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hey yall! i just wanted to say thank you SO much for 16k views on my Rules AvA animatic!!!! i actually made a bet with one of my friends that if it got to 15k views i'd MAKE ANOTHER ONE!! and well. it hit 15k.
my next big becker-verse animatic probably going to take longer than this one since i've got a lot on my plate right now,
so in the meantime i thought i'd talk a bit about the animatic and share some of my favorite frames !!!
the animated segments are easily my favorite (obviously). that whole lead-up to the second chorus was SO FUN to draw. when i originally made this i didn't plan on animating any of it to the extent i did, i honestly was making it up as i went along
it turned out i added 3 entire animated segments which all sucked the life out of me (but look incredible). and also that part at the bridge GOD that was a nightmare to make
i wanna talk a bit about their designs since that's what people commented on the most:
it is completely intentional that second, chosen, and victim all have the same-ish hair shape. they all look alike cause they're all connected! dark looks so different because he's not a direct part of the victim->cho->sec line of succession. so he looks a bit out of place next to them LOL!
victim's hair is short in the beginning and grows out to this short ponytail, which changes the shape of his hair a LOT. this is bc over time there's a much larger gap between cho and vic (who look the most similar)
second is all round shapes and curls. he's soft and in his pjs and comfortable (for the most part). the only difference between sec and vic at the beginning is sharpness. if second straightened his hair he'd literally look identical to victim before he grew his hair out
cho's hair is a classic that i can never change, i'm obsessed with his horrible bangs. i forget to draw it a couple times in the animatic but after he befriending dark he gets another little hair spike bc he gets messier
dark. dark mfing lord. hate to love him, love to hate him. his design is pretty self explanatory, all sharp and pointy and rough and tumble. if he comes back this season i'd probably soften some of his shape's but we'll honestly have to see
the color gang all have their own stuff that goes into designs, but a lot of it is shaved off for the animatic just b/c of simplicity sake + at the time that AvA season 2 happened they hadn't gotten the full extent of their characterization appearing in AvM
if you've made it this far i'll give you a little hint: my next BIG becker-verse animation will very likely be for AvM. i have some concepts for AvA ones but i really want to give AvM attention too since i cry about it like every few months
lastly, here's some unused frames that didn't make the cut:
THANK YOU ALL SM FOR THE SUPPORT!! <3333
#if you have any questions about my animatic my askbox is always open!!#more than happy to share my process#alan becker#animator vs animation#ava#ava the chosen one#ava the dark lord#ava the second coming#ava victim#animation#my art#cooper speaks
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here's something no one asked for, my ocs when they were a bit younger! :] (more like how they were in highschool lmfao) ((not aster tho sorry my king. u did not have a highschool.))
as always, close ups and more info under the cut!! OH and i put an updated relationship chart at the very end!! it's in writing this time because i thought that would be easier (it's long.) </3 i am so sorry in advance there's a lot under this HAHA
lune:
lune was a little shit, he's very rebellious now but he was even more rebellious when he was a teenager lmfao
he would CONSTANTLY get into fights, anyone that pissed him off he did not hesitate to attack
his relationship with his parents was already bad but it quickly deteriorated at this point in time
he was relatively popular in school but uh, everyone stayed away from him or tried to be on his good side because... well yk! didn't wanna get attacked..?
also people thought he was annoying but hey at least he was good looking!
he did not know he was popular btw. like at all, no idea, still doesn't know
his grades were like... okay, not great, but not bad, and he would skip class a lot... dumbass
his nails were constantly painted different colours bc cecilia would do them often, he was also never seen without a bracelet on his right wrist
huge troublemaker (some things never change!)
he hasn't really changed since then lmao
cecilia:
she was a bit more reserved back in highschool, still nice and friendly but she had a hard time approaching others because she was nervous (and others found her a bit intimidating cause she didn't smile much) ((and she's related to lune and that guy was known for being crazy))
her and lune were known as "those rich twins"
was constantly stressing over lune because of how much he got in trouble it's not like their parents would do anything about it.
kept her hair long and undyed! she liked doing different things with her hair and would try out diffy styles a lot of the time
she liked having long hair, and randomly cut it off impulsively lmfao (3 am on a school night, she couldn't sleep and was like ok why not)
good student, wasn't always at school but she was doing well
hated going to school, couldn't tell you why, just hated it
she was really awkward as a teen, but she was trying her best
always had bracelets on, if you saw her she had a bunch on her left hand, and then just one on her right.
always had her nails done (she did them herself ^^)
would always carry a few hair ties on her in case any one needed to tie their hair
one time she tried to be cool and approached a girl who didn't have a hair tie and just dropped it in her hands and walked away (she then walked out of class bc she felt embarrassed)
she tried out a lot of different clothing styles
nox:
so, he still had a shitty sleep schedule!
hard to find, he was always somewhere, no one knew where tho
good student, did not give two shits about school though
not very memorable? he was quiet and would leave as soon as he could
every time there was a group project he would ask the teacher to work alone
didn't have any friends.
his classmates were kinda scared of him lol
would braid his hair a lot
had blue on him at all times, there will ALWAYS be blue in his outfits, whether it’s the shirt, pants, or a hair tie, he always had SOMETHING blue on him (this applies now too)
no one really knew much about him, and he liked keeping it that way
fuckass edgelord (kinda)
he was always like 5 minutes late to his first class (there was a cat that would wander around in front of the school and... he couldn't resist)
he would go see that cat every day btw. before and after school, he would also go eat lunch outside so he could see the cat (and he always brought something for it too!)
loser
cassian:
very social! had a lot of friends and was very outgoing
always doodling in class
he was rather popular! and well i guess some people didn't like that
he was known as the rich kid but people were always giving him things because he was super sweet HAHA
a really bright and helpful guy
he was usually seen with a smile on his face
it's a shame how things turned out, hm?
he would bring his shoujo manga to class and just read that (he was always sitting at the back of the classroom bc he was tall so the teachers didn't really pay attention to what he was doing)
and in the rare chance his teachers saw him doing something other than classwork they would mostly let it slide, he's a good kid, so it's fine (favouritism.)
lowkey the typical popular shoujo manga male lead (wow! just like he wanted!)
really good student too, always on top of his stuff
he had these sword earrings that he really liked, he used to wear them a lot!
always wore darker and muted colours, and liked more comfortable clothing
no one said anything but they really missed him after he left, maybe if someone helped him, things would've been different
rowan:
was completely different when he was younger
always angry, or sad, no one really knew what he looked like when he smiled
no one knew what was going on with him
but he was quiet, and didn't talk to many people, he wasn't a mean or scary kid, but people were still intimidated by him
his hair was longer and uneven, it looked like he had cut random bits and pieces
he was smart but wasn't doing so well in school
it always looked like something was stressing him out
he would stay behind after school
tense and uneasy most of the time
hair super healthy tho LMFAO (his mom would oil his hair regularly!)
he was completely different around his mom though, his source of comfort
if anyone from highschool saw him now they'd think he was a completely different person (in terms of personality, since he looks... pretty much the same)
although, in the last few months of highschool, his demeanor had changed for the better, he didn't smile much still but he looked a lot more relaxed and calm
aster: (his stuff is different because he didn't have school in his world lmfao. but here's how he was as a teenager and some other info about him!)
his hair was reallyyyyyyy long when he was still in his world (you end up cutting his hair when he came here lmfao)
he was really lonely because he was the only elf in his world and he had no company whatsoever
he ended up collecting a lot of things because he would wander around a LOT
dora the explorer has nothing on him bro
he was (and is) very curious about things, he really likes to learn
he somehow learned how to braid his own hair, would spend a lot of time doing that when he was bored
he has a horrible sense of fashion, you took him shopping once and he picked out the worst fucking outfits in existence, you're basically his personal stylist cause what the hell
he likes when you dress him up though teehee
he originally saw you in a mirror he found when wandering in the forest
he became really really curious about you and accidentally yanked you to him
he was confused but really happy
blah blah blah you end up living together, we all know the story! (if you don't, you suggested he followed you because you felt bad for him cause he was PAINFULLY lonely)
you took it upon yourself to cut his hair because it was REALLY long when you first met him, he likes having his hair long though, mourned the loss of his two front strands (he will be growing them back.)
he didn't talk to you for a few days after you cut his hair for the first time, wasn't your fault... you accidentally cut off one of the front strands and had to cut the other off to make it even
fun fact about him, his eyes glow in the dark, it can be scary at times.
oh and his ears are expressive, dunno how that works but it does! and he also never goes a day without wearing earrings! he prefers the ones he came with but doesn't mind wearing whatever as long as he has earrings haha
now for the updated relationship chart! (this whole post has been about them from a few years ago but this is their current relationships with each other!)
ROWAN -> LUNE: he’s a weirdo but i’m glad we’re friends, i can handle his craziness more than most people… probably, i’d say he’s like a brother to me, but at the same time i’d probably lose my mind if he was my brother. no idea how cecilia does it
LUNE -> ROWAN: somehow he’s gotten used to me, he’s not so bad, i guess i’d call him a friend
ROWAN -> CECILIA: she’s like a little sister to me! cute! we’re good friends :] i met her through lune, they’re close! we’re like siblings the three of us
CECILIA -> ROWAN: reliable and nice! i wonder how he’s friends with lune. also. we’re the same age?? he’s real sweet tho, and he’s kind of like a big dog? haha
ROWAN -> NOX: who? :D
NOX -> ROWAN: i’ve seen him before (around the twins) he’s close to cecilia and that other guy who she's unfortunately related to
LUNE -> CECILIA: my little sister <3 we are best buddies, i’d do anything for her, she was there with me in our hardest moments, i wouldn’t let anyone hurt her, and she wouldn’t let anyone hurt me, one of the only people i’ll listen to lmao (she’s kinda scary when she’s mad at me but it’s also kinda funny?) i like bothering her but she might kill me one day though. she hides herself a lot, i don’t know why, it’s always been like this. i wonder if it’s because of me..?
CECILIA -> LUNE: dawg you’re like two minutes older than me (won’t deny the best buddies comment) he’s a really good brother though… but tough to deal with, he’s always causing some sort of trouble, but uh, well. anyway, we’re basically best friends… his words, not mine (she’s lying) he’s crazy but he’s not a bad person..? <- would defend him with her life. he’s an interesting fella that’s for sure, i’ve known him my whole life but there’s always something new with him lmfao. sometimes he comes into my room to knock something over and then he leaves, what an odd guy.
LUNE -> NOX: cocky asshole. so annoying. go to hell already. and stay away from my sister, i don't want you plaguing her with your presence.
NOX -> LUNE: fuck you insane bastard, go die.
CECILIA -> NOX: he’s pretty sweet (??????) we’re really great friends! i didn't think we would become such good friends tbh, he didn't seem to be the social type, and i'm not very social either haha... we're pretty similar i think! i can't remember who approached who first but that's fine. also, this guy has one of the worst damn sleep schedules known to man, i worry for that man. also, him and lune hate each other, no idea why.
NOX -> CECILIA: she's a close friend, i don't usually like making friends cause they end up thinking i'm weird, i don't really care about that but... i'll admit, it's nice to have a friend. she acts really differently in front of other people than she does with me, i don't think she's realized though? it's like having a cat open up to you haha, so i won't say anything. i hate her brother though, pretentious dickhead.
CASSIAN -> CECILIA: we were kids when i met her and her brother? she’s nice… and a lot like me… we still talk, she’s a good friend, thanks for keeping me company… and thanks for not asking me too many questions either
CECILIA -> CASSIAN: oh! cass is a childhood friend! we met at some event, he’s changed a lot since then, but i guess we’re more alike now? he doesn’t come out of his house much anymore, but we still text often. sometimes i see him online really late... bro... please get some sleep.... anyway, i never got to know what happened with him, and he doesn't like talking about it either, i won't pry though, because i understand.
CASSIAN -> LUNE: he’s scary, but i guess he’s not that bad..? i talk to him too, we’re not the closest, but he’s still a friend, i text him sometimes, he’s crazier than before, he was fun to hang out with when we were young, not that i don't like him anymore, he's definitely... special
LUNE -> CASSIAN: i don’t know what happened to him, but he doesn’t leave the house anymore, he’s not bad. he texts sometimes, i don’t know why because i think he’s scared of me, no idea why tho (???) i guess he’s a childhood friend? him, ceci, and i used to hang out before… well yeah, still don't know what went down
CASSIAN -> NOX: oh… i’ve never met him. cecilia’s told me about him before, lune’s mentioned him once, they have really different opinions about him
NOX -> CASSIAN: no clue, cecilia’s mentioned him before, i think he’s friends with her and… the other one.
CASSIAN -> ROWAN: another one of lune and cecilia’s friends i think? they sure are popular. (even lune???) i dont know anything about him though
ROWAN -> CASSIAN: no idea who this guy is!
ASTER: ??? :’D
#num draws#aster posting#cassian posting#cecilia posting#lune posting#nox posting#rowan posting#yanderes#male yandere#yandere oc#yandere male#still not tagging female yandere bc im still unsure. loser. (me i mean)#oc art#digital art#yandere#original character#good lord i fucking yapped for forever.#also i feel like i said a lot of confusing shit so apologies lmfao#and im forgetting half of the stuff i wanted to write so i might add to this later </3#btw i thought the wording was confusing so im clarifying. with nox n ceci. i meant that cecilia doesn't realize that she's acting like her#real self with nox. but he's noticed cause he's just silly like that or whatever#the besties fr#i spent at least two hours trying to do all the writing for this post. not to mention that the drawings took 13 hours. i had fun tho lmfao#literally no one asked for this but me. and this is my blog so im gonna do as i please /lh /hj#wont lie i was drawing some of these and i liked these better than their current designs but that's probably bc i liked the way i drew it#...will admit i like aster's hair here more than i do normally so uh. yeah!#also rowan looks wonky as hell im sorry.#anyway if this was confusing and you have questions please feel free to ask i dont mind clearing things up </3#i know it's a lot of yapping im so so sorry </3
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well, this took much longer than it should have lol
y'know how on the last one i said i was really shit at backgrounds? yeah i had to redraw it like 50 times lol (and it wasn't helping that i accidentally put the darker red part the same layer as the light cream and didn't realize until after i had finished :'] )
anyways, masumii palette doodle. funnily enough i ended up just. using a different palette than originally planned and it made it so much easier for whatever reason. but i'm really happy with this one too! glad i could finally figure out a pose i liked :]
#shook arts#oc shiz#masumii (oc)#maaan i had other shit to do tonight lmao#ah well i can speedrun that stuff. maybe.#oh yeah commentary on the drawing. uhhhh-#lots of blood iconography with masumii. wonder why :] (the reason is very obvious)#a littel unfortunate that her hair ended up covering her neck (though that does work symbolically tbh) bc i kinda wanted her scars(?)#showing but. ah well#i was gonna put blood dripping from her hand/and or face (like the sketch i posted yesterday) too but. i forgor#and then i didn't really wanna change it so. i didn't lol#was attempting to make her pose more closed off to parallel how open takoshi's is#because that also kinda represents parts of their character really well too#like takoshi is super desperate to find/let in anyone he can truly trust and open up to about his problems#despite being very terrified of doing so#while masumii is very hesitant to let others in both because she fears getting hurt by someone/getting someone she cares about hurt (again)#and because her self esteem is so far in the gutter that she doesn't think she deserves to have anyone care about her#ok anyways now that i've spent another 30 minutes writing all of this i can finally get to the other shit i have to do lmao-
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Does anyone else hc that Nightmare can like, absorb his tentacles back into his body sometimes? Like the way Stitch does with his extra arms?
#UTDR#UTMV#Nightmare Sans#I just realised earlier I've been just kinda assuming this as fact and I don't know where it came from#cause I don't think it's canon and I can't think of seeing it anywhere else#So maybe it's just me idk#Anyway it's something I wanted to be more prevalent when I was doing the truce au comic (which if I ever work on again I'll probably restar#cause I didn't really know what I was doing and there's stuff I wanna amend)#But the idea was that at the start of their attempted truce the tentacles made Dream uncomfortable#(Not only because Nightmare often used them against him in battle but also it's something different about his brother from his#childhood memories and it was jarring to see his one constant be changed)#He didn't say anything about it but obviously Nightmare could feel it#So whenever Dream was around I would make a point of drawing him with the tentacles sucked in#It was his little unspoken effort to make the truce work. because he wanted it very badly but would rather die than admit it#(or try to figure out why)#But over the course of the truce Dream would notice and start encouraging him to have them out and be himself#Showing Nightmare a little acceptence because despite the differences that's still his brother#You ever write six times more in the tags than the actual post lol#These are the DVD extras of the post you have to go looking for these#Director's commentary of my silly little thoughts :3#Anyway thoughts?
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Replaying DAI with my beloved Ghilana Lavellan (2024 edition) <3
#her hair is supposed to be white. and i swear it looked whiter in character creator. but it's definitely light blonde lol#i could change it with the save editor like i did with her eyelash colour but#i don't really wanna mess with it#so ig shes blonde now 🤷♀️#oc: ghilana lavellan#just replayed da2 before this (i play with default femhawke but with amber eyes and no blood mark)#didn't feel like replaying dao bc i've played it so many times lol#shar.jpg#dragon age#dai#lavellan#inquistor lavellan
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i'm sure it's been said but i feel like both Raxtus and Ronodin can be argued as "the only gay kid in the family and consequently shunned/rejected" and it's like. so weird bc Mull is so Mormon he'd probably rather eat his shorts than even acknowledge the possible existence of gays but
i mean. Raxtus literally has a fairy form. he's a fairy dragon.
Ronodin was just emo lol
and they both get so thoroughly rejected and sidelined by their families their whole lives and it turns Raxtus into an awkward but basically decent guy who runs back to the approval of his family once he's performed masculinity/violence enough to be accepted, only to then realize that he's basically just being used and still not fully trusted/accepted and having to betray them to save his real friends
(who sadly are probably actually homophobic but that's ok bc they're not dragon-phobic so that works out for him)
while Ronodin's like "fuck it. chaos and murder then!" and can you really blame him? he spent his entire life trying to conform to the "right" (in this case, Light) way of life, started spending time with the outgroup and learned to question things, then was told he was "too corrupt" to remain in his home
like. the symbolism is right there.
it's so funny, because sure Raxtus isn't a bad guy, but Ronodin definitely is and he pretty much gets sent to a type of hell at the end of Dragonwatch
and while Raxtus gets kind of a happy ending, like, him becoming an effective killer in a war and being accepted by his dad for being Good At Murder in the first Fablehaven series is presented as a happy ending. if Celebrant didn't wind up being the main villain for Dragonwatch, that probably would've been the end of it! gay kid learns how to soldier and is finally accepted by his homophobic family bc he's finally aggressive enough for them to love him
(i mean i have MANY issues with Celebrant being the main villain later and the reasons he's framed as bad but like. that's a separate rant lol)
the queer reading is right there. but also it's very bad and you can tell completely unintentional. or at the very least highly repressed. idk man i don't look into Mull as a personal individual bc i doubt i'll like what i see and i don't care that much but Dragonwatch was SO MUCH MORE MORMON than Fablehaven already was and it's so weird, seeing the fingerprints of it all over.
i feel like he either has a new editor or he's been doing this for long enough and sold enough books that he has the clout to veto changes made by editors or SOMETHING, bc i feel like? he's gotten worse?? and more unfiltered?? that or something happened and he's like. even more religious than before or something idk
like fablehaven was just kinda generic/bland fantasy with some fun ideas for magic items/powers/one sentence character premises, with just a hint of sus Mormon ideology, and then Dragonwatch just went. Full Mormon.
but then there's somehow even more weirdly queer shit. like. he's repressing so hard he's approaching queer from the other side??
idk man i wish this deeply mediocre man's writing wasn't a formative piece of middle school reading, leading to me still giving more of a shit than i really should over questionable children's literature now
#i mean it seems like his wife may or may not have divorced him between the series's so maybe that had something to do with it#i didn't look too deeply into it i just kinda guessed from his about the author blurbs wording changes#also wtf was up with the weird borderline piss/humiliation kink thing in the latest candy shop war book?#like. that was. that was not funny at all if it was meant to be comedic. like the execution was SO BOTCHED if so#and if it wasn't??? it was just????? UNCOMFY???#sorry i'm tired and kind of delirious and for whatever reason this man's writing's squandered potential still haunts me#like genuinely if i ever publish original fiction there's a good chance it'll be fanfic of this with the serial numbers filed off#like 'MINE I'LL DO IT /RIGHT/ OK GIMME'#fablehaven#dragonwatch#i know ronodin is overrated and like. yeah he's not really a sexyman to me but he IS still compelling as a character#i think he's funny i wanna be his therapist#like stereotypical him lying down on a chaise longue thing#but also i reserve the right to make fun of him so like. not a very ethical therapist lol#get it all out queer boy let's get you to a gay club and find some fairies who WILL accept you#just cool it with the murder and the manipulation a bit y'know
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Don't mind me. Just adding more gray hairs on Roquefort lol. I love me some asymmetrical eyebrows 😌
#myart#Hi-fi Rush#Hi-fi Rush Kale#Hi-fi Rush Roquefort#Bruh Ik Roquefort is short but I didn't know he was THAT short lol#So uhh ignore their height difference in the second pic XD#Also look at their hands#I didn't notice Roquefort's hands in my refs lol#But I didn't wanna change it cuz his hands looks really good haha#Anyways I just had the sudden urge to draw an fictional old man <3#Hope yall like him ;)#And Kale too lol#BUT yall didn't come here for him did you?? Jk jk
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seriously, i am so sorry to anyone i have ever called brave for literally just doing the things that are required for existing lol, it's so fucking annoying
#sick posting#i have had to make a lot of changes to my thought process of how to respond to someone talking about an Illness or Disability they have#like#the problem is that it really is so well meaning when ppl say certain things#like they WANT to be supportive#they are showing extremely sincere support and compassion#and i do appreciate them for that very much#but that means there's no real way for me to contest it when it's not working#if i tell ppl to stop calling me brave or stop showing me sympathy#then i seem super ungrateful#and i don't want them to be hurt by that because i AM grateful for it#so it's really frustrating#i wish i could just mind meld with ppl so they would understand what would actually be supportive and kind#without me having to hurt their feelings or be rude#(and also of course#different people have different needs#so maybe some people really do like hearing that they're brave or tough or whatever#and so i'm always worried by talking about it ppl will see me as speaking for everyone in my situation#it's just really complicated and difficult and idk#i don't wanna deal with all that stuff#i'm just a girl(not-girl) lol#anyway alsk;hdlaksgl;h thank you to everyone for reading my vents and not taking them too seriously <3 <3 <3#i don't think anyone has called me 'brave' on here and even if u did u somehow did it in a way that didn't annoy the shit out of me#so thank you lol <3 <3 <3)#personal
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buttered noodles 💫💛🍜
#just me hi#it's just a Lot of butter cuz i don't like having pasta sauce w/ parmesan (something wrong w/ that idk hfbshv) so :3#i was thinking of putting garlic in it but idk if that would be good... do i wanna take the risk.. i mean you can't really go wrong with#garlic... Hmmmm....#//oh yea i am definitely gonna switch up my main blog theme ehe :3#and maybe my rb blog's theme too cuz i liked it when the colours were matching lol#maaaybe to blue.. i don't remember if i've ever had a blue theme so this might be the first blue theme ehe :3#i just like to have an Image for the banner so i need to figure out what i'd like that to be.. hmnmnmnmnm!#//alright you know what i'm gonna put garlic in this one second lolll#okay i put black pepper and garlic in it's not too bad :)#prolly shoulda put more salt in too cuz i'm craving it. salt <3#/having spaghetti cuz the meal is actually supposed to be eggs and i cannot have that lol#some people are upset about this! like my dad. and my brother who is making the food lmfsh#i didn't know food was being made i am innocent in this !! probably anyway#like nobody is more displeased by this than me dude. i wish people could actually like. describe what some foods taste like so that i could#actually see why they like them#but you ask and they say 'what are you talking about? it's just egg' but 'Just Egg' SUCKS dude what is Your Egg like. pretty please kfshvjg#and grapefruit? grapefuit sucks but my mom likes it and i can't understand Why#and i wanna ask what it's actually like and why she likes it but she only says 'idk it's good with salt' what does that MEAN#how does the taste change?? how would you describe it before that ? clearly it was good enough before the salt or you wouldn't have tried i#with that!! i just wanna know !!!!!#dark chocolate ?? Please ??? do you like the taste of restrained anger and resentment cuz that's what it tastes like lmao ???#Coffee ??????? i can't understand coffee without a bajillion tons of sugar (+ other things) masking the taste how do you. Deal#not even deal- Enjoy !! how are you enjoying it !!! Why !!!! and why does everyone think i'm trying to convince them it's bad when i ask#LMAO--#like i'm not trying to say it's bad i'm trying to figure out how it's good please. Please Man lmfvshjfvhgfks#okay so clearly i have thoughts on all that LMfvshgjhfs#bitter stuff sucks and i barely like sour stuff Sometimes. food is all around good though so lol 👍#//alr i'm gonna. [starts scooching away]#i am almost out of tags (rip unlimited tags i miss you so bad hfsvh <3) edit: i ran out LMFVHS ; TOODLES !!
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girl who is not going to be okay (i need to phone the gp to chase up a missing prescription)
#:)#two weeks ago i gave them a letter requesting a dosage change on the order of my hospital consultant#and they said 'oh yeah it should be ready for you in 2 or 3 working days' which didn't happen#but my regular prescription runs out in like two days time and the pharmacy hasn't received any info for almost a month#so like. my regular prescription isn't being processed and my new dosage never got dealt with so. very cool situation#do you know how Awful it feels having to make phone enquiries every single month about my meds because there's always problems#i don't wanna chew them out for not being good because my gp has a budget of 50p but like. it's updating a prescription dosage#why is this so hard for anyone to actually do effectively............#to make matters worse when i gave them the letter they said 'our other services are slow but we are still really quick with prescriptions'#like lol. lmao even#maybe they're withholding my prescription because i have bad vibes. maybe it's my destiny to just explode and die......
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Don't know why, but I decided to use these two DR bases to make some new outfits for some of those OC sprites I made a while back...plus one more! The full credit for Cherry's sash goes to this link; it's the coolest thing ever tbh
#cherry makes/repairs plushes specifically#but she'd be called the ultimate seamstress just cause it flows nicer#i mean she Can sew clothes too she just usually doesn't#man she looks weird without her ears LMAOOOOO#i don't entirely love the colour of peggy's overalls#plus there should really be more colour variation on her tools#but i was trying to keep the palette simple rip#and i didn't know what other colour to do for the overalls lmao#i did go v hard on her tho#i kinda forgot i was supposed to be doing rough sketches at that point and just went all out AKJSNVDFN#francine's outfit is unoriginal of course but it'd fit well in the setting#sanit's smock would ideally come down lower but i rly like the little manicure set on the belt and didn't wanna hide it lol#and then for alika i rly didn't want to change her fit too much#but i made it more clearly basketball themed#i'd like her to have some bracelets too but her sleeves would cover em so#anyway! i should have been sketching other things in the time it took to make these but i had fun!
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#U Have No Idea How Much I Miss Her.#i need to start actually drawinf again its been a hellish 6 months#its really easy to just fall out of the habit of it#i used to obsess over never being someone who just suddenly stopped drawing for weeks/months#it scared me. like a core part of my identity would have to change for that to happen or would be changed by that happening#and then once i didn't draw and wasn't drawing i felt like i needed something to violently change about myself to get me to start doing it#again. but i didn't need that i just drew something again and that was it. like that stretch of time didn't happen#drawing is just an activity you can choose to do or not do and there are no consequences for whatever decision you chose to take but it felt#so serious to me it is like i viewed it like death#which i was right about in a way but mostly in how death is just a thing that happens and that it wont be that sudden and insane#you will just be and then not be just like how you weren't and now are. its just like me drawing or not drawing lol#but that comic of ht papyrus by jnpie where he's looking at the puzzles he used to make and wondering if he'll ever do that again. or if he#wants to. its like that feeling. it always sticks in my mind#i have like a fear of thinking about when i will no longer care about something i care about now and its so weird when. realize i stopped#wanting to do something and caring about it and. i feel nothing on account of no longer caring about it lol. but i know that past me#is currently looking forward at me now and terrified. this is unrelated to that comic a lot but its like. thinking about how i will change#words#mine#IM NOT TAGGING THE ART bc i wanna actually finish some of these pieces tbh and like they are just the backdrop for my thoughts...#feels so hashtag tumblr to talk to yourself about some vague ass feelings or situation that no one else will look at ugh thats like#The tumblr experience. but i love reading other's personal posts and tags though..
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Tag Game
Tagged by @the-average-procrastinator
1. Are you named after anyone? Not on purpose, lol. I happen to share a name with an ancestor and my parents didn't realize it until I was like 2 days old and my grandma told them.
2. When was the last time you cried? Probably around a week ago.
3. Do you have kids? No but I'd like to adopt someday
4. What sports do you play/ have you played? I did gymnastics when I was 5 and archery when I was 13-14
5. Do you use sarcasm? Frequently
6. What is the first thing you notice about people? Usually hair or clothes. I have trouble with faces so I kind of latch onto other characteristics to tell people apart when I'm new to a group.
7. What's your eye color? Blue
8. Scary movies or happy endings? Happy endings, it bothers me when there isn't one
9. Any talents? I get a lot of compliments for writing, knitting, and being naturally good with animals, so I guess those count
10. Where were you born? Midwest United States
11. What are your hobbies? Video games, visual novels, writing, fishkeeping, knitting, comics, biking, editing videos, and reading
12. Do you have any pets? Two, technically five. I have a calico cat named Marie and a veiltail betta fish named Aurora ("Rory"). I also do roughly 80% of the work for my brother's goldfish: Cornelius, Hermione ("Hermey"), and Clarice. In theory I'm supposed to take the goldfish when my brother goes to college, but in practice I'll probably end up getting custody of them when I move out.
13. How tall are you? 5'10"
14. Favorite subject in school? free reading time I liked music, literature, and art. When I was homeschooled we did a cultural studies unit that I also really enjoyed.
15. Dream job? Author, someday. Right now I'm content with my silly little fanfics, but I have original stuff that I'd like to publish later on. I wanted to be a veterinarian for years but realistically I don't think it would be a good fit for me. I'm looking into vet tech certification instead but right now I'm working a little outside of the field to make sure its what I really want before committing to the program.
Tagging @firstfandomfangirl, @of-winter-and-summer, @return-of-the-trinidude, @manda-kat, @caitlin-snow-leopard, @redhatmeg and anyone who feels like doing a tag game
#tag games#yes the goldfish are named after rudolph characters no they were not christmas presents#they originally had *extremely* weird names until my brother decided to randomly change them one day (it wasn't christmas time then either)#it's really cute though i'll give him that#couldn't remember who seems to like these so i just grabbed a bunch of people from my notes#you can ignore this if you don't wanna do it or go ahead if you want to but didn't get tagged lol
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i had such an awful day today but luca is so cute on stream rn lol
#man. u ever get really disappointed with how ur friend acts.#like she's my best friend and how she acted and treated me today doesn't change the fact that i love and care about her#but i know she's better than this yet she does it anyways and that's what hurts the most#ik it's her depression and stress making her act out like this but i didn't deserve that#man#i thought abt texting her bf and asking him if she's actually communicating with him#but at the end of the day it's not my fault she refuses to act like an adult#she just reverted back to her hs habits and it's so frustrating. like it's been years. i thought we were past this. we SHOULD be past this#all i really wanted was an apology for her shutting me out today and making me stress bc i thought i did something wrong#instead of actually communicating and just telling me she's upset#i walked on eggshells all day today bc i didn't want to set her off#sigh#anyways#enough me dumping in public#luca's 3d streams are always so interesting i like seeing his body language and how he carries himself#he's talking abt his jobs when he was a teen lol#so cute. kithes him#he's so boyfriend today#i wanna sit on his lap and play with his hands while he tells stories abt when he was younger#sol.txt
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#hehe I really do wanna go through all their songs and lyrically pick out the ones that talk abt happiness but I was like damn that's a lot#Of songs and i don't wanna miss one so I decided to do this tierlist to kinda have that list in front of me LOL#I only put songs here that I felt like I listened to enough to rank so it's not their whole discography#(Like i need more time for sungjins album to marinate before making actual decisions abt it)#also to be continued by denimalz wasn't on this tierlist and thats genuinely like skdjdj a+/s tier song for me its so fucking gooood#it was hard chz I like diff songs for diff reasons some r more strong lyrically others musically some r so good at both it's so hard#kept changing my mind lol and feel like it could change depending on my mood#letting go reboot F tier only cuz I feel very 'looking at how they massacred my child' abt it#letting go is like the first d6 song I liked even b4 I stanned them and to this day I feel like it does so much so well I nvr understood wh#the reboot version 😭😭 i do like the new bridge but I also really really like youngks rap bridge 😔😔#just felt like all the correct musical decisions were taken out in the reboot ahh like there was so much like#song starts bare ish but then u start layering instruments it helps build it up to the climax so well but they take all of that out w the#reboot 😭😭#anyhows. now that i have a list i will do what I intended to do and compile the songs that talk abt happiness in some way or another#certain songs also surprised me for how high I put em like what is.. for instance#also ONE ?? I didn't know i felt S tier abt it lol but I guess I do.#rambles
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deja loses her mind every time i mention my ex gf. not because she hates her but because she loves her
#*something gay happens to me*#deja: 👀👀👀👀👀👀‼️#me: haha anyways *changes subject*#deja: 😫😫😫💔😭😭💔💔🤬🤬🤬💢💢💥😭😭😭🤕🤥💔💔😭😫😫😫💔💔💔#i didn't wanna type “my ex not-gf gf” it sounds rude lol#what do u call a 6 year long situationship#actually don't answer that i don't need to be roasted I KNOW I'M A RED FLAG OKAY I GET IT!!!!!!!!!!#she really likes jaclyn lmao i introduced them but deja's too nervous to talk to her bc she's cool 😭#if i mention jaclyn she starts crying in voice messages bc she wants us to get married#i'm an avoidant bitch and i will avoid anything serious like my life depends on it#so sexy who want me 😎#scarlett.txt#jaclyn if you see this close ur eyes#i don't think she's been on in years
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