I even say?#’’hi new friend. you may have noticed my dad misgendering me yesterday. that was an accident. I’m sorry you had to hear it.’’?!#or ‘’btw dad. I didn’t sleep last night cos I kept replying you misgendering me in front of my friend over and over’’??#so he might say sorry but would that actually make me feel better? probably not #I can’t stress how much I Don’t Look Like A Girl. everyone at work thinks I’m a man #which is also awkward cos I’m not but I’ve rather that then the alternative #I’m mean I’m not stealth. Friend in Question knows I’m trans. but still #ugh maybe I’m just getting upset over nothing #but you know there comes a point where you think you’re past getting misgendered #and then when it happens it’s like an out of nowhere punch in the gut #sorry. I know a lot of other trans people have it much worse. it just really hurt and I needed to complain online about it

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muirneach · 2 years ago

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also while i was with my brother today he was like ‘oh you should listen to judas priest. the lead singer is gay.’ and thankful for the music rec though i may be, am i really faggy enough that my very estranged brother can tell?

#i want him to know im a man so so soo much because hes the kind of man i want to be. our masculinity is very close. so yknow.#he has however slept in my room that has two trans flags in it (not my fault my dads he didnt take em down even though i told him to)#so maybe he saw that and went. ah. okay. or maybe he didn’t notice #not that he would care but well yknow how it be #anyways! lets hear it for music recs i guess #tales

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mandylove1000 · 7 months ago

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😳 so um bc of my parents I’ve actually been to multiple calls bc they are first responders and a few of them have actually been to dead bodies so I can actually answer this in a weird way but I don’t have any reaction at all. like I’ve seen things most people normally would never see like overdoses,self inflicted gun shots, car accidents, burns. I saw brain matter for the first time in like 2018(?) it’s a weird ass consistency tbh it’s also not the color you’d expect.

we still get immediately shoved out of our immersion in tv shows or films when The Girl find a dead body and immediately shrieks - we just don't find it realistic because we're pretty confident most people would gasp rather than shriek (i.e. sharp inhale rather than sharp exhale) and it also feels unnecessarily (and predictably) misogynistic too, as men encountering corpses almost never do the same on screen

also of course please do tell us if you've actually encountered a corpse unexpectedly, because tumblr is absolutely a place where some people have done this thing and we love a good anecdote

suddenly imagining "burst into song" as a potential response

#recently my parents were out of town and I happened to hear there was a call for our next door neighbors and I went to check on them bc #I know the female that lives there is pregnant and I wanted to make sure she was ok and their friend was actually dead on the couch and they #were panicking really bad so I stayed to help them/calm them and I was the one who pulled them to the side and gently told them that he was #gone and I held their baby so they could have a moment to themselves cause she was shaking really bad cause of all the emotions #I don’t know how he passed I just know that he was long gone before they even found him #so yeah in a weird way I have an answer and it’s that I really don’t have any reaction to it but it’s cause of how I grew up #also i personally think that house is cursed bc when we moved here the original couple that lived there the wife died in her sleep and the #husband didn’t notice for hours somehow. idk I just remember me and one of the cops taking their multiple kids outside so they didn’t have #to see their mom like that and then their dad have the breakdown that he had #there’s been alot of people on my street that have died since we moved here tbh it’s fucking weird

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surfincoffin · 2 months ago

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So cool being 21 and having shoulder and neck and upper back and lower back and middle back and hip and knee and ankle pain and also flat feet. And also if I complain about this whatsoever every 30+ person in my vicinity gets mad

#damaged both my shoulders in basketball as a child and never did the physical therapy 😛#and I can only bend the right one so far and they hang noticeably different from my body #and I remember having random intense hip pain as a like. fucking 15 yo #and I think I just fucked my right ankle up really badly recently by rolling it over and over unintentionally while drunk. its been 3 weeks #and if I put weight on it wrong it just starts hurting again #my dad works at a smaller medical supplier and even before I started transitioning and developing tguy slouch #he got me a posture fixing harness and it just Didn’t Work

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bigleoenergy · 3 months ago

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I have to except that my cat might truly never come back and I’ll never know what happened to her and that kills me.

#I want to be angry about it and blame it on something but I can’t #we think she ran into this open vent even though she never has before has no reason to and I literally have 2 crates in front of it #we heard faint meows every now and then the first day but idk my cats a yapper especially if she hears my voice calling #we have a very old and hollow house you can hear every and anything #I can be in our basement and hear her loud ass meow from my 2nd story room #my dad thinks she’s outside and I wish but how could that explain us hearing her meows in the walls and if she was outside #she has always stayed around our house or come back the 2 times she’s ran out #idk it kills me that I was at work when they noticed she was missing #24 hrs hadn’t passed and we had the hvac come and he put the camera down multiple vents and didn’t even see her footprints in the dust #I just have no explanation for it she literally disappeared into thin air and it kills me she’s a person clingy cat she

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kavehater · 4 months ago

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Do I have to start saying not that anyone would care in that super duper passive aggressive way to guilt people into caring or what

#dora daily #I’m so tired #the one thing I’ve consistently wanted since I was a kid was to be cared about and seen 😜#yet I can’t even seem to get that ☠️ I honest to god am so tired like every day is another futile attempt to try to engineer what I say #specifically for the purpose of me hoping someone ANYONE would care #how I used to be sick when I was younger because I saw that the kids who would get sick or would get sad would get sm care and love but #I was stupid because I didn’t account for the fact that when I was sick I had to just suck it up or when I was sad I need to stop being such #a crybaby and get over it #what if I say I’ve had enough of just being shamelessly used by others for me to comfort them through their problems #but I always have everything thrown back at my face because somehow when it’s my turn my problems are uncomfortable or awkward #I don’t have energy for a single thing yet I force myself to talk to at least one person and trying to fix my relationship with just #literally talking it shouldn’t be that hard but I feel so worthless that even speech is impossible and makes me feel like I will literally #die. it’s been working kinda but now I just can’t help but feel so sick to my stomach about all this my head hurts really bad and I’m trying #not to cry and trying my hardest to make peace with the fact that in truth nobody will ever like me enough to care at all ever #not my mum not my dad or my siblings and certainly not my friends either #I’m so tired of always begging and pleading for someone to just notice I’m here too #or maybe it’s specific people #it’s so cruel to say all those overly nice things to me and not act on them #why else was I so psychotic about that girl ? obviously because she would shower me with the nicest things I’ve ever heard #but she says that to everyone she’s not consistent with me and we aren’t really friends #ik it wasn’t her intention but it doesn’t change the fact I have wanted to and I’m not even over exaggerating but actually off myself #because this is just proof I’m around to serve people’s dirty work and clean messes when I can’t even stand on my two feet anyways #isn’t it so stupid I’m just talking to myself here and most likely nobody will ever see it meaning this was just useless yet again #and the fact i can’t be free ever nor can i do anything about this to permanently end things because i am a coward and because the worst #part is that even after death I shall be tormented anyways #and let’s say I somehow survive an attempt I will literally be scarred for life and then I’d rlly want to be dead #it’s the way not even death can be a solace for this because there would only be more torture #I can’t leave this religion because leaving won’t change the truth but I’m so tired and worn thin of every single responsibility in my life #even tho I don’t have much the few I do have feel excruciating #life is too much and death is worse so why couldn’t my mum who’s strong willed said no to my dads family and not gotten married period 🧍‍♀️

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