#and that she's unsure if she's even worthy of her needs being put before other people's so she rejects those things because she's scared

[cerealbishh]

"I relate to Bess a lot. I think that she is someone who is super quirky, I'm a very quirky person! Artist really struggles with feeling validationwith her art and they can be incredibly critical of themselves. And I think that Bess is someone that really cares about other people and I think I care a lot about people, too. Her temper is a little quick, for sure. And that was something that was exciting to play because normally, I try not to make anybody uncomfortable. So I think that was fun, to be a little more sharp and and to find that!" - Brittany on Bess(x)

[teiasviago]

a lot of the frustration with part 2 seems to be coming from the fact that people are unwilling to view it as only a part of a whole story. Colin's sensitivity and self-worth issues didn't magically disappear once he admitted his feelings to Pen in the carriage. being with Pen is a dream come true and he's holding her up on this pedestal just as Pen had Colin on a pedestal until the end of season 2. finding out that she's Whistledown knocked her off that pedestal and allowed him to have the necessary character growth to realize that his worth as a person is not dependent on other people. he literally tells Pen that he thought he was the problem when really she has been the problem. and he is so blinded by his heartbreak that he can't understand that Pen being Whistledown is not her "true self" and the Pen he fell in love with and slept with and could be having a child with is not her "fake self" but that they are two halves of her whole self. he's put his entire being into this relationship in the hopes that taking care of Pen and ensuring her safety and happiness and impressing her and all of these unnecessary things would prove to be his purpose. and then he feels that all the things he's just committed himself to have been for a lie.

but Colin's anger isn't a stagnant thing, it evolves throughout the episodes. they argue outside Genevieve's and Colin learns that their relationship is not a lie. Pen loves him. she knows him better than anyone else. he still can't accept that Whistledown is part of her but he is assured that their love is real and that is why he's willing to have sex with her in that scene. because his need to be assured of her feelings has been fulfilled. people mistakenly think of that scene has being angry sex but it's not. Colin is not a man who fucks his way through his feelings. when he was having meaningless sex, that was pushing his feelings away, but he is not willing to do that with Pen. and he is also not willing to have sex with her when he is so conflicted over his role within their marriage. their wedding goes so well because Colin has been assured of Pen's love for him, so even though he's frustrated with her still, he sets that aside as he did the night before to just love her. and she hasn't been writing Whistledown so he feels that he can set it aside for now, and they can enter this marriage and he can convince her to leave the column behind. but then Pen tells him that she is not ashamed that Whistledown is part of her and he says he can't accept that and then, once again, he's unsure how to process his role in their relationship.

and because of that insecurity in his sense of self, he is not willing to have sex with her. he wants to, and he wants to kiss her, and love her, and laugh with her, etc. but he doesn't let himself do any of that because though giving in sounds nice, he is terrified of having no purpose in life, and he isn't willing to be with Pen unless he knows what his purpose is. and then he realizes that he's truly losing her, and he rereads her letters to realize that he always knew the whole of her, and she tells him again that he doesn't need to do anything to be worthy of love, and he realizes that even if his only purpose is simply to love Pen, then that is a fulfilling life to live. (it's not his only purpose, but that's besides the point.) just loving each other for who they are is enough.

[deathmetalunicorn1]

Hi how are you doing I happy you’re open could I request a yandere perfect cell x female android reader, she was created by dr briefs and was base on an butterfly insect humanoid, he made her to bring joy to the world and helps those in need, she is basically his opposite and he begins to feel a huge attraction toward her wanting to make his perfect mate

-He was perfection, he was powerful, he was everything, he was… lonely.

-Cell couldn’t help but scowl softly, annoyed by this nagging feeling inside his body, the desire for companionship, to have someone else to be by his side. He had researched the humans and found that there are things called wives, female partners in a relationship who stand with their husband- mates was a similar way of putting it.

-The thought of being with a human made his skin crawl, as they were beneath him, lowly creatures who should be worshipping the ground he walks on to let them live on his world.

-Perhaps there was someone else that would be worthy of his mate…

-Just as he thought this, you were heading down a nearby road, holding a basket of fruits for delivery, a smile on your face as you couldn’t wait to see the smiling faces of those you were delivering this basket to!

-Your creator, Dr. Briefs, wanted someone who’s sole purpose was to spread joy to the world around them, in a world filled with danger and sadness, someone who could make others happy.

-Sensing the movement, Cell had turned, seeing you first then hearing your beautiful voice as you were singing. His eyes widened, watching you, unsure of if you knew that someone very dangerous was nearby.

-He was quick to realize that you weren’t human, you were an android, much like the androids that gave him the power he needed to become perfect.

-As he listened to and watched you, he realized what an unusual person you were, you were so cheerful, so bright and warm. He didn’t even know he was following you until you stopped at the house you were traveling to, and he ducked behind a corner, peeking out.

-The people in the house were so happy with your gift, thanking you and he saw a child hugging you around your knees as you seemed so happy.

-It was strange, you were so happy doing things for others, gifting them things instead of just taking them, not demanding them of anything in return. Why were you doing this then? Just to be nice??

-When you started back, you passed by Cell, not noticing him at first, as he was researching you, trying to understand you but he couldn’t, and it was frustrating to not be able to understand.

-He stepped out and called out to you, “Hey!” you turned, your hair flowing around you, your eyes wide before they softened as you instantly smiled sweetly, “Hello there new friend!”

-Okay… you were little odder than he originally thought as you came over, smiling up at him, “Are you lost? Do you need help or directions?” you were trying to help him, a total stranger, a dangerous stranger! How could you be so trusting?!

-Cell’s thought process froze when you cupped his cheeks, your eyes sparkling, “You’re so many shades of green- that’s so cool! I’m Y/N, what is your name?”

-Okay it was official; you were definitely weird.

-However, your touch was so gentle, so warm as he felt himself leaning down into you touch a bit, “What a strange little being you are? Why is it that you’re so happy and willing to help others?” you were a bit confused, looking like you had been asked a trick question.

-You bounced back, smiling up at him as his hands lifted to cover yours, “I like making people happy, I’m willing to help anyone however I can so I can make their day just a little bit brighter!”

-Cell was confused, not understanding this and you noticed his confusion before you smiled, “Would you like me to help you? I could teach you how to be happy!”

-He chuckled softly, feeling already happy by just speaking with you and being with you, perhaps he could convince you to stay around, that way he would always be happy. It would be your duty as his wife after all.

[skuntank]

We’ve discussed how some of Cynthia and Diantha’s pokemon would react to their relationship (Lucario and Gardevoir as the long-suffering therapists, Hawlucha happily watching the IRL telenovella develop, you mentioned before Milotic trying to “nudge them together” in the most awkward situations possible) but I’m curious how you think their other pokemon would regard their relationship? IMO Diantha’s Tyrantrum is too self absorbed to notice any human romance happening and only finds out after a year of them being together.

sorry for the delay on this, thank you for your patience!

this got long oops. if there are any you have a different perspective on, id love to hear about it.

lets see. of Cynthia's pokemon not already discussed......

Garchomp: she is fiercely protective of cynthia and i dont see diantha being any exception at first. i imagine garchomp takes a little while to warm up to most, if she warms up to you at all. but once she and diantha establish a connection, i feel that garchomp would really love her. i see garchomp being like the stereotypical Big Mean Guard Dog and is extremely devoted to the few she accepts as worthy. diantha becomes one of her favorite people but for a while, diantha couldnt approach cynthia without feeling a cold chill of draconic eyes on her (garchomp is too well trained to outright attack anyone unprovoked) now, they are snuggle buddies.

Spiritomb: being the pokemon that it is, i dont ever see it being a cuddly creature, but it for certain shows its affection in its own way. probably thinks at first that diantha is gonna be easy to spook, but when it finds that she isnt as easily started as most, i think that in itself would earn some respect points. well, about as much as a several thousand year old cluster of miserable souls can have for a person. it still enjoys trying to spook and trick her but thats also sort of its baseline for most. diantha finds it oddly cute in a macabre sort of way.

Roserade: it seems somewhat cliche to characterize the masquerade rose pokemon as a romantic but. sue me. she was a phaesporiashipper from day one. similarly to how i see gardenia's roserade offering flowers to cheryl on her trainer's behalf before they even started dating, i can see cynthia's roserade not at all being subtle in dropping hints, but is a bit more elegant and artistic in its implementation than perhaps gardenia's roserade was. like perhaps, whipping up a small flurry of rose petals to swirl around them when she feels the moment calls for it. hawlucha highly appreciates the added theatrics.

Gastrodon: this is a dumb puppy slug. there is nothing going on behind those eyes. at least, as far as we know. she likes diantha. diantha smells nice and gastrodon likes to ooze on her. diantha gastrodon approved.

Togekiss: oh another big phaesporiashipper i would think, but not in the same theatrical way as perhaps roserade or hawlucha would be. i see him being a bit more of a worrywart for some reason, unsure why. if he could speak, he would regularly ask diantha if shes eaten recently, if she needs some water, how has she been sleeping etc.

Glaceon: it is sort of shocking how similar in some ways she is to diantha in terms of personality. at first im ngl i think glaceon would be sort of put off by diantha, and still there are times where they dont mesh the best, but there are some things they can connect over. cynthia thinks its very sweet when glaceon decides to sit on diantha's lap and demand pets. (and glaceon will then spend the rest of the afternoon pretending diantha doesnt exist lol.) depending on the nature of the comparison, diantha doesnt always appreciate when cynthia points out how similar they are, but she also knows cynthia is right and cant really say anything about it.

i was gonna include some other of cynthias pokemon like eelektross on kommo-o but. i have no thoughts on them

Of Diantha's pokemon, not already discussed:

Tyrantrum: i like your perspective on this one lol. tyrantrum strikes me as the type that isnt extremely aware of whats going on around him all the time. but thats ok. he adores diantha. and diantha's new friend cynthia is ok too. he doesnt like her garchomp tho. that probably occupies more of his mind than whatever is going on with his trainer and cynthia.

Aurorus: phaesporiashipper. is probably a part of whatever spectator group hawlucha and roserade have going on. i dont have much more to say on this, unfortunately. : (

Gourgeist: likes cynthia a lot!!! thinks she is super cool and likes her roserade and her spiritomb and also cynthias whole vibe!! probably likes to follow cynthia around when she is visiting. eternally curious and loves to poke her nose into whatever cynthia is doing and i can see cynthia even trying to explain some of her research to gourgeist, knowing gourgeist probably doesnt get it at all, but nevertheless she is an enthusiastic listener! delights in doing little things like tugging on cynthias hair and vanishing before being seen, or making her teacup float off the table. of course this doesnt faze cynthia, but for gourgeist's sake, she will act surprised and play along.

Goodra: time for cynthia to get slimed on by a big dumb puppy slug. no one can escape The Goo. cynthia maintains that goodra's goo is much worse to try to clean off than gastrodon's. diantha likes to remind her she is an asshole if she doesnt accept a goodra hug.

[daughterearth]

Directions to the Devi - The great Goddess

All the above answers are valid and deeply respected. Also, they may change with time like they did for me.

We can always hold space for something greater than a simple answer.

I'm writing this post in conversation with @spilledpoetries 's post and all thanks to @rhysaka's wonderful initiative to form this small well knit community.

Before that my humble agrah- I'm nobody to define or even limit the goddess through my words. This is not an academic discussion or an exploration of philosophies. It is simply my love for her that I wish to show what I can for others to find.

Q.Devi's association with Tantra.

For one moment really take her in - Her imposing, defying posture, her bareness, her dynamism --- she presents a contrast to all demure presentation of goddesses we see.

She's provocative, angry, ready to strike- her hair flying, blood smeared across her body and through the corpse's bleeding neck. She's terrifying and triumphant. She's the image of death and destruction and fear. And she's lavishing in it.

Through thousands of years of foreign oppression, of internal conflicts, of being second class citizenship of girls and women, of imposition of pardah and forced inferiority - SHE STANDS HERE STILL with contrasts.

What makes her so enduring and so striking to your imagination?

Tantra is another form of rigorous study. On the fringes of society - marred with elements we don't commonly consider forms of divination or worship it has survived eons. But it breaks the boundary of what is worthy of devotion, of ego and for us, its metaphysical elements presently would suffice.

''If you feel drawn to Devi in any form right now, it marks a call to war, your innate knowing - a yearning that cannot be sublimated, an uprising of your consciousness.''

You are being called to transcend what is beyond black and white.

Evaluate yourself -

Do you feel called to what you cannot yet explain? An incompleteness in every joy and sadness?

Are there areas in your life that trigger you deeply? Including your relationships, your sexual nature, your anger or repulsion, your path in life?

Is there a deep resounding need for belonging, of feeling like an outsider, a lone wolf or pushing against tides? As difficulties seem to corner you into a dead end.

If any of these strike in for you, Devi is the answer you are looking for. When the student is ready, the teacher appears.

This is a list of elemental inquiries I wish to share with you -

each is as deep as you wish to seek, each as shallow as words can convey. Take what speaks to you and let the rest be an offering.

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When you stand in front of her in full honesty, observe without shame- your own nakedness, your own body, to every abysmal change in life - how malleable and how human we are to every pain and joy. How minute and how magnificent. This blessing of pain, of being a sinner and a saint, of deep longing and half refusals Then, lay them infront of her simply - like a child puts her doll infront of her mother - ravaged by years of playing. Let her speak to you in the stillness of your complete surrender and acceptance. She is bigger than every emotion or thought you have. More powerful.

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If there are very strong emotions regarding some situation in your life, some previous hurt or destruction you are hurt by - Devi stands to point towards its metabolism.

Every bad things that has ever happened in your life- has peeled off a layer of your egoic attachment, it has loosened the shackles that tie you to a way of life you must transcend to something greater.

All this to say, clears the dust of the mirror of your heart to shine the presence of her within you. Her invincible presence, her radiance, her spirit. When everything is lost, something bigger than us, remains. That is what defines your true nature. And that is the beginning of your possibility. Devi represents that non-duality of being.

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In a forest when a she-wolf births her children, she doesn't teach them how to hunt or hides her from the world. She teaches them what to look for and beware of - activating a latent energy, a latent knowledge. Devi is a concentrated form of that dynamism.

The red associated with her -- some say it is menstrual blood is the deep red of life and sacrifice. Every endeavour in your life - be it university exams or emotional toques and tensions - everything needs a vision. But the problem arises when there is no life forthcoming from it all. It's like dancing to a tune there is no end to.

She represents the end. When the woman attuned to Devi, she understands the pauses, the reflection, the stopping.

Devi's devotee picks an endeavour, not to prove, or be something but for the versity, the joy of the work, the growth, the ability to say yes to difficulty and knowing she has a force greater than her own delineated abilities - she summons a life by her own name.

This is Devi's grace.

She is a river flowing through you, her wild nature pours out endless possibilities, acts as birth channel, invigorates.

She's a calling to your own wild nature otherwise you wouldn't be so attracted to her halo.

She's a reflection of what it means to be, and wholly bloom and in time disintegrate and rise again to our own calling. And I believe it is time for you to undertake this journey.

Author's note: Please allow me to ask forgiveness for any wrongs in this passage, they are wholly mine. Thank you for your time These words are all I have to offer. I can pray for more guidance for all of us, and more radiance of hers to show us the way. I would love to know if there is anything more I could do.

Till then, with much respect and love, thank you.

~ Namaste ~

[juliacoller]

Ghoul and Ghoulettes Smut HC's

I absolutely needed to throw all of my ideas out there, and this isn't even all of them

Warnings: breeding kink, biting, nipple play, choking, dacryphilia, puppy!Mountain, size kink, praise kink, body worship, foot fetish, roughhhh sex, feminization, strap on play, and oral (female and male recieving)

Word Count: 2,334 words

Swiss:

He absolutely has a breeding kink

Loves to bite on his partner, leaving marks just from scraping his fangs over their skin

Could spend hours just sucking on his partner's nipples, loving the way they squirm and whimper as he licks and laps at their rosy buds

Speaking of whimpering, he absolutely loves a noisy partner, as he himself cannot shut up during sex. He loves being vocal, moaning, groaning, whimpering, and especially crying

"Gotta cum in you"

"One more for me, baby"

"Gonna let me knot you?"

"Gotta fuck you so good"

"Such a messy boy/girl/baby"

Loves to watch his partner cry from pleasure, so overwhelmed that all they can do is sob and beg

Wants to watch mascara and tears stream down their face, trace the lines, and lick the tears off of them

Get a hand around his throat and he's immediately gone, stare into his eyes and threaten him with a real sweet promise and he will be putty in your hands

He's willing to get on his knees for anyone he finds worthy, nearly kissing the ground they walk on. He will go to embarrassing lengths to worship their partner

Sidenote: We all know that all of the ghouls are in intimate relationships with each other aka... they fuck

To continue on that: Swiss absolutely LOVES sex with Cumulus, something about how plush her thighs are around his face, the squish of her tummy against his as he fucks into her, and the jiggle of her tits as she viscously rides him. He just has something for the way her body envelopes him and reacts to each movement he makes.

Aether:

Aether likes to be reminded that he is bigger than his partner (if true), likes having them under him, watching them drown in his presence

Def hard dom vibes, will do anything for his partner to service them but will not take any brattiness, he won't be asking them to do anything, he will be forcing them to obey

Will fuck the brattiness out of anyone, he once got Dew to stop bitching about how bad his fingers hurt from practice by giving them something else to do

Likes to have his nipples played with, I HC that he got them pierced at some point when they were on the road. He saw just how much Dew loves having the jewelry played with and had to know what it was about.

Please touch his nips.

Wants to put his hands to use, will use them to jack off any of the other ghouls before a ritual, or sink them so deep into his bandmates until they are whimpering and sobbing into his shoulder

He misses touring with the Ghost Project but doesn't shy away from sending videos to his pack mates, reminding them of just how much he misses fucking them

Phantom:

He has a ginormous praise kink, with him being so new and unsure of everything it can be overwhelming, but the moment Swiss opens his mouth to say, "Pretty boy really does have some talent" at their first rehearsal, Phantom can't get it out of his brain until later that night as he whimpers and moans in the shower

He's so bendy??

Likes when his partner forces him into different positions, wants his partner to shove his knees above his head as they hold him and fuck him into the bed

When he first gets involved with the other ghouls, he is almost always the bottom, a bit too shy to be bratty or take control of a space, but once he gets a bit more comfortable he works his way up to topping Sodo, but having to rely on (to Sodo's excitement) his quintessence a bit much

He tends to be a bit quiet in his day-to-day life but is very expressive in his body language, his eyebrows are always responding and his posture is a giveaway of his emotions

His quietness does translate to his loudness during sex, he's normally quiet and tries to swallow his noises as much as he can, but when his partner gets him too worked up he can let out little whimpers and groans that are soooooo meek, but it definitely gives his partner a sense of achievement

He likes his hair being played with, tugging, braiding, brushing, just about anything will make his heart tug simply because his partner wants to play with his hair

Sodo:

He's a brat...

What more do you want me to say?

He wants to get pissed off and have someone put him in his place, force his face into the bed as they pound him from behind, tell him that he's dramatic and ridiculous, degrade him and remind him of just how rude he can be, but he is never, ever, left to feel alone or unwanted.

Sodo has some separation issues, fearful that his pack will leave him to be alone, that they will ostracize him, that one day they will get sick of his antics.

Due to these fears, he needs reassurance. He loves his rough sex, loves when his fellow ghouls degrade him, but he needs the aftercare after.

Like Sodo wants to lay in bed or in the bath and cuddle until he falls asleep, he doesn't ask for much but he just wants to be held and reassured.

He's kinda like a kitten after sex, he just makes little mewling and purring sounds and squishes his face up against his partner

Enough kitty dew, Sodo will do just about anything and everything with his partner

Want him to choke you? He's there in a second

Want him to cry when you fuck him? Don't even have to ask

All to say, Sodo is pretty much all game for anything his partner wants. But, I think that comes from the people pleaser in him.

Rain:

He's babygirl.

He wants to be rammed into the bed while being called pretty

Put him in some frilly lingerie and embarrass him and he'll be blushing like crazy

When he blushes, it's not only his cheeks. His chest erupts in blooms of red and pink, his ears get red like cherries, and his neck becomes a beautiful light pink.

He wants to get all hot and embarrassed in front of his partner, he wants tears to flow from his cheeks, and he especially wants them to lick said tears off of his cheeks when their done

Loves to have sex in water, sign him up for shower sex any time

He wants to be in touch with his element while his partner sucks his soul out of him, or while he shoves them against the wall and desperately fucks them

He likes to have sex in the lake that is near the Abbey, on the bank or while in the water, wants to just be in his element and in his partner

Isn't afraid of domming sometimes, he will put someone in their place and fuck them until they're crying desperate

He is very clumsy

He tends to get a lot of bruises, he wants to look at them and see how the blue, purple, and yellow stain his skin

He especially likes when his partner pushes their thumb into the bruises, a cry erupting from deep in his chest

Wants the pain to intervene with his pleasure, sting through just as he feels good

He falls a lot, he has a hard time with his exceptionally long limbs, this translates into his sex quite often

He's bendy, tied up like a human pretzel, and he wants to be treated as such. He likes pulling his knees up and holding the backs of his knees, he especially likes when Aether pushes him back, up, and over so that his knees are over his head and pushing into the bed.

Please... he's the definition of Babygirl

Mountain:

He's just so biggggg

He looms over his partner, and it comforts him to know that

His hands especially are big, can wrap them around his partner's neck and they easily cover the entire front

He likes to shove his hands in his partner's mouth, make them gag and swallow around his fingers and see the way tears prick in the corner of their eyes just from the mere size of his hands

His large size also translates to his cock, and boy does he love to watch the way his partner's body swallows him and eagerly takes him

He has a foot fetish, sorry

He loves to give foot rubs, using the excuse that he just wants to "relieve some stress" for his partner, but they both know how much it affects him

Their foot in his lap and hands, his cock is twitching in his pants, saliva is pooling in his mouth

It's not long before he's drooling over them and kissing up their legs, begging to be inside of them

He likes to be called things like, "pretty boy", "beautiful", and "little thing"

Make him feel pretty, he's so big and he's always equated with being so masculine, he wants to be someone's little toy

As much as he loves being the dominant one, he wants to be humiliated, wants to submit to someone

He wants to sob and scream for his partner, bow to their feet and worship the ground they walk on

He wants them to tell him just how bad he's been, shove his face into the ground and watch his tears dampen the carpet

I also am a firm puppy!Mountain believer.

Cumulus:

She's so soft, and everyone knows it and wants to benefit from it\

She loves when she gets to dom her partner

Likes watching tears flow down their face, especially likes when they wear mascara or eyeliner, the streams of black only encouraging her more

Likes when she gets to shove her partner's head between her thighs, not only does she enjoy the blinding pleasure they give her, but she likes that she gets to see their eyes roll back, hair get all jostled from her fingers, and tongue lapping so deliciously at her folds

She wants to see bruises on her thighs from her partner gripping her too tight

Please squish your face in her tummy and thighs, she's so soft and comfy, it's a real turn on for her if you squeeze and love these places on her

She def has a strap and uses it frequently

The boys in the pack beg for her to use it on them, hearing stories from Dew about just how rough she was on him, he couldn't walk for quite some time after

Cirrus and Sunny are very familiar with her strap and beg for it quite often

She is waiting to fucking Rora with her strap, too nervous to break her down too quick

Cirrus:

She's mommy. She expects to be called such.

She likes standing above her partner, making them feel small under her stare, shrinking into their own embarrassment

She wants to ride her partner and pretend that it isn't affecting her at all, stare in their eyes and see the tears as they form

Her fingers are dexterous, nimble, and lithe

She wants to shove her fingers in every place possible

Shoving her fingers into her partner's mouth, forcing them to swallow and gag around them, she wants them to swirl their tongue around her digits and sob as she deprives them of all sensations besides her fingers in their mouth

Shoving their fingers in their hole, watching them sob and writhe around her, their hole squeezing on her fingers

Although she wants to stretch her partner out, she doesn't plan on utilizing their hole, she wants them to impale her

She'll leave them leaking and stretched, only for her to sink onto their cock/strap

She is desperate to leave marks on her partner, scratching and sucking all over their skin. Going as far as drawing blood after digging her nails in too far

Cirrus wants to look at the marks afterwards, run her hands over the cuts and bruises with care, pressing kisses to all of the parts of their skin that are still sensitive

Aurora:

She's such a princess

Which also means she's a pillow princess, she loves when her partner takes care of her, she feels like it's proof of their dedication for her

She wants her partner to tell her how pretty she is as she lays there and takes whatever they give her, little tears pricking her eyes as she gets so incredibly overwhelmed with pleasure

She wants to be overstimulated and overwhelmed, she will take whatever her partner gives her, even if that means her body is writhing and begging for them to stop

She likes when her partner gives her hickeys all over her body, she likes when she can look at the purple blooms all across her beautiful skin

She especially likes when her partner rubs their hands all over her when she's sore after sex, pressing their fingers into the bruises forcing a small moan to leave her lips

She wants to be called such lovely names, make her feel pretty

"Princess" and "Pretty Girl"

She will also become a bit bratty if she is called anything different, when her partner calls her "messy girl" when she's got a bit of their cum dripping out of her mouth she immediately pouts and becomes a bit more resilient

She's just so soft and pretty

The pack is so gentle with her, but she snapped at Mountain one day and begged him to absolutely wreck her, that she's "not made of glass, now please fuck me"

She ended up sobbing as he folded her in half and fucked her within an inch of her life

After that, the pack was a little less gentle with her and realized that she can take more than they originally thought

[interstellex]

Meet the new me: The girl that meets her own needs.

(Link to full blog post below)

....The new Lexie is no longer in the business of begging for love, consideration, loyalty and honesty from others. She truly and whole heartedly believes she is worthy and deserving of exactly what she sees for herself in life, the things that makes her heart flutter, within all aspects and areas of her life. She feels people out before blindly trusting them and devoting her loyalty as a form of self-protection. She understands she is worthy of boundaries. She asks "is this/are they right for me?" Instead of hoping others find her worthy enough. she can see and accept people for who they are and where they are instead of getting caught up over "potential." She doesn't hesitate to make the decision to reject people that don't align with her even if she can understand their story. she no longer accepts breadcrumbs. She no longer tones herself down to make others feel comfortable about themselves. She doesn't tolerate people who are unsure about her. She allows people to miss out on her, without feeling she needs to convince, fuss or beg for their love. she is turned off by people who find pleasure in making women feel they need to perform for their love or view us as only sexual objects. she no longer prays, hopes or wishes for people to see her value. She is content with having people lay in the beds that they made no matter how much she loved them or how convincing the sob story is. She understands people make mistakes but she no longer accepts words as change. She understands that she is worthy of respect & to be treated like royalty by potential lovers. She only dates people who admire her ambition, creativity and beauty, not intimidated or jealous by it. She doesn't date people who are content with watching her carry all of the weight of life and relationship herself. She doesn't associate with people whose source of confidence stems from how inadequate they can make another person feel. She can see straight through hollow egos. She is more than her body and treats it with the upmost love and care. Even her relationships that turn out to just be a "fling" are with people who value their bodies and have an equal level of self-respect within themselves as well and still are interested in investing in her growth & expansion in some way shape or form. Community d*ck gives her nightmares. Getting her in bed now takes a certain amount of effort and time to be put in that makes anyone that complains or objects look like complete jokes to her. She still doesn't take it personally because she understands it is only an automatic response for humans to cringe at or demand an explanation for things they cannot afford at times. She is no longer a personal emotional regulator for people who don't consider her feelings after they've regulated themselves again. She understands how important it is to prioritize herself. She loves being around people who are hungry for growth and expansion. Who share the same fear of wasting their potential in this lifetime. She is independent, a boss, an exceptional visionary and artist, intelligent, lover of god, a leader with a mind of her own. She understands that her worth is not defined by anyone or thing outside of herself. she is unbreakable, resilient, determined, and driven by her passion. She can alchemize the hardships and blockages encountered in her life into beautiful art. She is powerful. She isn't afraid of darkness, she instead embraces it when it comes because she understands that it is here to teach her. She recognizes that love comes in many ways. She is okay being alone with herself. She isn't afraid to bet on and invest in herself. she honors her self-expression wholeheartedly. She does not make art for others but for herself to share with others. Her integrity, values, and boundaries cannot be bought out. She is careful before she participates in things that would cause her to dishonor herself. She is rich in love, spirit and creativity. She trusts herself above all else because She knows she is capable of meeting her own needs and can be to herself the lover of her dreams.

[squid-procrow]

As Gale's on the mind again, time to bring up BG1 lore about mystra!

For anybody who truly doesn't think Gale was groomed, that a good god would NEVER!

This isn't even the first time she's done something like this, sure it wasn't grooming for Dornar Silverhand but she did take over his love interests body so she could manipulate him into children...

Tldr She takes over a girl (who was enthusiastic to be a goddess's chosen, then unsure once she realized it was for this) to convince a guy (her very loyal follower who was already in love so he said no) for kids.

He watches his wife become a literal shell of herself so that she can have seven children with the energy of both their parents. And he ends up having to kill his wife because she's become a lich shell of a person.

To which after he cuts her head off mystra shows up and goes "yeah sorry, my doing." And he loses it, running from Neverwinter up to the north and disappearing until he dies for 30 years where she continues to protect him.

The worst part? Dornar goes back to her after it all, helping her find more chosen. What Gale could have been.

I feel like a big part of the story that the writers were trying to tell us was that even if you were formally mortal the second you go on to the pedestal of a previous God you inhabit who they were, and mystra is the weave before all.

It fits perfectly with the Durge (and Astarion) storylines, if you don't remove yourself completely from the cycle you will inevitably become what you dislike, even if you intended for the best.

Below is the full txt

History of the Chosen of Mystra:

The reason why Mystra, the Goddess of Magic, invested a portion of her divine might into mortals is not known. One of the popular theories, and one that is gaining more support in light of the other goddess' during that period, is that Mystra foresaw the Time of Troubles (and her own passing at the hands of Helm) and chose to give some of her powers to mortals in order to ensure that her successor (the female mage, Midnight, as it turned out) would have a number of nearly immortal allies in the struggle against the schemes of the gods (the now dead Bane, Myrkul and Bhaal) who precipitated the Time of Troubles by stealing the Tablets of Fate.

The theory goes on to suggest that Mystra informed Azuth at approximately the Year of the Rising Flame (0 DR), more than 1,300 years ago before the Times of Troubles, that some of her power must be put into the hands of mortals who would then become known as Mystra's Chosen. The power would sleep within the bodies of those mortals, allowing Mystra only to call on it only with their permission. It would give the Chosen to innate ability to heal quickly, and would give them life spans far greater than those of ordinary mortals. Mystra speculated that these mortals might be able to call on her power and thereby gain some special abilities, but that these powers would not rival those of a deity. (See "Powers" below.)

The Goddess of All Magic then began to select mortals she thought to be suitable. One of the first was the young mage Elminister, and she also singled out a promising wizard named Khelben Arunsen. Both of them proved to be worthy and capable receptacles of her power, but Mystra's other early attempts to invest her power in living humans were unsuccessful, and she came to realize that only a very few mortals were of stern enough substance to contain such power within themselves without being destroyed or corrupted. Even though some people aside from Elminister and Khelben may have possessed the requisite strength, it is possible that having lived for years prior to being visited by Mystra had set them on a path from which they were not able to deviate. Whatever the reason, the problem needed to be solved. To get around the difficulty, Mystra devised a plan to use herself as a vessel to breed individuals who could be nurtured and acclimated to her power from the very beginnings of their lives.

For the father of these individuals, she picked the best example of human stock she could find: Dornar Silverhand, a nobleman and a former Harper who lived near Neverwinter. Mystra then possessed the body of Elue Shandur, a helf-elven sorceress whom Dornal was already attracted to. Mystra revealed her presence and her plan to Eleu, who happily and eagerly agreed to have the goddess share her body. Eleu had been reluctant, but under the influence of Mystra the woman became a seductress, and Dornal found his advances being suddenly returned with great fervor.

Dornal and Mystra/Eleu were wed in the Year of the Drifting Stars (760 DR). The first of the seven daughters, Anastra Syluné, was born the following winter. Sylune's six sisters emerged at one-year interval thereafter: Endue Alustriel, Ambara Dove, Ethena Astorma (she prefers the name "Storm" these days), Anamanué Laeral, Alassa Shentrantra (known today as the Simbul) and Erésseae Qilué. These siblings have become known in Realmsian lore as the Seven Sisters.

Dornal, who had been kept in the dark about his wife's true nature through the years (presumably because Mystra didn't want to risk losing his services), was disappointed and distraught by the time his sixth child was born; he had always wanted sons as well as daughters. More importantly, he was seeing his wife deteriorate right before his eyes. The strain of coexisting with the goddess all these years had turned Eleu into a withered shell - in essence a lich, clinging to life only because Mystra's power was within her.

When Eleu was carrying the seventh child, Dornal consulted a priest who told him his wife had been possessed by a entity of great magical power. To spare both of them any further agony, he attempted to slay his wife's physical form by severing her head from her body.

As soon he had done this, Mystra was forced to reveal herself to him, and she went on to explain her scheme. Just as she had worried would happen, Dornal was aghast at how he and his wife had been used by the goddess. He turned his back on the corpse of his wife, abandoned his lands and his children, and vanished into the North. Mystra bore him no ill will, and in fact protected him for the final 30 years of his life. When Dornal finally did meet his end he called out to Mystra, and the goddess granted his continued existence as her servant. Now known as the Watcher, Dornal Silverhand travels the world unseen by mortals on a continuing mission to locate candidates to swell the ranks of the Chosen and to identify possible threats to Mystra and her minions

[thespianinthebackcorner]

Thespian is dainsleif a good father figure or am i just insane.

How come we ALWAYS see people say NASTY ARCHON USERPER ZHONGLI is a father and papa and granpops🥺🥺 but NO ONE ever considers DAINSLEIF, THE TWILIGHT SWORD, HUMANITY ADVOCATE, CAPTAIN OF THE ROYAL GUARDS a father figure. He has (had) a STABLE INCOME, has (had) A GOOD POLITICAL PLACE, has (had) SO MANY KNIGHTS WORKING UNDER HIM. SO MANY AUNTS AND UNCLES (halfdan rip he's in a better place than other khaenri'ahns now), has (had) EMOTIONAL STABILITY (i think. it looked like he had from that one halfdan cutscene), AND WOULD GIVE YOU THE MOST JUICY LORE WORTHY DADDY ISSUES POST CATACALYSM.

STUPID ZHONGLI HAS NONE OF THAT EXCEPT MAYBE THE AUNTS AND UNCLES POINT like yeah cloud retainer or whatever🙄😒 but is she as good as YNGHILDR/HALTAF/EDGETHO/HYGLACG/SERKIR/BULIWYF/RONETH/HERGER/RETHEL???? (various black serpant knights we kill for one gloomy statuette we use to level up ayato'a weapon) NO!!!

This is quite the ask do you need sleep? Don't hate me for the response please-

Right, so I think this ask requires a bit of standardizing as to what a "good father figure" looks like. I'm gonna put it in dot points.

Stable income

Emotional stability

Kindness

Has worked with kids before (optional)

Knows how money works

Has a place where you can certainly go to find him (work or home)

Wants or is comfortable working with kids

Family members they can rely on as backup

I think part of Zhongli's "father figure" reputation is because he actually has kids in a sense (the Yakshas) and hangs around kids a lot (Hu Tao and her friends). It's also affected by his personality, since he has that old man stereotype of not really knowing how new things work. He's six thousand years old and acts like it- he is literally old enough to be someone's granddad. Zhongli is also connected with Xianyun, Madame Ping and a couple other people he has for backup, like you said. He's also quite kind towards the Traveler, as well as other people he sees in everyday life. So he checks off most of my little list:

Stable income ✅

Emotional Stability ✅

Kindness ✅

Previous Experience with kids: ✅

Money knowledge: ...❌

Place to find him: ✅ (Wangsheng)

Comfortable with kids: ✅

Backup family members: ✅

Dainslief, on the other hand, disappears quite a lot, is constantly tracking down the Abyss Order and going into dangerous places, is generally very apathetic and from his treatment of Paimon probably doesn't like kids all that much. Since I used current Zhongli instead of Prime Zhongli for my analysis, I'm using current Dain for this too. And current Dain also has the issues of trauma from the Cataclysm, being sought out by the Abyss Order, not having a stable income because of Celestia, and also the constant pain from Celestia's curse iirc. So he's generally got a lot of problems. He's kind, but in an apathetic way, where he tends to leave his problems to himself and tells you to solve your own- it's only when there's a common interest that he helps. So going back to the checklist Dain doesn't do much.

Stable Income: ❌

Emotional Stability: unsure but I'm going ✅

Kindness: ❌ not to a father figure degree

Worked with kids: Unknown

Money Knowledge: unknown, Khaenri'ah might have had their own currency

Place to find him: ❌

Comfortable with kids: ❌

Backup family members: ❌

Not much there. Now, if we knew any more about Prime Dainslief, he'd likely check off a lot more- like you said, Prime Dainslief has a stable income, a home you could find him at, backup family members/friends to help, and depending on who he was pre-Cataclysm might even have been willing to work with kids. Having said that, if we compare Prime Dainslief to Prime Zhongli, then Dain would absolutely win (since Prime Zhongli was in the Archon War) but since it's Current Dain and Current Zhongli it's different.

So yeah, though they're both considered daddy they're not equally viable for dad status.

[meowsticmarvels]

hello. seeing as some of you liked the previous analysis here's the other one i did. not solely on radar but very radar-centric bc of the nature of this scene. anyways under the cut is an analysis of this scene: (copy and pasted from a twt thread)

OKAY you know what. ive already been crazy about this scene to multiple people already but i need to post this publicly. anyways thread abojt this scene GO i can say something about literally every line so that's what im going to do atp. "you'll never change"... this is a particularly interesting line to me for some reason because it doesnt Sound like something youd expect radar to say. not only does this immediately reveal that he Knows Stella but also implies she was pretty much the same in the past. also.

- once again this is not ooc for radar to say but unexpected based on what the player knows about him as a character up to this point

- this is what somehow gets stella to recognize him. even though she says he looked Familiar this is what makes her go Oh Yeah I Know You

"oh I thought I recognized you! you're the quitter who used to work on my inventory management team!" this is another particularly interesting to Me. for one it does give the backstory that he did quit himself - she didn't fire him or anything. quitting was radar's decision. whatever the circumstances were, though, stella seems to be clearly a bit resentful of it (or at the very least it stands out to her), enough to where she defines radar as a "quitter" and that's how she remembers him. notably, when she says this his expression quickly changes from kind of neutral to slightly frustrated which is. hm. whatever happened between them seems to have left them on bad terms as both radar and stella seem really. hostile

"do you two know eachother?" despite one of the main writers saying that radar's worked foe jesse for abojt a year, this has never come up. it's possible thag it was just Never Important, but it could also be that radar's trying to hide his past with champion city. which makes sense given how ashamed he seems when admitting he used to work for champion city. whatever happened between radar and stella is clearly kind of a sore subject it seems

"i don't know what he told you to get on this little 'team', but I don't think he even knows how to use a sword" see this also has a lot of relevance. the first clause kind of implies that stella thinks there's no way radar could have earned a place on the team of his own merits. like she thinks that he basically either had to manipulate, lie, beg, whatever - she doesn't think he's worthy of being there. and this is particularly interesting because earlier on in the episode radar specifically has to ask to go with them. like originally nobody considered bringing him.

and then she says "i don't think he even knows how to use a sword" which. i have said this before but mcsm seems to operate in a very survival oriented society so not knowing something like that is seen as like. Odd. essentially seeing radar as weak. and this was New information too so shes basically. exposing yhat fact to everyone else. and you can tell radar's ashamed of that fact too from how he reacts when she says that! he KNOWS he's not strong and that he doesn't know how to fight properly and is 100% aware of that fact, stella's just using that to what seems like get people to turn against him (???) or whatever. she's not talking to radar because he Knows this, she's telling jesse. idk what else to say about that really but its. hm

also "you don't know anything, stella, so zip it" again! unusually hostile from radar but like this and in later lines its clear he's trying to prove himself and overcompensate a bit

"ooh how do you put up with that little voice of his, jesse? i never could" not entirely sure what this means open to suggestions but twice she makes comments on how squeaky his voice is (later in the episode she calls it "shrill"). unsure what this means really

"not everyone needs to know how to swing a sword, stella - radar has a lot of his own skills" something abojt this option. even though radar's not physically strong he is fairly smart snd thats something Very intrgral to his character I Think.

"yeah! thanks jesse" almost came across as if radar was struggling to stand up for jimself. he's just like me fr

"can't wait to see 'em. ill call you if the admin needs to file anything" once again she views radar being unable to fight as a flaw that overrides his other abilities (...interesting considering she herself never directly fights shit really). like she's saying basically Oh yeah filing and organizing is the only thing youre good for!! like OKAY... not even going to go into on hownautistic coded radar is but like. lord

also the way he says "...i appreciate that" is a lot more like. idk how to describe it but his va delivers it in a much softer tone than when he thanks jesse a few seconds earlierniys like. hm idk "im not the person she thinks i am anymore. ive changed, and i can prove it" who is the person she thinks you are radar. not only is this alluding to his whole Yeah I Have To Overcompensate And Be Strong!!! thing but also he seems to want to impress jesse in particular

"i can be different. braver" girlie you do not have to change yourself for otber people.. do not like what this person picked for the final choice so analysis thread over. but as a general thing this is Really.interestinf and important to me and i wish this was expanded on more anyways. im normal now. original tweet thread here: https://twitter.com/rival_trevor/status/1683476048715849734?s=20

[carmasi]

Mercenary for Hire Chapter  12 - Part 5

As the familiar chime of the front door rang it marked the warlock's departure from the place, and Vera looked at the pouched left in her counter the one she now held in her hand, and her eyes darted to the back door. She moved with all intention to murder the man if it wasn’t because he was already dead beat as she stepped through the door she found him. Defeated and deflated, leaning against the wall, his face covered mostly by his overgrown bangs.

“I froze” his voice lower even so than what it normally was, she stared his hand clench into a first at his sides.   

The coin purse hit his feet and the golden round currency fell at his feet as the coins hit the ground, he didn’t look. 

“Take it, she said you earned the mission reward not her '' Vera crossed her arms, unsure what to say, how to feel, about this all situation as she saw him slump into the floor and bring his knees up to his chest.

“Wright why? Why  do you insist on hiding from her? What are you afraid of? ”

“I’m not afraid” his silver eyes showing from under his bangs as he eyed the coin purse. Then back to the ground and hugged his knees tighter to himself like a babe who cradled himself for comfort. Before Vera could reply  to him he continued. 

“She’s like a shining star. No. She’s like the sunshine, warm, comforting and  bright, beautiful , and unattainable” nothing but sorrow came from his tone, and vera just waited, waited for him to say anything else, for his self loathing to end “I’m just a mercenary,  next to her I’d do nothing but to dimmed that bright light, stained the sunlight and bring nothing but shame to her. By being by her side I’d be but a shadow looming around her perfect smile, why did I think I could be anything else? Why did I dare dream I could have some warmth and comfort for once?” He covered his eyes on the palm, trying to hold back the tears that threatened to come down his eyes. “ They were right, gosh they were  right, I’m not enough, I’m just a lowly mercenary and I’ll be nothing but that.”

Vera groaned and with less than a strike forward she kneel  next to the man, and pulled him by the hair forcing him to look at her, she could see his silver eyes fogged up with the sadness that overcame him and the self deprecation he felt for himself “Who the fuck put those ideas in your head boy?!”  his eyes widened as his silver met those of the woman and all he saw was rage.

“The fact that you’re a mercenary means absolutely nothing!” she all but yelled at him as she pulled so hard on his hair it made him wince “Whoever drilled those ridiculous notions into your head need to put on some reality glasses” Vera let go of his hair with such force he almost stumble to the floor before she stood 

“The way I see it, you’re in love with her, and yes she may be all that, she could be the Sun incarnate for all I care. I don’t doubt it” he bit his lips listening to her “ But let me tell you something, fight! Wright fight for that sunlight, because at the end of the day The moon loves the sun and despite their distance she loved him, even though they only get to meet at dawn and twilight they still love  each other despite their difference”

The man chuckled at the comparison “Are you comparing me to the moon? Really?” 

“That’s exactly what I am doing, Idiot!! If it wasn’t because the Sun loves the moon so deeply it chooses to share its light with it, we wouldn't have the brilliant moon we see every night, the Sun brings out the best on the Moon,  and the way I see it,  Since she came into your life, You’re becoming that which you were always meant to be, she bring the best in you... So  take that money,  go find her, but if you still feel like you’re not enough to stand by her side, do something about it! Become someone who’s worthy to be  by her side, become someone worthy to be the moon to her sun, you and I know you can do it” his gaze finally went up from the ground to hers, she could see his silver eyes shine with determination.

“That’s it.. I’ll be… her Moon..”  Vera grinned as she saw him take the coin purse and ran out of the establishment. To the one person he knew, believed in him more than anyone would, the one person who’d help him become what he needed to, the one person who’d help him become the sun’s moon, because he… his master was also a sun. 

[claire-starsword]

The Guardiana Magic School Run - Part 15

Worry not, Balbaroy, I'll (hubris incoming) be shocked if this one turns out to be hard. With that said I'm not enough to a fool to head on without preparing, so we retreat immediately as there's no stop between the last battle and this one, but we certainly have things to equip!

The Mermanbuster, which has been teasing us in the deals section for a while, is finally ours for free, and this is the exact chapter it is meant for. As you can see it is slightly weaker than the Steel Sword, but its bonus on aquatic creatures is brutal. Hopefully you'll get to see it. I'll still make space on his inventory for the Steel Sword so that he can switch between them as needed.

The Healing Ring turns out to grant immunity to poison, which is great, as there are poisoning enemies in this battle. I'm a bit unsure who should get it, but I decide to give it to Gong, who tends to be in the front line despite not being as defensive as I wish he was. Gong is very much the limiar between squishy and non-squishy in this team. He still currently has more defense than Max though, which is wild to me, this is so not how my casual runs go.

Either way, we've saved the game, we're good to go!

We have a chance to get some money as well, hopefully it won't be hard but I am trying to get my ego under control before bad things happen.

Our first and perhaps worst enemies are these pegasus knights, they can reach us right away, so we gotta protect the mages and healers. Luckily, Domingo is the greatest and currently the fastest in the team. Narsha is also fast enough, so Tao and Anri get protected right away. Also, Max is in reach of all the knights and it would not surprised if they decided to go for him instead.

It's a moot point anyway cause in the end everyone moves before the knights, and I decide to bait the bats enemies further ahead. We're not in their range and they should be simple to deal with, and we're close enough to back Narsha and Domingo up if things get complicated.

The knights decide to just, not move, which is annoying as I need to wipe them out eventually. had I known I'd have boosted Domingo's magic with Narsha beforehand, as he is the only one who can bait those out. Time to put his tankiness to the test again.

He deals half of the knights' HP with Freeze 1 so I guess boosting wouldn't have made a difference.

I can however boost Anri to maybe help her train, that would be nice.

I give up on baiting the south with Gong, Khris and Arthur though, as there are more enemies gathering there and none of them should be tanking that much.

Anri finally gets good at the spell she's supposed to be good at.

Domingo tanks a hit, but the other two garbage knights refuse to advance. This is very annoying.

I advance Tao a bit too much by mistake and cry. She has been oneshotting bats left and right though. It's not even worth mentioning anymore, assume Tao can oneshot most things by this point.

Behold. The Mermanbuster.

With thus, Lowe gets to heal Tao and everything is fine again.

I sent Gong to help Domingo, as he would die if like, both knights got double hits. Very unlikely, but you never know when the RNG is gonna decide to be hilarious.

(And yeah sure, if it did that Gong would die too, I'm not sure what I was thinking, maybe I just wanted Domingo to have a friend around.)

At least now the knights are finally advancing, the north one also skipped attacking in order to, beeline for Khris? You silly bean, I'm not letting you do that.

Meanwhile these conches are very weak, despite the first impression they made against Tao, so I don't expect problems. Since everything is going fine, I decide to cast Attack on Narsha to speed up things. She levels up and gets Aura 2. Never disappointed with this woman.

In the back, I decided to play it safe and have Gong heal himself, so the knights were not defeated in that round and this one is very determined to ignore Domingo.

Meanwhile the blob is getting protagonist-worthy level ups.

I'm just gonna keep advancing Narsha, she doesn't care.

This is vacation for her. Tour where the queen of Runefaust hunts down some seafood.

The ice avoidant knight gets a fitting end.

We're at turn 6 and there's two enemies. This battle is kinda ridiculous. I'm gonna let Max and Narsha tank some hits and try to give other exp, either by attacking or tossing heals to the void.

nvm

He also gets poisoned. Told you it was gonna be a thing.

Narsha should still be able to tank though.

And that's it, I laze around for two turns while Arthur and Anri finish a Shellfish each, Arthur is overleveled but his stats aren't great so I don't mind him growing more, this does finally gets his HP past 20 which is nice. Gong is the first to get Heal 3, which is also nice. As previously discussed, he should get promoted right away to not delay his promotion-only spells.

He's now back to having less defense than Max, but it's not too big a deal, and his attack is still respectable as well. With Narsha around, a character falling behind in attack is not the death sentence it used to be. Besides, our upgrades are not yet over, this rich-ass town has like, five chests lying around.

I. Hate. That they retranslated this thing as Agility Ring when it doesn't effect agility. So anyway. The Running Ring gives us a +2 in movement which is awesome. For now I'll give it to Domingo so that he can tank in front of people more easily, and also he's my only flyer in this playthrough so the mobility is nice.

This town is also where we should be getting the Heavy Mace, but because our Runefaust Queen has soloed a Kraken that doesn't matter.

Finally, let's check out the deals on this very normal shop.

There's another Mermanbuster, and another Elf Slayer. This is very annoying as I don't have any other characters for these weapons, and I guess they'll be here clogging the deals until I buy them.

On the bright side, we can buy the Repel Ring now. I'm leaving it with Gong for now. as counters would ruin him big time, but Max is also a candidate.

The regular weapon shop doesn't have anything useful for us, so that's where we end it for today.

Losses: 0 Deaths: 2

[ijustliketoreadstuff]

lets talk about Sabrina (an unbiased opinion)

Since my friends know I try to remain as unbiased as possible, they asked me, “Do you think Sabrina would ever be worthy of being permanent holder?”. To put it simply...it’s complicated, and this has everything to do with her past actions and her friendship with Chloe.

        Sabrina has always devoted herself to ensuring that Chloe is happy and despite their extremely unhealthy relationship, we do come to find that Sabrina is the only loyal friend Chloe has. Now, up to now, Sabrina has had more to gain by being friends with Chloe, not only is she able to stand out from the crowd, but she is also able to be in a position where she can be rewarded for her loyalty and enjoy tormenting others alongside Chloe. 

     Sabrina and Chloe have been best friends since childhood, but despite their history, Chloe has admitted in “Queen wasp” that she favors taking advantage of Sabrina, rather than cherishing their friendship.

       For so long, many have felt conflicted over siding with Sabrina due to her willingness to take part in Chloe’s schemes and then expressing a sense of joy and entertainment after seeing her involvement lead to someone else’s downfall and misery. Sabrina has a large number of things she needs to make up for and unless she is willing to take responsibility for her past actions and stray from her former behavior, as well as Chloe, then the idea of weather or not she is worthy to be a permanent miraculous holder will continue to come to question.

But despite all this, many still wondered what it would take for Sabrina to finally realize that Chloe is only using her for her own benefit. Well, after watching “Penalteam” and the season 4 finale, it would appear as though their friendship will finally come into question as Lila makes her way into their group. 

       When Lila and Chloe joined forces, it was apparent their allegiance to one another stemmed only from their shared hate for Ladybug and Marinette. Given the type of person Lila is, of course she would have no intentions to actually be close friends with Chloe. Lila will use others until they are no longer useful to her and if they do not fall into the line she has set, then she will turn against them in a heart beat. With Lila now part of their group, it would only be a matter of time before her presence got between Chloe And Sabrina’s friendship.

    We know the show has been oddly hinting the dog miraculous as one who has not settled on its permanent holder as it continued to be wielded by so many people, meaning Ladybug likely felt unsure about trusting Sabrina with such a power so long as her better judgment continued to be clouded, and her complex friendship with Chloe continued to take priority in her life.

    But if Sabrina were to decide to end her friendship with Chloe and realize it’s just not worth being friends with her when she isn't willing to hold some respect for her in the same way she would with Lila, then this alone would be enough to convince Ladybug it’s worth the risk to trust Sabrina with a miraculous again and maybe even allow her to be a permanent holder...However...if Sabrina decided to return to Chloe, then this alone could complicate her situation as a permanent holder.

      As stated earlier, Chloe does not have many friends, so if she were to discover that Lila had every intention to abandon her and if she were to realize Adrien and Sabrina are no longer part of her life, then Chloe may come to the horrifying conclusion that for the first time in her life, she now has absolutely no one.

(In “Despair Bear”, Chloe was devastated over the possibility of just Adrien not being her friend anymore)

   Yes, Chloe is difficult to deal with and as of now, given who she is, she has little to no desire to change herself and give up her old ways and behaviors, she likes who she is. But if she were to realizes she actually misses having Sabrina in her life to the point of making attempts to win her back, then odds are...Sabrina may very well decide to give Chloe another chance, on the condition she be treated as an equal instead of a servant. Unfortunately, if Sabrina were to decide to go back to Chloe in such a situation, then complications would soon follow as a result of her heroic life and responsibilities. 

We have seen what happens when superhero's make attempts to hide their heroic lives from the people close to them. No matter what they are doing or who they are with, their responsibility as heroes will always comes first. This burden ruined Marinette’s romantic relationship with Luka and nearly ruined her friendships with Alya and their girl group, it ruined Adrien’s romantic relationship with Kagami, and it would have ruined Alya’s romantic relationship with Nino if she hadn’t told him the truth back in “Rocketear” . 

     A permanent holders secrets and secret hero life will have an affect on any relationship sooner or later, so in the event Sabrina decided to mend her friendship with Chloe, after seeing her put so much effort to win her back, then odds are, Sabrina may inevitably face a dilemma where she must decide if she should continue being a hero who holds the responsibility of saving and protecting all of Paris or give it all up in favor of a normal life and a newly mended friendship with Chloe.

  But this is just one possibility, worst case scenario, Sabrina runs back to Chloe(which is a common occurrence in toxic relationships) as soon as Lila is out of the picture and reveals her identity to her, causing a situation in which Ladybug has no other choice but to reclaim the miraculous from Sabrina, but lets just wait and see what the show has to say.

[chilly-me-softly]

I'll Be Big Tomorrow • Mason Mount

Mason has just put the phone down on the bedside table, he should at least try to sleep. And maybe if he closes his eyes and tries hard enough he should be able to. Or so he thinks, because then he opens his eyes and looks at the digital clock realising that not much time has passed and he's still in the same situation.

He sighs, his heavy eyes begging him to find some peace. But first it's the position, his neck bothering him or not wanting to lay on his side, then his brain activates a compilation of various cringe-worthy moments of his life and he finds himself pounding his fists on the mattress because really!

Yet Alice had tired him out pretty bad that night, so much so that by the time of the bed story his slightly blurred vision had prevented him from being as fluid as other times. He had felt so old and for a moment had even wondered if those were the first signs of his failure.

He was about to give in to the evidence that his day had started much earlier than he had anticipated, when he heard a noise. It was outside, he says to himself, I don't need to be scared by noises now. There are no thieves, everything is fine... you are the one who needs to calm down. And then you ask why you can't sleep.

But then his hearing sharpens and actually what he hears are not random noises but footsteps, tiny little steps that get closer and closer. And he's sure of it when the door to his room opens a little more even though he doesn't close it and with unsteady steps his little girl approaches his bed unaware of him already awake watching her.

Her small blue-lit face seemed to study his figure, that light equally present for both her room and his so that she wouldn't walk in the dark and always feel safe when she wanted to reach him. It had taken him a while to get used to it, him who didn't sleep if he wasn't in the dark, but for his little girl he had changed so many habits.

The little girl has something in her hands, probably her inseparable stuffed panda, which she pulls onto the bed before climbing in, helping herself by clinging to the covers. Mason watches her carefully with a grin on his face as in the dimness the little one settles under the covers and then next to him, quietly so as not to wake him.

"You should check daddy is asleep before you do this" Mason pulls her close chuckling as she gasps in surprise.

Mason leans over slightly to turn on the bedside light and when he lowers his gaze, his daughter's guilty half-smile hits him as it does every time. He can't when she looks at him like that act like the bad cop, and considering he has to do both most of the time it's a big mess.

"What are you doing here? Didn't we say big girls sleep in their room?"

"But Hammer and I can't sleep" Mason almost rolls his eyes every time he hears that panda's name, Declan's handiwork and gifts. "Can we stay? Please" well considering she had stayed in her room for two consecutive nights before this, he could call it a win right?

When his mum had suggested it was the right time for her to have her own room, Mason had made the first major decision of his life as a single parent. All the advice in the world would never have prepared him for what he had to face then, because well the other kids weren't Alice and the other parents weren't Mason.

He knew for himself that he was a lost cause, perhaps too permissive and with not enough iron fist. He was mature enough to know it had to be done, still a little unsure how. He had stood there with her explaining what and how it had to be done, had her choose the colour of the walls and the sheets and everything, finding himself surrounded by pinks and dolls. But then it was time to act, and if the afternoon nap went smoothly, when evening came it was a real struggle. He had tried to say no, to be firm in his decision but that wasn't him and he ended up sharing a few tears locked in the bathroom.

"I'll be big tomorrow" Mason pretends to think about it, a hand under his chin to highlight it, but they both know she's already won.

"Alright. Just one more night" the soft tone of voice admitting defeat. And he may be weak but the joy of his little girl bouncing on her knee and then crashing against his chest to hug him happily is not something anyone can take away from him.

And he watches her as she settles back better against the pillow clutching the panda and then looks at him, probably waiting for him to do the same.

"You can't sleep either daddy?" she asks already yawning with her head buried in the pillow.

"Don't worry about me sweetie" he sighs leaving a kiss on her forehead, "I'll be fine"

"Nighty, I love you"

"I love you more" because in the end the one important thing his mum always told him was that all things happen when they have to happen. And he certainly doesn't mind sharing his bed with his little girl for another couple of days.

[myafterlifeisbetterthenyours]

I'm reading too many fanfics and today I want something more cute than romantic, so I would like Stella with an S/o to be her personal butler who took care of her during her childhood and adolescence (bonus if S/o used to sing to Stella when she was a kid) . obviously the S / o must have a great preparation to be worthy of taking care of the daughter of the parents who were certainly one of the causes of Stella to be like this

Stella's personal Servant and S/O

You had spent years in preparation for when you would meet your mistress.

It was a common practice amongst the nobility.

You take a child from a lower house, train and raising them to become the personal servant to a child from a higher noble family.

You were of lower stock, your family heavily reliant on Stella's family, and being the youngest of your line, you found yourself chosen to be her servant.

Although the agreement basically surrendered one of there own to a life of servitude, it also brought prestige to there household, while also placing one of there own at the right hand of the next head of a powerful household.

Despite your years of training, you were still increadibly nervous upon meeting her, terrified you'd do something wrong and screw it up.

But much to your surprise, she wasn't some terrifying ice queen who could vapourise you with a glare.

She was just a girl. A young, normal looking noble girl. Seemingly not much older than you.

Your meeting was somewhat awkward, you being unsure how you should interact with her outside of the cold formalities you were taught.

Your relationship was an unusual one.

As while, yes you were her servant, you were also expected to be her closest allie and truest friend.

You were expected to take on every burden she had, to carry and guard them to the death.

A concept that hadn't fully registered in your young mind yet, but despite your age, you quickly acclimated to your new responsibilities.

You had, of course, been give training for your new duty, but much of it was learnt in the field.

You found yourself working into a schedule; wake up before her, get clean, have breakfast before waking her up at 7:30 sharp.

From there you would help her dress, something you were quite flustered about the first time around. Then you accompanied her to breakfast, then to her first lesson of the day.

You were often dismissed during her lessons, returning to her room to tidy up, or have her clothes cleaned.

It took time but eventually you were just as capable at cleaning and serving as any veteran servant of the household.

Now, initially Stella was quite... cold towards you. Treating you not much better than any other servant of the home.

But she did eventually warm to you, starting the night you heard her having a nightmare.

Much to her annoyance you had been moved into the room besides her, giving her 24 hour access to you, and you to her.

So you were easily capable of hearing her toss and turn in bed, her whimpers getting louder and louder. Until she awoke, with a scream.

You instantly shot into action, sliding into her room and pulled her into your embrace.

Holding her to your chest, you did your best to sooth her. Barely being a boy yourself you were quite inexperience with such things.

So you did the only thing you could, you sang to her.

You sung her the song your wet nurse used to sing you when you had a bad dream. Holding her for what felt like hours, gently singing to her until she fell back to sleep.

The next morning she insisted you call her Stella, unlike before when she demand the customary 'Lady' or 'Mistress'.

Not long after that she began addressing you by name. The two of you seeming to enter a level of mutual respect.

Similar events would happen several more times during your youth, each time you sang her the same song, holding her close and soothing her.

You brought up the nightmares to her parents, the two seemingly didn't care. Her parents just coldlt telling you 'They were something she needed to get over herself.'

And her parents weren't the warmest family, both her parents seemed obsessed with there appearances, placing politics over the well bing of there own daughter.

So you made her well-being your top priority, always asking if she was OK or if she wanted to talk.

In preparation for you new duties you had already received extensive training in everything from cleaning to first aid.

But as the the two of you grew, you began getting lessons in far more hands on fields.

As you were expected to be her faithful guardian. You were trained in various forms of combat, with everything from knives, to assault rifles.

Followed by several specialised first aid courses, each one dedicated to a different field of medicine.

You excelled through each course, taking the role as both servant and protector as your own.

Despite being younger then your charge, your mentality quickly matured beyond your years, willing and prepared to fight to the death for your charge.

You fully embraced you postion, putting aside everything you were and giving yourself to your new role, absolutely.

As the two of you grew older, you also grew closer and closer. And due to your special status as her personal servant, having less limitations put on you then a regular servant of the house, you could act as more of a friend to the girl. Acting as a trusted confidant for the girls troubles.

As you matured your skills, both physically and mentally, you learned to better dedicat your new skills to what would most efficiently aid your liege.

While you excelled in your training dedicating your self to the task before you, the main problem you faced was, Stella.

It may seem petty, but Stella being of a higher and more powerful cast meant she grew to tower over you by at least a foot.

Something she was sure to rub in your face.

And it may not seem like that big of a deal, but protecting someone much taller then you, was a constant struggle. As they were far more visible then yourself and could be targeted from angles you weren't able to see.

But you did your absolute best, going above and beyond as her steadfast companion, hapily waiting on her hand a foot.

It seemed like a blink if an eye and the beautiful young lady you once served had grown into a beautiful young woman.

And much to your shame, over the years spent together, you had developed a deep affection for her, an affection that went far beyond friendship.

Of course you would never publicly admit such a thing, your years of training alloweing you to keep such your feelings suppressed. Only allowing your affection to show through in what would be expected of a typical platonic relationship.

When Stella came to the age of 17, her parents decided to send her to an academy famous for its education of young noble women.

The problem was, it was an all girls academy. And you being her private servant, and right hand, the two of you could not be sepperated for such a long period of time.

It took a fair bit of political manoeuvring and more then a few favours to get you in, but by the end of it, you found yourself enrolled right besides her.

You were to attend every class as well as share quarters with Stella. You were not to leave her side unless absolutely necessary.

You were far from the only servant to accompany there mistress.

You found a variety of them, from Imps to hellhounds. You even saw a few succubus amongst them.

But the thing that really stood out, was that you were the only male, even amongst the staff.

Initially life at the academy went fantastic.

Stella, with her confident nature and families status thrived at the academy, easily rising the social ranks, making friends and allies.

The whole thing bringing a great sense of warmth to your black heart.

You stood back and proudly watched as she excelled amongst her peers, only having to step in to aid her in her day to day.

But unfortunately, problems did arise. And much to your shame, they were spawned from you.

Now, you had already received a fair amount of attention from the Student; Stares, love letters, lustful gazes. But you were there for Stella, the affects of there attention quickly dissipated as you focused on Stella.

Now you being a fairly attractive young man, in exceptional shape from years of work and being the only male in a school of a few hundred young hormonal women.

But initially, being Stella's servant stopped anyone from pursuing you, as relations with someone below them was punished severely by both the school and there families.

Unfortunately the question of who you were was quickly raised, Stella without much concern or thought, told them all about your special status as both a noble and a servant.

And that's were the problems really began.

You see, sleeping with another family's servant, was an excellent way to get yourself disowned by your family.

But a fling with a servant, whom was also a fellow noble... that could be tolerated.

You were greatly surprised to find just how tolerant the school was of such behaviour.

It would seem that despite there rather strict policy on student/Staff relations, that being pubished severely.

But the school was unwilling to take serious action against noble children for have relations amongst themselves.

It seemed they allowed the students to let out there rebellious phase in small ways, perhaps a method to help make them into proper nobles.

Needless to say, you had never been so happy you were Stella's servant.

You'd heard how some of them talked about you, and if Stella wasn't your mistress, your quite certain you'd be used as a tool for political gain, regardless how you felt about it.

Ironically, you found Stella becoming far more possessive of you, especially whenever someone began to show interest in you.

Now she had always been possessive of you to a degree, snapping at anyone who dared to treat you poorly or acted like you were supposed to serve them, something that happened quite often amongst nobility.

You liked to think it was her way of marking her territory, all the while showing you that she had your back. And with all the attention you were getting, it only made sense for her to be a bit more possessive.

Adding to your growing shame, seeing Stella becoming such a strong, confident woman had only strengthened your feelings for her.

In your mind, you had kept your feeling for Stella perfectly hidden. Only allowing your affection to show, through your friendly and platonic behaviour.

Apparently you were wrong.

Parties were surprisingly common on the school grounds, with a major party seemingly occurring at least once a month.

Stella being ever the socialite, was of course invited. The young lady flirtaciously telling you were invited as well. Following her to the party, you found a small herd of teens sipping wine from plastic cups, talking amongst themselves.

Playing nobility.

It was fun for the most part.

Everyone was dancing and drinking. And much to your surprise Stella was quite lax when it came to alcohol, drinking more than her fair share.

A little tipsy, she found you, demanding you dance with her.

Now you, on the other hand, did not party. You did not drink, you did not fraternise and you most certainly didn't dance.

You were her guardian, you were supposed to watch over her, not get drunk with her in some random dormroom.

But Stella ordered you, not having the will to refuse her, you complied.

You danced and drank and partied. And for the first time in your life, you let yourself he a teenager.

And you enjoyed it. You enjoyed being with Stella.

The mood quickly soured when, as Stella left to get a drink, some random girl grabbed you by the collar and rather aggressively tried to kiss you.

You were able to hold her back of course, even inebriated you were still strong enough to hold back a drunk teenage girl.

You were freaking out, unable to think of what to do, only for Stella to appear and violently rip her off you, beating the crap out of the her right there infront of all the other party goers.

She screamed at the girl, telling her to never touch what belonged to her again. Before without saying a word, grabbing your hand and dragging you out of the party.

She dragged you into a nearby allyway, ranting and raving about how dare someone touch you, you belonged to her and she was sick of having to remind people.

Her words becoming progressively more possessive, you just half drunkenly stumbling your much taller mistress.

Raising the question of her increasingly possessive language, you saw her entire body shift.

Walking up to you, she pressed her body up against yours, effortlessly pinning you to the wall.

It was pointless to struggle, as even with all your training she was still stronger.

With eyes you had never seen before, she stared into your own and asked if you liked her.

You were both shocked and terrified, you were so sure you had been careful.

You sputtered something out, trying to hide your feelings before she cut you off with a passionate kiss.

She held you close as she told you all about how she knew you liked her, about how she knew you always held yourself back.

But she understood why.

You were left stunned when she told you the reason she knew why, was because she'd been doing the same. She confessed she had fallen for you, but like you, she had kept her feeling secret because such a relationshi wouldn't be "proper"!

But she didn't care anymore.

She was sick of keeping her feelings for you a secret, sick of watching other women get to speak and act freely while she was forced to hold her tongue.

She wanted you and she was going to have you, no matter what anyone thought.

She dragged you back to your dormroom, although it was more like a small apartment before dragging you to her bed.

Sitting above you she asked if you wanted this, unable to think of the right words you just gave her another passionate kiss.

The two of you spent the night together.

Your relationship was kept a secret for the rest of her time in the academy. The two of you agreeing it would be best and with Your position already giving you the best possible excuse to be close together.

Once you both graduated, Stella's parents tried to have an arranged marriage set up for her, hoping to achieve greater prestige for the family.

But much to your surprise, she blatantly refused.

Instead she using her new-found political connections and usurped her parents, taking the family name and the role of head of household as her own.

Her first act, openly declaring your relationship.

You were deeply relieved the outcry was very minimal, contained to only a few already outspoke critics that apposing her anyways.

And so you stood by her ever since. As bother her loyal protector and faithful lover.

Hey hey, this one was a challenge, but I still enjoyed it. If any of you have a request or want to submit a prompt, go right ahead. Check out my master list for what I won't write and go for it. Thank you all for reading.

[genshin-impact-fics]

Finding out You're in the Fatui

Characters: Jean, Childe, Keqing, Albedo, Diluc, Xiao

Diluc:

Whatever way he finds out he’s very upset; he trusted you, he fell in love with you yet now he finds out you’re with the enemy? He’s fearing that everything that’s happened between the two of you was a lie, that you just used him until you got what you needed. His brain is just in a storm of thoughts

He wants to believe that you’re good at heart, that all of this was because you didn’t have much of a choice. He’s going to ask questions, but more importantly he will offer you a way out: abandon the Fatui and just live with him he will vow to protect you and even find a safe area to work if employment was a concern of yours

If you accept his offer he’s glad that he didn’t have to lose you, he loves you too much and it’d be just too sad for him to have to cut ties with you especially since you’re the first one he’s felt such strong feelings for

But if you refused and you made it clear that you willingly joined the Fatui, he’s absolutely heartbroken. He’d probably start crying out of how painful the reality of the situation was and try to beg you to leave and stay with him. He does not have the heart to even consider having to fight you, he didn’t want to harm you yet here you were showing a completely different side to you that not even he caught onto

Xiao:

He is enraged at the new information when he finds out. He curses himself for being so blind and having trusted you as much as he did. How could he be calm about this; you played a hand in the fall of the archon he served under, the archon that saved him from his horrible past and gave him a new purpose in life. How could he ever forgive you for such a betrayal

Though he refuses to bloody his hands with those of mortal blood, he will lash out and attack you. His heart hurts as how could he let this happen, he loved you yet was this the world’s way of punishing him for his past he could only wonder

If you plea to him to listen to your explanation he’s conflicted; you were either telling the truth or you were lying to just buy yourself some time… But he stopped and kept a safe distance from you as though you hurt his trust in his heart he still very much loves you so if there was a glimmer of hope that you can be saved he would be willing to listen to judge for himself. His expression softens when learning that you essentially got forced and trapped into working in the Fatui and at that point he is willing to keep you with him which mainly consisted of you living at the Wangshu Inn with him

However if you confirm that you’re in the Fatui of your own choosing he’s hurt, but he’s already withdrawing his own emotions so it didn’t get in the way of his duties. You’re no longer the mortal he fell in love with, you were just another mortal trying to use him for your personal gain. He’ll warn you to never to return and that you are no longer permitted to call out his name because from that moment on you were enemies

Albedo:

Deep down he didn’t want to accept the possible fact you were potentially bad. There were small things you did or said that made him slightly skeptical of you yet he overlooked them because he was in love with you, there was something that always made him so curious and so fascinated with you. You never judged him, you were patient with him, as you even put yourself at risk with plenty of his experiments

Of course this conversation was in the privacy of his lab in Dragonspine, surely there was no need to have a big scene be made especially when he wanted to simply hear what you had to say for yourself. He’s very composed and calm for someone who’s feeling this pain in his chest at the fact that you’ve kept this from him for so long

If you were truly innocent it saddens him to hear how you were stuck paying off a debt that wasn’t even your own and that was the only reason why you were stuck in the predicament that you’re in. Surely there had to be some way to hide you from the Fatui right? Maybe not up there in Dragonspine since there were already so many of the agents scouting the mountains, but maybe he could ask Jean if you could stay with him; however, that then led to another possible problem. If he tried to explain the details the fact that you were associated with the Fatui, Jean might just want to arrest you for interrogation which he might have to simply keep that knowledge to himself for the sake of your safety

But at any time you're telling your story he will call you out on something if he feels you weren’t being truthful. Hearing that you were a third generation agent he came to understand that it was initially a family legacy to uphold; rather unfortunate but oddly enough he still didn’t look down on you for that. Of course he’s unsure of what to do as things are surely to be complicated now, but how could he come to really see you as the enemy when he loves you

Regardless of the case, he will continue to stay with you; however, he’ll take a few precautions to insure his own safety. He won’t be sharing details of things he’s working on, no more asking to help with experiments (unless they’re just something mundane and nothing too serious), but other than that he just can only hope that you will continue to be truthful from there forth

Childe:

You are his favorite and it’s very obvious to everyone in the Fatui. You are just about the only exception out of all the agents that he will go a little bit easy on when it comes to missions not going accordingly. He love you to bits and surely made sure that you knew he was serious about your twos relationship

You are not allowed to go on missions with the other Harbingers, Childe is very keen on having you accompany him and only him on missions. He also personally sees to your training because he sees the potential in you and it just seemed like the other agents who are in charge of training don’t seem to up to the level that best benefited you

You get spoiled a lot, he also makes sure to always praise you after any mission or task you do: you had a minor task to go collect a debt? Childe will tell you a job beautifully done. You were away on a big mission that had to do with looking for evidence of the whereabouts of another archon? He’ll tell you how proud he is and how much he loves you. He will make a request the Tsaritsa to bestow a delusion onto you; cuz surely if one of her Harbingers is speaking so highly of someone truly they are worthy of her gift

There was already so much to love about you already but ever since he found out how good you were with his siblings he knew that you were the one for him. He can trust you to look after his siblings to keep them safe since they already know that you are his significant other (but of course have no clue either of you work in the fatui). You two are in Liyue and Teucer suddenly appears out of nowhere: you’re already prepared to take care of and look after the younger brother. Childe just loves how good you are with him and it shows how much Teucer likes you too. Childe only wish that he could marry you the next day (something he says often to you)

Jean:

Needless to say she was distraught when she stumbled upon you speaking in a hushed tone with La Signora in the dead of night in an alleyway during her patrol. She didn’t know what to think but of course she wanted to confront you yet she’d stay hidden and wait till you were alone which didn’t help her spiraling thoughts wondering if you had been with the enemy this whole time and what the two of you had was just pretend to you

The moment the coast is clear Jean will come out of hiding and stand tall with her arms over her chest though the expression on her face does not match the rest of her body language. She knows she should keep this professional without getting her emotions involved, but how could she not when it was you; you were her lover so naturally she can’t help it

You knew you were in trouble as you could have hightailed it the other way, but you knew it would only make matters worse though also even if you had run now you’d have to face her eventually so what was the point. You answered whatever question she asked you; Though Jean did have a slightly difficult time being able to tell when certain replies you gave were possibly a lie. It pains her to have to consider breaking up because she did love you yet how could she love someone that could pose a great threat to her home that she’s sworn to protect; would probably have you put into custody for a while just to fully ensure that you weren’t just a spy or scheming behind the knights of favonius’ back

You of all people did Jean not expect to have such a high standing in the Fatui; you weren’t just some agent to be stationed there, you were a younger sibling of one of the harbingers overseeing everything the agents did. It made everything all the more painful for Jean as she thought she finally found someone who understood her and loved her despite her business along with her flaws, but she started to doubt your relationship. She’d have to take you in for further questioning to see what information you’ve leaked out, but when you made a run for it Jean knew she should chase after you yet… She let you escape, she didn’t want you getting hurt as for this one time will she let you do so; however, if you two crossed paths again unfortunately you’d give her no other choice but to warrant your arrest

Keqing:

She’s surprised at the fact that you’re associated with the Fatui, but of course she’s going to act as if it doesn’t bother her or hurt her in the slightest (though we all know just how badly she’s hurting on the inside). She knew it was too good to be true that you so happened to share the same ideologies and that you got along so beautifully.

She has put so much trust in you that she’s brought you up to the Jade Chamber with her to have peaceful tea time dates a couple of times before its destruction. Yet you made her look like a fool, as even if you never intended to hurt her or betray her, Keqing takes it very personally even if her love for you runs deep

Regardless whether or not you were good of heart that was trapped serving the Fatui or truly was lying about everything and using her that whole time she will coldly cut you off. She’s putting on her tough act saying how she simply cannot love a traitor that has put liyue in harm's way

It’s not until she’s alone or possibly just with Ganyu that Keqing breaks down into tears sobbing over her heartbreak. Nothing hurt more than letting you go, how she wanted to give you that second chance, but she couldn’t let love cloud her judgement, as maybe one day in the future you two could be together, but for now she’d need time to heal though she probably never really gets over you