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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#jiang cheng#Initially I wanted to do a 'Mutiny' quote to follow the 'Luck runs out' quote.#But the musical earworms demanded a different blood to be drawn. And I think it works just as well.#Alright. It's time to confess something. I really struggled with this comic. I didn't want to draw it. Then I didn't want to upload it.#Because I knew I would be here in the tags writing and backspacing for hours trying to articulate my thoughts.#I'm going to talk about death and grief in the tags today so this is your WARNING to look away if you aren't in a headspace for it.#Sometimes in media there are scenes and characters which land on topics so specific to your wounds that it reopens them all over again.#Because here's the truth. When you've known someone like this for nearly your whole life...it doesn't matter how bad the fight is.#You always think 'We'll always have time. One day this dust will settle and we'll rebuild the bridge.'#And then the fucker dies!!! He dies and suddenly there will never ever be time to repair the rift.#Someone you loved died thinking you hated them. And part of you did just a bit. But love and hate aren't mutually exclusive.#He's fucking dead and you are left with so many broken and unfinished pieces between the two of you.#Jiang Cheng loses Wei Wuxian thinking that WWX thought they hated each other.#He's a younger brother who will one day be older than the person he lost.#Who has no one else in the world who understands those feelings of love and hate and grief.#I can't be normal about this character. I don't think he even heals me. Zero catharsis to be gained here.#I just look at his sour grape ass and think 'shit that's a little too close to home.' JC is my discomfort character.#I'm probably going to regret being this vulnerable in the tags in like. An hour. So. sorry if you see this once and never again.#EDIT: Yeah sorry this took 4 hours to muster the courage to post. Surprise update!#EDIT 2: You guys were being too nice to me on my sad comic to point out the spelling error. I have fixed it now B'*)
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âThis is your only chance, Ai'Mook.â
CHANYA AMARIT as VIVI and AYA ORAPAN as KAIMOOK episode 8 of LOVE SEA
#chanya amarit#aya orapan#love sea#love sea the series#vimook#vivi x mook#thai bl#wlw#loveseaedit#asianlgbtqdramas#th: love sea#girls love#thai gl#asian gl#bibi gifs#i have three versions of this same take#i used lossy for the first time in one of these#and also listen i see people are not pleased about the development of vimook tbh kind of wish their problems were resolved sooner#HOWEVER#this is by not even 20% as toxic as most bls couples#and people love a toxic bl pairing but suddenly bc it's two women some people can't handle that#mook deserves better? she does#i want vi to talk her feelings out? YES and she probably will if my hunch is right#but wanting a sunshine and rainbows couple just bc they are wlw is boring i want the yearning and the suffering it's what makes it fun#it's the best part actually
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how long do you think he took to figure it out
#bumbleby#jaune arc#yang xiao long#rwby#rwby spoilers#who else saw him saying feels like i've waited forever and thought oh so you suddenly developed a gaydar!!!!#this man is not fooling me he did not know#also if you were waiting for the divorce comic and got jaune instead i am so sorry i have no excuses l#no winners in this situation except for me lol#my art#my stuff
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"What are you worried about, then?"
#dbda#dead boy detectives#dead boy detective agency#payneland#mygifs#psst i can tell you. he's worried about how suddenly kissing is holding SO much appeal#i am never going to be over this incredible oh moment george absolutely nailed ittttt#the way edwin's eyes search charles's face... awed... the way he so clearly is finding charles mesmerizing#the way they're so close at first - edwin almost stumbles back with the force of the realization. both of how close they were + how he feel#ooof it is everything
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Day 5 and Day 6 of Radiostatic Week
Free day (Picture) and one sided attraction. Seems like purple doesn't suit Alastor...
#hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel fanart#hazbin vox#hazbin alastor#radiostatic#one sided radiostatic#radiostatic week#radiostaticweek#radiostatic week 2024#my art#digital art#clip studio paint#SORRY FOR THE AAAANGST#this whole thing was partially inspired by colors - halsey#âyou were red and you liked me cause I was blue; you touched me and suddenly I was a lilac sky; and you decided purple just wasnt for youâ#i love this song so much and it reminds me so much of radiostatic now ahah#I made Alastor be kind of sad that he can't reciprocate Vox's feelings because I love the angst lolol#he was trying so hard and a part of him wanted to fall in love; but he finally accepted the fact that he just can't do it#complicated and sad
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How would Sun from your have you eaten au feel about hugs? He seems like he's so reserved and you mentioned that because he knows he's a robot he isn't very indulgent
But would he like hugs? Or could he warm up to them eventually?
(was chatting with @inkydoughnut the other day and i realized i never posted this comic woops đ)
well well! Sun is no stranger to hugs! he doesn't usually initiate hugs, but he's used to receiving them from when he was a daycare attendant. he's never really learned when is a good time to pull back tho, so he often stays put until you pull back first:
Eclipse: Sun, we have dishes to wash.
Sun: You have 4 hands. And Moon.
#ask the crab#fnaf sun#fnaf eclipse#fnaf dca#dca fandom#Have You Eaten? AU#Sun Have You Eaten? AU#Eclipse Have You Eaten? AU#crab art#digital art#bright colours#i think he does like hugs though#it's one of those things where he only realizes he likes them in their absence#like if a customer were to hug Sun every day#if they suddenly stopped coming to the restaurant Sun would feel a little down#ough i can imagine the first time he got hugged by one of the kids at the daycare#he's seen kids hug Moon and Eclipse all the time#but the first time one hugs him#ough#he probably cherishes that memory#i've mentioned before physical touch isn't really how he communicates his care#but i think if he were in a relationship with someone who likes to hug and kiss him#he would try to take more initiative to reciprocate#âDo you like this?â#âIs this adequate?â#âI want to better understand what brings you joy.â#âThen perhaps I can better understand the effect you have on me.â
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mmmmm danny with sensory issues both in and out of his ghost forms, but on the opposite ends of the spectrum. Ghosts can't experience sensations the same way humans can when they're in the mortal realm. They're naturally intangible, and it takes energy to be physical. When they're physical, all touch feels the same barring the texture. They feel no heat, no chill. Sunlight passes through them, and so does wind and rain.
You know when your foot falls asleep/goes completely numb, and you go to touch it with your hand and it causes a strange jumble of sensations? You can feel the skin there, your palm is pressing against an object and there's resistance, pressure, but you can't feel the heat? It's kinda something like that. Like he's feeling everything through a set of gloves.
As a ghost, when it rains, he can feel the raindrops hitting him, and he can feel his hair getting wet, but he can't feel the chill of the water and he can't feel the wetness. His suit is soaked but there's no weight like there should be. During the winter snowflakes don't melt when they land on him, and he can't feel the chill of the snow when he gets buried under it.
Sunlight passes through him, a nice breeze ruffles his hair but there's no relief in the sensation. All pressure, no sensation. It's like a strange form of sensory deprivation. And of course, the internal things. It's even worse when he's intangible, when he's not putting energy into being physical. He doesn't feel real.
As human, things become too much. Especially when he's been a ghost for hours. He can feel the weight of his ribs pressing against his ribs, he becomes hyperaware of the expanding of his lungs when he breathes, the feeling of his heart pulsing in his chest.
He curls his fingers in and out slowly and becomes fascinated by the feeling of the joints moving. He turns and grabs Tucker's hand, and soaks in the warmth of his body heat -- he can't feel it as a ghost. He runs his fingers through his hair, and he can feel the individual strands.
There's a weight when he walks. A small drag when he bends his knee and lifts his leg and takes a step, and when he's been a ghost for too long he stumbles over himself, drags his feet along the floor and stomps when he doesn't mean to because he forgot to weigh his steps. Sometimes when it rains he goes out and sits on the front steps of the house just so he can come back in shivering and soaked through to the bone. Runs his fingers obsessively over the goosebumps up along his arms and legs because he can't get them as a ghost even if he's cold.
Because there are certain things, even when he's in the ghost zone, that are exclusive to the living. The little internal things you don't notice and take for granted. Things like breathing and goosebumps and exhaustion exclusive to running that makes your heart pound against your ribcage and your chest hurt with the need for air. Sore muscles from working out and sweating. Thirst and dry mouths, chapped lips and hands, blinking and dry eye, the feeling of the sun soaking into your skin on a nice summer's day.
As a ghost, Danny faces sensory issues in the form of not enough. When he can't feel the hair behind his ears or the weight in his limbs where there should be muscle, tissue, and bone. He can't feel the sun or the wind, everything is in a permeable state of 'just fine', and its maddening. He can breathe if he wants, but there's no point to it. He has no lungs, he can't feel them expand, and there's no relief behind it. He's going through the motions without any of the reward.
On those days, the idea of going ghost again makes him feel ill. Paranoid. He can't stand the thought. He needs to feel. He needs to feel the soft texture of the rug beneath his feet and the grooves in his knuckles, he needs to feel dirt crumble beneath his fingers and get stuck under his nails, he needs to feel the heat of his sister's hand and the feeling of body warmth passing from her to him. He lays on the carpet room and stretches out, and focuses on the feeling of his heart beating and the weight of his bones and muscles and tissue pinning him to the floor.
As a human, Danny faces sensory issues of too much. When all the things he's starving for suddenly make him sick. He feels trapped in his own skin. His ribs become a cage and breathing becomes a dumbbell that he can't put down. He can feel the hair along his arms and it rashes him. He's too cold, he's too hot. He feels like a ghost puppeteering its own corpse and he needs out.
On those days, Danny dips away when he can and goes ghost, and Sam and Tucker don't see him for the rest of the day. He's gone invisible, intangible, and he does nothing but exist.
Just, him experiencing sensory issues as both ghost and human, but in opposite directions from each other. And the idea that ghosts experience the mortal realm differently, and that there are certain things that are just exclusive sensations for the living that Danny doesn't realize until he's a halfa.
#danny fenton is not the ghost king#danny fenton#danny phantom#dp ghost headcanons#dp headcanons#dpxdc#danny phantom headcanon#<- bc i originally thought of this for the blood blossom au except its generic enough of a headcanon that it also works as a standalone#but also i think dpxdc folks would get a kick out of this#but yeah danny realizing that there's SO much that the living have and experience that ghosts don't even in the infinite realms.#i imagine that when he overshadows someone he can re-experience a handful of those sensations like if he were living and suddenly#he understands really well why there are some ghosts who come thru the portal that almost exclusively overshadow people. Or try to.#The mock feeling of being alive again must be *addicting* to some of them. Because he knows it is for him when being a ghost is too much#not a lot of extra tags today folks i got everything i needed to say out into the post :]
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aughdhshfjjsjcjdjfjsbgsknfjs <- leshy in this art probably
#mrk.art#cult of the lamb#cotl fanart#cotl narinder#the one who waits#cotl leshy#blood#eye injury#eyestrain#imagine. you arâ WERE. you were my older brother. you might've had a stick up your ass but i still cared for you. loved youâ even. and then#suddenly my followersâ swayed by your experimentsâ left me and worshipped you instead. and i began to grow weakâ to lose my power#my other siblings also suffered from thisâ allmighty gods no longerâ for you stood above us in terms of might. and thenâ#and thenâ ...i do not know the full extent of what happened. but i know with all my being that you betrayed us.#we fought. godly blood was spilled. the last thing i remember seeing was your claws stained with ichor.#you are gone nowâ imprisoned forever in your realmâ chained there to *rot*. and no matter how much vindication and hatred i feel for youâ#for the fact that you live stillâ as death could not be killedâ there's a part of me that still yearns for an older brother who raised meâ#who taught meâ who loved meâ who betrayed me. who torn my eyes out of my headâ ripped off my brothers earsâ sliced my sister's throat openâ#crushed my sibling's skull.#bishop leshy#LMAO writing a ficlet in the tags. average tumblr user experience. j will now turn into a clam soup. good by e
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drawing your favorite guys being silly is very effective at keeping The Horrors at bay
bonus doc from a different canvas:
#back to the future#bttf#bttf fanart#marty mcfly#doc brown#emmett brown#kit does an art#yeah i have ten million other things i should probably be drawing instead (rip askbox left to dry...) but#sometimes you just need to draw your favorite guys giving each other physical affection. actual health benefits from this. would recommend#was feeling The Horror beforehand and then i drew them hugging and suddenly The Horror was gone! scientifically proven [citation needed]#the one where doc picks him up and spins him around makes me unreasonably happy i love being an artist!!!!#some of the other little doodles were just bc i still had the doodle bug but didn't want to commit to another big drawing haha#when in doubt give them the dotdotdot expression#the first drawing is based off of this gifset i saw of mjf jumping into other people's arms#good gifset. will need to look for it again. that man can jump#it's also a redraw! i drew the same thing when i first fell into this fandom hole#but that was before i knew how to draw them 100% so i never posted it haha#i love their stupid antennae. especially docs. he can go ! and ? and sometimes <3 it's so funny to me i love that thing#the one where he's sending radio waves to marty is soo stupid i keep laughing when i look at it#'marty. do not listen to that guy call you a chicken. stay calm' 'shit the signal's weak he didn't get my message'#tag as ship and a plague of locusts will be upon ye.#and yes. they are invasive and WILL wreak havoc on your local native wildlife
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nobody look at me nobody talk to me im. I'M REALLY NOT OKAY....
#what the...... fucm.......k......#stares at his topknot lovingly#guys...... guy... s.........#holding back the tears in my eyes#how am I supposed to be normal under these conditions#I have so much to think about now#im just. staring at him#never expected to see him again#I feel so sad and so strange#to be honest I'm not even caught up on part 2 I'm like 30 chapters behind#I just read the chapter today#so I kind of. have no idea what's going on#it's like if you were watching a random show about random people you don't know#and then suddenly. the love of your life appeared#wtf wtf this is so messed up....#I don't want to even work today.....#I missed him so much I cannot#LIKE HOW IS IT EVEN REAL#AND TO BE CONTINUED??! WE WILL GET ANOTHER FLASHBACK OF HIM#I'm. so#hayakawa family pls save me
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My loneliness is erosive!! Via Instagram
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The more I try to analyse Komaeda the more apparent it becomes that he's a hypocrite about everything. Ever. All the time. Cognitive dissonance all the way down.
#and i love him for it#danganronpa#komaeda#.txt#like looking over ch1's trial again it suddenly stood out that he keeps saying#he wants 'proof' hope can overcome any despair. he 'wants to see' that 'light'. repeatedly.#cry-stars and i were discussing that and feel like if you look at his hope complex through a religionlike lens#it's almost like he's a christian facing a chance to physically meet jesus lol#like he's openly implying he hasn't had proof of his views until now#and that makes sense because noone actually handed him a manual of eg. how his luck works growing up#he made up that model himself
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for something as trivial and simple those feelings sure are hard to get rid of
also made a gif a version for fun + alt version with no tears under the cut
the gif is in very low resolution...this is a feature (i could make it bigger but that would require saving each frame individually and than glueing it all together. also i feel like low resolution suits it better. aesthetically and fits the mood)
#hs#homestuck#dirk strider#eye strain#probably? if you think i should tag something else let me know!!#anyway hooray its time for rambling in the tags#so uhhh heres the teĂŚ i've been sick for like a week and you know how it is when suddenly your throat becomes the main gunk warehouse#and you can't breathe lol. wish i could just pull it out. anywaaayy this is basically a vent piece for me being sick lol#also i could draw remotively the same thing with kris deltarune. oh how easy it is to project having a cold#though i have been also experiencing troubles with feelings recently as well....how fitting for dirk#speaking of the man himself (enough of me) his relationship with his own Heart...is peculiar to say the least#the thing i love about alphakids is that despite being so feral they were. so relatable. i cannot stress this enough how unwell they are an#and how they represented being a teen so well. yeah being 15 years old makes that to you#imagine being an emotional mess and trying to fit the 'norm' and act normal about your friends so youre not offputting#and then you fall in love with you friend and your ai clone falls in love with him too looool noone makes out of this one alive#uhh literally. godtiering stuff and dying remember#and speaking of it. tw for suicidal talk for the rest of tags#do you ever think dirk was suicidal. of course the part of when he teleports his head to jake was totally planned and he knew he would ->#wake up as dreamself but. don't you think the moment he cut his head off was sort of. cathartic. how much did he hate his own guts#beheading himself not only for the plan...but also because he thought he 'deserved' it#also wow he is a Prince and was literally beheaded don't you think its funny hahaa#sigh poor thing#this has ended on a not the very pleasant note hm#also fckkkkkk i didn't draw anything with rose/mary for the lesbian visabilty week#(putting the slash because tumblr search system has a dumb gag with showing you posts that contain the tag inside the other tag.#and i don't want this post to show up for the ros/mary fans because it's not!!!! its rose's father emotional crisis post!!!!)#update YOOOO WHAT THE HELL THE GIF HAS EVEN LESS PIXELS THEN I PLANNED fantastic#this your breakfast now tumblr. enjoy your crunchy flakes of dirks meltdown. mwah
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thinking about this right now
#nettsy rambling#nsr#struggling for words rn because i woke up like 45 minutes ago but are you guys seeing the parallel here#thinking about how both west and eve said these things during their frenzied/angered(?) rants#in which they both tear down zuke in a perhaps unsuccessful attempt at making them feel better about themselves/'greater' than him#and therefore undeserving of his [defiance] ...#(as in. disappearing and suddenly having formed Bunk Bed Junction after everything they did together#and 'stealing my friends AND my girl' in west's case)#[for the record 'defiance' is probably NOT the word but it's the closest thing to what i'm attempting to convey here]#anyways#... all of which i think was really just Zuke growing and developing as His Own person. separate from both eve and his brother#who i'm assuming were the Main forces in his life during his college career#*scratches head*#hiding this in the tags because idk well i articulated it#but you get what i mean right
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I feel like when you take into account that an "Elemental Power" is just what they call superpowers in Ninjago, it's way harder to get upset about bullshit powers like Mind, Speed, Reflex, Surface Tension, etc.
It's literally just Quirks from MHA, no need to go on a million rants on how every new element is the stupidest shit Ninjago has ever done.
Sure an "element" should be based more on like. Physical elemental things or whatever but. There's not exactly an infinite amount of elements to go around that they can make man they gotta just start bullshitting and frankly I support this endeavor.
#sorry im just mad about elemental discourse LOLLLL#like theyre just superpowers lol#when u take that into account suddenly tech power and all that feels more logical#also hating on dr elements when gravity speed and mind were things is stupid shut up#ninjago#ninjago dragons rising#ninjago spoilers#raine's rambles
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Im scared to think what if Guillermo and Nandor were always together and just fooled the documentary crew into thinking they had nothing romantic going on
#like I know itâs not possible#BUT IT COULD ALSO BE#but the yearning is not very relationship I know#idk idk#but like I suddenly had this fear#like oh my god what if we were tricked#but itâs not real I know#like we hadnât seen their relationship build that beautiful only to be fake after all this time#it doesnât feel like they were acting soâŚ#me and my silly thoughts#sasa rambles#what we do in the shadows#wwdits#nandor the relentless#guillermo de la cruz#nandermo#nandor x guillermo#wwdits guillermo#wwdits nandor
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