#and so to have it make sense for louis armstrong to be there

[ritahayworrth]

anyway grace kelly in high society (1956) is actually good. while as far as she is from being a Comedienne™, she totally could have become one if she had had the chance to. like isolating her performance, her tracy is charming and funny, and i think her spin on tracy works and she is able to make it her own especially when you consider that tracy was originally written specifically with kate in mind. its just totally undermined by the fact that when unavoidably you compare the film as a whole to the 1940 version, the film is just not as good because the pacing of high society is horrible, and really just feels like they just cut and pasted the quippiest lines from the original and added some cole porter songs in between. and then of course there is bing crosby...........

[mothtoaflamee]

Alastor x Parental!reader GN (platonic)

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You had been staying at the hotel for about a month now, getting acquainted with the other tenants and hotel staff, a few in particular catching your eye.

Charlie was one of the first to greet you upon your arrival. Cheery and optimistic compared to the woman next to her, who Charlie introduced as Vaggie. With an attempt to have you both shake hands in greeting, you were met with a spear pointed at you, which if you count that as a warm welcome, is exactly what you received. Charlie had to assure Vaggie that you didn't pose a threat. You didn't think much of it afterward. The next person to greet you was what you first assumed to be a child but was in fact not; her name was Nifty, who sort of introduced herself, excitedly running around you, quickly leaving before you even had the chance to respond to her endless questions. Husker and Angel were the next two people Charlie introduced to you too. They were chatting at the bar, with Husker looking annoyed and giving you a wave before cleaning a glass. Angel didn't seem too interested in talking to you, but he did try. And finally, Alastor appeared, introducing himself loudly as the hotelier. His personality and overall stature interested you, so you two ended up talking for a very long time.

Which now leads you to the present time. You were known to be parental around the hotel, not in an annoying, nagging way. Though it may seem like it, you only had the best intentions when it came to your protective nature towards others. Even though all of them were older than you and died before you, you still felt protective over everyone.

Despite everything, you weren't pushed away for this; it was welcomed, giving off a found-family vibe. It was early in the morning, and you smelled a pleasant smell of food downstairs, which woke you up. Yawing, you got up and out of bed, stretching before changing into your day clothes before heading out the door and going downstairs.

https://open.spotify.com/track/0Yj7WP1MbAqQVQA5Na4I7E?si=6-ipc1ipSiK2l94K1rbaWQ

As you walked to the kitchen you could hear the pleasant soft sound of old jazz, knowing it must mean Alastor was the one cooking something, he was the only one known to do this, it was common for him to wake up (assuming he even slept in the first place, you’ve never seen him sleep) to make breakfast. Finally making it to the kitchen, you found Alastor making what looked to be beignets, grits, with red beans and rice. Then you looked over to where the kitchen table was where a cup of coffee with chicory sat. You stood there for a moment taking in the scene before you. Alastor hummed to the tune of the old jazz, his movements fluid and graceful as he stirred the red beans and rice. A small fire danced in the pan as he added a bit of spice to the mix, the scent of cinnamon and sugar wafting through the air as he flipped the beignets. He looked over his shoulder at you, a wide grin on his face as he continued to cook.

"Ah! Hello, Mon cher. I see you've come to join me for some breakfast. I must say, the jazz is quite fitting, wouldn't you agree? It's a shame we can't have a dance to it, but I suppose we'll have to make do with the cooking."

He flipped the beignet once more, using his demonic magic to create a small, harmless flame to caramelize the sugar on top. He then plated the food, setting it on the table with a flourish before pouring you a cup of coffee as well, something he’d commonly do when he was alive for his mother, in a way being around you gave him a tiny sense of nostalgia. The human part of him.

"Please, have a seat. I'm sure you're famished, and I would hate for our guest to leave hungry."

You nodded, walking over to the seat he pointed towards. Sitting down and watching him as he cooked, humming along with the jazz tunes, you wondered what he was thinking about behind his signature smile. Out of everyone in the hotel, he was the hardest to read, and surprisingly, the most protective you felt over him, a compelling feeling to protect him despite knowing he was much, much more powerful than you’d ever be.

“Thanks Al, I appreciate it, I smelt the food and just had to go down, it looks delicious by the way.”

You complimented him, you did mean it, the smell was homey and sweet like sugar. Alastor grinned, a satisfied look on his face as he took his own seat across from you. He picked up his spoon, dipping it into the grits bringing it to his lips. A small, contented hum escaped him as he chewed, his eyes closing for a moment before he opened them again.

"Oh, I'm glad to hear it. I've always enjoyed cooking. It's a way for me to unwind, to put my mind at ease. Though, it's always better when I have company to share it with."

He took a sip of his coffee, the chicory adding a bittersweet taste to the brew. He leaned back in his chair, his grin never faltering as he looked at you.

"So, how are you finding your new home? I must say, I'm quite proud of Charlie for starting this hotel. I've always enjoyed a bit of chaos, but it's nice to see some order to it all."

You hummed, taking a sip of the bitter-sweet coffee, it wasn’t too hot nor too cold, the perfect blend, you thought about your time at the hotel, it was nice, not sure if redemption was possible but still willing to try if it made Charlie happy, growing attached to everyone in the hotel especially Alastor in particular.

“It’s nice here, I care about you all dearly, though I may not believe in redemption I’m willing to stay around and try, plus you guys aren’t all that bad to be around.”

You nodded at Alastors statement, it was oddly quiet but calm today, even though it was probably only because it was early in the morning, everything felt calmer. Alastor chuckled, waving his hand as if to dismiss your words.

"Oh, pish-posh. You're too kind. But I must say, I'm glad to hear it."

You watched as his eyes scanned the room, taking in the silence other than the smooth jazz playing in the background. He took another sip of his coffee.

"Yes, it is rather quiet today. Perhaps the other residents are still asleep. I'm sure they'll be up soon enough, bringing their own brand of chaos to the hotel. It's always a delight to see."

His grin never faltered, but his voice held an underlying softness to it, as if Alastor truly cared for your well-being.

“Indeed it is, I wonder what Charlie has in store for us today, hopefully something fun, wouldn’t you agree?”

Perhaps hell wasn’t all that awful with a company as wonderful as the hotel residents, hoping for better days to come in the future, more experiences, and more memories.

(End)

(Sorry if there are some grammar mistakes in here, I haven’t written something like this is years though I’m happy to be back! Have a wonderful day <3) -strawberry

[d-apperc-adaver]

PART I

warnings: n/a, no there will be no smut, but spicy things will HEAVILY will be hinted at. sorta

plot: this chapter is more of a buildup. frustrated hopelessly in love gn reader :)

Thinking about Beetlejuice’s love life made you filled to the brim with rage. This havoc created by Delores and thinking about his past with her…lit your fuse.

It was quite obvious. You were tapping your finger obnoxiously on the table thinking about it.

And now he also has the nerve to say that Lydia was the love of his life?!! Damn that man! Damn him! Eternally!

Superficial deals for his own benefit. Or so at least you tried to convince yourself.

He was outright ridiculous at this point. The Beetlejuice you knew would’ve moved on already. And you know Beetlejuice.

You saw the man have an Elvis phase, get a fixation on speology, teach you medieval languages, lie that his middle name was Pete because he lost his shit when he heard Louis Armstrong sing Cuban Pete.

You always stayed. Just to be seemingly made out of cellophane when you tried to talk to him about anything relationship related thing. Didn’t matter whose problems were. If it weren’t about something he did in the past, a rendezvous, he would avoid it like a devil running away from holy water.

Everything made you internally explode.

He drove you crazy.

And you kept tap tapping at the surface of your table, the poor thing might just get a dent.

But the thing is, why did you even care about his poor “love choices”. Why did you put up with this then organise a mental pity party, “it should’ve been me! ME!” for yourself?

Fair enough he talked a good chunk about them and about how what a catch he is, but still. You accepted his way of being when you took the commitment of being his friend. A gross, perverted, ridiculous in every capacity and disgustingly charming ghost.

And you loved it. You were in absolute awe with his way of being.

You don’t quite remember when you started to fancy him. But in moments like this you sure do wonder why the feelings remained.

You really wished he would have seen more in you but unfortunately you seem to not have bewitchingly cursed enough eyes or some other bullshit.

But with the sound of your thoughts growing louder and louder and getting thrown off by your own feelings that you wanted gone and substantial amount of jealousy, you got back to work.

I mean. Doing him a favour. Sorting leftover business flyers..yeahhhh.

Ironically enough this was the fuel to all of your fire.

If you could say so.

“Looking for a…

LOVE CONNECTION?”

“DEAD-ICATED TO FINDING YOUR MATCH?”

It’s as if you could smell the cheap candles, satin robes and rose petals right in your face.

Makes sense to get angry at a lovey dovey flyer he planned on sending to any woman, VERY MUCH preferably a breather he would have to “woo” to do that weird wedding ritual, in his close proximity. I mean he already went ahead and conjured one for Lydia. But the worst part of this is that he seemed to have more of a romantic obsession with her now rather than his just do it for his own freedom. Ew.

So while doing that. You tried your best to keep your mind quiet from the suppressed feelings for Beetlejuice out of all ghosts, and moved to the normal classic good ol “TROUBLE WITH THE LIVING” flyers. You packed them up neatly in boxes, hell even put labels on them.

You got up from the table with a loud sigh of relief of finally getting away from things that reminded you of your adoration for the demon (oh how you’d love to just staareee all day into those big blue eyes) and rising your head up you were met with a horrifying:

“What’s got your panties in a twist hun?”

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Hope u enjoyed the fanfic ♡´･ᴗ･`♡ thx for reading through

I’m cooking up a part two…

EDIT: THE TAGS!! How could I forget the tags… gee. I’m stuid :P

[mitch-the-silly]

GUYS LOOK AT MY ALASTOR REDESIGN!!!

I’m obsessed with this-

Now, I was determined that justice be brought to Alastor. So I did him right by giving his his black features AND I shifted the focus of his demon form the voodoo symbols to the glitching and the Wendigo aesthetic. I like to think that the eye on his speaker is an extension of his power, so when he goes crazy it’s the eye where all the tentacles and things of the sort come from.

I made him look more like a deer because it had to be done!!!

Now, here’s some lore for my Alastor:

His little microphone/staff is an extension of his power. So instead of Voodoo symbols needing to show up on the screen when he starts tweakin, he just needs the eye on his microphone. The eye summons the tentacles and such, and I took off the voodoo elements because

1). I’m not capacitated to be speaking on Voodoo

2.) I’m not drawing them symbols because my grandma taught me better than to mess with forces I don’t understand

3.) His true form leans closer to the appearance of a Wendigo, so I wanted to focus of that.

So Alastor, having died in the forest, it makes sense his demon for ends up being a Wendigo. He was a serial killer and had to stalk to kill his victims, very much like a Wendigo. If we stick to some of the legends that depict the Wendigo, one may argue that his murders were done due to being possessed by one. I’d like to say that for my Alastor, he was indeed a Wendigo victim.

As for the Alastor being a mama’s boy allegations (it’s canon, but I wanted to say it this way lol), he’s not beating them. One of the traits that I love the most about canon Alastor is his love for his mom! I think it’s a good trait in him that explains why he’s very disdainful towards men, but very tolerant towards women. I’d like to build upon that trait with his character.

As mentioned by Mimzy, Alastor was a huge dancer and a hard social drinker. I just know this man can handle his weight in alcohol if he so desired- I’m sure he was the life of the party when he had the chance to go out after work. Also, some part of me just knows he was a huge Louis Armstrong and Cab Calloway fan. Which brings me to say that my Alastor has a Cajun accent. YOU’RE WELCOME-

BUT ENOUGH ABOUT LIVING ALASTOR

Due to how nice Lucifer is, Alastor in hell is exactly what people mean when they say “the devil himself”. He’s as always merciless and charismatic; the perfect mix for an overlord. He ruled “peacefully” from the late 30’s to the early 50’s (when Vox appeared). Him and Vox got along quite well at first, but when Vox started leaning towards those pesky innovations, Alastor showed his disagreement and denied a spot in the Vees when Valentino joined the hierarchy of Hell.

[wanderinginksplot-writes]

Clone Trooper Rambles

Because everything is a little more interesting with imaginary clone troopers hanging around.

Warnings: Frustration about post-surgery recovery (long-term).

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Singing Again

“Thanks for listening! We’ll see you guys next time.”

The podcast ended and flipped immediately to the next song on the playlist. Rex eyed me from the passenger seat. 

It had been months since the surgery. I could speak normally again - as long as I wasn’t talking for an extended period of time - but singing was still out of my reach. I had been fixating on this podcast when I was driving or doing mindless work around the house. 

But that day, I hadn’t loaded another episode of the podcast to play. I didn’t like messing with my phone overly much while I drove, especially to do something as involved as finding the right episode and adding it to my queue. And the weather had decided to go from sunny to a torrential downpour in the last few minutes, so my concentration was firmly fixed on the road. 

And so I let the song play. It was Ella Fitzgerald’s Dream a Little Dream of Me, a song I had loved for as long as I could remember. I had a similar vocal range as Ella in that particular song, and it always gave me chills to hear her beautiful voice dance up and down the notes.

We drove in a cocoon of quiet - Louis Armstrong’s trumpet and Ella Fitzgerald’s voice filling the car as the rain drummed on the roof and windows. Rex’s attention was on the road ahead. Boss was watching the scenery fly by from the back seat and Trapper seemed to be nodding off in beside him.

“But in your dreams, whatever they be, dream a little dream of me.”

The words had burst from me in a uncontainable stream and I was horrified… until I realized that I sounded okay. Not just okay; I had actually hit the correct notes!

I laughed delightedly as the troopers swiveled their attention to me. As Louis and Ella scatted back and forth in the background, I asked, “Did you guys hear that? I think my voice is back!”

“We heard,” Boss told me. 

Rex nodded. “That sounded great.”

Trapper waved me on. “Keep going!” 

“Sweet dreams… til sunbeams find you, keep dreaming

Leave the worries behind you

But in your dreams, whatever they be

You’ve gotta make me a promise

Promise to me

You’ll dream

Dream a little dream of me”

The song ended, fading into nothingness. My smile was so wide that my cheeks were starting to ache, but I couldn’t have been happier. 

“How do you feel?” Rex asked. 

“Light,” I answered without thinking. Then, when I realized that didn’t make a lot of sense, I added, “I feel like I could fly the rest of the way home.” 

“You look like it, too,” Boss said. “Happy for you, kid.” 

I kept smiling as Trapper leaned forward to pat me on the shoulder. I felt so good that I wasn’t even going to object to being called ‘kid’.

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Author's Note - As a reminder, I write these a long time before I ever post them. This moment happened quite a few months ago, but it was a delight to revisit. Thank you for reading!

[ask-the-four-lords]

This is a question for each of the four lords. It’s not one I’ve ever seen asked before. Though I feel it can tell you a lot about a person.

What is the earliest memory you have? For example, I remember visiting a waterfall with my family. It can be super vague, as those memories usually are.

Thank you!

- 🦇

Blog auth here; I know this is a lot I just really liked this question. I know it's mostly HC but I hope it suffices. I also ended up only doing their earliest clear-as-day, perfectly intact memories because I felt like they'd be more interesting than the vague ones even if the vague ones were earlier, so presume there are earlier memories but these are the first really clear, solidified, intact ones.

Salvatore Moreau: M-my first mem-glugkg-memory *acid in mouth, swallowed after about 30 sec* was the day I went out on the wadder for the firrrsst time. The smell ah' the lake... there-there was nothing like it... 'st-still isn't. I n-never spent more than three deys without going oud' on the water after that, even if I' *gags* I'll never smel it straight again, I'll never forget the exac' smell of that afternoon. *he cries softly at the memory of his long since departed father and his dulled sense of smell since implantation*

Donna Beneviento: *she pauses, building the courage, sniffling at the thoughts* My earliest memory was the day my dad gave me Angie... I felt ever so safe with her. I couldn't sleep that night. I took Angie with me, snuck out of the manor and went to watch the waterfall... it was ever so beautiful... they... they, it was only *breaks down crying* a week later, they, they did... no, please. *manages to push the thoughts down* But it was like Angie spoke to me, like a friend, the other kids all thought I was a freak, they said I was sick, broken. Then, then my eye, after the Cadou it was so much worse! *quietly* I hate me. Evil, repulsive, freak! Monster! *cries, hits self although lightly* But out by the waterfall Angie seemed to come alive and she seemed to care. I'm so grateful I got make her come alive for real, and it's been a little better since, my only friend, they thought she was sooo weird but she was and is... a friend. I don't ever want her to leave me, I-I don't know what I'd do. *holds onto Angie, with desperation*

Alcina Dimitrescu: I was only ten, maybe eleven, I can't remember exactly, poor girl that I was. I had never really gotten to leave home due to that *with vitriol* miserable illness that ruined my old life, all of it. They had sat me in bed, it had been so long... it blended together, many months at a time usually. But mother brought me so many books, always enough, I never ran out. I loved them. They were all I had. All the distractions in bed never made it any better in truth, but I remember losing myself in the stories. More than anything, most importantly, I remember *in spellbound awe* hearing the jazz, Louis Armstrong, his crooked croon, gave things a color that they hadn't had before. Mother brought the albums in, all the masters, the greats, I always knew I'd end taking my place among them, and I did. Mother, she had been something of a socialite in those days, after jazz made it to Europe, she was hooked, and thus, so was I.

Karl Heisenberg: Old uncle Heisenberg... that fuck raised me, after my parents kicked the ol' bucket. He was a mechanist, 'damn good one too. He taught me the tricks of tha trade, how to wield a wrench, how to hit something in the right places 'till it *sarcastically aggressive* fucking worked, how to weld, the tools, the method, all of it. The dirty bastard wanted me to be a mechanic, mechanist, whatever, when I grew up, 'guess I was in the end. He was a scurvy old motherfucker, but 'e loved me in 'is own way, he was a drunk too. *scoffs a little, amused* But anyways, *back to point* my earliest memory, clear-as-day memory that is, I still got a lotta vague shit alongside it, was me and Uncle Heisenberg, I smelled like motor oil, I'd smell like motor oil there on out. He said I was old enough, passed a smoke and a whiskey. 'Whole day we'd been workin' on one of 'is projects, one of the less stupid ones, it was right when we said we'd go to sleep and then didn't, he ran into me when we both went to hit the workshop. He believed in me, at least more than the others ever would. That night, the smoke wafted from the cigar, he passed it. I took a drag. It felt right, and more or less felt alright. He said I was a "man now" who knows whatever the fuck that means but it meant somethin' to me, always will. *Laughs* If he knew I mainly called him a scurvy old bastard, he'd be proud, he was a asshole, drunk, and all-around sonofabitch, but he was a damn good man, 'loved 'im.

[thee-horny-thicky]

The 141’s Music Taste

A/N: The genres and artists I’ve selected were chosen through the lenses of a Black American, and I have no clue how popular they are in the U.K. However, given that these men have traveled the world, I doubt that really matters. Anyway, enjoy :)

Captain John Price:

Now, I know he’s canonically only in his late 30s, but I imagine him loving oldies. And when I say oldies, I mean songs older than him. Blues, jazz, and classic rock have his heart. After a mission, he loves nothing more than to kick back with a cigar and whiskey, with some Ray Charles or Louis Armstrong playing in the background.

The only modern genre he really likes is R&B, largely due to how much the aforementioned genres influenced it. And by modern, I mean the stuff around during the early 2000s.

Also, despite his love for old music, he cannot stand classical. It gives him a headache and irritates him to high-heaven.

Simon ‘Ghost’ Riley:

I see a lot of people headcanon that Ghost is a metalhead. It’s an obvious choice and honestly makes sense. However, given his past, I believe that he’d have an aversion to metal. He might not be opposed to the classic rock ‘n roll sound, but metal? That’s a no-go.

I imagine him loving music that centers around self-expression and conveying what the artist has gone through. It grounds him and helps him feel a little more human. Thus, I think that he’d love blues and rap above all genres.

He especially loves 2Pac because of how often he talked about the social issues around him, even if Ghost himself can’t relate to the bulk of them. He just likes that 2Pac used his fame to talk about what his community was going through, and he loves his versatility.

R&B is another genre he regularly listens to, and I can even see him dabbling in pop. And by pop, I mean Lana Del Rey esc music. Also, as odd as it may seem, I can see him really liking Melanie Martinez.

Johnny ‘Soap’ McTavish:

Soap’s the metalhead of the bunch. He can give you an in-depth critique of all the famous bands and has a list of underground metal artists he adores. Due to being a part of an elite task force, he rarely gets a chance to see his favorites, so when he does, he buys a ludicrous amount of merchandise to commemorate the show.

However, though he’s a metalhead first and foremost, he can vibe with any music he can dance to. Beyonce’s Renaissance? He had it on repeat, playing it so much, that his bunkmates were too annoyed to even tease him. And after a particularly rough mission, I imagine he’d turn to a softer-sounding genre like R&B.

But don’t play anything too slow around him, because he will complain. And opera? It makes him murderous.

Kyle ‘Gaz’ Garrick:

Gaz was the only one to willingly listen to Renaissance with poor Johnny. I don’t know why, but I can picture him being a big Bey fan, his love for her going all the way back to her Destiny Child days when she was his celebrity crush. Play any Beyonce song, and he’ll be able to tell you the name of it within 2.3 seconds. And since he grew up during their domination, he’s also partial to the Spice Girls.

Prince and Michael Jackson are two more of his favorites, and he even managed to get Sosp hooked on them.

Now, he does also enjoy more ‘masculine’ music, the primary example being ‘90s gangsta rap. However, I imagine him preferring genres like R&B, pop, melodic rap, and neo-soul. And unlike Ghost, his pop music doesn’t need to have a sad girl or sad-core lilt. No, he’ll be fine jamming to Britney Spears, Dojo Cat, and Dua Lipa.

If you can’t tell by now, R&B is basically the only genre the 141 can agree on. Rhythm and Blues is a very versatile genre, allowing every member to enjoy it despite their varied music tastes. And honestly, I’m kinda obsessed with them blasting it during missions.

[ohblahdo]

The thing about Skywriting By Word of Mouth is that I don't think the whole thing is about Paul or that there's one single decoder ring you can use to make it all make sense, but I'm also incapable of not raising an eyebrow at passages like

’Way down yonder in New Orleans over backwards to accommodate line u.s. a.) you’re adorable b.) you’re so beautiful of himself.

Way Down Yonder in New Orleans is Bing Crosby and Louis Armstrong, and A - You're Adorable is Perry Como (among others), and then you've got a 'leans over backwards' pun, a 'date line/dateline USA' pun, and a 'full of himself' pun. But if you step back... who invited John to New Orleans shortly before he would have been writing this? Who might he think was both adorable and full of himself? (The next line of that song is "C, you're a cutie full of charm".)

What it means, I don't know, but the one thing I'm reasonably sure of is that Yoko wouldn't have known either - if this mishmash of wordplay and song lyrics from John's childhood is baffling to most of us, imagine how it would read to a non-native English speaker who grew up in Japan. And given that we know Yoko read John's journals and listened in on his phone calls, that strikes me as interesting in and of itself: he wanted her to be that possessive, but he also liked playing mind games and maybe enjoyed reminiscing about old friends in a format that only he would understand.

[vnyverse]

may i request a scenario with haerin where, they’re about to sleep facing each other and despite the darkness around them, reader still manages to see and capture haerin’s beauty. slightly touching her features to feel it and smiling at just how lucky she is to have haerin.

this is too specific but i dreamt of it and can’t get it out of my head. also just because i love haerin so much 🥲

side note: i really really really love and enjoy your work AND I AM NOT EXAGGERATING. i love the way you narrate and everything. you’re my favourite author out of everyone. keep writing wonderful works, vyny!

a/n: I’m glad you like my writing, and I hope you like my playful take on this! I'm still exploring what lenses I’d like to write through, and am currently experimenting between multiple writing styles so I apologise if my works seem to be inconsistent or have gaps! Always open for requests and criticism. I’ve personally never been attached to anyone, been in love with or crushed on anyone before, so sometimes I sort of write in my own way of how I am able to appreciate what I sense and see, sorry if its a little oddball-ish. A little embarrassing when I think of it sometimes heheh

Bts I guess but I listened to a whole christmas playlist writing this because I think christmas songs are what give me most warmth even if I don’t celebrate xmas? (Think jazz, Louis Armstrong, Billie Holiday, Ella Fitzgerald, an occasional sprinkle of Chet Baker.)

 Cold, seemingly bland spaces can be warmed up with the presence of belongings. Belongings that tell a story, or for the matter of fact reveal anything about its owner, that a homeowner may be an adult who values utility, a child that is obsessed with aeroplanes, or a teenager that likes punk music. Today, the rain’s gentle pitter patters and the ensuing cold made it as if you were a cold space in need of light and warmth. The television host of whatever gameshow was playing was so perky you wanted to give her a slap, but it did its job of holding your attention hostage till the centrepiece returned- your dearest Haerin. Just as you think of her, a knock on the walnut door is heard. 

 Her presence was made known with the little shuffles- what you knew as attempts to remove those shoes she complained were too tight. You made a mental note to get her another pair one size bigger. What you didn’t expect, however, was that she came home bare-faced, like she had conquered the day of nosy reporters and blinding camera flashes without any make-up. It was a pleasant change, and you wish it could be that way, she was in her full beauty without makeup, you always thought so, and you genuinely wished that she could do whatever she found comfortable, of course that was not to say that olive-coloured contact lenses, some lip tint amongst other beauty products had no effect of enhancing her beauty. It was just because it was simply a pity the world would never get to appreciate her in her most natural form. No, she was not a black cat, a dancer, singer or a girl group member. In the moments you spend together she is her inquisitive self, a soul deserves happiness, a young maiden that finds beauty in making sense of her surroundings. God even knows what it was that made her chuckle at her own antics sometimes, just like now, with little sounds summoned by her almost tripping over your shoes, the very corner of her pillowy cherry lips threaten to remain high up, and then she does the little thing where she bites one side of her bottom lip, leaving the side out playfully-as if it took the place of a tongue that was supposed to stick out. That’s a part of what makes her so lovely and refreshing.

 You take your time with her, as you always do. How could you not when she looks at you like that? When she looks at you like you’re her whole world. God sure took his time crafting this girl’s features. She melts into your touch as you ready her for her skincare routine by gently brushing her long, dusty ash coloured hair, before tying it together in a neat bun. You think to yourself how everyone else can always be classified as a colour, but Haerin in essence would never be so one dimensional that she simply falls under any one specific colour. She could be a sky blue if she wanted, or maybe a lilac purple, hell, the girl could even be a dark maroon if she desired so. Now she was all ready for bed, and you could not resist tracing your fingers through her features, what she responded with was a curt nod coupled with unmistakably happy orbs, what you’ve deciphered to be simultaneously  a green light and a yes please. 

 You’ve thought for long how exactly to piece together her beauty to Haerin herself in words, the best you can and without thinking you muster up something between nothing and everything, a coughed out ball of adjectives you somehow managed to deliver. You could, as cliche as it sounded, and did in fact exaggerate that you would have a video camera pan in and out of her features, edit it, and have an audience gasp at the entirety of the video, and this is how you envision it goes. You cringe at your idea now, thinking of yourself as a genius no more as you reveal your elementary idea to God’s now dozing off magnum opus. 

 You were sure every glance at her kittenish countenance would be a perpetual wonder for you. Her hair, when tied up, revealed little ears that seemed to perk up excitedly, whether out of shyness when she faced you, or if they maybe wanted to take a peek at you when your eyes weren’t on hers. How her kind, gentle brows seemed so gently slant it allowed your eyes to follow them and slowly move south like a traveller, onto large and curious almond eyes that put other honey coloured eyes to shame, not before taking a gentle descent down the slope of her nose, her shapely soft cheekbones, and perfectly deep dimples that were lethal for any pair of eyes to travel toward. The journey does not end there, of course, your eyes would then take a trip to how the area near the ends of her lip would subtly crease at whatever little observation she had that successfully demanded her attention, and how her puffy cheeks were annoyingly soft. 

 But until you are sure you can express the entirety of your absolute and spontaneous  appreciation for her, you express it through the little things. 

“Night night beautiful.”

“You too.. loveyouy/n”

 Now you pull the sheets over the girl, for your exploration could take place after abundant rest and maybe then you would find something new and equally intriguing on your next. 

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This girl is just so adorable 🥰

[grxngyalt]

Leave Luanne AU - Louisiana

metions of death, SA, abuse and suicide//proceed with caution

@sleepdeprivedsimp234

so @syn-ningsilk mentioned the idea of the states being humans in their past lives and being reincarnated as state personifications, and i had an idea for louisiana.

so, there’s a song called “leave luanne”, that’s about a woman, luanne, staying loyal in an abusive relationship with her husband, who in the song is referred to as “the bastard.”

well, the husband beats and sexually assaults his wife (as stated in the song) and luanne still remains loyal to him, starting to believe the things he tells her.

eventually she gets tires of this constant cycle and attempts to escape, cutting the rope that keeps the husband’s dog inside and then yelling “your dog’s got out!” before running out to the bog.

she then swiftly swims through the swamp near the house, attempting to escape and get back to her house on the golden coast. but, the husband beats her to the end, and then proceeds to drown her and make it look like a suicide.

it states in the song that he feels a little sad about the death of luanne, but nobody really seems to care to grieve her death.

well towards the end of the song, she comes back to haunt the bastard, and he screams about how she came back because nobody ever loved her (which nowclooking back, doesn’t seem entirely wrong~) she constantly yells and wails, becoming a “caution to the cruelest of men” as the song says.

but the sad part is that even in death, she remains loyal to her husband. and that’s also why i feel like this fits loui.

1. the person singing the song is referred to as “the cajun” in the official link for the lyrics.

2. it’s a louisiana ghost story, and you can kinda figure that out just by listening to it. hence the mentions of the setting being near a swamp.

and also, the ghost part would also make sense for him, because he can see ghosts himself and i thought that would fit especially. i also feel like with his connections to magic and spirits, he would vividly remember his past life//have a lot of nightmares about it.

there’s also a specific lyric; “louisiana wants war”, that to me feels like foreshadowing.

[columboscreens]

What's your headcanons for Columbo?

Does he have a wife? Does he have over 10 murderer boyfriends? Etc

part of what makes columbo so fun to watch is that the showrunners essentially wanted you to make headcanons about columbo. much of the intended fun and mystique of the character is thinking about his personal life and what makes him tick.

now as for me, i'm completely nuts, so asking me about my columbo headcanons is like opening pandora's box. it's overwhelming. i have headcanons about what the man wears when he begrudgingly remembers to take out the trash at 11 pm. so i'll try to keep it short with my more sane and general ones:

his name is francesco

his wife is real. it's fun to imagine him single, but the wifeless theory doesn't hold much water. as time went on, the writers made a conscious and overt decision to make columbo's wife a real entity. between private phone calls and cruise trips, it becomes an active effort for one to ignore her presence, despite the fact that you never see her. in fact, they came close to showing her:

my headcanon for them is that they're like most interesting couples: similar in important ways, but complementary. e.g. columbo clawed his way out of high school, she finished postgrad summa cum laude. he's messy, she's clean. he loves gourmet cooking, she burns water. she's a techie, he couldn't hack his way out of a paper bag. she has her series 7 license, he kind of knows what a stock is. etc.

he reads. constantly. even if it's just the newspaper

he's more refined than he lets on. columbo may be a self-proclaimed chili-eating mark twain louis armstrong cream soda kind of guy who confuses HVAC ductwork for art installations, but i think he's someone who cares about the integrity of the things around him. he has taste. he's realistic, he values simplicity, but he's not a rube. he appreciates quality items, good food, good music, and fine traits in people.

he's more introverted than he lets on. he can be garrulous and friendly with strangers, but lots of times we find him silent and/or lost in thought. he largely works alone and we often see him alone off the clock.

his job affects him more than he lets on. i mean kind of a given, right? he's seen it all, but he's still human. aside from being perpetually tired and hungry because he's hyperfixating on his work, i imagine he has some degree of post-traumatic stress. in my head columbo wakes up sometimes in a cold sweat thinking about the girl who jumped off a balcony or the guy strangled to death at the gym

he was a troublemaker as a kid. i love imagining him as an agent of the law born out of his chaotic, delinquent upbringing. i sometimes entertain the theory that he's killed or had someone close to him killed as an impetus for the sheer drive he has for his work. i also think he was definitely the most annoying motherfucker on the block as a kid and his brothers bullied him for it so hard he turned it into a strength

his fashion sense is actually good. more of a gripe i have than a headcanon. it irks me when people diss columbo's fit. young columbo clearly knows how to dress, and stock standard columbo changes subtly throughout the show. but the basics--the tan raincoat, grey/reddish/brown suit, white/creme button-down, dark green tie, brown chukka boots--are very well-coordinated in color and material. they're baggy out of necessity, not sloppiness. he moves around constantly and thus prioritizes comfort in a job and milieu that require a suit and tie in sunny southern california. it makes perfect sense that he'd eschew a sharply tailored worsted wool getup and opt for roomy linen! he dislikes overly tight clothes. which leads me to...

...he's a certified Freak and he gets "weirder" with age as he grows less and less concerned with how he comes off to others--"masking", so to speak. related to this is that the raincoat is his safety blanket, as he's sensitive to textures and levels of pressure/constriction. just look at him trying to think in the Wrong Coat:

he's got a thing for belly dancers:

sometimes he'll swing by the grocery store at 10 pm to pick up something for the wife and when nobody is looking he rides his shopping cart through the store like this

he has a strategy when he goes to buffets. the little old lady in front of him may be piling noodles and rice onto her plate but columbo's got so much steak and shrimp on his that they're about to ask him to leave

[teddysgrahms]

my anderperry playlist and song explanations because I am gay

• Those magic changes by sha na na

One of my favorite songs from grease and also about the night and moment of falling in love and the blissful joy of that moment. The song has an element of angst to it but I look past it. like that is so anderperry I’m sorry? me when I fell in love to those magic changes?

• I melt with you by modern English

this song is about having s3x during a nuclear apocalypse but for my intents and purposes it’s about being with your lover at the end of the world and melting together metaphorically (and physically!) I just think they would die for each other idk

• (Feels like) heaven by fiction factory

the vibes are so excellent in this song + spending time with your lover is heaven in and of itself. they just. really like being together.

• la vie en rose by louis armstrong

this song makes me um explode I imagine them dancing poorly to this in their living room and stepping on each other’s feet and giggling and stumbling over one another and they are the most precious things ever?

• thirteen by big star

this song gives off the vibe of school age crushes and young romance and first love nerves and that’s just so them. it’s literally them your honor

• electric blue by icehouse

i think of this song as neil’s initial feelings for todd, lord of nerves and uncertainty and jitters because wow this boy is cute

• futile devices

a long-lasting love that’s become so natural it’s hard to put into words. I associate this one strongly with todd and how he handles his feelings about neil. sometimes words are not enough, and that is okay

• good old-fashioned lover boy by Queen

Neil is THE good old-fashioned loverboy and I will not hear otherwise. he’d be such a little gentleman and plan cute dates and do everything in his power to make things amazing and even when things aren’t great his effort is duly noted and appreciated

• put your head on my shoulder by Paul anka

I don’t think I need to explain myself. they enjoy a good cuddle. they’re in love. what more must i say

• dream a little dream of me by Doris day

hail Queen Doris Day this song is so adorable just the vibes alone are so anderperry core. like dream of me when you sleep tonight. we could stay up all night but you will see me in your dreams anyhow I love you <3

• i can dream, can’t i? by the andrews sisters

this one is a bit sad because the speaker is convinced they have no chance with their romantic interest. this is very todd core to me. he’d think he has no shot with neil but he can always dream (we are dreaming of tomorrow but tomorrow isn’t coming?)

• my romance by doris day

very neil coded. he doesn’t need anything special he just needs Todd and that’s good enough for him.

• time after time by iron & wine

beautiful cover by an all-time classic. they will always be there for each other, to find one another when they’re lost and catch the other when they fall

• old black train by the blasting company

the vibes are delectable. It feels like running away from home and searching for something unknown, a sort of yearning for a better life than the one you have. I imagine them running away together and being frightful and uncertain yet assured knowing they have each other. (but that lingering sense of “You can’t go back” is ever present and it’s nearly dreadful!)

• dear wormwood by the oh hellos

so. um. if u know me u know I’m a neil kinnie and uh. girlies this song is so him it actually makes me sick. I’ve put some songs in this playlist that are more specific to either Neil or todd individually and this is one of them. the self-discovery. the growth to demand better for yourself and refuse to be treated as less than by a parental figure. so fucking delicious. ugh.

• you’re the one by the vogues

adorable vibes and an overall cute song about loving your partner wholeheartedly. upbeat and catchy. I can imagine them dancing to this one also but in a more upbeat way

• thursday by asobi seksu

ngl this song changed me as a person I think ummm this just gives me todd vibes? something about losing your way, feeling lost and searching for anything to latch onto, holding on to the people closest to you out of fear they may leave at any moment….

• amoeba by clairo

the second todd song. are you a man or an amoeba? damn what if he felt more like an amoeba, like he just goes with how things are and never speaks or acts to how he feels and wants to do things? what if he was barely living?

• the book of love by the magnetic fields

This song makes me INSANE it’s so CUTE they are just so in love and they love each other and hearing the other read or sing or do anything asgghhhurufuh

• satellite by guster

they see each other almost like beacons or lifelines to look to, constants that are safe and reassuring. they are each other’s home.

• im a fool to want you by Frank Sinatra

again that idea of “I have no chance I’m stupid for liking you” but still being unable to change how you feel and just having to live with this heartbreak that has yet to occur

• it only takes a moment from hello, dolly!

Fun fact: this song got me through costume making. this song is in wall-e and aside from being one of the most beautiful songs ever in existence it is SO….I can’t even begin to describe. something about being loved enough for a whole lifetime in only a brief moment….do you think that even though the time neil and todd had together was short it was some of if not the best time of their lives?

• dancing in the moonlight by king harvest

another dancing song! I can see all the poets dancing to this truthfully. very cute song and I just adore the vibes and rhythm

• hopelessly devoted to you by olivia newton-john

this one is a bit dramatic for them but I can see Neil performing this with theatrical effort and intense dramatics

• love me as though there were no tomorrow by nat king cole

euggahhhhhhhhh love me like this is the last chance we’ll ever have……

• earth angel by the penguins

i think they both see each other as like blessings or miracles because their meeting improved both of their lives immensely and may quite possibly have been the best thing to happen to either of them

• you, my love by frank sinatra

i think this one aligns with how Todd feels about neil and how grateful he is to have him in his life. idk man they’re in love

• love letters by nat king cole

can’t remember how this one goes but I know the vibes are good and very them

• when I fall in love by Doris day

This Song is so gorgeous and ggrhehehhhaa I’m gonna break something it’s just so???? they????

• you send me by sam cooke

they both get flustered by how loving the other is and they’re just so damn adorable

• in the still of the night by the five satins

they . they’re in love.

okay that’s all thank youuuu

[eugesounds]

A Saxophonist’s Journey

I have been a full-time musician for most of my adult life. I have not gone more than a few days without playing an instrument of some sort since the summer between my junior and senior years of high school.... and that was...gulp, about 50 years ago.

I am not famous and I am not rich, but I have a lifetime of amazing memories, many fantastic friends and colleagues in the industry, and a long history of great students that I feel very fortunate to have spent time with, and have hopefully helped along on their own musical journeys.

My earliest memories are almost all related to music. My parents had an old RCA Hi-fi in our living room. It was a magical box that would come to life with a warm glow, a comforting hum, and an enticing "electronic" smell. It emitted sounds that made the whole family smile and I was a big fan of all of it. When I was 4 years old I stood in front of that console imitating Louis Armstrong. I even kept my dad's handkerchief in my front pants pocket as a prop. Hello Dolly always brought the house down for the aunts and uncles.

Growing up Italian in NJ, it's only natural that Frank Sinatra's voice became the soundtrack of my childhood. I once asked my mom if we could "turn the volume down" as Sid Mark's radio show "Friday with Frank" blared from the living room at dinner time. She looked me dead in the eye, pointed down at the floor and said "Go eat in the basement". True story, but I digress.

My mom and dad loved to dance, so their record collection was full of great LP’s from the Big Band and swing eras. I would spend hours listening to old 78’s by Benny Goodman, Count Basie, Duke Ellington and others. And if there was someone my father admired slated to be on late-night television, he would wake me up so that we could watch them together.  I can still hear my mom saying "Arnold, just let him sleep!”. Those moments were so very special and they made a huge impact on me.

I was constantly trying to make music on anything I could get my hands on, from pots and pans to toy instruments. I'd tap out melodies on glasses full of water that were left on the table after a holiday dinner, trying to imitate something I saw on Ed Sullivan no doubt. I remember watching a half-time marching band show and then seeking out an old Maxwell House coffee can with a plastic lid to drum along.

I constantly asked my parents for any sort of toy instrument they might find and they provided me with a steady supply of plastic trumpets, small keyboards, slide whistles, and harmonicas. They made the mistake of getting me a snare drum one Christmas, but later came to their senses and allowed me to order a beautiful wooden Hohner recorder with a few leftover books of Green Stamps (look it up kids). By the way, the snare drum is long gone, but I still have the recorder.

There is one event from my childhood that looms larger than any other and accounts for why I chose saxophone as my main instrument when I had the chance. When I was 7 years old my mom sent me to get a haircut at "Uncle Lou's". Lou Cipriano was my godfather and a barber by trade. I'd walk over to his shop that was about a half mile from our house and he'd cut my hair. On this particular occasion I was walking home with a "fresh do" and happened upon what must have been a Memorial Day parade. 

As I made my way closer to the marchers, a magical sound caught my ear. I inched closer to catch a glimpse and stood mesmerized as a line of army veterans wearing period fatigues, complete with the flattish, "dough-boy" helmets, and brown boots laced up to just below the knee, approached. They were playing (what I now know as) curved soprano saxophone and I still get chills remembering that moment. It was as if the Universe was saying "Oh, you like that? Well that's just fine because you will be doing that exact thing for a very long time".

The distinct sound of those horns leapt into my ears and traveled directly to my core. I vividly remember how stunning, interesting, and beautiful I thought the saxophones were, and I knew instinctively that I could play that instrument if given the chance. I'm sure I stood in awe for many minutes until the men passed out of earshot. But that sound, on that day, has stayed with me my whole life.

A few years later my family moved from New Jersey to Massachusetts and the public school there had a robust music program. So mom, dad and I visited Robinson's Music on a Saturday morning to pick out an instrument. Mr Robinson pointed out the trumpets, clarinets, French horns and his favorite "The slide

trombone!". But there was not a chance in hell that I was leaving the store, on that day, without a saxophone.

I had wonderful teachers and mentors along the way and I enjoyed my time in concert band, marching band, and jazz band. They are some of my most cherished musical memories and I remain in touch with many buddies from those days, some of whom still make music an integral part of their lives. That's a huge testament to our teachers who encouraged us at every level.

As I mentioned up front, there was a short time between my junior and senior year of high school that I just put the horn down and was unsure if I wanted to play any more. But who was I kidding? My academics were woeful (I still don't get math) and music was one constant in my life. I distinctly remember my dad taking me aside that summer and saying "You want to quit? It's up to you. But God gave you a gift." And that really struck a chord with me as I was reminded of those soldiers marching by all those years ago.

I decided to attend the Hartt School of Music at the University of Hartford where I received a Bachelor’s degree in Music Education. I never desired to teach in a school system and instead opted to teach privately and pursue a playing career. You've probably never heard of me and that's fine. I have a wonderful studio full of students and get to play with a bunch of great musicians in and around the Dallas area where I make my home. 

With all of the distractions available today, I am happy to report that people of all ages still have the desire to learn saxophone, often after experiencing a musical moment like the one I had. I have a small YouTube channel where I post videos about once a week. I don't edit or add any special effects and almost every one was done in “one-take” so you’ll hear some goof ups now and again. I simply try to present that same, pure sound that I heard when I was 7 years old outside of Uncle Lou's barber shop, with the hope that I might encourage folks on their own musical  journey. 

[felixcloud6288]

Fullmetal Alchemist Chapter 96

I absolutely love how that one guy threw a rock at one of the Mannequin soldiers and another soldier is stomping on one.

Another of the High Command meets his end, and now we know where that door in the President's office leads.

At this point I did a mental checklist over all the people in high command to check what their statuses are, and I realized something:

There are actually EIGHT members, not including the Fuhrer, in Central Command and one of them just vanishes from the story.

Here's a panel of Roy being brought into their meeting room in chapter 50 and a panel of Major General Armstrong in chapter 74.

Notice how there are clearly seven people here. The only person absent in both is Major General Raven. Raven brought Roy into the room in the first panel, and Olivier is there to replace him in the second.

This panel from chapter 87 is the only one I could find with our mystery scumbag's face.

But once the fighting starts, he just vanishes from the story. We get no reports or scenes indicating the man was killed or captured.

I want to know how strong these guys were that they were able to force Sloth to a near stop with that chain.

They should all have dislocated their arms on impact.

But now let's talk about the Philosophical themes around Sloth. Sloth as an aspect is not just simple laziness, but also a disinterest in improving, performing to the best of your ability, or simply not caring to act.

Sloth dug out a giant transmutation circle over several centuries, and he did this because he was too lazy to argue against doing so. So Sloth's nature made him just accept the poor conditions he was stuck in. And he follows orders simply because he's too lazy to argue.

Now who were his opponents? The Armstrongs, the Curtises, and over a dozen Central soldiers. Olivier Mira Armstrong's characterization could be seen as an entire antithesis to sloth. She takes command of the situation and acts directly on the front line while taking responsibility for her and her subordinates' actions. She does not sit in the background while her soldiers risk their lives and then make excuses for their deaths. In fact, she has killed several of Central's top brass for doing exactly that.

Meanwhile Alex Louis Armstrong had his own sense of sloth he's dealt with through the whole series. He knew the Ishbal campaign was wrong, but he chose to do nothing. Instead, he abandoned his duty (In this case, his true duty of fighting against the injustice of it) and has lived in shame since. His sister did not let him forget, but she made sure to pave the way so he could have a second chance to do what is right.

And Izumi and Sig chose to be here. They don't have any obligations to join the fight. No one would blame them if they chose to ignore all this and just continue their traveling.

And the soldiers could just say they were following orders and use that as an excuse to justify their actions, but Olivier demanded they act in the way they thought they should and they not only decided to ally with her, but they also managed to figure out how to adapt to the situation.

Sloth was defeated by a force that chose against apathy, and that force was led by someone who refuses to let anyone be less than exemplary.

So that's one more major plot thread concluded.

I'm going to start talking a lot more, so here's a panel of Alex and Sig being best friends to break the pacing a little. Sig should have taken his shirt off during the fight.

And now we have Hohenheim vs Father, which we haven't seen anything of since chapter 91. This is the only plot thread that was poorly paced in all of them. That is to say, we never saw anything about it during everything else. Foo's search for Greed has similarly not had any updates in a long while, but there also haven't been any major developments so there's no need to keep us updated on it.

Just for a comparison, the anime moved Hohenheim meeting Father to the equivalent of the end of last chapter. The general assumption that I make, and which I think is fair to make, is that different scenes tend to happen in chronological order to each other. And if we have one scene and then cut to another scene, the second scene happens either at the same time or after the first one.

So Hohenheim meeting Father in chapter 91 implies he met Father at the same time Al began fighting Pride and Kimblee, Envy regained its body and started fighting May, and Sloth attacked Olivier.

The anime moving Hohenheim's initial meeting with Father to where it did changes the timing implication to make us assume Hohenheim was approaching Father's lair during all that, and he only just reached it just before Sloth's death.

There's a ladder in the little room Hohenheim made. So he carved out the space, made a ladder, climbed down the ladder, and then created the door.

Hohenheim, the Philosopher from the West who taught the Eastern nation of Xing Alchemy, attacked with stone pillars that look like Eastern dragons.

Father, the Philosopher from the East who taught the Western nation of Amestris Alchemy, attacked with stone pillars that look like Western dragons.

Hohenheim's design is also more intricately detailed than Father's.

Hohenheim definitely hit the mark when he told Father he wanted a family. Maybe a long time ago, Father tried to emulate having an actual family bond with his children, but like everything else, he wasn't willing to put the actual effort into actually understanding how.

And since he's unwilling to learn what it means to be a parent, nor what it means to share a bond with someone, what hope would the others have. No wonder they're all so messed up when it comes to their feelings about human attachment.

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[lavender-long-stories]

For the ask game:

5. What’s a fic idea you’ve had that you will never write?

11. Do you have specific playlists for writing fics?

27. Is there a fic you were nervous to post/share? Why?

5. What’s a fic idea you’ve had that you will never write?

I have some Abandon WIP Posts here on Tumblr, but one of those is even in the works to be made, possibly because people like it so much. Honestly, I don't think that there is anything that goes on my list that gets completely scratched out in my log book.

11. Do you have specific playlists for writing fics?

No, not really. I don't really keep playlists. I have one big one on YouTube that has all the songs I have ever liked and wanted to remember existed, and that is it.

I am the type of person who picks one song and listens to it on repeat for days. I listen to a lot of 1950s-60s jazz (Ella Fitzgerald, Louis Armstrong, The Chords, and just about anything that has ever been included in a Fallout game) or PMJ jazz versions of songs.

If I find that my brain just isn't having it with music with words in it, I listen to just about anything by Oneul, a cute instrumental composer who makes royalty-free music.

27. Is there a fic you were nervous to post/share? Why?

Hmm.

I don't think I have ever been nervous to post something.

I can remember a time were I felt nervous to post something, in the sense that I was scared of how it would be received or anything like that.

I used to get anxious when I posted something new, but it was like 'I am excited, let me show you this thing!' anxious, not 'I am scared' anxious.

I don't have that anymore. I have posted so much I forget that I posted something new that day an hour later.

This is for the Bored Ask Game

[the-official-account]

Spoons low time for Vellum playlist thoughts

This might be hard because I love Anya and Spar on a "I want to pin you to a table and direct you like a bug" kind of way, but I like vellum in a "I want to attend you lecture series and day dream about asking you out to coffee but I'm too intimidated to" kind of way, like emotionally yk?

We've gone super in depth about Spar's relationships because of the show being set in cloven heart, and it's amazing! On the contrary, a lot of Vellum's big interpersonal beats (that aren't with spar) are being hunted at but haven't taken center stage yet. So I have vibes for him but like I gotta understand what he's packing before I attempt a full dissection, if that makes sense.

The challenge is that Vellum, besides being an actual composer just has suuuuuuuch classical music vibes. I don't know that much classical music. I'm also being drawn towards Motown and Fitzgerald? Though Motown is 60s.

Anyways I have a few albums in mind:

Prelude to cora by ambrose akinmusire

Where the river goes by Wolfgang muthspeil

Can't we be friends? By Ella Fitzgerald and Louis armstrong

Bleed out by the mountain goats (??? I don't know. I'll see)

Another blue by cross legged

New long leg by dry cleaning

Look up by the altogether

I also need to go through my yearning playlists (yes plural. We're queer and I have a fuck ton of playlists) also Fleet foxes albums we're not familiar with, Motown hits cause we don't know the studio well. I'm looking for crooning and trying to avoid the pop-y feel like the plague. Pop is great. It's just not Vellum. He feels like a well placed accidental sounds.

But like. Vellum is strange, because he FEELS like a yearner but like...evolved. he feels like a man who's yearned and missed his shot (maybe it's his history with magic giving me this vibe) and has gotten used to saying "fuck it" in responce. And like. Feels like the kind of person who, maybe like Spar but in a...in a different way, would take a rejection and avoidance "in stride" as in "this deeply affects me but I respect you enough to continue to act like things are chill and normal and chill" (some of this has happened. Low spoons & low memory accesses means I can't cite my sources as well rn) but for Spar and Vellum normal looks very different. Spar's normal is energetic, and so when that's being faked it feels fundamentally different than Vellum's purposefully maintained normal which I would call not faked but forced? Anyways the distinction is crucial to the vibes of the instrumentation, cause Spar can have super upbeat bops with lyrics that are more serious, but I feel like Vellum's song are gonna be more emotionally congestive instead of presenting a contrast, and also mellow in a groovy way but not funky way.