#and then came to work at 6:30 🙃

[ma-tsu-the-male-goddess]

Look what I made! The Driver’s name is Cornelius

And some progress photos:

[uswnt5]

Everyone’s good energy really helped me yesterday so thank you. I’ll try to make this as brief as possible lol. I’d like to say that being a weekday and knowing we both worked the next day I didn’t think we’d spend the night together. She picked me up and brought me flowers which was so cute and all but I don’t own a fucking flower vase so I put them in a mixing bowl before leaving. She looked stunning! We grabbed dinner and then we went to a board game house. She insisted we play jenga again and I won one of the three times we played🤣 The place was pretty spacious and so we were pretty much alone in our corner. We got to talking and she asked me if I voted. I told her I did and she asked me for who. In my head I was like *bro this is about to go south* I told her I voted Harris Walz and she said “oh thank god, I thought i was going to have to cut the date short but thankfully not” and then I was like “huh got big plans”, bro she gave the EYES. We played a couple more bored games because I unfortunately do not know how to play any of the card games she wanted *I felt so much shame 🙃 like I don’t remember how to play go fish*

We walked around for a bit holding hands and it was all really nice. She’s so smart and kind. She drove me back home and I invited her in. I give her a tour of my place and on my desk she picks up the postcard that ACFC handed out at the last home game. And I let her to see if it prompts up her knowing of the team or recognizing Christen. YOO she says “I know her! I’ve seen her naked” when I tell you I cracked tf up. I asked her why and she tells me she lived in Chicago for two years and her friend took her to a Red Stars game!! I was like omg wth! I guess she saw CP and told her she was hot and as a birthday gag gift the friend gifted her Christen’s body issue and she kept it since then. I was like “wow what a coincidence I also think she’s hot” I then gave her a brief rundown on why I have the postcard, Christen, and being an ACFC STH. She doesn’t know woso and that game was her first but if things work out I’ll make sure it isn’t her last 👀

We chilled and then slept together 😩 I told her to stay because it was pretty late (or early depends how you look at it). She agreed and then we went out to her car and she had an overnight bag stashed in her trunk with her night stuff and clothes for work 🤭 I told her “ wow you came prepared” and we went inside got ready for bed and she did her whole night time skin care routine in the bathroom and it felt so nice doing such mundane stuff with someone. We cuddled and when I woke up this morning around 6:45 she was gone no note or text. I was like okay wow and she calls me 30 min later to open the door. SHE SHOWED UP WITH A FUCKING FLOWER VASE from the Vons a couple blocks from my place, looking so gorgeous in her clothes for work. I made some omelets and smoothies for breakfast. And then we both got ready and went about leaving for work.

I have now changed my plans and will be watching the pink flops game tomorrow night at my place with her. I’m just hoping they don’t let me down tomorrow because depending on how the game goes I could very well give her the ick. 🤣 I asked her out for the 2nd date on Sunday, so feel free to leave suggestions. thank you all for your interest in this

P.s I need advice on when to tell her I’m not out to my family 😔

-Age gap body issue french toast hookup anon

Oh my fucking god anon you hit the JACKPOT with this one! lol wow, I am very impressed with her game! How sweet is it that she went to get you a vase!

So happy for you! Sounds like you really like her and she CLEARLY really likes you! All these shows of effort! I tell ya, the dream!

Here you go, anons. I know you've been waiting on an update lmao!

[verosissy84]

Questions found

Here I found some asks. Since, noone asked me for a while. I will answer them. May be someone find it amusing; someone coule enjoy it. Answers are marked by -sign.

1:How many people have you had sex with? -This is a lot of work to encount it exactly, but the number is bow somewhere 30..40.

2: Can you remember the names of everyone you’ve slept with? -Not really 🤪 I forgot some right after the act.

3: With whom did you first do the sexytimes? Was it good? -Fisrt? Well, If my kiss/touch/undressing with my same aged cousing does not count....it usually does not. The first was a girl same age as me (both 15 in that time). Yes, it was good. Bench near a lake, kissing, stroking each other and oral.

4: What’s the best sex you’ve ever had? -can't decide

5: What’s the worst sex you’ve ever had? -also can't decide. One of several cases when I could not get hard 😔

6: Where’s the most unusual place you’ve had sex? -I think ir was a compartment on the train ☺️

7: Where’s the most unusual place you’ve masturbated? -Classroom on university?🙃

8: Have you ever been caught doing the sexytimes? Yes.

9: If you masturbate, when did you start, and how? - I am not sure how old I was. 13? I just teased my cock in the bath, bc it felt good...as I did it for longer time, I came.

10: Have you ever been caught masturbating? -Yes

11: How would you describe your sexuality using only adjectives (describing words–busy, fluffy, squishy, etc.)? -Diverse, intense

12: Have you ever been in a queer relationship? -yes

13: Have you ever been in a straight relationship? -yes

14: If you aren’t straight, how and when did you realise you weren’t? -I recognize, I coule be spmhow fluid around my 18.

15: Are you out to everyone you know? 🤷‍♂️

16: Where do you meet queer folks to date? Do you find it difficult? -Yes. It is difficult. On datesites, on net chatrooms, and accidentally outside.

17% If your parents know about your sexuality, how did they react? -I am not sure.

18: Does your best friend know about your sexuality? How did they react? - Yes, one very close friend knows that.

19: Describe your first queer kiss. - Omg, a guy, we met on chatsite on the net, whote messages, arranged meeting. We met on bus stop, walk for a while and talked. Then, we went to his home. Ten second after door closer, I had his tongue, in my mouth. O would desribed it as hot, wet, exciting.🔥

20: What’s the queerest shit you’ve ever done? -It is hard to pick up one. I met a strange guy, who was only interested to play with my hole. And he played. I was little consterned, he was only interested in my hole, fingering, toying, extendinf, toying again and givving mi huts of po**ers. A lot of hit. He almost fisted me. It took more than an hour that he onky managed extension of me. Then, he stroked his cock and sent juicy cum on my face.

21: Are you happy with your body? -Oh yes, really ☺️

22% What’s the raddest part of your bod, and why? - I think ... I am sure, it is my buttock. It is just cute, sexy, and provokes everyone to give it a slap 😁

23: What do you do with your body hair (pubes, underarms, legs, etc.) -underarms, pubes (except a line up) shaved, on legs they are cut eith clipper.

24: Do you have stretch marks? Where? -No. I dont have them.

25: Describe your nipples in too much detail. 😁🙃 Just nipples.

26: Cut or uncut? For girls do you have a preference? - uncut

27: Longest dry streak after you lost your virginity? A year 🤷‍♂️

28: Describe your size, Guys penis, girls breasts - 18.5x4 cm

29: Have you tasted your self? Did you like it? - Ohhh... Yes and yes 😁

30: Favorite body part on your preferred sex? -pussy 😁

31: Describe your most unusual/taboo fantasy. -unusual? Well, it is double date of two pairs (M+F) going to the dinner, but it somhow turned to M+M and F+F when we arraived at their house 😁

32: Do you fantasise more about real situations, or imaginary/impossible ones? -Real/possible

33: Who’s the oddest person you’ve fantasised about? - an odd one? I dont know, there are no odds in my fantasies, probably 🤷‍♂️

34: Do you ever find yourself fantasising absent-mindedly, or is it something you do on purpose? -O found myself in that way, but ussually, it is on purpose.

35: Do you always fantasise while you masturbate? -yes, always ☺️

36: When you fantasise, does it usually lead to masturbation? - always 😁

37: Have you ever had sex with someone while fantasising about someone else? -yes, but it is very uncommon for me.

38: Do you have any celebrity crushes that you fantasise about? -Just porn stars 😁

39: Have you ever fantasised about something by accident, and felt weird about it after? -I dont remember anything like that.

40: Describe your most sexy fantasy. -It is intense, wild oral, when I perform licking, eating, sucking on pussy and I am on the back, she is on top

41: How do you feel about BDSM? -quite well, but no blood, no needles, no harm, no cruel violence.

42: What’s your most unusual kink? -I have to think about that. I have a lot of ones.

43: In an SM context, do you prefer giving pain, or receiving it? -Both is possible, but I am somehow more submissive than dominant.

44: Do you consider yourself to be dominant, submissive, both, or neither? - both, but more submissive. Also in relation with specific partner.

45: Describe your most recent bondage experience. - O was tied by my ex GF by several scarfs, theb teased a little, then she enjoyed a lot pf my mouth and then she pegged me with her strap. It happened longer time ago.

46: In a BDSM context, have you ever referred to anyone as “daddy,” “mommy,” or any similar term? -No, I did not. But I used Ma'am a lot of times.

47: Do you have a kink for any bodily fluids (pee, saliva, blood, tears, cum, etc.)? -pussy juice, a little of spitting games, and I would not br offended for some pissing, but I am not looking for it.

48: Have you ever revealed a kink to someone and had them react negatively? -yes

49: Do you have any kinks that you’re ashamed of? -e.g. a little sissy bitch fetish?

50: How much money have you spent on equipment for your kinks (toys, whips, chains, etc.)? -estimete about $1000 for all.

51: Do you like squirting - most definitelly yes 😁

52: Have you ever come solely from penetration (anal or vaginal)? -Ohh yes 😁 many times

53: Can you have an orgasm without your genitals being touched? -Ohh, yes, I can and I like it 🙃

54: Describe how you like your genitals to be touched. -Hold, stroke, squeze...stop, wait and repeat 😇 tease me, please ☺️

55: How sensitive are your nipples? Does nipple play turn you on? - They are sensitive, much more for licking or sucking than touch by finger. Yes it does turn me on

56: Do you find it easier to orgasm with another person, or through masturbation? -Easy it is for me through masturbation, but it is better with another person.

57: Have you ever had an orgasm that you weren’t expecting? -Oh yes. My first P-orgasm from anal stimulation.

58: Do you get off easier from rough contact, or gentle? -Gentle, but intense

59: What’s the best orgasm you’ve ever had? -I cannot pick up the best one really

60: Did it take you a while to have your first orgasm, or were you an early starter? -I think it toke a while at my begining

61: Do you enjoy giving oral sex? Why? -I love it!!! So much. Why? May be it is becase of my oral issue/fixation 😏 But I really love it.

62: What’s your favourite position in which to receive oral? -Laying on my back

63: Describe your oral sex technique. It depends on partner. F: I start easy by long licks, continuesly adding on pressure, switching to sucking the clit, and back to licking...and adding more and more intensity. I let my feeling to guide me. // M: I take the cock at the base holding it by hand, start to lick and suck the head and start sucking, inserting in and bringing out...more and more, I can give even deepthroat...addinf hand stroking. It ussualy is quite quick 😉

64: Do you find it easier to give oral to someone with the same genital configuration as you (eg., you both own vaginas/both own penises), or different? -easier for me is to give orgasm by oral to the cock, it is quicker. But, I enjoy it somehow more to give oral to pussy 😏🤤

65: Describe the worst oral sex you’ve ever received. -I think I have never had suck a thing likr worst oral...

66: Describe the best oral sex you’ve ever received. -I cannot pick up one

67: Do you ever simulate oral sex while masturbating (sucking on dildos etc.)? -Yes 😉🤤😇

68: How sensitive is your mouth? Is it an erogenous zone, for you? -most definitely yes. It is very sensitive and arousing while giving oral, while kissing, or doing other things 😂

69: Do you like 69ing? - Oh and a lot!!

70: Can you deep-throat? -Yes, I can and I like it ☺️

71: Do you like it in the butt? -Oh that much!😇😉

72: What’s the strangest object you’ve had in your butt? -Oh, that is a spicy question! Is a tangerine or banana strange? 😁 Or, is alien tentacle-shaped dildo stranger? 😂 I am not sure by the strengest 🤣🤷‍♂️

73: Do you enjoy being rimmed? -Well, if the partner enjoys to give me rimming, ok, it is nice, but I woukd never require such a thing. But, it was nice every time.

74: Can you take a lot in your butt, or just a little? -I think a lot 😁🤪 Dont you want to test me?

75: Describe your most recent experience with buttsex. -A guy, after mutual oral, he start fucking me (he behing me, me kneeling) and I came and then he cotinued and I came again and he with me. It was nice ☺️

76% Do you like doing stuff to other people’s butts? -Actually not much and only to women.

77% (Prostate-owners) Have you ever received a prostate massage? -Ohh, yes 😁

78% Do you own any buttplugs? -Yes, many 😁😇

79% Have you ever had an embarrassing buttsex experience? -Oh, yes. 😁 Oh wait, you meant me fucking thebbutt... Also yes 😁

80% Have you ever pegged someone (ie., worn a strapon and fucked them in the butt)? -No

81% Do you have sex with music in the background. -Not ussually. But there can be music.

82% Have you ever had sex with more than one person? -Yes 😁

83% Have you ever had an orgy? Would you? -An orgy? I think, no.

84% Do you enjoy watching your partner(s) having sex with others? -I did not see such a thing. So, I dont know 🤷‍♂️

85% Lights on or off? -Better off, but not necesarly.

86% Do you own any sex toys - A lot of toys 😁

87% Have you or would you ever do a gangbang? -I haven't. I am not sure. I think, I would not. It is a little too much for me.

88% Have you ever teamed up with someone and given a double blowjob/double cunnilingus? -Doibke blowjob yes.

89% Have you ever been penetrated by more than one person at the same time? -butt &mouth yes.

90% Have you ever been ejaculated on by more than one person at the same time? -Yes

**BONUS DARES**

91% Post a selfie. -No 😏

92% Post a naked selfie. -Really not 🙄

93% Tag your biggest tumblr crush.

94: Post your follower count.

95: Press ctrl-v, and post whatever comes up. -OK, but you cannot undertsnad "Nedělám si iluze, kolík malých domu stihnou ti strejdové udělat"

96: Tag your top five followers.

97: Post your most recent Facebook status here.🤐

98: Post the last SMS you received. -An invoce from cell phone operator 🤭

99: Post the last SMS you sent. -"OK"

[myf00djournal]

How good is progress? Chip chip chip away.

My watch went a bit haywire at the beginning, missed the start apparently, and the entire run whenever I looked it kept showing inaccurate splits. At one point it said 6:15 but clearly none of them were. It made me push because I thought I was running behind pace 😤 So bizarre. That’s Apple for you lol. My Runna membership is in lieu of getting a Garmin but unfortunately they don’t have a feature that paced you through “race day” it’s just training plans. They said that feature is coming though so fingers crossed 🤞🏽

Very proud of my efforts especially over the last 6 weeks but that work started about a year ago 🙏🏽 🏃🏽‍♀️ I just completely believe in myself now. It is so daunting looking back. This time last year I was still chasing my 2022 goal of going under 30. Once everything clicks it’s just magic 🪄

I haven’t been posting my whole day lately. I just took a break. I still tracked on some days but I’m feeling like I had a good understanding of my routine foods lately and didn’t need to input everything.

My week has felt pretty consistent. I did strength training 4x, and after tomorrow will have run 22.5km in total. I felt tired though because we had a shutdown period at work and I WFH. It felt very tiring to go back 🙃

I did my easy run on Tuesday but skipped a 7km progressive run on Thursday because it was 40 degrees here 🥵 I’m running my 11km long run tomorrow with my mate around the river so I’m excited for a change of scenery and some company. Next week is a deload week as it’s halfway through the program and I am keeeeeeen.

Today after parky I just got a coffee ☕️ . I had had Nutrigrain before I ran, just a small portion. I usually have half an English muffin but we ran out.

Came home and did uni work 📚 as my semester started this week.

Went to our fave sushi 🍣 place for lunch. I love my wagyu beef, prawn nigiri, katsu 🤤, 🐙 had about six plates. Then checked out JB and got one of those 14 in 1 air fryers and slow cookers all of that jazz. Josh had been eyeing it off for months and my family gave him a voucher for his birthday. Cute.

Then we got bubble tea because that’s our new Saturday thing. I tried a rose green tea. Tasty.

And then I did a uni reading and napped 🥰

Josh is currently cooking up a chicken korma with basmati and naan that I am stoked for. Get in my belly.

We have leftover lemon meringue cake from the birthdays last night so will also get into that 🤭 generous servings to fuel me up!

I hope everyone had a nice week and is enjoying their weekend 🫶🏽

[destinyc1020]

A lot of Jacobs fans seem to emulate his public image- seemingly arrogant and pretentious 🙃 they should just be happy about the progress of his career: he did the 1st kissing booth movie only 5 years ago (2018), Euphoria came out the year after, then s2 came out im 2022 and now hes getting his "moment" with 2 movies in 2023. Ik hes acted before that bt getting your big break is a accomplishment and he was able to progess rapidly in his career within about 5 years. Dwelling/shitting on previous projects (that YOU signed a contract to and got a paycheck from) is lame lol be glad your working, getting money (dude allegedly owns TWO homes) and doing movies you like, not a lot of actors (esp POC) can do that

Thank you for saying this Anon. 👏🏾

I think JE is doing perfectly fine in his career also! I honestly don't know what he's complaining about tbh.

It sometimes takes some actors decades to get a break. It took Austin nearly 20 YEARS to get a big break like "Elvis". And don't even get me started on poc actors. Taraji P. Henson has been out here in the Hollywood game for nearly 30 years, and she's STILL out here crying on air about simply just wanting to be paid the same as her white counterparts of equal status. Here she is, an OSCAR nominee, a 4x Emmy nominee, a SAG Award winner, a 6x BET Award winner, etc., and she's STILL not getting treated fairly in the industry even though she's been in it for nearly 30 YEARS and has long-since proven herself. 😔

It just makes me roll my eyes when I see a white, (assuming) straight, male actor who's only been in the Hollywood game for about 6 or 7 years complaining about his lot in life, when he's actually doing pretty well? 🥴

JE is on a hit TV show on HBO, he's been able to work with THEE Sofia Coppola, he has TWO films out right now, and he's already filming yet ANOTHER film right now as we speak.

Like, c'mon... 🤨

[opossum-by-night]

Welp, he doesn't like his new job 🙃🙃 He says he "doesn't think it's gonna be long term" but won't elaborate on what that means exactly??? Like do we need to start looking now??? Or are we just saying this won't be your 30 year career job???? Somewhere in between????? It's a mystery!!!! 🙃

He says he likes the work itself, but the business of it all is shitty and full of investor/profit/shareholder bullshit and they don't care about their employees - not untrue, but also they don't seem worse than any other business under capitalism 🤷🏻‍♀️ Like they even moved some engineers from a plant in another country here temporarily instead of laying them off!! That seems like a pretty good show of faith to me!!!

I think this ✨episode✨ was spurred by them laying off like 6 people in one day in the process of changing up how they do the schedules/shifts. Which, fine, fair. That really sucks. But I'm also pretty sure that his coworker (who is unfortunately pretty much his *only* coworker) is a super negative and toxic asshole who just talks shit all the time and doesn't give a fuck about the "lower" employees!!! And that's where partner is getting most of his information about this kind of stuff!!!! Like this guy apparently schmoozes with the VP of the company, and he comes back to partner saying all this shit about how they've been planning this layoff for a month because they're not making enough profits and blah blah blah, and it's probably mostly bullshit because this moron thinks he's a big smart business cunt, but I can't tell partner that!!!! He won't tell that guy to shut the fuck up because he doesn't want to not hear about it, he wants it not to happen!!! Which I appreciate and empathize with, but also, who says this bitch is telling the truth anyway!!!!!! I haven't even met him irl but every single piece of information I've heard suggests that he's insanely fucking stupid and a raging asshole!!!!!! But again, I can't say shit!!!!!!!!

At least we did talk about some productive stuff and came up with some ways I can support him better (which I have been trying to wring out of him for like a year but better late than never I guess 🫠) so hopefully that helps a bit!!! But fuck dude, I am so tired!!!!!!! So fucking tired!!!!!!!!!

[fleurcareil]

1st June 2024: the journey continues!

Over 6 months have passed since my last blog, but today feels a good day to finally start writing again! The sun is shining, and I'm sitting in the grass overlooking a pretty lake... (where am I?!? 🙃)

Most importantly, today it's been exactly a year that I drove out of my home in Burlington, hitting the road on a new journey!

Many things happened in the last year; the remaining of 2023 as I had planned, and then the last few months deviated from plan but in a good way. I'm kind of in between lives at the moment, which is surprisingly more comfortable than I had thought, although hopefully soon I will actually be able to move forward! Please everyone, cross your fingers for me. 🤞🤞🤞

As I wrote in my last blog, I left Toronto at the end of September last year to spend 4 months in Europe(ish) with I family and friends. After that amazing cross-Canada road trip, I was ready to calm down a bit!

I'll try to write a few more blogs providing more details on what I did exactly, but in short it felt really good to take the time to catch up with people I care about. Instead of constantly rushing (although I still had quite a busy schedule!), it was great to spend sufficient time somewhere so that we could simply hang out on the couch for hours catching up rather that feeling obliged to run around. Regardless, Europe being Europe, I still ended up doing a bit of sightseeing in between the cups of tea, but overall, it definitely felt like I could relax!

I spent most of October and November in the south of France at my parents in lovely Provence 🥰. Perfect weather and blue skies meant that despite most of the time simply following along with my parents' daily routine, I did some beautiful hikes in the countryside, where vineyards and olive trees abound!

It's amazing how easily days are spent doing crosswords, reading, chores and going for a little hike, all whilst being most of the day outside in the garden or in & about town! 🤗

In this period, I also went for ten days to Muscat in the Sultanate of Oman visiting my sister, her husband and their two children 😍. We typically see each other in the summer in the Netherlands so it was great to be part of their life there for a bit! End of October, it was still hot 🔥 over 30 degrees, so I was really struggling to do much at all... I did teach my nephew the basics of rollerblading, went a few times to the beach (scorching if not in the water!) and just enjoyed spending time with them, at home or in the playground. Of course it went by way too fast, although at the same time "tante Fleur" must admit she was a bit relieved to leave the heat and busyness behind! 🤪

At the end of November, I switched my home base to our flat in the Netherlands, where it turned out to be muuuch colder, especially as the heating didn't work for a week 😫.

First thing on the agenda was winter camping in a yurt with 6 of my oldest friends from university. After a summer of camping, it hadn't been my idea, however despite the snow (!) and rain, we had a blast and basically chatted non-stop for two days straight... We know each other close to 30 years so that means that all topics go, and the laughter, tears and wine flowed easily! 😂

On weekdays, I caught up with other good friends from university and work, some of which I hadn't seen in 14 years since I came to Canada, very special indeed to reconnect and still feel the same friendship after so long! It also included a fun visit to modern art museum Voorlinden, where you could "swim" underwater! 🤣

The following week I embarked on a mini-European tour, visiting friends & my brother for 3 days each in Copenhagen, Paris, London and tiny Everdon (population 356) in central England.

I was toured through Copenhagen by my dear friend Jamie who I used to work with at CT... in a cargo bicycle! The best thing ever, as I kept warm under a blanket while he was narrating the sights and manoeuvring us through the busy streets. Mulled wine at the Tivoli Gardens, wine tasting at a distributor under some obscure bridge and wine at home... you get the picture! 🤩 Oh and amazing food as he & his partner are amazing cooks!

Next stop was at my brother in Paris where we visited the art collection at the Bourse de Commerce... the art was a bit too modern to our taste, but the building is impressive and lunch on the top floor was sublime! Staying at foodies (in France! 😃), it meant great food and company all through...

Then, I took for the first time the Eurostar train underneath the Channel... so much more comfortable than the plane for the short distance! My friend Hélène has converted into a true Londoner, so our trips consisted of walking the dog at sunrise in Regent's Park (whilst the chimps in the nearby zoo were waking up!), lunch at a fancy yet homey private club and a visit to the V&A, one of my favourite museums in the city. 😊

Last but not least, I took the train a few hours north to the hamlet of Everdon where Tracey has set up shop with chickens and rabbits in the garden 😀. We ended up making appetizers all day for a party, which was hilarious as we both had no clue what we were doing (ganache truffles anyone??) but the guests left all merry so that turned out OK. Next day, we walked out our headache among the sheep in the very English rolling countryside and ended the evening in the local pub... perfect ending to a great trip! 💖

Back in the Netherlands, Christmas came around quickly so I spent the last few weeks of the year quietly at home, beating my parents and brother-in-law at bowling 🙃 and trying to get outside as much as possible if it wasn't pouring. New Year's Eve is very special as the air explodes with 100's of fireworks (until you can't see them anymore from the smoke) so that marked the end of 2023! 🎉

Meanwhile, I had found out that I couldn't apply for the Chilean visa without going back to Toronto to get my paperwork legalized, so although I didn't really want to, by mid-January I was squarely back into the deep freeze! 🥶 The whole application process is a game of waiting and patience, so that meant I had plenty of time to do many things, including seeing lots of friends, dog-sitting, swimming, hiking, and even completing a course in teaching English!

Some of the highlights include a hike to a frozen waterfall and a visit to a Keith Haring exhibit at the AGO, one of my fav artists in a fab museum!! 😍

Capping of my 3-month stay in the GTA was the spectacular solar eclipse combined with lots of tasty Indian food at my home-away from-home at Navneet & Arpita 😘😘

Celebrating my birthday in New Orleans at my Dutch besties was the best gift I gave myself; with a jazz festival where I collected beer money from strangers, a cool art garden, loving friends, gorgeous weather and a Dollie Parton drag show, what is there not to love?!?🤗

Running a bit out of steam now 😅, I came to Mont Tremblant in Quebec 6 weeks ago to stay at my dear friends Ivan & Cynthia and their larger family (we were 9 on the first day!), where I am thoroughly enjoying being surrounded by nature. I currently teach some 18 hours a week to mostly Koreans (that deserves a separate blog to explain!) while waiting for my visa to come through... again: 🤞🤞🤞

All in all, things are as good as they get; I remain hopeful about going to Chile later this year and in the meantime, I'm having a very different but fulfilling life... I keep learning (things about myself, how to be a coach, new trails) while meeting wonderful and kind people!

Hug, until next time 🌻🌸🌼

[chaneajoyyy]

Okay so this girl Morgan has given birth to her daughter, Gianna earlier this year (she's 7 month now). Her baby daddy, that random man in Atlanta, left her and Gianna/Gigi after Gigi was 30 days old and Morgan was 30 days postpartum to go back to his ex-girlfriend. She had a c-section and was begging him not to go. But he still left. Girl he had suggested they move up to Michigan where her family lives and move in with them. He wouldn't let her take her stuff from her apartment up ther and had to get rid of all of it. Wouldn't let her drive HER 2021 truck but he got to around in it. He left them there and went to Atlanta to be with his ex. His own mom essentially cosigned him to get back with her. Girl he left everything there! His clothes, phone, food trailer/truck that she has to pay storage for, t-shirt press (that she uses to make her merch), stole her cash app card. All he took were his chains that he financed. Sis did everything for him! kept the roof over his head, the main one working and making all the money. She then found out that he has a total of 6 baby moms, the ex-gf he went back to wanted them to be in a poly relationship and for her to move in with them. Like girl what??? She calls him That Random Man in Atlanta cause it makes him mad lmaaaoo. She went to TT to tell her story and her journey with Gigi and has gone viral. And how he's on TT tryna lie on her and post subliminal messages and making it seem like she wants him back and he takes care of his kids while wearing a Daddy of the Year t-shirt in a video🙃.And made it seem like he sent her $16k for support but has never paid child support. He would put money on the stolen Cashapp card and uses it and sends messages that he's about to use. A true deadbeat father, I would know. I'm tryna keep it short but it's a mess! Now everyone has been talking about this and his second BM came out on tiktok exposing him and saying her son has a brother thats 8 days older than him (her bd having another kid).

That random man in Atlanta has been getting aired OUT!! I was just on Tiktok and another baby mother popped up exposing him! When I tell you that my fyp has been for you paging and the algorithm has been algorithming!!!??

[robinhobiii]

forever yours | mafia! j.hs

Happy Halloween 🙃

It’s was the 31st, which means it was Halloween. It was Y/n favorite time of the year as she gets to leave work early and relax at home. The elders at her work place love to pass out candy to the young ones. So, they let everyone leave early to enjoy the rest of their night.

She would be enjoying her night alone as Hobi has work to do. She aware of what he does but doesn’t dwell too hard on the details. She still remembers how she found out what he does.

He left his gun on the dresser after he came home late. She went to pick up his clothes to put in the laundry, but she caught glimpse of the metallic gun. She was filled with fear and despair. Her small hands went to pick up the gun. Before she could fully touch it, Hoseok picked it up first. She watched as he put it on top of the highest shelf in the cupboard. She parted her lips and could barely get words out.

“Are you. . .”

He only nodded as he brought her to his chest.

. . .

The one and only compromise she made with him is that she would not hear anything about what he does. He immediately agreed and vowed not to mention anything.

Which is why he didn’t mention that he would be going to a party hosted by the mafia association. This party has many business men and women attend that aren’t even apart of the mafia. But for her safety, he didn’t mention it.

“Hyung, noona didn’t come?” Jungkook questioned.

He smiled at the younger male. “I didn’t tell her.”

“Huh?! Why?! She would be safe here. I even brought my girlfriend.”

“I don’t think she would want to be here anyway.”

“Hyung, now you’ll be bored for the next 3 hours.”

“I’ll be fine. Don’t worry about me”

“Okay then, have fun!”

Hoseok waved him off and turned back to his champagne. He swirled around a few times before deciding to take a little walk.

As he walked around the luxurious hotel, he sees a couple holding hands as they laugh about something. It immediately reminded him of you.

He took his phone out of his pocket and dialed you.

“Hobi!”

He chuckled.

“Hey, baby. How was your day?”

“Oh, you know the same old same old. I’m just happy to come home early and relax.”

“Oh yeah?”

“Yeah. How was your day, hobi?”

“You know the same old same old.”

She giggled at that. “Hey, you can’t copy what I said.”

“I’m just saying how it is.”

“You busy now?”

“No, I’m contemplating of I should stay or go home.”

“Come home pleaseeeee”

He chuckled.

“Should I?”

“Yes, I made hot chocolate and I’m going to watch Halloween movies all night. And you can get free cuddles. You should join me.”

“I guess you make a good point.”

“Does that mean you’ll come?!”

“Yes, darling.”

“Okay, I’ll see you soon, Hobi.”

Hoseok made his way to the entrance of the hotel.

“Hobi!”

He turned around and was met with Namjoon.

He smiled

“Joon, I was going to look for you.”

“Are you leaving?”

“Yeah it’s pretty boring.”

“Well be sure to came back at 2:30 at the office. We have a emergency meeting with someone important in Daegu. We’ll leave around 3 and we’ll reach around 6:30ish. Yoongi hyung and Jin hyung already left.”

He nodded.

“I’ll be there. Is it good or bad?”

Namjoon sighed.

“It’s bad.”

Hoseok straighten himself and said “do I have to-“

“Yes. Say your final goodbye as we don’t know the outcome.”

He stayed silent for a bit before nodding.

. . .

There was knocking on the front door. She knew it was Hobi as he knocks in intervals of three. Y/n smiled as she quickly made her way to the door. There Hobi stood with all his glory. He was wearing all black and his hair was parted on the side. He looked very divine.

“You made it!”

He walked in and pulled her in for a tight hug. It was a little too tight.

“Hmmph. . Hobi. . You’re hurting me. .”

He quickly pulled back.

“Sorry, I’m a little tired.”

“Come on. Go freshen up and join me on the sofa.”

“I love you.”

She looked at him, a taken aback because that was random.

“I love you more.”

. . .

The clock struck 2:08am. Y/n was fast asleep on his chest. He carefully picked her up princess style and gently placed her on the bed. He looked at her peaceful face and her sleeping form. He took everything in for the last time. Namjoon said that this could be the last. He couldn’t even take her on an extravagant date or give roses by the dozen to tell her how much he loves her.

He places kiss along her jaw and temples before giving a final kiss on her lips.

He placed a letter on top of her vanity.

“A goodbye for now dear.”

. . .

To my love y/n,

I don’t know if I’ll be back tonight just know that I love you more than anything. More than words can explain. If I don’t make it back by tonight, everything in my name will become yours. You’ll be Mrs. Jung Hoseok by default. I hope you don’t stay too mad at me. This meeting was abrupt and I had no time to make you feel special. You were good to me. Maybe in another life we’ll have all the time in the world with each other. Until then, stay happy.

Forever yours,

Hoseok

[angesaurus]

Finally home at 6:45 🙃 Cecilia is JUST eating dinner (chicken nuggets again, mom of the year) and still needs to get ready for bed and actually go to bed. I haven’t eaten anything since 12:30. Gavin still needs dinner too after practice so I’m hoping Dan just grabs us all something.

The good thing is Gavin does not need glasses (at least right now). The bad thing is I passed on a now genetic trait 🙃 it’s fine, not affecting him in the slightest. It’s just… one more thing. I just am so tired. 😂 and because he’s confirmed to have it, she recommended the other one get looked at for it so now i have that appointment in a few weeks.

But my appointments went fine; even though I got called into the second one almost 45 minutes after my appointment time, the doctor came in LESS than 5 minutes after the nurse saw me and he was super nice and actually talked to me about insurance and our options and even though I have to make ANOTHER appointment, it feels good to have a plan of care. I am getting an oral appliance to hopefully help me sleep better woooooooooo.

And my hematologist is making me go for blood work AGAIN bc she is concerned with the results from today. So she’s mailing me the script and I’ll just go on my own. Blah. That’s a little scary but it is what it is (I hate that phrase).

I’m ready for bed.

[violent-kurumi]

1, 4-6, 8-10, 12-14, 16, 18-25, 29, 30! (Sorry, I ask a lot! 😂)

Lmao no worries! Imma try my best to answer these

1. What song makes you feel better?

Love Live songs, mostly from Muse, like half of Aqours and some of Liella (not so much Nijigasaki)

4. What flower would you like to be given?

Portable hayfever machines? No thanks!

I'm kidding, I love flowers, they're beautiful but I'm more of a cactus/succulent kind of person!

5. Who do you feel most you around?

Hm, well I think that would have to be my brother? He doesn't judge or look at me weird if I'm screeching Love Live songs around the house, if I decide to randomly wear a costume in the day he doesn't judge like my sister. I think my brother was the first person I actually came out to as well.

That's for irl anyway, otherwise the internet I feel very much like myself lol, the server's I'm a part of, my online friends are super nice and supportive! ^-^

6. Say three nice things about yourself. (Three physical and three non physical)

Aaa it's like primary school all over again hahaha.

- It took a long time but now I like being as short as I am (so height)

- My hair, I dyed it blonde again but it used to be a browny/blonde, but as fluffy as my hair looks I kinda like it lol

- my eyes, I'm the only person with blue eyes in my family and they're kinda a grey/blue

- My ability to forget some horrible things that have happened; my memory is pretty shit so while it can work against me I like that I can forget I've seen a movie or listened to a song and so I am able to hear/watch it for the first time again

- Eventhough my memory is shit, I can pick up patterns in games pretty fast- so I like that I can play my love live game better than my family, I don't mean to brag, my family is big on video games and so it's a big deal for someone to be better then someone else at a game... (I don't know if that made any sense sorry)

- Uuuhhh, this is hard... Another non physical thing that's nice about me? I like that I'm happy person most of the time! (Does that count?)

8. Tag someone (or multiple people), that make you feel good

@nek0mancer , @the-yugioh-theorist , @hecho-a-mano , @angrykittenz62 , @horrifyn-llewellyn , @toxicsugarz

There are more but I can't remember everyone's usernames off by heart lol so if you weren't mentioned it's not because I don't love you, don't worry I love you guys

9. What calms you down?

Music! Watching my comfort shows and drawing, sometimes breathing techniques work if I'm anxious

10. What's something you're excited for?

Hopefully before Christmas my website will be up and running! I'm hoping to sell art, like the Date a Live portraits I've done, just anime/character portraits in general and those tags I've been making!

12. How are you?

Doing well, got a lot on but it's doing wonders telling myself I can take small breaks and focus on one thing at a time! ^-^

13. What's your comfort food?

Bbq shapes, or chicken crimpy shapes, mushrooms and kale and cheese and bacon rolls (I don't think it's really cheese because I don't react to them lol)

14. What's your favourite feel-good show?

I don't know too many feel-good shows? Love Live maybe? I don't know what counts as a feel-good show

16. Compliment the person who sent you this number.

Wow so you asked this for a free compliment? 🙃

You're super kind hearted!

18. Do you still love stuffed animals?

HELL YES!! I have kept majority of all my stuffed animals and a bunch live on my bed. A couple of months ago I got a Bulbasaur plushie from build a bear- which I didn't even know they did!

19. What's the most important thing in your life?

Family, possessions and memories! (I think I've already answered this question)

20. What do you want most in the world right now?

As selfish as it sounds, money, my dad is gonna kick me out soon so I'm a little scared as to where I can go with my stuff and my birds

21. If you could tell your past self one thing, what would it be?

Things will get hard but trust the universe to give you the right tools and believe it'll be okay.

(god I know that sounds cheesy)

22. What would you say to your future self?

Did we do it?

23. Favourite piece of clothing?

My leather jacket!! Gotta feel the power!

24. What's something you do to de-stress?

Listen to music, tv on in the background and read

25. The personal gift one.

I think I've answered this one; it's hard to answer, all gifts I get feel personal.

29. Morning, afternoon or night?

I am unfortunately a morning person but I like nighttime best. I don't sleep all that much lol

(is that what the question meant? Or did it mean what time of the day am I answering this? Technically, it's 11:40am as I answer this but I will shove this in schedule)

30. What reminds you of home (doesn't have to mean house... Just things that remind you of feeling home)

Sometimes pictures or odd song/pitches of sound make me feel frozen to the spot and this huge wave of nostalgia washes over me, it's intense and it's like I'm trying to think of home but like something is blocking me and I can't piece it all together...

Thanks so much for asking, I feel as though I've answered like every question 🤣

[radical-rad1986]

Are you a terf? If so don’t touch my cat posts 🙃 my blogs DNI literally lists radfems :-)

Hello Edalynn, I'm Rad, nice to meet you. It's 4:30 am and I'm getting ready to go to work at 6. I'm under a lot of stress to vend in a show this weekend. Could you help me understand your question?

1) I try to keep up with terms. There are a lot. And with my stress, I don't have time to look them all up and understand them. I don't think I'm a terf. What's a terf? 2) To what cat post are you referring to? If the post randomly came across my dash, then I interacted with it and moved on. Therefor I did not read your DNI. 3) What is a radfem? (Please see #1)

I appreciate you contacting me, being polite, and setting your boundaries.

To save my sanity, I will not be interacting with this until I am home from work and errands.

Esca friends: Please interact with Comments only, no reblogs at this time.

Everyone else: I need my sanity. Please hold your comments and reblogs until later.

Thank you and have a great day.

~*~ Rad (Time: 4:45 am)

[runfast-runfar]

Friday Things

2/11/22

✨ today was such a good day!! It was much needed!

It was an easy “long” run (long in terms of its week 2 of marathon training lol) so it was just 6 miles. And damn, it felt SO good!!

I also had gotten a new pair of shoes and that had me on cloud nine too!

✨ after my run I bought a pair of dr scholls shoes bc they are SO comfy!! And they have such cute styles now and I loved these when I saw them the other day so I went back and got them!

✨ when I got home I took an Epsom salt bath (my routine now lol) while I read a few chapters of Divergent.

✨ then I made a late breakfast/lunch and had protein pancakes with earth balance and agave.

✨ my Bombas socks came in the mail today and I’m excited to run tomorrow morning in a pair haha! I LOVE these socks and I’m excited to have more than the one pair I kept washing daily to wear every run lol

✨ thea did some yoga today too hehe

✨ then I got a few hours of homework done before my hot yoga class at 4:30. I LOVED the teacher today and I’m going to try and take more classes with her! My two friends I go with also loved her too!

✨ after class I showered, came home and made this bomb dinner!!! An alpha foods mexali burrito, with romaine and arugula topped with miso dressing and a baked sweet potato :)) so. damn. good.

✨ now I’m laying in bed watching the first few episodes of Inventing Anna (it’s okay so far. Not amazing but I’m giving it 3 episodes to see if I like it more. So far I’m on episode 2. So we’ll see).

✨ tomorrow I work all day 🙃 I start at 10:30am and am done at 7:30pm. I might die lol

But considering I only work Thursday evenings and Saturdays I can’t complain too much lol

✨ anyways, I hope you’re all well! ♥️

[durzeh]

About 6,5 years ago I broke my wrist when I slipped on some ice (story about it bellow) and since then it's been a bit wonky. It's like it stops working when I do some stuff I could before and the strength magically disappear sometimes. Anyway. Today when I was putting some clothes in a drawer I somehow managed to smash the drawer on my wrist, exactly where the break in the bone was 🙃 Now it hurts like a motherbitch.

Story time!

I was on my way to an office where I would check if I could have my practical placement during my studies. A friend lived in that town and told me I could come over to her place before she drove me to the office. Took a bus over to her and when I got of the bus I saw her on the other side of the road. It was winter, so snow everywhere and piles along the roads. So I thought that I could just step over one pile. Didn't see that the ground behind was smooth as glass, so slipped and put about all my weight on my right wrist (I'm right handed) when I tried to catch myself from faceplanting. It hurt a bit, but could move my hand, so thought I just sprained it a little. We walked over to my friends house and had breakfast and after 30 minutes my wrist started to really hurt, but could still move it and there were no bruising. Made a mental note to bandage it when I got home.

She drove me to the office, I met the boss and as we were about to shake hands, I told her that I had just sprained my wrist, so it was a bit tender. During the meeting the wrist hurt with the smallest of movement. The meeting went on for like 30 minutes, she showed me the office, who would be my handler and as we were about to shake goodbye and I reached out my hand, we saw that the wrist was starting to go really blue.

"That doesn't look good." she said.

"I'm sure it's just sprained, can still move it. Don't think I could if was broken."

"You should go to the emergency room to get it checked."

"Sure? Could just go to the health center."

"No, I think you should go to the ER. I can drive you."

"If you could drive me to the bus so I can go to the ER in Gävle, I would be very grateful."

She drove me to the bus station, I got on the bus and yeah, I was now kind of convinced the wrist was actually broken and the bus journey was a nightmare. Called my mom and checked if she could keep me company at the ER, since you usually have to wait for hours. She would join me after a lunch meeting. Got to the ER, had to wait for only 30 minutes until I got called to take waiting room to take an x-ray. Had to wait there for 10 minutes, took the x-ray and then got back to the waiting room and mom joined me. Here the waiting started. For 2h we sat there, filling out some forms and talked a bit. Got sent to a private room to wait for a doctor. Waited for another hour and I was starting to get really hungry. Mom went to buy some food, hamburgers, which was quite difficult to eat with my wrist lol.

Finally the doctor came and showed us the x-ray. Apparently I had broken the radius where it's the thickest, straight through. The doctor was impressed that I had managed that. Thankfully it was a clean crack and no need to realign it. Got a cast and had to have it on for 6 weeks and then a brace for 7 months with some physiotherapy 🙃

It was really fun to have the practical placement where you meet people and have to take notes and then write it on a computer 🙃

So yeah. That's how I broke my wrist and it's still a little shit about it.

Silver lining: kind of learned to write with my left hand.

[diabeticcoma]

From the second I woke up today. Nothing has gone right. Nothing has worked out. I'm working a day I would normally be off so I didn't have an alarm. I woke up sick but because I didn't hear the alarm I went back to sleep. I was an hour late to work. Work wasn't super busy but I had nothing but nasty customers telling me what to do and just being rude 🙃 more then what I would normally handle. Whatever who cares. Grow up right? Right. Moving on. Remember I don't feel so good so I lay down on my 10 min break but my little attention staved pup attacks me a good 6 mins.. I just wanted a break. My lunch break is 30 mins it will be better. Wrong. Dog wants me I calm the dog down and my phone rings. I know have 12 mins. I can't do anything with 12 mins it's over. Moving on. I hear a knock at the door. I'm working. All three dogs go nuts.-_- "hold on" the door opens. Lindzie walks in with some random dude behind here with Oden halfway out the door.... I flipped out I was screaming I threw my phone I slammed the door almost on the dog he was smart enough to pull himself back him before getting caught ..... I think I don't actually remember my phone ended up across the room. She should have told us she was coming so I could take care of the dogs and put real cloths on.... i was in short short and a tank no bra... bringing some random man into my house was a bit much... he ended up taking the grill for me so was super helpful in the end but over all... flipping out like that made me realize how fucked up it is in my head again and idk how to fix it.

I need to figure out how to slow and form real thoughts I don't know how to ask you to help me. I mean I do but I can't ask you to do these things in all fairness. You are important too your health is important. The way you feel and not faking being okay just to make me happy... that's not okay. I want you to do something because you want to not for me.

Anyway back on track right

After my lunch around 3 I took another break but I was nauseous so I locked the dog out this time and laid in bed for about 8 mins to catch my breathe. Cam out and finished making a samwhich gerald cooked but didn't finish. He would have made it but I got to it first so I got slightly frustrated. Now work is finally over I'm suppose to be going to the store getting soda blah blah blah ... yet I again don't feel good so I just crash set an alarm for 30 mins and pressed snooze who knows how many times. My head is spinning and the last thing I wanna do is get up. I make is about 17 mins away and relized i order my shit in moon and now im an hour away..... nothing has gone right and I don't feel good. 😕 my head is spinning and I can't think straight I'm suppose to be on my way home getting ready to cook dinner that's been sitting in the fridge for far too long and way to much for just use. So I called you to think it through. Maybe for you to get me to calm down and breath for a second. Idk but you want to help. You don't feel good you've told me all day how your head hurts and your down with the day you wanted to quit everything. I didn't want you to have to drive all the way down to me just because I messed up.

I would have love to have you grab the groceries and have dinner ready for you when you came down held you for a mine kissed you. God after the day I had I would have loved that. But the way you've been feeling if you were having a min of relief. The last thing I was going to do was make it worse or that that second away from you whatever. Not to mention the second you step through the door my dogs would freak out.

I didnt want to meet you half way because I don't feel good..... I didn't want to have to get out on the side of the road and take the groceries from your car to mine then back home and into my house.. so I told you to go home. I understand you wanna help but those aren't good options at the moment.

Because of the detour I had to drive right back by the house. So I stopped and told gerald to roll me a blunt so I had something. I asked gerald if he wanted to come. I didn't have to be alone. Plus he's been alone for the last week and a half it would be nice to spend some time together since I'm not working.

I asked you how long I had to get up there because I wanted to stop at you house for 30 seconds and see you but by the time I got close I didn't feel good again and I just wanted to fall asleep I was hungry and haven't eaten since 3 I needed to get home.

I called to check on my brother see how he was driving and he going to drive as far as he can and stop at a hotel for the night. It's not a bad idea but it wasn't the plan .. again it just didn't work out.

After everything and how long the day has been someone ran off the road and hit a tree on our way home. And we sat in traffic for a good 15 20 mins while they cleaned up. We didn't know what was going on so I decided to make the most out of a bad situation. And eat a snack. And wait til it was over. It couldn't be much longer now im sure... and it wasn't if I had finished my banana and we were moving. I probably would have GPS how to get out of it. I didn't mind waiting listening to the birds and I think turkey... I like sitting outside. I embraced it for the moment.

I know I messed up somewhere. I should have let you bring the groceries. I really just thought I was doing what was best for you and easier for me. I did not mean to make you feel some type of way or make you believe I was telling you this wasn't your day and you didn't get to see me like I honestly split up my time and it's super strict. My house is chaotic whether you want to be here or not my dogs my mom.. its nothing but drama and aggravation. This isn't the environment you want or need to be in right now. This had nothing to do with not needing you or not wanting you. In fact... I called you because I did need you. But I started freaking out more. I needed to figure out dinner with it being so late. I needed to make sure my family was fed before 9 at night..

I absolutely do not only need you but I want you darlin you are important to you are safe and I didn't do anything malicious or have some kind of plan. I didn't think of anything before him it all happened in the moment.

Hopefully laying it all out like this gives you a little more understanding on how it all played out. In order it might make a little more sense. Maybe you can trust me just a little more and darlin I will do everything I can to help you trust me again..

[importantcupcake]

Day 2 post-op

Hi-hi! So, my surgery was a little under 24 hours ago. I didn't sleep at all on Monday night even though I took my meds as soon as MAFS finished and mum went back to pop's. We left at 5:30am and arrived at hospital around 6:30am-ish. Pop drove 'cause nan didn't get any sleep last night- Brett's car like, exploded overnight again, and then the firies came over sooooooo yeah... that was a thing that happened. I heard it but didn't know what happened until morning - I thought it was the Power Station or something! Brett is fine, thank goodness, but naturally he'd be pissed that this happened yet again.

I wasn't allowed to eat or drink as of midnight before the surgery, except plain water with my medication. I was allowed to brush my teeth and use breath spray, buuuuuut I lost my breath spray before we left, and I'm really self-conscious about my breath, so that was ~stressful~ 🙃 I had plenty of mints, but I asked, and mints weren't allowed.

So yeah, pop dropped us off at the front and mum and nan came with me to admissions. Had a COVID test and then got changed out of everything except underwear and into two hospital gowns (one was broken at the side so they put another one over my back) and moved to the surgery waiting area. I was the first operation of the day, so I got in pretty quickly.

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Got wheeled into the anaesthesia room, where I met my team... my goodness, there was so many people working on this operation, heh. Got the IV in, then my doctor came in and drew up the, uh... guideline? Thingies? Then I was moved on to another bed, they inserted something intravenously, then gave me the mask to breathe into. Dunno how long it took to go under, but my last thought was of that one guy who tried to stay awake longer than his record of fourteen seconds and only made it to two seconds. Edit: Here he is! Still cracks me up 🤣

So I came to, at some point before 2pm. I don't remember much of what happened between waking up and getting to my room. I think I fell back asleep? Then mum and nan came in with my stuff - phone, charger, mints, clothes (button-up shirts, pyjama shorts, pyjama pants, trackies, underwear, dressing gown), toothbrush, toothpaste, deodorant, dry shampoo spray, CPAP machine... I think that's it, I'm trying to remember everything just in case anyone reading this might need help with what they'd want to bring.

I was kinda going in and out of consciousness the whole visit, and I don't really remember anything... I don't know how long they stayed for, only that I fell asleep again until about 5:30.

Chatted with Jetta and Michael, then had a quickie video chat with Jetta and Max, and their fluffy, fluffy cat, and... pretty much immediately zonked out again, but not before setting an alarm to watch MAFS... I kept drifting off constantly, like I'd be watching one couple, close my eyes, and it'd be another couple or an ad break. Had to re-watch it again this morning so I could properly catch up before tonight's episode.

I couldn't properly go to sleep for the night until I had my tablets, and I got them about 9-9:30-ish. I slept until about 3:30am, woken up not by pain, noises, nurses... but from my crappy, crappy CPAP machine. God I hate that thing. I was supposed to get a new one before I went in to hospital but the new setup would have bled us out of so much money and NDIS couldn't help me again 'cause my budget is really low this year. I was so devo when I realised I couldn't get it, because I knew I'd need good, quality sleep before and after my surgery, and I knew the machine would prevent that. But honestly, I'm glad I even got those six-ish hours. i was expecting a much rougher night.

Tried my best to keep quiet through the rest of the night - I even had a playlist of Quiet Time videos ready: mainly Stats videos, Australian Sign Language videos, HMS2 polymer clay videos, stuff like that. Then I got started writing this here post 📌 and everyone started waking up. Had breakfast - scrambled eggs on bread, Weet Bix and Earl Grey tea. They... also gave me two orange juices, which I'm allergic to, heh. Turns out, it was written down that I had allergies, but there was no specification as to what that allergy was. O... oranges. It's oranges 🍊 No worries though, I'll just take them home and give them to Brett, otherwise they'd just have been chucked in the bin.

The doctor came in after breakfast with awesome, awesome news: My drains were looking really good, and so they will be taken out today, and I'll be going home after lunch! I am absolutely over the moon... I thought I'd have them in for days, possibly even weeks, and even though they weren't quite the horror-show my sooky arse was expecting, they were still very much... there. And very annoying to have around - as I pasted in my notes below, they were clipped to the bed rail and I'd have to call, and wait, for help to get to the bathroom. Add to that, the IV drip and the massive pole THAT was attached to... I was pretty over it already, heh.

So, the drains got "clamped" at 9am, and were out before 10:15am, along with the IV. I was warned - by other people who have had breast reductions and by the nurses - that the removal of the drains would feel weird. And... wow. Yeah. That's an experience I don't even know how to describe. Well, actually, I knew, and did, pretty much yell "Yeah, REALLY WEIRD!" in the world's squeakiest voice 😅 It was only like a second or two, but man. Freakin' weird second-or-two, that was. Yeugh 😶

Some Day 2 Early-Morning Thoughts copy-pasted from my Notes App.

- My drains are a bit super annoying. They're clipped to the bed rail and I can't remove them by myself so I have to press the call button and get help every time I need to use the bathroom.

- It's 4am and I can't figure out how to turn off my second (dimmer) light and I feel like such an arsehole even though all three of my roomates don't seem to be having trouble sleeping.

- Control for my bed is at the foot of the bed and impossible to reach without getting up, and my drains (attached to the side of my bed) are too short. Which I... can't do? Bit annoying tbh.

- I did get my hair done yesterday... not the light-light blonde like I wanted, tbh... in fact it still looks dark brown in some lighting. But I do think she did a good job, and I've gotten lots of compliments! 😊 Mainly, I just wanted an extra change to go with the new body, really... kinda like a uh... idk... extra step away from the old me and all her physical and emotional baggage, if that makes sense...? I still want to go actually-blonde though, so I'm going to do that when I feel a bit better.

- For the most part, my sinus issues and TMJD has been more painful over the past 24 hours than my operation. That's how bad they are... so, yeah, once I'm healed enough, I will be going in for a rhinoseptoplasty as recommended by my ENT and hopefully I can move on from that as well. Also need to follow-up with my TMJD doctor. I was supposed to do that in July last year but pop was real annoyed at having to drive to and from Sydney twice in such a short time that I decided not to tell him I had to go back again so quickly.

- Oh my GOSH I just found another control for the bed on the drawers next to me, I am Boo Bo the Fool.