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WAR WAR DOCTOR MY NUMBER ONE BABYGIRL YES YES YES WAR DOCTOR YIPPEE YIPPEEE HE I LOVE BUT NOT IN THE NAME 9F THE DOCTOR YAY YIPPE YAY!!!
#i like the war doctor a normal amount#also yknow what fuck it#i like this episode#it's not the best but it's fun#and i can dissect why i domt like it what it could've done better#and then i can go back to being like yay yippee fun times#it's a balance of it#got some good stuff got some bad stuff#a bit too much bad stuff but. whatever#episode: the name of the doctor#war doctor#doctor who#my lonely rambles
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what if i wanted to make another insane promo post?
yeah, ik, its promo time again. BUT this time around i do wanna add in the post both my cousin and niece
one thing i did get wrong, heartz is my niece, starz is my cousin! this will basically be going over what each of these 2 do (...and im also adding in a bonus competitor/promoed person, well actually 2 because I GOT A CHANNEL YIPPEE)
each channel will be seperated up so yeah lets go!
first channel:
Starzzz.andgalaxy (my actual cousin, lol) is a great yter who absolutely deserves to be celebrating more then just 170 subs! since shes actually here with me, i can let her say a lil something on the matter:
"hello! I would love to reach 200 subscribers at least, I think my hard work should not be for nothing!" <- her typing
shes very very fun (and also with this i hope all the god damn hate comments shut lol) and does very cool things such as:
Roblox videos
(comment is from me lol, we'll get there soon) For right now these are just rating videos of her avatar, but I find them very fun (plus since I play roblox if needed I can help with filming lol)! Not much to say on it cause it's not a common kind of post, so onto the next form, which is:
2. Art
As you can see, she does very cool art, this one in particular is a tutorial on how to draw bodies. Is it the best? No, but the fact she's trying makes it great! (this is also where I've seen a couple hate comments come up, so yeah, I'm trying to be mature enough to not commit violence for her upon them) She does admit this video isn't her best work, but she does A LOT of very very cool drawings! Go check them out and her channel of course! There is one thing she also posts about which I love most of all...
3. Paper Dragons!!
(the first image is her first dragon, second is her most recent i think) I don't get how these things are "paper furries", but I do know THEY ARE SICK AS FUCK. I got to see one in person and they're very cool, all with different stories! I honestly wanna ask for one but right now, I'm gonna stick with watching them.
Channel link can be found here:
(this section was finished on january first of 2024, so at the point of this being posted she wont be over here, but i had her here so yeah :D i love my cousin)
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Second channel:
Heartzzz.❤️ is my niece, and she does similar content, but still does good content! A couple of videos of Starz and Heartz are them promoting each other, so yeah. While she is on vacation and can't be here to give her reasons to subscribe to you, I certainly can!
Memes
One thing I forgot to mention my cousin doing (well, actually my cousin's section is just kinda old because it's from when she last came over, but she's back to help me again, yay!) is making memes like this. Sometimes they do involve a paper dragon, but I think they're pretty funny and/or relatable (also dragons very cool)!
2. Edits (and Undertale related things)
I'm putting these 2 in the same category just because of the example image above. While my cousin has recently started doing edits, Heartz is the only 1 of the 2 to make anything Undertale related. While the Undertale stuff comes once every blue moon it seems, that doesn't make it any less enjoyable.
I actually found in her description a run down on what she does post, so here:
Link to her channel can be found right here:
(okay ik this section was really short, again, she posts similar things to my cousin, and i didnt wanna repeat, so yeah, if you want more reason, here's what the cousin herself says: "[Heartz] is really nice, she's a good artist, and she's creative"; time i finished this section was 1/15/2024 lol)
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third channel:
Boli and gang (or as their original user is + the profile picture says, Boli the bear) is the channel belonging to 2 kids I babysit! They're pretty new to making content, but they have a promising start already! Currently, their content consists of...
Animations
One of them has really been getting into animation, posting things like ball loops and such on their account. They're very interesting to watch personally!
2. Cool places
I'm not sure if this is going to be a common theme, but there is around 3-4 videos of places like this one. I have to admit, this has to be the prettiest of them all.
3. Art (+FNAF/Five Nights at Freddy's Content)
This is another one grouped together, but because this is the first drawing related one I've seen. They're very big FNAF fans, of course leading to things like this. Is it the best? No, but they tried very hard of course, and maybe you could leave some tips for them to improve with!
(they also post memes and funny videos, but I'd rather not do repetition; FINISHED THIS ALSO ON THE 15TH LETS GOOOOOOO)
Link to their channel can be found here:
Oh, one final reason, their profile picture is super cool! Can you guess who made it? This actually provides me with the perfect transition into...
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fourth/final channel:
ITS ME!!! FINALLY I CAN STOP DOING PROPER ASS TYPING
yeah, i have a youtube now, and there's like nothing on it minus a couple videos. all of them are made back in like 2021-2022? cant really remember, but i posted them for younger me's sake. i have like a couple more to get through, but afterwards im probs gonna do a bigger variety of content! art videos, jrwi edits, animations, rambles, essays, you name it! (might even stream again on twitch if that seems what the people like lol)
you may want actual reasons to subscribe, but i currently dont have any. i can only make promises of better future content, but right now i can admit theyre shit. i dont post often, its only oc related rn, all very vague, nothing that interests most people on my blog (cause i know a lot of you are here for jrwi content, huh?). this channel, the choice to subscribe is fully up to you, im not gonna sell myself to it, im simply just saying its real.
Link to the channel is found here:
if you at all took the time to read through my part, i appreciate it, but please do actually check out the other 3. after all, you can always find me here, but you cant find the others anywhere else!
(FINISHED THE REST OF THE POST ON 1/15/24 LETS GOOOOOOOOO)
#chilling in solar lights#cheri's art findings#not my usual content#silli promo#dragon puppet#animator#support the artist#digital art#digital artist#digital artwork#digital drawing#puppeteer#just like a cool rock#idk how to tag this#just go check them out please#epic artist#silly billy goose#this will be spam reblogged someday soon#and that will be in this week#be ready guys lol#seperators may look weird#ignore it please
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tged webtoon ep 165 spoilers and thoughts below the cut that im not terribly late on this time yippee!
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what if i went up to you and stared at you like this
HAHAHAHAHAAA I LOVE THIS PANEL SO SO MUCH
ive been sending this on like all my socmeds and to all my mutuals/irls. im tormenting them with it it's just so fucking cute and silly . puppy dog eyes javier. pleading emoji. he's just so fucking silly ALKJDFLSDKF HELL I MADE IT MY DISCORD PFP ITS SO GOOFY I LOVE IT SM HAHAHA CUTE CUTE CUTE
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA
silly panels aside back to the top!
lloyd. stop hurting me oh god he looks so tired and gaunt and,,, lifeless. it HURTS seeing him like this, the life he once had just,,, stripped from him.
LIKE I WANTED TO SEE HIM WITH HIS HAIR DOWN AND MESSY BUT NOT LIKE THIS BRUH WHAT THE HELL SOB SOB SOB
the invitation oh my god. its so silly goofy but also so so personal its cute as hell its stupid looking but in the most affectionate way possible. the people of the estate really REALLY care about him and god idek if lloyd realizes that bc literally just after this, he apologizes to everyone for not being able to things for them anymore
not even able to get back up to get back to the bed GOD I FEEL SICK
but it doesnt matter anymore whether or not lloyd can still protect them, the estate has come to care for him so much , its not his protection they want they just fucking love him and he doesnt realize that i feel so fucking ill. lloyd i need you to open your eyes and look at this beautiful land, this beautiful home you've built with your own two hands. ITS NOT OVER YET PLEASE GOD ITS NOT OVER
and then lloyd without second thought chooses javier to live. because he really thinks hes just an extra getting in the way, a burden, a bug that shouldnt be there. so he thinks its fine if he, as a side character, is the one that dies SOMEONE PUNCH ME.
he looks so fucking SMALL. alone and in the dark IM GONNA EXPLODE INTO TEN BILLION PIECES. who wrote this fuckass program. SWEAR TO GOD IM COMIN DOWN TO FIX IT MYSELF GOD DAMMIT
AND THEN THE SYSTEM TEXTBOX COMING IN IM SO GRATEFUL PLEASE HELP HIM SOB SOB SOB
im super duper heartwarmed to see that whoever is running the blue textbox is on suho's side. it has never been impartial, huh,,, it just wants to see his wish come true. ooogh my heart.
lloyd looks,,, strangely peaceful here. is he like, paused rn? im not really sure what the system box is up to, but hopefully thisll delay anything from happening while javier is concocting his plan,,,
speaking of!
FATE KICKING IN LIKE TEN TIMES WORSE IS SO DAMN SCARY. THE MULTIPLE GIGATITANS OH GODDD im so fucking terrified. javier please hurry!!! he looks rlly cool on draggy here hehe
I THINK JAVIER AND ALICIAS EXCHANGE TOO IS SO FUCKING HILARIOUS. alicia, upon only seeing javier, immediately is suspicious of lloyd scheming something. she thinks the two of them are plotting again, hence the "what are you up to".
the problem is that it's just javier on this plan. there is no lloyd directing him, so javiers reaction is SO silly fun bc i. dont think he thinks of himself as being. scheming?? bc he seems SO confused at alicia's skepticism here HADLFKJSDLFKJ ITS SO FUNNY
I REALLY THINK JAVIER WAS GENUINELY A LITTLE CONFUSED AS TO WHY ALICIA WAS QUESTIONING HIM PLEAAASEEE
i think javier believes he's just going about business as usual. doing what he can to protect his lord, as he does, all the time, the usual. sure that involves getting an angel to ask the queen for the eye of summer, but that's certainly not plotting on the same scale that lloyd does. javier isnt a schemer. he just does whats necessary to protect the one he cares about the most. hence his goofy innocent puppy eyes, because its not like hes "up" to anything. idk how accurate this assessment is, so pls correct me if im wrong, but I LOVE IT A LOT HES JUST SO FUCKING DEDICATED I LOVE U JAVIER MVP!!!!!
and then raphie shows up yay!! EXCEPT HELP WHY DID HE GET SUCKED BACK IMMEDIATELY WHAT THE HELL he was so underprepared. poor guy. getting thrown around like this sob sob
ALICIA ASKING IF THIS IS SMTH JAVIER KNEW ABT OR IF THEY WERE PLANNING SOMETHING AND THEN JAVIER BEING GENUINELY FUCKING SHOCKED HELP MEEEE "maybe its not a prank...?" LMFAOOOOO
i mentioned this in the last ep post but like. again javier wears his heart on his sleeve he's so fucking protagonist its unreal. hell, not even on his sleeve, he has his heart out on his damn palm sob sob
i think he's shocked here bc he didnt expect raphaels call to play out like that, he prolly thought theyd issue it more seriously. the issue with this being so half-hearted is now alicia isnt absolutely certain that this is the will of the heavens, so she's less inclined to follow along. it doesnt help that her board of nobles (seriously why does she keep these bozos around they just keep yapping) are arguing back and forth abt whether or not to listen. this is kind of a little wrench in the smoothness of the plan... everything now hinges on alicia's whim now.
anyway two more panels javier being menacing/blunt as hell and alicia thinking on her throne,,, god they are so fucking. awesome i love them so much
anyway that is ALL! for this week! the episode felt a little bit slow to be honest, but i think that's because the events of this ep are little things that build up to whats next, so i dont mind it at all (especially since the last couple of eps have been super fast lately)! i really really enjoy this buildup and im super excited to see what happens next,,,
see yall next week! lloyd please be okay! or ill cry! like for real!
#tged#the greatest estate developer#tged spoilers#lynn misc#the greatest estate designer#lloyd frontera#javier asrahan#alicia magentano#i am absolutely procrastinating on my other work rn btw. if u see me yapping in the comments or reblogging things. TELL ME TO GET TO WORK#i have a ton of stuff due by friday morning its so so bad#it makes me so sad bc tged updates are every thursday so its hard to read the eps on time bc of this work pace </3#its ok tho. if lloyd can do it so can i!
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I have a very important character for the ask meme: Krypto. (Yappy earth dog or super pup, dealer’s choice)
YEAHHHH superpuppy for the moment but maybe ill go back and do earth krypto sometime too hehe
Headcanon A: realistic
he's made kon get incredibly good at home repairs. the supertail wagging against the back door, the overenthusiastic game of fetch that ended up destroying the farmhouse ac unit, the fly buzzing around the room that krypto didn't like so he lasered it to death (and also lasered a hole straight through the wall, but hey. he got the fly. he's a good boy.)
Headcanon B: while it may not be realistic it is hilarious
at some point he gets it in his head that he needs to check in on the people kon loves regularly. somehow this turns into him deciding that after dinner every evening, he's gotta fly to gotham and take tim on a walk. as in, he'll show up, leash in mouth, shove the handle into tim's hand, and wait impatiently for tim to go to the door and put his shoes on so krypto can lead him down the street.
tim does not get a choice in this. tim is not taking krypto for a walk. krypto is taking tim for a walk. the one time tim refuses and says he's busy, krypto simply takes him for a fly instead! yay yippee wahoo!!!
tim agrees to go for a walk the next day.
Headcanon C: heart-crushing and awful, but fun to inflict on friends
how many times do you think ma and pa woke up in the morning to find that krypto wasn't at home, only to go down and find him, curled up, muddy, and miserable, on kon's grave?
Headcanon D: unrealistic, but I will disregard canon about it because I reject canon reality and substitute my own.
i ignore prime earth being like "krypto is the generic family pet for all supers". that is kon-el's emotional support pumby dog that clark gave to him years ago. kon is his favorite and the bias is VISIBLE.
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Hi hello I am here to talk about minecraft and dreams and world travel and gem and and and *takes a deep breath*
Ok i’m good i’m fine, hey did you know your gem lore post means so much to me? I’ve been thinking about her and her connection to the end ever since that secret life episode, but you have opened my eyes, her history with the end goes back so much farther with the empires s1 dragon. How did I forget that??
And her being some type of celestial that can travel through dream makes me think about how dreams could be connected to the void and how the end is a dimension surrounded by it. Maybe that’s where all her magic and power comes from. Maybe that’s why she has so much control over her dreams. And if dreams are the way to travel, of course the void is the thing connecting worlds. All she has to do is harness the power/magic/etc and be somewhere else.
Maybe that’s why the secret keepers demanded her to be the one to open the portal. The inherent power and magic in the life series worlds might be more unstable or tricky and they knew that she could be the one to handle it properly. She had the power and the connection to the realm and to the dragon herself. And despite all that, she still came back wrong. The magic overwhelmed her, the void seeped into her skin and took her eye and arm in exchange.
And on top of all that, gem had no desire to kill the dragon. She had raised one, why would she kill another.
Anyway i’m incredibly normal about this can you tell? I am making grabby hands, please tell me about your theories about dreams and world travel. I don’t even care if it is wildly different than my ideas, I just love talking about this type of thing.
HIIIII <3 sorry I've been doing college but YIPPEEE I'm always happy to talk about worldhopper gem lore
I've always been very drawn to when minecraft creators go into the stuff about dreams that's mentioned in the end poem or working with the game aspects of minecraft in a fantastical way so when Gem started doing stuff with it I was immediately into it and looking for connections. I'm very glad you like the posts and art I've made about it because it means a lot to me too :DDD
My thoughts on world travel are kind of fluid? Like i take things as they come. Minecraft roleplay is a very "throw in whatever rules you like yay yippee fun time" thing most of the time and can change at any moment.
General thoughts I have is that each different server is a new instance of a world unless stated otherwise. These are connected by dreams and because these worlds are made up of the fabric of dreams things and people carry over. There are people born to specific worlds who've never known anything else; People with vague recollection of other worlds; And those that can travel between the worlds. The strongest connection between other worlds is held in portals and the End. Just like dimension travel, world travel needs to a focus and a doorway. The End holds narrative power. It is the start of all new dreams because it is where old dreams end.
Perhaps in this logic the reason Gem got corrupted by the portal in secret life is that the doorway was never meant to be open,the narrative of the life series never conmected to the end before. The story is meant to End instead when everyone but one person dies, so it got all wonked up. Still best for her to handle it over anyone else but not enough to not get corrupted.
#hopefully that makes sense and isn't entirely nonsensical#asks#geminitay#for context this is a gem as the portal key post
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⚰️🕰️🌃 for your two favourite ocs
YAY YIPPEEEE THANK YOUUUUU i also kinda only have. two ocs hehe but YAY i also completey forgor about this so thank you for the reminder also
⚰️ - if your character lost a loved one, what would they do? would they grieve and move on? try to bring them back? cling to their remains?
mihangel has been dead before so his feelings on a loved one dying would be. Complex. because he knows how dark and empty it is to be dead but he also doesnt know if he's remembering right. maybe the afterlife is a beautiful place & he just doesnt know b/c he got pulled back into being alive? he would mourn & try to move on but there's still that nagging feeling of 'what if they really are alone'.
strangeways can talk to ghosts by partially entering their timestream and partially pulling ghosts into the normal timestream and She Would Do This. however she'd soon discover that talking to a dead loved one is actually a Terrible way to your live your life but there would definitely be a long period where she'd Want to sulk & be miserable about it and talk to them in the ghost world, even though it takes a lot of effort for her & only the most determined souls make fully lucid ghosts. especially if they've been dead for a while & are starting to fade, she'd still try to bring them through to this world to talk even when its incredibly draining for her. someone else very close to her would have to convince her to stop. she would be the kind of person to think 'i ALWAYS have to carry this around with me & be sad about it' even though she has an extended lifespan. she would think 'in a thousand years i still have to be upset about this' even if realistically the pain would have faded by then.
more under cut cos this is going to be. long lol
🕰 - what would your character do if they were stuck in a time loop?
YAYAYYYA TIMELOOP I LOVE TIME MESSED UP NESS!!!! they both have Time Things going on hehe
mihangel would. not be coping well with that. in his backstory a Time Thing happened to him that meant that events changed and he is no longer dead, and he would probably think that this is the universe tryng to right itself & fix time by putting him in a loop or a pocket dimension of something. he would be freaking out about being stuck in a timeloop (is he aging? will he ever die? is everyone else looping to or is it only me stuck here? how do i even begin to get out?), she has anxiety which isnt helping. i think (depending how long she's there) she would go through a period of like. doing slightly odd but not actually harmful things just b/c there are significantly less consequences. go for 2am walks by herself. be slightly weird in public. climb up the side of a building and sit on the roof all day.
strangeways would go straight to the 'oh hell yeah, no consequences!!' stage where she'd think 'well if the universe doesnt sort this out in a few days i'll deal with it then, but in the mean time i'm gonna steal a tv and set a couch on fire and go drinking & go to the loudest concert possible' but there would be a deep undercurrent of The Dread. she would just think well surely this will sort itself out soon right????? as she goes out for the 173rd night in a row of wandering around in the dark looking for something interesting to do, as a distraction while she hopes the problem will go away. she'd think to herself 'oh wow i could use this to study so much' only to find that her notes have unwritten themself you know. idk maybe the room wouldnt reset but you get the idea.
🌃 - what would your character do if they were trapped in a labyrinthine city that's alive?
THEYD BOTH BE HAVING SO MUCH FUN AND ALSO BE DEEPLY UNSETTLED BY THE EXPERIENCE YIPPEE
knowing them they'd probably be there together, so. mihangel would be trying to figure out where they are & how to get where they're going & get out again without getting lost/trapped/consumed by the city/etc. probably trying not to touch the walls. he'd be more Disguested when he works out the city is Alive i think. morbidly fascinated but more wanting to just Get Out Of There. strangeways would be pushing button and picking stuff up & being like 'haha wow this is kinda creepy & cool' while trying to cover up that she's actually really unsettled by the whole thing. mihangel would be interested in Looking Around, and strangeways would want to try & communicate with the city, whether or not they can work out if thats possible.
#YAYAYAYYAYAYAYYAYYYYYYY THANK YOU FOR THE ASK :D#<3 hehe#i keep thinking hmmmm i should think about my ocs more & then. forgetting lol.#these are really good questions also good choices#thanks for the ask!!#mihangel is the character in my pfp also <3 my favourite boygirl <3#ocs
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yippee its that time again, long hc post about dalia YAY ‼️‼️ i wouldve posted this last week but a bitch has been busy working on otha projects yo 🫡🫡 im hustling atm
also i am on an absolute ROLL with these rn because its fun to hc stuff for my favs (WHICH BTW IM ALSO WRITING UP MY HCS FOR ALDRYX SO STAY TUNED FOR THAT >:3)
@beans2cheese ik youre currently lookin forward to this >:3 thank you for being patient w me its much appreciated ^_^
first and foremost we gotta get the neurodivergency outta the way bc my autistic ass loves making all my favourite characters nd,, also shes got social anxiety and depression bc i have social anxiety and depression ion make the rules
also bigender she/him dalia bc im a she/him pronoun using bigender and i said so
ive spoken about my deaf dalia hc before (AND CROW HAS A SIMILAR HC WITH TABI THAT WE TALKED ABOUT TOGETHER ON DISCORD) but turning off her hearing aid whenever noise is too overwhelming or whenever she cant be bothered to deal with people's bs
CRAZY HIGH SPICE TOLERANCE. she and ayana are the kinda people who eat ghost peppers for fun and feel literally nothing at all
chronically late to every single outing with his friends. like tell him to get there in an hour and she will use that time to nap and get ready five minutes before shes supposed to be there
taller than ayana but not by much, boots on, dalia's 5'10/11, without em then he's 5'7
competitive as fuck and will rage at you for screwing her over in board games or video games, expect to hear a plethora of curse words in both english and spanish
generally speaking too dalia has an incredibly short temper (which im pretty sure is canon???) and literally anything can set him off
she and aldryx are sparring buddies you cannot convince me otherwise, hes the one teaching dalia all these nifty tricks and such ^_^ (also shes a kickboxing pro no questions asked)
once dalia tried b-boying to impress ayana and ended up in the hospital with a dislocated shoulder and a bruised ego
🔻: "babe????? are you okay 😭"
🎧: "psshh im fine the sigma grind never dies" (said dalia as she looked away cringing at herself for flopping that so hard)
and trust me, nobody was letting her live that down
has special nicknames for all her loved ones ^_^ they're either something really sweet and sentimental or incredibly fucking stupid
emoticon user!! over text dalia loves using those cute kaomojis (trust me thats not the energy she gives off around other people especially not her close friends)
has a lot of niche interests and will reference something that either nobody knows like AT all or that is something so embarrassingly unfunny that its painful to listen to
🎧: "damn this greedler fanart goes crazy"
📼: "the WHO NOW"
she has the WORST sense of humor ever. literally anything is making this mf laugh
when dalia and ayana first started dating she made an attempt to keep up this persona of just being incredibly suave and chillgoing but the moment aya kissed her for the first time dalia just fucking melted and turned into a complete dweeb right then and there (she looks back on it and is very embarrassed)
OH AND SPEAKING OF HER AND AYA,, café or shopping dates where they just get food and wander around town together not wanting the day to end, bonus if they stay out late and theres a light display going on outside (boy im boutta make ship hcs for them now hold awn im insane)
#yeaaaah im crazy for this gal#idk bro ive been on a REAL dalia kick recently#i really like her idk why but shes so cool#IM ALSO GLAD IVE FOUND OTHER PEOPLE WHO LIKE THIS GAL JUST AS MUCH AS I DO#^_^#my art#digital artwork#fnf dalia#headcanons#fnf headcanons
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☀️ I LOVE Z
I LOVE HER SM. She's so fun, I love her paranoia and at the same time, stubbornness to give up how she sees the world, her desire to narrate it all.
ALSO I KEEP NOTICING THINGS IN HER DESIGN THAT MAKE HER LIKE A BUG AND IM LIKE HOLY SHIT
Also!! Z- Her name is Z, and she uses Z themed tags in her ask games and posts.... I don't know if the name is intentional to sound like a buzzing sound that flies make but!! but!!
Aughghuaghu biting and chewing
YEA YEA YEA YEA!!!! she sooooooooo!!! forgive me for being probalyb a bit incoherent but its like almost 1am and i have school in the morning but i wanna fuckinnnnn answer this ask before i go to bed yippee yay
her name being z isnt inherently bug-related NOR is it totally porygon-z related (its a factor but its not the sole reason lol). and while the Z-theming in her tags and posts is more related to the porygon-z than the bug thing, its a silly side effect that i think she gets a kick out of!!!!
OUGHOUGHOUGH im so in love with z's character design!!! a lot of it is based around bugs, particularly flies! aghgahgahgaghgh actually ykw lemme fuckin. rant for a moment abt z's design
putting this under cut for insect imagery!
overall color scheme inspired by common green bottle fly
her bright deep-pink glasses are reminiscent of the big, red compound eyes that flies have
Grey face mask with zigzag line down reminiscent of mandibles
Scarf that goes down behind her back meant to look like the wings of a bug
Kind of hard to tell from this reference alone, but both the backpack and the winter vest are kinda meant to look almost metallic like a bottle fly. The backpack is meant to give her silhouette more of that fly-like appearance.
Black pants and arm warmers meant to be reminiscent of fly legs. The hexagonal patterns are kinda just meant to break up the monotony of the design
BUT! the use of hexagons in particular is meant to tie into both her motifs with tech AND with the bug typing, as it alludes to the shape of honeycombs.
also its a bit hard to see on the colored version but if you look at the doodles on the side you'll notice that the strands of hair that fall to the sides of her face kinda curl into themselves a bit. this is another thing meant to tie her back to her being a bug specialist because this is something you kinda see with some of the recent bug trainers in the games. its meant to be kind of reminiscent of either bug antennae (viola) or a proboscis (katy), but i focused less on what it represents and more on the fact that it is intrinsically connected to bugs and bug type trainers. i tend to draw a lot of inspiration from character design philosophies from the games to make my own trainer characters, so seeing a pattern like this established within the games and implementing it into my own designs can help to add another layer onto the established motifs.
and last but not least...
even her shortass height is meant to tie back to bugs. bugs are small and hard to notice. she relates to them a lot. she wants to be a fly on the wall: small and hard to notice
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What drew Vaz and Crulexs to their love interests? Was there an instant connection between them, or was it more of a gradual build-up? What's their favorite things about their respective LIs?
Bonus question: Is there anything about their romances that went differently in your canon than it did in-game?
love time love time!! very on point seeing which holiday is coming up!
hmm i'll do a little doodle for each of them as well, just for fun. lost the desire to draw my boys.. sad. maybe ill do some other piece this week
everything under the cut!!
Vaz: Well. You see. To say Vaz had an easy time romancing anyone is absolutely mad men talk. Everywhere Vaz went for comfort, he either ended up being used, failure in general, or turned away for another...even before the whole, losing his memories thing.
All my durges have had a fling with Gortash. So Vaz, naturally, had a thing with Gortash for a time. But uh...well. That thing was incredibly one-sided and Gortash would use it for his own benefit. Vaz never got any pussy or kisses from him, to put it frankly. But he did do a lot of lil missions for Gortash anyways.
Vaz's second fling was with a tiefling named Levi. The two were on the nautiloid together and everything. Levi heard him out on his dark urges and ushered him into doing the Right thing instead of what the urges wanted. It was a match made in heaven! ...Until the tiefling party. Where Vaz clumsily wandered around without an idea what to do, and his dear friend Levi slipped away with Gale instead of him. The next morning he saw them kiss and he went into the seven stages of denial immediately. Both of them ended up as cellmates so...yay!
Vaz's third fling was with Halsin. It uh...didn't go too well. Vaz was pulled in by all the druidic talk and he just wanted to feel normal. He just wanted to feel like a normal druid too. But it didn't work out. They partook in one sexual encounter and it ended up with Vaz crying and a bad experience for the both of them. They didn't talk a lot after it and Vaz practically avoided everyone for days afterwards.
And finally... Vaz's last fling. The Emperor. Yeah, you can probably guess how that turned out. They both managed to get through their sexual encounter though! Vaz enjoyed being safe from his urges inside the dream world (??) with the Emperor. The Emperor enjoyed tightening their bond together so Vaz wouldn't turn on him or, really, convince Levi to turn against him. And just to exert a bit more control over Vaz, the Emperor lured several of their companions to see the aftermath. And then willed away their memories of the encounter. Only to send Vaz into a breakdown a few days later with the thoughts of 'Has he ever wiped my memory?'. He didn't go back for seconds with calamari.
The biggest departure from the original questions EVER!!!!! YIPPEE!!
Anyways, next.
Crulexs: His name is an anagram for cruel sex. This was not on purpose, but I've taken it to heart. Everything about him is related to his 'cruel sex'. He is the embodiment of toxic masculinity. And, in that toxic masculinity, certain types of people are drawn into him.
Gortash was incredibly drawn into him. I have a fic in the works (in my mind) of just how drawn into Crulexs this man was. The big burly scaly cleric who looked down on him? Yeah that got him. He had a big stupid crush on Crulexs that wouldn't go away no matter how many times he tried to crush it (ha). Thankfully, it wasn't unrequited. However he found that out in the worse way possible. With Crulexs kidnapping him and taking him into the Bhaalist Temple in order to wed the both of them together. Under the blessing of Bane as well. What's a little bit of tyranny without a forced wedding to strengthen a union? He would've stayed down in that temple if it wasn't for his bodyguard, Karlach, saving him. (This is a retelling of Persephone's Abduction because i am literally insane.)
Of course, Gortash still saw Crulexs. Just, not bound in the Bhaalist temple and having to do weird blood rituals with him. Wasn't his thing, you see. They're still married, in the Bhaalist traditional manner, whatever the fuck that means.
Unfortunately...it all had to end somehow.
After his betrayal to the hands of Orin, after his memories had all left him, Crulexs was a different man. Even Bhaal saw him differently, though he wasn't...practically looking at him. An avenger against all that was evil, Crulexs roamed the land looking for those to strike down. Along the way, he meet a variety of companions, and specifically, he met Wyll Ravengard, the man who could win his heart.
It wasn't a challenge or anything. Most of the people that knew Crulexs weren't...really wanting to kiss him. The others who did were mostly wanting him because he was..a big, burly scaly paladin. Most, however, were put off by the whole silent and toxic masc bit.
Wyll, however, saw in him a lot more than that. He saw someone with similar ideals to him, and someone who was just as devoted. He managed to spring up more...less toxic masculinity into Crulexs as well. Little poems that Wyll would write hidden in his tent. And would do his best into slipping into the silliest places that Crulexs would find them. Into his boots, into his gloves, into his bedroll. In a book he would pick up, because he picked up every book he found, and skim the pages of.
It didn't take a genius to figure out it was Wyll behind them. And the little poems cleared up some of the dark clouds of Crulexs' soul. He started to actively seek out Wyll while at camp, instead of simply staring into the fire. Began to sit with him as the nights wore on. Sometimes even slept outside his tent like the guard dog he is.
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your tactics have worked. whats milesverse sun&moon like (disintegrates from autism laser)
okay so it's mostly based on original sumo because usum makes me irrationally angry (why can't they just let the evil lady be evil) with the exception of an epilogue based on the rainbow rocket story.
okay so the story is about two twins elio and selene. elio watched a recording of the red vs blue championship fight as a little kid and ever since has been obsessed with becoming a champion himself. meanwhile selene enjoys just having fun with pokemon. when their family adopted their meowth elio kept trying to teach it how to battle while selene tried to teach the meowth how to play fetch. poor kitty was tormented by two eight year olds 💔
anyway so when their mom decides to move to alola elio was NOT happy because "hey wait a minute there's no league there!" and selene is all like like "yippee!! we're going to go swimming everyday now!! :D"
so yeah eventually they get their starters (elio picked rowlet and selene got litten) and go traveling with hau and lillie. all them except lillie are doing the island challenge but elio is treating every trial like a life or death overdramatic challenge while selene is just doing it for fun.
usually selene is the goofy one and elio is the serious one but selene is actually the one who deals with the main plot most of the time. selene and lillie have a cute little gay thing going on they pick cool looking flowers they find and give them to eachother.
i don't have a ton of ideas on how the main plot changes because i like sumo's story a lot but yeah elio becomes champion and selene gets lusamine to stop being evil. oh and also lillie gets to keep nebby.
lillie leaves to go take lusamine to rehab in kanto but before she leaves lillie and selene has the world's most dramatic tearfull goodbye between two eleven year olds. (selene and elio's mom ends up giving them phone numbers so selene can text her girlbestie while she's away)
six months later lillie comes back to alola (also lusamine too i guess) and selene and lillie go back to being girlbesties. then suddenly rainbow rocket takes over aether paradise! whoopsie!
so yeah rr rocket happens but red, blue, wally, and cynthia get involved as well. i miiight have those two guys from kalos i don't remember much of be there too but i might just replace them with serena and shauna sorry. looker and anabel probably get involved too. volo is there too i guess but he's just there to cause problems on purpose
also also green, ethan, and silver are there too. they're on a ketchum (yes i gave red and green ash's last name) family vacation or something. ethan and blue are married to silver and red respectively so they're there too. green is actually the red from the rr giovanni timeline so uh yay awkward family reunion.
so yeah milesverse sumo 👍
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Shakes like a small dog. Someee au rambles under the cut 👍
Hello. Isat eternal gales au is in my mind and it's making me a bit insane and I'm in a hell of my own creation. Just pretend this isn't eternal gales related and that this isn't missing important context from eternal gales k? Cool let's go
So I decided to fuck with some roles and timeline shenanigans a smidge. Basically, the universe has gone through three iterations, the first with comic frin and their squad, along with the king being their final boss. The island wasn't erased in this original version of reality, but the time loop was like legitimately broken in this version of reality due to the damage the King did to get access to the ability to even slightly manipulate time, as time is supposed to be Siffrin's domain. After the narrator finally noticed this mistake, they rolled back reality and tried to run it again, but wasn't able to fully get rid of comic Siffrin due to, again, time being their domain. This became a massive issue as during the reset, the narrator reworked some things, including changing most of the cast and removing the island from existence. This leads to comic Siffrin and the new Siffrin and King forgetting all about the island, and comic Siffrin being left only barely being able to hold onto any details about their old party.
This ofc, leads to a massive freak out on comic Sif's part, leading them to becoming the sort of new king figure, desperately lashing out at the universe and causing the new party to be dragged to the universe core to deal with them. This is where we get or sasasa stand in, but with the king actually being a part of the party in this reality since comic Sif got to the job first. You'd think King would be a bit of a problem here, but since comic Sif is destroying reality more than preserving it he is still adamantly opposed to their methods, even if their goals are smth he fully agrees with. Sasasa Siffrin gets stuck looping for a shit ton of time, before eventually giving up and more or less forcing the narrators hand into another reset
Seeing that comic Siffrin had basically already taken over King's domain, the narrator didn't see a need to keep King around as a role anymore. Removing him and relegating Siffrin number two to be contained within the forest that the time flower (aka the being that all three Sif's are connected to and draw their power from) is located in and having them act as a bit of an anchor point for the newest Siffrin to hopefully have a bit more control over the loops for the sake of saving time (aka all the fun quality of life features yay) and this leads into where the actual main story starts, yippee
One last fun fact! Comic Siffrin takes on the title and role of King after he too gets written out of the story, as they can still somewhat cling to the memory of him, and they're desperate to hold onto that memory for as long as they can. Oh also, due to their connection with time being much Much weaker than it used to be due to them mostly taking over King's old domain and their original domain now being stretched across 3 people, they have mostly lost the ability to remember loops, with only the vague awareness that they've been stuck fighting for a very long time. They remember that the loops exist sometimes tho, and they don't take it very well when they do
#rat rambles#stars posting#eternal gales#now for me the big question is what I do with the narrator because I cant have them be canon narrator#like that's just my oc the narrator they shouldnt be here thats so out of place for me#part of me kind of wants to go for a less personalized entity? like not a specific character and more like another natural force#or even scrap them entirely and just have the universe do the rewriting stuff itself somehow#idk Im trying to not take this au too seriously but I am failing so Ill probably figure it out at some point#eternal stars au
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oh my goddgdgd i did so much shit today not even a lot of individual things but i did also post Four Hours Ago while deep in one stop so. ive been out since like 5 i think. this is a fun time yay yippee recounting btw nothing to complain about yay :] :] im so tired tho.
we went to old navyyyy because i needed some specific shirts and my brother needed shorts for work ya know. my surgery scars are all up in my armpits so literally just having my arms down was causing discomfort/pain bc of skin to skin rubbing and also the glue/residue being annoying. so for the first time in all of history i was explicitly looking for a shirt that was snug around my arms/armpits. gasp. and i found Exactly that!!! incredible! its an athletic shirt! one that just the right size rather than the usual comfortably loose fit i go for in normal shirts. so its a stretchy soft shirt that hopefully is also good with sweat because. its Right Up In My Arms. i got 3. i also got three button downs/"hawaiian" shirt i guess?? never know how to refer to those. when does it become a hawaiian shirt. what does that even mean. but regardless i got some summery all-over print short sleeve button downs. they are awesome. one is very green with macaw-looking parrots but theyre very pink toned, also got a black with white flowers and a white one with a lot of summer fruits and crabs. i love them all sm. and then i ALSO also got a graphic tee with a photo of some california poppies because i Love those flowers so much theyre everywhere in washington (lol) i love em.
the old navy we went to was in a mall so we ended up going to a few different anime/gift type stores.. teehee... and i got THEEESSEEE THEY ARE. SO CUTE I LOVE THEM
i spent uh. 52 dollars. they werent even both $25 like tbh i would be okay with them being $25.. or maybe i just think that bc i was primed by them already costing more but idk i feel that way cant help it.. they were FOURTYYYY EACH but all the plushes were buy one get one 75% OFF?? THATS SO MUCH OFF. they got me. i could have just bought the pig but the allure of a simulated $10 stuffed animal that "would have been 40 otherwise"........ they got me -_- being aware of marketing tactics does Not make me immune to them. but look at these thangs... theyre delightful
less exciting last stop was GOCEY SHOPPINGGGGG i love grocies. but even though its a wednesday night it was so weirdly busy.. we had to get so much shit i spent $294. kill. and me and ridley were so goddamn tired and both of us are already incapacitated on some level AND we had NOTTT EATEN ANYTHING REAL TODAYYYY HELL HELL HELL so we were fighting for our lives to get everything baggded and then into tha house and THENN. THEN, THERE WAS STUFF MISSING we looked one thousand times in every bag and checked the car and it was straight GONE so we were like.. we are going to go back to the store and see if we can get this stuff back Because it was all on the receipt i pieced together that we must have left a bag at the store. so my brother took me back and i approached the self checkout attendant bc they were closest like hello... i was just here and i have some stuff missing its on the receipt.... and they were like oh yeah there was a bag left at that checkout! it had some ice cream and i was like YES its just some frozen stuff and they sent me with another employee that took us to a cart of stuff and they gave me MY EXACT BAG OF MISSING GROCIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THEY SAVED IT YAYYYAYAYAYAYAY i was literally so happy i wanted to Cry i felt Shaky i was Overwhelmed With Relief And Joy MY GOSHIES!!! it was ice cream and forzen veggies and pizza rolls and MEATBALLS I GOT FOR MY FWIEND bc they forget to get them and we GOT EM BAAVCK HELL YES
triumphant grocery rescue mission. got clothes and Touys. spent so much money like that was most of All my money. hell. but we Won
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hi moss it's tinynap for the wip ask game there's multiple i wanna know about feel free to answer one of them or multiple !
karl gets abducted by aliens yay
punznap pog
karlnap chapstick
@tinynap hi jo you have chosen well 2 of these are karlnap. but fair warning one of them is probably the weirdest one kink-wise out of all of them (its the alien one)
karl gets abducted by aliens yay: fair warning this one is kind of weird and insane and only exists because i wanted to write oviposition with karl so i was like fuck it. aliens. but then i also kind of made it more insane and gave him a pussy for no reason. we'll get there. (also uhhh tws for nonconsensual body modification and sex. because aliens)
i am so bad at summarizing things this is like the third time trying to write this out bc i kept including too much detail retelling it so i'm just gonna try and go quick. karl gets abducted by aliens and afterwards discovers that his balls are gone and been replaced by a vagina. he fingers himself to make sure it's like. real and functional. and then calls sapnap because he wants to talk to someone about it who won't judge him for being crazy. they end up masturbating on call together (they have a sort of flirting situationship that both of them vaguely acknowledge but neither have really acted on). a few days pass and he gets abducted again and an alien with a tentacle dick puts a bunch of eggs in him. he calls sapnap again and they hatch a scheme where sapnap goes to nc and they pretend karl is sick and sapnap is taking care of him, in the hopes that no one will come check on them and see karl's alien pregnancy belly. that's about as far as i've actually written but i am planning on writing karl getting abducted at least one more time to y'know like. lay the eggs/give birth. and then it somehow ends in endgame karlnap👍 sorry for having weird kinks do you still love me (joke. i do not care) also fun fact i started writing this before sapnap said he wanted to fuck an alien so now i'm thinking i have to go back and write him as being more jealous of karl getting abducted lmao
punznap pog: this one's omegaverse yippee. (pre-gnf in florida) sapnap and dream have developed a sort of friends with benefits thing because dream helps sapnap with his heats, but then uh oh, dream goes on a trip to visit family and sapnap goes into heat while he's gone. because he's so used to having an alpha during his heats he's having a hard time dealing with it, so as a last resort desperate attempt kinda thing he texts punz like "hey sorry if this is weird but if i don't get dicked down soon i feel like i'm gonna explode" and to sapnap's surprise he actually agrees to come help him out! idk they fuck a bunch and punz calls him baby a lot it's cute
karlnap chapstick: ok looking back i maybe shouldn't have included this one because i forgot how short it is and i might just rewrite the parts i already have if i ever came back to it but i still think the concept is cute so. sapnap has already thought about kissing karl, but becomes a bit obsessed with it, and tasting karl's chapstick, after he sees him applying it before a stream one day. the one little tidbit of a scene i have written involves sapnap stealing karl's chapstick while he's out of the room so he can taste it on his lips, and that's kinda as far as i got. they do kiss eventually tho (like i said i maybe would've not put this one on the list now that i'm actually looking at it like it's a bit nothingburger. like i'm pretty sure i have bullet points in my big idea document that are longer than this adfjasf whatever still kinda cute i guess)
#asks#wip game#not sfw#me getting out of bed and spending like an hour answering this first thing in the morning lmao#well. ''''first thing in the morning'''' its 2pm.
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Part 4/Final part:
"Except you don't do that anymore, do you Doctor? Don't play your spoons, don't mix your metaphors... Don't have fun. Too busy blowing up planets. Fixing up your previous mistakes. Dreary navel-gazing." YAY.
YIPPEE. HE'S A LITTLE BASTARD (the Doctor)
LMAO JOHN'S FRIENDS ARE PLAYING THE BETRAYAL GAME
Victor was the killer and Jacqueline was in love with John and etc etc. The point is no one knows each other like they thought they did.
Bye ma'am.
Doctor "I wanted to save you, wanted to give you the life you never had... the one she took away from you. do you remember when I said I used to wonder what your motives were? I eventually realized that there was no motive, no reason behind your actions, and the only results of your actions were Death. You were created by her merely to destroy."
Doctor "She came to me one night and made me an offer. She said that she would relinquish her hold over you for 10 years. For 10 years you could live a life at one with the universe instead of at odds with it."
Doctor about why he's having trouble killing him "...but I didn't expect you to have friends, and to be so normal." LMAO
Doctor standing over the Master with a knife <3
John "Then do it. Take my life. Its dark... you needn't even see the whites of my eyes."
The Doctor and John are coming to the conclusion that if the Master can feel love then he can change who he is since that wasn't apart of the Doctor's deal with Death ie. its the Master himself who is capable of love. ...I could unpack that but this isn't the time.
God she's going to be dead isn't she.
"But if Jacqueline dies, your ability to love dies, and you will become the Master once more." I... ok. Sure. We do remember he had friends and enjoyed their company. And that romantic love, if that even is what he's feeling isn't the end all... I said I wouldn't do this here. Also that sentence makes no sense for other reasons but WHATEVER.
Oh ok this is an interesting take from the Doctor.
Doctor "Don't you understand Inspector Schaeffer? Death has been using you. While she couldn't have John, she travelled the universe, snaring others in her trap. Making them her servants. You are not responsible--she is. None of us blame you." "You're innocent my friend!" "We're all innocent. We've all been pawns in her game."
While he's talking about this specific scenario, the way he says it applies to the Master as her servant as well.
Bye ma'am for real.
Now the Doctor is trying to argue that the Master was really Death's Master and she served him.
My friend is back <3 the Master <3
Doctor "That's... that's what I tried to subdue, to take away..."
Master "Subdue? Take away? You wanted me neutered. You had neither the courage nor the good sense to stop me forever, so instead you imprisoned me in Perfugum. Imprisoned me in a lifestyle that is the opposite of all that I hold important. All that matters." Yeah! Because something's wrong with him <3
Doctor "And I want me old friend back, not my old enemy." There is something wrong with you <3
Ok the Doctor is making a deal with Death (again) to rewind time and give John a choice in what happens. Which is to say. Erase this bit of his memory and deny the Master's existence (again).
YIPPEE Death is telling the Doctor that he was the real murderer <3
"You weren't acting has his friend all those years ago when you made that deal with me." and also, about John/the Master, "This poor creature didn't kill Torvic."
"You could live with the guilt and the torment and let it at eat you, until you became mine forever--or, you could be free and give your closest friend to me. And can you remember what you said? 'Take him.'"
Ohh John heard the Doctor and Death. The Doctor is apologizing. And John doesn't blame him. "You were a child."
Ohh... giving John the choice to keep being Doctor John Smith and give the Doctor (Or Victor? She said "poor creature" again) to Death... But he's going to kill Victor and save Jacqueline instead.
"Do you think we would have stayed friends, if it weren't for Death?" "I can't think of anyone else I'd rather be friends with than you..."
About the Master "Whether I'm motivated by guilt or not, I won't rest until I find him and bring him back to life."
Death "I've seen inside your head. I know your future. It's not too late to join me, you know."
ALRIGHT It's over. Definitely worth a listen if you're a thoschei fan, even if it takes until part two for the Doctor to appear and everyone is using alias's until part three.
Ok, going to finally listen to the Torvic rock murder audio.
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Touma and Tsurugi
Aight, so. I have had this post sitting in my drafts for AGES, contemplating whether I should even post it or not, and... I think I will.
Time to talk a bit about what is probably the most controversial character in Servamp, outside of a certain yippee ki-yay motherfucker. I’m partially writing this as part of my own means of moving forward, so forgive me if this seems disjointed or spacey. Unlike my other posts, which are written in one sitting, this one’s going to be strewn together over the course of multiple days. Formatting might be a little wonky too because of that, especially since I haven’t been feeling at 100% these last few days.
Anyway! Let’s hop into it! In usual Kat format, this probably won’t make much sense! Preemptive warning for all the usual stuff that comes parcel and package with Touma and Tsurugi. Child abuse, neglect, PTSD, you know. All that... Fun stuff... Not all of these are mentioned or even implied but... Yeah. Just in case. Under the cut because it is Very Long.
Gonna also preface this by saying that I am not, by any means, excusing Touma’s actions or behavior. I’m taking him to task today and tearing the dude apart because he’s such a well crafted depiction of how abusers can love the people they hurt, and how they can be sympathetic because they are human, while still being awful, and I want more people to appreciate that. You don’t have to like him by any means. Lord knows I don’t.
But it’s also disingenuous to write him off as a villain hellbent on hurting others for the sake of hurting, especially when that’s exactly what he wants people to think of him.
Touma’s cruelty and his stubborn refusal to rely on anyone but himself is absolutely a defense mechanism meant to protect himself from those with seemingly kind intentions. The man grew up in an incredibly abusive household, where physical and emotional abuse was the norm. Like a hedgehog, he spikes himself up, lashes out at those around him with his words, digging into any weak point he can manage to find because if he doesn’t let anyone in, if he keeps the curtains closed shut, he will be safe, he will be safe, no one will ever have the power to hurt him again.
Like, no healthy person acts like that. He wants people to think he’s vile. He wants people to hate him. He’s, in his own words, “a villain with a pedigree.”
And then there’s his relationship with Tsurugi, and how that plays out. Despite how awfully he’s been treated, Tsurugi... Wants to stay with him. Not because he can’t imagine any other way of existing. Oh, he knows it’s there. He can leave any time he wants to. If he gave even the slightest of inklings that he wanted out from under Touma’s thumb... Junichiro and Yumikage would grab him and go. We even see Yumi offer within canon to pay off all of Tsurugi’s debts, which are... The thing tying him to Touma the most, from an outsider’s perspective.
He wants to stay because... Touma is his family. Because if he’s a godawful person who abused the hell out of him... He’s still his savior and someone he cares for deeply. Even when, by all rights, he’d be better off kicking him to the curb.
Truth be told, back when we all thought Touma was dead, I was actually really disappointed in that particular story decision. It seemed like such a copout way to deal with him as a character! Like, having the abuser sacrifice their life to save their victim as one final act of grand redemption and proof that they were a “good person” all along... Fuck off with that! I want Touma to live. I want him to live and grow and become better than he was, but to always know, in the back of his mind, what he has done and who he has hurt and how he made someone he loves suffer.
And I’m glad that we’ve already seen a tiny glimpse of change in him, when he removes Tsurugi’s collar. He sets him free. And that made me so happy.
Going to get a little Too Real with y’all right now, but I... Spent the majority of my formative years in an abusive home. I’ll spare you the details, but my mother and step-father were not... Good people. I met with my mother again when I was 13, and I was ecstatic, because that’s my mom! She was my mom, and I loved her. Less than a year later, though... She vanished. Promised she would only be gone for a year and then... Nothing.
I was fine with that. I was hurt, but I could live with it, because she had already abandoned me before. What I couldn’t forgive, though, what I couldn’t overlook, was her doing that to my little sister. At least, I thought I couldn’t... If I’m honest with myself? I know that, if she ever came back into my life, I’d hug her neck and cry and tell her how much I missed her, and beg her not to leave again.
The story of Touma and Tsurugi... Is one that resonates with me on a very deep, very personal level.
I want Tsurugi to get the happy ending, and the happy family, I know will never be available to me in the form I want it to be.
I want Touma to grow, and to heal, and to overcome the hand life has dealt him and that he felt he had no other choice but to play with.
I could have easily become someone like Touma. Instead I am like Tsurugi, because I had people who loved me and wanted me to thrive despite my circumstances.
I talk a lot about this series, go so in depth with it and its characters, love it and this fandom and the people I have met through it so much because it... Has helped me grow, and it has helped me heal.
Which is fantastic! Because Servamp, at its core, is a story of healing. Of learning to let go of the past and move on towards a brighter future. It doesn't mean you have to forget where you came from... Just that your past doesn’t define you. There's always time to change.
Not even just with Touma and Tsurugi.
With Shuuhei and Sham. With Lust pair. With Lawless. With Kuro. With Sakuya. Even... With Mahiru. Every single time... There's something in their past holding them down and hurting them so terribly... And they can't grow as a person until they deal with it.
Servamp has helped me deal with mine. Thank you so much, everyone.
#kat's katerwauling#servamp#Touma Taishi#tsurugi kamiya#taishi touma#kamiya tsurugi#servamp meta#just a lil tho#just a bit#vent-ish?#kat's meow#this got very personal towards the end and i apologize for that
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SPN 6X18 Frontierland
I'm sorry, what the FUCk?
ooo good old fashioned showdown
DEAN?
what
oh that's a FUN OPENING CREDIT THOUGH
48 hours and 150 years later ahahaha
see no one talks about this but it looks fun so I'm scared
ah yes using Samuel's old library
ooo old photos
ah yes Research
phoenix
aww Sam laughed at Dean's quip
oh my god Samuel Colt's journal
aww DEAN'S SO EXCITED
"get your own"
"we'll star trek IV this bitch" SIR YOU'RE SUCH A NERD
OH MY GOD WHY DOES HE KNOW IT SO WELL
not Cas??
ah he sent a PA
please do not be weird about it
goddammit
no you are not his friend
yeah their relationship with Cas is kinda :(
aw Cas is here
"um about your plan" sHAHHA
"a series of partial differential equations" AHAHAHA
yeah ok fine a ticking time clock that's standard
DEAN IS SO EXCITED
oh my god he does have a fetish
HE had a crush on clint eastwood
DEAN IS HAVING SO MUCH FUN
THIS IS SO CUTE
that zoom in on the clock makes me sad Something's gonna happen
what the hell is happening to cas
ok so I catch up and then we go to the iconic man who would be king
tell me what happened
"you know what that is" *sam begins to bitch* "-Authenticity"
he's SO HAPPY
Sam actually doesn't do well when he's thrust into something else, Dean does. Dean wants escape, Sam wants control
ah
ah jeez
aw Sammy Colt
aw he was so happy about his blanket
HE INTRODUCES HIMSELF AS CLINT EASTWOOD
WALKER TEXAS RANGER
SADFIAHSDFAPSI AHAAHAHAHH
AHAHAAHAHAHAHAAHAH
AHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAA
MAN JUST WANTS TO PLAY OUT HIS FANTASIES
Spaghetti westerns were made in fucking italy dean of course they're not accurate
Sam smiling is also nice to see
the beauty standards were a lil bit different back then mate
that implication is Creepy
the sarsaparilla as a joke went the wrong way huh
...he's in a charred husk?
ah of course, monsters exist back then too
ah the person who got hanged
so more than just to set the tone, was also a part of the plot
"I love posse" AHAHAHAH
"make that into a t shirt"
very clever guys
AHAHA GO RIDE HORSES
ah yes left side
"that poor horse" AHAHAH
OO THE NICE SHOT
ah the horse knows
what makes a pheonix
what did he do?
WHY DID SHE GO STRAIGHT TO MURDER
HE KILLED HER?
oh no not the angel wing death shots
like those are so cool but Cas :(
noooo CASSS
AW CAS HAS HUMAN FRIENDS HE CAN GO TO
HE JUST COLLAPSES INTO BOBBY :((((
...dEan
Black trencoat
Dean
DEAN
here you get to be sheriff now
o H h h that's the opening scene
ah shti the dmeons
and devil's gate
mans had NO chill
he was so proud of that hat shot
I liked that hat shot
he's so excited
ahaha gank didn't exist as a slang term back then
Dean convinces the other bit of bait
oh my god and hunter doesn't exist as a term either
HIS PHONE AS PROOF OF 2011 OH
damn Sam just STRAIGHT up plays the future card
"there's no getting out" oop
"oh, that gun" heh
oh he's lying
heh Sam DEDUCED the demons :)
ah a soul
I LOVE BOBBY
ope there's the ghost
Iron?
ah he was going for his wife
and he killed his wife
man didn't die because monster
"so I gotta kill you" come on Dean have you learned nothing
"whoa I should have seen that coming"
aw Bobby
the SHOTS AHAHAAH
ABSOLUTELY NO HESITATION
YEAHHH
yes it's a problem it romanticizes violence I don't care
"yippee kay yay mother-"
no
GODDAMMIT
both Bobby and Cas are EXHAUSTED
COME THRUUU SAMUELLLLL
HOLY SHITTTT
they're all so sad and then it's the burnt up phone
thingamajig
THEY GOT IT
OH MY GOD
AHAHAHAAH
SOULONOSCOPY
this was GREAT ok
1. BOTH DEAN AND SAM GOT THEIR LITTLE MOMENTS. Dean with the iron and the human connections, Sam with the sulfur. Also, their difference to being in the past. Sam wanted to get the job done, he wasn't happy, but he impressed Samuel Colt with his hunting ability. He played up from the future, he was business first, and he wants out of hunting only when he's in control. Meanwhile Dean will take escape readily each time it's presented to him(maybe because he feels as though it's the only way out, and he doesn't know how to voluntarily leave?). He also 100% immerses himself into Not Hunting(first chance of escape), while Sam has slowly drifted into "I'm a hunter, no way out, this is my life now"
2. also kinda in the same vein, both of them had their moments, and both of them got to be a lil embarrassed. Not a lot, mostly a positive for both of them, but they got a lil bit of the other.
3. Cas having a support system for Whatever he did (please tell me what that is soon), being humans not connected to the conflict is so good. Especially Bobby, who just kinda...takes it and helps him and it's very nice. I wish we got a bit more of that, it would be a soldi way to keep Cas in story.
4. Dean is like. A grade A nerd. the man ONLY Communicates in forms of media. It's honestly absolutely adorable. Like boy he was SO Excited, he went all in, it was so cute and know, because of parasocial bonds, I was happy cuz he was happy, yk?
also it's nice having someone be allowed to be excited about something
5. also the cinnamon topography? was very nice this episode
6. that Colt thing at the end made me so happy, he was such a cool and complex old retired hunter man
#6X18 Frontierland#pawswatchesspn#look did a lot happen? not really#but Cas got to be supported by someone#I got cool cowboy shots and a fairly human look at the characters#and Cowboy Vibes#this was :)))))
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