#and that i wont be lazy and actually focus

[gureango]

[themoonstonechronicler]

im making everything up

[chewysgummies]

Fuck it, I'm watching monkie kid

[sleepymarimo]

୨୧. 𝐰𝐚𝐤𝐞-𝐮𝐩 𝐜𝐚𝐥𝐥

: ̗̀➛ when was the last time this man got a good night's sleep? pairing: toji x fem!reader. fluff, fluff, fluff...

an: just needed to get this out before i do my hw lol. i picture this as like pre-relationship :P wc: ~600

toji recalls one of the moments he realized he was whipped.

after hopping from place to place, staying in shitty motels and abandoned train stations, he got his first true and proper rest with you.

he’s used to waking up to the sight of an empty bed, a dirty ceiling or, hell, even the open sky when things got really rough.

so when he opens his eyes, refreshed, one of his arms draped across your waist, the assassin is a bit dumbfounded. toji is quick to settle, blinking a couple of times until you come into focus.

“oh, you’re up.” you smile, leaning comfortably against the headboard. "welcome back, sleeping beauty."

why’re you awake? he thinks. usually he’s the one up and at ‘em, rising before the sun.

by the looks of it, you’ve been up for a while. the television was on, playing one of your favorite shows, the volume lowered. you have a mug in your hands, your eyes brighter than any sunrise he’s seen thus far.

he lifts his head and props himself up on one of his elbows, his hair a mess of black strands pointing in all sorts of directions. “yeah.” he yawns, running his fingers across his scalp before he grumbles. “i’m up, i’m up.”

fuck, is this what actual sleep felt like? he hadn’t felt this good in a while.

his eyes catch sight of your alarm clock and he has to rub the excess sleep out of them to make sure he isn’t dreaming.

“eight in the morning?” he sits up, his shoulder brushing against yours as he rests his weight on the headboard. that's a good three, maybe four hours later than he's used to.

you look at him like he has two heads, unable to keep from letting out a light laugh.

"it's not that late." you pause, keeping a tease from slipping past your teeth as your fingers come up to wipe some dried up drool from the scarred corner of his lip. "you were knocked out."

he clicks his tongue, gently swatting your hand away and finishing the job himself. since when did he drool? "yeah, yeah, i'm not a damn baby."

the bed creaks as he adjusts his position, crossing his legs at the ankle and stealing the mug of coffee in your other hand. his nose wrinkles at the sweetness, at that little splash of creamer you usually add.

"you could've fooled me." you retort, taking back your coffee. "plus, it's sunday, so just go back to sleep or something. i already got breakfast on the way."

toji doesn't know what's worse, the fact that you expect him to stay or the fact that, fuck, he wants to.

his response is just a grunt, a stubborn sound of acceptance. the bed is still warm, the company is good and he knows there's no where else he'd rather be.

he'll think about that later, or maybe he wont. for now, he won't deny himself an extra few minutes of rest while you continue to watch your shows.

he lays back down, blanket over his shoulders, and drapes his arm over your lap, head resting against your hip. "you got extra meat, right?" comes his gruff inquiry, more child than man.

"extra meat." you affirm, one hand bringing that sweet caffeine to your lips while the other laxly combs through his hair.

with that, he seems satisfied enough, finding it odd that his head is feeling so heavy. when he drifts off into sleep, his shoulders rising and falling at a steady pace, he dreams of a big breakfast and the promise of a lazy day with you.

[ashton-sano]

Blue Lock Characters in: Being Jealous

(Characters Inclu.: Yoichi Isagi, Meguru Bachira, Seishiro Nagi, Reo Mikage, Chigiri Hyoma)

Trying to get into the habit of posting more often, so have these headcanons. A Bit short but I hope you enjoy

Yoichi Isagi

-Somehow the worst one on this list

-He's likely to give the nastiest glare to whoever you're wasting your time with (of course when you arent looking)

-Post Blue lock Isagi is kinda the same, Just a lot less subtle. curses and maybe a fight or two if its Kaiser. 

"That blonde asshole has no place talking to you, you're mine.."

-Don't be alarmed, he's unlikely to take his jealously out on you

-Unless you're teasing him on purpose, then he might get a bit agitated with you

- "My dear, I'm not too fond of how you let him touch you just then, please stop that."

 

-He's a two way street, either a sweetheart who tries to dodge around it or a straight maniac who will plot murdering whoever it is.

    -Nothing to mistake, he isnt brainless, so theres always a chance he wont care

-He's mostly secure in your relationship with him but could use reassurance in times like that

Meguru Bachira 

-Relatively tame for the most part

-If anything, he may get clingier

-He honestly doesnt even acknowledge the person youre talking to at first, he's too invested in you

"Oh, Baby! You busy today? I wanted to try this- hm? Oh, you're talking to someone...? Anyway, its this cool bakery I saw, we should try it!"

-If you aren't giving him your attention, that's when he'd get pouty

-He's a child at heart, naturally he's gonna get upset if you aren't paying him mind, no matter the reason

"Babyyyyyyy, gimme attention...! I dont care who youre talking to, love me!"

-Its cute so you usually give him his way and stop what youre doing

       

     --> Little do you know, he does it on purpose because it always works

-Definitely a michevious little bumblebee

Seishiro Nagi 

-Another rather tame one

-Hard to tell if he even cares with how lazy and laid back he is 

-It usually never bothers him since he does trust you 

"Hm? Your friend asked to hang out today? Sounds cool.." 

-Like Bachira, he only cares when it cuts into your time with him, now its something of note for him

-How could you leave your boyfriend for some lame hangout? Playing Video games with him is much more important

"You want me to get off..? No...Not until you promise you'll stay and hang out with me..."

-Please just stay, he might actually cry if you leave (he wont, but it always gets you because you believe him)

     ->A 6'2" babi, why wouldnt you want to give him what he wants?

- Eventually he makes you forget why you were trying to leave in the first place

Reo Mikage

-Have you seen how he gets with Nagi? Safe to say he wont be very happy

-As mad as he'd be, I doubt he'll make sure you see that

-All smiles and grins when you look at him, what do you mean you swear you saw him scowl at the guy behind you? You're just seeing things love

 

"Dove, who's this? A..friend? Ah, well im sure we'll get along well, real well...."

-We all know how privledged he is, he would be appauled that you want time with anyone besides him, what could they give you that he cant?

-Granted, he wouldnt give it much thought at first but as you keep focus on this person, itll eat away at him more before he's pouting and begging for you to give him your undivided time

"C'mon Dove, how bout we go to that new cafe you were talking about, hm? No, im not trying to distract you, how could you say that..?"

(Thats definitely what hes doing)

-Eventually he'd bribe or sweet talk you into giving him what he wants 

    -"Dont ask about where that guy went, hes not important....Now lets go get some ice cream, yeah?"

-A tad creepy and overprotective but with all that money, who is to stop him?

Chigiri Hyoma

 The most tame on this list, and by a rather large margin too

-This pretty boy knows you'll eventually give him your attention, nothing to worry about

-If anything, he encourages you to allocate your time doing what you want and speaking to who you wish

-That can change if the person is too touchy with you, however

"Pretty sure they asked you to take your hands off, keep them to yourself."

 

-He trusts you entirely, its the people you hang around that can overstep and agitate him 

-Hence why he's almost always hanging out with you, your friends are his friends right? What better way to show them that you're happily taken then to bring your sweet, beautiful redhead with you?

"Going out sweetheart? Mind if i tag along? I mean only if you don't mind."

-Truly a man who knows his worth, but it would help if you told your especially pushy friends to mind their manners when he's around 

    -A few of them have actually attempted moves on him once or twice

-We stan a Pretty King 👑 

[zolawffy]

Calling them out their name!

Ft. Zoro, Law, Crocodile, Doffy, Sanji, luffy.

Zoro

Zoro was literally minding his business and training. He was clearly trying to focus. But you decided to go bother him, the usual.

“Zozo!!” You call out to him. He sighed in annoyance because he heard you coming. However, he couldn’t stay mad because he hasn’t seen your pretty face all day. He took a long glance at the beauty before him before continuing his training.

“Hey.” He said positioning all 3 of his swords. You knew he was serious because he had his bandanna on.

“I’m bored we should go out today before its too late..” you say eyeing him. He still didn’t even look your way. So you got a little upset. He just ignored you.

“Zo.” You said firmly.

“What is it Dammit, I’m a little busy here woman.” He said lifting the dumbbells off of his swords. You decided to do something very crazy to get his attention.

“Why you gotta be a bitch all the time?” You said resting your head against your hand. Oh girl you thought he didn’t hear that? You heard the dumbbells drop and his swords did too.

That mf was caught ALLLLLL THE WAYYYY off guard. You seen a vein or two pop through his forehead. He was mumbling and cursing under his breath, he was mad as hell. He took his weights and trained elsewhere.

poor zo.. 💔 dont worry you guys made up.

Law

Law was just sitting down on the couch. Earlier, he’d act like it was such a task to swap places with the pile of clothes, making it easier to get the clothes into the correct room.

You were mad at him because you had to do it all by yourself. However, you weren’t that mad when you developed one of your silly plans in your head.

You never called Law out his name before. But the way he’s looking at you while acting lazy, had you on boiling point.

“You’re a bitch sometimes, law.” You said before his eyes shot open. He was appalled too. He rarely ever heard that word come out of your mouth anyway.

“M’ sorry mama.. you don’t have to call me names. I’ll make it up to you.” He said motioning to the cushion beside him.

Law was too sweet and too chill to actually react badly. He doesn’t like that you called him a bitch but he understands why you did it. Though it wasn’t right. He still love you thoughh.

Crocodile

Ma’am i think you’ve lost your mind.. 🧠 here ya go.

Crocodile was sitting in his office working away, the usual. And it was toooo quiet. He looked at his watch snd calculated that you should be walking in any minute now.

That’s when you came into his office.

“There you are, Sweet girl..” he said signing his papers.

“Hi croc. You said you’d take me shopping today.” You smiled as you leaned onto his desk. Your favorite store had new clothes come in and you heard its selling fast. So croc promised to take you there.

“Did i now?” He said signing away. You started to pout and doubt he was even listening to you. Which he wasn’t. You sighed aloud.

“Yes and the clothes are gonna sell out before we get there.” You said pouting.

“Cheer up sweetheart. My work ran a bit overtime today. I still have a lot to d—“

“You Dick head! You’re a liar too.”

He laughed then removed his cigar and blew his smoke. “Is that what i am, sweet girl? Sweet girls don’t use that language.” He said firmly.

You were mad. So so mad. So you decided to keep going.

“Ughh you stupid fucker—!” You yelled at him. But he just stared at you. He didn’t laugh this time.. i think you done it.

“That mouth is gonna get you in trouble, girl.” He stood up.

Lets just sayyy you wont call him out of his name again and he madd sure of it.. you gonna need a wheelchair maam, take one and go. 🦽🦽🦽

Doflamingo

Listen here ma’am, NOT A GOOD IDEA!!!

You were talking to your friend, (one of doffy’s servants) and you both were talking about Doffy.

Doffy was sitting at the stool at the kitchen island reading a newspaper about himself. So he wasn’t paying attention to you guys.

“He can be a bit ruthless sometimes, i dont know hoe you do it..” she said looking at you with sympathy.

“I mean yeah you’re right he is a bitch sometimes.” You shrugged. You heard a grunt and you turned towards him.

“Oh really.”

“Yes really and you know that.”

“Have you forgotten respect already, darling?” He said getting to eye level with you.

Yeaaah that night you definitely got a little punishment. And yes he did use his strings.. i got a lil lazy for this one but i might add moree.

Sanji

Sanji is too precious to do anything to hurt you. However if you called him out his name, he would feel like he did something horrible.

So he would make you a variety of foods, lights some candles, give you a bath, massage you, PAINT YOUR TOES, AND GIVE YOU SOME WINEEEEE. and maybe even some fun time after. Just to make up for his guilt.

Luffy

Luffy— of course he did something. He’s always doing some.

He ate ALL YOUR DAMN FOOD THAT YOU WERE SAVING!! what more do you have to do.. you wrote your name on the box and he still doesn’t listen.

He ate all the food and you called him s bitch. He just laughed and said the food was good. Poor luf luf doesn’t care or doesn’t know what it means.

[lookingatacupoftea]

Too Many Layers?

Since the NG allegations (which I find very credible and disturbing and will not otherwise address in this post -- please see this roundup for more info and share to get the word out), I've been leaning more into fanworks and starting to let go of canon, particularly s2 and possible s3* canon.

I've also been taking a more critical eye to canon and revisiting my own interpretations of Good Omens the show. Here are the questions I've been rotating in my mind:

Can we trust NG to actually write a good ending for these beloved characters?

Is s2 more poorly written than I had previously acknowledged?

One of the most interesting things about Good Omens is the sheer number of themes and layers of text and subtext that it presents. I have been wont to think of these layers largely positively. Prior to recent events, I had repressed any fleeting concerns that this multiplicity of layers was so egregious as to be a weakness. But now I'm re-considering it.

In particular, the show presents heaven and hell in contradictory ways that are, in my opinion, the root of most of the vastly different takes. Is heaven Amazon or the KGB or the Catholic Church? Is hell better than, the same, or worse than heaven? Is being an angel or a demon a job, an identity, or both? I think you can see hints of all these possible interpretations in the show itself, and the ones you gravitate toward can dramatically change how you interpret the show and particularly Aziraphale's feelings and actions. Is this lack of clarity a purposeful mystery that will be resolved in s3, a reflection of the complexities of institutions and systems in the real world, or a sign of lazy writing?

I had thought my takes were right (don't we all?) because I thought I understood the purpose that drove NG and the smaller set of themes captured in the book that I thought were being expanded and tweaked but ultimately preserved in the TV show as a love letter to TP. (I recommend @nofomogirl's meta on the competing book and show canons, which does a very good job at capturing the discrepancies between them and the challenges one can have in integrating them).

But clearly NG is not the person I thought he was and so I feel much less certain than I did that I understand his purpose in GO the show. How far has he strayed from the characters and themes in the book? How much has he elevated his self-insert character, Crowley, over Aziraphale? To what extent is the TV show, especially s2, overstuffed with layers and themes and clues in order to appeal to as wide an audience as possible? To what extent are flaws in the writing papered over by the top-notch acting and dedication to detail shown by the crew? Will an NG-authored s3 effectively narrow and focus and resolve some of these contradictory layers or will it continue to be a bit of a (beautiful) mess?

I don't have an answer. On the one hand, all of these layers and subtexts make the show a fascinating one for analysis and a great jumping-off point for fanworks. On the other hand, maybe a show can be too packed with themes and texts and allusions, to the extent that it sacrifices clarity.

*I respect a variety of perspectives on the topic of whether there should be a s3 and, if so, whether one should watch it. This post isn't really about and I'd rather not debate it here. Here is one petition calling for NG's removal as GO showrunner and another calling for more investigation and for companies to pull back on working with him. I believe there are also plans in the works for a fandom fundraiser to support survivors of sexual violence.

[elftwink]

my toxic trait is that i can't listen to those "GM/DM from hell" ttrpg horror stories because i almost always agree with the GM even if they're being extremely unreasonable because at least 80% of the time it's immediately obvious that the entire table is trash and the GM put up with it for a saintly amount of time before snapping and now the players have to crawl to reddit to be validated, where they will be validated because any GM who wont take a bullet for their players and then suck their dick is lazy and selfish, obviously!!

for example one "unreasonable" rule ive seen floating around abt dnd is "you have to act out all charisma checks" and look. i am aware at least some DMs with this rule are trying to be the next Matt Mercer and want you to play the part of the next Sam Riegel, damn your comfort and either of your skill levels and capabilities. this should obviously be addressed with exactly what the DM expects and why; after all, they don't make you do a backflip for an acrobatics check

BUT. but. imagine, if you will. you're the DM. your players come to a tavern. you describe a bunch of NPCs and wait for players to instigate roleplay. one of them rolls a die without asking you and then says "I want to seduce the innkeeper. I rolled an 18"

"ok," you say, (even though they should have just said what they did and waited for you to ask them for a skill check) because you're a good DM and you roll with the punches, "cool. what do you say to her?"

"uhm. I rolled an 18."

"ok yeah but what do you say. like what happens. what do you want the outcome to be"

"im seducing her. I rolled to seduce. I got 18"

"okay I know— you know seduction is not a skill right? whatever. what happens?"

"I dunno, you're the DM. I rolled an 18 though"

you now have a couple choices. you can continue trying to coax this player into roleplay, and risk the table think you are denying them the success of the roll (a roll you didnt even ask them to make), or you can sigh and say "okay fine. you seduce the innkeeper. you retreat to your quarters after dinner" even though this isn't fun for you and is barely fun for anyone else, including the player in question who stopped caring about the specifics the second they saw a high roll.

NOW imagine this happens several times a session, at least.

this is a fairly common occurrence at most tables, mostly due to lack of skill and comfort with roleplay, but it can happen to anyone who just isnt feeling 100% that day for any reason. im extremely fortunate to have DMed at tables where prompts like "and what do you say" actually do kick-start roleplay, and when it doesn't we're all comfortable enough to take a pause and try to figure out what we want from the scene, if anything. some sessions may be full on dialogue and others just quick narration depending on what the party wants to focus on and if they feel like getting into roleplay that day. & because I know what my players want, it's way easier to nudge them in that direction, and I don't get any resistance because we understand we share a common goal.

but if this were to happen at my table frequently when I was less experienced, with players who internalize the players vs DM antagonism rife in so many dnd spaces, where my attempts to direct the game were belittled or ignored but also where every single player had to be fucking micromanaged in order to keep the game rolling... i also might deal with this by putting my foot down and saying "if you don't roleplay a charisma check, you do not get to make a roll". to me this is not rules tyranny. this is a desperate attempt to get players to actually play the fucking game with you rather than chat and fuck around at your expense, wasting your time and all the time you spent prepping. & that is why, your Honor, my client pleads NOT GUILTY!!! and furthermore the defense would like to state that this whole case is projection on the part of the plaintiffs and should have been thrown out long before getting to court.

(i will say. if you're a DM and you find yourself making extremely specific, borderline unreasonable house rules to deal with your party's antics, especially if the impact is to just make them use the RAW, you need to find a new table. yes even if you're friends. doubly so actually. your friendship will survive you quitting DMing for them. it may not survive the blowout fight you'll end up having if you continue trying to pretend that shit doesn't bother you.)

[aslongasimhereyoureinvincible]

haikyuu!! the dumpster battle ramblings

saw it earlier today and am going to see it again tomorow with a friend, am very Full Of Thoughts, if u dont wont spoilers for the movie well take this as your warning ig

okay first of all the sound direction, the sound direction was INSANELY good

this is absolutely a movie that needs to be experienced in cinema, the soundscape of tokyo gymnasium and the karasuno v nekoma match felt so vividly real it was like i was at an actual game

the soundtrack was great too, i mean it always is w/ hayashi yuuki

there were i think two tracks that used the leitmotif from 'above', good shit

the animation was also really great, overall it didnt look massively better than season 4 of the anime

which is fine, season 4 looked great imo (minus that outsourced episode)

but holy shit when the sakuga hit it hit HARD

tsukki and lev blocking, kageyama doing his thing, kenma and kuroo's quick, there were lots of really great sakuga moments

they also reused some shots from earlier on in the anime and idk maybe thats 'lazy' or whatever but i liked it, it was very nostalgic :')

they did re-animate and i think re-voice hinata and kenma's first meeting tho, framing it from kenma's POV, loved that

i think my favourite sakuga shot had to be hinata and kenma with the knives at each other's throats tho, that ate

not sure how i didnt know about this before hand but it made perfect sense to me when i saw studio trigger in the end credits, some of the sakuga, esp the blocking, had a bit of that trigger flair to it

so obviously they werent gonna fit in everything from the manga, and the movie definitely had kenma as its focus, but i think overall they did a decent job in picking and chosing what to cut

the one thing im annoyed about is the removal of old coach ukai and coach nekomata's backstory, i really i think it makes the handshake at the end of the game hit that much harder

other than that tho i dont think the movie suffered from not adapting everything in the manga, i mean obviously i wouldve LIKED it, but i dont think the movie NEEDED it to be a good movie

it very much felt like kenma was the main character of the movie, and the main focus, with kuroo and hinata as his deuteragonists

which i liked!!! i think framing the match from kenma's POV for the most part makes sense, and its fun to spend more time in outsider POVs of karasuno

rlly loved the adaptation of kuroo and kenma's childhood flashback, im pretty sure kaji yuuki voiced kid kenma too

watching their friendship grow and seeing them play togther now as high schoolers, AUGH RIGHT IN THE FEELS

theres also a montage of kid kuroo barging into kenma's room to demand they go play volleyball together that ends on kuroo doing so whilst kenma's changing/putting on trousers which was rlly funny and silly

the stuff with kuroo and tsukki was so good too

'thanks to everyone, occasionally it's fun', 'thank god i wasnt wrong', 'he's a man who walks ahead of me'

AUUUGHHHHHH IT WAS SO GOOD :')

the scene that completely stole my breath away though was kageyama setting the open toss to hinata

i know ive already lost my mind over the whole 'threat of trust' thing and truly, the inarizaki match goes insane with that concept i will always adore it

but holy shit that scene smacked me over the head, HARD, with the concept of 'setting as a love language'

i just... i literally dont even have words for it it was SO amazingly good, i legitimately teared up in the cinema

speaking of other great scenes;

'stay interesting, 'kay?'

OHHHHH GODDDDDDDDDD

they did it perfectly

the music and the soundscape completely cutting out, the background whiting out so its just kenma and the net, kaji yuuki's delivery of the line

it genuinely felt like something out of a horror movie, it was creepy, and unsettling, and PERFECT

also;

hinata's reaction after kenma collapses and says 'that was fun'

murase ayumu's delivery was so VISCERAL, dude got in that booth and CHEERED

you really felt hinata's sheer utter come through in that little scene, same with kuroo's incredulous laugh

the end of the match was slightly a mixed bag for me

on the good hand;

having done from kenma's first person POV was cool, i dont think haikyuu's ever really done that before, and it looked awesome

cutting back on the music and background soundscaping so we just focus on kenma's breathing and the sound of the ball/players jumping/shoes squeaking etc was a great way to really immerse the viewer in the scene, and put us inside kenma's head

on the bad hand;

it was anticlimatic, and i KNOW the whole point of the end of the match is that its anticlimatic,

but i had always imagined the scene with dramatic swelling music and the characters running frantically, only for it to all cut away when the ball slips and all you can hear is kenma's 'ah-' and there'd be a close-up of his facial expression

the stage play did a very similar thing and it worked EXTREMELY well imo

instead by doing it in the first person POV and already not having music it just,,, didnt feel quite as impactful as it shouldve imo??

like the match points for the seijoh, shiratorizawa, or inarizaki matches were done really dramatically

and i know the whole point is that the nekoma match is kinda an outlier in that it ends in that anticlimatic way with the ball slipping, and theres that big beat with hinata calling out 'nice serve' to tanaka before the realisation sets in that theyve won, but jusstttt

idk like it certainly wasnt BAD, i still DEEPLY DEEPLY enjoyed it, but just personally if i'd been the director i wouldve done it differently

also!! because it was from his first person POV we didnt get to see kenma's face on the 'idiot! the ball hasn't dropped yet!!!' line, which was pretty disapointing ngl i rlly love that scene how it is in the manga

ok enough complaining tho back to the infinite list of stuff i loved about the movie

the camera work! good god the camera work was so fucking cool

it really made the space of the gymnasium feel 3d and real, the way the camera would move over and through the net with the ball helped emphasise the physicality of the players and the court

i know jack shit about cinematography but yeah, after the sound design the camera work was prolly the best thing

the post credits scene was great!! daishou trying and failing to neg kuroo cracks me up every damn time

and the set up for the kamomedai match was so hype

speaking of; the very vague forshadowing for hinata's fever of him having flushed cheeks and not being all exhausted after the game like the others, auughhh my heartttt

if he isnt already, this movie will make kenma one of your top 5 haikyuu characters

seriously i love how they switched the perspective and framing so it was a bit more like kenma was the 'main character' of this match and hinata was the 'rival'

overall the movie was cool, creative, and a really clearly loving adaptation, im more than happy to be paying to see it again tmr lol

i'll probably have even more to say after seeing it a 2nd time so tune in for that ig

[echoesofadream]

is adhd medicine (concerta) supposed to make me feel like this

-all the ways which when it comes to function, I am more, and all the ways I am not I am less

- i do things super fast, everything is a hurry .I get things done but a most of them are bullshit like tumblr blogging or checking every internet chronic kpop fan fomo outlet there is .

-I cant do something that isnt top priority in the world because I cant relax enough to do that. its better to sit on the floor and be in prepared mode instead of reading or painting or anything like that

-i have never been on speed but I would assume it feels like this based of the name

-I feel like I can do anything! except read a single page of text of course. thats literally impossible

-everything is on fire I need to put the fire out. right now. first though. where is it

-cant do anything that doesnt give instant gratification (what I mean by adhd medicine induced adhd)

-did I mention that Im quick. and super active. wait the h in adhd stands for hyperactivity....this is wrong...I do this and this and this and this and this and STOP. IM STUCK:

-incredibly hard to move out of situation when im stuck in it. like i could be doing ANYTHING and im like. I cant stop. doing this. whatever it is. I cant move on. this is a familiar feeling that everyone has including me before medicine but now it's like. so much worse. you know the feeling when you cant get out of bed. or youre in the couch and too lazy to get ready for bed. this is like that but dream (nightmares when you cant move) level of lethargy. its like im sitting at the kitchen table. I just got home. but then it's been three hours. and Im still sitting there doing whatever im doing. it's like. so bad. im like. I need to shower. okay this has been sort of an obstacle for me sometimes. but now it's like. shower. I need to shower. hours pass. I havent showered. maybe I just wont shower today. this dysfunction is making me realize how functional I can be in some areas of daily life actually.

-^above would be good if I was working a busy job when things happened all at once. and I had to get things done and not get distracted. but im literally an unemployed uni dropout. im trying to increase my level of focus. im trying to learn how to be in the present and breathe and be less anxious. this medicine is doing the absolute opposite for me. I started this medication because I want to be able to study but how is this supposed to help be in any area in life except like working at the ER or if my job is just answering emails and that kind of thing. all I can do right now is make posts, talk during movies (never been a me thing im very serious about silence during film watching), have a stomach ache and too fast heartbeat, actually work on a novel instead of creating a document that I abandon after the first and only time I write on it, be anxious, eat hot chip and lie

Help??`????????

[annabtg]

In continuation of this post, @apalapucian wanted to know how getting into HP fanfic after HBP came out ruined DH for me. Let me count the ways:

(cut for length)

1. After HBP's release, there were a ton of theories. Being in the fandom meant I was now exposed to all sorts of fics and meta. Many of the theories came true, such as Snape actually being a double agent and working for Dumbledore. I don't think I would have seen it coming, so that was a big reveal that was "spoiled" for me by fandom and lost some of its glamour in the book.

2. Being exposed to theories and then getting into the whole fanfic mindset led me to develop a whole Book 7 in my head (as any good fanfic writer is wont to do). I didn't finish writing before DH came out - which then led me to losing interest over time and never finishing it - but the whole plot of it, Harry defeating Voldemort etc, were very clear in my head, and frankly, a lot of it I believe was better than what we ended up with.

3. After HBP, I became very invested in Remadora, got into the fandom, read and wrote fic, participated in fests, the whole deal. There was so much creativity in that part of the fandom - prequels, stories parallel to the books, stories speculating about their future - and we got a wonderful wealth of complexity, of deep and nuanced characterizations, of stories ranging from cracky humour to heavy angst.

Then DH comes out. They get married immediately, they have a child, then they die. I HAVE SO MUCH BEEF WITH ALL OF THAT. It's a lazy repetition of Jily's story that's supposed to work as a parallel, but what it really does is take two characters who we have already met and know, and force them into a function that doesn't fit them. I spent two years with fic where Remus was a man struggling with his feelings of inadequacy, working through his issues, finding support in a wonderful woman that he loves, and what does DH give me? Wham bang we're married now! I may not have the right to call Remus and Tonks OOC in DH, since it's their canon characterization, but I was super disappointed in how their arc played out. I understand that Remadora is not the focus of the book and they're just a plot device so that we get an orphan who gets the childhood Harry didn't, but man. Getting invested in them just to have it all blow up on my face. Not fun.

4. Same with Snape - a fascinating story of a double agent who's fooled everyone becomes reduced to "he did it all for love". There's a lot to be said about the intent behind it, I can see some merit if I squint, but again, I expected something more original, and I'm also not particularly satisfied with the execution of what we actually got.

I could probably think of more to say, but that's enough to allow me to stop here and summarize:

Overall, getting invested in fanfic, which explores the characters in depth, created in me expectations that DH was not able to hold up to, because it was not meant to do it. DH was not there to get Remadora through a long and hard relationship journey nor was it there to psychoanalyze Snape. These characters were only there to serve Harry's story.

To be entirely fair, I think it wasn't only the fanfic. There are probably more reasons I didn't enjoy DH so much - I was a little older than the target group; JKR probably wrote the book in a rush; I read it in the original English first, whereas the translations are better quality writing, etc. DH isn't bad, but fanfic showed me it could have been done so much better! And, as a story, it could have been so much more.

Thanks for the ask! 😘😘

[nanistar]

do you have any tips on story writing / comic making? ive got something all plotted out but i just dont know where to start with executing it

hmmm this one is tough because i have a long history of starting and giving up on comics, even if i have a full script written out. i'm personally really bad at the whole planning-stuff-out thing. i tend to work in short bursts and write stuff maybe two or three scenes in advance.

i think my best advice would be: if you have something planned out, and you're excited to start working on it, just start working on it.

don't wait to find the perfect beginning, because in my experience, you'll eventually lose confidence or motivation if you wait too long. the worst thing that will happen is you might come up with a cooler idea later, but the good thing about webcomics is you can always start over, especially if it's early on. my "main" comic- something ive been working on since 2014- i have started and stopped about 6 times, and i have changed the plot/settings completely about as many times. i even wrote it out as a 100+ page novel for a creative writing class in high school. i actually started SBC with the intention of doing a short 1-2 year comic to kinda "warm up"

share some of your process online and with friends for feedback as you go with pre-planning. when i was building up the mojave clan concept, briskwater was intended to be the main character, with vulturepaw, a sunclan cat, having an unrelated but major side story but when i shared my first character sketches with my friend server, they all went bonkers over Saltburn so i changed my plan to focus on her. you don't have to share everything, but just having people initially interested in your story is a HUUUGE motivation boost. if you're having troubles scripting a start, don't script. think about openings to shows/series that you like and just start sketching stuff. i really like the foreboding prose-like openings of Fellowship of the ring and Avatar the last airbender, that tells you everything you need to know about the world itself, and mayhaps foreshadows a bit, but is still opened-ended enough that it can go anywhere. you can also start in media res; AKA start where the action all ready happened/is happening, and do a "teaser" of sorts, and then go back, sometimes called a Cold Open (tho that one is used mainly in TV, and some argue it's different but they're both functionally the same thing). think about how procedural investigation shows will often show you an obscured view of how the episode's victim gets murdered/kidnapped/whatever, and then it launches into the shows opening credits.

also finally, and i mean this so, so genuinely, it does not have to be perfect, and it wont be. you are going to be drawing SO many characters so many times, so many BGs ect, things are going to slip through the cracks that that's OK. you can take shortcuts, you can be lazy, you can have continuity errors. also give characters in the BG funny stupid faces instead of worrying about details because its fun to do

sooo yah. that's all i got TLDR: look at intros to media you like, and steal their style. don't worry about getting it perfect. if you have even a slim idea of what you want, just go for it and it will come to you. if you don't know what you want.... also just go for it.

also. my style of writing/comics works for me, but it might not work for you so take any advice i give with a grain of salt. ask other comic folk, like @razmerry and uh. ive been sitting here for 15 minutes but i literally forgot every other comic person ever. so sorry. but anyone who knows things feel free to add on.

[screechingsandwichhologram]

my official worldbuilding ask for you please <33 explain anything to your hearts content <3 (specifically the timelines tho? :))

hiiii !!!!!!!!1 i love you so so so much <33333

okay im gonna focus on timelines rn because if i do other stuff then this will be. so fucking long. uhm this will already be pretty long tho probably.

okay so three very important things to note first off !!!

1) timelines are very very complicated and i may have trouble wording stuff so you just have to roll with it

2) servers are things such as hermitcraft vs. empires vs. dsmp !!! people can be on multiple servers and still be the same person !!! this is very important to note that things like osmp vs. dsmp are not the same people, because of different Dimensions (capital D, not like the end vs. nether). if u have questions on this part feel free to ask, but it isn't crucial to the timeline part so im not gonna mention it other than here

3) there are three seperate things in charge of the world !! gods/deities/server gods, magic, and code (NOT QSMP CODE). code is the potential of things, magic is how things run, and gods are the beings that run it!

okay now to start !!!

(oh, and, a lot of names for gods are kinda. on the nose. but shhh)

first, there was the void. then, a small point of magic burst, spreading it across the abyss. as it cooled down, it became code, which then kicked our timeline into motion. (and a few others, but we'll get to that later)

one of these bits of magic hurled into a star, which created khaos, god of the void. during their formation, the code had created an island. this is The End.

The code, after creating the end, started creating another island. This one grew so big that they had to move it far, far away from the End. This was the Nether.

The code, realizing the void was becoming crowded, split the world into two. However, they messed up (being new and all) and accidentally created three dimensions. It then decided to work on making each dimension as perfect as possible. This became The End, The Nether, and The Overworld

When Khaos opened their eyes, they let out a ripple of magic. This magic spread all across the void, hitting every star. Each star became an Ancient God. These gods either died before they could find a source and purpose, or managed to make it to the world, where they could stay

Khaos decided to form life, the enderians. Seeing what they were doing, the rest started doing the same.

The Blaze Empress claimed the Nether as her own, and started forming life. She did not let others in, though through bribes she allowed The God of Blood, Flesh, and Bone. Most others started working on the Overworld.

During this period, there were humans, hybrids, supernaturals, everything !!! This is when things like The Masquerade took place and stuff.

During this time, though, the god of blood, flesh, and bone started fighting with hysteria, the god of the mind. they had always hated each other, and it got to the point where they would try to sabotage the other and anyone near them. Because they were so powerful, they almost wiped out all of the things on earth, creating a hellscape. (the end was not impacted by this war)

Fed up, the rest of the gods made them do one last duel. Whoever won, won. They would kill the other and just figure it out from there. So they did that. For a thousand years. During the taunts, they actually kinda worked stuff out? like they would explain why they were mad and shit. So at the very end, they both drew first blood at the same time, and realized they were the same. Their blood mingled on the apocalyptic snow/ash and created a new god, the goddess of love. Now they had a kid to raise (spoiler alert, they did not do well) (we wont go into that here tho).

So now the war is over but. the world has fucking ended. and because they are lazy, the just make a new one!! This is The New Timeline (congrats, we are on timeline 2/3!!)

This timeline is the most similar to our world. Obviously, things are different cause of Minecraft, but like. there's france and America and British (this is how they know whos British and whos not even though britain doesn't exist in their timeline!! it carries over !!) uhm this timeline also like. goes past ours too into the future.

all the gods just kinda do their own thing? nothing too notable happens here (except the Revolution in the End but that's for a different post). basically everyone's kinda just. getting along. doing normal god things.

BUT THEN !!!

The Collision happens. This fucks SO MUCH UP !!!

The Collision is when a ton of worlds & time constructs collide!!! there are two major time constructs!!! Old Time Construct (which is what I've been telling you about) and Modern Time Construct (which is a parallel time construct with DIFFERENT GODS AND MECHANICS that was created alongside our Old Time Construct (wayyyy back in the beginning!!)) These two time constructs colliding resulted in The Next Timeline, which is where canon takes place !!!

The Next Timeline is characterized by servers !!! yup, this is where servers come into play!!! people can now suddenly jump servers !!! weird!!! this isn't too much of a big deal for our lovely canon but it still exists, yknow.

however, there is one MAJOR thing that The Collision fucked up. In the Modern Time Construct, there are different gods. Server gods. And because our world is now a server, they take precedence over the Ancient Gods that I explained back up there. This is Bad.

To be frank, the server gods are dicks. they suck ass. they don't give a shit. like at all. there are very few gods that actually have a domain over good, actual things. most are just concepts and have too much power for having such a limited domain. many VERY IMPORTANT things have no god at all. and, the gods that do have a reasonable domain don't give a shit !!!

so, here's our deal. the Ancient Gods are fucked because not only is their entire timeline rebooted without notice, but their power is SIGNIFICANTLY less than it was!! They have VERY little say in how the world is run now, and the people who are running it suck ass and are doing a shit job. Not only that, but the timeline wasn't even rebooted properly, so everywhere you look there's remnants of the glory days (temples, villages, etc)

AND HERES THE KICKER. the server gods hate the ancient gods. its a mutual hate. so most of the server gods try their best to reduce their power. and one of them, a pretty big important server god (exdee) decides to CLOSE OFF THE END AND THE VOID.

This is REALLY BAD!!! REEEAALLLYYY BAD !!! there are two (2) ancient gods who weren't majorly affected by The Collision: Lady Death (who managed to strike a deal with the server gods to keep her domain and power - don't interfere (that much) and leave the players to them) and Khaos (immensely powerful, couldn't be tamed). By cutting off the end, this means that the one person who could really fuck up the server gods and fix the worlds CANT GET TO THEM. and whats worse is that the ancient gods are made of magic and void stars. and if the void is cut off, so is most of their magic supply.

SO. It's the Next Timeline. Server gods are in power and don't give a shit about anyone. Ancient gods who would give a shit can't because their power is so diminished that they struggle to exist, let alone do anything. People can server hop, but the server gods basically forbid it. The End is cut off, meaning all enderians not in the End get Void-Sick, meaning that they loose the ability to think beyond instincts (loose personhood-basically become mobs). Canon world is happening (so people obviously are not having a fun time). and yup ! thats the timeline!!!

i didnt mention specific events because that would take much much longer but feel free to ask!!

vocab under cut (probably helpful tbh i just threw a Lot of words at you)

Magic - what fuels everything!

Code - a cooled down form of magic. makes up everything, and holds all possibilities and probabilities

Gods (in general) - beings made of magic that hold power or influence over the world, especially so in specialty areas (called "domains")

Timeline (general) : a period of time within a time construct.

Original Timeline : The first Timeline (the one where everything was created) within the Old Time Construct

New Timeline : The second Timeline (the one with us, rn) within the Old Time Construct

The Next Timeline : The Timeline after The Collision (the one where canon happens) in the Next Time Construct

Time Construct (general) : a universe in which timelines exist. Created from the first burst of magic.

The Collision : and event where the Old Time Construct and the Modern Time Construct collided, merging together to create the Next Timeline and the Next Time Construct

The Old Time Construct : A time construct where the Original Timeline and the New Timeline happened (what I was explaining)

The Modern Time Construct : the parallel time construct to the Old Time Construct, which had different gods, different mechanics, and servers.

The Next Time Construct : the time construct after The Collision. when canon happens.

Worlds : comprising of The End, the Nether, and The Overworld

Servers : Worlds that exist with other worlds in the same time construct

Server Gods : Gods that were created in the Modern Time Construct. Overpowered the Ancient Gods

Ancient Gods : Gods that were created in the Old Time Construct. (the ones i explained). Gets magic from the Void

okay that's it!!! also if u read this far then you are legally required to reblog :3

[doodlegirl1998]

More ask from this acc (no dms through) anyway

I was thinking about smth while dinning with my family...and such thought has less than a minute.

If recovery girl's job is too hardous for her age (which hori never shows this but healing people can be tiring) why not ask help?

Ok lets explore some ideas here:

1) lets assume RG is indeed the ONLY person who has the le healing quirk. Ok and we wont enter in the whole "where is her family?" (If we dont know who was AM's mom...who is to say about RG?)

She should be more sought as she is, in this hypothesis, but it seems she only worked for AM.

Well...if the work in ua is so tiresome...why she accepted the work? There no other way to take care of students? Like we canonical see robots...why not program a medical bot ?

2) ok. The work is more than RG imagined (odd since we only see Izu in the medical ala) why not ask help to others healer users?

If we go to "RG is the only one in all Japan who has such quirk " well, AM has good relations with the US...why not ask for more healers from them?

Which can make me think how people would react if AM protects foreigns. Japan is not know to be very open mind in this regards (to be fair, many countries fall to this too) and like this alone could serve as a good commentary. Healers from another country doing their jobs but people like Redestro and maybe Nighteye are looking down on them "not japanese enough"

Or

Maybe no one cares for this aspect but imagine the healers's reactions to see how UA gives no shit to the students. The cultural clash!

3) ok. Japan has others healers...why ask a woman, an old one, who seems to not like her job or heal students?

"She is with AM's entourage"

Which ok but this means she is in to heal one person. Not everyone and well she is only seen healing Izu...and seems to resent that.

I thought about this in less than a minute.

Hi @mikeellee 👋,

Honestly, as Recovery Girl's power uses the patients own energy to accelerate their healing there's no reason why it should be hard for her to be a healer even in her old age.

However what is a problem is that she is shown to be the only healer to an ENTIRE SCHOOL! Wtf Hori?

Let's go through your ideas because you have good ones here;

1) To paraphrase - Why didn't super smart Nedzu think to organise a whole team of assistants for Recovery Girl? Or even make a MediRobot to assist her? - Oh indeed why not. Well, because Hori says no technically. I can't imagine Recovery Girl refusing the help (unless she's a bit like Aizawa and instead is trigger happy with firing her assistants? Maybe?) So in which case why not a robot to help her? Nedzu has the money and should have utilised it here. Hori says no and is too lazy to give Recovery Girl focus beyond her handful of scenes (most of which make her look like an ass.)

2) Why not ask for help from other healers? Again another plot hole! She should have! And if AM brought in a lot of American healers, it could actually influence this version of MHA's society to be more tolerant of other cultures but I could still see Redestro and Nighteye acting that way.

3) If Japan has other healers why ask Recovery Girl who doesn't like her job? Maybe she's the best healer? Maybe she's the only person who got a hero licence to use her quirk as a Doctor? Maybe, Maybe, Maybe. Either way there could have and should have been better people to fill the role, how resentful RG was to heal Izuku always rubbed me wrong. (Imagine how many abuse victims came under her care and were berated for 'being clumsy' 'hurting themselves' or 'being accident prone,' when really they were being hurt at home and that was the excuse they provided her.)

I wish instead of Recovery Girl, we had a team of Medi-Bots led by Todoroki Natsuo because I loved the headcanon that had been floating around of him training to be Doctor. And it would have brought the other Todosibs more in focus.

[toontowncreepypasta]

I don’t think FNAF was ever intended to be about cyclical abuse and repeating circles, but I do think that’s the theory that makes the game most enjoyable for me personally. In general FNAF has super lackluster story telling, and I just get so much fun out of viewing it like this, I think a lot of people would too. I also think Matpat convinced everyone that FNAF needs to be a literal, linear, direct story, when in reality I think there’s a lot more gray area, considering the main storyline is about childhood abuse and how that affects someone.

Williams revival and return to the series with every game is pretty cheesy and cheap, sure. People feel like it strips his character of anything scary he had going on, and cheapens the experience. Which I can totally understand. But I also think it’s perfectly in character and fits the story beats. William is shown to be an insanely controlling person, as well as having a think for monitoring people and keeping them under his thumb. We see it with the cameras in CC’s bedroom, or the controlled shocks, or how impatient he’s shown. We are also constantly reminded about how his victims are hurt by this, SPECIFICALLY the Afton kids. Not any of the murder victims, specifically, but the AFTON KIDS, and the Emilys. His entire breakdown as Dave Miller, to springtrap to scraptrap to burntrap is drawn out, sure, but it’s also very reminiscent of the types of wear and psychological trauma abusers get from being, well, abusers. His descent from being a bad person to being truly horrific, rotten and inhuman, and still not stopping can be interpreted as him digging his hole further and further and further. William clearly has some conflict between himself and his actions, he DOES care about his kids, and himself. And he yet still can’t, or more importantly, wont stop.

Vanessa being possessed is a cheap, lazy excuse to have Afton be the villain again. It’s also a quick bandage to try and sloppily clean up Vanessas writing abnd make her seem more split apart and “separate” then she actually was intended to be. But I also think Vanessa is a fascinating case of an abuser trying to not only abuse someone into their ideal victim, but also attempting to re-create old victims. Vanessa and Michaels parallels can’t be ignored, they are basically the same character! It feels like after Michaels death, Aftons trying to recreate another child he can keep under his thumb the same way he did with his son. And Vanessa is the perfect victim. She’s traumatized, she’s lonely, she’s desperate. Cyclical abuse, he repeats his process with her, and chews her up the same way he does with any of his other victims.

The convoluted, the inconsistent timeline, it’s all more fun for me to interpret as a metaphor for an unreliable memory. Trauma fucks with your head, especially dissociative trauma, and FNAF has a heavy focus on identity, and masks, and dissociation from the self. Dates switching around, restaurants switching around, not being able to tell which one is Michael and which one is William, and who’s doing what. It all just slots in so perfectly with all the descriptions of Michael and William being compared, how that’s a major part of all the games, considering that’s why the animatronics are attacking Michael TO BEGIN WITH. The Aftons OOZE inconsistencies and lies, of course they do, how else would William keep everything under wraps? How else would Michael skirt underneath everything? How else would Henry push through, justify Williams actions, just to meet his own goal? Elizabeth lies, and sneaks. Vanessas whole thing is lies. While I know it COULDN’T ALL be done on purpose, I think a lot of people could really benefit from changing how they interact with fnaf!

[theonewhowails]

@faeriefrog-blog asked how i did the funny colours on these bad boys so i've broken it down into a few steps!!! starting with the bottom most layers:

very bottom layer, just above the paper itself, we've got the background shading seen in the bottoms images here, panels 3-5 in the comic. note that without any effects applied to it, it is the same colour as the shadows, a deep teal hue. i like to keep all the shadows around the same hue for the sake of cohesion, even though these end up being altered quite a lot in the final product

a note about the base paper layer!! its not actually pure white, but very very light grey. sometimes i make it a slightly darker grey if im feeling dramatic. this keeps the focus on the figures on the foreground probably, and allows the paper layer to interact just a little bit more with colour altering layers above it (overlay layers, for example, dont do SHIT to pure white)

above the paper, the bg shading, and the sketch layer i was too lazy to remove, we've got the blocking ive put down so that the lamb, the speech bubbles, and the sweet elderly koala theyre about to yeet into the great beyond are both not grey and not fading into dark teal. this layer probably wouldnt be here if it was fully coloured!!! however, i love not doing things :]

then theres the one-colour colour layer, and the lineart, of course, normal stuff, and then the topmost layer in this chunk is the figure shading. this can be put above or below the lines if you prefer, since it wont be at full opacity anyways. teal is a pretty strong feature in the cotl palette, esp in toww's domain, so i tend to shade with teal a lot here. not much details of variation in shading strength is applied here, the only notable exception being the bell which i straight up just could not resist making all shiny. since the shading is blocked in with a sketchy pencil brush i use for like all of my art steps, it creates the idea of texture without much real effort.

directly above the shading we have this shit:

shown at normal and full opacity because i need to emphasize these are literally just gradient ovals of pale yellow and it looks silly but:

set that bitch to around 50% opacity and make it an overlay layer and it adds some light and depth to the shaded areas!! note that as i stated before, it is now completely invisible on the sections that are blocked in white, and has little effect on on the black lineart. it doesnt have to be super detailed or precise, but just have the gradient positioned in a way that suggests a source of light

finally, the topmost two layers:

the gradient map here i what i use for most of my cotl stuff, though i poke and prod at it with every image to ensure the shadows are deep and the red is vivid. then duplicate that layer, make the bottom layer somewhere around 50% opacity, and make the topmost layer an overlay. i dont know with any fancyboy words WHY this specifically works; as best as i can figure, the bottom layer applies the colours, while the upper layer improves contrast and colour depth while keeping it within the colour scheme

thats it!!! once you get used to using overlays and gradients, this becomes quite simple, which is nice because i can use these tricks on top of a little low-energy doodle i did about old people murder and have it come out really nice still!!! i love things that save me time and energy!! if you do too, i hope this is helpful!! :]

cult trait: good die young