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do u ever think about tommy having friends bc i need him to have friends i need them to team up with the 118 to get those idiots back together i need him to not be lonely both in love and in life too i need him to have someone who swings by his house with a cookie or a muffin some rando firefighter donated to a coffee shop (the barista said he'd tried three other shops before this one took pity on him when he said he bakes to avoid calling his ex-boyfriend... and after he unwrapped one and ate it in front of them to show that yes, they are safe, they're all labeled) because they figured he could use a little something sweet to hopefully brighten his day at least a little bc that man is so sad over his breakup still. i need that man to be LOVED in all ways and to have found his place in life at last
It’d be nice, but in my head he has lots of acquaintances but no true “friends” but maybe that’s just me projecting lmao
I think he knows a lot of people from rescues and such that help him out when he needs something, because he does anything they ask whenever they call, but they’re not people he talks to day to day.
I definitely don’t think he’s close to his coworkers, not like the 118 is. I think he’s friendly with everyone at harbor, but they’re coworkers and it doesn’t really go beyond that.
I think he started going to karaoke trivia alone and has a group there that always puts him in their team because he’s good, but they also have families and lives so they only talk at karaoke.
I think he has some army buddies that come over for a round of Muay Thai but it’s mainly because they were injured overseas and this is a way Tommy gets them moving and using their body, plus he’s felt guilty all these years about how they got hurt so he thinks it’s the least he could do.
I think Tommy is guarded beyond belief, so much so that even if he did trust someone with his deepest darkest secrets, he wouldn’t even know where to begin. So he keeps it inside, and when it builds up enough, well… that’s what a punching bag is for.
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AS SOON AS I READ THIS I LITERALLY SCREAMED 😭😭😭
i know Ultimate universe is a way different and this version of Logan is kind of uh pretty fucked up but again so is everyone else in this universe and this is way too familiar of a beat for this door sad old man 😭😭
I need, perfectly a cannon story but I’ll settle for a fic, where Wolvie (any version of him) is post one of these situations, he’s alone and he’s just crying. For the first time in god knows how long, he’s crying because despite all the good he does, despite how hard he tries, despite how many burdens he takes on for others, despite everything, he’s never seen as good enough and he’s just so sick of being rejected bc he’s not “good enough”.
And he’s a good five minutes into this cry when something lights up his room, an orange door looking thing, Wade steps through. Wade who’s looking for someone to help him save his world. Logan goes willingly bc what the hell, there’s nothing here for him anyway.
They basically go through the movie (obviously some things are changed because Wolvie is a little more helpful also there’s a nice helping of sexual tension bc Wade is Wade and Logan is a lonely touch starved mess) and at the end when it’s time for the big sacrifice to happen, Logan tells Wade something like “Let me go, you have a family to get back to. I have nothing.” And Wade almost lets him but he can’t and instead of that funny bit of Wade stalling he tells Wolvie through the glass, “I can’t let you sacrifice yourself for me. You’re too good to die like that.”
It’s that moments right there that he realizes that even if Wade doesn’t want him romantically after all this, it won’t be because he isn’t “good enough”. He saves Wade, they save his world together and in the end he finds his home, he finds people who love him and think he’s good enough. That he is enough and he can’t believe it took him this long to find his home but he did it, he finally did it.
#deadpool and wolverine#poolverine#logan howlett#wade wilson#wolverine#deadpool#this doesn’t help also that I was shipping the hell out of Logan and Ororo#like I can also get behind her and Henry#but fuck why did they have to do Logan like that???#is it just an X-man rule?#Logan isn’t allowed to seriously date any his teammates#ultimate wolverine#ultimate x men
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My sister just broke up with her first long-time partner, and I'm not sure how to comfort her. I haven't gone through a bad breakup in over a decade (I also just generally don't date bc it always goes awry, but that's a different story for a different day). Do you have any advice on how to help someone through this kind of heartbreak?
There's nothing you can do to take her pain away, but you can provide love, support and distractions as she moves through her heartbreak at her own pace. And it means a lot when people stick around to listen, help, hang out and hug you, even though you're still just as sad long after you feel like you should be over it. Even as you feel it'll never get better. If there's one thing I've learned about breakups it is that they can feel life ending. For months, years even. But the pain will eventually ease up. You will move on. This is not something you can teach her though. That's something she'll have to discover herself. All you can do here is stick by her side and love her
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second chances
another halbarry ficlet. spoilers for kevin smith's GA bc this story takes place directly after his run. can maybe be read as platonic. featuring spectre hal and afterlife barry, enjoy :)
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Heaven has never been a particularly loud place. The sprawling hills that seem to stretch on endlessly provide each resident more than enough space to comfortably exist, and even then, the blissful peace that comes with complete and utter contentment lends to a lack of a need to converse or even speak in and of itself. Save for the whoops and laughter of the young boy wonder who inconspicuously showed up at the pearly gates only a few years after him, Barry has always known the afterlife to be nothing less than tranquil.
And yet, as he runs his thumb along the shaft of one of the arrows that have, as of recently, been left abandoned in the luscious green grass, he can’t help but think Heaven seems the quietest it’s ever been.
Too quiet, even, perhaps.
Seeing someone enter through the gates of this place only to return back to the land of the living has been far from unheard of. Barry remembers his bittersweet reunion with Clark some time ago, only for Clark’s soul to be pulled back to his body a short time after. But he has to admit, Oliver’s revival, in particular, has him slightly… surprised, due to the way Ollie had adamantly and consistently refused the second chance Hal so desperately wanted to give him.
Speaking of Hal, Barry senses his presence before he sees him. Well, mostly he senses the Spectre’s wild, angry, vengeful spirit, but he can perceive Hal, too, the loving, sentimental, willful man he’s always been veiled just beneath the powerful force of the wraith he’s bound to. There’s also sadness and guilt—so, so much guilt that it seems to physically weigh on his shoulders and in his eyes, and each time Barry sees him he’s harshly reminded that Hal has not yet earned his place in paradise.
“So, he’s really gone fully back?” Barry asks, continuing to study the arrow in his hand.
“Yes,” Hal’s voice answers from somewhere behind him. “For now, at least.”
Barry hums and nods. He swallows hard, feeling a prick of bittersweet grief in his chest. Zooming around the valley and scooping up all of the arrows scattered in the grass, he places them back into the quiver and leans it up against the target next to the bow.
“I kinda thought you’d seem… I dunno. Happier?” Hal comments after a moment. “Now that he’s gone. You two always did butt heads.”
“Yeah, we did,” Barry lets out an amused breath of laughter. A lifetime of heated arguments and cutting words flashes through his mind, and he remembers them fondly.
Oliver’s quick wit and snappy remarks did not die with him, but Barry was met with a very different Oliver Queen standing at the gates of the afterlife, one who he at first almost didn’t recognize. Ollie carried a certain kind of weariness, hollowed to the core by a life of mistakes and insecurities and internal struggles. His eyes had welled up with tears, actual tears when he saw Barry. He’d yanked him into a long, tight hug, and Barry for not the first time had wondered what exactly became of the world after the crisis and why it seemed to leave all of his friends shells of who they once were.
“It was nice having him around,” Barry says. He runs his hand down the edge of the red and white target, reminiscing as he’s so prone to do nowadays. “He mellowed out in his old age. I liked his company.”
He pauses, glancing at the empty valley he and Oliver used to spend hours playing in together.
“But,” he adds, “I’m glad he’s embraced the second chance he’s been given on Earth. If not for him, then at least for the people who loved him.”
“I wanted to bring you back, too.”
Barry stops. He turns around to look at Hal for the first time since he showed up and can just barely catch a glimpse of a too-pale face and dark eyes under a large, shadowy hood.
“I tried,” Hal’s eyes lower fractionally, like he can’t bear to meet Barry’s gaze. “But you—it’s been so long since your—there just wasn’t anything left of you to put back together.”
As he speaks, his words are heavy with shame. Whether that’s due to his failure to bring Barry back to life or that he tried to do it at all, Barry isn't sure.
“Well, that’s okay,” Barry says, and he offers Hal a genuine smile to show him that he means it, really and truly. “My time in the sun is long over, Hal. From what I’ve heard, Wally’s filled my boots just fine as the Flash.”
“It wasn’t the Flash I was trying to bring back,” Hal’s eyes lift to look at him head-on. The light of Heaven’s eternal day hits his face more, illuminating his tightened jaw. “It was Barry Allen.”
“Hal…” Barry sighs. He reaches to pull back his cowl and runs a hand through his hair.
“There’re people who love you, too,” Hal says, his voice slightly wavering. “People who would do… anything. Anything to have you back with them.”
Hal pushes back the hood on his head, letting it pool around his neck and shoulders, and Barry can see his entire face, from the deep frown tugging at his eyebrows and lips to the despair glimmering in his eyes. The years of compounded grief that, even in death, has left him looking aged and worn. Barry’s heart begins to ache.
“I know,” Barry says softly.
Because even before he died, Barry never doubted that Hal loved him. There was a special, unspoken connection between them, and in his final moments, one of Barry’s biggest regrets was leaving it unspoken. Now, though, Barry’s realized that maybe it wasn’t as unspoken as he’d thought.
Their individual paths of life split off from one another long ago, with Barry’s cut short and Hal’s a dark, winding road of pain and suffering. But in death, here they are, together. Although it isn’t like it used to be, and it’s far from a second chance for both of them in the way they'd like it to be, it’s still something to cherish and make the most of.
“Hey,” Barry moves to stand at Hal’s side, bumping their shoulders, “you don’t need to go back to work right away, do you?”
“No,” Hal tilts his head, that unruly chunk of hair becoming dislodged. Barry doesn’t bother to hold himself back from reaching to push it back into place. “Why?”
“Because we should race,” Barry gestures to the wide, open valley. “Like old times.”
Hal blinks. Then, he breaks out into a grin that’s rare nowadays. In a flash of green light, Hal is wearing his Green Lantern uniform, ring pulsating on his fist as he levitates from the ground.
“Alright, Barry,” Hal says, and his voice has already brightened significantly. “Let’s race.”
Barry pulls his cowl back onto his face, dips into a running position, and waits for Hal’s starting gun construct to go off.
Things aren’t the same. They’re on borrowed time before Hal has to go back to his work as the Spectre. Barry will have to remain here, and it could be minutes or eternities before they find themselves together again.
So all they can do now is make every last second count.
#halbarry#barry allen#hal jordan#spectre hal#green arrow 2001#ficlet#my writing#i'll probably end up posting this on ao3 eventually but for now i'll keep it here#this also wasn't heavily edited so my sincerest apologies for mistakes
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THEY'RE SO FREAKING CUTE AS KIDS Omg i cant with them. Babies your honor. So small
(Also wdym Vika originally had red hair- did I miss that or is it new info?)
Im very curious about how Vika's personality would evolve without the influence of his trauma. He would likely be more aware for a lack of a better term, both of himself and others so not having felt like a ghost all his life (which is ironic-) would definitely affect the way he interacts with others and carries himself. Even if in the end he turns out to still be mostly introverted and aloof, it wouldn't be to the extreme it does currently
Which, I love the idea of. I want to pinch his cheeks and coo at how small he is. He deserves every childhood experience he deserves sleepovers with Saran he deserves birthday parties where he is dying to see if the cake tastes as good as it looks. God, he's so freaking cute. I want to dump every blanket on him and protect him from the world
Also BABY SARAN. GOD. I'm dead. Dying as we speak. He looks so mischievous. Looks like he is going to vanish from sight and the next thing you know chaos has unfolded. The kind of kid that you have to be constantly watching. The house is suspiciously quiet kinda kid. Bet he and Vika get up to all sorts of shit and a good chunk of that is his fault
Have i mentioned that i want to pinch their cheeks already. Slice of life AU where they're normal kids and grow up as normal people is killing me. I want to see them throw a tantrum. And just enjoy be kids. Want to see them grow and go to school and complain about homework and go to the park and just. Enjoy life
-🦜. Too weak to them as little kids. Im going to need 3-5 business days to recover from this /j
as i mentioned in the quick post earlier, ye vika is actually a redhead if it werent for the illness/parasite!!
baby vika in this scenario/AU where hes not afflicted w the parasite would still be introverted and shy but not as extreme as canon; hes still a rather calm kid and gets overlooked often bc hes small (until he has quite the growth spurt and by the age of 18 hes the tallest) but hes not as melancholic/sad/nervous/anxious as canon
baby saran is the same as always; a menace to society LMAO. youre correct with everything you said about him AHHAHAHHAH if hes gone from your sights you know hes up to some shit. hes a menace and chaotic and a brave lil fool but he always shows respect and kindness and compassion for others. he always ropes vika into things and yes when they cause trouble its almost always sarans fault AHHAH whenever its vikas, saran takes the blame
theyre def the kind of kids that always stick together; saran is the popular kid but he always looks at vika and gets him to join them all. ppl joke abt vika being sarans lil shadow and saran gets all angry cat like "hes not my shadow, hes my sun!!!"
they grow up together and hang out all the time, help and support and love each other. i think i might draw this slice of life AU fr as a lil mini series aughhhh granting vika the childhood and youth he never had is reason enough aaa
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(ch. 15 review) — it’s the way i kept trying to prolong this chapter 😭 anyway. i love inconvenienced tom (i’m sure dumbledore does too) like it’s so him to sleep way after curfew but complain about being called to do something during his “sleep time” and then i love how absolutely irritated he is once he enters dumbledores office and sees his two nightmares — harry & mini abraxas reincarnate being there. him using a silencing spell and dumbledore lowkey approving is just hilarious, harry’s a bit too loud for everyone’s taste apparently. i seem to have forgotten that voldemort is gorgeous? but did malfoy not clock the identical faces?… also tom riddle experiencing empathy??? and for abraxas’ clone?? oh dumbledore (and maybe ruby) what have you done to the poor guy ! the parvati and lavender fight… that’s so sad i know she’s in love with her but saying mean things to your friends is never nice and i feel so bad for lavender bc yes she’s a bit boy obsessed (although tbf cedric is beautiful) she’s still a good friend and she’s just a teenage girl !! also ruby doing nothing to help, i feel you girl, it’s awkward getting between two close friends arguments. i also did not realise that draco and pansy were officially dating oops. ALSO DAPHNE AND ANTHONY?? i did not expect that at all idkw but personally i’m thinking good riddance oops, jk but i don’t mind them together but poor ruby she’s a bit confused and bitter (although there is a perfectly handsome single guy who is literally in a blood vow to protect her so, she shouldn’t be too disheartened idk). nice to see blaise getting complimented on his bone structure yearly, it’s quite phenomenal. HARRY AND CHO MY CUTIES, he’s a little awkward and nervous but he’s got the spirit !! lastly that note… i’m wondering who wrote it and i’m leaning towards tom bc of their conversation in the forest when she ran away and also his affinity for participating in writing things for the potters during valentines. ooh and nott is such a dick i kind of love that for him.
I ended up prolonging this chapter to >7k to wrap up dangling plot threads so that's valid (the next one that I accidentally posted earlier is more normal length -- that'll be up on Sunday after I proofread it).
That's on me for giving Tom one of my most unserious habits (pretending to 'go to bed early' so people won't bother you for three hours). Harry is definitely (canonically) too loud (controversial but I like OOTP CAPS-LOCK!Harry). Truly the stuff of nightmares.
Malfoy (nor anyone else who has seen them both, like Narcissa) did indeed not clock the identical faces (Clark Kent effect, ig).
Also I haven't given Voldemort a physical description except for his red eyes in a while (since Three Can Keep A Secret, I think?). That is on purpose, because I couldn't decide whether or not I wanted OG/Snake Face Voldemort. But I came to the conclusion that (I think this is canonically correct?) he got the snake attributes from the regeneration potion in GOF, and in RFMD he gets regenerated by the Elixir of Life, and then Jadis from Narnia lives rent-free in my brain and I was thinking about that scene from The Magician's Nephew where she eats the forbidden apple or whatever, which makes her Beautiful in An Eldritch Way and decided to go with that...
Tom?? Experiencing empathy?? He begs to differ and says it is totally for strategic reasons.
Honestly, I do feel bad for making them fight :( Lavender is a good friend (will never get off my Justice for Lavender Brown soapbox) but the whole situation is just so messy. If I were Ruby I wouldn't know how to intervene either.
I was never sure if Draco and Pansy dated in canon, but I decided, what the hell, I've never done a proper Valentine's Day chapter before, so, why not. And on the note of Daphne and Anthony yeah that was intentional blindsiding (I think the only times they were seen together were Ancient Runes class and the junk shop and both were Ruby-centric things). Confused and bitter -- that's exactly why I said jealousy, jealousy is required listening for this chapter (for Parvati, too).
There is a perfectly handsome single guy who is literally in a blood vow to protect her
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I can't decide who would be more horrified by this proposition.
Blaise loves that for himself, too. I was re-reading OOTP to figure out Harry and Cho and then I realised that their #1 pastime is actually talking about sports 🤦🏾♀️
Of course it's Tom. Who else lives in the intersection of loving to fuck with people and misuse stationery for nefarious purposes?
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Could you honestly recommend living in Japan? I love Japan a lot and often think of moving there but everyone says that it's better not to. How's your experience? Sorry if you've already answered this!
Hi there!
I guess it depends on what you want and what's important to you. Also, who's telling you it's better not to and why? People who live in Japan? People who have lived here and went back? People who've never lived in Japan, but have heard that it's not a good place to live?
Personally, I love living in Japan! I love my job, I love the beautiful nature I'm surrounded by here in Yamagata, I love the reasonably-priced, clean and convenient public transport, I love having the opportunity to use Japanese every day, I love the delicious food I can get, I love that I can use cash for anything and everything, I love how safe it is (I frequently walk around at night with my headphones in, and I rarely lock my front door when I'm home), I love the very unique experience of living in a country whose culture is so wildly different from my own.
There are things I don't love too. The summer is brutal, even up here in the north. People's attitudes towards neurodiversity are pretty backwards. I know for most people the work culture is too much (I don't really feel that in my company tbh), and being far away from my family can make me a little sad sometimes (not usually bc I have a strained relationship with most of my family, but there are times I miss them). Finding clothes that fit can be challenging for some. There's also the question of salary (the yen is pretty weak atm).
With all those things in mind, I can understand why some people would say it's better not to live in Japan. But also, it's pretty easy to get a working holiday visa or come here to teach ESL for a year. If moving to Japan is something you're considering, then I really think you should try it! If you don't like it, you can go back. If there's one thing I've learned from experience - and this applies to many things in life, not just moving abroad - it's that it's better to be the person who gives things a shot than the one wishing they were that person.
So can I recommend living in Japan? Maybe, maybe not. Do I recommend giving it a go if you're able? Absolutely, 100%. Come here and see for yourself! If you have specific questions about anything to help you make your decision, feel free to ask away :)
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I LOVE werewolf river omg
I AGREE I'm always such a sucker for any kind of supernatural creature AU and I think werewolfism just suits him so well.
It's the need to be a part of something, the need to be told he's a good boy, that he's helpful and useful. Being too loyal and trusting to the people he cares about, or respects, or defers to as an authority, and getting fucked over by them, bc his loyalty is never returned. How Frank and his pack(/cult) could come into his life and it's like this missing piece, finally understanding exactly why he's felt so lonely his whole life, and how tempting any kind of offer of family would be.
How much he loves fucking running all the time, how he can take a beating and shake it off fairly quickly, how good he is at the hunt, at tracking people down and following them without them recognising he's there.
Anyway I started rambling a bit too much about the many fun werewolf River ideas developed with @countessrivers that we’ve been batting back and forth in the tags, but decided to add a bit more detail and contained it under the cut where I elaborated a bit (a lot) more
One evolving thread of an idea is one where River gets stuck in werewolf form at the end of S3 after he gets exploded/nearly killed. Transforming and flipping out a bit and eating a bunch of Chieftain guys (and maybe Nick Duffy also.) Louisa chasing after him to explain to Shirley and Marcus that the massive wolf currently munching on Head Dog's liver is River, and please don't shoot him, but also - considering how he unbothered he was by Chieftain's bullets, probably won't do much but annoy him.
River snapping out of his bloodthirsty rampage once the smoke has cleared and the immediate threat is gone, but having some difficulties when it comes to 'okay, now be a human again' (The idea being this is perhaps the first time he's transformed not during a full moon.) Kind of switching into silly puppy mode, not at full human brain capacity, not particularly bothered by anything - he's had a hunt, and a meal, and now some of his pack is here! Great! Maybe him and Shirley play fetch, have a little play fight, I think that would be cute.
Louisa sending Shirley and Marcus off to publish the file, her sneaking River out and into her apartment. River going through the indignity and betrayal of being showered and just a Sad Wet Wolf in the bathtub, but Louisa refusing to let him near her furniture/floor when he's so gross and still covered in blood and gore and whatever was on the floor at that facility. The heartbreak continuing when Louisa won't let him sleep at the end of her bed. Louisa pointing out that he didn't exactly bring his clothes with him when he turned into a giant fucking wolf, so when he wakes up tomorrow morning - hopefully back to normal - she doesn't exactly want her colleague/just about friend naked on her bed! (River presumably sneaking on/being let on anyway, the puppy dog eyes have got to be killer)
And then the next day coming; and River's still a big stupid werewolf. Louisa and River ending up at (a not dead) Spider’s apartment, who may or may not know about his lycanthropy already, but knows it’s River pretty quickly either way. River busy terrorising Spider’s wardrobe by ripping up all his ties and gnawing on his shoes, but eventually Louisa needing to leave. River and Spider engaging in their standard pettiness and humiliation rituals around stuff like Spider trying to make him eat dog food/from a dog bowl, trying to make him wear a collar bc they need to go into public and River’s a literal giant wolf so he needs one for his doggy disguise so people don’t start screaming on the tube. (And obviously, the many ways River might be collared by all these various people and all the fun uses for/implications of it)
Spider needing to go to the Park, and having to take River with him/not trusting him alone in his apartment. Not resisting the opportunity to make fun of how the only way River’s allowed back in now is as an office pet, (someone overhearing and realising he’s named his dog after his work frenemy/rival he has always had a… weird kind of obsession with and just like. Okay then.)
Spider getting intercepted by Diana who sends him to do something for her, but not letting him take his dog with him, that would be deeply unprofessional- no, she’ll look after it, presuming it’s house trained.
Diana thinking how she’d quite like to have some additional back-up in a meeting she’s got later that day with Whelan/Judd, whoever might benefit from being growled at by a big scary dog, sending him to the fancy dog groomers to get a blow out to make him look all dignified and fancy to act as her particularly intimidating accessory.
River not, *not* enjoying being a guard wolf for Taverner and having her scritch his ears and tell him he’s a good boy. Her taking him back to her place, cottoning on to who exactly he is eventually, bc, she’s a smart lady, and maybe he can get away with responding to ‘River’ but also responding to ‘Cartwright’ being pretty much a dead give away.
Diana thinking about how River could be useful to her now, could be a solid asset, especially if she’s seen footage/evidence of what he did at the facility wanting a loyal dog of her own after everything with Duffy, and now Flyte (and perhaps the ‘dogs’ being a very literal name and them being werewolves too, who rejected River bc he doesn’t smell right bc he technically belongs to a different pack, also a potential thought.)
River finally turning back in Diana’s apartment, feeling extremely awkward being naked and in her home, fashioning some kind of toga from a blanket to protect his dignity/not flash his boss.
Diana not really caring, instead giving him her pitch/job offer, and it’s to work for *her* directly, to cover her back, to protect her, even when that means protecting her from the service/Lamb. Potentially playing into any latent mummy issues/general need for the approval of authority figures in his life to push him along. It not being how he thought he would/wanted to go back to the Park, but it being an opportunity he can’t really turn down.
And then, how his connection with Frank would be different, him presumably being a werewolf in the first place bc he inherited it from his dad. And how River, who I’m imagining having been a lone wolf his whole life, potentially never even meeting other werewolves, so Frank coming into his life and it being kind of this revelation, and he’s fascinated by him, and all that he could teach him, and the idea that he sort of knows River better than he knows himself worming it’s way into his brain.
And, if it’s carrying on that earlier plot line I laid out, Frank getting involved as River is coming back under Diana’s sway, and moving back toward the Park in the space between seasons 3 and 4, Diana needing someone to train her new pet werewolf, Frank hearing about that through the grapevine and assuming MI5’s untrained pup is probably his boy, and wanting to check in.
Frank being presented as like ‘the werewolf specialist’ here to solve all their problems, but saying he needs to take River out of London to be able to train him properly. And, don’t worry, he’ll totally give him back. (Maybe he will, maybe it’s more of a split custody/River getting the Mi5 jobs, but very definitively belonging to Frank/being part of his pack/cult.)
So River slotting into life at Les Arbes, and finding out about Frank being his dad and meeting his half-brother(s) and becoming a part of a pack for the first time in his life, and feeling like part of a big family, and like - having friends his age, and them perhaps being playfully and physical affectionate, scrapping and play fighting and cuddling in a way that River’s always craved but never really had access to, bc it’s just like, basic werewolf socialisation.
And obviously, you know, there being, a kind of unsettling vibe - it’s clear that they’re some sort of off-the-books paramilitary werewolf squad, but perhaps the super intense cult stuff is turned down a bit when not in a time of crisis, and for River’s sake, and perhaps it’s not as necessary in an a werewolf AU where there’s more pack ties to each other and submission and obedience toward the pack Alpha is kind of innately ingrained.
But how River could sort of… accept all of that, the part of him that is desperate for action, and craves fieldwork - getting that at Les Arbres, even if it’s more shady than the career he had planned. And perhaps being able to dismiss any kind of strange cult-y interactions as being a part of like, werewolf culture that he knows nothing about, (like he can shrug off all the weird kissing in the book as werewolf socialising, bc wolfs lick each others mouths as a greeting,) and wanting to integrate so much he doesn’t want to question it all. (And then uh. How different social conventions/rules/relationships are. For freaky horny reasons. And just, much potential there. Sorry not sorry.)
Anyway that’s sort of one thread of an idea that has many spin-off and tangent and adjacent ‘what if’ ideas, some of which involve a lot of fun vampire stuff which I won’t share for risk of spoiling a potential upcoming fic I’m very excited for 👀
But yeah, long story short anon, same.
#I have so many werewolf River thoughts#what if he was just a big dumb goofy ginger werewolf who wants to be told he's a good boy?#what if he also ate someone? what then?#sorry for the ramble anon this is maybe not what you were expecting 😅#slow horses#river cartwright#werewolf river cartwright
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I just want to see the foxes again… I can’t stand this anymore I have officially snapped. Why won’t crunchy man leave me alone????
#vile vile disgusting man in every sense of the word#why would I be in love with a smelly smelly crunchy delusional man#I am not sir you fucking frighten me#also you don’t get to fight my dad only I get to do that#seriously fuck you#I used to be relitivly friendly to home bc I thought he was another homeless person in my town#and now he insists that it means I’ve always liked him#like no I’m just friendly to people who I think are down on their luck#like need a slice of pizza? I got you#need to call your doctor so you can refil your subutex? hey I got you buddy I wouldn’t want you to relapse#but this smelly smelly stinky little rich boy playing hobo has seriously ruined everything for me#it’s sad that he has kept me in my home and honestly made me less likely to go out of my way to be nice to literally any man#and that’s sad bc I liked helping people#I guess I should have noticed that he was never at our soup kitchen but honestly I just thought maybe he was going to a different one#but no he’s rich his daddy bought him a whole fucking house and a god damn Mercedes#he wears one pair of clothes he bathes in a nasty lake and he refuses to wear deodorant#his hair is one singular mass and honestly that’s why white people should be banned from attempting locks#have you ever noticed that white people with dreadlocks always have the worst personalities?
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Zionists want you to conflate Judaism and Zionism. Zionists want you to believe that Judaism cannot exist without Zionism and that all Jews are Zionists. Zionism would have Jews believe that a Jewish state is the only way that they can be safe from antisemitism and will point to any instance of antisemitism as proof that Zionism is the solution- so Zionism wants gentiles to be antisemitic in their support of Palestine. They want you to conflate all Jews with Zionism and the state of Israel, and they want you to treat all Jews regardless of political affiliation as the face of Israel. Antizionist Jews exist, and incidences of antisemitism ostensibly acting against Zionism will not help dismantle the forces propping Zionism up.
Don't do their work for them.
#red rambles#viva palestina#antizionism#i haven't actually seen a lot of antisemitism personally. not recently anyway. but that's more a feature of me not following antisemites#i DO however see a lot of people talking about the people they're seeing throw their support behind antisemites using palestine#as an excuse to conflate all jews with israel#and i cannot stress enough that that is literally what israel and zionist forces abroad WANT.#i am jewish. my entire family is jewish. i want to see palestine free. and i have SEEN how the jewish community gets conflated with israel#both from the inside and out#and i am dead serious when i say that every time someone is antisemitic it strengthens the conviction from people abroad#that it's a terrible sad situation but there's 'no other choice'#if you're being antisemitic you are doing the enemy's work for them. Stop it.#like... look. i am putting this in the tags bc im talking in the tags but i mean this. I do not give a single flying fuck if you personally#are a giant raging antisemite at the moment. Your personal beliefs are your problem and not mine. I do not fucking care. But if you are#being openly and loudly antisemitic *in your support of palestine* you are absolutely not fucking helping. I am so dead serious right now#if you want to raise awareness and you're being antisemitic because of deep held beliefs or whatever i want you to look around and read the#fucking room. Do you understand how much of Israel's international support comes from the idea that they are the only country where jews ar#safe from antisemitism? do you see how every time palestine comes up people point at incidences of antisemitism in anti-genocide actions to#discredit the entire movement? do you not understand how your actions are cutting the movement down at the knees?#i'm jewish and proud of it. i don't like antisemitism. but there's a genocide on and i'd rather work against it than quibble over who i#work alongside. i dont fucking care. you can be as antisemitic as you like in private. stop fucking the movement up.#there are bigger things to worry about here. if i can put aside my own concerns as to who i'm talking to you can hold your tongue#and fight the good fight instead of handing weapons to the people who are trying to fucking flatten gaza.
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Maybe I’m just being dramatic but it does legitimately scare and sadden me to see that a lot of transandrophobia truthers are literally just…young boys. Like, actual children. Like you’re not even old enough to vote yet and you have your whole life ahead of you and yet you are being manipulated into joining an mra group that hates trans women with a passion and thinks that men are oppressed in society for being men, and constantly uses Black men as their talking point in order to sound diverse and inclusive, meanwhile they’re also appropriating and misusing terminology specifically created by Black women to talk about our own oppression in order to get their misandry point across…to say nothing of the fact that the largest people in this group(including but not limited to its creator!) have misogynistic rape/detrans kinks centered specifically around preying on lesbians and trans women and this is something that is normalized and defended by the vast majority of transandrophobia truthers, or at least defended viciously by every single transandrodork that I’ve ever encountered who argued with me(a lesbian!!!) that actually there’s nothing wrong with getting off to the corrective rape of women because two consenting adults can do whatever they want in the bedroom(yeah right)! Not to mention I have yet to come across a transandrophobia truther who wasn’t also a raging die-hard Zionist.
And that’s why it disturbs me so much to see young trans boys jumping onto this transmisogynistic hate train like you guys realize these men don’t have your best interests at heart, right? They’re only going to manipulate you into being a sexist entitled asshat who shuns and bullies the trans women in your community and sees them as oppressing you. Like I know you’re still in middle/high school but you can still think for yourselves, you can choose to be better than this, you can choose to actually learn about feminism and realize that it’s not actually misandry that oppresses you, it’s transphobia. Misandry doesn’t suddenly become real because you slap a trans paint over it that’s not how it works that’s not how intersectionality works that’s not how any of this shit works. There are better trans men to talk to about trans issues who know that the patriarchy is real and don’t shit on trans women in order to speak out about trans topics, so go seek them out, okay? You absolutely do not have to listen to shit that the “male supremacists but trans” group of lowlives has to say. Hell, tell them to fuck off instead! Please, I promise you that there are much better options, there are ALWAYS better options, and you still have time to escape before they fully radicalize you into basically being an incel. There will ALWAYS be another way. ❤️
#transmisogyny#trans women#trans#lesbian#lesbophobia#transandrophobia is not real#sexism#misogyn#misogynoir#anti-blackness#racism#tw corrective rape#op#yes this is a vaguepost no i’m not naming names bc he’s a minor and i don’t want him to get harassed#but it does legitimately unnerve me and make me so sad#i normally mock transandrobros brutally if they’re older than me but when they’re children which is disturbingly becoming quite common#like sweetheart you still have recess what are you DOING#i don’t wanna sound like i think kids are stupid or know nothing or anything like that#because like i said many of them CAN make the choice to be better#it’s just also true that many kids are very impressionable and vulnerable and don’t have anywhere else to turn to so it’s hardly a surprise#that many of them turn to people who are really not worth listening to such as in these cases#so when i see a transandrophobia truther ruthlessly arguing that men are oppressed and then i go to their profile and it says 14 it’s like#how am i supposed to make fun of that now i’m just sad they need help#or to just grow up lol#if they’re lucky then these teenage trans boys will mature out of the idea that misandry is real and trans women are speaking over them in#the community/the source of all their problems#if they’re not lucky then they’ll turn out like…your everyday mra ig and no one wants to see that#at least i don’t
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Reading ur comics made me realise i am probably a girl
Oops
(Great stuff btw, ur art is mega awesome and so is you!)
awww w hell yeah transgender blast ♥
#funny actually bc i dont feel like i rly have that many comics directly about gender that could be helping people with it#like there's a bunch that are on that topic for SURE but generally i feel like it's mainly just me ranting on it#and a bit too often with slightly negative feelings too ifeel like hrhgrhg i dk . i have a subjective view on it tho definitely#rly happy if it helps people with that yeeeeee ♥#for the sake of transparency i cannot actually transgender blast in real life#very sad#bla bla bla
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We only see each other at funerals
(On Jason, Thalia, Nico, Bianca, and their parallels/connections)
The Titan's Curse (Rick Riordan), @/anxiousmaya_, Right Now (Gracie Abrams), The Battle of the Labyrinth (Rick Riordan), Joan of Arc (Mary Gordon), The Lost Hero (Rick Riordan), Episodes Toward and Elegy for Halley's Comet (Lindsey Drager), Jason Grace (Riordan Wiki), The Gods Show Up (Michael Kinnucan), The House of Hades (Rick Riordan), What the Living Do (Marie Howe), The House of Hades (Rick Riordan), Planet of Love (Richard Siken), The Blood of Olympus (Rick Riordan), Tangerine (Nolune), The Blood of Olympus (Rick Riordan), The Blood of Olympus (Rick Riordan), I Bet On Losing Dogs (Mitski), The Burning Maze (Rick Riordan), @/abhorarchive (Twitter), The Burning Maze (Rick Riordan), Seventeen (MARINA), The Burning Maze (Rick Riordan), @/rollercoasterwords, The Tyrant's Tomb (Rick Riordan), @/the-overanalyst, Where Things Come Back (John Corey Whaley), Grit (Silas Denver Martin), Softcore (The Neighbourhood), The Tower of Nero (Rick Riordan), Frost (Mitski), @/moonbends, I'm Your Man (Mitski), Sun Bleached Flies (Ethel Cain), The Tower of Nero (Rick Riordan), Three (Sleeping At Last), My Art
#nono you don't understand it's about the siblings#it's about how thalia lost jason once only to get him back and lose him again#it's how jason and bianca both walked into their deaths with their eyes wide open#it's about zeus trying to kill nico and bianca and him doing nothing to stop jason from dying#it's about thalia being in the hunters and nico hating her but he knows how to grieve with that kind of loss#so he'll help her. for jason. for bianca. because no one deserves to mourn a sibling alone#like these four barely interact but they're soooo connected i could go on forever#i'm so sad thalia and nico never actually got a scene together after the burning maze#and ALSO#it's about the fact that reyna is one of the most (if not the most) important people left in their lives#LIKE#do you think thalia found out how close nico and reyna were and started watching her more closely#because every person the two of them have shared has ended up six feet under#so reyna gets annoyed with how protective thalia is but she doesn't stop her bc part of her can tell thalia needs it#and nico constantly checks to make sure reyna's life force is still strong#bc he never wants to be caught off guard by a death again#ok im done now i promise#the trials of apollo#trials of apollo#nico di angelo#reyna ramirez arellano#reyna avila ramirez arellano#web weaving#fanart#my art tag#thalia grace#jason grace#percy jackson#percy jackson fanart#bianca di angelo
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Anyone else just not feeling like a real person much lately?
#'lately' he says#as if he's not been feeling this way for the last 28 years#idk man#maybe it's bc I'm getting older and so are the people i hang/chat with#but it feels like everyone else has a real life and real interests and experiences and things to say#and I'm some kind of hollow scarecrow person just full of memory loss and sadness#i feel very stupid and very boring#which i know is too harsh. and i know i should be kinder to myself bc life and covid and shit can't have helped the brain situation#and i should absolutely believe my friends when they say they wanna hang with me bc it's mean not to take them at their word#but I'm still like... why though?#genuinely what's the appeal of being around me. my head is empty i have nothing to add and I'm not interesting or that funny#it's been creeping up on me. this feeling like i just genuinely have nothing to offer.#i don't even know who i am#except for a person who like. lives vicariously through fictional characters experiencing feelings I've never had cause to feel#i can relate to emotions SO vividly except i myself haven't even felt the half of them#i just sort of quietly exist somewhere on the spectrum between content and discontent#with occasional drops into the despair zone#and even if the stuff i think is keeping me here went away tomorrow. like if mum stopped being an issue and i was free#like... what would i even do?#i don't even know how to want something#anyway. this has been morning mental breakdowns with newt#I'm going to go make some made up guys live the life i haven't now#mr. bees speaks#negative
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guy who only asks questions if they feel insightful enough to be worth asking and only hangs out if there is smth to do together <- deeply uncomfortable of the idea of wasting someones time
#yes i was constantly accused of not paying attention for asking questions i didnt know someone already asked why do you ask#maybe it does sound a little sad when i put it as 'i feel most comfortable when i feel like im not wasting the other persons time'#but its more like i want the other person to feel like im putting thought or at least care into it even if i dont express it very well#its weird feeling like im not giving back enough in the conversation but not knowing why or being confused by the idea#of someone who just likes to listen to me talk and not waiting for their turn to speak like i do like. arent you tired of it yet>?#how are you not thinking of ways to get out of this conversation yet??? it fascinates me bc ill never understand it#i like how we are now talking abt not letting yourself feel like a burden for asking for help and letting people help you#but i am on the other side of the spectrum where i want to feel needed when we hang out or else i wont know how to let u know me#yapping#diary#I hate feeling like this cuz it feels like im coming up with new and creative ways to defend myself instead of being myself
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i just heard someone on youtube (T B Skyen) say that silco loved jinx but didnt quite know how to love powder, while vi loves powder but doesnt know how to love jinx. and oooof oof ouch yeah
also it got me thinking and obviously jinx and powder arent two different people shes just going by a different name now but its also not baseless to analyze them as different "characters", or what traits of jinx are part of powder, etc. like the animators literally have a trick where they change her facial structure how they animate jinx to show when shes behaving more like powder. shes completely changed who she is, its jinx now powder fell down a well, sat on the jinx chair embraces who she is etc etc
#powder is like jinxs inner child#while jinx is- or was before the chair scene- the persona she puts on where she loves Violence and Chaos and shes Crazy HaHaHaHaHa#so when someone says like. ''jinx is being more powder in this scene'' it means shes regressing into being more childlike because of her#trauma or maybe shes so distressed and emotional that her persona fell apart for a second and the sad child underneath showed through#''silco loves jinx but doesnt know how to love powder'' means he loves and supports her being confident and smart in her inventions and#trying to accept and move on from her past. but hes teeeeerrible at that bc he doesnt want to let powder heal#he just wants her to bury that part of herself#and vi loves and cares for her baby sister so so much but shes terrified and doesnt want to accept the reality of what shes become#i do think vi had a point before tho. powder Was in there and while that doesnt negate jinx she could still reach her#and maybe help her out#idk how true that is after shimmer and silco dying tho. again. chair scene. the persona has fully become who jinx is theres no going back#powder fell down a well#arcane#jinx arcane#powder arcane#ignore me im just brainstorming ive been thinking about this show CONSTANTLY for the past few weeks i have so many thoughts on everyone#im sure this is a conclusion people reached years ago immediately after the show came out but im slow#theres a point between the child powder and the crazy terrorist jinx where the real true her lies#and that point has been getting closer and closer to the jinx side
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