#and the girl who plays siri was Acting Too Hard and it got a little distracting. like i could feel her acting

[sergle]

s3 of witcher is so bad but i DO black out during every scene with mahesh jadu in it so at least it can do that for me

[justwhisperingfantasies]

Girl At The Rockshow Part 3

Characters: Jensen Ackles (xreader). Aunt Patty (o.c)  Jared Padalecki. Genevieve Padalecki.

Warnings: Language, Fluff,  Talk about losing loved ones. LMK If I forgot any.

Summary: Getting dragged to that live show might have been the best thing that ever happened to you. Now you get to spend the day with Jensen as he shows you around Austin. 

Word count: 6,009 words

A/N: When you get to the question part. Some of his are true (found them via interviews and panels.) some are just for story purposes. I tried to do (insert answer) for reader answers, but it just kept taking me out of the story. Hope ya'll enjoy 💗

Part 1

Part 2

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{} Reader’s P.O.V {}

“I get to drive Baby?!” You said standing there. 

“Yes ma’am,” He said 

“Are you sure? What would Dean say?”  

He chuckled. “ I think he would make an exception for you.” He shook the keys at you. “ You better take them before I change my mind.” You smiled, took the keys, and hopped in. He walked around and got into the passenger seat. 

“So what if I wreck? What if I break her?” He opened his mouth to rebuttal but you cut him off. “ What if I hit a cow and total it?” 

He laughed. “If you see a cow the break is right.” He grabbed your leg and put your foot on the pedal. “There. I think you’re capable of not wrecking and she doesn’t break easy.” You turned the key and Baby hummed to life. “ There’s a bar under the seat to move it up.” He helped you scoot the seat into the right position. “Don’t worry darlin’ you got this.” He slapped your knee for encouragement then wrapped his hand around your thigh. You put the car in reverse and look behind you to make sure you can start backing up. “ Go out the way we came in and turn right on the main road. Who would you rather have as your navigator me or Siri?”

“You, but you have to sing the directions.” He chuckled.  

You made it to the stop sign at the main road turning right when you were clear. You hit the gas pedal a little too hard and the tires squealed for a second. Your cheeks got warm. “Sorry.”

He laughed. “Easy there turbo. I thought you were trying not to break her.” 

“I'm sure I’m not the first to squeal her tires.” 

“Fair enough.” He grinned. “You’re gonna go straight through 4 lights. At the 5th one turn left.”  You gave him a nervous look. “Don’t worry I’ll remind you before you get there.” He turned the radio up and started belting out the lyrics to Back in Black making you smile as you went through the first light. The second one was red as you came up on it. You were more careful with the gas pedal this time as you started to go. You made it to the 3rd light. Red again. 

“Do you intentionally pick the streets with the most red lights on them?”

He chuckled. “Trust me, I feel the same way you do.” Back in Black faded out and The Dance by Garth Brooks starts to play. You turn the volume up a smidge and start singing along. “ You know Garth Brooks?!?” He said shocked. 

“Yes. I like country music too Ackles.”  

He grabbed his chest like he was in pain. “My heart!!’” He smiled. 

You smiled back at him. His thumb started to stroke your leg as you both sang along. The light finally turned green and you started to go.”So Mr. Ackles.” He looked at you with raised eyebrows. “ Why acting?” you said in your best reporter voice. 

“Oh, didn’t know I had an interview today,” He smirked, “ Well, My father is an actor. He played in a few Dallas episodes, and 5 episodes of Walker Texas Ranger, and he did some supporting roles in movies. I used to watch him study the script and help him memorize his lines. I was amazed. How he could flip a switch and just be another person. I did some modeling and commercials when I was young. Got bullied for it so I took a break, and got really into sports. The plan was to go to Texas Tech University and become a physical therapist. Ya know help out my fellow jocks,” he chuckled. “ I loved sports. Still do, but it just wasn’t the same. My real passion was acting. So my sophomore year I decided I didn't care what everyone thought. I took a theater class.” You made it to the 5th light ”Left at this light sweetheart” you got in the turn lane and waited. “After this light straight through 2 lights, over the bridge, then go under the train tracks.”

“2 Lights over water under the train tracks. Got it.  

 He smiled and continued his story. “ After I graduated I moved to L.A to pursue it fully. Started auctioning and landed a couple of guest spots. Then my big break was on Days Of Our Lives.” You looked over at him with wide eyes. He put his hand up “Shush I learned a lot on that set. I did Dark Angel, Dawson’s Creek, and Smallville. Got to do a movie with my dad in 2005 right before Supernatural.” He turned back to you “Why Med school?”

The light turned green and you rolled forward as the traffic started to go. “Well, My father was a surgeon so it was determined before I was even born that I was to follow in his footsteps.” You glanced at him out of the corner of your eye. You had his undivided attention “I wasn’t all in until one night when I was 14 my dad and I were coming home from a baseball game. There was a bad crash and He didn’t hesitate he rushed in and started triaging people and helping them while I dialed 911. It was amazing. I even got to help out after the operator told me help was on the way. After watching him there wasn’t a doubt in my mind. I wanted to be just like him, a hero, saving people.”

 “ Your pop sounds like quite a guy” 

“ Oh, He was.” The smile left his face. “You should have seen him on the day I got my acceptance letter from Columbia. He was so proud. Same premed program he went through ya know.” You made it through both lights green, you started on the bridge. “ The 3rd week into premed he was killed by a drunk driver.”

“What year was that?” 

“August 23rd, 2005.”

“Yeah, 2 weeks before. So after that, I immersed myself in school. Nothing else mattered” You started under the train tracks

“And now I feel like a complete jackass.”

“Don’t feel that way, hun. You didn't know.” you put your hand on top of his. He turned his hand over and laced his fingers through yours. “ But directions might be nice.”

“Shit sorry, straight 2 lights. Right at the 3rd.” He looked at you 

You could feel his question in the air and the silence was getting overwhelming. “You can ask why I didn't go through with it..” He looked at you with furrowed brows. “ Yea like you weren't thinking it?”

“Maybe. So what happened?” 

You got to the 2nd light before you hit a red light. “ So, I got my bachelor’s degree, passed the MCATS, Got through medical school, and during my internship, I talked my mom into moving to New York. We got closer than ever.” you took a deep breath, “ My second year of residency she got sick and didn’t make it.” The light turned green and you started to go. She was diagnosed with stage 4 cervical cancer. I lost all motivation for medicine and everything that went along with it.”

“I can take over if you wanna pull over.”

“Thank you, but I’m ok,” you said, turning at the 3rd light. He looked over at you with questioning eyes. “Seriously I’m ok.” 

“Watch out for pedestrians up here. Straight through 4 stop signs. Left at the light. Then straight through one light. Right at the second.” He was quiet for a minute. “I'm sorry about your folks, sweetheart.”

“Thank you.” 

“Are you sure you don’t want me to drive?”

“Um, no way. This might be the only time I get to drive this car.”

“Not if I can help it.” He winked at you, and you smiled. You made it past the pedestrian stop signs “ What was your mama like?” 

“She was my best friend. After she moved to New York I swear she decreased in age. More like my sister than my mom. She was crazy.” You said with a smile on your face.” you stopped at the first stop sign and went through it. “You’ll probably like this one. One of the biggest Cowboy fans you’d ever meet.”

“Oh yeah?” 

You nodded.  “She always told my dad she was gonna leave him for Troy Aikman.” He chuckled. “ Everyone tells me I look just like her. Their wedding photo is on my lock screen. You handed him your phone as you stopped at the second stop sign then continued. 

“Aw. You do look just like her.” You smiled. “ They are beautiful”

“Thank you.” You smiled at him as you stopped for the third stop sign. He was so cute. Not just in a physical way. He was genuine and such a nice guy. You thought to yourself, You just hoped this wasn’t too good to be true. 

“What?”

“Oh, Nothing.” You said as you went through the intersection. 

He shook his head and chuckled. “So you ever think about going back into medicine?”

Stopping at the 3 cars deep at the 4th stop sign you sighed. “ I don’t know. Mac mentioned it a couple of times. I’m not gonna lie, I have thought about it. It would be nice for my job to mean something to someone, but if I were going to I would become a Physician assistant maybe. To become a surgeon I’d have to finish the resident years, then go through a surgical internship then a lot of testing for board certifications and licensing. I’m too old for all that. If I did I would just want to jump in and do it.” You looked at him as you stopped at the crosswalk. He was smiling at you now. “What?”

“You’re cute when you ramble.”

“Not rambling, thinking out loud,” you said in a mocking tone. He laughed.  You went through the intersection, You made it through the 3 lights green as you both sang along with the music. 

“Don’t hate me. Straight through 7 red lights.” He said wrinkling his face. 

“SEVEN?!” 

“Yes.”

“Oh my freaking gosh. I’m going to die of starvation Jensen.”

“Don’t worry. I’ll make a deal and bring you back.” You let out a loud dramatic sign. He chuckled. You made it through 4 lights green. “See that wasn’t so bad.”

“I'm sorry I couldn’t hear you over the growls of my empty ass stomach.” He laughed and slightly threw his head back. You made it to the last light before you got stopped again. 

“Almost there, I promise. Tell me. Who's your favorite country singer of all time?’

“Randy Travis” you didn't even have to think about it. 

“Really?”

“Absolutely. His voice is incredible!”  You said as the light turned green and traffic started to go.”You?”

“Garth Brooks.”

“I see that. I saw him live once with Mac.”

“Oh yeah? Me too, not with Mac thou.”

“I’m sure she’d be interested if you want me to set it up.” He squinted at you “I’m just sayin.” 

He rolled his eyes. “I think you and Padalecki would get along. You both got some dumb jokes.” you chuckled. “Right at the next road and it's the first building on the right. Uh, how are you at parallel parking?” You squinted at him now, turned right, and parked with ease. You turned to him and stuck your tongue with a wrinkled nose. He laughed. 

 “This is Paperboy.” He said with excitement in his voice. “One of my favorite breakfast/ brunch places in Austin.” You turned the car off and got out. He met you at his side of the front of the Impala. He held his arm out. You took his hand and wrapped his arms around your shoulders while wrapping your around his waist. He grinned. The building was cute, a white building with a funky brown lattice. A small patio by the front door and the second floor was an open patio as well. You stopped at the hostess stand and he asked for an upper patio table. “Of course Mr. Ackles.” The hostess grabbed 2 menus. “Will Mr Padalecki be joining you two today?”

“Nope. Just the two of us.”

“Alright, follow me.” Once you got to the stairs he unwrapped his arm and gestured for you to go first. You followed her up the stairs to the patio. She sat you at a shaded table in the back corner. You pick your chair and Jensen sits across from you.  “Patty Sue will be right with you. 

“Thank you,” you both said as you started to look over the menu. 

“So, what looks good?”  You looked up at him up and down raising an eyebrow. He chuckled as his cheeks got slightly pink. “On the menu darlin’.”

“Well, I'm just so hungry everything looks good.”

“Aww you poor little thing.”  He said in a playful tone making you laugh.

“Hello, my name is Patty Sue. Oh Jensen, How are you dear?”

“Hi, Aunt Patty. I’m good. How’s your day going?” 

“Ya know this place is busy as always.” 

“Aunt Patty this is (y/n). She’s new here in Austin and I got the honor of showing her around today.”

“Hey there sugar.” you shook her hand. “What have ya’ll been up to?

“We just got done canoeing at Barton.”

“Aw, how fun, Are you enjoying Austin so far?”

“It has some good attractions.” you winked at Jensen and he smiled his bedazzling smile again. 

“Well. Ya’ll probably worked up an appetite, Wanna start with some drinks?”

“Just sweet tea for me please,” you said 

“Make it two.”

“I’ll be right back guys.”

“Thank you, Aunt Patty,” he said as she turned to walk away. He sat his elbow on the table and rested his chin on his hands.”So, what’s next (y/n)?” 

“I don’t know. You said you had a mini round trip planned.” 

He chuckled. “No, for you. Job, car, Boyfriend?” He raised his eyebrow at the last word. And your cheeks got warm. 

“Well remember how I said Mac has mentioned medicine a couple of times?” He nodded. “The first time we talked about it I told her what I told you. About being a P.A. The second time she brought it up she just so happened to run into Erica. Erica and I interned at the same hospital. And can you believe they have an opening in their office?”

“Let me guess for a Physician assistant.”

“Oh my gosh, it’s like your psychic.” He smirked. 

“Here’s your drinks my dears.” Patty said sitting down your teas.” What can I get ya to eat?” Jensen gestured for you to go first. 

“Can I get the steak and egg sandwich with a side of cheesy hashbrowns, please?”

“You sure can honey, Jay you want your usual?”

“Please” 

“Alright, I’ll get that in for ya.”

“Thank you,” you both said again. And you smiled. 

“So, you gonna call Erica about it?” he asked taking a drink.

“Like I said I’ve thought about it and it would be nice to feel like I’m doing something that matters.” you took a drink “Mmm this sweet tea is amazing.”

“Just wait till you have the food.” He smiled. Then he readjusted his hand.” So, I’m not pushing, but I think you should.”

“I know. I just don’t want my mama to feel like I betrayed her. Since ya know medicine failed her.”

“Sweetheart. I didn’t have the pleasure of meeting your mama, but I don’t think she would feel betrayed at all.”

“That’s what Mac said.”

“See 2 against 1,” he said and you smiled. “You could give it a try and if your heart is not there try something else.”

“You make some good points, Ackles.”

“I usually do,”  he said in a smartass tone, making you laugh.

“So, What lies ahead for the famous Jensen Ackles, Big movie? Starring in another TV show? Supernatural reboot?” you used your reporter voice again. You grinned and took another drink.

“Stop.” He said smiling. “ I would actually love to do a Supernatural reboot, but I can’t confirm nor deny if I’m ever going to get to. I’m gotta fly to Vancouver here in a couple of days and shoot this episode for Tracker. Should only take a couple of weeks max. Waiting on a call from Kripke about shooting the final season of The Boys. And Countdown should start later this year. We’ll see,”

“How exciting.” again in the reporter's voice. 

“Would you stop?” he grinned. 

“Ok, I’m done.”

“Here we are, guys.” Patty came back carrying your food. “Everything looks good?” You both nod. “Anything else I can get for ya?’

“No, This looks great. Thank you.” Jensen said as he started mixing the egg and steak tips on his plate. 

“No problem Dear. Yell if ya’ll need anything ok?”

“Will do” you said as she walked away. “Well that looks delicious,” you say looking at his plate. He chuckles stabbing a piece of steak with his fork and reaches it over to you. “Mmm,” 

“I am going tomorrow morning to pick up a car from the dealership,” you said after swallowing and picking up your sandwich. 

He swallowed his food. “So what was next?” He smiled his bedazzling smile. Your cheeks got hot and you could feel them turning red. You took a bite of your sandwich pointed to your full mouth and shrugged. He laughed “ Ya gotta swallow eventually.” You cough almost choking as your mind takes his comment in a dirty way. He smiled. “Perv.”  you raised your eyebrows and dropped them with smirking lips. The food was amazing though. You would definitely be coming back here. 

“ More sweet tea?” Patty asked walking over. 

You swallowed your bite. “Yes please.” Jensen nodded with his mouth full. 

“So her question you’ll answer,” he said after swallowing his bite. 

“I’m sorry i just have to get something in my stomach after stopping at all those red lights.” 

He laughed “So dramatic.” You smiled and continued eating. Patty was back in a flash with 2 more teas. As you finish your food you debate in your head about the P.A job and Jensen’s boyfriend question popped up a couple of times. Was he crazy? You haven’t even known each other for 24 hours yet? But it’s not like he was asking to be your boyfriend more like a Are you open to the thought. Were you open to the thought? “Penny for your thoughts darlin’,”

His voice snapped you out of your head. “I’m gonna call Erica about that job tomorrow.”

“Yeah?” He smiled. “ You sure?”

“Yes. I’ll take your advice if I don’t love it, I’ll try something else.”

“Good.”

 You both finished eating and Patty came to clear your plates. “Anything else for you guys?”

“Nope. I am stuffed.”

“No Aunt Patty just the check please,” Jensen said.

“Ackles?” He turned around as soon as he heard his name. 

“Oh my god! It’s Jared Padalecki!!” And let out a squeal. Jensen stood up to hug his friend. “ And Genevieve Padalecki?!” He squealed again. “(y/n) he played Sam Winchest.. oh wait never mind.”

You rolled your eyes. “And I’m the dramatic one?!” You stood up and stuck your hand out. “I’m (y/n)”

Jared laughed and took your hand. “I’m Jared. This is my wife Genevieve.” 

“You can call me Gen.” She said as you shook hands. 

“So… Whatcha ya’ll up to?” Jared asked Jensen with raised eyebrows and a huge grin. 

“ You’ll have to excuse my friend,” Jensen said to you and turned to Jared. “ (y/n) Just moved here. I met her last night at the radio company show. I’m showing her around Austin.

“So, like a date?” Jared asked. Jensen rolled his eyes. 

“Jared quit,” Gen elbowed his stomach. 

“We just finished, but do you guys wanna sit down?” you asked them.

“No, we don’t wanna impose,” Jared said.

“No imposition, Give me the dirt Padalecki.” You said and Jensen glared at you. You raised your eyebrows and shrugged. “What? You said we’d get along.”

“Really?! “ Jared turned to Jensen.

“Yeah, you both tell dumb jokes. I think that is what I said.” Jensen admitted. 

“Are you sure?” Gen asked. 

“Sit down, Genevieve,” Jensen said. You all sat down. Jensen looked at you and raised his eyebrows and licked his lips.” Jared, get this shit. (y/n) has never seen Supernatural.” Your lips went in a hard straight line as you looked at him with a blank stare. He poked the tip of his tongue out at you.

“Are you kidding?’ Jared turned to you. “How have you never seen Supernatural?”

“Oh I don’t know, just not my thing I guess” You took a drink. Jared opened his mouth to say mouth, but stopped when you put your finger up “However, Gilmore Girl though. So good. Dean Forester seems so much better than Dean Winchester.” You smirked at Jensen with a wrinkled nose. Gen and Jared laughed.

“I like her Ackles.” 

Patty brought your check back. “ Well look what the cat drug in.” Jared and Gen got up to hug Patty. “ How are you two? How are the babies?”

“We are all good Aunt Patty,” Jared said as he squeezed her. “Hey. We’re gonna let ya’ll get back to it. See you later Jensen.” Jensen got up and hugged Jared. You got up to shake his hand, but before you knew it you were in his embrace. You squeezed him back. “It was really good to meet you. I hope we see you again.”  

Gen stuck her hand out. “Again sorry about him. It was really nice to meet you though.” She said with a smile. 

“You guys too.” You said with a big grin. They turned and started walking to their table. You sat back down. 

Patty laid your check in the middle of the table “ I better get his food going. We all know how he eats.” Jensen chuckled. “ Ya’ll have fun and (y/n) don’t be a stranger.” you smiled at her. 

 “Your friend is a goober,” you said to Jensen after Patty walked away.

“I’m sorry have you met your friends?” You both laughed, 

You snatched the check folder. Jensen’s jaw dropped and his eyes went wide. “Uh I think the fuck not!” he put his hand out. You slowly shook your head with a wide grin. He took a deep breath closing his eyes and loudly sighed. He raised his hand then dropped it again palm up. “Now!”

“Or what?” you bit your bottom lip

His eyebrows raised. And he brought his first to his chin resting it on his thumb and closed his eyes. “(y/n)” He said in a deep growl.

“Jensen” You lowered your voice as much as you could. He smiled for a split second then his face was hard again.

He quickly slid to the chair beside you and put his hand on your knee. You manage to keep your composure. “Last chance.” Your heart starts racing as his hand slides up to your mid-thigh. “3.” He tightened his grip. You bit your lip fighting the urge to laugh. “2” he squeezed even harder. He opened his mouth to say 1 but you couldn't hold in the laugh anymore. He releases his grip and then squeezes again.  “Alright, you win,” you said while laughing. He started to squeeze again “Take it.”  He took the folder with his free hand and sat it on the table. He gave you a wide grin and started tickling your leg. You grab his hand and lean towards him, pushing it back into his lap. You swallowed hard when you looked up into his mossy eyes, his lips just inches away from yours. Your heart almost burst out of your chest when his soft, full, perfect lips met yours. The kiss was short and sweet. He ended the kiss and nuzzled your nose with his. You whined. “Public place, there babe.” you nodded and tried to catch your breath. He kissed the tip of your nose as you pulled his wallet out of his back pocket. He sat straight up picking up the folder. You lean back in your chair. Your cheeks warmed as you thought about how you’d be kissing him if you weren’t in a public place.

Putting his wallet away he asked, “You ready for that road trip?” His voice snaps you back to reality again.

“Restroom first.” 

“Downstairs by the front doors.” He said.” I gotta make a phone call and say bye to Jared. Meet me at the front door?” he said taking his phone out of his pocket. 

“Sounds good Ackles.” You grabbed your purse, and as you passed behind him you stopped, you felt his muscles tighten as you put your hands on his shoulders and leaned down to his ear.  “Don’t forget to tell him what an awesome driver I am,” you whispered. Walking away you hear him chuckle and then talk into his phone.

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He couldn’t stop himself from watching her walk away as he finished his call. Damn, what I would do, He shook his head trying to get the naughty images out of his mind. He stood up and slid his phone back into his pocket as he started for the stairs. 

“Oh my god, it’s Jensen Ackles,” Jared said and started fanning himself as Jensen walked up to his table. 

Jensen dropped his jaw. “Where?!” Jared and Gen laughed, 

“So?” Jared asked acting giddy. 

“So?” Jensen repeated. Jared raised his eyebrows. Jensen grinned.“ I’ll call you later.”

“You better.” They bumped fists. “Love you.”

“Love you more,” Jensen said walking away. 

As he walked down the stairs, he couldn't stop thinking about her. He tripped and almost fell. Come on, Jensen. He stopped once he got to the doors and waited for her. He opened the door open for an elderly couple. “Thank you, young man.” The older woman said to him.

“Not a problem ma’am,” he told her as she walked through. He looked over and there she was. Watching him with the sweetest smile he’d ever seen. After the couple passed through he gestured for her to come through. “My Lady.”

“Good sir,” She said as she walked through. She pulled the keys out of her pocket and held them out for him. He opened her car door and shut it after she got in. Walking around to the driver's side he smirked as he noticed her scoot more toward the middle. Her cheeks pinkened as she realized she was caught. So freaking cute he thought. 

He got in and started up the Impala. “Here, connect to this thing.” He disconnected the Bluetooth adapter from his phone. “I want to hear this epic playlist you were telling me about.”

She smirked, “I don’t know if I’d use the word epic, but it’s got some good tunes.” She said pulling her phone out. He watched her. Darlin’ everything about you is epic he thought to himself. 

“Yeah Yeah. Play me some music, cowgirl.” She laughed as Friends in Low Places started to play, He wrapped his arm around her. He watched from the corner of his eye as she snuggled up to him and started to sing. Oh sweetheart what are you doing to me? 

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{} Reader's P.O.V {}

He started singing along as he pulled out. “Jensen, I have a question. “

“Shoot.”

“Can you this one time please.” a puzzled expression came over his face “ Not take the route with the most red lights and stop signs?” 

“I’ll think about it.” He laughed as he turned onto I-35

You made it through about 30 minutes of halfway driving before you had to do something.. “Alright Ackles, you got courage for a round of 21 questions?” You asked raising your eyebrows. 

He chuckled. “ I think I’m up for it” 

 “Ok let's start easy. Favorite color?  

“Blue. Favorite season?” He asked

“Fall. Favorite Movie?”  

“Saving Private Ryan. What's your favorite color?” 

“Pretty Sure there's a rule against repeats.” 

With a smile, he says“Oh I didn’t realize we are in a championship match where the rules matter.”  

You rolled your eyes. “Smartass.”  

“You know it kettle.” he chuckled. 

 You smiled.  “It's Teal or blue. Favorite holiday?”

“Christmas. You get one superpower. What is it?” 

You thought for a second. “ can I pick 2?”

“You get 1.” He smiled. 

You sighed. “Fine. Probably the ability to fly. 

“What was the other one?”

“Invisibility.” He raised his eyebrows. “Oh come, how fun would that be. I would just fuck with people all day.”

He laughed “Of course you would.” 

 “Who was your favorite character to play.” He opened his mouth “Besides Dean.”  

“Hmm,” he thought. “Ben. Soldier boy from the boys. He was really fun. First celebrity crush?”

 “Tom Cruise. Favorite horror movie.”  

He thought for a second. “ The Shining. Dream vacation?

“Uh. Either Italy or Bora Bora.” He smiled. “First concert?”  

“Michael Jackson 1984. Do you believe in ghosts?”

“Sometimes yes, sometimes no.” You shrugged. “ Favorite Food?  

“Steak.” He thought for a second. “The best gift you've ever been given?” 

“My locket.” 

“Go on ” 

“ Mac gave it to me a couple of Christmases ago. It has a picture of my mom on one side and my dad on the other.” He looked at your neck. “ Favorite radio company song to sing?” 

“City grown Willow. What's your favorite radio company song?” 

You smirked. “City grown Willow or Let Me Be.”

He smiled. “ I gotta know why.”

 “City grown willow, the lyrics and melody with your voice is mwah.” You gestured a Chef kiss. He chuckled..” Let Me Be, because of the fun you had last night while singing it.” 

“So you were watching me?” He said in a hitch-pitched voice. 

“Kinda hard not to you.” He smiled and his cheeks turned pink. 

 “Favorite music genre?” 

“Country. Favorite TV show?

 “Friends. If you could look into a crystal ball and see everything about your future,  would you do it?

He thought for a second. “I don’t think I would.’

“Interesting.”

“Ok Freud” You giggled. “Do you have any siblings?”

“Nope. I'm an only child.”

He smiled. “That makes sense.”

“Excuse me?”

“Calm down.” He chuckled. “Only children tend to be more independent.”

“Oh. I thought we were going to the spoiled brat route.”

“Eh, not yet.” He joked. 

You laughed, “What's the first thing you notice about me?”

“ You're hair. It looked really soft and I wanted to touch it. You?”

 “Of course, I'm gonna say you're eyes. Have you seen them suckers?” He laughed. “ When did you have your first kiss?”

He sighed. “Preschool.” 

“Oh, so you started young huh?”

He laughed and then his face went serious.  “Are you looking for a relationship?” 

“Really Jensen?” 

“I'm just playing the game sweetheart.” He grinned slowing down on the exit onto I-35 Frontage Rd.

“Maybe.” You raised an eyebrow at him. 

“A maybe Isn't a no.”

 “Birthday?” you asked. 

“March 1st.  Favorite subject in school?”

“Science. Yours?”

“Look who's reusing questions now.” He chuckled. “Algebra. Favorite food?”

“Loaded nachos. Craziest place you've had sex?” 

He cleared his throat. “Spicing things up are we?” 

“I'm just playin' the game sweetheart”

He chuckled “Bar bathroom.” He slowed down for the red light ahead. When the light turned green he turned right onto Wonder World Dr. “ And no it wasn't a random hook-up.” 

“I wasn't judging.”

“Sure.” He smiled. “ you?” 

“Playground” He looked at you with raised eyebrows. “It was after dark, Nobody else was there.”

You turned to him. “ Have you ever cheated?”

He sighed. “Once. I was 19. I was young and stupid. It hasn’t happened since and It never will again.” At least he was honest and it did seem like he was remorseful. 

He looked at you. “Dealbreaker?” 

You thought for a second. “Not necessarily.” you cleared your throat “Everyone has done things they aren’t proud of. The thing that matters is you learn from them.” 

“Ok, Freud.” you smiled, “ Trust me I did.” 

You two stayed silent as Turn The Page faded and  Sounds Of Someday started to play “Oh my god, this band is so good.” Jensen chuckled. 

“I saw them live last night, They’re ok.” You said as you shrugged your shoulders. He threw his head back and laughed. 

“Is there ever gonna come a day where you don’t give me shit?” he asked.

“Eh, probably not,” you confessed. He laughed again. “What number are we on?”

“16 I think and I do believe it’s my turn.” you gestured with your hand for him to go. “It’s the zombie apocalypse is here. You get 3 people for your team. Who is it?”

You chuckled. “ Well, I have heard about these 2 brothers that are really good with that stuff.” He chuckled. “ Oh, Rambo. He’d fuck some shit up.”

“Is that your 3?” He asked slowing down for another red light. 

“Yeah, I think so. Worse case I have some eye candy before I die.” He rolled his eyes and smiled. 

“So, 17 would you rather be 15 minutes late or 1 hour early?”

“Definitely early. I hate being late.” He shook his head. “When was your first kiss?” 

“About an hour ago. ”You burst out laughing as he looked at you in shock with wide eyes. “I'm just kidding. 4th grade.”

“Not funny.” He declared as he started to go after the light finally turned green. He went straight onto route 12.

“I’d have to disagree”

“So. Mr. Ackles, He looked at you. “Are you looking for a relationship?” you raised your eyebrows. 

“I wasn’t, but ya never know.” He winked at you making you grin.  

“Biggest turn-off?” He asked. 

“Rudeness.. I can not stand rude people.” With an approving expression, he nodded You sighed loudly. as he slowed for another red light making him laugh.

“This is like the third red light, diva.” He joked.

“Of this drive, The 136th one of the day though.”  Your rebuttal made him laugh  “Have you ever sent nudes?” 

He chuckled nervously  “Yes. You?”

“Yes.”

He raised his eyebrows. “Interesting…”  you scrunched your lips as your cheeks turned pink. He smiled 

“Who would you haunt if you were a ghost?”

“Either Jared or Misha. Yeah, I see your point that would be fun.” he chuckled as he slowed down for the red light. Your cheeks got hot as he kissed your cheek. “Almost there darlin’.” he turned left onto County Line Rd 1492 ‘ What smell do you hate that doesn’t seem to bother other people?” 

“Patchouli.” you scrunched your nose. “I can’t stand that smell.” he chuckled. 

“Now, don’t take this the wrong way, Ackles.” 

“Um ok?”

“I’m not asking, never mind. I’ll ask something else.”.

He smiled. “Just ask the question.” He said turning left onto Winn Valley Dr. 

“Fine. Would you ever get married again?”  His face went blank. “See it’s weird we can move on.” 

“Honestly. It depends.” he said as he drove through the open-ended cul-de-sac.“I’m not opposed to it, but I couldn’t just going to jump into it. There would be a lot of thought put into it.” He looked at you. “Does that make any sense?” he nervously chuckled. 

“Yes.” You look over to see a sign. “Ranch Madrone?” You knitted your brows at him.

“You’ll see.” He continued down the road. “Last question. How are you with heights?” 

You looked at him with a puzzled look. “Really? That's your last question?” He pointed to a say that read Wimberley Zipline Adventures. Your heart started pounding “We are zip-lining now?!”

“You up for it cowgirl?” He said with a grin

“Oh hell yeah!!.”

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impact.

| wolfstar x reader | smut |

anon requested. marauders fucked you extra rough the night before and you wake up with a pain by your stomach. you have cervix trauma (your cervix is bruised... & impact play/knife play w the marauders but they accidentally push you too far and you end up having to go to the hospital wing...

a/n: these requests hit me so hard in the face and nothing would’ve prepared me but here we go because I want to make my angel babies happy

“That’s how you want it, hmm?” Remus teased, kissing your neck, and you squirmed in his arms. You suddenly felt embarrassed by your boyfriends’ teasing and you regretted your brutal honesty.

“Don’t laugh at me,” you whined.

“We’re not laughing, bunny.” Sirius smirked, and Remus slipped out from behind you, tying your wrists to the headboard. They may not have been laughing, but they were certainly amused, and excited.

You’d had a stressful week, and you had shyly expressed to your boyfriends that you wanted to blow off some steam with some particularly rough sex. They were always ones to push your limits and melt your mind, but you rarely asked for it overtly. When you wanted it, you favored the approach of being a brat and teasing them until they ravaged you. 

You immediately began to tug at the restraints, getting used to them. Remus and Sirius watched you with feigned disappointment, watching your pathetic squirming.

“Already struggling? We’ve not even touched you yet.” 

You stopped immediately, turning to look at Remus pathetically. He came and knelt between your legs on the bed, skimming his hands up your body and feeling you.

“Silly girl, you ask for things and then struggle when we give them to you,” Remus mocked gently, and when you opened your mouth to object and defend yourself, he slapped the inside of your thigh. 

“We’re going to mark you up all pretty with bruises, make your body like a painting,” Sirius hummed, biting your skin lightly as he fondled your chest, getting you wet and squirmy. He was rough with you, liking to hear little pained, pleasured noises. It was all teeth and pinching, hickeys dotting your skin. 

Every time you made a noise from Sirius’ torture, Remus landed another slap to your body, leaving red handprints and light bruises rising to the surface. He knew how hard he could smack you without truly hurting you, and you trusted him, even if it frightened you in the moment. 

You squeaked as Sirius’ teeth grazed along your breast, lightly biting down on your nipple. He smirked and Remus pinched your clit, making you jolt. Sirius laughed darkly at your reaction, reveling in the sight of your torture. 

They continued on for much longer than you had anticipated or desired. They finally let up when you were begging them to fuck you. You were exhausted with pent-up need, and you wanted to release it and let your stress fade.

“Oh, bunny, are you all needy for our cocks?” Sirius teased, lightly pinching you and making you whine.

“M’so achey, I need you,” you pouted, desperate tears welling in your eyes.

“Crying for us to fuck you like a cockslut,” Remus rarely joined Sirius in degradation, but you were living for it. It was making arousal drip down your thighs and onto the bed sheets, and you pushed your hips up into his hand.  

“Be patient.” Remus lightly smacked your sex, pulling a choked moan from you. 

“Who do you want to fuck you first?” Sirius asked, grabbing your jaw and forcing you to look him in the eyes. 

“Remus,” you whispered, earning a smile from the other boy. 

“Siri,” you whined when he pulled away from you.

“What, bunny?”

“Kiss me?” your eyes widened, and his stormy eyes softened slightly, dropping the bratty dom act. He leaned in and gently kissed you, swallowing the noise you made when Remus bent your knees to your chest.

“Fuck, daddy,” you yelped as he didn’t let you adjust, forcing himself into you all at once. 

“Pretty girls don’t use foul language like that. You know better.” Sirius smacked your cheek just hard enough to sting. Your eyes watered from the impact, and you hated that you loved it. 

“M’sorry,” you got out between Remus’ rough thrusts. He pulled nearly all the way out of you every time, hitting deep. You knew he went easier than Sirius, and your mind was spinning with adrenaline and anticipation. You were tight around him and the slight burning slowly eased, but didn’t disappear as he kept fucking into you.

“Play with her clit, Pads, let her get off at least once tonight. She’s been good taking all that,” Remus instructed the other boy. You tugged at your hands, wanting to grab the sheets to ground you as Sirius rubbed quick circles on your clit. He knew exactly how to touch you to rip an orgasm from you as quickly as possible, and you were coming within minutes, squeezing tightly around Remus as he continued to thrust.

“No more, Siri, please,” you begged as he stimulated you, and Remus pushed his hand away as he sheathed himself fully in you before pumping you full of his seed. He came deep inside of you, and you moaned loudly at the sensation. 

He pulled out of you, undoing the ties at your wrists. You went limp, and Sirius smirked. 

“No, bunny, you’re not done. C’mon, on your knees.” He flipped you face down and dragged your hips back, pulling you onto your knees and elbows. 

“I want to hear you scream.”

Without warning, Sirius was slamming into you from behind, somehow going even rougher than Remus had. His thrusts were fast and powerful, hitting deep parts of you that you didn’t even know existed.

As promised, Sirius had you screaming into the mattress, your fingers clawing at crimson sheets. Remus was making out with him over you, and you shuddered from the delicious pain that spiked through your body. You were moaning and whining, barely able to hold yourself up before he was done with you. 

You were relieved when Sirius finally hit his orgasm, the snapping of his hips against your ass ceasing. Your breathing was ragged and uneven as he let you down, Remus helping clean the three of you up. 

You collapsed when Sirius let go of your hips, curling up into a ball in the bed. Your entire body was throbbing and aching, and exhaustion seeped into your veins, dragging you into a heavy sleep. You were content, the stressful week gone, and all that was left was the feeling of your two boyfriends.

The boys took care of you affectionately before curling up in bed with you, pressing kisses to your cheeks, even in your dreamy state.

You struggled to wake up, your body feeling heavy with lethargy. Remus tried to get you up, and you refused to move from the warmth under the duvet. You were aching between your legs, and as you moved, you felt a sharp pain shoot deep in your belly. A whimper escaped your lips, and the boys teasing as they tried to get you up disappeared.

“Y/N, darling, what’s wrong?” Sirius softened at the noise of discomfort you made.

“Just give me a minute.”

The boys looked at each other but let you get up slowly. You needed to be in potions this morning, unable to miss the second half of the lecture from the day before. 

You were able to ignore the pain for a while, but by the end of class every movement sent a sharp jolt of pain deep inside of you. 

“Siri, I can’t,” you breathed, gripping his cloak. He fretted with worry, cursing himself for not letting you stay in bed.

“What is it, bunny?”

You put your hand on your abdomen, and he frowned, looking around before sighing. Sharp pain interfered with your focus, and you silently threatened to cry if Sirius didn’t help you. 

“Let’s get you to Pomfrey. Can you walk?”

You shook your head, and he let you onto his back, carrying you to the hospital wing. He’d alerted Remus, who met the two of you down in Pomfrey’s exam room. Remus’ expression was clouded with worry, and you felt guilty for scaring them. 

Pomfrey ushered the boys to wait on the other side of a screen, and Sirius leaned against Remus’s chest as they waited. Pomfrey had a look on her face when she moved the screen back, and they saw you drinking a potion behind her. 

“Y/N’s cervix is bruised. There isn’t much I can do other than give her the pain potion. She’s got to let it heal, so no more trauma to it. She’s fine, but she’ll be in pain for a while.” 

Both boys’ eyes widened, and you were red with embarrassment. Sirius couldn’t bite back a smug smirk, and even Remus looked rather pleased. You rolled your eyes at them, embarrassed that they were so proud of their work on you.

Once the three of you were back in your dorm, they were tearing into you.

“Can’t take cock as well as you thought, bunny?”

“We’re so big we just break you.” Remus was laughing, and Sirius had a grin plastered on his face. 

You covered your face in embarrassment, and Remus pulled your hands away. They wanted to see you blush as they continued their teasing, lightly pinching your sides.

“Told you we were going to destroy that little pussy,” Sirius giggled, and you hid your face in his sweater.

They continued their teasing, even while they got you snuggled into bed in their oversized clothes, making sure you were as comfortable as possible. Pomfrey’s potion had taken the edge off, but hadn’t alleviated the pain. You shifted a few times before Sirius got into bed with you, settling you between his legs.

“I’m sorry, darling.” Sirius finally relented, kissing your temple.

“I’m okay. Just maybe not that hard next time.”

Remus kissed you then, promising to be more gentle in the future. He apologized, and you kissed him sweetly before watching him go back to class. Sirius gently massaged your sore hips and legs, getting you to relax against him.

“You could’ve told us it was too much,” Sirius said, kissing your temple.

“I liked it, I was lost in it, didn’t realize how hard you were going.”

He kissed up your jaw before catching your lips, scolding you lightly for not paying attention to your body before finally letting you rest and sleep it off.

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A/N: this is in no way a song fic, or connected to “jealousy, jealousy” by Olivia Rodrigo, I just thought the name fit. I realized I never gave Sirius a time to shine in my fics, so this one’s for him. And thank you @fiftyshadesoftricia for helping me format

CW: smut, d/s elements, jealous Sirius, if you try hard enough it might be angsty, dom!Remus/Sirius, sub!reader/James, exhibition, face fucking, degradation (use of the word bitch), unproofread dyslexia 

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“You know what (y/n), I need you to shut up. And loose the whole the fucking attitude.”

Sirius pushed you into your dorm, and towards the center of the room.

“Fine. But you could leave me the fuck alone then.”

Blood rushed to your ears, and the fury that had been building up for the last hour or so had crushed any composure you had, all on the account of Sirius Black being an ass.

Albeit you enjoy being deemed as “his girl”, as well as the rest of the Marauders, you were perfectly capable of handling your own business. Business is the group of boys Ravenclaw boys who took the opportunity of your boyfriends’ absence to take turns trying to catch your eye in the halls.

There was no doubt you couldn’t handle the issue. In fact, you were alright on your own. However, Sirius wasn’t one to think that playing along with the group of said boys was necessarily appropriate. It was fun to lead these boys on, twirling strands of hair and batting your eyelashes with faux innocence just to snap at them moments later and see them jolt was amusing.

Of course, Sirius knew this game of yours was all fake, but he couldn’t help getting heated at the sight, and this was his last straw.

The second you saw the envy plastered on his face as you talked to the boys, you knew you were in for it. 

But why not dig your grave deeper.

You walked away from the boys, and right past Sirius. Barley acknowledging his presence in the hall. 

Sirius didn’t even try to cover the fact that he was following you. A quick glance over your shoulder at the boy had him just about running towards you. You turned down an empty corridor, and just like clockwork, Sirius was right there behind you. 

“You little-”

“Lovely to see you too, Siri.” There was a certain way that you could lace your words with purity that had your boyfriend addicted.

The rest of the conversation was a fast blur of quips and pushing each other up the stairs to the dormitory, where Remus and James were waiting for your rambunctious arrival. 

As you stumbled into the dorm, you were pushed into the center so Sirius could make a show out of you like you were merely a circus act. 

Remus and James didn't have to even have to open their mouths for you to understand the many questions running circles in their heads. 

“All I’m doing is joking around and making fun of those bastards but Sirius is being a jealous fucking prick!”

All eyes were now on you. Glares came from Remus and Sirius but James just stared in shock at the bold out burst of yours. James went to comment, but was cut off by Remus.

“Not now James. What on earth are you two possibly going on about?” 

Right on cue, all of your confidence drained. Not a bone in your body felt big enough to stand up to Remus on this. He knew about your little charades, he found them slightly entertaining in the sense it meant he got to watch you crumble to the ground before him. 

Shame quickly took place of your lost pride, you cast your eyes to the ground and started to twiddle your fingers. Sirius saw took the opportunity to speak for himself. 

“I have every right to be jealous, you’re the one walking around trying to get fucked by every other boy at school.” 

Your head shot up at his words, maybe he didn't quite grasp it was all a game.

“I don't want them, you’re just stupid. All I want is you. Merlin, Sirius. I’m just trying to get you worked up. Cant you get that through that thick skull of yours?”

His face was softer now. There was a certain expression of fluster that made it clear he was a little out of the loop, but was piecing the puzzle together. 

“That’s what this is for. You want me jealous.”

These weren’t questions, these were statements. He was becoming aware, and that caused desire to form alongside the anxiety that sat in the pit of your stomach. 

For a second, Remus and James simply weren’t in the room. It was only Sirius. He was the one that mattered now. He was all your attention was focused on. Millions of people could be passing by, but not even for a single second would you take your gaze off of Sirius. 

James was the one to knock you out of this rush with his questions of what was going to happen to you. What punishment could entail didnt even conceptualize for you. The thought hadn’t even made an appearance until now. Of course you knew there would be punishments, but what exactly that meant was far out of your reach. 

“Not sure. That seems to be up to Pads.”

Remus’ response clearly sparked an interest in Sirius. The way he looked at the lycanthrope made sure you knew you were going to be in deep if Remus gave the okay to take the reigns on your repercussions.

You were barely able to process what the slight nod Remus gave Sirius meant before you felt rough hands grip tightly at your wrists and tug you towards the raven haired boy’s bed.

While you flopped on the bed, Remus pulled a chair up to the end of the bed facing you and Sirius and had James sit in his lap.

Sirius was no longer drunk on excitement, his expression became sober. 

“This is a punishment pup, but you can still say stop whenever you need, just like always, okay?” 

You nodded your head in agreement, but that wasnt enough for him. Sirius needed constant verbal agreement from you, the last thing he ever wanted was to make you scared. If he didnt hear words, he would get a nagging feeling there might be something wrong.

“I need you to say it.”

“Yes sir. I know. But what about Remmy?” Not one of your boyfriends had yet to recognize that it was only you and Sirius in bed. 

“Your gonna put on a show for ‘em.”

Heat rushed to your face, and in an attempt to hide said embarrassment you threw one of the red velvet pillows over your face. Within a millisecond Sirius pulled the pillow from your face and had it relocated to the ground with a soft thump. 

“Dont you dare start getting shy on us now puppy. You put yourself here. Now on your knees.” Sirius 

Rather than moving at the demand, you stayed stationed on the soft comfort of the bed.

“Are you dull? On the ground.” With a sudden swipe to your hair, your were pulled to the ground, making you kneel before him at his feet. With a sense of instinct you reached your hands to the buckle of his belt. Sirius didn’t  care to yell at you for touching without direct permission, he just needed you to be his this evening and always. 

Once his belt and pants were gone somewhere in the room, you sat back on your heels, hands splayed across your thighs awaiting any new instructions from your dominant. 

“Merlin, do I have to do everything for you. Fucking dumb.”

His words may have been harsh and his tone was definitely rough, but that didn’t stop lust from fogging your brain. He removed his boxers, bringing his cock into view. You were so far lost in ogling at the sight you didn’t fully hear Remus’ commands. 

“Acting like you’ve never seen my cock before, don't tell me I’m gonna have to teach you to suck properly.” 

Once again, Sirius’ hands groped at your hair, this time bringing you mere centimeters from his cock. You stuck your tongue out, letting bead of saliva dribble onto the flushed pink head before suckling at the tip. The grip on your hair loosened, and rather than having a stationary purpose, Sirius’ hand guided your head down his shaft. 

Not a lot of what Sirius said from above you reregistered in your mind, all you heard was something along the lines of “going faster”. Which turned out to be not a demand for you, but a blanket statement of his. As you attempted to add more speed to your movements, Sirius’ hands reached your face. The cold of the rings that decorated his fingers felt strange in contrast to his warm palms cupping your face, bringing you to a halt. 

He set the pace. This one was filled with haste. Unrestrained. Downright brutal. It was set with the intention of not having you able to talk for days without pain reminding you of tonight. 

The spongy tip of his cock relentlessly hit the back of your throat with every other thrust, making you gag around him and spit run down your chin. Tears felt heavy on your waterline, waiting to make their presence. 

“Don’t you dare cry. Be a good bitch and take it.” 

You tried not to, honestly, but it was too much. The way Sirius pounded into your face, the degrading phrases that were broken by his shameless moans, and the wet patch soaking your panties all the way through to your tights. 

You tried rubbing your thighs together to relieve any tension you could. Sirius couldn’t notice, his head was thrown back and eyes were squeezed shut in ecstasy, but it didn't go unnoticed like you intended. Remus saw. Of course Remus saw. In your hazy state, you forgot that James and Remus were watching. 

“Stop that. Now. Open your legs.” You complied to the directive and glanced at Remus, to the best of your ability. It was hard to see him through your tears optics, but you could make out his hand slowly pumping James’ length, and fingers shoved down the boy’s throat to keep him quiet. 

Without warning, you couldn’t keep anything in any longer. Hot tears streamed down your face, whimpers fell from your lips, you felt absolutely pathetic. And thats just the way Sirius liked you. 

The sight alone brought Sirius tipping over the edge. He pulled out of your mouth, hovering his cock right above your face. He pumped his throbbing length as ropes his cum painted you face. It mixed with the tears, and spit that already adorned your face. As you attempted to bring your hands up to wipe some of the mess from your face, Sirius spit on you, making some of his cum run along the side of your face and down your neck. 

“I didnt say to clean yourself did I?” 

He paused, seeing if you would answer or understand this was a rhetorical question of his, when you didn’t give an answer he continued.

“Keep it. I like you like this. Shows me that you’re mine.”

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heyy! could you do something where your in a poly relationship with Remus and sirius, you’ve been teasing them all day and they just get fed up and they tie you up with a vibrator at the full setting? idk this might be to much detail lmao

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I present to you: Angry hotheaded werewolf and eyeliner wearing dramatic rich boy teaching you a lesson. Pls step on me-

Hope you enjoy!!

Warning: 18+

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If there is something you enjoy doing it would be teasing your boys. And today you woke up and chose violence.

Pulling out your skirt you rolled the waistband up to make it shorter, just barely covering your ass. You decided to not wear a bra, but a simple white blouse with your house stitched onto the fabric. Everytime you moved the shirt would ride up to expose some of your skin and your nipples would harden, noticeable if someone would look at your chest. You put on your knee high socks and shoes, grabbing your bag and left to get some breakfast in the great hall.

Arriving there you made your way over to your boys and Remus turned instantly when he smelled your scent, smile dropping into a gape the moment he saw your attire. Sirius followed his point of view and his eyes scanned you body, jaw clenching.

„Hi boys“ you said, voice overly cheerful. „Saved me some?“

„Sure love“ Remus cleared his throat „the plate‘s yours.“

„Great, thanks!“ You gave him a kiss, digging into your food.

Sirius nearly moaned when you held his gaze and licked marmalade off your fingers. He just wants to bend you over and fuck you, wanting to show everyone that you belong to them alone. 

You winked at him, turning your attention to Remus who had been staring as well, a flush on his pale skin.

“You have peanut butter right there” you pointed out at the dazed boy.

“Hm?” His eyes were a little unfocused, staring at your chest. You bit back a smile and leaned forward, kissing it off. “There, now it’s gone.”

“Merlins beard”, James said “keep your private life P-R-V-A-T-E”

“You forgot a letter”, Lily pointed out. 

“Oh really?” James said seductively “You might want to tutor me Evans...”

Lily rolled her eyes and James pouted.

“Even I got embarrassed by witnessing this. Honestly Prongs, step up your game.” Sirius teased, laughing at his friends discomfort.

“Shut your mouth Pads, at least I’m not drooling over someone licking their fingers-”

Sirius cleared his thoat and you made an amused sound when you saw him blush. 

“Oh and Remus, your cup is already empty. Are you trying to slurp the glass through your straw or what?”

Now it was Remus’ time to clear his throat and look away from your tits.

James winked at you and you smirked back, for once your boyfriends decided to stay silent. James had been right after all. Looking down you saw them adjusting their pants and you giggled silently. 

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„Can you grab the book from my bag I need the instructions“, Remus told you, trying to get the potion right. Sirius was sitting there, blowing spit bubbles.

You smiled to yourself when you heared them gasp as you bend down to get his bag. Turning around you saw them staring at your face, not only flustered but angry as well.

„What the hell are you doing?“ Sirius hissed, pulling you to sit down.

„What?“ You asked innocently. „You don‘t like my panties?“

Sirius‘ eyes widened and he immediately corrected himself. „Nonono baby they‘re fine I just-“

Remus grabbed your jaw turning your head to him. „What he‘s trying to say is: Stop acting like a slut and we‘ll drop the punishment.“

You smirked and shook your head. „I‘m not doing anything. You‘re just horny.“

Remus rolled his eyes and gave you a strict look. „Behave.“

„Yes Daddy.“

James screamed as your boys groaned in embarrassment.

„YES WHAT NOW?“

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You and the girls were sitting by the lake, doing yoga. Fucking Lily and her ideas. It was fun, but way to hot to be doing moves like that. At least that‘s what you thought until you saw the marauders approach.

„What are you doing?“ James asked plopping down next to Lily on the grass.

Sirius and Remus took a seat next to you, sandwiching you in the middle.

„Yoga“ Lily said curtly. „Wouldn‘t expect you to know.“

James huffed. „Of course I know what yoga is. See?“

You were pleasantly surprised when you saw James doing the crow pose. That shit needed some real strength and apparently Lily was impressed as well. You smirked when she blushed a little at the muscles bulging in James‘ arms.

She chose to ignore him and turned back to you. „Right ladies, lets stretch our backs before we continue.“

You smirked when she threw you a wink, knowing about your plan of teasing the guys. You leaned forward, arching your back as you spread your knees a little. Your shorts were pulled taunt over your ass, thong peaking out from the waistband.

„Oh Jesus-“ Remus whispered, pulling his bag on his lap. Sirius‘ mouth fell open and he glared at you when you glanced over your shoulder to give him a coy smile.

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„That fucking brat is doing it on purpose!“

Remus shot Sirius a bored look. „No fucking shit Pads.“

„God when I saw her this morning I wanted to bend her over and fuck her raw. Did you see how she sucked her fingers?“

Remus groaned. „I was too busy staring at her tits, Pads. Since when is she into yoga?“

Sirius snorted. „Not surprising to be honest, the way she bends when we put her into any position we want.“

„I just want to tie her up and-“

„-make her cum.“

They grinned at each other but quickly shut up when you sat down to eat your dinner. They did nothing more than press a kiss on each cheek and would not once glance your way. You were confused, why the sudden changevin attitude? Normally they would be all over you by now.

You decided to step up your game. You put your hands on their thighs after you finished eating and saw Sirius bite a little to aggressively into his meatballs. Remus stayed indifferent.

Your hands slowly crept higher, now directly over their crotches and Remus took your hand in his, squeezing painfully. You winced, but kept your hand on his lap, feeling him harden under you.

„Right we‘re done, Prongs and Wormtail, look for a place to sleep for tonight.“

James groaned „A-fucking-gain? What are you, 12?“

Remus stood up as well, grabbing your elbow to drag you to their dorm.

Remus shoved you on the bed, ripping your clothes off and kissed you hard. He pushed you back until your head was against the bedpost and straddled your belly, kissing his way down to your bare tits.

„I fantasized about these the entire..fucking..day“ Remus growled out, slapping your breast with every word. You cried out when he sucked your nipple into his mouth, teasing you with his sharp teeth. Sirius bend your knees and spread you open wide, blowing against your swollen clit.

„Ah fuck please!“

Sirius flicked your clit and you yelled in pain, trying to close your legs, not that you could match his strength.

Remus got off and went to his trunk, pulling out your vibrator just as Sirius gathered your wrists in his hand and tied them to the bed.

„Listen pup“ Remus said sharply „Since you think you can jus tease us all day by prancing around like a slut, we‘ll treat you like one.“

You were about to answer but Sirius took the chance to stuff your mouth with your panties.

„Noone asked for your input, puppy.“

Remus put the vibrator on the highest setting and pushed it in as far as he could. He fucked you with it for a few seconds until he found your sweet spot and pounded against it. You were crying out in pleasure, legs shaking and he let go.

Sirius and Remus knelt down on both sides of your legs to keep them open and played with your breasts.

„Look at her pretty tits Moony. I bet they‘re sore already.“

Remus smirked when your eyes teared up at his pinching. „Aw poor baby, must hurt really bad. Does it hurt pretty girl?“

You nodded, eyes glassy as you begged for your orgasm.

„If you cum“ Sirius drawled „we‘ll force more out of you. But if you can hold back, we‘ll give you only as much as you want.“

You glared at Sirius and he laughed as he saw your desperate expression. They knew how impossible that deal was.

You tried to hold back, you really did. But then they decided to make out right there, kissing and moaning into each others mouths so passionately, that you came at the sight. You screamed out your realse, the vibrator not only drilling against your sweet spot but clit as well.

Remus smirked and pulled the panties out as you continued to cry out, trying to get rid of the toy. Sirius pushed it back in and you came again, squirting a little as you nearly passed out from the force.

„Guess you made your choice slut, so you better be a brave little girl.“

You can‘t remeber how many orgasms you had as they ignored your pained cries and whimpers. Was it four? Five?

„Please!“ You wailed „Please enough! Please! Yellow! Yellow!“

Sirius didn‘t take the vibrator out, only lowered the setting and leaned over to pout. „What is it baby, can‘t cum anymore?“

You whined. „Siri please enough! I can‘t!“

Remus chuckled and leaned over as well, stroking your hair gently. „But baby, there is one more. I know there is. Don‘t you wanna make us proud, hm?“

You mewled softly, clenching your legs, but that made the soft hum of the vibrator press directly on your clit.

„Remus“ you whined as he took a hold of the toy, gliding it in and out. Sirius laid down between your legs, spreading them open and kissed you clit softly.

„Sirius“ you gasped „hurts!“

Sirius didn‘t respond, only sucking your clit in his mouth and lapped at it. Remus turned up the setting again and you let out high oitched moans, fucking back against the thrusts.

„Fuck you taste so good baby, c‘mon give me your cum.“

You trembled all over as Remus encouraged you to cum again.

„Let go pup, be our good girl“, Remus cooed, kissing you to keep you silent as you came for the last time, whimpering into his mouth.

„There we go puppy“ Sirius moaned, taking the toy out to lap at your hole. He hummed at the taste, licking everything clean and got up to kiss Remus, sharing your cum.

„I‘m never leaving without a bra again“, you said, panting hard.

The boys gave you mocking grins, prepping your face with kisses until you were breathless.

[pinkteapotwriting]

Happy Birthday Remus part 2

Part one Happy Birthday Remus!

Warning : Smut, this is just smut. Minors DNI, Switch!Sirius x Dom!Remus x Sub!Reader

Edging, slight over stimulation kinda idk, oral, food mention and I think that’s all of it

Wolfstar x Fem!reader

Summary : Sirius is mad about the little stunt Remus had you pull the day prior, so he breaks Remus’s rules and plays with you how he sees fit. 

Word count :1826

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You awoke to the sun gently sweeping across your face as you separate yourself from Sirius’s chest. The only thing that could be brighter than that hazy yellow pouring in is the smile you gave while looking at Remus spooning Sirius. His arms wrapped around him tight, like the only security blanket left in the world. Not wanting to interrupt the sweet sight you got up to go get ready by yourself. 

Your legs were quite tender from the night before, not that you were complaining. You made your way to the bathroom to start your routine, but when you stepped over the edge of the tub to take a shower your sore legs betrayed you. With a not too painful, but still solid plop you hit the floor landing on your bum. 

“Ow.”

“Y/N?” A voice resounded in concern.

The sound of rushed pattering made its way to the bathroom. 

“Y/N! Love are you alright?” This time you could tell it was Sirius who asked.

Giggling the whole time you responded, “I’m okay I promise! My legs are just sore from last night.” 

Sirius gave a huff as a reply and simply walked past to fill the tub as an alternative for your certain destruction, while Remus scratched the back of his head and mumbled his apologies before retreating briefly.

Sirius pulled you from the floor and set himself in the tub with you nestled in front of him. You tilted your head back against his shoulder in absolute bliss as he rubbed his hands up and down your thigh.

“Y/N love?”

“Yes darling?”

“I just wanted to say I’m sorry. I know you enjoy being submissive, but last night taught me not to take advantage of that. Please remember to let me know if I’m pushing your limits.”

“Baby, we have a safe word for a reason! I love you so so much and appreciate you checking in. I promise to let you know if you ever make me uncomfortable. There’s no hard feelings and to be quite honest I definitely prefer when you boys dominate me.”

You shivered as one of his hands wrapped around your waist while the other enclosed around your throat pulling your ear to his hypnotic lips. 

“Well that’s good to hear, cause I’d be remiss if I didn’t get to leave you absolutely decimated tonight after your little show yesterday.”

The twang of pleasure that shot straight to your core only increased when the hand that rested on your waist found its way to your clit. 

“Yeah, yesterday you talked a big game, but it looks like you’re already dripping for me puppy.”

You whined softly, but were quickly muted when Sirius’s hand engulfed the lower half of your face. He knew Remus’s rules quite well and touching what belonged to him without permission would certainly get him in trouble. However, the prospect of teasing you all day, toying with Remus’s precious puppy under his nose was thrilling. In short he loved making you squirm. So he wasn’t about to let you ruin his fun so soon.

“None of that now, Moony would hear and ruin our fun for touching you without permission. If you want to cum at all today you’ll be a good puppy and keep your mouth shut and obey. Are we understood?”

You nodded weakly already so close to your release. 

“Aw baby your legs are shaking bet you’re close huh, does my pretty girl wanna cum?”

You let out a muffled yes against his hand and he just chuckled. “Too bad I can hear Remmy coming up the stairs, maybe another time. Remember to be a good puppy.”

Before you even got the chance to pout Sirius released his grip and went back to rubbing your thighs while Remus entered holding a tray with three cups of tea and three plates of leftover chocolate cake. 

“Sorry love, I just thought it would be nice if we had breakfast in the bath.”

“Good thinking Rem, less moving around for her that way. What do you say sweetheart?”

You did your best to hide your guilt and smiled sweetly at the man you adored. 

“Thank you Remmy.”

He just smiled back at you and disrobed so he could join you all in the bath. Sirius didn’t dare make a move while Remus was there and he was much better at hiding the previous occurrence. You couldn’t help but feel uncomfortable since last night wasn’t exactly gentle and Sirius made sure you were extra sensitive to any touch. You were puddy in his hands, perfectly malleable and so in your tired bleary mind state you only craved to do what was asked of you. Despite it being a conflict of interest between obeying Remus, and obeying Sirius. 

(Remus is clearly the big boss around here, anyway) 

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Luckily it was a Sunday so you had nowhere else to be, but it was also just as unfortunate considering Sirius would be able to keep you in his clutches. Every time Remus left the room he had his hands on you. Sirius made sure you were adorned in his biggest t-shirt (your usual lounge wear) so he could have easy access without arousing suspicion. His hands always found the most delicate places while his mouth wreaked havoc on your even more so delicate mind. 

“Be quiet sweetheart, don’t want Remus to find out you’re not his good girl, his obedient little puppy.”

“Bet you’re just desperate to cum, I can’t even keep count of how many times I’ve edged you today.”

“Beg and maybe I’ll be generous, come on pup beg for it”

Of course it didn’t matter how many times you would cry out, only for it to be muffled by his hand. He was not planning on giving you what you so desperately needed anytime soon. Sirius loved the sounds he’d pull from you. He was just such a glutton for your punishment. The prospect of breaking Remus’s rules thrilled him, that he was touching what didn’t belong to him. He knew he was risking punishment, but the feeling of you clenching desperately around his fingers only spurred him on.

Meanwhile Remus was confused by your jumpiness and reaction to touch. You had never been like this the day after. Usually all you wanted was to be held and take it easy, but you basically rejected his touch and he was so afraid that he pushed your boundaries too far last night. Poor Remus wasn’t aware of that tight coil in your stomach that Sirius had created, that made any lingering touch almost put you in overload.

You were all settled on the couch and little to his knowledge under the blanket you had covering your lap Sirius was slipping his cock between your wet folds. Course you knew your only job was to sit still and keep him warm, but that didn’t make it any more uncomfortable. You had been denied orgasm time and time again with just his fingers and now his dick was buried deep inside you and you weren’t allowed to move. It was infuriating. 

“Y/N, love? Can you come and cuddle me now please? I’m getting cold over here.”

Sirius’s grip tightened on your waist as a low warning, so you were forced to hang your head and shake your head no.

“Sweetheart did I do something to hurt you last night. Please I feel like you’ve been off all day. If I caused you pain in any way I’ll never forgive myself. What can I do to make it up to you.”

In a rush you got up and straddled Remus’s thigh. You just couldn’t take it anymore and started clutching his shirt and nuzzling your tear filled face side to side against his chest.

“Puppy what’s wrong, what did I do?”

You only shook your head and started rutting against his thigh. Your body acting of its own volition answering for you. 

“Darling hey hey hey slow down what’s going on.” He glanced down and his eyebrows raised at the sight. You were absolutely soaking and he had the new wet patch on his pants to prove it. 

“Daddy I need to cum so bad it hurts.”

He then made eye contact with a very guilty looking Sirius, then decided your needs were much more important than whatever Sirius had to say, he’d deal with him later. 

“What’s wrong precious, what happened pretty girl”

“Siri-” you choked out a sob, “Siri told me he wouldn’t let me cum and he said I wasn’t your good girl and- and daddy it hurts in my belly I need to cum so bad.”

“Oh Y/N you’re always my good girl, my precious pup. Do you want Daddy to make you feel all better? Siri is just a meanie come on let’s go to the bedroom.”

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Remus had you sprawled out on the bed, making sure your head was supported by Sirius’s lap. His head was between your legs, eating you out like a starved man. Your incessant mewls and whines broke his concentration.

“Come on what do you want love Daddy can fix it for you. Do you want Daddy’s cock?”

You managed a pitiful nod and soon enough your wish was granted. 

Remus kept a steady pace as your fingernails clawed into Sirius’s legs. He could tell by your trembling you were so close.

“Fuck Y/N” Sirius groaned, “I’m sorry baby I didn’t mean to make you wait so long, but you look so pretty fucked out like that. You’re such a good girl waiting so patiently”

“That’s right puppy, you’re such a good girl taking my cock so well, come on love cum for me.”

As the sweet relief of your climax finally being within reach you sobbed in ecstasy. Your orgasm left you breathless as  the immense pleasure could rival a tidal wave crashing over you. Remus would normally chase his own high, but you had been overstimulated enough so instead he pulled out and stroked his length while eyeing Sirius angrily. Sirius gulped.

Even in your exhausted state you still could use the manners they trained you to have. 

“Thank you, daddy.”

“Of course good girls always get to come. Not selfish gits who break my rules though. Tell me pup, how many times did Siri edge you today?”

“I- I lost count, Remmy.”

A wicked grin covered his face, but his fiery gaze remained unyielding.

“That’ll be a good start then, okay pretty girl can you grab the bonds for me? It seems our naughty boy didn’t learn his lesson yesterday.”

How lucky were you, to be taken care of in so many different ways by the two men you adored above all else.

“Yes Daddy”

Before you did what you were told you couldn’t help but relish in the fear and anticipation on Sirius’s face. Wondering, and craving for what would happen next…

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@thotbutpurple @quindolyn

[leossmoonn]

The Last Time

masterlist

pairing - sirius black x fem!reader

type - angst, fluff

note - this is really messy but i just need to air out some feelings haha. sorry to do this with sirius, but i have another fic coming soon that has a happy ending :)

summary - you and sirius have been going round and round for three years, and you’ve both decided it’s time to end it

warnings / includes - language, mentions of cheating, crying, fighting

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*gif isn’t mine*

You didn’t know what you wanted. You knew you deserved better, but you loved him. You knew that he deserved better, but letting him go was the most painful task, you didn’t even want to try it again. You just knew how it would end. You two would be alone for a few weeks, the loneliness seeping into your hearts, convincing you two you could try again. Convincing you two that you both could spare another chance at this. But now, you were sure that if you ended it tonight, there wouldn’t be another chance. It would have to be the last time. 

So you sat on your bed, shaking with tears running down your face. Lily was with you, rubbing your back soothingly as you voiced your concerns and doubts, trying to figure out what you wanted to do. 

“I just… What if I really regret it? Like, after a few years of being broken up and I want to get back together, but he’s already got someone new?” You asked. 

“It’s okay if you regret it, Y/n,” Lily assured. “But you need to get out of this relationship now. It’s not healthy. He’s cheated on you, you were flirting with other men while still in a relationship with him. You two just need time apart to figure out what you want.” 

You looked at the floor, playing with the hem of your skirt. You sniffled, wiping your eye roughly with the back of your hand. “I wish I knew what I wanted. I wish this wasn’t so hard.” 

Lily sighed and smiled softly. “Breakups aren’t supposed to be easy. They’re supposed to be hard and hurtful because you’re letting go of the person you love the most. But this is going to be good for you two. If you decide you may want him back later in life, then go and contact him and work it out then. Otherwise, you can’t keep doing this to yourself now.”

You sighed and nodded, knowing that she was right. “I-I know. I just don’t want to hurt him. I’ve put him through so much. What if… What if he hates me?”

“Y/n, I don’t think he could ever hate you. Just like you could never hate him.” 

You looked up at her with a watery smile. “You think so?” 

“I do,” she nodded and patted your shoulder. “I really do.” 

“Alright,” you sighed. “Y-Yeah, you’re right. I’ll survive this, right? My world doesn’t revolve around Sirius. It never has and never will. I’ll move on… right?”

“Of course you will. And I will be here all the way to support you,” Lily smiled and hugged you. 

“Thanks, Lils,” you sighed. “Anytime,” she hummed. 

Behind the door of the girl’s dormitory, Sirius listened in on your conversation, not quite believing his ears. He thought you two were past this. Past all the doubts, past all the breaking up, past all of it. Apparently, he was wrong.

He balled his hands into fists, his whole body beginning to shake in anger and sadness. He stomped down the stairs, undoing the spell that allowed him to climb up to the girls’s dormitory. He made his way to the common room where his friends resided. They all were surprised to see Sirius back so soon. They thought he was going to hang out with you for a little bit, but the expression on his face said otherwise. 

“Hey, mate, you okay?” James asked. “No,” Sirius seethed, sitting down on the couch. 

“What’s wrong? Did you two get into a fight again?” Remus asked. 

Sirius opened his mouth to speak, but no words came out. His throat was dry and he felt as though shards of glass were trying to weasel their way down his esophagus. He felt queasy, too, like he could throw up. His whole body was shaking, his fingers digging into his skin, surely to drawl blood. Tears were working their way up into his eyes. He tried to fight them, but your words replayed in his head. He just couldn’t shake them off. 

Remus and James looked at each other before sitting next to Sirius. 

“What happened, Padfoot?” James asked again. 

“Y-Y/n,” he stuttered out. “What about her?” Remus asked. 

“S-She…” he trailed off, tears falling down from his eyes. “She… She wants to break up again. For good.” 

James and Remus’s faces fell. They put a comfortingly hand on Sirius’s shoulders. 

“I’m sorry, mate. Did you say anything to her?” Remus asked. 

“That’s the thing,” he laughed sourly. “I didn’t get to say anything because I was on the other side of the fucking door. Listening to her talk to Lily about it.” 

“Oh,” James said. “I… Do you want me to go up there and try to see if Lily can convince —” 

“It’s no use, Prongs,” Sirius sniffled, wiping his nose off of his sleeve. “We’re done. It’s over. I-I can’t do this anymore.” 

Both boys nodded in agreement with him, knowing that this day would’ve come sooner or later. 

“S’alright, Padfoot. You’ll finally be free, y’know?” James tried to cheer him up. 

“I don’t want to be free. I love her. I love her so much and she… she has this hold over me, but I have to put my foot down. I can’t go around and around with her anymore. It’s not worth it.” 

“We’re sorry, Sirius,” Remus spoke. “When she comes down to talk to you, why don’t you two just have a polite chat about it, alright?”

“H-How can I do that?” Sirius laughed. “Look at me, I… I’m shaking. I can barely breathe. Her words keep running through my fucking head.”

“Take some deep breaths, mate,” James directed, massaging his shoulder. 

“I-I’m trying,” Sirius’s voice broke. 

Remus opened his mouth to say something, but he heard footsteps come down. He turned his head, seeing you walking down the stairs, a smile on your face. He turned back to Sirius. “She’s here.” 

Sirius wiped his eyes and nose, running his fingers through his hair. He turned to you, his heart sinking at the innocent look at your face. 

“Hey, Siri!” You exclaimed. “Hey,” he said flatly. 

“What’s wrong?” You frowned, walking over to the couch. 

Sirius looked down at his lap and you looked at his friends for help. They gave you a polite smile, getting up off the couch. 

“Call us if you need anything,” Remus said. “Yeah,” Sirius nodded. 

The two boys walked out of the room, leaving Sirius and you alone. You sat down next to Sirius, your heart pounding. You ran over what you were going to say in your head for the millionth time. You looked at the ground, licking your lips as you tried to work up the courage to confess to him. 

Sirius looked at you, brows furrowed. Not in a glare, but more in a confused, hurt way. Lily was right. He couldn’t hate you, but he sure didn’t appreciate what you were about to do. 

You took in a deep breath, looking up to him. “Sirius I —” As your eyes met his, your heart broke at the sight. Your eyes widened in surprise as you saw his glossy eyes and deep frown. Your hands started to shake and your ears became hot in the nervousness . You opened your mouth to speak, but nothing came out. 

Sirius stared at you expectantly, waiting for you to stay the words, but you never did. Instead, you said something that only made his heart sink to his stomach more. 

“Sirius I,” you coughed. “I just wanted to tell you how much I love you.” 

You put your hand on his, giving him an sweet smile. Sirius couldn’t contain his anger anymore. He scoffed and stood up, your hand sliding off of his. 

“Are you fucking serious?” He asked. 

You looked up at him with big, fearful eyes. “I-I.. What do you mean?”

He rolled his eyes, not believing or understanding why you were trying to lie to him. “Do you think it’s fun fucking with me? Do you enjoy it, hm? Do you do this for you own pleasure? Because I think it’s fucking sick.” 

Your heart only raced more at his words and you, too, felt like throwing up. “I-I —” You stuttered out, not sure what to say. “I’m not fucking with you?” 

Sirius scoffed, shaking his head. “Don’t lie to me, Y/n.” 

You glared at him, standing up. “Lie about what? I’m not lying to you, I-I love you!” 

“Bullshit!” He exclaimed. “Why do you think that way?” You asked as innocently as you could. 

Sirius bared his teeth at you, his shoulders shaking as he spoke his next few words. “I heard you with Lily. Talking about how you want to break up with me? Talking about how you don’t know what you want anymore? An-And now you come down here, acting all happy and go-fucking-lucky, telling me when you love me, when that’s obviously isn’t the truth!” 

Your jaw dropped, tears welling up in your eyes immediately. You didn’t think he was even in the common room, much less listening in to your conversation. You honestly didn’t know what to say, so you panicked, glaring at him and turning the blame on him. 

“You were spying on me?” You exclaimed. He laughed dryly, totally stunned at your behaviour. “Oh, this is just like you, innit? Turning the blame on someone else who’s done nothing wrong because you can’t admit to your faults.” 

“Excuse me?” You scoffed. “Oh, I admit my faults, Sirius.” 

“Oh, really? Give me an example, please,” he taunted. 

“I admitted that what I did two years ago was horrible, and that I was sorry. I am still sorry. I owned up to my mistakes because I know it was childish and immature. Oh, and speaking of blaming other people — what about you, huh? Blaming your now ex-friends for the reason why you cheated on me?” You spat. 

“I didn’t cheat on you, for Godrick’s sake!” He exclaimed. 

You scoffed, “You’re a fucking liar.” “Says you!” He shot back. 

“Well, at least I wasn’t the one who went calling some random American girl while I was away in New York for five hours straight each night, lying to me about where you were and who you were talking with. At least I wasn’t the one who lied to their partner because they wanted to “fit in”.  At least I wasn’t the one who talked shit about their partner behind their back, when they were with them. At least I wasn’t the one who acted like a douchebag when I voiced my insecurities about a girl, and all you replied with was “well, yeah, i mean, look at her.” Who the hell does that? At least I wasn’t the one who threatened to date the girl I hated because I wouldn’t pay attention to you!” You screamed, your face burning hot and sweaty. Tears streamed down your cheeks as you listed all the reasons.  

Sirius stepped back away from you, his heart leaping up his throat as he knew he had done all those things. He thought you two were past that, though, as he was sincerely sorry. He didn’t mean to do all those things as he was a stupid fourteen year old boy. He knew how much he hurt you and it killed him every single day, knowing that you had to find it in yourself to forgive him and give him another chance. But you weren’t all the innocent, either. 

“Yeah, well, at least I’m not the one who flirted with other guys because I was jealous and revenge. Maybe you could’ve handled the situation better, huh, Y/n, you think?” He hissed. 

“You don’t think I know that!” You laughed incredulously, your eyes wild and wide. You stepped closer to him, standing up straight and getting up in his face. “You think I don’t know that?” You repeated. “Because, I do. I think about it all the time, and I truly am sorry. But I was hurt because of what you did. I know I should’ve came to you about my concerns and doubts, but I didn’t even trust you yet. And yet, I let you back into my life, only to get hurt again.” You chuckled sourly, turning on your heel and walking around the common room, putting your hand on your forehead.  

“You aren’t the only one getting hurt!” Sirius exclaimed. 

“I know that!” You exclaimed, turning to him with your arms flailing. “But don’t you think for a second that you got hurt more than I did. I had to convince myself to trust you, you know that? I had to forgive you just so I could move on with my life and be happy. That was for my benefit, not yours. And I know you had to give yourself time to trust me, but at least what I did, I actually had a fucking reason.” 

Sirius sighed, “Yeah, I know. But think how I feel now! We’re always on and off because you can’t make up your fucking mind!”  

“Well can you really blame me? You’re the one who started this!”

“If you hate and blame me so much, why don’t you just leave?” 

You looked up at him, his face red and fuming from frustration. Hot tears streamed down your face, your brows furrowing as you started to sob. “Because I love you.” 

“If you loved me, then you wouldn't be questioning whether or not you wanted to be with me,” he muttered. 

“But that’s the thing,” you sniffled. “I’m not questioning whether I want to be with you or not, I’m questioning whether I deserve this or not. Whether we deserve this.” 

“Well, I think we already know the answer,” Sirius muttered. 

You looked up at him helplessly. “Is this it, then?” 

“It has to be,” he nodded. 

You stood across the room from him for a few moments, looking at him before collapsing to the floor and sobbing. Sirius stared at you, trying to resist the urge to go and help you. 

“Why’re you crying? You wanted this,” he spat. 

“Because,” you cried. “It’s still hard letting someone you love go.” 

“And here I thought you were an expert at this,” he mumbled. 

You chuckled, “Oh, shut up.” Sirius looked at you, smiling softly at your laugh. He decided to go over to you, dropping to his knees. He took your hand in his, looking at you in the eyes. 

“This is the last time, Y/n. I can’t do this anymore.” 

You stared at him, your whole body shaking at the realisation. You knew it was real, but it felt like a dream. All this felt like a dream. A bad dream you hoped you would wake up from soon. 

“D-Don’t,” you shook your head. “What?” He furrowed his brows.

“Don’t go,” you sniffled. “Not just yet.” He sighed helplessly. “I have to, baby. I’m putting my foot down. This is it. No more convincing ourselves we can get back together, no more trying to come back into my life, and no more of me trying so hard to make it work. Because obviously, it won’t.”

You started to cry again at his words, shaking your head as you didn’t want to believe it. “N-No, please. I-I know this is the last time, I know that, but please. Stay. Let’s talk about this, I —” 

“We can’t,” he shook his head. “Because if we do, then I’ll just convince myself that this is okay. And it’s not. And I know you know that.” 

You sniffled and nodded. “I-I do. I just… fuck,” you whimpered. 

Sirius sighed, still not liking to see you cry after all this. He stood up off the floor, taking you up with him. He moved close to you, cupping your face with his hands. You looked up at him with glossy eyes, breathing heavily as you tried to calm yourself down. Tears welled up in his own eyes as he pressed his lips to yours in a gentle, loving goodbye kiss. 

Your hands went up to his, holding onto his fingers as they held your jaw gently. Tears rolled down your cheek as you kissed him back, both of your tears mixing as you faces touched. You let out a choked sob as he kissed you, knowing that this was the last time you two would ever be this close. 

Sirius pulled away, a few tears rolling down his face slowly as he let go of you. Your face became cold and you felt the loneliness begin to creep in as he made his way to the door. 

“Goodbye, Y/n. I’ll see you around.” 

Your eyes widened as he opened the door, you ran over to him, begging him to stay, but it was too late. He shut the door on you, your fits coming in contact with the wood. You pounded against the back of The Fat Lady, screaming and crying for him to come back, knowing that it was no use. 

Lily ran down the stairs, gasping as she saw you banging on the door, yelling for Sirius. She went up to your immediately, wrapping you up in a tight hug. You didn’t stop and freeze in surprise, you fell into her embrace. Wrapping your arms around her shoulders as you cried into her sweater. She held you as you sobbed uncontrollably, putting her hand on the back of your head, kissing your forehead comfortingly. 

“I-It’s over, Lils. T-This was the last time,” you hiccuped. 

“I know, shhh,” she whispered. “I know. It’s all going to be okay, Y/n. It’s going to be okay.” 

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Hey saw your page and omg i found my heaven its totally fine if u ignored but i was wondering if you could write a sirius black x reader fanfic where he figures us and like edges us but not let us cum and he does that over and over. But he let us come at the end (and he comes too) pretty please

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    Pairing: Sirius Black x F!Reader

    Fandom: Harry Potter- Marauders Era

     Warnings: general smut, slight degradation, orgasm denial, no condom (pls wear one IRL)

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    Word count: 4k

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     Sirius made it very clear that he wanted you in his room at the end of your classes. It's been very difficult for you to see each other these days given all the exams and quidditch practices. So obviously it was very frustrating that you've been waiting in his dorm, alone for the past 20 minutes.

You were lying on his bed, his smell surrounding you making your stomach fill with butterflies. Your mind drifted to what would happen once he got here, on this very bed. You giggled at the thought of how messy the sheets will be after, how messy you will be as well. You didn't even realize your hand moving in between your legs circling your clit through your panties. You surprised yourself with the sound that escaped your lips. You were burning with desire trying your hardest to imagine Sirius' fingers instead of yours.

    "You really are something else, aren't you?"

     Your hand snapped quickly as you sat up on the bed. Sirius looked at you smirking and came closer.

     "You couldn't wait five minutes, darling? I've been waiting all week," he made another step towards you "all goddamn week" he was now standing in front of you, looking down at you sitting on his bed. "For you."

      "I'm sorry, Siri-" he cupped your face harshly. He was hovering over you while scanning your face. He put his knee on the mattress in between your legs. He snapped his hand from your face to your neck choking you a little too harsh than you expected.

      "You'd rather finger yourself than have my cock? You don't want my cock, is that it?" he shoved his hand in between your legs grabbing you causing you to cry desperately.

     "N-No! I want you, Sirius, I want you so bad. Please, please give me - Ah" without a warning you felt his finger being shoved deep inside you.

     "So. Fucking. Wet." he removed his finger just as unexpectedly fast and started licking it. "What were you thinking about, love?" he spoke scaringly calmly.

     "What?" you asked cautiously.

      "While you were fucking yourself on my goddamn bed," he snapped choking you harder before adding softly ", love."

You shifted in your spot uncertain of what was going to happen. His form was so big and his hand so strong on your neck. You felt like he could break you at any given moment.

    "What you would do to me"

    "What I would do to you?" his grip softened and a smirk appeared on his face. "And what did you imagine I was doing to you?" he asked pushing you slowly on your back. "Tell me, love" he lay to your side his knuckles moving up and down on your inner thigh.

    "Touching me," you said fearfully.

    "Mhm," he approved moving his hand to your clit and started rubbing it. You tried to drown your moan but it slipped away from you giving Sirius a cocky smile.

    "Your fingers, uhm. They were- God Sirius, just like that." your breath started getting faster.

    "Go on, what was I doing to you?" hair strands were falling over his face. His eyes moved from looking at what he was doing to your face, seeing his hungry eyes sent a shiver through your whole body.

    "They were deep inside me. Places only you can reach, stretching me so much!" you cried.

    Without breaking eye contact Sirius left your clit and slowly pushed his index finger inside. He played for a little bit, sticking it as deep as it would go then, just as painfully slow getting it outside. Over and over again.

    "I want more, Sirius. I'm begging you, please!" He didn't respond but introduced another finger and continued teasing you. You pushed your hips urging him to go faster. He laughed soundly and stopped completely, taking a break to see you fucking yourself on his fingers. It was hard given your position but you were desperate.

    "Oh, my, my, love." he chuckled before grabbing your pussy from inside. "Such a dirty girl, aren't you?" he whispered in your ear. "So eager to get fucked, my little slut."

    Using his clench on your pussy he turned you harshly. Now on your belly, you lifted your ass slightly. He got up, positioning himself behind you starting to take off your panties which were soaking wet.

    "Please, Sirius!"  you begged again.

    He admired your bare ass and pussy.

    "You're such a slut." he teased without touching you.

    "Only for you!" you reassured pushing yourself closer to him.

    "Only for me? Then why were you touching yourself, hm? In my own bed on top of that. So dirty and inconsiderate." You could hear his smirk in his voice and knew this turned him on. You felt his fingers playing with your entrance. "Say it," he commanded. "Say you are my slut."

    You remained silent.

    "Speak" he stated before hardly slapping your ass making you scream.

    "I am! I am your slut!" you cried loudly. A finger entered completely as a reward. You clenched around it gratefully. "I am your slut, Sirius, yours only! Please, I'm begging you!" and another finger, and another. You felt your walls being stretched more than you ever imagined.

     "Such a good girl when you want to." He yanked you by your hair pulling you on his chest. Now you were on your knees, with your back glued to Sirius's chest his right hand three fingers deep inside you and the other blocked in your hair. You felt his solid body behind you which only made you feel smaller.

You were just adapting to his long fingers when he started moving. His thumb was playing with your clit making you cry in pleasure. His lips were biting on your exposed neck, leaving marks, for sure.

"Oh, God, Sirius! I'm so fucking close-" your moans were louder than ever, screaming his name repeatedly. He moved his hand from your hair to cover your mouth.

"Don't cum." he spitted. "Don't you fucking cum"

You tried to delay your orgasm. You tried so hard to calm your body but Sirius was such a stimulant for you. His fingers were stretching you in ways you didn't know you could've been stretched and your clit was swollen from all the friction. You tried to calm your breath but it was hard not to hyperventilate with your mouth covered shut by Sirius' massive hand. His fingers were moving in and out on your entrance repeatedly making you so dizzy, you decided you can't keep it in anymore but at that moment he removed himself completely from you and pushed you on the mattress. You felt tears forming in your eyes. You were so close, so goddamn close.

Sirius started unbuttoning his shirt, giving you time to calm yourself. You turned on your back to watch his muscles flex as he undressed himself. You kept telling yourself he would finish you in the end, but only God knew what Sirius had in mind.

"You know, maybe you are right," he said pulling you by your legs to the edge of the bed. "Maybe I didn't treat you nicely enough for these past weeks." he dropped to his knees in between your legs and started kissing your inner thigh. "Is that it, love? You've been unsatisfied to you acted out to get my attention?"

He started kissing your aching clit, lips soft and tender. His hands moved on the outside of your legs tracing lines and circles on your skin. You put your hand in his hair and his eyes met yours. He sucked your bud while grabbing your hips. You murmured his name and he hummed in agreement before getting on top of you putting his arm above you for balance. You felt the tip of his dick at your entrance and glanced at the scene. You saw it twitch in anticipation.

"Or maybe, just maybe..." He said before slamming his entire length inside. "Or maybe you are just a fucking brat, aren't you?"

"Fuck! Sirius!" you groaned in pain and pleasure. You shifted a bit, your walls clenching around him.

"So fucking tight," Sirius hissed between gritted teeth. "You so desperate for me, aren't you?"

"Yes! Yes! Yes!" you moaned. You grabbed Sirius by his shoulders, clenching for dear life as he started thrusting. He reached to grab your neck just to remind you who was in charge.

"Just like that," he groaned. "Fuck! Want to hear your pretty moans. You're a good girl, right? Gonna take me like a good girl, right?"

You wanted to respond but his grip tightened making you feel like you're gonna pass out. He pounded in and out of you harder, the sound of your wetness filling the room.

"Siri-" your words got stuck in your neck which only made him smirk. "Please, can I- Oh God- please!"

"What is it, darling?" he asked softening his grip just to tighten it again when you tried to speak. "I can't give you permission if I don't know what you want." He was out of breath too, sign he was about to cum as well.

"Can I cum? Please, I want to cum with you!" you breathed out.

"You want to take my cum? Hm? I'm gonna fill you up, don't worry!" It only took two more thrusts before you felt his cum filling you which was enough to make you scream his name in pleasure. You began to twitch and pulsate against his cock, your own orgasm spilling out. Sirius groaned, helping you ride out your orgasm before slipping out and falling on the bed next to you.

"You were fantastic, darling," he said in between heavy breaths.

[mrsfrecklesmarauders]

Wolfstar's First Kiss

"Moony, fancy a smoke with me?"

Sirius' smile. Those beautiful puppy eyes. Remus could melt right there and then. Sirius could convince him of anything. Remus hated depending on Sirius this much. But he was so into him. Each day more than the last.

Remus nodded smiling. Sirius dragged him to the Astronomy tower. A private place. Away from the party occuring in the Common Room.

Once they got out in the night air, Remus shivered. But he didn't know if it was because of the cold. Or because he was nervous to be with Sirius alone.

Sirius turned to look at him expecting. He smiled.

"Oh I am one that has to have the cigs, ha?"

Sirius smiled wider "Thank you, Moony. I promise I will pay you back"

"You won't, you tosser" Remus rolled his eyes "But it's okay" he was smiling. He was smiling like an idiot as he gave Sirius a cig.

"Cheers Moony" Sirius winked.

Remus found himself staring at Sirius while he lit up his cig and inhaled it. How his neck moved. How his lips moved. How he closed his eyes. Sirius was beautiful. And that bastard knew it. And Remus was under his charm. Since 5th year.

'You will never have him' Remus thought

"Idiot" he murmured

"What?"

Shit. He said that out loud.

"Nothing"

Sirius smirked amused. They smoked in silence. Remus tried to focus on the wonderful view they got from the tower. He was cold. But this place was beautiful.

Remus felt Sirius' gaze on him. It was intense. And Sirius wasn't trying to be discreet. He just stared. The way he had done since they met. But this time, Remus' temperature was raising. Sirius even scooped closer. Remus' hand was on the railing. Sirius lied his hand right next to his. They weren't touching, but Remus could feel the heat coming from it. His heart beating fast.

"Merlin... I think I am a bit drunk" Remus snorted.

Almost immediately, Sirius said "Do you like Emmeline?" as if Remus hadn't said anything.

Emmeline Vance had been trying to dance with Remus, chat with Remus. And he tried to act flirty. But only because Sirius was watching them. And Remus wanted to make him jealous. Bloody idiot.

'I like someone else, idiot. You' he thought.

"I don't know..." Remus sighed "I guess she is cool"

"Cool?" Sirius asked puzzled like he didn't understand the meaning of the word "But she has this big mouth... It's kind of too big for her face"

Remus let out a chuckle.

"She is 'Frog Face'" the boys had chosen that nickname for her. James and his stupid nicknames.

"You should probably stop calling her that" Remus laughed

"If she doesn't come close to you, I might"

Sometimes Sirius said some confusing things. It made Remus hopeful. Like perhaps he liked him that way. But no. Sirius was just like that. Flirty. Sirius flirted with everyone. Girls, boys, teachers, parents even Padfoot was flirty as a dog. With his big grey eyes.

"She doesn't like me Pads" Remus said shaking his head.

"Of course she does! She is mental about you" Sirius said it like he was annoyed by it "She'd been trying to flirt with you for weeks"

Remus snorted. 'Girls had been flirting with you for years' he thought.

"She wouldn't feel the same if she knew what I was" Remus shook his head. He meant it as a joke but it was true.

"Don't say that!" Sirius protested

"It is true though" Remus sighed "Do you think she... well actually any decent person would be pleased finding out about my 'fury little problem'? They would be disgusted... Or terrified... So the illusion would be over..." Remus laughed softly.

"Remus stop!" Sirius sounded angry.

Remus turned to look at him. His expression was unreadable. He moved his mouth trying to say something. Or thinking about what to say. There was nothing he could say. Remus knew that. He smiled slightly. But Sirius still looked hurt.

"Remus fuck that... Anyone would be... You are amazing. If Emmeline or any other person push you away because of that, then fuck them" Sirius was playing with his hair which meant that he was nervous. Remus knew him pretty well.

"Siri..."

"You are beautiful!" Sirius interrupted "Bloody hell! I wish you could see yourself the way I see you. So brave. So beautiful. So intelligent. So amazing..." he swallowed "Whoever is with you, would be the luckiest person in the world. I wish... I want..."

Remus was so overwhelmed. He didn't know why Sirius was saying all those things. But Remus loved them. He didn't care about Emmeline or any girl, any boy, any person. Just Sirius. Only Sirius.

"You are the one who is gorgeous and incredible, Sirius" Remus smiled. He was eyeing at Sirius' lips. How Sirius was licking them and biting them nervously.

"Moony..." Sirius sighed. He was trying to say something but Remus didn't care anymore. He stepped closer. As close as he could get to Sirius. Sirius immediately closed his eyes. Breathing hard. His chest going up and down. Remus was the same. But somehow he was being confident now. He leaned closer. His eyes still opened. Watching every single movement Sirius made. How he was nervous and adorable. Was he waiting for a kiss? His lips were parted.

Their foreheads were touching. They were breathing each other. Trying to get rid of the nervousness. Trying to figure out what was going on. And Remus decided to take the lead. Because he couldn't take it anymore. Remus needed to kiss Sirius.

Remus rushed his lips against Sirius'. And Sirius immediately responded. It was just one kiss when Sirius pushed him away.

Remus wanted more. His body was leaning again.

"I guess we are pretty drunk, ha?" Sirius smiled slightly, he was panting.

Drunk? Fuck forget about the drunk. About alcohol and shit. He could do this sober. He could do this anytime. He had been wanting this for years. And it was finally happening.

"Yeah" Remus nodded panting as well "I guess we are"

Remus kissed him again. Sirius responded again. And this time they were more sure. They began exploring each other's lips and tongues. Sirius was running his hand through Remus' hair. It was perfect.

"Moony? Padfoot? Are you here?"

James' voice made the two broke apart immediately. Remus' lips trembled in protest for being cut off so quickly. They wanted more. Sirius looked away. Remus didn't know what to believe.

"There you are" James approached smiling. He was unaware of what just happened. Peter was behind him.

"You were smoking? Without me?" James asked offended between the two.

"You don't even smoke" Sirius answered. He was still not looking at Remus.

"Still" James smirked

"Good thing that you left the party" Peter commented "They started playing the Bee-gees and making dump choreographies" Peter laughed

"Davis was so drunk that he suggested making karaoke"

Remus and Sirius were not paying attention. They finally crossed glances and the world stopped. Remus smiled. Sirius smiled as well, unsure.

"Well you know a party turn to shit once I leave it" Sirius smirked going back to his old self. Remus breathed again. But he was happy.

"Modest as always" James put his arm around Sirius' shoulder "What do you reckon? We go to the kitchens and ask the elves for some food?"

"Yes! Please!!" Peter moaned "I am starving"

Remus smiled "As long as there's chocolate"

"Sure" James winked "Let's go"

The Marauders walked back inside.

[youranxiousnerd]

The Transformation Thoughts

bc hsmtmts said gay rights

spoilers below

yesss seb doing the recap

wait did seb just say he was crying?!?! give him a hug 

cow baby!!!

wow miss jenn and seb having a civil conversation

Natalie is back!!

ej and ricky with the mask

kourtney’s outfit!!!

ashlyn’s outfit...

ahh so the awards and the show are separate, good, that’s how it works

RICKY’S SHIRT!?!?!?! 

i love it

ricky is lgbt do not try to convince me otherwise

ASHLYN IS SINGING IT IS BEAUTIFUL

like pop off

ricky and the mask

that mask is the true villain in season 2

“Belle, I-” flops

Ashlyn is carrying the scene, she is such a good Belle

how is ricky allowed on stage oh my god

the cap

that damn mask

“It’s okay, it was just my face”

Miss Jenn is hanging on by a thread

finally some ashlyn and ricky content

“Which they will” buddy have you faced the music? Have you seen Ricky?

“I think I might have been playing Troy at one point”

Miss Jenn needs help from someone who isn’t a teenager

“Mother is freaking out” High school theater at it’s finest

“There is math involved”

“OH” 

sassy seb

i can’t with east high’s tech crew, what are you doing?!?!

and why are the actors figuring out the tech stuff?!? i’m sure kourt, big red, ashlyn (she knows all), and seb (he lives on a farm) know what to do. 

the crew cannot be that bad

btw here are my thoughts on this scene

guys it is ashlyn’s house not yours

portwell shoulder bump

ASHLYN I LOVE YOU

OH SO NOW YOU HAVE DRILLS

WHERE WERE THEY WHEN THE TECHIES STARTED USING GLUE ON PLYWOOD!?!?!?!

I WANT ANSWERS

i. cannot. with. this. show.

lily wtf

“is this too weird” yes

like why?

lily like actually shut up

big red’s “wtf”

let her be evil damnit

“i’m just not well liked here” i wonder why

that was really weird, anyways

“he gets weird around tools”

me too

no give big red the drill he knows how to use it

someone write a fic about the girls and seb’s chaotic target run

why don’t you have a blackout and dramatic music and lights for the transformation, i know it isn’t award level but if done right it can be pretty dope

“I don’t know if my parents will be okay with me being at a co-ed sleepover”

“Chip, this is your mother speaking, go call your mother”

HE DID THE FINGER GUNS

GAY TABLE SIT AND FINGER GUNS THEY DID THEIR RESEARCH

ashlyn’s bucket

CARLOS GAY TABLE SIT

OH MY GOD

they’re so gay soulmates

let big red have his skateboards

“i need to talk to seb at some point but it can wait” honey no it can’t wait seb is on the verge of a breakdown

wait they havent talked in a week

Im a hypocrite ive been dancing around someone for three years

“You’re still at school”

“I’m worried about my children” “She means us”

such a high school theater thing (like i got married during high school theater, we had a family tree)

“ah, Sebby”

“Now I’m pretty sad” give him a hug

the girls ship seblos

“But, I guess he has to be, out of default, right... there’s not a lot of choices for a boy like Carlos, here, at East.”

alright here come the tears 

why...why couldn’t he say “gay” or “queer” or “lgbt”?!?!

“Not so good at saying the feelings part out loud”

shiz that hit close to home. 

Seb is just making me cry today, isn’t he?

wait so we’re just going to change the subject? coming from a queer person, opening up about your problems about your sexuality is hard. like, there are things that happened years ago im just telling people. 

“You’re my sister, he’s my cousin”

it seems everyone except nina knows about the chocolates. imagine gossip time when gina told people write a fic

Nini just stop talking. It wasn’t a big deal, simple mistake. Not everything has to be big and dramatic

and wasn’t she just asking about Gina and Ej? 

Nini for the love of god it is not something to read into.

“The farmer type”

Ash and Red exchanging gossip

wait... why are they texting about this?

“Why wouldn’t he say something to me?” It’s a hard conversation to have. “hey are we together just because i’m your only option?” 

“Okay, pretty boy” HE CALLED HIM PRETTY BOY

RICKY!!!!!!!!!!

!!!

carlos and gina chaotic siblings

give ej a hug 

“Sweet boy”

im so glad the guys are talking about their feelings.

Why a sleepover? It’s more of a hangout.

“Verging on failure”

jennzara therapy

slowwww burn

you go from hand holding to fist bump

disney please release an acoustic version of “let you go”

so it’s just carlos and ricky chillin’ at big red’s house?

do not play let you go for nini

do. not.

“You guys are a hallmark movie”

for once ricky is being smart

“the look on your face when you were talking about Seb tonight” smiles

he is so whipped

“I think you and Seb have something worth fighting for...bro”

that was so sweet and then there is bro

i love this show

“Sorry, I’m adjusting to being called bro” 

him and seb being awkward about feelings... that is a high school relationship

i love ricky in this scene

“Yeah, let’s just write”

ASHLYN CALLED BIG RED BABE AWWWWW

nina shut the actual hell up

“It’s in the costume shop, somewhere” mood

“Thank you, 15″ THEY SAID THE THING

GAHHHH

I LOVE IT

howie and kourtney oh my god what is happening

 “and begging”

“hi” he’s so nervous oh my lord.

he is so awkward around seb 

it’s like a switch

“Do you want to get risotto with me sometime” OH MY GOD THATS ADORABLE

GINA BABY HE LIKES YOU 

GINA HONEY!!!

AWWW THAT WAS ADORABLE

PORTWELL YESSSS

gina’s little run

“Am I in trouble?” 

they’re so nervous 

oh my god its time

“You keep it all bottled up” GUYS I CANT ARGGGG

can ricky just like, go behind a curtain?

“lookin’ for our kind of love” carlos basically just said “i love you”

seb is so whipped like look at him?

they’re so in love

seb’s little eye role at “in a heartbeat, i choose you”

the hands omfg

oh my god they’re going to dance

SHIZ THE HOMECOMING SUITS

I WAS RIGHT

OH MY GOD

SHIT GUYS IM DYING

gah the hands i cant

carlos is leading i love it

the tie

a tie just killed me

im combusting

You’re honor, they’re in love

i really thought carlos was going in for a kiss he is probably getting one later

i like how the dance isn’t big, it’s small and a little awkward bc right then it’s just them.

THEYRE SO IN LOVE HOLY SHIT

damnit big red

big red is legally required to interrupt almost kiss moments especially if it’s an lgbt kiss bc we cant have two in one season

in a heartbeat is so cute. Frankie showed UP this season with the vocals. there is no way that was all acting bc they looked so in love.

I...I love it

the lyrics are perfect

In a Heartbeat and Let You Go are probably the best OG songs of the season

“Siri, add In a Heartbeat to my gay sob playlist”

these boys are just serenading each other left and right 

“Yeah” 

so it’s just “yeah”!?!? That’s it!?!?! Seb could have least kissed him on the cheek or did they use all their kisses?

I love the song and love the scene, but there is so much more to discuss. Are we going to brush over the fact that Seb literally had an allergic reaction and didn’t get help because he didn’t want to disappoint Carlos!?!? Are we going to brush over “no, seb” and seb feeling like he has to get carlos big things!?! One “yeah” doesn’t erase all that. I’m hoping we get closure, proper closure, not a joke. 

In conclusion, only one thing was settled (Carlos loves Seb for Seb, not because he is the only out guy in school).

“Seb and Carlos suffer their first fight” effing liars

BTW it looks like they filmed the dance scene with the homecoming suits and normal outfits so disney release the footage

Ricky is the biggest Seblos shipper

“Bro”

you morons. are you using rigging without an adult there?!?!

im pretty sure that isn’t allowed. only trained people were allowed to use the rigging. it should be Natalie since she did it in HSM

you should have gotten mats are something or stand in a circle

gahhh

RICKY

OH MY FRICKING GOD

NO ONE RAN THEY JUST WATCHED WTF

WTF WAS THAT ENDING

UMMMMM NO

i legit have no words oh my god 

they just killed the lead

you guys saw the rope you should have ran 

you should have gotten mats or blankets or something just in case

rigging is difficult, set rigging and people rigging

EAST HIGH WTF

Looks like the sleepover is going to be in the ER

My gay heart is full but my theater heart is screaming. The episode went by really fast. I liked it, like a lot.

To answer the question, no, I am not okay @organic-guacamole and we will have a theater kid sleepover

[turning-dreams-into-chaos]

The Jimmy Jab Games

Chapter 2: Riding Thestrals

~The Jimmy Jab Games Master~

Paring: Sirius Black x Reader

Word Count: 3.5K

~Master~

“Y/N, wake up!” There wasn’t enough reaction time for you to really awaken before a pillow was chucked at your head. Despite you being completely against it, your eyes opened and you yanked the pillow off you, sending it to the floor with a groan.

“No. I don’t wanna.” You mumbled, snuggling into your blankets more. Lily rolled her eyes, nudging you with her hand but you didn’t move.

“I’m not fighting you, girl. I’ll go get Sirius.” She called out as she left you alone in the room, the morning sun broke through your window enough to tell you it was well into the morning and you should’ve gotten up a couple hours ago. You could hear footsteps coming into your shared room a few minutes later as you let out a sigh and pulled the blanket over your head.  

Sirius was sitting in the common room, not admitting he was waiting for you to come down from your room. He tapped his hand against the couch, as he kept glancing back at the stairs and the action caused his friends to chuckle under their breaths.

“Just go wake her up.” James smirked, slapping Sirius’ shoulder. The boy who obviously wasn’t paying attention snapped his head to look at James.

“What are you talking about?” He tried to play it off, closing the potions book on his lap that everyone knew went unread.

James turned to Remus, both holding back their scoffs. “Well its obvious you’re not getting any work done.” Remus said pointing towards Sirius’ discarded book. “and neither is James.”

“Yes I am!” James protested, slamming his book shut. Sirius wrinkled his nose as he looked at his friend, not believing his lie.

“Oh yeah?” Remus asked. “What potion are we learning about?” He quizzed James. James thought for a second, trying to remember anything about the book he really wasn’t at all interested in.

He sighed in defeat. “And neither is James.” He grumbled, crossing his arms in front of his chest. “Wait, we’re supposed to go for Sirius, not me.” He reminded Remus who mumbled a quick ‘oh yeah’ before turning to the unimpressed Sirius.

He rolled his eyes. “There’s nothing to go for. I’m not waking up Y/N because I don’t care if she’s awake or sleeping in.”

“Sirius, I need you to go wake up Y/N.” Lily exhaled as she stood in front of Sirius who’s mouth thinned into a straight line.

“Well, duty calls.” James poked his head out from behind Lily as Sirius glared at him but didn’t say a thing as he stood off the couch and headed towards your room, charming the stairs not to disappear under his feet. As soon as he was out of view of his friends, he began skipping up the stairs faster before Lily’s words last night stopped him. He could see in this moment how it could be perceived that he liked you, not in love with you, but liked you. He took slow steps, much slower than normal before he was at your door, priding himself on beating Lily accusations.

“Oh, this is ridiculous.” He grumbled when he realized he was convincing himself, not his friend. Pushing open your door, he saw you bury yourself in your bed and he snickered. “Y/N!” He shouted and lightly jogged across the room, jumping onto your bed. He laid next to you, on top of all your pillows and staring at the ceiling.

You squirmed as Sirius landed half on top of you and tried to remove yourself from under him. “Siri, move! You’re crushing me!”

“Wake up and I won’t crush you.” he pointed out, hearing you sigh as you came out from under the blankets, glaring at him. Sirius let a smile cross his face as he saw you, your bedhead hair brushed over your face as your brows knitted together.

“Fine, I’m up.” You complained, fixing your hair and seeing Sirius still staring at you. You raised a brow at him. “Why are you looking at me like that?”

Sirius averted his gaze, opting to look at the ceiling again with a teasing face. “No reason. Just forgot how ugly you were in the morning.”

You snorted, giving Sirius a shove as he was forced out of the bed, landing on his back with a thud. “You deserved that.” You told him with a sweet tone.

“Yeah, yeah. Help me up.” You reached an arm over the side of the bed, Sirius taking your hand and hoisting himself up. He took his spot on your bed back and you scooted over to give him room. He put his left hand behind his head and allowed you to rest your own head on his elbow as a pillow. You both settled into the silence, enjoying the moment before you ran a hand over your face.

“I forgot about the games.” You admitted, turning your head to see Sirius. He looked as well, nodding his head.

“Oh yeah. I guess I did too.” He whispered. You pushed yourself out of the bed and stretched, seeing Sirius watching you carefully. You felt your cheeks heat up as you picked up your pillow, gently slapping him with it as you told him to get up so you can make your bed. “I’ll do it. You just get dressed, everyone’s waiting.”

“Pads, you don’t even make your own bed. Do you even know how?” You bit your lip, seeing Sirius deadpan as you giggled, grabbing your clothes and toiletries and headed to the bathroom. You came back to your bed fully made and Sirius laying across it, waiting for your return. “Okay, lets go.” You told Sirius who stood up, watching you walk towards the door before stopping. He stood in his place as he watched you repeatedly remember to grab your belongings. First a hair tie, then your wand, and finally when you remembered to grab your robes and throw them on, he made a move towards the door, joining you at the right time to walk down together.

“Finally!” Lily yelled when she saw you and Sirius. “Sleeping Beauty awakens with the help of the prince of course.”

“Shove off, Evans.” Sirius blushed, happy you couldn’t see as you tried to hide the small tint of your own.

You looked around at your friends, furrowing your brow at being one short. “Peter still sick?” you asked and looked towards Remus who had taken him to Madam Pomfrey last night.

“Yeah, Madam P said it best he stay in bed for a while.” He told you and you felt a little guilty, the games were your idea. Sirius put a hand on your back, getting you to look at him.

“He’ll be alright Y/N. We all ate the tarts as well and none of us are sick.” He shrugged off the thought, knowing Peter would be fine a few days. You knew he was right or else you’d all be sick, he probably just ate too much. “So what’s the plan for today McKinnon?”

Marlene clapped her hands together. “For that, we go for a walk.” You and Sirius exchanged glances with each other before with the rest of your friends and followed Marlene out of the common room. She didn’t say anything as you began your walk outside, leading you down to the forbidden forest and the Thestrals Paddock, a place that while not ruled off limits, everyone knew to stay away from.

“Thestrals?” You spoke up, glancing to Marlene who wore a proud look. You remembered the gamekeeper at Hogwarts, Hagrid, he’d always talk about the creatures and you’ve done some reading at your teachers request to soothe your curiosities about the magical creatures.

“What? No fair! You know Y/N’s fascinated by these things, she’s got the upper hand!” Sirius complained as you rolled your eyes, shooting him a grin.

“Well, you better get your act together then because it looks like I might be winning.” You heard a few huffs of annoyance from your friends before Lily put her hand on your shoulder and got you to pay attention to Marlene.

“For today’s challenge, you will be riding Thestrals!” She announced and threw her hands out in triumph. No one cheered, instead you all looked at her confused.

“Isn’t that dangerous?” Remus spoke up, voicing your concerns. “We can’t even see them.”

Marlene’s hands fell to her side, her lips thinning as you turned to look at your friends. “It’s not a bad idea.” You tried to reason, aware of how much Marlene was doing for you all and hating making her feel bad. “The Thestrals in there are some of the most trained in the world. I’m sure it won’t be that hard to ride them.” Everyone seemed reluctant, still worried about the repercussions of something not ending well. You sighed as your shoulders dropped.

Sirius was nervous about the aspect of riding a Thestral, but you do your research. If you say they’re fine to fly, then it’s fine. “I’m in.” Sirius declared as you met his eyes, a smile growing on both of your faces. Soon, the rest of your friends were in as well and you were bouncing on the balls of your feet as you waited. You could hear Sirius laugh behind you as you leaned back against him, letting him support you. “You’re way too excited.” He said quietly, aware of how loud his voice would be in your ear.

“Are you kidding? Of course, I’m excited! We should’ve visited here far sooner.” A few heads turned in your direction, not aware you were talking to Sirius. Lily, Remus, and James couldn’t hold their eye rolls back at the sight of you and Sirius not knowing how couple-y you were acting. You carried on with the walk just a little ways more before a clearing appeared, the trees covered it well, the look reminding you of twilight despite being midday. It was beautiful, but what caused you to stopped walking, breathing even, was the sight of 6 horses, their bones showing as they were fleshless and their wings when expanded were the larger than anything you’d ever seen before. “They’re beautiful.” You breathed out, not catching the turn of heads.

Sirius knotted his brows, glancing between you and the spot you were looking. You took a few steady steps forwards as he tried to figure out what was happening. He didn’t know much about Thestrals, just that you couldn’t see them. He did however remember you a few months ago telling him something about only certain people being able to see them.

“Your father.” Sirius mumbled, suddenly realizing the only reason you could see the Thestrals was due to your father dying last spring when you went home to be him and your mum. He’d been sick for years and doctors, even as skilled as the wizard doctors were, couldn’t save him. Sirius remembers how distraught you’d been, he stayed awake with you almost every night for weeks to comfort you.

You nodded your head, turning around to your friends and clearing your throat. “I guess I have more of an upper hand than you thought, Pads.” He offered a small laugh, one clearly for your benefit as you faced the Thestral again. You were careful as you brought a hand up, running it down the Thestrals mane. The horse-like creature took a step back as you paused, but not a moment later it allowed you to brush you hand across its boney face.

And to think, this morning you didn’t even want to leave your bed.

Sirius couldn’t take his eyes off you. The look on your face was one he loved seeing, happiness dripping through every feature. He wasn’t even aware as his friends started whispering behind him, feeling Remus’ hand nudge his shoulder before he was finally knocked out of his trance. He didn’t need to turn around to know his friends were smirking at him, so he chose not to, instead getting your attention. “So uh, how do we ride them?”

You helped your friends onto the Thestrals, Remus and Lily gripping onto their creatures as much as they could while James messed around, having too much fun on riding something he couldn’t see. You had to admit, if you couldn’t see the creatures, floating in the air while feeling it beneath you would be fun. Sirius was next as you walked over to him, pointing in the direction of his Thestral. He watched you pet the mane again like you’d done with the others, only this time you grabbed Sirius’ hand and let him touch the Thestral. You covered his hand with yours and Sirius had no where to look but at the side of your face. You caught him staring, a blush making it’s way on his face as you smiled and moved to the side of the pony.

“Put your foot here.” You told Sirius, pointing to its wing joint. Sirius was hesitant but trusted you, placing his foot where he was told. You giggled as he tried to lift himself up, loosing balance and falling back onto you. “Woah, it’s okay. I got you.”

“You better not drop me, Y/N.” He joked.

“What? Me? Never.” You shared a smile before you helped him the rest of the way, not letting go of his hand you didn’t know you still had until he was seated. You took a few steps back, taking in the sight of Sirius Black perched a top a Thestral before you shook your head, letting out a shaky breath.

Lily watched you and Sirius, very disappointed in your obliviousness as you climbed onto your Thestral. “Okay Marlene, what’s the challenge exactly?” She yelled over to the one friend who wasn’t on a pony.

“Whoever stays on the longest wins! First to fall off is eliminated!” She told you all as nods went around. You told everyone how to ride, trying to remember as much as you could. You demonstrated how to hold on and how to sit properly and soon your friends and you were ready to go.

“Ready?” Marlene asked as you all prepared to take off, you ran a hand over its mane, waiting for Marlene to give the cue. “Go!” Your creature took off, soon leaving the ground as you flew into the air. Your hair flew back, wind rushing across your face as you smiled.

You threw your head back in laughter as you gripped the horse, not wanting to fall off. You turned back to see your friends, thinking they’d be in the air having fun but instead you saw James and Remus almost fighting, while Lily shook her head at their antics. The three of them were still on the ground, Sirius being the only one who managed to get into the air. He followed behind you, struggling a little but getting the hang of it real quick. The other three managed up as well and soon the challenge officially began.

It didn’t take long before Remus fell off, in fact he barely made it off the ground. James and Lily apparently couldn’t hold on either, and ten minutes later Lily fell first and James got distracted, his grip loosening enough to send him to the ground as well. Their creatures returned themselves to the ground, acting like nothing happened.

“Y/N!” Sirius called out as he flew up next to you. He pointed up in the air as you furrowed your brows. “Trust me.” He yelled before flying up past the trees, you chuckled as you followed his lead, soon getting one of the best views of Hogwarts you’d ever seen.

You paused momentarily, both you and Sirius enjoying the view together. It was that moment you forgot you were playing the games again, just being with Sirius and here of all places. It was breathtaking. “Come on, lets go higher.” You told Sirius who nodded and at the same time you both flew up, into the clouds as the wind passed by your faces, the speed of the Thestrals taking you both by surprise as you screamed. The scaredness of your voice disappeared in an instant, a cry of joy breaking free. Sirius let out a holler with you, both of you completely lost in the freedom you felt.

The moment though didn’t last as long as you hoped because Sirius lost his grip, unable to see what to grab onto as he slipped off the Thestral that was still soaring higher in the sky. For a moment he became motionless before he started falling to the ground from way high up.

Suddenly this idea of going higher seemed to be one of the worst things he’s had in a while.

“Y/N!” He screamed in hopes you heard him.

Your head whipped around when you heard Sirius’ voice and your heart felt like it stopped as you watched Sirius free fall to the ground. You turned around faster than you thought possible, reaching your hand out to Sirius. “Siri! Take my hand!” Sirius didn’t need you to tell him, but the sound of your voice was a comfort as you grabbed his hand and pulled him behind you. Sirius hung onto you for dear life, the reassurance there was something underneath him and you next him.

You didn’t breathe until you were sure Sirius was alright behind you, his arms wrapped around your waist as you put your head back onto his shoulder, leaning your head against his. Sirius buried his head in your wind-swept hair, feeling his heart beating practically in his ears.

“That was stupid.” You breathed out, feeling Sirius nod.

“Agreed.”

“We were careless.”

“Agreed.”

“That was-“

“Something we won’t tell the others?”

“Agreed.” You confirmed and heard Sirius laugh behind you. You peaked behind you, looking Sirius in the eyes and grabbing his hand. “I’m glad you’re okay.”

He smiled at you, butterflies filling your stomach as you faced forwards, leading you both to the ground as Sirius tightened his grip on you, resting his chin on your shoulder as you landed. Your friends were very confused to say the least when you and Sirius were together on one Thestral.

“What happened?” Remus called out as Sirius slid off the horse, extending an arm to help you down. You took it graciously, letting him catch you in your arms.

“Uh, Y/N won.” Sirius sort of filled in, not taking his eyes off you as you planted your feet on the ground, feeling your cheeks heat up as you looked towards the ground. Only when Sirius took a step back from you did you glance up, seeing Lily smiling crazy at you. You raised your brow at her, but she waved her hand in front of her face, mouthing that you’ll talk later.

“Well, then.” Marlene spoke up, putting a hand on Remus’ shoulder. “I think it’s time to announce Y/N the Queen of Thestrals. Everyone agree?” Everyone laughed and said yes, Sirius in particular turning to you and mumbling the word Agreed, making you chuckle under your breath. “And Remus, I’m sorry to say, but you’re eliminated from the Jimmy Jab Games.”

“Oh thank god.” He groaned out, putting his hands on his knees and bending over. “I think I hurt my back.”

“You fell like 2 feet mate.” Sirius deadpanned as Remus played offended.

“Says you! You didn’t even fall!” Sirius looked towards you, hiding the need to laugh as you nudged him with your shoulder. Remus pointed between you and Sirius. “Did we miss something?”

“Nope. Don’t know what you’re talking about Moony.” You shrugged. You all shared laughs as you all spoke about what it was like to ride, Marlene conflicted about whether to feel jealous or relieved she wasn’t riding an invisible creature. You felt Lily pull you ahead, glancing back to everyone as you looked at her confused. “Lily, what’s with you? Are you feeling alright?” you asked her, putting a hand to her forehead to pretend to take her temperature.

She swatted it away with an eye roll, locking arms with you. “I was just wondering when you were going to tell Sirius you’re in love with him.” She said, trying to get you in the same conversation she had with Sirius last night. “How long do you plan on just flirting with him?”

Her words took you by surprise as you stared at her, unaware of Sirius’ eyes on you despite not being able to hear the conversation as he smiled. “What on earth are you talking about Lily? Flirting? Sirius and I don’t flirt.”

“Oh, you don’t?”

“Of course not! And I’m not in love with him, we’re just friends!”

“Oh, you’re friends? Then forget I ever mentioned it.” She told you, bumping your shoulder with hers. She didn’t say more, the conversation seemingly ending as you couldn’t think anymore. Lily wasn’t right. You and Sirius were just friends- best friends. He was your rock. You weren’t in love with him.

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Sixty Three. Part 2

The love of my life Mel always coming through, the fact she made me breakfast in bed is just showing wifey material “you think I could get married again?” I questioned “who, you? Girl, we could. We could be in a polygamist relationship? I mean seeing as your man has a bromance maybe we can have ours” I chuckled “thank you for breakfast in bed, was I snoring last night?” Mel eyes widened “you have always done the heavy breathing mouth open business which I am used too, chile yes. You were snoring a lot” I sighed out “I am getting fat that is why, maybe it’s me. Maybe I am eating bad things, but I crave just luxury greasy food!” Mel chuckled “calm down, you are very passionate about food. I get it baby, but then I couldn’t finish off love and hip hop either, you were snoring over it” how shameful “maybe I need to eat healthy, like my chin. It’s becoming double, don’t you think?” Mel rolled her eyes “you are pregnant! Shut up, you’re eating for two Robyn, I don’t care about anything you are saying. You’re glowing, you’re the prettiest bitch I know that is pregnant and glowing, your ankles aren’t even what you’re saying. So now what?” Mel really snapped on me, she has shut down every issue with a quickness. I must have drove her crazy with my whining but it’s true “you’re my wife for life, thank you” I am not even looking for compliments, I just feel that way “when I saw you at the Grammys, just everything about you. You look I don’t know, even more beautiful if that can be a thing. I mean look at this” Mel turned away and then bought her phone into my eye view “no way, you’re such a fan” I giggled, she has my red carpet look as her lock screen picture “so elegant, hand under bump. So protective of the baby” poking my bottom lip out “I am, thank you Mel, you’re the best” that has really made my day, I adore her so much “so are you, your eyes look bomb as fuck too. Seen your eye colour, whoever took the shot, took the money one” seeing that picture, I get it. I do look good.

Mel is actually right; I do look good on the red carpet and I never really posted my look so I thought I would do it now. I posted it an hour ago and it’s hit a million already, that fast too I don’t know how but Mel is right, she is taking me out for dinner. She is such a good wife, she asked, and I said yes because why not. I’ve ate breakfast about two hours ago and I’m here already cooking up steak, I am hungry, and I think it’s my sadness speaking. Chris text me just half hour ago, a text not even a call and the text really made no sense whatsoever, he spoke on I’m good and are you but that’s it and it’s like what? It made no sense to me because I said to him call me when he got there and he never did, I think he’s maybe hungover, so I guess but that video he reposted on his page has gone, like he deleted it just like that “I’m glad you’re here, because I know I’m not losing my mind” I pointed at Mel as I turned away from the pan “why? You might be, they say when you’re pregnant you forget things” I know damn well what I saw “so last night you told me to stop watching Chris right? Remember I watched a video, and the female was like Breezy you can dance or whatever?” Crossing my arms above my bump “yes I do, why?” See I knew it “he deleted that video on his page, I am guessing he reposted it in a drunken state, woke up realised and deleted it” Mel pulled a face confused “why would he delete it? Knowing he put it up for the world to see?” I laughed “he assumed I was asleep, think about it. I have been sleeping constantly early, he knows that so he assumed delete it, so I won’t see and then text me at the same time. So is he playing a game? Why delete it? He knew there was a female speaking, he reposted from her page too, am I looking into this too much? Did he just not want the headache, tell me” I am asking Mel like she knows “I think he just didn’t want the headache; I think you’re right in him just not wanting the argument. He assumed you would be asleep” that really upsets me “I don’t want to seem like a wife that is panicking that my husband will cheat because he won’t but I’m feeling like shit, what the fuck is he doing” I am frustrated “I tell you what he’s not doing, he’s not bout going to stress you out” she says that but I am.

I shouldn’t but I am, I am just thinking why did he delete that video so I had to find out the girl, find out her name on Instagram which was easy because of the fan pages. Chris is one hundred percent high as hell and drunk, he has a picture with the girl too which is expected. He had a very good night, and I am very unsure on what to do, I don’t want to seem like the person ruining his fun, I am thinking hard on this. He still won’t call me; I did think thirst trap but no. And I know the only reason he won’t call me because he knows I will be angry at him; I am honestly very angry him. He’s made is even worse by actually deleting the post, I mean for what “you’re thinking so hard aren’t you? I can tell with the look on your face” nodding my head “I’m not even going to be childish in this, I mean there is so many things I can do but I think I’m going to be silent and then bite when he comes back home, what on earth is he playing at” I need to stop thinking about it, i really do “best way, don’t react. If he rings then he does, he will come home eventually” squinting my eyes, I am so fucking angry “eventually, he doesn’t see how bad he looks. It may be harmless, but it really isn’t Mel, this is not it, Mel I want to fucking cuss him out” looking back at my phone, I am just here like a crazy bitch looking at his tagged pictures. Tapping on the video, from the freeze frame he is pointing and laughing. The video started playing, the video panned to what Chris was pointing at “you keep laughing but tell me, why they call you breezy?” It is that same girl that was taking a video of him, he looked at the camera “y’all heard Chris rap? Drop us a line” Chris busted out laughing “I can’t, Mr Graham is lying, he is lying” he shook his head “drop them bars, come on. He literally did” Chris is showing out, you can tell on his face. He licked his lips “go then Breezy, get on with it” I would rip that bitches’ eyes out “aight, wait” he laughed “I got something, ok. Lower that shit down, a little!” how can he just do this to me, like he is really doing this. The music turned down “y’all hear this, my nigga got bars” Chris bopped his head “yeah my niggas thugging, popping rubber-bands money in my hand, double cupping with that Sprite mix it with Zan” he lifted his cup “we some zombies here to tonight, slow motion yo bitch choosing. She said ‘don't they call you Breezy?’ I told that bitch ‘I'm cooling’ hundred million dollars, got a hundred on my chain” They all cheered laughing “right no, done. Over” Mel snatched my phone “over!” she pointed at me.

I don’t even know how to feel “we just literally got married, I am not going to cry” I said the very words and what did I do, I sobbed out “no, I am not. What the fuck Mel” Mel locked my phone “we are going, just us two. Forget the meal, pack yo shit and we are going Mexico to unwind. I don’t want to hear it, go back pack your things and we are going. And we will have our fun, you don’t need to be sat here thinking of that. That is so mean to you, what if you were alone? What if I wasn’t here, you would be a mess on your own. The blue check got to him, he thinks he can act like that and have you. When it doesn’t work like that” I sniffled “I don’t want anybody to know I have issues, I know these pages are posting it but me, us. We can’t show it, it looks so bad. I might as well stayed with Rakim least he silently just drove me crazy, nobody fucking knew” Mel shushed me “you are carrying my child, just relax. Please gather your stuff, leave the home how it is. Or better yet leave the home a little messier, you know how you dislike him throwing his clothes on the floor. I am not saying anything, but you know” Mel side eyed me, I think I get what she means.

If Mel wasn’t here, she is right I would be here just crying, I would be because first I didn’t want him to go. This was supposed me mine and his time, he mentioned that we don’t have alone time and when we do he planned that. Chris is very much my weakness and I hate that for me “it’s annoying me already” turning to Mel “mhmm well he likes to have his clothes on the floor doesn’t he not? Well there he goes, anyways you packed? Don’t make the bed, leave everything to what it is. A mess, you tell me how you are here doing all these things for him to just go, like that too. And left you alone, you’re pregnant. You needed someone here to make sure you’re ok, it was wrong and he needs to learn. Chris is as you said, not the cheating type but he very friendly and that is trouble but he will for sure realise he fucked up when he sees the home like this. Those pans that you cooked steak on, I hope he can scrub, I just made myself a milkshake too. So we ready” nodding my head, my phone started ringing “poppa” siri said his name, rolling my eyes “he calls you now, but don’t be made. Don’t do it” nodding my head, answering the call “hey” I breathed out “you didn’t answer my text everything ok?” I didn’t answer his text hours ago “yeah fine, just doing nothing as you left me like this” Mel eye-balled me “I will be back twin, it’s just the weekend. I miss you” he hasn’t mentioned the video situation “you too, oh my mom is ringing. I need to answer this” I lied “I will call you later then. I love you” I hate him “too” that is all I said before disconnecting the call, I am going to go Mexico and relax.

The perks of having a jet, you can be in one place to another just like that “you even got me the home I like, oh god. You’re the best, thank you” that is so sweet of her “I mean I rather you let me pay for this, it’s unfair on you” Mel waved me off “be quiet, you always take me everywhere and you pay for everything, you think I can’t do this for you? Don’t be silly, anyways you can have your phone back. I am sure you are bored without it” Mel banned me from my phone “thank you, I still need to keep an eye on him because he is my husband, you know” taking my phone from Mel “of course, just I didn’t want you to dwell on it you know” she has a point “and right on time” Chris is calling, he did say he would call me later. Answering the call “yes?” I rather he didn’t call me, I am not going to question anything including the face he didn’t call me either “I am sure your momma off the phone now” sitting down on the couch “yeah” I breathed out “I am just sat on the side lines, Drake has a basketball court in his home. It’s so dope” he hasn’t even mentioned the partying, he is so full of shit, I can’t believe him “nice, erm I am tired. You have fun there” I swear I can hear it, moving the phone away from my ear and putting on loud speaker, there is girls in the background, I can hear it “sure, are you angry with me? Look I don’t know that blog shit, they are lying” oh he knows “I haven’t seen it” I lied “aight, speak soon then” disconnecting the call, he knows I am off with him, he knows it.

I am not understanding this at all “I am sorry Mel; this is the last time I will speak on this but why is this girl there. She has seen my husband more then I have? She is constantly there videoing and taking picture of him, he is well aware. What is it? I do not like it; I am dropping it now but look. Just you see her story” Mel took my phone “after this stop” nodding my head, I am agreeing but I won’t be keeping off social media “let me refresh this page, she is from Canada. And she has a only fans link in her bio, oh boy” and Mel wants me to be calm, it’s killing me being this calm “her voice is so annoying though, how is she clinging onto Breezy so much, like she is doing the most too. Just watching this, I feel like Chris is just having fun. He isn’t being like anything, but he looks well. Skip, skip this” I really want to pop off, I really do “oh she is zooming in on Chris, mhmm oh ok girl. I get it, I see this girl having an agenda with Chris. She likes him, I see it. She is very much doing the most to get his attention, least they are actually playing basketball” Mel dragged out “so yeah, so shall we just relax?” relax, more like depression “bitch, we are going to a bar. Come, don’t care. I will get drunk on your behalf” Mel is trying her best, she would have been got my ass drunk by now but it’s a little different now.

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Chapter Nineteen: Mission #1- Finding Toothless’ Partner and Finding Sophia and Rich Secret.

Mission Day #0

     When I asked my questions none of the boys spoke. They just stare at the floor. It’s was like they had a secret that they were afraid to tell me. But the Healers were there and they explained it to me. 

Sarah: Before you came into Sky’s life. Sophia always thought that Sky would be hers. But the Goddess had a different plan for her. When Sophia went to the Oracle Mansion on her 18th birthday. It wasn’t Sky that became her soul mate it was Rich. When she saw it wasn’t the person that she has been dreaming about ever since she was a little girl, she got really upset. She and Rich never got out of the Friendship Phase. Because Sophia thought that Sky wouldn’t find his true soul mate. So, all she had to do was show up at the Oracle Mansion when there is Soul Mate Searching Party. She try to flirt with Sky and even try to get into his pants. But Sky just stopped her in her tracks before she could go even further. Sophia, thought Sky was playing hard to get. But he wasn’t. Sky doesn’t like Sophia at all. He only pretends to be friendly with her because we all have to work together as a team. But the truth is Sophia isn’t a really nice person. If she can’t get what she wanted then she will stop anyone from having what she wants. Sophia never said anything to you for a whole week is because she knows that Sky is going to defend you. But when Sophia found out that you were Sky’s soul mate, she became really jealous and would come up with plans to make you either sick or hurt you. But the boys could see through Sophia’s plans and by the time you come downstairs everything is right. For example, when you and Sky is suppose to exercise on Sunday nights. The treadmill that you use is raised up 40 degrees higher then usual. Vicky usually exercise on Sunday nights. So, Vicky will lower your treadmill back to your normal level. When you’re about to eat breakfast, lunch, or dinner. Sophia always put rat poison in your food. But Charlie would always swap it out for a fresh plate. All of these things are done by Sophia because she is jealous of you and mad at the Goddess for not being  fair. As for why Sophia want to join King Eric. Well, that’s because King You had send her family into exile. Why Sophia’s family is in exile is because Sophia’s family were a bunch of robbers. They say they would change and not steal from anyone else. But since Sophia’s family are poor they have to rob others so they can survive. Sophia’s family tried to rob the Royal Family. But instead Sophia’s family killed something that was very dear to the Royal Family’s heart. That something was Frankie. Frankie was only 3 years old when he died. CCTV caught Sophia’s brother Max stabbing Frankie in the heart. So, Sophia traded her freedom to have her family to be exile while she stayed and train hard to become a Healer. Sophia wasn’t suppose to be a Healer. Because Sophia doesn’t have to the power to heal. But the power to kill. King You knew Sophia doesn’t have the healing power, but she traded her freedom to become a healer so that her family doesn’t have to die. Sophia’s freedom was to leave Sky alone and stop flirting with him. King Eric accepted Sophia’s family and they became hunters. But Sophia’s father wouldn’t leave his only daughter behind so he made a deal with King Eric, and that deal is to become loyal to King Eric. By becoming a hunter for life. If Mr. Gong did that then King Eric will get Sophia back to her family. Of course Sophia heard this and accept, but she has to stay in our team for a bit longer. Because King Eric wants to take over Mythical Kingdom. Sophia is the perfect choice to be their mole, and King Eric offered Rich the same plan. At first Rich didn’t want it but King Eric told Rich that he has a way to free Lee from prison. So Rich became the second mole. King Eric never liked the Mythical Kingdom and whomever becomes the strongest Royal Couple will be the end of King Eric. 

Jazzy: What is a strongest Royal Couple?

William: It’s called the Yin Yang Royal Couple. It is very rare. No one has come close becoming the Yin Yang Royal Couple. It said that the Yin Yang Royal Couple will bring peace to Mythical Kingdom. 

Jazzy: Oh. Well, now that we all know that there’s two moles on our team. We’ll just leave it be. Tomorrow we will get Snow and if they keep up with their stupidity then let them. 

Sky: What are you saying?

Jazzy: If King Eric wants to take over Mythical Kingdom. Let him. We just have to train hard and defend Mythical Kingdom. I don’t believe we can’t defend our home. So for now, we’ll just pretend that we don’t know about Rich and Sophia’s secret. I don’t want them to run away from us. I want to catch them red handed. But right now it’s not the time. Keep training hard and let them leak information to King Eric. 

Jeff: What if King You finds out about this?

Jazzy: -looking around the house and out the window- King You already knows about this. If he disapprove of what I’m planning then Sebastian would come and stop me on his behalf. Sebastian is King You’s advisor and he is also our guard who keeps an eye on us. The entire might not have any CCTVs but I have a feeling that there is CCTVs. Its just tinier and we can’t see it. But its there. I may not say much most of the time, but I can sense things. Before any one knows. Also, I’m not stupid as most people think I am. I may not tell you all what I’m planning, but that doesn’t mean I don’t have a plan. My plan is to train hard and act like we didn’t find out about their secret. Let’s just through this last 4 weeks. 

Brandy: What if they attack first?

Jazzy: They won’t attack. It’s too early. My gut is telling me that they would attack later in the year. Also, King Eric doesn’t want Yin Yang Royal Couple. King Eric wants something bigger. Something that no one knows about. He thinks getting rid of Toothless and Snow, he would find what he’s looking for. Because King Eric thinks that Toothless and Snow is the key to something bigger. 

Sky: Like what?

Jazzy: Who knows. But it has to do with Mythical Kingdom. Something inside Mythical Kingdom. But we can’t just go charging in. That will be too dangerous. Training is our only option. 

Charlie: You’re not going turn into a monster are you?

Jazzy: -laughing- No. But first Toothless, you really stink. You need a bath. A real bath. 

Toothless: Finally. 

     I took Toothless to the bathroom and gave him a good scrubbing. 45 minutes later Toothless is back to his old self. I also cleaned up the entire house. Because it smell like a dumpster. 2 hours later the house was back to normal. We didn’t get to bed until 2 am. Tomorrow morning we will continue our journey to Hunters Island. 

-End of Day 0-

Mission Day #1, Getting Snow.

     The next morning we all had coffee and breakfast. Put on our walkie-talkies and set out. Toothless stayed at home with Sky and everyone else. While I, Will, Mike, Phil, and Sam went to the island. The new plan is for Mike to make the rest of us invisible. I knew that King Eric will move Snow into a different location, to make everything a little bit difficult. But that’s okay. I’m familiar with Snow scent so finding her wouldn’t be so hard. But I want to test the hunters. I know that King Eric is going to let us rescue Snow without attacking us. But after hearing what was said last night. I too want to test them. 20 minutes later we found Snow, she was in a cage sleeping. The poor thing was super skinny and scare. But when Snow knew I was there to help her and not hurt her. Since I don’t have the key to unlock her cage, I actually used my fire power to open the cage door. I was more surprised that I didn’t melt the entire cage. Mike used his invisibility to cloak Snow. We went back to the house without any problems. None of the hunters or King Eric came after us. This mission took no more than 30 minutes. I try to give Snow a bath which she didn’t like and she almost scratch the crap out me. So, I ask Sky to help me. To my surprise Snow like Sky and quietly let him bath her. 

      I left the bathroom and went to get my phone. I want to find out more about Yin Yang Royal Couple. So the best person to ask was Siri. That’s what I did. 

Jazzy: Hey Siri!

Siri: Yes. 

Jazzy: I need more information on Yin Yang Royal Couple. 

Siri: Yin Yang Royal Couple is a very rare couple. In a thousand years there was only one pair couple who have reached this stage of life. It was Goddess herself and her lover. Yin Yang Royal Couple is very powerful, they have the ability to heal anything that they touched. To achieve this stage you first need to find a soul mate, then you need to find a black cat and white cat, and then you need to have the Mating Mark. Once you have all these things then you have to keep training. The more you grow the stronger you’ll be. That’s all the information I have on the Yin Yang Royal Couple. 

Jazzy: Thanks Siri. 

Siri: No problem. Princess.

    Well, I have one black cat and one white cat. I have a soul mate. But I don’t have the Mating Mark yet. Also, I’m not strong enough. But my gut tells me that the Yin Yang Royal Couple is Sky and I. Why? Because Snow wouldn’t have allow Sky give her a bath, and Toothless wouldn’t have cuddle me every single day. 

Sky: Why were you asking Siri about Yin Yang Royal Couple?

Jazzy: Eek! -jumping out of my skin-

Sky: Sorry. 

Snow: Meow?

Jazzy: Because I want to know more about it. But Siri didn’t give that much information. All she said was how to become a Yin Yang Royal Couple. And that the Goddess and her lover reached the Yin Yang Royal Couple stage. 

Sky: You think its us?

Jazzy: That’s what my gut is telling me. Toothless has been cuddling me for a week and half now. Snow, would only let you bath her. She almost scratch the heck out me. I think Toothless is my Yin and Snow is your Yang. Siri also said that the harder we train the stronger we get. The only royal I know is you. And Siri won’t stop calling me Princess every time I thank her for something. Unless you’re going to tell me that there’s more than one royal member on our team. 

Sky: No. I’m the only royal. The boys are from noble families. Their families were middle class families that rose to the noble ranks. When I become King the boys would become Lords. Same with the girls. 

Jazzy: Well, that’s that. -smiling- Snow really likes you. 

Snow: I apologized for almost scratching you Princess. I don’t really like the way you were bathing me. You were scrubbing me too hard. 

Jazzy: I’m sorry. I was trying to get the stink out, and scrubbing you hard was the only way I can get it out. But if you like Sky can give you a bath when you need it. And I’ll give Toothless a bath when he needs it. 

Snow: You’re not mad Princess?

Jazzy: Why would I be mad. :) If you don’t like something that I’m doing please let me know. I’ll be happy to change it. I just want you to feel comfortable, loved, and be safe. Nothing else. :)

Snow: Okay. 

Jazzy: Hey Siri! 

Siri: Yes. 

Jazzy: Why am I being called a Princess?

Siri: Because you’re soul mate is a Prince. 

Jazzy: Oh. Is that the right title I’m suppose go by?

Siri: Yes. Your current title is Royal Princess Jazzy Tam. 

Jazzy: Do all get that title when you’re dating any member of the Royal Family?

Siri: Yes. 

Jazzy: Thanks Siri. 

Siri: No problem. Princess. 

Sky: I could’ve answer that question for you. 

Jazzy: Yes. But I have a feeling that you might tell me some weird answer. 

Sky: Like?

Jazzy: Something like you’re a prince and that automatically make me a princess. 

Sky: -laughing- That’s the answer I will give you. 

Jazzy: Ugh! -playfully pushes Sky away- 

    While Sky and I was talking Snow went to Toothless bowl and started eating his dinner. Drank his water and now she is sleeping. While Sky was fooling around. 

Toothless: -biting Jazzy ankle- 

Jazzy: Ow!

Toothless: Hungry. Thirsty. 

Jazzy: I put food in your bowl. Also there’s water in your water bowl. 

Toothless: Snow ate and drank it all. My bowls are empty. Feed me now! Or I bite. -going for Jazzy’s ankle again-

Jazzy: Okay! You crazy cat. 

    I refilled Toothless’ bowls. Toothless happily ate and drank. Snow finished cleaning herself and looked at me. 

Jazzy: -smiling-

Snow: Sorry. I was too hungry and thirsty to wait any longer. 

Jazzy: -smiling- That’s okay. Tomorrow is Friday. Sky and I will go shopping for you. 

Sky: Snow, I made you an appointment to see a vet tomorrow morning. 

Snow: -hissing and growling- 

Jazzy: Snow, you been in that cage for Goddess know how long. We need to make sure you’re okay. We want you to be healthy. And not sick. No one likes going to the doctors. But everyone needs a physical check up every now and then. I would’ve go with you but I have report to write. You’ll be find. Also, Sky will buy you nice water bowl and food bowl. Let me know what you like eat and I’ll make it for you. -smiling- 

Snow: Promise?

Jazzy: Mhm. -smiling-

Snow: Find. I’ll go. But I’m not going to be happy about it. 

Toothless: You’ll be find Snow. -jumping up to the bed- 

     Snow turned up her nose at Toothless, and curl up in between Sky and my pillows. I sense that Snow didn’t like Toothless that much. But I know they will be friends in no time. I went to shower and then start writing my report and catch up with my homework. I was so busy that I didn’t noticed that there was a knock on our bedroom door. Sky opened it and it was Mike. 

Sky: Dude, you’re not suppose to be on this floor. 

Mike: I know. But none of you answer your phones. So, I have no choice but to come knocking. 

Sky: Well, make it fast. What is it? Or we all going to be in trouble. 

Mike: Dinner’s ready. 

Sky: You could’ve scream that. We could’ve hear you. 

Mike: We have done enough screaming this week. 

Sky: True. We’ll be right down. 

Mike: Mhm. 

     Sky and I went downstairs to eat dinner. Then we did our usual routine and then we went back to our rooms. I finished the report and my homework. Sky was reading, Toothless and Snow was sleeping. I was about to go to bed when the alarms of the house went off. Snow freaked out by the sound, Toothless went on high alert with his hissing and growling. Sky and I ran downstairs with everyone else. We went outside and found the King himself trying to turn off our sensor alarms. Mike went to turn it off. 

Sky: Dad? What are you doing here?

King You: -sheepish- Sorry, I forgot the pass code. I’m here to talk to you guys. Sebastian isn’t at his usual spot. He probably went to eat dinner. 

Sebastian: -running towards us- Your Majesty! What are you doing here?

King You: I’m here to talk to them. I forgot the passcode. Sorry for tripping the alarm. 

Sebastian: Oh. It’s my fault I wasn’t at my spot. I was taking a shower. 

King You: It’s fine. Go finish your shower. I’ll just talk to the young ones. -smiling-

Sebastian: Yes, your majesty. -bowing- 

     Sebastian went back to his house to finish his shower. The King and the rest of us went back inside the house. Charlie gave King You some tea to drink and we all sat down in the Common Room. 

Sky: Dad, is something the matter?

King You: King Eric, contact me and he said that for now he wouldn’t declare war on Mythical Kingdom. But in the future he will declare war with us. 

Kelly: What?! Why?!

King You: Because King Eric still wants the Ultimate Prize. But he said that you guys got Snow, so he’s letting us with a warning. King Eric also said that Mythical Kingdom don’t have the Ultimate Prize, because he couldn’t feel it’s energy yesterday when he and his army was here. But he said that in the future the Ultimate Prize will be at Mythical Kingdom. 

Jazzy: -confused- Sorry. I don’t understand. What is the Ultimate Prize?

King You: The Ultimate Prize is not a what. It’s a whom. 

Jazzy: -confused- Huh?

King You: To simply put it. The Ultimate Prize is the Yin Yang Royal Couple. 

Jazzy: -shocked- What?! King Eric is after Sky and myself?! 

King You: Mhm. 

Jazzy: Why?

King You: Because if King Eric doesn’t destroy you and Sky. Then he won’t win. The Ultimate Prize is the heart of Mythical Kingdom. With it everyone and everything will be at peace. The Ultimate Prize is very powerful. The Oracle said that the Ultimate Prize is the only thing that would heal everything that is hurting. But you and Sky hasn’t have that much training. So, King Eric decided to give you the chance to train and grow. Then in the future he will have an even fighting field with you. 

Jazzy: What did I ever do to King Eric? For him to hate me so much. 

Kelly: Because you’re Sky’s soul mate. You two are the Royal Couple. 

Jazzy: -angry- That’s a stupid excuse. If I ever heard one. 

Sky: Ever since I was a kid, all the dark forces are after me. I rather die if it would make the dark forces stop looking for me and my love ones. 

King You: That’s why I never told Sky to Oracle Mansion when the Soul Searching Party. Because I didn’t want him to find his soul mate. Because I didn’t want both of you be the focus point of King Eric. 

Sarah: You’re protecting them. 

King You: Mhm. 

Jazzy: Your Majesty. You’re not being honest with me. Please tell me the whole truth. 

King You: Okay. The Ultimate Prize is the Yin Yang Royal Couple. The strongest couple there is. They are the guardians of Mythical Kingdom. A thousand years ago, Goddess and her love were the first Yin Yang Royal Couple. They would protect, heal, and fight what is right for Mythical Kingdom. All kinds of dark forces will always come after them, and try their hardest to bring them down. Each year there would be millions of wars between Mythical Kingdom and the dark forces. Each year more and more mythical creatures die along with the humans. But each time the Goddess and lover would defeat all the dark forces. After the wars Goddess and her lover would use their power to rebuild and heal everything and everyone. The sad thing about the Yin Yang Royal Couple is that when they use too much of their power, they become very weak and it takes them months or years to be fully recharge. The last dark forces was the ones take down Goddess and her lover when they were at it weakest. It was King Eric’s great-great-great-great-great-great-great grandfather who took down Goddess and her lover. 

Jazzy: Please don’t tell me that for Sky and I to be fully recharge is having sex after each war. 

King You: -laughing- Goodness no. The Queen and I don’t want a million grandchildren. The only why for Goddess and her lover to recharge was to go to the Healing Spring. They were about to go to the Healing Spring when they were attacked. The Healing Spring is the most powerful source of healing for anyone who need an emergency recharge. But if you use the Healing Spring too much it can lose it’s power. That’s why we don’t use the Healing Spring that often, because we have healers. Now, I don’t know how the Goddess and her lover use their powers to heal and rebuild things. But the Oracle did tell me that Goddess herself has the power of fire and her lover’s power is ice. Their combine power is wind. Also, the Goddess always have a black cat following her, and her lover always have a white cat following him. When the Goddess and her lover died, the black cat and white cat disappeared. When all four of them were gone Mythical Kingdom went down hill from there. 

Sky: Jazzy, and I aren’t safe. King Eric is waiting to attack us when Jazzy and I are strong enough. What if we don’t train? Would King Eric still come after us?

King You: It doesn’t matter. Whether you train or not. King Eric will still come after you. The only way King Eric won’t come after you is when you both chose not to use the Yin Yang Royal Couple powers. But I’m calling his bluff. To be honest with you all, King Eric isn’t going to stop hunting you both down until he destroys you both. Then we have to wait for another thousand years for a new Yin Yang Royal Couple. By then we will all be hunters or slaves. 

Kelly: -angry- That’s not fair! 

William: Kel, life isn’t always fair. 

Kelly: -angry- Well, we can protect them. We’ll train harder and we will protect Sky and Jazzy. If King Eric wants a war, then he’ll get a war. 

King You: You can’t always protect Sky and Jazzy forever. What are you going to do? Hide them in a cave for the rest of their lives. 

Jazzy: No one can protect Sky and I forever. But what King Eric doesn’t want is something that has to do with the Yin Yang Royal Couple and R.M.C. Hey Siri!

Siri: Yes. 

Jazzy: What happens when the Yin Yang Royal Couple and R.M.C. combine together?

Siri: When the Yin Yang Royal Couple and the R.M.C. come together they become the Ultimate Power. They are called Yin Yang Royal Mythical Court. A very powerful team that can help rebuild and heal everyone in the Mythical Kingdom. And destroy King Eric and his army. King Eric is most afraid of the Y.Y.R.M.C. Any questions?

Jazzy: No. Thanks Siri. 

Siri: No problem. Princess. 

Jazzy: Okay. Let’s get through the next 4 weeks. Sitting around and moping around isn’t going to help. If King Eric is afraid of Y.Y.R.M.C. then lets show him that we are not weaklings. Let him watch and see how strong we can be. 

Sarah: Can we actually do this?

Jazzy: We can do anything when we put our hearts into it, and never giving up. -smiling- 

Sky: Mhm. Okay, we have classes tomorrow. 

King You: Actually, you don’t have classes tomorrow. Because you’re on a mission. 

Sky: But we finish our mission. 

King You: I know. But after a mission you have the right to rest. So Sebastian already collected Jazzy’s report. I’ll be looking forward to be reading it. So tomorrow, just relax and do whatever you want. In the future there will be more missions to come. So don’t give up.  

Sebastian: Also, you don’t have to do any chores this weekend. 

Jazzy: Eek! -jumping out of my skin- 

Sebastian: Sorry. 

King You: -laughing- 

Jazzy: Can I make an request?

King You: Go ahead. 

Jazzy: From now on Sebastian can’t pop in and out while we’re in this house. He has to make some kind of sound. I don’t want him scaring me until I graduate. Or I might turn him into a toad. 

King You and Sky: -laughing- 

Jazzy: At least a toad would make some noise. 

Sky: Seb, you better do as she says. Otherwise, I think she will turn you into a toad. 

Sebastian: Yes, Princess. 

King You: Alright, I’m going home. Otherwise the Queen might think I’m with one of my mistresses. 

Everyone: Goodbye Your Majesty. 

      After the King left, Sebastian went back to his own home, and we went to bed. 

-End of Chapter Nineteen-

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Unglamourous & Nonbinary

I grew up a cosplayer. Glamour and aesthetics as an art form have always been my happy place. But this strange pandemic era has found me exploring the absence of glamour, shadow glamour, the Unglamourous.

I would never wish to take someone else’s joy from them. I totally understand why people were dressing up for their one outing to get groceries or even just for themselves at home. I used to do that in the Before Times. Now I’m exploring a different way... the “down and dirty” way, as Clarissa Pinkola Estés (author of Women who Run with the Wolves) calls it.

To me, it feels like hibernation. It feels like saving my energy for all the glamour I’ll need “when this is over” and “when we can go out again” - which seems to be starting nowish.

Some of it relates to the concept of your “ghost outfit” - the outfit that you die in is the one you wear forever as a ghost - as many of us feeling like wraiths endlessly wandering the hallways of our own Bly Manor. Except mine is a two bedroom apartment and my ghost outfit is my favorite pajamas (like Annie Sawyer). Siri, play Every Day Is Exactly The Same by Nine Inch Nails. Some of it is the anthesis of the Magical Girl trope.

One of the reasons I loved Jennifer Connelly’s Sarah in Labyrinth is her “ghost outfit” is practical. Consisting of a loose fitting shirt, jeans, and sensible FLAT shoes. She doesn’t look like a princess except for the costume at the beginning (in Drag) and the ballroom scene (the male projection of what she should look like).

But I also carry a deep fondness in my heart for Sailor Uranus. All of the Sailor Scouts are “female” supposedly but this one pushes the boundary of binary...

the language of gender

My friend Angeliska and I have been in this reinvention journey into the non-binary. When they told me about their egg cracking, mine did too. It turns out, our femininity was mainly performative, drag, and it took removing the audience to see how deep that ran into our core beings.

"Please try to refrain from addressing me directly in messages as “Hey lady!” or “Hey woman!” or “Hey girl!” or “Hey mama!” because it makes me feel uncomfortable and itchy. I’m still figuring all this (my gender identity) out, because none of these were options I really knew were available for me, until fairly recently. Even the words/descriptors that are close enough for me, aren’t really quite right yet. One of the most important things that I’m learning is that I don’t owe anyone justification, or explanations. I don’t owe anyone androgyny. And that’s still hard for me - because I spent my entire life being told that I owed everyone a certain, very constrictive, very boring version of femininity. "  -- Angeliska Polacheck

I too feel itchy when people say those things to me. The color pink sends me into a gender dysphoria induced rage. Someone put pink in my hair recently (long story for another blog) and I could not even live with it for 24 hours.

On TikTok, there’s something called a Themlin. Femlin but non-binary. A Femlin, lady-gremlin, is a gal who would be part of the (sassy, woke, feminist) Bimbo movement but is kinda too dirty... A bimbo but make it grunge. It’s a lot, I know, but that’s the shortest way to explain it.

I’m leaning into this Themlin concept. A few months ago I was surprised to find I like jogger pants now. I realized when I wear them with a Henley tank it gives me a gender euphoria from wanting to be Sigourney Weaver in Alien or Linda Hamilton in Terminator 2 when I was little. Side note: this tiktok explains why this character was my childhood nonbinary icon. I’m also reverting to wearing bike shorts, something I did a lot as a kid. Basically rediscovering how I dressed when I was a feral woodland “tomboy” child who was definitely definitely nonbinary but did not yet have language for it.

I have my clients to thank for this language. Over the last 3.5 years of owning my own salon, I have watched a few clients blossom as they realize they are trans or nonbinary and progress into their gender identity with gender-affirming clothes or hairstyles. The more I validated them, the more I realized I was validating myself, too.

While concept of my being nonbinary isn’t new, the awareness and language around it is new. For me personally, I did not realize that this also falls under the Transgender category umbrella.

performative feminity

My once bestie of 20 years, although more androgynous when we initially became friends, developed into a High Femme in our 20s and 30s. When we went out I often femmed up to be her counterpart because we liked wearing loosely corresponding outfits. I was always more goth, but in femme drag. It took me longer than her to get ready. When our relationship ended, I realized how much I was changing my aesthetic to meet her halfway, how much money I wasted on clothes I didn’t even feel comfortable in. I took longer to get ready because my gender-dysphoria was making me “itchy”.

Like many Drag performers, the first time I presented as another gender was Halloween, as Wayne Campbell. No one at the party recognized me “without makeup” and I found that concerning, as I knew it didn’t reflect how I thought of myself. I wore that costume all weekend and it was the first time in my life I could get ready in 15 minutes. I also felt more relaxed, less afraid, walking the streets late at night while presenting masculine.

In 2020-2021, taking a break from the glamourous beautician life has made me realize how much of my performative femininity was due to my career, too. There’s this unspoken rule that female-bodied people in the beauty industry have to be “beautiful” and “beautiful” equates to femme, makeup, hair done, etc. It used to take me 2 hours to get put together for work everyday. But a male stylist can throw on jeans and a tshirt and no makeup and be ready for work in 15 minutes. Fuck that, I want that to be acceptable for anyone. Glamour should always be a choice. It should be a treat, not the baseline by which you are considered professional. There are certainly successful female-bodied stylists who aren’t made-up and femme but it’s swimming upstream, not the status quo.

When I first started out, I had black hair just over my shoulders and nothing was shaved (I have a lot of hair so usually some is undercut). It was the hottest summer on record and I had a 2 hour bus journey to get to work every day so I was standing outside a lot. I didn’t want my hair to get sweaty so I wore it in Wednesday Addams braids as a protective hairstyle. My employer pulled me aside and told me I couldn’t do that every day. I didn’t argue, but to this day I still don’t understand why that isn’t professional. From then on I would have to wash my hair every day (because of the sweat) and would leave the house with clean, flat ironed hair that was doused in dry shampoo as a preventative measure. But it would become dirty by the time I got to work, because standing outside waiting for the bus adds sweat and literal road dirt being kicked up by the street. My hair didn’t grow any longer because it kept breaking off. (Shortly after that I quit shampoo and started using a cowash)

It’s so much work that cishet men don’t even consider doing. Part of the way patriarchy keeps female-bodied people under the boot is by keeping us at a deficit of Time & Money. By simply being born in a female body, our existence costs more money. We have to pay for menstruation products, birth control, makeup, hair and other grooming maintenance. We are operating with fewer free hours in the day... many of us with families do the majority of child-rearing, showing up to work without makeup is considered unprofessional so we spend time doing that, sometimes we hang out at venue for longer so that a friend can leave with us, because our safety is constantly threatened simply by being outside while “female”.

Side note, I would be fine with the makeup requirement at work thing, if men had to do it too.. Make Men Wear Eyeliner Again. Requirements for EVERYBODY, or nobody. But to be considered worthy and valuable part of society, female-bodied people have to groom for hours, remove all of our body hair, do the majority of emotional labor in relationships if we’re dating men, are EXPECTED to want and enjoy children.

If you don’t do these things, you are considered invalid. Your value is defined by your beauty as an object, while remaining silent, and ability to bear and raise children. All of this leaves us too poor, distracted, and tired to REVOLT!

So in 2020, I decided I’m done. I’m dropping all the femininity that I learned as a form of daily drag directly connected to my value, and starting over at the base level. This will help me decide what aspects of outer femininity I truly choose to participate in. Of course, I am only talking about Femininity here since I am an AFAB (Assigned Female At Birth) person. But the same goes for Masculinity. The value of AMAB people should not rely solely on their ability to embody things traditionally considered Masculine. Toxic Masculinity is an entirely different discussion, however it deserves an honorable mention here since I’m talking about performative gender.

moving forward

The Zoom culture of the pandemic has helped others drop performative gender already. I know people who don’t wear bras for work anymore because they Work From Home. It’s beautiful to see people awaken to their true priorities, what makes them contented and what is an unnecessary drain of their energy.

The lesson here is that life is too short to be living it for other people. I learned this a long time ago when I was a babygoth, but now it translates to gender norms and conscious acts of dismantling the white supremacist patriarchy.

We all have work to do. Something I am working on myself is deprogramming using the term “Dude” in a gender-neutral way. It’s really difficult for those of us who grew up in the 80s-90s. But the thing that changed my mind is when someone said something like “if it was truly gender-neutral then a hetero man would have no problem saying ‘I slept with this hot dude last night’ ” ...touché. Something important to remember is cisgender people don’t get to tell the trans community what words are acceptable for people to use in reference to them. Using new pronouns for someone can be difficult because personally my mouth speaks before my brain fully processes awareness of it all... Like Tourette’s, you don’t mean anything by it but that doesn't negate the impact it has on other people. However, I know from experience on both sides of the situation that if you use the wrong pronoun and correct yourself, indicating that you are aware of the person’s gender identity and are making an effort, it shows you respect them. And that’s all we want. That’s the part that makes us feel seen, even when you make a mistake.

I wanted to end on an esoteric note. In this post, my friend Jonah Welch muses on the NonBinary space being the “Alchemical Point” as in - the point of Transformation between two stationary states. They call it the Divine Androgyny. This is a microsummary, please go read the whole post and follow for more. It’s a really good thing to think about if this blog resonated with you and you’re feeling called to this journey too.

Visibility is important, I want to thank everyone who helped me on this journey myself. There are so many of us out now (including 80% of Gen Z it seems) thanks to the global internet community coming together. It feels like the tide is actually turning and people are starting to get it... including a greater understanding of us ourselves. This is your gentle reminder to love yourself and your Divine Androgyny.

the fun stuff

Here is my “gaylist” I listen to during Pride month and throughout the rest of the summer. Below are links for those curious to explore further.

Helpful Links:

Ally resources for cis people

Transgender Teen Survival Guide

The Genderbread Person

Trans Rosary Circle

Jeffery Marsh for everyday motivation & education

book: Jeffery Marsh - How to be You

Alok V Menon for everyday inspiration

Alok: How Fashion Designed the Gender Binary

TTSG Trans resources masterpost

Gender Expression ≠ Gender Identity

The Truth about Sailor Uranus

Singular “They” is correct English

GC2B, personal favorite chest binders!

I’m not your guy, Dude. Why language really does matter

Thanks for reading. I hope you felt included and seen. Happy exploring & Happy Pride Month!

[omnivore-bibliosaur]

  Happy holidays everyone! I’m in the midst of creating stocking stuffers full of winter seasonal cheer. Today I’m sharing holiday romances that will keep you warm as we stroll towards the Winter Solstice and indulge in festivities with loved ones, colleagues, and ourselves. Although I’m posting this now, it is by no means finished. I’ll try to add more books (published within the last five years) to future lists as I discover them. Until then, happy listening!

As always, I would love to hear about holiday romances that you’ve enjoyed! Please share them in the comment section below!

That Old Emerald Mountain Magic: A Christmas/Holiday by Cara Malone

Eitan’s Chord: A Lesbian Fairy Trio for Chanukah by Shira Glassman

A Christmas for Carol by Emily Sharp

Winter’s Solace by Magnolia Robbins

Snow Globe by Georgia Beers

A Holloway Holiday by Voss Porter

Mistletoe Mishap by Siri Caldwell

  That Old Emerald Mountain Magic: A Christmas/Holiday (2017) by Cara Malone Join the conversation on Goodreads!

“Carmen hasn’t had snow on Christmas in ten years. Her family has grown accustomed to beaches and extravagant tropical vacations, but she still remembers the snow in Massachusetts when she was a kid. When her dad decides to book a cabin in the idyllic, snow-capped mountains of Colorado for Christmas, the rest of the family is skeptical – why trade palm trees and warm weather for a snowbound ski resort? Carmen’s in the same ‘bah humbug’ mood until she meets the impossibly optimistic, endlessly intriguing Joy and their worlds collide – quite literally – on the slopes. Joy has lived her whole life on Emerald Mountain and watched a lot of people come and go through the resort town. She has learned to expect a certain amount of impermanence here, but Carmen makes her hope for more than just a vacation romance. Can Joy help Carmen and her family rediscover the true spirit of Christmas?”  via Amazon

  Eitan’s Chord: A Lesbian Fairy Trio for Chanukah by Shira Glassman Join the conversation on Goodreads!

“Fairy magic requires fairy intimacy, so when the three Chanukah fairies—cute butch Latke, enthusiastic party girl Dreidl, and their elegant leader Menorah—decide to help an impoverished young couple, a fairy romp is in order! Eitan, a trans man, and his cis wife Abigail work retail and live on love in a studio apartment with broken blinds. If only Abigail’s beaded jewelry would sell online, they’d have a little more cash, but nobody’s biting. While they sleep, the fairies bring the miracle they’re looking for. This story features spicy behavior and is not for children.” via Amazon

  A Christmas for Carol (2017) by Emily Sharp Join the conversation on Goodreads!

“A modern spin on a beloved Christmas classic. After the passing of her best friend, Jacqueline Marley, Elizabeth Scrooge heads up the powerhouse financial firm of Marley and Scrooge. Bitter and angry, love is the furthest thing from her mind. But then she hires a new employee. Carol Cratchit is looking forward to her new job as the personal secretary to Ms. Scrooge. Despite the simmering sexual tension which heats up between them both, Carol couldn’t ever imagine being with someone so cold and heartless. When Scrooge hires Carol to help her with a personal issue outside of work, Carol reluctantly agrees. But with each meeting, Carol begins to see past the hard exterior and sees something inside of Elizabeth that she has been longing for. For a miracle to happen this Christmas, and give the Happily Ever After both need, Elizabeth and Carol have to look into the past, focus on the present, and find the magic they both need for the future.” via Amazon

  Winter’s Solace (2017) by Magnolia Robbins Join the conversation on Goodreads!

Katlynn Walker thought she had it all: a dream job in Silicon Valley. A beautiful California beach house. The love of her life. But her world crumbled beneath her feet the moment she found her best friend in bed with her fiancé. Desperate to escape her harsh new realities, Katlynn flees to her Massachusetts hometown of Wellesley, to spend Christmas at her sister’s cottage. Finding a new love was the last thing on her agenda, but when Katlynn reconnects with an old friend, everything she thought she knew about herself and her future is called into question. Iris’ life changed the minute her mother got sick. With her quiet, cozy world in Wellesley suddenly turned upside-down, there’s no room for more complications — especially not the resurgence of a college crush she thought she’d put out of her mind long ago. But when she finds herself spending the holidays next door to her old classmate Katlynn, Iris can’t ignore the chemistry between them. As the two women navigate their separate heartaches, will they crack under the pressures of life around them? Or can their new bond save them both? via Amazon

  Snow Globe (2013) by Georgia Beers Brisk Press Join the conversation on Goodreads!

“Mackenzie Campbell has no idea her life is about to fall apart. She’s bright and attractive with a good job, a comfortable home and an impending Christmas wedding she’s been planning for months. So when her girlfriend bails less than two weeks before the nuptials, Kenzie’s picture perfect Christmas world is turned upside down. Determined to hold on to at least some shred of her dignity, Kenzie snags her best friend, Allison, and flees the cold of the Northeast to take the honeymoon anyway. The Rainbow’s Edge is an enormous LGBT resort in Southern Florida, and its atmosphere of sun and fun seems to be just what Kenzie needs to help take her mind off of her lost relationship. But can a few hot dances, a mysterious suitor, and a handful of rum runners help her figure out what it is she really wants?” via georgiabeers.com

  A Holloway Holiday (2016) by Voss Porter Dark Hollows Press Join the conversation on Goodreads!

“Under the stress of the holidays, can Cara Spencer and Dre hold it together? Or do they need a little Holloway Holiday magic? At the behest of her brothers, Cara Spencer Holloway picks up the mantle of holiday entertaining, left behind in the wake of her parents’ untimely death, but now she’s beginning to second-guess her every decision. What if she can’t measure up to the memories? What if her brothers don’t think she’s good enough? And why in the world has her partner, Dre Martin, been acting so strangely? Join the Holloway clan as they realize all they truly need is a little holiday magic!” via Amazon

  Mistletoe Mishap (2017) by Siri Caldwell Brussels Sprout Press Join the conversation on Goodreads!

“Ready…set…yes! It seems like a simple challenge: who can make the other person take the Lord’s name in vain the loudest and the most often with the least clothes on before Christmas. With only twelve days to prove that all those years together do not mean she’s forgotten how to goad the love of her life into unbuttoning her own blouse, Kendra has no time to waste. If only Viv played fair… Will mental arithmetic, a little too much coffee, and mistletoe threaded through belt loops help two science professors laugh and love their way through the holidays?” via Amazon

Holiday Romance 2017 Happy holidays everyone! I'm in the midst of creating stocking stuffers full of winter seasonal cheer. Today I'm sharing holiday romances that will keep you warm as we stroll towards the Winter Solstice and indulge in festivities with loved ones, colleagues, and ourselves.

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Wolfstar Part 2

The next morning, Sirius woke up with a huge grin in his face. He was a bloody idiot. Never in a million years, would he have believed his little excursion would turn up that way. But that’s what Remus provoked on him, he acted like an idiot.

Sirius rushed his fingers through his lips, searching for the lingering taste of Remus’. It had been wonderful, and Sirius wanted to do it again.

But the fantasy was over as James opened his curtains in a beat, making Sirius jump.

“The hell!”

“Good morning, Pads” James smirked “What?” he asked looking at Sirius’ shocked face “Did I interrupt a wet dream?”

James didn’t have the habit of being subtle or having manners. And that was exactly the reason why Walburga and Orion hated him. And that’s the reason, Sirius loved him.

“What?” Sirius tried not to blush.

Every ‘indecent’ topic was forbidden at The Noble House of Black. James was confident talking about them, since his parents had explained everything he needed to know without problem. Sirius didn’t understand how. He had pretended he was confident about those subjects: intimacy, kissing, sex, love… But none of it was real, because it had never happened to Sirius. Until now.

So yeah, Sirius did blush remembering the intimacy he had had with Remus last night.

“Oi!... You were!” And James noticed it too

“Padfoot…” James crossed the space between them and squeezed his cheeks.

“Arrrg!! Prongs!” Sirius protested

“Who is the lady who is stealing your dreams?”

There it was the affectionate James, kissing his head with no problem. Walburga would’ve looked at that scene with disgust.

“NOBODY!”

James wouldn’t understand. The complicate situation he was immersed in. James had shouted to the rooftops how much he fancied Evans. But Sirius couldn’t do that with Remus. Remus was everything that was forbidden. And Sirius was so afraid of the consequences. Even though he acted as he didn’t.

Sirius finally pushed James away, the latter laughing openly. Sirius buffed fixing his hair.

“What happened?”

Remus’ voice made Sirius’ heart beat fast. He wasn’t ready to see him. But there it was, his gorgeous morning face poking through the curtains.

“Nothing” Sirius said quickly, trying to avoid his gaze.

“Sirius had a wet dream” James laughed

Sirius rolled his eyes in desperation. If only James knew that the object of his affections was a few meters away, looking adorable with his oversized sweater, his hair was a mess since he moved quite a bit on his sleep, fact Sirius had learned for sharing a dorm with him for seven years. And Merlin, he wanted to run his hands through his hair, just like he did last night.

“Oh, did he?” Remus crossed his arms, smirking.

Sirius couldn’t avoid smiling back. “Probably”

“Aaarrg! And why do we have to know that?” Peter poked his head through Sirius’ curtains too.

“A little bit of privacy here!” Sirius protested.

“Hey, are you naked too?” James teased

“I always sleep naked!” Sirius hated blushing; he was usually the one making people blush. He probably wouldn’t be like this if Remus wasn’t here.

“It’s comfortable” he added when he saw his friends’ expressions. But Remus was different. He was bitting his lower lip. His eyes were moving through Sirius’ sheets, as if he could scan through them. Sirius’ cheeks were definitely on fire now.

Sirius covered himself with the sheets “GET OUT, WILL YA?”

“Yeah…” Peter left first

Remus blinked coming back to reality and run to the bathroom, probably blushing.

James laughed his ass out seeing his friend humiliated “Move it, handsome” he said patting Sirius’ shoulder “I want to tell you my improvement on Evans last night”

Sirius groaned ducking his face on the pillow.

As they went down for breakfast, Sirius found himself wanting to seat next to Remus. He took his seat beside him. James looked at him, usually they sat together.

“What? Can’t we change seat arrangements?”

James said nothing. Instead he went on talking about his evening with Lily Evans last night. Sirius was more aware of Remus’ heat next to him than James’ story.

“We are friendly now. We sat together and everything, well you saw, until you mysteriously disappeared last night?”

Sirius blinked “We came back to the castle”

“Yeah we were very tired”

“But you weren’t on the dorm when we came in” Peter raised an eyebrow.

Sirius panicked.

“We fell asleep in the Library catching up on homework” Remus said confidently. Sirius was so grateful.

“Him?” James snorted, pointing at Sirius.

“I want to be responsible” Sirius protested

If James or Peter found this suspicious, they didn’t show it.

“Anyway, I sat next to Evans. And she kept laughing at my jokes…”

“Just because they were silly” Peter interrupted

“Shut up, Wormy. I’m telling the story” James protested “Well, I started playing the guitar to show my moves and Lily kept trying to correct me, saying her dad was a guitarist or something. And our hands rushed…”

Behind the table, Sirius’ hand was so close to Remus’. His little finger stroke delicately Remus’ skin. Sirius’ heart began beating fast again. Remus’ lips curled a bit and his fingers found Sirius’, stroking them a little. Sirius swallowed. He dared to finally take Remus’ hand into his. And before they knew it, they were holding hands, fingers interlocked, under the table. It would be an insignificant gesture for anyone. But for Sirius it was so important and intimate. He just wanted to kiss Remus and shout in front of everyone at the Great Hall how much he loved him.

Sirius couldn’t give up his touch.

“Like I know we are just friends” James continued “But when I am with her, I feel like my heart is about to explode, you know?”

Sirius understood the feeling. It was happening right now. He squeezed Remus’ hand to let him know that. Remus smiled in response. And Sirius smiled as well. They didn’t look silly, it looked like they were just smiling for James’ words.

“Hello boys…”

Someone sat next to Sirius and he panicked, dropping quickly Remus’ hand.

It was Lucille. A Hufflepuff girl that had been after Sirius for years. Lucille and him had snogged a couple of times. She was good for that stuff, but then she wanted to talk about feelings and relationships. And Sirius didn’t understand why he wasn’t interested in any of that. But he was interested in all that, but not with Lucille, not with anyone. Just Remus.

“Lucy” Sirius winked.

But he wasn’t ready to admit that in front of everyone.

“I was looking around everywhere last night, Sirius” Lucille poked his arm “I was hoping we could hang out”

“Oh, didn’t you hear?” James mocked “He studies now”

“Shut up, James”

“Oh, speaking of which. Can you help me on my Transfiguration essay? You’re very good at it” Lucille pleaded

“And good at other things” Peter whispered. And James and him giggled.

Sirius was aware of Remus tensing beside him. But he was so afraid of looking at him, of telling the truth.

“Sure, Lu” he smiled “Shall we meet in The Library later?”

“Or maybe down at the Greenhouses” she said, and when she noticed the boys were giggling, she added “It’s quieter there”

“Oh, I see” Sirius winked at James and Peter “I’ll be happy to be of your assistance, as long as I receive payment”

Sirius didn’t know how to stop. He was acting like an idiot, and he knew it. But he couldn’t stop. James and Peter were amused. He felt Remus moving uncomfortably on his seat.

“Oh, thank you, Siri” Lucille exclaimed, kissing Sirius’ cheek “You’re the best” and she ran down the hall.

Sirius let out a big sigh.

“Is Lucille the girl from your wet dreams?” James laughed. Peter whistled.

Sirius simply shrugged. He focused his eyes on his plate with eggs and bacon. He wasn’t angry anymore. He was such a coward, avoiding Remus’ gaze.

“I am not hungry anymore” Remus said “Apparently nobody respects breakfast time”

And he left the Great Hall.

Later, that day, Sirius waited patiently until Remus got out of Ancient Runes, subject he had with Lily, Marlene and Mary. He was taping his foot nervously, rubbing his hair desperately. Hidden behind a statue like a bloody coward.

Remus and the girls came down the hall. Remus always made the girls laughed. And Sirius felt a rush of jealousy. He watched as Remus said goodbye to them. They disappeared through the other hall, and Remus walked towards him, as Sirius had predicted.

When Remus was close, Sirius took his arm and dragged him inside the nearest broom closet, locking the door behind him.

“What the…”

But Sirius cut him with a kiss.

“I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry” Sirius whispered covering Remus with kisses “I’m sorry. I’m sorry”

Remus pushed him away. “Yeah you said that”

Remus didn’t look angry, he looked disappointed. Which was worse. Sirius had knot on his throat.

“You promised you weren’t going to be awkward about it” Remus said crossing his arms “Like last time”

After their first kiss, at The Astronomy Tower, Sirius had pretended he was too drunk to remember anything. Because he was so scared of the strong feelings he had. It had been different with other girls he had snogged, because there was nothing there. But the truth was that Sirius was so scared of being hurt, or worse hurting someone. Just like his mother had told him “Who would stan your mood swings, your tantrums, your stupid behavior? Just me. Your mother. And as much as you try to deny it, Sirius. You’re just like me. You are a Black and you will always be”

Sirius’ eyes started watering. And he hated when people say him cry. Orion always thought it was a sign of vulnerability and weakness.

Sirius hugged Remus, hiding his tears on his shoulder.

“I’m sorry, Moony” he whispered “I am an idiot”

Remus didn’t say anything. He hugged him back, stroking Sirius back.

And it was easier that way, because he had Remus on his arms, facing the wall. Sirius knew he would listen but he couldn’t say it to his face.

Sirius sniffed. He stroked Remus’ hair, and kissed his neck gently.

“I…have… very…strong feelings…for you” It had been so hard to say it out loud but there it was. And then he was confident to say the rest “I haven’t felt this way for anyone, just you”

Remus didn’t respond but Sirius’ felt his heart bumping against his.

“Do you understand what I am trying to say?” Sirius tried again, and he decided to face Remus this time. Remus was overwhelmed, his face illuminated by the poor lighting of the room.

“I fancy you” Sirius continued, his eyes filling with tears “I fancy you like James fancies Lily, or even more” he snorted “Maybe more. I don’t know what that makes me… but I am so scared of what others might say, or what would happen if they found out” my parents “And I am scared of hurting you, like I did last year for my stupid temper” Sirius started crying now “And I am so scared of losing you…” he was actually sobbing “I don’t want to lose you…” he shook his head “Not again” he covered his face.

He felt Remus’ arms wrapping him. And he wrapped his arms around his waist. Crying on Remus’ chest. That beautiful bastard smelled like chocolate and fresh parchment. Just like his Amortentia last term.

“I fancy you too” Remus whispered in his ear “Like Lily fancies James, because she was talking about him in class, you know?”

Wait, Lily liked James? Those words made Sirius cry even more “I am sorry. I am such an idiot”

“Hey…” Remus whispered “Hey, hey, hey” he broke apart and forced Sirius to look at him. Remus smiled and immediately Sirius stopped crying.

Remus laughjilyed and looked around “Looks like a pretty place to live, so cozy”t… I mean…”

“Hey” Remus interrupted “Kiss me”

“What?”

“Kiss me now”

Sirius was compelled because he needed Remus’ lips right now. They kissed softly three times. Remus grabbed his hands into his.

“We are going to solve this” Remus put his forehead against Sirius’. Then Remus smiled and began giggling softly.

“Are you making fun of me?”

“I am just very happy that you feel the same way I do”

Sirius snorted and giggled as well. He kissed Remus again. He might be scared of doing so in public, but right now, in the privacy of this broom closet, he was allowed to do whatever he wanted. Remus was his. Like run his fingers through Remus’ curls.

“Can we stay here forever?”

Remus laughed and looked around “Looks like a pretty place to live, so cozy”

“Shut up, asshole” And Sirius smiled before kissing Remus again.