#and the guy is described as magnetic and charismatic

[sacredflorist]

🎶 !!

Send 🎶 and I will pick out a song from my playlist that I think would suit our muse’s dynamic | Accepting | @fcrir

[nhularin]

ENOUGH FOR YOU

PAIRING popular bf! sunghoon x f!reader GENRE angst no comfort, childhood friends to lovers to exes, highschool AU WARNING wonyoung hating sunghoon XTRA not as angsty as my other drabbles but..., not proofread, probably some grammar mistakes WC 1.3k series masterlist

june 2nd, 2002

"stop moping around and eat your sandwich"

wonyoung snickered, mac and cheese muffling her voice as your head laid restlessly on the metal ( probably dirty and oily) cafeteria table.

"like seriously, its been five days since he last messaged you. i always knew he was a jerk, pretty privilege is real! hes nothing but a ken doll with the way his words are filled with nonsense"

"leave him alone" you groaned, head still down, you could practically feel the acne screaming from underneath your skin "hes a nice guy, probably just busy"

"busy my ass, dont you see the way he literally follows that loser group like an overgrown chihuahua? if he can make time to buy booze for a bunch of 17 year olds then he can for sure make time for his amazing, smart and pretty girlfriend" wonyoung rolled her eyes as she stuffed bland coleslaw in her mouth

you looked up, dark bags adoring your face, you had been in a relationship with sunghoon since your freshman year. as children, you both had been inseparable ever since you moved to salt lake city, your bond growing stronger with each passing year. but now, as juniors, things felt different. he had recently joined the popular crowd, the same crowd you both used to talk shit about in between classes, and friday nights had become synonymous with parties and new faces.

tried so hard to be everything that you liked

the change had been gradual at first, but you couldn't help but notice how sunghoon had become the center of attention, attracting the gazes of both girls and sweaty boys alike. his charismatic smile and magnetic personality drew people towards him like moths to a flame, leaving you feeling like a mere extra and shadow in his presence.

but it was the encounters with the prettier, more popular girls that cut you to the core. you couldn't help but compare yourself to them, questioning if you were really deserving for sunghoon. the doubts grew louder with each unanswered message, as sunghoon seemed to drift further away.

you only sighed

"lets get this over with. you, pretty girl, find your ogre looking piece of shit of a boyfriend and im gonna stay at the entrance" wonyoung ordered sternly, her voice growing darker as she described your boyfriend

unable to bear the weight of uncertainty any longer and seeing you drown in the growing pool of self pity, wonyoung suggested going to the party where sunghoon tweeted where he was going to be at. maybe seeing him in person would provide some clarity. and so, you found yourself at the heart of the celebration, searching for a glimpse of the person who held your heart.

the night was filled with laughter and music as you stood in the midst of the crowded party. but amidst the lively atmosphere, a heavy sense of unease settled in your heart. you couldn't help but feel like a walking shell of sadness with the absence and lack of your boyfriend's warmth, your messages left unanswered for days dont make your overthinking self feel better either. the persistent doubt gnawed like an aggressive parasite in your mind, making you question if you were truly enough for him.

you found someone more exciting the next second, you were gone

it didn't take long for your eyes to land on him. sunghoon stood near the punch bowl, a radiant smile on his face as he engaged in a conversation with the head cheerleader joonhee. your heart sank at the sight, your fears of being replaceable seemingly coming true, his laughter and the way he touched her arm with familiarity stung deeply in your soul.

"1,2,3 breathe, 1,2,3 breathe" you whispered shakingly to yourself with closed eyes, trying to calm the storm inside of you

overwhelmed by heartache, you couldn't stand to witness any more. and so, running through the backdoor and through drunk teenagers, your breath came in ragged gasps as tears welled up slowly, refusing to fall, just like your pride. you couldn't bear to be in that suffocating environment any longer. the cool night air embraced you as you reached your car, parked in lee heeseungs empty suburb's parking lot.

as you sat in the car, your emotions overflowed, tears still threatened to fall freely as your soul filled with rage and betrayal. it was in that moment, surrounded by darkness and engulfed by doubt, that your vulnerability took hold. the floodgates of your emotions burst open, and a stream of tears cascaded down your cheeks. each tear held your deepest fears and insecurities, each sob a cry for validation and reassurance.

and you left me there cryin', wonderin' what I did wrong

"fucking shit" you sighed as incoming calls of wonyoung flooded your notifications. "should've listened to her, huh?" humorless laughter echoed in your crammy dark dimmed toyota. the silence was unbearable, fuelling the whispers in your head that you were not enough and you havent been good enough for him for a while. that you had lost sunghoon to someone who was prettier, much more interesting than you. but deep down, a glimmer of strength began to flicker within you

"why wasn't I enough?" you whispered, the words escaping your lips like a desperate plea. in the depths of your pathetic despair, you couldn't comprehend how you had fallen short, how you had failed to capture sunghoons attention and affection.

the car's small interior offered a temporary solace, shielding you from the actions of the world outside. the emptiness of the parking lot mirrored the emptiness you felt within, making the pain that coursed through your veins grow stronger. you gripped the steering wheel, your knuckles turning white as you tried to steady your trembling body (and if you were your friend, how you were going to run over your boyfriend)

but as the minutes ticked by, you began to actually listen to the daily "you're enough, you're enough. you deserve all the love and happiness in the world, from someone much better" mantra of your friend, realizing that your worth did not hinge on Sunghoon's approval.

you were more than just a measure of your relationship. you were a person with dreams, aspirations, and a heart that deserved to be cherished, regardless of whether it was by sunghoon or someone else.

with each tear that fell, a flicker of resilience ignited within you. screw him, you refused to let your doubts created by him define you. you refused to believe that you were not enough. slowly, you wiped away the tears, your reflection in the rearview mirror revealing tired and empty eyes

Taking a deep breath, you whispered to yourself, "I am enough, i am enough, i am enough. I am deserving of love and happiness." the words hung in the air, the words a combat fighting the doubts that had plagued your mind.

Don't you think I loved you too much to think I deserve nothing?

"and i deserve if from someone who values me" your voice cracked, dried tears threatening to fall again

as you started the car, the engine's purr resonated with newfound determination. you drove away from the empty parking lot, leaving behind the doubts and heartache that had consumed you. and as you navigated the darkened streets, a flicker of hope emerged, lighting your path towards self-discovery (having a midlife crisis at the ripe age of seventeen is normal, right?) and a love that would celebrate your true worth.

'Cause someday I'll be everything to somebody else

incoming messages!

wony (12 new messages, 3 unanswered calls)

hoonie <333 (3 new messages) OPEN

hoonie <333: i saw you at heeseungs

hoonie <333: its not what it looked like, yn

hoonie <333: you know i only love you

are you sure you want to block 'hoonie <333'?

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[thebnha-auhoard]

Do you perhaps have any ..... Found Family for the League? (Is that ok to ask?)

Recently found this after reading tea in a bar lmao and just wanted to check bc all your aus are awesome.

You want Found Family? YOU WANT LEAGUE FOUND FAMILY!

Oh boy! Do we have a Au for you!

White Lillies

This au has heavy Black Mail themes. But we joke it's a Tragic Office Comedy. It Centers around Izuku being mentored by most of the League pre Canon.

First is Kurogiri. Not technically a mentor. But a good friend to a recently diagnosed Quirkless Izuku. He is the reason this all begins

Izuku was just Vibing! Helping Mr Kurogiri with sweeping and listening to Mr Kurogiri talk about fuzzy memory of Cats and songs and glowing red eyes.

At eight years old this man swept in. A Miasma of Madness and Anger. Izuku tucked himself behind the bar, his heart pounding in fear. Somehow he knew he shouldn't make a sound. His mouth felt dry and like sand paper.

Kurogiri's cool cloudy warp floods his senses, Dropping him into his room. A tiny note flutters to the ground. One that describes exactly what the Horrifying Man does to kids like him. What All For One does to anyone he wants.

The next one is Dabi. Izuku reaching frustration that no gym will let a nine year old Quirkless into them.

Dabi was.... Impressed. And slightly scared as he spooked Izuku once and he got stabbed in the leg.

Dabi stayed the longest too. The one who would listen and one who would talk. The mentor who taught Izuku how to be nimble and strong. The mentor who felt like a Big brother and cried when told this.

Then came Compress and Magne

They taught him how to use anything and everything around him. (One notable time was when he learned how to escape a vault bc Compress was a dumbass and got stuck in one and Magne refused to help)

Compress taught him how to be silent but then to be loud, Flamboyant and Charismatic.

Magne taught him how to feel more comfortable in his skin. To make himself from the ground up while lifting that massive Magnet.

Then it was Himiko.

First one his age. They both were swift. Knives barely glancing skin in a Dead dance if not for the fact they were training knives. His first friend since Kacchan.

Then he served Twice while volunteering at a soup kitchen.

Twice was blunt but easy to talk to. He was a good ear, and a even better guy when it came to making Doubles to spar with. Twice was the one who taught Izuku on how to handle more then one opponent.

The last was Spinner.

The computer guy, he and Izuku spent hours debating while coding. Talking about morals and values. Integrity and why heros would do certain things (they are human. Everyone is human)

Until they all disappeared.

Then he thought them dead

Then came the Slime villain

Then came One For All

As he cleaned for it, he kept amazing pace. Little voices telling him that hey, don't push yourself like that. His eyes stony thinking about Big sis.

Yagi wants to help. He had the same look after... Nana.

They will both need all the help they can get soon

The League is Formed. And most? Have No Choice. But they won't fail the kid that reached out to them.

For this is White Lilies and Mentors. A Tragic Office Comedy. And a whole lot of found family and pain

[jechristine]

It's probably an unpopular opinion, but I am very frustrated right now, so the only thing I can scream in my head is,,,,,,, Can Harry please shut up for awhile. Jesus let Meghan take the wheel for a bit. I started to see the tides turn for them when South Park made fun of them. It's like it opened the floodgates for people to laugh at him.

And it's not me saying shut up for a while because I want to steal his voice. I just don't think he is savvy at this. It feels like all the recent wounds have been self-inflicted by him and it just frustrates me I guess. Especially starting when he tried to say they never claimed racism. He's also appearing weak in court. Can we just see more Meghan and less Harry for a bit is all.

I’m never going to turn down an opportunity to see more Meghan. But I think, if we were to see more of her, we’d also see the character assassination ramp up again. The UK media is trained mostly on Harry atm because he’s the one in the limelight since Spare and the court cases. But they haven’t forgotten Meghan and they’re ready.

I didn’t follow the South Park & fallout (I hate that show), but I did notice a turn around Spare, of course. Unfortunately that Spanish bookstore released the book a few days early and the UK media took the opportunity to rip a few quotes completely out of context, which had the effect of making the whole book seem preposterous. In many ways it is preposterous to listen to Harry’s complaints when many people in the UK and the west are feeling the brunt of several decades of stagnant wages and rising prices. That context doesn’t invalidate the wrongs done to Harry, but it does influence how they’ll be received. His vendetta against the media—the execution of which he’s described as his true vocation—is very valid. But he’s carrying the torch for quite an elite group of people so it’s hard to maintain broad public sympathy. And the media and BRF is relentless against him, the former more than ever since he’s waged war on them directly.

And yes he’s been stupid about calling out his family’s “unconscious bias”🙄🤢 He seems to be still completely unaware of the BRF’s basis in white supremacy, how I don’t know. I’m sure it would be painful to admit so much to himself, but it wouldn’t be as painful as being the victims of that racism, so it’s about time.

And I agree with you that Meghan is better out front, even if she’s not perfect. I do think it’s worth remembering that Meghan worked her way up from essentially nowhere. She’s self-made. Of course she has some privileges, and there’s always some luck involved, but she’s also naturally magnetic and smart and hard-working, and that’s a large part of how she made it even before she met Harry. Harry is just some guy who grew up in a State-endorsed cult. I like him, and he’s more charismatic with a bigger heart than the rest of that lot, but that’s not saying too much.

Idk what my conclusion even is. They might both lay low for a while, get their ducks in a row, and do a relaunch of Archewell with a renewed clarity of purpose and plan and the social media outreach to communicate it.

[ojcobsessed]

From a struggling addict in ‘The Haunting of Hill House’ to the guy in ‘The Invisible Man’ who tormented Elisabeth Moss, Oliver Jackson-Cohen’s roles the past few years have been mostly deeply flawed people.

Hey, casting agents, listen up. Oliver Jackson-Cohen is interested in lighter roles. That doesn't mean he hasn't enjoyed the darker, sometimes scarier fare he's mostly appeared in throughout the past few years — but his mother says he needs a break.

Mom's commentary came last year when Jackson-Cohen arrived in Vancouver to film the new series “Surface ” now streaming weekly on Apple TV+. She said to him, “'You're not going to play one of your sad boys, are you?'

"I went, ‘What?’ She said, 'You're always (expletive) sad. Do something light that I can go and enjoy watching,'" Jackson-Cohen laughed. “So that sort of stuck with me."

It's been a busy few years. Jackson-Cohen's recent career highlights include Netflix's “The Haunting of Hill House” series and its follow-up “The Haunting of Bly Manor." He also terrorized Elisabeth Moss in “The Invisible Man ” and played Dakota Johnson's controlling husband in “The Lost Daughter.” He did get a respite, however, in this summer's rom-com “Mr. Malcom's List," an experience he describes as “a joyful romp.”

In “Surface,” Jackson-Cohen stars opposite Gugu Mbatha-Raw as James, a husband desperately trying to keep the pretenses of a happy marriage afloat after an accident caused his wife, Sophie (Mbatha-Raw), to lose her long-term memory. The more James tries to masquerade past problems, the more suspicious and distant Sophie becomes.

“There’s something so interesting when someone’s sitting on a bunch of secrets,” he said. "That creates so much tension, and if you’re not allowed to say certain things and you’re holding so much back, it can be read in a multitude of different ways. Hopefully it’s worked and it does come across as overprotective or controlling or whatever it is — or, sinister. But hopefully, you know, as the show goes on and the layers are sort of peeled, you realize what is all underneath that.”

Veronica Webb [sic], the creator and showrunner of “Surface," says it's the balance of mystique and likeability that makes “something super special about Olly's performance" in the series.

“He’s got an intensity that can feel very dangerous, but also extremely charismatic and magnetic and draw you in. I remember the first time we got to meet in person. There was a song playing and he started doing a little shoulder dance and I was like, ‘That is the most goofy, charming thing on earth.’ And we ended up writing it (in a scene,) he seems a little bit menacing in the subtext, but also has this immense charm to him. I think that’s the duality of James.”

Jackson-Cohen says he finds that playing flawed people is therapeutic.

“I don’t know what it says about me, but I’m drawn to the pain that’s in people. I find the release of that incredibly comforting, which sounds so messed up. It really does feel like an outlet which sounds like a complete and utter actor."

For now, Jackson-Cohen is back in Vancouver filming a series for Prime Video called “Wilderness” opposite Jenna Coleman, which he describes as “not lighthearted at all.” Next up, he's hoping there will be another season of “Surface" which he enjoys, in part, because he's known Mbatha-Raw for years.

“I did one of my first ever jobs with Gugu when I was 19. We did like an episode of some very questionable BBC thing, We've known each other since then, and she's such a wonderful human being."

[cruelsxmmcr]

♡ A HOT NEW BOMBSHELL ENTERS THE VILLA...

DYLAN MICHAELS (cismale, he/him, mason gooding) is 24 and a SURFING AND SWIMMING INSTRUCTOR & PART-TIME BARTENDER from SYDNEY, AUSTRALIA. they are known as THE ICARIAN because they are JOVIAL, but if things kick off, they can be a bit SELF-INDULGENT. they’re BISEXUAL and describe their type as PASSIONATE, LOYAL AND ALWAYS DOWN FOR A GOOD TIME. from their time in the villa, they’re hoping to find LOVE. (a collection of surfboards, sunrises and sunsets on the beach, golden retriever energy, and the sound of loud and sincere laughter)

STATISTICS

NAME: Dylan Nathan Michaels

AGE: 24

BIRTHDAY: August 14, 1998

ZODIAC SIGN: Leo sun, Taurus moon, Virgo rising

GENDER & PRONOUNS: Cismale, he/him

FACE CLAIM: Mason Gooding

SIBLINGS: Callie Michaels (twin sister)

OCCUPATION: Swimming and surfing instructor & part-time bartender

PLACE OF BIRTH: Sydney, Australia

SEXUAL ORIENTATION: Bisexual

HEIGHT: 6′2″ (1.88 m)

BACKGROUND

Dylan and Callie Michaels were born to a young couple whose relationship deteriorated shortly after they were born. It didn’t matter that their mother left. It didn’t matter that they never knew her. Their dad loved them enough and raised them in a loving environment, working to ensure they had everything they needed, despite the humble income he made as a fisherman. They had their grandparents too, who had been more like parents to the twins. It was enough.

He would often go with his dad fishing, eventually helping him out. The twins grew up attached by the hip. They took surfing lessons together, growing better and better, and they accompanied their dad when he went fishing. In a nutshell, the twins were lovers of the ocean, just like their dad.

Just like his dad, Dylan grew up beloved by everyone that knew him. He thrived in high school. He got good grades, had lots of friends, and was captain of the swimming team. On the side, he participated in local surfing competitions for fun and extra money, alongside working part-time jobs here and there to help his dad out. As much as he loved to surf, going pro was not in his agenda, preferring to keep it as a hobby.

He knew he wanted to go to college. In fact, he was excited for it, excited to major in something specific, and excited for the college life everyone talked about. It took him some time to decide on a major, but with his good grades and good extracurriculars, he was able to secure financial aid and pick somewhere good. He ended up going for marine biology in the Victoria University of Wellington in New Zealand. It made his grandparents proud, seeing as his dad never got a degree. That was the first time the twins separated. While it took some adapting to be away from his sister, he ended up thriving during college, too, his golden retriever energy and bright, friendly, and fun attitude serving as a magnet for friends.

After college, he returned to Sydney, just in time for Callie to leave. He shortly got a job as a marine biologist. He didn’t enjoy it as much as he thought he would, despite the good income, mainly bothered by the 9-to-5 lifestyle. He didn’t last long before quitting and ended up taking a job as a surf and swim instructor during the day, and bartender at night. He’s always been one to enjoy doing multiple things at once.

He reunited with Callie when their grandmother had a health scare last year. It was good having his sister back and it felt like old times. She then informed him about a chance to be on a dating show, and Dylan, never really one to say no to things, thought it’d be a fun idea. One, he loved love. He believed in it. He believed he had a soulmate out there and has always been ready to find them. He’s experienced being in love multiple times before and loved the feeling. Two, it was with his twin sister. So, it was a no-brainer for Dylan.

PERSONALITY

Dylan, in a nutshell, is a nice guy. He’s friendly, charismatic, jovial, chill, enjoys banter and flirtation and is always down for a good time. He tends to avoid and stay away from confrontations as much as possible so as to not ruin his mood. He can’t stay still for long, always must be doing something and keeping busy somehow. He self-indulges, something he doesn’t realize is a problem, and jumps headfirst, thinks later, and tends to follow his emotions and instincts rather than logic when making decisions.          

[muselogy]

hi! can you share some maneater affirmations and just men falling in love with you after they see you once and cannot forget about you for the rest of their lives? Thank you, I love your blog!

yes bby ofc! i will make use of your ask and make a masterpost i was thinking about for a while so here we go

SHE’S A MANEATER!: how to make every man fall in love with you!

affirmations:

“i’m the ultimate maneater”

“every man that crosses my path is mesmerized by my beauty”

“i have an unmatched alluring beauty no man can scape my enchant”

“i have every single man at their knees for me”

“my magnetism is indescribable”

“it takes just one glance to have everyone in love with me”

vaunting:

“how can i be so fucking alluring? i have every man i want at their knees for me! no man can scape my enchant, they look at me once and they’re already head over heels for me and i have all of them making lines to get to know me. i am literally the most gorgeous and charismatic woman in the whole world and ugh i have every man i want so easily. how can i be so wanted? this guys can’t stop thinking about me, i be in their head 24/7 for the rest of their lives they are so in love with me. i’m a legend, i’m unforgettable, no words can describe my magnetism.”

other ideas that can help (?):

make a playlist for your maneater era 😉

a moodboard can help you to visualize tour concept

watch movies with characters that inspire you to be the ultimate maneater (for me, any megan fox movie, mr and mrs smith…)

use some clothing piece, underwear, accessories or perfume that make you embody your maneater self

every time you walk on the streets think “this mans are so in love with me, they looking at me thinking they’ve never fell in love so fast” “how can all of this man be so magnetized by me? i’m really out of this world”

the alter ego method by @dreamglrlsworld can help wonders with this

hope this helped at least a bit 😘💋

[dorkgelic]

sᴜɴ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ʜᴏᴜsᴇs!!

(sun in the houses)

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hey guys! I thought i’d make a sun in the houses series, I'm not sure if I will make a sun in the signs series because I'm pretty sure everyone understands that already, however, if you guys want that i’d be happy to make one!

Sun in the 1st house: People with the sun in the 1st house don't wear a mask when they meet new people, they can be very generous but authoritative at the same time. These people can be highly confident, very expressive, and they often listen to their heart. They tend to be overbearing so a creative outlet would do them so much good! In their appearance, they can have bigger features, lighter hair, tall, and smooth skin. I've noticed that they might not care what people think about them!They also have a strong will and determination! Sun in 1st house individuals can be described as loud, optimistic, bright, eye-catching, regal, a natural leader, noble, bold, radiant, and magnetic. 

Sun in 2nd house: Sun in the 2nd house individuals are really humble! They’re not a show-off and are very generous to the people they love. People may take advantage of them (money-wise.) They focus a lot on their personal wealth, may be addicted to spending money, and may have eye problems. Very money-oriented & they identify with their possessions a lot. These people can also be very wealthy, and are amazing friends. Their pride comes from what they own! It’s amazing to me how hard these people work! They’re always thinking of ways to make money. Sun in the 2nd house individuals can be described as strong, courageous, stubborn, loving, determined, warm-hearted, calm, stable, astute, and trustworthy.

Sun in the 3rd house: People with the sun in the 3rd house are very mentally self-aware, they probably like socializing and love drama. They are very good talkers and love learning new things, they can be manipulative as well. These people can be very analytical and open to new things, they also never give up. I’ve noticed they love to express themselves, and their mind is very active! They don’t really listen to other people’s opinions either. They can be nosy & extremely clever! Sun in the 3rd house individuals can be described as adaptable, easy-going, impulsive, picky, intelligent, open-minded, courageous, social, and curious.

Sun in the 4th house: Sun in the 4th house individuals love their family so much! Family is literally everything for them,, they respect tradition and their personality blossoms as they get older! When they do get older, they want a very calm & beautiful home. These people like things that remind them of their childhood/past, they hate fighting with family members & close friends. They’re most likely proud of their heritage and can be sensitive!! I’ve noticed that they might feel like the protector of their home in a way? They are mostly focused on their family life! Their mood most likely depends on everything going on in their home-life. Sun in the 4th house individuals can be described as loyal, protective, intuitive, nurturing, loving, goofy, charismatic, imaginative, curious and moody.

Sun in the 5th house: People with the sun in the 5th house are literally so fun to be around, They may be talented in a way (singing, dancing, acting, painting, sports) They can also be very creative & bold! Their ego shines really bright as well. These people may be good at expressing themselves and can be cocky, maybe even a show-off too! They have a generous & loving personality. These people are very intelligent and focus their energy on people who actually like spending time with them. Sun in the 5th house individuals can be described as confident, loyal, ambitious, enthusiastic, impatient, possessive, dramatic, drama-adoring, arrogant and stubborn.

Sun in the 6th house: Sun in the 6th house individuals are really observant and focus on the details, they like to do things their way and hate being bossed around, these people also love challenges and know how to work hard for what they want! I’ve noticed that some people with 6h sun are kinda fidgety with their fingers. They can have workaholic tendencies, and can deal with a lot of anxiety. Very ambitious and like to be in charge! They love to improve themselves in any way possible, And like to be recognized for what they do to help other people! Sun in 6th house individuals can be described as creative, patient, stubborn, kind, picky, clever, practical, sympathetic, modest, sensible and extremely curious.

Sun in the 7th house: People with sun in the 7th house learn about themselves through personal relationships, they’ve probably had multiple relationships throughout their life, and can be really indecisive & may put others needs before their own, they care a lot about other peoples opinions and may FEAR rejection. These people can fall in love easily, love the feeling of being in love, and lack self-respect. They may find it easy to relate to people, are good entertainers, and can actually compliment people very well! As a kid, they might have felt “unseen.” Sun in 7th house individuals can be described as charming, fair, social, smart, flirty, graceful, kind, stylish, care-free, and romantic.

Sun in the 8th house: Sun in the 8th house individuals are always changing themselves, wether it’s their looks or personality! At times, they can feel misunderstood, as if no one really knows them. These people love being intimate, and they crave that passion! There might be a side of them that they keep hidden, it can be like the more “darker” side. They have a lot of trauma, These people have actually gone through a lot of things throughout their life so this actually makes them very wise and compassionate! They aren’t scared of anything, have a hard time expressing their deeper emotions, and can be pretty spooky? Sun in the 8th house individuals can be described as determined, loyal, brave, secretive, resentful, intense, self-reliant, competitive, wise, and independent.

Sun in the 9th house: People with the sun in the 9th house can be very bright, they are grateful for even the little things in life, and are extremely joyful and loving people! They love exploring new things, and can be very religious. These people may be attracted to foreigners, very full of life, and love teaching people things! They are very smart & can see the “bigger picture” they might like reading and love to hear other people’s thoughts on different topics! They also aren’t that “judgy.” Sun in the 9th house individuals can be described as optimistic, open-minded, careless, humorous, energetic, blunt, passionate, adventurous, idealistic, and sophisticated.

Sun in the 10th house: Sun in the 10th house individuals were taught at a young age that their public image was very important , they are over-achievers, and the center of attention. These people can have a problem with authority figures, while also having a very strong worth ethic! Many people may look up to someone who has this placement, they are seen as very responsible & hardworking, reliable too! They aim for success and won’t accept anything other than that, this placement can also make for a very influential person. Sun in the 10th house individuals can be described as ambitious, organized, intelligent, goal-oriented, materialistic, disciplined, serious, patient, respectful, and honest.

Sun in the 11th house: People with the sun in the 11th house are very “unique”, they can be really likable and popular, as well as good with technology. They like being surrounded with people & have a strong desire to reach certain goals. These people would love to make the world a better place, and want to be the best version of themselves. They also may put a lot of their focus on their social life. Sun in the 11th house individuals can be described as original, free-spirited, open-minded, stubborn, direct, friendly, creative, approachable, aloof and independent.

Sun in the 12th house: Sun in the 10th house individuals are very compassionate and giving, as well as emotional. Their identity’s may be confusing to them, & might need time for themselves a lot. These people have an intense imagination, and a lot of people may not be able to see their “true”personality. They find pleasure in helping people, and love being spiritual. Sun in the 12th house individuals can be described as creative, gracious, intuitive, overly trusting, romantic, sympathetic, devoted, forgiving, moody, and artistic.

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This took so much longer then I originally expected, I’m extremely sorry I have not posted in a few months!

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the many faces of tom riddle, part 2

 -you dislike frank dillane’s portrayal of tom riddle only because you don’t think he’s attractive-

FULL DISCLAIMER THAT THIS IS JUST MY OPINION OF A CHARACTER WHO DOESN’T HAVE THE STRONGEST CANON CHARACTERIZATION, AND THUS ALL THIS IS BASED ON MY CONCEPTUALIZATION (and this time, featuring a bit of armchair child psych from a student).

Wait, don’t clutch your pearls just yet. Compose yourself.

I am about to explain why it’s not actually that bad, and Dillane’s portrayal is vastly underappreciated.

I definitely agree that his portrayal comes off as ‘creepier’. It’s not helped by the stylistic decisions in the scene -- the smeary, green filter gives the scene a sinister quality. 

Even Slughorn looks suspect here, which is somewhat appropriate, given that he is complicit in this crime. 

Again, this scene is very much intended to be slightly off.

You’ll notice (and I’ll discuss this again when I talk about Coulson’s portrayal) that Dillane is almost always shot from at least slightly below, which makes the lower third of his face look bigger (and thus more menacing). The lighting also makes his eyes glow in a really unnatural way. There’s an echo-y effect to make his voice (and not Slughorn’s) sound unnerving.

People talk about how Coulson would have looked in this scene, and if he was filmed in the same way (monotone, smeary/shadowy filter, and always from below), he’d look a bit creepy, too.

But all of this, imo, is for a pretty good reason. Slughorn isn’t the POV character. Harry is. Harry is learning about how a young Lord Voldemort wheedled the secret of Horcruxes out of an unsuspecting teacher. Unlike in COS, he expects Riddle to be evil. And, so, Harry’s new perception of Tom Riddle literally colors how we perceive him.

Take this shot, for example: he does that head-tilt thing that Coulson does, and it’s actually... kind of... cute???

Imagine Dillane filmed from slightly above, like Coulson usually is, and it looks even more innocent. (I mean, come on, he does not look like he’s killed four people, does he?) It’s not hard to imagine teachers being taken in by this kind of act.

Even that little smirk he does when the camera (aka, Harry’s gaze) pans in, is for Harry’s benefit. No one else noticed that. 

However, I still fail to find this creepy, like, at all. Yes, it’s a fake smile, but he’s portraying a different side of Tom Riddle to Coulson. Whereas, in COS, he’s in his vindictive, murderous element, where he’s free to express himself, in this scene, Tom Riddle is doing what he does best -- manipulating and managing appearances. 

This entire scene is an act. And because Harry knows it’s an act, it should look a bit stilted. 

From the Hepzibah Smith scene in the books: Voldemort smiled mechanically and Hepzibah simpered.

So, Harry is pretty adept at parsing Tom’s fake expressions.

But just look at the expressiveness in his face: he goes from brooding, he blinks, and his entire face changes to this charming (fake) smile. 

At the risk of sounding elitist, I’m a bit tired of seeing the word ‘psychopath’, which is not an actual medical diagnosis recognised by any psychological or psychiatric institution, being tossed about, especially with reference to Tom Riddle (and from a neuroscience perspective, it’s doubly annoying). There’s no such thing as ‘insanity’ or ‘psychopathy’ or being ‘crazy.’

-although I use it too a shorthand in conversation to distinguish ‘canon’ Tom from his ‘softer’ OOC counterparts, I really shouldn’t-

Unfortunately, I’ve seen the ‘psychopath’ comment used time-and-time again as an excuse or a full explanation of ‘why Tom Riddle went evil’ (JKR in fact, has made a weird comment in an interview, basically saying that ‘psychopaths can’t be redeemed or learn adaptive coping skills’ or whatever), which really just goes to show the lack of understanding and compassion when personality disorders, especially, are concerned.

But what I like most about the opening of this scene, actually, is that first, listless expression. And this is where we get slightly into headcanon, but Tom Riddle is the opposite of a happy, mentally healthy teenager. By Dumbledore’s own admission, he has no real friends. He has no parental figures, no real attachments. Yes, he might derive some pride or enjoyment from being good at magic and top of his class and all that, but I really don’t think even Tom finds that truly fulfilling. There is nothing that makes him happy. 

In fact, although some might perceive it as ‘creepy’, I think that listless expression is an accurate window into Tom’s psyche. 

I know people aren’t big on Freud, but I think that he does make some interesting points (also, cut the guy some slack for being relatively open-minded for the Victorian Era, and inventing psychoanalysis and while yes he did say some sexist stuff, good luck finding a field of science that isn’t male-focused and makes crazy generalizations about women, especially back in the day) about the possible origins of thanatophobia, the fear of death.

According to Freud, thanatophobia is a disguise for a deeper source of concern -- he did not believe that people were capable of conceptualizing their own death to that extent. Instead, he believed that this phobia was caused by unresolved childhood conflicts that the sufferer cannot come to terms with or express emotion towards.

Now, I know Freud almost always attributes mental distress to childhood experiences, but I think in this case, it really has some merit.

According to attachment theory, the basis of how we form attachments in adulthood is dictated by learning it from experiences with caregivers in the first two years of life. We know Tom was born in an orphanage, and that he didn’t cry much as a baby, and subsequently, probably received very little attention. Compounded with possible genetic factors and his caregivers being afraid or wary of his magical abilities, he later struggled to form attachments because of this -- I would actually go so far as to say that by the time Dumbledore meets him, Tom Riddle is severely depressed. 

And that flat affect and anhedonia, I think, comes over very well in Dillane’s portrayal. There’s kind of this resignation -- a very deep sadness and loneliness to his character.

Of course, he doesn’t derive any comfort or fulfillment from human interaction, because (to borrow the description from the Wikipedia article on ‘Reactive attachment disorder’, which Tom meets all the criteria for) he has a “grossly disturbed internal working model of relationships.” In other words, he is unresponsive to all offers of attachment because of this unacknowledged trauma.

(You could arguably class Tom as having an avoidant attachment style, but I think in his case the trauma and its effect on him are severe enough to call it disordered.)

RAD isn’t particularly well-characterized (especially neurologically) and quite new in the literature, but here are some links if anyone is interested in doing a bit of digging: Link 1 | Link 2 | Paper 1 | Paper 2

And, instead of trying to resolve this conflict in a healthy way, or at least recognize that this is why he can’t be happy and try to learn how to cope from there, he (a) represses the desire for human attachment and (b) funnels that negative emotion into being the fault of Death, the Grim Reaper (again, to borrow Freudian terms). 

And we all know how that turned out...

(And now, this should go without saying, but psychoanalyzing fictional characters has nothing to do with assigning a morality to mental disorders. Mental illness is neither a cause nor an excuse for criminal behavior -- in the same way that the cycle of violence is a phenomenon, not an excuse. Tom Riddle did not become a genocidal murderer because, in common parlance, he was a ‘psychopath’ -- he was not necessarily ‘predisposed’ to evil and could just as easily chosen to not follow the path that he did -- instead, he willingly made poor choices. This is a descriptive analysis, not a justification -- a ‘how’, not a ‘why’)

Here’s a Carl Jung quote that articulates it better:

“I am not what happened to me, I am what I choose to become.”

Yes, he’s a bit stiff (and a lot more formal than in COS during his *conversation* with Harry). But, and here comes the controversial bit, this is appropriate for a portrayal of a schoolboy in the 1940s. The upright posture is accurate -- respectful, polite -- everything Tom Riddle would have been expected to be (and even Coulson, in that scene with Dumbledore in COS, is quite stiff). Even the way he looks at Slughorn and maintains eye contact is very *respectful.*

And, Dillane (I think he’s seventeen or eighteen here) actually looks like a believable sixteen-year-old. I’m sorry, I love Coulson’s portrayal as well, but he looks around nineteen in COS; so in HBP, he probably would have looked at least twenty-two or so. (Sorry, not sorry).

This may be influenced by my own interpretation of the character (because I imagine Tom always looks young for his age, and Dillane fits that archetype, but I don’t think that’s very popular), but I think young Tom Riddle is supposed to be *cute* and a bit stiff/shy/awkward (being charming and awkward is very much possible), if you consider the way Dippet and Slughorn treat him. 

To support this, he says very few words to Hepzibah Smith (in the book, that scene’s not in the movie), and is very... bashful and coy during the whole interaction? I think yes, he’s charismatic, but he’s not loud, suave, openly flirtatious or particularly verbose. Tom Riddle should have a quiet magnetism, and to me, that came across in Dillane’s portrayal.

"I'd be glad to see anything Miss Hepzibah shows me," said Voldemort quietly, and Hepzibah gave another girlish giggle.

...

"Are you all right, dear?"

"Oh yes," said Voldemort quietly. "Yes, I'm very well. ..."

Even the ‘ugly, greedy look’ described in the books, when Slughorn starts spilling his secrets, is there. This is how he’s supposed to look! Slughorn glimpses it, but doesn’t understand its significance. Harry does. 

“Slughorn looked deeply troubled now: He was gazing at Riddle as though he had never seen him plainly before, and Harry could tell that he was regretting entering into the conversation at all.”

Remember the context of this moment, as well: He’s just discovered how to create multiple Horcruxes. Excuse him for looking a bit creepy (if not now, then when?).

Here’s two direct quotes of Harry’s impression of Tom Riddle in that scene: 

“But Riddle's hunger was now apparent; his expression was greedy, he could no longer hide his longing.”

“Harry had glimpsed his face, which was full of that same wild happiness it had worn when he had first found out that he was a wizard, the sort of happiness that did not enhance his handsome features, but made them, somehow, less human. . . .”

Tom Riddle’s Horcruxes are a direct metaphor for his refusal to allow himself to heal from his trauma -- instead, he continues to inflict destruction on himself and others.

His desire to continue creating more Horcruxes sort of resounds with the fact that self-harm can also become a compulsion.

I’d also like to digress a bit to discuss the Gaunt Ring, while we’re at it. While we’ve talked about his attachment issues in general, this discussion is particularly pertinent to father figures. And while Tom’s attachment issues are extensive, I think there’s ample evidence that as a child, he craved acknowledgement and acceptance from a father figure -- the man who gave him the only thing Tom truly owned -- his name. He would have had a vaguely defined mother figure in Mrs. Cole, perhaps.

"You see that house upon the hillside, Potter? My father lived there. My mother, a witch who lived here in this village, fell in love with him. But he abandoned her when she told him what she was.... He didn’t like magic, my father ... He left her and returned to his Muggle parents before I was even born, Potter, and she died giving birth to me, leaving me to be raised in a Muggle orphanage ... but I vowed to find him ... I revenged myself upon him, that fool who gave me his name ... Tom Riddle. ..."

We know that by June of 1943 (COS flashback) Tom has already uncovered the truth of his parentage; he knows he is the Heir of Slytherin via the Gaunt line, and he describes himself to Dippet as ‘Half-blood, sir. Witch mother, Muggle father.’

In Part 1, I discussed the high probability that as a presumed ‘Mudblood’, Tom Riddle was treated rather poorly in Slytherin House. But by this scene in the fall of 1943, he is surrounded by a group of adoring hangers-on. Why?

In my opinion; the Gaunt Ring. We know that Tom stopped wearing it after school, so its sentimental value couldn’t have been that great. We know he likes to collect objects (which I believe stems from his attachment issues -- he seeks comfort in things instead of other people).

Signet rings (such as the one belonging to Tutankhamun seen above) were used to stamp legal documents and such, in order to certify someone’s identify -- like an e-certificate, if you will. Like Tutankhamun’s ring, the Gaunt Ring bears an identifying symbol -- Marvolo Gaunt tells us proudly that it bears the Peverell family crest.

By the Middle Ages, anyone of influence, including the nobility, wore a signet ring. Rings in antiquity were auspicious -- they signified power, legitimacy, and authority. And so, I believe that all the Sacred Twenty-Eight families would have worn these, too.

And so, bearing the Gaunt Ring would have established Tom Riddle, symbolically and in the eyes of the Sacred Twenty-Eight (his future supporters and followers), as the legitimate heir to the House of Gaunt. This is why, I believe, Tom coveted the ring as soon as he saw it -- not just because it was a family heirloom, and not just because he thought it was a pretty toy for his collection.

(He curses it so that no one else but him can wear the Gaunt Ring safely.)

This is why, to make the legitimization literal as well as symbolic, Tom murders his father and grandparents. It’s not just an act of vindictive, murderous rage due to his perception of being rejected by his father (although it is that, too). And so, Tom, abandoning his search for a father figure (and possibly also giving up on the possibility to allow himself to heal from his own personal trauma rather than continue to inflict it on others), ‘cleanses’ his bloodline, to make himself truly legitimate. It’s rather telling that instead of affirming his legitimacy as a Riddle, which would have put him in line for a nice inheritance, and hey -- money is money -- (thus accepting his half-blood status), he simply kills them all. He has done all the murdering he needs to become immortal (and he hasn’t had the discussion about multiple Horcruxes yet); but yet, he does it again. Frightening stuff. 

(Just look how the others look at Tom. All but the one to his left -- possibly Nott, Rosier, or Mulciber -- have their torsos turned towards him. Their attention is on him, while he knowingly regards the viewer/Harry. Tom seems a little uncomfortable with the attention.).

“And there were the half-dozen teenage boys sitting around Slughorn with Tom Riddle in the midst of them, Marvolo's gold-and-black ring gleaming on his finger.”

...

“Riddle smiled; the other boys laughed and cast him admiring looks.”

...

“Tom Riddle merely smiled as the others laughed again. Harry noticed that he was by no means the eldest of the group of boys, but that they all seemed to look to him as their leader.”

The ‘gang’ are true hangers-on; Tom doesn’t seem to pay them much attention. 

So, if not via careful flattery or charisma, the attraction must be status.

And perhaps yet more telling...

"I don't know that politics would suit me, sir," he said when the laughter had died away. "I don't have the right kind of background, for one thing." “A couple of the boys around him smirked at each other. Harry was sure they were enjoying a private joke, undoubtedly about what they knew, or suspected, regarding their gang leader's famous ancestor.”

That, in my opinion, is as good as we’re going to get as proof that Tom’s shiny new signet ring (and by extension, his new status) made a big impression on his fellow students.

So, when he returns to Hogwarts, he is ‘pureblood’. He is cleansed of his Muggle roots, and becomes the legitimate heir of the House of Gaunt, now well on his way to becoming Lord Voldemort...

Watch the scene again, with a critical eye, and imagine Slughorn’s perspective, instead of Harry’s. There’s nothing creepy about Tom Riddle... unless you know what he is...

Strip away all the effects of Harry’s gaze (and notice, here he’s still looking at Harry), and he’s quite the charmer, actually.

(I will concede that I don’t like the promotional images where they have him looking like he’s up to no good. And I do wish he blinked once in a while.)

My challenge to you: Rewatch the scene with an open mind, and let me know if you agree that Dillane’s portrayal comes off as depressive rather than ‘creepy.’ And if not, why do you dislike his portrayal?

[nyancatkuroo]

Smoke Sesh Blues Pt.1

Pt.1 Terushima/Kunimi/Kenma x Reader ll Weed 

Pt.2 Saeko x Reader ll Molly + Alcohol 

INTOXICATED a  Miki Mouse Whorehouse collab.    

A/N: Here is my second collab fic for the whorehouse and I couldn’t be more excited! This is a Dark Content fic, so 18+ please dot not interact or you will be blocked.  (This one doesn’t have any NSFW in it but it doesn’t mean I want a bunch of minors interacting with my content).

TW: mentions of alcohol, weed smoking, mentions of shrooms.

WC: 1.5k

Sitting across the room was the most beautiful woman you’d ever seen, well, beautiful might not be the best word to describe her.  Ethereal, and transcendent might’ve been the words you’d use to describe a really, really attractive woman, but Tanaka Saeko was not just any attractive woman.  

Where beautiful meets savagely charismatic, ethereal simply wasn’t enough to describe the sheer magnetism that the young blond woman exuded, simply sitting there, grinning from ear to ear.  Her sharp, dark eyes and toothy grin hit you straight in the guts, and that’s when you fell, hard and fast, and painfully.  

Next to the blonde was a young woman equally as attractive as Saeko herself, and if Saeko wasn’t the definition of ethereal, the raven-haired girl sure was.  With a pale and delicate face that screamed of poise and grace, a criminally sexy mole on the left side of her chin, and blue eyes that made a chill of pleasure run down your spine, Shimizu Kiyoko was the epitome of everything you weren’t.  

Saeko had her right arm around the younger girl, hugging her close, as if afraid she’d run off.  “I’d take precautions too, if that was me,” you thought.  Kiyoko was one of the smartest and prettiest girls in campus after all, and despite not knowing her personally, having talked to her only once or twice because of mutual classes, it wasn’t hard to understand why she was one of the most sought after girls. 

Well, that and the very amusing reputation preceding her since she entered university two years ago.  The thing was, the dark-haired girl wasn’t Saeko’s girlfriend, but she was definitely intertwined with a Tanaka. Saeko’s younger brother to be exact, Tanaka Ryuunosuke.  

The two were rumored to have been going out since Kiyoko’s high school graduation.  Despite having let it be known pretty early on in her academic life that she had a boyfriend, with a younger partner still in high school, all the hungry frat boys up for a challenge and every business major in a radius mile who thought she “deserved better”, apparently made it their mission to woo her.  It made for pretty good entertaining drama to watch, but your heart went out for her. 

Based on what Saeko told you, keeping you updated on the family drama, the first year was really rough on the young couple.  With her younger brother finally on campus this year, though, overcoming all the annoying dudes was easier done a job at two.  Especially with a barking protective idiot and Kiyoko’s punching one-liners, which you wouldn’t expect coming from someone so calm and collected.  Perhaps it wasn’t that surprising, apparently, from what you’d heard from Saeko, Kiyoko’s comedic timing was unmatched.

And okay, you obviously knew Saeko, and if Kiyoko wasn’t her girlfriend, what was the big fuss all about?  Jealousy, simple as that. It was 10 pm on a Friday night, which meant parties around campus were raging from one hard to get in-club to home parties and make-shift park dancefloors. Fridays were made for debauchery and every single student who didn’t work a night shift was accounted for, every student except one, Ryu.  

Saeko’s younger brother, a baldy with a lively personality, was running late because of his group of friends.  Something about “Noya wrecking havoc once again” and “the trio trying to fix things, again”.  You didn’t know what the issue was but it was a problem for you because that meant that Saeko had to act as guard dog for the younger girl, which meant less time spent making you feel all sorts of sinful little pleasures.  

Saeko wasn’t your girlfriend either, which is why you didn’t have that close connection to Kiyoko.   You guys were simply friends with benefits, lots and lots of benefits that included midday brunches, and late-night movie and make-out seshs, but still, only friends with the hall pass.  

You were making eyes at the blond, desperately trying to make her notice you, amongst the hordes of horny 20-somethings year old guys trying to get at Kiyoko, but without luck. Tired of waiting and wanting to actually start enjoying yourself, you decided to go explore the rest of the house the party you currently were in was hosted. Leaving the living room, you ventured into a surprisingly big kitchen where you spotted Terushima Yuuji running his little side hustle. With a hum and an easy smile plastered on your face, you made your way towards the young man.  

You knew Terushima from years ago. When you and your friend Issei started venturing into the wondrous world of drugs and alcohol, he mentioned how he knew this guy from a rival volleyball team who was supposedly the best plug in the area, which Terushima was.  The shrooms you bought off of him never disappointed and the weed he provided really was that good fucking kush. Tonight though, you felt needy and wanted to let loose, so molly it was.  

You put your hand on Terushima’s shoulder, making him aware of your presence, and he turned around, a slight frown on his face before he recognized you and greeted you with the sickest bro shoulder-bump-hand combo. You loved this dude so damn much. 

“So, what’s it gonna be this time my little pogchamp?”

With a grimace you pushed the young man’s face with your hand and laughed.

“You’ve got to stop watching your Tiktoks on Instagram, you’re like two months late to that trend my guy.”

“Ain’t no problem, when a king does right by his subjects the peasants don’t have a choice but to laugh along”, he grinned.

At that, you bursted out laughing, holding your belly because of how ridiculously funny that statement was. “Out of pocket, Teru, out of fucking pocket.”

With a whatever, and a roll of his eyes, Terushima asked what you wanted and gave you a few little pills that fit just right inside your jean pocket.  

“You know you’re the best.” Sending finger guns his way, you were about to leave, on a quest to find another interesting adventure, when Terushima called your name.

“Hey if you wait a couple minutes until I’m done here we can go smoke a few. Kunimi just bought this new bong and it’s pretty fucking sick, you’ll love it.”

With nothing better to do, you agreed and after a while, Terushima was done and the both of you left the kitchen and made your way to the second-floor, towards Kunimi’s room. When you arrived, the door to the room was closed but you could see the smoke filtering out of the red lit room, the people around too busy in their own affairs, or simply not caring enough, to notice the very obvious hot-box going on behind the closed room.  

When you got in, Doja Cat’s Kiss Me More was playing on loop, and you unsurprisingly found Kunimi and Kenma sharing the bong. The pair could outsmoke you any day, but you genuinely enjoyed their company.  

There was no one better than those two to have a chill yet feel-good smoke sesh with, cuddles and an infinite supply of munchies present every time. You sat next to Kenma and he immefiatley started nuzzling you, passing you the bong.  On the back, you could hear Kunimi telling Terushima he was being too loud and that he’d kick him out if his voice reached higher levels than Toad’s. Terushima was right, paired with the right weed, this bong was way too powerful and it only took you a couple of hits to start feeling.  

You laid down, Kenma still close to you, and started singing along, while playing with Kenma’s hair.  Yeah, this was definitely your definition of a good time, but despite how good you were feeling, and how warm the little guy you were cuddling with felt, you thought something was missing.  The pills in your pocket started feeling heavier, unease growing  inside of you.  Lost in your worry, you apparently started petting Kenma too roughly, if the kick in the knee he gave you was anything to go by.

“Sorry”, you mumbled, only to receive a small groan for an answer.  

You don’t know how long you stayed like that, cozied up on the floor with your friends, listening to Doja’s newest collab, but the moment was disturbed when a foreign source of light appeared.  Someone had opened the door and when you saw who it was, your heart nearly skipped a beat.  Fucking feelings.

With a gentle smile on her face, Saeko was looking at you with what, for a split second, you thought was fondness, but a moment later her eyes went back to their usual playful glee, and her toothy grin returned.  

“Ryu got here like an hour ago, I’ve been looking for you, but I see you don’t really need me to have a good time, hm?”

By that point, you felt more sleepy than high, but seeing the woman occupying your every thoughts appear out of nowhere, with what looked like heavenly light all around her, which was just some crusty hallway lighting, woke you up faster than you cared to admit. You kissed Kenma on the cheek, patted Kunimi on the head, and slapped Terushima on the shoulder as a goodbye, and before they could complain about the disturbance, you were out of the door.

[johns-prince]

I was reading Norman's biography of Mick Jagger the other day and at some point I realized that good old Mick had it BAD for John. They hung out a lot in the Lost Weekend and Mick seemed heartbroken when May told him John had gone back to Yoko. He was so upset that he talked to the press about it multiple times, whining about not having any access to John and that he was hiding behind Sean. Mick wasn't wrong, though. I was just very entertained by his reaction. Then there is this:

"Mick, as a result, had found himself in the—for him—highly unusual position of wanting to see someone but having his every friendly overture rebuffed.

From his sitting room window, he could see the Gothic rooftops of Lennon’s home, and would sometimes act out the part of a spurned girlfriend: “[John’s] right over there. Does he ever call me? Does he ever go out? No. Changes his phone number about every ten minutes. I’ve given up . . .” But there was no disguising how much this apparent indifference really hurt. Once or twice, he put aside the Tyranny of Cool sufficiently to leave Lennon a note with his own current phone number at the Dakota concierges’ desk, but no response ever came."

LOL "John is right over there. IS HE THINKING OF ME?" The thirst was real, you guys. I don't remember Mick being this sad about any of his women leaving him. Me thinks Johnny hit and quit it but someone fell in love, you see.

I agree, Mick sounds like a jilted lover/girlfriend here who just wants to be at least acknowledged. He was seriously upset about the fact that, when John went back to Yoko he knew that she didn’t like him. She thought he wasn’t worth John’s time and was a bad influence. Gotta remember, Mick and John had been friends since the sixties-- Mick was much closer to John then Paul, even.

Also talk about the gall because she was completely fine with John hanging out with the likes of Klein, Phil Spector, and Magic Alex... Like, talk about bad influences-- Phil fucking pointed a gun at John because he liked to freak John out and upset him. She liked these people. She approved of them for John. Yoko isn’t fully to blame, John also holds blame for how he’d treat people and just cut them off [even if he personally didn’t want too] but she encouraged John to cut ties with family and close, old friends just, like that.  

I feel for Mick. I honestly feel for anyone who loved John, it did seem trying at times. I mean, sometimes it’s not always easy for me to love John just as some crazed groupie... I could only imagine how intense and, confusing and exciting and, memorable it would have been to know him, personally, and get to love him personally. 

I personally don’t think anything serious happened between John and Mick. Kind of like how I believe nothing deeper then just, solid friendship was between John and Stu-- someone he could confide in, who wasn’t just Paul. 

Was there flirting between the two? Absolutely, though I find it to be a partially playful joking sort of flirting between friends, and partially with a serious edge to it. Libra’s are natural flirters, they often to do it unintentionally because it’s just, part of their personality. John most likely both an unintentional and intentional flirt, and his male friends weren’t left out on his teasing’s and naughty, playful behavior [specifically moreso open and direct about it in the 70s] 

But, I do think you’re right that Mick had it bad. Most male friends of John seemed to have it bad for him, in some way or another. Women and men loved John-- he was rather easy to love, despite how he’s painted and the sort of front he put up. As Paul said-- John was a loveable guy, everyone loved him, and he was right [though Paul usually only mentions everyone else when talking about loving John, deflects onto others at the same time but I digress] 

Even men who apparently thought of him a poky bastard seemed to inevitably be drawn to him, and like him [like David Bailey] 

He was loved, so, so much.

“The theory is that when John went off to Spain on holiday with Brian, that’s what it was all about - John trying to get his position clear as the leader of the group. Also, I’m sure Brian was in love with John. We were all in love with John, but Brian was gay so that added an edge.” Paul McCartney - Anthology

PAUL: “Well, I’m sure Brian was in love with John, I’m sure that’s absolutely right. I mean, everyone was in love with John; John was lovable, John was a very lovable guy.” [x]

“What did John Lennon see in me? I think outrageousness and being true to myself and not giving a fuck. We hit it off straight away, even though I was in complete awe of him. He was nothing else but kind to me. I never saw the other side of John, the Harry Nilsson drinking side of John, where he turned on a sixpence. I only saw the gentle, gorgeous side of John, and he was gentle not only to me but my parents, my band members, and I just fell in love with him.”

— Elton John [x]

“Nowhere can the caring side of John Lennon be documented more accurately than in his relationship with Malcolm Evans, the very tall and bespectacled man who became a regular as a road manager, along with Neil Aspinall, on the Beatles’ tours. Evans had a magnetic personality and was a favorite with reporters and the women who tagged along. His smile and charm could be deceptive; he would have done anything to protect the Beatles. At one point on the touring aircraft, while traveling from Jacksonville to Boston in 1964, a tired Mal Evans sat next to me in the rear of the aircraft with tears trickling down his face. I asked, “What’s the matter?” Mal answered, “John got kind of cross with me … just said I should go f— off. No reason, ya’ know. But I love the man. John is a powerful force. Sometimes he’s rough, if you know what I mean, man. But there’s no greater person that I know.” I never learned what the dispute was about, but I do know that a few minutes later, a sullen Lennon walked by and embraced Evans.” — Larry Kane [x]

“Sharing a twisted sense of humour and a penchant for mischief, Nilsson and Lennon were natural buddies. It was perhaps inevitable that the LA-dwelling singer would gravitate towards Lennon. Lennon clearly appreciated Nilsson’s edginess and was very likely looking for a male soulmate to fill the hole left by McCartney. For his part, Nilsson’s feelings for Lennon ran even deeper: ‘I really fell in love with him. He was all those things you wanted somebody to be.”

Man On The Run: Paul McCartney in the 1970s by Tom Doyle [x]

“But the acerbic John is the one we know and love, you know, because he was clever with it, so it was very attractive. But, for me, I have more than a slight affection for the John that I knew then, when we were first writing songs, when we would try and do things the old songwriters had done. I slightly regret the way John’s image has formed, and because he died so tragically it has become set in concrete. The acerbic side was there but it was only part of him. He was also such a sweet, lovely man – a really sweet guy. ””

— Paul McCartney, discussing John Lennon [x]

John was a charming man in his own right, charismatic, and funny. Having a good sense of humor is always attractive, and draws people to you. As Paul says, and Elton, John was kind, he was sweet and friendly. He wasn’t always this, Mr. Tough and aggressive, ripping into people with his sharp tongue. He was gentle, he could be gentle, in his own way. Warm, and loving. 

He had this ability to just... make you feel like you’ve known him longer then you actually have. Like you have some sort of, special relationship or connection with him-- that you were the only one who was close enough to see underneath his armor, to know him as intimately as anyone else ever could. 

Course, this was simply how many felt and wanted to be the reality[specifically men], when it wasn’t, not exactly. They didn't really know the real John, they didn't get to see him at his most sincere, when his beautiful armor was chipped away and he was standing naked and scared. He described himself like a chameleon when it came to social settings, when interacting with different individuals [friends], which honestly makes sense as a Libra [Gemini’s are just as guilty of this] 

They got to know a facet of John... Maybe they did get a glimpse of John here and there, but it’s just reality that John didn’t just, open up so easily to people like that. He didn’t like feeling vulnerable, and he had a habit of testing people’s loyalty and love for him [whether it had been consciously or not, I’m not always sure] because of the insecurities and doubt that one day, they’d turn on him or abandon him. 

Again, he had this way in making people [other men] feel as if they had an intimate and special connection with him. And maybe they did to varying degrees. John had a way to act open with others, without actually being open and vulnerable, or at least not fully. I’m not sure if I’m making sense lol

Only ones who I think ever got to know the real John, were Mimi(of course she raised him), Pete (friends since they were just peanuts), Cynthia somewhat, May got glimpses and wanted John to be himself and independent... Yoko to a degree (though she focuses on entirely pushing and talking about Brand John Lennon™)  

And who I know for a fact did, and does know John the most intimately, deeply, unabashedly, is Paul.

But anyway, speaking of being so very attractive, John was attractive. Like, many women and men found him exceedingly attractive, like this one male photographer who believed John was the most handsome out of the band;

“I think John was the best looking, actually. The refined nose.  He never went out of his way to be a disagreeable person.  He would be the one to go over and just sit and sign some little girl’s book...” 

Harry Benson, photographer who took the photo of the iconic pillow fight and other well known Beatle photos, talks about John. [x]

Then we have David Bailey, who described Paul, Ringo, and George as rather pleasant-- while describing John as being a fucker, a bit poky. 

And yet, it was John who David Bailey claimed to like, out of all of them. 

“I didn’t like the Beatles – I liked John ... John was a fucker. Paul was always the nicest guy in the world. George, he always seemed full of angst. Ringo always seemed Mr Nice Guy. But John was a bit poky; I liked him.” 

-- David Bailey Originally; published in the March 2014 issue of British GO magazine.

That’s honestly the only parts of the interview worth reading, Bailey is sort of a dickhead and clearly seems biased against Paul, and just The Beatles as a band in general, so [which is fascinating. Considering he might’ve been peeved towards Paul ever since John brought his partner along for that photoshoot because he didn’t want to go in alone lol]

Mick did love John, though in what way or in what varying degree, is up for discussion and personal conclusion. Just like how it’s up to interpretation and discussion how much and in what way David Bowie, Elton John, Harry Nilsson, Mal Evans, Billy Preston, and Brian Epstein loved John. 

But it’s clear as day that, in my opinion, they almost all seemed to have some sort of man-crush on him. A serious admiration. Harry Nilsson sounded like he was in a bro-mance with John [or at least he wanted to be in one with him]

Course we can’t forget Paul, but we all know that Paul loved John in such varying degrees, it’s truly impossible to label it. They’re soulmates, can’t really categorize the love between soulmates so easily. 

Anyway, point of this all; Mick definitely had it bad for John, but then again who didn’t? 

[pynkhues]

Do u have any fav characters from gg reboot? And what do u think of the show overall so far?

I think the best way to describe it would be that I'm getting a kick out of the Gossip Girl reboot, anon, haha.

I was 16 when the original series dropped, and I watched it live and it's a show that has a lot of issues, but it's one I have a lot of affection for. That said, I felt like I had thoroughly aged out of the demographic, haha, and wasn't planning on watching the reboot at all, but then I had a bit of a shit week and just wanted something that I knew would turn my brain off, and it was exactly the ticket.

Overall from the eps so far, I think it's deeply flawed and the teachers-are-gossip-girl plot is absolutely awful and very ill-thought out on a narrative level. My biggest issue with it though is it's use of the teacher x student trope and them sort of implying it's less icky because they're both guys (and scratch that, it's not two guys – it's a man and a boy), and the boy, Max, is the pursuer¬. I have a lot of Thoughts on that, and the teacher x student trope generally in YA TV, but that feels like a whole other thing, haha.

But otherwise! In delightful things! I'm actually enjoying a lot of the core kids! I like that they've given them a bigger friendship circle (a core seven instead of a core four) which has given the writers more opportunities to explore different dynamics, and that a lot of the core ones like Julien and Audrey, and Aki and Obie are steeped in genuinely kind and supportive friendships.

I actually quite like the conception of the Julien and Zoya relationship too, because I don't think we've seen something like it very often where the mother was the one living two lives and having two daughters to two different men. I like the way the fathers have been left to grapple with the consequences of that after she's passed away too, and that Julien and Zoya found each other on their own without their fathers' knowledge.

I also like that Julien's the Queen Bee, but is also just nice as a character, and generally has good intentions, and it's the systems and spaces around her that sort of corrode that in the process. Plus Jordan Alexander who plays her is pretty magnetic as a performer, even when some of her actual acting is...not great, haha. She's always charismatic and watchable regardless! Kind of like Tyler Posey! Not the best actor, but has that magic factor!

I'm also really intrigued by the throuple situation developing between Aki, Audrey and Max (triply so if it gets Max away from Rafa the teacher!) The exploration of polyamory isn't something I was expecting at all, and Aki sort of accidentally working out he was bi through Max has been a pretty fun element to the series. That trio also I think has a fun, lowkey chemistry, and watching them all navigate this mutual affection and attraction for one another in a way that embraces the humour, awkwardness and teenage mess has been unexpectedly delightful to me, haha.

Fingers crossed we see Monet and Luna developed more, because I'm curious about both of them too, and Obie is.............not a fave, haha. But yeah! I'm getting a kick out of it!

What do you think?

[expatesque]

umm, how do i say this, i have a boyfriend and i also have a lover (that is his friend too) who’s got himself a girlfriend too. i know this is cheap af. my boyfriend is kind and charismatic, while my lover is the ‘bad boy’ type. i really didn’t wish this to happen, but i just can’t stop loving both of them. at some point, i feel sometimes disconnected emotionally from my boyfriend and more connected to my lover, and the latter has asked me to go official (he is willing to end the relationship with his girlfriend if i’m down). the girl is the sweetest person alive. i feel so disgusting

Whew. Okay well as a starting point: you should break it off with your boyfriend. Whether or not his friend is the guy for you, it's clear your boyfriend isn't -- you feel emotionally disconnected from him and more connected to someone else, you've cheated on him and while you feel bad, it's not bad enough to actually make you stop. These are not the signs of a happy, healthy, long-term relationship, so I think it's definitely time to end things with your boyfriend. It's not fair to him, he deserves to be with someone fully committed to him, who loves him wholly, and that is not you right now.

(I also think the right thing for your lover to do is breakup with his girlfriend for the same reasons, but I'm not speaking to him.)

But now the real meaty question: let's assume you both end up single, should you be with the bad boy?

I can't answer this for you, but I will encourage you to think long and hard about it. Be really honest with yourself: do you like him or do you like the thrill of sneaking around? I know you feel bad, but is there a little part of you that likes it? Could this relationship survive in the light? And not just the light, but likely the glare of intense scrutiny from your mutual friends and acquaintances. Do you want it to? Did you like him or was it the freedom of being away from your relationship? And fundamentally: do you think you can trust him? You describe him as a bad boy, you've carried on with him, do you think he might do that to you if you really dated? Do you think you might do it to him?

Essentially, I want you to pull on the threads that led you here. Was he really just so fantastic and perfect for you that you two always would have been drawn together and you just unfortunately happened to both be taken when you met? Or was the naughtiness of it part of the appeal? If you were drawn together magnetically, why weren't either of you sure enough about it to break it off with your partners before you got so tangled up?

I am of the opinion that cheating doesn't happen in a vacuum and there were likely cracks in both relationships to start, but even so: this is not a solid foundation for a serious relationship. You'll have to start again, once you're both disentangled, to build a substantive relationship. So ask yourself: do you think you can you build something honest and real from this foundation?

[rubisaurus98]

Misc. OC/Character Things 19/???

It's all Shannon now

Her full birth name is Shannon Ramona Maher. But, you might already know that from my tag for her.

Her friends call her “Shanna”.

Her noble rank/title is “Duchess Auriga”, while she holds the rank of Captain (at least) in the Knights.

Her birthday, using Elgaia’s timeline, is July 4, 269 AIE.

My voice headcanon for her is Allegra Clark as Dorothea Arnault from Fire Emblem: Three Houses.

Shannon’s Elemental Affinity is Earth, specializing in Wing Magic, and she fights using a saber.

I base her fighting style off of both Jean from Genshin Impact and Riku from Kingdom Hearts.

Her Partner is a fox with green swirl markings named Valda. Valda is almost always hiding somewhere nearby, always watching; waiting to see if the area can be deemed “safe”.

If Valda could speak, my voice headcanon for her would be Mela Lee as Rachel Alucard from the Blazblue series.

Her family is another one of the noble houses that are actually okay with any of its members joining the knighthood, hence why it was much easier for her to join compared to Lori.

Shannon, Lori, Percy, and Argus all took the Knight’s entrance exam around the same time and are all around the same age. This is where she met Percy and Argus.

Shannon had a little bit of a “boy-crazy” phase around this age, which she grew out of. This phase was was accompanied by a smaller phase directed at girls, which also tapered down with time and age.

Shannon and Lori met when they were children and were close friends for a bit before they stopped seeing each other until they both joined the Philarm Knights. Needless to say, Shannon was both surprised and so elated to see her again.

Back when they were children and after hearing that Lori was forbidden from training to be a Knight, Shannon secretly began teaching Lori what she was being taught.

Shannon and Lori are best friends, though Shannon is the one who’d more openly admit it. Feeling’s mutual, don’t worry.

Present Shannon would describe her child/teenage self as “an airhead and a crybaby”. If you asked especially Lori, Shannon still kinda is.

Shannon has a magnetic personality: Sincere, enthusiastic, charismatic.

She has an effect on people that gets them to lower their guards around her and be more open. She is completely aware of this effect, but doesn’t actively use it for her own benefit. She just takes it in stride, then figures out how to best proceed next.

When comparing her personality to BF1 NPCs, she’s like Tilith, Paris, and a bit of Bertz rolled into one. Suave and elegant, but also a bubbly goofball sometimes.

Despite her outward demeanor and personality, Shannon is not easily manipulated.

Shannon works as a diplomat for the Kingdom of Philarm. It’s sorta the family business for her.

She has family in Lumelux, on her mother’s side.

Due to these connections, Shannon’s diplomatic assignments are often in Lumelux alongside Argus, for his own reasons and connections.

While on these assignments together, Shannon sometimes teases Argus about the nature of his relationship with Lumelux’s Prime Minister, Boris. I.e. that guy that came into the Knights’ HQ all beaten up during the 2nd Motion Comic, turns out.

After Argus invited Grant to join the Knights of Philarm, Shannon was the first to actually strike up a conversation with him. He was surprised that they were able to talk about a lot of things. Their early friendship was considered a bit odd, given who they are.

Shannon gives some of the best hugs...but also some of the worst. At full force, even Grant feels like he’s being crushed.

[hvlloweens-a]

𝙷𝙴𝙰𝚃𝚂𝚃𝚁𝙾𝙺𝙴 AND 𝖋𝖗𝖎𝖈𝖙𝖎𝖔𝖓 ARE HEADING OUT ON THE ROAD FOR THE 𝐊𝐈𝐍𝐄𝐓𝐈𝐂 𝐓𝐎𝐔𝐑 .

hi everyone ! first of all, thank you EVERYONE for applying ! every single app was flawless and all of you seem so sweet already . . . i’m over the moon with the level of enthusiasm and all of the apps that were slid into my inbox !  making decisions was even harder than i expected ( i knew it would be difficult but .. wow ! ) . i considered adding a third band because everything was beyond my expectations and i didn’t want to turn anyone away . 

if you weren’t accepted this time, i’ll be keeping your app and if a spot opens up at any point, you will be the first one(s) i come to ! below is the full list and links will be out in just a bit ! thank you again ! < 3

𝐫𝐨𝐥𝐞𝐬.

heatstroke :

lead singer - ( felix mallard , cis male, he/him ) hey ! is that JACKSON BAILEY i saw coming off of the tour bus ? they’re a TWENTY-FIVE year old SCORPIO that is the LEAD SINGER in HEATSTROKE. tabloids say they should be called THE INTANGIBLE CONCEPT which makes sense given that they’re MAGNETIC and RETICENT . their fans would describe them as GRINNING WHEN YOU CATCH A STRANGER’S EYES IN A CROWDED ROOM, THE NAGGING WEIGHT OF FEELING LIKE YOU’RE LIVING A DOUBLE LIFE AND DRINKING LIQUOR STRAIGHT OUT OF THE BOTTLE . written by jamie, she/they, est, stargczing.

bassist - ( sydney sweeney , cis female, she/her ) hey ! is that LUCILLE ‘LUCKY’ HARLOWE i saw coming off of the tour bus ? they’re a TWENTY-TWO year old ARIES that plays BASS in HEATSTROKE . tabloids say they should be called THE WILDCARD which makes sense given that they’re PIQUANT and IMPETUOUS . their fans would describe them as CALLOUSED HANDS COVERED IN SILVER RINGS, EMPTY BOTTLES OF PEACH VODKA, & JUMPING IN THE OCEAN DURING A THUNDERSTORM . written by lily, she/her, est, glossiehrs.

lead guitarist - ( sharon alexie , female, she/her ) hey ! is that ODETTE TOUSSAINT i saw coming off of the tour bus ? they’re an TWENTY-TWO year old CAPRICORN that plays LEAD GUITAR in HEATSTROKE. tabloids say they should be called THE CATALYST. which makes sense given that they’re INDEPENDENT and INSENSITIVE . their fans would describe them as THE LOOK CALLOUSED HANDS AND MANICURED FINGERNAILS, EYES AS DEEP AS THE OCEAN, HIDDEN LIP TATTOOS AND SLY GRINS . written by macy, she/her, EST, macucourtnu

drummer - ( serena motola , cis female, she/her ) hey ! is that ARAMINTA MINTY NAKANO i saw coming off of the tour bus ? they’re a TWENTY-ONE year old PISCES that plays THE DRUMS in HEATSTROKE. tabloids say they should be called THE HOYDEN which makes sense given that they’re EXUBERANT and ECCENTRIC . their fans would describe them as EMPTY CANS OF ASSORTED DRINKS, MISMATCHED SOCKS AND HEELYS, EYELINER IN ANY SHADE OF COLOUR BUT BLACK . written by juniper, they/she, gmt+8, kingfishings.

rhythm guitar - ( charlie plummer, non-binary, he/they ) hey ! is that FLYNN NICHOLS i saw coming off of the tour bus ? they’re a TWENTY-THREE year old LIBRA that plays LEAD GUITAR in HEATSTROKE. tabloids say they should be called THE BOY NEXT DOOR which makes sense given that they’re GENTLE and SELF-DESTRUCTIVE . their fans would describe them as A SPITTING IMAGE OF RIVER PHOENIX IN MY OWN PRIVATE IDAHO,THE KIND OF GUY WHO’D LET YOU BUM HIS LAST CIG,  A WELL-LOVED GUITAR COVERED IN STICKERS. written by syd, they/them, est, genuineviolence.

friction :

bassist - ( kathryn newton , cis female, she/her ) hey ! is that WINSLET CARVER i saw coming off of the tour bus ? they’re a TWENTY-FOUR year old SCORPIO that plays LEAD GUITAR in HEATSTROKE. tabloids say they should be called THE INSURGENT which makes sense given that they’re CHARISMATIC and SELF-DESTRUCTIVE . their fans would describe them as DANCING ON TOP OF TABLETOPS, POPPING BUBBLEGUM, AND FLIPPING OFF CAMERAS. written by ali, she/her, central, svmmerwines.

lead singer - ( sab zada , cis female, she/her ) hey ! is that FLORRIE VELASCO i saw coming off of the tour bus ? they’re a TWENTY THREE year old PISCES that is the LEAD SINGER in FRICTION. tabloids say they should be called THE KALEIDOSCOPE which makes sense given that they’re WHIMSICAL and ARBITRARY. their fans would describe them as DYING YOUR HAIR IN THE BATHROOM SINK, PLATFORM BOOTS PAIRED WITH TEENY DRESSES, AND DIGGING YOUR CLAWS INTO A DREAM. written by kat, she/her, gmt, grlbands.

keyboardist - ( harry styles , cisman, he/him ) hey ! is that MICHAEL SULLIVAN i saw coming off of the tour bus ? they’re a TWENTY-SIX year old PISCES that plays KEYBOARD in FRICTION. tabloids say they should be called THE ICARUS which makes sense given that they’re METICULOUS and ARROGANT . their fans would describe them as THE LAST SHOT OF WHISKEY THAT YOU KNOW YOU SHOULDN’T TAKE, THE SOUND OF A PIANO ECHOING IN AN EMPTY ROOM, THE DISAPPOINTED SIGH OF A BURN OUT’S PARENT  . written by sammy, she/her, pst, wildbcys.

drummer - reserved ( khadijha red thunder ) !

lead guitarist - ( belmont cameli, cis man, he/him ) hey ! is that WYATT VITALE i saw coming off of the tour bus ? they’re a TWENTY-FOUR year old AQUARIUS that plays LEAD GUITAR in FRICTION. tabloids say they should be called THE REBEL WITH A CAUSE which makes sense given that they’re IDEALISTIC and NARCISSISTIC. their fans would describe them as LARGE ACTS OF REBELLION, FINGERTIPS READY TO PLUCK OUT A GUITAR SOLO, & SUNGLASSES AT NIGHT. written by lisa, she/her, est.

[mercuryislove]

can you tell me about ur oc's smiles. any number of em any ones you want. we need some smiles today. <3

i got you!!!!! <333

(okay I'm very excited about this because it gives me a reason to also talk about the way they laugh lol)

When Ciaran smiles and he means it, it's so wide that his nose wrinkles and he squints. He smiles with his whole damn face and he smiles like all the fucking time, so he has laugh lines around his eyes that he doesn't notice or care about. He also sticks his tongue out a little bit if he's laughing. Also. You know that post that's like “I hate people who touch me when they laugh hard like unhand me you raggedy bitch”?? (it cracks me up SO much because I am the raggedy bitch that grabs people when I laugh.......) Anyway. That's Ciaran. He laughs loud and hard and snorts sometimes and is the kind of guy to grab someone's arm. and he doesn't care when people think it's weird.

Meanwhile Anwei has mastered the art of both smizing (thank u tyra banks) AND smilling only with her mouth. She can basically have two different facial expressions at once (bc she's a fucking weirdo). Her like “professional” smile is very demure. Shows no teeth, barely counts as a smile, would be perfect for photo ops. But her real smile is sooooo beautiful. She has extremely kind eyes and a warm smile and basically it can win the heart of everyone in a five mile radius. She doesn't share the same like. nose wrinkling, sore cheek smile that her brother does but it's still infectious and friendly and people love to see it.

OH AND THEN the fucking. omg. the Sovereign aka the most beautiful man on earth wtf. What is the thing they say about like. helen of troy or whatever. That she was so beautiful a thousand ships sailed for her or some shit. Well. His smile is so gorgeous that a thousand AND ONE ships would sail for him. I'm talking words can't even describe this man. You see him smile and it's like being welcomed into the arms of a lover or best friend. You could get lost in it (which is also kind of the point because he IS the perfect charismatic, hypnotic, magnetic uh killing machine). You WANT to get lost in it. People get light headed if they look at him too long. like. he IS the moment.