#and then in the afterlife too. this is a full time job folks.
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đThis handsome hunk truly radiated in this erađ
#he is the source of my permanent state of đheart eyesđ#I'm such a freaking sucker for guys with brown eyes and Wesley just has the prettiest brown orbs that pair so well with his cute smile#I wanna hold hands with him and snuggle against his broad chest. Is that too much to ask?#just find me swooning over Wesley Louden Borland until the day I day#and then in the afterlife too. this is a full time job folks.#Wes Borland#Limp Bizkit#nu metal#Black Light Burns#down the rabbit hole
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Day 18 - Hackneyed - Vaile + Bobby - PG
Summary: Vaile has a short encounter with Cahsiâs retainer.
Part 1 of 2. Part 2 can be found here! --
Vaile had never been in this residential districtâor any other than Ishgardâs, if he was being honest. The kind of work he had been so used to did not lead him to safe, well-lit, nice-smelling places like these. When meeting up with an acquaintance (the word âfriendâ was still strange to him, and he avoided using it if he could), they always met up in a city or at a dungeon site or on the road if they happened to bump into each other.Â
The sight of all these houses made him feel like an intruder, even though he knew it was full of adventurerâs abodes, rather than normal civilians. Nobody was going to harass him or try to send him away unless he stepped over a line. Hells, Cahsi had told him plenty of people left their homes unlocked! Only a retainer to keep watch, with a book that visitors could sign to give their opinion on the ownerâs interior decorating skills. Apparently, it was a form of relaxation for many, and a way for folks to show off their conquests (âlook at this great beast I slayed and mounted its wings on my wall! Gasp in awe!â) It felt like something from a childrenâs storybook, and he wasnât sure if Cahsi was just fucking with him or if that was supposed to be considered normal. No way was he about to test if it was true by going into some strangerâs home and potentially getting caught in their homemade dungeon.
Which is why he had to be sure the house he was setting out to find was actually Cahsiâs.Â
This place was too quaint for the likes of someone like him, but he needed something from Cahsi, and she said sheâd be at her home all weekend. So heâd bear through it. He was tough. He could handle wading through a domestic setting without his skin itching for a fight. Probably. (and if he thought about it too long, itâd bring him back to that brief year of happiness with Axel. The closest he ever got to a domestic life. No thanks, brain.)Â
Cahsi had sent him a letter to him via moogle mail with the most awful, nonsensical map known to man explaining how to find her home, which heâd never been to and hadnât planned on. But she was âtoo lazy to bother traveling somewhere to meet up, even if it were at a major aetheryle. Please Vaile, I just want one lazy weekend where I donât have to dress up and put on my weapon. You come to me, or you can wait.âÂ
So here he was. Sort of. He was close? He was in the correct general area, as far as he could tell, but all these districts looked exactly the same, and âitâs a carbuncle themed house, you canât miss itâ, did not help when there were a surprising number of people with colorful homes themed after the same creature. Cahsi didnât seem to be wearing her linkpearl right now, as she wasnât picking up. He sighed. Not worth the trouble for what he needed, maybe, but heâd already traveledâŚ
After another few minutes of aimless wandering and deliberation, he finally went to the nearest retainer bell and rang it until he could get someone to fetch Cahsiâs for him.Â
When the familiar, stout figure arrived at the plaza, Vaile wasted no time: âHey, you! Retainer. Where is she?â
Upon noticing who it was asking, the retainerâs face went from a neutral expression to one of slight annoyance. âOh, I couldnât possibly know what you mean. Some manners would go a long way to start, boy.â
âJust tell me!â
â....âÂ
The lalafell in front of him pretended to examine and remove a speck of dust from his outfit, completely ignoring the reaper that towered over him. Hard to be cowed by a punk with a short fuse when you were already dead, after all. Not much phased Bobby, though he certainly could phase through plenty. Having been around for numerous calamities and no signs of returning to the afterlife, Bobby had gotten exceedingly good at controlling his physicality. He could be solid when needed to do his job, but most of the time he was invisible or a blue-tinged, see-through mirage like right now.
It was a standoff Vaile wouldnât win if he wanted an answer. âFine. Hello. Nice weather weâre having, arenât we. Now tell me where Cahsi is.â
âMmm? And what do we say? A magic word, perhaps?â
âOh for the love ofâyou insufferable mage. Please.â Vaileâs teeth were grit together so hard, he could nearly hear them creaking. His hand itched to reach for his weapon, useless as itâd be. Still, it could be fun to see a scythe swing through the manâs apparition. Would it flicker?
âThere, now was that really so difficult? Was that painful for you?â His tone dripped with condescension.
âYou are so lucky youâve already left this plane, or Iâd be breaking my promise of no bloodshed on the premises right about nowââ
âTsk tsk, the youths these days are so hotheaded. Youâd best work on yourself, lad, or I wonât allow you to see miss Theia anymore. She doesnât need to associate with ruffians.â
âAnd she doesnât need a stuffy retainer like you choosing who she gets to see! Let her make her own decisions. Sheâs the one who invited me here.â
Something changed in Bobbyâs expression, the tiniest hint of approval in his eyes. âHmm. Youâre right, I suppose. Sheâs handled far worse and prickly than you. Very well then.Itâs the home right across from the pool, one block down to your left. You canât miss it. Youâll find her in the library with some guestsâfriends. I believe you know them. I do hope youâve packed a bag?â
âWhat? Why would I need a bag to talk to her?â
âWhy, for the sleepover, of course!â
And with that, the retainer flickered into nothing, no doubt having had his fill of tomfoolery for the day.
Good riddance! A sentiment shared by both.
Vaile quickly reached his destination, the sign in front confirming it was hers. Cahsiâs door was unlocked, and there was note waiting for him, telling him sheâd be downstairs. Must be where the library is.
As he approached the door leading to it, he heard muffles voices and laughter. Was he really about to intrude on a âsleepoverâ, and whatever that entailed? It was barely dinnertime!
Better to get this over with, Vaile. Sooner you get in there, the sooner you can leave.
As he opened the door, he heard a sentence that made him regret coming here and wishing Bobby had given him the wrong directions: âThis has to be the most hackneyed sex pollen plot Iâve ever read, and donât even get me started about the characterization!â
Was it too late to turn around and pretend he was never here? Unfortunately, three faces turned toward him and exclaimed in greeting.
âVaile! Youâre just in time. You have to join us!â
He nearly felt his adrenaline spike as though he were about to enter battle. What the hells was he getting himself into�
- To Be Continued⌠? - [next]
#I sure had a crazy idea of a plot for this one but didn't have time lol#so I hope to continue this in a part 2 if a good word pops up! Or maybe for a free day#it would just be all the OCs being very silly while Vaile suffers#ffxivwrite2024#ffxivwrite#mango writes#ffxiv oc#the return of ghost bobby! The joke retainer I made that I kept around for the lols#2nd time writing him ever I think? he's like a protective grumpy grandpa sort of. A bit of a dick. I wanted even more bickering tbh#vaile drousaire
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SPN POSTCANON UPDATE: Dean sighted in Roanoke VA, then soon after in Argentina
Seems alive(?), healthy and in one piece, but under a lot of stress. Has lost some weight and powers aren't working too well from what I can see. Hanging out w a pooka that's PROBABLY Baby, but with shapeshifters who even knows.
Dean is working with YET ANOTHER DUDE WHO SEEMS TO BE HIS BROTHER. Pretty clear that if they do share a parent, it's John. Their dynamic is good, a lot like Dean and Sam except this guy is NOTHING like Sam, honestly he's pretty feral. Huge guy easily meeting "giant" height, seems to prefer range combat but can hold his own in melee as well. Calls himself a hunter or tracker of some kind, mostly goes after human targets. Understands a little of what's going on w the Fae/Rome/etc but doesn't get the full picture. He's curious and eager to fuck around and find out
Physically he resembles John a LOT, and could easily be his kid- but also bears resemblance to Balor. w the whole Vessel situation going on rn its unclear who this guy's "father" actually is besides the fact that he's a piece of work. Also of note, this guy is confirmed to have a nonhuman lineage, unclear on which side. Features include giant stature/build, enhanced senses, expert/preternatural marksmanship, the usual super strength(?), animalistic/survival mindset as baseline, and hair seems more like fur, possibly seal fur. Doesn't seem to have any connection to the possible-Selkie girl in Maine.
...all in all, Balor is looking like a more likely candidate for this guy's dad, which would explain why he and Dean currently have this sibling relationship due to (THE BOYS S4 SPOILERS). Also still some chance of a Fomoire/Fae/Fuath/Campbell family connection that I haven't noticed.
Dean is tied up in more Roman nonsense and appears to have ended up owing a blood debt (in his own blood) to some late Roman military-cult god I've vaguely heard of bc he killed said god's brother. Lots of modern folk magic/esoterica, severed limbs and possibly at least one demon deal. Given the location and the events set to unfold this summer, can't rule out Croatoan fuckery going on here as well. Dean also had a new Magic Knife(tm), bone handled with a steel, iron or possibly silver blade. gave it to this new guy, probably for protection.
I'll look into if Balor had any children in the mythos (current/recent Antichrist Situation notwithstanding).
Not sure why Dean is headed south, not sure I want to know. If he weren't the type to run directly INTO danger every time, I'd say he was trying to get out ahead of the absolute shitstorm hitting the Northeast US coast in a month. I rly hope he's not planning on picking a fight w that Brazilian pantheon over what happened w Sam... its not their fault and if anything someone should warn them. Wars between seasonal deities WILL spread just as climate change does, and if one of them was already dragged into it, that whole mythos is at risk. ...Hopefully Dean is there to warn them, not. stab them.
Dean pls just be decent to the other pagan gods this once please.
Also, Garth and his wife are now in a threesome! with BENNY.
and they are ALL married to each other
that's odd, its not bad, its just ODD, I'm happy for them. 10/10, they were always like the 3 most functional characters in the whole show anyway, and I'm sure Garth's kiddos will enjoy having yet another fun dad.
congrats to whatever's going on over there.
ALSO! Rowena's back! Yay!!! She seems to have given up trying to escape Death and now WORKS for Death, namely corralling the souls of children who don't want to go to the afterlife... or... something vaguely like that idk. She likes her job, or at least likes continuing to exist while doing something in her vague field of interest. However she DOES appear to be sniffing around near all that recent activity w Azazel's return, I hope she stays safe or just finds somewhere else to hang out. Of relevance re: Rowena's current activities are:
-two VERY talented ghosts who help other ghosts pass on and hunt the occasional monster, they are amazingly skilled and there's a lot to learn from those two.
-Tom Tildrum, or possibly Tim Toldrum, idfk its one of the cats to go by the title "The King Of Cats". I think he's Cat-sith on at least one side (Faerie/Sidhe cat) and may be in charge of them.
-Jenny Greenteeth, who may have Fomoire heritage and may ALSO be Balor's relative/child. She seems nice, if in over her head. Not sure she remembers what she is.
-Yet Another Second Generation Special Kid. this one has ALL kinds of other weird going on tho, gotta look into that
#supernatural#spn#spn postcanon#Yet More References To CW Shows And Other Stuff Actors Have Been In#Dean pls be civil when you're in south america. ik he tortured your brother. he thought he was doing the right thing#been Worried(tm) abt the Seasonal God War reaching that pantheon since one of em showed up last fall. sheesh...#Seal Guy's name is âColtonâ which I HOPE isnt anything to do w The Colt but John is for sure nuts enough to try#...wait. Colton might be another Pooka. he's magic and furry at least#IS HE BABY'S???? DOES SHE HAVE A *KID*#but no then why would he have had a bad childhood she seems like a great mom#I refuse to entertain the possibility that John fucked the car but I WILL keep it in the back of my mind.
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Trust me when I say Cyber Sleuth!Reader and Avdol would be absolutely livid hearing about every Link's adventure since they done it with little help.
Both have seen what that kind of mindset or idea has led to. One reason why Reader still keeps up their medical skills as someone needs to smack some sense in these folk and have the evidence to shutdown any bullshit. Someone pulls any prophecy related argument then they are getting kicked.
Avdol: ...so a full grown soldier asked you to investigate a monster ridden well. Had a literal 10 year old boy to do his job? Punk better pray that I don't ever find him as it won't be pretty.
Time: ...finally someone with common sense.
Digimon have multiple stages with the highest being Mega which is after Ultimate. Considering the risk of running into a dangerous opponent whether on a job or not, Reader made sure Avdol can digivolve to his Mega before shit really hits the fan.
The form in question being AncientSphinxmon, a very powerful Digimon known as the Legendary Warrior of Darkness and rules over annihilation/destruction of all living things. Reader told the Chain about Megas but not what Avdol can actually become.
They only find out when the next portal drops them very high in the air with no safe way down. Avdol became AncientSphinxmon because he would be big enough to carry everyone on his back and fly them to safety. Questions are asked of course until Warriors brought up fighting.
Reader: If there ever comes a situation where Avdol has to digivolve for battle, then you guys need to stand back.
Sky: But why?
Avdol, still in Mega form: Do you want to get blasted into oblivion by accident? Only someone with a death wish will go near a fight involving a Mega Digimon. Dodging my Dark Blast is super difficult as it's a massive laser but Necro Eclipse is literally a one way trip to the afterlife. Unless you can become a war god or have experience fighting alongside a Mega like my partner then stay out of it.
Time can only glance at the Fierce Deity Mask while Sky thinks back to Demise afterwards. If such power was needed, then what kind of enemies did Reader and Avdol have to face before coming here?
"Cool...." Wild giggles on the vicarious power trip. "That's so cool."
Twilight too busy looking at the new form to think much about it. He's struck by the sheer size and power of this thing.
Sky is trying to take in the feeling of flying again. He's completely happy up here.
Hryule is not. He's having a time. Get him back on the ground please.
#pinky replies#digimon! reader#i chuckled at Time's side eye at FD#it's exactly where my mind went too XD
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An Avid Foodie��s Guide To Night City
/ / Incoming Transmission / /
< / PART 2: A Hungry South Indianâs Guide to Night City>Â Â
Good day to you beautiful folks in Night City! if you are like me; a disgruntled, hungry, often sad foodie who came to Night City with the hopes of making it Big then this article is for you! Thatâs right! because you can never hope to conquer the streets of night city on an empty stomach ( assuming you do have one..) . and I'm not talking about Kibble or those nasty Prepacks from All Foods or Synth food that makes you stomach CHURN ( God! I hate the Eezy Beef! ). I'm talking bout fresh food folks (that ought to get your attention!) , what most people may not know is that Fresh food ain't just the luxury of the Elite or the filthy rich. You common sheep too can get to savor the flavors of fresh food in the Streets and beyond that is if you know where to look and only if you have the right connections. ( You guys can thank me later! ). So here is a full day of my eating escapades in Night City.
A brief note on Indian food. Indian Cuisine has a multitude of flavors but Indians really do like spicy food and most dishes here have a spicy undertone. But there is no dearth of sweet food here. Indian cuisine is a melting pot of varied cultures and that just makes it worthy to be in the market stalls of Night City as well; Spicy, Feisty, sometimes sweet but it always makes you want to have more!Â
1. 8:00 AM < // Wake The F**k Up Samurai! // >
Wake up early and head downtown. There is a very successful little store by the name of Ambrosia. Head over there for the best Kibble you'll ever have in your life time. Now you may thinking âWhat Kibble? That bland, grainy, dry stuff ? â Well yes. You see, my friend Laila who runs Ambrosia has cracked the code for making Kibble taste great. The secret? Just add delectable Indian Spice Mix to them but the rest of the process though is pretty much as closed lipped as Arasaka Tower. But who cares? If you want the most nutritious, soft, aromatic and tastiest breakfast yet, give it a go. Truly it is a feast worthy for gods. Â
 2. 11:00 AM < // Time For some snacks // >
Well itâs Almost Mid-day and I already feel hungry so I head to Pacifica. I have a good frenemy named Josh there that sells these amazing one of a kind banana chips form South India. The perfect combination of crusty texture, crispy feels, yellowish glow and the glory that is fried food. The Indomitable Fried banana chips. These are available for a very hefty price in the American markets but because you know me and Josh you may get it at a discount. It also comes in a nifty protective package for eating on the go. Just donât take Jobs from Josh. There is a reason why we are frenemies.  Â
 3. 2: 00 PM (Nearby Pacifica) < / A drink for every occasion / >
A Merc in Night City canât function on an empty stomach or low energy levels. Luckily for us, my brothas from the Animals have a solution for that. They have got a great cocktail of muscle building boosters, fresh strawberries, Lime, bananas and vodka, perfect for keeping those gains on the road or while fighting the bad guys. Where do they get these strawberries and Bananas from? Well lets just say they are not just pumped up freaks and they do know a bit about greenhouses too. It is possible to be barely natty in Night City too. I present thee the drink dubbed â Strawberry Pump Haze 3XT â.Â
5. 6: 00 PM < // Some more snacks by the Pier // >
In the bustling markets of the piers you will find a small, and very shanty looking store by the name of Singhâs Chow. At first glace it may not be much but in actuality it is a very successful smuggling front for premium Indian Spices. If you are an immigrant Indian like me this is the go to place if you want to bathe in the nosh-talgia of home. [ This was pretty difficult to find but I have my sources ] . Although be warned, they do not take kindly to strangers meddling in their business so it will be good to establish a rapport with them or have an Indian friend recommend you as a customer. It is home to the only place where youâll find an Indian take on a dumpling or pierogi. It is a sweet dish made with wheat with fillings of coconut, brown sugar and a whole lot of goodness.Â
4. 9:00 PM < // To The Afterlife Choombas! // >
Now after a long day of eating, evading the Police, Gangsters and doing Merc jobs it is best to head to the Afterlife to wind down (Albeit with a gun in hand though). For The Men among Boys do yourself a favor and get the Club Exclusive Johnny Silverhand. Waft in its glory, Get High and Get Moving for we always have some barbeque, steaks and Parottas to burn.Â
5. 11:00 PMÂ < //Â Somewhere in the Badlands // >
Now because it is the weekend and I have got nothing better to do, I head out to the badlands. A few months ago I had to Win a death race in my pursuit of exploring the tastes of Night City or its Peripheries. Fast forward a month I am now thick friends with a tight knit nomad group that mainly consists of immigrants from India (Name classified). The Fourth Corporate War was not kind to their livelihood and they were forced to settle in the Badlands taking up illegal smuggling from India to the United States and vice-versa. Now these guys are the real deal. they can get access to a lot of Livestock. Don't know how they get it though. Today I was invited to a weekly community barbeques and I offered my services to cook them a proper Indian dish; The Chicken Biriyani . they just had to get the ingredients. Trust me when I say â Trust the Nomadsâ cos they can get any ingredient you want! So here I was preparing the dish in the open flame. Basking under the Night Sky with a few friends I had made along the way. A perfect ending to a perfect day.
< // Tune in Next Time for news on the best chows and drinks in Night City. Next up is a special mystery edition //>
Until then this is Avid Foodie chippin' out !
P.S :Â
These dishes are traditionally found in many South Indian homes, and as South Indians can be found almost anywhere around the world (This is a standing joke among us). I thought that maybe Night City too would have its own share of South Indian people. Now the Dishes in their traditional names are given below:Â
1. The grainy looking stuff: Its famously known as the PohaÂ
2. Banana Chips are famously known as Malabar chips.Â
3. The Rice with Chicken : Biriyani (This tends to have a lot of variants from place to place)
4. The bite sized dumpling: Unniyappam
I genuinely think that dishes have proved their mettle to be in the market stalls of Night City.Â
#CyberTumblr#Cyberpunk2077#foodof2077#Foodie#Southindia#Food#community creations#Photography#Foodguide
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I have this habit of being very detailed in writing- hopefully not too much that it bores anyone to death. Personally, I love detailing OC's and as many aspects of them as I can before exposing these poor things to pain- almost like a slow-burn for torture, I suppose?
But then it occurs to me as well that maybe I'm just writing a normal story, with villians and heroes and anti-heroes but with more emphasis on the pains they go through.
Oh well, here is my newest creation-
CW: None quite yet. Some strong language, I suppose
MYSTICS
CHAPTER ONE: A NEW JOB
Lyrem Nomadus busied himself, flipping through resumes that bored him half to death and then a little more. Usually, he wouldnât dare to look for anyone to share his space with. The business of curating, refurbishing and selling occultic items was dreadfully interesting to the general public and the last thing he was looking for was someone new to devalue it with their own useless knowledge and presumed âpsychicâ abilities. The last two days were full of just that. He pinched the bridge of his wide nose as a mild headache came on- the last interview was a particularly painful thought.
A young man, with a heavily freckled, pale face, and round framed glasses poured over his collection of rocks near the front entrance, started spouting nonsense that Lyrem had little patience for.
âOoh, malachite. I heard that stuffâs toxic, yâknow,â he spoke with little regard for Lyrem standing near the cash register- an old charcoal grey thing with large buttons and made a noise like a classic âka-chingâ just before the receipts printed out and the drawer popped open.
âHm,â Lyrem hummed unamused, hoping it would prompt some style of professionalism from his prospective interviewee. It did not.
The young man continued to look around the store, finding one hematite pendulum specifically fascinating. Then he found his attention drawn to a display of elegantly designed tarot cards. The young man picked one of them up, studying the hierophant with mild interest.
âPlease do not touch the merchandise.â Lyrem cut in.
The young man placed the card back down on the glass shelf, slightly askew to the rest on display. He cleared his throat and approached the register, finally.
âDid you bring a copy of your resume?â Lyrem asked him, knowing what the answer likely was, as there was nothing in his hands. He wore a long black trench coat over ratted, torn jeans and a plain tee shirt. There was one chain dangling from a pocket somewhere.
âYessir,â he answered.
Oh, perhaps this boy had a hope after all.
After reaching into his back pants pocket with effort, the resume was presented, folded into six sections as a single piece of paper. A folded and clearly used napkin fell out onto the floor. Lyrem breathed deeply, took the folded resume, and smiled.
âThank you for applying, but I am afraid you are not quite the right fit for this position,â Lyrem didnât bother opening the paper, and instead tossed it over his own shoulder. It landed directly into the bin behind him.
âI-Iâm sorry? You havenât interviewed me yetâ- his eyes widened with the confusion of the sudden rejection.
âHm. I have interviewed you plenty, and I tell you now, Iâd have a mangey dog run my store before you.â He didnât mean for his tone to be so casual. Lyrem blinked.
The poor boy took a moment to process the insult before glaring across at the owner of Mystics ruthlessly. Suddenly, his fist pounded the desk, sending a short tremor through the wood.
âAnybody with half a brain could do this job! For fuck sakeâs, man!â
Lyrem looked at him with a simple eyebrow raised and cocked his head toward the door. He was tired these days. The less he chose to care about childrenâs tantrums, the better. The boy left in a huff, and clearly, he tried slamming the jingling door behind him as he stepped out onto the street, but the spring against the top disallowed such havoc, and bounced slowly back. It closed finally with a light click, and the young man was gone.
Releasing the pinch from his nose, Lyrem sighed. He didnât know which one was worse, that boy who left a trail of disrespect in his wake, or the woman from the previous day who was convinced that she could speak with his mother in the afterlife. The sullen woman wore gems aplenty on her fingers and hanging from ropes and chains around her neck. The wire wrapped amethysts in particular, caused her to look like an easter egg more than a living person. She didnât take it too kindly when he explained that the stones around her finger were not a genuine turquoise either. By the end of it all, she was rather happy to be finished.
He shuddered, remembering the strong scent of patchouli she left that seemed to linger within his store, even now.. He didnât have an aversion to patchouli, or to amethyst or turquoise, or even easter eggs⌠at least he hadnât one before two days ago.
The rest of the applicants were all the same. Wanted a job, wanted something easy, and for experience- and all the time, Lyrem would ask himself: âexperience for what, exactly?â Instead of asking the question aloud, heâd thank the person, and politely send them on their way out, with a promise to call them when he had made a decision.
He wasnât planning to call anyone.
It was a Tuesday afternoon. The streets would be bustling past four, and if he wanted to avoid it and give himself a break from the eye strain, he would need to go for his coffee now, or not have one until after six. The horror.
He flipped over the sign on the door. It was one of those apologetic ones- as though it would stop a person from throwing a brick through a window for being closed on a weekday. Lyrem locked the door and turned to his right. There was a small local place not far from the corner of the intersection that he had grown accustomed to. If they had the raspberry scones today, he decided he may take one of those as a treat. Lost in thought, he crossed in front of a small white car making its left turn. The car stopped, though no horn was sounded as the engine suddenly died inexplicably next to him.
Lyrem walked around the car and poked his head through the passenger-side window which was open for the cool breeze. The driver looked back at him, his hands gripping the wheel too tightly.
âPedestrians have the right of way, you know,â he mentioned calmly. Then, he tapped the top of the car twice. It restarted. âDrive a little safer, now.â
The driver suddenly remembered that the car was still in gear, and he moved along, crossing the intersection and left Lyrem behind like everything he had just done was part of some fever dream. He chuckled lightly and turned back down the block.
It was a sun-filled day, without a cloud in the sky, and it was a warm one too. Despite the fact that it was still early April, and the city had only just started waking from its hibernation from the cold, the streets were filling quickly with people.
His coffee took a while, which he forgave only because the end result was quite often a perfection, but he was nearly pouting at the counter as the spot for raspberry scones were replaced with one with blueberries instead. Losing his appetite, his eyes drifted around the rustic establishment. The sounds of a classical guitar filled the room with the unmistakable talents of the virtuoso, AndrĂŠs Segovia. It was a nice change from the sounds of folk rock and boy bands. The coffee shop was only getting better and better with age, it seemed.
Against the wall, a cork board was decorated in haphazardly placed notes. Some notes were simply inspirational or funny, some were searching for students for taekwondo or guitar, advertisements for plays and musicals at the local theatre were spread along the outer edges begging to be noticed, and there were a few job postings as well from other nearby establishments, restaurants, including one from a pet store.
He shouldnât have tried putting an ad on Kijiji at all- not when the perfect people were right here all along. Like Icarus, Lyrem flew too close to the sun, and was burned by the troubling rays of stupidity that came through his door from delving into the ruddy depths of online job hunting. Never again would he make such a mistake.
âLyre!â
Nodding, he retrieved his cup, and turned back toward the door. He nearly collided with another person, standing close up to the cork board and huffed, not spilling a drop.
âExcuse me,â he muttered.
âApologies.â The person gave him little notice, but moved off to the side with ease to allow him through.
He furrowed his brows. What was it that was causing him to pause just before reaching the door? There was just⌠something⌠off.
It took him a moment before hearing it- the faintest humming to Segoviaâs EspaĂąa, Spanish Dance No.10 in G coming from the person who apologized to him for being in the way. Each note timed perfectly to the sound from the speakers in the corner. He turned his head, to a particularly high note, the humming stopped to be replaced with fingers tapping in unison to the notes against their thigh.
âGuitar?â He asked, suddenly beside them. He studied the board also.
âNo,â they replied. âJust looking for a job.â
He nodded, grimacing. Raising his hopes one final time, he ventured.
âI have potential work for you. I am hiring at my storeâs location down the street. If you are interested.â
âThat seems coincidental.â They replied unemphatically sifting through the other job postings there, knowing they were not currently dressed for success. âWhat store?â
âMystics. Itâs along twenty-third andâ-
â-seventeenth, yes, I know the place.â
âThen youâre hired.â
They stopped, and brought their hands down from the board, and turned to stare their deep brown eyes into his of deep hazel- to finally spare a glance to the person wanting their attention.
âI donât have time for practical jokes- or human trafficking, for that matter,â they said with insistence.
âIâm not joking, and I am definitely not in the business of human traffickingâ- Lyrem stuttered incredulously. âI thought you said you knew the place.â
âI do.â They replied. âIâve just never been in. Itâs just one of those ridiculous shops for people to waste their money on colourful rocks. Thereâs literally a river just under the bridge half a mile from here- infinite supply for none of the coin.â
Taking them by surprise, he laughed.
âYou will be the worst salesperson.â He said. More seriously, he added, âlook, I really am in need of a person to take care of a few evening shifts and the weekends, I pay well above the average rate for any local retail store, and Iâd be able to supply you with health benefits.â
This sudden bargain seemed to be interesting enough for the person to distance themselves from the cork board.
âIâm still finishing high school- under eighteen- is that a problem?â They asked. âItâs been a problem everywhere elseâ-
âNot a problem.â
They nodded.
âWhen do I start?â
#whump#whump blog#Mystics by Alpaca#writing#writing blog#Lyrem#chapter one#magical whump#nonbinary character#whumpblr#a little funny
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1. How long have you been worshiping?
About 18 years or so.
2. Do you have a deity that is particularly close to you?
I'm hopelessly devoted to Hestia, and she is included in almost everything that has to do with my home, family, friends, children etc.
3. Whats your favorite tale about your Gods?
I enjoy the story of Artemis and the Stag
4. Do you keep an altar?
Yes. I keep a permanent altar.
5. Do you consider yourself an Oracle?
No.
6. What brought you to your current path?
I had a dream when I was young, it is recurring, and over time I've accepted it.
7. Do you believe in past lives?
Yes, but I don't think everyone was a princess or a king or a great warrior. No delusions of grandeur here.
8. Do you think plants, animals or stones have spirits?
Yes. I believe that everything has a spirit or essence, that nature spirits have never been human, and so they don't think or act like humans do. This falls in line with my belief in the small folk. I dont hold a Victorian era image of what they would look or act like.
9. What do you think your afterlife will look like?
I'm not sure, but I'm hoping for something calm and pleasant.
10.Whoâs your favorite divine power couple?
I dont really have one. The Olympians were big on drama and incest. I love their lore, but let's be real, some of it was pretty messed up.
11. Do you listen to devotional music?
Yes. And I write some of my own little songs too.
12. What are your views on virginity? Is it worth anything spiritually?
Personally, I've never held much belief in virginity being the ultimate purity ideal. Yes, the Hestia had a temple full of virgins, but they had a job to do. Virginity as in non-marriage and independence, however, was a very powerful thing to have in times when women had very little control over their lives or futures.
13. What deity do you turn to most in times of trouble? Hestia, Apollo, Artemis, Athena, Persephone and Demeter.
14. What are your views on dreams? Have they anything to do with divinity or the future?
I have had dreams of things that have happened later.
15. Do you prefer to party and celebrate or quietly observe holidays?
I like quiet celebrations.
16. Which deity do you find has the biggest sense of humor?
I'm not really sure.
17. What made you choose your religion over any others?
It is what fit me. I wasn't raised as anything specific and my interests and dreams led me this way.
18. Do you have any food or drink that is spiritually important?
Not really. I offer different things. Wine is a constant though. And water.
19. Do you have any numbers that are spiritually important?
I find that things tend to happen in 3s.
20. Do you believe in fairies, nymphs or nature spirits?
Yes.
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Another list! Of stuff I liked about Supergirl ep. 6x03, âPhantom Menacesâ! AKA:
Spoilers!
WOW HEY WOW I LOVED THIS EPISODE.
BECAUSE EVERYONE IS HAVING FEELINGS.
(This is gonna be all over the place I can tell, apologies in advance for poor organization)
Okay, so! Right off the bat (âha haâ but like, in a sad way) we learn that poor Silas has been Phantomâd. :C
We then get even MORE Phantom action back in the actual Phantom Zone--Karaâs plan to literally grab a ride doesnât go over so well WHICH LEADS TO!
Kara making a Phantom Zone Friend! Yay! :DÂ Â
Pretty much immediately on board with Nixlyâs (I refuse to try and spell out her full name) chaotic energy. Brilliant. Amazing. 10/10, hope sheâs not secretly evil.
Karaâs physical vulnerability bringinâ in those âHuman for a Dayâ vibes, yes, good, yes.
Then weâre BACK AT THE TOWER and things arenât looking great for Silas! Jâonn is blocking out his emotions! Brainy is neck deep in his!Â
AND SPEAKING OF FEELINGS.
ALEX.
WITH THE CRYSTAL.
OOOOooOOooOOH NooOOOOOOOOOO
Side note: Love that Karaâs last will and testament is like, âFour for you, Eliza and Alex Danvers!â
âAaaaaand none for Jeremiah, okay bye.â
Puttinâ a pin in the Luthor stuff. Weâll get to it.
Back to the Tower! Alright, first and foremost, probably a silly thing but Iâm glad the Super Friends are just...dressed casually.
I was concerned at the outset of this season that weâd see them all in their Super Suits⢠most of the time because everyoneâs a vigilante now, but fortunately that is not the case!
Appreciate that the Phantoms are actually a particular type of alien. As far as I know, âZulian Maletariansâ are original to the show--no reference to preexisting DC stuff.
Something I noticed upon a re-watch--my suspension of disbelief allows for the physical phantom transformation...but they also all sprout matching dark robes???
Sure, Jan.Â
Anyways. Then WEAPONS GRADE ANGST, as Alex has like, combo PTSD/guilt trip reaction to Phantomâd Silas.Â
Just like. The frozen, helpless look?Â
NOW IâM HAVING FEELINGS, HOW DARE.
And the hits keep cominâ, cause weâve got a balcony talk between Jâonn and Alex but itâs tense and sad and gosh I love it.
Back in Karaâs Phantom Zone Adventure, love her Wizard of Oz-esque gathering of companions on her way to see the Wizard find an escape.
This week it felt like there was a better handle on the close-ups? Like, they were pretty apparent in 6x02. Here, theyâre a little less obvious. (Or maybe Iâm just getting used to them IDK. XD)
Az-Rel is a deep Detective Comics Comics cut--a Kryptonian prisoner in the Phantom Zone who has pyrokinesis!Â
(tHEy DoNT ReSpECT tHe cOMicS!!! Except that they do, and yâall donât even NOTICE.)Â
Glad that both Kelly and Mâgann had plot stuff to do this week, instead of just offering emotional support to everyone else.
I forgot to mention it last week so Iâll just quickly mention that I like the glow-y purple lights in the Tower. Very nice touch, Jâonn.
(But how is he affording this?)
(And for that matter...are Kara and Nia now the only members of the Super Friends with jobs?)
Iâll dispense with the linear approach because the back-and-forth between plotlines is getting to be a bit much, SO!
On the Kelly and Mâgann note: Again, really liked that theyâre not simply there to be cheerleaders for the other characters. Mâgann still feels a little like sheâs at the mercy of plot whims, but. Progress!
And then Kelly! I mentioned this last season--I like that theyâve built up her character such that her inclusion in like. Bad-guy fights makes sense, even though sheâs maybe not as directly connected to the action as other members of the Super Friends, being more âteam CatCo/Obsidianâ than âTowerâ
(Spoiler-y info suggests that will change as the season progresses so weâll see how that goes!)
I liked this Final Phantom Fight more than the one in 6x02--the direction/blocking felt a little less âeveryone stand on your marks in a line and shoot up at the CGI stuffâ.Â
I mean it was still essentially that, but. Just worked a bit better here, IMO.
And Alex can quick-change now! Love that it has the red glow of Martian shapeshifting.
Oliver Queen out there somewhere in the afterlife, seething with jealousy.
(Jumping back, just think itâs funny that, presumably, emergency services got a call about the Phantoms like, â911, whatâs your emergency?â âWeâve got hostile ghosts!â)
Alright, circling back to the Luthors!
Brainy and Lena are feeling their feelings, folks.
Loved all Brainyâs stuff. Particularly, his enraged, âI hate him! I hate him!â and then his quieter, broken, âI miss her.â
Just. So good.
(But man he is...2 for 3 on busted tech. Keyboard, tablet...fortunately the TV was spared but it was close!)
And Lena had some growth!Â
Iâm just at the point where Iâm never gonna like. Enjoy the character--too many years of fandom baggage unfortunately. But credit where it is due: NO MORE LITTLE BOXES, THANK GOODNESS.
Sheâs gone from Bowler Hat Guy to Elsa. Good for her.
The amount of Lex this week was about as much as I can handle anymore. Simmering in the background, antagonizing Lena...thatâs where he belongs.
(But he can leave now, thanks.)
Okay so BACK TO KARA, b/c you know. Iâm biased.
Her time in the Phantom Zone is a little less introspective than I expected, thus far. However! Still the good Kara content I crave.
Kara making friends and influencing others with her sheer determination and compassion?Â
Almost like...her real power lies in her ability to inspire others.Â
Gasp! A theme!
Also the mention of fractured memories...intriguing!Â
And will no-doubt dovetail into the upcoming time-travel/flashback episodes.
I am excited.
An aside: Karaâs gonna be so distressed that she missed out on all these big emotional milestones.
âJâonn and Mâgann soul-bonded? Alex and Kelly moved in together? Lena and Brainy engaged in healthy coping mechanisms???â
Sheâs gonna have so many Hallmark cards to buy.
*Card with a cute smiley face on it* *opens it up* âCongrats on not murdering your brother!â
Iâm sure thereâs a bunch of other great stuff Iâm missing but thatâs all I can remember at the moment, so!
TL;DR - SO MANY FEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELINGS! From everyone! It was great.
NEXT WEEK: Phantom Friends Fight to Find a Feasible Flight from the Frigid Fathomage of the Former Fort Rozz!
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hi! I really like your taste in media, and I'm looking for new summer reading - if it's not too much trouble to share, do you have any like, top 5 book recommendations? or maybe some books you've read recently that you enjoy? any genre is fine, including nonfiction. thank you!
Hi anon! This was a really nice message to get, so thank you!!! :D Lately, I havenât been reading as much as I usually like due to a combination of grad school and pandemic brain, but here is a list of five books I adore that Iâve discovered in the past several years, plus a bonus older series that I wish got more attention. I tried to give some variety of different sorts of books. This got a bit long. I have a lot to say about the books I love!
-The Goblin Emperor by Katherine Addison: this is a wonderful comfort-read fantasy with a main character who I love and would protect with my life. The worldbuilding is rich (thereâs formal and informal pronouns!) with some fascinating touches. Itâs the story of the half-goblin youngest son of an elven emperor, raised away from court and out of favor, who unexpectedly gets the throne when his father and older brothers are killed in an airship crash. Can this shy, anxious young man solve the mystery of his father's death and hold onto his throne without losing his gentle, empathetic nature?
-The Murderbot Diaries series by Martha Wells, beginning with All Systems Red: super fun science fiction with a page-turning plot and an oh-so relatable, snarky narrator. Murderbot is a security construct who has hacked itself and just wants to use its new freedom of mind to watch media in peace, but the pesky humans around it keep needing rescuing, and thereâs some evil corporate shenanigans going on. This is a series of several novellas and one full-length novel.
-The Invisible Library series by Genevieve Cogman, beginning with the book of the same name: these books are romps packed full of things that I love. Librarians wielding language as magic! Witty banter! Dragons! The Fae! Parallel worlds! A Sherlock Holmes-esque detective! Heists! Steampunk! Intrigue! A creepy villain! Likable characters at the center hold everything together.
-The Refrigerator Monologues by Catherynne Valente: you know the âwomen in refrigeratorsâ trope folks complain about from comics and other dude-centered media? The premise of this book is that a group of women who were connected in some way to superheroes (sometimes theyâre the un-powered girlfriends, sometimes theyâre superpowered themselves) getting together in the afterlife to tell the stories of their own lives, how they are complex people who are more than how they suffered for some manâs journey. This book is angry and sorrowful, but also engaging, motivating and even funny in parts. Catherynne Valenteâs prose is always astounding. If superheroes arenât your jam, try her wise and whimsical middle-grade portal fantasy The Girl Who Circumnavigated Fairyland in a Ship of Her Own Making or her âEurovision in space to save the worldâ Douglas Adams-esque novel Space Opera.
âThe Calculating Stars by Mary Robinette Kowal: alt-history sci-fi with an intersectional social justice lens. An asteroid strike in the early 1950s prompts an international effort to radically accelerate the space program. The protagonist is a woman pilot trying to become an astronaut. The author has done a TON of research into the actual history of space travel and it shows. This is sort of what youâd get if you crossed The Martian with Hidden Figures and threw in a major natural disaster. Note that this is part of trilogy. Iâve only read the first two, but Iâve heard only good things about the third.
-Bonus old favorite: The Blood and Smoke series by Tanya Huff: urban fantasy that will appeal to fans of Buffy, among other things. The Blood books center on Vicky Nelson, a tough and stubborn PI who gets drawn in to dealing with the supernatural when she meets vampire Henry Fitzroy (bastard son of Henry VIII, short, charismatic, bisexual vampireâŚI love Henry so much). The Smoke books, which I love even more, center on Tony, a minor character in the Blood books who has moved on to get a job on the crew of a vampire detective TV show. These books are creepy, exciting, snarky, and have pretty good queer rep. (Henryâs bi, Tonyâs gay and has a super cute canon romantic plotline in the Smoke books). Theyâre a bit dated, especially the earlier Blood books from the early 90s, but considering their age their take on a lot of the urban fantasy tropes feels quite fresh. More people need to read these and then post Tony/Lee fics on AO3 for me to enjoy. You can start with either Blood Ties, the first overall, or skip to the Smoke series with Smoke and Shadows.
The long list of books I also considered including: Gideon the Ninth by Tamsin Muir, the October Daye series by Seanan McGuire (really, almost anything by Seanan), The Collapsing Empire by John Scalzi, A Natural History of Dragons by Marie Brennan, Spinning Silver by Naomi Novik, and All the Birds in the Sky by Charlie Jane Anders.
Happy reading, anon! I'm happy to talk about books (almost) any time.
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Wild Speculation Time!
Iâve been following the gnostic stuff from some meta folks, and while I think their ideas are compelling and interesting, Iâm only barely able to grasp the esoterica of it all. So they may look at my speculations and go Yup Thatâs It! Or I may be completely out in left field (and not unhappy to be wrong lol). But I have thoughts.
So Rowena is now Queen of Hell. She seems to be really enjoying herself down there, with the demons fawning over her, and the parties, and all that jazz. Basically eternal punishment is now kissing her toes lol
What does this mean for Heaven though? Iâve seen a lot of hypothesizing that Jack or Castiel will end up ruling there, but I just canât see it for them.Â
Jack is a child who needs to be allowed to live a full life. Heâs been trying to save the world since he was born, but just like Sam and Dean, he shouldnât have to do that. He should be allowed to be normal.
Castiel flubbed his one attempt at ruling Heaven so badly that heâs been running from the responsibility ever since. Hannah talked him into it again, and it went better that time, but it was still a sense of duty that put him there. And when he found out Heaven was failing, he turned to Gabriel to see if he would take up the mantle, and obviously that canât happen now.Â
I think itâs going to be Michael and Adam, together. Now that Michael has Adam with him, heâs different. Softer, calmer, and so dang fond of Adam. I think their partnership could mean a better Heaven. One where the angels are there to care for it and its inhabitants, but with Adam giving insight on what humans would actually want out of their afterlife experience. Unlock the doors, knock down some walls to create more shared spaces, etc. Why can only soulmates share a heaven? Why not families and friends too? Why canât they pop in and visit each other whenever they want? Or even better, what if theyâre allowed to make new memories together instead of reliving old ones? (I stopped going to church at 13, but the religion I grew up in presented Heaven as one big happy picnic where we could all just hang out and love each other while enjoying luxuries that no one had to work for, and I think that would be cool for the SPN universe.)
Having Midam ruling Heaven would be a nice parallel to Rowena in Hell. Friends/Family/Allies who would let Sam and Dean come and go as they pleased.
Side note, while I would not like to see it, I can imagine Castiel becoming ruler of the empty. Although what Iâd really like is to have the sleeping angels sent to heaven, the sleeping demons sent to hell (and Rowena giving them the opportunity to earn their way into heaven), and the Empty being allowed to go back to sleep for eternity after it re-absorbs Chuckmara.Â
I have no idea what theyâll do with Purgatory. Iâd like to see it dissolved completely, but weâll see if they have time to address it again.
That leaves Death, and Iâm side-eying everyone in TFW 2.0 for that job right now. Although Iâd like it to be Dean. Heâs got experience with it. As Death he could visit all the realms. I saw a still of him and Sam eating some kind of desert, and I remember how the first Death loved crappy junk food so much. He was sort of a cosmic mentor to Dean in some ways, and it would be neat to see Dean take up his mantle and flit around all of existence trying all the burgers and pies. But I can also see Castiel having to take that job now.
I dunno. Weâll see! TWO MORE EPISODES! I am excited!
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Texas Hold âEm || Solo
TIMING: Recent
LOCATION:Â Houston, Texas
SUMMARY: Morgan strikes a bargain to seal the deal on her revenge, but itâs going to cost more than she reckoned on.
The exorcist pulled up to the hotel at two in the morning, left her Ford pickup with the sleepy eyed valet worker, and moseyed into the lobby, grave ash and dust trailing onto the marble tile in her wake. Morgan watched her from the safety of her chair in the lobby, pressing against the armrests to straighten her back and look taller. She wanted this to be quick and simple. Deirdre was asleep and they had a plane to catch in the next six hours. There was only so much time before White Crest wrapped its claws around them and she needed this last thing to be easy, because nothing else that happened when they got home would be.
âThank you for coming on such short notice,â she said, greeting the exorcist by way of gesturing her to sit in the chair opposite. âThereâs complimentary chocolate chip cookies, if youâve got the munchies,â she said, trying her best to smile.
âNot interested,â the exorcist drawled. âThis place gives me the creeps.â
âOh. Noted.â
They sat in silence, looking at each other. Morgan wasnât sure if Rebecca and Jasmine had given her the wrong idea about exorcists, or if this one woman, dug up down a daisy chain of referrals starting with Cassie and stretching halfway across the country, simply elected to dress in iron tipped cowboy boots and leather vests out of personal preference. The exorcist was at least as old as Rebecca, with sunburnt wrinkles around her eyes and a brittleness that worked its way from her dusty fingers to her lank blonde hair. Morgan, for her part, had borrowed some of Deirdreâs makeup and jewelry in an effort to look more commanding and assured. She didnât want to broadcast the extent of her desperation. How much she was willing to pay. How far she had already come. Morgan was sure sheâd talked to every exorcist with a listed number this side of the Mississippi for help, but all of them considered themselves under-experienced, underequipped, or simply unwilling to do what Morgan asked. She had trucked on, because to accept that there was no one within reach was to accept that Constance had won, and Morgan couldnât do that without feeling a piece of her soul go up in flames and char. She hid her fear behind a smile and a self deprecating laugh, but sheâd run out of backup plans.
âJose told me youâve got your hands on some sensitive material,â the exorcist said. âIâll be straight with you: I want that text in addition to my fee. Not a copy, the original.â
Morgan stiffened. âWhy?â
âDoes it matter? No original, no exorcism.â
Morganâs jaw clenched. Only now did she notice the hollowness in the exorcistâs look, the hard lines that reminded Morgan of every cruel face she had met. Under other circumstances, she might have told the exorcist their meeting was finished. This wasnât the kind of person she wanted to owe anything toward or trusted with a ritual this powerful. But under other circumstances, she wouldnât need this in the first place. And this was hardly the first person of questionable intentions sheâd worked with. When the family had been hanging over her, there was no such thing. There was only getting free or staying under Constanceâs feet. The same was true now: stay hunted and haunted and beaten, or take matters into her own hands. It was just her pride, the way Remmy had turned away from her in the backyard and the way Jasmine called her a hypocrite for believing in kindness as if that was synonymous with accepting a position as a childâs torture toy for the rest of her existence. Or, better still, sending her off with a pat on the back and a âhave fun in the afterlife.â A peaceful sleep, something Morgan was never going to know any more than a life spent without that cruel, miserable girlâs shadow over her. She hesitated because she was tired of being misunderstood. Of people talking to her like she was the monster. She didnât want to give them an inch to feel like they were right. But the character of energy was all in its use. One womanâs monster was anotherâs salvation. And Morgan didnât have time to be choosy if she wanted to keep the body count to a minimum.
âFine,â she said at last. âAfter youâve done your job, successfully, itâs yours.â
âAnd Iâll need more than the fee we discussed for materials and labor. You want this done the right way, you canât go half-assing the ingredients. And with the kind of harm youâre looking to unleash--â
âI have the materials gathered. I did all the labor myself. If thereâs really such a thing as bestowing intentions on an object when youâre a zombie, the items youâll need will be chock full of how much I need this little bitch to suffer for what she did to me and my family.â
The exorcist laughed dryly. âThatâs not possible.â
Morgan produced a screenshot on her tablet of the pages sheâd torn from that crusty old professorâs book, carefully preserved in clear sleeves, and dotted with sticky notes translating the text and documenting her âshopping list.â The exorcist gave the pictures a once over, her face inscrutable.
âWell?â Morgan said. She had broken laws for this. Worse than that, she had broken pieces of herself her friends had held up and broken their ties to her along with it.
âWell Iâll be,â the exorcist said. âIâve always wanted to do one of these. And the linguistics, marrying the latin to the french, the craftsmanship of the text-- this bitch is going to feel like sheâs being raked apart from the inside out.â
âGood,â Morgan said shortly. âCan you get to Maine on your own or do I need to cover that too?â
âIâve got some business up north to take care of. Iâll make my own way. But what do you mean when you say you did all the labor, already?â
âI wasnât aware that was an ambiguous statement.â
âWell, given your timetable isnât for a few weeks yet, Iâd be surprised if you had the source gathered already, or else you are a very different kind of woman than what Iâve taken you for.â
âThe source? Arenât you the source? The source of energy? The caster in this scenario?â
The exorcist snorted, hiding her face in her sleeve while she gathered her composure.
âI donât--Iâd appreciate some clarity. If thereâs been a misunderstanding--â She would do anything to fix it. She needed this done.
âI donât think Iâd be much help in the exorcism if you had me hogtied and bleeding over a pit,â the exorcist said, laughing harder. âThe source of the pain. Now, in the revolution in gay pair-ee, some of these folks would get together and do a little blood letting themselves, and when youâve got a circle of six or more, thatâs fine. But from what my grandpa said, most of the time they had a live one on deck, someone they could make suffer twice over. The source is pain and blood, Ms. Beck. You donât have to cut a man open in the circle, I donât need to be a witness to anything that might give me trouble, but this isnât some butcherâs blood pissbaby shit. You need to make someone bleed like youâd make her bleed. Thatâs how we open the channel, thatâs how we drag your ghost out of this plane kicking and screaming. Are you telling me youâre gonna cover that too?â
Morgan was silent for several moments, her hands pulling at the upholstery on her chair so hard the threads snapped. She wasnât a monster. She wasnât like Constance. She kept her messes contained. She didnât take things out on people who had done nothing wrong if she could help it. She didnât make people carry her shit for terrible reasons. And maybe sheâd been a coward in life, but she had a lot fewer fucks to give now that she was dead. And yet⌠and yet⌠Morgan bowed her head and breathed deep. âIf thatâs what it takes, then yes.â
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So Iâve realized recently that I actually really really like podcasts when my audio processing isnât acting up (thanks tma!) and was wondering what recs you have for completed podcasts. Iâm cool with basically any genre and theme, though I would appreciate a warning for tragedy. Thanks for your time!
Of course! Iâll put this one under a cut just so the length is a bit less ridiculous.
Some of my favorite completed shows are
Wolf 359 â a scifi comedy about four squabbling coworkers on a malfunctioning, isolated space station which then takes a hard right into a spectacular, heartwrenching drama. Not a tragedy, but many tears are shed when listening. Probably one of the best podcasts out there tbqh.
Ars Paradoxica â a modern physicist accidentally invents time travel, landing her back at the start of the Cold War and changing the course of history forever. The creators literally described it as âa tragedyâ and they werenât lying, although the finale is sort of hopefully bittersweet.
The Hidden Almanac â a grouchy professor in a plague doctor mask offers bite-sized pieces of history and hagiography from his fantastical world as well as gardening advice, occasionally interrupted and/or dragged off on unwilling shenanigans by his tequila-loving accidental necromancer best friend coworker. Fantasy writer/artist Ursula Vernon and her husband put this 4-minute show out three times a week for SEVEN YEARS, and itâs funny and cozy and poetic and can be found in full here, as there are too many episodes for most podcatchers to display.
Alice Isnât Dead â lesbian Americana road-trip horror. A cross-country trucker searches for her missing wife while monsters and conspiracies pursue her across the vast empty and abandoned spaces of America. Actually also exists in novel form.
The Bright Sessions â records from the office of Dr. Bright, a therapist who specializes in people with strange and secret abilities. However, her patients arenât the only ones with secrets. Personally this show never completely absorbed me like some others did, but the character writing is genuinely amazing. The story obviously also deals a lot with mental illness and some other difficult topics and content.
Our Fair City â the eight-season saga of the inhabitants of a post-apocalyptic underground city ruled over by the remnants of an insurance company, featuring mole people, lightning-harvesting sky sailors, giant ants, and a found family of mad scientists among others. Part comedy, part drama, all anticapitalist satire. You kind of have to give it a couple of seasons to find its stride (this was one of the very first shows in the podcast-based audio drama revival) but it is absolutely worth it. Disclaimer that while I am on the final season of the show I have not quite finished it yet.
Jarnsaxa Rising â a unique scifi-fantasy hybrid, in which a vengeful Norse giantess escapes imprisonment with the goal of destroying the gods and bringing about Ragnarok, only to find herself in a post-climate-change dystopian future.
Glasgow Ghost Stories â a Scottish woman begins noticing the many ghosts inhabiting the streets of her city; but the ghosts have begun to notice her too, and not all of them are friendly. Pigeons are involved.
Big Data â an odd little heist comedy about a rogue journalist investigating a spectacular crime in which the âseven keys to the internetâ are stolen, leading to a story about hacking in which no actual hacking is involved. There are two fun side notes to it: one, everything that happens in it could technically happen in real life. Two, it involves an absurd amount of cameos from other well-known podcasts (and also Taika Waititi?), which you donât need to get to follow the story but which make it kind of hilarious on a whole other level when you listen to those shows.
I Am In Eskew â a surreal, intense, disturbingly poetic horror about a man trapped in a shifting, malevolent, impossible city, and a woman on the outside trying to find him. Extremely good but I do recommend thoroughly checking the trigger warnings on this one. (Surprisingly non-tragic finale, although not a typical âhappy ending.â)
The Alexandria Archives â half comedy and half horror, in the form of a late-night radio show at Alexandria University, on the edge of North Carolinaâs Great Dismal Swamp. Half of each episode is a standalone cosmic horror story set in and around the town of Alexandria. The other half features the antics of the universityâs students, including the host MW and her friends who are definitely Canadian exchange students, and not a vampire hiding from his ex and a bunch of stranded space pirates. (A little goofy? Yes, but I love it a ton for all its faults anyway. Also, some of the short stories are genuinely terrifying.)
and also, some completed miniseries!!
The Tower â a gorgeous experimental audio drama in which a young woman decides to climb the mysterious Tower, from which no one ever returns.
Time:Bombs â a comedy by the folks who made Wolf 359 about a bomb disposal squad on New Yearâs Eve, trying to survive their leaderâs obsession with breaking a record.
They Say a Lot of Things â upon discovering that she can interact with a dropped tape recorder, the ghost of a young girl tells her story, interwoven with the stories of those who have passed through the abandoned house that she cannot leave over the years that sheâs haunted it.
Podcaster A. R. Olivieri specializes in microfiction miniseries, ranging from scifi to experimental to fantasy. (Side note, a lot of his work crosses over with the still-running scifi podcast Girl In Space, but you donât need to have listened to GIS to understand whatâs going on in his shows.)
Nymâs Nebulous Notions â a self-declared investigative journalist decides to check out a mysterious SOS signal and finds herself on a mysteriously abandoned ship â or so she thinks. Arguably a tragedy, although not necessarily in the way you might think.
Palimpsest â technically not finished, but each season of this anthology makes up a complete 10-part story, and seasons 1 and 2 are complete. Season 1 is a ghost story about a woman who is suspicious about strange happenings in her new home and her odd new neighbors. Season 2 is a turn-of-the-century dark urban fantasy about a girl who escapes her career criminal motherâs house, taking a job as the companion to what her new employer claims is an imprisoned faerie princess. (Season 3 is ongoing and is about a codebreaker who begins seeing ghosts on Londonâs streets during the Blitz.) Itâs a heartbreaking sort of show, albeit in a very beautiful and moving way.
The Details is a short piece about an office worker who goes in to negotiate for a promotion and finds himself negotiating with the devil himself instead. The number of genuinely surprising and excellent twists it packs into just 45 minutes is really fun.
The London Necropolis Railway â a really underappreciated little fantasy-mystery about a recently-dead detective who refuses to board the train scheduled to take her to the afterlife until one of its hapless employees helps her solve her supernatural murder.
Janus Descending â a scifi horror told in two intertwining perspectives, one in reverse order and one in chronological order, about two scientists who land on a remote planet to investigate the ruins of its lost civilization, only to encounter the thing that killed the former inhabitants. A fantastic story told in a really clever and unique way, but stamp a big old tragedy warning all OVER this one, although because of the structure you technically know how itâs going to end right from the start â what makes this show so good is how you get there. It will make you cry, though.
⌠and also my show, Midnight Radio, which is about lesbian romance, small towns, old radio shows, the good and bad sides of nostalgia, and ghost stories.
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2020 BeChloe (Mini)Fic Month - Chapter 3
AFTERLIFE
The Afterlife (also referred to as life after death) is the belief that the essential part of an individual's identity or the stream of consciousness continues after the death of the physical body.
Warning: Due to the nature of the prompt, there will be a character's death in this Chapter. Don't hate me.
{This picks up from Week 2's prompt "Quarantine."}
The BAs were having a full rehearsal one week before the State Acapella Championship when they were interrupted by Beca's dad.
"Dad?" Beca said upon seeing him enter the Auditorium. "What are you doing here?"
"Beca, may I speak with you for a moment?"
Beca nodded and turned to the group.
"Great job today, everyone," Beca said. "I'm calling it. Get out of here and have a great weekend."
The girls started gathering their belongings, and Beca walked over to her dad. Chloe stood watching because something seemed off with Mr. Mitchell.
"Dad, are you okay?" Beca asked, seeing her father's red-rimmed eyes. "Did something happen?"
"There's no easy way to say this," Warren said. "Beca, your grandmother passed away in her sleep last night."
"Grandma Mitchell?" Beca choked out. Warren nodded his head and wiped a tear from his cheek.
Chloe jumped when she heard a heart-wrenching sob echo around the Auditorium. Her head jerked toward the sound in time to see Beca collapse into her father's arms. Chloe put a hand to her mouth as she watched Beca sob against her father's chest. If Beca was crying, something bad happened, and Chloe's heart broke for Beca.
"What's going on?" Stacie asked, also watching Beca and her father.
"I don't know," Chloe said with tears in her eyes. "I'm going to go check on Beca."
Chloe slowly made her way over to the father and daughter.
"Mr. Mitchell, is everything okay?" she asked hesitantly.
"My mother passed away in her sleep last night," Warren said with a catch in his voice.
Chloe let out a gasp as tears filled her eyes. "Oh, my God, I'm so sorry."
"Thank you," Warren said as he gently pulled Beca back so he could look at her. "I'm going to take you home, okay?" Beca nodded. "We'll stop by the office and have you excused for next week since we have to fly to New York for the, uh, the fu-funeral."
Hearing the catch in his voice, Beca pulled her father toward her and hugged him tightly.
"Mr. Mitchell, if there's anything my family or I can do, please don't hesitate to ask."
"Thank you, Chloe," Warren said. "I appreciate your kind offer. I don't know what we need right now. We're still trying to wrap our heads around it."
"Beca?" Chloe said softly, causing the girl to look at her.
"Anything you need, call me, okay?" Chloe said.
Beca nodded her head and wiped the tears from her face. "Thanks," she mumbled. "Could you tell the girls?"
"Absolutely," Chloe responded immediately. She pulled Beca into a hug and whispered, "I'm really sorry about Grandma Mitchell. I'm going to miss her so much."
Beca nodded into Chloe's shoulder. "Me, too," Beca whispered as fresh tears fell.
~~ Afterlife ~~
Later that night, Beca had managed to get her emotions under control. Picking up her phone, she saw a few texts of condolences from the team, and it warmed her heart. She pulled up her text thread with Chloe and sent her a text asking the redhead to give her a call. It felt like only seconds before her phone was ringing and the caller ID popped up with Chloe's name. Beca answered.
"Hey, thanks for calling," Beca said.
"Are you okay?" Chloe asked softly.
"No," Beca responded honestly. "But, I will be."
"Is there something I can do?" Chloe asked.
"Yeah, that's why I wanted you to call," Beca said. "I won't be flying back to Barden until next Saturday."
"That's the day of the State Acapella Championships," Chloe said.
"I know," Beca said. "Everything has been taken care of to get you guys to Atlanta, and that's where I'll be flying into. Once I land, I'll meet you guys at the Conference Center. I just wanted to let you know."
"I"m glad you're going to be able to make it," Chloe said. "It wouldn't be the same without you."
"Don't worry," Beca said. "I'll be there." There was a brief moment of silence before Beca spoke again.
"Hey, Beale?"
"Yeah?"
"Don't let this go to your head, but I'm glad we're friends again."
Chloe let out a small gasp and tears came to her eyes. "We are?"
"Of course, we are," Beca responded with a light chuckle. "I don't cry in front of just anybody."
Chloe chuckled. "I'm glad we're friends again, too. So, um, I was going to hold rehearsals while you're gone. Is that okay?"
"I think we're more than ready," Beca said, smiling when she heard a somewhat frustrated sigh on the other end of the phone. "But, I trust you, and if you think more rehearsals are needed, go for it."
"Really?" Chloe squealed.
"Yes, really," Beca said. "I have to go. We have an early flight tomorrow. I'll try and call later."
"Okay," Chloe said. "Be safe and call me if you need anything. Oh, and send me the information on the funeral arrangements once you know them. We want to send flowers."
"Yes, ma'am," Beca said, ending the call.
~~ Afterlife ~~
Before turning in for the night, Beca set her alarm and sent a few thank you texts to her team. She laid on her bed, staring up at the ceiling and wiping the tears that started to fall again.
At some point, sleep took her into the world of her dreams, and her Grandmother Mitchell was the headliner.
"Beca," a voice called entering the murky depths of Beca's sleep. "Beca, wake up, sweetie." Beca's eyes fluttered as her brain caught on to the sound of the intrusion. "Beca, I need you to open your eyes." Beca opened her eyes to close them immediately. They opened again and closed just as quickly as she was not ready to wake up. "BECA!" Beca sat straight up in the bed, her heart pounding. She swallowed and looked around. Her eyes widened, and she scrabbled back until her back hit the headboard.
"Who-who are you?" Beca asked the figure standing at the foot of her bed.
"It's me, sweetie," the figure said. "Grandma."
Beca got on her hands and knees and slowly crawled closer to the figure. Suddenly, the figure transformed and was now a human form. A human form that Beca knew well. Tears came to Beca's eyes as she whispered, "Grandma?"
"Yes, sweetie, it's me," Sophie replied.
"But how can it be you? You're de-" Beca stopped and swallowed.
"Dead?" Sophie finished. "I know. I am."
"Then, how are you here?" Beca asked.
"I could feel your sadness and came to comfort you," Sophie said. "It's what we Grandmas do."
Beca let out a watery chuckle because it was something her grandmother always used to say to her.
Beca let out a small sob and looked at her grandmother with tears streaming down her face.
"I don't know how I'm going to feel when I walk into your house, and you're not there."
"Oh, my sweet baby," Sophie cooed. She spread her arms wide and said, "Come here."
Beca closed the distance between them and fell into her grandmother's arms.
Grandma Mitchell held Beca until her sobs turned into hiccoughs, and she calmed down. Beca pulled back and looked at her grandmother.
"How can you be hugging me?" Beca asked. "In the movies, when someone tries to hug a ghost, there's nothing there."
Sophie laughed, and Beca's heart warmed. Beca loved her grandmother's laugh.
"The Afterlife is quite surprising," Sophie said. "My body is no longer alive, but my stream of consciousness, or spirit as some call it, is alive. I can show myself in my true physical form so you can see and touch me."
"Thank you for coming to visit me,' Beca mumbled against her grandmother's shoulder.
"Don't worry, my sweet girl," Sophie said. "I'm always around and will visit you when I feel you need me to be there for you."
"I love you, grandma," Beca said, squeezing Sophie tighter.
"I love you, too," Sophie said.
~~ Afterlife ~~
Beca woke the next morning with a smile on her face, remembering the dream she had where her grandmother had visited her. She got up and took a quick shower before dressing and heading downstairs. Her dad and Sheila were drinking coffee when she walked into the kitchen. Her dad stood by the center island, staring down into his cup. He looked sad, so Beca walked over and hugged him.
"You okay, dad?" Beca asked as her father returned the hug.
"I am," Warren said. "We need to leave in about an hour for the airport. Are you packed?"
"Yeah, I packed last night," Beca said.
Warren opened his mouth as if to say something, but closed it when his phone rang. He let Beca go and answered the call.
"Hey, Matt," Warren said, answering the call from his brother.
Beca and Sheila could only hear Warren's side of the call.
"That all sounds good, Matt. Thanks for taking care of everything."
"Could you send that to me, Beca, and Sheila? We have folks here we need to share it with."
"Hm-mm," Warren said. "Hold on, I'll ask her."
Warren turned to Beca. "Matt wants to know if you'll pick out a dress for mom to be, um, buried in."
Beca nodded, and Warren got back on the phone. "She said she would do it."
"Got it. We'll see you at the airport in a few hours. I love you, too, Matt."
Warren ended the call and looked at his wife and daughter.
"Matt finalized the arrangements and is going to send them to all of us."
"That's good," Beca said. "I promised Chloe I'd send them to her."
"I have a few more things to pack," Sheila said as she stood. "I'd better get to it."
Sheila left Beca and Warren in the dining room.
"I had a dream about grandma last night," Beca said, causing Warren to look at her.
"It seemed real," Beca continued. "I hugged her and could smell her perfume."
"Jean NatĂŠ," Warren said with a chuckle. "Matt and I used to get her a bottle for every birthday and Mother's Day."
"It is her signature scent," Beca said with a soft smile.
~~ Afterlife ~~
"Uncle Matt!" Beca called out as soon as she saw the man.
Matt hurried over and grabbed his brother, Warren, in a hug. The two men stood unashamed as they held onto each other in the middle of JFK Airport. Matt pulled back from the embrace, sniffling, and wiping his nose.
"You okay, Matt?" Warren asked. "I'm sorry you had to handle everything on your own."
"Don't be," Matt said. "You know how mom is, was. She had everything planned out down to the music and flowers.
Warren chuckled. "That sounds about right."
"Come on, let's get your luggage and get you to the house," Matt said. "Before I forget, we have an appointment with her lawyer on Wednesday for the reading of the will."
"That's good," Warren said.
"How are your kids holding up?" Sheila asked Matt.
"They're doing okay," Matt responded. "I don't think they're really old enough to understand." He turned to Beca. "How are you doing, sprout?"
"I'm good," Beca said. "It won't hit me until we get to grandma's house, and she's not there."
The three older adults became quiet as they nodded, having the same feeling.
~~ Afterlife ~~
The ride to Sophie's house was quiet. Warren, Matt, and Sheila exited the car while Beca remained in her seat.
"Are you planning on sitting out here all day?" Sophie's voice startled Beca.
"Jesus!" Beca blurted out.
"Nope," Sophie said. "Just grandma is fine."
"You're scared the daylights out of me," Beca said, looking to her left to see her grandmother sitting there.
"I'm sorry," Sophie said. "Maybe I can wear a bell around my neck, so you know I'm here."
"Are you planning on popping in on me on the regular?" Beca asked.
"Maybe," Sophie said, causing Beca to grin. "I felt how anxious you were, so I thought I'd walk into the house with you."
"Is anyone else going to see you?" Beca asked. "Or will I look like I'm talking to myself?"
"They'll see me if I want them to," Sophie said. "But they don't need me as much as you do."
"Can you promise me that you'll always be there if I need you?"
"I always was and always will be," Sophie said.
Beca looked down, nodding her head. "I think I'm ready to go in."
"Let's go then," Sophie said.
Beca opened the car door and stepped out. She was surprised to see her father, Sheila, and Matt waiting for her.
"We thought we'd all go in together," Warren said as Beca joined them.
Beca smiled, and when she looked back over her shoulder, her grandmother was no longer there.
~~ Afterlife ~~
"Beca, I don't want to push you, but we need to pick out a dress so we can get it to the funeral home."
"I'll go do that now," Beca said and slowly made her way up the steps.
Beca entered her grandmother's bedroom and went to her closet. She looked through the clothes hung there and pulled out a sky blue dress. Beca smiled because it reminded her of Chloe's eyes.
"Rebecca Cooke Mitchell," Sophie's voice called out from outside the closet. "You are not having me wear that for all eternity. It makes me look like an old lady."
"You are an old lady," Beca said with a smile.
"Don't be cheeky," Sophie said. Beca could tell by her voice she was smiling. "Just because I am an old lady, doesn't mean I have to look like one."
"Okay," Beca said, hanging the dress back on the pole. She pulled out another and stepped out of the closet, holding it up for Sophie to see. "How about this one?"
Sophie smiled when she saw the dress. It was one of her favorites.
"That's the one," Sophie said.
Beca stepped out of the closet and gently laid the dress on the bed. She then chose whatever else she thought was needed and placed everything in a small bag.
"I guess that's it," Beca said, looking around at the same time realizing that she couldn't see Sophie.
It was late when Beca and her family got back from the viewing for her grandmother. She was in her room when her phone's text notification pinged. She looked to see that Chloe had texted her, asking her if she could call.
Beca placed the call the Chloe instead; Chloe immediately answered.
"I wasn't expecting you to call me," Chloe said, answering the call.
"I thought I'd save time," Beca said. "Is everything okay?"
"I was going to ask you the same thing," Chloe said. "Are you okay?"
"Yeah," Beca said. "It's been a little weird, but my grandma is helping me get through it."
"What?" Chloe asked.
"Okay, so don't be freaked out, but I've seen my grandmother. And can talk to her."
"What do you mean?" Chloe said, sounding confused. "You can feel her around you?"
"No," Beca said and let out a sigh. "That night, after I found out my grandmother had passed away, I had what I thought was a dream. My grandmother was calling my name and woke me up. When I did wake up, she was standing at the foot of my bed."
Chloe listened intently as Beca told of talking to and hugging her grandmother. And how her grandmother helped her pick out the dress she would wear for her funeral.
"I swear I'm not making this up, Chloe," Beca said.
"I believe you, Beca," Chloe said. "The next time she shows herself, tell her I said hi and that I'm going to miss her."
"You're making fun of me," Beca said, pouting.
"No, I'm not. I swear," Chloe said. "I believe that you believe your grandmother has visited you. I just don't believe in ghosts."
"She's not a ghost," Beca said. "I hugged her and didn't go through her like in the movies."
Chloe let out a small scream. "Are you okay, Chloe?" Beca asked.
"I, uh, take back everything I just said," Chloe whispered to Beca.
"Hello, Chloe," Sophie said, causing Chloe's eyes to widen.
"Grandma Mitchell?" Chloe squeaked out.
"Is my grandmother there?" Beca asked through the phone.
"Uh-huh," Chloe said, nodding her head as if Beca could see her.
"Ask why she's visiting you?"
"Wh-why are you visiting me?" Chloe asked Sophie.
"I'm not sure," Sophie said. "I can sense when Beca needs me, and I sensed it just now, only I ended up here with you instead of with Beca."
"I was, um, Beca was telling me about seeing you," Chloe said. "Only I, I didn't believe her."
"Oh," Sophie said. "Do you believe her now?"
"Yes!" Chloe said, nodding her head.
"Good," Sophie said and disappeared.
"Grandma Mitchell?" Chloe called out, reaching for the empty space where Sophie was just standing. Chloe shook her head, unable to comprehend what just happened.
"What's going on, Chloe?" Beca asked.
"She was here, but now she's...gone," Chloe said.
Beca chuckled. "Yeah, she does that. Here one minute, and gone the next. I think she knows when I need to see her and then gets pulled back once the need passes for the moment."
"My heart is racing," Chloe said with her hand on her heart. She let out a small laugh.
"Beca!" Warren's voice called from downstairs.
"Chloe, I have to go," Beca said. "My dad's calling me."
"Okay," Chloe said. "I'll talk to you later."
~~ Afterlife ~~
Beca saw Sophie several times over the next few days. Her grandmother seemed to know when Beca needed her. Either to talk, or just get a Grandma Mitchell hug.
Beca was packing on Friday night when Sophie appeared again.
"Did you come to say goodbye?" Beca asked with a smile.
"I sensed your sadness," Sophie said.
"I'm going to miss you and this place," Beca said, sitting on the edge of her bed.
"Don't worry," Sophie said. "I'll still be around."
"I just wish," Beca started and stopped. She ran a hand through her hair. "I just wish you had seen me perform with my group. We have the State Championships tomorrow, and I wish you could be there."
Sophie pulled Beca into a hug. "I'm sorry I haven't gotten to see you perform, too."
Beca sniffled, and Sophie hugged her tighter. Suddenly, Beca fell back onto the bed as her grandmother disappeared.
"Grandma?" Beca said. She frowned when her grandmother didn't reappear as she had expected she would.
~~ Afterlife ~~
The next morning, Beca's plane landed, and she texted Chloe to let her know. Chloe texted back to tell Beca their rehearsal time had been moved to two o'clock, and the girls were having lunch at the hotel.
Beca read Chloe's text and decided to head to the hotel and join the girls for lunch.
"Beca!" Chloe called out when she saw Beca walk into the hotel's restaurant.
"Hey!" Beca said as the other girls welcomed her.
Amy grabbed Beca in a bear hug, whispering, "I'm sorry about your grandma."
"Thanks, Amy," Beca said.
Beca seemed sad and looked around, hoping to see her grandmother. She got sadder when she didn't appear.
"Beca, are you okay?" Chloe asked, having seen Beca looking around.
"I don't know," Beca said softly. "I haven't seen my grandma since last night. She usually shows when I'm sad, or anxious and I've been both today. I, I think she might be gone forever."
Chloe put her arms around Beca and laid her cheek on the top of Beca's head. "I'm sorry, Beca."
"It's okay," Beca said sadly. "She said she'd always be here when I needed her." Beca let out a small sob, and tears ran down her face. "And I really need her."
Tears came to Chloe's eyes as she continued to hold Beca. After a moment or two, they separated, and Beca wiped her eyes. Chloe was grateful that the other girls didn't say anything about seeing Beca cry.
~~ Afterlife ~~
After lunch, the girls made their way to the Conference Center for their final rehearsal. Chloe stayed close to Beca, in case Beca needed her.
The rehearsal was a bit lacklusterâBeca's sadness casting a shadow over the team's enthusiasm.
Chloe spent the rest of the afternoon just sitting with Beca until it was time to return for the competition.
Chloe wanted to do something to cheer Beca up but didn't know what to do.
The Barden BAs were waiting backstage for their turn to take the stage. Beca looked around, the sadness oozing out of her when her eyes suddenly widened, and she grabbed Chloe's arm.
"She's here!" Beca said excitedly.
"Who?" Chloe said, looking around.
"My grandma," Beca said. "She's really here!"
"I don't understand," Chloe said.
"Don't you see her?" Beca asked, her eyes bright with excitement.
Chloe shook her head but couldn't help the smile that came to her face when Beca started bouncing up and down. The rest of the team looked at Beca with furrowed brows. Worried about this sudden change in Beca's demeanor.
"Barden BAs, you're up next," the stage manager told them.
The girls got excited, spurred on by Beca's sudden enthusiasm.
"Let's do this," Beca exclaimed as the emcee announced them.
Beca literally bounced out onto the stage, followed by her team. They got into position, and Beca counted down.
By the time the Barden BAs finished their set, the entire place was on their feet, clapping and cheering. Beca grabbed Chloe and spun her around.
"What has gotten into you?" Chloe asked, laughing.
"I was sad earlier because my grandma was gone," Beca said, trying to catch her breath. "But she's here. Chloe," Beca said and took a breath. "This is the first time my grandmother got to see me perform."
Chloe looked around and smiled when she saw Sophie give her a small wave from the side of the stage. Chloe waved back, and Sophie disappeared.
Chloe wiped a tear from Beca's face and softly said, "I'm so happy for you."
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I call this piece âleaving the groupchatâ
I'm starting off somewhat small - I removed myself from the groupchat. I haven't told anyone yet (and the group settings mean there will be no notification that Iâve done it, people will have to find out on their own).Â
I don't know yet the FULL extent of the backing-slowly-into-the-hedges I want to do with these people. I know, broadly speaking, that if I get invited to things from this group in the future there will be a few things I straight up say no to:Â
most get togethers at [A]âs house
any camping trips
most parties in general, esp hosted by [A], [B], [C] , or [D]
Things I might say yes to:
a concert w [B]
a boardgame night (occasional)
a park hang, bar hop, or outdoor festival (anything it's easy to bounce from)
Things I will be pleased to continue:
some kinda relationship with [C]
maybe a reconnection with [E] some day
My brotherâs advice was to leave the group chat and only explain myself to anyone who asks about it. He said leaving it would be good for gaining closure (as opposed to just turning off notifications, which I've tried many times already). From what I've told him it seems I have every reason to do so -- he did not try even for a second to talk me out of it. He said he had a similar situation where he left/was cut out of a friend group a year ago and he has had absolutely no regrets at all.Â
He also said he thinks our Dad sticks too long with people / doesn't recognize when they've become harmful to be around, so if the goal is to not be like Dad (which, yes), then recognizing when to move on from people is one way to get there.Â
I'm doing everyone a favor here (probably too aggro a thing to say)
I've been reading about people who've broken up with friends or left friend groups and a familiar refrain keeps coming up -- friendships should be with people who you trust, who uplift you, who do not leave you feeling stressed and drained. I cannot say that about this group, as a whole, anymore. At all.Â
For a long time -- years now -- I've flirted with the idea of leaving the groupchat. It hasn't been a fun groupchat. A lot of it is people posting links and videos that I'm not interested in, giving life update announcements that don't need to be given in a group setting, or posting plan-making logistics, which always end up being a little awkward when some people can participate in them and others can't (which is always the case, b/c of awkward breakups in the couples of the group, east bay vs sf commute times, and now differing covid sensibilities and vaxxed/unvaxxed status).
All of that is innocuous enough, but if it's clutter, it's clutter. And there's no reason not to remove it.Â
So what made the group good if not the groupchat? The hangs. The drugs, the alcohol, the games. The concerts, the movies, the camping trips. Since we've had a forced year without those things, I've gotten a better look at what the core of this group feels like to be in without all that -- and it sucks.
So why not just ride it out until we can hangout in person again (which will be v soon!)? I guess I'm just feeling like a spring cleaning attitude about it. Like, maybe I can spend my precious time in the afterlife hanging out with people who I can feel close with emotionally as well as physically? Maybe now that I'm in a very different phase of my life than I was when I met them (turning-30-realness) I should cultivate relationships that fulfill me where I'm at now -- people I can share exciting work news, poems, and pictures of my cat with, yes, but also people I can unravel the secrets of the universe and the pros and cons of major life choices with.
I've spent a lot of the quarantine either in solitude or staying connected to / reconnecting with friends who make me feel good. Who listen to my advice, who give me advice and encouragement in turn, who share similar interests with me, who do not call me "unique " "weird" "soooo alternative" over and over again (either in admiration or jest). Who have understood and interpreted and lived out the COVID thing in similar ways as me.Â
And look -- I don't mean people who have had the same privileges necessarily! Some of the people I've gotten closer to were just as social as the folks in this group +/or worked jobs where they had to be on the frontlines and couldn't barricade themselves quite as much as me and my husband did. But they respected our decision to take as strict a stance on this whole thing as humanly possible, did not call us "sensitive" or "conservative" at any point along the way, and when they asked us to hangout, did so in ways that felt respectful of and empathetic towards our boundaries. Itâs not that this group made different choices than I would have, itâs that they, by contrast to my other friends, treated me with judgment, derision, and disrespect for my decisions. I promise Iâve not done the same.
I'm purging a lot of things from my life right now. Leaving my toxic-ish job at the end of April. Trying to lose the last 5 lbs. Getting rid of as much clutter in the house as possible.
As I start to prepare and dream for a life outside of quarantine, I think about who are some of the first people I want to grab a drink with, go for a walk with, celebrate an occasion with. And for the most part, it's not these people.
Y'all are funny, interesting, intelligent, engaging, and a good time. But I don't feel like I belong here. And I often leave hangouts with the group feeling stressed or upset.
Moreso, in my life I feel I've gotten much harder. Cynical, crabby, pessimistic, aggressive, barbed, judgmental. Like, really had those parts of me take over. And I'm almost certain this group being my main group was a contributing factor. It's behavior that's, if not required, then encouraged to be a member here.
I thought about writing a message in the groupchat to explain myself instead of ghosting but a few things occurred to me:
9 times out of 10 when I try to be earnest or express any feelings that aren't straight up enthusiasm for something with this group, I feel ignored at best or patronized and shut down at worst.Â
given the pervading sense of devil-may-care cavalierness in this group, i figured most of you wouldn't notice/care anyway
I thought of folks like [X], [Y], and [Z] who have been in/out of this groupchat for years, all of whom have since faded away, and none of whom felt the need to say anything. Since there's a precedent, I figured I'd follow it
I'm extremely self conscious about this decision -- I'm worried it comes off as self-absorbed, self-righteous, selfish, etc. and I don't think I know a way to ensure it doesn't come off that way when trying to address it head on.
I'm kind of a coward about this kind of thing (awkward social interactions) anyway. So this is a kind of cowardly way to do it. It fits.
I've been thinking about doing this for so long that nothing anyone can say will convince me otherwise, so why invite a dialogue?
If anyone asks (which my husband assures me they won't):Â
âOh, I left the group chat a little while ago, so if you're trying to reach me, specifically, text/phone call is the best way to do so. Email works too. No shade to you or anyone in particular, I just found the energy of the group as a whole to be kind of toxic, and have so for some time now (even pre pandemic).â
Then, maybe:
âI thought about saying something but I honestly couldn't think of what to say that wouldn't come off as arrogant or dramatic or weird. Maybe it's weirder to ghost... but I never seem to accurately gauge how people in this group will react to things I do and say, and I didnât want to be misinterpreted and cause more stress. There's no good or codified way to leave a friend group, so I just did the easiest, path of least resistance way I could think of.âÂ
And if thereâs time:
âAnd that's the other thing, I didn't want to like, break up with any of you as friends. I'm not going to say no to every game night invitation or avoid people altogether IRL or anything. And I'm hoping and planning to have 1x1 or 2x2 hangs with some of yâall in the future. So I didn't want to invite any truly nasty energy between me and any of the individuals in the group. I'm just excusing myself from the overall 'zeitgeist' of the groupchat, and okay with probably getting invited to fewer outings as a result.âÂ
Or at least:
âI didnât mean to offend, I just did what I thought was best for me in a way that I hoped would cause the least amount of harm to everyone involved. And I did think long and hard about it, so at least I hope no one can say it was a completely thoughtless decision.â
I'm taking this impending re-entry into society thing as an opportunity to prioritize the relationships that have felt enriching, healthy, fruitful during it. And Iâm excited to chase down hobbies and events at work, post pandemic, with the goal of making new friends who I can be more myself with.
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Kathy Prior Comforts Alastor
Another ordinary day at the Hazbin Hotel. Having died in the 2020âs due to covid, I appeared as a watered down human, not quite a demon unless influenced by Alastorâs dark magic. Originally I was going to be transformed into an angel reminiscent of my supposed spirit animal. But Heavenâs elitism rubbed me the wrong way, thus I refused to submit to God. I was banished down to Hell, living in a cardboard box. I was soon fleeing from the exterminators not too long afterwards. If they had gotten me, Iâd either be killed or sent back to Heaven to be brainwashed as a white Exorcist. Then Alastor of all people decided to take me in and I arrived at the Hazbin Hotel. There I was good friends with Alastor, Charlie and Niffty, half convinced that they were the voice actors playing some kind of trick on me.
 Aside from my demon form that is activated by Alastorâs magic, my afterlife form wasnât very impressive. I looked like I did when I was alive, except my skin was ghostly pale, my long hair was gray and my eyes had black sclera, purple irises and white pupils. Although I didnât fit in with the other demons, I could see in the dark and my instincts were heightened.
 Itâs not a lot of fun when Alastor possesses me or when he decides to swallow me whole. Apparently, thereâs something powerful about me that allows him to heal, feel full and even get some rest. Often times, he sits me in front of a radio and has me listen to several of his favorite jazz songs. The little speakers start to glow and static buzzes in my head. His soothing voice washes over me and I find myself in a daze. My eyes glow red with moving black radio dials and my remaining thoughts are shoved to the back of my mind. Alastor soon has control of my body and mind. He calls the process âgetting tuned in.â
 I then transform into an alligator/red doe hybrid demon named Cerva. In this form, Iâm a vicious killer and cannibal who accompanies Alastor, Husk and Niffty on various missions. Using my sharp claws, teeth and some dark magic, I take down pedos, rapists, criminals or anyone that stands in the Radio Demonâs way. My scaly skin helps protect me from most attacks, though I can still be killed by angelic weapons like everyone else. When he releases control of me and I morph back, it feels like a great weight is lifted off my chest. I cannot remember what I did before.
 Like Husk and Niffty, Iâm stuck under Alastorâs contract for a while. He persuaded me to work for him at the hotel and that âItâs a dangerous world outside.â Naturally I agreed.
 Today was fairly busy. Charlie had a meet and greet event to welcome the newcomers Crymini, Mimzy and Baxter. When I wasnât greeting any guests, I helped Niffty clean the rooms, make the beds and sweep up the floors. Sometimes I would help Alastor and Niffty make tasty jambalaya (with spicy sauce) and other dishes to serve to all the clients. I wasnât very good at poker but it was still fun to play and watch as Husk skillfully won almost every game. Often, the characters would mostly talk amongst themselves, me fading into the background, being an OC. I was fine with thatâŚit was almost like watching the show I dearly loved on EarthâŚexcept now I was a part of it in a way.
 After I finished cleaning beer bottles at the Jackpot portion near the lobby, I heard Alastor and Husk talking not too far away by a pool table.
 The cat demon let out his usual grumpy sigh. âMan, what a ruckus. I just served dozens of drinks to these annoying tourists who didnât even stay. Whatâs the meaning of that?â
 âWhy Husker!â Alastor said with a laugh, âEver since our three new demons arrived and signed up for Charlieâs program, more folks are becoming curious about it. Providing them with drinks and entertainment is surely the way to go!â
 âWithout any breaks?â Husk scowled. âAnd whyâd you make me stretch my wings and do a stupid dance onstage when I got wasted earlier?â
 âIt was so funny, I had to!â he chuckled. âEven when youâre getting drunk, you can still do your new job well.â
 âIâm here to serve drinks and get my money and booze. Thatâs it. Iâm not some fucking clown you can roll into every little scheme of yours.â
 âHmmâŚmaybe you are.â
 âI donât think so. Remember Iâm only here because you bribed me with booze. But even that will only go so far.â
 âCome now, my friend, why not liven up a little!â Alastor spoke in a loud voice, making Huskâs ears flinch back. âI provided you with some resources to make your life down here moreâŚlivableâŚor rather less dead.â
 Audience laughter came from his microphone.
 Husk rolled his eyes and muttered. âYour dad jokes make you a fucking joke.â Alastor snickered. Husk seethed, âUgh great, now itâs rubbing off on me!â
 Alastor pulled Husk in close with his arm, much to the catâs disgust. âJust have some fun and follow my orders and things will go smoothly. You are my good friend after all.â
 Huskâs white furry face turned red as he hissed and shoved Alastor away. âIâm not your fucking friend! Youâre nothing but a red psycho freak I happen to unfortunately work under. If I had my way, Iâd be a rich free man who could gamble and do whatever I want! Better yet, Iâd be far away from all you morons.â
 Husk picked up a few cards and shuffled them in his hands. âI had a full house and was about to win the pot. And then you pulled me out of nowhere and placed me in this dump for your own amusement.â He pointed a claw into Alastorâs chest a few times, making him flinch a bit. âWhen ae you gonna get it past your egotistical head that I. Want. To. Be. Left. Alone?!â
 An uncomfortable silence followed. Niffty briefly looked over while she was busy dusting a bookshelf with a white feather duster.
 âLooks like our pussy catâs in his usual bad mood,â Alastor mused in his radio voice. He tilted up the corners of Huskâs mouth into a smile, which quickly fell when he let go.  âYou know I love to see that smileâŚâ
 âShut up!â Husk pounded his furry fists onto the pool table, making the colored balls rattle. âJust shut the fuck up! Iâm sick of you touching me all the time and getting into my face. Iâd say youâre lost in this ridiculous musical world of yoursâŚyou think you can do anything you want but you donât seem to be aware of whoâs right in front of you!â
 The large yellow smile remained on Alastorâs face, though his red eyes looked concerned and confused. Â
 âYouâre delusional, thinking Hell revolves around you like some sort of audience.â Huskâs eyes had faint red veins popping out. âYou may be powerful, but guess what? You canât have your way all the time. I learned that lesson the hard way. I may be in your partnership for a whileâŚâ He hiccupped, ââŚbut hereâs what I really think of youâŚâ
 Huskâs breath smelled of booze as the cat spilled out his previously hidden angry thoughts.
 âYouâre an insufferableâŚâ
 Every word was a jab to Alastorâs chestâŚ
 âEgotisticalâŚâ
 He felt the shoves of surrounding boys in a long ago lifeâŚ
 âFilthyâŚâ
The taunts of âdirty boyâ and the n wordâŚbeing forced into a tub of water, scrubbed all over roughly and feeling like he was drowningâŚ
 âImmatureâŚâ
 Authority figures looking at him in disapproval as he auditioned for various radio stationsâŚ
 âManiacalâŚâ
 Alastor slashing down his hunting knife onto a helpless victim in a snowy woodâŚ
 âHeartlessâŚâ
 Alastor dancing and flirting with pretty women but turning away when they tore desperately at his clothesâŚ
 âCouillonâŚâ
 Running away as police dogs bit and tore at his legsâŚ
 âRetard!â
 Pounding on a door in a cold empty asylum room, cold stares from the towering wardens and nurses. Words like âloonâ, âwacko,â being mouthed at him as the gray walls closed inâŚ
 A sharp record scratch pierced the air.
 A black and red gloved hand clutched at Huskâs throat. A tight grip lifted the cat several inches off the ground. He struggled to pry off Alastorâs hand, but his hold was firm. Husk struggled and gasped as he frantically tried to gulp for air. The room darkened and soon filled with radio static and floating red Voodoo symbols. Alastorâs large orbs turned pitch black, with small red dials twitching menacingly. He slowly brought Husk close to his face until they were almost nose to nose.
 He spoke in a low demonic radio voice, his mouth not moving.
 âRemember who youâre dealing with. I gave you your privileges, and I can easily take them away.â
 Just when Husk was about to pass out, he casually tossed him aside. He landed with an âoofâ onto the floor. The static and symbols vanished as Alastorâs eyes returned to their normal shade of red. Husk groaned and stood up on shaky legs. He took several deep breaths and glared.
 âGuess cats donât always land on their feet,â Alastor mused as more microphone laughter followed.
 âGet ready for another big day tomorrow!â Alastor called cheerfully to Husk as if nothing had happened. Husk flipped him a middle claw in response as he slouched away. Alastor walked on.
 âOh Husk,â Niffty called out. âDonât forget that you need another bath tomorrow. Iâll be happy to clean you all up!â
 âSuck it, shrimpy bitch!â he yelled.
 âLanguage, kitty!â
 Niffty hopped down from the bookshelf and scurried toward Alastor. He looked down at her.
 âWell hello little darling!â he greeted to the cyclops maid.
 âHello Alastor,â she beamed. âI was just finishing up my rounds for the day when I heard you and Husk talking. It sounded like arguingâŚâ
 âOh it was nothing, my dear! Just Husk in his grumpy cat mood as usual. I was trying to cheer him up.â
 âOkay,â she said. âIâm looking forward to tomorrow, so much stuff to do! Is there anything else I can do to help out, sir?â
 Alastor waved his hand, âNothing at all. You did a splendid job today.â
 âAre you sure?â she asked, her large golden eye darting back and forth. âYou know, you look pretty dirty, no offence. Perhaps you could use a nice cleanâŚâ She looked over at his staff, then stared at the area around his legs a little bit too long. âYour staff I can so easily reachâŚâ
 She extended her hand with a hungry expression.
 âHa! No.â
 Alastor instinctively stepped back, his frozen smile still on his face. He walked briskly past her without another word.
 âSee you in the morning!â she trilled with a happy wave before scurrying off.
 The room was quiet and empty.
 What in the world just happened?
 A nagging feeling spread through me as I walked in the same direction as Alastor. It was a strange urge to go and talk with him. His tall frame strolled down the hall and up a flight of stairs. I silently followed, careful to stay a distance away and out of sight. As I almost entered my room, Room 42, the feeling compelled me to wander towards Alastorâs room instead.
 His room was across from Charlieâs and Vaggieâs, not too far away from Angelâs. The black door was etched with red Voodoo symbols and had a golden deer knocker. Strangely enough, he left it slightly open. I inched closer and peered through the opening into a dim room.
 âCome in, dear.â
 The door opened wider on its own, revealing Alastor sitting in a dark red throne-like chair on a small balcony. He was facing the sunset sky, but must have sensed my presence. He had taken off his red pinstriped suit and had it neatly folded on a chair, near where his staff was. He appeared to be wearing a dark red old fashioned nightgown with slippers made of deer fur.
 In the room, there was a king-size bed with red satin sheets on it, an elegant bedside table and dresser to match. A small chandelier made of bones hung from the ceiling in the center, illuminating blood red carpets decorated with small golden eyes and antlers in rows. There was a large vanity mirror framed by round theater lights and an array of softly lit candles here and there. And of course, there were old fashioned radios all over the room in various sizes. A four-eyed deer head stared back at me from a plaque on the fancy red wallpaper. More disturbing were the various skin-stitched Voodoo dolls and skulls hanging from the ceiling.
 A cool soothing evening breeze met my face as I stepped outside into the inferno air. I sank down into another chair next to Alastor. The sky was painted a brilliant red and orange, the magenta pentagram glowing and moving above like a revolving clock.
 âI didnât mean to disturb you sirâŚâ I began. A small radio sat beside Alastor, emitting radio noises and various sound clips. Strangely they sounded almost the same every time I heard them. In fact, his habit of using his microphone for sound effectsâŚit was almost like a comfort mechanism for him.
 âWell usually at a time like this I do prefer to be alone, but since you were nearbyâŚâ
 âI justâŚwanted to make sure you were alright.â
 âIâm perfectly splendid, sweetheart, no need to worry.â
 For a millisecond, his eyes told a different story. Not only did I have better senses, I could read expressions and sense intentions better as well.
 âI believe there is more than that. I heard you guys arguing. Frankly, Husk was being a bit of a jerk.â
 Alastor waved his hand. âThatâs what he does.â
 âBut it was different this time, wasnât it?â
 Alastor just shrugged.
 âCharlie and I were talking today and we both can agree: you canât hide your feelings forever.â
 âWhatever are you talking about?â
 âI can sense that you are lonely, deep down. You want to find a place to belong but your sadistic nature makes others afraid of you. Youâre afraid to trust other people.â
 He turned to me with a deadly glare but I remained where I was. âIf youâre planning on killing me, thereâs no point as Iâm already dead. Hear me out for a second.â
 He paused and leaned back to listen.
 âIâm not saying you should reveal your sad secrets to everyone. Iâm just saying you should embrace the fact that we all have vulnerabilities and bad days. Itâs perfectly okay to cry once in a while. Perhaps your search for entertainment is more than just that. Itâs a search for your mother, your friends, a search for your true place on the stage of life.â
 âIâm never fully dressed without a smile,â he seethed with his plastic smile. âEnd of story. Since when has an audience member gave the star of the show directions?â he inquired, eyebrow raised. âYou donât know anything about me.â
 âWell perhaps you need a better script,â I added, arms folded. I stared at his long yellowed nails, his gloves off for a rare moment. âAnd serious bodily care.â
 A brief silence. Had I been anyone else, Iâd be a pile of ash.
 I continued. âHusk did have a point, though. He wanted to be left alone but you still decided to invade his space. You told Charlie that you want to see people fail, despite her not wanting to hear it. Plus, Iâd expect an evil killer like you to take joy in the fact that people run away from you in fear. But you donât like it. Because you seek something more.â
 âI donât need to hear your delusional words.â
 âIâm more observant than you think. You created me to be submissive, but also tough and smart. Itâs my duty to serve you and the hotel right now. And you bet your bottom dollar that me and your friends will try and do whatâs best for everyone.â
 More silence as we watched the sunset in deep thought. After several minutes, I turned to him and couldnât believe what I saw. I spotted a stray tear fall from Alastorâs eyeâŚand his smile slowly faded.
 I covered my mouth with my hands as I let out a soft surprised gasp.
 His look alone told me that Iâd be demon meat if I told anyone else. Fortunately, I never break my promise.
 I thought of all his behaviors I noticed and it suddenly clicked. There was the feeling again, a sense of a peculiar deep connection between me and him. And I figured out what it was.
 âAlastorâŚdo you know what autism is?â
 He gave me a perplexed look. âStop making things up.â
 âItâs a real thingâŚbut I imagine no one talked about it in your time. Autism is one of many developmental disorders that impairs socialization. Your behaviors appear to be very similar.â
 Alastor growled, teeth bared in warning. âI can assure you that Iâm perfectly talkative enough. You call me dumb and I can easilyâŚâ
 âI know because I have it too.â
 Alastorâs eye twitched. âWhat?â
 âDo any of these traits sound familiar to you? Being a nerdy child lost in your own world? Being preoccupied and very skilled in your many talents as you grew up? Never quite fitting in with your peers no matter how hard you try?â
 Nothing was heard but the sounds of radio glitches. Orange light glinted off his monocle under his right eye.
 âThose with autism are often very knowledgeable, setting their minds to something and never letting go of it. But they have a hard time seeing things from another personâs perspective. Itâs not that they are antisocial and heartless. Rather, they feel things deeplyâŚbut they donât know how to communicate properly with others around them. Some of them arenât interested in romance, either.â
 Alastor rolled his eyes. âI have shows to plan for my demonic audience. I donât have time for feelings andâŚâ
 I continued on. âYouâre content with living in your own world of radios, music and murderâŚbecause for you, it was the only way to survive and make yourself known in your previous life. Communicating through the radio, playing music, dancing and singing on stage⌠that is when you feel truly alive. Because your listeners hang onto your every word, not caring who you are on the outside.â
 His pupils grew slightly. âYouâre making assumptions. Youâre forgetting about murderâŚâ
 âBringing joy to others outweighs bringing suffering...at least thatâs how it should be. Thereâs nothing wrong with doing what you loveâŚexcept when it causes harm to others.â
 âDemons kill and eat other all the time. Surely you must know that sometimes death and torture are necessary.â
 âYou do have a good point. ButâŚIâm talking about your previous life, and why you were sent down hereâŚâ
 âI killed those racist bastards for good reasons. When you discover thereâs an afterlife full of magic, you go out of you way to make deals for power. Itâs what Iâve been doing for years. Itâs impossible to be sinless, for sinners lost their chance to ascend the moment they died on Earth!â
 âBut it doesnât have to be that way. Say we take the necessary steps to prove Heaven wrongâŚâ
 âHeheheh, there you go, sounding delusional like Charlie.â
 âJust be glad Iâm not as distrustful or hateful of men as Vaggie.â
 âAngel Dust is probably worseâŚâ
 I chuckled out loud at that. âPersonal space isnât in his vocabulary.â
 I took a breath. âLook Alastor, Iâm not saying it will be all be rainbows like Charlie claims. Iâm just saying itâs not impossible to redeem sinners. Back to the main topic: we both have autism. Your special interests are radios, entertainment, murder and dark magic.â
 Alastor made a face and shook his head. âThat term you mentioned didnât exist when I was alive,â he said. âAnyone who was considered strange or deviant were ignored at best. At worst, they were arrested, killed or thrown into asylums. If it werenât for my beloved motherâŚI wouldâve wasted away a long time ago. And despite enjoying the company of beautiful ladies, Iâve never had much interest in intimacy. My broadcasting career was my life.â
 This time I listened quietly. He continued. âIâm only telling you all this because you technically donât exist in the Hazbin timeline. And becauseâŚI can trust you enough, like Charlie and Rosie and MimzyâŚâ
 He sighed again. âLike a skilled actor, I learned not just how to present myself on the air. Thanks to my mama, I learned how to socialize and mimic others around me. It was a way for me to be confident in the face of daily disdain. Smiling became my way of lifeâŚmy survival skill. If I were to cry and appear weak, who knows what mightâve happened to me. Eventually I became famous for my broadcasting and my music all throughout Louisiana, but it still wasnât quite enough. I then found another coping mechanismâŚâ
 The aura around him grew redâŚ
 âOne that made me feel like I found my place in the world. How good it felt when I could hear their screamsâŚsee the life leave their eyes. How from the moment their bodies turned cold, I knew they could never take advantage of me and my family againâŚâ
 His black antlers arched slightly past his face. He lowered his head as static faded in and out. Here was the infamous and ferocious Radio Demon pouring out his secrets to me. I almost didnât know what to say.
 He covered his eyes with his hands, long fingers in claw shapes almost tearing at his pale gray skin. His voice broke in a record scratchâŚand this time he spoke without the radio effect, barely audible: âI miss her so much.â His fluffy ear tufts briefly drooped as he conjured the loving smiling brown face of his French Creole mother in his head.
 We sat in silence for a while. âI hope you can see her again,â I said. âButâŚyou need to have faith. Not in Charlieâs program per seâŚbut in yourself. I know change is hardâŚIâm not saying go play with dogs and use new technology. I mean, donât be afraid to explore your feelings, figure out what you truly want in your second life.â Â
 Alastorâs remaining tears sizzled off his face and his tufts lifted back up. âThatâs easy. I want to entertain others and have everyone do what I wantâŚendlessly feast on flesh and never be boredâŚâ
 âWe both know it doesnât work like that. What you want is nothing compared with what you need. You need love. Friends. The joys of music and a purpose. Instead of killing individualsâŚyou need to kill off your own barriers.â
 âEasier said than done. What if I donât want to change?â
 âYouâll either spiral downward into madness, or youâll slowly change for the better while still retaining your good qualities. If you want to see your mother in Heaven, youâre gonna have to put in some effort. I may sound like Charlie when I say this butâŚI know you can do it.â
 Alastor gradually relaxed, his antlers retreating back to their usual stumps. He soon stood up, anxious to have some space. âThank you for this lovely chat. Now Iâm off to read my scripts and go to bed for a little.â
 I stood up and followed. âHow long do you usually sleep?â
 âThirty minutes,â he shrugged. âI rest by the wall with my eyes open.â
 I gasped out loud and bared my teeth. âNot on my watch, mister. Get into bed, now!â
 âDeer donât need sleep.â
 I put my hands on my hips. âEveryone needs sleep, especially you! I promise nothing is going to happen. Your shadow will guard your room and suck the soul out of any intruder. Plus you have several friends and kingpins who are loyal to you. You want to truly be the star, Alastor? Start by taking care of yourself. You are the most important person in your life.â
 Alastor smirked. âLike I donât already know that.â
 âGood. Now rest.â
 I turned to leave before I freeze. Gathering my courage, I turned to Alastor who sat on the bed. âAlastorâŚmay I give you a hug?â
 He stared at me, taken aback. No one had ever asked him for a hug before. He almost flinched when I slowly walked toward him.
 After a moment, his face softened. âJust this once.â He leaned into my arms and chest. I got over my brief surprise by returning the embrace, my eyes closed, tears falling. I opened them and saw to my utter delight, his fluffy red and black deer tail wagging a bit! We soon parted and he wiped the tears from my face with his fingertips.
 âNow darling, donât forget to smile! Youâre never fully dressed without one.â
 I laughed through my tears. His charm worked every time. âHey, donât forget to ask people if they want to be touched before you do so. Thatâs lesson one.â
 âYouâre my servant, not my teacher,â he spoke up.
 I spread out my arms. âThis is Hell, Alastor, we can be anything. The world is a stage after all!â
 Alastor chuckled, but I sensed that he wasnât content with taking my advice any time soon. But I had tried nonetheless.
 We bid our goodnights, me feeling slightly better. Just before I closed Alastorâs door and headed for my room, his whisper of a voice floated by my ears:
 âThank you Ms. Prior. Stay tuned.â Â
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mmt2.6 ⨠canto the second ⊠đ¨âđ < re: knuckles, oâmalley, tanya ;; attn: dawson
How do so many people die? All of them, at once.
âAinât so hard to imagine, is it?â
His brows are furrowed, he canât look at Knuckles while he continues on:
âI mean, like, natural disasters. Accidents -- you know, somethinâ like -- like that time that huge office building caught fire with lotsa folks trapped inside. Shit like that, causes a lotta casualties, er- well, not when I was around, but-â
We get it, if thereâs one thing youâre actually good at itâs your job.
â... well, no use thinkinâ too hard about what exactly happened. Allâs we need to know from all that âs that Summitâs ... like Prix said, âs the place where we died. Whether it was an accident or not -- which... I dunno [Knux]. Donât really see a lot of us jumpinâ at the chance to do some weird Summit death experiment for, what, extra credit? I mean shit I might if my grades were in the shitter and I was boutta get kicked out, but --â
He clears his throat. Not exactly a fun thing to think about, but when youâre in his line of work...
âSounds more to me like- ...â
He pinches the bridge of his nose.
âWe got our memories wiped to make this whole experience more, uh... real. Authentic. It was supposed to be part of the âwork trainingâ shit, like Dola said, show us how bad this shit is.â
A pause before he turns to OâMalley, shaking his head.
âPrix said unless Sugarâs in a different department from her, she ainât workinâ with her full stop. Prix also said at the end of all this, all of us eventually go to the same place -- like, me, you, the people who died before us, but Sugar ainât workinâ to get us there. Seems weird for two people workinâ for the same, like, I dunno, afterlife company or whatever to be workinâ against each other, yeah? Sugarâs goals donât match up at all with what Prix says is supposed to happen, so I really donât think theyâre on the same side.Â
âDonât explain how she was able to get so much, uh... shit here, but Prix also mentioned, like... said somethinâ along the lines of âYouâd be surprised about the copyright laws in the afterlifeâ or whatever when we asked about the park and why itâs so shitty. Makes it feel like Sugarâs place is actually linked to the living world âcause we were able to like- watch Naruto and shit.â
A firm nod, his frown deepening at the talk of resurrection. Why? Call it a gut feeling. A neutral one. But one thatâs compelling enough to almost distract him before Lucita catches his attention.
â...Get all of us in the same place. [Chirin]âs been kinda antsy about it -- âbout what Sugar and the traitors might try to pull, âspecially if weâre all gathered up, now that Sugar knows sheâs able to pull the strings ân make it so weâre able to die.â
He shrugs his shoulders, turns to Tanya.
âNah, [Lucita]-sanâs got a point. Dawson said he wanted to bring us -- well, yâall -- here to discuss; said at least if heâd ended up killinâ Basil. But... took it kinda far, yâknow? It ainât like Basil was on the verge of death after the shock, so whyâd he have to kill him? Whyâd he have to go as far as bring it to trial? When youâd be forced into a spot where you had to vote right or get executed -- every single one of you? Or, what, is Dawson suddenly the type of moron who went ahead and dragged y'all all into this without realizing he was puttin' y'all's lives on the line?â
His eyes narrow.
âThereâs another thing. Could just be a coincidence, but âs just kinda... weird, ainât it? Sugar was always there to meet one of us when we wound up at her place, but all of a sudden sheâs got a meeting to attend to, ainât nowhere to be found when the detective shows up. The timingâs all kindsa weird if you ask me. But, eeh. âm just runninâ my mouth at this point.â
His gaze slides towards Dawson. Looking.
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