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Something which I think is kind of under-discussed regarding the Princess is how lonely she is, esp in contrast to you (the player). From the start of the game, you're never alone. You've got the Narrator - despite how questionable his company is - and the Voice of the Hero, then slowly all of your other voices. She doesn't have that. We see in Princess and the Dragon, every time a new loop starts she's completely alone with only the thought that this is what she deserves. You're the only thing she has.
Shifty asks "Why wouldn't I be kind to you? You're the only thing I know which isn't me." And we see in the game - with some exceptions, like the Witch - the Princess' goal come chapter 2 is always to have your company. Sometimes it's to subjugate you, like the Tower, and sometimes it's for help escaping, but she's almost always seeking your companionship in some way.
But you've got your voices, and the Narrator. You never really needed her, did you? I'm thinking about PATD again, where you can spend the whole chapter bonding with her only to immediately turn on her the second you get your body back ("Good to be back, boys"). In the final cabin at the end of the game, the Heart Princess can mention the whole conflict boils down to whether Shifty (and by extension, the Princess herself) "should" get to exist. If you kill the Heart Princess, you've still got your voices. There's no ending where she lives on alone. I don't think she'd even WANT an ending like that.
She just makes me very sad. You're the only thing she knows, and in some routes you're just. Relentlessly cruel to her.
#slay the princess#stp#kind of what prompted this was thinking about Apotheosis#(she & nightmare have been on my mind lately. Just in part bc im still a bit frustrated with how the fanbase treats them)#and like. If you don't swear fealty to Tower. There's no happy ending for her#(I'd argue even if you do that's not really happy for either of you)#You either kill Fury or she tears herself apart trying to make you understand her#Apotheosis spends her last moments in almost every ending with her either apologizing to you or realizing she was wrong#and in the ending where you almost help her escape she says 'you're the only thing which has ever shown me grace'#the only thing she knows and the only thing which has shown her kindness#you tried to kill her at the start but in the end you helped her reach her goal#i don't know. Rotating her in my mind.#sorry if this is a mess my brain is pudding right now
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ark aftermath
#being in the ark with knives who had gathered such immense power definitely fucked with vash's brain#their fight before the ark haunts me. what do you mean 'blackness of decay' jesus christ#it reminds me of 'youve got more of them...scars'#knives seeing that his brother is actively like. dying.#also what do u mean knives tried to merge with him. that definitely took a toll on both of them#anyway so vash has vivid hallucinations of his brother and whatnot#wolfwood hates himself for that obviously#just imagine the horror he would experience if vash called him 'knives'#vash literally spitting blood because 1) anxiety 2) hes so fucking tired and tortured and shit#he wants a break guys give him a break#but ooobviously vash (the man he is) he'll never accuse wolfwood of trapping him in the ark. of betraying him etc#so he'll just be happy to be there alive and relatively well and hope the same for his brother#at least for the time being before vash meets him and kills him#this is the longest comic ive made sorry if it feels a bit rushed/not well concluding#best i can do#its been kicking my ass for the past week and i just wanted to be done w it#trigun#vashwood#vash the stampede#nicholas d. wolfwood#trigun maximum#trigun fanart#my art#millions knives#<- for a fragment of a second#what else#tw hallucinations#tw blood#tw emetophobia
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incoming spam. merry yurimas and happy holigays 🫡
#now to edit all these … ha.. ahhha… hahahahaa#my brain hurts.#all the angst tags are killing me have i ever tried smiling in my life#ellie williams x reader#abby anderson x reader#sam carpenter x reader#skye riley x reader
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obsessed with ideas of what a fight between those two would look like...
#update: my brain tried to kill me but it didn't work and also i can legally drive now#cats the musical#my art stuff#munkustrap#the rum tum tugger#i have yapped about this endlessly to people but ill harp on it one more time. i don't think either of them would back down if sufficiently#like. annoyed? set off? by each other#because i think in general situations they'll both back down. munkustrap will back down when it's not worth it and it's better to just let#tugger posture. and tugger will back down if with a bit of posturing still if he can see that munk actually won't budge because#actually fighting him just isn't worth it. like i feel like they have a fairly good sense of which one of them should just let it go in a#given situation#i'm looking at them partially as cats and partially as people lmao. i think in a situation where the arguing topic is one that actually#matters to both of them and they disagree - this drawing is on an argument about griz i thought of fx - they'll be locked in a bit of a#standstill until they can figure themselves out. in this situation the way i have it in my head tugger would back down but he would not wan#to. he'd just know munkustrap's standing his ground on this one and there's nothing he can do about it so he'll just turn tail and#scamper off eventually#cue silent treatment for a week or something#and then they take a few naps together and life is beautiful again#bazinga
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I love unhinged women
#pokemon uranium#leafeon#urayne#i love lucille but the protag goes from probably not having an opinion on their mom besides being the reason their dad left to being#that one person who tried to kill you multiple times - caused a few nuclear meltdowns - tried to kill your dad and your best friend#i NEEEDDD her to wake up i cant imagine how strained their relationship is going to be on top of CURIE absolutely hating your guts#anyway i only got 3 hours of sleep bc my brain wouldnt let me sleep until i finished this#i have 2 hours til work wish me luck in getting at least a wink of sleep#my art#pokemon uranium spoilers
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hi I'm talking about Ruin again
My kingdom for more fancontent with Ruin, especially post-Thanos snap.
Like! Authors were barely using him before, maybe a few fics with him shipped with Solar-- and then the Thanos snapping happened and now there's NOTHING (okay there's not nothing, but at the time of writing this, there are about twoish ongoing fics focused on him and a handful of others where he's a participating character)
AND LIKE. THAT'S SUCH A SHAME??? Ruin went from "alright youre kind of boring as an antagonist" to "I guess you're cute now that you're cured" to EXTREMELY interesting.
He's a villain that isn't an antagonist! He takes Sun's hero complex and Moon's martyr complex to the extreme! The only goal he had was to get rid of the threat offered by the creators, in a permanent and complete way-- and nothing else. He holds no ill will towards anyone else--hell, he's so willing to work with people that he doesn't personally like that it keeps throwing him off when others don't think the same way (like showing up to ask for Moon's help and getting tossed into baby jail and strangled instead).
He doesn't like causing harm. He made certain to stress that the whole dimensional evaporation thing wasn't painful, and he despises Dark Sun for being a sadist. He did his best to sabatogue Bloodmoon’s plan and minimize the damage to Earth.
He's desperate to be helpful and useful to others-- even if they keep taking from him without his consent, he still keeps volunteering. He also has a hilarious response of being belligerent when annoyed with someone, like pretending not to know about the wither shard.
He's exceptionally traumatized. Can you imagine what it was like running around for 50 years pretending you're infected, all the while watching the mental and physical deterioration of everyone you know-- and knowing it's YOUR fault they're like this? And it was the person who MADE you, your actual literal Creator, who first started the infection?
And he has no hope. Everything Ruin has done since Thanos snapping the dimensions has been a kind of filler for him, because he expects to die soon. Actually he's lived longer than I think he expected and didn't really know what to do with himself for a while in there. When/if Dark Sun or Nexus feeds him to the witherstorm, I'll be surprised if he tries to fight back.
Also he keeps getting kidnapped and imprisoned, which is kind of funny. I think we're up to 4 kidnappings, 2 jailbreaks, and 4 imprisonments.
Just like... he's a fascinating guy with strong personal motives, and a much more agreeable personality than our other strongly motivated ex-antagonist, Eclipse. There's a lot of potential to work with, and how to get him out of the hole he's dug himself into. Overcoming the whole "I erased 5000 dimensions, including one that your family member came from, and also indirectly caused a different family member to leave" is just one of the challenges!
I know it's not an issue of "but he's hurt/killed one of the other characters!" Because -points at Blood Moon and Eclipse-. Both (all five? six?) have killed other main characters and been antagonists, and it hasn't stopped folks from writing them. Hell, Eclipse killed his own estranged brother for no reason other than petty revenge, and folks still somehow make it work.
So yeah idk. I think Ruin is really interesting and deserves a bit more attention.
#tsams#the sun and moon show#tsams ruin#Initially I was going to submit this to the confessions blog but one I feel like. It'd be real obvious it's me#Two by the time it came out of the queue I think he'll have been killed off in Canon#I could go on and on about some things but I tried to stick to purely Canon examples of his actions#Instead of mixing in any headcanons#And yes I'm putting my money where my mouth is#And currently have some WIPs that are Ruin focused#Obligatory disclaimer that there's nothing wrong if you prefer bad guy Ruin or sweet cured Ruin of course#Different things scratch the brain and I'm just yelling about my specific one <3
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hi....scrapped wip again. im rlly not built for color. yap incoming
sorry my productivity tanked my 7 year old laptop is nearing its final breath and im just stalling buying a new one as long as possible to not violate the boycott but she (laptop) is making this shit DIFFICULT
im gnna be so honest w yall i havent had the drive to do shit all lately like. i need dopamine kicks to function but nothings working for some reason ??? i bought a jjk book and i fucking love jjk so i should be excited but im ??? not????? fucked up how that works
#scp#scp fanart#illustration#dr clef#dr kondraki#clefdraki#scp fandom#scp foundation#fanart#not feeling so cash money rn chat#i have so many responsibilities rn but i cant muster up the want to do anything right now#monke brain needs its dopamine signals n when i go out of my way to do something and feel nothing afterwards its like#????#like what the hell#i love these assholes though#funny thing actually a family member tried to kill me once and i was just really sad i couldn't make more clefdraki art#i dont know how long thats staying in the tags LMAOOO#i dont know how long this ones staying up either but whateva#fuck it we ball#don't suggest drugs by the way i don't even have the drive for that#unfinished art#would anyone b interested in balefire art ......#i say as if id finish anything at all
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my biggest issue with the atla fandom isn’t even the shipping wars but instead that people don’t even understand the huge potential for toxic yuri that katara and azula have…
#atla#katzula#i <3 toxic yuri#and if one single person is like bUT aZuLA tRieD tO kILL KAtAra— i will kill you. i will absolutely kill you#‘‘my mother thought i was a monster’’ vs ‘‘my mother literally died to protect me’’#my brain. rotting more and more each day.#katara#azula#avatar the last airbender#azutara
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fandom and all its """kon resents clark""" this and """clark is mean to/mistrusts kon""" that. actually, kon canonically goes to clark to bitch about his rogues gallery:
"Superboy's told me all about this guy."
(adventures of superman #533)
can you imagine? he just calls up superman to talk shit about scavenger (and presumably others too!!). i just know he's lounging midair in the most ridiculous poses while slurping up a milkshake he made clark buy him and spouting ridiculous teen slang that clark has to make several mental notes to look up later. this is the mark of a truly beautiful family bond and i, for one, would like to see more of it.
#rimi's comic liveblogging#Let Kon Talk Shit Again 2k24#when i complain about bendis destroying the kon & clark bond this is what i mean 😔 idek what's going on in current dc though i gave up tbh#but THIS. this is the good kush!!!!#iirc this is before kon knows clark's secret id but after he finds out i just know he shows up in the clois apartment like#UGH YOU GUYS. KING SHARK ATE MY HOT DOGS!!!!!!! he also tried to kill me and 5 other people but like BRO!! DUDE!!!#that was MY lunch you overgrown fish freak!!! hell-llooo? didn't you see the S- shield lunch box???#or is your brain as smooth as your skin!!! huh????#clark: actually sharks have quite rough--#kon: no they're smooth.#clark: i. don't think that's true son. but alright#i just. clenches fist. i love the superfam a really normal amount#kon#clark
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i think about this part often maybe a bit too much
#i mean its just till getting choked#but 𝓮𝓻𝓸𝓽𝓲𝓬𝓪𝓵𝓵𝔂#you catch my drift?#also the way ivan is just like hard staring through him bro is higher than the clouds#it looked like he was playing kahoot in his brain deciding what to do next after realizing the face sucking wasnt doing anything but he had#taken this kahoot quiz b4 so he just went for the green option instantly#(thought really hard about this for like 2 seconds or in this case had used all the other options)#like he was just fucking around no clear plan#and just Till's general expression of 🫨#he looked like he saw jesus for a second also his eye bags are more apparent#and now im just noticing the skin folds around the neck#so im afraid ivan did actually go for the juggler and genuinely tried strangling till#with intent to kill or not im unsure#im getting tears on my screen let me stop here#alien stage#alnst till#alnst ivan#alien stage till#alnst#alien stage ivan#ivantill
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i wish merlin had killed even more people in canon. he deserved it. that scene where he kills agravaine and his men? the best thing in the show ever. he needed a scene where he killed someone with his bare hands 0 magic used. and a scene where he brought down a whole army like its nothing AS HIMSELF. and a scene where he cut someone's throat with a knife. and a scene where. sorry im getting carried away. im right tho
#the show needed more blood#(me about any show ever)#CAN U TELL REWATCHING BLACK SAILS IS DOING THINGS TO MY BRAIN#i didnt remember the scenes where flint killed the spanish sailors with a knife through their throats and a hand on their mouths.....#I WANT THAT FOR MY BOY#okay i need to write more fics where he kills people without magic. for . reasons#merlin#omfg WAIT STOP. imagine servant of two masters but he tries to kill arthur with his hands. im having thoughts (<- hannibal brainrot)#ok to reblog but only if you want merlin to kill more people
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Now that's been a year out, I'm gonna say my biggest BG3 hot take:
Default durge should've been a companion if you're playing Tav
#this is mainly because I wish to kiss default durge#he'd be a great companion too like you got this fycking weirdo who smells like more corpses than astarion#accidentally kills someone and then hes like “oh yeah Im bhaal's chosen#my sister tried to lobotimize me but it just made me weak#i must kill her you see and eat her corpse#anyway you wanna bang in this blood pool?“#true evil companion that maybe you can make good but he still gets urges cause some sort of consquence#astarion thinking hes evil but durge is like actual evil is a very funny interaction#also Wyll collecting monsters instead of killing them#bg3#tries to eat Gale's hand when they first meet#calls a romanced tav food nicknames on purpose cause he would “lambchop you look beautiful splattered in brains”
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i hate doing laundry ough it's The Worst
#not only does leaning down to move my stuff hurt my back#but i have to touch dirty clothes and go into the dirty room and touch the dirty machines and i have to wear 2 pairs of socks (so my#normal socks dont touch the contaminated floor) and when i lean over the washing machine my clothes touch it <-the worst part of it all#tbh. now my current clothes are dirty but i have nothing to change into and i will have to wear them all day and it makes me SICK#and i cannot talk abt how dirty the garage (where the laundry machines are) it makes me nauseous that place kills me if i never#had to go into it ever again i would and i have to carry a laundry basket (dirty) and it touches my clothes when i carry it (disgusting)#and now my clothes are even more dirty and i feel like i cant touch any of my things bc i dont want to infect them but i cant just do#nothing all day when i have to do laundry but it makes me so SICK i need smth to cover all of my clothes but everything i've tried misses#some part and my clothes are ruined and it makes me SICK how am i supposed to do school or draw or anything when it's so bad#i have everything scheduled so i can take a shower and go straight to bed after i'm done but still it's so bad and it stresses me tf out#and i have to do laundry every 3 days because i only have 3 towels to use after showering and even if i did have more towels#i still would have to do laundry as often bc i couldnt handle doing multiple loads or having bigger loads my back couldnt handle that#w the system i have set up now it's just bad it;s all bad i hate doing laundry#i dream of one day where i can do laundry in a better way i think it'd involve not having the washer and dryer down steps bc that's#dangerous for one and for two not having them in a garage bc garages stress me out and three to have smth to cover all of my clothes#and 4 to have machines that dont need me to bend down idk if they have ones like that but it hurts#anyway that's it for listening to dux complain abt smth that ultimately doesnt matter and is only a problem bc their brain#chemistry is off#k bye i have to go do laundry *explodes* and take an exam *explodes* it;s an essay exam *explodes* and then im going#to like sit around feeling sick thumbs up emoji
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oc evolution tag tagged by @itsmariejanel 😜
hugo time in which his face never changes no matter how my sim style evolves because it is his world i'm living in
#the long haired + facial hair one i FORGOT ABOUT THAT ONE I LOVE THAT ONE#it's more of an editing evolution i feel dsklfjssd i cannot change hugo's face#i've TRIED. i was like well let's try to make him look a little more like my modern sim style#let's make his chin just a tiny bit bigger and pull his lips down a tiny bit. and my brain was kill bill sirens like no no absolutely not#not even a TINY bit. it looks too wrong to me#this is the fall: extras#hugo villareal
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Tris (angel+human/purgatory hall oc) doodle because it’s midnight and the art demons tell me I must
Istg I’m a gremlin because do not give me art motivation after midnight or else I’ll stay up until it’s finished. See that doesn’t even make sense. I’m tired I sleep now idk man
#I don’t actually know if I’ve spoke of her much???#but she’s my baby#mortal soul trapped in an immortal body💔#someone put her down /affectionate#like she needs to be killed in the sense you put a pet to sleep when they’re too old or on pain. her blood would paint a beautiful goodbye#Wtf does that last sentence mean#let me sleep before I draw again bc WHO let bro cook#she just misses her brother (it’s a one sided familial relationship lowkey)#(Simeon when I catch you)#sorry for waffle gang#obey me#obey me solmare#obey me!#obey me shall we date#obey me oc#ocs: Tris#I’m gonna start tagging my ocs I have 4 main ones now and they rot my brain#a million smaller ones but oh well#good night sleep tight chat
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there r a lot of things about the myth of psyche and eros that makes me a little insane but one of them has always been the tasks from aphrodite and the unfairness of it. they're not intended to be possible. they're so obviously not meant to be possible, and psyche isn't fucking hercules, you know, she's not a demigod or whatever, she's mortal and these aren't mortal tasks!! it's why psyche has to be helped with each one, fucking by like ants and river gods and shit. and so like. idk. i know ppl see psyche and eros as like a story about love and shit which obviously it is but as a kid psyche and eros always felt like a story about being able to accept help
#in my theoretical adaptation of psyche and eros i'll never write i emphasize this theme#by changing psyche from a princess and youngest daughter to a poorer girl and eldest daughter who is very like. sophie hatter esque#also tbh when i first started thinking about my theoretical adaptation of psyche and eros i was reading hmc LMAO#also also ALSO. as a kid i always felt like the story was soooo deeply about regret and atonement and forgiveness#like YES the story is about love but not about easy love. love is difficult and requires work and sometimes u hurt each other !!!!!#it always struck me as a kid how psyche just. accepts the tasks.#i always read it as like. psyche KNOWS these tasks are unfair and i dont even think she expects to achieve them#but she accepts them anyways because she so deeply regrets what she did to eros and has no idea what else she can do.#am i verbalizing this well or have the worms eating my brain reached an irreversible point#also tbf im pretty sure the version i read as a kid didnt include the multiple times psyche tries to kill herself LMAO.#but we're ignoring that because i love the idea that shes just. so aimless and resigned to the tasks#ALSO on eros' side of things#i dont have like proper analysis about it but as a kid i saw eros hiding his face as like. fear?#like. fear that the person he loves will think he's a monster if he reveals his true self. or somethin. which also. i think is very queer#also very beauty and the beast. for obvious reasons since it was based on psyche and eros lmao#oh also. i already mentioned it but psyche and hercules r so similar.#did something unforgivable to a loved one --> given multiple impossible tasks to atone for it etc etc#i dont have any real analysis abt it i dont remember a lot abt hercules tbh but. yah#ALSO. okay i think retellings of hades and persephone where theyre totally in love and stuff r kinda tired.#BUT. in the theoretical adaptation i always imagined a scene where psyche does the last task where she goes to the underworld#and shes tired shes soso tired#and she goes to persephone and persephone is gentle and motherly which aphrodite has Not been to psyche#and i think if persephone is unkidnapped and truly in love w hades#then i think there could be a fun parallel between persephone and psyche in which like. theyre both in love w ppl#who are seen as monsters. and shit. or whatever#anyways. idk what made me think abt this again. ACTUALLY i do know i might write a twine for the neotwiny game jam#and it might be inspired by psyche and eros#anyways. lmao#jc.txt
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